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summary: @/danisnotonfire: I wonder how biology can explain the physical pain you feel in your chest when all you want to do is be with someone D:
When Dan gets permission to spend a week with Phil in December, he has a stunning realisation.
rating: T
word count: 2.1k
tags: 2009, fluff, light angst, skype, falling in love
notes: written for the 2024 @phandomgiftexchange for @someone-stole-all-my-fruit! I hope you're having a wonderful holiday season! <3 2009 phan is always such a joy to write, so thank you so much for this lovely prompt!
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@/danisnotonfire:Â I wonder how biology can explain the physical pain you feel in your chest when all you want to do is be with someone D:
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Itâs not fair .
Itâs so incredibly unfair, Dan thinks, that he should have to suffer this much when heâs already dealt with so much bullshit in his life. Why canât Phil be right here? Or better yet, why canât he be with Phil, far away in Manchester where reality canât touch him?
Well. He knows the answer to that second question. But knowing doesnât help the situation at all. Maybe thatâs why his heart squeezes again when he glances back at the selfie Philâs just sent him. Really, those puppy eyes should be illegal. Itâs sure as hell making Dan want to do something that could land him in prison anywayâŚ
His eyes flick back to the text he just sent, heart squeezing all over again at the insanity of it all. He should be happy he (barely) got permission to stay at Philâs for a whole week, right? His mumâs breezy âYeah, go aheadâ shouldnât be affecting him this much. Itâs just how she is. Dan should know this after eighteen God-awful years.
And yet. And yet. After meeting Philâs mum and dad last weekend, Dan canât help but feel that old cavernous hole rip open anew. How come Phil got the perfect family and Dan ended up with his sorry excuse for a mum and dad who barely noticed if he was there or not? Sure, Philâs regaled his own problems, how he doesnât feel like he could ever come out to them, but Dan would still take a cordless hammer drill over the shouting that fills his sleepless nights. At least Philâs parents actually like each other.
More than that, they like Phil. Dan knows he wasnât planned, that he had thrown a baby-sized wrench into their world travel dreams. He canât count how many times his dad had hurled those words at him when Dan fucked something up in the way only he can.Â
Dan canât remember the last time they looked at him with pride in their eyes. Meanwhile, Philâs mum had greeted him with a hug that told Dan immediately where Phil had gotten his irresistible cuddle skills from.
His phone buzzes again then, a beam of light through his dark thoughts.
Phil:Â A week!!! I know it wasnât the reaction u wanted but Dan we get a whole damn week together!
Ok, yeah. That was a pretty big thing to look forward to. Even if it still blows Danâs mind that Phil wants to see him. Maybe thatâs what pushes him to reply, despite the overwhelming pain weighing him down.
Dan:Â ur not gonna get tired of me before the end of it?
(Heâs not being pathetic, he swears. Itâs just all he can think about right now.)
Phil:Â Dan!!! Donât ever say that plz. I could never get tired of u <3
And there it is. Seven little words, one emoticon. And somehow it means more to Dan than he could ever express. A smile crawls up his face before he can bite it back. (Not that he wants to.)
Dan:Â <3 thank u phil. i think i needed to hear that tonight
Dan sends the text before he can think twice about it. If these last few weeks are anything to go by, he shouldnât have anything to worry about. Yet thereâs still a voice screaming at him that itâs too much, that Phil doesnât actually want to hear about all of Danâs issues, that heâs just like his schoolmatesâŚ
Phil:Â Then Iâll say it a million times as much as u need. U really are the coolest person Iâve ever known. I canât believe u wanna be with me tbh
Dan:Â rly? ur not just saying that?
Phil:Â Really honestly and truly. Youâve gone to reading festival when I still get stressed at youtube gatherings. You were a world of warcraft kid when I could barely tell my friends I liked buffy. I wish I had even a bit of ur confidence some days :3
Dan:Â rly? but u were in faintheart and the weakest link and youâve been on youtube for years when i was almost too terrified to post my first video
Phil:Â So was I! But thatâs the thing, Dan. I did those things scared shitless and they havenât gotten any easier. I think u know by now that internet Phil and real Phil are entirely different people, yeah?
Dan:Â hmmmm ok. hey speaking of real phil can we continue this on skype?
No sooner had Dan sent the message than his laptop bleated with the old familiar ringtone. Like a figment from his wildest dreams, Philâs pixelated face fills his screen in seconds, his positively giddy smile sparking a matching grin of Danâs own.
âReally Dan, I canât believe we get to have a whole week together!!â Phil claps his hands and his frame grows blurry for a few seconds. Dan can only guess heâs bouncing on his bed and his eyes squeeze shut at the adorableness of it all.
Yet a hint of that darkness still lingers, drawing bars across Danâs heart. âIâm just glad to get away from here for a while,â he sighs. Then, hoping to erase the pout that appears on Philâs face, he adds, âAnd to see you, obviously!â
Phil sticks his tongue out in response, the frame jiggling as his face comes closer until his ocean eyes take up half the screen. Dan is surprised to find his voice growing serious. âDan. You know you can talk about anything with me. It kills me to know how rough youâve had it. I wish I couldâve been there before but, well, Iâm here now at least? And maybe that counts for something?â
âPhil.â Suddenly, Danâs shifting his laptop onto his propped-up knees, pulling it closer and wishing more than anything that he could jump through the computer screen and into Philâs arms And maybe itâs the pain in Philâs eyes, a pain Danâs felt a thousand times worse yet would do anything to prevent Phil from feeling, maybe itâs the hope in Philâs voice--something melts away any of the trepidation he had before.Â
âPhil, are you kidding?â Dan bursts out. âOf course it counts! I mean, I think itâs safe to say weâre best friends now, and isnât that what best friends do?â
âI mean⌠I would hope weâre a little more than best friends by now?â And good lord, the smirk that crawls up Philâs face and fills the bottom of the screen should be illegal. Itâs so much that Dan has to tear his eyes away from the screen and stare at his tiny TV and dresser for a minute.
Not for the first time, it hits him that heâs really here , speaking to Phil in the very room where he spent countless hours watching that same man. How many times has he dreamed of kissing him, of holding him, of dancing through the streets of Manchester? How long has his heart ached for someone to ease its burden? And now⌠that someone is here, giggling from his laptop speakers and fulfilling every one of Danâs hopes and dreams far better than Dan ever thought possible.Â
It should be too good to be true. And yet, after everything heâs been through, doesnât he deserve this one good thing?
Theyâre both silent for a few seconds until Phil asks softly, âDan? What are you thinking about right now?â
âOh, I dunno.â Dan picks up the bear heâs had his entire life from the nightstand and strokes its ears absentmindedly, something heâs always done when heâs nervous. When he speaks again, he chooses his next words carefully. âLots of things, I guess. Itâs just wild that⌠well, you know how long Iâve watched your videos. I donât know if Iâve ever had a best friend. Not until now. Not until you.â A blush rises in Danâs cheeks then, but he means every word.
âDan. I mean, I had kind of picked some of that up, but are you sure?â Philâs voice is just as soft as Danâs, almost reverent. And yet some nasty part of Danâs brain expects to see those blue eyes darken when he whispers âWell, yeahâ in response. Surely this was too much. Surely Dan was too much for Phil, like he was for everyone. Surely Phil was about toâŚ
Melt into the purest smile Danâs ever seen from him? âOh my God, I--I feel the exact same way.â Dan is shocked to find Philâs next words tinged with relief. âI think you know how I always had the same group of friends through school, right?â Dan nods. âWell, theyâre all great, but I⌠never felt as close to any of them as I do with you. I never felt like they got me, you know? And then you come along in my Twitter replies and suddenly youâre the only person I ever want to talk to. And somehow, you want to talk to me too? I feel like Iâve won the lottery here.â
Dan wants to take those words and lock them up in a box that only he can touch. Never in his eighteen years did he ever think heâd hear something like this. Heâd barely even let himself hope for it. His heart squeezes to a point where he knows he wonât forget this moment, not as long as he has Phil. Itâs a perfect moment he so deeply wants to live in forever.
So is it any wonder his voice catches and tears prick his eyes when he finally finds the strength to speak? âReally? God, I had no idea. And here I thought you had this perfect amazing life, all because your parents clearly lo--clearly care about you so much and youâve had the same group of friends pretty much forever. I donât know what thatâs like.â
Dan canât say why he freezes up at the word love just then. Heâs just discussing Philâs relationship with his parents, not declaring his love for Phil. Right?
Wait, does he love Phil? The rapid pace of his heart and the smile fighting to break through his face tell him yes, yes, a thousand times yes but he canât say that here. Not on Skype. Not when thereâs 300 kilometres separating him from Philâs arms. He just has to keep his heart locked tight until their week together.
Of course Philâs response makes that impossibly difficult. âDan. Fuck, you donât know how much I wish you knew how that feels.â The ache in his voice combined with his anxious fringe tugging has Dan squeezing his bear with everything he has in him just to expel some of his overwhelming feelings.Â
âAnd sure, my parents are great and all, but I feel like they donât get me. My mum still thinks the movies and things Iâve done are just a fun little hobby that canât lead to anything. She doesnât understand why Iâm travelling to Ireland every other weekend, and my dad keeps telling me about these boring jobs I donât want. I wanna see what else I can do with this YouTube thing, but it might not lead to anything. And then I donât know what Iâm going to do.â
By now, the tears have broken free and are streaming down Danâs face. He doesnât know exactly why, but he has a feeling they have something to do with the fear trapped in Philâs eyes.
And yet, theyâre not only sad tears. Sure, Danâs heart is breaking just a bit for the boy on his screen, but itâs also light and airy for the first time since he was a tiny child. Thatâs when it hits him.
This light, airy, snuggly feeling-- itâs safety . Here in this tiny bubble with Phil, Dan feels safe. Itâs unfamiliar, sure, but itâs not scary. Heâll be okay, as long as he has Phil.
Itâs this thought that he holds tightly onto over the next few years. Even when the walls are closing in on him and Dan can barely breathe, Phil is always there--in his phone, across Manchester, and soon across the hall.Â
Even when heâs sure he canât feel any worse, heâll be okay one day. Because he has Phil. And in the moments Philâs heart shatters hard enough for the both of them, Dan is right there with cuddles and sweets and whispered words of comfort, whatever Phil needs in that moment. Because theyâre Dan and Phil. And whatever they go through, theyâll go through it together.
If only eighteen-year-old Dan could see how well things would turn out. Yet as Dan thinks back on this moment fifteen years later, he thinks some part of him did know in a strange way. So much has changed, yet Dan is still that bright-eyed little boy with a dream at his core. And he still has Phil by his side.
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đđ˛đ§đ¨đŠđŹđ˘đŹ: Not only are you drunk on a Friday night, but youâre a drunk, closeted succubus who is, unfortunately, under the care of the hot neighbor under your roof! Would you ruin the mood if he found out about your little secret? You donât even wanna know!
đđ¨đ§đđđ§đđŹ: Toji x afab/fem! succubus reader - explicit content; minors DNI - modern au! reader + Toji are neighbors - age difference; reader is in late-20s + Toji is mid/late 40s - crushing/mutual pining - drug/alcohol usage - fingering (f! receiving) - oral (f! + m! receiving) - clitoral play (swiping) - Daddy kink - sqÇitĂŻng - anal play (m! receiving) - 69 + backshots + spooning + cowgirl positions - unprotected sex (psa: wrap it up, or get tf up) - creampies - praise kink - pet names (baby, doll, dollface, good girl, mama, princess, sweetie) - implied marathon sex - mention of drool/spit, tears, and cum - not proofread; will do l8r.
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đđŽđđĄđ¨đŤ'đŹ đđ¨đđđŹ: pulled this story out of my ass; I literally spent a whole single DAY dedicating to writing it. please enjoy, and tysm for 11.9k loveliesss â love and appreciate u all !!
ââŚshit.â
Thereâs no way.
âShit, shit, shit, shitââ
Of all days for this to happen.
âOh, my fucking God, not tonight!!â
Tonight was already an eventful night, with the full moon shining brighter than the stars. Life has put you so fast in a whirlwind that you canât recall the last time you permitted your body to unwind. Can you blame yourself, though? From moving to a new neighborhood and scoring a new job, things have kept you undeniably busy for the past few months. And not too mention, itâs your fault for being a bit of a hermit and lacking a drive for social interaction.Â
Thatâs precisely why your old college besties â Shoko, Utahime, and Yuki â pulled you out of your hideyhole and encouraged you to join them this Friday night to have some fun! âCâmo~n, lighten up! No more thinking about work or whatever; have some fun!â âYeah, yâknow youâre my biggest drinking buddy. Now, hurry up and share this cocktail with me!â The ladies pressure you to relax and enjoy the start of the weekend with some good drinks and delicious food. And, you hate to admit, it worked like a charm â the longer the hours went, the more you felt free as if all the weight holding you down had been lifted.
The only problem is, like all good things, that it had to end and that you had to go home. Now check this out: 1) you left your car at home because, again, you were rigorously dragged out of your abode by your college companions. 2) You were all pretty much drunk, enough for neither one of you to drive on the road. And 3) you guys are in the city, and catching a lift is not only a gamble but SUPER expensive! Guess thatâs what you get for choosing a Friday night to free-ball.
However, when hope was lost, and you wouldnât be in the comfort of your bed tonight, you received a text on your phone, and you could practically hear the angels sing in the heavens above!
Recent Message from: Neighbor Fushiguro
Yo. You home? Iâm out in the city picking up stuff for the house. Need anything?
Thank God for neighbors, am I right? The chances of someone you know being within the same vicinity of you may be low, but never zero! Did you feel bad that you texted back saying you needed a ride back to your house? Sure. Did you feel extra bad when you asked a huge favor for him to drop your friends off at the nearest hotel? âŚYeah.Â
But luckily, he didnât seem to mind. The only thing you had to endure was him teasing you about your little outing (with the help of your friends in the back of his truck) and your tipsy persona. âNever took you frâ one who drinks.â He scoffs while putting you down on your couch after slinging you over his shoulder because you complained about your feet hurting. Damn heels! âNeither one who gets drunk.â
âIt wasnât my fauuu~lt,â you whine with a significant stretch while your neighbor roams around. âMy fwiends, they forced me toâhicâto do itâŚâ
âMm, do your âfwiendsâ always push you over to do things?â He shouts from the kitchen; you can hear cabinets opening and closing.Â
âWhen youâre the youngest of the group, they do.â
âWell, maybe I gotta get to know âem so they can push you into goinâ out more. And maybe you can quit avoidinâ me when I invite you over.â
âI donât try to avoid you!â You sprout defensively. âAnd quit teasing me, Toji! Youâre supposedâta be on my side; Iâm the victim here.â
âYeah, yeah, whatever ya say.â Heavy footsteps draw nearer to where you are, and your heavy eyelids open to see a hand stretching towards you with a glass of water. âIâm here takinâ care of ya now, arenât I, lilâ victim?â
A smile pulls your lips as you take the glass. âThank you,â you express before a sip, and your neighbor lifts your feet to sit on the cushion beside you.Â
âYâre welcome,â he places your legs on his lap, grabbing the remote to turn on the television.Â
You havenât been in this neighborhood long enough to say you have friends. Donât get it wrong; everyone you contacted has been lovely and friendly, and some have opted to help with your move! But aside from the casual greetings in the morning or the nods of acknowledgment, you barely know people who scratch the surface of acquaintanceship. Not to mention, itâs your fault for being a bit of a hermit.Â
âŚBut, there is one neighbor you could say youâre pretty close with. Someone nice. Someone dependableâŚSomeone attractive that youâre on a mission not to stare too much.
Toji Fushiguro lives two houses down from you across the street. Remember I mentioned you had people assist with your move? This widowed, middle-aged man was one of the nice handymen who aided you and your friends with your boxes and heavy furniture. You remember it like yesterday, seeing this brawny man stroll up your driveway on the sunniest day of June. You nearly mistook him for an Olympic athlete.Â
âSo, yâre the one movinâ âround here?â The calm baritone of his voice was unforced. âNice to know thereâs a cute face on the newbie. Need any help?â Itâs how he asked â so sultry and alluring you almost spaced out before nodding absentmindedly to his request for aid, hoping he didnât notice you watch how the scar of his lip moved as he spoke. âWelcome to the neighbârhood, kid.â Rarely do you have butterflies running amok in the pits of your guts, but they were challenging to deal with that day.Â
And it doesnât get any better from that day forward. No matter how hard you wished not to run into this immediate crush of yours, he would somehow wheedle his way into your path. It started slow, exchanging hellos or good mornings whenever he left for work or you took the garbage out. Then came the âWant me to do yâr lawn frâ ya?â or the âHouse down the streetâs havinâ a little barbecue, wanna get to know people?â You thought moving away from the busy city life would die things down. However, Toji making your head race every chance he gets wasnât a move you could envisage. Think about how you felt the day he asked for your number to keep in contact âfrâ emergenciesâŚor if ya need anythinâ, shoot me a call,â how your heart jumped to your throat! Oh, the girls never stopped teasing you when you toldâŚ
Nonetheless, you canât deny how much help heâs been. Well, outside of that, just being a great neighbor all around. Besides being an absolute succor, heâs an outlet you can come to for anything. Whether for the house, the community, or just personal conversations, Tojiâs someone you can admitlingly say youâd depend on. With trust built from day one, sharing pieces of yourselves to break down barriers, itâs safe to say that he is undoubtedly a friend who made your decision to move a worthy risk.
âŚYet, whatâs even more risky is being alone with him, something you do everything you can to avoid. Why? Look at him! Would you trust yourself to be anywhere with this man alone? Of course not! This is why tonight is the riskiest night youâve ever bestowed upon your drunk self.
âYou got somthinâ to say?â
âHuh?â You perk to reality, anxiousness filling you once you realize you had been staring at the man. âN-No, Iâm sorry.â
He stifles a snort, grabbing your feet to massage them from the pain. âOh, wanna act quiet. You were all bubbly in the passenger seat with yâre friends. Now yâre all shy because yâre stuck with me, huh?â
âT-Thatâs not true!â A lie; he was right on the mark. Your heart has been beating nonstop once he sat next to you. âItâs just thatâŚIâm sorry for making you drive and pick me and the girls up.â
âNah, donât apologize,â his focus is on your feet as he kneads and rubs the sole of your foot. âTold ya I was around the area doing some shoppinâ, so pickinâ ya up on my way back was easy.â
You take another sip of your water. âShopping?âÂ
âMm, my kids are down here for the weekend, so I had to go out frâ a bit and grab shit frâ my daughter.â Ah, yes, Toji is a father; you remember him telling you about his two children in college, a junior and a sophomore. âTheyâre at the house right now; saw âem after I dropped stuff at the house before bringinâ ya home.âÂ
You hum. âSorry for stealinâ you from them for a bit.â
He shakes his head with a humorless laugh. âPlease, they probably donât even know Iâm gone. Theyâre big kids. Plus,â your breath hitches when emerald eyes trail to you. âNow I get to finally have you all to myself, no curvinâ me and whatever this time.âÂ
âIâm not tryinâ to curveâŚâ
âYeah, yeah.â He goes back to massaging your feet.
ââŚThanks again, Toji. I really appreciate it.â
âNo problem, sweetheart.â Your abdomen flexes at the use of the nickname. âYou know I always got youâŚSay, did you hit yâr head somewhere?â
You blink, eyebrows furrow. âNo? Why?â
He points to his temple. âBecause I see like a lump right here.â
You mirror his movements, your hand touching the spot heâs pointing. And your fingertips meet with a lump on a location that sparks too much familiarity. You gasp aloud and cover the lump with your hand, the other covering your other temple.Â
Oh, no.
Black eyebrows knit together. âYou okay?â
Play it cool! âY-Yeah, yeah, Iâm fine! Youâre right; I probably hit my head somewhere while out.â You take this time to remove your legs off the comfort of Tojiâs lap and stand up from the couch. âIâll put something on it to stop the swelling.â You can also sense something aching down your lower back at that moment. Oh, hell no!!
âYa sure? Need me frâ anyââÂ
BZZZZ!! BZZZZ!!
Tojiâs cut off from the vibration of his phone in his jeans, pulling the device out to see that someone called âMegumiâ was calling. Good, a distraction!
âNâNo, no, Iâm good from here.â You say through gritted teeth, the alcohol taking effect and making your stance a little buzzy to uphold. âJ-Just stay here, Iâll be back!â You donât even wait for his approval, turning on your heel and heading out of the living room to the stairs. Your body feels wobbly with every step you take, but you donât pay it any mind because you can feel the lumps beneath your palms increasing. âGod, please, not now, not todayâŚ!â
You march as fast as you can to your bedroom, nearly stumbling on the floor as you haul ass to your bathroom door. You do a terrible job watching your footing fall after rushing to turn the lights on, and stuff from the counter falls because of the impact. But you didnât care, shuffling up so you could look at the mirror. And the sight you see fills you with immediate dread.
Horns are the first thing you see from either side of your head; the tips curl as if to form a crown but point to the ceiling. Your eyes are no longer human-like, pupils shaped like slits as if morphing into a reptile. And your ears get horizontally pointier. ââŚshit.â
You then lift your skirt and tear a hole in your pantyhose above the hem of your panties, and your fear quadruples at the sight of something long and slithery protruding out of the hole. A long tail with a pointy end; you lose your mind. âShit, shit, shit, shitââ
Itâs then you realize why this is happening: you had forgotten to take your daily supplements that are meant to subjugate these features of yourself. Youâve been taking them for the longest time before you moved into this neighborhood, so youâre used to your typical human facade. Now, seeing these parts of yourselves is the very LAST thing you need right now!Â
And then something hits you, an unsettling feeling that youâre too scared to confirm. Your eyes travel down to your shirt, your hands hesitantly pulling the bottom tucked into your skirt and lifting to reveal your navel. You then tug the top of your skirt to expose a spot youâre honed in on the mirror. And the urge to scream grows tenfold once you see a black marking on the lower part of your belly.Â
A womb tattoo!?!?Â
âOh, my fucking God, not tonight!!â
âYO, HEY!â And just when it couldnât get worse, you hear Toji coming up the stairs and beelining for your open bedroom door. Wait, noâ âI heard screaminâ and a big âboom,â you alright? Where are yââ
Your neighbor stops dead in his tracks once he appears in front of the bathroom opening; his concerned expression shifts to an immediate neutral deadpan. He stares at you, and you stare back at him, the silence so thick you could cut it with a knife. A ring fills your eardrums, dissociating from this entire scene and all its complications.
You want to cry. Maybe scream, throw up, or just straight up die on the spot.Â
Because this wasnât the night for someone to find out youâre a succubus.
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â âââ
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ââŚSo, what are you?âÂ
Not even concealing your face in your pillow can hide you from the eventual questions of Toji, who sits idly on the corner of your bed. You cringe internally, never thinking this dilemma would befall you. The point of moving was to turn a new page in your life and leave the past behind with the city. Now, you are shriveling on top of your bed like a moody teenager, and your neighborhood crush is here to witness your depression.
ââŚWhat happened to your phone call?â
âIt was my kid. I told him to lock the door since Iâll be out a little longer. Donât try and deflect,â his blunt answer has you descend further to your inner turmoil. âHow come I never seen these horns before?â
You sigh heavily; thereâs no point in trying to divert now. ââŚI take supplements that hinder any features of my succubus appearance so I can look like an average human for the rest of the day.â
âDaily?â He sees you nod through his peripheral. âSuccubusâŚthe hellâs that?â
âBasically, Iâm a demon thatâŚthatâŚâ Yeah, no, letâs not finish that. âNever mind.â
âBullshit. Tell me.âÂ
âD-Donât worry about it, itâs notââ
âLook here,â he speaks to you with a stern tone, a hand coming to your waist to shove you a bit. âI went ahead and picked yâre drunk butt up, made sure ya donât puke up a storm, and now yâre here looking way different from before. The least you could do is explain.â
God, to be lectured by a human â totally humiliatingâŚ! ââŚIâm a demon that gets energy fromâŚseââŚ.sexu, uhhâŚâŚâŚ..sexualactivitywithhumanbeings.â
The silence that trails after your ramble is beyond awkward.Â
âOh.â
âŚ
âOh.â
God, just kill me right now!
The older man forces a cough. âSo, youâŚhave sex every day?â You can practically sense the tiny hint of discomfort from prompting that question.
âW-Well, I used to when I was younger. But I havenât reallyâŚdone it in a couple of years.â Jesus Christ, why is it so embarrassing to admit to someone other than yourself? This is the literal worst!Â
âIs that bad?â
âItâs, uhhâŚIt can be?âÂ
âSo, why havenât you done it?â
âBecauseâŚ!â You snap your face out of your pillow and finally allow yourself to breathe correctly. âI justâŚI donât have time like I used to anymore, and using my powers to make people forget afterward can get tiring. Also, the more times I do it, the more my drive gets intense from the last. The desire of a succubus can be dangerous, you know? And since itâs been a while since Iâve let my powers out, Iâm sure itâs nastier than everâŚâ
ââŚWell,â Toji turns to face you. âHave you ever had the urge recently?â
âI-â Woah. That question came out of nowhere, almost answering it without proper consideration. âWhâWhat do you mean by thatâŚâ
He shrugs. âLikeâyou know what I meanâlike, even though you try to suppress it, do you still have those urges to doâŚya know, it?â
Things get a little uncomfortable here; now you wish you kept your face in that pillow. Tojoâs gaze on you is distinguished â gentle yet stern, matching his demeanor. He's calm and calculating and is waiting for your response to his strangely personal question.Â
âIâŚI, I donât know.â It was another lie.
âWhyâre you lyinâ?â
âIâm notâŚ!â Toji clicked his teeth with a face.
âFine, answer me this then. Have ya ever thought of doinâ it since ya moved here?âÂ
Yup, this question was far worse than the other. His words echo inside your noggin, bewildered with every syllable relaying. And the widowed man lifts his brow from the lack of an instantaneous answer. You open your mouth, but words fail to aid you, your tail shying away behind your shadow. âI-IâŚI donâtââ
âEver thought of me?â
âToji!â You shout defensively. Sure, it mightâve been out of line to ask. However, itâs the fact that heâs breaking your exterior with every question â because of how on-the-mark he is. You could never prepare yourself for that inquiry, the heat on your face growing more unbearable. How could he know of the frenzy he puts you through just for existing?Â
âIâm not dumb.â You peep Toji, turning his torso and facing his entire front in your direction. âYou think I donât notice how often you try to push me off when I invite ya over or know when yâre lookinâ at me when you think Iâm not awareâ?â He dents the bed with his added weight, and you forget to breathe, watching him inch closer. âOr act all shy and cute when I got you to myself?âÂ
You gulp, your brain short-circuiting at the feeling of Tojiâs palm on your thigh. There have been countless nights where youâve thought of your neighbor more than once, indulging in fantasies you could never speak of to a soul, especially Toji himself. To let the man know of the dirty things youâd want him to say to you, the names you wish him to call you, the erotic things youâd like him to do to you â death is the only option necessary not to let that happen. Unfortunately, he seems to have a good idea now that heâs cornered you like this, and youâre too stunned to utter a word.
