#and remember all the shit I've been through so I don't freak out in public about it

[hackedhearts]

The biggest ghost in my life might be wondering everyday how great of a person and a success I would've been if I didn't have a shitty family, a bunch of trauma and mental illness.

[heartfullofleeches]

Vendetta [Magical Boy Yan] with a magical Scientist Reader who experiments on the monsters they fight and is generally just one of the worst magical people to stumble across. It's a mystery as to why Reader does what they do - they hardly have any compassion for their fellow humans and laughs at the ridiculous idea they're performing these experiments to turn these creatures back into humans. The ones that used to be humans that is. They've crafted weapons and armor from the skin and meat of their enemies, but they grown old of their toys before long. Many have asked. The answer remains the same.

"Why do I do this?.... Because it's fun I don't know what else you want me to tell you."

Vendetta swears he hears wedding bells- A ruthless, coal hearted scientist with zero regard for how the public views them who also happens to have a sadistic streak? Where has Reader been all his life? Drags monsters and crooks alike to Reader's doorstep in exchange for a reward - Money doesn't mean shit to Vendetta when he could have front row tickets to Reader's next surgery. I see Scientist Reader being a med student outside of their magical persona which Vendetta would tease them about, but totally sees as a bonus because nerds are hot.

Weakens the locks on Reader's cages so their pets can escape and he can live vicariously through them when Reader comes to collect them.

Reader tries to kill Vendetta when they first met, but upon realizing he likes getting the shit kicked out of him they bail because he's a freak.

Reader is stronger than Vendetta in their magical form, but weaker in their normal because I like the idea of that.

-

[Scientist Reader presses the heel of their boot against Vendetta's neck as they stand over him, sneering down at the man as he gasps for air]

Reader: You disgust me. Any last words before I remove your vocal cords?

Vendetta: You should spit in my mouth. I'd reallllly hate that- Here, I'll show you how to do it.

[Vendetta sucks blood from the split in his lip - spitting upwards directly into Scientist Reader's mouth.]

Scientist Reader: Mother-FUCKER- That went into my mouth! Why does your blood taste like battery acid?!

Vendetta: I'm waiting~

-

Scientist Reader: Give it back.

Vendetta, holding Reader's id card out of reach: Aw, this what you normally look like? You're pretty cute for a dork. I could totally take you.

Scientist Reader: Oh, please- I've beaten your ass more times than I care to remember.

Vendetta: Who said anything about a fight.

-

Vendetta: Got photos of you leaving that old abandoned library. Must've nicked yourself pretty bad down there- All that blood on your clothes...

Scientist Reader: And what do you plan to do with those photos?

Vendetta: Jerk off?- Tf else do you want me to do with them?

[kalcifers-blog]

IRIS FILES - ROBBIE THE ZOMBIE

CW - Physical/Mental Deterioration, Derealization, Rotting Alive, Zombification, Bugs/Insects, Medical Horror

Word Count: 994

Character Count: 4,271

CLASSIFICATION: ALTR 181502

ALTR AGE: 24 YRS OLD

ALTR HEIGHT: 5 “5

ALTR SEX: X

ALTR STATUS: UNSTABLE

ALTR INFO: 18152 contracted an unknown illness after an encounter with ALTR 114209. He was advised to keep track of his symptoms in the form of a journal; IRIS Researchers have secured the journal to track 18152's both physical and mental development.

08/09/2016

“Not been great lately, I've had cold or flu symptoms for the past two weeks, really has been messing with my focus, not great for when I'm trying to study or play as well as I usually can but I've been pushing through it!

I'm still a bit shaken up from that creepy ass guy from last month- it messed with me. I'm glad IRIS is here to help out with my case tho, hopefully they catch the freak. I keep getting all fidgety and anxious whenever I'm out in public. I mean I guess that's normal after something like that but still, doesn't make it easier. I would hang out with friends to make me feel safer but I don't wanna get them sick, hopefully this'll pass

-R”

15/09/2016

“God my head will not stop pounding, I got my headache about 2 days ago, it started off only occasionally but god it just keeps flaring up and more often. My flu hasn't gotten any better. It makes it hard to do anything, I keep getting by, slowly but surely.

-R”

22/09/2016

“Been bed ridden this week- I thought rest would probably help but, every time I sleep I keep dreaming of that guy- I don't remember it fully and it's probably just some weird trauma thing but he keeps.. I don't really know how to describe it? He keeps warping. I don't know its probably just some dream shit”

29/09/2016

“haven't been able to eat properly.. keep feeling this itch on my neck, its not bad just annoying mostly. My phone hurts my eyes. Keep dreaming of creeper.im sure he didn't actually look like that. Sorry for the bad handwriting, I'm so tired nd my hands hurt. Might try sleeping again”

30/09/2016

“woke up and puked, pretty badly too- dreaming of that guy hurts my head”

05/10/2016

“Really should call a doctor I think. I did call IRIS, I'm sure I did, they said they'd send someone over. No one came- my body hurts, everywhere it's just this dull ache. I might try

and shower or something. I don't know what to do at this point- no ones coming I've waited and waited and no one showed. The itching got worse, I don't know what's wrong with me I just need someone to come help”

“Why is no one answering my calls???”

12/10/2016

“Tried to shower, clumps of my hair just- came out. I just cried something is wrong with me I called IRIS again I told them it was urgent and I need help. The creeper answered me. It couldn't have been real- but it made me throw my phone accidentally. It broke and I can't get it to work again. I can't keep going on like this. The itching keeps spreading too- it now feels like things are crawling in my organs. I can't scratch there”

��Threw up again, mostly blood- it was clumpy, I think it was bits of my throat. It hurts my throat to breathe let alone talk”

16/10/2016

“The man in my room can't be here- I didn't let anyone in, he shouldn't be here”

23/10/2016

“I found out why I feel like there things crawling in me. I threw up a dead bug. The itching keeps going. I think I need to leave”

“I left my apartment. The air stung and I felt everyone's eyes on me. I don't care i just need help”

“IRIS won't let me in. Or near anyone.”

30/10/2016

“They're keeping me here. They keep giving me things. They poked IVs in me- the skin just teared away. It hurt so much, it feels good to actually be given medication. It's not kicked in yet but I think it should soon. The nurse gave me a funny look when I described my creep to him. I don't know, I just wanna sleep”

IRIS Supplemental:

ALTR 181502, previously known as Robert “Robbie” James, was announced as clinically dead to the public on 05/11/2016. Within the IRIS Foundation however it should be known that ALTR 181502, while maintaining a “corpse-like” appearance, is very much alive. IRIS researchers and medics have been working on a plausible theory on the rapid and alarming decline in ATLR 181502’s health after an apparent encounter with ALTR 114209. This variation of effects with 114209 seems to be an outlier. But until a working theory has been confirmed, the containment is highly necessary for both ALTR 181502 and for the wider public. Some IRIS staff have left due to unknown illnesses after contact with ALTR 181502. Their symptoms are yet to be examined but they are all in highly secure quarantine zones until they are confirmed to not be carrying a “Zombie Virus” as the research staff seem to be calling it.

As for ALTR 181502- exact details of his initial encounter with ALTR 114209 are documented in his original report to IRIS. His condition remains unpleasant. And it seems the best we can hope for is to keep him in containment until we understand what's going on.

The journal, as well as the remainder of ALTR 181502's belongings have been quarantined or burned. We managed to digitise his IRIS issued journal for the research sake. In said journal we believe the figure he describes is ALTR 114209- as it is within it's behaviour to torment it's victims while they are in mental distress.

It was discovered, by one such medic, after attempting an autopsy on ALTR 181502, that he is very much no longer human. If the hive of moth larvae that has eaten away at all of his organs have anything to say about it at least. How he still is living, albeit not pleasantly, is about as good a guess as yours as it is mine.

End Supplemental.

[demetriandelibinaryboyfriends]

We You were staying in Paris To get away from your parents And I thought, "Wow If I could take this in a shot right now I don't think that we could work this out" Out on the terrace I don't know if it's fair, but I thought "How could I let you fall by yourself While I'm wasted with someone else?"

If we go down, then we go down together They'll say you could do anything They'll say that I was clever If we go down, then we go down together We'll get away with everything Let's show them we are better

We You were staying in Paris To get away from your parents You look so proud Standing there with a frown and a cigarette Posting pictures of yourself on the internet Out on the terrace We You breathe in the air of this small town On our own, cutting class for the thrill of it Getting drunk on the past, we were livin' in

If we go down, then we go down together They'll say you could do anything They'll say that I was clever If we go down, then we go down together We'll get away with everything Let's show them we are better

***

@karatecaulfield pspspsps

Hiiiiii it's me, I'm posting again! ^^; I couldn't help but want to pregame a bit for the August CK femslash event, and I legit just have a bunch of YasMoon moodboards lying around that I haven't had the chance to post yet ^^; I've been meaning to submit this bad boy all summer, since I wanted to do it during the actual S2 period where Yasmine was feasibly still in Paris. Pretty sure she was all the way through July, so...it still works, I think?

This goes with this and this, btw! I always wanted so badly to know what happened between Yas and Moon in S2, and how they ended up making up by the beginning of S3. Like!!! They were on horrible terms when they last interacted in 1x09!!! What happened to make them decide to mend fences!!!

