#and part of me still wonders if he will (temporarily) die too

[marimeeko]

So the premise I imagine around the doodles I posted last night(or particularly the one of Kacchan grabbing Izuku)

Katsuki gets revived, but is forced to stay down. And as he breathes and restores energy and oxygen to his system after Edgseshots surgery and Internal CPR, he feels the rumbles of UA shaking. He knows it's not over yet. He knows Izuku is there now, knows he is fighting, even if he still is being blocked from seeing.

Clarity comes to him as those around him keep looking over their shoulders and curse in hushed voices. Katsuki can tell though, something is wrong.

Not only has Togas clones overwhelmed Monoma and Aizawa, but the whispers insinuate that Izuku himself is losing ground, and is reaching exhaustion.

With more resolve than ever, Katsuki pushes himself into a position to see.

Izuku is breaking down, his 5 minutes up. His body seems to be locked up. Katsuki doesn't quite understand why, but he can see Izukus pained gasps for breath, hear murmuring from Best Jeanist and Mirio of

"He can't breathe..." "Does he... should we intervene?" "Is it part of OFA?"

Katsukis stomach sinks because he sees Shigaraki next, still not defeated, about to take advantage of the sudden break.

Before Jeanist can finish shouting for them to get to Izuku, Katsuki erupts. Through the pain of shattered limbs and broken pride, he tears forward to get to them. The exhausted, emotionally broken Izuku unmoving except for some weak tendrils of BW doesn't, can't move to get out of the way of Shigaraki in time, and even though he internally shouts at himself to move, do something...

A hand grips into the back of his suit and a body careens into him, they go flying, with the added propulsion of Katsuki aiming all he's got towards Shigaraki.

Being half broken as he is, the rescue is clumsy, and they land and tumble across the grass and rubble. Katsuki cringes from the pain and doubles over around Izuku, who realizes his rescuer with wide, tear brimmed eyes.

"K-kacch...an??"

He is still fighting the consequences of the seconds Quirk, having trouble drawing breath. Katsuki sits them both up. He notices that Jeanist, Miruko and Mirio have rushed Shigaraki to run distraction, Nagant is still shooting from far away. So he grips Izuku tightly and tells him

"Just focus on breathing, you damn nerd!"

Izuku can't take his eyes off of Katsukis,

"Kacchan....you....you were..."

Katsuki nods "Yeah. I was."

"I'm sorry--I--" Izuku hiccups, shoulders shaking now from overflowing emotions.

"Hey! Shut it and breathe!" Katsuki scolds. Though his voice is breaking as well. He brings their foreheads together, keeping Izukus gaze. "I want you to breathe with me, dammit."

Izuku still feels reluctant in his grasp, he can tell that Izuku is trying to scope out the others and their fight with Shigaraki "Let them handle it, you just need a fucking second. Izuku. Breathe. With me."

Izuku finally melts and tries, drawing in a quivering breath with Katsuki. And then out. In, and out. As Izuku's breath turns from frantic and desperate to level and deep, with the exception of a few hiccups or quivers, Katsuki hooks his arm around Izuku, drawing him to his chest.

Izuku buries his face into Katsukis shoulder and clutches the back of his uniform.

Within moments, Izuku flares with energy and stronger arms of Black Whip surrounding him. The wind whirls around them, and Izuku pulls away. His eyes meet with Katsukis again, glowing a fierce, blinding green. For a moment, he swears that Katsukis eyes are full of awe, and something he can't quite put a name to.

"It's time to end this."

Katsuki nods, and the two get to their feet, hand in hand.

[soapssuds]

Infinity

Yandere ! Gojo Satoru x Female ! Reader

Part 25 | moving forward

Summary | And I'd choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I'd find you and I'd choose you.

Infinity Masterlist

“Hi, Itadori, how are you feeling?”

Once she got to feeling better, she asked Gojo (who was still by her side when she woke up) if she could go see Itadori. She could sense the slight hesitation radiating off of him, but he ended up saying yes anyway.

“L/n- sensei!”

He jumped off the couch and bounded up to her, a smile on his face as if he didn’t just temporarily die.

“I’m doing good actually. Nothing hurts or anything like that, but that stupid stuffed animal did hit me a few times…”

“Stuffed animal?”

She glanced to towards the couch where the stuffed animal laid and the to the TV that was currently playing some B-rated movie.

“Ahhh, never mind. So that’s what is going on,” she said with a small smile as Gojo came down the stairs next, his arm being thrown over her shoulders as he leaned into her slightly. A smile was on his face as he greeted him, “so, finally got the training down?”

“You bet, Gojo-sensei!”

“Great, cause now I’m passing you off to someone else.”

“To l/n-“

“No.”

Itadori pouted. He liked her teaching style a lot.

“Then who?”

“His name is Nanami Kento. I’m sure you’ll learn a lot from him.”

“Nanami…?”

Gojo glanced at her, “know him?”

“I think I do, but I can’t remember…,” she paused before something clicked, “oh wait!”

“What?”

“He was actually the first sorcerer that I went on a mission with just before I graduated! It’s been awhile since I last saw him! I wonder how he’s doing.”

Gojo pouted, “so he’s your favorite sorcerer now?”

She rolled her eyes, “you’re still my favorite, Satoru.”

Itadori rolled his eyes at the display, but still kept his smile, “so, when do I start?”

Gojo turned his gaze to his student, “right now.”

“I,” she started, “I don’t think I will ever get used to your teleportation.”

Gojo comforted her to the best of his ability. His hand gently falling to the small of her back as he pushed her closer to himself, “sorry, sorry. Won’t happen again… maybe.”

Gojo glanced up and noticed the man he was looking for, “Nanami!”

Cue an annoyed groan causing y/n to giggle a little as the man that she now fully remembered came before the three.

“So you must be Itadori.”

He glanced towards y/n as well, “ah, and you too. It’s good to see you’re still alive.”

She nodded, “and I plan on keeping it that way!”

“Right.”

[baby-xemnas]

thinking about how the last time we see law and bepo in chapter 1081, law is barely conscious and bepo is in tears, begging for law to not die, to hold on. how in the very last panel it looks like bepo, in his desperation to get law to safety, has been forced to dive underwater with law on his back, and he must know how risky that is- but the risk of blackbeard seeing them on the water’s surface is higher, so bepo can’t stay above water the whole time, until he can find a safe spot for them to hide. the sheer terror bepo must feel because the likelihood of law drowning is high too, with bepo possibly having to dive underwater and resurface intermittently, and bepo is so scared, he doesn’t know how long a severely injured and barely conscious law will be able to hold his breath, if law is even still awake and hearing bepo talk to him, but bepo can’t afford to slow down because blackbeard and co. are too close by and might catch up to them. thinking about how bepo is probably so exhausted from the fight (who knows what side effects force inducing sulong form without the full moon could potentially have on his body) trying his hardest not to pass out, his vision going spotty, but he can’t won’t let his captain down, and it’s like a countdown in bepo’s head, a race against the clock, to get to a safe spot where he can temporarily stop and check on law. and with each passing second bepo is filled with even more panic at the worst case scenario. thinking about law being unresponsive when they do reach a temporary safe spot (maybe like a small island or a shipwreck idk), and bepo having to perform cpr on law and just how terrifying those few moments would be for bepo, when law isn’t breathing, bepo crying and pleading for his captain to come back to him

HOLY FUCK DUDE

god i didnt even think about the Law holding his breath part being so scary (i only saw jokes abt it lol) you are so smart...

fuck fuck fuck

and these are the tough decisions Bepo has to make for his captain - because Law is incapacitated and Bepo is going against captain's wishes - his instincts really - to stay with the crew. Law cannot, will not even THINK to prioritize his own life - Bepo has to do it for him and save him. Captain had given it his all, 100% and then some - to win, then to simply survive and save their family - it wasn't enough.

Oh this is getting me so fucking emotional i want to cry, because Bepo, sweet and wonderful Bepo has risen to the occasion because of course he did...push really did has come to shove and he really mother bear-ed it. Wow

And the craziest part is what he says - we've been through bad times, we got through them and we will get through this too - he's learned from times of crisis that they had - but it was never like THIS. Never this devastating. Never to the point where LAW was incapacitated...One can imagine Bepo moving on instinct

Great ask thank you so much i nearly cried while making soup

[cosmicjoke]

Alright, chapter 215 of "Vinland Saga"!

