#and put soichiro instead

[sadkachow]

Me and @theeviltwinduh were talking and we think we've come up with an idea of a Death Note au that takes place in a world with SOULs like in Undertale? It's kind of just a fun thinkpiece idea, but here's what we have so far:

SOUL TYPES:

L: determination

Light: integrity (until death note)

Matsuda: kindness

Soichiro: justice

Sayu: perseverance

Near: determination

Mello: bravery

Matt: perseverance

Watari: patience 

Misa: kindness (until Death Note)

Ryuk: monster soul (or soulless)

Rem: monster (soulless maybe)

What is unknown by Death Note users is the fact that using a Death Note means your soul slowly corrodes until it becomes nothing. Think Flowey style (but more gradually over time).

Remnants of the soul (if any) belong to the shinigami who originally owned the Death Note

Shinigami (which are one kind of monsters, although not all monsters are shinigami nor were all once Death Note users) were once humans, who, after exchanging their souls for the use of the Death Note, once they die, become shinigami.

[hoshinasblade]

second best |3| hoshina soshiro

PART 1 | PART 2 | BONUS: PART 3

pairing: hoshina soshiro x f!reader genre: slight angst, comfort, childhood friends to lovers, a bit of that miscommunication trope snippet: hoshina soshiro always ranks second at everything in his life. god forbid he falls behind in the bid for your heart too. word count: 2k trigger warnings: a bit suggestive at the end author's note: i promised a part three so here it is, hope you guys like it! likes, replies, and reblogs are welcome but im begging you not to copy or steal my works. feel free to sign up for my taglist (which i swear im gonna use on the next fic lol), and i appreciate when people send me asks so let me know your thoughts (or send me hoshina pics, that'd be great too). my masterlist is here! also i gotta let you know that i might put the next fic on hold because i am so tempted to start a short nsfw collection instead - just one-shots so it won't be a lot of commitments. who knows cause i might write angst and nsfw at the same time 😉

soshiro's hands were trembling. you noticed because it has not happened in a while - you cannot even recall the last time you've seen the man nervous, much less shaking. you were going to himeji that morning; hoshina had snatched your backpack from you - "when i said i would make it up to ya, i mean in every way i can," he said, sounding gentle and sincere that your only choice was to let him carry your belongings and blush as he also intertwined his fingers with yours while walking.

there is this story you have been hearing for a while - the red string theory, it is called. according to it, people who are destined to be together will always find each other despite everything and anything. when you were a kid, instead of thinking it romantic, you rather thought it is frightening - fate is a difficult enemy to go against: if it is meant to be, then it will be eventually. when you grew up, you held that belief as a prayer - it means that whoever is the one chosen for you may get lost on their way to you, but they will always - always - arrive.

you glanced at hoshina soshiro and you knew you were right to believe.

it was roughly a four-hour journey from tachikawa to himeji by train, and during the entire ride, even when he fell asleep for a short while, your boyfriend did not let go of your hand. you complained about your palms being sweaty as a joke, and he only loosened his hold. you understood - he is making it up to you, but he is also making up for all the wasted time.  

"we're almost there," you told him when he startled from his nap. his bangs were slightly messy, and he bumped his head to your shoulders. "comfy," he hummed. you giggled.

you are still trying to navigate through dating a high-ranking officer of an anti-kaiju defense force unit. relationships aren't strictly forbidden but still frowned upon, which was a little bit of an issue between you and soshiro when you had a proper and long-overdue conversation about what you guys were. confessing is one thing, but when being friends is all you've known your whole life, you know adjustments are supposed to be made here and there.

 which brings you and him back to your hometown.

he didn't exactly disagree with you, but you are aware he had his reservations about the idea of visiting himeji. "oh i'm pretty sure soichiro-kun would be surprised," you said when you were still planning the trip. "yes, we should kiss in front of him and give him a heart attack," soshiro suggested, and you weren't hundred-percent sure he was just joking. maybe you didn't want him to be.

when the streets started to look familiar, soshiro noted the sudden bounce in your pace. you and he have walked in the same alley years ago - he would wait for you after class and would even make up some ridiculous excuse so you could go home together. "i used to pretend to be tired way back just so i could convince you to slow down. i wanted to spend so much time with you," you reminisced.

"i should have known ya were head-over-heels for me," he teased.

"they miss ya, soshiro-kun. ya don't have anything to worry about." the change in topic wiped the smirk off his face. he was suddenly serious, sad even. there was a part of you that regretted saying the words, but he had to hear it - you only wanted to reassure him after all.

"just that i haven't been here for a long while", he said, squeezing your hand. "i don't know if they think this place is still my home."

"ya need to have faith in the people you care about, soshiro-kun. ya need to trust that they care about ya too," you solemnly advised. "i know that doesn't make any sense sometimes, but that's how i do it."

"have i told ya i love you so much?" he responded, to which you smiled.

"only a thousand times," you joked once more.

the hoshina estate is a spacious one - you have to pass through an automated black gate that directs you to the main house, the cobblestone path lined with cherry blossom trees, their delicate petals swirling when the wind blows gently; the grandeur of the home soshiro grew up in is undeniable with its traditional japanese architecture. a man with striking features and an aura of authority was waiting at the entrance, waiting for his son.

“father,” soshiro greeted the man, bowing deeply.

“an embarrassment that your friend will be the one to bring you home when you could have done it a long time ago,” soshiro’s father scolded him. his stare at soshiro was that of disappointment, which quickly disappeared when he looked at you. “ah, my dear, come on in, hurry, come on in,” he turned and said to you, inviting you in. the hoshina patriarch had always been fond of you - soshiro’s parents had wanted a daughter and they found one in you.

soshiro rolled his eyes. “my father’s favorite child is my girlfriend, great,” he muttered.

the maids made you a great dinner, cooking soshiro’s favorite food per his father’s request. conversation was light, and it was apparent that the old hoshina wanted to catch up so badly on how his son was doing, inquiring in consecutive questions about soshiro’s rank in the unit, his experiences so far, and his long-term plans in staying with the force. soshiro’s replies are detailed, but you know he intentionally did not mention all the instances where he almost died fighting.

soshiro’s father regaled you both with stories of soshiro’s childhood antics - “do ya remember, my dear, when soshiro tripped and fell on his face after training with soichiro? we were so worried, but he only fell asleep,” he recited the memory as if it was just yesterday., his kansai accent thick on his words. the tension that had lingered in the air had dissipated as you finished your meal.

“i had the guest room prepared for ya so ya can rest for tonight,” soshiro’s father had said when his son cut him off.

“no, we can sleep together,” soshiro declared, and thinking it might have sounded improper, he spoke again. “beside each other, i mean. in my room. because we’re tired. from travelling all day," he attempted to clarify but failed.

“ah, may i look forward to a grandchild soon from ya two?” color drained from your face as you slowly closed your eyes. you fought off a laugh but failed.

“ya may, but we aren’t doing that here of all places,” soshiro argued just as his father had turned his back on the both of you, amused with himself. at least now you know where soshiro got his sense of humor.

the hot shower felt great against your tensed muscles, and if you weren’t that exhausted, you would have opted for a bath instead. soshiro wanted to speak to his father alone, so when he ushered you inside his childhood bedroom, he’d let you know that he would be gone while you were cleaning yourself up. you were relieved; you haven’t seen your own father since you were a teenager, and it would be a shame to see it happening to the person you care about the most, not if you can do something about it. and this is not to say that you wanted to fix soshiro’s life - you pointed this out to him once - but he’s had a terrible habit of holding back and assuming the worst, so you had decided that if you could help him out, you would push him to the right direction.

“didn’t ya pack clothes?” his eyes were on you immediately after he came in, finding you on the bed with your phone, wearing his shirt.

“i did, but yours look better,” you replied, holding your arms out and showing him how oversized it is on you - the sleeves are passed your elbows, the hem reaching the middle of your thighs.

“they look better on ya, i agree.” he sat on the mattress for a few moments before lying down, his legs dangling off the edge of the bed. “ya all good?”

“i am,” you said to him. “especially because i scanned yer photos when ye're still little while ya were gone,” you informed him then showing him a folder you created in your device - baby hoshina soshiro folder, you named it - full of duplicates you made of the framed pictures of your boyfriend all over the house. there’s one where he didn’t have any hair at all; there’s one where he was close to crying but appeared to be keeping the tears in; there’s one where he was missing a tooth but smiling like there’s no tomorrow. soshiro moved to take your phone away, but you were quicker than him.

“this is payback, for all the times ya weren’t talking to me.” you were alluding to the three long months when you were still an applicant to the defense force and soshiro acted like you were a stranger. he had apologized for it already, but it is nice to make fun of him sometimes so you brought it up. “that hurt my feelings, ya know.” you laid down beside him, invading his personal space, your shoulders touching his.

“i was stupid”, he said. “and it’s not like i could have come up to ya and said, hey i’m sorry for leaving ya in himeji, by the way i’m crazy for ya.”

“and all those times i thought ya had something with commander ashiro, oh god!” you exclaimed for effect. “by the way, the other recruits thought the same.”

