#and others not really interacting or not being that close

[hyunjiiza]

pb&j (for jealous) | . ᯓ 🍵 ݁‧ ᵔ

(or jelly) ୨୧ skz members when they get jealous of you being with another guy. | contents : party settings , sleazy men , fem reader implied ᰋ wc ; 1702 . ꉂ ot8 .ᐟ

｡ ᰋ 𓂃 | again another re upload.. sorry for everyone on this taglist guys. my eyes burn

ʚ chan ɞ

his eye twitches when you tell him that you’re going to your best friends party with one of yalls mutual friends and it turns out to be a man

doesn’t say anything about it because he understands you can have friends but hates how painfully oblivious you are to his wandering eyes

convinces minho to go with him even though they both know why he wants to go

stands in the corner like a loser with his drink (non alcoholic because he wants to drive you home) and watches you interact with everyone

jaw clenches at the way he sees your worried face when your guy friend start to feel you up

snaps out of it for a second when you lock eyes and your face lights up

he finds nothing but joy in the way he watches your friend back up when he starts to walk over

smiles at him and throws his arm around your shoulder

kisses allll up on your neck barely listening to what you say like “mhm.. mhm..” while you ask about why he’s here

your friend runs away and he just coos at you like “you’re so pretty” when you’re all confused as to why

sticks to you like glue for the rest of the night

flips off your guy friend when you aren’t looking

carries you out of the party when you wanna go home (totally isn’t showing off how strong he is)

ʚ hyunjin ɞ

does go to the party with you, but he leaves you with your girl friend to go get you a drink

comes back just to see an ugly man all up on you asking you questions and his head quirks

giggles in his face and you’re so embarrassed

you slap him on the arm and he just shrugs

the other guy picks a fight all like “what’s your problem bro”

“my problem is your stank ass breath on my girl”

keeps sticking his tongue out at the guy from across the room after that

teases you cause you’re mad at him, “don’t you like when i’m protective??”

really just adores you

walks out of the party hand in hand with you

“yea, i was jealous.. but you didn’t know that”

ʚ felix ɞ

was just fine when you being with your friends at a party, he was going with his friends anyway

after a while of catching up with his friends he starts missing you

walks around like a lost dog till he finds you

immediately comes and wraps his arms around once waist once he finds you

notices one of your friends boyfriends checking you out and decides to mess with him

reaches his hand out for him to shake and he takes it with a shaky hand (he flexed his muscles to try and intimidate him. it worked)

drills him with questions, asks how he knows you, if you guys are close, if he notices how pretty you look tonight

when he doesn’t give up trying to get at you, he just flat out says “eyes up here, actually where is your girlfriend..”

just smiles and starts getting handsy with you when he notices him getting agitated

“what? i was just being nice..”

brings you over to say hi to his friends instead

convinces you to go home early because he misses you close to him

ʚ jeongin ɞ

you guys go to the party together, and when you leave to go to the bathroom he follows you with his eyes the whole way

watches as some guy follows you on your way out, tapping your shoulder and asking you something

his eyebrow quirks up right away, slowly inching closer to you both

you only stop mid politely declining his offer when he stares in back of you like there’s a dinosaur

spoiler: not a dinosaur. it’s jeongin glaring at the guy like he killed someone from not even a foot behind you

when you look behind yourself and see him, he snaps out of it and asks if you’re okay

you giggle and tell him you’re fine and take his hand

random guy shouts that you “shouldn’t ignore him”

tightens his grip around your waist and walks you to another area of the place

starts kissing you along your jawline while he makes eye contact with the guy and can’t contain his smile

“come on baby, let’s leave. i miss you.”

drags you home with the promise of chinese takeout

ʚ jisung ɞ

at first he wanted you to go to the party with your friends because he convinced himself he was too clingy and wanted you to have some fun

when you convince him you want him there with you and he can bring his friends so yall can all hang out he says okay

y’all are all hanging out together at the party in a big group, and some guy asks you to dance

he notices him waving you towards the dance floor and comes over and literally grabs your waist and takes you to dance with him instead while the guy stands there like ??

you can tell he’s jealous by the way he follows you around after that

tells you you’re pretty like 20 times as if he didn’t already worship the ground you walk on

“ugh why does everyone else have to find you so attractive”

still wants you to have fun with your friends so just checks on you every once in a while with a kiss and goes back to his friends

sees the guy he turned down for you glaring at him and makes a peeing motion with his imaginary penis

only ends up going home when YOU want to. (your feet get tired and he gives you his crocs he keeps in the car because he knows you)

ʚ minho ɞ

ik yall are tired of the basic party scenario but it adds to the plot okay

barely even wants to go to the party and tries convincing you to stay home but he always wants you to get your way so he agrees to get dressed up and go with you

knows you wanna have fun so he’s your personal butler for the night

getting you drinks, holding your purse for you, letting you sit on one of his thighs on some random couch while you yell over the music to your friends

immediately turns his head when some guy sits next to the both of you and starts flirting

doesn’t even try to hide the way he’s absolutely mean mugging him. glaring, face disgruntled, tongue poking at his cheek from the inside

eventually the guy notices and he’s bold enough to say some dumb shit like ���is your guard dog okay??”

pulls you down to sit in his lap instead and rests his head on your shoulder with his arms around your waist, lipstick stained cup in his hands

only cheers up a little when you giggle at him and tell him he’s silly for being jealous

tells you you’re too nice and you need to start pepper spraying men for looking at you, rolls his eyes when you tell him that’s what your guard dog is for

you only go home after all your friends leave and he’s thanking god silently

bonus: scares the guy from earlier by driving to close to him in his car and feels better immediately

ʚ seungmin ɞ

doesn’t take much convincing for him to wanna go with you, he likes a party once in a while

only is slightly jealous when he sees you talking with a guy but it really gets him when he hears you laugh with him like you laugh with him

is so distracted with watching you interact he doesn’t even really catch on that this random girl that started talking to him is flirting (doesn’t even really notice he’s responding till she laughs a super high pitched annoying laugh)

whenever you look back at him (you’re trying to get out of it) you’re confused as to why some girl is yapping at him

only catches on when you look upset because he hates seeing a pout on your pretty face

walks away from her and over to you leaving her offended while you laugh at her face

drags you away from him and makes you dance

you go home right after that to bully little kids on roblox ( lily ref )

ʚ changbin ɞ

comes with you no questions asked because he adores you

coos at the way you say hi to everyone excitedly and how pretty you look in your dress

you end up having small talk with one of your friends boyfriends when she goes to get something from her car

you get a notification from him after like 15 seconds

you smile at your phone and excuse yourself as your friend walks through the door

he’s pouting at you from across the room where he’s leaning against the wall

you wrap your arms around him and explain and he feels dumb but says he can be jealous cause he loves you

you cling to each other the whole night so just end up going home after being told to get a room 20 different times

ends up taking you for a drive and hot chocolate because it’s getting cold

carries you inside (pretend he’s the hulk)

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[daimus]

looking for Heaven, found the devil in me

In the beginning of your marriage, Kaiser never touches you. He only tells Ness how to do it.

wc — 1.6k

tags — MINORS DO NOT INTERACT, fingering, medieval au I guess, Lord! Kaiser, Knight! Ness, title from shake it out by Florence and the Machine

You had not known you were leaving home for the last time when you said goodbye. You suspect this was intentional. They knew you wouldn’t have gone otherwise. 

The woods are eerily silent around you. Patches of old snow, half melted into pools of crystalline and liquid silver, dot the still landscape. Turn itself feels sluggish and frozen. 

They have sent you to the very edge of the world. 

You jolt when quick, nimble fingers do the laces of your cloak tighter. He chucks you under the chin briskly when he’s finished, a flash of affection, there and then gone. 

“It’s cold, miss,” Ness says. “You need to wear your furs.” 

You didn’t even notice him behind you. He’s like another creature of the woods. His eerily quiet footsteps are a sign he belongs. You, on the other hand, are an outsider, and nature wants you to know it. 

“Maybe we should head back inside,” Ness muses. “Kaiser will be home soon.” 

You say nothing, but let him guide you back to the castle. His arm is warm around you, a shelter from the storm. 

Ness feeds you soup in the kitchen while you wait for your husband. You hadn’t expected him, this sweet, bubbly knight, more like a handmaiden than a manservant. He spoons broth into your waiting mouth and dabs at your mouth with a napkin, cooing at you to “be careful, it’s hot.” 