âItâs okay, though,â he whispers low now that heâs close to your face, and you have to hold back on letting out a yelp when his hand comes to hold your face, his index finger toying with your sensitive earlobe. ââCuz I love it when yâre all timid, canât even look me in the faceâŚLike now.â
You try to avert away from him, but his thumb brings your chin back to him. âToji, please,â his name feels forbidden to say all of a sudden.Â
âTell me âno��.â His nose brushes the tip of yours, and you chew your lip. âIâll stop right now and leave, let you deal with this yâreselfâŚOr,â he ghosts to your ear, and you quiver. âIâll stay with you and treat you to what yâve been scared to ask frâ.â
âToji, wait,â Fuck, you canât remember the last time you had your ears so keen, his breath brushing it enough to compel you to meltdown.
âSay âno,â princess.â Youâre locked under his forest-green orbs, and you swear you could hear your heart hammering your chest. âOr Iâll treat you right tonight.â
Perplexed eyes canât move anywhere else, and your lips are wet from licking them without knowing. Is this really happeningâŚ? An inquisition you had no time to answer for yourself once Toji closes the gap, centimeters nearer with every millisecond.
IâŚcanâtâŚ
His face draws near, and your eyes reflex to close.Â
I donâtâŚwant toâŚ
Toji pulls you in for a gentle kiss; your thoughts radio silent after the contact of his scarred lips on yours. No shot. Your neighbor was kissing you right now â thereâs no way!? This had to be a dreamâŚ! This is truly a wild night: not only are you tipsy to the noggin, but your neighborhood crush has found out your secret, and now youâre kissing that exact crush in your room?? Your muscles go tense at what is occurring.Â
He peppers your lips with kisses, forced to catch up with him as he claims your lips, a palm snaking to the back of your head to keep you steady. He licks your bottom lip, chewing gently to prompt the softest gasps out of your mouth. âCâmon, baby,â he coos to your sensitive ears. âRelax witâ me.â You nearly melt at the lick of your helix as his free hand courses from your chest to your waist. The brush of his fingers onto your tail makes you jolt.Â
âToji, wait,â you mutter under your breath as he nibbles on your pointy ear, your hands gripping the back of his black wife beater. âD-Donât; Iâm so sensiâNmmmâŚ!â Jesus, the moan you held back! Toji trails his mouth to your chin down to your neck to suck on your skin. And your lower half throbs harder. âAhhhâŚhahhhâŚâ
He returns his lips to yours; this time, his tongue runs on your teeth vigorously to seek entry. You submit after a chew to your bottom lip, whimpering as the older man inserts his wet muscle to greet yours. Surreal, isnât it, to be tongued down by your neighbor? You donât know whether itâs the alcohol, the twitches between your inner thighs, or the flick of his tongue and the sound of his purrs that have your face getting hotter.Â
And fuuuuuuck, heâs such a good kisser â scratch that, heâs an AMAZING kisser! Youâre practically turning into putty in the palm of his hands as he lips you, tilting his head to a proper position with a soft push to your face as he deepens the kiss. He sucks on your tongue, and you mewl, helplessly quivering when he teases the muscle with nibbles. Your waist has a mind of its own while it sways involuntarily, rocking as you sink into the zealous kiss. Heâs not overpowering you in any way; if anything, heâs so overwhelmingly comforting, his hand caressing your cheek tenderly, and soft noises of lips smacking and breaking apart bounce one after the other.
Then, you shrill unexpectedly. ââŚ!! Mmahhh! T-Tojiii, d-donâtâdonât touchâŚHaahhhâŚâ
âOh? Well, lookie here.â Your ears perk at Tojiâs chuckle. Unbeknownst to you, distracted by the intense kiss, your neighbor sneaks his hand under your skirt and touches your private zone shielded by your pantyhose, fingers pressing up on your vulva area. âAll we did is kiss, and ya already got your panties wet?â
Embarrassed? Of course, itâs been so long since you were touched like this and out of practice. Now, your repressed emotions start to crumble out of their straightened form the more Tojiâs middle finger rubs on your panties. And letâs not even mention your thighs motioning to ride on the digit, your dignity starting to disintegrate. âOhhh, TojiâŚâ
âMmm? What is it, sweetie?â He nuzzles to your neck after licking and sucking on your chin. âFeelinâ good down there?â He curls his middle and forefinger to push. âGot ya all excited?â He receives a confirmed hum. âTell me how yâre feelinâ.â
You gulped thickly, your breathing shaking. âI-Iâm feelingâshitâŚâ he laughs lowly at your swearing. âNnnm! Youâre making me feelâŚso hot.â
âI can tell, youâre twitchinâ like crazy right on my fingertips.â His fingers move into a circular motion, and your mouth goes agape. âFuck, manâŚHey, hold on, I wanna do somethinâ.â
Toji removes his fingers from under your skirt before you can tell, the heat between your legs going tepid as he withdraws from your figure to lay his back on the bed. But before that, he unzips and loosens his jeans to his butt. A noticeable tent of his boxer briefs has your lips locked to each other, and your eyes widen when he subtracts the material. Just when you thought this night couldnât get any more crazier, you are awake to witness the display of Tojiâs erection in real-time.Â
How long has it been since youâve seen a real-life, living, and breathing dick before your eyes? You honestly canât recall that; the responsibilities of human life have made you grow numb to your demon necessities that it no longer feels innate. However, the sight of your crushâs solid, girthy, excited cock is marveling. How your mouth waters as you ogle at it is borderline humiliating, eyes glued to the uncut tip.
âLike what ya see?â He asks smugly, kicking his jeans and briefs off and slapping his thigh. âCâmere, mama.â Oh, fuck, the quirk of your insides was unavoidable at his comment, primarily as he guides you closer to him. âLetâs warm up.â You yelp as he effortlessly moves your legs to where you straddle him. He pushes your skirt up to your waist, and you can hear the tear from your pantyhose. His thumb comes to slide your panties to the side, and he whistles. âDamn, lookinâ all pretty and wet frâ me.âÂ
Itâs either the fact that Tojâs dick is inches in front of your face or your bare pussy out in the air in front of him; either one of the two has your mind going in a whirlwind. And it all comes to a standstill the moment you sense something wet and firm glide across your labia, and it takes everything in you not to tremble. âMmm, oh, fuck,â he groans after licking your cunt, throwing in another lazy one to have you holler. âItâs been so longâŚShit.âTojiâs hands curl from your legs to cup your asscheeks, keeping your butt near him to lap his tongue around your chasm. You whine as he licks you down, your teeth clattering at the sensation.Â
Oh, my God, your head begins to ache. It feels so good, your body finally coming back to the groove of things as you move your butt around. The man under you quickly latches his mouth onto you, a firm grip on your ass to keep you in place for him to service you. Speaking of service, your eyes flick to the erect limb before you, your mouth salivating with the run of your tongue across your teeth. Fuck, it looks so good; you admire internally before inching your face close to the length, your head getting dizzier from the sheer size and musk. DamnitâŚI wanna taste him so badâŚ!!
âGo on, dollface,â Toji gives your butt a playful smack. âI know ya need this bad.âÂ
God, heâs so right â you need this; thereâs no point in denying anymore. You blow on it before placing a tender kiss, noticing how it pulsates as your hand wrings around the shaft. You lick your lips before pecking at the uncircumcised tip, and Tojiâs hold on you goes tighter. Heâs sensitive, you note. Adorable. You stick your tongue out to swirl around the cockhead, bathing it with your saliva before you inhale it with a delighted hum, gradually warming up your loosened jaw.
Fuck, the taste of a cock â something that felt nostalgic the moment he graced your tastebuds. Your eyes water a bit, trembles rocking your figure as Toji sucks on your wetness, and every inch you intake fuels the haze that fogs your brain. You stroke and suck him simultaneously, a forgotten method that rekindles now in this moment. You coat him with your spit the more you relax your jaw, slurping him unapologetically as if a different part of yourself takes over.Â
On the other hand, Toji feels the same way. Itâs been way too long for the widowed man since the last time he has been intimate with someone, let alone have a bare ass right in front of him. Itâs no secret that heâs had the hots for you once you moved here, but having you on top of him like this is like something out of his wet dreams. The way you murmur cutely as you suck his dick turns him on so bad, a guilty pleasure come true as he drinks your nectar off your damp naked folds. His tongue teases around the entrance of your vagina before pushing it in, fucking your opening with his wet muscle. You cry on his girth, your tail cringing in the air from the stimulation. He spots it and grabs it from the base; how your lower half jolts to the grasp is humorously darling to him. So cute.
The minutes go longer as you two keep pleasing each other, and a soft whimper escapes your lips when you release Toji from your lips, lips plastering long and sweet kisses on his shaft as you massage the tip. Your other hand palms and kneads his ballsack, the jerk of his thighs rewarding to see, so you increase the pace of your hand.
ââThhh, nmm!â Toji curses from behind, sluggishly licking from clit to your slit while succumbing to your touch and mouth. âShiiit, just like that, baby, suck me off like tâMmngh! Christ, Iâm gonna..fffuckinâ cumâŚâ
But then, you remove yourself from Tojiâs member, the cold air instantly blanketing him. Green eyes blink as you move off of his lying body, observing you bending over with your face to the cold sheets.
âToji,â you plea to him desperately, hooded eyes shining eagerly. âPlease, I need itâŚHere,â you spread your ass, fully exposing your slit wet from your fluids mixed with his saliva. Jesus, you were heathing as if you were in heat. âDo it here, I need it insideâŚ!â
You had the man shook; the cogs in his mind stopped working briefly. The picture of you presenting yourself like this to him was unexpected, but goddamn, did it turn him on astronomically! Toji stands on his knees and advances to you, removing his tank top and discarding it to the floor. âYeah? You want it that bad?â You nod impetuously. âWords, sweetie. Need you to tell me what to do.â
âToji, pleeeaseâŚ!â You wiggle your ass until he cusps it, kneading your flesh lovingly to the point that your tail curls around his forearm. âPlease, put it in, I wanna feel itâŚ!â
âYeah, is that what my princess wants?â You and Toji bite your lips when he aligns his tip to your inner labia, teasing you with grinding motions. âDoes my demon baby want Daddy to mess yâr insides that bad?â
Oh, weâre playing that card, too? Holy shit, you were getting so wet from this! âYess, Daddy, pleasee! Mess me up with that dick, wanna be filled up right noowwâŚ!â
He canât hide the proud grin. âGood girl. Here,â Toji begins to push the cockhead to you, and your lips flatten at the wince of pain that accompanies the push. âStay still, and lemme reward you,â his hips move slowly in your direction, you grip the sheets to prepare yourself, and your nerves are dialed to a plane of exhilaration you canât regulate. Oh my God, is this happening? Heâs gonna fuck me? So many thoughts cloud your mind, too excited and anxious for whatâs to come because itâs been so. Damm. Long. Howâs it gonna feel? Is your body ready enough? How does Toji feel about this; is he just as nervous as you aâ
Your train of thought is brought to an abrupt halt at the sensation of Tojiâs tip finally inserting itself into your vagina, too absentminded that your open mouth couldnât say a word. Oh, fuck itâs in, itâs in! Your eyes widen, your muscles tense, and your voice struggles to cry. The older man continues to add himself leisurely, the length sundering your slit and stretching your opening as you take him inch by inch. Your back arches instinctively, wailing silently as you can feel the foreign limb intruding your tightness, quick quirks of your frame as he rubs your velvety texture. Ohhhh, my GodâŚ!!
When he slowly starts to rut into you, recurring waves of rapture hit your nerves every. Single. Time! Youâre entire body is rocked to the core with every short yet gentle pound; the feeling of Tojiâs veiny cock scrapping your channel has you shivering. And once heâs encouraged to push his entire member until the very hilt, you yelp aloud when the tip kisses your womb. ââOooh??!â
ââMmngh!â Your quick spasm surprises Toji. âOhhh, shit, there it is. Hmm? Is this where ya want me, mama? Want me rightâŚhere?â He snaps his hips swiftly, the rushed movement and hit to your cervix knocks you winded. And another, you keep wringing his shaft acutely. âAhhn, God fucking damn iâIisshhffuck, fuck, I canât, gonnaâŚHnghh!â
Tojiâs body shudders above you, bucking into your warmth with a jittery pattern. The prolonged reaction of his orgasm claims him now, succumbing to the silky, tight texture and how well youâre grasping onto his girth. He comes inside you, moaning as he ejaculates earlier than expected. You sense it, humming to the immediate filling. So warm, so full of his cock already that your toes curl.Â
And Jesus Christ, it felt so. Fucking, Good! You were no longer drunk from the alcohol; now, you were intoxicated by the prowess and pleasure of Tojiâs dick.Â
âHah, haaaah, fuck,â he throws his head back with a hiss, his abdomen relaxing from the earlier flex. Then, your tail glides up from his abs, feeling up on his skin and roaming on his happy trail. He snickers at your feline-like comportment, âHeh, actinâ all cute now that you got what ya wanted, huh?â You say nothing, bashful to his words, while your tail curls up to his chin. âDonât go quiet on me now, dollface; I heard you squeaking and moaninâ seconds ago.â
Toji then returns to rut into you despite recovering from his climax, furled to have you shrieking uncontrollably for him. The smacks of his pelvis recoil the flesh of your ass, his come stuffed inside you now glued to his erection as he rocks into you balls-deep. âMmmm, yeah, thatâs right, baby,â he grabs your tail and wraps it around his hand to pull; you scream louder, and your vaginal walls clamp tighter than ever. âArch more frâ me, enjoy meânmmâŚ!âfuckinâ you real good.â
The pull of your tail makes your senses hypersensitive, perturbed by the stress of it being pulled, yet the enjoyment you feel from it is too inexorable to comprehend. Coherent sentences double down to undecipherable babbles, ââDaahh, hoohhfuucâD-Daddyyy, DaddyyyâŚ!!â Tears well up in your eyes as he inflicts blows to your ass, the pain too quick to prepare for yet the sting enough to make you rigid. ââToo much, ish tâoo muuuchâŚ!â
Another smack to your butt, and you howl once again. âHuh, ya say that, but yâre milkinâ my cock like crazy.â He bends down to remove your hands that try to hide your face and horns with the pillow. âWhat, ya donât like this? Hmm? Want me to stop?âÂ
âNo, nooo!!â You shook your head immediately; your vision blurred for a few seconds. âI loveee iit, I love this, love Daddyâs diickâAhaaa!! MoreâŚI want moreee!â Fuck, this is bad; any more than this, and youâll be addicted for sure.
âGood,â he whispers to your ears. Good Lord, you werenât going to survive. âBecause I ainât done witâ ya yet, princess.â
Before you can register his sentence fully, Toji straightens and lays on his side behind you, lifting your leg to create a suitable angle. He then plunges into you harder and faster, the different positions helping the sporadic cadence achieve deeper penetration while scraping your upper wall with ease. At this point, your body is too hot and sticky to care about anything else outside this room; your head pounding and too misty, your senses corrupted by the constant pokes to your cervix and the increasing haze that you donât feel human anymore. Your succubus roots flourish, drool escapes your lips, and wanting nothing but this feeling to remain ceaseless.
âGahh, ohhhDaddyyy, ahhahh,â eyes roll to your skull at the brush of your sweet spots. âShhoo good, I fweel shoo goooodâŚ! Harder, hardeeerr!âÂ
ââKhhck, goinâ as hard as I fuckinâ can!!â Toji kisses your cheek after a lick, chewing on it after hearing you mewl submissively. âJesus, this pussy, out of this fuckinââNnnghâŚworld.â
You turn to him and claim his lips, and he reciprocates into your steamy kiss. Vulgar tongues exchange spit and encroach on each otherâs mouth, and you helplessly suck on Tojiâs after he shoves it, your puffy lips intaking the attractive noises he makes. And you slither a hand down to your clitoris to swipe erratically while your tail goes around Tojiâs waist and curves into the crevice of his ass. Suddenly, Toji stiffens at the pointy end of your tail, tickling his anus, and the raven-haired man gasps at the insertion. Too stunned to speak, he can only move his hips rapidly, his white-ringed shaft digging deep into you with the help of stimulating his prostate.Â
ââTaahhh, y-you, lilâ minxâŚ!â He breaks the kiss and bites your lip to hear you whimper. âTryinâ ta make me cum again?â
You nod, breathing heavily. âOhhh, Daddy, Iâm so closeâŚ! Gonna come!â
âMe too, mama, me tooâŚâÂ
Hot moans and groans fly out of each otherâs mouths, bodies stuck to each other as you both chase for release. Everything feels so fast, so hot, happening all at once; all you can think about is the grinding presses you push up on your delicate clit. Fuck, fuck! Itâs coming, itâs comingâŚ!â
Then, it arrives. Your cunt, aching for the climax, receives the crescendo youâve been aching for this entire time. The walls of your vulva contract around Tojiâs member, milking and wringing him as you come loose to your grounding. A clear liquid exerts out of your urethra, showering out to stain your panties, torn pantyhose, and bedsheets, your breathing losing its steadiness and falling to a jagged tempo. The same goes for Toji, who falls into his peak along with you; your fluttering folds force him to submit and release his second load into you with a hiss. The older manâs heaving frame keeps bucking into you until every drop fills you to the brim, burrowing his face deep into your neck to rest as the shocks rock you both.
Finally, everything goes quiet. The cozy atmosphere pulls you out of your heightened elevation and lays you down with silent clarity. Both you and Toji, sweaty and sticky all over, are still linked to each other as the high dissipates. Shuddering figures begin to calm down and fall at ease with the tranquility.
Toji kisses your neck, and you croon until he comes to lay his lips on yours for a tender peck, then on your soft cheek and your temple. He then removes his flaccid bulge, white fluids oozing out of your hole. âDamn, that was good,â he mutters breathlessly. âHmm, how ya feelââ
The onyx-haired man couldnât finish his question because of the sudden change of positions you abruptly conducted. He now lays on his back with you straddling him; the calm tone switched to an unexpected spiking mood.Â
You then hand grab his dick and arrange it back to your raised hips. Viridian orbs widen. Wait. The tip meets your labia once more before you descend it down. What the fâhold onâ And then, his cock is swallowed back inside your wetness, and Toji grits his teeth.
 âSh-Shit, sweetie,â Tojiâs hands come to your waist. âWhatâs up, arenât yââ
âSorry, Toji,â the man surveys with confusion, watching you strip off and throw your shirt somewhere. Your naked chest is now out for him to see, and his breath hitches when you place your hands on his pectorals while a span of bat-like wings springs out from your back. ââŚThat wasnât enough.â
Wasnât enough?? He repeats with furrowed brows, noticing the half-lidded, lustful expression and the sharp dents of your canines. Then, it hits him:Â
âThe desire of a succubus can be dangerous, you know? And since itâs been a while since Iâve let my powers out, Iâm sure itâs nastier than everâŚâ
âŚOh, shit. âWait, we can talk aboutââ You get your answer once you bounce on his cock without notice, Toji nearly choking on his tongue. Nope, no room for prattling.
âYou let out so much, made my mind go so crazy,â you grind your hips on his pelvis, squeezing his limp cock while it gets firmer and firmer. âFeel so goodâŚMore, I want moreeeâŚâ
âC-Câmon now, baby, canât we take a break for a minute at leastââYou bring your face an inch away from his.
âDaddy,â your neighbor shudders at the gentle kiss you place under his chin. âPlease take care of me like you promised, âkay?â
Your gaze lured him in, a trap he was foolish enough to fall for. Because now, heâs stuck under your bow as you begin to inflict an inescapable rhythm, rebounding on his erection until the base meets your folds. Choked groans suppressed by Toji, but take his lips with yours, enforcing a loving yet salacious spell with your satisfied moans. Now, your crush realizes you werenât the meek, adorable neighbor he dotes on.Â
Tonight, he was yours to play like a fiddleâŚAnd shame on him for getting way more turned on than he should be!
Wow. Guess Iâm dyinâ tonight.
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I should be fuckinâ dead right now.
Toji knew something was up when his eyelids opened, and his emerald eyes scanned the ceiling, instantly recognizing that he wasnât in his master bedroom. The rays of sunshine are blocked from the curtains, yet the light of day crawls in and basks the room in a low glow. Chirps of birds outside greet him on the basking of a new autumn day, lying comfortably in the cold, silky sheets of the bed.
He wakes to a bit of a headache, mentally and physically groggy. Attempts to move are already tricky and aches all over his body keep him grounded in the mattress. Ugh, feel like Iâve lost all feelinâ in my legs; the man canât even lift one leg without a grimace. And even his arms are challenging, one so oddly heavy as if itâs nailed down.Â
âFuck, man.â His first words of the day are a curse, irritated by the drum of his head. He tries to lift himself; again, itâs not possible, agitating the man even more. And why the fuck is my arm so heaâ
He doesnât finish his sentence â the answer reveals itself once he turns his head to the left.Â
He sees you, surprised to view you in your natural form still. Horns have grown a little larger, yet still small enough for you to rest your cheek on his shoulder. You were sound asleep, faint snores picked up by his ears as he examined your face at ease with a peaceful slumber. Nude, the both of you, a hand wrapped around his left arm to stick close to you while the other is stationed at his chest, your bat wings shriveled together to not get damaged. And judging by the snake-ish feeling, your tail was curled around his bare thigh.Â
Strangely innocent to see after the events of last night flash into Tojiâs recollection, funny to match such a lewd scenario to such a sweet face. He stifles a laugh, placing his right hand on the vulnerable one on him, his thumb caressing your knuckles as he grasps your fingers. Suddenly, some of the soreness he harbors feels light â glad I ainât dead, I guess.
Your eyes jit behind your eyelids, a soft groan as you suddenly move and scrunch your face. Finally, your drowsy eyes sheepishly flicker open. Lidded gaze fighting the spell of sleep with every bat of your eyes.
âMorninâ, gorgeous.â Toji greets you.
ââŚâ
ââŚâ
In real-time, Toji watches your somnolent morph into a gradual display of mortification. Heâs a little envious to see you spring up with no strain on your body, wings batting out of their relaxed state, and your hand still with his. âT-Toji??â You question directly, eyes surveying the nude neighbor in your bed, doing everything in your power to ignore the fact that youâre naked as well. Speaking of, you notice the subtle pink glow of your womb tattoo, and anxiety spikes to a high. âIâuhhâIâm so so sorry for last night! Sorry you had to bring me back home, and I didnât mean to act weirdly on you withâOoof?!â
âRelax,â he cuts you off by pulling you back to his lying frame, his left hand now free to snake on your shoulder. âDonât talk so fast; my headâs poundinâ like crazy.â
You blink aimlessly, awkward now that youâre fully aware youâre in this manâs embrace. You canât help recalling what transpired last night, suddenly feeling squeamish. ââŚYou okay?â
âI feel like my lifeâs been drained by my dick,â he answers bluntly, adding more weight to your embarrassment. âWakinâ up to a pretty face who nearly killed me with their pussy isnât somethinâ Iâd expect.âÂ
ââŚâŚsorry.â
âItâs alright,â calloused fingers glide and intertwine with his yours, stroking your thumb with his. âHad a good time either way. Wild, but good.â
âReallyâŚ?âÂ
âReally.â You probably shouldnât have peered up to see him look your direction. Albeit exhausted, his handsome face and sleepy grin ignite the heat on your cheeks. And your stomach flips, hearing a laugh when you meekly avert your gaze away. âHow many times did we do it?â
ââŚNot sure,â long enough for my womb tattoo to be blatant.Â
âMe either. Does that happen often?â
âSometimes? I guess itâs because I havenât done it for a long time, so I wentâŚoff the rails because of the intensity.â
âNoted, because I never felt so old until now. I probably pulled somethinâ.â
ââŚ.Sorry.â
âYâre good,â Toji scoffs before moving to place a soft kiss on your forehead, and your heart skips the tighter his hand holds your hand. âTell ya what, I can help you with that cycle of yours, probablyâŚtwice a month, so it doesnât get too crazy like last night. And donât use yâre powers or some shit to make me forget, either. I donât wanâ that.â
You lift your face from his shoulder, the heat spreading to your ears. âYou donât have to do that, Toji, I wouldnâtââ
âNah, Iâm down; itâs what neighbors for. Besides, it finally gives me a reason to make ya interact with me more.â Again, his smug smirk causes knots in your stomach. âLike the sound of that, mama? Let Daddy take care of you?â
Your lips quiver, and you hide your face back onto his shoulder. The rumble of his laughter worsens the butterflies in your stomach, and your tail squeezes on his thigh. âDonât say it like that, Toji!â
âYâr tail seems to like it.â
âStop it!â
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Hi can u do a smau with max where reader is a doc for f1 and when max unfortunately has an accident she is one of the first responders(dont know what they are called!!!) And he just stares at her and its like love at first sight for him(he fell first and HARDER!!!!!) and everyone online could see it as well
Some teasing from other drivers as well
And proceed how u deem fit
Loved the sister in law one!!!!!!!
doctor lady | max verstappen
pairing: max verstappen x doctor!reader
summary: max never thought he would be happy getting a injury that puts him out of racing for three months, but when he has a doctor like you? he canât help but be a little happy.