And ohh boy, there's really no going back for Einar, now. He's finally, officially, killed someone, and I really do have to wonder what the ramifications of that is going to be. What's really interesting here is how Einar's first time killing someone mimics Thorfinn's first time from the anime. If I recall correctly, that scene wasn't originally included in the manga, but when Thorfinn kills for the first time as a young boy, he's at first stunned, and then this rage takes over him and he keeps repeatedly stabbing at his assailant. And we see that happen here with Einar, too, with him being at first shocked that he's killed someone, before just losing it and stabbing his attacker repeatedly, well after he's already dead. It's a trauma response, just like it was with Thorfinn. Only Einar is a grown man and this is his first time experiencing the horror of it all.

I've been wondering for a while what the effect of all of this was going to be on the relationship between Thorfinn and Einar, and it seems more and more to me that it's headed somewhere irreversible. Thorfinn's been MIA for a while now, and all this horrible killing has broken out, all this war, mostly being experienced by people who have never seen a battle field or had to take a life in order to save either their own or others. I don't think Einar is going to recover from this or ever really be the same, and I have a bad feeling that he may even grow to resent and hate Thorfinn (more than he already does), assuming he doesn't get killed in all this. Thorfinn isn't there, and he isn't able to fight, and as a result, it's everyone else who's sort of been forced into this confrontation, Einar most of all, who's own choice to stay and fight has led to this moment. I'd hate to see him blame Thorfinn for that, when again, it's Einar's own choice that led him here. He could have just chosen to flee, like Vargar originally suggested. Of course, you can't hold it too much against Einar, either, because all he's worked for and dreamed of is being threatened and stolen from him. There's really no right or wrong answer here. It isn't fair to just suggest Einar should be willing to give up everything just because someone decided to take it from him. That's what makes this story so complex and, ultimately, tragic. There's really no clear answer to any of it. But yeah, I'm just thinking that it's likely Einar will be irrevocably changed from this, and his relationship with Thorfinn forever altered, maybe even destroyed. We'll see, whenever we get Thorfinn back in the picture. But that really would be the ultimate tragic outcome of this, I think, and a perfect encapsulation of how war destroys. Thorfinn's first and best friend, the man who helped pull him out of despair and gave him a new direction and purpose outside of the violence that had, up to that point, defined his life, may end up turning on Thorfinn completely through the experience of war and violence. I think, in some ways, Einar already has turned on Thorfinn, but so fully rejecting Thorfinn's decision to retreat without fighting. How Thorfinn's own ideals and pacifism survives that kind of blow is a good question. I think he'll be devastated, if it turns out like I'm predicting, and realistically, he'll begin to again question the viability of his philosophy.

It seems, at least in part, that the tide has temporarily turned, too, with the Jomsvikings appearing and absolutely destroying the Lnu's fighters on the shore. How long the reprive will last for the Nords remains to be seen, though. Things are still dire, that's for sure.

I hope we get an update next chapter on Thorfinn. We have no idea currently what his condition is or if he's going to survive. I don't expect him to die, but his condition the last time we saw him was bad enough to at least assume he's got no way of fighting or defending anyone. What a disaster. I'm afraid of what his reaction is going to be when he finally sees what's happened.

[paradoxcase]

John 9:22

THE TOWER HAS REACTIV

So at this point, this can't be anything other than "the tower has reactivated". So the Tower, so far mentioned only when calling Ianthe and Gideon "Tower Princes" is some sort of mechanism or something that can be activated? I guess I would guess that it's some part of the Mithraeum

I hope that's not actually as horrifying as it sounds. They both have godlike powers, so they should be able to do this in a not-entirely-horrifying way, right?

That's not the first time in this story that John has specifically objected to cannibalism, but that's an interesting place to draw the line, when he has no problem using human bodies for ornamentation or military weapons, and he wears baby fingerbones in his hair. But using human bodies for sustenance, which has actual IRL precedence, even in cases where starvation wasn't a possibility, is too far for him. I'm not even talking about the non-European tribespeople who were accused of cannibalism here, white Europeans were eating mummies in the Middle Ages because they thought they had medicinal properties. Using human bones as ornamentation was also quite common, but I don't think cannibalism was any more alien to John's culture than that. Also, I don't think the actual Nine Houses religion has a problem with cannibalism - it seems to be a normal part of Ianthe's necromancy for example, at least before she became a Lyctor, and it's a necessary step in the method that the OG Lyctors came up with for attaining Lyctorhood

Now I'm kind of hoping/expecting this means that Augustine is going to somehow reappear at some point and kill John, or help kill John? I mean, we don't know where the Stoma actually goes, and I'm sure John doesn't either, and I think we will probably find out by the end of the story

This would explain BOE's "death sense" that they talk about, but I still don't think that this is something that happens to most ordinary necromancers, because otherwise Harrow would have noticed Magnus and Abigail dying back in Gideon the Ninth, and I think Mercy and Augustine would have realized that Mercy hadn't managed to kill John

So, after everyone on Earth died, presumably because of the nuke, John temporarily gains a huge amount of power and is able to use that to resurrect everyone? Is that why he can't resurrect people anymore, because it requires the amount of thanergy that's generated by the deaths of 8 billion people? This is part of a section where John is talking about his quest to figure out how to resurrect people

Also, someone (maybe Cassiopeia or Nigella?) probably should have told John at this point that that wasn't what people meant when they said "defund the police"

With all these little snippets of stuff we hear about G1deon in these, I kind of wonder how he would have reacted if he'd survived Number Seven and had been the one in the room with John and Mercy and Augustine when Mercy had apparently killed John for lying to them about their cavaliers having to die, during the short period of time they had to react to that before John reconstituted. Augustine clearly expected some reaction, because he said

(Pyrrha obviously don't give a fuck, and there wasn't really anything she could do to Mercy or Augustine even if she did)

Yeah, this doesn't surprise me, since he'd already decided to be Dr. Evil at this point. I actually thought I misread something when he initially described telling Pyrrha it had been an accident

[smileyvillainarc]

so this is inspired by a darksun one shot that i saw on ao3

young, drunk and alone - regiulusblack

but instead of Barty being the one to drunk call James, it’s in reverse and takes place during 5th year as Barty starts to realise how messed up James really is and how much holding in his feelings is literally crushing him alive !!!

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Barty had got stood up. Officially speaking it had been about four hours since he been stood up but he had decided to give it a couple of hours just in case James had been running late or his ADHD had hit him and he had temporarily forgotten about him but four hours in he could no longer make any excuses.

He was pissed of course. That’s how he should be feeling, but he was also feeling this slight ache in his chest that made him feel sad. He didn’t quite understand that part. It wasn’t as though James had been required to come tonight, they only had makeshift plans from last week that he had never reconfirmed. He had probably forgotten. He had never forgotten before.

It was in this angry, confused and partly upset state that a patronus appeared in front of him.

“Barty”, James sighs. His voice is heavy with an exhaustion that Barty didn’t recognise.

“Did you know that muggles don’t have an instant remedy for healing a bone?” he sighs and then yelps slightly as though he were injured.

“You probably do, you’re smart like that- my genius boyfriend,” Barty didn’t know but he was too happy that James was calling him his boyfriend to care.

“I thought you might be wondering why I didn’t show up tonight, I’m sorry. I tried sending this like a million times, the muggles here actually thought I was drunk and started to feel so bad for me that they gave me some free alcohol- it sucks,” he then chuckles in that self-deprecating way that Barty feels his heart break a little.

“Anyways, I was feeling a bit sad today and Moony says that I should be careful when I’m sad because I do very dumb things and maybe just maybe I’ve done one of those things,” James starts, “ Okay this is definitely a very dumb thing to do, especially considering Padfoot banned me after the last time, but it’s okay - I’m okay, I’m in total control.”

“It’s why I sent it to you Barty, you won’t get like super mad at me because you don’t know yet,” he goes back to cackling as though he just made a funny joke.

He then suddenly pauses his laughter as though he remembers that he is still sending a patronus and a slight hustling noise is heard as James moves from a busier environment to a quieter one.

“I told them about you, you know. It’s funny how much they kept telling me that I should get over you, that I shouldn’t care for someone that would break my heart. They again they also said that I shouldn’t call you when I’m drunk but you know I’ll probably die before that happens,” he continues rambling,his words slowing at an alarming pace, “I think I love you - but it would be easier to die for you than to date you, Barty.”

And then the patronus dissipates and Barty is left only with overwhelming dread.