The fire is roaring and you’re sleepy from nothing. Ever since you got to Kaiser’s manor, you’ve had a shortage of work to do. Lesser nobles like you are only separated from peasants in name. That’s why your family was so delighted when the offer for your hand came from the North, even though it meant you would be going so far away. 

You still don’t know why it was you. 

The door bangs open. 

Ness runs over to help Kaiser shed his coats and boots, running a familiar hand over him with a quickness. You still don’t understand their relationship, their strange closeness. They haven’t taken the oath of blood brothers, but they seem closer than even the knights that are sworn to each other. Despite his lordship, Kaiser seems content to let Ness handle everything: his property, his taxes, even his wife. 

There’s a level of trust you’re not sure you could ever achieve with another human being, but Ness makes it so easy you can almost imagine it. Yes, if it was anyone, it would be Ness. 

“Wife,” Kaiser beckons. “You won’t welcome me?” 

You push your chair back hurriedly and follow in Ness’s eager footsteps. He laughs, gentle, and strokes a hand over your hair - quick, as he does everything. You barely notice it. 

Fleet-footed, your grandmother would call him. He moves like a startled fawn, always with a jolting start, yet he doesn’t seem like prey. Or at the very least, you know he’s not the bottom of the food chain. 

You are. 

You keep your chin tucked down, face turned away. You’re not attempting to be demure, you really don’t know how to act. No one trained you in your duties before they sent you up here to be buried by snow. The only teacher you have is Ness. 

He would be a better wife than you are, and he’s close to Kaiser - you don’t know why your husband didn’t just marry him instead. It would be so much less work than procuring you and dragging you back to the North, just for Ness to explain how to cook and budget to you in the solarium during daylight hours. 

And at night, he teaches you something else. 

“Don’t be scared,” Ness coos, nudging your legs apart. 

He’s nestled with you in the sheets. It's almost like being in a cocoon, tucked in those thick blankets and soft wool. The North doesn't use silks. They don't trap heat well enough.

You clutch at his arms for support, frightened but trusting. Kaiser sits in an armchair at the foot of the bed. There's a watchfulness to his waiting that makes it seem purposeful.

You suspect your husband isn’t of as few words as he makes it seem. Rather, he wants to frighten you. His reticence makes him hard to predict. You can’t tell what will please him, relying on Ness for clues. 

Ness presses a kiss to your cheek, peppering you all over with soft, butterfly brushes of his nose, before he tucks you under his chin. You like the way he touches you. It’s soothing, skin to skin. And he’s warm. 

You’re always cold in this freezing, bitter land. It’s inhospitable. 

Ness arranges you so that your legs are hooked over his. Your fingers release their death grip on his biceps so you can shove your skirt, which has gotten rucked up, down. 

You hold it there in place, trembling from embarrassment. It feels like you’re a zoo animal on display. There are too many eyes on you, and Kaiser is still silent. 

Ness rubs his cheek against yours. “Shh, shh,” he hums. “Don’t be scared. Would I hurt you, pretty? My liege lord’s wife? Would I?” 

You shake your head, bumping into his nose. He’s too close, all tangled up in you. Your limbs are strung out against him. 

Reluctantly, you let go of your skirt, drawing your hands back up. You don’t know what else to hold on to now. 

“Good girl,” Kaiser finally says, watching you retreat. “Let Ness take care of you.” 

You squirm at his words, feeling something thicken in your stomach. You want to press your thighs together, but Ness’s legs are holding you open. 

They talk, for a moment, over your head like you’re not there. They’re discussing what to do with you, while you grow meeker and meeker in Ness’s grip. He pets your hair idly while Kaiser makes dirty suggestions involving tongue and teeth. 

Ness’s hand slips under your skirt.

You jolt up against him, but it doesn’t seem to hurt him. He toys with the white lace of your undergarments while Kaiser switches the topic to, unbelievably, farming. You’re not quite following the thread of the conversation. 

“Yes,” Ness says agreeably as his fingers slip under the soft white fabric. “I’ll look into it.” 

The first graze along your clit could almost be an accident. He acts like it too, shushing you with soft kisses against your temple when you make a complaining noise, an apology murmured against your hair. But then he keeps doing it, purposefully drilling his fingers against your clit, watching you whimper and whine helplessly in his lap. 

“What is it?” Kaiser asks you, a smile playing on his lips. “What do you want, my wife?” 

You shake your head. 

“Nothing?” He shrugs. “You heard her, Ness.” 

The conversations turns away from you again. You bury your face in Ness’s shoulder and shut your eyes as he keeps playing with you, his fingers slipping through now wet folds as he tap-tap-taps at you insistently, the sensation too little to get you anywhere, but too much to ignore. 

He dips below, gathering slick from where you’re leaking, and returns to trace tight little circles on your clit. You gasp, your core tightening as your legs kick out. 

Ness stops talking to adjust you once more. “Behave,” he chided you lightly, amused. “A lady doesn’t interrupt conversations.” 

“Yes, my lord,” you whisper.

“I’m not-“

“Very good,” Kaiser says. “You should address Ness as you address me. He is, like you, mine after all.” 

Ness kisses your cheek. “Look what a gift you are,” he murmurs, his voice darkening. “Look what you do for me. Can I reward her, Kaiser?” 

Kaiser frowns. 

Ness revokes it immediately. “Of course, of course. I’m sorry. I’ll wait for your permission.” 

Your head drops back against Ness’s chest, trying to control yourself, trying to breathe evenly through bursts of pleasure. It’s not enough. There’s a hot itch under your skin. Something in you clamors for more like a trapped animal, gnawing and biting and unwilling to give you a moment of respite. 

“Ness,” you start. He shakes his head. 

“Kaiser, please.” He looks like a predator and a king and your lord, the master of all that dwells within this manor, including you. “Please, I’m so-“ 

“So?” He says smoothly, laying a heavy hand on your ankle. 

“So-“ 

You choke on it, your face burning with embarrassment. You can’t say it. You weren’t raised with their refined manners but you were still raised in a noble lady’s house. 

“Mercy, my lord,” Ness intercedes for you. “Look at the poor thing, she’s trembling.” 

“She needs to learn to ask for what she wants,” Kaiser says hungrily. 

“Listen,” Ness says, and they both fall silent. The squelch of Ness’s fingers is audible. He toys with you, slipping one inside. Your spine seizes, stiffening instantly as you clench down on him. “She’s so wet,” he hisses. 

“Fine,” Kaiser says. “What do you say, my sweet?” 

“Thank you, my lord, Kaiser-“ your words break on a moan. “Ness! Thank you!” 

Your voice turns garbled as Ness presses a second finger into you. His thumb applies steady pressure to your clit as he pumps his hand slowly. Something is building inside of you. 

You cling to him, the shelter in the storm. In desperation, your animal brain remembers that he is safety and harbor and fire, everything comforting. 

“Cum for me, dear one,” Ness says, watching your face hungrily. “I want to see it.” 

Kaiser says nothing, but you can feel his hand tightening around your leg. 

You break against him, shaking through it. It feels like fear, if fear was addictive. Heat courses through your veins, desire pools between your legs, and Ness works you through your orgasm on steady fingers until you’re keening, but you never tell him to stop. 

Only Kaiser can call him off. 

“Enough,” Kaiser says, rising from his seat. “My turn.” 

[simbiotictears]

LnDs boys if they were an Idol!boy group: relationship status

this is a part 2 to this post! since they live rent free in my head.

F! reader mostly

Leader + Main Rapper: Zayne

(Married/engaged, Idol x normal person)

Zayne doesn't mention his relationship status at all, but (I believe) he wears a ring on his wedding finger. He moves it to his right hand when he's on stage or working. It actually is his wedding ring. Fans hypothesise it to be a partner or a band thing...since all the guys wear a ring of sorts (aside from Xavier because he keeps losing his).

The company made him do a birthday stream and you brought over the cake. Obviously, the fans couldn't see your face buuutttt they saw your hands and the matching ring. This made some eagle-eyed fans search up the meaning of the crystal and make theory posts online about Zayne being married. Others bought their own copies and posted pictures of them wearing it on their social media.

He, like Rafayel, is very much a 'it's none of their business' kind of person. In an interview where they had to talk about their ideal type, he was the vaguest (bro basically described a blank canvas). He really is just trying to get just get his bag and leave. He could have a whole child, and the world would not know (which I respect so much).