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maxverstappen1: we are allllm good guys!!!!!!!!!!!!! we are aliveee wnd well babybyvy đ¤AND me and lanHOE (becuare he id a BOE) got a pretty doctory lady đĽ°đĽ°đĽ° sheâs sooooooooioiiooooo nice and prety AND she made us NOT feel pain so we love her đđđđđ
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user1: they got him on those GOOD painkillers
user2: weâve seen drunk max, but drugged max? a whole new level
landonorris: guy our lady doctor is soilioooooooooo prety đ
maxverstappen1: HEY NO đĄđĄ i alreadys called dibs!!!!!! sheâs MY prety doctor lady. she game ME her instagran and iâm takin HER on a date!
yourusername: if my supervisor is reading this, i gave him my instagram and agreed going on a date with him because he was being difficult, started crying, and wouldnât take his medication until i did.
maxverstappen1: HELLO MY BEAUTIFUL LOVE
user2: started crying??? max verstappen started crying???
user3: pain meds do that to you đ¤
user4: i need a video of that right now
user5: he is out of IT. i canât wait till he wakes up and realizes what heâs done
charles_leclerc: happy youâre okay mate!
maxverstappen1: oh charles i have missed you dearly đĽ°đĽ° so happy you got 1st!!!!!!!
charles_leclerc: thank you max â¤ď¸
maxverstappen1: i can wait for you to meet my future wife!!!!!!!! youâll love her! she saved me life â¤ď¸
charles_leclerc: someone please take his phone away
maxverstappen1: NOOOOO I JUST WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY FUTURE WIFR đĄ
user6: max, charles is just trying to save you from the embarrassment
user7: when he sobers up, he either wonât give a shit and continue OR heâll be so embarrassed and heâll never show his face again
yourusername: everyone, please donât pay mind to max, he is under very heavy drugs, and is not in a right state of mind. we have tried confiscating his phone, but he starts kicking and becomes difficult.
user8: i know this girl is scared for her job đ
user9: having max as a drugged out patient seems horrible
user10: literal nightmare material
maxverstappen1: MYYY LOVVER HELLO
user11: good lord #freeyn
danielricciardo: i would say, i hope you recover, but i have a feeling you donât want to recover?
maxverstappen1: I DONTTTT I NEVER EANT TO RECIVER BECAUSE THAT MEANS NOT SEEING MY BEAUTIFUL LADY DOCTOR SO NO!!! NO RECOVERY FOR ME
danielricciardo: screenshotting all of this for later đ¤Ł
landonorris: iâm hungry, maxie can you tell lady doctor iâm hungry?
yourusername: you can talk to me lando. iâll go get you something.
landonorris: NOOOO I CABR TALK TO THE LADY DOCTOR MAX SAID I CANT AND HE DAID IF I DID HESS GOING TO KILL ME AND I DONT WANT TO BE KILLED AHHHH
maxverstappen1: YOU FONT GET TO TALK TO MY PRETTY DOCTOR LADY IM GOING TO JILL YLY LANDO
user12: this is genuinely like the funniest shit ever đ
user13: canât believe in 10 years from now weâre going to look back at this and laugh
user14: 10 years?? bitch im LAUGHING RIGHT NOW
redbullracing; speedy recovery max! đ
maxverstappen1: NOOOO NO SPEEDY RECOVERY NO RECOVERY FOR MAX
user15: head injury so bad he lost his love for racing
user16: on a serious note, his injuryâs did seem pretty bad, especially his legâŚ
user17: honestly iâd be surprised if he returned to racing immediately
landonorris: maxie and me got separated :(((( đâšď¸đđ𼺠lady doctor is is MEAN
yourusername: you two were arguing and disturbing the other patients.
maxverstappen1: DONT CALL MY LADY DOTCIT MEAN!!!!
user18: went from being worried to laughing out loud because wtf is this??
user27; lando and max crashing was NOT on my 2024 bingo card
user28: f1 having a big crash was not on MY 2024 bingo card
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redbullracing: unfortunately, due to last weeks crash regarding lando norris and max verstappen. max has been forced to take a three month leave of absence from racing, as he has severely fractured his lower leg. he has immediately started physical therapy, letâs wish him a speedy recovery â¤ď¸âđŠš
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maxverstappen1: what a shame đ truly saddened by this outcome đ
user19: what??
landonorris: take a wild guess as to whoâs going to be his doctor for three months?
user20: PRETTY LADY DOCTOR???
maxverstappen1: maybe đĽ°
user21: weâve entered the era where max does not gaf about racing as long as he gets to see yn
user22: does this mean heâs not winning the wdc?
user23: he still can, he just has to win basically every race after the 3 months, which isnât exactly impossible for him
charles_leclerc; so sad for max!
user24: your ass does not feel sad for max đ
user25: he has his eyes on the wdc!!!
user26: HE ACTUALLY HAS A CHANCE TO WIN BOW
maxverstappen1: @/yourusername, ready to take care of me for 3 months :D
yourusername: no
maxverstappen1: đ
user27: HAHAHA
danielricciardo: LOSER
landonorris: HAHAH GET REJECTED
charles_leclerc: EMBARRASSING
oscarpiastri: that hurt to read
maxverstappen1: SHUT UP WHO ASKED YOU
user28: tbh i wouldnât be excited to have max as a patient for 3 whole months with how he acted that night in the emergency room
user29: that man is secretly crazy and you canât convince me otherwise
user30: i love how max is clearly like head over heels for yn, but she canât date him because heâs her patient đ
user31: she canât?
user30: NO!!! thatâs unethical, she can date him after the 3 months but not during
user32: that not being common knowledge to some people is concerningâŚ
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maxverstappen1: day one of physical therapy a success â
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landonorris: so, how many times did she reject you today?
maxverstappen1: ZERO.
yourusername: 10**
landonorris: TENN??????
maxverstappen1: i just donât understand why she wonât say yes đ
yourusername: because itâs severely unethical and will get me fired
maxverstappen1: so what iâm hearing is that youâll go out with me when iâm no longer your patient?
user33: let the countdown begin
charles_leclerc: missed you at the race today!
maxverstappen1: no you didnât
charles_leclerc: no i didnât! MAX IT FEELS SO GOOD TOO WIN
maxverstappen1: yeah i KNOW.
yourusername: donât worry charles, he was watching you during his whole therapy session, and cheered so loudly when you won that we got complains from patients on the other side of the building!
charles_leclerc: I KNEW IT!!!
maxverstappen1: you said you wouldnât tell anyone yn đ
user34: itâs soâŚunsettling seeing max be so publicly affectionate
user35: RIGHT?? like why is he so open about this??
user36: he has no shameâŚ
yourusername: i told you to stop taking pictures of me while iâm working
maxverstappen1: but you just look sooooo pretty
danielricciardo: she doesnât want you bro
maxverstappen1: SHUT UP
user37: sheâs stronger then me, because if i had max verstappen down bad like that?
user38: no literally, i wouldâve made him mine the same day we met
user39: why is max posting regular pictures?? itâs weird
user40: heâs trying to impress yn
user39: well heâs going about it all wrong. because these photos just donât match?? cat, hospital, and then a crappy photo of a therapy room?? horrible horrible HORRIBLE
user41: damnâŚ
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maxverstappen1: 2 months downâŚ1 more to go!
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user42: HE IS COUNTING DOWN
user43: WE KNEW IT!!!
landonorris: i canât belive you tricked me into going to a photo shoot for you
maxverstappen1: that is not what happened.
landonorris: you told me we were going golfing, next thing i know iâm watching you get your picture taken like 92884 times đ
maxverstappen1: just say your jealous
landonorris: OF WHAT???
user44: heâs getting better at being aesthetic
user45: heâs learning!!
user46: are we all going to skip past the fact that max, a hater of everything, had a whole as photo shoot for his instagram?????
maxverstappen1: yn told me i should post more photos of myself for the instagram
user47: so you had a whole photo shoot????
maxverstappen1: yes
user48: oh heâs in love
danielricciardo: looking good max đ
maxverstappen1; thank you for the support daniel!
landonorris: was that a dig to me?
maxverstappen1: yes.
landonorris: I WAS EXPECTING GOLF
yourusername: looking good max
maxverstappen1: really??? you really think so??
yourusername: yes (with the upmost professionalism)
maxverstappen1: đĽ°đĽ°đĽ°đĽ°đĽ°đĽ°
user49: why did max just add âyn thinks i look good đĽ°â to his bio
user50: LMAOO I THOUGHT YOU WERE JOKING???
user49: no đ he very literally put âyn thinks i look good đĽ°â in his bio
user51: why does it look like max is in the doctor training room?
maxverstappen1: because i am!!
user51: THEY LET YOU IN THERE????
yourusername: my boss is a huge f1 fan. so he lets max do whatever he wants đ
user51: iâm sorry thatâs so funny đ
user52: does max just follow her around all day??
yourusername: pretty much, yeah
user53: you have no idea how much i want to be you
charles_leclerc: wow max looking good
maxverstappen1: thank you charles
charles_leclerc: arenât you going to put âcharles thinks i look goodâ in your bio?
maxverstappen1: i donât care about you enough for that
user54: DAMN THATS COLD
user55: those cats are so cute đĽş
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maxverstappen1: guys i did!!!! i got a date with the pretty doctor lady đĽ°đĽ°
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user56: when he falls first and harder >>
user57; this man is literally obsessed with yn itâs insane
landonorris: beat me too it
landonorris: THIS IS A JOKE PLEASE DONT KILL ME
maxverstappen1: nothing funny. i didnât laugh. you arenât funny.
landonorris: đ
user58: WE CHEERED!!!
user59: i still think it would be funny if she just said no even after the 3 months
yourusername; i thought about it, but heâs rich and pretty so đ¤ˇââď¸
maxverstappen1: pretty :D
user60: sheâs so pretty
maxverstappen1: like iâve been SAYING.
user61: iâve never seen a man so down bad before
user62: itâs unnerving
user63: a doctor, pretty, and funny?? max hit the jackpot
user64: they both hit the jackpot đ it pisses me off
user65: LMAO WHY??
user64: seeing people live the life i want makes me unexplainably mad
danielricciardo: youâre joking right? sheâs not actually dating you?
maxverstappen1: whatâs that supposed to mean
danielricciardo: it means sheâs too good for you @/yourusername are you being held hostage
yourusername; yes
danielricciardo: OH I KNEW IT. DONT WORRY HELP IS ON THE WAY
maxverstappen1: you guys are mean.
yourusername: this means i can never be your doctor again
maxverstappen1: what if once day, on my way home i crash, and its a big crash with smoke and fire, and i get taken to the hospital but i refuse to let anyone touch me that isnât you, would you still not help me?
yourusername: thereâs just something so undiagnosed about you
user65: HAHAHA
user66: max is just so unexplainable
charles_leclerc: are my eyes deceiving me or did she finally say yes ďżźďżź
maxverstappen1: SHE SAID YES
charles_leclerc: OH YEAH OH YEAH I KNEW YOU COULD DO IT BUDDY
maxverstappen1: OH YEAH OH YEAH
user67: my lestappen heart đ
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first fall of snow
how spencer guesses you're pregnant before you actually tell him
fluff word count: 1390 warnings & tags & stuff: pregnant reader, slight issues with mother mentioned?, non-graphic vomiting, mentions/allusions to winter holidays being celebrated, kinda spencer's pov but still 2nd pov, reader is scared spencer will leave her lol, anxious!reader in general, mentions of death?, probably medical inaccuracies ive never been pregnant author's note: hiiii i'm forcing myself to post this because if i don't then i'll never post and i'm being BRAVE. i hope it can be a little comforting maybe. i've realllyyyy been struggling with my take on spencer's characterization lately soo this was kinda like a bootcamp/exercise situation into his mind and less an expression of my writing skills, iykwim. let me know your thoughts if u have any! i love you & have a splendid day!!
Spencer is walkingâspeed walkingâtoward his car, away from the case he just finished, away from serial killers and guns and geographical profiling and death.
He places his feet carefully on the snow-covered sidewalk with each step, the cold air biting at his face. He barely notices it, absorbed in the path ahead, as the snow provides a satisfying crunch underfootâa nice background to his perpetually racing mind.
He doesnât like the winter. Itâs always too harsh outdoors, and too stuffy indoors, and heâs trapped in a suffocating haze no matter where he goes.Â
His phone starts to vibrate gently in his pocket, interrupting his racing thoughts for a split second. His pace falters as he pulls it free, a quick smile tugging at the corner of his lips when he sees itâs your name on the screen.
âHi. How are you?â he asks after picking up, watching his breath come out in puffs of vapor in the cold air.
Winters, however, have gotten progressively better each year he spends with you.
â...Iâm okay,â you say, though the crack in your voice reveals the all-consuming ache in your bones and mind.
âNo. Youâre overwhelmed,â he guesses in his matter-of-fact way, voice gentle. You huff out a soft laugh at his ability to read you, never getting old.
âYeah, I guess. A little. The holiday season, you know. Are you on your way home?â you ask, voice softer now. Youâre sitting on the couch of yours and Spencerâs cozy apartment, wrestling with a blanket to cover your lap, and bouncing your leg relentlessly.
âIâm walking to the car now. Hey, have you done the crossword today?â Spencer asks, words a familiar, tender remedy for your nerves. You told him a long time ago that hearing his voice makes you feel better, and there are times, like these, where he just knows itâs what you need. You rest our head on the arm of the couch, curling up.
âNo, I didnât have the time. Why?â
âThere was an interesting question about causes of death in Shakespeare plays, but they completely messed up the part of speech. It read, âPopular ways to die by the hands of Englandâs national poetâ. I thought it was âpoisonsâ at first, but it was actually âstabbedâ, even though the correct answer grammatically shouldâve been âstabsâ or âstabbingsâ,â he says, his car now in sight through the steady sprinkle of snow coming down. âDo you think I should send an email to let them know? I guess stabbing does make more sense, though, versus poison, because throughout his works, thirty characters out of his 74 that died were stabbed compared to only four that were poisoned. Three were stabbed and poisoned. Did you know that two were actually baked into pies, which is a-â
âOh my god, the pie,â you groan, cutting him off mid-sentence, sitting up hastily, the blanket falling to the floor.
âPie?â
âYeah. My mom coerced me into making it to bring tomorrow.â You pad over to the kitchen and crouch down to peek through the hazy glass of the oven, inspecting it. âOh,â you murmur. âItâsâŚnot pretty.â
He sandwiches the phone in between his ear and shoulder, gently opening the door to his car to sit down as he listens to you. He turns the heat on, exhaling in an exhausted relief, hovering his hand over where the air comes out.Â
âCan you tell me what it looks like? Maybe I can help,â he suggests, leaning back against the headrest and letting his eyes close for a second. You put the phone on speaker, setting it on the counter as you bend down to take it out. âDonât burn yourself,â he adds, hearing what youâre doing.
âIâm not going to burn my-â you cut yourself off with a huff. âWhatever. Itâs just really messy. Thereâs like⌠liquid overflowing where the lattice should be.â
He hums. âHow long has it been cooking for?â
â45 minutes. My mom sent me this one ancient recipe that I had to use written on parchment paper from like 70 years ago, and it does not have a bake time listed, so Iâm just eyeballing it.â
âOkay. You could either put it back in the oven in hopes that more of the liquid will evaporate, or you can leave it out to cool down and hopefully thicken,â he says.
âWhat do you think I should do?â
âI think you sound exhausted and need your sleep.âÂ
You sigh, staring at your mess of a pie, hopes that youâll appease your mother this year slipping further and further away, soon to be completely buried by the snow.
âHey. Iâm sure itâll taste really good. Besides, people still liked Shakespeare, and he wrote about much worse pies than you could ever make.âÂ
A smile pulls at your lips.
âYeah. Okay. Iâll just leave it out to cool and head to bed. Will you stay on the phone a little longer?â you ask, padding over to your shared bedroom.
âOf course.â
He doesnât start driving as you talk, not when nearly 2000 people die per year due to driving on icy roads, and two thirds of them were people who were reported to not be paying close enough attention.
And especially not when 54 hours ago on your last phone call, he noticed a drastic shift in your behavior, and was quickly able to tell that you were pregnant.Â
He had too much waiting for him at home to be spinning out on black ice because he was talking to you and not watching the road.
He chooses instead to look outside at the falling snow, blanketing the city, his city, the very first for D.C. to have this winter out of the septillion snowflakes planet earth receives each year.
âŚ
Spencer gets home a little later that night, holding another pint of cherries in his hands. Not for the pieâwhich he turns to see resting on the stove and winces slightly atâbut for you.Â
Cherries, with their 342 mg of potassium per cup, help replenish lost electrolytes and can soothe nausea.
Heâs expecting it to start any day now.
He quietly steps into the bedroom, setting his bag by the door to be dealt with tomorrow. The soft glow of the lamp that was left on, presumably for him by your endlessly considerate heart, provides just enough light so he can get changed. He then finally clambers into bed next to you, one hand reaching out to lace in your hair, moving his fingers to gently scratch by the nape of your neck. He lifts the other to rest, like you're made of a delicate china, on your lower stomach, sighing in pure relief the second it makes contact.
You turn sleepily, humming when youâre met with the sight of him. âSpence,â you murmur, contented.
âHi. I really didnât mean to wake you up. Iâm sorry,â he says, so quietly.
âI'm glad you did. I like it when you wake me.â You tuck yourself closer to him. âI love you.â His hand comes to trace gentle patterns all over your back and arm, and he gives you a little kiss, adoringly.
âGo back to sleep. I love you.â
You let your eyes shut once again, this time much easier now that heâs with you. You inhale his scent, which you swear could repair anything broken or lost in this world. You exhale, wondering if heâd still hold you the same way after learning that youâre carrying his child.Â
Itâs a scary thought, but youâre comforted by his warm touch, pushing you farther out into the deep sea of sleep.
Once your breaths get steady and your mouth parts slightly, he adds, in a whisper, âBoth.â
âŚ
The next morning, when youâre hunched over the toilet bowl, Spencer is there with you, rubbing your back and wiping your teary eyes. You look up to him after brushing your teeth, and no words are exchanged. He tugs you into his arms, silently quelling any of the countless anxieties swarming your mind, at least in this moment.
His hand comes up to tuck a strand of hair behind your ear. He lets it rest there, cupping your jaw.
âLetâs go shopping after breakfast today, okay? You need prenatal vitamins.â He presses a soft kiss to your forehead.
âAnd a new pie.â
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fall right into me
pairing: steve harrington x fem!reader
summary: when something happens to your apartment and you need a place to stay, steve, your best friend, is quick to provide it for you. your prolonged proximity forces you both to realize some things.
word count: 13.6k
warnings: childhood bffs to lovers, absolute idiots in love, mentions of a negative relationship with parents, probably inaccurate descriptions of some things but itâs (say it with me) for the plot!!!
a/n: i know itâs been a LONG time since iâve posted a long fic so thank u guys for ur patience <3 i had so much fun getting back to it and writing these two, and i hope itâs at least a little bit worth the wait!!! ily :,)
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Your shoes are still wet as you dial the first number that comes to mind: Steveâs.
He picks up on the third ring. âHello?â
âHey, Steve.â
âHi,â you can imagine him on the other side of the phone, leaning casually against the wall, an easy smile on his face, âwhatâs going on?â
Youâre not quite sure where to start.
Coming home from work earlier, youâd been excited to shower and change and lay around for the rest of the evening, your book hanging open in your lap and some mindless TV filling the silence.
The day seemed to have other plans for you, though, because as you walked down the stairs to your apartmentâone in the basement of a sweet, older coupleâs house who just never used the space and converted itâthe carpet had made an ugly squelch as soon as you stepped on it.
You looked down at your shoe against the carpet, at the way its color was darker than usual from whatever water had gotten into it. Looking up, you found a complete mess. A piece of the ceiling hanging open right above your bed, water still dripping in steady drops from the gap, your bedding ruined among many other things.
You donât know how long you stood there, hand over your mouth, eyes flickering over the damage like you were hoping it would vanish, like it was only something you imagined.
Unfortunately, it wasnât.
The couple who owns the house came down when they heard you shout for them, unsure of what else to do. Theyâd both gasped when they came down, and began apologizing for something that really wasnât their fault before one ran up to call whoever it was they needed to call to fix this and the other comforted you with a gentle âweâll take care of it, sweetie.â
You nodded, eyes still roaming your space that was now uninhabitable.
Itâs an old house, something was bound to happen at some point, you only wished it wasnât so inconvenient for you. A small leak, you could have handled, but the ceiling practically caving in?
Yeah, it was a complete fucking mess.
Hours later, with the damage assessed and set to take a few weeks to fix up, youâre on the phone with the one person youâd known would pick up.
You fill Steve in on what happened, and his first response is a sigh of, âShit.â
âYeah, shit,â you agree. âAnd now Iâm gonna have to live with my parents for a while and I donât know how Iâm gonna go back into that house, Steve.â
If youâre being honest, the couple you live with now was kinder to you than your parents were. You suppose thatâs one of the many things that you and Steve have bonded over.
âJust come live with me, instead,â he offers without hesitation.
Steve says it like itâs obvious, a no-brainer, and you guess it should be, since youâve slept over at the Harringtonâs house countless times before. Only, this is different because youâd be staying for a while, because youâd be needing his help, which makes you feel all awkward and guilty.
Heâs been your absolute best friend for as long as you can remember, and youâre one hundred percent sure youâd offer the same thing if the roles were reversed, but that doesnât make it any easier for you to accept, not when youâre already frazzled from the events of the day.
âNo, Steve, Iâm sorry Iâm just being dramatic,â you say, twisting the phoneâs cord around your finger. âIâll be fine, really. Itâs just a month, or so, and I donât wanna be in your way or-â
âWhen have you ever cared about being in my way, angel?â The pet name heâs called you ever since your ninth grade Halloween party slips out naturally, the way it always does. âBesides, this house is too fucking big for me as it is, and you know my parents wonât be around to care, either.â
âI canât ask you to let me move in, Steve.â
âWell then, itâs a good thing youâre not asking. Iâm offering. Itâll be like that one week when we were twelve and you stayed over for spring break, only longer. Itâs perfect!â
Thereâs a small smile ghosting across your face as you recall the memory heâs talking about. A blanket fort in their spacious living room, sleeping bags and pillows piled inside it along with two flashlights.
You can picture the way he looks on the other end of the phone, his hair a bit messy from running his hands through it during the day, one strand rogue against his forehead, his shoulder leaned carelessly against the wall the way it usually is when he stands. Like he canât be bothered to hold himself up, like thereâs constantly a weight on him.
âAre you sure about this, Steve? Itâs really okay if youâre not. I swear Iâll be fine.â
âAs if Iâm letting you spend multiple weeks back in your parentâs house. Youâre staying with me, alright?â His voice is insistent, yet kind, letting you know that heâs being honest, that he means it. âWeâll order pizzas and watch shitty romcoms, âkay?â
âYou can call romcoms shitty all you want, but we both know you get teary at every single one.â
âDon't change the subject, angel. Also, fuck off,â he says, though you can hear the smile in his voice. âSo, youâre living with me, yeah?â
You donât think you could say no to him even if you wanted to.
âYeah, alright, Steve. Thank you so much.â
âNone of that. I know youâd do the same.â
Thereâs something beautiful about the kind of trust and ease that comes with a friendship as long as yours. One where youâve watched each other grow up, awkward phases and all, and stuck together the entire way. Thereâs no questioning whether or not youâd be there for each other if you were in need.
Itâs known, felt. Like a fact.
âNow,â he continues, âIâll pick you up, okay? Ten minutes, tops.â
âOkay.â
âYou need me to bring boxes for your stuff?â
âIâm not sure how much is worth keeping. Itâs pretty ugly in there.â
Your voice goes small at the end, because the gravity of it all is really sinking in. Youâll have to replace a lot of stuff. Stuff you donât have money for right now.
But, you havenât let yourself cry just yet, so you swallow it down.
âIâll bring some anyway, then. Weâll figure it out, angel, donât worry.â
âThanks again, Steve. See you soon.â
âTen minutes,â he assures you, then the line clicks.
-
True to his word, Steve arrives in under ten minutes, which isnât surprising considering the size of Hawkins, but feels reassuring all the same.
Youâre sitting on the curb in front of the house when Steveâs BMW pulls over on the other side of the road, and you stand just as he climbs out and shuts his door, rounding the car and jogging over to you.
His keys jingle as he tucks them into the pocket of his faded jeans, his opposite hand coming up to squeeze your shoulder, âYou okay?â
The warmth of his palm seeps through your work shirt that youâve yet to change out of, and you let your eyes fall shut just for a second before looking at his face, âGuess so,â you nod. âMaybe ask me again after all of this?â
Steveâs arm winds itself over your shoulders, tugging you into his side and dropping a kiss to the top of your head, simple as an instinct. âIâve got you. Weâll get through this, angel.â
Weâll, he says. A team.
You reach up and squeeze his hand and nod, guiding him to the side-entrance leading to your basement apartment.
âI hope you didnât wear your good shoes for this,â you say.
Steve looks down at his feet and shrugs, âShoes can be replaced.â
He lets you lead the way down the stairs, his footsteps close behind yours. You wince when you look at the damage again, even though youâd seen it minutes ago. You can't bring yourself to look at Steve, to see the reaction on his face, because you think itâll just make it all more real.
He mouths the word âfuckâ while you arenât looking, then claps his hands once. âOkay, letâs figure out what we can save, yeah? Where do you want me?â
Youâre grateful for his gentle guidance at what to do. âMaybe the bathroom? Everything in there should be fine, so it just needs to be packed.â
ââKay. Iâll just go grab some boxes from my car,â Steve says. He squeezes your hand once before heading up the stairs. âIâll be right back.â
You decide to tackle the worst spot first. Though the place is more like a studio, the side that houses your bed and your closet is the most affected, so you head over there and try to tune out the squish of the carpet beneath your feet.
Youâre opening the sliding doors to your closet when Steve comes back, dropping a stack of boxes by your feet and running his hand down your arm softly before heading over to the bathroom to pack for you.
Even his presence seems to be making things a little bit easier for you, and each time he finds a small way to touch you or speak to you, to remind you that heâs there, youâre glad for it.
Half of your closet is a gross, wet mess, but some things are salvageable, which you take as a win. Things might be damp, but at least itâs only water, you suppose. A cycle in the dryer and most things will be wearable again.
Your dresses that are hung get the worst of it, soaked and smelly, and you decide that itâd be easier to get a couple new ones than to try and save whatâs there.
Steve checks in every now and then, poking his head out of the bathroomâs doorway to look at you and make sure youâre doing alright, giving you a thumbs up when you look over to him.
Youâre not sure how youâd be managing this if you were alone, and youâre thankful that you donât have to.
The next time he checks on you, youâre by your nightstand.
Sitting atop of it is a framed picture of you and Steve from summer camp when you were around ten years old, maybe younger. Only now, the pictureâs stained with water and the frame youâd decorated all those years ago at camp is a splotchy mess.
Where yours and Steveâs handwriting used to be, is now a blur from the water seeping into the wooden frame, the markerâs colors muddy. You frown, picking it up and running your thumb over the edge.
Before you can stop yourself, youâre tearing up, frustrated and sad and tired. Memories like this one are the most special to you, the ones that have kept you going for so long, and just like that, the picture thatâs sat on your nightstand since being taken is gone, and it fucking sucks.
âHey, angel?â Steve calls.
When all you do is sniffle and mumble an âmhm?â in response, he sets the box heâd been packing on the bathroom counter and walks over to you.
He comes up behind you, resting his hands on your upper-arms and peering over your shoulder at the ruined picture.
âIt was my favorite one,â you say, voice breaking a little. You wipe your tear away as it trails down your cheek, your own fingertips too harsh against your skin.
Although itâs soaked and splotchy now, Steve knows which picture it is. The one where youâve both got your neon summer camp t-shirts on, the one where his cheeks and nose are completely sunburnt and youâre both grinning up at the camera from your seats on the ground.
Steveâs clutching a stick in his hand for some reason, and youâve got your fist tangled in the sleeve of his shirt.
It feels like no time and forever has passed since then.
Steve grabs the picture and pries it gently from your hands, setting it back onto the table and turning you around in his grip to face him.
âWe can fix it,â he tells you, his brown eyes all soft as his hands come up to cup your face, thumbs swiping your tears away.
âBut the frame-â
âWeâll fix it, angel. Iâll find a way, okay? We can pack it in one of the boxes and figure it out.â
âSteve-â
âLook at me,â he urges you when your gaze flickers to the ground. You listen. âThis fucking sucks, I know it does, but youâre strong and Iâm here, and we can handle this.â
His voice is quiet, but sure. You search his face for any trace of a lie and find none. He really believes what heâs saying, and he really believes in you.
âThank you for being here.â You take a deep breath and drop your forehead against the collar of his shirt. âIâm sorry for crying. I know itâs kinda stupid. Most of this is replaceable, itâs just-â
âItâs not stupid,â he says, letting his chin rest atop your head. âYouâre allowed to cry. Hell, Iâd probably be kicking and screaming on the floor like I'm back in the terrible twos.â
You laugh wetly into his shirt.
âNow,â he says, pulling back and putting his hands on his hips, âthe quicker we pack, the quicker we go home. Iâll even let you wear a pair of my good fuzzy socks.â
A smile tugs at your mouth. âDeal.â
-
Steve wouldnât let you do much of the work after that.
Instead, he simply held up items for you to assess from where youâd been leaning against the wall and packed it into a box if it was a âyes,â or tossing it aside dramatically just to try and get you to laugh if it was a âno.â
Once things were sorted through and packed, you loaded everything into Steveâs carâwhich wasnât a whole bunch, considering how much you had to leave behind.
