#and she'd do it til past midnight

[muskpunk]

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[thisapplepielife]

Written for the @steddieholidaydrabbles December challenge.

Elf You

Prompt Day 20: Magic AU | Word Count: 1000 | Rating: T | CW: Language, Sentient Toys | Tags: Elf on the Shelf AU, Elf!Steve, Elf!Robin, Elf!Eddie, Elf Magic, Platonic Stobin, Crack Taken Seriously, Silliness, The Magic of Christmas

'Twas the night before December, and all is quiet except for the grandfather clock in the corner of the living room tick, tick, ticking as it edges ever closer to midnight. December is approaching, with only seconds to spare as the small town of Hawkins, Indiana sleeps.

When the clock strikes twelve, two little sets of eyes snap open, alive and alert for another holiday season. 

Two little Scout Elves, but no shelf to be found. No, sirree. That's amaetur hour, and they've grown past those early pranks. No, these little elves use their magic to put on big productions. Bigger and grander each night, leading up to Christmas Eve.

They were born for this. 

But right now, they've got to get their bearings after nearly a year of slumber.

Steve stretches, pushing his little fabric arms over his head. 

Robin stands, trying to work the kinks out of her back. She'd been twisted in the tote of decorations, and now her back is killing her. 

"Hey, Robbie, you okay?" Steve asks, walking over and looking at her. 

"They've got to be more careful with me next year, I'm getting too old for this shit," she complains, sitting upright. 

Steve helps her to her feet, and they dust themselves off. Being an elf is fun, but it's only for twenty-four days a year. The rest of the time they're shoved in a box in the attic. Dormant.

Shitty parents tell kids they flew back to the North Pole, but that's a goddamn lie.

The first night is hard. They don't have a plan for their nightly chaos. They have to do it on the fly, so they better get started, right away.

"Marshmallow mini golf?" Steve suggests. 

"We did that last year!" Robin whines. 

They're running out of new ideas. They've done everything twice at this point. 

"How 'bout a messy kitchen?" another voice asks, and they snap their heads towards the sound. 

"Who the hell are you?" Steve asks, putting his hands on his hips. This is their territory. "And…where the hell are you?" Steve asks. 

They can hear him, but they can't see him. 

"Yeah, interloper! Who do you think you are?" Robin demands, backing Steve up. 

Steve looks around, but there's nobody there.

Not until Steve spots the box on the counter, brand new and unopened. Slightly wobbling.

Together, they pull open the cover, and there he is. Another boy elf, with dark eyes, and long hair, trapped behind cellophane.

"What's your name and what are you doing here?" Steve demands. 

"I'm an Elf on the Shelf. We're gonna be friends 'til the end."

"Oh brother, he belongs on The Island of Misfit Toys," Robin says, snarky. "That's a Good Guy line. That's a whole different kind of magic doll. Not our department. So, clearly evil."

"I'm not evil," he says. "I'm an elf."

"That's what they all say," Robin says, looking at Steve. "Let's just leave him wrapped up. Problem solved."

Steve sighs and rubs his forehead. 

There's a little name tag on the counter: Eddie.

"Well, you were an idiot, when you showed up, too," Steve tells her, crossing his arms, annoyed. Looking back through the plastic, "Your name is Eddie."

Eddie just nods.

"Why aren't you out of your box?" Steve asks him. Eddie has elf magic. He can teleport. Surely, he can get out of a fucking cardboard box. If not, oh, brother.

Eddie looks unsure, and Steve rolls his eyes. If Steve had fingers, he'd snap them, but he doesn't. So, he just thinks really hard and uses his own elf magic to get Eddie out of his packaging.

Robin looks at Eddie, "Well, it was nice to meet you. But we've got this house covered. They've got two kids, and we're two elves. We don't really need a third," Robin is explaining, when they all hear a baby cry.

Well, shit. There's three kids now. That's what happens when elf magic keeps you dormant most of the goddamn year. You don't find out about big changes until way after the fact.

So, new elf. Steve went through this when Robin showed up after the last kid, and now they're best friends. So, maybe this will be okay. 

Then he sees Eddie dangling from the light fixture. Maybe not. 

"Stop that, asshole," Steve says, jumping up, grabbing Eddie, sending them both to the floor. "Stop messing around, and help us think of something to do tonight," Steve demands.

"Cookie baking mess?" Eddie suggests.

