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number1mingyustan · 1 year ago

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Expiration Date (2/2) ☾✹

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artist!joshua x model!fem!reader

Genre: smut, hurt, angst

Warnings: cursing, brief smut, explicit smut, mentions of pregnancy/miscarriage, arguments, a lot of angsty sad stuff

Summary: there’s only one way to go from here

Word Count: 4.1k

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part 1

Out of the 206 bones in your body, you don't have a doubtful one that believes Joshua Hong is not your soulmate. Everything in you believes you were meant to be together.

You'd bet money that it was written somewhere in the stars.

He loved you and you loved him.

When you first met, everything fell into place with him so easily. He was kind and caring and things were simple with him. He would never shy away from compliments, often painting you because he thought you were so beautiful.

His muse.

It wasn't until he started painting you that his career really began to take off. His previous work was less abstract and interpretive, often capturing different colors and shapes. He never painted people, but of course that all changed when you came around.

His work was known before you, but his popularity skyrocketed, gaining worldwide attention and giving him much more credit within the art world.

You became a large part of his art. He's often mix different shapes and colors with your features. Your eyes, your breasts, your legs, everything he found beautiful about you really.

It gained a lot of attention and people grew curious to know who the mystery woman that appeared in all his new art was. Much like Joshua himself, they too thought she was beautiful.

But that was then. When your relationships still made you feel like you were floating and the honeymoon phase felt like it would never end.

You and Joshua Hong were meant to be part of each other's lives, you don't question that. However, you do question how long you were meant to be together.

---------------Two Years Ago ---------------

"I'm just so glad you guys were able to come down here and visit," Mrs.Hong says for the fourth time since the two of you arrived in LA.

You smile at her excitement.

"I hardly hear from my son since he moved all the way up to New York," she continues, shooting her son a glare.

Joshua rolls his eyes playfully. "I call you every week. Don't be so dramatic."

"It's not the same," she frowns. "I like having you here with me."

"Yeah well I've been busy with my art and everything," he sighs, pulling you closer to his side. His hand is on yours, thumb drawing small circles on your knuckles.

You lean into his touch, breathing in his natural scent. He's so warm and comforting. "Yes... extremely busy," you pout. "He does so much nowadays I can't even keep up with it all. All kinds of projects and interviews, don't know how he does it."

He smiles at you. "I've got the best support backing me up," he pats your head lightly. "With you by my side, I can handle anything."

He opens his mouth to speak again, but he's interrupted by the ringing of his phone.

"Oh- one second. Angel is calling," He excuses himself from the table and exits to take his phone call.

Angelina Yoon, his manager. You absolutely despised her. She was a great manager, you give her credit for that. She's incredibly smart and good at her job, but on a personal level? Couldn't stand her.

You didn't like the way she talked to you or the way she talked to Joshua. She flirted often and acted rudely toward you. Of course any time you brought it up to Joshua, he brushed it off. He'd tell you 'you're being dramatic' or 'she's just doing her job.'

Fucking Angel.

Not a very fitting name for her.

"Soooo where's the ring?" His mother asks, grabbing your hand and inspecting your fingers.

"Ring?" you ask.

"He hasn't asked yet?" she raises an eyebrow.

"I'm not sure what you're talking about."

"Aishh this boy," she sighs. "Four years and he still hasn't popped the question."

You retreat, pulling your hand back slowly and pushing your hair behind your ear. "Oh yeah... I mean it's fine. He works so much you know? I think he's just waiting for a better time.... did he mention anything to you about it? L-Like is he planning something?"

"No, I'm afraid not. If he is planning for it, he hasn't told me about it yet at least. I just assumed after all this time he would have done it already. I'll have to talk some sense into that boy," she scoffs.

Your heart breaks a little, but you don't let it show. It's already been a few months since it was first brought up. It was in a similar manner, his mother had brought it up in conversation months prior and put ideas into your head. But that time, Joshua was sitting at the table and he didn't seem too keen on the way his mother had suggested it.

You asked him about it that night and he explained to you how it wasn't the right time with his career taking off. It hurt, but you were understanding. It was something you strayed away from even bringing up.

It stung though.

When Joshua's art first started to gain popularity, Angel suggested keeping your relationship and identity a secret. No one knew who you were, they just thought you were pretty and that Joshua captured your beauty perfectly.

It would create more buzz for him to be capturing some sort of mystery woman. Angel talked about how much it would help his career to keep you in the shadows and him in the light. So you did it.

For nearly the first three years of your relationship, you were a secret. A mystery, a pretty face on a canvas with no name, a nobody. It wasn't easy, having to sneak around and keep your entire life private.

Part of you thinks you lost yourself in those first three years, but that's an entirely different issue.

Thankfully, after you did finally go public with things, the modeling agencies came flooding in and you were in high demand.

"Don't worry about it... I don't want to put any more pressure on him," you give her a half-smile.

She feels for you. "You're too nice sweetheart."

Before anything else can be said, Joshua walks back into the kitchen with an excited smile. You and his mother both look at him as he sits back down.

"So.. Angel just told me there's a huge art exhibit coming up in Sydney, Australia and their main exhibit just fell through so they want me to replace them," he beams.

"That's so great Joshie!" you smile and hug him. "I'm proud of you."

"Thanks honey, they want me to do all new pieces though, and they need me in Australia in two days. The exhibit is in three weeks," he explains.

"But we're supposed to stay down here for another week... and then we have our trip planned for Aruba. Josh... the whole point of this trip was so that we could spend our time together and with family. I cleared my schedule for this Joshua." you sigh. "Besides how are you gonna put together a whole exhibit's worth of pieces in two weeks."

"I know baby... but this is important work stuff. You understand, right? We can always plan another trip, but this is a big opportunity for me. My work would be extending all the way into Australia," he places his hand on your shoulder. "Besides I'll probably just use those sketches I've been working on"

"I mean yeah... it's really great Josh, for you. What about me? I cleared my entire schedule for this," you frown.

"I know baby, I'm sorry. I'm sure we can just book two tickets and you can come with me if you want," he suggests.

"I think I'd rather we just go home. You'll be working a whole bunch in Australia anyway," you bite the inside of your cheek.

"There's no time to go back to New York honey. They want me out there in two days. If you want me to book you a flight home, I can do that if you really wanna go back, but I can't go with you. I'm gonna have to leave straight from here. I was hoping you'd come with me."

You frown. "I don't really want to fly alone."

"I mean, you can stay here with mom, until I get back of course. I won't object to it, but I've got to book my flight in the next few hours. So just let me know ASAP," he leaves a quick kiss on your head and stands back up.

"Sorry ma, I'll come visit soon," he hugs his mother and kisses her cheek. "I promise... love you"

His footsteps grown faint as he makes his way upstairs for the night. Your heart breaks a little more. His mother glances at you, she really feels for you.

"I'm getting tired... think I'll go join him," you tell her with a sad smile. "Thank you so much for dinner, I appreciate it."

You give her a light hug before disappearing into the bedroom with Joshua.

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He got you pregnant that night. He was much more excited than you were, he couldn't keep his hands off of you. Pulled you onto his lap not long after you walked into the room.

He was quick to strip you and pin you down onto the bed. You were still upset, but the pleasure was a temporary fix for the pain.

Sweaty and passionate lovemaking between the thin sheets of the old bed. His hands were all over you that night. You let the pleasure consume you, allowed it to pull you away from reality.

He told you how much he loved you as he drilled his cock inside of you, even had to cover your mouth with his hand to keep you from being too loud. He whispered dirty words and sweet nothings into your ear and left purple hickies along your skin. He pounded into you over and over again that night, switching positions halfway through.

The bed was old, creaked and shifted every time he thrusted his hips into you. You came twice, once on his fingers and once on his cock.

And when he came, he came inside of you. It wasn't unusual for him to do so, but for some reason your birth control wasn't very effective that time.

You wouldn't know it that night, but you realize that was the best and worse night of your life.

Because as quickly as it came, it went.

You stayed with his mom in LA for the next month while he was in Australia. He didn't call you every day the way he said he would, but that wasn't the least bit shocking. He ended up having to stay another week after the showcase to meet with different people about his work.

While he was sitting in meetings and being interviewed, you were pacing around the bathroom anxiously awaiting the results of the pregnancy test sitting on the edge of the sink.

You didn't tell him until you went back home to New York. You ended up flying alone anyway, Joshua thought it was pointless to fly to LA and then New York when both of you could just go to New York and see each other at home.

He was beyond excited when you did tell him and foolishly got your hopes up about what the baby would mean for the two of you. You'd convinced yourself that having the baby would make Joshua more involved. You thought his excitement would translate into him being more present.

But then you lost the baby two months later and it caused you two to drift more. The doctors told you it was a miracle you were even able to conceive in the first place. They said you were basically infertile and if you were ever able to somehow conceive again, the fetus wouldn't even make it through the first trimester. You fell into a depressive episode, making reckless decisions driven by hurt and pain.

You had to quit modeling and be admitted. The next 9 weeks you got treated and you got better. Although things got better, you'd never say they reached the level of good.

Better is simply and improvement, not necessarily success.