“it’s not like that between her and me.” his gaze on you was brief. “it’s not like that with anyone else.”

“it better not be, because i’m leaking all yer baby photos to the first division if ya mess up,” you threatened him despite not needing to.

“i promise, i won’t.” he grabbed your hand from your side and linked it with his, cradling it to his chest before bringing it to his lips. “i’m not that stupid.”

soshiro’s childhood room was what you would expect from a teenage boy: a king-sized bed, a bookshelf of manga, a cabinet showcasing knives and blades. you never had the opportunity to enter his room even when you were kids, you realized. you looked up to the ceiling and you saw green dots that formed shapes - makeshift constellations, you recognized the patterns - little plastic stickers that you glue to surfaces. “are those supposed to be stars?”

soshiro sighed, his arm on top of his face. “yeah, uh - remember when uh - i think that was in junior high, and ye're so into astronomy? i thought it’d be a good idea to know the names of the stars to impress ya, so i started trying to memorize them.”

you shifted to face him, speechless. maybe if you had known this, if you had known the other things you are certain now that soshiro had done and was willing to do for you, you wouldn’t have wasted years questioning your place in his life and deciphering his feelings. a wave of warmth washed over you as you reached out and lifted his arm off his face, meeting his eyes.

soshiro’s lips felt as soft as it looks like, you thought as you kissed him. you pushed yourself into him, and he pulled you tighter until it seemed there was not enough air for you to breathe - until your chests were pressed together it was as if your hearts were beating as one. something sparked inside you; the sensation of being so close to soshiro about to consume you from within. his hand crawled to your hips and remained there. you drew back a bit after that, and when you saw the panicked look on his face, you kissed him again.

“i love you,” you told him in between pants.

the night went on, and by the end of it, hoshina soshiro discovered that his favorite sound is you moaning his name.

[justwinginglife]

hi!!!!^^ uhm may I request soshiro hoshina x reader where they are forced to get married but hoshina is unhappy and tried to get the reader to hate which lead to a massive argument between you two you can decide the ending^^ or maybe just he found you heavily injured after the battle because you can't focus?(angst with happy ending)

it's ok if you don't want to make it^^. please don't mind my english it's not my first language

I totally don't mind your English, thank you so much for the request, I'll do my best with it! I appreciate you reaching out.

Done Deal

You were supposed to marry Soichiro Hoshina. Everyone knew it. You were his. You'd been his since birth. Your family and his family had planned this your whole lives, and then he went and ruined it by joining the Defense Force. It pushed plans back farther and eventually it seemed like you might never marry him if he kept stalling like this.

You didn't mind. It gave you time to do what you actually wanted. You even got to know his younger brother. You were actually closer in age to Soshiro but being the first born of your clan, you had to marry the first born of his clan which put you in your current predicament. Just waiting to be trapped in a loveless marriage.

Of course you and Soichiro had learned to be pleasant with each other over the years, but there was no chemistry. And it didn't help that you always stood up for Soshiro when Soichiro would pick on him. He'd complain that you were supposed to take his side because you were his fiancee. You hated him calling you that. He only liked this arrangement when it was convenient for him and you knew it. You'd roll your eyes and tell him to stop being a jerk and then you'd split a popsicle with Soshiro while Soichiro sulked off somewhere.

You liked Soshiro but never thought about being more with him due to the hopelessness of your situation. Then after years of nothing changing, the situation finally progressed. His parents called you over to their estate to discuss your current engagement.

"At present- it seems Soichiro is unwilling to marry, saying he's busy running a division. And of course, stubborn Soshiro has gone off and joined the Defense Force against our advice as well, but he's only a Vice Captain and he has more time to carry out our wishes. We'd like you to carry on the clan name with him instead and make heirs."

You were shocked. Was this really happening?

"Does... does Soshiro know?" You ask slowly.

They shook their heads. "He's on his way in now, we'll discuss more when he gets here."

You wait in silence, your heart thumping in your chest. Soshiro was to be your husband. Soshiro- the boy who hid with you high in the branches of a looming tree while his parents searched the entire estate for you, trying to force you to spend time with his brother. Soshiro- the boy who snuck you food through your bedroom window when you got in trouble with your parents and they sent you to bed with no dinner. Soshiro- the boy who once whispered when you were sick and he thought you couldn't hear him that he might have loved you better than anyone if he had been given the chance. You swallow at the memory. You had both been teenagers then. You wonder if he still felt the same. It had been a long time since you'd seen him, he went off protecting his country and you had taken up managing your family company like the good heir that you were.

The only time you'd ever broken rules or didn't follow instructions was when you were off having fun with Soshiro. But those days were over now. You were grown and you'd have to act like it. You couldn't keep avoiding your fate, your job was to take over as the family head and so you did.

You wonder if you disappointed Soshiro. He used to always ask you to run away to the Defense Force with him when you were younger, sparring together for practice. The look on his face when you told him you couldn't see him anymore because your parents had caught wind of your reckless activities with him... he must've hated you then. You wondered if he hated you now.

You watch as he enters the room, removing his shoes and kneeling before his parents, not looking at you.

"Ah, Soshiro. Welcome home. We have much to talk about."

He listens in silence as they explain the situation. You peek over at him and his face looks strained. You almost wince. He looks like he's nearly in pain at the thought of being stuck with you. It stings more than you thought it would.

He finally speaks. "No. I refuse. Tell Soichiro to get his ass back home and take her."

Your eyes widen. "B-but why?" You say suddenly and then clap a hand over your mouth.

He huffs, his eyes trained on the wooden floor at his knees. "Why? Because you're his. I don't want someone else's woman."

You want to say, "But I'm not though." You don't say anything.

"That's what I thought." He gets up and leaves, slamming the door behind him.

You flinch.

His parents apologize to you and invite you to stay over at their estate for the week while they make wedding preparations. They completely ignore Soshiro's blatant refusal to marry you and continue on like it'll happen anyway.

You eat dinner with them in silence, your thoughts swirling in your head. You try to hold back tears that you weren't even aware you had for him. How could he not want you? You know it's been awhile since the two of you were on friendly terms but you thought he might brush that aside because of how much history you had together.

After dinner, you go to the room the Hoshina's have prepared for you. You stare out the window at the familiar tree you used to climb with Soshiro and as your eyes trace the trunk upwards, you see a figure sitting on one of the higher branches. You almost laugh. Just like old times huh? You slip out of your kimono and put some pants on.

You reach the base of the tree and run your hands over it, smiling softly as the memories come running back to you. Then you start to climb. He sees you coming and calls down to you to go away and leave him in peace. You ignore him and keep climbing, pulling yourself up higher and higher. You sit on a branch across from him. He looks away from you.

"Don't remember your hearing being so shit." He grumbles, picking at the leaves on the branch.

"Don't remember you being such an ass." You shoot back with a laugh. It's just good to talk to him again alone, even if he is being a jerk.

He rolls his eyes and then just watches you for a moment, appreciating the outfit you've changed into. "You looked stiff in that kimono anyway."

"Shut up Soshiro. I looked good."

He snorts but his cheeks flush a little.

You lean in to get a better view of him and he waves you away.

"What is it with you anyway? I don't see you or hear from you in years and now all of a sudden you're trying to marry me. I see you're still doing whatever the fuck your parents want." He snaps.

You inhale sharply at that. Yeah. He was still bitter. "I... I know." You say slowly.

He rolls his eyes. "That's all you've got to say? You're pathetic. I would never marry you." He bites his lip as he says this, almost like he wants to take it back.

You don't notice his regret as the tears have started to well up in your eyes. You reach for him but he flinches and you pull away. "I'm sorry. You're right. But I just thought... maybe I could love you better than anyone if I was given the chance," You say, quoting him from when you were teenagers.

He stops breathing.

You wait for him to respond but he doesn't.

You sigh and nod, defeated. "Goodnight Soshiro."

You start to climb back down the tree, you're almost all the way down when your foot slips and you fall.

You hear him gasp right before you hit the ground.

Everything goes black.

You dream of Soshiro. He's smiling at you and he offers you half of his popsicle. "I want you to... to try to love me." He says.

You reach out and touch his cheek and he nuzzles against your hand.

"I do want it..." He repeats again. I know you do, you try to say but your mouth doesn't seem to want to move.

"So please, please just wake up. Just come back to me and I'll marry the shit out of you." He pleads, his voice strangled now.

You blink.

"What do you mean Soshiro? I'm right here."

He disappears from your dreams and searing hot pain fills your head.

You try to stand but your legs don't work. The pain from your head starts to seep down your neck and into your back. Everything hurts. Everything aches. You can't move.

You blink. Blink again.

Soshiro is leaning over you, eyes wide, fingers trembling as he grips your hand. "Oh thank god. You're awake."

"I think I may retire from my tree-climbing days," You groan as you remember what just happened.

He scoffs at you, irked you're making jokes about being injured, but a small smile tugs at the edges of his lips. "Idiot. Just rest for now okay?"

"Thought you said to wake up, now you want me to go back to bed?" You poke his cheek.