[pokejstor]

Excerpt from The Journals of Warden Nobori: A Glimpse into the Mundanities of Hisuian Life.

Part of Sinnoh Historical Society Digital Collections.

Klio Mizuki

Documents of the late Hisui Era, vol. 16, no. 10.

Once again, I find myself in the infirmary, though despite Warden Yūgao’s insistences, I feel that the reason this time is far less frivolous than usual. Unfortunately, the injury is far more serious- it is likely that I will be unable to walk far for quite some time. I have been told that my pelvis is fractured. This is not surprising, but it is painful and irritating. Still, I believe it was worth it.

I was sent to forage in the icelands. While I was told of the Alpha Garchomp that makes its territory in this area, I believed that I was outside of its range- unfortunately, I was not. At first, I thought I was rather lucky, as it did not seem to notice me, but it was not good luck for me. Rather, it was bad luck for some poor Gligar, who the Alpha Garchomp was focused on defeating, presumably to eat. While I am no longer squeamish about hunting and butchering Pokemon for sustenance, something about seeing a Pokemon that normally sports a distinctive grin no longer “smiling” wounded my heart.

What I did next was foolish, I will admit. I should have thrown snowballs to stun the Alpha Garchomp. I was not thinking. Instead, I ran directly to it. The next time I see Warden Hamarenge*, I will be sure to thank him, though he may not appreciate the implication that his self defense lessons emboldened me to punch an Alpha Garchomp in the snout. This did work to temporarily stun it, and the Gligar immediately took the opportunity to flee. I was not as quick as him. The Garchomp grabbed me in its mouth and, to tell the Truth, I thought that I would die right there. Thankfully, the Gligar had not fled far. Perhaps he felt indebted to me, because he attacked the Garchomp, causing it to drop me.

The two of us were able to flee, if only barely. The cold atmosphere of the icelands seems to slow even such a swift Pokemon as Garchomp, and a mixture of Mud Bombs and snowballs eventually convinced it to leave us alone. As I write this, he clings to my shoulders, watching as if he can read the words I am writing. He was wary at first when Warden Yūgao began to inspect my injuries, and became angry when it became apparent that her treatment was causing me pain, though I managed to calm him. I shall have to remember to ask her what is in the poultice that she applied to the bite mark, though I am certain that she will tell me anyways, considering my track record with injury.

If nothing else, it soothes my heart to finally have a Pokemon as a companion. While it is not all that common in the Pearl Clan, I have often felt jealous at the sight of Clan Leader Kai^ with her Eevee, or Warden Yūgao with her Bidoof. Perhaps, wherever I was before Hisui, I too had a Pokemon as my partner. Perhaps they are even wondering where I am. I am uncertain if the naming of Pokemon is a common practice here, but it feels right to me to do so. I feel that I should consider the matter more carefully, but for now, when I look at this Gligar’s smiling face, only one name comes to mind: Em. Perhaps this shall suffice.

*[This is the Hisuian name of the Warden known as Gaeric.]

^[This is the Hisuian name of Clan Leader Irida.]

[The translators do not recommend punching any wild Pokemon, let alone an Alpha. Warden Nobori’s actions were reckless and should not be imitated.]

[vixen525noms]

Defying Certain Death Part 6

Copied from my DeviantArt account, a non-sexual G/T vore story featuring adults along the lines of the lion and the thorn fable. There will be tons of hurt/comfort aspects, lots of safe vore. That is the primary focus in this.

Barrett is and adult giant standing 85ft tall and Hope is an adult human at 5ft 6. Barrett does not eat children at any point.

Warnings: Unwilling Mention; Fatal Mention; Characters in Distress

Future: While this part is relatively tame, future parts include fatal vore and violence. Barrett, the giant, is not a good guy, so will be doing some occasional bad things.

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He could smell fear on her as he had explained himself and asked the question. It didn’t seem to lessen at all. He slowly moved his thumb to rub her back gently, trying to comfort and reassure her. She smelled wonderful... and he knew how she tasted as well. He didn’t want to ask permission, didn’t want to wait for her to agree or spend time convincing her. He just wanted food. He watched how she had cringed slightly even at a gentle touch, at how difficult it was for her to accept she was safe.

It was at that point he realized that no matter how much he asked, she wouldn’t agree to it. She wasn’t familiar with their magic, and she was still terrified of him. Or more precisely, she was terrified of his kind. True, at first his main reason for not wanting her hurt was desperation, but things had changed. He had been trapped, he had no choice but to leave her unharmed, she had been his only hope of survival. They had spent weeks together. She had stayed with him, even when she wasn’t working. She talked to him and gotten to know him, but that wasn’t enough to keep her from fearing him. Some of what he’d talked about had probably made things a little worse... But even so, it surprised him a bit that she would think that all she had done meant nothing to him. 

He sighed as she finally spoke, having expected the answer or something similar, “Please... don’t hurt me... Please... I don’t want to die.” He shook his head, slowly lowering his hand. “You probably need some rest... You’ve worked so hard to care for me... Here. You’ll be safe here and it’ll be quiet.” He carefully slid his hand into his jacket pocket with her on it, gently releasing her to lay in there. “Just rest... We can figure out what to do once you’ve rested.”

He pulled his hand out after a moment, standing still as he listened to her, making sure she had settled down before starting to walk. He could hear her breathing slow, tell she calmed quickly once he placed her there. She knew he was half starved, so she was willing to accept that if he didn’t eat her immediately, he wasn’t likely to hurt her. He was glad at how she calmed down, although still disappointed he hadn’t been able to get her to agree to help him cope with hunger temporarily. He waited a moment longer, until he was relatively certain she had fallen asleep, then started to walk, making his way through the rocky area to find what he needed.

It didn’t take long for him to find water, and he could tell by scent that it was where the girl had been coming while caring for him. He knelt carefully to keep from disturbing her too much in his pocket. He used the fresh water to wash his face and arms a bit, removing some of the dust and dirt that had collected since he was pinned. He felt filthy from all that time trapped, and wanted to wash up more thoroughly, but he was near starved... Food was still a powerful need, and until he had something to hold off the hunger, there was no way he could try to clean up. The need for food was just too strong to hardly even think. 

He started to walk again, following the scent trail of the sheep that had stopped here for a drink. Perhaps finding food wouldn’t be too difficult. He rested his hand over his pocket to check on his little passenger, glad when she didn’t react. It seemed likely she was asleep; after all her hard work, she surely needed rest. He lowered his hand, sniffing the air to check the direction the sheep had gone. He moved in silence, a talent his kind often had despite their large size. As he walked he paused at times to sniff the air and look around. The steep rock faces blocked the view in many directions, acting like a canyon in some ways. He noticed sheep tracks and smiled, knowing it wouldn’t be long until he had a meal.

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[beliscary]

@necromycologist #👀 prev im begging you to elaborate on your vision for them

oh my god. im so sorry. I have can't shut up disease. so many series spoilers here we go

for context, these were my tags on user cemeterything 's post featuring this gem:

#nick & sam mutually in the trilogy postcanon I made up in my head #shut up you're not transmuting into a sword and/or stone and I'm not becoming primordial destructive light let's think this through #very much IF I CAN'T NEITHER CAN YOU

ok I gotta bring up Nehima

The ancient Clayr made sure that the sword Nehima and the Dark Mirror found their way to Lirael. Lirael in turn will find Sameth, who passes the bells and the Book on to her. Eventually, she passes the panpipes and then Nehima on to him so that he can forge what they will need to defeat Orannis. This sword bears the inscription: 'Remember the Wallmakers. Remember me.'

Now, here's this passage from the very beginning of Abhorsen, which has been the rock in the shoe of my brain since I read it:

"He was a Wallmaker as well as a royal prince, but what did that mean? The Wallmakers had disappeared millennia ago, putting themselves into the creation of the Wall and the great Charter Stones—quite literally, as far as Sam knew. For a moment he wondered if that would be his destiny too. Would he have to make something that would end his life? At least as a living, breathing man? For the Wallmakers weren't exactly dead, Sam thought, remembering the great Charter Stones and the Wall. They were more transformed, or transfigured, not that he fancied that either. In any case he was far more likely to simply get killed..."