Joshua never saw it that way. He didn't see the way you were still hurting and suffering. He thought you getting treatment and getting better meant that everything was okay. He thought that because you saw a therapist twice a week, that you would just be okay. Because you took two small pills every morning, he thought you were no longer suffering.

It's your own fault partially, you played the role. You hid your hurt well, contributed to his thoughts about you being fine. At first, it seemed like he cared a lot more. But with him constantly asking "Are you Okay?" it was easier for you to just say yes. It was easier for him to believe it too. He threw himself back into his art and didn't put in the extra effort to ensure the well-being of your mental health after that.

It took two years and a very heated argument for him to really see it.

---------------Modern Day ---------------

The bed is empty when you wake up in the morning. It's not a foreign feeling, unfortunately. But with everything that occurred last night, it feels worse than usual.

You're not sure where your relationship stands right now. There's a tightness constricting in your chest and you're dreading the idea of getting out of bed.

After nearly ten minutes of you rolling around in the bed and avoiding it, you finally got yourself out of the bed. You wince when your foot first meet the bedroom floor. A reminder of everything that occurred last night.

After you go into the bathroom to brush your teeth and wash your face, you walk cautiously and quietly through the penthouse. The temperature dropped again and the marble floors are cold on your bare feet.

When you reach the living room, you don't see Joshua anywhere. His blanket and pillow are still on the couch, but you don't see him anywhere.

You let out a breath of relief. You're really not ready to speak with him yet.

You walk into the kitchen, seeing that the glass is still shattered on the ground. You reach down, picking up some of the larger shards.

"Don't worry about it, I'll clean it up," Joshua says from behind you.

You jump at the sound of his voice. You weren't expecting him to come up behind you and startle you. However, you remain silent.

"You need to take your meds, it's past 11. You were asleep for a while," he says and begins picking up the other large shards of glass.

You stand to your feet and nod. You don't look at him, you can't. You simply walk around the island and open on of the cabinets to grab your medicine.

"You have been taking your meds everyday, right?" he asks.

It feels even colder in the kitchen suddenly. The tension in the air hasn't subsided. If anything, it's grown thicker.

"Yes Josh," you say.

Even after all those nights of sleeping alone, Joshua greeted you with a good morning and a kiss. At the very least you could expect some sort of greeting.

But now? Nothing.

"Don't forget to eat something," he reminds you quietly.

You nod. "Right."

You pop a slice of bread into the toaster and wait. It only takes two minutes, but it feels like an eternity. Joshua grabs the dustpan and broom to sweet up the glass.

It's uncomfortable quiet. Your stomach is turning in knots and your leg is bouncing anxiously.

"Where did you just come from? I didn't know where you were," you finally break the unbearable silence.

"On the balcony, needed some fresh air," he says, continuing to sweep up the remaining glass.

"It's thirty degrees outside."

He shrugs, disposing of the glass properly. "Just needed some fresh air. It's not much warmer in here anyway, damn thermostat is broken."

He avoids eye contact with you, stepping away from the kitchen quietly. Your heart rate spikes.

"Joshua..." you start. "We have to talk about-"

You're cut off when your toast pops up.

"Your breakfast is ready," he says shortly and fully leaves the kitchen.

Your eyes follow him. He walks back into the living room, grabbing the blanket he slept under and folding it back up. His footsteps fade as he disappears into the penthouse toward your bedroom.

You sigh and take a few bites out of your toast. You don't have much of an appetite with the way your stomach is churning. You chase the two small pills with a sip of water before walking toward your bedroom.

When you step into the room, Joshua is already in there making up your bed. He's cleaning to distract himself, to avoid you.

" 'Shua," You say quietly, leaning against the door frame.

"Wait," he continues folding the blankets on your bed. "I'm doing something right now."

" 'Shua," you say a little louder.

"Did you wash your dishes? I know you used a glass for the water," he asks.

"Joshua." You say firmly.

He sighs, giving up and sitting down on the bed. He runs his hands from his face up to his hair. You sit down on the bed next to him. In reality it's only a few moments, but it feels like an eternity of silence.

"I'm sorry," he starts.

"Don't apologize... we both said some hurtful, but truthful things last night," you bite the inside of your cheek.

A beat.

"You were right... I did give up on us a long time ago. But it wasn't unprompted, and I want you to understand that. I gave up before you could."

"What?" he asks, turning his head to look at you.

"You work so much... and so hard. I had no idea artists did so much until I met you, but your work has always been your priority. I love that you're passionate about your art, but you'll always put your work before me."

"That's not true," he defends.

"It is."

A beat.

You and Joshua Hong were meant to be, not meant to last. You shared your best and worst moments with him. You spent nearly 6 years creating unforgettable memories and sharing experiences you hold dear to your heart.

Your love was like a candle, it was once lit and burned with fiery passion. But it eventually burned out and faded into nothing but melted wax.

Fire may be pretty to look at, but touch it and you get burned.

"But I love you,"

"You don't.... not anymore"

"Don't try to tell me how I feel."

"Josh-"

"I don't know what it is you're trying to get at or do here, but it's fucked up. If this is you're way of trying to make excuses for falling out of love with me or something, then that’s just wrong Y/n.”

"Joshua! This relationship is not the way it was five years ago and you know it. You couldn't even thank me in your speech last night."

"You told me you were over that. I told you tha-"

"Stop cutting me off and let me speak!" you shout. "You forgot to thank me in your speech while I was standing in front of you with a painting of me displayed in my background. I have become an afterthought in your life and not a priority anymore. You managed to forget about me while looking directly at me... and a painting you did of me. If you loved me, if you really loved me, I would have been the first person you thanked. I wouldn't have slipped your mind Joshua. It may have been a mistake, but it told me everything I needed to know."

He frowns.

"You think you still love me because you love the idea of me. You-you love the way I look on a canvas and in exhibits. You love that even after 5 years of painting me, it still makes you money. But those fucking paintings don't have feelings he way I do," your eyes start to water. "You love the way Angel validates your artwork of me and is constantly working to get your work out there. You would never forget to thank Angel, because she's not just an idea or an afterthought to you. She gets you what you want and I just... don't."

"Oh my gosh how many times do I need to prove to you that I'm not fucking Angel?" he groans and stands up.

"Are you seriously still not listening to me? Not once did I accuse you of fucking her, and that's all you took away?! Fuck's sake Joshua!" You exclaim and stand to your feet. "I'm done."

"What do you mean 'you're done?'"

"It means... I can't do this anymore."

"So what... that's it? You wanna break up because of an argument?"

"IT IS NOT JUST AN ARGUMENT!" You scream. "I don't know how many ways there are for me to say it. I am exhausted, mentally, physically, emotionally. Last night... you said you weren't the only one who lost the baby. But when was the last time I modeled Joshua? I didn't get that chance to just jump back into my work after the loss. I'm sure it affected you, it was a horrible thing to go through, but I didn't just throw myself back into my work and move on. I am still struggling every day and you don't love me anymore. I have no reason to stay here with you."

The truth is... Joshua knows exactly what you're saying. For the first time, he's really really listening to you. He knows what you're saying is true, but he's having a hard time accepting it.

Joshua has never been good with criticism, being an artist and all.

The room is silent aside from you sniffling as you wipe away your tears. Joshua feels the knots twisting in his stomach and it's making him feel uneasy.

“I’m sorry… I know I should just accept it but I can’t. I’m hearing you, I really am. I just don’t want to let go… I won’t just throw away the last five years between us.”

“We can’t keep doing this Josh… holding onto nothing. There’s nothing that could really fix us at this point.”

“We could do therapy..” he suggests.

“Pay $200 a week just to have someone tell us what we already know? C’mon Josh, you know you don’t have the time for that.”

“I’d make the time.”

“You haven’t for the last few years… let’s not kid ourselves”

“So… you just wanna give up? You don’t want to try anymore?”

“I have been trying Josh. But it’s exhausting and there’s no point if there’s nothing worth holding onto anymore.”

“So… you don’t love me anymore either?”

“What?”

“You don’t love me anymore, do you? It’s not just me, right?”

“Yeah Josh, it’s mutual.”

His heart aches when you say it. The words leave a bitter aftertaste on your tongue.

"Okay," he says finally.

"Okay what?" You sniffle.

“Okay then… we’re done. There’s no point in staying together anymore.”

He runs the palms of his hands from his face to his hair and inhales.

“I hate that is had to come to this,” you say quietly.

“Yeah… me too” his voice breaks. “I can be out of here by tonight… you can keep the penthouse.”

“I couldn’t afford to live here on my own anyway, I’ll probably just uh- go back with my parents” You sniffle.

“You don’t-“

“It’s better that way, really.”

Silence fills the room. There’s so much to process. You really just ended things with the love of your life, your soulmate, your Joshie.

He sits on the floor with his back against the bed. He tilts his head back and sighs. You join him, sitting in an identical position next to him.

It doesn’t even feel real yet.

You’ve spent the last 5 years by his side with your mind filled with thoughts of how your story would unfold.

The aching in your heart hasn’t stopped, but you know this is for the best. It was long overdue, past the expiration date.

Much like a carton of milk, you can only drink it until it expires. Once it expires, it's no longer good and there's no way of restoring it to the way it used to be.