Youâd refused to let Steve carry the boxes all on his own, though he tried, but he still managed to open the doors for you whenever you made it to his car, even when his own hands were full, too.
By the time you were finished, you were drained. It felt like youâd lived multiple days in the one. An eight hour shift opening at the store, then coming home to a wrecked apartment. All you wanted to do was shower and lay down and not get back up.
Steve knows you well enough to be able to tell when itâs time to fill the silence and when it isnât, and on the drive back to his place, while your head was leaned against his window, he knew to stay quiet and give you a bit of space.
He turned the radio on, but not too loud, letting the songs hum through the speakers. At every stop sign, he reached over and gave your thigh a light squeeze. Reassuring, kind, somehow exactly what you needed at the moment. Nothing more, nothing less.
You were no stranger to the Harringtonâs house, having been there countless times since you were little, but it feels more intimidating now, knowing youâll be staying. You feel silly for being worried, but you are. Asking for help makes you feel like a burden.
Steve, however, doesnât let you entertain that thought for long, parking in his driveway and jogging around to open the passenger door for you. âHoney, weâre home!â
âDork,â you say, though you accept his hand and let him tug you up out of the car.
Grabbing the first couple of boxes, Steve leads you inside and upstairs, right to the guest room across the hall from his own bedroom. The closest one to him.
The house has at least two guest rooms, though you suppose with how little Steve's parents are around, you could consider there to be three. Three spare rooms and Steve puts you up in the nearest one possible. It makes your heart squish in your chest, how caring he is. He doesnât even have to try, really, the goodness in him shows even when he tries to keep it hidden.
It only takes a few trips down to his car and back before all of your boxes are stacked against the wall. You decide youâll deal with them later.
Steve runs over to his room and grabs a set of pajamas that youâd left there, and hands them to you. âI figured youâd wanna wash up.â
âYou calling me smelly, Harrington?â
âShut up, I think you smell nice. Usually.â
âHey!â
âIâm teasing, angel.â He ruffles your hair. You swat his hand away. âYou know where the bathroom is, and there should be soap and stuff in the shower already. Just yell if you need something, okay?â
You do know where the bathroom is. You have your own toothbrush in a cup by the sink, a set of travel-sized skin care products in the cupboard behind the mirror for whenever you end up staying over.
Itâs funny, youâve always felt more at home here than at your own parents house, and though he hasnât said it to you, Steve much prefers this house when youâre in it. Thereâs a warmth that comes with your presence that makes him ache when itâs not around.
You nod, âThank you again for letting me stay, Steve. I wonât be in the way, promise.â
âI want you in the way. You know youâre always welcome. This is no different.â He shrugs, âPlus, itâll be nice having you around. Place always feels so empty when itâs just me.â
âMaybe Iâll just stay forever, then,â you say, tone light and joking.
Steve, completely serious, says, âIâd let you.â
Thereâs a zip that goes through you when he says it, quick as lightning, something youâve never feltâor noticed, ratherâaround him. It throws you off just a little.
âAnyways,â Steve cuts your thoughts short, âIâll let you get settled. Pizza will be waiting for you when youâre done.â
He leaves the room before you can thank him again, his footsteps retreating and heading downstairs.
Youâve been to his house a million times, so you donât really feel the need to âget settledâ but you desperately need a shower so thatâs where you go.
You stay in for longer than you need to, letting the too-hot water run down your neck and back.
When you finally do step out of the bathroom, now clad in your pajamas, and head downstairs, Steveâs sitting on the couch in the living room, the romcoms he owns sitting out in front of the TV for you to choose from, your favorite blanket resting on your side of the couch, and pizza boxes on the coffee table just as promised.
Itâs the best thing in the world, you think, to have a friend like Steve.
-
Youâve been staying at Steveâs for a couple of days already, and time seems to fly by a little quicker when youâre there, especially when youâre around him.
Heâs taken it upon himself to have coffee ready in the pot for you every morning, one of your favorite mugs already next to it on the counter. Youâve cooked breakfasts together (pancakes one day, where youâd done most of the work, or something simple as toast when you both have to get to work), ordered dinners, and Steve comes home from his shifts with a new movie to watch almost every day.
Itâs been so nice. Almost perfect, actually.
This morning, the first day where your shifts happen to be at the exact same time, heâd even insisted on driving you to work. It was an easy yes, considering it wasnât out of his way at all.
After a short stint of working together at the grocery store in ninth grade, and your subsequent firing from the job after a month of constantly distracting each other on the clock, Tim, the grocery manager, took it upon himself to warn Hawkins not to hire the both of you together.
Eventually, youâd taken the closest you could get which resulted in you working at the arcade and Steve next door at Family Video.
You share a parking lot. Steve already drives you to work most days. You like to put up a bit of a fight just to annoy him.
Though you havenât worked together in years, and he isnât far away by any means, you miss having Steve around on days like this. Where the arcade is quiet save for the sounds of the games in the background, where youâre simply babysitting the desk and cleaning things multiple times to try and make the hours pass by.
If Steve were with you, heâd make stupid jokes that you donât wanna laugh at but do, or coerce you into playing the games while on the clock with the change you find whenever youâre cleaning.
Heâd probably trash talk you, and bump your hip with his while playing pinball, and be a sore loser, and for some reason you want him around so bad.
You chalk it up to getting used to spending hours and hours with him, every single day, these past couple of days. Staying with him has made you miss him more, you think.
Thatâs it.
Meanwhile, over at Family Video, Steve isnât feeling too different from you.
Heâs spent the morning stocking shelves, memories popping into his head whenever heâd come across a movie you loved or watched together, while Robinâs been manning the desk.
Then, when his cart was empty and put back into the back room, he sat on the chair behind the front desk, spinning around until Robin stopped him with her foot and asked what he was thinking so hard about.
Steve caught her up on what had happened with your apartment (youâd told him he could tell her, because sheâs your friend too and would find out sooner or later) and how youâd ended up staying with him in his house.
She raised her eyebrows and hummed in a way that was automatically suspicious, because Robin isnât very good at hiding things.
âWhat?â Steve asks.
âNothing.â When Steve only gives her a pointed look, Robin continues, âWell⌠are you sure thatâs a good idea?â
Now, Robin is one of Steveâs closest friends, and him one of hers, and she supports him in pretty much everything that he does even when she teases him relentlessly along the way, but she cares about both of you and doesnât want to see anyone hurt.
She can read Steve better than he can read himself, probably, because to Robin, itâs clear that he feels more than friendly towards you. And he doesnât even know it.
When they became closer, it was clear to Robin, even before meeting you, just from the way Steve spoke of you, that there was a spot reserved for you in his life that couldnât be filled by anyone else.
He would say itâs that of âbest friendâ but Robin would call it something even bigger than that. Still, even though she thinks heâs an absolute dingus, sheâs trying to let Steve figure it out for himself.
Clearly, itâs taking fucking forever.
He looks confused at her question, âWhy wouldnât it be a good idea?â
Robin sighs and resists the urge to drop her forehead against the desk and decides on, âYou know what they say: become friends with your roommates, donât become roommates with your friends.â
âWhoever they are, theyâre dumb as shit,â Steve says. âSheâs been over, slept over, hundreds of times. Itâs not any different, just longer.â
âI guess so,â she settles on. âThe rules of the world never really seem to apply to you two.â
âThatâs because the rules of the world are also dumb as shit.â
âHow would you know? Itâs not like youâve ever tried following them.â
ââCause Iâm a rule breaker, Robs.â
Steve wiggles his eyebrows. Robin shoves the rolling chair heâs sitting on with her foot, sending it into the other side of the desk with a thud.
âDonât think that smoking weed in your backyard is enough to call yourself a rule breaker, dingus.â
-
That night, your routine was pretty much the same.
Steve was already waiting for you in his car when you left the arcade, a smile spreading onto his face when he saw you making your way across the parking lot to him, your skirt swishing a little with the breeze.
Rather than go straight home, you made a stop at your apartment to talk things over with the couple who owned the home. Theyâd met with a builder and plumber about getting everything fixed and wanted to walk you through it all.
Steve came with you and held your hand, and both of them cooed at him and pinched his cheeks and called him a cutie before getting to the important stuff.
After going over what had to be done (rip out the carpet, replace it, fix the pipes and make sure no others were at risk, replace the ceiling, and more you couldnât even remember already), theyâd assured you that they would be taking care of it all. Covering the entire cost.
You probably wouldâve argued if not for how little money was in your bank account, and how stubborn you knew these people to be. Instead, youâd squeezed them both and thanked them while your eyes grew misty with tears.
Steveâs hand stayed in yours and squeezed when you sniffled.
He knew, because he knew pretty much everything about you, that these people were kinder to you than even your own parents. That, if this had happened at their house, they wouldâve found a way to blame you for it.
You feel lucky to have found that kind of parental love elsewhere, sad that you didnât know exactly what it felt like beforehand.
After giving the couple Steveâs phone number to call in case they needed you and giving them both another hug, you and Steve headed back home.
Home, you call it. Like itâs yours.
Sometimes it feels like it is.
Later, after you and Steve have both showered and had dinner and gotten comfy in your sweats, youâre back in the living room, Steve shows you the movie heâs brought back this time.
âGremlins?â You ask, smiling and shaking your head.
âHell yeah, angel. Itâs a classic.â
Steve sets everything up, joining you on the couch after pressing âplayâ on the movie and adjusting the volume with your guidance.
âSo, how was work?â Steve asks during the opening credits. The two of you have a hard time being next to each other and not talking. Itâs why you get dirty looks whenever you go to the movies.
âWeekdays are so boring, Steve,â you say, letting your head fall against the back of the couch. âYouâre so lucky you have Robin to entertain you during the day. I think I dusted like, ten times at least.â
âRobin is a pain in my ass.â He says. He doesnât really mean it, because even when she is, heâs glad to have her around. A different kind of gladness than he feels with you. âShe kept pushing me every time I sat in the rolling chair. Thereâs probably a dent in the desk.â
âThatâs because you were probably hogging the chair, Steve.â
âWhat the fuck!â Steveâs smiling when he says it, lacking any sort of anger. âYouâre supposed to be on my side.â
Your smile mirrors his, the way it always does. Itâs contagious, you think, the way his eyes crinkle at the corner.
Shrugging, you say, âI donât know, Iâd wanna push you around on that chair too, I think.â
âYouâd spin me too much. Iâd get sick all over you and then nobodyâs happy.â
âDonât talk about barf while Iâm eating, Harrington.â
You throw a piece of popcorn at him. It bounces off his cheek and lands on his lap, and he doesnât even flinch. Steve just picks it up and pops it into his mouth.
When the bowlâs empty, you lean forward and set it on the coffee table before sinking back into the couch, Steve's shoulder brushing yours. You let the warmth seep through your clothes and shut your eyes.
Itâs a little more than halfway through the movie when Steve realizes youâre asleep. Youâd been quiet, sure, but Steve only thought that meant you were paying attention to the movie.
That was, until your head slipped and rested against his shoulder.
He looked down at you, at the hair falling across your forehead (he smoothed it away gently, so it wouldnât be in your eyes or your mouth), your eyebrows relaxed and free of any worry, your chest rising and falling with steady breaths.
He thinks of how tired you must be, after everything. Your apartment and dealing with the aftermath both emotionally and physically, working long shifts most days to keep your bank account full.
Steve, though he doesnât let himself look too deep into it, also thinks of how beautiful you are. Now and always.
Not wanting you to get a kink in your neck from the position, Steve decides to rouse you from sleep as gently as possible. He slips a hand under your head to keep it steady and maneuvers himself to kneel in front of you.
âHey, angel,â he almost whispers, thumb dragging across your cheek. âCâmon, letâs get you to bed.â
Your nose scrunches and you grumble, but after some coaxing, you blink your eyes open and squint at Steve. You blame your half-asleep mind on the way you nuzzle into his palm. âHmm?â
âYou fell asleep.â
âOh, sorry,â you mumble.
Steve laughs softly. âDonât be sorry, I just didnât want you to be uncomfortable.â
The warmth of his hand leaves your cheek as he stands and holds his hands out for you to grab. He pulls you up off the couch and starts leading you towards the stairs.
You knuckle at your eyes on the way, a tiny smile gracing your face at how sweet Steveâs being. As if you havenât fallen asleep on his couch plenty of times before.
Still sleepy, you stumble a little on the stairs, but Steve catches you easily with an arm around your waist and a small âCareful.â
He leaves his arm there the rest of the way to whatâs become your bedroom, guiding you over to the bed and lifting the covers for you.
Tomorrow, youâll regret not brushing your teeth or washing your face before climbing in bed. But today, you donât feel like risking not being able to sleep again if you wake yourself up further.
Youâre practically asleep again by the time youâre settled with your head on the pillow as Steve tugs the blankets over you.
Youâre just awake enough to feel the light press of his lips on your forehead and a soft âGoodnight, angelâ against your skin before he leaves the room and shuts the door behind him.
-
On a random Thursday that you and Steve both have off, he convinces you to let him take you to the mall.
âWe should go shopping,â he says when you walk into the kitchen. Itâs a little later in the morning, having slept in since itâs a day off, the sun slipping through the window in warm beams.
You raise your eyebrows at him. âLike, groceries?â
âNo, like shopping shopping. You know, the mall?â
You lean against the kitchen island, the countertop cool on your back where it touches the sliver of skin between your tank top and sleep shorts. Steve has his shoulder against the fridge, his arms crossed over his chest, the sleeves of his t-shirt tight against his muscles. Not that youâre looking.
You squint at him, trying to find his motive on his face. âYou literally buy whatever the mannequins are wearing to avoid shopping.â
âThatâs what theyâre there for!â The sass in his voice has you biting back a smile. âYou need new clothes,â he continues, âand I need to get out of this house.â
âWe can do something else, Steve,â you say. âI thought you hated shopping.â
âWell, I donât hate you.â Thereâs a pause, Steveâs eyes lowering to that sliver of skin above your shorts. He flicks them back to your face quickly, hoping you didnât notice, because even heâs not sure what compelled his eyes to wander. âPlus, Eddie called me a hermit the other day and I really canât stand for that, can I?â
âOhhh,â you ignore the way your skin suddenly feels warm beneath his gaze, âso you need to make a public appearance to prove Eddie wrong?â
âExactly. Weâll replace some of the things you lost and restore my reputation. Two birds, one stone, right angel?â
So thatâs how youâd ended up at the mall. After Starcourt burnt down, the closest place was a couple towns over, and Steve (as always) offered to drive.
He lets you pick the music the entire way, sings along when you hold your water bottle by his mouth like a microphone, even attempts to harmonize with you which just ends in laughter because neither of you sounded that great.
Youâre a couple of stores in, and Steveâs been complaint-free so farâwhich makes sense, since this was his idea, but youâve caught him side-eyeing some things, so you know heâs got some remarks in his head he just hasnât said out loudâand follows you around as you browse. You try not to take too long, because you canât imagine that this is any fun for him.
âHow about that one?â Steve asks, pointing at one of the dresses hanging along the storeâs wall.
Heâd seen your apartment, though that was a bit ago, and he remembered what youâd lost the most of, along with the type of stuff you like. He pays attention like that, in small, quiet ways that you think mean the most.
He knows you. He cares enough to know you.
âYeah, thatâs really pretty, actually,â you admit.
At your approval, Steve grabs one in your size (which he also just happens to know) and adds it to the couple of things heâd already been holding for you. Every time you picked something up, he was quick to snatch it from you, telling you it was âtoo hard to browse with your hands full.â
After making your way through the rest of the store, you decided to head back to try things on, holding out a hand for the stuff Steveâs holding. âYou can wait out here, Iâll be quick.â
âHold on,â he says, holding the hangers out of your reach. âWhy do you think Iâm here, angel? I wanna help you pick.â
âSeriously?â
âYes, seriously. Give me a fashion show, yeah?â
âOh my God,â you mumble, letting him follow you to the fitting rooms.
Theyâre hidden behind the back wall of the store, a hallway painted bright blue with pink changeroom doors on one side, and white benches along the other.
âHi there,â an employee with auburn hair greets you both, her smile wide and kind, though you know itâs a practiced one. Customer service smile. âHow many you got there, darling?â
âOh, um,â you turn back towards Steve, whoâs counting the hangers in his hand. âFive.â
âPerfect!â The girl takes the key hanging around her neck and unlocks one of the rooms for you. She takes the clothes from Steve and hangs them up inside for you, then turns to the two of you and says, âYour man can have a seat right here. We call them the âboyfriend benches.ââ
âHeâs not my-â
âThanks,â Steve says, cutting off your correction because for some reason he didnât want you to correct her.
Did he⌠like the idea of being your boyfriend?
Fuck. No. He just didnât want you to have to explain the whole situation in your rambly way. Thatâs all.
The redhead smiles again, âHoller if you need anything,â she says before walking off.
You stand there for a second, something like confusion on your face. Did it look like you were boyfriend and girlfriend?
âCome on,â Steve says, snapping the both of you out of whatever that was. âShow me what youâve got.â
âI can't believe youâre making me do this,â you say, walking into the fitting room and shutting the door.
You try on a couple of sweaters first, and Steve feels the fabric both times, making sure that itâs not scratchy on your skin. Then, thereâs just some basic t-shirts that arenât all that exciting, but Steve says they look nice anyway.
Finally, you get to the dress he picked out.
It really was pretty. A midi-length with a ruffled hem and straps that tie into little bows on your shoulders. You donât always feel good in your clothes. Sometimes you wish you could crawl out of your skin when you look into the mirror, but right now, you donât hate what you see.
You actually like it.
âWell?â Steve calls softly from the bench.
In response, you open the door and step out so he can see you.
Steveâs seen you in plenty of dressesâhell, you went to prom togetherâbut for some reason this one makes his heart beat just a little bit quicker. Maybe itâs simply the fact that it looks great on you, or the way youâre smiling shyly as he looks you over.
Or, maybe itâs because heâs the one who picked it.
He stands up, spinning his finger in the air in a gesture for you to twirl. You roll your eyes but do it anyway, and he canât take his eyes off of you. The hallway of fitting rooms isnât very big, so with both of you in it, youâre standing toe to toe, the gold flecks in the middle of Steveâs eyes and the faint freckles that dot his nose are visible from where you stand.
As if he canât help it, Steve lifts a finger and dips it beneath the strap on your shoulder. Not moving it or undoing it, just gliding along your skin where it sits.
âYou look beautiful,â he says. His voice goes all quiet and soft when he says it, and his eyes widen a tiny bit, like he hadnât meant it to slip out that way. It sounded⌠more than friendly. He clears his throat and steps back as much as he can in the small space, his finger leaving your skin. âI have great taste. Clearly.â
You blink at him, then shake yourself out of it as much as you can. âYeah. Donât let it get to your head.â You lift the tag where it hangs by your armpit and look at the price. You gasp and swat Steveâs arm. âSteve! Why would you let me walk into a place so expensive?â
You probably shouldâve looked at the tag beforehand, but here you are. Steve, shrugging exaggeratedly, says, âI didnât know!â
âOkay, Iâm gonna change before she comes back. We can make a run for it.â
âWeâre not stealing.â
âI know, but they look at you all judgemental when you try stuff on and donât buy something. Trust me.â
You turn and go back into the fitting room to put on your own clothes, taking a look at the dress in the mirror one last time before shaking your head at yourself.
Steve, however, takes the opportunity to leave you and head back out into the store. He finds the dress easily and grabs another one in your size from the rack and heads to the cashier.
Heâs just finishing up, bag in hand, when you walk out and meet him at the front of the store.
âFor you,â he says, holding out the bag for you to take.
âSteveâŚâ You grab it and look inside. Your chest aches when you see the dress, your heart suddenly too full and your stomach fluttering stupidly. âYou didnât have to do that. I wouldâve been fine with something from the Gap.â
âI know that,â he says, a hand lifting to scratch at the back of his neck. Itâs a nervous tick of his, and the thought of him being nervous right now makes you melt even more. âI wanted to get it for you. You looked too pretty in it not to have it.â
Your eyes catch his, and again, something passes between you that you donât think youâve ever felt before. A fizzle, a spark.
You rock back on your feet, looking down at the ground before meeting his eyes again. Theyâre so fucking soft it makes you wonder how lucky you have to be to have him in your life. Being your best friend, driving you to work even when he doesnât have a shift, offering you a place to stay, buying you a dress.
Heâs the sweetest boy youâve ever known.
âWell,â you twist the straps of the bag around your fingers just to keep them busy. âThank you, Steve. This is really nice.â
His knuckle traces down your arm just once, featherlight. âYouâre welcome, angel.â
You donât buy anything else after that, instead stopping at the food court for fries, stealing from each otherâs baskets, smiling and slapping hands away.
Itâs the best day youâve had in a while.
-
You donât think anything you do will convey just how grateful you are that Steve has been so kind to you. Always, but especially now. Letting you stay with him and refusing to let you pay rent. (âI donât even pay rent, and I live here all the time.â)
But, this morning, youâve decided youâre gonna try.
Steveâs favorite meal of the day happens to be breakfast, which is funny, considering he usually eats something as simple as cereal. Heâd told you once that it was because, as a kid, breakfast was the most peaceful of meals, his parents too busy getting ready for work or wherever they were going that heâd have the kitchen table to himself.
Lunch was usually spent at school, and Steve was never a fan of school to begin with. Then there was dinner, which his parents (when they were home) still wanted to have all together. Theyâd ask him questions and make backhanded comments about every single answer he gave. He never won at dinner.
So, breakfast was, and has remained, his favorite.
You made sure to get up early enough to give yourself time to get everything ready before he wakes up. Steveâs usually the one making the coffee in the morning, and you figured the least you could do was give him a break.
Yesterday, while Steve had been at work, you went over to the Wheelerâs and asked Nancy if you could borrow their waffle maker. Sheâd directed the question to her mother, who went and grabbed it for you and handed it over with a smile. You promised to take good care of it and have it back in a couple of days.
By the time Steve walks into the kitchen, youâve already made the batter and set out the toppingsâberries, maple syrup, whipped creamâlike a buffet. However, he just so happens to come in as youâre swearing at the waffle maker.
âStupid fucking thing,â you mutter, trying to open it.
Steve smiles to himself before saying, âMorning, angel.â
You jump at his voice, not having heard him walk in. When you turn around, your heart beats for a different reason.
Steveâs still only in his pajama pants, plaid and soft, hanging low on his hips. And heâs shirtless, his chest smattered with hair and his skin a little tanned from the sun. Heâs got beauty marks all over, like a constellation you could chart, and his abs are just visible beneath the soft of his stomach. A trail of hair leading to the waistband of his pants and disappearing beneath them.
Youâve seen Steve shirtless plenty of times. Swimming and sleeping over in the summer, in high school when you used to go to his practices, but it hits you harder for some reason this time.
The way his hair is still a mess from sleep, his eyes a bit heavy. The way it feels to be greeting him in the kitchen, cooking breakfast. Intimate. Domestic.
You clear your throat and turn back around to pry the waffle maker open, revealing a slightly burnt but otherwise good-looking waffle. âIâm making breakfast. Coffeeâs already in the pot, too.â
He walks over, his chest close to your back as he grabs a mug from the cabinet above you before heading over to pour himself a cup. He looks at the spread youâve prepared, âWaffles, huh? What did I do to deserve all this?â
âJust wanted to do something nice for you,â you say as Steve walks over to lean against the counter next to you, his hip barely touching yours. âTo thank you, in a way. For letting me stay and the dress and-â
âHow many times do I have to tell you to stop thanking me?â He says, though his voice is soft and still a bit rough from sleep. âI like having you around.â
âSo you donât want the waffles then?â
âOh, I want the waffles. I just donât want you to feel like you have to do anything for me. Itâs not some debt youâll owe me, angel.â
âWant you to know I appreciate you is all,â you say, pouring a new scoop of batter into the waffle maker.
Steve, unsure of what exactly possesses him to do so, dips in and presses a kiss to the apple of your cheek, his lips a whisper away from your skin when he says, âI appreciate you, too.â
Then he pulls away and moves to set the table. Like it was natural.
And it was, in a way. How you moved around each other in the kitchen. You leaning out of the way when he needed to reach something you were blocking, him putting a hand on your lower back when he walked behind you so you knew he was there.
Your cheek still tingles from where heâd kissed it when you bring the plate of waffles to the table, your skin somehow even warmer under his gaze, like heâs still remembering exactly how it felt, too.
You sit in the chair beside Steve, not noticing the way he tugs it a bit closer to him with his foot before you sit down. Soon enough, both of you are digging in. Steveâs got more whipped cream on his plate than waffle (you tell him as much) and youâve got your berries on the side the way you always do.
Neither of you work until later in the day, and itâs nice knowing that you can take your time. Steve tells you about the advice he gave Dustin about how to be âcoolerâ in school (heâd told him that being cool is completely overrated, he knew from experience, and that being himself is the most important). Youâd told him he was going soft with age.
You talk about anything at all. How Keith somehow manages both of your places of work, how he also somehow does both terribly. The way he says âif you have time to lean, you have time to cleanâ while literally having Cheeto dust on his fingers. Laughing at each otherâs impressions of him.
What the new highscores were at the arcade, what people were renting from Family Video.
You wonder what itâll be like when you have to leave. When youâre living alone again.
Logically, you know youâll still see Steve frequently, because heâs your favorite person and you canât remember the last time you went longer than a few days without hanging out. Still, itâll be different than right now, waking up in the same space and sharing breakfast and brushing your teeth side by side in the mirror.
Youâll miss it, you think.
Trying not to dwell on something thatâs still a few weeks away, you take another bite of your waffle. Steve catches your chin and wipes off a bit of whipped cream from the corner of your mouth, then pulling away and sucking it off his thumb.
He goes back to his own plate without a thought. Like touching you just now was an instinct.
Then, he teases you, âThese are a little crispy, angel. Maybe you should stick to letting me make breakfast in this household.â
You kick his leg under the table. âThatâs a funny way of saying âthank you,â Harrington.â
He kicks you back, much gentler than youâd been. âThank you.â
âThatâs what I thought.â
When you look at him, thereâs an easy, boyish smile on his face.
A similar one stretches across your own lips.
-
Steve has had the thought pop up into his head a couple of times, that maybe he shouldâve just asked you to live with him before you ever bought that apartment. Because having you around feels the most right things have ever felt in his house.
And though the circumstances of your moving in with him (temporarily, he has to remind himself), were far from ideal, he canât lie and say that he isnât glad that youâve ended up sharing his space.
The room across the hall will always be yours, even when you move back to your place.
He knows that you feel indebted to him for all of it, but if anyone owes the other something, he feels like itâs him. For everything youâve ever done for him. Sticking around even when he was an asshole in highschool, defending him to his parents whenever youâd cross paths, simply being the kind of friend he needed.
Even when youâre not around, he can picture your face, the way your smile spreads slowly until youâre fucking beaming. Worse, the way you cried into his chest that day at your apartment.
He remembers the crack in your voice when you spoke about that picture frame from summer camp. Though he hasnât seen you cry since, or even bring it up, heâs decided he wants to fix it. Heâd told you he would.
Dustin wound up roped into his plan: find a similar frame, decorate it the exact same way, and scour the photo albums in Steveâs room for his copy of that same picture.
When he was younger, the photo albums pissed him off, because they were purely for show. Pictures of his family that were all fake smiles. Now, heâs glad for them, because at least he has some good memories to look back on. To know it wasnât always all bad.
