#and nothing is solved yet 🙃

[heartbreakgoretzka]

most days i don’t even remember him anymore but then i see alaba on the pitch and suddenly i feel like a widow still processing grief

[sadgirlautumn]

Pretty little liars first two episodes rewatch thoughts:

Something about late 2000s/early 2010s fashion is fascinating to me. Like they love their layers upon layers (in terms of clothing and jewelry), funky patterns, and colors that are somehow vivid yet dull at the same time.

It’s funny what I do vs what I don’t remember about this show. Like I can’t believe I didn’t remember that Hannah’s mom slept with a detective to get her out of trouble for shoplifting as they announced that they found Alison’s body on the news. Like sir don’t you have a murder to solve??? He’s just so creepy he needs to arrest himself.

Also the way the show makes you think that it was a one time thing but then the detective shows up with take out like him and Hannah’s mom have been going steady for weeks despite them seemingly never have been on a real date. 🙃 Plus Hannah’s mom making him eggs even though she never cooks like… it’s so deeply icky

Ezra and Aria are actually so tough to watch. 🙃 When they attend Alison’s funeral him and aria are alone in the church stairwell and they were discussing how they can’t be together and how that’s extra painful on top of the fact that her best friend died and after Aria says they should be over in order to not jeopardize his career he decided to make out with her anyway even though she’s in an extremely vulnerable state and they only had one brief conversation at a bar (that was mostly lies and them finding out they have similar music taste) and then making out in the bar bathroom. 💀 they are acting like they have such a connection but they know literally nothing about each other aside from the fact they know they can’t be together. 🙄

Continuing on from my last point it’s the same in episode two: Aria decided to try and transfer out of his class because it’s wrong for them to be together but then her transfer request got denied so I guess they both quietly agreed that this was okay but they were still trying to set boundaries. Then they run into each other at the movie theater but Aria’s mom is there and despite there being a seat on either side of them of course he picks the one beside aria and her mom whispers to her about how he’s cute. 💀 then later in the episode Aria is walking home in the rain and of course Ezra happens to drive by (like he is borderline stalking her imo) and he opens the door for her and they make out in his car. They once again talk about how they have so much in common and they can’t stand to be apart from each other even though they’ve never actually had a real “get to know you” type of conversation. 🙄

I hate that Spencer’s secret (well let’s be real all of the secrets aren’t really worth black mailing a 16 year old for tbh and Emily’s feels particularly nasty to blackmail someone for because she’s literally just a lesbian. 💀 at least if aria’s secret got out it would force Ezra away from her which would actually be good for her + although the way A comes after Hannah with the fat phobia is nasty at the very least I can understand why you’d use shoplifting against her because it’s not like she’s broke) is about her crushing on her sister’s boyfriends when they’re like at least 22 and she’s 15/16… like maybe Spencer’s sister should stop dating men that are creeps 🤷‍♀️ like sure Spencer does flirt back but an adult should never reciprocate and should tell the teenager to stop!!!

Tbh I don’t have much to say about Emily’s life so far except that I forgot that her boyfriend is played by the same actor who plays Ben on Yellowjackets lmao

[usermischief]

♞Pairing: Steo ♞Characters: Stiles Stilinski, Theo Raeken, Liam Dunbar, Lydia Martin ♞Warnings: - ♞Words: 2163 ♞Prompt: Liam is protective over Stiles whenever Theo is around.

ao3

a/n: I lost the original ask 🙃 But hey, anon, this is for you!

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“Okay, can you stop with the—” Stiles gestures in the direction of Lydia’s face, narrowing his eyes slightly “— the judgmental expression? It’s getting on my nerves.” And his poor nerves have certainly seen better days. 

Lydia merely huffs out a breath and crosses her arms on the table. Just because she's hiding her eyes behind oversized sunglasses doesn't mean Stiles didn't notice her eyes boring into his soul. It's nothing new. She's been staring at him for the past week as if her judgement would somehow make him change his mind. 

Stiles thought they all agreed on giving Theo a chance without the option of allowing him to get into his pants — or his head. Neither will be good for anybody. Theo is a little too talented at getting into his head, mostly because he’s way too accepting of the darkness lurking just underneath his skin. It’s what makes him infuriatingly appealing. It’s what makes Stiles want to give in. However, Theo’s made sure Stiles knows why he’s come back, or rather, who he’s come back for. It’s easy to believe him. Trusting that he has changed his mind after everything that happened, that’s the real issue.

But Stiles isn’t here because he’s part of the pack. Stiles isn’t here because he’s a member of any pack in Beacon Hills. He’s here because Scott needs leverage over Theo, and he isn’t even trying to be subtle about it. Stiles agreed to come here to keep the peace. If they work together, they are capable of making sure the town is protected. As much as he hates Beacon Hills, it’s his home, his father’s home, and the home of people he cares about. 

At this point, having Theo on their side has more advantages than disadvantages. 

He props his chin on his hand, watching Scott pace back and forth while Theo is standing his ground, arms crossed over his chest. The posture and black v-neck make him look hotter than he’s got any right to be — it makes him look more like an alpha than Scott could ever be. It’s ridiculous.

It’s fucking ridiculous.

“You’re staring,” Lydia informs him. 

Stiles all but jumps to his feet. “I need another coffee.” He snatches his empty cup, glancing one more time in Theo’s direction — this time, the chimera is looking back at him. Judging by the smirk, he’s very much not listening to anything Scott is telling him right now. Stiles hates how it gets to him. 

Because it shouldn’t. 

Huffing out a breath, Stiles slips into the McCall house. Liam and Mason are looking at him then back outside before putting their heads together again. Stiles has no clue what these two are planning — at this point he’s too scared to ask because they've been doing it for weeks — but they’re better company than Lydia recently because they are not trying to make him realise that dating Theo could actually be a good thing. Because it’s not. Not at all. He loves Lydia, he really does, but sometimes he wished she’d shut up about Theo. The fact that she’s a hopeless romantic is fucking obscure. The world is not a fucking Disney movie. She, out of all people, should know that. Love doesn’t magically fix everything and nothing is solved by the power of friendship. People lie, even to those they claim to love — and sometimes an apology doesn’t glue the trust back together that’s been shattered into a thousand pieces. 