Nehima made something that ended her life, at least as a living, breathing woman. 🤷‍♀️

With Sam's canonical fear of capital D 'Death' Still Very Much Existing, I feel like the best course re: future character development would have been to dig into the tension between immortality as a construct/weapon vs. accepting death and deciding to be fully human. Is that very narrow eternal life as a part of the Wall, or a weapon to be wielded, or a Charter Stone… tempting? terrifying? Does he feel becoming some kind of weapon or tool is inevitable? Has he ever wondered what the inscription on whatever remains of him should be? Has he written it somewhere and burned it like all those letters to his parents he was too afraid to send?

Time and again in the books, Sam thinks to himself how glad he is that he's not the Abhorsen and how happy he is to be able to make things, to be Of Use to the Abhorsen/the Kingdom. He feels awful about what he considers his moments of cowardice and his abandonment of his responsibilities. I think he's in the perfect pressure cooker to be an enormous idiot about what duty calls him to do, while also struggling internally with his own fears. 'I can make this ultimate sacrifice... and also not die.... am I being a coward.... no one has to know.... is this a fate worse than death?... maybe I deserve that. maybe what I deserve has nothing to do with it, and this is simply what I must do, just as the Abhorsens must walk in Death...'

I think Nick needs to kick him in the shins about it (ughgbhfhfhh there's that part in one of the later letters Nick writes in the books that's like 'come here and tell me I'm being a stupid asshole so I stop being a stupid asshole'... fave. this vibe, both ways.) Sam never got to see Nick possessed by Orannis so I feel like Nick should get to deal with Sam, sometimes unsettling conduit for The Charter's intent. ('I Didn't Get Possessed In His Place And Temporarily Die For This!')

and Nick!!! arghhh WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO BE THE SURVIVING VESSEL OF ORANNIS?! his skeptic's worldview is shattered! he's traumatized! he's IRRADIATED! he has sooo much to feel guilty about and thinks he has to make up for, especially with regards to what he thinks he owes the Kingdom and the survivors of Forwin Mill.... but his very existence disrupts the Charter. Not too long ago, he was walking talking anathema to life itself. also he has these weird temptations to shuck off his mortal body and become a being of pure Free Magic??? Is it worse that he's still alive, because he's so dangerous? He came back from Death, why him when so many others died? Shouldn't he have just taken what was left of the hemispheres' powers to the grave with him? I'm sure he gets in his head about 'I need to do something with this life I got to return to because otherwise...'

obligation v. guilt v. desire. basically so much trauma and also Need To Make It Right. Sam would kick him in the shins about it except then he'd have to recognize the self in the other and 😬 he's probably still emotionally recovering from Nick saying those exact words to him and coughing his dying blood on his face. I digress

I think too that even though nick's irradiated and the Charter goes all wonky around him, the fact that the baptism took and the mark stays Means Something, and I choose to believe that in this strange way Nick is the new walking talking Destroyer, and that remnant of the Destroyer which exists as Nick wants to be a part of the Charter this time around, and with Sam having so many of the bloodlines it's just.... the most bizarre mutual understanding of what being alive means, as kids who used to vault desks at boarding school and also as... living manifestations of the cycle of creation and destruction. and they both have to constantly grab each other by the scruff of the neck to remind each other they're allowed to live too, not just throw themselves "into the making" like the Bright Shiners

(at my Most Bittersweet I think about how maybe it's Sam who passes away first, and until the very moment he goes, Nick can't quite believe he actually decided to die a man and not forge himself into some other thing. they had of course talked about it before but there was always a part of Nick that wondered...

and when he does cross into the River, Nick is the one to perform the final rites and burn his body so it can't be used because oh boy he Gets It)

[nikibogwater]

Final Daniel Spellbound Blethers (season 2):

In terms of overall quality, it’s like Season 1+. All of the stuff I love about the show has gotten even better. But unfortunately, a lot of the things that didn’t work for me in season 1 were done even worse in season 2. Or, maybe they just looked worse because the good stuff was better? Yeah, let’s go with that, I like that better.

Anyways, I’m gonna be bouncing all over the place here (more so than usual, I mean) so apologies if this is a little jumbled. 

Spoilers below the cut!

My biggest positive from this season was the new characters and their involvement in the story. Shak is an endearing little brat in the way that only kids can be, and Jayce is a deliciously tragic villain with all the swagger and charisma of a main protagonist. It genuinely broke my heart a little bit to see Shak reunite with her brother, only to realize that he’s not the person she once knew and loved. 

On the flipside, I also often felt like the show wasn’t giving this situation the emotional weight it should have had. Shak and Jayce reuniting played off more like old classmates running into each other at the grocery store. And Jayce being able to temporarily fight off the Dread Magic within him because of the love he still had for his sister seemed more like an afterthought than a serious character moment. 

Looking back on it, I think this was more to do with how the scenes were directed and edited than with the script. Like I said, the characters and the story they are part of are enthralling, it’s just something about the way it was delivered in the final product that felt a little....I don’t wanna say half-assed, but more like the directing/editing team were skittish about making things too serious. Which is a real shame because they had everything they needed to make a really emotionally compelling arc here. 

Jayce as a character is surprisingly complex and oddly sympathetic. I loved that there were often no clear visual cues to let you know who was talking at any given moment--you’re left guessing as to whether this is really Jayce saying/doing these things, or if it’s just the corrupting force of the Dread Magic. 

I’m anticipating a redemption arc for him somewhere down the line. There were just too many hints that the real Jayce is still in there for this to be the end of him.

Shak is just as fun to watch as her brother, and speaking as a little sister who loves her big brothers, I think the writers nailed her personality and motives. Her bit about touching all of Jayce’s belongings when he’s not around to yell at her felt particularly true-to-life, haha. She’s also allowed to be vulnerable, and I like that the show never lets you forget that she is just a child.  

Daniel getting a little sister in Shak is everything I could have asked for from this show (sans Hoagie being turned into bacon) and I can die a happy woman now.

I really loved Daniel’s character as a whole this season, even more than last season. He’s clearly grown a set of morals since we were first introduced to him, and he constantly gives off these wonderful Exhausted Oldest Sibling vibes. I love seeing flawed characters change and grow to the point that they can start guiding other characters through their arcs. 

Hoagie was slightly better this season, but not enough to really change my opinion of him (I detest him and I’m always extremely disappointed any time he escapes from a near-death experience). He had a handful of moments where he acted more like a genuinely likable character, which is a marked improvement over season 1, where he had literally zero. But he’s still unbearably loud and obnoxious and just overall despicable, and I’m afraid no amount of self-aware jokes about his general awfulness is going to fix that. They’d have to either send him through one hell of a character arc to make him clean up his act, or turn him into lunch meat. Personally, I’m voting for the latter.

This second season also delved into darker visuals and implications, which really lent a feeling of weight and tension to the story. I’m of the opinion that antagonists/antagonistic forces ought to be at least a little unnerving, but Dread Magic and the way it manifests is downright scary, and I love it. 

I adore Elyse. She exudes massive amounts of raw Karen Energy, and Julie Sype sounded like she was having a blast voicing the character. She was a really fun minor antagonist. 

Alright. I’ve put it off long enough. I have to address my biggest negative with this season: the character drama. 

The conflict between Daniel, Lucy, and Hoagie felt as forced as a toddler jamming a circle into a square-shaped hole. In order to establish conflict, one or more of them had to act in a way that is painfully at odds with their established personalities. And what’s even worse is the way this retcons all of the relationship development that happened in season 1. Lucy is constantly assuming the absolute worst about Daniel and flat-out refuses to hear his side of the story. Like, Luce, honey, I thought you guys were friends. I thought you cared about him and valued his friendship, why are you suddenly so determined to push him away???

Then there’s poor Daniel, who is constantly being treated like he’s the one who needs to learn a lesson here, but given the circumstances, he’s really not the one who should carry the blame. Yeah, of course he can’t help Lucy find her scepter, he has a literal bounty on his head. He’s not actively putting off finding a way to turn Hoagie human again, he genuinely has no idea where to even start. The show keeps painting this as Daniel putting his career as a Tracker before his relationships, but in an effort to keep him from looking irredeemable, they kind of forgot to have him actually do that. In fact, it’s always his supposed friends who push him away first.

If anything, the lesson Daniel needs to learn here is how to end toxic friendships, because my LAND, Lucy and Hoagie spend the entire season treating him like trash when he’s not done anything that even comes close to warranting such behavior. And then they have the gall to make him feel like he’s at fault??? I’m sorry, but no matter how much this show tries to convince me otherwise, the fact of the matter is that Lucy and Hoagie were the ones instigating every negative interaction with Daniel. Why wouldn’t he focus more on his job instead of his toxic friends? The whole Friends Before Career thing only applies if your friends are actually, y’know, your friends.