Steve probably shouldâve thought that one through, because when they looked through his albums, he was on the receiving end of relentless teasing from Dustin. (âDude, you have an insane boogie in this picture.â âI was four!â)
He hopes itâll be worth it.
Dustin was the one who found the picture theyâd been looking for, and he cheered and waved it in Steveâs face as if theyâd been racing.
Now, after driving Dustin back home, decorating the frame the way the two of you did as kids, trying to make his handwriting look like it did back then (which wasnât too difficult, âcause Steveâs writing still isnât that neat), heâs waiting for you to come downstairs before giving it to you.
Heâd picked you up after your shift at the arcade not too long ago, but he knows you like to shower and change as soon as you get home from work, so heâd taken the opportunity to wrap the frame and have it ready for you.
Steve can hear you singing in the shower, and he knows youâre done when it goes quiet. A few minutes later youâre walking down the stairs in a baggy t-shirt and silky sleep shorts.
His eyes, for some reason, linger on your legs for a second.
He stands up, frame in his hand, when you walk over. âI have something for you.â
âSteve! Stop buying me things. Seriously.â
âThis thing was free, so you canât even be mad,â he says, smiling almost sheepishly.
Your eyes search his face, flickering between his own and dipping down to his lips and his nose and back to his eyes. He looks⌠nervous.
Steveâs never nervous around you.
âOkay,â you say, shuffling on your feet. âWhat is it?â
âHere,â he hands you the poorly-wrapped frame. âOpen it.â
You scrunch your brows at him once, because you have no idea what it could be. It isnât your birthday, or any sort of holiday at all. With zero guesses, you look down at the light yellow wrapping paper in your hands and slowly tear it open.
What you find makes your eyes grow misty, tears pooling at your lash line but not quite falling.
Itâs your favorite picture, the one of you and Steve in those stupid neon shirts with messy hair and dirt on your hands. Only now, itâs not water damaged, and the frame is new, but decorated just like the old one. You run your thumbs over the glass lightly, smiling down at little you and little Steve.
When you look back up at him, heâs already looking at you, his brown eyes all warm, his smile kind but also worried, waiting for your reaction.
Seeing his face springs you into motion, jumping forward and wrapping your arms around his neck tightly with the frame still in your hand. âThank you,â you say into his skin.
Steveâs arms move to hold you around your waist without a thought. A reflex. They squeeze you close to him, his nose pressed into your damp hair, smelling your shampoo.
âItâs not perfect,â he says. âBut I know how much you love that picture, and I wanted to fix it.â
âSteve. Shut up. It is perfect.â
âIâm glad you think so,â he says, his thumbs running back and forth against your back.
You hug for what couldâve been minutes, but neither of you moves to pull away first. Youâre not sure if itâs still considered friendly to stand in each other's arms, breathing each other in, for so long, but you donât care at the moment.
This is probably the nicest thing anyoneâs done for you in a long, long time.
When you finally do pull away, you donât go far. Your arms stay slung over his shoulders, Steveâs hands framing your hips. His thumbs still dragging those sweet patterns against you.
âIâm keeping it forever,â you tell him.
âYou sure?â he asks.
âCertain. Youâll always be my best friend, Steve.â
âYouâll always be mine too, angel.â
Then, your eyes both move to each otherâs lips, yours flick back up in a second, startled at their wandering.
Steve, however, is a bit transfixed. He looks at the slope of your cupidâs bow, the way your lips are shiny from your lip balm. He thinks it quickly, like a gust of wind that canât be stopped: I really wanna kiss her right now.
Fuck. He wants to kiss his best friend.
He blinks a few times, clearing his throat and pulling back, letting his hands fall from your waist as yours slide off his shoulders. He misses the feel of your touch immediately, but heâs too freaked out and confused to do anything about it.
âWhat are you in the mood for tonight?â he asks, cutting off his own thoughts. âI brought back a horror and a comedy. Take your pick.â
âMmm,â he picks up two tapes from the coffee table and holds them up for you to choose from. âHorror. Unless youâre too scared?â
âYouâll just have to hold my hand, then, wonât you?â
âI guess I will.â
You look back at the picture while Steve puts the movie into the player. You smile at it every time you see it, because you can still see parts of Steve in him now that were in him then.
His eyes, always kind, the way he smiles when he laughs, and about a half hour into the movie, the way he holds your hand and squeezes it when heâs scared.
-
Youâre having one of those nights. The kind where sleep seems to be fighting you.
You worked a closing shift at the arcade, which usually lasts until late considering how long youâre open plus all of the cleaning you have to do afterwards. Today was no different, and despite how much later you finish than him at Family Video, Steve waited and drove you home. He hung out in the arcade with you until close, actually.
Youâd think that after such a long day, the second your head hit the pillow youâd be out and breathing steadily. Today, that is not the case. You fell asleep for maybe an hour before a nightmare woke you up. You canât quite remember what happened, only that youâd been yelling for Steve and he wasnât there.
Groaning quietly, you rub your eyes and toss the blankets away. You stand up and head down to the kitchen in the dark, hand trailing along the walls to make sure you donât bump into anything.
Just as youâre pouring yourself a glass of water, you hear the shuffle of sleepy footsteps coming into the kitchen.
âHoly shit,â he says, walking over to grab a glass, one hand on his bare chest. âI thought you were a ghost or something just now.â
You shift out of the way to let him get some water just like you did, taking the second that heâs distracted to look at him. His hair a mess, wearing nothing but his boxers. You take a big sip from your glass.
âI feel like I should be offended right now,â you say, âif you think I look like a ghost.â
âShut up,â he says, dragging out the second word. His voice being rough from sleep makes his words sound much warmer than they are. âMy eyes arenât awake yet. Nothing to do with you, angel.â
You shake your head, though thereâs a soft smile on your face the way there always seems to be when you try to be annoyed with Steve. You tilt your head at him, asking, âCouldnât sleep?â
He shakes his head. âBeen tossing and turning. Just canât get comfortable, then I got pissed âcause I couldnât get comfortable and only made it worse.â
âYou would get pissed at that. Probably slapped your pillow like it was at fault.â
He folds his lips inwards and blinks at you. Because he did smack his pillow and call it a dipshit. âWhy do you know everything? Spying on me?â
âHate to say it, but youâre getting predictable, Harrington.â You shrug, then move to put your now empty glass in the dishwasher. âI know you too well.â
He looks at you, your hair falling across your shoulders, your pajama shorts riding up a little as you bend down. The moonlight slipping through the window seems to hit you perfectly. Like a halo.
Fitting, he thinks. Youâre his angel, after all.
âYeah, you do,â he agrees. Then, âWhat about you? Whyâre you up?â
âNightmare. Been forever since I had one.â
âYou okay?â he asks, trailing a knuckle over your shoulder, pushing your hair behind it.
âYeah,â you say, skin tingling where heâd touched you. âI can't even remember most of it, but now my brain wonât let me sleep.â
Steve wishes he couldâve protected you from whatever haunted you in your sleep. Itâs silly, he knows, to think he might be able to ward away anything that hurts you, but he wants to, nonetheless.
He thinks about how comfortable he is whenever you cuddle during movie night. Your head on his shoulder or his chest, his hand on your back or waist.
So, he blurts, âWhy donât you sleep over?â
You furrow your brows at him, âUm, Iâve been sleeping over. A couple of weeks now, actually.â
âNo, I mean, like in my room with me,â he says, suddenly shy at the idea. Heâs grateful for the darkness, because he can feel his cheeks warming up. âA proper sleepover.â
Youâve done it before. Shared a bed a bunch of times, but for some reason your heart jumps when he says it. Your stomach swirls as you say, maybe a little too quickly, âOkay.â
Steveâs eyes widen like heâs surprised, just for a split second, before a soft smile takes over his face. He holds out a hand for you to take, âCâmon.â
Soon enough, Steveâs lifting his navy bedspread for you, letting you slip into bed next to him. He stays further away at first, letting you settle and lay on your side the way he knows you always do.
You blame sleepinessâor, maybe, the lack thereofâfor the way you reach behind you for his arm and tug him closer, draping it over your own waist.
He obliges, of course, his arm securing itself across your stomach, palm spread out and warm against your sleep shirt. His chest is only a breath away from your back, though he keeps his lower half a little more distanced.
His thumb runs circles over your shirt, once, twice, three times before stilling, his forehead pressing to the back of your neck.
âGoodnight, angel,â he says into your hair.
Your hand splays itself on top of his. âNight, Steve.â
And suddenly your eyes grow heavier, and sleep doesnât feel like much of a battle anymore.
-
You wake up the most rested youâve felt in a while. Thereâs warmth surrounding you, but not the uncomfortable kind. The kind that feels safe.
Somehow, you and Steve are even closer than youâd been when you fell asleep. His arm is still around your waist, his other outstretched and tucked beneath your head like a pillow. His chest is flush to your back, and you can feel it expand with every breath he takes.
Most differently of all, however, is the way his hips are snug against the curve of your butt. And you can feel him hard against you.
Your skin feels even warmer than before when you notice.
Steve hasnât woken up yet, you donât think, because the faintest snores are getting puffed out against your shoulder where his face is tucked. His hand on your stomach has worked its way beneath your shirt, though, and his fingertips press against your skin, like heâs fighting to keep you close.
As if youâd go anywhere even in your sleep.
His knee is tucked between your legs, and youâre quickly realizing that itâd be pretty impossible to get out of bed without him noticing. Youâre completely tangled together, a knot of limbs somehow fitting together just right. Like two puzzle pieces.
In his sleep, Steveâs mouth presses against the back of your shoulder, and only when you involuntarily shiver at the contact, does he stir.
It takes Steve a bit to really wake up, mumbling words that donât make sense, scrunching his eyes shut even further before blinking them open. Heâs met with the sight of you right in front of him. Body curved perfectly against his.
âSteve? You awake?â you ask, checking.
âMhm,â he hums.
Then, something that has his cheeks flushing pink, he registers the feeling of his boner pressed against your ass. He shuffles them back enough so thereâs space between you. âFuck. Sorry.â
âItâs okay,â you say. Because he canât control the way his body reacts while heâs asleep.
âI didnât think-â he cuts himself off, because heâs not quite sure how to say I didnât think about the whole morning wood factor or that Iâd fucking plaster myself to you when I suggested a sleepover without sounding stupid. Instead, he just repeats, âIâm sorry.â
You twist yourself around to face him, sheets crumpling and twisting as you move. When you settle back onto the pillow and look at his face, at the redness on his cheeks and the tips of his ears, you squeeze his hand thatâs now laying between you.
âItâs okay, really,â you say. âItâs, like, anatomy. Youâre human, Steve.â
âI donât want you to think I invited you to sleep in here for some pervy reason,â he says, scrunching his nose when he says it.
âI donât think that at all,â you tell him. You squeeze his hand again. âWeâve shared a bed like, a hundred times by now. If anything Iâm surprised this hasnât happened already.â
âOh my God,â he groans, shutting his eyes and pushing his face into the pillow.
âSteve,â you drag out his name, fighting a giggle at the way heâs acting. Heâs got a reputation, after all, and how shy and embarrassed he seems to be doesnât reflect the things you heard about him in high school. Heâs changed a lot since then. âItâs seriously fine. We can pretend it never happened. Promise.â
Steve pulls his face from the pillow, eyes catching yours as his fingers squeeze yours back in appreciation. He lets his eyes wander a bit, at the messy bits of your hair around your face from sleeping, the marks in your cheek from the pillowcase, the way your sleep shirt has fallen off your shoulder.
He feels lucky to get to see you this way, right after youâve woken up. Vulnerable, unguarded, beautiful.
Itâs during this small stretch of silence that you realize how close your faces are now. Youâre sharing a pillow, his nose not even an inch from yours. Shift forward the slightest bit, and theyâd be touching. Your eyes trail down to his mouth, to the visible patch of chest hair and the freckles that dot his skin. Heâs already looking right at you when your eyes flick back upwards.
You know Steve, could tell what heâs feeling just from the look on his face, but this is one youâve never seen before. At least, not directed at you.
Steve moves first, his eyes a little darker than usual, shifting forward slightly, then looking at you. Daring you to make the next move.
âWhat if we didnât forget about it?â he says. Quiet and scratchy.
You donât have time to think before you move forward a bit, too. Your noses brush. âWhat would that mean?â
Steve doesnât answer with words. Rather, he moves forward the final bit and brushes his lips against yours in a question mark of a kiss, giving you time to pull away.
You donât.
Instead, the hand of yours that isnât still holding his comes up to the back of his neck, gently encouraging him to do it again. His free hand tightens at your waist as he dips in a second time.
It isnât as tentative now that youâve urged him on. His lips meet yours more sure, more firm, but still soft against you. Neither of you cares one bit about morning breath, or about what this might change. As if the morningâs haze slows time, minds still a little sleepy.
Youâre simply acting on instinct. And this feels too right to stop.
Soon enough it grows more heated, Steve shifting to hover over you, his elbows pushing into the mattress to hold himself up, his tongue sneaking out to lick against the seam of your lips for permission.
Just as you open up for him, the blaring sound of Steve's alarm cuts you off, pulling back with a gasp. He simply leans up on one arm and slams the snooze buttonâand you laugh, you laugh, at how hard he hits itâbefore diving back into you.
You feel hot all over, where one of Steveâs hands has moved to cup your jaw, his thumb running delicately against your face as his mouth moves against yours, practically devouring you. Where the blankets are still over your lower halves, trapping in heat. When he pulls back, looks into your eyes, fucking smiles all dopey and pretty, and then kisses you again.
Itâs so good, youâre almost angry at yourself for not kissing him sooner.
You kiss until his alarm goes off again and Steve's forced to pry himself away from you, groaning about being on his âlast tardy warningâ from Keith.
Still, he takes the time to kiss your forehead on his way out, Family Video vest slung over his shoulder, calling a sweet, âbye, angel,â on his way out. His hairâs still a mess from your fingers, and he doesnât even seem to mind.
You stay in his bed longer than you probably should, blinking up at the ceiling, fingers pressed against your lips like youâre searching for physical proof that everything was real.
What the fuck just happened?
-
Itâs been a couple of weeks, and Steve canât stop thinking about that kiss. He doesnât know it, but you canât stop thinking about it either.
Neither of you have brought it up, and things have faded back to normal as if it had never happened. But you and Steve are both thinking the same things without knowing it. How good and natural and easy it felt, how, every now and then, you think about doing it again.
You talk and joke and watch movies and eat meals together the same way you always have, and itâd be so easy to stay that way, to never kiss again. But then, what if you could stay that way and kiss? Wouldnât that be something close to perfect?
You lay awake thinking about it every few nights. Because, when you really reflect on your life and how intertwined it is with Steveâs, you realize that youâve sort of always acted like a couple, minus the kissing and sex aspect. You go on what could easily be classified as datesâthe movies, lunch or dinnerâyou cuddle on the couch almost nightly, and youâve never shied away from physical touch with one another. Held hands, a palm on your back.
You havenât brought it up with Steve because you havenât even come to terms with it yourself. Feelings are so fucking confusing and messy and youâd like to have a better idea of whatâs going on in your own head before asking him about his.
Meanwhile, Steve has allowed himself to come to terms with it. Heâs in love with you.
Heâs pretty sure he has been for a while. Months, maybe even years.
It hadnât come easily, though. It was nights spent similarly to yours, running through interactions youâve had and the way he felt that one time in senior year when you went on a date with some guy from your math class. Even then, a part of him felt wrong about it, that pit in his gut.
Then there were his shifts with Robin at Family Video where heâd practically spilled everything just to get her opinion. She looked up and sighed âthank youâ before saying that it was nice of him to finally catch on.
Had he really been that obvious? All this time? And had he really been that oblivious to his own feelings?
Steve canât answer those questions. He canât say when his love for you changed from platonic to romantic, he just knows that it has and he doesnât think heâll ever come back from it.
Youâre his best friend in the entire world, the prettiest girl heâs ever seen, and he canât picture himself loving anyone but you so wholly.
Heâs fucking terrified of losing you, but heâs also terrified of never telling you how he feels and testing that what if.
So, like a desperate idiot, he knocks on the door to Eddieâs trailer.
Eddie opens it after a minute and what sounded like him stubbing his toe, âoh, hey Harrington. More weed?â
âNo, shut up. I need your help.â
âYou,â Eddie points at Steve, then at himself, âneed my help for something? Are you ill?â
âOkay,â Steve, dramatic and bitchy as usual, sighs and mutters something about this being a stupid idea and turns to leave.
âCome on,â Eddie laughs, âIâm just joking. Whatâs up?â
Soon enough, Steveâs sitting on Eddieâs couch, Eddie pacing in front of the coffee table like this is a very serious matter, and telling him pretty much everything. Your kiss, the train of thought it sparked.
âBasically Iâm in love with her and I have no clue what to do,â Steve finishes, sinking back into the couch cushions. It squeaks as he shifts.
Eddie pauses, tugging at his bottom lip between his fingers, then looks at Steve and says, âYou know Iâve never dated anyone in my life, right?â
Steve groans into his hands, âWhy do all of my friends have to be losers with no dating lives.â
Eddie ignores that, because he can tell how affected Steve actually is by all of this. How much he cares. He walks over and sits down on the opposite end of the couch. âHave you ever thought of, I donât know, telling her how you feel?â
Steve rests his elbows on his knees, leaning forward and letting his head hang for a moment before picking it up. âOf course I have, but Iâm fuckinâ scared.â
âWhatâs the worst that could happen?â
âUm, she could reject me and not feel the same way and everything would be awkward because I ruined it and Iâd lose my best friend in the entire world.â
âWhat if she does feel the same?â Eddie asks.
Heâs both yours and Steveâs friend, heâs been around the both of you together. Heâs seen the way you look at each other. Eddie might not be an expert, but itâs always looked a lot like love to him. Heâs pretty sure the chances of you feeling the same are quite high.
âWhat do you mean?â
âWhat if she does feel the same and you never figure it out because youâre too afraid?â Eddie says. âMan, donât you think that risk is worth taking?â
Steve thinks about it, and as much as he hates to admit it, Eddieâs right. Heâd hate to always wonder, to lose out on the chance to really be with you when he knows it could be so good.
You are worth the risk to him.
âWhen the fuck did you become so wise, Munson?â
âDunno,â Eddie shrugs. âWanna smoke?â
Steve laughs, âYes I do.â
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With Steve gone at work and you off for the day, thereâs been too much room for your thoughts to creep in. Too much silence.
Youâve already been thinking about things so much. Thinking about him so much, that in his absence, your mind seemed to work overtime to fill in the gaps.
You thought about the day he picked you up from your apartment, how quick he was to drop whatever heâd been doing and come over and help you and take you home with him. The day he took you shopping and bought you a dress because he thought you looked pretty in it, the way his fingers fiddled with the strap on your shoulder when you tried it on for him.
The day he gifted you a remade version of your favorite picture from summer camp because he knew how much it meant to you, the way you held on to each other afterwards.
How youâd been waiting for him to get home that night he went to Eddieâs, just to make sure he was okay. How when he came in, he smiled at the sight of you curled on the couch, and he kissed your cheek when he walked by like it was the easiest thing in the world.
Your brain knew he was high, you could smell the weed mingling with his cologne on his clothes when he leaned in close, but your heart didnât care about that. It thumped in your chest the second he leaned in closer, even worse when his lips touched your cheek.
The realization hits you now like a shock, a quick zip of electricity running through your system. You fucking love him.
Sure, youâve loved Steve practically your whole life, but this was different. You love him, love him. Like, you want to kiss him when he comes home from work and in the morning. You want him to introduce you as his girlfriend and to be able to call him your boyfriend.
You feel stupid for not realizing it sooner, because looking back on things now, knowing how you feel, you can see it written throughout your entire friendship. Holding hands and kissing foreheads and hands pushing hair away from faces.
For a second, youâre purely happy, because you get to be in love with your best friend and it feels as warm and sweet as sunlight. Then, the fear creeps in, and youâre scared. Scared of losing him, of making things weird, of change and doing the wrong thing.
So scared that you start to panic and pack up some of your things in your bag like youâre running away.
Truthfully, youâre not sure what else to do. Youâve never been in love before, youâve never known it this wayâso kind and unconditional. And your parents sure as hell didnât set a good example for you. Theyâd fight, and someone would leave with the slam of a door, and then theyâd be back and the cycle would continue.
Youâre scared and confused and your instincts are telling you to run away even though the only place you really wanna be is with Steve. In his arms.
Youâre stuffing clothes into your bag just to keep your hands busy, breathing hard and fast, when you hear the front door open and close. Steveâs quick to find you, his eyes scanning your room and then looking at you. âWhat are you doing?â
You feel like you might cry just looking at him. His brown eyes worried but warm as always, his hands stuffed into his pockets like heâs nervous.
âI thought you werenât supposed to be home until later,â you say, hoping he canât hear the shake in your voice.
âIt was dead, so Keith let me off early. I-â Steve furrows his brows, âare you leaving?â
You nod. âIâve been in your way long enough.â
âI told you, youâre never in my way.â Steve knows you, and he loves you, and he can tell that thereâs something going on. That youâre panicked and trying to get away from whatever it is. He cares too much to let that happen. âI want you to stay.â
You want to stay, too. You just donât know what comes next, and that unknown, the lack of control, of familiarity, it makes your hands shake.
Your mind doesnât work the same when youâre afraid.
âGive me one good reason why I should stay, Steve. Iâve been taking up your space for weeks and-â
âBecause I love you.â Steve cuts you off. He hadnât planned on telling you this way, he wanted it to be romantic and perfect but he canât wait any longer. Especially not when youâre trying to run away. âIâm in love with you. And I want you here.â
You immediately stop in your tracks, blinking up at him like youâre not sure youâd heard him correctly. âYou- what?â
âI love you. Romantically. And I think I have for a really long time.â
âYouâre not high again, are you?â You ask, your eyes a little misty.
Steve walks over to you and grabs both of your hands in his, making sure youâre looking at him, at the sincerity written all over his face, when he says, âCompletely sober. I fucking love you and I want you to keep living with me, because this house doesnât really feel like home unless youâre in it.â
âWhat about when my apartment is ready?â
He squeezes your hands. âStay then, too. Stay forever.â
You look up at him, his hair falling over his forehead, his eyes so honest, a tentative smile on his mouth. The only boy youâve ever loved.
You feel silly for trying to escape this when this is how itâs turning out. Steve had been brave just now, telling you he loves you and he wants you to stay, so you decide to be brave, too.
Itâs easier than you thought it would be to say: âI love you, too, Steve. I feel the same. I only just realized it and freaked out. Iâm so scared of losing you, is all.â
âYou wonât. Not ever.â
You tip your chin up to kiss him after he says it, because you can. You pour your feelings into it, and Steve returns your kiss as if itâs one heâs known for years. Itâs slow, and deep, and sweet, and so full of love youâre practically overflowing with it.
The two of you only pull away when you need a breather. Steve doesnât go far, resting his forehead against yours.
âSo what happens now?â You ask.
âWell, weâve been acting like a couple for a while, I think, so we stay the same. Mostly. Except now I get to call you my girlfriend-â
âUm, Iâm pretty sure youâre supposed to ask me first.â
He lets go of one of your hands and pushes a loose strand of hair behind your ear, his knuckle running lovingly across your cheek. âMy angel girl, will you be my girlfriend?â
Your grin is wide and lovesick and cheesy and you donât care one bit. âYeah, yes I will. Boyfriend.â
âAnd, being your boyfriend means I get to do this.â
He kisses you once more. And you donât ever want to not be kissing him again.
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[BABY FEVER! PT.1]
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đ/đ: wrote this one when i first started if you can't tell by the mention of pedro and tlou! my absence explained in another post! âĄď¸
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Charles loved his fans, especially Tifosi. After you, his family and friends, they were the most important people in his lives and constantly motivated him. Most of them were kind and sweet to him and loved and cherished you more than they loved him.
That's why whenever fans asked for photos with you, the both of you or autographs, Charles always accepted. He rarely refused them unless the fans gave off a certain vibe that rubbed him the wrong way; crazed fans or fans who liked you a little bit too much for his liking.
His favourite fans normally, however, were children. It was definitely pressurising to have that many children look up to him but Charles found it rewarding. They were so young and full of dreams that he could help fulfil. They always looked at him wide-eyed with their jaws open as if they had just seen an angel walk by, similarly to how Charles reacted when he had first seen you in the streets of Monaco.
Today was no exception. It was currently the mid-season break and you two were roaming the partially empty streets after having breakfast out, relishing in the privacy of Monaco. Halfway through your walk, you and Charles had bumped into some small fans, literally.
A set of 3-year old twin sisters and a boy who only seemed a year or two older had run to Charles and you yelling 'Charles!' and 'It's Ferrari!'.
Charles instantly was smiling at them, crouching down to talk to them and entertain all their bombarding questions that flew one after the other.
"Is the car really that fast?"
"Can I go in the car?!"
"I hope you win!"
You chuckled softly as Charles answered them with ease. You looked at the parents who also seemed to be equally as excited as their children. "Do you want me to take a photo for you guys?" You inquired softly.
The parents looked at you with wide eyes. "Can you? If it's no bother!" The father fretted, sharing a slightly alarmed expression with his wife.
You shook your head and smiled. "It's not a problem." They held out their phone and you took it into your hands, opening the camera. You hummed as you looked at the group. "Let's do three photos. One with the three angels, one with the parents and one family one?" You asked.
The parents were about to nod when the kids suddenly refused. "Four! We want one with a pretty girl!" One of the sisters yelled out, pointing at you.
Your mouth fell open while your body flushed with slight embarrassment. Charles grinned at you, agreeing with the children profusely. You gave a playful sigh and nodded. The children and parents began to poise for the camera several times and left the last one for you to take a selfie with them.
The parents turned to Charles, inviting him into a conversation as they apologised for the kids running to him all of a sudden.
You could hear Charles say it was fine when you felt a tug at the bottom your dress. You crouched down to the children who now crowded you.
The boy looked at you wide-eyed while the two girls poked your arm and asked "Are you a princess?"
You smiled softly. "I am!" You implored, "How did you know?" You asked in a hushed tone.
The children giggled. "Princesses are always pretty, that's why!" The boy said with red cheeks.
You hummed, pondering over the statement. You brought your hand out to pat the girls' heads and pinch the little boy's chubby cheeks. "That must mean all of you are also princesses and princes, hmm?"
The children cheered in agreement, giggling to themselves before discussing who was the best prince or princesses out of them all.
"I'm the best prince!" One sister said, putting her hands on her hips in determination. Her older brother looked at her almost offended. "How can that be? I'm the best. I'm older."
The other sister looked at her siblings dumbfounded. "Why can't we all be the best?" She sighed.
You grinned at her answer. "You're right! You are all the best. Equally. You know why?" You asked.
Three pair of big eyes looked at you with curiosity swirling within them as they shook their small heads 'no'.
You brought their hands together and held them in your palm. "Because you're siblings. You're family. That's the best."
The kids stared at you blankly, probably trying digest your words as much as they could at that age. The previous sister smiled widely, letting out a deafening yell, running to her mother. "Did you hear that, maman? We're all the best!" She screamed with joy.
You stood from the ground slowly, grinning at all the kids. "I did. We all heard that, ma cheriĂŠ. It's true!" The mother chorused, giving you a thankful smile.