He grabs your hand before you can pull back and he holds it there, against his cheek. "You're such a handful. Most troublesome wife ever."

Your eyes widen. "W-wife?"

He nods slowly, watching your reaction. "Let's... let's get married yeah?"

You smile, ignoring the pain searing through you at the effort it takes just to do it. "Just takes me falling out of a tree to seduce you huh?"

He scoffs again and rolls his eyes. But then he looks down at his fidgeting fingers. "You meant what you said... up there, right? I want... I want you to try to love me."

OH. So it wasn't a dream. He actually said it.

You smile even wider and snuggle closer to him.

"It's a done deal."

[biolumien]

HELLO!! i dont normally send requests (up to a year in tumblr, i have only sent.. 2. including this one.) but i was wondering if you write platonic stuff? :') im deadly inlove with your works, never fails to disappoint huhuu and i adore them, and if you do, do you mind writing a hoshina x younger sibling reader? maybe they have a bad relationship with him and tries to make it up by joining the third division so that they could get closer, but he's just giving the cold shoulder and ignoring them. in the end the reader gets injured - hopefully this isn't too detailed!! i was also wondering if you take anons.. if you do - could i be 🐾 anon? mentioning this again but i seriously do love your works they're all so well written 🥹

notes: aaaa?!?!? im really honored that you decided to request something from me;; fun fact im actually an only child (lol) so i hope this is something you were looking for!! (i am still a bit sick >_<...

siblings, siblings...

soshiro hoshina & sibling!reader general description of injury and blood on your end. word count: 899

you and soshiro were never really close. as the youngest of the hoshina family and with the best unleashed combat power in guns, you were often lauded as the family’s best chance in the defense force—which put you at odds with soshiro’s utter lack of combat power in the firearms department. you’d tried to reach out—to talk, to do anything—but soichiro and soshiro never had time for you. 

or well, it seemed as if soshiro considered you his number one enemy. the antithesis of his existence—that by the fact you existed, it seemed as if he would be utterly worthless after all. 

when you transferred to the third division, you received no acknowledgement from soichiro or soshiro. 

“i trust you will lay your life down for the cause as effectively as you have in other divisions,” mina said to you on the day you were sworn in, your brother at her side. 

he didn’t look at you. 

“you have quite the impressive resume,” mina had said. “second and first division positions. an easy shoo-in for division leader right after gen narumi. what made you decide to enter the third division?” 

you’d swallowed, watching soshiro very pointedly not looking at you. 

“i… no reasons, in particular,” you’d lied. “just… um… curious in expanding my options. is all.” 

soshiro’s eyes had been cold. 

it was clear where the two of you stood, and soshiro wanted nothing to do with you, even if you’d basically demoted yourself from a cushy spot in the first division for it. the two of you rarely spoke—and if he ever acknowledged you at all, it was with one word responses or an affirmative, very stiff nod, as if it killed him utterly and completely to acknowledge you. 

were the two of you sweet once? had you run around the hoshina estate giggling once? had that been you?

…

would it ever be you again, even if it had? 

(you remember the taste of konpeito that soshiro would sneak you from soichiro’s collection of sweets, and he would raise a finger to his lips, telling you it was a secret.)

(but then why did you remember the feeling of asphalt against your feet on the days where soshiro seemed to forget to train as he dragged you towards the grass to play chase?)

(then why did you remember the times where you’d have a bad nightmare, but never felt brave enough to go to soichiro, so you’d always gone to soshiro instead? he’d laughed, cocky and brilliant even late at night and told you not to worry because he’d cut up your bad dreams. and you believed him, because he was your big brother and he’d never been wrong, never been cruel the way soichiro was to you and soshiro.)

why did you have to remember all of that?

you cough out a mouthful of blood. 

of course you only remember all of that right now as you bleed out. 

your eyes feel heavy.

what had the attack been, again? a yoju? a honju? you could’ve taken it down on your own, right? did it matter? your gun didn’t do anything—it couldn’t, laying uselessly on the ground next to you as you felt another choking mouthful of blood cloying against your lips. 

you want to scream. 

what was the point, you wanted to ask. what was the point of transferring if your brother wouldn’t acknowledge you—even though all you wanted to do was speak to him again? 

“don’t close your eyes.”

thank god you still have enough energy for your eyes to fly open, staring up at soshiro, who leaned down to haul you to your feet—but really he was putting most of your weight on him, your feet barely scraping the floor. 

“soshiro,” you rasp. “why?” 

“that’s what i should be asking you,” soshiro’s voice was still cold. distant, as he began walking you back towards the other troops—carefully, so as to not upset your wounds. “why did you transfer out of the first division? from what i heard, you were making quite the name for yourself out there. needed to steal my spotlight that badly?” 

“that’s not it,” you snap, wincing in pain. “i just wanted my brother back. is that so much to ask for? i figure it is, because you just randomly stopped talking to me for no goddamn reason!” 

you feel soshiro freeze up. 

“you wouldn’t get it.”

he sounds resentful. 

“fuck no i wouldn’t!” you say. “i don’t know what’s going on because you won’t tell me! but the only thing i do know is that i want to be able to talk to at least one of my big brothers that doesn’t treat me like shit! because as it stands right now, both of you do!” 

you gasp out in pain, coughing up another mouthful of blood. 

soshiro’s body is still tense, his hand tightening where it’s wrapped around your arm. 

“i’m—” soshiro mutters. “sorry. i—i just.” he laughs. “i’m a sorry excuse for an older brother, huh?” 

“you are,” you retort, and soshiro laughs again, and he sounds almost like he did when the two of you were younger. 

“let’s go home,” soshiro says after a moment, his voice less resentful now. 

you feel almost like a kid again in that moment, leaning on soshiro after you’d fallen during tag, having scraped your knee. 

“okay,” you wheeze out. “okay.” 

[mikami]

"Did Light love his family?" Anon - Catch-All Answer

Since these are six asks that are all about in the same vein, I am gonna just put the responses into one post for organization's sake.

Light begs his father to kill Mello because he wants his father's death to have been good for something. Nothing pains him more than the idea of having let this happen without it even accomplishing his goal.

Light is the physical manifestation of the lost cost fallacy: he needs to keep going because he sacrificed too much to stop and allow those sacrifices to be rendered meaningless.

And Light rationalizes. It's one of his most prominent character traits: instead of acknowledging his own emotions, he tries to filter his thoughts into nothing but emotionless pragmatism.

This is consistently portrayed through the 'hidden eyes' visual key - Light is excellent at lying to himself, in his own thoughts, which is why Obata gave us this clever way of seeing when this is happening even as Light's own internal monologue doesn't reflect it.

I have an incomplete list of these instances here, especially as pertaining to his family.

Ultimately, if we disagree that Light rationalizes his feelings rather than allowing himself to fully feel them, then none of my arguments are ever going to make sense to you and vice versa.

As a short addendum, here's Ohba's own words on this chapter (HTR13 p.80): "Even if there was acting involved in Light's tearful performance, I don't believe the tears are 100% an act." (も し月の涙に演技入っていたとしても、100%演技の涙では到底ないと思います。)

Soichiro already made the eye deal, which is an absolutely horrifying sacrifice to have made. Light wanted it to be as useful as it could possibly be, in order to justify the magnitude of the price.

I hate to say it, but you're really gonna have to take this one up with Ohba himself. On Page 65 of HTR13, he literally says that he picked Sayu as a kidnapping victim because Light loves his family and wouldn't kill her. (Unlike Misa, whom he would have just killed in this scenario rather than letting the plot progress.)

The panel you are thinking of is this one, where he is panicking, but you're not putting it into perspective.

In a previous chapter (62) Ide was about to inform the whole police force that Sayu Yagami was kidnapped. Soichiro was about to agree to this.

If Light had let this happen, he could have killed Sayu without narrowing down the suspect pool at all. They already know that Kira has ties to the police. He would have removed the leverage the mafia had held against them and gotten off entirely scott-free.

He does decidedly NOT do that. It's LIGHT personally who stops Ide from giving him the perfect alibi. EVEN RYUK CALLS OUT HOW ODD THAT WAS AS A MOVE.

And sure, Light says 'oh yeah, now nobody will suspect us!!' but nobody was really suspecting them to begin with.

This is what I mean - Light never allows himself to just feel things, he always rationalizes himself to justify his actions to himself.

His father dying. Dude.

.... literally why would he? Like, even if they don't accept Kira they also pose absolutely no threat to Kira.

I've covered all of this above, but I am including the ask to say that yes, I've seen it. The core issue here is that we disagree on Light's relationship to himself - you take his internal monologue at face value, while I think there is ample evidence that Light manipulates himself most of all. (As made completely manifest in the Yotsuba-Arc where he literally mindwipes himself into an incredibly emotionally and physically painful experience just to use himself as a pawn.)