In the behind the scenes of a game show, where they all had to interact with kids, he was the best with the kids, and it had the fans suspecting that he is a father.

Zayne, outside of work, is a good partner. He brings back souvenirs from every country he goes on tour to. He can become a bit aloof and forget to text for periods of time, but you never have to worry about his loyalty. He will call you whenever he has the free time. He has known you forever and actually became an idol because you used to admire a lot of boy groups when you were growing up together.

He misses you if he is away for too long. In those moment, when he really misses you, he calls you and will fall asleep on the phone.

You bring the boys food a lot of the time, and you are close with the other members. The members often say that Zayne becomes a different person when he is with you, in a good way.

The wedding was very private: the members attended, close friends and family. It was a great time. None of those photos made it online, thank goodness.

Main Dancer + Lead Vocalist/Rapper: Caleb

(childhood friend x idol/ fake-dating into real dating)

As I said before, he is very open about the fact that he is in a relationship. In interviews, he says how you're adorably clingy and how you don't want him to be an idol (a half-truth, half-lie). He has the most fun turning his phone and showing blurred pictures of your dates to torture the delulu fans. He has got in trouble for this so many times. But the company have stopped telling him off because his ratings are still high, despite being a hit or miss with the fans. He started a movement amongst other idols, allowing them to be more open about the fact that they are humans with feelings, too.

There was one time where you called him mid-shoot and that was the first time people started to get the hint that he was taken.

side note: He has you down as my pip-squeak on his phone.... yes, I am a pip-squeak truther. bite me.

Anyway, instead of editing out the footage of the call from the 'making of' video they kept it in. He was grinning like a fool and what he was saying was barely audible over the rehearsal music. (This was before you actually started dating, mind you). Some fans, who are good at lip-reading, managed to decipher what he was talking about. So, not long after that, he announced his 'relationship.'

If his phone buzzes during lives, he will shamelessly say it's his girlfriend that is contacting him. He doesn't tell the fans that he calls you his pip-squeak. That's between you and him.

It's got to the point where his fans now ship the two of you without knowing who you are. They also helped him pick out an anniversary gift for you when he went live to ask what girls like as gifts. As much as he is open about being in a relationship, he doesn't share too many stories, only surface level things.

In terms of his history with you, you grew up together. He went to pilot school but was scouted to become an idol after he graduated. He lost contact with you for a while but reacquainted with you when you interned at the company.

He has only been dating you for a little while compared to how long everyone actually thinks you have been dating (he is a chronic liar). That man has told the world that you've been together for years.

Even you, who knew he was lying, was confused when you realised that he'd kept up the lie from childhood into his actual job.

In a YouTube interview with N Magazine where they had him unpack his bag for a "what is in my bag" vid, all of his items were gifts from you (that's how you realised he actually liked you and wasn't just joking to keep the fans off his back).

He also wears the necklace you gave him, off and on stage. Some fans have bought dupes of the necklace online, which he doesn't mind because it's a cute design.

As a partner, he is very loyal. He will call you whenever he has the chance (even in the middle of rehearsal.) He sends pictures and selfies to you all the time. Prepare to be spammed. He does get anxious if you don't respond for long periods of time.

He got his piloting license to 'be able to fly to you.' You'd thought he was joking. But one time, when he was on tour, and you hadn't responded for a while, he flew back to you...

He loves to facetime.

In the behind-the-scenes video with the kids, he was so good with them that interviewers after that started asking when he'd become a dad. To which, he said, 'I'll have to ask the lady.'

When he was asked about his ideal type, he plainly said, 'my girlfriend' and didn't elaborate.

Visual + Sub Rapper: Sylus

(enemies to lovers! idol x idol, from a different company)

Sylus, shockingly, is private about his relationship, too. As flashy as he is, he respects the fact that you both are idols. Although he isn't opposed to the mess that creates, he knows you wouldn't want to get the drama. He shamelessly feeds the delulu of his fans, but he isn't necessarily flirting, everything he says just sounds like he is. It's that voice I'm telling you...

He saw you again at an awards evening when your groups were sat next to each other. You had already heard bad things about him from other girls in your group and weren’t fond of his rumoured behaviour. He, on the other hand, remembered you from college; you were an underclassman he used to see around campus. (You don't remember him at all... how? guess you weren't interested.)

After the award evening, your managers asked you two to do a dance TikTok challenge to the boys' new song. The fans saw your chemistry and some, the ones who aren't delulu haters, began to ship you like crazy.

This caused a lot of collaborations between your two groups, and between the two of you specifically. Such as co-hosting awards shows, TikTok's together, guest starring on YouTube video podcasts at the same time. Secretly, he was behind some of those coincidences, at least at first. But then the companies started pushing your dynamic when it was bringing in a lot of attention. All press is good.

The main culprit of the change was the time he did aegyo and the only way they managed to get him to do it was because you were on the phone. (at this point, you were in a situationship).

He slowly managed to melt the ice with you. It took months. You hated his guts. But after a few one-night stands (once is an accident, twice is questionable, five times is a habit) and a very well-planned out date, he finally managed to get you to date him.

He is a good partner. He understands that you both are trying to do your own thing, however, he supports you whenever you need the support. He's great to gossip with--a very good listener.

Your groups are often in the same country at the same time, so you don't really have to worry about missing each other. But when you aren't, he is accessible by text. He sends a lot of nice gifts. And you two have a matching brooch.

In his 'day in the life' video, the one which got over 109 million views, some fans noticed his phone screen, and they noted that his lockscreen was a hand with nails that matched yours.

However, when asked about whether he has a special someone in his life he is the type to give a very open/ambiguous answer. Not quite at the level of Zayne and Rafayel--but nowhere near as open as Caleb and not as defensive Xavier.

Face of The Group + Centre + Main Vocalist: Rafayel

(Friendzoned! Idol x bodyguard)

Did you expect anything less? I'm sorry but this man is trying desperately to get out of the friendzone, however, he made such a bad first impression that he has been stuck there for months. It's getting to the point where the other guys feel bad for him.

He was a little shit to you when you met. He thought you would be one of those secretly obsessed members of staff, and he was surprised when you didn't give a single fuck about who he was.

He realised you attended the same gym (the company one. Literally everyone uses it). You stay in the boxing area, whereas he keeps to the treadmill.

One time in a YouTube video for their channel, they were doing a member against staff wrestling video (staff wore squid game-esque mask/suits). He chose you to go against him. The other member's, who know you're not one to mess with, told him he was crazy. But he didn't listen. He ended up getting German suplexed in the video, and he had to tap out. Let's just say that that clip went viral and Rafayel claims that it was fake anytime it gets brought up in interviews.

Despite that, ever since that day, he would purposefully request for you to be his bodyguard during events and trips to airports. He trusts you with his life, and he makes sure to say it every time he gets the chance; to make you feel responsible for him.

He never mentions his relationship status in videos (once again, he tells people to mind their own business), but in an interview where he was asked what his type is he did say that they had to be strong, which got people bringing up the clip again.

The members are amused every single time you turn him down.

Maybe next time it'll work out for him. He can tell that you are getting fonder of him, so it is only a matter of time till you crack.

Maknae + Lead Dancer + Sub Vocalist: Xavier

(idol x idol, same company, also fan x idol)

His partner is from the same company and is also in an idol group.

He met when you when you got lost trying to find your groups training room on your first day. He was sleeping by some lockers next to a coffee machine, and you woke him up and asked, 'if he was okay?' To which he explained that he was just resting his eyes. (poor baby had passed out, but everyone is so used to him doing this that they don't check on him anymore.)

Then without knowing who he was… (you’d never seen him without makeup before) you asked him for directions to your studio. He led you there because he's been in the company for years and knows the building like the back of his hand.

Your group trained in the studio above his.

When he got you there, your members asked why it took you so long and you turned to show them who brought you, but before you could thank him, he was gone.

He bumped into you again, not too long after, when he came to train late at night. You were there trying to get a move right. He helped you correct your posture and that got you talking. After that, he was going to leave, but you told him not to go. So, he ended up staying.

He listens to you gush over Lumiere's TikTok when you get hotpot together or eat pot noodles in the corner of the studio late at night. It turns out you are a fan of his secret TikTok, which made him very jealous of himself.

On a night when he was training with Caleb, you saw him dancing as you were leaving. You had never seen him so active before. That was when you realised who he was.