I don’t know, maybe I’m overthinking this, maybe I missed some crucial detail, or maybe it was just the ten-episode limit that kept the writers from being able to tell the story they actually wanted to tell. Whatever the case, the whole thing left me with a very bitter taste in my mouth, and I’m actually a little concerned about the kind of influence this could have on young kids starting to form friendships of their own. Like, I think it’s great to show kids protagonists who screw up and do or say awful things, but if you then forget to portray those protagonists realizing that what they did was wrong and working to fix it, then you’re just telling kids that it’s actually okay to treat people like this. 

I feel like I should clarify that I really only notice this show’s flaws because it does so much so well. It’s like when you love someone, and then that person does something stupid that only hurts themselves, and you want to take them by the shoulders and shake them because DANGIT, STOP SHOOTING YOURSELF IN THE FOOT YOU BEAUTIFUL, WONDERFUL FOOL!

So yeah. In conclusion, season 2 was a very fun time for me, but also as frustrating as it was fun. But I will definitely take strong feelings of fondness and frustration over apathy and anger any day. So go watch Daniel Spellbound if you’re even a tiny bit interested. This is an original IP floating in an ocean of soulless reboots and cash-grabs, so even if it’s not absolutely perfect, I still want it to get as much attention as it possibly can. I will always want a flawed but inventive story over tasteless, risk-free rehashes. 

[delicatebluebirdruins]

Mia and Alan

yes I am on this train again. it also felt prudent to remind people I am not making it up when I say of the short list of people we have working for the connections Mia is the only one alive (that list will be at the end of the post under the read more)

this got so long I am so sorry

cutscenes dire state of affairs and death of a friend

Mia Winters: "Alan, you're getting worse."

Alan Droney: "She must have infected me during the attack. And I'm too far gone anyway. But it serves me right. It's my fault she got out."

Mia: "Yeah, it is your fault. But that doesn't mean I'm gonna let you die."

Alan: "She didn't attack you?"

Mia: "It's part of her imprinting protocol. I can't believe this is happening."

Alan: "Here, take it. It has her tissue samples. You find her—you fix this."

Mia: "OK, Evie. Where are you?"

I always end up wondering about what actually happened with the attack and how long it was from then to this cutscene and of course I make it a different colour as people forget Alan a lot and place the blame solely on Mia for the outbreak

the bit about the imprinting protocol makes me sad for Evie but also very curious about imprinting in a actual sense of the word (and not what twilight makes it out to be) quick google has imprinting down as "In psychology and ethology, imprinting is any kind of phase-sensitive learning that is rapid and apparently independent of the consequences of behaviour. Imprinting is hypothesized to have a critical period." this kind of makes me wonder when this happens to Mia and if Evie imprinted on someone else?

Mia Winters: "How did you get here?"

Alan Droney: "Where's Evie?"

Mia: "She's out of control. Without the treatments, she's deteriorating."

Alan: "Well, it's a good thing I'm already dying."

Mia: "Don't say that."

Alan: "She trusts you. That little bitch, she never—No, Evie, I—Evie—I didn't mean to call you that, Evie."

Mia: "Alan, listen! She's trying to take control. You have to fight her. Eveline, stop! Stop right now!"

Alan: "Don't touch me!"

we already know why I highlighted the part about the treatments

and of couse Mia gets directly infected by Evie when she reached out to support Alan

file: orders found in 2nd deck safe room of the annabelle

Special Operations Division Director Alan Droney and Caretaker Mia Winters

Recent reports suggest that if Eveline remains at her current location, she is at a high risk of being stolen by opposing organizations. Your orders, therefore, are to transfer Eveline to our Central American branch for safe keeping until further notice. During transfer, be sure to adhere to the following protocols: Act as parental guardians for Eveline at all times to avoid suspicion. Manage Eveline's vitals via the Genome Codex provided. If the mission s compromised beyond reconciliation, dispose of Eveline.

director d��-rĕk′tər, dī- One that supervises, controls, or manages.

as in Alan in Mia's boss she answers to him. what i do wonder though is if he is the boss of the whole E series or just a specific branch of caretaking

caretaker kâr′tā″kər One that is employed to look after or take charge of goods, property, or a person; a custodian. One that temporarily performs the duties of an office. One who takes care of something.

so I have said before and I'll repeat myself until the end of days possibly at the connections sending 2 TWO people to transport Evie who is

very powerful

easily unstable: true we don't know how long they were traveling for or planning to travel for but they still sent her without treatments to keep Evie stable

addition: I got curious and looked at other files for the wrecked ship and Jim's letter makes me want to scream a bit

"Dear Janet, Hey, how's it going? I guess half a year or so will have passed by the time you get this letter. Life is so boring here. Day after day, just the same old sea. Although there is one thing that's different. This time we have some passengers sailing with us, which hardly ever happens. It's a couple with a young girl. I think they're distant relatives of the captain. Imagine, traveling on a tanker instead of a passenger ship. They must be hard up! I tried talking to the little girl earlier and her dad shot me this nasty look. What's he so worried about? Now that I think of it, the captian said he didn't even have any relatives... Maybe I'm overthinking this. I miss you. Love, Jim"

empahsis mine. So I was toying with the idea that the connections wanted Evie to get out and do what she did and it kinda fits but then I read the letter and its kinda more solidfied in my mind. My other reasoning for it is them getting into contact with Lucas in early 2015 and giving him the means to cure himself and his ongoing updates on what Evie is doing (files Lucas email salt mine, Evie observation log)

not sure which type of ship the Annabelle (looks wise) is but for tankers the average speed is 13- 17 knots bulk carries 13- 15 knots

so according to metric conversion

13 knots = 14mph/24 kph; 14 knots= 16 mph/25 kph; 15 knots= 17 mph/ 27kph; 16 knots= 18 mph/ 19 kph; 17 knots= 19 mph/ 31 kph

its not really that fast in the grand scheme of things is it

another thing I wondered about is how many crew members where there outside of the named ones from the crew members register and Giovannis will but that's a thought for another time i think and more speculation under the cut

and looking at loving message again "Oh! Good news! I'm gonna be coming home soon! Yay! I cannot wait to be done with this babysitting job—And come home to my loving husband"

I wonder was Mia going to replaced? because Jims letter suggests its not gonna be a short journey. We don't know where they coming from on where Evie was originally based nor where she was going outside of "central america" but I was curious to look about and see distances for things and well after looking for spots along the coast going a little farther away from LA then I wanted I found a small place called Conception and I looked it up and the first result?

image id: screenshot from indeed of a job offering from a company called conception with the tag line "turning stem cells into human eggs." and the tags "biotechnology research" which is highlighted end id

and i promptly lost interest of doing that research and had to take a minute to scream

connections members list

(adding this because I can but I still don’t know if i count it or not) Brandon Bailey founder of the connections we only find out about him as extra file you can buy in RE8 (Baker Incident Report written by Zoe part of the trauma pack dlc it’s a paid add on and not really part of the game imo)

Mia Winters: Caretaker of Eveline

Alan Drooney: Caretaker of Eveline/ Director, Dead

Miranda: Researcher dead

Lucas Baker: Researcher, made into head researcher, double agent (selling the data to a unknown third party) dead

[comicbookhyperfixationtime]

CW: Ignorant white guys from America writing native East Africans (immense cringe, definitely racism).

Uncanny X-Men #198- LifeDeath

Last Issue Recap- Kitty Pryde and Colossus were forcibly volunteered to help protect Arcade from Dr Doom. Cyclops left his wife Madelyn Pryor to temporarily rejoin the team and help an ailing Professor X. Storm's not dead!

From cover alone, you can tell this is going to be a different sort of story. The art here is gorgeous and that'll continue throughout the issue, all drawn by Barry Windsor-Smith. I haven't heard of him before, but I think I'm going to check out more of his work now. I love the rich colors and the textured shading. An interesting piece of foreshadowing as well: usually, the portraits next to the pricing while show headshots of the whole current X-team, but in this cover, it only shows Wolverine, Jean Grey, Professor X and Forge.