"Been there, done that," Steve says, "that's first year shit."

Robin puts her hand on her chin, thinking, "We really don't have much time. We'll be able to plan better tomorrow. Marshmallow bath in the sink?" she suggests.

Steve groans. It's easy. But the kids like it, and their mom always has marshmallows in the pantry.

"How about a ski slope," Eddie says, and they both turn to look at him. 

"Tell me more…" Steve prompts.

Eddie is looking around the kitchen, a little frantically, clearly trying to come up with a fully formed idea. Steve waits. Robin waits. 

And finally Eddie pops up onto the counter and grabs the full roll of paper towels and takes it to the living room, and the couch, right near the tree. He stacks up two pillows from the couch on the floor, and stands back, thinking.

"Like this," he finally says, and gives the paper towel roll a good shove, unrolling it down over the pillows and onto the ground. 

Steve looks at it. 

Robin looks at it.

This could work.

"We could rummage through the Barbie clothes," Robin suggests and Steve nods. That's a really good idea. 

Steve gets in the box with the Barbie stuff, and digs around until he throws out a snowsuit, some skis, goggles. A Christmas sweater. This will do just fine. 

They all get dressed, and in place, ready for the kids in the morning. 

Eddie might not be such a bad addition, after all.

Notes: Yeah, I don't know. They're elves. Magic elves. 🤣

This is the ski slope idea Eddie came up with.

"Friends 'til the end" is a Chucky catchphrase. Also, a magic doll. Just a very different one, lol. The Island of Misfit Toys is from Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer.

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[hughiecampbelle]

Irresistible (Shiv Roy x Tattoo!Reader)

Character/s: Shiv, Logan mention

Word Count: 981

A/N: This was not requested, but I did get a Shiv request and I want to be sure I can do it justice. I feel like I know her the least besides Kendall, so I'm a lil scared to post this lol. It's a teensy bit short too, don't come for me y'all!! I just know she'd love tattoos so much. Maybe not on her, but her partners? Definitely!!! Feedback is always appreciated 💜💜💜

She runs the tips of her fingers across the ink of your skin. Starting innocently enough, your fingers, your hands, west and elbow. Some new, mostly old, still raised on the surface of your flesh. Up, up, across, tracing your collarbone, your chest, your neck, until she’s got your chin tipped up, examining the ink on the underside of your jaw. Her eyes are delicate, but intense. She’s dissecting you as you sit, wait, and you let her. You’d let her do a lot of things. She lets a smile slip, letting go, instead grabbing for your hand, giving it a squeeze. She’d always been a lover of art, of expression, but her favorite was your body. Covered head to toe in tattoos. The drama of it all. The pain, too. It gave you an edge, a shield. It makes me look a lot cooler than I am, you joked, but she just shook her head. Not cool, elegant. Elegant as fuck. You laughed, not expecting that certain word choice from an angel like her. The more you got to know her though, the more you expected it. The more you could rely on it, on her.

She started appearing everywhere. Not just around the office, at her fathers table, but in your corner, in your space. She hadn’t noticed you til an office party ran late. Past midnight, everyone drinking, celebrating. You never showed skin at the office. It wasn’t professional anywhere, but especially Waystar. Parties, parties were another story. Your co-workers knew what you looked like, who you were outside of work. You let loose a little, sipping at your drink, watching your peers make mistakes for tomorrow morning. Thats when you spotted her, watching you. Of course you knew who she was. Your heart fell into your stomach. She was powerful, a Goddess among men. She had power. You? You’d only been working there a year, almost two. That was all. You doubted Logan knew your name. As long as the work was done on time, he didn’t really care. She hadn’t taken her eyes off you, her gaze burning right through you. You hadn’t spilled on yourself and your fly wasn’t down, you checked. You looked behind you, too, but there was no one. No, she was looking at you. Was that a smile? You could see it in her cheeks, in the lines of her face, no matter how hard she tried to hide behind her glass. Heat rose to your face. The boss’ daughter was looking at you, staring. You tried not to let on that you knew, turning your attention elsewhere. Co-workers dancing, people you didn’t even know knew one another mingling like old friends. Every time you looked, out of the corner of your eye, there she was. 

There she was. 