He hates how you gush over Lumiere even after you start dating. It leads to a lot of heated quickies of him mostly trying to prove that he is better than Lumiere (which makes no sense because well... you know? but Xavier logic, I guess?)

You become his designated camera person.

He asked you out when you were travelling back to dorms together. He fell asleep on your shoulder and muttered his feelings for you.

The other members think you two are really cute together. In the company, instead of finding Xavier by the coffee machine, they know that he'll be sleeping on you or by your bag as you rehearse.

As a partner, he is sweet. Because he is often distracted, he can forget to text you back, but he always tries to message you back when he remembers. He is the type to send good morning and good night messages. He also brings back souvenirs from tour. Despite being in the same company, you aren't often in the same places at the same time. But when you are back at HQ, you two are often together.

When asked about his ideal type in a video, he was more defensive but basically described you. His fans have no clue that his partner is you. He is beyond Zayne levels of private. Aside from the hickey incident, nothing else is out.

[bennyboyfics]

U ATE THE ANGST FIC UPPPPPP. pls do more angst i beg!!

Doubles drama || Ben Shelton x gf!reader

A/n: Ty for the request!

Warnings: angst

Wc: 876

MASTERLIST

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The sun was relentless, beating down on the court as you sat stiffly in Ben’s player box, your arms crossed tightly over your chest. The match had only just begun, but already, the weight in your stomach felt unbearable. It wasn’t about Ben playing doubles—he’d played with plenty of different partners before.

But her? His current partner, a rising star on the circuit, had made it abundantly clear how she felt about Ben. The lingering touches, the way she laughed at everything he said, the way she leaned into him between points, always finding an excuse to whisper something in his ear.

And worst of all? He wasn’t pushing her away. Your nails dug into your arm as you watched them, the easy way they moved together on the court, their synchronisation effortless. It was like they shared some unspoken connection, understanding each other without a single word. The kind of connection you were supposed to have with him.

The camera cut to you at just the right—or wrong—moment, capturing your expression in stark contrast to the energy on the court. Your jaw was locked tight, lips pressed into a firm line, eyes narrowed as you watched Ben and his partner interact with far too much ease. The commentators’ voices hummed through the broadcast.

“Shelton and his partner are really in sync today. Look at that smile—he’s clearly enjoying himself. His girlfriend, though… doesn’t seem too thrilled about the partnership.” Everyone was watching. You glance up seeing yourself on the big screen before looking away. You knew what they were seeing. A jealous girlfriend, sitting silently while her boyfriend played alongside another woman.

You could already imagine the headlines, the social media chatter. But none of that compared to the burning in your chest as you watched her touch him again, playful, teasing—just enough to make it clear that she could. The match ended in a victory, and as the crowd erupted in cheers, she threw her arms around Ben, pressing her body flush against his.

Your entire body went rigid. She was holding him. Right there, in front of thousands of people. And he didn’t pull away. He laughed—actually laughed—patting her back before finally stepping out of the embrace. But the damage was done. The way she looked up at him, beaming, her eyes full of admiration and something else—you knew what she wanted.

And the worst part? She wasn’t afraid to make it obvious. By the time you made it to the players’ lounge, your emotions were barely contained beneath the surface. The moment you spotted Ben, standing there with his towel draped around his neck, his curls damp from sweat, it all boiled over. His smile faded the second he saw you. “You’re pissed.”

You let out a sharp laugh. “Wow, you’re so observant.” Ben sighed, tossing his bag onto a nearby bench. “Come on, what is this about? Because if it’s about my match, I really don’t wanna hear it.” “Oh, you don’t wanna hear it?” you snapped. “That’s too bad, because I spent the last two hours watching your partner throw herself at you while you just stood there and let it happen.”

His brows furrowed, his expression shifting from exasperation to irritation. “She wasn’t throwing herself at me.” You scoffed. “Are you serious right now? She was all over you, Ben.” He rolled his eyes, running a hand through his curls. “Jesus, you’re being dramatic. She’s my partner. That’s it.”

“Oh, really? Then why does she look at you like you’re the only guy in the world?” Your voice was sharp, edged with something dangerously close to hurt. Ben let out a frustrated breath. “I can’t control how she looks at me.” “But you can control how you react,” you fired back. “And you didn’t do anything to shut it down.”

His jaw tensed. “I was focused on the match, not whatever jealous scenario you’ve got playing in your head.” Your stomach twisted. He was brushing it off—like it was nothing, like you were the problem. “The cameras were on me, Ben. The whole world saw me sitting there like an idiot while she clung to you. And you just let it happen.”

Ben let out a sharp breath, shaking his head. “So this is about the cameras now?” His voice was incredulous, laced with irritation. “You’re mad because people saw you being jealous?” “It’s not about the cameras,” you snapped. “It’s about respect. It’s about the fact that you let her think she had a chance.”

That hit something. You saw it in the way his expression flickered, the way his lips parted slightly like he was about to say something—only to stop himself. For a second, you thought he was actually going to listen. But then his walls shot back up, his frustration winning out over everything else. “That’s not on me,” he said, his voice cold. “I can’t help how she feels.”

You exhaled, your chest rising and falling with uneven breaths. “No. But you didn’t do a damn thing to stop it, either.” Ben stared at you, his jaw tight, his eyes stormy with frustration, hurt, something unreadable swirling beneath the surface. But he didn’t say anything. And somehow, that silence hurt more than anything else.

[rainebelowzero]

Kurt cumming in his pants <333 maybe in public maybe live who knowsss teehee <3

Kurt Kunkle x Male Reader

notes: sorry this took so long ughhhhhh, also I said I would post closer to the afternoon but now it's like 8pm because I posted the first one and then fell asleep right after

♡ exhibitionism, kurt cumming in his pants, mention of drinking (not really though), he cums while he's streaming at a party, making him watch himself, no mention of the reader's gender, so technically could be gn ♡

Lots of alcohol was the only way you'd get through this “influencer” party. You regret falling for those stupid puppy eyes Kurt made at you. It always worked and he knew it, so when he did a whole speech about how it'd be good for his career and view count to make connections and you said no, he pulled out his secret weapon. A little pout and some pleading, and you were being dragged through a strongly perfumed, brightly lighted, loud club.

You had no idea who it was hosted by, nor did you recognize anyone there except for one or two people you remembered from Kurt freaking out about interacting with them online. You kind of just followed him around while he live streamed his requests for collabs being rejected by a bunch of people. He gets the occasional picture with someone, and even talked a guy into saying hello to his 3 viewers, but a lot of them were just taking photos or live streaming themselves.

You eventually convince him to go sit down with you, since you really want something to drink. He sits next to you, his phone propped up. He didn't really drink as much, so he settled for talking to his chat and squeezing your hand when you grabbed his to help him calm down.

It didn't really help though. Just the thought of growing his fanbase was driving him insane, and you could kind of tell in the way he got all squirmy in his seat. You looked over, and yeah, he was hard.

Well, if he made you come, you might as well do the same for him. In a different way. His phone was propped up on the bar, so his lap wasn't visible, and no one was really paying attention, all of them focused on mostly themselves or their friends, so you scoot your stool closer to Kurt, wrapping your arm around him. He leans into your touch, but otherwise doesn't really react. That's until you snake a hand down between his legs. He's mid sentence, and he jumps, eyes widening. He stammers his way through the sentence and then turns to you, but you just add on to what he's saying, smiling into the camera casually.

His body shudders as you run your fingers along his bulge, feeling it twitch underneath his pants. He shakily exhales, squirming a little in his seat. He starts talking about something else, his voice noticeably more shaky and he looks nervous as he meets your gaze in the reflection of his phone screen. You give him a grin, before cupping his hard on, letting him grind against your hand.

But you know he's not very good at being subtle, so the second his grinding gets more obvious, you pull your hand away. He whines softly, praying no one hears him. Fortunately, the music is just loud enough to not be heard unless someone is right next to him.

You start to palm him some more, making him full on put his arms on the bar and his face in his hands. He's aware enough to pretend to be yawning before putting his arms back down. You don't even know what he's talking about to the stream, honestly. Something about reaching out to more people before he leaves, or getting Instagram handles or something like that.

The bartender comes over to you, but you reach over to the menu you had before, looking it over and asking if she could come back in a few minutes, and she smiles and nods, going to some people at the other side of the bar. You lean against Kurt's shoulder, acting like you just want to be close to him, which you do, but you're also grabbing his dick through his jeans, stroking him at a slow, teasing pace. He moans softly, a little louder than before.