Life just doesn’t work that way. 

He walks into the kitchen, narrowing his eyes slightly at the sight of the almost empty coffee pot. If he’s lucky, he’ll get half a cup out of that. Beautiful. Mason and Liam had one job. Just one. 

And yet. 

Stiles agreed to come to this stupid meeting, knowing full well he’s just here as bait to lure Theo into agreeing with everything. It’s not going to work. Theo isn’t stupid, and he knows most likely better than anyone else that this is nothing more than a charade. He’ll play along until he gets bored or reaches whatever goal he’s got in mind. The consequences of either outcome are a little scary to think about. 

All he asked for was not having to talk to the chimera and a never-ending supply of coffee. Is that too much to ask for?

“I doubt the coffee pot will magically refill itself by glaring at it.” 

“Please,” Stiles whispers, closing his eyes, and takes a deep breath, “shut up.” Being with Theo in one room may not be the last thing he needs right now, but it’s certainly pretty close to it. There are too many people in his head, attempting to tell him that he’s been right about Theo’s motives, but now he’s wrong because now there are feelings involved. 

Whatever those feelings may be. 

Stiles is pretty certain not a single person in this house had a conversation that really mattered with Theo. He spent hours in a car with Theo. He was the one who ran around Eichen House trying to find Lydia with Theo. He was the one who was allowed a glimpse behind the curtain. If anybody here knows how Theo truly ticks, it’s Stiles — and he really doesn’t need anybody to tell him otherwise. 

“I’m just saying,” Theo mutters, and to Stiles’ delight, he does sound a bit annoyed, “I came here in hopes to find coffee because it seems like Scott is trying to talk me into a coma.” 

That wouldn’t be the first time. Stiles runs a hand over the back of his nose. “You could just agree with him.” That way, they could all go their different ways and Beacon Hills would be more or less protected from whatever madness is army-crawling their way towards them right this very second. 

“I will,” Theo agrees, reaching for the coffee pot still in Stiles’ hands. “For the right incentive.” 

Stiles opens his eyes as fingertips carefully brush over his skin. It’s easy to forget how soft Theo’s hands can be — so much softer than you’d think from someone who rips other people’s throat out like it’s nothing. They’re also still touching. Because Theo didn’t pull his hands away, and he certainly didn’t take the coffee pot. Stiles doubts this has been his intention in the first place. Biting his bottom lip, he looks up and meets Theo’s eyes. 

Fuck. 

Theo’s smile causes his eyes to crinkle just a little. They’re bright too. His whole expression is painfully soft, and Stiles hates it. So much. So much more than he can put into words. Because Stiles has carved himself a place in this world, a place for after the McCall pack. He is still close to Lydia, Liam continues to care for him in a way that's not entirely unlike a brother, Kira remains his friend, but overall, Stiles is alone. He's accepted this part of himself, the darkness he cannot quite suppress — not after what happened to Donovan. After the initial shock of being without a pack, Stiles found a place for him in the shadows of Beacon Hills. He's content there. He's okay.

Theo's smile, however, is a promise to belong somewhere exactly the way he is; flawed and dangerous, loyal yet distrustful, ready to do what's necessary. Still, Stiles doesn't trust Theo, not entirely, not the way he should in order to join him or his pack. His words play on repeat. I came for Void Stiles. It doesn’t leave him alone. The words. The thought. The fact that Theo, despite offering him a place, didn’t come back for him. He came back for a version of himself Stiles will never become again. The nogitsune is gone forever. 

And it’s going to stay gone. 

“Stiles,” Liam pops into the kitchen, eyes narrowing immediately when he spots them standing close together. This isn’t the first time it happened, so Liam’s reaction is as predictable as they come. Within the blink of an eye, the young wolf is right next to him. His glare is fixed on Theo, and the low rumble in his chest has Theo chuckling. 

He pulls his hands away, however, and crosses his arms. “What?”

“You know what.”

While Liam is glaring at Theo, and Theo is regarding the other boy with distinct amusement, Stiles decides he should probably busy himself with making coffee. This is a bomb waiting for a fuse, and Stiles is not going to be the one to light it. He will stay far, far away from this mess. The last thing he needs is being in the middle of whatever war these two have going on. 

“Leave him alone,” Liam orders in a low voice. 

Theo scoffs. To no surprise. Out of everyone here, Theo would be the last person anybody is able to boss around. Maybe it’s pride, or perhaps he’s just insanely stubborn; alpha or no alpha, Theo doesn’t listen to anybody. 

Shutting the water off, Stiles studies the coffee pot. 

No, that’s not entirely true. 

“Stiles?”

Fuck. 

“I said you should leave,” Liam interjects, and Stiles wonders if he knew the influence Theo and Stiles have on each other. It wouldn’t come as a surprise. Liam sees more than he lets on, and since Theo isn’t exactly trying to keep whatever is going on between them under wraps, Liam most definitely knows something. Just like Lydia does. At least, Liam isn’t fucking annoying about it. 

Theo lets out an audible breath. “I’m pretty sure Stiles can make decisions for himself,” he says in a low voice, sounding actually angry for the first time in a while. “Once he stops hiding behind the coffee pot.” 

Huffing, Stiles puts the pot down and turns around. “What?”

Theo holds his gaze, expression now very guarded. “Do you want me to go?” He crosses his arms over his chest. “I’ll go if you want me to.” There’s a poignant pause, one that hangs very heavy in the air. “And I’ll stay gone.” For good. The words are poison between them, making it suddenly very hard to breathe or even think. 

Despite knowing that this moment would come eventually, Stiles really hoped he’d have a lot more time. But it’s not like he can drag Theo along forever. He will have to give at one point, and if he doesn’t do it now— 

“Stiles,” Theo whispers, all the heat gone from his tone, “do you want me to leave?”

Stiles swallows around the lump in his throat. They’re both looking at him, quietly, almost judgemental in Liam’s case. Stiles never bothered to be unreadable, but he certainly doesn’t enjoy being an open book. He really wishes his lack of response could be read any other way than what it means. Pressing his lips together, Stiles runs a finger along the edge of the coffee pot. “You know—”

Theo cuts him off, “I wanna hear you say it.”