You’ve been staring. It takes every ounce of courage in your body to speak those words. Flirty, just loud enough for her to hear. Maybe I like what I’m looking at. She says cooly, not looking at you directly. You’d disappeared. The crowd thickened and you took your chance, moving from one end of the room to the other, so close to her you could smell her perfume. She didn’t jump, you hadn’t shocked her, like she was always prepared for anything. Everything. Maybe? Ouch. What were you doing? You weren’t this person. You weren’t sexy or spontaneous, you definitely didn’t think you had a chance with any person, let alone the Siobhan Roy. She either didn’t notice the moment of panic or chose not to, instead shrugging her shoulders. Yeah, maybe. Where have you been hiding all this time? Accounting, you want to say, but that isn’t right. You’ve been here all along, in plain sight. Is she noticing now because of your skin, or she’d had too much to drink? She doesn’t seem drunk, not even a little tipsy. So she liked your ink. . . That made you smile despite yourself. Scary, powerful, Siobhan Roy liked tattoos? That’s pretty cute. You can touch them, if you like. You held out your wrist to her. That startled her, how you’d figured her out, how forward you were with her. She touches you as if she’s afraid you’ll break, so delicate, so frail. She traces the images, the shading and linework, getting lost in the patterns, the intricacy. She doesn’t ask what they mean, like most people. She doesn’t ask if it hurt, how expensive it was, or who you went to. She just traced. When she came to, as if coming out of a haze, she blushed. You liked it.

Her touch tickled. 

She did it when she was nervous, too. Tracing the image on the back of your hand, your knuckles, absentmindedly. She rubbed whichever arm she held, the two of you a long established couple after that night. She always get embarrassed when you bring it up. Not to tease her, rather in awe of her. She was stunned by you, by the artwork, even if she couldn’t put it into words. She buries her face into you, begging you to stop talking. Too late. You’re stuck with me, you want to tease. She can’t help it, the second she saw you, she knew things would be different. Not love, something more complicated. Something more permanent. She didn’t believe in love at first sight. That night, though? That night, maybe she’d come close. When you get new ones she studies them, hypnotized by the process. Going through all that pain for something so beautiful, so forever. She knows what her father thinks of you, of your body, but she couldn’t care less. You weren’t just beautiful, you were stunning. The artwork was just an added bonus, the cherry on top. One day you’ll get something to represent her, your wife. For now you wear your ring. For now, that’s enough.

[lavthehufflepuffpuffpass]

Ruler whose brow is laid with thorn Chapter 2 {Ominis x masc MC}

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introduction:

Poppy and Amadeus have a lovely long chat about the events of the year, and drink some potions. You can't tell me the students didn't get high like this. A fluffy chapter of Hufflepuffs being Hufflepuffs, and Poppy being my favourite girl in the world. Amadeus has burnt out gifted child syndrome, and is down incredibly bad for Ominis. Read til the end to see Natty be a dissapointed mother.

word count: 976

The Hufflepuff common room was empty except for Poppy and Amadeus, curled up on one of the lounges.

"Nearly midnight! You'd ought to go to bed, you two."

An exasperated enchanted portrait had reminded them of the time again and again, but the two remained engrossed in conversation about all that had happened over the past year.

Poppy had made an impromptu visit after receiving an owl that read "Need to talk. Ominis. -A"

She’d expected to meet her friend heartbroken, but instead she was met with Amadeus’ flushed face and incessant rambling.

“Ominis wasn't fond of that sort of endearment before now. I’m worried that he might be in a serious predicament and is in need of my help.”

Amadeus paced in front of the dying fire. It was a blessing that the Hufflepuff common room was near the kitchens. It was always cool on default, even in summer, and therefore the fireplaces never died down.  It must be some kind of magic. 

Poppy rolled her eyes fondly and produced a vial from her pocket. Amadeus stopped abruptly. 

“Here, draught of peace.”

“I could do with some peace of mind.”

They took alternating sips of the vial. Almost immediately, Amadeus felt sharper. His senses felt enhanced, his mind quickened and spun on a waltzer. He felt the alarming need to sit down, lest he'd fall to the floor. Once he was safely seated, he turned to see how Poppy was faring.

Poppy was feeling the effects of the potion as well. She'd folded her legs up under herself, and looked fit to burst with rapture. 

“Maybe, just maybe,” Poppy began. She stretched the last syllable dramatically, no doubt preparing one of her endearing pep talks.

“Maybe, Amadeus, you’re a lovely person who did the best he could for his friend and Ominis could see that.”