Issue proper starts with a beautiful panel of Storm tossed by the winds of the East African... desert? Yeah, the location panel states that Storm is in the vast dune desert part of Serengeti National park. Y'know. The desert. In Serengeti National park. That famous East African desert. Because East Africa sure is a region known for vast deserts! Seriously, Claremont, if you're going to be so pretentious as to name this issue "LifeDeath-From the Heart of Darkness" you could at least have the decency to do basic research on the place your portraying. Then again, this entire issue is very trippy and unreal in art and story. So I'm going to be nice and assume this is an intentional choice as a delirious Ororo is mixing up her current environment with her memories of growing up in Egypt or something.

(Side Note: If someone who has actually read The Heart of Darkness could tell me whether anything in this issue is an actual reference to Conrad's work or if this subtitle really is just a pretentious bit of nothing, I'd appreciate that.)

As Storm stumbles across the "desert," she begins to hallucinate her people from her past, starting with her once-love Forge.

I'm super happy to see him back, I really enjoyed Storm and Forge's doomed romance (TLDR he's a technopath mutant who was commissioned/forced by the government to build the technology that took Storm's powers away in the first place, he helped her recover after the attack but when she discovered what he'd done she throughly dumped him). It was flawed in a good way, a beautiful blend of melodrama and real emotions that I hadn't seen in an X-romance before and I haven't seen since. Forge is a good character and certified badass who deserves more pagetime.

Storm rejects Forge a second time, crying out that his sweet words are a falsehood and he, just like everyone's she's ever loved, has hurt her. She is than attacked by a pit viper (symbolism?) and, convinced she's been bit, crawls into a cave to die and face her next hallucination.

I find it pretty interesting who shows up in this hallucination, or, more accurately, who doesn't. This are clearly the X-men who Storm feels closest too, so I wonder why Banshee isn't here as well. Yes, he hadn't been part of the team for a long while, but when Sean was an X-men I personally saw him as the emotional rock of the team. It feels like the writers have just totally forgotten about him and that's sad.

Just as the cover foreshadows, only Jean, Wolverine and Professor X have conversations with Storm. Jean helps Storm grieve her death in Dark Phoenix Saga. Wolverine, in his usual blunt manner, offers Storm death to force her to confront that she still wants life. Professor X yanks her out of self pity with blunt truths, albeit in a smug, self-agrandizing way.

Even in dream form man is a still mildly a dick.

The X-men disperse and Storm, who wasn't bit after all, crawls out of the cave, confronting the pit viper again. This time goes much better because Storm has finally begun the process of reconnecting with the Earth and with herself. I really wish she'd spent more time in the cave. Partially because there are more X-men I think should have been given their moment to speak (um, hello? Kitty Pryde, Storm's protege who she loves like a daughter?! Kurt and Piotr, her peers who she never truly could connect with?! Scott Summers, rival team leader who she clashed egos and ethos with?!), especially because I feel like what happens next is pretty stupid.

Storm quickly finds a bus wreck and rescues the only survivor, a pregnant young woman named Shani. Supposedly the wreck was source of the heat and smoke smell in Storm's hallucinations, and this is where the comic claims the story switches from largely taking place within a delirious Storm's head to fully real but I don't believe that. There's still plenty of unexplained weirdness here (I'll compile them all at the end).

Also, we've reached the part of this comic that contains some very stereotypical depictions of native Tanzanians. I do not know enough about the people of Tanzania and their culture, religion or history to be a good judge of how offensive this is. I mean, it's definitely racist but somebody more informed than me will have to whether this is seething rage inducing or blazing rage inducing (update: oh no, its for sure blazing rage inducing).

So, Shani is returning to her home village from the city (Which city? Its never named!), where she went to find a better life but instead ended up poor and abandoned by the baby's father. As stereotypical and kind of infantilized as this character is, we at least get some lovely snippets of character for Ororo. As the pair camp for the night, she reflects on her admiration for Shani's life choices, risky and selfish as they may be, as Storm has spent so much of her adult life distancing herself from her own emotions and desires to be the goddess and hero people expected her to be. She realizes that the vision of Professor X is right, she was afraid; afraid of her own humanity, and the flaws that humanity brings.

The pair make their way through the ruined farmland and wrecked equipment around Shani's village. It turns out the desertification of the region isn't natural, but the result of over-farming. As they enter, they're greeted by Shani's tribe, including her parents, and the village elder Mijnari.

Oh boy, straw mudhuts and loinclothes. From some cursory research the housing in this village does somewhat resemble those of the Maasai tribe, which are indigenous to northern Tanzania and Southern Kenya, but the clothing doesn't resemble Maasai traditional clothing at all, so I'm going to assume the semi-accurate houses are not on purpose. Also if these people had the technology and resources for mass agriculture until very recently, surely they would have also had the technology for, like, electricity and shit. Also, Shani and the rest of the tribe all have the dots and slashes on their faces that I think are supposed to be scarification marks but I'll be damned if they remotely resemble Maasai patterns, or any other sub-Saharan scarification types.

Like, I'm pretty sure this is just some made-up bullshit right here. Which is so fucking offensive because scarification usually has deep spiritual, religious or symbolic meaning in the cultures that practice it.

Mijnari welcomes Shani back into the tribe, and the rest of the people follow his lead. Ororo collapses. When she awakens, Shani has gone into labor, and there are complications. The village has responded by... oh for God's sake, dancing around a fire to "propitiate the spirits". I just. I can't even.

Even this supposed in-universe explanation still doesn't explain why Ororo has to do the lion's share of the work in the delivering the baby and resuscitating it when it comes out stillborn. Are you telling me there's really no damn midwives in this tribe?! Nobody has any basic knowledge of childbirth?! We've got this page of close-up panels of Storm delivering the child interspersed with the naked tribal dancers and am I taking crazy pills or is this racist even for the 80s?! Like, this feels more like a scene out of something written in the 40s. A forgotten draft of Jungle Drums (1943) or something. Holy shit this is awful.

So, the baby lives, yay, happy ending, and then Mijnari commits ritual senicide by walking off into the wilderness to die to maintain the tribe's population which is definitely a real fucking thing and not an awful uneducated and barbaric depiction of indigenous Africans and their cultural practices oh my god I want to smack something, preferably the upside of Chris Claremont's head. He gives this speech about the how the tribe misused the technology imported from more industrialized areas and forgot the old ways or whatever and the importance of balance and the folly of hubris and its a metaphor for mutants or whatever and its just so pretentious and racist and stupid and I don't fucking care. Anyway, it allows Storm to self-actualized and realize her purpose as the bridge between mutants and humanity or whatever and love her life even without her powers, yay, oh my God, can we please move on and never speak of this again.

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So, why do I think the second half of this issue is still a hallucination?

The sheer coincidence of Storm finding an overturned civilian passenger bus in the middle of Serengeti National Park. Unless we're to assume that Ororo somehow managed to walk all the way to a road in her state.

We see some of the bodies in the buswreck half-hidden in detailing of a panel, and one the bodies in a picked-clean skeleton. From context clues like the smoke and the state of Shani (she's described as mostly healthy and only suffering from superficial injuries), we can assume the wreck happened quite recently, so there's no way any of the bodies should look like this. (CW: corpses, I wish I could spoiler images for y'all)

3. The farming machinery Shani and Ororo pass are huge, they tower over the landscape and I can't imagine how these things could possibly be operated, let alone be efficient for farming.

4. Again, a desert in East Africa. You can't even be like "oh actually this is the result of desertification because of overfarming and drought and stuff" because in X-men #197 we quite clearly see Storm waking up in a savannah, and not only that but a savannah in the middle of Kilamanjaro National Park. Are you telling me either A) somebody allowed commercial agriculture in an ecological treasure or B) Storm managed to stumble all the way out of a 652 square mile park delirious and with her head cracked open?! It doesn't add up.

5. This is supposedly Ororo's homeland but save for the mystical tribal chief (🙄) who somehow knows everything about her, nobody recognizes Storm as the goddess they used to worship. Hell, nobody even talks about that like "gee I wonder where that mysterious goddess with the white hair who used to protect us from natural disasters went." It'd only been 10 years real time, which is probably more around four to five years in comic time since she left. People ought to have remembered her. I guess either Claremont forgot that plot point ever existed or he was ashamed of it (as he fucking should be because that's hella racist) and wanted to quietly sweep that under the rug.

This comic feels completely different than anything the X-men have done before. Did it pay off? Well... I thought the first half with the hallucinations was great. The second was super racist, and pretentious to boost. At least the art was consistently gorgeous, the lines flow like wind and the posing is dynamic (the expression work is sometimes lacking but that's a common issue with many comic book artists). The coloring I take some issue with, though; all the African characters save Ororo have a greenish/greyish hue to them. So, I applaud Claremont for taking such a big risk, but I also flip him the bird whilst applauding. I am very dextrous.