You smiled in response, shaking your head as if it was nothing. The parents and kids began to say goodbye to you and Charles, although the latter did so rather reluctantly as you walked over to your boyfriend.
You raised a brow at the dazed expression on Charles' face. "Cha? Mon amour, what's going on in that head of yours?" You hooked your arm with his, resting your head on his shoulder.
Charles blinked. "Hmm? Oh, nothing. Just thinking about those kids. Cute, right?" He breathed out, pressing a kiss to the side of your head.
You smiled. "Very," You agreed as the two of you began to walk to Charles' car.
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Arriving home, the two of you decided to lounge in your living room, not bothered to do anything else for the day. You had managed to put on the newest episode of 'The Last of Us', eager to find out what was happening next.
You and Charles laid on the couch; your head resting on his chest while he cuddled you from behind. You were intently watching Pedro Pascal after being besieged with edit after edit of him on TikTok. Charles on the other hand wasn't focusing at all.
All he could think about what those kids you and him had met earlier that morning. Specifically, you conversing with them. You hadn't realised since you were so caught up with them, but at one point him and the parents had stopped talking and tuned into your conversation with the kids.
Charles had talked to you about kids before. You both wanted them and although Charles always talked about having three kids specifically, just like him and his brothers, he would leave it up to whatever you wanted because at the end of the day, it was you giving birth, not him. He would prefer to have children when he was slightly a bit more older, you both had more control over his life, and obviously with at least one championship under his belt.
But after today, Charles was prepared to throw that plan away. As lewd as it was, the idea of you getting you pregnant and having a family not only touched his heart, but immorally touched his cock.
Knowing that he would have to ensure that his cum was entirely within you, stuffed into your cervix, and not letting a single drop come out made him feel feral. To make matters worse, you would look like a goddess when pregnant because hell, you were so beautiful now. Round and full with his child because he made sure to fuck you till you were overflowing with his cum. Or when your breasts became heavy and sensitive to his touch, leaking sporadically, giving him the opportunity to clean you up with his mouth.
God, he was an animal. The worst.
"Charles, what are you doing?" Your voice erupted into the air, breaking him out of his deep train of thought.
Charles blinked at your question in confusion before he looked down, seeing his hand traversing under your dress and up your inner thigh. He looked over to your amused eyes peering at him.
"Sorry," He let out with a sigh, rubbing the warm flesh of your thigh softly. "I just... I can't stop thinking about children."
You raised a brow, not seeing the correlation to Charles' wondering hand. "Children?" You iterated, running a hand through his hair.
Charles shut his eyes at your actions, feeling at ease. "Those kids today... make me want our own children. Now. I want to have children now."
Charles peeked his eyes open, looking at your astounded expression with a bit of fear. "What about our plans? What was it? Thirty-three, a championship, lives under control, and then children?" You queried. "I-I'm not mad or anything, Cha. Just curious. Why the change of heart all of sudden?
You had now turned to face Charles, knees on either side of him, straddling his lap as you became fully attentive to him.
Charles played with the tresses of your hair that had fallen past your face before tucking them gently behind your ear. "You would just make such a good mother, mon ange. You're so sweet and kind. You now how to talk to them. God, pregnancy would look so good on you. I can't stop thinking about you pregnant," Charles let out a small moan a thought. "You all round with our child, hormonal, sensitive at my touch."
Charles' fingers brushed over your neck, making you shudder involuntarily. You melted at his words. Charles thought a great deal of you. You weren't opposed to the idea either, in fact all of his words were making you hornier by the minute.
"You know what?" You queried, "I also want to have children. You would make an amazing father, Cha. I know you would," You softly said, pressing a brief kiss to his lips.
Charles pulled away, boring his gaze into you. "Yeah?" He whispered, eyes soft and full of lust and love.
"Yeah," You repeated. "A father of all three," You teased, giving him a small knowing smile.
Charles' eyes darkened slightly at your words. His hands rested on your hips, his half-hard on in his pants turned harder, pressing into your clothed pussy. "Mon amour," He whispered into your ear, making the hairs on your body stand straight. "Should I fuck a baby into you?" He pulled his face back, waiting for your answer.
You sunk your teeth into your bottom lip, relishing in his words. "If you're going to fuck a baby in me, Charles, you better do it right the first time."
Charles groaned, grinning at your words. Staring at you with a fiery gaze, he quickly brought you down into a hungry kiss. His grip on your hips tightened while your hands became entangled in his hair. Another groan fell against your lips when you tugged at his locks.
Your heart slammed against your chest, beating loudly in your ears. Your skin was heated with Charles' touch ravaging all over you; grazing your arms, squeezing your ass only for you to press further into him. Your stomach surged with desire, feeling his clothed cock grind into you. "Fuck," Your swollen lips uttered out, high with an intoxicating buzz circulating your veins.
"Charles, I needâ" You began only to be cut off by your own whimper as Charles bucked his hips up into you, setting a pace of stimulation with the tent of his pants and the gritty material of his shorts.
Charles smiled at the sight of your head thrown back and your back arching. "What do you need, ma cheriĂŠ? Hmm? Tell me and I'll give it to you, my love," He sighed out, feeling his cock ache in its restraints.
"Fuck, j'ai besoin de ta bite, Charles," You murmured, feeling the temperature of your body rise with every passing second. Fuck, I need your cock, Charles.
Charles grinned at your use of French so early on. Normally when you were nearing your climax, you would lose yourself to all the French you knew. "As you wish, princesse," He stated. "Let's get this off, hmm?" He began to slid down the straps of your dress, pressing warm kisses on your shoulder. The sight of your bare breasts made him sigh in content, licking a strip from the base of your neck and down the valley of your breasts.
You felt a shiver crawl up your spine, feeling Charles' hands wander down your back while he pushed the fabric past your ass, hooking his fingers under your the waistband of your panties. You lifted your body up, aiding him in getting rid of your dress and underwear.
You settled back down on Charles' lap, pushing your wet core against his clothed cock. Charles nipped at your neck, dazed at the feeling of your pussy on him. Your hands reached out, rushing to get those shorts and shirt off of him. Pulling his shirt of him, you placed a trail of kisses down his chest. You could feel his lower stomach tense as you neared his waistband. With a grin, impatiently, you took off his shorts and the boxers underneath.
Your stomach churned and pussy throbbed at Charles' red, aching cock springing up, begging to be touched. You flickered your sultry gaze to your boyfriend, reaching over to put your fingers in his mouth.
Charles maintained eye-contact, lubing your fingers generously with his spit before he felt a shudder rip through him when you teasingly pushed your pussy to graze the angry tip of his cock.
"Vous taquinez," Charles uttered out almost with a whine after you removed your fingers. You tease.
"Don't be too sad, mon amour," You breathed out, trailing your wet fingers over his v-line before wrapping them around his cock. Charles sucked in a sharp breath as your hand began move up and down his shaft, mixing his spit and his pre-cum together, giving him a new, unique shine of his own.
"You wanted to see me pregnant, right? Full of your cum. So pregnant that everyone will know in a few months that you fucked me that good," You started, eyes trained on him while you pumped his cock with a tantalising grip. "We need a lot of your cum today. I'm just getting you prepared," You purred.
Charles let out a series of high moans, letting your words wash all over him and mix with his euphoria. His fingers reached out to your wet folds, stroking your heated slip with need. You trembled at his touch, bucking your hip against his fingers, increasing the pace of your hand on his cock.
Both of you moaned loudly while you jerked each other off, breathy sounds bouncing off the walls of your apartment. "Merde," Charles swore, pressing his head further into the couch, hips sensitively bucking into your hand as you brushed the slit of his cock.
He pushed himself, refusing to slack at your pleasure. He rubbed your pussy, groaning at the wet, glistening folds that were coating his fingers. You moaned, feeling a familiar buzzing pool in your stomach. "I need to," Charles panted out, covering your hand with his to stop you, "I need to..." He trailed off once again, pulling you closer to him.
Charles could barely think straight. He didn't know what he was saying or what he was doing. All he knew was that he needed to feel your pussy against his cock.
A guttural whimper escaped your mouth when Charles rubbed his cock against your folds. God, the both of you could get off just like this. He sighed out, eyes clouded with pleasure while he bathed in the warmth of your pussy. He could feel you jerk time to time against him, sensitive from nearing your climax.
You were was a sight to behold. You couldn't control your hips or yourself. You were just so receptive, automatically rubbing your pussy and clit up and down the head of cock. Your head falling back, supported by air while your back arched with lust. Sweat clung to your warmed body and your dry hair was now coated in a light sheen of grease. Face contorted with pleasure and flushed with heat.
"I'm gonna cum, fuck," Charles hissed out, partially angry that he already was about to climax but how could he not at such a view and feeling?
You blinked through your pleasure, remembering how you had gotten into this situation in the first place. You pushed your hips to him, hovering over his cock and sliding down onto him. You whimpered, feeling full with his throbbing cock in you.
Charles groaned, feeling your warm walls clench around him as you began to move your hips up and down. He watched your breasts bounce, making him flicker to that thought of them being full with milk once he got you pregnant. He would be selfish and have a taste of them himself.
Your pussy was a siphon, drawing and pulling his cock even further into you. Charles placed his hands on your hips, pushing you down on his cock to ensure he was balls-deep within you, fully sheathed. The breathy air was now replaced with both of your lewd moans and the sound of your skin slapping and sticking against one another.
"Merde, merde," Charles began to chant, increasing the pace of his hips snapping and rutting into your folds. Your hands fell to his own hands, tightening around them as pleasure bubbled at the pits of your stomach.
"Fuck, Charles. Cum in me, mon amour. Fais de moi une mère. Hmm? Imagine it. I'll be even more sensitive, my tits will be heavy and sore with milk and I'll ask you to massage them... everyone will know what we did," You moaned loudly. Make me a mother.
Charles's hips came to a halt, shaking with pleasure while he poured ropes and ropes of his hot cum deep into your walls. He let out staggered moans, feeling you clench around him and take even more of his load. Charles pressed his swollen lips onto your, kissing you dizzy while he thrusted out his high, ensuring his cum was staying within you.
Charles sighed out, pressing his forehead against yours. Realising you were once again on the brink of cumming, with his cock still in you, he brought his fingers to your engorged clit, rubbing the sensitive nub gently yet harshly.
He felt your walls grip him even tighter if possible as you began to convulse in his arms. "Jesus fucking Christ," You sobbed out, waves of your euphoric climax hitting you.
Christ, you were so sensitive, hips jerking up against his fingers, grinding to maximise your stimulation. He couldn't even stop you if he wanted to.
"Merde, ma cheriĂŠ, cum for me. Yes, just like that," Charles coaxed, groaning as you somehow managed to get more cum out of him.
You let out a final whimper before collapsing onto him, feeling Charles' softening cock drive and push the cum deeper into you. You let out a low moan against his chest.
Charles pushed your chin up with his finger, looking into your eyes. He smiled, pressing a slow, soft kiss to your lips. "You did so well, mon amour," He praised, running a hand through your sweaty hair, getting a better glance of your face.
You gave him a weak smile, peering up at him through your eyelashes. "You think we did a good job?" You queried, voice quiet and tired. "You think we'll have a child soon?"
Charles grinned at you, planting another kiss on the side of your head. "If I didn't, I'll fuck you again and make sure that test has two lines."
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shining light.
tags: spencer reid x fem!reader. dad!spencer reid. reader goes into early labor. childbirth complications, but nothing explicit or detailed. GIRL DAD SPENCER REID! a/n: girl dad spencer reid brain rot. im so consumed by thoughts of him that i havent edited this yet (i havent edited kiss kiss and wonderstruck yet either lol) i hope u like this as much as i liked writing it :) masterlist. requests are open !
â911, whatâs your emergency?â
âHello?â
âHello, are you okay?â
âMy mommy is in a lot of hurt,â a child sniffles from the other side of the line, âAnd dadda is away at work.â
âOh, honey. How did your mommy get hurt?â
âShe was in the ki-chen and I was reading. And then I think she fell.â
âIs your mommy with you? Is she awake?â
âYeah. But mommy is crying,â the little girlâs voice turns faint, like sheâs speaking away from the phone, âMommy! Are you okay? Is bubba okay?!â
Thereâs an indistinct voice that answers back.
âHoney? Are you there? Whatâs your name?â
âIâm Ellie Reid. My dadda is Spencer. He works with aunt Penny and aunt JJ at âquanicoâ to catch bad guys.â
âOkay, Ellie. Whoâs bubba?â
âThe bubba in mommyâs tummy?â
âYour mommy has a baby in her tummy?â
âItâs a baby sister.â
âOh, that sounds wonderful, Ellie.â
âAre you on your way now?â the sweet voice asks.
âYes, Ellie. The paramedics are at your door. Can you let them in?â
âOkay.â
Spencer rushes through the hallway, JJ and Emily just a few steps behind him. As soon as the plane landed, an agent alerted the unit to a 911 call made by Spencerâs daughter. Words unneeded, Derek got into an SUV, immediately and silently offering to drive Spencer to the hospital. JJ and Emily got into the SUV with him, worry filling the blonde, though Spencer doesnât have the mind to think about the others. His mind is solely focused on you.
Are you in pain? All he knew was that Ellie was the one to call for help. Said you fell in the kitchen. Were you hurt? Was your baby hurt?
âSpencer!â Penelope was waiting for him as he turns a corner.
âWhere is she? Is she okay?â
âMommyâs okay, dadda.â Ellie peeps up from behind Penelopeâs skirts.
âOh, my angel,â Spencer falls to his knees, arms opening to take his daughter in his arms. âYou did so well. You remembered the emergency number, huh?â
âYou said to press 911 in our phone if anything bad happens. Mommy got a big hurt.â
âI know. You were so good,â he presses a kiss on her soft, curly hair. His hands are rubbing up and down Ellieâs back. Whether he was soothing his daughter or himself didnât matter.
âSheâs in labor. Her contractions were bad bad. A nurse told me that the babyâs breeched.â
âDadda, what does breech mean?â Ellieâs râs still sounded like wâs, and Spencerâs heart completely melted.
He looks down at the little girl in his arms, her face still hidden against his chest.
âDo you remember the photo we showed you of bubba?â
âThe weird black and white one?â
âYeah,â he passes a hand against her hair, âA breech means that bubbaâs standing up inside mommyâs belly. Not upside down how sheâs supposed to be.â
âSheâs so silly,â Ellie giggles. Spencer smiles back, he hears soft laughter from the three women surrounding them, âYeah, bubbaâs really silly.â
âDid she hurt mommy?â
âNo, angel. She didnât mean to.â
âOh,â Ellie whispers. She looks up at her dad, âI knew you were gonna come.â
âYeah? You did?â
âYouâre a hero, of course youâre gonna save mommy when sheâs hurt.â
Spencer wipes his thumb against his daughterâs soft cheek, âOf course. Iâll save you when youâre hurt too, Ellie-darling.â
âI know that,â she says matter-of-factly.
A nurse walks up to their group, âAre you the family of Y/N Reid?â
Spencer stands with Ellie on his hip, her little arms wrapped around his neck.
âYes, Iâm her husband.â
âCongratulations, sir. You have a healthy baby girl,â he feels the sigh of relief from everyone with him.
âHowâs my wife?â
âHowâs mommy?â
Spencer and Ellie were almost simultaneous in their concern for you.
âSheâs fine. Sheâs sedated. The birth took a huge toll on her. You can enter her room, if you want.â
Derek finally arrives. Heâs catching his breath from his run, his eyes meeting Spencerâs quickly before he exclaims, âEllie-bean!â
âUncle Derek!â Ellie wriggles in Spencerâs arms, he bends down to let her down.
Short legs run to her favorite uncle.
âWeâre going to mommy and bubba now!â
Derek stands with Ellie in his arms. He looks to Spencer. âYeah? Y/Nâs okay?â
âWe can visit her now,â JJ says with a small smile.
The group starts walking. On their way from the visitorâs lounge to your hospital room, Spencer overhears Ellieâs whispering; âUncle Derek.â
âYeah, Ellie-bean?â Derek whispers back.
âI want pretzels.â
âSalted? Cheese?â
âUm, salted. Please. And apple juice too.â
Spencer canât fight the grin on his face.
âAlright, Ellie-bean. Weâll get pretzels and juice after we see your mom.â
âPromise?â
âI promise,â Derek shifts to bring Ellie higher against his hip.
âPinky promise?â
âI pinky promise. On my badge and credentials.â
Ellie lets out a giggle, âDadda!â
Spencer turns his head to give her a smile, âWhatâs up, angel?â
âWhat does cre-den-shals mean?â
Oh, his Eleanor. Always so bright.
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Charles Leclerc x Fem!reader x Alexandra Saint Mleux
Summary: Charles and Alex gets so clingy itâs adorable
Genre: Short Fluff, Throuple!
Tw: not anything in particular js some grammatical error and mind u this is not profread
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Yn.cult NEXT TIME I PROMISE
Bellahadid You betterđ¤¨
Alexandrasaintmleux Pretty as always ma fille
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Charles_Lecler I think youâre pretty too!
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User2 Nah cause iâd do the same ngl
Ex.bf Staying there too! Maybe we should hang out!
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User5 itâs called the y/n effectâ¨
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Alex pouted, her brows knitted in a frown as she stared blankly at your post; constantly refreshing it to see whether or not you replied to her comment yet.
But every time she does, she gets disappointedânot seeing your reply just makes her grow fonder of your presence.
With a deep sighed, Alex turned off her phone and buried her face in y/nâs favorite pillow. The one she uses every time they sleep, the one that has her lingering smell on it, and the one Charles and Alex coddles up whenever they miss you. Which is constantly so they fight about whoever gets it.
Alex stared blankly at the ceiling, her mind was clouded with the thoughts of you. She just misses you so much itâs killing her. Literally.
The only reason you were out was because of your job; you love modeling thatâs why they couldnât have the guts to stop you from going. But now they just wished that they stopped you.
âUghhhhhâ she sighed, dragging the h along the tone of her boredness. Her voice echoing around the empty room which caught the attention of their boyfriend.
âWhatâs the matter, bĂŠbĂŠ?â Charles asked, peeking his head into the doorframe.
Alex lazily dragged her head up to face charles. âEverythingâs cool, i just miss her is allâ she mumbled, her voice laced with sadness and longing.
Charles smiled emphatically, he knows what itâs like to miss youâ heâs going through that too but heâs not taking it as hard like Alex though. Heâs trying to act strong for the both of them, i mean someone has to, right?
Alex felt the couch dipped down as Charles sat besides her frame. âShould we call y/n and see whatâs sheâs up to?â He asked, rubbing soft circles around her back.
âNoâ she replied all muffled due to her head still facing down and resting on your pillow.
She wanted them to call you; to hear your sweet voice. Alex wanted nothing more than that, but then again she doesnât want to disturb you and ruin your fun.
âLetâs just watch a movie and try to get our minds of her, yeah?â Sighing defeatedly, alex nodded her head and muttered a low âsureâ making Charles smile happily.
So thatâs what they did, they watched a movie, and ate all the food they could find in the house until they fell asleep.
They woke up the very next dayâ saw your recent post and started to miss you like crazy again.
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Got bored and wanted to make this, hope you guys enjoy itt!!
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HELLOOO idk if ur requests are on rn so take ur time with this request and get to it at ur own time but i was wondering if u could make a short one shot fic abt reader who is in a relationship with katsuki and is at home while he's out in patrol and she sees his location with life 360 and sees that he's beside some sort of restaurant or supermarket so she texts him smth like
i see ur beside the ramen place i like can u buy dinner tonight đ
AND THEN KATSUKI IS JUST đ¤Źđ¤Źđ¤Ź WTF HOW DO U KNOW WHERE I AM ARE U OUTSIDE RN
all lighthearted and funny :))
THANK UUU SO MUCHH đđ
LMFAOOOO thjs js so funnyđđđ tysm for this ask i hope i did it some justice :33 hope youâre still stickin around to read it anon ! Short lil drabble, much luv xx
âsince youâre by that ramen place i like you can get some for dinner đđâ
â ? what the fuckâ
âwhere are you.â
â?â
before you can send another text message, your phone lights up with your boyfriendâs caller id, you giggle.
âhi, baby.â
âwhere the fuck are you at ?â
you snort, readjusting on your sofa âwhat are you talking about ?â you ask teasingly.
you catch the sound of people talking as you hear katsuki grumbling to himself âi donât see you.â
you giggle, kicking your legs a little âand why would you need to see me ?â
katsuki groans, already exasperated and growing more and more impatient, youâre surprised he hasnât started cursing your entire bloodline yet âquit it with that mysterious bullshit, how do you know where iâm at.â
and just to mess with him, you respond âi see you.â
itâs quiet on his end for a moment, aside from the chatter on the street âyn. iâll fucking kill you.â you throw your head back and laugh âonce i find you, youâre done for. your ass is grass.â
âi like it when you talk dirty to me.â you joke, he scoffs hard on the other end âfreak.â you hear him mumble, you giggle some more.
âiâm at home, just saw your location and decided to ask you to get me some food.â
âget you some food.â he bites, scoffing in disbelief.
âus, get us some food. pretty please, suki ?â you use your sweetest voice, maybe he might even be able to imagine your puppy dog eyes through the phone.
he laughs sarcastically âright. what makes you think you deserve to get anything after that little stunt you pulled, huh ?â
you pout, whining so he knows you are âi was just kidding, was jusâ a little jokey-joke.â you canât help but tease him a bit more.
âyeah, my ass.â you snort loudly, laughing and the huff he lets out clearly lets you know heâs not amused, you can see him rolling his eyes at your antics.
âweâll see.â is the answer he graces you with. you squeal, cus you know that means you won. katsuki is quick to remind you he didnât say yes, but you already know his mindâs been made.
âiâm surprised you didnât ask me why i have your location on my phone.â you hum.
katsuki sounds utterly confused by your question when he responds âwhy would i give a shit about that ? sânot like i get somethinâ to hide. donât care if you know where iâm at.â he responds simply.
âsides, i know how obsessed you are with me, soââ
âiâm hanging up now, katsuki. get me my ramen. toodles.â your bitter tone makes him laugh, and just to piss you off some more he adds in a honeyed sweet âsee you later, babe. love ya.â before he hangs up. you huff shaking your head. a text pings and you swipe up to check it, itâs from katsuki again.
âiâm not getting you shit btw.â
he does indeed come back with ramen.
#this was so funny to me omg#cash has been busy w school sorry for leaving yall :<#tysm anon !!#bakugou katsuki x reader#katsuki bakugou x reader#bakugo fluff#bakugou imagine#bakugou x reader#katsuki x reader#katsuki bakugo x reader#bakugo x reader#katsuki bakugou x you#bakugo katsuki x reader#katsuki fluff#katsuki x y/n#katsuki x you#katsuki bakugou x female reader#bakugou x you#bakugou x y/n#bakugou x fem!reader#katsuki bakugo x female reader#katsuki bakugo x you#not proofread but will fix later !!#its a short lil thing tho !
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more than enough | lando norris
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request: here !
requested: Hi lovely, I loved just friends!! Since reading, all Iâve been able to thinking about is bestfriend/roomate Lando. Maybe youâre not able to join him for race weekend and he hasnât heard from you, like at all. When he returns, he thinks youâre not home until he hears the sobs and realises something is really wrong. Maybe youâve broken up with your boyfriend and Lando is standing on the other side of your locked bedroom door, absolutely in love with you and hurting because youâre hurting đŤ
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landonorris WE FUCKING DID IT!!!!! P1 in Miami!!!!! you bitches can't call me lando nowins anymore!!!