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#seventeen smut #seventeen #seventeen fanfic #seventeen angst #joshua hong #joshua x reader #seventeen joshua #joshua seventeen #svt joshua #joshua svt #joshua smut #joshua angst #kpop

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acotarfrustrations · 1 year ago

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An ongoing list of ACOWAR grievances I'm keeping track of while I read (because there's too many to make a post about all of them) pt. 2

I'm on chapter 15 now and feeling the urge to complain again so here we go

1) the writing is way too overdramaticized. Like every other paragraph is some remixed version of feyre going "I wondered whether it would be eggs or bacon for breakfast. But when I looked at Rhys I realized that he was giving me my own choice. My mate, my high lord. In our home. With our family. Every thing was always my choice" and its CONSTANT, LIKE OH MY GOD GIRL SHUT UP

2) every thing about Lucien's plotlineand the elain mating thing. I HATE this subplot with a PASSION

3) feyre immediately fucking rhys when she got back instead of going to see her sisters

4) feyre and rhysand acting like they've ben separated for forty centuries instead of a month

5) the contradictions about how the high lord thing works. Like it was established that its a government position given to you through basically fate and being chosen by the cauldron or whatever which is why siblings kill each other for a chance for the throne and yet they just went to a priestess and swore feyre in as high lady?? It makes her title not feel real like it's purely ceremonial. It doesn't even make sense that she would be able to be HL of the night court as she has no more ties to that court than she does any other court. Is it because she's mated to Rhys? I don't understand the HL lord at all, it just keeps changing

6) the fact that Feyre, Rhys, and Cassian tell Lucien about their tragic backstories and everything that's happened to feyre at the NC and he just immediately does a Feyre™️. Like he's suddenly "Oh yeah you had a horrible childhood and took feyre into your found family without letting her explore relationships outside of the IC, that totally makes up for all the evil shit THAT IVE SEEN YOU DO WITH MY OWN 2 EYES. wow i cant believe youre not evil even though you killed 50 winter court children and sexually assaulted your mate and mind raped her constantly to get her to like you"

7) the way they're treating Nesta. It has been a MONTH since she was stolen from her home, brought amongst a race that she is terrified of and THAT ENSLAVED HER PEOPLE, and was forcefully turned into ONE OF THEM and the IC is acting like she's being unreasonable for not wanting to talk to them or to mate with Cassian. WHY THE HELL WOULD SHE EVEN BE THINKING ABOUT CASSIAN RIGHT NOW?? WHY THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL BAD FOR HIM? Instead of him worrying about how his mate is doing regardless of his own comfort he's like WOE IS ME, SHE DOESNT WANT TO FUCK ME?????? GET OVER IT ASSHOLE?? WHY IS FEYRE EVEN LETTING CASSIAN COME NEAR HER AND ANTAGONIZE HER?? DOESNT SHE LOVE TO FLAUNT HER HL STATUS AROUND?? THIS IS THE TIME TO USE IT, PROTECT YOUR GODDAMN SISTER FROM HIM? ITS SO OBVIOUS THAT SHE DOESNT GIVE NEARLY AS MUCH OF A SHIT ABOUT NESTA AS SHE DOES ELAIN!!

8) the fact that sjm didn't keep cassian's wings shredded. Him learning to live with that would have been a badass character development but now sjm doesn't want me to have good things

9) the mating bond in general. I think it could be a potentially good plot device but no one ever employs it well and sjm is definitely the most egregious with it

10) the fact that the ic never gave consequences for their fucking actions. Feyre dies in acotar? Turn her into a fey and give her ALL of their powers. Stealing a precious artifact that they didn't even end up needing and getting a bounty on their head in the summer court and then getting that court invaded? That's fine because feyre is SOOO brave and says things that are common fucking sense which makes her SOOOO smart so we obviously need her as an ally so we'll just rescind the blood rubies. Getting the spring court sacked? That's fine we didn't like them anyway. Rhys and feyre's bond gets snapped? Well they didn't know about our super secret mating bond that is actually the only thing that gives our characters chemistry so we still like each other. Rhys causes irreparable damage to every court for 50 years and kills 50 kids? Well that's fine he was being held hostage and hey! We don't know he actually killed those kids 😡 Feyre, a 20 year old girl who's been fae for like 6 months and training for even less goes up against thousands of years old beings? She beats them effortlesslessly! Rhys gets sexually assaulted for 50 years! Well he planned all of it so it has no negative consequences on him. Cassian gets his wings shredded? Well he worked really hard and they're fixed now 🥰. Rhys FUCKING DIES?? Well that's no problem, tamlin can just resurrect him, nvm the fact that there's no reason why he WOULD. like no harrowing situation is ever interesting cause we all know sjm isn't actually going to do anything to the ic

11) "my mate" STOP SAYING IT PLS IM BEGGING

12) "males and females" STOP SAYING IT PLS IM BEGGING pt. 2

#anti acowar #anti sjm #anti acotar #anti rhysand #anti feysand #anti sarah j maas #anti ic #anti acomaf #anti inner circle

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jewishdainix · 4 months ago

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My thoughts on paris the musical 💛 (spoilers!)

Stuff I liked:

The characterization!

When it comes to illiad interpitations I don't usually like it when Helen falls in love with Paris - here it works and its in large part of the characterization. Helen is aware and smart and contenplative. She isn't made into a "Strong Female Character" but neither is she made the dumb pretty face. And paris is a fool! She calls him a fool! They are still in love with eachother. Like I can't explain how well the creators managed to balance these traits that should contradict eachother! But they work so well in this.

Menelaus regreting going after helen and seeking revenge when he sees she loved paris. It did the characters and how they were presented well.

Another thing is helen being a "human counterpart" of aphrodite. Chilling.

I have to write a part about achilles and patroclus's characterizations. They are not what I expected, but I fell abseloutly in love with them! Achilles being cocky, patroclus being loud (WHOS SHOUTING?) just sitting at the side draped on eachother making comments. It was incredible. It makes the closer momente between them, like patroclus telling achilles he knows about the child inside him BECAUSE HE WAS THERE WHEN ACHILLES WAS JUST A CHILD, BECAUSE HE WAS A CHILD WITH HIM, hit so hard and be so fascinating. Same with when patroclus is talkign to agamemnon.

Cassandra. Enough said.

The music!

So fucking good. I love rock operas so much. I did have a bit of a hard time adjusting to the sound, since I don't listen to music from that time period much, like. At all. And there were dome songs I had to skip but it was soooo good. So fucking good.

PARIS, YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER. Just. Fucking everything about cassandra. I swear my thoughts are more coherent than this. I swear. Cassandra's parts are sooo briliant. I can't even put those thoughts down. Its so good. Honestly listen to paris the musical if only for cassandra. Fucking hell she and her music are incredible.

Ulysses's small part in 'oh paris' was another thing I'm in love with. I love how it shows his cunning and her warning. It proves her right and I don't think they even talk to eachother in that song but it still manages to paint a dynamic/contrust between them. Fucking incredible.

Most parts about ulysses. Seaks peace and security lonely his road to achieve them . What if I commited murder

The song where the trojans were calling paros a a slut. That was so funny

Hell or high water. I will cry

Stuff I didn't like:

This mudical feels like it has a lot of loose ends with the themes it presents. Like, I really like the theme presented in "a head without a heart" of the importance of both athena and aphrodite . It was mentioned later by ulysses (another cassandra ulysses connection :D!!!) but it was such an interesting idea especially with how it relates to paris.

I wish they explored more all they set up in "charole". It was such a good opening song and I wish its themes appeared more throughout the musical.

I really don't like "love has power". Like as a theme its good but giving it to hector was a fucking waste. He did not deserve this theme, he did not show anything related to it. And furthermore I didn't like how the song sounded.

Adding it back in the finale was ok, but the fact that it was first sung by hector makes it feel so unconnected and weak.

I wish the musical was longer, so itd allow for ecploring the characters more thougrowly. And the music is very good, so it wouldnt hurt to have more songs. I wanted to know the characters better. It should have been longer.

Closing thoughts:

Please listen to this musical!! It is so worth your time and it is so awsome.

#paris the musical #greek mythology #the illiad

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hacked-by-jake · 6 months ago

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Spoiler~~~~~~ Spoiler~~~~~ Spoiler

So, Can we know how you felt about the "side story" ending 👀👀👀

You can absolutely know that I was soooooo incredibly breathless!!!! That was absolutely a needed ending! And to be honest, I wasn't expecting that. I wasn't expecting they would put it there this clear. I thought the chat with ash was the little part for episode 1 and then they pulled this out and I absolutely freaked out completely.

I was absolutely stunned and I run around like a maniac because I couldn't believe it and I was soooo thrilled and wahhhhhhh.

You can get me with him. It's the truth. I'm a simply person.

Besides, I saw more Everbyte in this part. Not because of him, not because of the style we're used to due to duskwood. Because it was made with so much creativity and so smart.

I mean, giving us the end screen and than his favourite appearance move. It was amazing and I'm grateful they have this back to us. Very glad.

It doesn't make the other things disappear. But I think Everbyte still deserves praise for the good things. Especially since they now have the time do improve some things.

It was great. It was amazing. I was feeling exactly what I've missed before. Not because of Moonvale own story, I like the story as well, but the other things were in the shadows of everything else.