He looks down, shutting his eyes tight. That won't do. You lean over, staring at the two of you on screen. “Keep looking at the phone, Kurt.” You whisper, and you notice the view count getting a little higher. Kurt does too, whimpering when he sees it, his hips moving a little on their own.

You stroke him faster, but still slow enough to not be noticed. The lights in the place were dim, so it made your task pretty easy, but there were the occasional people passing by that might have noticed.

He pants, his face flushed and skin hot. He struggles to watch himself, but he feels himself getting closer and closer at the idea of people watching this happen. When he saw what he looked like, he knew the few people watching him would definitely know what's going on, and that made him moan a little louder. People were watching him. And even more hot to him, they were watching him get off.

He thought even more about the people surrounding him. There were so many people around him with their phones out, and a large amount of those people were either already recording or taking pictures. He couldn't help but think about them noticing what was happening, noticing that you had your hand between his legs as he strained against his pants, probably the hardest he had ever been in his life.

He thought about them recording him. Broadcasting him across the internet, the amount of people that would be watching him grind against your hand as he moaned and whimpered so desperately. Kurt had no idea he was this into that, his head falling against his hands with a long but soft, drawn out whine.

He breathes heavily, and you grin as you feel a wet spot quickly bloom in his jeans, his hips starting to slow down. You keep stroking him until he starts to whimper and moan from the sensitivity, before finally pulling away. You see a few people in his chat point out exactly what was happening, which only makes you more amused as you lean over, pressing a kiss to Kurt's cheek. He's covering his face, too overcome with pleasure to really notice, and thinking about the nightmare that will be having to walk to the bathroom and clean himself up. As he did it, his next greatest idea came to him

He had to convince you to make porn with him.

[interact-if]

Our fourth edition of the Black History Month Author Spotlight series, features Becky (@losergames)!

(I’ve been in awe of Becky’s multi-talents (art, writing, coding, excuse me??) for a long time now, and am super excited to get to interview her and introduce her awesome game, Chop Shop! The portion on morality and finding a middle-ground between harmful stereotypes of “bad” POC characters and angelic, one-dimensional ones who can do no wrong was a really interesting and insightful take.)

Author: Becky

Hello hello!!! I’m Becky! I am a black bisexual woman from the UK, lover of games, TV and food. I have a Bachelor's degree in Animation & Visual Effects and currently work as a technician at a college 😁

Games: Chop Shop (crime, action, LGBTQ+, meaningful choices)

Short blurb: A crime action interactive fiction game.

Quote from the interview

There are a few main themes I keep in mind about when writing Chop Shop but the big one I think everyone understands is morality. What is right and wrong, and the various shades of grey in between, has been written about a thousand times in a thousand ways but it is continuously interesting to me in a changing world. What does it mean to be a bad person doing good things and a good person doing bad things? Is there a chance for redemption? What are the consequences? Race and class are also massive factors, made all the more complicated when we’re looking at sets of characters on either side of the PC’s life. I want to write black and other characters of colour make bad, questionable, and unredeemable decisions whilst also remaining aware of stereotypes and archetypes. I want them to be loud, messy, and rude, attributes that are always attached to minorities, but I also want them to be smart, calculating, and deceptive. I think a lot of people are scared to do so and we end up with plain, can-do-no-wrongers that lack any depth.

Read on for the full interview!

Can you tell me a bit about what you’re working on right now and your journey into interactive fiction? What inspired the game/story you’re currently writing?

I am currently working on the crime action interactive fiction Chop Shop. There are a mix of inspirations that went into Chop Shop but above all else I’d say the kicker was my circumstances at the time.

During covid I walked away from the WORST job I’ve ever had and moved back home, which I realised a while after was an extremely huge blessing. I had a major burnout and was processing what my ex-managers had put me and my colleagues through. So, in my freetime I was playing a lot of cyoa/ romance games (shoutout Love Island the game) and found a whole fandom that also enjoyed them. 

I made some friends, did art commissions, and wrote some fanfic here and there, yadda yadda. A close friend recommended I try out a very popular COG game at the time (🧛) and it all spiraled from there. I fell in love with the format, endless creativity, and community and never looked back.

I loved the Need For Speed games as a kid, the og Most Wanted, Carbon, and Underground 2 are, in my eyes, amongst the masterpieces of games from the 2000s. It got to the point I was going over to friends houses just to play on their PS2 lmao. I am also a Fast and Furious fiend (shock) and I will defend that god awful series till I die. Fast forward to being a teenager/ young adult I’ve become a massive fan of fictional crime shows. Breaking Bad will always be my first love, but I also love The Sopranos, Fargo, The Wire and more.

How has your identity, heritage/background, upbringing, or personal experiences influenced your storytelling or writing process? OR How does your work feature aspects of your identity / experience?

The real catalyst for Chop Shop was my previous job. A lot of the PC’s experiences are based off my own. A few examples I love sharing are how I had to make breakfast for my boss every morning and had to keep the office freezer stocked with a specific supermarket ice lolly because he ‘needed’ one every day at 3pm. I truly wish I was making this up because people think I’m crazy when I tell them. But I really was catering to a man-child because I was desperately trying to get my foot into a creative industry. Woof!!!

That said, the industry I wanted to work in was and still is extremely competitive. I came out of uni with a tonne of friends, but also a tonne of competition. It stung very badly to see my peers excel and surpass me when it came to careers but that’s just a part of becoming an adult. That life really was not for me and I’m glad I’m out of it now.

My mother is an extremely influential person in my life. Bits and pieces of her stick with me, not just in my writing but my every day. She’s worked in corporate all her life, from the early 80s and still to this day. She laughs about it now but she tells stories about the times she was laughed out of meetings or undermined by subordinates because she was a black woman in positions that were not occupied by minorities. It hurts to think about but I can only dream of having the type of strength she does.

Now that I think about it, Chop Shop is a massive fuck you to the past.

Are there any specific themes or messages you hope players take away from your work?

There are a few main themes I keep in mind about when writing Chop Shop but the big one I think everyone understands is morality. What is right and wrong, and the various shades of grey in between, has been written about a thousand times in a thousand ways but it is continuously interesting to me in a changing world. What does it mean to be a bad person doing good things and a good person doing bad things? Is there a chance for redemption? What are the consequences?

Race and class are also massive factors, made all the more complicated when we’re looking at sets of characters on either side of the PC’s life. I want to write black and other characters of colour make bad, questionable, and unredeemable decisions whilst also remaining aware of stereotypes and archetypes. I want them to be loud, messy, and rude, attributes that are always attached to minorities, but I also want them to be smart, calculating, and deceptive. I think a lot of people are scared to do so and we end up with plain, can-do-no-wrongers that lack any depth.

What does your writing process look like? Any rituals or habits? Any tips, tricks, philosophies or approaches that have worked very well for you?

I write way better outside of my bedroom. I know writing is supposed to be fun and a hobby but sometimes it’s… not. If I get stressed out in my room, it’s all a mess. The brain needs to be away from where I sleep to get work done. Last summer, when all the teachers were on holiday time, I was the only one in my department for weeks and it was the best writing stint I ever had haha.

Oh and I keep a huge spreadsheet. All the episode breakdowns, outlines, character details etc. It looks insane to anyone else but it is my prized baby.

Do you have favourite interactive fiction games, characters, scenes or authors that you’d like to recommend?

My goto game rec is always 180 Files: The Aegis Project. So quick and punchy, more narrative/plot than romance focused. The action sequences are fun and the interactions are so delicious, ugh. I love it. I’ve played it at least 20 times to get the different endings and it’s never not satisfying, just… chefs kiss. I’m also really enjoying Thicker Than right now AAHHH I NEED TO CATCH UP!!! 

Any books, music, movies etc. you’re obsessed with at the moment, or which changed your life (or perspectives on something)?

Not anything specific but I do have some books I’d like to recommend to my fellow black readers:

The Psychosis of Whiteness: Surviving the Insanity of a Racist World by Nicola Rollock

Black Skin, White Masks by Franz Fanon

The Strangers: Five Extraordinary Black Men and the Worlds That Made Them by Ekow Eshun

Black England: A Forgotten Georgian History by Gretchen Gerzina

The Hard Road To Renewal by Stuart Hall

Honestly I’d recommend anything by Stuart Hall lmao. RIP king, you would be shocked at the media literacy today.