Stiles licks his lips. “Don’t—” the words get stuck in his throat. This is going to be a decision that will change his life. It’s a scary thought. Having Liam and Theo stare at him doesn’t make it any fucking easier either. He crosses his arms over his chest and pulls his shoulders up. “Don’t go.” On a second try, the words roll over his tongue so much easier than he expected. 

“What?” Liam widens his eyes. 

“Okay,” Theo says, lips curling into a small smile. “I’ll stay.”

Liam’s head whips around. For a moment, he’s staring at Theo without saying a single word. Then he takes a step forward, getting right in Theo’s highly amused face. “Break his heart, and I’ll mail yours to the first wendigo I can find as a Christmas present.” 

Theo raises his brows and his gaze flicks from Liam to Stiles and back again. Although he doesn’t step back — after all, he’s never been one to back down from a challenge — he does seem to take Liam’s threat seriously enough. “I’ll keep that in mind.” 

“You better, Raeken.” After one more not particularly thrilled look shot in Stiles’ direction, Liam turns on his heels and stalks out of the kitchen. It’s not too surprising that Liam isn’t jumping for joy after the shit Theo’s pulled. 

Stiles curls his fingers into his sweater, eyeing Theo a little warily. The world has not yet burned down, so perhaps this was the right decision to make. “What happens now?” 

“I’d like to get out of here.” Theo offers his hand, smiling a way that makes Stiles’ heart and resolve melt so much faster than he’d like to admit. Everything it took was an ultimatum, everything it took was Theo telling him he would leave if Stiles told him to. But a life without Theo in it just doesn’t seem to be possible. 

It’s something Stiles doesn’t even want to imagine. 

Taking a deep breath, Stiles grabs Theo’s hand. “Yeah,” he says softly, “let’s get out of here.” 

[theflyingfeeling]

PANIC PANIC PANIC I've got a job interview tomorrow 💀

It's a teaching job in an open university where I myself studied for a semester some ten years ago and I'm actually interested and excited about the opportunity because I'd gain teaching experience on yet another level of education, but that's also exactly the reason why I'm shitting myself as we speak, because I just spoke on the phone with one of the people interviewing me tomorrow (she was my teacher there too and she's so so sweet) and she told me there'll also be some "substance questions", i.e. content questions about some of the stuff I'd be teaching. They're basic level university courses, so rather different from the stuff I've been teaching recently (high school), and while I obviously have studied all that myself back in the day (and gotten decent grades for them too), I'm so so scared that they'll ask me something I know / can't remember shit about. Logically thinking I know they won't be asking anything extremely specific, but that only makes it harder to prepare myself for those questions in any way, because I simply cannot know what I'll be asked. Either I'll know it or I won't?? 🤷‍♀️ I know this may sound like a 'problem solved' kinda situation lol but it's actually the opposite: there are MANY problems in fact and there's NOTHING I can do about it and I will likely make an absolute fool of myself and cry all the way home because I'm not good or smart enough for anything 😐

Fuck, even the 'tell us a little about yourself' part in the beginning of the interview scares the shit out of me. How on earth am I supposed to talk about myself in a positive light when I feel like I'm not good at anything ever and I'm so goddamn ashamed of myself that I feel extremely uncomfortable talking about anything related to myself? Who am I to tell them they should hire me, when the honest answer is that they'd be way better off with literally anyone else? (okay fiiiiiine maybe not literally anyone else lol but you know what I mean 🙄)

I fucking hate job interviews so insanely much, because some of the questions are just impossible to predict, and then I look like an idiot because I have no answer ready or can't think of one in the moment. This is extremely frustrating, because I know I'd benefit from preparing answers to some questions beforehand, and of course there are certain questions I can safely expect them to ask, but I also know there'll be so many questions I won't have been prepared for at all, and those are the ones that stress me out the most, because I have frozen during interviews before when they asked me something and I didn't know what to answer. I know in some cases they're not necessarily that interested in the contents of my answer, but as I told you in the first paragraph (lol congrats if you're still reading), THIS particular interview WILL apparently include questions SPECIFICALLY about the contents of the courses I'd be teaching 🙃

However, it's a part-time job (which I actually wouldn't mind, despite being paid less), so I want to believe they don't have that many applicants and that my chances are pretty good (especially since one of the interviewers knows me and I may have even been one of her favourite students hehe (joking, it's been ten years and stuff like this shouldn't affect their decision)). I really want this job, so that I won't have to feel like I'm a waste of space for at least until May next year (that's when the contract ends), please please pleeeeeeaaaase let things go my way for ONCE 🙏

(Please don't feel the need to interact, I'm mostly just venting and none of you won't be able to predict the substance questions in the interview any better than I can, but if you do want to reach out, know it's appreciated 💗 However... I don't want to seem ungrateful, because I really really do appreciate anyone who reaches out and I KNOW you only mean well, I really do!! 🥺 but please understand that I'm not venting because I'm feeling insecure and suffering from the imposter syndrome and just need a bit of encouragement and then I'll feel better about it. Surely it's all that too lol, but I also genuinely believe I won't know shit about the stuff they might ask me, and I genuinely believe I'm not good enough, and no matter what you say can easily change my mindset about myself at the moment. "You're an expert on your field, you got this" is an instinct response and yessss logically thinking it might even be true and I'm just stressing out over nothing, but when my genuine feeling about this is that I very much haven't "got this" at all, like, not even a little bit in the beginning, it's... not necessarily as encouraging as it may sound like? 😭 as I said, I knooowww you have good intentions, but you don't know what's inside my head, only I know what's in there, and I know it's nothing. In addition, please don't say "everything will be alright" because you can't know that?!? Yes, everything might go well and I might be hired, but it also might be a total disaster and I'll start crying mid-interview because I feel so incompetent. I can't know, you can't know, so let's just focus in the here and now, yeah? 😩

...however if someone has any tips on how to answer 'tell us a little about yourself' I'm all ears! 😅 I feel like none of the tips I read on recruiting websites are of any use 💀)

[sindar-princeling]

ep 2 thoughts!

disa continues to be one of the most enjoyable characters, I love how in touch she is with the mountains and the stone

"after someone has trusted him, he could deceive their eyes and ears and alter their very reality" so that's how we're solving the very stupid problem of the plot of this show being literally backwards, causing sauron to have to be both an obvious and a hidden threat ajajsjssjs :///

do they have just one dress that all female characters share or

ah yes. Rhun. the land of a dark wizard and shady locals of color 🙃 for fucks sake

oh do dwarven women have more facial hair? cool and about time!