Please God, let the next issue be something I don't have to put a trigger warning for racism or pedophilia or whatever in front of. Please God let it be normal because otherwise I think I'm going to just quit this series and only read Wayne Family Adventures for the rest of eternity just to cleanse my fucking palette.

[prompt-master]

henlo i am sorry to bother you but i am ten years late to the danganronpa fandom and two years late to your fanfics but i was wondering if you might consider finishing your Bear Trap story? like even if its just a quick lil synopsis of what you wanted to write, or if its an unfinished chapter, id take anything 👉👈

also ur lovely ok bye

Ok this was worded very kindly so I'm going to justify it with a full geniune response.

I'm honestly probably never going to update Bear Trap, but I WILL give you a synopsis. I did however want to first quickly explain why I don't plan on finishing that fic.

To keep a long story short. I kinda hate BT. It was my first fic after a two year break and imo it shows in the quality. I thank BT for temporarily getting me back into the writing groove, but I cringe way too hard looking back on it. I do have an unfinished chapter draft, but I'm not sure if I'd ever post it. I'll have to reread it at some point and see how I feel.

I would also like to say that if anyone else is willing to write the last part, I am more than willing to work with them.

Now, here is what I had planned for BT, bare (haha bear) in mind that it's messy because it was just self indulgent nonsense:

The format of BT was meant to go; build up, impact, aftermath. With each chapter focusing on a different story beat.

There was going to be a fake chapter released only on tumblr where Naegi died, only for the characters to go "did you actually think that would happen?" meant to poke fun over how many people thought I was going to kill Naegi.

This means the last chapter was going to entirely focus on the aftermath of Naegi's injury. I wanted each character to get an analysis of how they're feeling and each individual relationship would get a spotlight

This also means that. Tbh. The aftermath segment probably would not fit cleanly into one chapter since it would be pretty big.

It began with the hospital ride from the helicopter, Togami and Kiri watching as medics struggle to keep Naegi stable. There's a very dissociative vibe going on.

Because Togami and Kiri are closer to Naegi then they are each other, they don't really know how to comfort each other. It's awkward, quiet. They only speak to share facts and speculation. But there's a moment where they lean shoulder to shoulder.

Naegi was going to lose his leg, and have to get a prosthetic. Some of the fic was going to focus on him relearning how to walk with his new leg with the help of his partners.

I wanted to make sure that Naegi becoming disabled wasn't a "bad" ending. It's obviously upsetting to lose a limb in a tragic accident, and Naegi does have to cope with it. But I wanted to feel more empowering in a "see this shit? It's proof I survived"

Togami was ofc going to lovingly call him a cockroach

There was going to be exploration over how despite being known around the world for surviving a tragedy, they still don't really know how to LIVE with tragedy. They are just forced to keep moving on without getting a moment to breathe.

Due to Naegi seeing how freaked out Togami and Kiri were, he tries to keep everything together and stay lighthearted for their sake. He knows they want to see he's okay. This meant he pushed aside his own coping however.

The fic was going to end with Naegi finally letting out his emotions and crying in front of both of them, admitting that he was scared and thought he was going to die, and that he was so grateful they were there. Even if he had died then, he wouldve been more okay with it if they were with him. But that doesn't mean he was actually okay with it.

Togami negotiates them all a 2 week vacation lmao

If I remember correctly (I did not reread the fic to check, I'm going solely off memory) I was going to make a point about how despite feeling like they nearly lost their chance to tell Naegi they love him, both Tog and Kiri know that a confession shortly after a traumatic experience isn't the best idea. But also, Naegi doesn't need a confession to know they love him.

There were certainty more details to thefic that I can't fully recall ATM, such as the specifics of each individual character/relationship analysis. Let me know if you have any questions! Ty again for your kindness

[atopearth]

Piofiore: Episodio 1926 Part 2 - Orlok Route

I don't really remember liking Orlok's original route but I do remember being very frustrated with it haha. Raul is hot. I completely forgot that they're not in Burlone and are in hiding. I wonder what will happen now since they want Orlok to go back and fulfil his disciple duties. Kinda cute seeing Lili and Orlok take care of kids at the church though, they're so sweet. I'm glad Orlok realised that leaving Lili here by herself is dangerous as well and that it would be better for her to be next to him so he can protect her. OH, I didn't realise that Dante died as well, is everyone dead or something?? Well I guess they are... Anyway, didn't expect Raul to be a distant relative of Dante, is that why he's hot? Okay, Gil is alive🥲 One thing I do remember is Luca's death. I didn't remember that it was in this route, but now that they're visiting Luca's grave..then yeah, it's terrible to think about. Luca was so young and full of life... Honestly though, I can't even blame Leo for hating Orlok because I remember when I finished Orlok's route, I hated him too haha! Maybe not as much as the Gil in his route but I still did! I've kinda come to terms with the whole thing but yeah...still sad to think about how Orlok killed them. I'm glad Henri is helping out, even if just temporarily, I like the update on all the Mafia families because I needed it for a refresh haha!

It's quite sweet to see that Henri wants to help them because he doesn't want to see another Key Maiden suffer, very understandable. Seeing Orlok really appreciate having someone like Lili want him to live and live with him regardless of their "sins" brings a tear to my eye though. The boy has suffered alot regardless of how I feel about everyone's deaths and it's sad to think about his life because it's just terrible. Dita degli apostoli looks so good (after googling). It's funny that Lili is the one more self-conscious about Orlok but I guess that's to be expected considering Orlok's life. Well, Johann isn't cute at all~ Raul just keeps looking more and more hot though. I hate seeing Leo be suffering in such anguish, it's just so sad. Especially when he remembers how kind Nicola and Dante was to him. Gil being Gil and not the crazy Gil is always welcome, loved how thoughtful he was to have Orlok and Lili have a cute gelato date. Orlok protecting Leo and not wanting to kill anymore kinda reminded me of Rurouni Kenshin haha, just that painful lesson of learning what it means to kill people and how much pain it causes to others, and then not wanting to do it ever again, that feeling just really pierces my heart. Lmao when Orlok said he would eat more so he can grow and be as big as Gil so Lili can rely on him haha! It was so nice to see Gil adopt Leo into his house lol. Oliver being obsessed with the greatness of potatoes is hilarious. I'm glad Orlok told Lili that she is who she is regardless of the fact that she's the key maiden. She shouldn't be burdened by something that doesn't define her.

Anyway, Raul was a disappointing guy, and I felt so bad for Oliver but at least he could joke about his injuries, he's very strong for mainly being the lawyer treasurer guy of the family! I feel like Johann ended up being dealt with as a side plot at the end even though it felt like he should have been the main plot lol. Seems like Emilio reincarnates with his memories all the time as the guardian of the Falzone or something, and really wants to properly die so hope he rests in peace. Lili and Orlok going to Venice and travelling around is quite cute. Orlok's tragic ending was pretty cruel. I felt so bad for him that he had to keep killing and killing to protect Lili. I wonder why Teo hates Lili so much but anyway, this ending was just full of torment for Orlok as he had to go against his convictions and kill again. I'm glad that Lili didn't listen to Orlok at the end and instead chose to die together with him because she wanted to bear everything he has to bear as well.

Overall, I feel like Orlok's route had good ideas but it didn't seem to really focus much on either one - being the existence of Raul as the new Falzone leader, Johann the new disciple wanting revenge for his brother and Leo wanting revenge for Dante and Nicola. Raul was definitely the most disappointing because he barely had a role and basically did nothing and was just a pawn for the tragic ending. Johann had a better role and I enjoyed how he had a proper reason for wanting revenge even though we don't really know his brother and the trial and the church was at fault, not Orlok but it was understandable since they're all brainwashed into blaming everything else except the church. But it was still kinda a weak story especially in the good ending when Johann feels like an afterthought even though they focused quite a bit on him in the beginning of the route. Leo was definitely the one who had the best reason, mainly because we got to see flashbacks of how much Dante and Nicola meant to him, but also because throughout the game, we've seen how much they mean to Leo and how happy he was with them, so I honestly couldn't help but agree with that desire for revenge. It's terrible, it's painful and it was just hard to watch Leo be so tormented. But I guess no one was as tormented as Orlok as he did all he could to not kill people anymore but everyone really wants to test his limits and make him break his conviction. Personally, I quite liked the tragic ending because it was interesting to see Orlok's pain and how difficult it was for him to handle the idea of "needing to kill" again. But otherwise, I enjoyed the little dates Orlok and Lili went on, I just kinda wished there was more romance because it felt like there was no romantic progression at all!