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fan you can tell lando runs his own social media... âł mclaren it is our biggest burden
oscarpiastri well done mate! well deserved! âĽď¸ landonorris âł landonorris you next osc!!!
maxverstappen1 i said i'd have to collect my wins before you start coming for them, congrats winner! âĽď¸ landonorris
mclaren our papaya boy, you will always be loved (heart) âĽď¸ landonorris
fan WHERE IS Y/N?????? âł fan lando said in an interview that she couldn't come this week!!!! i'm sure she texted / called him
fan i know y/ns screaming and crying at the fact she couldn't be there this week
fan no lando / y/n hugging photo :((((( i miss my best friends
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f1gossip Lando Norris' roommate and best friend Y/N L/N was caught in a heated argument with her recently debuted beau outside a restaurant in Monaco. The person who sent the photo in was too far away to hear the argument, but said Y/N seemed despondent to the situation, watching her boyfriend walk away before paying the bill and leaving quietly. Soon after, waiter's came to each outside table and told them Y/N sent her apologies for the commotion.
fan y/n :(((( was he the reason she couldn't go to Miami????
fan i'm gonna dox him âł fan i mean... i'm not gonna stop you
fan i have a knife.
fan i hope he's an ex boyfriend now wtf???
fan do you guys remember the pics of her and lando talking at padel and her bf was shooting DAGGERS at lando??? yeah somethings going on there âł fan we hate insecure men
fan lando i know u have money and connections i need this man to disappear
It wasnât unusual for you to go radio silent after a race you werenât able to attend, especially one on the other side of the world. Lando was used to a simple âcongrats on P4!<3333â or wherever he had placed that time, and then you would be off to the land of dreams as he went about his day, shuffling between meetings and the media paddock.Â
Today was different however. Lando had actually won. Heâd won his first ever race and his best friend and roommate was virtually nowhere to be seen. He couldnât help but feel a little angry at you, you knew how much P1 meant to him, the hours he had spent moping around the little apartment the two of you shared after a bad race and the rants he would go on when he placed P2 but was inches from that ever so elusive win, slipping just through his fingertips.Â
He fired off one last text to you before sliding the phone back into the waistband of his fireproofs so he had his hands free to accept celebratory fist bumps and handshakes from every garage along the paddock.Â
The lack of communication from you slowly slipped his mind after he had interview after interview, the kind and excited words of the journalists filling him with pride as they recall just how far ahead of Max he had been. Sure, his mood soured everytime someone mentioned that he got lucky with the safety car but his mother always told him that luck was something to utilise, not something to rely on.Â
When he was finally free of the mediaâs hands, he checked his phone again. No messages from you which made him sigh, but one from Max. Opening their text thread, heâd dropped Lando a location pin for a well known bar in Miami along with the sentence â9pm, be there or be square, race winnerâ.Â
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To be quite honest, Lando doesnât remember much of the party. Hell, he doesnât even remember getting there, Zak having plied him with glass after glass of champagne during their debrief. Heâs pretty sure Oscar had been the one to zip his fly up when they met outside their hotel rooms before the party, hands moving up to recentre his shirt so only a slightly scandalous amount of chest showed.Â
Sitting on the private jet, again courtesy of Max, he thumbed through the last text thread between the two of you. Youâd seemed fine, mentioning that you were going out for a meal with your boyfriend before the race started, and then⌠nothing. Complete and total radio silence.Â
Maybe you were still with your boyfriend, too wrapped up in that jackass to notice the 17 messages Lando had left you since last night.Â
God, he hated that guy. Ever since the day you had introduced him to Lando, heâd had a bad feeling. The guy was too touchy, arm wrapped securely and possessively around your waist like Lando was some kind of threat.Â
And maybe he was.Â
If heâd just manned up and told you the truth, that heâd loved you since the moment the two of you met one sunny day when he was still an F2 driver and you were the sister of one of his rivals, then maybe it would be his arm draped around you.Â
Instead he had smiled, rolled over and showed his stomach like a runt at the bottom of the food chain, and watched from afar as the guy whisked you away under a mottled sunset.Â
He felt a nudge at his side, eyes meeting Maxâs curious ones. âStill no reply?â
He sighed, shaking his head as he pocketed his phone once again. âMaybe sheâs busyâŚâ
The excuse sounds weak even to his own ears, and when Max simply hums unbelievingly, he sighs again, mind torn in half at the elation of his win and the sadness of your ignoration.Â
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Sliding the key into the door, he listened ahead for any sign of life. The sound of dishes clinking in the sink, or your playlist of noughties hits that he always pretended to hate but would secretly sing along to when you werenât looking.Â
The silence that blankets him is unnerving. Too reminiscent of when heâd moved here alone and had all but begged you to join him, promising a rent free and easy going life.Â
Checking the kitchen, he sees itâs exactly as he left it last week. The living room is barely lived in, the odd throw misplaced from the back of the sofa. His game room door is still shut, as is both his and your bedrooms.Â
As he walks through to drop his suitcase off in his room, dreading the amount of washing that will fall out of it when he gets the energy to open, he hears a noise. From your bedroom, specifically.Â
Checking his watch, he sees its 2 in the afternoon. Normally, you would be up and out by now, dragging Lando to whatever new fad you had seen on tiktok, or to the padel courts where he would inevitably lose to you.Â
Leaning so his ear presses against the door, he can make out the shuffling of sheets. Maybe you had decided to do some laundry whilst you waited for him to get back. But then, the sound of sniffling joins.Â
He freezes on the spot, ear still pressed haphazardly to the wooden door. The sniffles get louder and louder, soon joined behind an unmistakable sob. He can feel his heart drop to the floor, his stomach joining it on its tumultuous way down.Â
You were crying. And he had no idea why.Â
Pulling away from the door, his hand hovers the knob. Should he knock first? Should he just leave you to it? Normally, when you were sad, you would sneak into whichever room he was in, either reaching a hand out to lay against his back or sitting close enough so your thighs touch. He knew you needed to feel some part of him in order to ground yourself, and he always obliged. Oftentimes, the two of you would end up cuddled on the couch, some soppy chick flick on the tv as you gave into the warmth surrounding you, eyes closing as you rested your head against his shoulder. Despite how much it hurt to see you sad, he couldnât deny these quiet moments were his favourite part of any day.Â
Another sob breaks out, the sound so cruel and visceral, it was as if it had been yanked from your very soul. He forgoes knocking, hand twisting the knob harshly. He tries to push it open, only to be met by a force pushing back against him.Â
Youâd locked the door.Â
In the 4 years of living together, neither of you had ever once locked your bedroom doors, knowing the other would knock before entering but still feeling comfortable enough to forgo privacy so the rooms could be open to the other whenever.Â
âY/N?â He calls out hesitantly, as one would approach an injured bird.Â
The sobs become muffled, more shuffling of sheets before you call back to him, voice weak and torn along the edges. âLando?â
He normally loved when you said his name, but the whine that accompanies it today leaves a sour taste in his mouth. He knows he should ask whatâs wrong but he doesnât know where to begin. Heâs never not known why youâre sad, the two of you an open book shared between friends.Â
He starts the only way he knows how. âDid you watch the race?â
More shuffling of sheets and when you respond, your voice is closer. âIâm sorry Lan, I didnât get a chance to.â A moment of silence passes between the two of you. âHow did you do?â
He wants to be angry. He really does. The one time you don't watch a race and he only goes and bloody wins it. âI won.â
âWhat?â Your voice wobbles, wondering if you were imagining what he had just said.Â
âI won, Y/N. My first P1. 7 seconds ahead of Max.â
He waits for your response, probably some form of congratulations spoken through wood given your current mood. What he wasnât expecting was for you to unlock and slam open the door, the both of you wincing as it bangs against the wall. âSay that again.â
He takes you in for a moment. Bloodshot eyes rimmed with violet, tears still making their way down flushed cheeks. Youâre wrapped in your duvet, only your head visible as the duvet covers what is probably bedhead and your favourite set of pyjamas - flannel trousers and a t-shirt of Landoâs you had stolen at some point.Â
Shrugging his shoulders, he smiles warily at you. âI won.â
Throwing yourself at him, he takes a moment to steady the two of you, arms wrapping around the mass of duvets surrounding you. He can feel you crying again, tears soaking the collar of his shirt.Â
âIâm sorry. Iâm so sorry, Lan. I should have watched, I mean you won and I wasnât even there to watch. Iâm sorry, please forgive me.â You choke through the words, fingers digging roughly into Landoâs back.Â
He winces at the feeling of your nails digging into his skin through the shirt, squeezing you even closer to him. âDonât be sorry. Something obviously happened.â He uses the mound of duvet to pull you away, eyes flickering over your face. You look heartbroken in more ways than one. âWhat happened, sweet girl?â
Your lips quiver at the nickname, a hand poking through the duvet to reveal your phone. After 3 tries of using face ID, you huff, angrily putting in your passcode before turning the screen to Lando.Â
He scans the screen. Itâs an instagram post by some F1 gossip page. He recognised the user as one who often tried to paint him as some womaniser, taking any regular interaction with a woman as a sign he was sleeping with them.Â
This post, however, is different. He sees you first, mouth in a tense line as you stare blankly at your boyfriend. Then he sees the caption.Â
The anger returns, festering and dark, this time directed to your dickhead of a boyfriend. âWhat did he do?â
You sigh, locking the screen and pulling your hand back into the duvet cocoon. âI said I wanted to go home because your race was about to start. He got angry and accused me of being in love with you. I pointed out that I was literally on a date with him. He called me every name under the sun, told me we were over and then stormed off. Iâm sorry, Lan, this isnât good publicity for you.â
He scoffed, eyebrows raising skyward. âI dont give a fuck about the publicity, I care about you. How dare he speak to you like that?â He can tell the angers bleeding into his tone but heâs about 2 seconds away from finding out where that prick lives and beating him over the head with a padel racket. âAre you ok? Do you want to put on a chick flick? Order a takeaway? Go to a rage room and plaster his face across every breakable thing?â Moving closer, he rests his hand against your jaw, nudging it between your tear stained skin and the soft duvet. âTell me what you want me to do and Iâll do it.â
Sighing, you nuzzle against his hand. âNone of that, Lan. I just want to cry and forget what happened last night.â
Swallowing his pride, he nods. âDo you want me to talk to him? I can tell him weâre not in love with each other. Just best friends.â The ending comes out a little bitterly, but he hopes youâre too distracted to notice.Â
You smile up at him affectionately. The simple curve is enough to make his heart flutter from where it had picked itself off the floor and wormed its way back into his chest.Â
Reaching up to lay your hand over his, lacing your fingers between his, you sandwich it between the warmth he so craved. âI just want to be with you. You make everything better.â
He reflects your smile, brushing his thumb along your cheekbone. You wanted him, just him, and for now that was more than enough.Â
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isnt the same without you.
warnings: comforting, fluff, insecurity, a little bit of blood.
summary: jj goes to a party without reader for the first time, and when jjs phone dies, she starts to overthink. (based off this ask, thank you anon!)
a/n: this is sort of short because its just a blurb, but i really love this request, its so cute!
pairings: insecure!reader x soft!bf!jj
you weren't feeling up to this big party that everyone was attending tonight. unfortunately, you and jj were planning to go for a few weeks now, and since you didn't wanna go, you didn't wanna stop him from attending it as well.
he insisted that he would stay home and look after you, he offered to buy you snacks and even watch those cheesy romcoms that he absolutely despises, but he tolerates them because you love them.
but you assured him it was okay, and he can go even if it made you feel a little uneasy.
you had never done well with being away from jj for long periods of time, let alone him going to a party without you. but you told yourself to 'grow up' and 'stop being a baby' about it. you needed to get a grip.
you decide to text him about an hour in, just to make sure he was safe, and then you promised yourself you would stop bothering him after that.
imessage:
11:01 pm: hey jay! im just checking in to make sure your okay, i dont wanna bother you or anything so im gonna let you have fun! bye i love you <3
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you chew your nails, anxiously waiting on a response from your boyfriend.
about five minutes went by, and you were constantly picking up your phone, swiping up for any sign that he had read the text or responded. but there was nothing.
you waited another ten minutes, then got back to anxiously checking it again, still nothing. delivered.
you told yourself your being dramatic, and went to occupy yourself with doing the dishes, and sweeping the kitchen floor. by the time you had gotten back to your room about fifteen minutes later, there was still nothing.
you toss your phone down onto the bed, feeling frustrated but also upset at the same time. had he been hooking up with another girl? is he drinking too much? what if hes talking to someone else?
all these thoughts cloud your mind, and you find yourself biting down on the skin beside your nail bed. as your chewing away at your skin, your phone dings unexpectedly, causing you to jump a bit, tearing a piece of your skin off. (ouch.)
the sting of the bare skin makes your eyes water a little, a bead of blood trickling down your finger. "ow." you mumble, before picking up your phone and looking at whoever texted you.
it was jj. all your pain was instantly forgotten the moment you seen his text on your screen.
imessage
jayjđ¤: "hey beautiful, im sorry i didnt text you back. i forgot my charger like a dumbass. but im at home now, and i didnt have fun. it was boring as shit without u baby."
you instantly reply to his message after reading it, your heart no longer feels like its carrying a weight anymore.
you: "thank you for texting, i was worried sick baby...i literally hurt my finger trying to answer the phone. I thought you might've been cheated on me or something."
you send that text with a underlying hint of insecurity in it, hoping he wont just brush you off. your in need of some reassurance from him right now.
jayjđ¤: "baby you hurt your finger?!! and what do u mean 'cheat on you'? thats not even possible for me mama."
the next text eases your worries a bit, but you wanted to get everything off your chest.
you: "i just hate being without you for a long period of time, i wish i would've let you stay in with me tonight, but i know how excited you were for the party."
jayjđ¤: "oh baby, no. parties are not the same without you. i would never cheat on you, im sorry if i made you feel that way, but that isn't me. you know your stuck with me forever mama, whether you like it or not."
now all your worries and insecurities are instantly gone, touched by your boyfriend's loyalty to you.
after you let yourself think for a moment, you remember the minor injury you caused yourself a few minutes back and wince slightly at the sting.
as if exactly on cue, jj double texts you.
jayjđ¤: "oh and im on my way with some bandaids and snacks, i love you baby. unlock the door for me beautiful."
after he sends that text, you hear jjs dirtbike pull up.
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Hi pretty!! Can i request something about seungmin or lee know being a dilf luv u!!
pairing: dad!Minho x fem!Reader
t/w: fluff ; smut ; single dad Minho ; babysitter reader ; reader is an adult ; oral (m!rec) ; piv sex.
w/c: around 2.5k
a/n: please dilf Minho is so đľâđŤ my brain said SEX SEX SEX but my heart wanted more. I hope you like it!
MINORS DO NOT INTERACT
Sometimes you think about how it could have happened, if it had to happen, and if all of this is wrong.
Donât get me wrong, heâs a handsome man. Heâs mature, responsible, and so, so sweet.
But you wonder if all of this is really necessary, as your phone rings inside your bag on the chair.
You both stop your movements, and your eyes meet again. Itâs really embarrassing to be interrupted at this point.
His grip on your hair doesnât change, âDo you want to answer?â He asks only out of politeness, because he doesnât really want you to answer. He wants you to stay on your knees and let him continue without interruptions because damn, your mouth feels so good around him and he just canât get enough of it.
You think about it for a few seconds, but the answer is already written in your eyes.
You shake your head without even taking his cock out of your mouth, and the sight is so hot that he moans just from that.
âYouâre unreal.â His hand resumes guiding the movements of your head, âYou look fucking gorgeous with your mouth full.â
You squeeze your legs together at the praise and donât suppress the moan that his words elicit because you know it sends vibrations to his cock that drive him crazy.
Thatâs why his hips buck hard into your mouth, pushing his cock deeper and making you choke around it for a moment.
He stops, âSorry, did I hurt you?â
You shake your head no and start moving it again on your own, back and forth, letting him know that youâre fine and want to continue.
âSuch a good girl.â His hand holds your head still as his hips begin to move quickly, âTaking cock so well,â heâs no longer looking into your eyes; heâs watching the spot where his cock enters and exits your mouth now, âLike you wereâ made for it.â
His breathing has sped up again. Your phone has stopped ringing, and now the only sounds you can hear are his soft breaths and moans.
The tears forming in your eyes make them shiny. Your face is probably a mess, but whatâs important is that he feels good inside your warm mouth.
And he does, because his hips start to stutter erratically.
It takes just one look at your face and heâs throwing his head back, urgently pulling his cock out of your mouth, stroking himself hard and fast through his climax.
You feel a bit disappointed, honestly, because you really wanted him to come inside your mouth, but you donât complain when you feel the spurts of his hot cum land on your face. Some on your cheeks, some over your nose, even on your eyelashes and your still-outstretched tongue.
You didnât even have time to close your mouth before he came, but itâs fine. At least you tasted it a little.
âWait, donât open your eyes.â You do as youâre told and feel him taking something. His hand delicately takes your chin to lift your face, and with a tissue, he wipes the com from your eyes so you can open them again without anything getting in.
You thank him as you sit on the bed next to him, taking the tissue he hands you to clean the rest of your face.
And you look at yourself in the mirror when youâre in front of the bathroom sink and feel something weighing on you. Your mind is empty, there are no thoughts bothering you, yet thereâs something that makes you feel bad.
But everything gets better when you return to him and look at him. Heâs so handsome, even as he does something as simple as gathering some papers into his work folder.
He glances up at you, âDo you need something?â
âUh- no, just- I wanted to take Eunji to the park today, is that okay?â Yes, it is okay, itâs fine, itâs always fine if itâs with you, but you donât know what else to come up with.
He chuckles, perhaps amused by the silliness of your question, âOf course, thereâs no problem, you already know.â
And soon you part ways. He rushes to work, you rush to pick up the little girl from school.
His child. The daughter of the man you just gave a blowjob to. The daughter of the single man youâve maybe gotten a little too close to in these past few months, and who might almost be your fatherâs age. But itâs okay like this.
â
"Can I taste yours?" Eunji looks at you with those puppy eyes that you can't say no to. She knows it and takes advantage of it, little brat.
Her eyes light up as she tastes your ice cream. She lowers her eyes to hers with a sad expression, "Yours is so good."
You roll your eyes at her unspoken but obvious request, "Want to swap?"
She looks at you with sparkling eyes and nods eagerly.
You smile sweetly at her, and it's at this moment that your phone vibrates in your pocket.
It's Minho.
You're confused by his message until you hear Eunji's voice and see her getting up, "There's daddy!" You turn your head in the direction she started running, and you see him, waiting for her with open arms.
He has such an affectionate, serene, and sincere smile as he picks her up and spins her a couple of times in his arms âgently, mindful of the ice cream she holdsâ that you can't take your eyes off them. And you can't help the way your heart melts at the sight and a smile forms on your lips.
You see him lick her ice cream and see them talking, but you don't understand what they're saying.
Then it's like he remembers your presence and turns to look at you. You watch as he approaches you, and you stand up.
âCome join us too, Y/n! Group hug!â Eunjiâs words freeze you in place amidst the white flowers of the field, and even Minhoâs shoulders seem to stiffen.
It all happens so quickly though. It has to happen quickly. Because thereâs nothing wrong with hugging after everything youâve done together. It should be normal, right? It should be natural for the two of you.
Yet you feel hesitant, and Minho seems slightly embarrassed. Itâs just new. Itâs strange to say, but it is. Many things have happened between the two of you, but never this.
You try not to think about it as you accept his invitation and position yourself between his arms, wrapping your arms around him and the little girl.
You try not to think about how this is the first time youâre hugging him and might be the last, as you unconsciously melt into his embrace and savor the moment for as long as it lasts.
And of course, sooner or later you have to let go.
âWhy are you here at this hour?â You try to sound as normal as possible despite the slight ânot so slightâ discomfort.
âI didnât quite understand it myself, but they let me go earlier.â He, on the other hand, shrugs and seems to be fine.
âThen Y/n can come home with us, and we can all be together!â The little girl, still in her fatherâs arms, cheers happily.
Minho chuckles, âSheâll have things to do too, donât you think?â Then he turns to you, âYou can leave early today.â
Actually, you would have preferred Eunjiâs proposal, but youâre forced to go along with Minhoâs.
The girl rests her head on her fatherâs shoulder and sighs sadly.
You and Minho look at each other, then he looks at her, âWhatâs wrong?â He asks her sweetly.
âI wanted Y/n to stay with us,â she says, her voice trembling as if on the verge of tears, which she isnât.
âI think Y/n would prefer to go home now, she must be tired.â
She sniffs, âCan she come for dinner at least?â
Minho seems to consider it. Oh, how he would enthusiastically say yes if he could, if only it didnât seem weird.
Instead, he looks at you, the question already written in his eyes, âWould you like to? No pressure.â
Yet you feel the pressure anyway, from the weight of both their gazes, waiting for your response.
And so, a few hours later, you find yourself in front of Minhoâs apartment door, dressed in your black shorts, chosen because of the heat.
When the door opens, you are greeted by a warm smile from Minho, holding a wooden spoon, and a hug from Eunji. Moments later, youâre in the kitchen, standing behind him as he moves around the stove expertly, and you feel so useless.
âIâd like to help, but Iâd probably burn everything.â
Thereâs something good in this, because it makes him chuckle. âNo problem,â he replies calmly, âIâm almost done anyway.â
âI want to be useful though.â
He turns towards you and raises an eyebrow, âIs it really you whoâs saying that?â
Your cheeks tinge with a slight blush. You try to be helpful and he teases you like this.
âSorry for trying to be useful once in a while.â you say sarcastically, rolling your eyes.
He grins and turns back, âYou can set the table while I finish.â
âItâll be done!â you say, âBy the way, that apron suits you really well.â
âReally?â he asks, surprised, then wrinkles his nose, âIt makes me look like a cleaning lady or something; at least thatâs what Eunji says.â
You laugh at his words, âEunji is just a kid,â you reassure him. âI think it makes you look hot.â you add in a slightly lower voice.
Your eyes linger on him for just a second, but you swear you see his ears start to darken.
â
Dinner goes well, with a warm atmosphere and calm conversation.
Afterward, itâs Eunji who decides the plans. After all, you are there specifically for her. Or rather, at her request.
Time passes without you even noticing. Between board games and stories told by the little girl, you and Minho manage to find time to talk just between yourselves.
He holds back laughter while telling you about that time Jeongin, whoever he is, fell into a manhole, and his eyes sparkle as you talk about the saga you just finished watching.
When you finally glance at the clock, you regret not paying more attention.
You quickly get up, but Minho stops you, âWait,â you freeze in your tracks, âItâs really too late, it would be dangerous to go out at this hour.â
He doesnât want you to leave. He doesnât want you to leave because heâs worried about you. And he doesnât want you to leave because itâs a chance for him, a chance to spend precious time with you that he canât let slip away now that itâs presented to him.Â
âI donât want to be a burden-â
He doesnât let you finish the sentence, âYou wonât be a burden, Iâm the one offering you to stay.â His voice is firm, and faced with his eyes so serious and determined, you agree to spend the night there.
After putting Eunji to bed, Minho quietly exits her room and finds himself facing you. You look into each otherâs eyes, irises like chained together, and you smile at each other, amidst sentences and words kept hidden.
He prepares a space for you to sleep on the couch, and eventually, you both sit there, side by side.
âEunji is really fond of you,â Minho says, looking down at his hands, âI think she sees in you something that I canât be.â He lifts his eyes, meeting yours, understanding.
âYouâre already enough for her; Iâm just an addition.â
âYouâre not an addition; youâre important to her.â He insists. And to me, he wants to add, but knows he canât say that.
And then the unexpected happens. You donât know who makes the first move, who leans in first, but it doesnât matter when his lips are on yours, in a sweet kiss. A loving kiss ruined by wandering hands that force it to deepen.
But, fuck, youâd ruin it a thousand times over if it meant finding yourself beneath him every time, with his cock thrusting in and out of you in a needy, perhaps somewhat desperate way.
And youâre so wet that you know the bed sheets will need a good wash in the morning.
His voice is like a caress when he leans over you with his lips at your ear, âShhh,â he whispers softly, âWe donât want to wake Eunji, do we?â
You are forced to bite your lower lip to stifle the sounds that want âneedâ to escape your lips.
But his thrusts are so well-aimed and deep, his hips so precise, and his moans released right into your ear so fucking arousing that you have to reach out and grab a pillow to place over your mouth.
He looks back at you, and a louder, needier moan leaves his parted lips, as his expression shifts from one of concentration to pure pleasure.
Itâs only when you feel close that you move the pillow. âMinho, Iâm closeâŚâ you warn him.
âMe too,â he groans, âCome with me.â
âYes, yes, yes! J-just a little more, please.â
He does his best to hold back a little longer, and it only takes a few circles on your clit to make you come, tightening around his cock that finishes inside the condom.
He doesnât realise it immediately, too caught up in the pleasure, but as he tries to catch his breath, he thinks about it and realizes.
âI love you- Minho, I-â You said it just before coming; it might have been something of the moment.
He lifts his head from where itâs resting in the crook of your neck and looks at you.
You are motionless, embarrassed, regretful. Because, fuck, you didnât really need to say it. You could have realised the gravity of your words before saying them.
And Minho could pretend nothing happened. He could act like he didnât hear it, and you could go on as usual. But, fuck, he canât.
The words escape his lips before he can stop them, âDid you really mean it?â Heâs so direct, a request so desperate.
And you could say, âNo, it was just the heat of the moment.â but apparently, thatâs not really an option for you, because you speak without thinking twice, and you couldnât feel freer when he smiles and kisses you. His soft lips on yours, in a moment you both have been waiting for so long.
And when the next morning he wakes up first and observes your sleeping face and relaxed body, he couldnât feel happier.
Because he doesnât have to hide anything from you anymore.
Because you love him too.
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hey! could you write genshin kinich + anemo boys when you go through their phone without them knowing because you think they're cheating/just wanted to check if theyre loyal but you end up finding nothing and they catch you? thank u eheheh
Anemo boys + Kinich catching you with their phone.á
â ⌠cw : established relationship, fluff, hurt/comfort, self decapration, phone contents, genderneutral!reader, partially canon compliant â 3.7k words
â ⌠additional notes : Iâm not very familiar with Kinich yet but I did my best to portray him accurately! Reader is also seen as Lumine/Aether. Please donât mind the timestamps as well. <3
. đ . Ë đ§§ â ËHEIZOUá°.á
Ah yes, your ever loving, doting boyfriend. Heizou is known for his natural charms and affectionate wordsâitâs one of the reasons why you fell for him in the first place. While the two of you have set boundaries, you often wonder if his romantic side is only seen by you. Swayed by temptation and curiosity, you decide to snoop through his phone while heâs in his study. Surely thatâs enough for you to find something, right?
Which is what youâd hope forâor dread forâhowever, as you open Heizouâs phone, youâre met with a candid picture he personally took. You told him countless times to delete it yet he never and even made it as his lockscreen wallpaper.
That shouldâve been enough proof that this man is loyal, but who knows what else he could be hiding behind that lockscreen? You unlocked his phone, his homescreen wallpaper is still you but a different type of photo. This time, the scenery was also part of the image with your back turned towards the camera.
Going back on track, you start to tweak around his phone, looking to see if thereâs anything off or suspicious.
After checking multiple appsâeven a bit of his search historyâyou found absolutely nothing. You sighed in relief, but that relief was short-lived once you heard a familiar voice behind you.
âWhat do we have here?â Heizou hummed, peeking over your shoulder, causing you to jump and turn to face him. âSeems like I caught a thief red-handed.â
You chuckled nervously, quickly putting his phone down on the bed. âHeizou! How long have you been there?â You asked, attempting to pry away from your predicament.
Heizou grinned, crossing his arms on his chest as he leans closer to you, âOnly the detective will ask questions, unless.. you want to do this the hard way?â His eyes glinted with mischief, hands preparing to tickle you before he tackled you down on the bed.
The two of you rolled around in the mattressâyou trying to get away while Heizou just keeps pulling you back closer to him. Your laughter dies down to pants eventually once Heizou stops.
âNow, care to explain why you were snooping through my phone?â Heizou asks, his arms wrapped around your waist as your back is pressed against his chest.
âI just.. wanted to see if youâve been doing things..â You answer vaguely, embarrassment creeping up on you after being caught just like that.
To that, Heizou raises an eyebrow. âThings? I do a lot of thingsâinvestigating around Inazuma, doing commissions with people, and most especially loving you.â His response was filled with lighthearted jokes yet you can sense the reassurance heâs hinting at.
You smiled, turning around to face him, you pulled him to an embrace. âIâm sorry. I trust you, Hei. I just let my curiosity get the best of me.â
He reciprocates the hug, your head resting on the crook of his neck, âNo, Iâm sorry. I donât want you overthinking because of my actions, sweetheart.â He says softly, his fingers carding through your hair. âNext time, please tell me when somethingâs troubling you.â
You nod as you leaned to his touch, the warmth of his affections already making you forget what just transpired.
âYouâre not off the hook though,â He pulls away slightly to take a look at your face. âI sentence you to a full day cuddle.. and Iâll let you look through my phone more.â
. đ . Ë đ§§ â ËKAZUHAá°.á
Whatâs there to doubt about this man? Even if you dissect him, you wonât even find a single flaw. Itâs like the archons used their entire blessings to create the perfect being, and your luck must be out of this world to be his significant other.
But maybe thatâs why youâre having doubts. Heâs too good for you, at least thatâs what your mind is telling you. The fear that Kazuha might find someone better.. itâs not an uncommon thought that lingers in your mind. Now that youâre alone, your eyes are glued to Kazuhaâs phone. Itâs just laying on the nightstand, calling your name.
Just five minutesâthatâs all you need, after that, youâll stop this nonsense and never look through his phone again. Youâve convinced yourself enough and finally took his phone.
The first you notice is the matching wallpapers you two have setâyou holding your phone taking a photo of him, and the other point of view would be your lockscreen. Not only that, but his password is your full birthday. That shouldâve been enough for you to put the phone down and join your boyfriend outside, yet you didnât.
To no avail, you found nothing to support your distressful thoughts. Guilt washes your mind after seeing the contents of Kazuhaâs phone. But hey, at least you were no longer overthinkingâisnât that a good thing?
Not really, especially not when Kazuha stood by the doorway, catching you in the act before you could put away his phone. The two of you locked eyes for moment until you looked away as he approached you.
âDearest, what are you doing with my phone?â Kazuha says in a gentle manner as he sat down on the bed beside you. You donât answer, afraid of what heâll think once he found out about the truth.
Suddenly, you feel his hand on top of yours. âItâs okay, you can tell me,â He coaxed, voice as gentle as his touch. You sigh, meeting his gaze once more as you prepare to explain yourself.
âIâve been scared lately,â You prompt, the words feeling much harder to let out than itâs supposed to be. âScared that youâll see me the way I see myselfâthat Iâm not enough for you.â Tears start to prick out in the corner of your eyes but you blink it away as a lump forms in your throat.