......where's Cirdan's beard. can I have NOTHING nice

unfortunately I have to say the dialogues are still hard to get through, oscillating between emptily pompous and stupidly obvious

Sauron FINALLY started some active deception

celebrimbor saying "I'm going to open a first age bottle" is yet another example of this story feeling like a TV show set in modern times except with a fantasy aesthetic, its hard to explain but it was such a normal TV show thing to do and say? these characters don't create an immersive reality, they just try to look like they live in one

Sauron playing Celebrimbor like a cheap whistle fiddle is the first interesting thing to happen this season, I hope it lasts for a bit because it looks like it could be a lot of fun!

(I had to make that reference and if you caught it I love you)

the premise and the order of how the rings were forged are still stupid as shit BUT the way Sauron starts to twist the existing situation in his favour is cool

oh but that wig makes it hard to take him seriously. Charlie Vickers you could have been a really good Sauron if they gave you a better script and plot and costume and wig an-

I'm sorry but that reveal looked. bad

also like. did that balrog go back to sleep after season 1 ajajajajssjsjsjs

"just 5 more minutes"

- Durin's Bane

rop season 2 episode 1 thoughts

at this point you gotta admire the creators' dedication to absolutely bizarre choices when it comes to sauron. 15 minutes in I'm already going what the hell and fuck. like what was that supposed to be. genuinely

Charlie Vickers has grown on me; he still doesn't have much to work with in terms of the script or the plot though

this whole introductory sequence was there....... I'm not sure why? we could already extrapolate all that, and I mean All That, from the previous season

it still pisses me off that Galadriel is The Main Idiot and Everything Is Her Fault

also, I am reminded by all the plot and worldbuilding choices that annoyed me before. why is mithril important for the elves' survival again?

CIRDAN HIII CIRDAN <33333

I'm so glad they kept his beard

believe me, I AM trying to find things to like about this show, but the plot choices feel like so much unnecessary drama. Galadriel and Elrond fighting feels.... tiring. I feel like all Galadriel does is fight with people

oh are we getting Rhun?? 👀 Nice

this is a personal opinion but the elven women have wayyy too strong and modern-looking make-up

it's a shame galadriel gets the ring because she's power-hungry and reckless, not because she's one of the mightiest elves in middle-earth. she SHOULD be power-hungry, don't get me wrong, it's one of her best traits, but this way you don't put any sort of accent of how very important and mighty she is

sauron having a Badass Walk into mordor at the end of s1, which was a really cool shot to end a season on, only to then get himself in chains and then turn away and come back to Celebrimbor has got to be the most '???' moments of this show. they really have no idea what to do with him

overall I'd say my main gripe, apart from the plot solutions, is that this show doesn't have much to say. it's showy, it's lore-heavy (even if I don't like the lore they came up with), but so far it still has little heart and thought behind it. to me at least it doesn't feel like it really wants to tell you something

[asksep]

Did I disappear for almost two weeks because I lost track of the time? Maybe, but if you don't mention it it didn't happen. Anyway!

The cactus is still alive! Name suggestions welcome from anyone but you and jenna, a dragon named "spit fyre" and a pet rock named "petroc" do not give me hope that either of you could pick a good name for my cactus

I'm glad nothing too bad has happened to either of you! Although how do you get lightly set on fire? And what's magykal exhaustion like? Is it more like physical exhaustion or is it mental? I'm assuming physical, based off of absolutely nothing other than it can cause you to pass out (rip marcia, honestly surprised it's only happened once to either of you in ten years)

Yeah, I had a feeling death would probably be the worst thing but it's good that nothings happened in the past few decades. I guess the stuff that's happened with the supreme custodian and domdaniel and everything else might have put people off trying anything too risky lol

There might have been more I'd intended to say? But I've typed this all into your inbox and I can't go back and check your post without copy/pasting all this and frankly, it is 1:20am and I cannot be bothered. Oh! Except for regarding the post about the medieval torture rack, don't you basically live in medieval times? You might be able to test that person's theory :) (this is a joke do NOT)

Hello I have returned from the dead! again i was reminded this blog existed when my own queue went off lmao

It's been a while since you sent this, I hope the cactus is still thriving (though I guess the cold isn't the best climate for a cactus)! And I dunno what you mean I think spit fyre and petroc are perfectly reasonable names. If you haven't got a name (and its still alive) I think it should be named stabby mcstabbyface

The lightly set on fire was because it we were trying experimental fyre spell designed to be strong enough to get tinder burning but then weak enough (and fast enough to burn out) so that it wouldn't injure someone too badly if they accidentally got hit with it. And funnily enough I accidentally got hit with it 🙃 and was lightly set on fire but it burned out really quickly and didn't cause any injuries, just a bit of stinging that was solved with cold water.

Magykal exhaustion is primarily physical with a healthy dose of brain fog to go alongside it - I dunno of you've ever had a migraine but marcia says it's very similar to the aftermath of one? Where the pain has gone but you're still not totally recovered yet?

Yeah, Marcia said one of the things she was worried about with the supreme custodian was that people would try out spells they weren't capable of doing safely and end up injured but thankfully (?) the custodians stamped out magyk outside of the tower enough that the only thing that really carried on were the basics and very well established stuff

Hmm there's some very weird stuff currently lining the long walk, it wouldn't surprise me if I could find a medieval torture rack somewhere in there🤔

How are you? Celebrating anything this winter or avoiding the festivities at all costs?

✌

[beeindaclouds]

Hey moot how r u?