(Well I mean obviously they were gay for each other, yes, but I want to know the specifics of it aksjduifhukb)

I really get so much mileage out of the "Yasmine has the same bikini" scene that it's borderline disgraceful. It's just so wild to me that Moon stalking Yasmine's instragram is the only proof whatsoever we have of Yasmine's existence during S2. Like if you started watching the show at S2, literally your only impression of Yas would be "hot blonde girl who has the same bikini as Hawk's girlfriend (sus) and whose chest we see Hawk's girlfriend ZOOMING IN ON (even more sus)." All you would know of this character is "girl no one else likes but who Moon is simping for." Like excuse me!!!

And from Yasmine's side, it's super gay, too??? Like the fact that she's wearing the same bikini as Moon for a public internet photo doesn't feel like an accident--especially since someone as hyperfemme and rich as Yasmine probably has like. A detailed outfit calendar that doesn't leave any room for slip-ups. So I'd guess it's either out of spite ("hey bitch remember how you sided with the losers and freaks over me??? Now I'm wearing your look better than you") or as a way to guilt-trip Moon ("remember when we got those adorable matching best friend swimsuits??? but then you stabbed me in the back and ruined our friendship and now we're not besties anymore :( But I can still remind you of when we were so you feel bad about it!"). Either way, I definitely think Yasmine wanted Moon to see that photo. Like this is some lesbian mind game shit I'm sorry aksjndhkuygbhy

Even just from this one little bit, it seems to me like Yasmine and Moon just...can't really let each other go, even after they've severed ties and are (presumably) no longer in each other's lives. Moon is creeping around on Yasmine's socials, while Yasmine is most likely intentionally wearing a swimsuit Moon also has to get a rise out of her. (Something something another one to the add to the list of Elimetri parallels lol) Would guess Moon has some lingering guilt about not defending Yasmine after the wedgie situation (like she was horrified--she's the only person not laughing!), while Yasmine has lingering feelings of resentment/betrayal that Moon chose Hawk and co. over her.

Betting they stalked each other's social media all summer long. Like Moon was constantly making fun of Yasmine's fashion choices and trying to convince everyone (and herself) she was So Totally Better Off Without Her and Totally Doesn't Miss Her Or Anything but like...girl. If you roasting Yasmine about having the same bikini as you involves you zooming in on her boobs just to make sure, then idk what to tell you???? (No but I will seriously never be over that O_____O)

And as for Yasmine...we don't have as much to go off of irt what she was doing in France, but The Bathing Suit Incident and her crawling back to Moon literally as soon as school started indicates that she like. Definitely wasn't as done with her "backstabbing" bestie as she told herself she was. I'd bet money she spent that whole summer being jealous as fuck of Eli. Just prowling through his and Moon's insta pictures together like "this stupid blue-haired douchebag, what's he got that I don't??? >:( Fucking karate??? Tattoos??? Lame >:( How dare he steal my secret girlfriend >:( How dare he show her off like arm candy >:( Even though I wouldn't have the guts to openly date her anyways >:( I bet he can't even eat a girl out and smell like roses doing it >:( Can I kill him a little bit >:(" Like I'll bet the girl was fucking SEETHING and I love that for her. (And then he wrecks her science group project because he was mad jelly Demetri was talking to her??? It's a wonder they ever became friends XD) Like I love the idea of Yasmine interacting with this dude all of once and then just hating the shit out of him immediately for stealing her girl, and Eli just??? Has no idea??? Like Yasmine Nolastname is sending enough hatred overseas to boil the ocean into nothing and Eli "Hawk" Moskowitz is none the wiser, busy performing heterosexuality with the girl he has all of zilch in common with and frantically hiding his gay little crush on Demetri XD One-sided rivalry for the ages, AND IF NO ONE WILL WRITE ABOUT IT I WILL

Actually no it's not one-sided it's just that Yasmine thinks they're fighting over Moon and Hawk thinks they're fighting over Demetri aksjdhukghfduy

It's fr like that one Endgame meme tho, because Hawk lowkey forgets who Yasmine is during S2 XD

Yasmine: You took EVERYTHING from me!!! Hawk: I don't even know who you are...

ANYWAYS "Paris" by the Chainsmokers is about Moon lowkey pining for Yasmine while she's in France and reminiscing on all the good times they had while they were still best friends and kind of regretting not being in Yas's corner when she needed her. It's true, Moon told me herself! Sorry, I don't make the rules :3

(Btw Moon's Gay Yearning gives me life and I will die on the hill that this Gay Yearning is 1000% mutual and Yasmine is just dumb and super repressed akasdjhliuhfk)

Kinda on the fence about if I HC Yasmine as a cigarette smoker or not. Part of me thinks she'd do it to look "cool" and "edgy" and "counterculture" without...really having to do much else in that department XD But the other part of me thinks she'd violently reject anything that might make her smell questionable, and would just embrace the "cool girl" aesthetics of the whole thing. Like Augustus Waters-style put-a-cigarette-in-your-mouth-but-never-light-it type bullshit XD That seems more her Vibe, since I feel like homegirl would haaaaate the taste of cigs.

Anyways y'all better get ready because this femslash event is gonna get me INSANE about these two >:3 Like I'm gonna probably get super ambitious and start more one-shots than I can feasibly finish and get stressed but best believe I will enjoy EVERY MINUTE of it

As always, pic credits available upon request!

[deathbypufferfish]

Recurring things in my dreams because I just need to get it out of my system. Like I am constantly back here to the point I'm like "fuck this again" when I dream it again.

It's the zombie apocalypse AGAIN (I'm with the walking dead guys). I am amazing at shooting zombies.

I can float and no one thinks it's even a little bit cool. I've dreamt this for as long as I can remember. To the extent that I forget that is not real.

Skiing I'm always skiing I don't ski but I'm convinced I can ski now.

The weirdest longest narrowest public bathrooms ever.

I'm at a water park! Oh God I forgot to shave my bikini line. Half of it is standing in line getting into the park?? There is an air of danger to the water park.

I'm just buying souvenirs at Disneyland. Usually pirate stuff or christmas ornaments.

At CVS but they have REALLY cool stuff just for ME!

Buying Japanese blind boxes for like $1 each and I never open the goddamn things in the dream.

Buying beanie babies that do not exist at thrift shops! yippee!

This very specific concept for a sims world and it's starting to get to me. New England coast vibes. There's a boardwalk with half rabbitholes (movie theatre, bookshop) and half visit-able shops. There is a roller rink in the center. downtown is old brick buildings and there's small little apartments in them. BASEMENT apartments too. The brick apartment buildings are centered around one long main street instead of a neighborhood. You can own a business in one of the storefronts. There are fruit vendors, a grocery store, and other rabbit hole shops along the main street.

I'm in an elevator in a really big hotel and I don't know my floor OR room number.

Petting bears .

A super cool magical world and oh god I have to save everyone and there's a conspiracy.

Genuine horrors!

Hiking through a big forest with big streams and at some point we gotta run out of there parkour style because a big magical goo is coming.

Climbing this huge snowy mountain (usually with my mom or friends) and there is a tiny cabin at the top and a beautiful statue garden. It is very peaceful.

I'm in Skyrim and I'm stealing these rich bad guys lodge aw man I can't live here what the fuck I did this quest for nothing.

Beating up guys from my highschool.

Walking around this huge mansion/museum but we can't go to the top floor because the king is sleeping there..

I'm in a shitty arcade connected to my local movie theater that does NOT exist and also it is so shitty and the prizes suck.

God I'm in a Mario game and I have to do parkour fuck.

I forgot my bikini top on vacation so I just swim without one and I think everyone is looking at me but they do not give one shit.

Fancy beautiful wonderful showers ohohoho and I take a great shower OH SHIT I GOT WATER EVERYWHERE.

Exploring my grandma's old house but its a weird mansion with bathrooms that have little stairs going up to the toilet right under the ceiling and also the bathrooms are carpeted.

There is this giant secret part to my grandma's old house. Historical shit.

The freezer is filled with gas station ice cream yippee!!!!!!

I'm driving a car oh my god I can't drive oh and I'm driving from the passenger seat??????? How am I doing this?????? Whatever it's on autopilot I'm fine. I hope a cop does not see me driving this car from the passenger seat.

There's an apple orchard in my old town (there isn't).

I'm just trying to find the bathroom in this freak combination of all the schools I've been to someone help me.

Oh I found the school locker room oohh now I'm in a big open-air area in a barn??? Warehouse???? It's so sunny and warm and there's all these wooden stalls for outdoor showers yippee!!!!!

I'm getting fast food with my friends. I accidently order three sandwiches. I'm severely distressed over this.

I'm at the mall and I am looking at all the tasty snacks (great ice cream and coffee selections) and trying to find a hot topic oh no I'm lost.

QUICK TO THE ESCAPE POD ON THIS SPACESHIP.

I'm in a musical or dance recital and I do NOT know ANY of my lines or ANY choreography and I just have to wing it and NO ONE seems to notice.

THERE'S THIS HUGE T-SHIRT STORE. IT'S JUST T-SHIRTS BUT THEY'RE ALL THE WEIRD THRIFTED ONES I LOVE. I NEVER GET TO GO IN.

I'm at my Babushka's apartment building but it is 3 of them attached to each other and it's dystopian and scary.

I'm speaking Russian (I have not spoken Russian since I was like three and it wasn't even a lot).

I'm trying to break in to my elementary school (let me in).

I'm on a huge oh my god gigantic playground jungle gym I am going to die if I fall.

oh hey it's my sims hey you guys.

oh hey it's the munch story sims hey you guys.

sometimes I think I'm just walking through a wetland and that's it. Unclear if I am a wetland creature or not.