But with this... Damn, it was insane. And it was sooo early and I was sitting outside and I swear my eyes were bigger than Adams. 😂

Completely took my breath away. And come on.. Showing us his stuff??? You can't tell me this wasn't on purpose! They saw us freaking out about the fact that he took pictures for us. Just pictures of the mine. And we freak out.

And now they gave us this?? I won't let anyone tell me it wasn't their intention. But even if it wasn't, I don’t care.

This was a huge end and it made me incredibly happy 😭

And I was also so very glad to see Alan. I still love him as well. xD

So, thank you for this, Everbyte. This idea was great and we need more of this kind of style back!

And here again, if you're interested, my life reaction on Tumblr when I played the part. I think it shows how I felt. 😂

Thank you a lot for asking, dear Anon. There's so much negativity currently, and that's okay, but talking about the happy things is needed and a more than wonderful change. 💚

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stephaniebrownslover · 8 months ago

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★彡[!TICCIWORK+NINAKATE DOUBLE DATE ONESHOT!]彡★

So @crushedsweets and @necroromantics tricked me into writing this. It's bad so don't have any expectations alright. And not exactly a date scene, kinda?

Also I tried to do some research about Toby's tics but I didn't understand how to write them. If how badly written his tics makes you feel bad, please let me know and help me with fixing it!

There's nothing special about this, just a simple, light-hearted fluff, no warnings! Swearing maybe?

And meeting part is soooo sloopy I'm gonna cry and sorry for everything

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"C'mon, babe! It'll be fun!"

Nina could hardly stop herself from wrapping her arms around Kate's body as Nina cheerfully clapped her hands in the air. She knew that Kate wouldn't say anything to her even though she wasn't used to being touched, but she was still trying to learn not to hug her every second.

What, she was going to have a girlfriend who was worthy for planets and she wouldn't let her know how much she cared about her every second?

Bullshit!

"Not that I don't trust you but you sure?"

"Yeah! You already know Tobes and you'll just looove Clocky."

Kate took a deep breath as Nina cheerfully extended the word; she had tried her best to turn the tense expression on her lips into a smile, and Nina was struggling not to kiss her on the lips right there, right now. Kate was a wonderful person.

"...Alright."

Kate was a wonderful person, indeed.

After all, Kate had put aside her social awkwardness just for her and agreed to go on a double date with Nina's two favorite friends who happened to be her favorite couple!

"Thank you, thank you, thank you!"

The girl with purple and black hair throw her arms around the neck of the girl with messy black hair, fearing that she would experience an explosion of love if she controlled herself more.

"You're... cute when you, um, when, uh-"

Nina waited for her to finish her speech, looking into Kate's eyes with her own eyes, shining with joy.

"...Nevermind."

After giggling slightly, she did not neglect to plant a small kiss on Kate's cheeks.

"You're sooo cute when you're embarrassed."

"I'm not!"

Kate felt her heart tighten under the sweet expression of her lover, who gave her a puppy dog stare while trying to wipe the strawberry lipstick that formed on her cheek reflexively.

"Embarrassed..."

While Kate was talking, she gently pulled her hand away from her cheek. At the same time, Nina was admiring her precious treasure, which she valued more than anything. The way Kate's voice gradually became a whisper was so cute that she could feel her heart was going to explode.

"Whatever you say."

"Really."

Not taking the defiant gaze seriously, Nina waved her hand in the air, which had lesser bracelet compared to other.

"Believe you."

"You don't."

"Okay, okay."

After Nina didn't say anything for a while, she slowly decided to calm down Kate, who was caught up in a tsunami of thoughts in her own mind. Of course, Kate knew the other people who stayed in the forest, but she got really nervous in such situations, since she had never met anyone except Toby and Nina before, other than proxies. And that was so cute!

Kate, was like a highschooler waiting to be invited to the prom!

Sure, there was a very serious and heartbreaking truth behind this, but Nina was trying not to let Kate know that she was upset for her by looking at the positive side of the situation. Because she knew crying or pitying her would do neither of them any good.

"Actually, there are some things we should do."

Kate raised one eyebrow in the air with an inquiring expression.

"Like following them?"

"No, not like- why though?"

"To talk something."

While Kate tilted her head slightly forward, Nina reached out and held her hands to give her courage.

"That's very smart, too. But I mean other than that."

''Oh."

Nina raised her hands in the air, which were together with Kate's, as she spoke cheerfully.

"We need to go shopping. And we should buy something for the cutey couple. And I have to see the place, maybe do some decoration if necessary. Oh, also I need to do something cute but embarrassing for them and-!"

Kate didn't let her talk any more, she leaned Nina into her lap with a perfect move, which she used an extra effort while holding her because of Nina's imbalance.

And accompanied by autumn leaves falling from the trees, she kissed her girlfriend on the lips.

"Uh, hi, babe."

Nina didn't quite know what to say as she left the kiss.

She could have sworn her legs were shaking as Kate put her safely on her feet. Kate made a move to put on her mask and leave the forest. All this romance was too much for her.

Still, ignoring the voices telling her to walk, she turned around and checked on Nina.

"Comin'?"

"Um, yeah!"

Pausing, Nina came to Kate with a sudden run and took her hand.

"So, we also need to buy you new clothes-"

While Nina was starting to talk cheerfully, she suddenly felt the need to put her empty hand to her mouth and apologize.

"Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry! I love your style but it's just-"

"Get you, no worry."

Kate slightly increased the squeeze on Nina's hand to reassure, and then reinstated it again.

"You're the best! Maybe we can buy couple t-shirts, too! And Megadeth stuff, I guess. I know you like them."

Kate was lucky to have her mask on.

And she was the luckiest person in the world to have such a girlfriend.

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"So, yeah."

Clockwork straightened up on the sofa where she and her boyfriend Toby were sitting, and joined arms. While talking normally, she was literally shocked when Toby suddenly told her that she and Nina and Kate were going out on a double date two days later.

"The fuck did ya' get us in?"

While raising one eyebrow in the air, Toby also moved to a proper sitting position, both excited and nervous. Although it was too difficult for him to make eye contact, he looked at Clockwork's right eye. He was careful not to look at her clock, since he could het distracted easily by the movements of the clock.

"Dunno, she-she was making the eyes and- and I... it happened, o-okay!"

Clockwork took a deep breath with an exasperated attitude.

"How the hell did you survive 'til this time?"

Toby tried to put on a cool expression with a big smile, but failed.

"I'm that cool."

"You're that dumb."

He waited hesitatingly while he held out his girlfriend's hands to take his. When he did not take a negative attitude from her, he took her hands in his own palms. He knew that she didn't like to be touched suddenly because of her past, so he was showing lots of effort in order to avoid hurting her.

"C-come on, Clocky, just come f-for me!"

"Know what? Screw it-"

As Clockwork took a deep breath again, she decided to give her approval to this meeting idea. After all, although Toby would ask her for many things for his entertainment, there would be very few things that he would actually ask her to do. Besides, she could already get along with Nina, and it wouldn't be bad if she met Kate, whom Toby often talks about.

"Please, p-please, please-"

"Let me finish, asshole."

Toby was already in the begging position.

"Oh, sorry sweetie."

"Don't call me sweetie."

Clockwork hadn't said that to seem rude, she just didn't like being called by an affectionate nickname, and she knew Toby was doing it to annoy her. It wasn't that she was really angry or anything, she was just making Toby realize once again how stupid and cute he was.

"I'll come but-"

Unable to hold himself any longer, Toby jumped out of the coach into the air, reflecting on the exact meaning of the word excitement, and joyfully shook his fists in a sign of victory. Then he joyfully held out his hand to take Clockwork's hands and rotate them.

"You're the best! Love ya'!"

"Fuck you, Toby!"

Clockwork certainly didn't like being interrupted in the middle of something important, and this case was no exception.

"Sorry sorry."

A devilish smile formed on Clockwork's lips as Toby instantly apologized.

Oh, how innocent and pure he was.

"I'll come only if you agree on that butterfly tattoo."

"Done!"

Her evil smile turned to a surprised feature when she saw that Toby had so easily accepted getting a butterfly tattoo on his waist area to make fun of, which had been a matter of discussion for months. This tattoo thing was a conversation that had been going on between them for months, and even though Toby found tattoos cool, he refused this offer since he didn't want to do something ridiculous.

"What kind of a speel she put you on?"

Toby leaned his head forward in a slightly embarrassed attitude. Every time he would talk about his past, he would do this.

"I-it's just, just I never had a co-cool girlfriend and real frien-ds and I want them to li-ke-ke each other so."

She could feel an anger beginning to bubble up inside her. She didn't like anything Toby had experienced in his past, and she hated everyone, especially his father, except his older sister and his mother. Toby didn't deserve for anything he went through as a child to happen to him.

She knew she couldn't undo the past, but now was in her hands, and she wasn't going to let anyone treat him like that again.

"D-don't know, just ram-ramblin'."

When he realized Toby was also uncomfortable with this topic, she changed the subject.

"Just promise me you'll don't say how 'awesome' I am in every two seconds."

She loved the way Toby's eyes shone like a puppy dog's. She could have given up almost anything for this view.