I don’t think I’ve sent in a request to you before (and I’m not sure if you’ve done smth like this) but could you maybe write a c!wilbur x reader where they have a similar dynamic as c!tnt duo, like kind of tense, enemies, but there’s this air of ‘will they or won’t they?’ And Tommy’s just playing Cupid and sets them up on like a mission or smth. You can decide the details <33

If you want, ofc! I hope ur doing well 🙃

I think I remember you requesting a while ago, but I am getting old so I don't quite remember well haha

Hope you enjoy <3

Enemies to Lovers ft. Cupidinnit

Disclaimer: this is in no way a Tommy × Reader, he will just be mentioned in the story

Click Here before requesting, please ^^

Reader: GN - They/Them

tw caps, swearing, like lots of swearing

Since he had been revived you really couldn't stand to look at him

With his stupid old man white streak in his hair and his still cocky and know-it-all attitude

You and Wilbur always had something going on since before L'manburg was born

At the time he seemed like a chill dude who you liked spending time with

But after creating a whole nation, causing wars and blowing up said nation, you just couldn't stand to look at him without having traumatic flashbacks

And he reciprocated those feelings

Looking at you was relieving every second of the past from when he had just joined the SMP

When he was considered normal and weak. But that wasn't him. That Wilbur was dead.

So you two had this weird thing going on that Tommy had noticed from the start

He noticed how obvious your feelings were for eachother during the creation of L'manburg

But after Wilbur was revived, it was like you were both trying to turn those feelings into anger for eachtoher

Wilbur would flirt and tease you just to get some attention, while you were ready to knock his teeth out

And Tommy didn't want that

Yes, Wilbur was an *sshole to him and probably gave him trauma

But he couldn't help but still want the best for him

So, he planned a way for you to make up

He tried everything

From trying to make you two meet to secretly giving eachtoher gifts even if they weren't from you

Nothing worked, obviously

So, to Tommy, it seemed that the only way was to lock you in a room so you two could solve things out

...and that's what he did

He invited you both to a random spot in the forest and proceeded to trap you into a cube made of obsidian

"Yeah, let me out"

[Tommy, Wilbur, You]

"Tommy, this is no funny"

"Us out"

"No, you can stay and go back to where you came from for all I care"

"Oh please-"

"See! This is exactly why you two are in there. You two are adults and yet instead of talking things out, like adults do, you act like children. And I'm the youngest here!! Now talk or stay in there all eternity- ooh a tiny bee!"

"NO, TOMMY DON'T LEAVE!"

You two gave up screaming after the child and just sat down on opposite sides, staring the other down

The air was thick, the glares sharp as knife and, if one of you had a weapon, one of you would be already injured

But after what seemed like hours of silence, Wilbur decided to make a hurrtful comment and things escalated from there

"You are so selfish"

"SELFISH? Says the one who blew up a nation after it didn't go as he PLANNED"

"Schlatt wasn't even a good president"

"At least he was voted fairly"

"I can't believe you're defending him"

"Well I can't believe that you have your head so much up your butt that you don't see what is happening around you. Tommy threw himself down a tower and lost his last life, Tubbo had half his face blown off because of one of your genius plans, Techno was almost butchered, Phil was captured to protect Techno and the SMP is in shambles now that Dream has gone f*cking insane. All for what? For a stupid nation you created so that you could have a legacy."

"You think I did it only for legacy?? I did it because I wanted to create a safe place for the only person that had made me feel something since I've stepped foot into this stupid place"

"Oh who? The fish you had Fundy with."

"YOU, IDIOT"

Silence filled the room once more.

You processing his last statement while Wilbur took in all the thoughts you had about him

It was obvious what was happening

He cared for you from the start, but you were to scared to give into those feelings after seeing just how unstable he got

Funny how love affects people differently

"Do you want to...start over?"

"Can we even do that? Look at us, Wil. Stuck in a obsidian cube because of a child you took under your wing"

"Yeah, I'm not the best role model"

"You can say that again..."

"But, I'm good at something else"

"What?"

"Coming back to life just so I could have a second chance with you"

"... that was so cliche"

"Don't ruin the moment"

[spiritsong]

apparently the yurgir quest was broken too so I had to fix it and lost most of the progress I made today 🥲 thankfully I did not do the gauntlet trials yet because if that was the case I really woulda just like. gone to bed at 4pm

I just went straight to yurgir the second time around instead of seeing balthazar first. but then the quest broke AGAIN because I wanted to pretend to go along with yurgir's plan for the sole purpose of getting nessa on my side (durge!aune was friends with a displacer beast in her youth so she was feeling unexpectedly sympathetic)

and I guess the game didn't like that? because once I turned on yurgir and killed him in battle, the quest didn't mark as completed in the journal, raphael never showed up in camp afterwards, etc.

the journal entry read as though I needed to figure out how to break the contract despite yurgir already being dead. (it did say underneath the entry title "the orthon is dead", but the quest was still active.) I figured MAYBEEE I need to solve the justiciar rat thing, so I did that and it changed nothing 🙃

gonna play durge!aune now AAAAA

last time I played was weeks ago. I had quickly run through the araj interaction so I could see that version of astarion's confession. after it was done I was like "well, I'm already here, might as well get a quick kiss in before I revert my save" and it was BROKEN

and it discouraged me so much that I just stopped lol

but anyway now I'm ready to go back and see my babies and go fuck up yurgir and see balthazar and... and... lead shadowheart down the wrong path *takes 10d6 psychic damage*

[levok]

“Okaaaay 🙃 you are truly the definition of Wille apologist.”

And your take on Simon forgiving Sara for what she did to him, being easier than hypothetically forgiving Wille for not telling him when they weren’t even on speaking terms while Sara is acting like nothing happened, is truly hilarious.

This isn’t about being a Wille apologist, when Wille too understood what he did and why he fucked up. Sara, his own sister, used his traumatic experience to get herself a place at Hillerska. After all he did for her. He went to Micke FOR HER. He never wanted to go there, that was his last resort. He went back several times always FOR HER. Maybe start acknowledging that.

She didn’t feel an ounce of remorse and yet she went and made that grand speech in ep6 knowing full well what she did. When he finds out what she did he will be devastated and it won’t be easy for him. Idk why y’all are brushing it off like she dumped his fish down the toilet jfc

I am not saying that what sara did wasn’t wrong and hurtful, but I feel like you try to villainize Sara more than necessary just to argue Wilhelm’s innocence. Sara doesn’t know everything we do as a viewer, maybe acknowledge that?