[purplink8]

About Lights supposed care for Sayu

That may have been true for pre-timeskip Light, but post timeskip, there's not much evidence that Light feels any kind of affection for his family. To prevent his plans from being ruined, he attempts to kill her after she is abducted, but doesn't only because it wouldn't make sense for Kira to do that. He also shows no reaction at all to her near catatonic state following the abduction, meaning that Light likely sees Sayu as nothing more that another person he could potentially use to further his own goals, much like all the people he interacts with

I assume you mean this post of mine?

I think I have already compared how the anime adapted this scene vs how it was portrayed in the manga. And I suppose that you're going by the former since the hints (however subtle) are present in the manga that Light cares for his family (which includes his sister of course).

There's a much detailed & thorough post by tumblr user casuistor about this subject so I really recommend you to check it out.

Okay moving on to your ask.

About Lights supposed care for Sayu That may have been true for pre-timeskip Light, but post timeskip, there's not much evidence that Light feels any kind of affection for his family.

That may be true if we're going by the anime. But since I prefer the manga (I had read it before watching the anime) and analyze canon through it most of the time, I'll have to disagree with you on that one since the manga does have evidence that Light loves his family.

It's subtler than before the time-skip but it's there. I'll happily point out why I think so.

Light appears to have grown distant from Sachiko & Sayu and that's because of the whole 'Soichiro chose to disown Light (as he disapproved of Misa) & Light ran away to live with Misa' lie they had told them. Yet their (+ Soichiro's) opinions on Kira matter to him:

You do not try to convince people of something as important as your secret ideology if you don't at least care about those people (read: Light cares about his family).

Despite being a lil distant, Light & Sayu haven't lost their playful teasing/bantering kinda relationship as Light compliments Sayu on jokingly rejecting Matsuda and Sayu teases Light about marriage.

I'll discuss Sayu's kidnapping in the next section of my answer (see also: my linked post at the beginning). To sum it up: Light puts himself to a disadvantage (as Kira) to save Sayu.

I believe these words are very genuine. Light has, from idolizing his father, grown to disapproving his self-sacrificial (his putting justice above family) nature. He reminds his dad how hard it'd be for the family if he leaves them behind and makes him promise that he'd do his best to have both of him & Sayu live. Observe closely how not letting the Note to Mello isn't the priority but rescuing Sayu is the first thing on Light's mind.

He also asks Soichiro if he & Sayu are okay as soon as he gets the opportunity. Not a word about lamenting the loss of Death Note but a simple are you okay?

After a few days, Mello contacts Soichiro again (the latter's phone is to be kept on in exchange for the former not killing him). And asks him about the new L's identity and threatens to kill Sayu if Soichiro doesn't answer.

Observe Light's face here. It's very clear that he's having a great difficulty in making a decision: either tell Mello L's identity & risk getting killed yourself or refuse Mello's demands resulting in his dad & sister's death.

He seems to be actually considering surrendering his name to Mello to save Sayu & Soichiro! (But it doesn't come to that as Matsuda offers his name instead)

My argument is this: if Light didn't have any affection for his family in the second arc (as you say), then why did he hesitate to plainly refuse to answer Mello's question (a question which is too risky for the new L's life)?

The answer's plain & simple: He wouldn't seriously consider to give Mello his name if he didn't care for his family. Thus, he does hold affection towards his family. Period.

I can go on & about how Soichiro's death devastates Light but a picture is worth a thousand words:

I do believe that his tears are very genuine here; Light's crying does Not have crocodile tears behind it- in other words I think Light is VERY upset by his dad's death so much so that he loses his cool that Matsuda has to physically restrain him:

After Soichiro's death, he tries to emotionally distance himself from that tragic event (referring to said event by the impersonal 'them attacking Mello's hideout' rather than smth vulnerable to Light i.e. 'his dad's death'):

He's trying his best to avoid explicitly thinking about his dad's death, choosing to drown himself into his work instead: so much so that Matsuda is concerned about him:

And he acknowledges the risk of his identity as 'Light Yagami' is L being revealed to Near just because of him staying quiet after his dad died like he is THAT affected by it and trying to hide that fact.

I hope you can see that Light cares about his father. Let's get back to the topic of his regard towards his sister.

To prevent his plans from being ruined, he attempts to kill her after she is abducted, but doesn't only because it wouldn't make sense for Kira to do that.

I have discussed at length why that is not the case in the manga but here's the gist of it. I tried to keep it short. I really did.

The NPA director Takimura is kidnapped first -> Other NPA heads are duly notified -> Light kills Takimura without a moment of hesitation, assuming that the kidnappers will take the fall for his death (it's part of Light's keikaku plan so that Kira won't be blamed for his murder. And since only the kidnappers and the NPA know about the kidnapping: it won't be assumed that Kira has any link to the NPA) -> the kidnappers do take the blame themselves (just as planned!...)

(...not. as: ) Sayu is kidnapped -> Mello instructs them to not notify the other NPA departments lest they kill Sayu -> Ide pressures Soichiro to notify other NPA personnel out of obligation, Soichiro agrees to throw his daughter under the bus. and. then-

Light does a complete 180 and says outright to the task force that it was probably Kira who killed Takimura (instead of y'know killing Sayu immediately to stop the exchange like he did with Takimura) -> essentially arguing against notifying other NPA members (to save his sister actually)

This sudden change in Light's plan (from having the kidnappers blamed for Takimura's death to Kira being blamed instead) is actively detrimental to Kira's cause since only the kidnappers and the NPA personnel know about Takimura's kidnapped and suggesting that Kira is behind Takimura's murder implies that Kira has ties to NPA (remember that Light is now a part of that NPA) so not a win for our Light-o.

Also, if he was really serious about killing Sayu- he had two easy, very easy options:

1. Do nothing.

That's it. Remember Soichiro was ready to notify the other NPA personnel (Ide pressures him to do that). Thus, if the NPA (apart from the task force) made any move, the kidnappers as per their threat would've killed Sayu themselves.

If Light didn't jump in to rescue his sister (coz that's what he did in canon) by offering an alternate possibility of Kira being behind Takimura's death, Sayu would've ended up dead.

2. Kill Sayu himself at the best opportunity (which was when he had just heard the news about her kidnapping; not unlike how he wasted no time to kill Takimura).

But Light far from considering these options (*holds a neon sign reading 'LIGHT DOES NOT WANT TO KILL HIS SISTER AS HE CARES FOR HER'*), goes "hey, is anyone gonna save my sister?" and does not wait for an answer which he's already gotten what-with even his father agreeing to notify the NPA personnel which would've resulted in her death.

So no I don't agree with you when you say "To prevent his plans from being ruined, he attempts to kill her after she is abducted, but doesn't only because it wouldn't make sense for Kira to do that." since the reason it wouldn't make sense for Kira to kill Sayu was because of Light himself blaming Kira for Takimura's death (he did that to save her otherwise the police would've moved and the kidnappers would've killed her anyway).

The result of Light's actions? Now if he were to kill Sayu after revealing the real murderer behind Takimura's death, the list of Kira suspects would narrow down to...the task force as they are the only ones who know about the kidnapping other than Mello & his gang. Light is canonically a genius so why would he do something like this to jeopardize his own previous plans? The answer is simple as Ryuk points it out.

Light has a soft spot for his sister. I have elaborated on this in my above linked post so this is a bit redundant to say the least. (not that I mind your ask! I love discussing the tragedy of the Yagami siblings to anyone who'd care to listen.)

He also shows no reaction at all to her near catatonic state following the abduction, meaning that Light likely sees Sayu as nothing more that another person he could potentially use to further his own goals, much like all the people he interacts with

With Light you cannot take his reactions (or lack thereof) at their face value. He's more complex than that.

The following scene (in which we see Sayu visibly showing her disdain for Kira since he's the reason why their dad is so busy that he couldn't come for New Year's.

And Light's eyes are hidden as they usually are when he's feeling emotionally conflicted. He can't stop being Kira however that doesn't mean he likes causing his family misery indirectly.):

...is a direct parallel to this one (& both happen to be around New Year's which I assure you is not a coincidence):

His dad is dead because of him being Kira. I'm not saying Light is the direct cause of his death. Far from it, as Light had intended Matsuda to have the eye deal and die for it, but instead his dad had volunteered which wasn't according to his keikaku. Still Light being Kira is of course an indirect cause to Soichiro's death and the idea isn't lost on Light.

He likely feels very guilty for the same and cannot bring himself to face his remaining family. Sayu's current state (her in a wheelchair after the kidnapping) was indirectly caused by him being Kira as well. It isn't hard to imagine that Light has difficult feelings about that too. I'd argue that his lack of a reaction IS the telling factor of how much he cares actually.

He cares to the point of not daring to meet the rest of his family's eyes after the two incidents (Sayu's kidnapping & Soichiro's death). He cares because he is the cause of the Yagami family being the most tragic. He cares because no matter what he told Ryuk, that he'd be the exception to the rule of Death Note users being faced with misfortune, he now knows that he isn't that exception with his own family in shambles.

Death Note is a tragedy because of how much Light Yagami cares.