I'm sneaking through my ex-friend's house (SOMETIMES invisible)

Triple bunk beds

there's so much more but i can't morally make this post longer thank you for listening. Um tag yourself.

[bitd]

i'd love more information on tdh if you'd ever like to share

:3 sure thing! i love talking about these guys. they started as my beam saber characters tragedy ("my crew was destroyed by a bigger faction") and i've sort of been expanding them out from there.

the dandy highwaymen are a crew of 8 (9 including jammer, but he doesnt join until about 8 years into them being a crew) of misfits with dissociative disorders. they steal mechas and fence them, or break them down to use for parts. the star sector they're in is in the midst of a cold war between a few huge factions that we don't actually see much of. they usually operate in a 'colder' part of the sector - one with no proxy wars, which is treated as a training ground for soldiers for those proxy wars - but stole a mech known as the 'showstopper' from the front lines. that's the heartstealer, which fluke kept. this mech was a prototype that was going to end up drastically flipping the war into one faction's favour, so of course they noticed, and so sent an agent to infiltrate the crew and send a message that they're not to be fucked with by utterly destroying them and publicizing that destruction in a way that would make similar crews ... nervous about whether or not they had their own mole.

web serial will be in the style of various heists - i'm hoping to hit somewhere between baby driver + now you see me + marielda (friends at the table season) with some character-driven stuff filling out the gaps in between. its a silly tragedy/comedy thing as the audience obviously will have more information than the characters, with some significant romance/mystery/sci-fi mecha bullshit thrown in there. there's a lot of stuff i still need to figure out logistically (which is difficult because this is also a prequel to my fiance's beam saber game and i dont want to make hir reveal too much to me :P) but i enjoy heist stuff and i think superpowering it with mechs rocks.

characters are under the readmore

the members are (in order of joining)

fluke, it/its, it/she if youre feeling Dangerous. a hotshit driver that has a program that can let it operate mechs as if they all had the same controls. its an extremely volatile and intensely emotional person who is just the definition of Hot Mess; it has a thing about being remembered/special.

forge, he/him. forge is the mastermind behind everything and extremely a control freak. he's a bit too logical and a bit too rational. he's also a mechanic, and repairs/dismantles all the mechs. he's extremely good at Making Plans and Leading People but isn't super good at anything else. him and fluke are married, and they met when they were little kids. they started the dandy highwaymen together.

windf4ll / windfall, it/its. this guy is more my fiance's blorbo than mine but i like it so its ok. its an AI that accidentally came into existence when forge + fluke were about 13/14, shortly before they started the highwaymen, because forge left a file running. it's very persecutorial in nature TO forge and cares... immensely about fluke, probably because those two were constantly arguing about whether or not to let it keep living. its very silly funny and also like, insanely fucking powerful.

jackdaw, he/they. jackie is a time traveler, but you're not supposed to know that ;P. they're a very people-focused person, and they really do know how to talk to and keep everyone distracted. in fact, he might talk a Little too much. but that's okay. he's the face/grifter/conartist type of their little group, and has a bad habit of 'savescumming' (kind of works like this) through every moment of his life to try to find the right way to go. they try to present as Very Cool.

lilac, she/they. lilac joined pretty early because she can kind of see the future, a little bit? she can affect fate in a huge way and it was less those guys seeking her out and more her coming to them. she sort of presented herself as knowing So Much Shit and having a lot of control over augmented reality and reality in general, and then was like :) our futures are linked. you're making a crew. i'm joining you. again like this happens when they're all 15 so its kind of funny as hell

laika + tomb joined together, they're kind of inseparable a bit. they'd been hid out on the moon of a planet that TDH's first score - an auction, not a mech stealing thing :P - was on. they were trying to steal back one of laika's inventions and forge + fluke were both impressed while lilac sort of was jsut like teehee... :). so they joined. they both use all pronouns iirc and are sort of a study in the inversion of being too grounded in the world (using social connection as a conduit and not paying attention to yourself) and being too up in your own head (making/creating things). this is also why tomb is a beamsaber giant killer (doesn't have a mech, rips them apart with their bare hands) while laika is a luminary (constantly making new technology).

laika is very bubbly and silly and uh. well. she's also someone who pushes tech/her body specifically very far. 1.) shes a biohacker. 2.) uhhh. well. th. th. it has dog ears

ghost joined arounnnd when they were all 18ish, about 2 years give or take before our story will be starting. she's very easily given to. idk how to describe this... pushing people away or not allowing them to get in super close? but not in a particularly assholeish or even all that obvious way. they were a lonely kid who grew up with the notion that relationships will tie you to bad situations and a lot of her arc is learning that while that can be true it is still important to trust yourself + others. also she can teleport :thumbs up:

aaaand jammer was the head of a squad from the hotseat of the war, the panopticon. he was sent in to play double agent (leaving his sister in charge of that squad which is basically like. i don't know what you'd call the equiv of a black site as a squad but think that. super secret blackops spy type shit that gets its hands Extremely dirty). he's the son of a richguy as well. ofc tdh don't know this. hes kind of the worst in a very pretentious and smarmy way but its ok hes my guy. he kind of ends up falling in love w/ fluke + trusting the rest of TDH and having a pretty huge conflict internally about whether or not he wants to go through with killing them or try to get them out... too bad that his sister both holds the reigns of the panopticon, that she has the asset of a living weapon, and that she does not fucking like him.

[jakedustry]

𝐖𝐇𝐎 𝐈𝐒 𝐈𝐙𝐙𝐘 ?

╰┈➤ first and foremost, I am a human being. I am not an object, a writing machine, or a fictional character. I have emotions and boundaries just like anyone else, and there are things I will not tolerate. So please, take a minute to read through my boundaries and what I have to say before you request/interact.

After being a human being, I am also a writer! I've been writing since 2020. At first in my native language, and since 2021 I've been writing in English. Even though it's already been 3 years since I started writing in English, my writing still keeps developing and so does my vocabulary. Please, be patient with me if you see me making mistakes. I always read what I write after myself but there might still be things I didn't notice so I am sorry in advance.

Who is Izzy when she isn't writing? ── .✦ ㅤㅤㅤI am a female (she/her) from central Europe, currently studying business! I am an introvert, but I don't mind getting to know new people. My MBTI is INTP, and I am an Aries born in April. I am pretty skilled learning wise! What I am the most confident in is Math, and languages after that!

What are some things you like? ── .✦ ㅤㅤㅤI am someone who loves loves cats! I also love music, reading, sleeping, anime, genshin, and much more! Some of my favorite tropes are fake dating and academic rivals, and I also enjoy reading fantasy a lot!

And what are some thing you don't like? ── .✦ ㅤㅤㅤspicy food and horrors! I am a scaredy cat. I also hate bugs, cigarettes' smoke, and people who hate on other people for their ethnicity/sexuality or anything else! Those are big no no's for me.

Writing wise, what are u comfortable with? ── .✦ ㅤㅤㅤAnything that isn't on my won't-write list loll. I am freak tbh, so things like threesomes, public sex, degrading, breeding, etc. are all fine! Obviously, I also write fluff and angst! Any tropes you can think of are a yes from me. I love trying out different au so don't be scared to ask for some fantasy, vampires, etc.!

In that case, what will you NOT be writing? ── .✦ ㅤㅤㅤRape, smuts where characters are underage, gender bend members, abuse (I might write implied abuse, but definitely not scenes where person gets abused), piss kink, BDSM. Those are all that come to my mind in the moment, but please have in mind I might still reject your request if I find something I am uncomfortable writing in it!

What is your stance on writing NI-KI smut? ── .✦ ㅤㅤㅤHalf and half tbh. I hate seeing older women sexualize him because whenever I see them I just remember the 14yo Riki who had to go through all that. But as someone his age, I KNOW he is not an innocent, nothing-knowing little boy. It is normal for people his age to have sex. So if you're wondering if I will be writing smut with him, my answer is maybe. I am not completely against the idea, but I am also not anyhow hyped for it.

Can you explain your tagging system? ── .✦ #✧˖°. enha industry ✧˖°. - enhypen stories #✧˖°. svt industry ✧˖°. - seventeen stories #✧˖°. haikyuu industry ✧˖°. - haikyuu stories #✧˖°. izzy speaks ✧˖°. - for when I want to tell you guys about something/shit posts #✧˖°. jakedustry writes ✧˖°. - for all my stories, no matter the genre #✧˖°. izzy answers ✧˖°. - for when I am answering things from my inbox!

[ask-hannah-blog]

Yo, Pretzel again! 🥨🤡

First of all, thanks a ton for the info on the estrogen! I was getting kinda scared in regards to some of my... growth. I guess that explains some things. I'm lucky you were there because with the way things were going, I think I would have stolen your right to be called "Honkers" lol

It's not too bad, at least. Always wanted a big butt and aside from the sound effects and the bumping into stuff, it's been alright so far. Well, okay, I've been kinda gassy these past few days, but I've also been eating like crap. So I'm sure the toots and burps are just passing through. At least I hope😬😵‍💫😣

Shame about the estrogen, but I get the feeling that he flu will do the transitioning for me anyhow. I guess I was just hoping my transition could still be something I took control of instead of the flu. Ah, well...

Main reason I'm sending an update is because of a definite clown life update from yesterday.