You say that Wille understand what he did and why he fucked up. But if he continues down the same path by keeping Simon in the dark and solving the problems his way, instead of including Simon, who is just as much part of it as himself, he is showing the exact opposite of understanding Simon’s situation and why he was hurt.

[rw47vr-key]

Doll without a key to its heart

Thank you so much for the request dear anon!!❤️(I'm still waiting for your reply :D) Sorry it took this much time D:,I hope I won't disappoint you with this.🙃This went very very long than I expected 😅😂,so find a comfy seat✨ before reading this silly drabble of mine🤭💕

It's Episode 9 spoiler free!

And these two unique masterpiece songs inspired me,( I mentioned few lines)

Sweet Little Lies- Bülow

Dancing With Your Ghost-Sasha Alex Sloan

It's not necessary to listen to them to read this fic ;but go and check it out if you like!!💕✨

Sorry If there's any mistakes,and Let me know what you think about this!💕

Warning: angst,hurt, happy ending (?)

Important A/N in the end! (General, you'll understand after reading this)

The chirruping birds, descending sun whose orange-yellowish light fell on those recently wet green leaves;You rest yourself in a bench found before a shop,take up all wonders of nature to your tired soul and gaze at those majestic trees in duskwood forest.

(I don't own the gif)

It seemed strange that there was no raven cry heard there."After all that happened to me,this place is no longer scary.Or it never had been that way.It appeared to be because of the people around here",you mutter and close your eyes unable to resist the calming atmosphere adding to the sudden chill blow of the wind.

***

"You always here bad things about Duskwood.But there are lot of pleasant ones you'll surely enjoy", Jessy's chat text crossed your mind.

It has been a year since Hannah was found, thanks to your help and the hacker.You were really glad that you saved a life, though yours was just a random number that the serial killer known as the "Man without a face" sent to Thomas to direct the investigation on you.

It made you very upset,you cried and yelped for days alone, because you've gone through so much suffering and nearly lost your job due to Lilly's video. Things turned out well and everyone of those duskwood friends thanked and invited you to celebrated a party.That was a week after Hannah and Richy was found.Richy was injured badly and was in a coma for a few days.Thankfully,Jessy was there for him.

You were from a city which was near to the bustling, industrious city, Colville.So you didn't visit them after that. Yet you kept texting and calling them often.

The case was over soon because the police finally solved it with your warrant.Everyone thought it'd have been better if they've left the investigation to the police initially.Thats why their relationship with you went a little crass and gradually they stopped responding back.Only you know that Jake did a master plan by providing clues anonymously to the police, because all they tried to do was 'close the case faster for the sake of their popularity'

Even Jessy, the best friend you considered as, didn't talk to you,she was upset with you, she slightly blamed you for not immediately helping her brother who was in prison, and also after what happened to Richy .Well,the latter one is atleast something you blamed yourself,but it was not entirely your fault.

****

Flashback

Tell me all your sweet, sweet little lies;All about the dark places you hide

Tell me all your problems, make them mine;Tell me all your sweet, sweet little lies

"Hey could you help me with this?.I will also help you with anything if you need,you can ask me,I promise,ok?",a friend of you asks.

You nod and say,"Ah,of-of course.I will."

"Ok thanks!"

Later on someday....

*You approach hesitantly* well, I need your help with something.I already asked you ....But Can..."

"Oh? You mean that? I can't now,See you later".

And you were never helped after making such promise.

You can list out a lot of such incidents in your life.You don't need anything big in return from them.A simple thank you, means a lot enough to you.But avoiding you for nothing and seeking you only for their own benefit,that's really difficult to accept.

It happened again in a different angle,with a little crime involved.

***

As time changes, people do change ,you can't do anything about it.All their attention soon turned to Hannah ever since she survived. You don't mean that they are not grateful to you,but you felt a little left out of their space.

The usual cheerful approach they had,when the case was being investigated vanished into thin air.Your heart sank into the same numb feeling you get as if you were just a ploy for their game.

You are the 'key' to find Hannah.How many times you must have heard that? Now,you are just a frivolous doll without the key to open your already crushed heart.

I can shake it off, chloroform peace and rest;But you know all I ever really wanted was a friend

People may say it's because "you're jealous".No, it's actually not.You were forgotten like you didn't exist, didn't mean anything to them,like you were an invisible being,that hit you so hard,just because you were a "Stranger".

But what hurted you the most is the message you received from your dearest hacker.

Yelling at the sky;Screaming at the world

Baby, why'd you go away?;I'm still your girl

'Nothing will work out between you and me?' It sounded very strange coming from a person you've never dated for real.The scar he left in your heart,is still wounding you more and more.

Every night,when looking at those stars 'Will he be sleeping now?" ,When there is heavy rain, 'What if he gets sick ,not caring about his health and running from his persuers?',when you get any call from an unknown number,you attend it with the hope you'd hear it from Jake,or atleast the distorted voice of him.You can't erase him from your memory,for all those almost 365 days.Love can indeed make you blind,trusting an unknown man foolishly.

***

You flinch and get up from your nap and breathe heavily.You get this dream of Jake's last chat over and over again.You twist your bracelet frantically,you do it everytime if you're depressed or angry.

"Is this what I deserve,huh?",you let out a bitter laugh, wipe your tears,hold the small gift box and decide to go to the destination you need to be; A hotel venue in duskwood .

You tap on a small button in your smart bracelet and hold it closer to your mouth so that you can speak to the bot "What's the weather like here today,JD?"

"...."

"No connection??",you bit your lower lip, annoyed by the series of disappointments.

****

Today is the wedding ceremony of Hannah and Thomas.

They didn't invite you.It was actually Dan.One change that you never thought of ,the always grumpy guy, offended on behalf of you to his other friends ,really was unexpected.

*In group chat*

Dan: "Why do you all act weird to our hacker's girl?A stranger?, that's the reason?"

But all remained silent as if they agree to it.

Dan: if MC thought we were all strangers,Han..

You: No! Stop it dan please!

Dan made a huge fuss about it in the group chat once, but then he knew he can't do anything about it.You told him it was fine .You left the group chat , questioning and blaming yourself whether it was right or wrong,you couldn't endure thd fact that you were a nobody.'Letting go of some people is fine,move on' said your head,but how so? asked your heart.