[spiralingtrap]

clawing at the walls of my enclosure. what people refuse to understand is that light wasn't destined to be a terrible person, but instead that the moment he put a pen to the death note, he was Doomed. even if no one knew that he had killed otoharada he knew, light, son of soichiro, who pursues justice above all else, is said by the author to be The Only Good Person in the Series, light yagami with loving parents and a sister whom he wanted to protect above all else. HE killed someone and HE knew and even if he wanted to say it was just a coincidence it sunk into his psyche. if anyone found out it would tear his family apart. that is the stone that sunk into him and that is the death note's curse. You Killed Someone and Only You Know.

and then he saves someone with it. he saves a young woman and that's the second nail in the coffin because now he has a reason and that reason aligns with his belief system. and so, already traumatized that he has now killed Multiple People and Cannot Say Anything without ruining his life and also traumatizing his entire family, he has no choice but to keep going. and then kira gets a following. people are encouraging him and he's already being followed by a supernatural being so yeah, sleep deprived and malnourished and in contact with A Death God's Book, pursuing godhood and protecting the innocent becomes the only way forward as he is pushed Further and Further from humanity.

and then the police start pursuing kira. now he's isolated from both sides—kira's followers continue to push him upwards and deify him, while the police (!!! his own father !!!) proclaim him as evil. he couldn't let anyone find out before but now it's even More of a risk, now he has to actively evade capture, dedicate his time and energy to hiding away and isolating himself further and further and further

and then misa appears and it only gets worse, because SHE idolizes and deifies him, so while he does have someone to confide in, it's again someone who will reaffirm that he's right every single time, because He Helped Her. he avenged her parents and so now all she has is him. and all he has is her. and the isolation gets Worse

L is the only person who gets even CLOSE to reaching out to him, poking and prodding at him and tugging at his strings at a very close and personal angle. it's said in L change the worLd that L lost because kira died without realizing the error of his ways. the intention was to bring him back down to earth!! to atone!! not just the death penalty, not just jail for life, to bring him back down to humanity!!

but L dies, and that tie is severed, and from there it only gets worse, because then kira's actions begin hurting his family. but now there's a religious movement, there's countless supporters who want kira to continue, who revere kira as their god, so even as sayu is permanently scarred, even as soichiro dies, he can't stop. because if he stops, all of it was for nothing. because kira has existed for years, he's been lying to his family for years, L was right and he's wasted years and years of his life so he HAS to keep going, until the moment it puts him into the ground. because there's no going back without putting the entire world against him.

[loveemii]

If it's okay can I please ask for a part 2

hello! yeah ofc it’s ok! ^_^

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Teasing Kianna L parted her lips with his thumb as he gently tug on her bottom lip. He began to lick the inside of her lips before suffocating her into a deep and desirable kiss.

She was stunned and completely surprised when he licked her lips, but melted in list and desire when he kissed her. “L-“ Kianna spoke in a breathy whisper, “Yes?” He questioned as his eyes locked down on hers.

“I need you.”

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L groaned as he rubbed his tip over Kianna’s clit. Her flushed face turned him on even more, he pushed his tip inside a few times before putting his whole length in. He had a good girth too, it made Kianna want nothing more than him. All of him. Exactly how he wanted all of her, every single bit of her.

“Kianna, don’t look at me that way. Like I’m going to murder you.” L spoke in a different tone that his usual nonchalant, he was breathing different; like he just killed someone.

He wanted to, he wanted to pound Light to death. But in this moment all L could think about was how gorgeous his soon to be girlfriend looked naked underneath him.

Her head resting on the bottom edge of the sofa, pushed up and down repeatedly whilst L fucked her at a good pace; going faster then slow all while she rubbed her clit and moaned pretty loud, L didn’t tell her to keep quiet. In fact he wanted Light to come and see what all the noise was; to L’s surprise he did.

The door handle clicked opened and Light walked through the door in shock. “Ryuzaki- what the hell is going on!?” Light somewhat shouted as he closed the door behind him quickly.

“Look, I’m fucking Kianna; she’ll scream my name instead of yours. Tell me, h-how do you feel about that Light?” L had a desirable and sinister grin plastered over his lips, Kianna didn’t care that Light was watching, she just wanted L.

“L- f-fuck~” Her flushed face as she shut her eyes tightly turned Light on, L saw the bulge in his pants and chuckled, “Like what you see? Watch this.” L said as he pounded his cock into Kianna harder and faster.

Kianna grabbed onto L’s arm as she moaned even louder while rubbing her clit faster. L pulled out and began to stroke his cock while he sucked and nibbled over Kianna’s clit. Light couldn’t help but blush, there was another knock on the door. L looked up at Light who was still watching in amaze.

“Go get the door.” L ordered, Light snapped out of his daze and did what L wanted. Light opened the door where the person could only see his face. “Dad?“ Light spoke, “What is going on in there!? I can hear moans and what not!” Soichiro Yagami scolded, Light looked over at L who began to thrust his penis into Kianna’s wet pussy again.

“L is just watching a porn, he wanted to learn about peoples minds when they see something of the sort.” Light lied, he was such a good liar.

“A porn!? At this hour!? Tell him to lower it down.” Soichiro scolded firmly, Light nodded his head as he shit the door and locked it.

“Wow Light, I wasn’t expecting you to lie like that. I actually wanted him to watch too.” L spoke breathlessly, Light wanted to stroke his cock so bad but stopped himself.

“You know if I ever saw you fucking her as good as this, I’d kill you. Because she, Kianna-is all”

L grunted as he was about to cum inside of her, Kianna was whining as she squirted all over L’s hard cock.

“mine.”

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i hoped you enjoyed this part 2!

- please excuse any spelling or grammar mistakes, thank you

[grimalkinmessor]

Do you have any trans fem light headcanons?

I always have Light headcanons 👁️👁️

Usually I hc Light as bigender (she/her used generally as Kira-specific given that I think that's the only other spot in his life that he could acknowledge as a change in who he was SUPPOSED to be rather than who she really IS), because I do think Light actually does feel mentally aligned to his masculinity in a solid capacity, just not completely so, but! I can totally cook up something for trans fem Light :3

I actually have thought about this before—it's somewhere in my long ass wip ideas list—but the snag I always hit is Light even,,,,figuring out that she's trans :/ Because canon Light tends to just ignore when he feels bad in any sort of emotional or mental capacity, so dysphoria would probably ping "his" radar as something to go "Welp, time to ignore that! ᕕ(; ᐛ )ᕗ" about. So I see Light discovering it either young enough that she doesn't know that she should be denying it yet, or old enough that she could move towns and change her name with little fuss—never speaking to her family again, of course, but that's the price of being trans in early 2000s Japan with traditionalist parents :') Sayu might eventually go looking for her though. Sayu strikes me as someone open-minded.

BUT, these two options have different catalysts. If Light discovers it young enough for Sachiko to see it as "okay" to socially transition, then Sayu is the catalyst. Sayu has lots of pretty, traditionally feminine things, and she wants to play with her brother—which, of course, Light indulges. Sayu bullies Light into dressing up to play with her, she does makeovers with him, he does her hair and make-up and she does his (and while I usually hc Soichiro finding out and gently but firmly putting a stop to that, for this AU let's say he doesn't find out). Light, after enough times doing this with Sayu, probably notices the fact that he actually prefers Sayu's things to his own. He probably permanently borrows a hair pin or two, maybe even buys a few of his own when he runs errands for his mom. And Sachiko inevitably finds out about it, but again. Sachiko is just as much of a snake as Light in that she's cunning and able to switch faces quickly. So she probably has a long talk with Light about why he bought them and what's going on, and he confesses (after much manipulative prodding) that he doesn't "feel right", that he hasn't for a while, and he thinks it might be because he's a boy.

So Sachiko does what any good mom would do; she fixes it. Light would be young here, seven to ten I'm thinking, enough that it wouldn't be hard for Sachiko to buy Light some new clothes and start introducing her as a daughter. When Soichiro comes home, she sits him down after the kids are asleep and tells him what's going to happen. She does not ask for permission or his thoughts on it. She goes "Light is our daughter now and you'll treat her as such. We're moving cities in two weeks so she can have a new start in a new school. If anyone ever asks we've always had two daughters." Soichiro is bewildered of course, and instinctively affronted at the idea, but Sachiko steamrolls him. Queen Gaslighter, your honor, and her new Princess Gaslighter who learned from the best. They do as Sachiko bids, and Light is able to live her life unimpeded.