I was getting some groceries, being the anxious bundle of nerves. I usually am in public (not super clowny, I know...) and just stared down at my phone, waiting my turn with the cashier. The woman in front of me was wearing a cute pair of heels, nothing too crazy, close toed and everything. I took a closer look at them and expected my next thought to be something like: "Wow, nice shoes!"

Instead, what popped into my head was: "That's some hot toe cleavage!"

Toe cleavage?!?!?!!? What the fuck is toe cleavage?!!!!??! And why was I slobbering over seeing some stranger's toes???? As she walked in front of me I kept trying to catch a glance at the back of her heel in hopes I would get a peek at her soles when she took a step. What the fuck. I tried to focus back on my phone and noticed the camera app was open. Don't need to tell you what happened there.

I hadn't had a single sexual thought about feet my whole life. Not one. Never found feet to be a turn-on. Then again, neither did swallowing dildos like they were trick swords.

This stuff is freaking crazy! I wanted to apologize so badly, but I didn't want to freak her out, and truthfully, I didn't want her to see my huge dumb teeth...

I guess that's how it starts. First, I'm drooling over whatever toe cleavage is, and then eventually, I'm licking my own toes clean in utter ecstasy.

#Clownlife, Woop woop....

Hope you're having a better time than me, Hannah.

much love ❤️ ✌️💝👋💜

Pretzel! What are we going to do? 🥨

😩

I’m right there with you. Someone, I’m unfortunately think Daisy must have let one of my bimbo clients in on my new… sigh… fetish. She spent half the session rubbing her feet, and pink high heels complain about how “they’re all hurty I wish someone would wub them…”

I was barely able to stop myself from going “Yahooooooooo!” And diving in!

My brain is just telling me “you’re a perverted cartoon now, act like it.”

BUT as sexy as that foot clevage might be, ya gotta delete that picture. Even if we’re losing our minds we have to remember not to involve people that aren’t consenting to it. That’s what seperates us from the villians.

…

My hand just typed out “Send me the pic before you do!” Nice to know I can’t trust my hands now.

We gotta meet up girl, I NEED to smell those pretzel toes and dip them in cheese!

Nope nope, not me, not that.

What I meant to say you have my sympathy for going this alone, and I’m sorry it took the control you felt over your transition from you. I don’t know how anyone feels in control of any of this shit.

And I don’t know where this Honkers stuff is coming from. I am still flat as a board lol.

Anyway, love hearing from you. Best of luck, I’m not sure how many of these I have left in me.

[foggyparadisecandy]

[Trauma dumping - scroll on by if you are looking for horny stuff]

I know, I know ... another one. I'm just purging it out as fast as I can. Catharsis in a public blog. Why not?

This one in particular is written for my ex-partner even though I know she won't read it. I just have to play pretend to feel remotely good about things.

Hey D - I want to start off and say that I love you, I care about you, and I forgive you for anything and everything. Please remember that you can always reach back out to me.

Yeah, what you did was pretty shitty tbh. But ... it's ok. I mean ... yeah ... do better. Good people do shitty things on occasion and IDK.

Maybe I'm way off base but everything points to a horrible trauma response. I could be wrong. I don't think so though.

Either way, who gives a shit at this point. I forgive you and the point of this letter is to ask that you don't use your treatment of me or us to beat yourself up.

It hurt. It still hurts. It probably will hurt for awhile but I'm going to come back stronger than I was before so, in the end, it will be a net positive for me. Except for losing you. That ... really ... is awful tbh.

I've told you how much you brightened my life in other letters so I'm moving past that one here. Let's talk about me for a moment and where I'm at and where I'm heading so you can feel like "hey ... Foggy is going to be ok ... I didn't permanently harm him and it seems like he's actually doing well."

And let's really quiet that subconscious that makes you want to feel bad - at least on this particular issue. It's all going to be better than fine for me in the end. I know that and you should feel ok about me.

I've made a lot of new friends who have been very kind and accommodating to my pain. You know I'm a curious dude and it's been very interesting to hear so many stories from other people. Love it.

I've reconnected with some old friends - online and in RL. I've got a pretty full social calendar these days which is a first in ... a loooong time. Pretty ironic considering how much I was always telling you to build connections and my own were thin.

I've started working out. It's only been 7 weeks and I'm doing pretty freaking good tbh. I started doing pushups and planks every time I thought of you but ... that got exhausting fast ... you are always on my mind lol. So I cut back to 30 minutes per day.

I've had it out with my wife about everything. Well ... not exactly everything but most things. I'm not sure where that goes but I know I don't want to go back to a boring status quo situation. You opened my eyes to a new way to exist and I want more, not less. It'll be ok either way - I know that for sure.

I've lost 8 pounds in 7 weeks. This one isn't really a blessing lol. I couldn't eat or hold food down for the first five weeks. Only really started eating again recently. But it is what it is. I wasn't heavy at all but I'm happier thinner so ... a win?

I've ... mostly ... started to be able to sleep through the nights again. For the longest time, the most I could sleep was 3 or 4 hours then wake and could not drift back off. I still ... am struggling ... a bit. Woke up the other morning at 4 am crying. That wasn't fun. But it's rare lately and I'm guessing will be gone soon enough. Not sure if this is a win or if it's me just feeling sorry for myself. I'm guessing the latter but I'm leaving it in here because it *is* better than it was early on so it's progress.

I've started therapy to figure out why I chase after helping others (mostly women) to fill the sad little hole in my soul. Actually ... I already know why. You know all the shit with my mom and ... yeah ... I'm working on it. Trying to get healthy for the first time since I was a ten year old kid. Kind of silly that it took you breaking up with me for me to figure this stuff out. It is really breaking me down to realize my life since ten has been so fucked up with trauma. Can you imagine not clearing your trauma away for that long? Can you imagine that? I hope not. Did you get that hint? I hope so.

I've refocused on work for the first time in a decade. I've set some huge fucking goals. I want to hit it big and I've given my team through the end of next year. I'm going to do it and then I'm going to fuck off from work and shift my priorities to something else - something more fulfilling. It's still to early but I want to take some of those self-improvement things we did together and do something with them for others. I'm using them on myself so I can see how they work and where they need to be fine-tuned. We'll see how it all goes.

I'm trying to figure out what makes me genuinely happy. All of my belief systems have been shattered tbh. I ... don't know yet if that's bad or good or just is what it is. I don't know anything atm about love or happiness or fulfillment or ... anything. I'm still more than a bit lost. You untethered me from everything I knew about myself. I'm not saying this is a bad thing ... I'm saying ... I don't know what comes next. Knowing me, it's going to be fucking great and better than it was. I've always been pretty good at solving problems and making great things happen for myself and those around me (as you know).

I'm doing my best to be kind to myself. I am not sure when the last time I was kind to myself was. I honestly can't remember when I've had a decent thing to say about myself. It's always been "do better" "be better" stuff. I'm working on it as fast as I can. Beating yourself up is an awful way to live. Not sure why I need your splitting on me to figure that out.

I have realized ... despite everything ... I am a good and decent and kind person. I lost sight of that for a hot minute there. I'm not perfect. Hah. Nope. But I do the best I can and I am quick to take steps to change up when I know I've fucked up. But yeah ... I'm good and decent and kind. I know those things now better than I ever have.

And ... you are good too. I know it deep down in my soul.

I see it in you. You are not your father. Far from it.

And you didn't permanently hurt me here. Lots of good will come from this. Believe it. Thank you for everything.

And I believe good things will happen for you. I have full faith in you.

I am no longer in a position to tell you what to do but ... please work on your trauma. For your own sake. And find a new path in life. I know you feel like your current job is your life but ... that job will bring you nothing but misery and sorrow and trauma and damage.

You deserve better. You know that. Deep down, you know everything we shared showed you a different path.

You deserve far better.

You might need to go through some pain to get on a new path but I know who you are. I know you are a fighter and know how to get shit done. You can and will do it. Start planning. Start doing.

And legit ... I'm still here and willing to boost you along in life.

I've always wanted one thing: to see you reach your full potential. It's amazing. The world is waiting to see it.

One final thing that I have discovered and honestly I feel really good about this one - even if you never reach out again:

I love you sincerely and wish nothing but the best.

[sailsinstorms]

Legacy of the Girls - Part 11

Let's continue reading, shall we?

Once again Molly saves the day by putting out a fire. This girl has absolutely no fears. I love it.

I guess technically it's a "new year" in Willow Creek now. I feel like I haven't been playing with these girls much at all and yet somehow we've done quite a bit and come pretty far. Somehow, it still feels like the very beginning.

Loren: I've got this crazy theory about UFO's. Actually, I think aliens have been living on this planet since before we were born. They have probes in our deepest oceans and occasionally bring them up to survey how the world is going. Then the probes go deep again.

Loren: And one day, once the world reaches its peak in technology, the aliens will return and steal it!

Poor Hiroki is thoroughly unimpressed by Loren's theories right now...

Hiroki: Okay, I hear what you're saying sweetheart. But I ended my marriage to an alien. She was pretty nice too. They're definitely not here to steal our technology - maybe they're just here for love? Loren: Ugh, Hiroki, you're so passive!

The both of them were still really upset about the fire so they were walking around after each other like this. It was so cute <3

I don't know what's going on with Winter at the moment. She really likes Marcel, but she also keeps messing around with this Darumk guy. I can't tell if he likes her or not. Sometimes he does, sometimes he doesn't.

Today he likes her I guess!

Solar doesn't seem to have much going on in her love life and she's always asking to schedule a date - but she doesn't know anyone! So today we've taken a hike out to the desert along with Molly and Radley to see if we can meet some people.