*Private chat*

Dan: Sorry, MC

You: it's ok Dan.But thank you🙂

Dan: I'm still pissed off

You: "Pff,I agree you are a gentleman.But let me know if you or they need any help,ok?"

Dan: "Arrgh MC! You're still the same after everything happened??"

You: "I don't need to change myself for others, right? Don't you always go by that law?.And I'm the same😉

Dan: "Fine,fine"

***

Now...

*In the wedding ceremony*

You couldn't stop feeling delighted after entering that vibrant and festive hall.You looked around to find Dan,but he wasn't there.Then reality strike your mind,it ached your heart,that you felt alone even in that large crowd.

Dan insisted not to push yourself by coming here,but you do want to congratulate them.They were indeed your friends.Holding a grudge won't leave you anywhere.

You were anxious to approach the couples at the beautifully decorated altar .Though your heart raced faster,giving you chills to approach them, you overcomed it and congratulated.Other friends weren't there.Initially Hannah and Thomas were quite shocked to see you.They received your gift ,thanked and responded with a smile but were ashamed after what they did to you.

"MC, I'm sorr-"

You interrupt Hannah, shook your head and silently replied,"it's okay"

You return a smile , went and stood in a corner.You saw Jessy,Cleo and Lilly running here and there , making the preparations; and Richy,Dan and even Phil joking around and greeting the other people. You imagined yourself being there along with them,laughing aloud, and teasing.

I love the picture in my head;But I know that it's not real

I leave a picture in my head;Cause I like how it makes me feel

'You were okay?How could you lie to others and to yourself too? Fabricating your real thoughts with fake ones, struggling all alone ,but showing a fixed bright smile,while deep inside you know you're obscure and gloomy, like those rainy dark clouds ready to pour up anytime.'

"I- I amm not okay" ,you choke up, whisper to yourself and you weep with your face half covered with your palm.You walk hastily towards the entrance, you brush off someone's shoulder but you continued pacing your steps till you reached the walking pavement on the road.

***

Jake's POV

Jake's devices weren't working properly due to the poor network availability near the woods.

"Is this the right area?",Jake wearing a newly brought black tuxedo,a milk white shirt,a bow tie not properly worn,and in a black mask ,he stared at the surroundings.He widened his eyes, finally spotting the ceremony's welcome sign "Thomas weds Hannah" in a vivid display board adorned with beautiful flowers.He paced his steps and timidly entered the hall.

Seeing his sisters was a new feeling,and especially one of them in a wedding dress, brought tears in his eyes.He just wanted to observe and walk away like nothing happened. The main reason he came here,was to see you, who made him scared and go crazy because of the selfless love you showed him ever since your first message.

How much he yearned to hold your hands, vowing to each other to be together for eternity and kiss you like there's no tomorrow,living a normal life beside you,he picturised this every single day and now it crossed again in his mind,when he saw Hannah and Thomas,visualing you and himself in their place.

He knew what you went through all this one year,He felt guilty for that and was very annoyed at your friends including his sisters. He was there with you all that time,close yet far away,but you didn't know that.

***

A while after cutting contact with you

"You are a hacker?!"

"You know what,I like you"

"We are an awesome team🤭"

"Is everything ok with you?"

"Of course I was worried🙁"

"You kiss,and the world around us disappear"

"I will be waiting for you"

"Your happiness is more important than mine"

Jake wakes up from his nightmare,his chest rising up and down with rapid breaths.He leans forward from his seat,with his hands on his face ,he wails silently and whimpering now and then, trying to catch some air. You haven't met him and so does he.But all he thinks about is you,everytime he dreams about your chats,he sees a snippet of you ,mouthing it in reality and expressing your concern for a loner like him.

/Is it a coincidence you both dream about the tragic final messages?/

Running from the government and fighting the devil within himself,he thought it'd be best to forget you,it was a bad choice,it is definitely not easy for him,since it was the first time in his life,someone showed him what's love,how nice it'd be to have a family,and to be together through thick and thin.

"I will be waiting for you"

,his heart sank and he trembled whenever he thought those words from you.'Why does she trust me so much? I'm a fool, for leaving her alone' ,he runs his fingers through his hair in frustration and suddenly, something strikes his mind.

He rushes out to buy some requirements and returns to his hiding place, starts activating a new program named "techbracelet-MC-Jake"

.....After 2/3 days...

At night time

Jake walks restlessly from one end to other in his small messy room and waits anxiously, gripping his bracelet worn in his hand.

*A GREEN LIGHT TINGS in that bracelet*

*Welcome Jake,please wait for the system to process*

*PROGRAM ACTIVATED*

*Linked user : MC*

HEART RATE: |normal|

OXYGEN LEVEL: 101

CURRENT FEELING: *loading* sad? Weary?

*unable to detect⚠️*

LISTENING TO MUSIC : ✔️<.....>

ALARM SET AT : yy:yy am

It will help him know atleast how you are doing.First,he felt really bad to invade your privacy.But this way,he hoped he could feel your illusioned presence,your rhythm of heart beat and your emotions,a greedy decision to feel closer to you.

He finally feels relieved after seeing his smart bracelet being connected with yours.He sighed in dismay but then giggled accepting the fact that "feelings can't be detected digitally".Still he was contented.

***

You got this bracelet ,that was similar to a smart watch,as a bonus gift along with other stuff you ordered online,so you didn't quite speculate about it.You listened to songs at night in that smart bracelet and there was a speaking bot too.There were many other features,you wondered how much costly it'd be.

Though you'd be crying by hugging your pillow at night,you sensed a warm hand holding yours because of that tiny bracelet, which was also made in your favourite colour.

"A bot that can respond?" ,You widen your eyes in excitement and mutter softly by pressing a small button, "Hello there bot".