"Does t-that mean no butter-flies?"

"Nah, that's settled."

Almost.

"I had a h-hard child-hood and I was always-ways afraid of need-les because of-"

"Don't push your luck, kiddo."

When Toby started smiling, she realized that he was teasing her just to get away from the tattoo, and she decided to put a stop to it.

"Finee."

When Toby extended the word and saw that there was silence, he put a big smile on his face.

"Ever told ya' I love ya'?"

"We need to go shopping now."

Clockwork suddenly got up from the sofa and pointed to the door of the room where they were sitting.

"Why?"

Toby looked at the place she was pointing with a meaningless expression.

"To buy them a gift and normal clothes for you."

He suddenly put her hands on his chest with an expression as if he was betrayed.

"Hold o-on, what's wrong with my clot-hes?"

"All are muddy or blood stained."

"...Fair e-enough."

He had spoken in such a hoarse voice that it was almost certain Clockwork had not heard him.

He sometimes underestimated his lover's perfectly sharp ears too much.

"Let's go then."

When Clockwork pointed to the door again, Toby raised one eyebrow in surprise.

"Now?"

"Now."

He suddenly directed his gaze to his feet.

"Aw, man. That's suck."

Clockwork was content to just shrug.

"Your fault."

Toby said nothing, only came closer to Clockwork, who was waiting for him to leave the living room, and together they made their way to the bathroom of the cottage to make preparations for landing in the city.

They weren't holding hands, but the fact that their shoulders were touching was good enough for both of them.

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"Alright, so which one would you prefer?"

Nina held up the crop shirts she was holding, which had two different style cuts, one completely black and one completely pink; and because she was indecisive, she was asking Kate which one was more beautiful.

Kate, who wanted to finish shopping and go home as soon as possible, was disturbed by the brightness of the store's fluorescent lights and the noise of a pop song playing in the background. She leaned forward, bringing her back to a hunched position on the soft stool in which she was sitting. Fashion was definitely not her specialty, and she was surprised every time that Nina had such an impressive style.

"Both?"

"Aww, sweetheart, I'd love to buy both for myself but you know, I'm still paying for Christmas gifts."

After Nina made a noise like she was watching a kitten, Kate decided she didn't want to disappoint her. She couldn't do it reven if she wanted to anyway, she only felt that way because she wasn't used to get so much love.

She ran her fingers around the clothes rack behind her for a while, looking at the crops with a sensitivity that would hurt if she touched them, trying to choose the one that reminded her Nina most.

"Hmm, maybe... this one?"

There was a pretty cute butterfly pattern on the purple crop top she held. Instead of childish butterflies, this one was a stylish butterfly that could have been more of a music band's album cover, Nina's eyes literally lit up when she noticed the elegance of the outfit in her girlfriend's hand.

"Oh my god, you're a genius, Kate!"

Since Nina took the cloth from Kate's hands without thinking, Kate's efforts to look at the price tag were interrupted.

"Nina-"

"What? Something wrong?"

Not understanding why Kate was uneasy, Nina shook her head from side to side, had officially forgotten about her surroundings due to the excitement provided by a beautiful piece. Even though she had a ton of clothes in her closet.

"... No."

"That's like the best thing I've ever seen and I'll buy this one no matter what. But, let's check the price first!"

After grasping something through the outfit with her long nails, Kate quickly realized that the real smile on her face had been replaced by a fake one.

Nina spoke in a slightly trembling tone of voice.

"Kate, dear, you really want this one?"

"That's okay."

Kate didn't want her to but something so expensive, she would have liked to give it to her girlfriend as a gift, but she had no money left since she had invested all her money in some games and CDs last month.

Although she was trying to make a mental note of stopping by the store at midnight, she had a bad headache because of the brightness which prevented her from thinking.

Kate grimaced with a sudden headache, but Nina misinterpreted her expression and bowed down in front of Kate, thinking that she had upset her.

"No, no, no, don't do that face, my baby. Please, I'll get it, okay?"

"Don't buy it. It was just a rec."

It wasn't easy for her to speak when she was trying to massage her aching head with her fingers.

"But you liked it! We got everything you wanted and this is not an exception."

"But..."

Kate had realized what a misunderstanding there had been, and she wanted Nina to know this, and stop her from buying it. Nevertheless, Nina thought that she would tell her not to buy it again because of her previous sentence. That's why she tried to soften the atmosphere with a joke.

"No. If you liked it, everyone'll literally fall in love with me."

"Toby?"

Nina, who thought the question was whether Toby's falling in love with her or not, eagerly replied.

"Yes, even Toby."

Stopping to question what kind of misunderstanding she had fallen into, Kate raised one of her bony fingers and pointed to a person at the entrance of the store. He was not wearing his usual glasses and had used an ordinary surgical mask instead of his classic mask to hide the wound on his cheek.

"No, Toby."

When Nina looked at the place where Kate's finger was pointing, her eyes grew wide with surprise.

"Toby? Is that Clocky?"

When she confirmed that the two people talking to each other were Clocky and Toby, she grabbed Kate's hand and pulled her to her feet.

"Let's go."

Toby was holding a children's t-shirt with dinosaurs in his hand at the time, the size of the t-shirt oddly matched Clockwork, but the model was so ridiculous and babyish that Clockwork got angry. It wasn't a real anger, it was more like she was annoyed.

"Oh, don't threaten me with that shirt, bastard. You know damn well I have photos."

"D-delete them or I swear I'll fuck you-"

Nina, who was entering in the middle of them at that time, got between the two while they were arguing. She waved both hands to her friends at once.

"Hi Clocky! Hi Toby!"

While Clockwork was puzzlingly questioning whether she was seeing correctly, Toby returned her greeting.

"Nina?"

"Hi Nina!"

Nina greeted him again, as if she hadn't been the first to speak.

"Hi guys! Wow, what a sweet surprise!"

"Yeah..."

Nina cheerfully clapped her hands in the air while Clockwork hummed to herself.

"Sooo, what were you talking about?"

"This sel-fish prick you see refu-ssses to buy me clothes."

When Toby dived into the middle of a word, Clockwork felt the need to interrupt and tell the truth in order to prevent a misunderstanding.

"For fuck's sake. That's not the deal!"

Toby gently moved his hand to the side of his face that was close to Clockwork for blocking her, then he spoke in a hoarse tone of voice.

"Whatever."

Clockwork walked wearily over to Kate, who was waiting on the sidelines. She knew that this duo would soon be immersed in their own conversation and she'll be ignored. That's what he wanted anyway.

"So what're you doin' here?"

"You first."

"It's kinda a long story. So you know our date thingy and we decided to go shopping for some stuff like..."

Clockwork came near to Kate, who was waiting on the corner with a nervous attitude, and stood next to her for a while. She understood that Kate had noticed her coming but didn't care because even though she had never spoken to Kate, she knew how full of danger and caution she was.

Still, this was not enough to control Clockwork's sense of curiosity. That's why she decided to break the silence and start a conversation.

"Yo, are you Nina's girlfriend?"

Kate made a short answer without needing to look at her. Although she didn't care, she knew that she would have to talk soon with her, so she asked a question in a monotone tone that she already knew the answer to. She didn't want there to be any strange tension between them if they needed to be alone.

"Yes. Are you Toby's?"

"Sadly."

"Hmm."

Finding nothing to say to this, Kate contented herself with merely making a thinking noise. Nor could it be said that she fully understood the reason why Clockwork had said such a thing about her lover.

"He's such a pain in the ass sometimes."

Toby looked at where Kate and Clockwork were, and sent a stupid kiss to Clockwork, she rolled her eyes, but he couldn't stop her lips from curling up slightly. Then, seeing that Toby and Nina had returned to their own conversation, she spoke.

"But he's kinda cute deep under his idiotness."

Kate tried to make a joke so as not to feel too strange in this environment.

"Must be really deep."

Clockwork raised her non-eye-patch-wearing eyebrow in amazement. It was obvious that she had not expected such a thing after Kate's silence.

"Oh, I liked you."

Kate began to play restlessly with the sleeves of her long-sleeved t-shirt.

"Okay."

Clockwork felt the need to speak again a little later.

"You know, Toby talks about you a lot. Kate this and Kate that. You're kinda famous."

''Oh."

Clockwork spoke with a sarcastic grin.

"I like how you scare him."

"Uh, sorry."

"But you protect him, too. And that bastard can be cocky sometimes, so he deserves it."

Kate allowed her tense expression to relax and replied with the comfort of knowing that she was approved.

"Yeah."

"So thank you."

"For..?"

Clockwork spoke with a pause, even the thought of something like this happening caused her a deep sadness, so itwas not easy to express.

"For not letting him die."

Kate paused for a while, not quite sure what she should say.

"...You're welcome."

She made an attempt to start a conversation again without letting a new silence fall. It wasn't bad talking to Kate, but she didn't like her being so nervous. However, she couldn't say anything because she knew the reason behind it.

"How about you two?"

Kate didn't expect such a question, so it was almost like she hit a wall. She wanted to put her hands on her cheeks so that the slight redness had formed on her face wouldn't be noticed, but she just stayed still since it would attract more attention. She wished she was wearing her hoodie.

"We're... cool."

"Seems so."