We met a celebrity. That was exciting!

He slapped her around a bit. I think she was coming on too strongly. It's okay Solar. We'll find you someone eventually.

Molly really wanted to show this girl her guitar skills. The poor thing is literally backed up into a corner with Molly standing on top of her. Haha.

I actually think she liked it though <3

As the day went by Solar didn't really meet or click with anyone and ended up having grilled corn with Radley late into the night. (Molly went to work). Solar: All I wanted was someone to kiss at New Years. Why is dating so hard? Radley: You are asking the wrong person.

Winter's feeling like a bit of Marcel today. That's nice. She's got her men on a rotating roster just like her shifts at the hospital.

She's so cute. I think Winter is the kind of girl who gets smitten with people really easily. <3

Round 2 of trying to get Solar (and Radley?) to meet people! Today we're back at the Gym because that's where all the magic happens. I've bought Loren along with them because she's a social magnet and genuinely gets along with everyone.

Solar: Even if you have a lot of money I'm not interested in being a sugar baby. Thanks for the offer though.

Solar: My love life is in shambles. What should I do Sir Werewolf? Werewolf: You poor girl. Have you tried online dating?

Solar don't you dare strike up a conversation with that man! He gave you crab lice remember? We are not living through that shit show again. You were miserable. Walk away. WALK AWAY.

Oh wow, she's suddenly surrounded by men. Okay, who's this cutie in the blue shirt. He's very striking? Please talk to him and not Knox, Solar. I know he looks like a teenager (haha!) but he's a young adult, I swear.

Knox: *trying to impress Solar with push ups* Solar: *ignores* Hay, so can I get your number? Or give you mine? Paka'a: Sure! I'd love that!

Get it girl.

I don't know why but Eliza Pancakes is walking around in the nude and the werewolf is the ONLY ONE who realizes this isn't okay; but everyone else if freaking out about the werewolf.

It doesn't make sense. Make it make sense!

Loren: Oh my God hi Eliza! Wow, you look great today!

Trust Loren to be proud of someone and their public indecency.

After getting back to the lot this guy was running around in fear behind our house. Loren tried to calm him down and he just went crazy and started yelling at her.

This then scared the hell out of Loren. I mean who wouldn't freak out if someone was on your property acting like a crazy person? To this day I have no idea why he was so scared.

HOLY SHIT WINTER!

Girl I'm so sorry! At least I know who the father is. It's Marcel. I'm pretty sure they didn't use protection the last time they were woohoo'ing. Hmm. I'm not sure how we should approach this?

I had to bench Winter and her freak out over pregnancy for a hot minute because I realized Solar and Radley had been woohoo'ing in Molly's room!?!?

WHAT THE HELL?

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[callmearcturus]

Okay so. I think I said this elsewhere but I can't find that post.

There are Cruise Experts out there who can speak to this shit more specifically but here's the gist.

For the past... 15? 20? years? TC's life was the blackboxing of everything. TC does not talk about himself, he does not share his opinions on anything outside his work, he is an intensely private person. The man is mythically good at talking around questions and having an ironclad interview persona. The most we get about him personally is all secondhand from the people in his life (okay, from McQuarrie, his life partner) and folks who work with him.

This blackboxing probably came from two things. The first was The Homophobia. When TC was younger, there was a lot more overt queer vibes in his work, whether its his turn as one of the OG Depraved Bisexuals as Lestat or the hardcore Vibes of The Color of Money or Fucking Top Gun.

But the problem is that it wasn't 2024, it was the 80s and the 90s, and one of The Premium Jokes around TC was that oh yeah he's a faggot and all the women in his life are beards. And I use the hard-F word deliberately because that was the environment. This was before the repeal of DADT, before Modern Family, before Prop8, before the legalization of gay marriage.

Yeah, we all know there's a lot of queer people in the entertainment biz, but being known as one of The Queers would ruin a career. And the worst type of speculation was aimed at TC for years. (Which, that phrasing implies that it ever stopped, but lets be real here.)

Later, around the early 00s came the very messy public meltdown around couch jumping and scientology and the TC Is Crazy memes. Which, I know I'm repeating myself, but I was a young adult at this time and I remember being uncomfortable about the entire thing- like, I remember when Jonathan Coulton posted A SONG about "Tom Cruise Crazy" a fucking SONG about it.

Anyway, a lot of his actions were concerning, but people didn't react with concern, they acted by digging in deeper and deeper looking for even more ways to paint TC as a freak. It was kind of the apex of the worst kind of tabloid journalism shit.

And idk I wish we had a glimpse into the alternate universe where the public reacted to all this with actual concern for him, because I feel like the timelines are Fucking Different. But this was way before we had today's understanding of mental health. This was back when admitting you were seeing a therapist was not a "oh good for you" thing, it was a "lol oh so you're a wackjob huh" thing. I lived through it, I remember that shit.

Anyway, between the homophobia and the tabloids, TC blackboxed his life both I assume to protect himself from all of that and also to rebuild his reputation. I don't mean to disparage his work around.... (checks mental brain files) after MI3 and all the way up to RN and Fallout, but the roles he was picking were definitely safer bets. The way he was portrayed was safer. I think it's faaaair to say that his modus operandi became "Well, no one wants to to treat me like a person so what I'll give them is the movie star," and that became his entire public persona. Everything else is kept between him and his friends and family, and it's not shared.

Which, i kind of have a lot of respect for, personally. I've been of the opinion for a long long long long time now that if you gave me the choice of knowing things about artists and creators or never knowing anything about them personally again, I would take the latter in a heartbeat. I don't like the way being a creative person demands that you be accessible. It's fun when I learn something about a creator I like that makes them #relateable to me, but also I don't want to have access to that knowledge.

Which makes the "well what about TC and the gays" question interesting to me because I certainly have my own opinion on the guy because I have an impeccable gaydar that has been proven right many times over the years.

(my last hyper-accurate ping was eyepatch wolf, called that one)

But also its none of my business, and I respect the blackbox.

From afar, it seems like TC is moving (or has already moved) to a new stage of his life post-blackbox. Because another thing about the Playing It Safe period was that a lot of his roles tried to sidestep around conventional sexuality/sensuality. But it feels like with shit like TGM and American Made, he's letting go of that. Which, awesome, because the sexlessness of Hollywood is fucking depressing, I say this as an asexual.

But the growing puritanical pall in our media is a whole other discussion for another day.

I hope this illuminates some stuff, and I'm sorry for the long post. It's a lot of Context.

also we all saw how screamingly homoerotic TGM was. thanks TC, appreciate it.

Hey, this is Ghostbird from your /You'll Need a New Name to Survive This/ fic. You mentioned you had the Tom Cruise and the gays lore, and I am very interested, so whenever you've got a minute I'd appreciate it!

I kinda don't want this to wind up in the tags so I'm answering this now and later I'll reblog with the actual answer

The short version is "that man has blackboxed himself for very good reasons, one of which is homophobia" but I'll explain after I make dinner.

[twoidiotwriters1]

Copycat: The First Young Avenger —(Marvel Fem!Oc)

Words: 2,001

Warnings: Mild panic attack.

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Listen to: ‘God Must Hate Me’ -by Catie Turner

x: Miss Stark Holds Herself Accountable.

"I don't know what to say. I'm disappointed. I'm upset."

"The parent speech doesn't suit you, Tony."

"Yeah well, the angsty teenage phase is widely overdone too," He said without looking at her. "What were you thinking?"

"I wasn't, I thought that was clear."

"This is my fault, Tony..." Happy started quietly.

"No, the things you said to me this morning aren't the reason why I decided to scramble that girl's brain," C.C. groaned, rubbing her forehead tiredly. "It was my choice. I wasn't hitting her that hard anyway! Mr. Harrington pulled me up before I could let go and the hair simply came off! I swear I wasn't trying to hurt her! I just wanted to scare her!"

"And why on earth were you trying in the first place?" Tony finally looked at her from the front seat, brows knitted together. "You get insulted once and that's enough for you to go feral? D'you think that's enough?"

"No!" She clenched her jaw. "I tried to talk things out, I really did, I kept my cool but then... she said I was a freak."

"And you really proved her wrong, didn't you?"

"Tony, she's had a hard day..."

"No, you don't understand," Tony pointed at her. "She's stronger than she looks and far more experienced than any kid her age— she should know better than to start fights with another student."

"I'm supposed to let them step all over me simply because I'm not like them?"

"You ignore them— they're fifteen! The most they can do is talk behind your back and I'm sure you've gone through worse—"

"I can't remember my 'worse', alright? And even if I did it doesn't mean I'm not allowed to be upset about someone making fun of me!"

"You're allowed to be upset, you're not allowed to sit on them and rip their hair off!" He pinched the bridge of his nose. "I'll have to inform Fury and Rogers about this."

C.C.'s chest tightened with fear, but she kept a careless attitude. "If you must."

"He might take you away, you won't go back to school."

"I'll survive," She retorted stubbornly.

Tony sighed heavily, Happy entered the garage and C.C. walked out of the car quickly, she rushed all the way up to her room, threw her backpack to a side, and started to pace.

It was too early to call Wanda and Pietro, they would be training or having lunch, and she didn't feel like being scolded by them either. Fury would show up soon for sure, and he would order her to pack her bags, he'd tell her that he was disappointed.

"I don't give a shit about all this," She huffed. "I wanna go."

She burst into tears.