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Head on collision | Bricklayer | Best Action Scene | Aaron Eckhart | Nina ...

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Jun 25, 2024

He survives this crash no she doesn't either they had no seatbelts on and you can see them after and they look half decent but his face is broken and hers too the windshield is smashed and his blood that's beginning to gush all over them and they are declared clinically dead at the scene by the local hospital and they take them there and he dies as Mr and Mrs Merrick and the woman that was divorced from Trump was not Sarah it was Justin's wife and she's fine and she's trying to look like her to save herself. And they ran into this guy who they think is cheesman and it is who it is but they're the ones who did it so he tries to kill cheeseman but he does die and he does hand stuff over to our son and he loses the character and he loses the family Justin's wife is missing and she is going to be found on Mars where Tommy F brought her and Tommy f is not aware that she found things and he's amazed because it is a real story and he's seen part of it and wants the information and he's the one who knows about it and this is what gets Trump killed again and Sarah

Thor Freya

And it gets me killed too terrific though he says I go out the back I do get him back and he's a prick and he dies and I can't be him and I can't be president he goes through this whole thing with massive amounts of cancer is a stupid a****** and he's wrong the way he's treating people in US and the boy and it's terrible

Terry c

This is a lesson and the lesson is that we do not have to do what you want and we don't have to follow your plan and you can die in the future in the present from what you're doing Trump and this is proof too because Jen Merrick wants our son to have things and wants her self to be free more so from your name and you're likeness and this is a way to do it and they were fooling around with it and they were trying to go to court and have the name taken away but she didn't like it she liked the other idea and he said you came up with it and we go along with it and she says yeah you're helping and it's cheeseman so she's amazed and it's really nice

Thor Freya

Don't say stupid things to me but really it was fun you said my first jaguar and it really is nice and I'm going to really love this because he's got a lot of stuff I'm going to get a bunch of it and just his wife will if he retrieves her and he needs some of what he has his records and things and notes and he will be able to go get them

Jennifer M

Is the character too she's really my wife and I'm going to say that Jen is our daughter because she looks like us not like him what's crazy is she does look like us and she doesn't look like him and she looks a lot like us

Justin

I'm not dimwit you a****** and one of us you stupid prick he sees an idiot trumpsters imitating me. Okay proofs in the pudding but I want to talk about it you're so dumb I know you're making it up and s*** but please. It's going to be a rough time he says I'm going to enter a temporal vortex went together a whole bunch of s*** won't get done. It's probably true it's just like that movie yeah that movie that came out I can't remember the damn name of it it's with Will Smith yeah and it's kind of like Hanscom or some name like that where he's this drunken superhero. Yeah I remember that that's good.

Thor Freya

Yeah I know the name of the character you two suck but really that blows I knew about it no but now I do that really sucks they're wondering what the movie is about where it is and stuff like that it's kind of an indication but really these characters are going to go and he's going to get stuff finally we need him to have some so we can get out of there

Trump

Anyone else want to pitch in and die so we can move him out temporarily and tell me if your people are dying to you fool

Dan

Yeah imagine I'm black too and you're saying that dumb s*** to me but still it is stupid we need to move out of here temporarily

Tommy f

Olympus

[missmeinyourbones]

prompt ; linking hands together during sex

character ; gojo satoru

you can choose another character if you want though, i just wanna read your writing huhu😽😽

AND CONGRATULATIONS ON 1K !! 😽💞

13. linking hands together during sex (S. GOJO) 

NSFW 18+ (afab!reader) - part of L’s 1K event!

Satoru, regardless of the things you’ve heard, is a terribly lonely man. 

He’d become accustomed to eating alone at his far too large dining table, buying enough sweets for two and eating the entirety of them on his own, falling asleep in the center of his king-sized bed rather than on a side to share his space. There were plenty of choice words to describe Satoru Gojo, but lonely seemed to be the most consistent, the most permanent. 

While he finds himself able to be desired and praised and followed, he is always alone. A forever returning equilibrium. 

He often wonders if that’s the appeal of him—the knowing you can’t quite keep him, but still pursuing anyway. The act of breaking your own heart. The free trial before returning the product. He was all squeaky wheels and rusted gears and money-back-guaranteed. 

While he may be lonely, Satoru is no stranger to sex.

He’s had his fair share of experience with all kinds of people—messing around with strangers, acquaintances, even friends at times. Thriving off of the brief high the physical touch ignited within him: the fingers caressing his forearm, the scratches painting his upper back, the feet pressed flat against his calves. 

It allowed him to feel temporarily held, even if it wasn’t (at all) true—it felt true to him in the moment. In the midst of fucking some stranger he’d met at a bar, he felt normal. Confusing adoration for admiration, mistaking lust for love. He found himself stuck in a repeating cycle of meaningless hookups resulting in muffled tears and waking up alone—and while he’d rather die than admit it, it stung. 

Sex with you was different, though. He didn’t have to pretend or convince himself that these feelings were real—they were. He can feel it flowing through his veins as his cock teases your folds, slick gathering on the tip as he continues to rub himself through your lips. He can feel it in his saliva as he slides his tongue into your mouth, your pleasure-induced cries tasting sweeter than any dessert he’s had the privilege of consuming. Sex with you wasn’t just physical. And when he was with you, he wasn’t just Gojo. He was Satoru.

How could he not be, when you’re panting it like a prayer underneath him?

“Satoru,” you plead, desperately needing to feel him inside of you. Your chest rising and falling embarrassingly heavy from just a few teasing touches—but Satoru has that kind of effect on you. He’s too much, yet you can’t seem to get enough of him; he’s his own kind of curse. 

“I’ve got you, it’s okay,” he shushes your pleas with a tender kiss to your lips as he finally pushes himself into your warm cunt. The both of you audibly gasp at the feeling of him filling you to the brim, his tip hitting your cervix as he bottoms out on his very first thrust. 

You let out a sinful whine, eyes glued shut so tightly in bliss that you’re seeing stars on the insides of your eyelids. Satoru lets out a breathy moan at the sight, burying his head in the crook of your neck as he continues to ravish in your warmth.

“I know, baby, I know,” he coos against your temple, platinum strands sticking to his forehead. He wants you closer, somehow. He doesn't know if it’s possible, but he’s willing to find out. 

“Look at me, angel,” he commands and your eyes find his immediately.

This is what sex with others lacked—the intimacy. He doesn’t find himself shying away from you or begging for your affection. You give it to him freely, every single time. It makes him feel both grateful and unworthy, sick to his stomach with both insatiable love and numbing fear.

“Right-fuck, right there,” you moan as he finds your sweet spot with ease. Like he was made for you, like you had molded to his curves and veins over time. 

“Yeah? Here?” He takes his hand from your waist and presses it flat against the pouch of your stomach, feeling himself dip and thrust in and out of your heat. You cry at the pressure and Satoru swears he’s never heard anything more melodic. 

He takes his unoccupied hand pressed against the mattress and moves it to find your own, currently grasping at his satin bed sheets. He intertwines his hand into yours, fingers interlocking like an unspoken oath as he desperately clings to you. He feels your grasp tighten around his palm as your cunt clenches around his cock.

“I love you,” he declares, mouth on yours as he continues to ruthlessly pump his cock into you. He chants it like a holy mantra, matching each thrust along with it’s verbal honey, “I love you, I love you, I love you.”

“I love you, nnngh, I love you more, ‘Toru.”

The sweet nickname passing your lips is more than enough to send him over the edge, spewing creamy threads of cum inside of you. He rides his high selfishly, whispering a delicate love you with each rut of his hips. The warmth of his seed filling you allows you to shortly follow him after, milking one another of every last drop you can manage to spare. 

He takes the both of your hands, still tightly locked together, and brings them to his mouth. He presses a kiss to their intertwined state, before resting the both of them on your chest. 

“See? I can be romantic,” he lightly jeers, still inside of you as he collapses onto your chest. You press a kiss to the crown of his head, sweaty and sticky and yours, as you snort and mumble into his hair. 

“Hardly.”

Satoru was a terribly lonely man, that is, until he met you.