#and probably nothing else

[dadbastiandisaster]

Also Modern AU Sebastian sooooo shops at Waitrose

[pharmasrightarm]

separate ways

[ustalav]

cass and anders could bond over both having a past love interest they only mention to certain protagonists

[vaguely-concerned]

thinking about not only the specific people lucanis pulls in to represent the 'locks' in his psyche, but the storytelling that happens in the structure/order of them. the underlying ideas are presented something like:

the lucanis who went into the ossuary never came back out again; he died down there (the boy caterina raised is gone forever) -> you're putting yourself in danger doing this (by being close to me), you should leave because I can't bear it if you get hurt because of me -> it doesn't matter even if we do try this, it won't work anyway (again because of me) ('you know what he's like, you can open the door but he won't walk through it' :'( oofie doofie) -> what if the real secret is that there was never anything but the monster in here from the beginning. you should leave, there was never anything here worth saving in the first place. (implicitly: what if I deserved what happened, all along.)

it runs pretty cleanly from outward-oriented attachment anxiety ('caterina won't even want me back like this, she won't recognize me (the same way I no longer recognize myself)) and gradually deeper inwards until we reach self-image and self worth. or you know, the harrowing basic lack of it lol.

"careful -- they'll know we're not right," spite says in one of their first scenes... but clearly, some very deep part of lucanis has feared or suspected for much longer than that that there's something inherently not right at the core of him, way before any demon entered the picture. and the voice he gives those lines to is the person who should know him better than anyone in the world, who he has loved more than anyone in the world -- and who deliberately chose to hurt him so horrifically anyway. 'It's better if I'm just a monster and deserved what happened than it is to allow for the idea that the brother I love doesn't really exist and maybe never did'. it's better if he's fundamentally flawed in some way that needed fixing to help him survive, and that's why caterina chose to hurt him again and again -- out of love. (this one I think he might have a very sad wakeup call on one day if he ever ends up with the responsibility and care of a child of his own in some way and realizes just how alien the idea of ever intentionally hurting them for any reason is to him. oh buddy. also interesting that he keeps caterina as the outermost lock -- there IS a distance he keeps there that he hasn't with illario. he doesn't resent her 'anymore' he says, but he also keeps her carefully further away from his deepest self.)

as far as I could tell the only note in the mind prison that's fully hidden and needs to be uncovered is the sad painful helpless stupid little truth that even after all this, even knowing what happened... he still loves his brother. is there anything illario could ever do that would make lucanis completely stop loving him, do you think? sometimes the trouble with unconditional love is that it is, well. unconditional, even when some terms and conditions probably would have been in order haha.

that's the pattern you see there again and again; he would rather destroy and abandon and imprison himself at every turn than let go of love, even when it's just scraps, even when there's only ever enough of it to hurt him. it's only when rook shows up and as it were takes his hand and walks along with him that he can entertain the idea of changing the story of what walking out the door might mean in the end.

[aestheticallynotdeerlightful]

Thoughts and doodles

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(Please do not use, or repost my works anywhere without explicit permission from me thank you <3)

[thedreadvampy]

Losing my shit about this article in which a transphobic Tory was so busy panicking about existing in the vicinity of a Trans that she almost certainly misheard "jeans" as "penis" and decided that not only was this a problem with the other woman, but also that the world must be informed of this pressing danger.

"a trans woman! I had to stand directly behind her....I thought, 'this is going well', I'm handling The Situation fine'..."

translated: I saw a tall woman with broad shoulders. How would I get out of this alive? I thought. she has a PENIS. PENIS PENIS PENIS. through some force of PENIS I mean will I managed to PENIS behave normally towards her. My hands were PENIS PENIS PENIS shaking as I tried to dry them. summoning up all my PENIS courage I said 'dryer's crap innit'. she turned to me and said " yeah I'm just goiPENIS PENIS PENIS"

It's been a week and I'm still shaking. This proves trans women are the problem and I'm not weird. I'm fine. It's fine. If you think about it I'm the hero hePENIS!!!!!

very this

[nerdy-hyperfixations]

My mom (and my sister) said that both baby Stan and Ford are adorable but Ford is cuter and she likes him better and I think my heart is shattered.

This post is dedicated to my favorite kid Stanley panels:

My mom didn’t even like him when I showed the one where he murders those two kids 😭😭😭 that’s the best part!!!