The girl made her way to the bed, she tried to dry her face and control her sobs, but it was useless. C.C.'s hands went up and closed tightly around some locks of hair, she was sick of everything and everyone, now more than ever she wanted to disappear, it was too much, being human was hard, especially when she wasn't one entirely.

Someone knocked on the door, she was unable to yell at them to go away. C.C. wanted to be left alone, but above everything, she wanted to be listened to.

The door opened quietly, Tony's cologne made itself present and she groaned, turning to face the wall. The girl hugged her legs and leaned against her headboard.

"I thought you were done lecturing me," She sniffed. "I've had enough for one day, and you're not my actual guardian, so..."

"I'm not here to fight," He took off his sunglasses and leaned back against the headboard as well, legs hanging from the mattress. "What did they say to make you this angry?"

"Is not what they said," She mumbled. "Is how they acted when I confronted them. Like I was stupid, like I was the one who was wrong."

"In other words, you cornered them and they played dumb?" Tony asked. "Yeah, people don't like it when you call them out in public."

"I thought the least they could do was admit they'd been shitty. I would've moved on afterward, I'm not petty, I was willing to ignore everything if only they'd admitted that what they did was bad."

"Really?" He raised a brow. "That would've been way too kind, some other person would've dropped the friendship on the spot. I would've done it."

"Yeah, you're not the first one to tell me I'm too naive, but it's not that I'm kind, or forgiving... it's that... well, let's be honest, it's not like I deserve better, right?"

Tony straightened on his place. "Excuse me?"

"I'm an experiment," She laughed through her tears. "I'm lucky most of my features are human, that I can blend in with the rest effortlessly— but I'm not like them. When Fury found me I was like a stray cat, I had injured innocent people to get out of my enclosure... what I'm trying to say is that I'm not a real person, so I can't force them to treat me like one."

"Copycat..."

"No like, I see the other kids, and they wear all kinds of clothes but I can't— cause I'm scared it'll give me a panic attack if my blouse gets stuck on a door— and I rather drop dead than to have a mental breakdown in front of the others—"

"Kid—"

"And I don't like cutting my hair cause I have a big scar at the back of my head— and I can't remember how I got, or why, and I hate to think that they'll see it and think I'm even weirder. What did they do to me? W-what am I?"

She held her legs tighter, unaware of her claws.

"I'm a freak. Everyone else chose to become what they are... I didn't have a choice, and I'll always be an aberration—"

"Friday, activate lullaby protocol," Tony spoke up.

The window darkened for a brief second before projecting a forest scene, out of the speakers she could now hear birds singing, and the distant sound of running water. C.C. looked up and her mind stopped, she spoke in awe.

"What's this?"

"When I became Iron Man, life didn't get easier," He explained. "You're way younger than I was then, I thought you would need help at some point. You're a tough kid, but as soon as you started school I created this protocol."

"I would've killed to have this thing on for the past two weeks..."

"If you would've spoken to me, I would've told you sooner," He commented.

"Well, it's not like you're around that often, is it?"

"True," Tony looked ahead, sighing once more before standing. "I'll call Fury, and if you want you can go back to the Avengers facility with him, it's up to you. I don't think he'll try to take you away, I was lying."

"Really?"

"Yeah, you're not used to cruel teens and it was only a matter of time before one of them pushed you over the edge."

"Fury will be disappointed."

"Maybe, but I'm the biggest disappointment in this team, Kit, that's a fact."

C.C. gave him a timid smile. "You're probably right."

"I'm always right," He told her. "Wash your face, otherwise your eyes will get all red and swollen and then you won't look human."

"Did you hold back when you hit her?"

"I barely slapped her— the hair incident only happened 'cause my hand got stuck. Didn't even use my claws."

"But you threw her to the ground and use your backpack to attack her."

"Yeah, but as soon as I realize what I was doing I just kept her on the ground, I would've dropped it had she apologized on the spot."

Fury stopped his pacing in the living room and stared at her.

"Are you proud of your actions?"

"No," She kept her gaze down. "I'm not an animal, I'm a person. In the future, I'll refrain from acting on a whim."

"My agents are allowed to make mistakes... but only once. Make an error like this again and I'll take you back to the facility, understood?"

"Yes, sir."

The man watched her carefully.

"Agent," He gave a step forward. "You're certain you want to stay?"

C.C. looked up and smiled.

"It's either this or going back to the facility. At least here I've got things to do, back there... I'd be waiting around until the next mission."

He nodded, lowering his gaze. "I see you're wearing shoes now."

"They're not so bad," She moved her feet a little. "I had the wrong impression of 'em, thought they would slow me down, but I had no problem while I was kicking my classmate's ass."

Fury let out a puff of air that she would've sworn was a laugh.

"Midterms are coming," He started to walk away. "I expect you to get high marks—"

"Will I get a reward if I do?"

"How about gaining my trust back?" Fury offered. "Don't get cocky."

"They said what?"

"After you left, Lily heard your uncle as you were leaving, and apparently she heard him say you were on thin ice, that you'd be back behind bars or something—"

"So now they think the reason I left Mexico... is that I was in a juvy?"

MJ shrugged. "Told you they lost it."

C.C. laughed, Tony had said something like that, but he was talking about going back to the avengers facility, not jail!

"And they think I'm a wanted criminal or something?"

"They think you left the country to escape your record," MJ passed her the bag of chips. "Did you?"

"Oh yeah, I killed a bunch of people to get here," C.C. said. "That's not the reason why I got locked up, though."

"What's the reason?"

"I'm half alien and they wanted to run experiments on my body."

MJ snorted. "Awesome."

They sat at the first partially empty table they found, there was only one boy there, and he had his face so close to his phone he hadn't noticed them.

"Some of that is kinda true, though," C.C. sighed. "If I don't get good grades on my midterms I'm most likely going to get transferred to another school— or I'll be homeschooled until I'm twenty..."

"Were your parents pissed when they found out about the fight?"

"Mom was pretty pissed, but my dad was kinda expecting this to happen... I'm not grounded, though."

"Cool, then we can hang out after class, I have this movie I wanna show you..."

"Would love to, but I think I should focus on catching up with my studies first, I swear I can't remember half of what we see in class! I'm confident I'll pass most of them, but chemistry is kicking my ass..."

"Have you considered joining a study group?"

"Didn't you say everyone thinks I'm a wanted criminal?" C.C. said sarcastically. "Yeah, they're dying to have me around— bet they'll be making a line to tutor me."

"I can tutor you."

The girls looked at the source of the voice: Peter Parker was now seated next to the other boy, who was looking at him with wide eyes.

"Hi, Peter!" C.C. smiled. "Would you really? I should warn you that I'm really dumb—"

"You're not dumb," He said, now a bit shier than before. "I mean, I'm free to tutor you if you want, but I'm sure you could join a study group—"

"No, I think I rather study with you, if you have time," She said, moving her body so she could face him. "When can we start?"

The other boy aggressively whispered something to Peter, but the boy elbowed him and responded right away.

"Friday?"

"Friday's perfect," C.C. replied.

"You know Peter?" MJ questioned once they were out of the cafeteria.

"Not really, I helped him a few days ago," She replied. "This is just him helping me back."

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[legobiwan]

Hey, I actually went to see the new Spiderman movie the other night! (Masked and boostered, I am a responsible Lego). Spoilers ahoy, exit now if you would prefer to remain uninformed.

The first part of the movie went fast, like the Roadrunner on a cocaine binge fast. And I've seen some interpretations that the turbo slideshow running from Peter's identity being revealed to the trial to the court of public opinion to the whole school/MIT situation could be a mirroring of how the events both felt and unfolded for Peter in real-time, especially as a teenager.

This being said, I think that's a generous interpretation. Admittedly, I haven't actually watched the other MCU Spiderman films, but I know enough through internet osmosis to be familiar with the backstory. And even with that, the first act felt like a roller coaster about to careen off the tracks.

Charlie Cox is awesome. His inclusion in the film was 110% fan service plus introducing him into the greater, non-Netflix MCU. I'm curious if Feige and co. will "sanitize" the Netflix characters, as Disney seems afraid of going as gritty as Netflix.

I need to think about Stephen Strange's characterization in terms of casting the memory spell. (And yes, the spell was 100% hand-waving and Strange's presence in this movie was also 100% as a plot device). While I know he is kind of flippant, in general, he seemed to be casting aside any form of responsibility here. Maybe because he doesn't have the Time Stone anymore? Or he's just burnt out from the whole Thanos thing?

Speaking of Strange, I LOVED that he got his Loki, "I've been falling for 30 minutes!" moment with the Grand Canyon. If Loki ever met this universe's Peter Parker, I'm sure he'd be thrilled, hahahaaha.

Honest to gods, I would have been happy with an entire movie of just the villains talking and fighting and negotiating. Especially Alfred Molina and Willem Dafoe. The sequence where they were all zapped into Strange's chambers was easily my favorite. (Something tells me I will go feral if some form of Thunderbolts movie/show ever manifests as there is nothing better than a bunch of complicated villains trying to work together).

My theater freaked when Andrew Garfield came on screen. Far more so than Tobey.

Out of the three, I have to say Andrew's version was by far the most charming and my personal favorite. It has been a very long time since I've seen those movies (if I even saw all of them, which I honestly don't remember), but I really enjoyed his particular iteration.

I thought the detail with the Statue of Liberty carrying The Shield was fascinating. Apparently, this movie takes place after Falcon and the Winter Soldier, so I'm thinking the symbolism of the shield falling might have to do with John Walker's fall from grace? But maybe not.