“That’s bollocks, Poppy. Merlin knows I betrayed him by allowing Sebastian to stray further into the dark arts.”

Amdeus sat up sharply. Realisation dawned on his face.

“Merlin’s bloody beard, Poppy, I myself strayed into the dark arts. The very thing that hurt Ominis more than anything. I know the unforgivable curses just as well as Sebastian does.”

Poppy said nothing.

She simply stared up at him thoughtfully. She wouldn’t tell him, but she’d assumed Amadeus had used unforgivable curses. She hated poachers, loyalists and assassins, of course she did, but she hadn’t expected the ferocity and vengefulness that Amadeus possessed in battle. Knowing the truth of the matter, well, it wasn’t at all surprising.

He sat back down, groaned, and keeled over, cradling his face in his hands. Poppy, not knowing what else to do, threw her arms around Amadeus from behind, pressing her face into his back. She listened to him talk without judgement. It was one of her strengths, loyalty and patience. Poppy was a Hufflepuff through and through.

“And Ominis,” Amadeus sighed. “I don’t deserve his tenderness. I tried everything and it wasn’t good enough. I couldn’t save Professor Fig, or Lodgok. I couldn’t stop Sebastian, or save Anne. It wasn’t good enough. I wasn’t enough.” His voice broke painfully on the last word. "How can I give my best to someone I've hurt. I love him, Poppy."

“I think this potion is faulty.” Poppy whispered. She had tears in her eyes.

Amadeus laughed, but it came out a half-sob.

Poppy produced another vile. “Oh! Here is the draught of peace.”

Slowly, Amadeus turned the empty vile over in his palm. He read out the label out loud, enounciating every syllable.

“Wit-sharpening potion.”

It may as well have been a laugh-inducing potion, for the pair of Hufflepuffs laughed until their sides hurt.

Afterwards, the exhausted Hufflepuffs took the time to recuperate, tangled on the lounge.

Poppy was the first to break the silence of the common room, save from the crackling embers and ticking clock.

“Amadeus?” The boy hummed in response.

Poppy turned on her side so she could look Amadeus in the eye.

“You are enough, Amadeus. More than enough. I know you don’t feel like it, but you’ve done so much good, too much to ever allow dark magic to make a home inside you. Ominis sees that. Or knows that. Or senses that. You’d been catching up on five years worth of spells, and yet you still made time for your friends, magical beasts, and the keepers. I think you’re the best of wizardkind.”

“That’s what Professor Fig said, before he… 'Wizardkind could not be in more capable hands'.”

“He couldn’t be more true, Amadeus. I mean it. I meant all of it. I do believe this potion is similar to truth serum.”

“Oh Merlin," Amadeus chuckled dryly. "You don’t still have that Draught of Peace, do you? My mind is whirring.”

“Oh, yes!”

Poppy scrambled to uncork the vial, and passed the vial to Amadeus, who gratefully took it.

Where his entire body ached with tension, each muscle relaxed. He melted into Poppy, who giggled and delightfully took a sip of her own. The two spent the rest of the night enjoying eachothers company. Amadeus thought of Ominis, and how he'd grown to care for him in a way he didn't realise he could for another boy. 

At breakfast, Natty looked the pair over incredulousy. The Hufflepuffs hadn't changed out of their robes from last night, and looked completely bedraggled. 

"What were you two doing last night? playing with potions?"

She shook her head at their sheepish expressions. 

"Do be careful, Poppy, Amadeus. Potions are not to be messed with." 

"We will," the friends mumbled. 

They both reached over for the pot of black coffee, missing it completely. Amadeus put his head down on the table, while Poppy shakily filled their cups.

"Merlin's beard." Natty laughed from her belly, bright and loud.  "You two get some rest, alright? I'll see you later."

[aries-tornado]

When I lived in Wisconsin I was not allowed to leave the house unaccompanied by my then fiance. Even when he'd go away for long hitches to the oil or solar fields, he'd buy a month or two worth of groceries for me, my daughter, and when we had them, our dogs.

I was not even allowed to go outside with the dogs to play with them, not even to clean up their poo. That was a job my fiance tasked to my then 4-5 year old daughter. Which, in a "normal" house hold is fine, at least I think. Especially with a parent helping and encouraging. But he was gone a lot in the winters and the ground would freeze. She'd struggle and my anxiety of having to shout to her from the cracked open door on how to make the task easier destroyed me the first time or two. Bless her, she listened so fuckjng well. But, after the second time, I told her to make a "big girl pinky promise" that I'd do it, but she had to tell "daddy" she was the one doing this task.