Clockwork had noticed how excited Kate was, contrary to Kate's hopes for the opposite, and she had found it quite sweet.

"You really like her, don't you?"

"Yes. Why?"

"She might seem happy but she has a rough past about... relationships."

Everyone clearly knew that she was talking about Jeff.

Every time this topic was brought up, she got really mad with true anger. Clockwork's friendship with him had broken down because of his terrible behavior to Nina.

"What's your point?"

Kate had made her hands into fists, as she does every time this topic is brought up. Nina's past did not concern her, and she was also ready to fight to the death with any ghosts from her past.

"Don't ever dare to hurt her."

Kate responded by shaking her head.

"Same for you."

Feeling that she was still nervous, Clockwork decided to say the result out loud to calm down the atmosphere. As if it wasn't obvious enough.

"Glad we could sort this out then."

However, Kate still could not get rid of the uncomfortable feeling caused by this situation. And this was quite understandable for her. Obviously, if the same thing had happened with Toby, Clockwork would have given the same reactions, even more.

"I'm serious. I'll kill you if you-"

"Relax, I won't. Okay?"

Clockwork made a sign with one of her hands in order to stop her.

Kate took a deep breath and tried to relax, just like Nina had taught her.

"Okay."

There was silence between them for a while. Having figured out that Kate is not a very talkative type, Clockwork decided to use the badge of the music group she saw when they first met to start a topic to talk about.

"You like Megadeth?"

"Yeah. They're cool."

"The coolest."

Kate was excited to find someone with similar tastes to her after a long time. Nina and she had very different musical thoughts from each other, and although Toby was the closest person to hers, it became different after a while.

Unable to contain her excitement any longer, she asked a question.

"What else you listen?"

And just when they got to the really interesting part of the conversation, they were interrupted with Nina grabbing Toby by the arm and dragging him away.

"Heyyy, babeee!"

Clockwork did not neglect to hum to herself.

"Oh no."

Both of them, especially Clockwork, were literally shocked when Toby spoke cheerfully.

"So we deci-ded to go o-our date now."

"Now?!"

Because of her unwittingly shouting, all the customers turned their attention to the group of four. She could feel being being crushed under Kate's rude gaze towards her.

"Sorry, or whatever, but now?"

"Yeah! All of us are already here together so why not?"

Nina clapped her hands in the most cheerful way, as if it were possible.

"But-"

"It's okay, sweetheart. I know you don't like unplanned things but it'll be better over than waiting nervously. But it's still okay if you're not feeling good enough to talk with others. We can go back to my home."

"... It's fine. Just... surprised."

She knew that Kate did not like sudden changes of plans. It was only by immersing herself in the excitement of the moment that she had suddenly decided on such a meeting. But for Nina, it was more important than anything for Kate to feel at peace, and if Kate didn't feel comfortable, she was ready to give up the date.

But Kate had said yes.

Kate was perfect, Kate was cute, Kate was charming, Kate was a very nice person!

Nina could not stand the love surging inside her any longer and hugged Kate with a flood of emotions at that moment.

"Even Kate said yes, please come for me, Clocky."

"I'm gonna fuckin' kill you one day."

In contrast to Kate and Nina's conversation, Toby and Clockwork's talking seemed tougher, but that's how their communication was. Still, that didn't mean they didn't love each other.

"You lo-ove me."

Although Toby couldn't be seen smiling because of his mask, it could easily be understood from his eyes.

"No, I don't!"

"Aww, you'd die for me."

Clockwork gifted him a middle finger.

"Eat shit and die, asshole."

"Guys, she loves me so mucc-ch."

Toby made the special sign that they had developed, which meant that he wanted to hug Clockwork, and Clockwork approved this with a deep sigh and her head.

"Fuck all of you."

"Are we group hugging?"

"No!"

Clockwork was already getting overwhelmed by Nina jumping on top of them while Toby is buckling under pressure.

The amazing thing is that even Toby said no to this offer.

"Kate, would you like to come?"

"I'm fine."

"Here, hold my hand."

Nina held out her hand to Kate, who was standing on the edge watching them, so that she wouldn't feel lonely. Although Kate sighed with annoyance, she took Nina's hand and moved a few steps closer to the hugging trio.

"Can we stop this bullshit?"

Clockwork spoke in a strange voice as she tried to breathe.

"Just five more seconds."

"Alright."

When Nina finally loosened her arms, Toby also breathed with relief and instantly pulled on his arms.

"So what's the plan?"

"I know somewhere to hang."

"No bars in daytime, Clocky."

"..."

Kate, upon the rejection of Clockwork's offer, spoke up to make it clear that she also knows a place.

"Kate, love of my life, I love hanging out in the forest with you but I wanna do something different now."

"I know."

"..."

After there was silence for a while, Toby raised his index finger excitedly in the air, as if he had been shaken from side to side by a sudden tick wave.

"Oh, how about game saloons?"

"That's amazing!"

"Hey, you didn't pay for them!"

Just when they were leaving the store, they suddenly stopped with an angry employee calling them out.

"Oh, right."

Clockwork muttered to herself.

"God help us all."

"He won't."

She grimaced at what Kate said.

"Oh man, we're so fucked up this time."

"Hey, look at this Clocky!"

When she looked at the place Toby pointed out, she saw the rabbit hat in the section where the check out was.

May God have mercy on the poor souls of Clockwork and Kate.

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gyllenhaalstories · 6 months ago

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Laurie!! 💛 (sorry, I just live in your inbox now 💖)

I'm back on duty and I'm here to tickle the collective fandom brain.

With Presumed Innocent coming out soon (aaaah), I would just like to hear all your thoughts on Rusty.

Is he guilty? If so, would we still do unholy things with him (duh, obviously)? Or is he just an innocent little guy and only guilty of cheating and murdering pussy? He obviously likes being choked and I'm not complaining. What else might he like? Is he a pancakes or bacon/scrambled egg breakfast kinda guy? He does need his protein tho, for several reasons... 👀

Please let me/us know all your thoughts and hopes for the new show and the character we're blessed with this summer, thank youuuu.

Paying my Rusty tax for inspiration ✨ (again)

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! 💖 it's so good to see you in my asks again, daphne! thank you for the rusty tax (and the painful reminder that i wish this was ME) and the great questions! i've thought about that man A LOT but the majority of those thoughts are just about how badly i need him so... they're not too constructive... let's see what my -1 brain cell comes up with pretty much on the spot! 🤭

i don't think he's guilty. since the first teaser, i just had the feeling that he's innocent and his wife killed carolyn. clearly he has a talent for lying and manipulating facts (isn't it essentially his job?), he even lied to his therapist in one of the recent clips i saw! trying to lie to the human equivalent of a lie detector is both bold and dumb. he's clearly not completely innocent. cheating on your wife is bad but when your wife is ruth negga it's DOUBLE bad! i watched a quick interview of the woman who plays carolyn and oof. renate has something special. so i kind of get it <3 but i am better than a man and i would not ruin my marriage! the text messages and calls he's sending her are also very bold and dumb. he should know better than anyone how to avoid looking guilty. the dna, the messages, the stalking, the affair that was not so hidden since they were going out together and everything, this is just so stupid! he'd probably be so mad if he defended a client who basically did everything he shouldn't do and now tries to plead for innocence. i'm interested to see if we get an insight on how an attorney of his prestige and of his rank can turn into the most stupid person you've ever met. i mean, we know how, he's desperate to get his dick wet. but still, maybe there's more to it. maybe carolyn isn't that sweet, smart, picture perfect girl either. i'm giving her the side eye too.

i'm soooo excited for the show!!! my only point of reference is defending jacob so i like to compare both series. defending jacob had some really good twists so i expect the same from presumed innocent. in my opinion, one of the most powerful plot twists in defending jacob included the mother, laurie (i can still hear chris evans saying i love you laurie it was an amazing moment <3). so maybe that's why i focused on barbara sabich right away. i don't know, i'm so curious to see. i want to watch the original movie after the series, just to compare as well. i might never do it but at least i'm planning on it! anyway. can we just take a moment to appreciate how crazy it is to have this kind of show as your first television project? jake really popped off with this and his acting is absolutely insane in what we've seen so far! everyone in the cast seems solid. i'm guessing they showed most of the freaky sexy scenes in the trailers already to tease the audience, but i'm curious to know if there is more of that good stuff that they're hiding! i'm also looking forward to watch jake and peter saarsgard on screen again! and the glasses. i can't word vomit all of this and not bring up the glasses. now that we know jake is practically legally blind, i proclaim myself the protector of his corneas and i demand that he wears glasses more often. my motivation is purely selfless and it's not because i fold like a folding chair at the sight of jake with glasses (vision pun intended).

i saved the best stuff for last apparently! but mmm. what is that man into? i can't cook to save my life so he's eating cereals for breakfast. i'm kidding! (well not really but still). we know he's into choking, finger sucking, doggy style, public sex/sneaking away in a public setting, he loves the thrill of forbidden things and we see how touchy he is with carolyn so i'm guessing he's into marking because it's like a proof of something that is happening in secret of others? idk, just thinking. i don't know if his stalking habits fall into kinky or just regular obsession over the one thing he can't have under his total control, but i'd lowkey like it if he extended his stalking with some spicy elements. the way he holds on to carolyn, touches her everywhere, it's giving possessive and i love it. the ring though. oh the ring. why doesn't he take it off? does carolyn like it, does she get off knowing she has a taken man under her spell, that this greek god of a man prefers her to his wife? does rusty like the reminder of his cheating? does he like the self-inflicted guilt and pain of being reminded of his horrible and immoral actions? i think there's definitely some masochist tendencies in him. he's so quick to apologize for everything like oh no i might have killed a woman but i'm sorry tho </3 he might loooove the fake pity and fake apologies. whether he uses this tactic or if it's used on him does not really matter. to put it briefly: rusty is a FREAK and i want to be the somebody who matches his freak!

thank you for doing this, daphne! it was so fun to ramble pure nonsense fuelled by the sad 2 hours of sleep i've gotten last night 😭 i can't wait to read this tomorrow and be weirded out by how little sense it makes. i especially can't wait to read this after watching the entire series and seeing how wrongggg i was. it will be just as much fun as writing all of this! mwah mwah ily! 💖💖💖

#sizzlingcloudmentality #character: rusty sabich

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queen-scribbles · 6 months ago

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1, 2, 4 & 12 for the Veilguard ask!