(Also, I'm just picturing Bucky having a shit-fit about the fact they are retrofitting the bloody Statue of Liberty with the shield. Also, as an in-universe thing, just...wow. This movie also apparently takes place just before the Hawkeye series, meaning Rogers: The Musical! is in previews. Meaning a lot of people are pushing the Steve Rogers narrative even after John Walker crapped things up and Sam came out as the new Captain America. Which I find interesting in that you have to think certain factions are desperate to recapture the past (Steve), ready to steamroll over the unpleasant, recent present (John), and not willing to accept the future (Sam). And, you know, looking at our real-world political climate...)

(Yeah, if this timeline holds, then the surge in Steve Rogers imagery can't be a fluke. Forget John Walker and yeah, we're not "sure" about Sam Wilson *ahem*, let's just venerate Steve Rogers and his crew and our glorious past and attach the shield to the fucking Statue of Liberty which sends all kinds of weird-ass messages in this context and I want that conversation between Sam, Bucky and whoever else about that because wow.)

Anyway, I'm a little obsessed with the whole shield/Statue of Liberty thing and I'm glad the Spidermen plus Green Goblin took that out. And hopefully, it stays out.

Getting back to the movie...was it just me, or was the soundtrack a little overdramatic for the action? Lots of full-on choral music, high symphonic, Strauss-ian stuff and it felt really overblown for what this movie was.

I will say the humor was pretty well-balanced for an MCU flick. And Jonah Jameson 1000% channeling Alex Jones by not only emulating his speech style, but hawking supplements at the end of his piece made me cackle.

Honestly, Tom Holland and Zendaya and all of the "nu-crew" are good actors, but Molina, Dafoe, and Garfield (and Foxx, too) stole the show for me.

Like many recent MCU movies, there was just so much packed into this film that it barely had any time to breathe and really explore the issues it set forth. The second act, for me, was by far the best, as we at least touched briefly on the villain characterizations and their interactions with their alternate universe nemeses.

Rushed, but entertaining. The action scenes were what they were, but there was potential in there for so much more. Added points for fan service although I would have swapped that for some more character development. 7/10

[daggerlove]

The online fretting at them not discussing anything related to S2 is making me a little sad. Nobody knows what's going to happen next season, but I the creative team 100% knows that the Twitter teens are a minority. A sucky minority, sure, but a minority. If Marvel listened to Twitter stans, Steve and Bucky would be canon and Wanda would have been written out 3 movies ago lol

Under read more bc this got too long, sorry.

Yeah, I'm sorry but the doom and gloom discourse that happened yesterday's so ridiculous. I worked 11 hours yesterday, was exhausted beyond words, still excited for the panel even though I was aware we're likely not getting anything new bc that's how Marvel rolls and then to see people freaking out over something so meaningless was both confusing and annoying.

I thought it was pretty obvious the RTS twitter was posting only a few quick bits and pieces from an overall 1+ hour long panel. And people completely lost their shit over the lack of content and thought that short thread was it, when in fact...there's so much more stuff and we're getting it soon.

People freaked out over Sophia only answering two questions in that thread, but then it was later revealed she was actively engaging with conversation the entire time and she wasn't ignored at all.

People freaked out bc apparently they didn't talk about Sylki and it's all doom now, but then it turned out they actually did talk about the ship lol

So...I truly don't get some ppl sometimes.

The event in itself focused mostly on writing, casting, random bts stuff, y'kno, pretty much the same old thing. I've said it before on Twitter but I'm still waiting for someone to mention He Who Remains/Kang or talk about that character in these new interviews, but it's unlikely to happen until promo for S2 and/or Quantumania starts. They basically haven't mentioned him at all in months. And he and the mere implications of his character and are enormous and huge deal for both Marvel and the show and no one's discussing him in interviews. Does that mean the character is dropped, erased, gone?

Like, it's pretty obvious that there's a clear set of stuff they're allowed to say at these interviews. The fact that they're not even discussing their own characters that much should be a clear sign that there's no deeper meaning to this, other than studio mandates, to keep stuff as vague as possible and focus on other things.

We won't learn new important things about season 2 at these events. We will learn that through casting, extras casting, bts info, potential pap photos and eventually whatever they decide to show us via promo footage.

And yeah, the crew definitely knows twitter is a minority lol. Even Eric called it an echo chamber months ago.

It's amusing that they think Marvel listens to what stans have to say because...nothing could be farther from the truth.

If Marvel listened to stans Stucky and all similar popular fanon ships would be canon. Steve's ending would be different. Tony wouldn't have died. Loki wouldn't have died. Natasha wouldn't have died. Characters would have vastly different arcs.

I remember people disliked Ragnarok bc they changed Loki and Thor's characters too much and they made petitions, hate tagged Taika, argued with fans who loved Ragnarok and thought it was great and what did Marvel do? Instead of catering to the demands of people who wanted Loki and Thor to revert back to their old personalities, they did the exact opposite and made sure Loki and Thor got stuck with that characterization for good, because it worked, the general fans and the public loved it.

Marvel caters sometimes by giving the fans some ripped-straight-from-comics refs or quotes, "avengers assemble" and similar stuff but catering to them on a larger level, one that affects the plot and the project's overall story? lol no

[arsonistslut]

Chapter 9: Reminders of Tragedy

"Hey, Jane!"

"Hey, Ingrid! How is my favorite person in the world?"

Jane's girlfriend of a good 9 years now happily walked over and kissed her on the cheek, beaming as she always seemed to do whenever she looked at her lover.

"Amazing now that you're here. Hey, you wanna go to that party Randy's having at his house tomorrow?"

"He's having a party? I didn't figure him the partying type."

"Despite the whole business parents thing, he is a real party animal. Hey, you know what's weird about the party?"

"What is?"

"He invited that Jeff guy there..y'know, that creep with the Conduct Disorder?"

She gestured to the tall, dark clothed young adult that sat alone at a lunch table nearby, playing with a switchblade.

"Hey, I remember him being pretty nice.."

"Remember him? You two date at some point?"

"We did, actually, wayyyy back."

Jane smirked when she saw the look of surprise and pride on Ingrid's face when she realized she guessed right.

"What was he like?"

"He was a sweetheart. Cheesy, but a sweetheart. Hell, even cheesier than me."

"Jane, you've carved our names into multiple trees. There's no out-cheesing that."

"Oh, you wouldn't believe how we met, either. My dad was out mowing the lawn, and he accidentally ran over a rock and it hit Jeff in the head."

"Oof, that sounds bad.."

"I visited him in the hospital with my parents one time, and I will never forget what he said to me as a pick-up line."

"What did he say?"

Jane cleared her throat, before trying her darndest to do an impression of a young Jeff.

"Did you come from heaven? Because you look like an angel!"

Ingrid couldn't help but let out a giggle as she quickly pulled Jane into her arms.

"Aww, that sounds so cute!"

"It was!"

Jeff himself was hearing this conversation from afar, the little tricks he played with his knife not an adequate distraction from the constant reminder of what could've been.

"I don't think he handled our breakup too well..nobody really wanted to treat him as anything other than a freak after his diagnosis went public. One time, I heard him ranting to his brother about how it was hypocritical of the school to do a health topic on depression when they wouldn't stop judging him for his CD."

"Sheesh, it sounds like he's been through a lot..poor kid could use a friend."

"It doesn't really look like he wants any. Liu isn't sitting with him..that's weird, Liu always sits with him."

"Prolly had an argument or something, you know siblings."

"Yeah.."

The day continued without incident, Jeffrey getting home at the same time as usual..yet his mind was not thinking about the party, or school, he was thinking about Jane and Ingrid. Why was Jane so special that she had everything she wanted in life and not him? What crime did he commit that landed him with absent parents, demonization from his peers, and a fucking smile cut into his face? That love, that relationship they had..Jeff came to the conclusion that it was something to be destroyed.

Liu, meanwhile, was..struggling with something. Something he never expected would be a problem in his life. Lately, he began having these thoughts..these violent, awful, intrusive thoughts, thoughts that seemed to be begging to be spoken aloud, the actions they describe seeming to grow more and more appealing as time passed.

Kill Randy.

Maim Keith.

Skin Troy like the cattle he is.

Maybe if he gave the thoughts an identity, they'd be easier to handle, he thought as he thought of a name for these urges..one stood out from the others. Not at all goofy, but not as laughably edgy as the other options.

Chapter 10: Enter Sully

Liu ended up speaking to Sully for the entire night..and even into the morning. When Jeff woke up the next morning, he could already hear Liu downstairs talking with..someone.

"It's sad, really..so concerned about themselves..no time spared for you."

"I-I guess..but they've got more important things to worry about.."

"Child, they do not have a thought in them about you. They're all self centered egomaniacs that would rather get pushed around by a genetic failure of a human rather than do anything about their situation!"

"That's not true, Sully! You're lying!"

A horrible growl soon came from the room.

"We are friends, child! Friends do not lie to each other, do they?"

"I..I guess not..goodbye for now, Sully."

"Where are you going?"

"I..I need some time to think."

Liu got back up, jumping from fear when he saw his brother staring at him.

"Holy shit, Jeff! You scared me!"

"I bet."

Awkward silence soon filled the dining room where they stood.

"Hey, Jeff...?"

"What?"

"I'm..sorry about punching you, and saying all that shit about you. I shouldn't have done that."