Kazuha takes your hand, your fingers intertwining together like it was made for each other. âYouâve never been anything less than enough,â he says firmly before pausing, choosing his next words carefully. âYou may not see it, but to me, you are the anchor that keeps me steady amidst the tides. Iâve written countless poems trying to capture your beauty, your kindness, your strengthâbut none of them do you justice.â
His free hand comes up to your cheek, wiping the tears that you didnât realize began to fall. âPlease donât carry these doubts alone. Iâm here, for everythingâyour fears, your insecurities, and all the things you think makes you unlovable,â He murmured, pulling you closer until your foreheads are pressed against each other.
You nod, closing your eyes to let the tears fall down on its own. âOkay. Iâm sorry for doubting you,â You breathed, the heavy feelings in your chest finally wearing off after a long time of carrying them.
âThereâs nothing to forgive,â Kazuha smiles, his thumb caressing your cheek. âBut if you ever feel this way again, talk to me. Trust me to help shoulder these fears next time.â
. đ . Ë đ§§ â ËKINICHá°.á
Having a romantic relationship with Kinich isnât what most people would think. It might seem like youâd spend your days chasing after him, waiting endlessly for scraps of attention while he remained cool and aloof. Many would assume heâs the type to keep you at armâs length, making you endure his detached demeanor and patient silences as though his affection was a prize to be earned.
Well, itâs actually quite the opposite. Kinich values your time as much as he values his own, which is why he makes sure to finish the job quickly and efficiently to spend quality time with you. Heâs the one quietly chasing after time itself, ensuring thereâs always enough of it for you. Kinich treats you in a way that people would describe as âprince/princess treatment.â You are his top priority and he isnât afraid to show it, not that other peopleâs opinion matters to him anyway.
While thereâs no actual downside to being in a relationship with Kinich, the only thing that stirs unease is his jobâor rather, the people he encounters because of it. As his work often brings contact with others, itâs hard not to let your thoughts wander. Kinich may show unwavering loyalty but you know how people are; theyâre unpredictable. You canât always know their intention thus, allowing your insecurities to take hold of your rationality.
As he excuses himself for the day, your gaze drops to his phone, left forgotten by the counter. Your rationality starts disappearingâone quick look wouldnât hurt, right? Just to soothe your worries, and itâs not like heâll find out.
Before you could second guess yourself any longer, you reached for his phone and unlocked it. Kinichâs phone requires a fingerprint to open but he has yours registered as well, so surely there wouldnât be anything bad in there?
Just as you hoped for, you found nothing to support your earlier worries. However, it seems like youâve used up all your luck as you hear the sound of footsteps approaching. Kinich had spotted you right before you could put his phone back to its original place and pretend nothing had ever happened. Your eyes widened and scrambled to put the phone away as your boyfriend stepped closer.
âWhat were you doing with my phone, sol?â Kinich asks, putting one hand on the counter as if to corner you. You looked away, contemplating whether to deny any accusation or just simply tell the truth. His finger taps on the surface rhythmically as if heâs counting each second your silence lasts, you can feel his eyes glued to your face even when youâre looking away.
Mustering up the confidence, you finally turn to him, âOkay. Look, I just wanted to look through your phone because.. Iâve been overthinking lately. When I saw your phone I was really, really tempted to look through it.â Your words hung heavy in the air, Kinich studying your expression after your answer.
âDid you find what you were looking for?â
âNo! I mean, no.. I didnât find anything..â
Kinich pulled you by the waist, the sudden action catching you off guard once the distance decreased between the two of you. âExactly, there was nothing to find in the first place,â he spoke calmly, his eyes holding steady contact with yours.
âI donât want to give you any reason to doubt me,â Kinich continues, the reassurance rolling off his tongue like he knows exactly just what to say. âBut Iâd rather you tell me whatâs bothering you than act on it like this.â
The man has a point, if snooping through his stuff becomes a habit, itâll influence you to never communicate with him properly. You sighed, realizing the flaws of your actions. âYouâre right. Iâm sorry, I shouldnât have done that.â
Kinichâs gaze softens as he gives you a reassuring smile, âI understand why you felt the need to do itâbut please trust me.â He gives a chaste kiss to your forehead before muttering, âAnd Iâll make sure thereâs never a reason for you to question it again.â
. đ . Ë đ§§ â ËVENTIá°.á
Venti has always been the playful lover throughout your entire relationship, it was never a big deal for you whenever he would go out and mess around with other people. Not even when heâs drinking, you almost found it adorable when he turns to a handful all because of his drunken haze. He made sure he kept that habit in moderation to avoid letting it get away in the relationship.
However, the mind is a stubborn place. As months passed by, you grew afraid of what might transpire when Ventiâs not in the right state. You know what they say, drunk words are sober thoughtsâmaybe you just havenât heard it because heâs said it to someone else. You fought and fought these thoughts until you found yourself with your loverâs phone in hand, because who knows? Maybe heâs already drunk texted someone while youâre unaware.
The thought is temporarily dispersed once you see yourself in his wallpaperâa picture of you, deep asleep in your shared bed. You smiled, but you canât let a simple picture like that distract you. As you swipe through his phone, a passcode blocks you. Quickly, you attempted whichever comes to mindâhis birthday, your birthday, yet none of it worked. But you know what did? The date of your anniversary.
Maybe this was a bad idea, but the phoneâs unlocked now, so might as well carry on.
In all honesty, you felt like you got played in the most unexpected ways. His phone was full of ridiculous information that had no connection to your previous motiv. At least your curiosity was satiated.
âWhat you got there?â Venti beamed beside you, his voice startling you. Where did he come from?! Actually, how did you not even hear this man come into your room? Nevermind that, youâve been caught red handed, his phone still clutched to your handâeven harder now that you almost let go of it from the fright.
âVenti! What are youâ nevermind, Iâm not even gonna ask,â You surrendered just as immediately, giving back his phone. Your face flushed from embarrassment, your boyfriend having the instincts of a cat despite being allergic to them.
Venti chuckled but pushed his phone to you. âYou know, if you wanted to look, you couldâve just asked,â He says, wrapping his arms around your neck pulling you close until his head is leaning on your shoulder. âI have nothing to hide from you, windblume,â he whispers.
Your gaze softens from the unasked reassuranceâthe fact he can play around and set your mind at ease makes you remember why you fell in love with him in the first place. âI know that now. Iâm sorry, dear,â you gently pulled him closer until the two of you were flushed against each other.
âWhatâs on your mind?â He asks, but honestly? You almost forgot about it all because of the contact. Still, you know Venti would just bug the hell out of you if you try to brush this off.
âLetâs talk about it later, I just wanna cuddle for now.â
âWhenever youâre ready, Iâll be here to listen.â
. đ . Ë đ§§ â ËXIAOá°.á
During your anniversary, you gave Xiao a presentâa phone, something he deemed useless but accepted either way. You didnât mind at first, knowing itâll take time for him to adjust with the advanced cellular device. It almost became a habit for you to daydream about the texts youâd someday receive from himâthe constant typos, accidental calls, blurred images. Even if Xiao wasnât one to talk so much, you know his inexperience with technology would give a good laugh.
Those wishful thoughts only lasted for a while, of course. Every once in a while, youâd see Xiao fumbling with the phone youâve given him. You thought that maybe this is it, youâll finally receive a few texts from himâbut you never did. Your worries increased when your boyfriendâs attention was almost glued to the device. If he wasnât using it to text you or maybe even show you what he learned, what else could he be doing?
Thereâs one thing youâve noticed though. Xiao never brings his phone whenever heâs doing his duties. It occured to you that this may be an opportunity to sneak a glance and find out what heâs been up to with his phone.
Once youâve gotten your hands on his cellular device, you went straight ahead with unlocking itâonly thing is thereâs no lock. You almost forgot Xiao isnât that well versed with the mechanics of his phone, still, with the amount of time heâs usually focused with it? Youâd think he already figured that out. Nonetheless, at least you donât have to think of whatever passcode he mightâve come up with.
As youâve opened his phone, youâre met with something shocking. His wallpaper is your picture. Are you actually seeing this correctly? How did he even get a hold of that? But then again, it doesnât even look like you were aware that you were getting your picture taken that time. Xiao mustâve gotten this himself personally.
You almost went crazy with how little stuff there is to find in Xiaoâs phone, except his photos. That was probably the only productive app in his phone, but other than that, absolutely nothing.
As youâre about to end your search for whatever youâre looking for, you noticed a figure standing in front of you just right behind the phone youâre holding. Looking up, you see Xiao.
âOh my god!â You yelped, leaning back on the seat as Xiaoâs appearance startled the hell out of you. âWhat were you doing just standing there?â You sighed exasperatedly, calming down the fast beating of your heart.
âYou seemed engrossed with my device,â he says plainly though his eyes sparked curiousity. âWhy do you have it?â
âI was checking something..â You mumbled, giving it back to him reluctantly. âIâm sorry, I shouldnât have taken it without your permission.â
Xiao took the phone from you and paused. âChecking what exactly?â He turned off the device and sat beside you. He studied your expressionâthe way your eyes looked away, how youâd bite your bottom lip from nervousness.
âWere you thinking Iâm being disloyal?â His question was so blunt, it felt like a punch. How could you even answer that? You didnât even need to tell him anything yet he already knew.
âNo, no! Not at all!â You quickly scrambled, not wanting him to think of the wrong thing. The wrong thing? Even you donât know what that is now. âI was just.. conflicted. You never focused too much on your phone, so when I saw that, I felt.. bothered.â
Xiao visibly frowned at that, his eyes softening at your explanation, âYou shouldâve told me. Share your troubles with me, let me help you ease your mind.â
He gently took your hands in his, intertwining your fingers together. His eyes met yours, a rare warmth softening his typically stoic expression, melting away the worries that had been building in your chest. âAnd to tell you the truthâŚâ he started, his voice quieter now, almost shy, âIâve only been focusing on that device because I wanted to learn more about it.â
That much was obvious now, considering his wallpaper was a candid photo of you that you didnât even know existed. âIâm aware of that now⌠Iâm sorry for invading your privacy, Xiao,â you said softly, guilt evident in your tone.
Xiao shook his head slightly. âI know why you did,â he replied. âBut do ask next time.â A gentle smile appeared on his face. âIâll let you have it anytime you want.â
You couldnât help but chuckle at his response, the tension between you both easing. âI donât think I will,â you teased lightly, âunless itâs to teach you more about it.â
. đ . Ë đ§§ â ËWANDERERá°.á
It was actually unexpected for you to see Wanderer using his own phone. Heâd often say he isnât interested in it but then see him playing random games you wouldnât find entertainingâbut to each themselves, right?
Thatâs where the problem starts; the fact that Wanderer is pretty secretive with his own device causes you to rouse up different possibilities. Is he talking to someone else there? Maybe he got photos of other girls? Otherwise, why else would he deny you of taking a peek through his phone?
Since your stubborn resolve wouldnât back down, you decided to take a quick detour around the few apps he has downloaded. However, Wandererâs device required a face recognition to unlock. Being the genius that you are, you angled the phone to a picture you have of Wanderer.
It worked, obviously, not like that man changes his appearance everyday. Once the phone opened, a picture of you and Wanderer appeared, just the two of you goofing around. Maybe this is why he didnât want you seeing his phone.
âEnjoying yourself there?â Wandererâs voice rang out behind you, his voice laced with amusement. You couldnât even celebrate after finding nothing, already caught by your boyfriend whoâs leaning on the doorway with his arms crossed.
You turned around to meet him, imitating his pose. âYou looked through every app, didnât you?â He grinned, walking right up to you.
âOf course I looked,â you didnât even deny it, youâre already caught in the act anyway. âYouâre so secretive about your phone, itâs like a holy grail or something!â You rolled your eyes.
Wanderer hummed, amused at how youâre being truthful. âDid you find something scandalous then?â He teased, clearly just to get under your skin. âA hidden lover perhaps?â
You bit your lip, caught off guard. âIâwellâno, not really,â you stammered, recalling the endless items that pointed to you. âBut why hide all of that from me?â
He sighed and plucked the device from your hands. âI didnât think it was worth mentioning. Whatâs the big deal?â
âThe big deal?â you echoed, frowning as you crossed your arms. âYouâve been acting so secretive about it, how was I supposed to know it wasnât something shady? You made it seem like you were hiding a dark secret or something.â
Wanderer tilted his head, his expression equal parts amused and exasperated. âA dark secret? You really thought Iâd have the energy to maintain something like that?â
He looks at his phone for a moment then back to you. âI hope you enjoyed yourself, thoughâdigging through my phone, desperately trying to find something worth fussing over,â he drawled, his lips curling into a smirk. âOnly to realize itâs just you. Everywhere.â
You scoffed, your eyes narrowing down at his smug expression. âWell, maybe if you didnât act so suspicious, I wouldnât have felt the need to check.â
His smirk widened as he leaned back slightly, arms crossing over his chest. âBut at least now you know what Iâve been âhiding.â Satisfied?â
You rolled your eyes, but a small smile tugged at your lips. âFor now. But next time, just let me look, okay?â
âNext time, try trusting me,â he shot back, though there was no bite to his words.
âTrust goes both ways, Wanderer,â you said, raising a brow.
âThatâs ironic,â he conceded, shaking his head with a small laugh. âIf you pull another stunt like this, I might increase the security of my phone.â
âLike thatâd stop me,â you challenged with a grin.
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in which the only person who can comfort you after your breakup with spencer reid, is spencer reid
inspired by the song "summer's end" by the artist currently known as phoebe bridgers
wc 2857
warnings: gn!reader (correct me if im wrong), minor mommy issues, angst, happy ending
a/n: thank you to the person who requested this:) u r an angel and I listened to this song the whole time i wrote (if you haven't heard, listen!!) i sincerely hope you enjoy, i like this one a lot<3
She hung up on you.Â
Forty-seven minutes of being insulted and berated after youâd called her looking for comfort, and you put up with every single cruel wordâjust for your mother to hang up on you. And itâs exactly the kind of thing sheâd do, so you shouldnât be surprised. An ache, youâd expectâbut it shouldnât sting like this. You thought you knew better.Â
Now youâre in a ball on your couch, clutching your phone to your chest and crying. Thereâs no point hiding it. Your roommate is out with her girlfriend for the eveningâwhich is too bad because even though you feel like being alone, youâre sure thatâs the wrong call. Your other friends are out having fun tonight, too. Theyâd even invited you, but you turned them down. Look where that had gotten you. Obviously, your mother is not the person youâre about to run to for comfort, either.Â
You try to pretend, while youâre thinking of all these people who have ever cared for you, that Spencer Reid isnât on your mind at all. You try to pretend like you donât care that the person who loved you until you believed you actually deserved it is a contact going stale deep in the bowels of your text cache. With bleary eyes you scroll down, looking for your conversation where it gathers dustâthe end of your relationship was a mutual decision, and youâre friendly, but you havenât texted in a few weeks. Probably because every time the conversation starts to feel a little too easy, or the phone call lasts a little too long, that aching void in your chest gets worse and worse. Like pain in a phantom limb, you become acutely aware of what you do not have and how much it hurts. Â
So blame it on the tears, or the mind-muddling melodrama of your relationship with your mother, blame it on anything but the truthâwhen your thumb drops on that call button like the plunger on a syringe, you donât regret it. Â
What youâre not expecting is for him to answer after the first ring.Â
âHi,â you say with a snuffle before Spencer can get a word in. Thereâs a brief interlude, in which you pick at your nails, comfortable to just sit in silence if thatâs what he wants. As long as heâs there.Â
âHi.â Hearing his voice instantly melts a bit of the weight you hadnât realized you were carrying. Another pause, for which you remain silent, because you can feel him formulating a questionâand youâd like to hear him speak again. â...am I allowed to ask if youâre okay?âÂ
Your lips purse and twist to the side, pained and comforted by how easily he can tell that youâre distraught. One word across a tinny connection, and he knows.Â
âNo. Yes. I mean... I guess thatâs why I called you. But you donât have to ask me about it.â You sniff again and take a deep breath. âHow was your day? What state are you in?âÂ
âIâm in the district,â he answers after a moment, easing into a casualness that he likely doesnât feel for your sake. Wind crunches through the speaker. He probably just got out of work. âMy day was... it was good. I got to talk about my job to a bunch of elementary schoolers, which is always a confidence boost.âÂ
You chuckle, still laying on your side on the couch and watching storm clouds gathering outside.Â
âNice, nice. What else?âÂ
âLetâs see... I forgot lunch, so I had three oranges, and they were actually pretty good. I reread Game of ThronesâI donât know why I did that. Iâm never going to like that book.âÂ
âMasochist,â you smile. He laughs, and you hear the sound of a car door opening.Â
âOh! I talked to my mom. Believe it or not, she says hi.âÂ
A completely inadvertent snort constitutes your response. Itâs not what you meant to do, and out of context itâs sort of mean, but you actually think itâs incredibly endearing that he still talks to his mother about you. He scrambles to explain himself.Â
âI swear, we barely talked about you this time. Mostly we talked about her new boyfriend Leonard.âÂ
âNo, no, thatâs not... Iâm sorry, Iâm not laughing at you or your mom. Thatâs really sweet, actually. Tell her I say hi too.âÂ
When he next speaks, you can hear the smile in his voice.Â
âI will.â Another long pause. You imagine him sitting in the parking lot at Quantico, keys vertical in the ignition of his old car and feeling the silence just as much as you are. He surprises you by not ending the conversationâinstead he asks a question. It is concern, poorly disguised with nervous humor. Or maybe you just know him too well. âDo I get to find out whatâs on your mind, or are you leaving me in suspense here?â Â
You bite the inside of your cheek.Â
âUm... well, actually, I just got off the phone with my mom, too. It didnât go so well,â you laugh halfheartedly, âI know it was dumb to try and have an actual conversation with her, but... you know me. Always following blind optimism to the depths of hell.âÂ
âWhyâd you call your mom?â he asks, so gently it brings a fresh round of tears to your eyes. Still, you attempt to put a cheerful affect on your strained voice.Â
âMm, you know. Just needed someone to talk to.âÂ
Spencerâs knowing sigh does little to make you feel better.Â
âYou know you can always talk to me, right? I know itâs... itâs different now, but... I care about you a lot. And, you know, I receive very few phone calls, so the line is pretty much always open.âÂ
Your laugh quickly devolves into a cry.Â
âI appreciate that, but I canât talk to you about everything.âÂ
âWhy not?â he pleads immediately, voice thin and desperate like itâs his most burning question. A million lies dance over the tip of your tongue. A million things that feel safer to say than the truth. But in the end, it comes out anywayâchoked, and so quiet, but aloud nonetheless.Â
âBecause Iâm trying really hard to stop missing you so much.âÂ
Another long beat of silence. The back of your throat feels dry and hollowâa cage for your hummingbird heart.Â
âIf it hurts too much to talk to me, you donât need to do that to yourself. But I also donât want you to hurt yourself thinking youâre alone. You are... so important to me. I will always try to take care of you the best I canâwhether that means staying away or being at your front door. If you ever need me, or even... vaguely want me, I will be there.âÂ
Each word caves your resolve. Each syllable is a slap in the face to progress youâd been pretending to make. You can be strongâyou've proven that over the past ten weeks. You can be stone-faced and slash at your heart until the scar tissue is thick and jagged, and eventually it wonât hurt anymore. But maybe, by letting someone tend to the wounds, theyâll heal a little nicer. A little kinder. Even if you canât undo the damage, maybe one day youâll be soft again.Â
âWhat if I vaguely want you right now?â you sniffle.Â
Finally, you hear the silver jingle of keys turning. The sputter and rumble of an old engine coming to life.Â
âThen Iâm on my way.âÂ
Twenty four minutes later, thereâs a soft knock at your door. Â
After the call had ended, youâd wondered if you made it all up. Surely your ex-boyfriend wasnât actually about to show up at your apartment. Someone youâve grieved for canât just come backâthere are countless horror novels and movies based upon that very tenet. Does it matter if they ever actually died? How long is ten weeks, really? It feels like a lifetime.Â
You shuffle across the room, wiping under your eyes with your already damp sleeves, and undoing all the locks Spencer had conditioned you to start using. When the door cracks open, and you see Spencer standing there, windswept and concerned, for the first time in months, it hits you like a tidal wave. You are, beyond a shadow of a doubt, still just as in love with him as you ever were. The relief that floods your veins as he looks down at you with so much care in his eyes is like sinking into warm water. Itâs a dead giveaway, and maybe it makes this whole thing a terrible idea, but you canât seem to care very much. You open the door wider, and he enters, and he stands in your kitchen with his hands in his coat pocket as you shut the door and heâs perfect. It dawns on you that for the first time since the breakup, you feel safe. Like you donât have to be a stone pillar anymore. This, of course, translates into even more tears, which you try to hide as you face away, re-locking the door. Â
âSweetheart...â he sighs, because you canât hide anything from him. Hearing the resonance of his voice so close to you once more is overwhelming. In an instant youâre rushing into his arms, and he accepts you without hesitation. You bury your teary face in the vetiver safety of his button-up and slip your arms under his coat, as if you could absorb his warmth and forever hide from the world that way. He pulls you even closer. Itâs terrible and cruel how much he is exactly what you needed. âWhatâs wrong? What did she say?âÂ
You shake your head and gasp a small sob.Â
Truthfully, youâre not really crying about the petty insults from your mother anymore. Youâre back to square one, the reason youâd called your mother to begin withâyou miss the man whose arms are currently wound around your shoulders.Â
His hand smooths over the back of your hair.Â
âOkay. Thatâs okay. We donât have to talk about it.âÂ
You stay like thatâcontent even as you cry because being with him feels so much safer than being alone. It feels rightâor perhaps itâs just familiar. You donât know which is worse. Â
Spencer is rubbing soothing lines up and down your back as you cling to him, soaking him up in all his ephemeral, comforting glory. He surprises you by chucklingâit vibrates through his chest, buzzing against your ear.Â
âNice Magritte print. I bet the person who bought that has fantastic taste.âÂ
âAre you gonna ask for it back?â you mumble into the fabric of his suit jacket. He is, of course, referring to the painting youâd more or less stolen from his apartment seven months ago. You really donât want him to take it home. Itâs the most overt Spencer memorabilia youâd allowed yourself to keep in plain sight.Â
âNo, baby. You can keep it.â The words are low, and kind, and they settle you some, but you canât seem to get him close enough. âWhat can I do?â he whispers after a moment, helpless as you take a shuddering breath. âCan I make you tea? Have you eaten?âÂ
âWill you just... stay for a little bit? IâllâI promise Iâll stop crying.âÂ
There is an unexpected lull where you thought youâd receive pretty immediate agreement, but before you can pull back and ask whatâs wrong, he murmurs, âyeah. I can stay for a while. But you have to kick me out before it gets too late.âÂ
You wonder if youâre imagining the double-entendre that seems to underline his words in bold red ink. Spencer is too smart to have not noticed a thing like that. You donât mention itâit all boils down to the same unspoken idea.Â
Donât let me stay, because I might not leave.Â
âI will,â you sniff, finally stepping back and wiping your own tears. It hurts to lose his touch, but at least you know heâs not going anywhere for the next few hours. This, as opposed to everything else lately, can be a beginning instead of an end. Â
At least, until he goes home.Â
Three and a half hours later, after tea, an impromptu dinner comprised mostly of cheese and crackers, and several vinyl changes on your record player (which served only as background noise for your long, ambling conversations), things are seeming to wind down to a natural stopping point. Which you hate. The whole time youâd had a dull ache in your chest because talking to him was easier than breathing and you knew it wouldnât last. There had been one or two false bottoms alreadyâthe first when youâd yawned around nine, and the second when youâd gotten up to do your skincare and brush your teeth half an hour later. Even then heâd just leaned against the doorframe, watching your reflection above the sink as you talked for fifteen more minutes. Now you stand across from each other in the kitchen, plates restacked and everything in order. Of course heâd insisted on helping you clean up.Â
âI should go,â he says, with a soft sort of finality in his voice. Â
âIs your carriage turning into a pumpkin?â you tease gently, to hide how much you donât want him to leave. He smilesâa small, weary thingâbut genuinely and endlessly charmed by you.Â
âThat among other things.âÂ
âWould youâwould you walk me to my room first?âÂ
The hesitance is clear in his eyes and the way his lips part as if to say, âI donât think thatâs a good ideaâ, but you're sure heâs really going to leave in a moment and youâre also sure he wonât deny you this one small thing before he does.Â
âOkay.âÂ
Itâs a short, silent walk through the living room and down the hall to your bedroom door, but you can feel him trailing behind you the whole way. You stop in front of your open door, turning face to face with him. Â
âThanks,â you murmur. Â
His lips pull into a melancholy smile.Â
âAnytime.âÂ
Thereâs nothing left to do but wrap your arms around each other once more, tuck yourself into the you-sized space between his head and shoulder and hold on for as long as heâll let you. The hug lingers for longer than is wise. Spencer adjusts his arms looped around your waist, pulling you closer, and you nuzzle against his neck, grateful that at least he seems as reluctant to let this end as you are. Â
But eventually, it relaxes. Your hold on each other loosens. His face is just inches from yours, and you get to study every plane and valley and line like youâd thought you never would again. It seems heâs doing the sameâlosing himself in the luxury of seeing you up close.Â
âWill you kiss me goodnight?â you whisper, unable to muster any self-consciousness though you know itâs a foolâs errand. Spencer strokes your waist.Â
âI canât do that, honey.âÂ
âWhy not?âÂ
His voice is just as quiet as yours. It falters slightly as he speaks, so gently, so patiently.Â
âBecause weâre not together anymore.âÂ
âWhy not?âÂ
Your feeble, desperate supplication sounds pitiable even to you. Youâre not proud, but you canât find it in yourself to be ashamed, either. All you want is an answer. But itâs like a child asking why the sky is blue, or the earth is round. There is a definitive explanation, but mostly, the adult will shrug, and say, thatâs just how it is.Â
Spencerâs eyes squeeze shut. His head tilts down.Â
âWe canât do this again, sweetheart. You know why weâre not together.âÂ
In theoryâyes. Youâd had so many conversations when youâd broken up. It had been a long, painful process, spanning multiple all-nighters at his kitchen table, nursing coffee and trying to convince each other and yourselves that it was the right choice. But it just feels like a horrible, horrible mistake. You feel desperate to explain this to him before he slips away againâthe words come out flustered, inelegant as you cling to him.
âBut I donât think Iâm getting better without you. I tried, I tried so hard to be good on my own, but everything is worse and harder andâand we werenât sure about it then, and I donât think it was the right choice, because I still really need you. Like, all the time. Iâmâitâs not getting better without you. Nothing got better.âÂ
He swallows, eyes darting between yours for an infinite second. Youâre breathless and your heart is pounding after your confessionâyou can feel your eyes stinging with the few tears that managed to escape as you spoke.Â
âEverything is worse,â he agrees shakily. âEverything. IâmâIâm getting disciplinary infractions from Hotch like Iâm a child because I canât focus on anything. Game of Thrones is the most complex literature I can comprehend right now. I had to use a calculator the other day.âÂ
You want to laugh, but nothing is funny until heâs yours again.Â
âThen come back. Please come back, Spencer.âÂ
Finally, he leans closer, until your heads are pressed together, and his nose bumps yours, feather light. You're dizzy. You exhale. He inhales.Â
âI donât think I knew how to leave in the first place.âÂ
When he kisses you, it feels like home.Â
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