1.What was the first Dragon Age game you played?

Oh, I've been in this dumpster since DA:O. :P Watched the trailers and interviews and everything leading up to release and everything.

2. Which Dragon Age game is your favorite so far?

Can I count Awakening as a separate game from DA:O to say that? Or is that cheating bc it's an expansion? Bc that's my favorite.

4. What does your worldstate look like going into DAV?

Let's see here....

Canon is Warden Rahna Tabris, dual wielding rogue(duelist, ranger, shadow). She romanced Alistair, sided with the mages, defeated/banished the desire demon to free Connor, made peace between Dalish & Werewolves(/humans, bc the curse broke), destroyed the Anvil, and made Bhelen king. Worked her way up to getting kicked out of Herran and Wade's shop with various dragon armors. Let Anora keep the throne, turned down Morrigan's ritual aaaaand Alistair sacrificed himself killing the Archdemon. :) In Awakening, she recruited everybody, upgraded the Vigil so she protected Amaranthine and it was fine, killed the Architect.

Astrid Hawke, blue mage, Force magic specialization, Warden Carver, max friendship with everyone except Merrill and Sebastian. Rivalmance with Sebastian bc she thinks he can do more good ruling a city than sequestering in a church(it's HARD to rival Sebastian as a goody-two-shoes, y'all). Executed Anders bc she did not spend seven years as a living example that mages can be normal productive non-dangerous members of society just for him to quite literally blow it up in her face. :))) Sided with the Templars bc I wanted her to be Vicountess/Princess intending to do damage control, quickly realized that was maybe an oopsie bc of how far gone Meredith was but TOO LATE NOW. :)

Tighe Lavellan, mage, Necromancer, romanced Cassandra and besties with Sera and Cole. Did IHW and recruited the mages as allies, saved Celene and forced her/Gaspard/Briala into a YOU WORK FOR ME BITCHES truce >:3(everyone underestimates him bc he's a goofball. they should stop doing that. he's very. very smart) Hawke stayed in the Fade during HLtA(I still cry about this occasionally btw, but it's insanely in character for Astrid so I can't bring myself to change it), he allied with the Wardens. Only killed a few of the dragons, the ones that seemed a more pressing danger to the area. Softened Leliana became Divine. I'm 97% sure he went into the Exalted Council planning to disband the Inquisition but changed his mind and kept it when he found out about the qunari and Solas bc he feels like Thedas still needs them, they just need to be careful who they trust.

(If I missed anything anyone wants to know, just ask. there's a lot of little details I probably didn't think of xD)

12. What's one thing you're hoping we DON'T see in this next game?

Well, one of them I already know is there, soooo the seemingly endless spawning waves of enemies out of nowhere ala DA2 were a huge pain(the only part in DA:I that sort of did that was the Exalted Plains with the waves of undead on the fortifications) and I'd like to not have anything like that.

DA4 asks

#da4 asks

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kiarakarma · 1 year ago

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Random Headcanons for Drarry (which I'm going to include into my fanfiction)

Harry Potter

growing up at the Dursleys - disgusting muggles;

Abuse/Neglect/and all those good things...

at the age of 6, teleports in front of WolfStar; gets adopted, receiving a new name - Hades Perseus Black (the irony of him being called after Medusa's beheader) and being sorted in Slytherin, cuz he belooooong;

also he the Slytherin Princess cuz I say so

Draco Malfoy

Harry's boy- I mean best friend;

crushing on him since they met (god so cheesy) - his father will definitely hear about this;

smart boi who likes books and potions;

Slytherin's Prince

Fred & George Weasley

cuz we love the twins;

are also in Slytherin;

cunning & ambitious pranksters;

worthy Weasleys;

secretive and always together... very sus...

Hermione Granger

also goes to Slytherin;

Family Secrets are revealed;

very devious and Pansy Parkinson is there as well soooo you already know where I'm getting at

One of the Mother Hens of the group

Pansy Parkinson

knows all the gossip in the wizarding world

most likely knows your secrets too

Hermione's best friend and possible girlfriend

Fashionista and the other Mother Hen of the group

Theo Nott & Blaise Zabini

being the gay couple they are and we support;

don't call Theo 'Theodore' if you don't wanna wake up with nasty hexes;

Blaise is the cool and laid-back one compared to his partner

Cedric Diggory

lives cuz he deserves to and is the same age as the twins;

surprisingly gets resorted into Slytherin;

likes Luna a lot

the Twins' Best Friend and secret partner in crime

Luna Lovegood

we love and so does Cedric; shhh don't tell anyone, but Luna probs knows about it already...;

same age as Harry and the rest

her destiny leads her to be part of Slytherin~

Sirius & Remus Black

also known as Siri & Remy (or Moony);

best parents award;

teaching together and supporting Slytherin against Gryffindor;

everybody knew that they should have been in Slytherin but nobody could prove it

Severus Snape

called Sevy or Sev behind his back;

Regulus is his Soulmate - forget Lily;

being done with everyone, but has a soft heart for his snakes and supports Drarry;

WolfStar's Bestie~

Regulus Black

Reggie!!

lives and loves Severus Snape;

enough said..................

teaches History of Magic at Hogwarts;

enjoys playing pranks with Sirius, and the Weasley Twins

Lucius & Narcissa Malfoy

lovingly called Luc (Lucy - by Siri, Remy, Sevy & Reggie) & Cissa;

awesome parents

fighting the Potters

Voldy Moldy, I mean 'Tom' Marvolo Riddle

NOT the bad guy here (duh)

doesn't look like a snake hybrid whatever that was;

resembles his younger hot self;

don't call him Tom or Tommy - he will try to skin you alive and then torture you;

may have a thing for Bellatrix

Bellatrix Black (hopefully a Riddle soon)

the best Aunt even if she is a bit crazy.....

okay maybe a lot of crazy...

she's still crushing on Marvolo, which ain't a secret

Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore

head chicken of the flaming chickens

Chief Asshole of Wizengamot

Master fucking Manipulator

Daisy Potter

Harry's younger twinsister

supposed "Girl Who Lived"

nicknamed Lazy Daisy & Crazy Daisy

a fucking bitch, who has a crush on the very Slytherin and very gay Draco Malfoy

Lily & James Potter

the worst parents

suck badly and so do the rest of the Weasleys (of course with the exception of the twins, Charlie & Bill - tho the latter two don't really appear in my fanfic)

Molly & Arthur Weasley

can't tell their twins apart and disregard them

simply bad parents

it's all about the money

Percy Weasley

turns into an asshole after Oliver Wood and Marcus Flint got together;

actually fought Marcus, but sucks for him cuz Marcus became even more handsome

Ron Weasley

the worst friend one could have

likes fame and money

very jealous

major bully

Ginny Weasley

too obsessed with gay Harry, who rejects anything and everything the girl gives him

screeching voice

ridiculous personality

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revivisection · 11 days ago

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Ohhh - definitely homeworld and origin! Just.. where did they come from, what was it like, how did they end up where they are? I'm also always intrigued what the RT's triumph and darkest hour looked like if there's lore on those 👀 - @vossn

cosmas time woooo cosmas time. disclaimer my understanding of the setting does not go far past the one video game i played. also my understanding of cosmas is constantly evolving soooo you never know. shit might change. i don’t make things up everything comes to me in visions sent by the emperor and sometimes there are addendums

cosmas, born with some other name he’s long since discarded, was meant to be a voidsman doing maintenance in the lower decks of a merchant vessel until the day he died. he started working as a child, made to do whatever it was that could be quickly and cheaply solved by getting a kid to crawl into it. genuinely i don’t know, but i’ve decided to put him in some chimney-sweep ass situations. of course when he got too tall he was moved to other tasks. i like to think that he’s kind of short for a voidborn but a regular amount of tall to everyone else lol.