"No shit, Sherlock."

The elder brother turned around and began walking back up to his room, but not before his brother called out to him.

"Hey..is there any way I could make things up between us?"

"You could make things up by not betraying my trust again. You're all I've got, Liu..don't pull a Jane and fuck it up for me."

Liu always did question that grudge Jeff held for his ex, after all, he chatted with her in the past, and it always seemed like she genuinely enjoyed what her and Jeff had, and she always felt bad for leaving him like that. Hell, it sounded like it was as painful for her to leave him as it was for him to find out that his girlfriend left him. He was tempted to point that out, but he feared ruining things with his brother again.

"Alright.."

Chapter 11: A Hell of A Party

When Jane and Ingrid rounded the corner home, they found..a disturbing sight. A dead raccoon laying in the middle of the street, it's guts ripped out of it's body and thrown aside, Jeff gleefully pawing through the freshly murdered animal, childishly gawking and giggling over the corpse.

"Hey, Jeffrey! What happened here, what the fuck did you do?!"

Ingrid cried out to the blood-soaked kid, who looked up at her, confusion riddling his bloodied face.

"I killed a raccoon. It's not like anyone's gonna miss it."

"Why, you little-"

Ingrid slapped Jeffrey right across the face, knocking him to the ground as Jane held her girlfriend back and tried to keep the situation from escalating any further.

"What the hell was that for?!"

"You killed a helpless animal, you freak!!"

"I oughta kill you next, you piece of-"

Woods choked on his own spittle as he made his threat, never having been particularly..elegant with his words.

"Oh, really?! I'll kick your teeth down your fucking throat!"

"I swear to God, I'll strangle you with your own fucking intestines!!"

When Jeff reached for his switchblade, Jane panicked and grabbed her lover's hand, running off with her as Woods continued to scream at them.

"Your last words better be some Mark Twain shit, because it's going on your tombstone!! You hear me?!"

That experience was all on Jane's mind as she watched Jeff steadily get more and more wasted by the bonfire outside as time went on, at least, what glimpses she could catch of him when she wasn't busy dancing with the other students. Randy was also outside, reluctantly playing Truth Or Dare with the others as well as his increasingly hot and bothered enemy.

"Ok, Jeff!"

"Whaddup, baby?~"

"Truth or dare?"

"Dare, hit me with the worst ya got!"

"Slow dance with Randy."

"What the-no! I'm straight as a arrow, dude!"

"So is spaghetti until it gets wet~"

"Jeff, never say that again."

"C'mooooon, do the dare, ya pussy~ I don't bite!~"

Woods took his time getting up, but still had enough cognitive function to put on Grover Washington Jr's "Just The Two Of Us", to try and improve the mood, but Randy still wasn't having any of it. In a last ditch effort to try and seduce Randy, Jeffrey just..up and took his shirt off. That'll get things going, right? No, it didn't. Despite some swooning from some of his classmates, Randy himself didn't want any part of this. He was a few drinks deep as well, so in a drunken haze, he grabbed one of the bottles of booze they had, took a running start, and smashed it right over Jeff's head. The problem with that is that they were only a couple feet away from a bonfire, so when Jeff stumbled backward, he fell right into it, the alcohol on his exposed flesh quickly igniting. He quickly burst into flames, screaming and running off as the fire quickly seared his body, every remaining nerve ending he had that wasn't burnt away shocking his body with waves of pain. He could feel his scalp burning up once his hair was scorched away, finally finding solace in a nearby puddle that put out the flames. Jeff could see his life flashing before his eyes..his family, his brother..that was all he could see. As Randy and the other students' screams of horror faded away, Woods silently cursed himself for not doing anything more with his life..a single bloody tear rolled down his face as he shut his eyes for what he believed would be the last time.

Chapter 12: The End Of The Beginning

Suddenly..he was in some sort of void. The ground beneath him was black as pitch, and footsteps began to grow ever closer to him. When Jeff looked to see who was approaching, he found no earthly being waiting for his attention. When he laid his eyes on whatever approached, the previously totally dark void began to turn a sickly red. What stood before him was a monster unlike any other, an otherwordly monster many believed to be a mere tall tale.

HE COMES.

[blissfulsaturn]

Story time:

I don't know if anyone cares or wants to read this, but I'm gonna tell y'all when and why did i start believing in Charmie. So buckle up, who ever is reading this.

I've been a part of a lot of fandoms and they were usually about movies/TV shows/actors/actresses. I've always been a shipper of characters and not actors, I'd search their pictures by their character's names, read and write fanfics about the characters, i did everything that involved just their characters. Example : i used to ship Stiles and Derek from Teen Wolf, just them, not Dylan O'Brien or Tyler Hoechlin, same thing with the Maze runner, i shipped Newt and Thomas, and now Thomas Brodie Sanger and Dylan O' Brien (oh Dylan...lol) etc.

And then i saw Call me by your name, and i was shipping (still do) Elio and Oliver, but there was something more to it, i couldn't wrap my finger around it, something was missing, like it wasn't enough that it was just them. So i went online and watched all the interviews with Timothée and Armie.

Honestly, something you need to know about me, i was never involved in a private life of a celebrity or knew all this PR, Hollywood, fake relationships shit until i came here on Tumblr. So when i watched the interviews i was like "Aww they're such good friends, they're really close if they talk like that and touch each other like that, if they compliment each other like that etc", because i was like "You can't ship two actors, are you insane?? Armie's happily married with two kids, his wife looks good (on photoshopped pics, i never zoomed in her eyes and jaw), and Timmy's definitely straight and all that bs."

So time goes by, and I'm still shipping just Elio and Oliver, and Armie and Timothée like bros and good friends (that rolled around naked on bed, and made out for 10+ minutes).

And then TIFF happened and that was a breaking point for me. Even before TIFF when Timmy showed up after being a ghost for 6 months, and he showed up for Armie Hammer. That kind of spiked in my book, that was the first time i gave myself a permission to believe there's more to it than just friends. And then the TIFF hug and everything that happened at TIFF.

So i joined Tumblr and realized i wasn't the only one with that opinion, it was good but still wasn't enough for me. Now, I've seen Charmie being spread around and never really took it seriously, like i saw them as nothing but friends. But that hug, that hug was...everything to me. I'd think of Armie being married and then the hug, I'd think Timmy's probably straight, and then the hug. The TIFF hug undid all the doubts i had of them being just friends.

Then SSIFF happened and the rumor about Tim going to dinner with LRD and then his eyes, those sad eyes, he wasn't sick, we've seen him being sick, it wasn't the same. No, those eyes were pure sadness and anxiety, and i remember seeing him like that and all I wanted to do is fly over to Spain to hug him for whatever reason.

Fast forward to the first Central Park picture of Tim and Lily.

That's when i got very suspicious. Okay, they were at TIFF and SSIFF, there was no interaction, that rumor of them going to the same dinner was just a rumor until the black and white picture came out months later (where Timmy looked like he was holding some sort of guard), how come this relationship just sparked out of nowhere? (Lily was on the set for 2 weeks, no time to fall in love) Then Mud happened, then those pictures from the rain, then those from Central Park, and all the gossips and rumors and made up stories...everything was so suspicious to me. So i log onto Tumblr again and saw all the theories and i tried to develop my very own.

If Charmie was just a fantasy, and it was made up by couple of people on the internet, then it shouldn't bother anybody, because it was just a fantasy, and this relationship began so close to the TIFF hug that got me thinking "What if it's not just a fantasy but something real, and they're covering something up?". Because, let's face it, not in a millions of years would I ever put Timmy and Lily together in a relationship. He was Tim, and she was very problematic (from family to drugs, lbr). It got me to question either Timmy and his choice of women, or his PR team (I learned that here). But Timmy went on being his perky self and this relationship just stunk to the core.

And from that point on, everything was smooth sailing.

Maybe I've gotten far into something I shouldn't have, but the point is, the reason why i started to believe in Charmie is because of the fake relationship. It was too close to them being publicly affectionate and too far from thinking Tim would really fall for a woman like that. I'm sure Lily's okay in a closed room alone, but in public, i don't like her very much and it has nothing to do with Tim, or me being a jealous person that wants Tim all for myself (he's not my type), i wouldn't follow someone like her and her insights in the world. Simple as that.

After that, i turned the film around and realized that they've probably been "together" since CMBYN promo or so. The fact that "friendship" like Tim's and Armie's had to be covered by a fake girlfriend and a wife that was rather a control freak, then i got my thoughts straight.

Now i know what we say about Tim and Lily, and Armie and Liz, they could all be legit and really in love and happy, but...i just don't see it. And i know what we say about Tim and Armie could be false, or it could be true, we're just speculating, but my God, when all the pieces are put together, when all the videos of them gawking at each other, their body language, their eyes and compliments, just them being them...it's hard to see them as just friends and co-stars. They went through something when they were filming CMBYN, and I seriously doubt they stopped at that. I think this movie awoke something in both of them and they deepened the bond and it got them where they are now.

So, thank you PR teams for making me believe in Charmie, you did a shitty job and each time you screw up a bit, I believe in them even more, because the more you try to cover something up, the more real it gets for me. And it's not just them, it's the entire picture, this is very simple and people with logical thinking can see it also.

Conclusion : I am a Charmie, i love and support both Armie and Timmy separately and together, i don't like Lily and i think Liz is very...something. No hate, this is just my opinion on all this.

Have a great day, sorry for the long post, here's some Charmie love.❤️