Any sane person would, rightfully, ask "but if your abuser was 2 states away, how would he even know if you went outside?" and it's a good question.

I was (looking back) so far into Stockholm Syndrome. My reality was so warped, and I lived not in *a* world, but his world. I felt like every neighbor was on his side, or his bank roll. Or, even though he would talk so badly of these neighbors, would calculate a way to make buddy buddy enough that if I was spotted outside, they'd feel comfortable to approach me and then text him. Like "hey, just saw your old lady doing yard work and finally introduced myself, nice gal!" And I add "finally" to that fake text scenario because, even living there 4 or 5 years, I NEVER met the left most male neighbor. My fiance would have beers with him sometimes on a weekly basis, over at his house, then come back drunk and accuse me of fucking the guy. Gun to my head, a line up to 5 men, I could not tell you who this man is. And our right most neighbor, I had seen once or twice, but only because he was an older man, who literally sold my fiance the house.

All that to say, I'd wait til midnight, 1am. I'd dress head to toe covered. Think black sweats, boots, a black hoodie, hood up and drawstrings pulled tight. I'd have to boil water, to throw on the ground, to melt the ice, to pick up the dog poop. I mean, whatever. It's not a big deal, but at the same time? Bonkers.

But whatever.

What I did in my spare time, in this jail cell of a home, is a complicated answer. But what I'm reminded of today, tonight actually, is when I was at my lowest mentally. Probably the last year, maybe 2 years. Time is a fickle bitch and it's kinda pointless to try to hammer down time frames from the past.

I taught myself how to lucid dream. And yes!! That is absolutely something you can teach yourself! It can be quite fun, and I had a LOT of time to nail it down. Before I got BAD bad, I'd have fun and fly around my childhood hometown. Visit places I remember fondly. But this isn't about those times.

Sleeping became an escape from my reality. And before anything else, let me just say YouTube and music were my biggest "awake" escapes. So when I tell you I'd dream about Pewdiepie just hanging out with me on my birthday, you can laugh. It's parasocial and weird. But who else could my subconscious conjure up?

Usually I'd go to sleep and let the dreams form on their own, and slowly take the wheel to turn it into something happy. Pewdiepie (Felix) and his now wife Marzia, were commonly good friends. Mac Miller, or someone resembling him, was a common "partner". I remember what felt like a year within my dream, of just living a "normal" life with "Mac". Having an apartment in NYC, going to the flea market together. Laying on the couch cuddling. Watching a TV show giggling, and looking up to see him not watching the show, but me, before kissing my forehead and telling me how cute I was. The funny thing was, truly, there was never any sex. Just happiness. Feeling lover.

It was lovely, and unhinged, to be able to even take an hour nap and feel transported far away. To a life where my fiance never existed. Even when my waking brain thought everything was, or would be okay...my sleeping brain knew I deserved unconditional love. And that this relationship was not okay.

Tricky thing is sometimes I'd wake up feeling better. But other times I'd wake up mad. Mad that it wasn't real. It's not like I actually expected to be wisked away by Mac Miller. Lol. I just wanted that kind of love. The life where I could walk outside with my head up, go places alone and be trusted. Not spend an hour covering up a black eye with a pound of makeup before resigning to be "that douche" that wore sunglasses inside.

But, happy or not afterwards? I miss that. Because that "superpower" of at least semi-lucid dreaming?

It's gone.

How many years has it been? 5, maybe six since I stepped foot, my daughters hand in mine, out of my exes truck, onto pavement, luggage in hand at the bus stop to "freedom".

And here I am, writing this, after a very long, no good, very bad, teeth clinching day off of work. My lucid dreams are now all nightmares. Night terrors. (Can you call it a night terror if it happens during a daytime nap? Huh..)

It felt like I had 10 long dreams today, but they all had the same tone. Me, in a situation, where I needed help. One of the dreams was about when my ex, but based on the IRL time we went to visit his brother and Mom in Las Vegas. He had herion connections there, and he bought us some. And we were both strung out of our minds for the maybe week we were there.

For clarity, I'll include this dream and my commentary of it in brackets...