This-or-that segment: (bold = Becky's pick)

Coffee or tea?

Early mornings or late nights?

City or countryside?

Angsty or Cozy romances? (Or enemies-to-lovers or best-friends-to-lovers?)  

Steady progress or frenzied binge-writing followed by periods of calm?

Summer or Winter?

First drafts or editing?

Introvert or extrovert?

Plotter or pantser?

Characters or plot first?

Becky’s custom “either-or” pairing: Driver or passenger?

[mikuchan]

Notes and thoughts on my Araj Oblodra tag dive. This one is long.

Everyone loves an evil woman (unless she's mean, and a woman).

Oh boy! I started Araj because I'm too busy lately to keep tackling Orin or any of the DA tags, so I thought I'd bang out some ~100-tag characters. With only 122 English language works, Araj has a pretty small tag that manages to be an unsurprising but illuminating facet of the BG3 fandom experience.

Like I said on the infographic, 85% of works tagging Araj also tag Astarion; going further with that, in over half (59%) of works tagging Araj Oblodra, she is only in the story to act antagonististically towards Astarion. The criteria for this was: Araj seeking Astarion's blood in an impolite/creepy/pushy way, hurting people close to Astarion, or treating him in any kind of rude, demeaning, or abusive manner; and she has no separate interactions or plot points.

This number jumps to 71% when mistags are removed.

Over a third of her works total specifically follow her exact canonical in-game role.

I divided her tag presence into 5 roles because of this: Main, Side, Minor, Mistag, and Canon Antagonist. In Canon Antag works, whether she appears for a single scene or an entire fic, Araj does not deviate from canon. She says her game lines verbatim, and if/when Tav attacks her later, she does not have any further unique dialogue or actions except for like, dying on the ground. If she deviates from canon in any way, this shifts her role into main, side, or minor. (Here is a deeper explanation of how I sort roles.)

Of all the fics tagging Araj, an alarming amount go on to have her screamed at and assaulted. She's choked, stabbed, sliced, beheaded, dismembered, grabbed by the collar and spat at, called a bitch in all caps. I get it, kind of -- it's fun to imagine how you or your Tav would confront a bully, and Araj is distinctly a bully. But it's a little jarring when we consider how few other characters receive this treatment.

Lady Esther, for comparison, is a nearly identical character: a selfish merchant who profiles and belittles a companion while making a dehumanizing request. There are four works total tagging Esther on AO3. One of these involves her crimes against Lae'zel. (so for Lae'zel, that's 1 anti-merchant fic per ~6k works)

Lann Tarv, the bugbear merchant found in Moonrise Towers, is also similar: offering a material deal in exchange for triggering a companion's past traumas. There are two fics tagging Lann Tarv on AO3; one of these is about him and Karlach. (so for Karlach, that's 1 per ~8k works)

For Astarion, who is tagged in 21,817 English language works, there's 1 anti-Araj fic per ~300 works -- over twenty times the rate of those mentioned above.

So what makes Araj so different? Why do Astarion fans care so deeply about her?

This is rhetorical. We know why Araj receives this kind of hate and backlash while others go ignored or enjoyed. She's not a woman hurting other women like Esther, Viconia, or Orin do; and she's not an abusive man, like Cazador, Raphael, Gortash, Ketheric, Lann Tarv. Instead she's committed the cardinal sin of being a woman who is mean to a hot white guy, so she deserves to be called a bitch and kicked until she spits up blood and dies -- or at the least, used as a mean little stage-prop for someone else's growth. No further character exploration needed.

I'm not arguing that Araj Oblodra is this misunderstood character who deserves only love and cinnamon buns. I'm also not saying we need to coddle her because she's ~just a girl~ or something. She's a self-serving merchant who dehumanizes and triggers Astarion, and isn't apologetic about it. She'll give you a potion to make you explosive. She's got some sketchy experiments going on.

But she's also like...not that worse than a lot of other characters in the game. She's not even really worse than Astarion himself, who is also nasty to a lot of people (he's funny, but he's an asshole); also iffy about consent (just bites you in the night); is not apologetic about chunks of his past (the Gur, their kids); and is equally self-serving at times (wanting to ascend despite the blood toll).

I'm not saying Astarion is some awful, irredeemable character, either. Both he and Araj are complex characters operating within their own unique set of morals, seeking personal power to right past wrongs and traumas.

Together they paint a good picture of the problems in the BG3 fandom, and really, fandom as a whole. The martyrdom of a hot white blorbo guy; the demonization of a woman; the often-female OC swooping in to uphold this status quo; the relative fixation on the whole melodramatic scenario.

I'm sure some people will disagree. Before you do, stop!

Do not tell me about how your Tav is super deep and well-written and so it's actually really feminist of her to kill Araj for her vampire lover. Awesome for you. Take that energy and write something about Lady Esther, and then we'll talk.

The rest of Araj's stats were pretty predictable. She leans hard towards Explicit and Mature ratings, which isn't surprising. I like the ones where she and Minthara interact, always fun to see drow from different Houses working together (or against each other!). I also like the idea of Araj x Aurelia, the tiefling vampire spawn.

[jonquilyst]

Day 7 - Socialization Day

1 week and 3 challenges in to TDS3, our contestants are adjusting to the competition quite nicely. First impressions are starting to fade, and real relationships are starting to be built. The third season of TDS is well underway!

Elio (IN) and Estrello (IN) had a nice chat this morning (while visiting economy class despite the fact that they were part of the winning team) before breakfast 💜

Aside from that, Team Integrity is taking advantage of first class quite nicely! As expected, our gaming streamer Lucian (IN) was happy to have a nice session of SimScuffle. However, Avery (IN) was having a harder time with video games, as she lost in Party Frenzy to what I assume are chronically-online gamers who dedicate all of their time to playing the game. Smh...

It's a hoppin' boppin' day for socializing today! Everyone (even Team Integrity) spent a good chunk of time in the mess hall chatting amongst each other. I think out of all my TDS casts, this one is taking team bonding the most seriously!

Everything was going well until... Carson (SU) didn't make it to the bathroom in time! 😵‍💫😜 He peed himself in front of EVERYONE! How oddly reminiscent of a similar incident last season...

Tomiko (OD) was feeling good today and decided to try her hand at socializing today! She ended up chatting with Marilyn (SU) for a little while. Although not on the same team, Tomiko was successful in bonding with Marilyn!

Also, a little something for my fellow Elio/Matteo stans... 🤭

However, that was not the only bond that strengthened within Team Integrity today. After finishing their gaming sessions, Lucian and Avery hung out together for a while in the mess hall, cracking jokes and making each other laugh! It took a little while for these two to start interacting, but a friendship between them is now beginning to take off!

While Lucian and Avery were hanging out though, Alanna made sure to take advantage of their hanging out and have a turn on the computer 😜 This girl loves her video games!

Ziggy (OD) and Touma (OD) spent their day getting to know each other, while behind them, we find Carson and Marilyn joining Brendan (SU) and Raylan (OD) for dinner! Thankfully everyone was pretty forgiving of Carson's incident and Carson quickly forgot that terrible event even happened; even though it was all caught on TV 🤭

Meanwhile in first class, Alanna, Avery, and Matteo all got together to throw themselves a music-jamming party! Alanna and Avery showed off their dance moves, while Matteo decided to just listen deeply and enjoy the vibes; his shoulder is still in repair mode, after all (though Matteo told me that it's starting to feel better!)

We end today's socialization day with Avery and Alanna having a deep late-night chat... I wonder what they were talking about?

Our next challenge, and our next elimination, awaits everyone tomorrow. Will Team Success finally win a challenge? Or did they really curse themselves when they decided to call themselves "Team Success?"

Oh, and by the way, I know I said "elimination," but what I really meant was "eliminations..." 🤭 See you all tomorrow!

Today's Confessional: Espresso Bean

"Ugh... not only is being in economy class so boring, I'm also in a heap of trouble. Team Success is totally sucking right now, and what's worse is that Marilyn and Carson are getting really close... I'm worried they might be forming an alliance. Plus, Brendan is pretty close with Marilyn too... I'm scared that if we lose again, I might get voted out, and I don't wanna leave yet! This season is only getting started!"