HOWEVER. If Light figures it out as an adult, then RYUK is the catalyst. Human Ryuk, of course, as I don't see grown-up Light with the Death Note having time to realize anything like that when he's busy manipulating the Task Force and his own father and the SPK and Misa and Mikami and—you get it. Anyway, Ryuk is the one who makes Light realize that she's a she instead of a he. And, being the terrible influence/cynical voice of (sarcasm) reason he is, Ryuk is the one who encourages Light to go whole hog with vanishing off the face of the Earth and changing her name instead of transitioning in secret or telling her family. But again, by this time it's too late for Light to socially transition and keep her family; everyone knows Chief Yagami and his brilliant son, their extended family knows Sachiko had a boy and a girl. They wouldn't be able to take Light in as a daughter, only disown her as a son. And Light knows this, Ryuk knows this, but Ryuk is the one that knocks Light out of her self-sacrificing "I shall simply swallow it down and deal with the lot I've been handed, continue living my life as a man even though it grows ever-chafing and suffocating :)" and into "Fuck that. I'll be doing whatever I fucking want, actually, because I'm better than literally every other conceivable human being and I should be able to revel in my own splendor as the person I want to see in the mirror." Encouraging Light's ego is double-edged sword here, obviously, but try getting Ryuk to give a fuck ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

Light abandons her life as a Yagami and Ryuk helps her forge some papers so she can get a job in Fukushima as an accountant/architect/designer/whatever the hell she wants to do as Asahi Tsuki. (This is one of the few scenarios I ever picture Light changing her name in. Only ever out of necessity. Her name was never the problem, and she likes it—she keeps it if she can).

I don't see Light's personality changing all that much? Save for the fact that transitioning probably yanks down the veil of her politeness a little and she acts a little bit more herself. I.e. mean and sarcastic but in a way you only realize three hours after the fact. Light's learned to go after what she wants viciously in this case, and is probably a little more indulgent of herself as well. Unlike canon Light, trans fem Light has learned to ask herself "What do I want?". She probably lets herself have things that she didn't before, like sweets and beautiful clothes and shiny trinkets and expensive stationary—things she actually likes instead of things she's expected to have. After all, if Light's going to be "selfish" why not go all in? ;3

[herehavesomeheadcanons]

On the 11th day of Christmas, my true love gave to me… 11 Christmas Disasters!

Unfortunately, Tumblr has a 10 image limit, so you don't get pictures :(

Rogue Cheney

🖤🐉To absolutely no one's surprise, he lost Frosch while Christmas shopping. He turned around for a split second, and the little exceed was gone. He proceeded to spend the next several hours looking for Frosch, and didn't actually get any of the shopping done. Next year, he had you stay home and babysit Frosch while he got his Christmas shopping done!

Hitoshi Shinso

💜🐱One Christmas, his daredevil antics led to a visit to Recovery Girl. It was a sledding accident. He overestimated his ability to turn at blinding speeds. You ended up with several missing teeth, and he ended up with a sprained wrist. It could have been worse, but it still hurt like hell and wasn't a fun day.

Envy

🌴🖤He actually made you cry once with how mean he was. He's used to you being able to ignore everything he says, so it was a nasty surprise when you suddenly burst into tears! He really had no idea what to do in that situation. If you weren't so upset, it'd probably be pretty funny to watch him struggle to figure out how to get you to stop crying. You can use the incident to force some cuddles out of him!

Rene Simm

🖤♦️He got into a fist fight with Lacus over the gingerbread houses. Rene has a lot of patience, but he finally snapped when Lacus got sprinkles in his hair. You could try to break up the fight… but it's more fun to stand there and film the two vampires going toe to toe in the kitchen.

Freed Justine

❤️🎄Freed is so careful and prepared that it's rare for him to make mistakes, but when he does they're astronomical disasters. One Christmas, he quite literally made himself sick with worry. His body just shut down from all the stress he was putting it under, and he was literally paralyzed for a couple of days. He apologized profusely for the next week and a half for 'ruining Christmas.'

Enmu

🖤🚂He almost got the two of you cornered by the Demon Slayers when he tried to arrange a feast for you (I'm deciding that you're also a demon, because why the hell would a human willingly associate with this crazy bastard.) He's actually done this multiple times throughout the years. He really tries to go above and beyond for you, so you can't really be mad at him for it.

Lacus Welt

💜✨He got WAY too competitive with a snowball fight and ended up hurting you. Don't worry, he apologized and tried to make it up to you with cuddles and kisses. After that you decide to stay away from snowball fights with your vampire lover! Instead, you encourage him to pester Rene!

Ogai Mori

🖤🩺Mori loves to organize Christmas events for the Port Mafia. more often than not, those events end in disaster. One year he tried to organize a free-for-all snowball fight. He apparently neglected to account for the fact that the PM is full of trained killers. Chuuya reigned supreme, and Akutagawa ended up in the hospital somehow.

Ash Landers

🤍💜He almost burned the house down. Literally. Ladders are dangerous, so being the absolute genius he is, he decided to fly up to put the star on top of the tree. In the process, he knocked over a lit candle. He then proceeded to panic when the carpet caught fire, flapping his wings like a deranged cockatoo and making the fire bigger. You saved the day with quick thinking and a bucket of water, and Ash is no longer allowed to fly in the house.

L Lawliet

🖤🍰L doesn't usually make mistakes. He's just too clever to slip up. But sometimes, when he's deep in thought, he doesn't pay attention to his surroundings. Yeah, he got trapped under the mistletoe with Light. The funniest part was watching Light freak out! Of course you didn't actually make them go through with it, you were just giving them a hard time. L knew this, and joined in to pester the fuck out of Light! Soichiro did not find this as funny as you and L did.

Tamaki Amajiki

💙🐱You trapped him under the mistletoe once and he got so flustered that he legitimately fainted! You had to act fast and catch him before he hit the ground. He was so worried when he woke up and you told him what happened! Just reassure him that everything is ok and that you think he's adorable regardless.

[genrebender]

Bored so here’s my maybe controversial-ish (??????) Death Note take:

I really fucking hate Soichiro, and while not directly he is at least partially to blame for Light becoming Kira. I will admit I do have some bias/cynicism against cops so that plays into this.

Like he’s already in law enforcement so his kids who would view him in a positive light would see him as a hero and criminals as villains even more so then is the cultural idea, but because he’s got such a strong sense of morality (especially his lyrics in the musical) he sees only black and white. He sees good people and bad people, right and wrong, instead of all the shades of gray humanity exists in. He passed this black and white morality onto his kids, and when Light was spiraling because he had killed someone and had to justify to himself that he was still a good person he had to see the death note as right; this is what leads Light to justify his actions - therefore his resolve to Kira being necessary and moral.

Also I just feel like he wouldn’t take Light being gay well. I cannot explain it properly but like, he thinks of Light as the perfect child and he puts all this pressure on him to be so and in a traditional/social expectations a gay kid wouldn’t be the “ideal child”. I will also admit to the fact that as a “gifted kid” with burnout and trauma related to being a people pleaser, the pressure and expectations put on Light feels extremely familiar and painful. And Light’s boredom at his life being too easy and lacking intellectual stimulation, as well as his excitement at having someone what his level that he got from his game with L, is something I relate to. I don’t condone or forgive his actions and acts as Kira but I understand how he got there and I don’t believe he’s solely to blame for what he became.

[empressofthewind]

How would male Sachiko and female Soichiro be? What about a female Light male sayu? Along with fem L?

Thank you for the ask! Once again adding the disclaimer that my knowledge of Japanese culture is limited, so some of the specifics about gender roles & perceptions may be inaccurate.

I honestly would’ve loved to see Soichiro as the female police officer & breadwinner of the family and Sachiko as the stay-at-home dad - I think it would’ve been really nice to see that representation of a non-traditional family dynamic (come to think of it, I don’t think I’ve ever seen a stay-at-home dad/working mum combo in any media? I’m sure there are representations somewhere but it’s certainly not common in my experience). It wouldn’t surprise me if Soichiro dealt with a lot of sexism from the police force, or if as a family unit, they faced judgement because of this dynamic. It’s hard to say exactly to what extent this would affect them, but the fact that the Japanese police in canon are all male makes me think that unless it’s a complete genderswap AU, Soichiro would’ve had a more difficult time being respected and taken seriously as an officer.

We don’t really see much of Sayu, so it’s hard to comment on her, but I’m guessing the expectations of Sayu & Light would be switched somewhat. So there’d be a little more pressure on Sayu to do well academically and slightly less on Light. I could also imagine Sayu & Sachiko being more protective of Light when it comes to dating, particularly with Misa (assuming Misa is male here) - so Light saying she has a boyfriend would not probably not be met with the same relaxed/excited response. I also wonder if Mello might’ve considered kidnapping Light instead of Sayu first, assuming he didn’t know about Light’s involvement with the case at that point - though I don’t think he’d be able to arrange this if he tried, because Light is much more protected.

One thing I would find interesting to see is how Light’s attitude towards women would change. His character in canon is very misogynistic, having the attitude that women are easy to manipulate, but if he were a woman as well, then I imagine this attitude would be more towards people as a whole - i.e., there are so many stupid people in the world, it’s so easy to manipulate people etc etc, rather than attributing those traits to one specific gender. Otherwise, assuming all the women he uses are now male in this AU, this attitude could just shift to instead be targeted towards men. In particular, I definitely don’t think a female Light would underestimate a female L, whereas I think he would as his canon self.

Female L is a tough one to answer because I don’t really see much changing. I could definitely see people commenting more on his weight/how much he eats, which is something I brought up in another ask about him a while ago. This does kind of happen to him from Misa with the “cake makes you fat” line, but it was phrased more like she was talking about herself than ridiculing L for his diet, whereas I think as a woman, a comment like that would be more likely directed towards him. I wouldn’t be surprised if there were more comments on his general appearance too, as someone who doesn’t put a lot of effort into the way he looks.