[[But in this dream, I ran away in the middle of the night. Dropped like that little pin on Google Earth street view into the heart of the city. It was a mash-up of my real experience of being homeless in Albuquerque, as well. My mission was to stay "well" enough to make it to this rehab center that "I knew" would help me. Why I knew? Idk man, its a fuckin dream. I was constantly hiding in alleys, and junkie houses, only able to shoot up enough to be "okay" enough to continue running from the cops. (Now that I type this out - maybe the cops in my dream represented my ex. But who knows. I don't get too into dream interpretation). Anyway, long and frustrating situation after situation later, I made it to the rehab. I collapsed on the floor in front of what was a group session of already admitted patients. The staff helped me until they got my driver's license.

"You're 20" the nurse said to me blunty. "We only take minors, 13-19." I absolutely lost it, screaming and crying "BUT TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY, I JUST TURNED 20!! PLEASE!!! I NEED FUCKING HELP!"

The room was quiet and the other teenaged patients took up for me. Kinda saying "cmon, she's just barely 20, I'm sure you can bend the rules," etc.

I begged until I was drooling at the mouth before the nurses and doctors shook their heads in disappointment, "if only you'd have come a day sooner..."

I was kicked back to the streets, to which I knew I was a lost cause, and continued the cat and mouse chase that is homelessness & drug use.]]

Sleep used to be an escape. Peace. Sometimes just silly nonsense that dreams can be. But now, I just want to dream nothing. I wish I could train my brain to just shut the fuck up for a few minutes, a few hours, for fucks sake.

I woke up from this dream, and the many others, feeling like my world was spinning. Anxiety, clinched teeth, taking time to truly wake up and tell myself where I truly was. And this happens, a lot.

My mind is not a safe space to be. It is scary. It's a scary place to be alone in.

[deanswaywardgirl]

Goodbye

A/N: Okay, so this one shot hit me while I was at work. I was listening to Goodbye by Chris Young, and I paired it with this scene from Dawson's Creek (CJ, one of Jensen's roles, where his girlfriend Jen panics and breaks up with him on a whim after finding out her Grams has cancer. But they make up and he forgives her for her "freak out") But I had to figure out the Supernatural equivalent to that and this is what I came up with. Since it's a song fic, I've included the lyrics in bold.

Faith had been having a rough couple days since their last hunt to the point her and Dean were slightly avoiding each other. She'd spent all her time in her room, crying and remembering how Dean had been so angry with her when they'd gotten back to the bunker. She'd retreated to her room and hadn't seen much of him since. She'd seen him in the kitchen, and in the halls, but they hadn't spent more than five minutes together in one room, and the whole thing was driving her crazy. She knew what it was coming to, and she figured she should be the one to break it off, thinking it would hurt less if it came from her. Gathering every ounce of courage she could, she forced her feet down the hall to Dean's room, not stopping til the golden number eleven was staring her in the face. She knocked on Dean's door, and waited, biting her lip to keep the tears at bay, knowing if she caved, she could never go through with it. When the door opened and Dean appeared, the softness of his features hardened, seeing the obvious emotion on her face. "Faith? It's almost midnight."

"I know, Dean, I'm sorry. Can we talk?" Faith asked, swallowing thickly. He nodded and moved so she could enter, closing the door behind her. Turning to face him, she licked her lips and waited til he sighed and crossed his arms over his chest.

"You know it's been three days since we've spent any time together in one room. Everytime I walk in, you walk out with some excuse," he said, not bothering to hide his frustration.

"Because I wanted to avoid any more confrontation, Dean-"

"I thought we were past this. Hell, I am past it, you're the one avoiding me." Faith slightly flinched and dropped her eyes. She didn't know when the tears spilled over, but she forced her eyes to his and took a step towards him. "I'm leaving you." Dean stiffened where he stood.

"What?"

Knock on my door You're on my porch It's about 11:30 And that only means One of two things Either you're a little bit lonely Or something ain't right And judgin' by The tear in your eye You're about to say something crazy Like goodbye

"You heard me. We can't keep doing this, Dean, this dance of ours...it-it-it's not healthy. We worry about each other constantly, we're always afraid. And when i jump in front of you trying to save you, you lose your mind, yet you're completely comfortable doing the same thing to me. We have to give this up. Yes, we do. I am, I am giving this up, I'm giving it all up--"

Able to tell she was panicking and on the verge of a breakdown, he gently pulled her into his arms and kissed her with everything he had, gripping her waist with his fingertips. It didn't take long before she melted into it and gripped his hair with her fingers, kissing him back, using the bed to wrap her leg around his waist. Dean moaned deeply against her lips as he helped secure her hold on him, then pressed her against the wall, gently squeezing her thighs as he deepened the kiss even more. Faith gripped the opening of his jacket with her fingers as she kissed him, then reluctantly broke the kiss and pressed her forehead against his, her eyes still closed as he moved his lips to tenderly kiss her forehead, letting them linger against her skin.