when he was a teenager there was a mutiny on the ship, it started elsewhere but spread. the details are unimportant, whether there was warp influence or not is also unimportant. there’s some sort of revolt and power struggle storyline that ends in everyone being doomed there but like. cosmas does not have that context. all he knows is that people are getting killed, and his youth and innocence wont save him. so he hides in the tight in between spaces he's intimately familiar with (though it's harder now) and takes some of the younger kids with him, assuming a leader role as the oldest. he’s terrified, but they’re more terrified, so he just has to force that down. and, well, there’s something to being looked to as the “adult” in charge with a “plan”.

a navy ship finds the deteriorating merchant ship and cleans up the place a bit. they can’t immediately do anything about the ship itself or most of the cargo it’s holding, but they take some of the survivors (and condemn the rest), dropping them off at a nearby hiveworld to be made useful again to the imperium. no details rn on the planet or the name even… i asked my warhammer knowing friend about it once n he was like yeah man just make shit up, so one day i’ll get around to the cosmas homeworldbuilding. most of them are separated, cosmas never finds out what happens to them (except for one). while it’s better than a dying ship this new place still proves to be awful, he feels as if he was saved just to be discarded again. he’s placed in a factory for a while, but he’s not a very good little worker bee and ends up in the city’s underhive, taking the one kid he came here with that he didn’t lose. very responsible. her name’s damira, she ends up becoming his sister and right hand, she’s alsoooo an unsanctioned psyker, but she’s mostly just a concept rn. i’ll make her real one day… she’s cooking verrry slowly in the oven.

their best (and only) bet is joining one of the many gangs that are all trying to kill each other. he wants to survive, yes, but it isn’t his only goal. upward mobility is hard but not impossible down here, and the moment the possibility is presented to him he wants it, badly. he does a lot of things over a lot of time, takes on different jobs, roles, identities, bounces around allegiances and narrowly avoids death daily until he finally has enough leverage to seize control of an operation. i don’t know how he does it, he’s the smart one, not me. it grows from there. he and damira try to bring some sort of order to the place, it’s enough to make the people above them in the hive antsy. his gender also transes sometime when he’s like, trying to make it big or whatever. you see a lot of guys, some of them make you go “i want to be that” (whether you’ve realized you’re a man yet or not), and there isn’t much stopping him from just doing it. it takes a while before he finally settles on cosmas, after the universe itself. maybe they have a st cosmas too idk.

so technically he has two homeworlds, i just pick voidborn in game and applying all the traits of another one with toybox seems like too much of a hassle. it’s not like there’s any reactivity with it. i don’t have any lore for his triumph, but i did construct his backstory around it. apex of brilliance, he’s got his claws in a whole star system, i guess i didn’t even really need to figure out a way to get him planetside, i just wanted to.

his darkest hour is shadow of torment i literally love the shadow of torment so much every time there’s a bit of reactivity in the game with it i grin evilly and clap and cheer like yaaayyyyy. shoutout to torment. idk how far into the timeline it happens or the circumstances leading up to it but his arrest should happen at a good point for optimum embarrassment. L + cringe + i can’t believe they fucking got you. law enforcement normally ignores the underhive but he's breached containment far enough for them to start caring. his interrogation is ostensibly for questioning, but really it’s one big humiliation ritual. he comes out of that with new problems, worse pre-existing problems, and significantly less fingers. he’s far more closed off, brushes it off like he’s fine while he’s tunnelling like crazy making revenge plans. there’s a kind of white hot humiliation he gets when things remind him a little too much of the torture, when he starts feeling sick and instinctively braces for pain. guy who does not know what ptsd is and will never go to therapy. his constant need to assert himself and control the situation is exacerbated. everyone knows what happened to him, and he needs to prove that he’s still capable.

he also becomes rather touch averse, he doesn’t like being on the receiving end but he also does a lot of touching. an “i can touch you but you can’t touch me” type deal. helps that his prosthetic fingers lack sensation. for a while i thought his fingers were cut off but i came across a video on the thumbscrew once so now they got crushed by clamp <3 funnily enough his thumbs were spared from the thumbscrew. i really like his metal fingers (a decision made by tumblr poll) but i think i need to give them a bit of a better design.

i don’t know how long it is between the darkest hour and the start of the game, but evidently his deny, lash out, dissociate strategy worked because he’s still doing it.

his back tattoos refer to his triumph and darkest hour :) he has the planets of his star system running down his spine, and got the ten of swords reversed after recovering from torture. i know there’s the emperor’s tarot which is different, but who knows, wherever he’s from can have some old world tarot imagery. as a treat. his design is chronically unfinished to me because i want to give him more tattoos but man it’s actually so fucking hard. i’ll figure it out one day. cosmas has come to me fully formed yet unrefined, and i’ve been slowly chipping away at him over time.

so that’s my cosmas backstory. i simultaneously know everything and nothing. thumbs up and subscribe 👍

#cosmas von valancius #ok i gotta go lock in now #throws this at you and skitters off

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ficoandleo · 20 days ago

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What are your thoughts on your housemates?

"Incompetent from top to bottom." Romeo scoffed, sharply crossing his legs. "Some of the general students have their wits about them, mostly after months of training, but they're amateurs and I can only trust them because I have no other choice--and most of them put their trust in me. The Boss's lot are an uncoordinated, violent mess. But they're still Sinostra students, so they're still my responsibility.

"Shinjo has potential, and I'll be training him as best as I can to make good on it since he'll likely be Captain next year. But he's a disobedient, disrespectful little upstart with neither manners nor social skills who'll be completely hopeless if he keeps obsessing over RAR in every aspect of life! It's good to be strict but if it isn't going to benefit you then it isn't going to generate profit! He's naive and sheltered, but at least he's book smart. . .if only he weren't going to class all the time it would be much easier to teach him things organically. But his morals and lawfulness are even more of the problem than our mutually busy schedules.

"And the Boss. . .ugh. I'm tired of that BTH. If he'd never injured that civilian we would have never been put on probation and I wouldn't be having quite so many problems with my own business. . .if he helped out around here or even just did what I told him without fucking everything up maybe this place would generate some decent profit. . .but he's an OGC who just wants to play around. It's a WOE to try and get his help at this point! He doesn't listen to me or to anyone, he doesn't care about anything but his own whims. He cares about gambling and eating anomalies, and if he's thinking it's rarely about anything else. Gambling, eating, sleeping. . .even if you consider when he could still go on missions, he leads a dull cycle of a life now."

He sounds bitter. And yet his voice sounds just as dull, as if tired. Or like he's grown accustomed to it as a fact of life by now.

". . .But he's still the Boss. And I don't want him as an underling. Not because he's a TGA like the rest of them, but because he's the Boss. It isn't about what the Academy's higherups decided or even the ownership of the Casino. I came here for him. As long as he's not being completely unreasonable or needlessly destructive then I. Want to do what I can for him. He has his ways of knowing things. He's a lazy POS full of excuses, he refuses to communicate with me or DHFJ, but he comes in clutch when he's really needed. Even though he's changed, he's still in there. He's different, but he's still himself. That's what matters to me. I guess."

As an OOC note, Ria isn't mentioned due to limited understanding of her character and their potential history. Of course, it's safe to assume he finds her difficult or intolerable, given he finds everyone difficult and intolerable.

". . .are you done being gross and sappy?"

"Haah. Just about."

"Well, Vagastrom's pretty much just a bunch of him-, her-, and them-bos and the Cap is king. There are a couple who stand out, especially some of the girls, but most of them are all just big dumb animals--all brawn and no brains. They're loud and obnoxious and full of bravado and before the end of the day this place fuckin' reeks sometimes from the sweat and the smell of machine oil does not cover it up. There are days I can't stand it here because of them, for real for real, like if you ever think I don't touch grass, trust me, even if I didn't wanna get out sometimes I would have to just so I could get away from them!

"Like I said, Cap's a huge himbo, but he's not all bad I guess. He's a moron with a stick up his ass and he doesn't show me the respect I deserve even though I do so much for him as vice cap, but he's quiet and not a bad-looking dude, y'know? Plus him being dumb and living under a rock makes him kinda fun and, I dunno, innocent almost? Like there're soooo many things I can show him online and he just doesn't get it and sometimes it's so funny? But for real? I kinda worry about the guy. He's way too dumb sometimes. But that's what I'm here for I guess~

"And Sho-chan~~~~~ is my slave❣️! He does whatever I say because that's what good partners do! But he's being really annoying and boring and stuck-up lately, with how he's spending all this time on his food truck and in The Pit with Cap lately. And getting all friendly with all these people like he doesn't regret coming here as much as I do. . .it's like he doesn't care about me anymore because he has new things to care about. . .💔 But he's always been like that! He gets interested in something or someone for a little bit, then he gets bored or finds something new to care about and drops everything and everyone else--but he always, always comes back to me, like he never does with anything else💘 So~ he can do what or whoever he wants, because he's addicted to me more than anything in the end~💕 I don't have to be jealous because I know he'll never get away from me and I'll always win anyway!

"Hmm the other ghouls. . .Maia's a cop and she doesn't matter because nobody likes cops. Dorothy's all jumpy and, I dunno, she's whatever because people were sooo mean to her back home. Raiden's always whining about something. And if you think I've got no tact you should spend 3 seconds around Rika. Maybe they'll make something of themselves someday. Who knows~"

#answers #present: romeo #present: leo #anonymous

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