I hope this answers your question!

[just-a-living-meat-thing]

I heard you wanna talk death note?

So I just finished the anime (read the manga a while ago), and it’s got me thinking about Matsuda’s theory from the manga’s epilogue.

(The theory iirc is that Near won because he “cheated” and used the Death Note to control Mikami so that he wouldn’t check the fake notebook.)

Do you have thoughts on this? Like on one hand it sounds plausible but on the other hand it’s Matsuda suggesting it lol.

Ooooh I honestly haven’t heard that theory before!! I’ll be honest I haven’t finished the anime or the manga bc I know Light dies in the end and that makes me so so sad lmao like I know he’s evil but he’s just so… gahhh he’s such a bringle blompu to me if that makes sense, like I don’t want the series to end. I also dint know that much abt Near (I love him but seeing him is painful to me bc he reminds me of L, just more depressed and apathetic) so I can’t say for sure.

What I can say is that I personally wouldn’t put it past Near to do that. He wasn’t trying to catch Kira as part of some game like L was, he was trying to catch Kira bc it’s his job, and (imo at least) as some form of avengement for the ppl around him that Kira killed. And it was probably also to “prove” himself to be worthy of being the next L, I think. So I wouldn’t put it past him to “cheat” at the game, since his goal is to win it at all costs, whereas L’s goal was to study it—like a particularly challenging video game, the win is only rewarding if you beat it without cheating. So to me it makes sense for Near to simply cut to the chase instead of prolonging the game any more than he had to.

And tbh I personally think Matsuda is more observant/analytical than most ppl give him credit for. Like yes he absolutely is an utter buffoon but I think he’d know a lot about tropes in stories (since he’s known to be an avid tv-watcher) and how characters work. Not to mention he’s been on the Kira Case from the beginning and was able to work around Soichiro, Light, and L for a good long while, so I think his deductive reasoning skills have probably improved from being around them so often for so long. I think his empathy plays a part in this as well, so he’d probably be able to step into Near’s shoes and go “yeah, that’s probably what I’d do if I was a super genius with a grudge”. Not saying that he’s correct or smart, but I think sometimes he gets onto something.

But also Mikami was known to be very… methodical and precise and in control. It’s strange to me to think that he wouldn’t check the death note, so perhaps there was some tampering by Near. However, if Near truly wanted to end the game so bad, why not just write Light’s name into the notebook? He may not have hard evidence or a confession, but he knows for absolutely certain that Light is Kira. Why mess around with Mikami when he could just end Light right there and then?

On the other hand, he could be using Mikami as the ultimate tool for revenge against Light—forcing him into a state of humiliation, exposing his true face out into the world for everyone to see, making sure his downfall is as messy and as painful as possible. Refusing to play along with Light’s rules, refusing to play the game, refusing to be another “L” for him. Ripping the rug of delusion out from under him, not even allowing him to have his self-denial as comfort.

Personally I kind of dislike this theory bc I think Light kind of got himself caught? Unintentionally of course, but I’m a lawlight shipper (romantic, platonic, queer platonic, whatever, anything works) and I personally hc that Light kind of just gave up after L died. Like he had a goal he worked towards and genuinely wanted to come to fruition, but a lot of the fun inherent in the high-stakes challenge he had with L was lost.

But I also do like the theory bc it adds some very interesting characterization to Near that I enjoy. So idk my feelings on the matter lol, I think it’s very plausible Near used the death note, but idk for sure. I think it’s up to the individual to decide for themselves whether or not it’s actually true. Either way, it provides some very fascinating insight into Near’s psyche and how his brain works

[decidueyes]

I recently rewatched Death Note, its been one of my fave anime since I first watched it and it still is :) Some thoughts (hidden for spoilers):

-I know the common opinion is that the rest of the show after L dies isn't as good. I recently learned that the anime actually rushed it/skipped stuff from the manga, which is unfortunate :/. I noticed that there were much less inner monologues during the latter half; disappointing to me bcuz 1. it made it harder to follow the logic, and 2. it would've helped develop the Light vs Near dynamic and make us viewers feel more invested. It would have been nice if the anime had more episodes so it wouldn't feel so rushed. We also don't really get to know Mello and Near very well, which sucks cuz now everyone thinks they're not as good as L (which might still be true, but at least give them a fighting chance lmao). The worst victim has gotta be Mello's friend Matt who shows up in one scene just to get shot at by a group of people and die. Its funny to think about cuz why did they do him like that lol.

-L is still my fave <3. The OG autistic anime boy. When I first watched I was so surprised when he died that I felt like I was in shock for the rest of the day. I'm not usually that affected by character deaths but that one really got me. This time around I braced myself for it, but its not that bad when you know its coming. Still, Fs in the chat for him o7.

-On the other hand, I remember I hated Light lmao. I disagree with him but then also the whole "I'm a god" ego thing was off-putting to me. Now that I'm older I think maybe I can appreciate his character a little more. He's still dumb tho, killing criminals isn't gonna magically make the world better. I guess that's part of his character, the way he is so naive. There's also the question of whether the death note corrupted him or if he was always like that. Maybe a bit of both? That might be what's interesting about him. Tbh I feel like the death note would corrupt anyone :O

-I don't think I ever gave much thought to the relationship between Light and L, but now that I'm thinking about it, its kinda fascinating. Like, they don't really like each other, but they're also obsessed with each other. The most joy in life they have is this intellectual back-and-forth game they are playing. When Light says "its boring without Ryuzaki" and then multiple times he's like "Near u suck ur not as good as L" like why are u thinking about another man that much lmao. Anime rivalry/toxic yaoi go brrrr.

-Misa deserved better. She was basically written out near the end when she had to give up her death note again. 2 shinigami died for her and yet she barely gets to do anything damn lmao.

-I saw a youtube comment about Matsuda that was really cool. It said he was like a son to Soichiro, more than his actual son, which made it meaningful when Matsuda was the one to shoot Light at the end. Matsuda was also the only one who would sometimes say that Kira maybe had a point, so there's another meaning to him shooting LIght. Idk I just think that's a neat detail.

-Never 4get the memes. The potato chip scene. All according to keikaku. "I've even brought America to its knees". "DELETE DELETE DELETE". The other cop pocketing the strawberry that L gives him instead of just eating it. This show is so silly :)

This got kinda long whoops. TL;DR: Death Note good. Also, stan L :)

[thecarnivorousmuffinmeta]

Death Note Master Post

Shipping

L/Light: Oh God No

Tom Riddle/Light Yagami: In that AU Where They’re Friends in Hogwarts

Light Yagami

Did I Want Light to Win? (It’d Get Me a Better Second Half of Death Note, That’s for Sure)

What if Tom Riddle and Light Yagami or Tom Riddle and Edward Cullen Met in Hogwarts?

Would Light Yagami and Edward Cullen Get Along?

Is Light Yagami a Psychopath?

What Would Dumbledore Think of a Light Yagami Who is Friends With Tom Riddle?

What if Tom Riddle Was Friends with a Light Yagami Who Had a Kira Mindset?

How Would a Conversation Between Light Yagami and Carlisle Cullen from Twilight Go?

Kira and Going to Trial

What if Light Wasn’t Kira?

What if Light Never Got the Death Note Back?

What if Light Yagami from Death Note, Edward Cullen from Twilight, and Walter White from Breaking Bad Were Trapped in a Game of Wits with No Cheating?

What if Light Yagami and Tom Riddle Were in the Saw Game with No Cheating?

Would Light Want to Be a Twilight Vampire?

Is Light Yagami Sexist?

How Would Light React to Some Kid Who Hates Him?

What if Light Got the Notebook from Rem and Misa from Ryuk? and Would Light Take the Eye Deal?

Light Doesn't Actually Like People Who Like Kira (Or Would L Have Had More Success if He Pretended to be a Fan?)

What if Ryuk Had Sacrificed Himself in the Warehouse and Killed Everyone Except for Light?

What Would Light Think if the Netflix Death Note Adaptation Came Out in Universe?

What if Light Had a Twin Identical Super Identical Sibling?

Rock, Paper, Scissors with Light and L

Light Made Two Choices then Went All in Baby

Why Did L Suspect Light Anyway?

Would Light Be Kira If He'd Been a Woman?

Sayu Yagami

Sayu’s Implied Rape

What if Sayu Was a Delinquent?

Soichiro Yagami

Would Soichiro Have Ever Used the Death Note?

What if Soichiro Yagami and Charlie Swan from Twilight Swapped Places?

Misa Amane

Why Did Misa Become a “Kira” Anyway?

Yes, Misa is Intelligent

What if Light Got the Notebook from Rem and Misa from Ryuk?

Death Note Without Misa: Or How Does Light Kill L Without Her and Vice Versa?

What if Misa Was Anti-Kira Instead of Pro-Kira?

Ryuk

What if Ryuk Put in a Fake Rule That Each Death Had to be Unique?