Stop right there Don't say a word Just let me hold you Girl, we can fix Whatever it is So whatever you do Don't let us die The love of a lifetime Is worth at least a million tries Baby what we got Is too good for goodbye

Faith realized she'd tried to break up with him, tried to leave him, and a sob escaped her as she buried her face in his shoulder, holding onto him tightly.

"Faith, sweetheart, look at me," he said, but the girl shook her head as she held onto him tighter, afraid of what he would say. "Faith, hey, I need you to look at me," he whispered, settling on the edge of the bed with her in his lap. Faith forced herself back and looked into his eyes.

This ain't a game I'm trying to play Girl, we got something real here You don't just break up Whenever it gets tough So, baby, don't you leave here I want you to say You're gonna stay And we're in this thing forever Come whatever, so

"Dean, please, no..I can't. I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry. I can't leave," she whimpered.

"Faith, listen to me." He took her hands and held them in both of his, swallowing thickly as a single tear fell down his cheek, the emotion in his voice. "I know I'm always telling you that you deserve better than me, and that you should leave and never look back. But this time, I'm gonna beg you to stay. Okay? Faith, I love you more than anything, and for once..forgive me, but I'm gonna be selfish with you, and beg you to stay with me," he told her, cupping her face in his hand, wiping away her tears. Faith pressed her forehead against his and held on to him with a death grip.

"Dean, I'm so sorry. I love you so damn much. I don't wanna leave you," she cried, shaking her head. "I'm sorry, I panicked and I--I don't wanna leave. I'm sorry," she cried and buried her face in his neck.

"Shh, sweetheart, you're alright." Faith held onto him tightly and threaded her fingers into his hair as she held him.

"I love you, Dean," she whispered in his ear once she'd calmed down, though her voice was a whisper. Dean closed his eyes as he held his girl in his arms.

It wasn't long before the two were entangled in each other's embrace on the bed. Faith didn't wanna part from him for even a second, just the thought of leaving him breaking her heart all over again. Dean held her tightly and kissed her forehead, resting his chin on her head as he moved his fingers through her hair.

"So you thought I was gonna break it off with you, so you decided to do it first?" Dean asked after several minutes of silence. Faith nodded and swallowed thickly.

"Dean, I panicked. I couldn't stand the thought of you..." she shook her head and gently tightened her grip on him, her eyes welling up again as she bit her bottom lip. "I'm so sorry," she whispered. Dean tightened his hold on her. "Forgive me, please," she begged him. Dean let his lips linger as he kissed the top of her head again.

"I guess I do have a history of trying to get you to leave, so you panicking isn't a stretch." He clenched his jaw as he rested his chin on her head and closed his eyes until she picked up her head and glanced up at him.

"I love you, Dean, and I don't want to leave. I swear, I panicked." She let her eyes fall with a deep breath before licking her lips. "Is that okay?" she asked. Dean watched her for a moment and nodded, then gently turned them over and tucked her hair behind her ear, then brushed his lips against hers before kissing her again.

It was slow and sensual and deep. Faith wrapped her hand around to the back of his neck, threading her fingers into the small hairs on the back of his head, losing herself in his lips. When Dean pulled back, she looked up into his hazel eyes and stroked his cheek with a warm crooked smile.

"I love you, too," he told her and kissed the tip of her nose, then took her hand and laced their fingers together as he tucked her into his side and wrapped his arm around her from behind. "I always will," he whispered into her hair. Faith smiled softly as she made sure she was as close to him as she could physically get, her eyelids getting heavier as she drifted off in the arms of the man she loved.

It's too good for goodbye.

A/N: Hope y'all enjoy this one. It was a tad difficult, but I think I delivered it well. Feedback is welcome, though as always, be gentle. Thank you!

DISCLAIMER: I don't own the lyrics, the song, or Dean, or SPN.

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