[erodingsinner]

BLACK SAILS — S01E01 "I." // S03E07 "XXV."

[simplepotatofarmer]

c!techno is actually the most trustworthy character on the dream smp and i'll die on that hill.

you could leave him with your items and your pets and it'd be fine.

[lucabyte]

Hmmm just gonna spit this headcanon out in text post form since A. I don't think I could exposit it well enough in image form and B. It's not actually textually/thematically substantiated and I don't like actually staking my stuff on just vibes alone*

But anyway. I'd say it's pretty evident that all the islanders forgot their names, right? King obviously. Because why the hell else would he do that, but also Siffrin No Middle Names No Last Name.

They're 'pretty sure' they've 'always' been 'Just Siffrin' 'as long as they can remember'. It's a pretty cruel twist of the knife to say that they don't even get to keep their birth name as a memento, which is why I'm saying as such.

My utterly unsubstantiated claim is I think it'd be cute to say that Sisyphus *is* the name Siffrin initially picked, assuming the myth of King Sisyphus is recontextualised as idk, just a play or something in the setting. But I like the idea of Siffrin going 'oh shit 🫵 he's just like me fr' at a tortured fictional character long before the irony kicks in.

As for how Sisyphus -> Siffrin. I think that chronic mumbler and emotional doormat Sif just did not correct people who misheard the name during their time travelling, and went through enough places with incompatible phonologies (pronounceable sounds in the language) without ever really writing it down that it just got kinda. Changed until it was unrecognisable, and Siffrin just went with it until the earlier pronunciations slipped out of their swiss-cheese brain. And they just kinda don't remember any of that.

Also, something something the horrid realisation that Siffrin also named themselves after a King. Just not as blatantly.

*(though I think there's something here about Siffrin, a guy from a belief system that seems to thoroughly disincentivise autonomy and self-motivated choice continuously having their hand forced to make changes/choices they don't want but have no choice but to... It's not solid enough to really back this up tbh, but it informs it.)

Anyway.

[mstrota]

the size difference is criminal, man��

[claraoswalds]

It's racist, my dear, to be blunt. People come from outside, they think we're all witches and druids. For God's sake, child, you walked into a piece of string!

[forestshadow-wolf]

Soap has a falling out with Gaz and Price. It was in the interest of "they might not agree with me but it will save them", pure unrighted misconception, and the only reason Ghost stayed, even through the fights between Price and Soap and Soap and Gaz, and the dishonorable discharge, and the depression, and the good days and bad ones too. The only reason he stayed is because he was there. He was with soap. Pleading with him not to do it. Begging him not to shatter his life like that. But soap did it anyway because he's too good for his own good, and Ghost wouldn't leave him.

And so only Ghost alone is privy to the way soap lives his life through the interest of others. How he claims his new favorite breakfast is what Price always said his favorite was. How his favorite sweet is the same as Gaz's. He keeps a box of Price's favorite brand of cigars on the mantle, and Gaz's favorite liquor stays in the cabinet, untouched. He knows about the boonie hat that used to be Price's in the dark corner of the closet, and beside it is a stolen cap from Gaz.

And he sees when, years later, Price and Gaz come barreling into their lives once more, on the run and in danger. They hadn't uttered a word to Soap (and only soap) since his discharge. But still he lets them into his home. Gives his food, and clothes, and furniture, and everything he has to them.

And Ghost knows to hold his tongue when Soap wants him to. He knows Soap want him to just let them steamroll him and leave. And he does. Truely, he does. Until they start indulging. Little comments, like how soap must've gotten serious about his smoking as Price takes a cigar and a (now bloody) seat. Or how he's gotten into some bad habbits as he clatters around the liquor until he finds the unopen bottle, and grimes up another chair.

And suddenly Ghost can't stay quiet anymore. Because he watched soap give up his entire life for them. He watched him nearly kill himself for it. And how they won't speak to him, won't text or call him. How they make it clear that they've cut off Soap so entirely, and wholly the opposite for Ghost. And how soap couldn't bear to lose them, but he did anyway, just to see them alive.

[leavingautumn13]

i don't have anything to say about this one except "i'm sorry."

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[mobius-m-mobius]

smitten, I believe

[superbellsubways]

imp/demon clippy based on that telegram sticker 👍 he is mean