Did Ryuk Care About Light?

Did Ryuk's Opinion of Light Change Much in the Series?

L

L is a Walking Breaching Experiment

What if L Went to Hogwarts with Tom Riddle?

How is L a Credible Detective/Why Doesn't Anyone Question His Methods of Obtaining Evidence?

Why Didn't L Persecute Light and Misa After Obtaining the Death Note?

Or: Why the Lind L. Taylor Event Was Entirely Unnecessary Save for Showmanship Reasons and Psychological Warfare

What if L Had Released Information on the Notebook to the Public?

What Would Be L's Twilight Vampire Gift and Would the Volturi Recruit Him?

What Would L Think if the Netflix Death Note Adaptation Came Out in Universe?

How Would L Feel if Light Confessed to Being Kira?

L Cares About the Hunt, Not the Mystery or the Answer

Rock, Paper, Scissors with Light and L

L Hates Wammy's with a Burning Passion

Why Did L Suspect Light Anyway?

Would L Get to Be L if He Was a Woman?

Watari

What is Watari's Deal?

Mello

Mello, Near, and Why Wammys Sucks

Would Mello Have Written Near’s Name in the Notebook? (Yes, Absolutely)

It's Not That I Dislike Mello as a Character, I Just Hate What the Narrative Did with Him

Near

Did Near Kill Mikami with the Death Note?

Mello, Near, and Why Wammys Sucks

Wammy's

Mello, Near, and Why Wammys Sucks

I Isekai as a Wammy's Orphan, What Do I Do?

Raye Penber

What if Raye Hadn’t Died?

Shinigami

Can Shinigami be Seen on Infared?

Crossovers

What if Tom Riddle Isekaied into Death Note?

What About a Death Note Crossover with Twilight? and Would Light Realize Vampires Aren’t Human?

What if Lisa Simpson from the Death Note Parody Met Light? (Bad Day to Be Lisa)

What if Light Yagami Reincarnated as Bella Swan in 2006 on the Day of her Arrival in Forks? and What Would Light Think of the Cullens? and What Do the Cullens Think of Light?

What if Light Yagami Reincarnated as Tamaki Suoh from Ouran High School Host Club?

What if Light Yagami was a Pureblood in Hogwarts when Tom Riddle was There?

General Thoughts on the Story and Adaptations

Vinelle and I Ponder a Good Death Note Film Adaptation

Sexism in Death Note

What if the Press Had Stopped Showing Criminals on TV?

What if Every Death Did Have to Be Unique?

What Would Happen if the Media Had Stopped Showing Criminals?

[randomkposts]

Female soichiro and male sachiko?

K:- Ok, so as a couple Soichiro and Sachiko are very traditional in their roles of Japanese society. Sochiro is the cop, with Ideals of Justice he passed onto Light, and Sachiko is their mother and homemaker.

How much of their personality is based on gender roles within Japanese society that they adhere to? Would Sachiko as a male have grown up more reckless, like Soichiro?

Would his sense of justice burn as brightly?

Maybe he became a cop for similar reasons to Matsuda in this AU. Would he have been the type of cop to join Ls investigation? 

E:-I can think about, surprised that Machiko took up law enforcement.

There's always that disdain for house husbands.

K:-Well, I assumed she got into law enforcement the same way as Matsuda. Nepotism/ family on the force. Lol

E:-Lol ahaha! Nepotism changing lives once again. 

K:-A Death Note story with no cop parents of Light, would change the vibe of the story a lot.

As far as I can remember, Sachiko's character traits seem to be supportive and caring. She's proud of Light for his academic success, supportive of Soichiro's convictions, and encouraging to Syau during her recovery. She has her trials, but we don't see her first hand reaction to them, only how she decides to handle them. If this holds true, she's cool headed and practical, and empathetic in a crisis, the blue oni to Soichiro's red. Sachiko is probably a different kind of cop then Soichiro.

This could bring a different vibe to denying L's accusations towards Light being Kira. 

Would likely also make changes to Light, with a different kind of justice to look up to.

E:- a very different vibe indeed. 

K:- Sochiro probably keeps his defensive attitude about his family and strong sense of justice across the gender swap. Sochiro is now mama bear, I guess. Which probably means if Syau still gets kidnapped, Mello might just focus on the wrong parent and get knocked out of the game earlier, lol. Anyway, Light could still grow up Learning from her mother's sense of Justice, and idealizing her Father, a police officer. 

E:- OH totally

K:-Sad that this breaks up Sochiro and Matsudas friendship, though. If we want there to be more extreme change,  we can have both of the parents be cops, which puts Light in an even more parental position to Sayu, since she is mostly raising her here. It might change her views on their jobs too, but she still might use the death note in resentment and maybe even hope that her parents being less bust might mean more time spent home. It's still a story about  Ideals. 

E:- That be an interesting read if they're both cops.

 Both parents working makes the Yagami family non traditional, since they get good money and don't need to both be working, but do. Not going to get into the Japanese economic crisis here, and how that might have impacted their jobs and public opinion on Scorchio being more publicly committed to justice then raising her daughters, but there would be quite a bit of tension there, in the job and society. 

E:-Sayu turning to Light as a maternal figure in her life. Girls get the burnt of raising their siblings regardless they are the oldest or middle child. 

K:- I was close enough in age to be rival sibling to mine, so I wasn't. 

Light raising Sayu as a guy would be an interesting story too. As with Light as her main Influence instead of someone she goes to for homework and help, what would that look like? Would her views be different?

E:-Your gained a rival 👏👏👏🤣

K:- I did

E:-Lol not me I was the mom essentially. Mom trusted me enough to even take care of luggage and a human being at the airport.

I say her views would be different. 

As in my own case, parents where law buuut when you're the one that is around more to watch them they turn an ear to listen to you.

 So essentially to Sayu , Light's words have a heavier weight than her parents would. 

K:- I think this Sayu might be more academically inclined. 

E:- Yes! True!!

K:-And honestly that could be really fascinating. Especially since it would change with Light's  gender .

Would Sayu possibly gain an inferiority complex or downplay herself in other areas compared to her sibling who is perfect (so why try for unattainable?)

Or would Lights God complex take some hits in the interest of raising Sayu right?

E:-Good question. But I am drawing blanks here. 

K:-Like I can see Light being protective. But with her looking up to Light so much, Sayu has a lot of potential to fly or be burned. I guess it would have to depend on author and where they are going with it. But Light doesn't  tend to let most people in, coming off as charming and charismatic. 

Still in this scenario, Sayu grows up under Light and is soo shaped by that. 

And relationships with Light are a dangerous thing. 

E:-Light is like a stone fruit. Pleasing and sweet on the outside a hard stone in the center. Take too big of a bite and you'll hurt yourself. 

K:-My favorite Sayu shaped  by Light take is probably Silver Pard's Redivivus. 

-"Light knew how to deal with nightmares. Light kept all the dark things away, and he could be scarier than any funny shadows anyway. He sighed quietly as he sat down again and pulled her gently into his lap. "Want a story?"

She nodded again, and silently offered to share the blanket. He looked tired and worn, and she didn't think he could deal with her talking right now – he always said she was too noisy and happy after he'd been shouting at his computer. He snorted slightly and let her arrange it around them both with a weary kind of patience.

It was times like these that Sayu forgot Light was only three years older than her. There was this funny thing about the shadows in Light's room, especially at night, which made him look weird. Old-eyed sort of weird, and kind of scary.

But he was her brother, so he was scary for her, so that was okay."-

Also this, when their parents come back from date night

"I think Sayu might have traumatized him by playing dolls with him," she offered quietly when Soichiro stopped next to her and gave her a puzzled glance. Probably at Light's behest, she added in her mind.-"

E:-ONG 

K:-A third option could have Sachiko stay home understanding of his wife's ambitions and sense of justice, but there's still a tension in that. Still non traditional. Light looks up to her mother, and wants to be like her, here. The Yagamis are probably quite not quite as well off here. Hmm, I know people with families are likelier to get promotions in Japan as they have families to feed, but is that equally applied across genders? Would the Job be subtly trying to get Sachiko to come back  through wages? I don't  know enough to say? Eclipse? Know more about this one?

E:-I think it would be but if we're with the options that both are working its possible Sachiko would be offered the promotions at foremost than Sochiro would be. Sochiro is likely to still promote but at a noticeable slow rate than that of Sachiko. 

The thing is what again is brought in by nepotism and that of the Japanese workforce of WHO your upper classmen is in these situations. Workforce Japan is another thing to navigate especially that of the Japanese workforce.

Or officers. I can see a major subtle or not so subtle barbs at fem Sochiro in these situations. 

K:-Yah that would track

E:-Even if Sachiko is driven by justice,  he in this situation would be seen more or less as a bad father for not being able to provide more their kids. However, in Sachiko part they would more freedom in cases and choosing their protégé so to speak. 

Sochiro on the other hand will get smack from fellow officers and detectives, while adding in public opinion from neighbors. 

Community can help but can also be merciless to those who don't fit the mold.