@invisiblequeen @paracosmic-sims @simstagramsomeone @hellogreta @kari-sims

@kissalopa @changingplumbob @aliengirl @matchalovertrait @lyratea

@ethicaltreatmentofcowplants @nakasumi-sims @bloomingkyras @sanitysims @riverofjazzsims

[scarlet-m00ns]

I am losing my mind waiting for the golden raven so here are my predictions/hopes:

Jeremy’s younger brother reveal (dead or alive) if alive maybe he’s in prison?? I haven’t seen anyone else say that. If dead I’m leaning towards the OD theory but when I first read tsc I thought it would have something to do with driving

Jean meets one or all of Jeremy’s family (probably Bryson) and is instantly hostile when he sees how they treat Jeremy

Kevin brings Neil and Andrew with him to the interview

Kevin will do all the talking but the interviewer will ask Jean a question directly and he’ll say something unintentionally rude

Jeremy watching Kevin and Jean interacting like a tennis match trying to work out the relationship because they argue like exs

Lucas and Jean make up/tentative friendship (I want Lucas to be redeemed)

Hugs/Jean initiating a hug (please)

Jeremy and Neil beef

The opposite with Jeremy and Andrew idk why I think they’d have mutual respect but also they wouldn’t speak to each other ever. Jeremy being polite and Andrew staring him down so he backs away slowly

Jealous Jeremy!

Andrew speaking multiple words!!!

Jeremy finds out about the Moriyama’s or at least suspects even if Jean won’t confirm (yet)

Cody/Ananya/Pat

Jean tells Jeremy his sister is dead and they bond over dead siblings…

Elodie is not dead (shut up let me be in denial) maybe the fbi find her during their investigation (probably book 3)

JereJean kiss but that’s it. Jean ends up pushing him away and then Jeremy feels guilty

When they do get together there will be a lot of rumours that Jean is ‘up to his old tricks again’

Jeremy punching someone for suggesting Jean is sleeping his way to the top

Chaos at the banquet

Cat teaching Jean to ride a motorbike as promised

Jean saying ‘have a winning day’ all deadpan and the others finding it hilarious

The first game will go terribly with Jean using Raven tactics and not being able to control his temper (gets a red card) As captain Jeremy has to ‘reprimand’ him but can’t do it, it’s like kicking a puppy because he knows what’s going through Jean’s head

Jean saying he CAN’T fail when the first game goes badly and Jeremy hearing the truth in it and realising Jean is still in danger and he worries maybe leading to Jean telling him the truth

Jeremy is suspicious about Grayson’s death but I don’t think he will work it out unless something else happens

When he does find out I have no idea which way he will go because on one hand Jeremy knows Grayson deserves it but Jean purposely causing someone’s death might scare him a bit (even if it wasn’t Jean’s idea)

Saw someone say Jeremy’s family might be connected to the Moriyama’s and my first reaction was No not everyone is involved in the mafia BUT they said maybe (since they are involved in politics) they might be enabling them/covering for them somehow which could be true. And that would cause a lot of angst with Jeremy realising someone close to him is partly responsible to the horrible things that happened to Jean and people like him

Jeremy or Cat/Laila will see the magnets and then start buying new ones :(

Cat draws a < next to Jean’s 3 to make a heart :(

JereJean have a bad argument at the end leaving them not talking because Nora is cruel

I forgot about JereJean pottery!!! Jeremy will be shit at it but he’s just happy to be there and Jean will be surprisingly really good (could be the other way around as a way of Jean leaning to enjoy things even if he’s not good at them)

Bonus: I will be sobbing at least five separate times

[kitts-mechanix]

Exactly! The fact that so many people are leaving the fandom is....it's tragic. Just about everyone I know is gone at this point. I've spent an entire decade teaching myself how to draw, creating entire worlds, writing immersive stories, things I hope people could love and appreciate the way I love and appreciate their works. So many things that I've yet to post even. I think one of the reasons this fandom used to be one of the safest, kindest fandoms is because we all knew what it was like to be put down, bullied, ostracised by others for loving "the weakest Pixar franchise" and especially Cars 2 AKA "Pixar's most hated movie". And the community was active and supported each other. Most of us were never famous, but that was okay because we did all of this for fun, not fame.

I honestly feel guilty, and even like a whiny baby, when I lament about no one comments on anything anymore. I can't recall the last time I got a meaningful comment on my work, or a comment about how the chapter of a story made them feel, details they loved, etc. I don't want to sound entitled, but I miss the days when people took the time to write out thoughtful comments and read. And the fact that no one really does that anymore, honestly just makes my writer's a block a lot worse. Why slave away on something no one will read? I'm not going to stop doing what I love. But it's harder now than it ever was before.

There were so many people in this fandom I loved who have moved on. Some were like sisters to me. Fizz was my inspiration too, and I've always appreciated my interactions with Blay. I lost two online sisters (I won't name them) who both fell down dark paths and cut me out for no reason. (A major FU to CC for turning one of them into Anakin Skywalker). I remember talking to people like Asphalt, RMS Olympic, or Fizz, or Eclipse, or Shadow and it felt like I was meeting a celebrity! I especially freaked out when I became close friends/sisters with some of them. This was back in 2017. I could have never foreseen what would happen after 2021....

And speaking of 2021, I think the reason we were so darn blessed to have one last year of what we once had, was because of one thing: Cars 2 10th anniversary. The diecast collection was exciting again. People made content and interacted again. We all had a renaissance. I had THE best Christmas since 2016. I thought this was the dawn of a new era. And then my 22nd birthday was pretty incredible too with all the cool Cars stuff I got, best one since my 16th! But that was the last spark. With one final burst, the fire had died out. I have not been able to rekindle it since.

And yeah I know about that monster being back, I really hope that petition will make a difference (last I checked it just needs 20 more sigs). I am slowly re-uploading my stuff (although a certain OC is probably never going to see the light of day again) but if things get too crazy I will honestly lock it behind "members only" for the sake of my mental health. I feel the fandom is either less welcoming to diverse people now or the welcoming sides are very extremist, neither of which I ever saw in my old days in the fandom. And while I'm not a fan of yaoi ships personally, I do believe people should have the freedom to create, express and share things like that. If people don't like something, they need to learn they have two options it: go back, or if you must, block it. It's that simple.

Anyway sorry for the ramble. I'm just glad someone gets it, you know? Honestly, I've been holding these thoughts in for a LONG time and now I just....I can't hold it back anymore.

I love this series and its characters with all my heart. Nothing could ever take that away. This franchise saved my life in 2015, just like G1 Transformers did back in August. But I cannot deal with what this fandom has become anymore.

RIP Cars fandom. 2006-2021

Fandom Problem #7581:

I hate how normalized harassment, bullying and overall being a dick has become normalized in fandom spaces. What's sick to me is that these people will harass and dox someone over the dumbest shit and then try to make themselves seem like they're morally right to do so, it's like it's a game to them. It honestly makes me feel like there's no point in being in fandoms at all if I could get harassed off a platform for the dumbest thing

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

Just read Malleus dorm uniform vignette because I got his SSR to build a better cosmic team. All i have to say was Malleus neutral but now I'm a hater.

Like wtf. He's so incompetent.

Aaaaah, I see 😅 Not a fan of those vignettes, huh??

I have my own share of problems with them (like how the groovy has so little to do with the context for it), but let’s be fair to Malleus here 💦 He’s sheltered, comes from a country that is very anti-human, and is so OP he primarily relies on magic to solve his inconveniences; it’s only to be expected that he doesn’t know the proper etiquette when interacting with his fellow mages. Now, was it rude for him to do what he did—even if he didn’t know any better? Absolutely. He made a major faux pas here. Is he acting rude intentionally? No, it’s for sure out of ignorance.

I think the major issue that some (myself included) take with these vignettes isn’t that Malleus messed up or that he is ignorant that he did, but that he doesn’t really apologize for it and doesn’t try to learn from the experience even though this is clearly his big issue. Instead, he leaves confused + not fully understanding why what he did was wrong. Sure, he resolves to “be better” next time + swears he’ll continue to learn more about humans but like… why can’t he do that now? Why is he putting it off to later??? Why doesn’t he take the time and effort to try and understand why he was perceived as being so rude?? Malleus even closes the vignettes by saying it might take 100 years to come to a mutual understanding… when he didn’t listen to anything his fellow dorm leaders said to him to express their upset and explain why they were chastising him. Yeah, no wonder it’s going to take him so long to learn; he barely seems to pay any mind to the people in front of him literally telling him what he did wrong and why. He’s so fixated on his own mindset that even when others try to show him new perspectives, he cannot really… see those perspectives. This is a character flaw of Malleus’s, and while it’s not wrong to have flaws, I can see why this particular flaw can be irritating and unappealing to some fans. (That’s definitely the case for me 😅)

[saltminerising]

thank you fr community for reminding me that fr is not, in fact, an escape from reality and real world issues! trans rights and protect trans folks means trans men, trans women, and the full spectrum of nonbinary people, not just trans women and feminine nonbinary people.

And on that note, this topic is ending here. Collection of asks below the cut that came in before this, but any further discussion can be held in the replies or not at all.

>1 person on the LGBTQ+ thread ignores that "being feminine means you're a woman" rhetoric can affect trans men even if it's aimed towards cis men & she doesn't have nuance about how context matters and some egg jokes are okay/others are not & thinks if she hasn't seen them done badly in her own circles it never happens >2 different people are like "i guess trans men can't talk about our experiences" >look at the trans discussion on the thread prior to the egg joke debate >the trans-specific posts are vast majority transmascs >chat does 1 person excluding trans men in the thread mean trans discussion on this thread/online excludes trans men in general. (shoves several pages of transmasc-centric discussion under a rug) idk it's just too close to "if one trans woman is a bully to trans men then they must all be" rhetoric/denying that transmisogyny exists in trans spaces for my comfort

Sometimes I don't really get it when other transmascs or trans men talk about their online experiences but seeing some of these asks about M from Lightning make me get it. He literally did not say anything wrong in that thread.

M and K in the lgbtq thread both had fair points. But they were both being kinda weird about it so... also apparently im blocked by M despite having never interacted with him? strange but whatever

you guys are insufferable. egg jokes pushed ME further into the closet, AND IM TRANSFEM. I get why some people are fine with them but they make me so fucking uncomfortable and feel unsafe, especially in a red state. I’m glad mousemod stepped in. I second what someone else said, it’s like some of you DONT want solidarity.

ok maybe m from lightning was annoying about it but k from shadows response to somebody's vent with 'um well it helps some people' was also a little inappropriate

ok but if someone wrote a whole essay about trans men in reply to someone talking abt their experiences as a trans woman ppl would call them every slur under the sun. can we all at least agree that K's series of posts in reply to M was not fucking cool. if they'd literally just not quoted M it would've been fine. If I were in M's position I'd be annoyed as fuck too. initial anon was right, shit like this IS why transmascs are hesitant to speak about our experiences online. And when we speak out about it/snap back in a MILDLY RUDE way we get fucking demonized lol

Listen, it's clear K's posts were coming from a place of personal experience/passion for the subject and this is not to say their points weren't valid but I think some of you might have missed the fact that after their initial post they came back into the thread and quote replied to a completely different person who was exclusively talking about their experience as a transmasc person and the negative experiences they had with gender expectations from other people that were directly related to their identity with someone else in the thread and K used it to continue their "rant" and even told that person "it wasn't about them", despite the person sharing a personal experience. I get wanting to talk about the subject but utilizing that person's post to do so was uncalled for and disrespectful. You do not need to trample over random trans people talking about their personal experience to have a valid moral discussion. Time and place.

[hol-ymoly]

Punch-Out!! OCs HCs / information :3

Garcia "Chipper" Alejandro Cortes:

-Got the boxer name Chipper because he 'chips away at people' in the ring.

-Plays fairly in the ring, has never intentionally cheated once. Believes only weak people cheat in the ring (doesn't know his sister cheats).

-Bruises easily.

-Loves to take pictures with fans, will always pose and smile with them.

-Actually quite smart, good with tactics.

-Takes good care of himself, probably has some sort of skin care routine.

-Well mannered and polite, he rarely berates his opponents and even congratulates them for a good punch. He'll encourage others to get back up, cheering them on.

Garcia loves to make friends with people in the W.V.B.A, there's not much that can put him off of people.. Other than if they're rude; he's quite chatty himself, enjoys a nice conversation with friends while sat on the locker room benches.

Laia Gabriela Cortes:

-Tends to avoid interacting with others, has a little social anxiety and gets overwhelmed quite easily. She hates paparazzi / having her picture taken in general.

-Quite a soft person once you get to know her well enough, she's straightforward and can come off a little rude but it's never intended as so.

-Cheats in the ring, utilises her long braid. She mostly uses it to confuse opponents more than anything.. Or to get some extra hits in.

-Doesn't really taunt in a fight, just stares at people disappointedly or lets out a scoff.

-Strong despite how lean she looks.

-Pretty good at baking and cooking.

-Laia comes off quite mean at first, avoiding conversations with blunt answers and generally just avoiding others full stop. Though, once she starts to see a person more often she'll greet them and.. eventually, will start up conversations with others herself. She's protective of her friends, tries her best to give them compliments (though she's very bad at coming up with nice things to say) and enjoys coming to their matches to cheer them on.

"Captain" Quarrie Blackwood:

-Nicknamed 'Cap' by some friends, resulting in Captain becoming his boxer name.

-A forgetful person, has the attention span of a housefly (it's real bad).

-Smells kind of bad.. Due to his forgetfulness it's quite common he'll forget to spray some deodorant on before leaving his house. Plus the alcohol he drinks doesn't help the smell.

-Loves to taunt and berate his opponents, despite how big he talks he loses A LOT of matches.

-Likes to steal valuables and money from people, he'll donate them to poor people or he'll keep them for himself.. Or give them to his wife.

-Despite him not being good with people, he's good with children. He probably knows a couple magic tricks (especially with coins) to wow them.

-His right eye is missing, probably got it took out in a fight. He covers it with his eye patch.

-Bad at cooking.. Literally has to keep his eye on everything he makes.

-Quarrie is rude to most people, banter is his game. He's a sarcastic person, no matter how close you get to him there'll always be a pinch of attitude in him. He can be an absolute sweetheart but that's mostly towards his wife and kids.. But if you're a close friend he may treat you with.. Just a little respect.

Bazyli "Drop Dead Gorgeous" Wójick:

-Smells of rich perfume and cherry blossom.

-Cares a lot about his looks, though he does it mostly for himself than others.

-He's had bad experiences with other people, resulting in him having trust issues.. He finds it very difficult to warm up to others, though he'll still try and be friendly to everyone.

-Shortsighted, he wears glasses while reading and designing clothing.

-Bazyli barely boasts during matches but does like to make people aware of his victory, though, he'll congratulate his opponent.

-Never cheats, he'd be far too embarrassed if he got caught and hates the thought of not giving his opponent a fair chance.

-Absolutely adores animals, he'll even pet strays. Bazyli has a pet cat (calico) called Maja.

-Despite him being rich, he isn't at all a snob. Bazyli appreciate's everyone, is always polite and will be generous with his money.

-Bazyli is amiable, easy-going and.. Just a peaceful guy. He finds making friends quite difficult, being lonely is nothing new to him- though he is charming, developing a relationship with someone else is.. Definitely a challenge. He finds it hard to trust people, but no matter what; he'll always be polite to them. He has a couple friends he's made, and he appreciates them all very deeply.

(And this is an OC who I haven't officially made / introduced yet ↓) >:3

Frankie Brown:

-Big fan of old fashioned / vintage items and fashion.

-Enjoys reading (books and magazines), quiet areas and rainy days.

-Although Frankie is a quiet person, he'll stand up for himself and the people he likes / cares about. He isn't shy to start a fight if it really comes to it.

-Smells of a deep cologne, fir trees and oak wood.

-A very hairy guy, though, he's an artist with a razor (Frankie used to be a barber back in the day).

-Quite rarely taunts in a match, he mostly just acts like a disappointed father as he waits for his opponent to get up.

-Good at making fancy drinks, not at all an alcoholic but he likes a good glass of whisky from time to time. Mostly learned his mixing skills from his dad and mom.

-Although he has a tough exterior, Frankie is quite the sweetheart. He checks up on people after matches, helps out around as much as he can and helps other boxers with sparring / training. He likes to keep to himself most of the time though, not for any particular reason.. He just enjoys his peace and quiet.

[hood-ex]

"Love" and "proud" and "family" come up so frequently in bat comics now. Bleh. Bring back something I can relate to like emotional constipation and repression.

[palettepainter]

Still tryna figure out how I draw him, I think I draw his legs too big and his neck too long but either way, he's fun to doodle!

[daisybell-on-a-carousel]

"Jason was the happy robin" this, "jason was the angry robin" that. Let's all be fully honest here Jason was the lonely robin