***

Part 2.....(there was a problem while editing this,and I exceeded the limit 😅😂)

[swamplatibule]

a long as fuck but oversimplified summary of everything that has ever happened in the Starwritten society up to this point

Arc 1

The society exists 👍

Fox also exists

As well as Hollister

Fox gets assigned this random kid (hollister) to mentor

He’s not happy about it😕

But there’s nothing he can really do about it so oh well too bad so sad haha loser

Hollister is a very quick learner

They go on a mission together and meet the BBEG who now has a personal vendetta against both of them bc Fox like killed her mom or smth idk :/

Now they have to hunt her down while she’s actively trying to kill both of them

Her name‘s Eleanor btw

Fox and Hollister slowly develop a father-daughter relationship

but Like in a banter kinda way

and they’re both too stubborn to admit it

anyway

Hollister does some dum shit n almost dies

Fox yells at her because he’s grown attached to her whether he likes it or not

Hollister takes a walk to cool off

She gets fuckin kidnapped lol

Fox has to go save his kid

Big fight🥊🥊🥊

Eleanor fucking dies

Kidding she gets arrested

She can’t die yet she has to do that later

hollister and fox admit they care about each other and are now father and child

happily ever after

Arc 2

the bad guy’s name is Andrew

And he’s really a victim not a villain but SHHHH you don’t know that until later

He’s not even a lab runner he’s just being blackmailed by a certain someone into fucking with the society to distract them

Wilson suddenly exists ❤️

Like he did last arc but he wasn’t super important

Also there’s a lot of content of him working with Fox and them being friends and the imaginary shippers go fucking wild

Anyway 💅💅💅

We get an actual explanation of everyone’s backstories (except Wilson we just know his mentor is dead) because there’s this one “episode” where they’re on a boat and they have nothing to do so they just go “hey wanna talk about our trauma“ “sure!”

Hollister figures out this guy‘s being threatened

Turns out his son’s been kidnapped

its This Whole Thing🤷

anyway

The problem is solved and he gets to be an agent of the society and the token straight

We never see him again :)

we also don’t know who was blackmailing him but Wilson has a suspicion

Remember his dead mentor?

Yeah he gets a call from her asking to meet urgently

That’s where it ends

Arc 3

God has officially left the groupchat babes

Wilson goes to meet his dead mentor again

She is very worried 😧

Turns out someone from his past (@ my one and only mutual you know who it is dontcha) who hurt him a LOT was the one blackmailing Andrew

Wilson is very much more concerned about the fact that SHE’S STILL ALIVE??

AND SHE DIDNT TELL HIM???🤨

she says something about our new bbeg hunting her or smt and Wilson goes ”okay aight thats fair”

anyway she’s gotta go but she tells him he’s got a while before our bbeg comes after him

he does NOT have a while🙃

He tries to pretend everything is normal

Fox, Kennedy, Wilson, and Hollister go on a trip to escort some new lab runner to a very special Starwritten Society prison

Guess who shows up

Thats right

Its Jake from Statefarm

kidding it’s this ugly ass mf Alastor 🤢

who showed up purely to antagonize Wilson and also make a halfassed attempt to kill him but mainly the first one

And Wilson is revealed to be an enhanced!

He has pyrokinesis and heat manipulation and super fast healing who knew??

I did motherfuckers

I knew

ha

anyway

turns out Wilson’s not like other girls bc he wasn’t a kidnapped kid with powers, Alastor straight up made a person

with lab equipment and science obviously

how else do you make a person 🤨

anyway and Wilson was raised to be a human flamethrower (read: weaponized child) for Alastor but was saved when he was 17 and he suffered horrible abuse

Alastor fucking sucks

Wilson is now dealing with both the facts that his past abuser showed up again to fuck up his life

and ALSO he’s in love

with Fox

lmao loser

So some shit happens

Mainly chasing Alastor back and forth

But Fox gets shot, almost dies, Wilson confesses his love while his future husband is actively dying like a true Disney prince

he Doesn’t Die so dw 👍

Wilson takes Hollister to Paris bc they think Alastor is there

They end up rescuing Jade, Alastor’s new “project”

She and Hollister get along very well

Like really well

Like girlfriends well👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩

Anyway more shit happens

Fox gets kidnapped (that happens a lot huh,,,)

wilson goes to save him

wilson almost dies but his old mentor shows up in true Deus ex machina style

Alastor fucking dies yay :DDD bitch

And Wilson And Fox Kiss

everything wraps up perfectly :))

Arc 4

Fox and Wilson are dating. 👨‍❤️‍👨

Just thought you should know that

Anyway

Did you know Fox had a sister

Keyword “had”, she died or some shit when he was 14.

But it turns out she DIDNT die actually haha wow that seems like a trend in this paracosm 💀

Nah actually she got kidnapped, brainwashed, given superhuman abilities and then turned into like,, the goodwill winter soldier.

Her power seems to be that she moves really fast but she actually just slows down time for everyone but herself.

Anyway she breaks into the Society because she’s SUPPOSED to be kidnapping Adams

(the director)

But she kidnaps Walker instead by accident

and the lab runner dude who’s basically gaslit her into believing hes her dad is very not happy that they got this dumb motherfucker and not Adams😐

So Walker got his ass kidnapped and everyone is panicking bc who the fuck would be so bold as to literally break into the Society, snatch some Random Idiot and just,,, leave??

Fox is also having one HELL of a crisis because they got a blood sample on the chick and she’s his dead sister so yknow

They track her down, she slowly starts regaining old memories but she can’t make sense of them

and as such is very annoyed when Fox calls her ”Wren”

Because she’s not “Wren” she’s the motherfucking RED ELITE 🤬🤬

yet Wren feels so familiar to her?

So eventually she’s pieced together enough to know that this mf is her brother?? What

and her “dad” actually fucking sucks

(her actual dad sucked too but we dont talk about him, focus)

she confronts Walker about it because they still have him kidnapped

Walker is a literal dumbass but he’s a well-meaning dumbass so he tries to help

They escape together

Wren just sorta… shows up?? At the society building?

Walker has to explain to everyone that it’s FINE he’s fine she’s friendly now!! :D see! she had an existential crisis and now she’s nice!!

Fox is the first to forgive her he just hugs her

they got each other back :DD

anywho they go murder the fuck out of the dude who brainwashed her

And then she kinda just leaves

to go figure herself out or smth

idk

this one was weird🤷

Arc 5

More focus on Adams this time

Why?

because the bbeg is their brother whoa

who woulda thought

anyway some shit happens

the main early plot point is that we find out Hollister is actually an enhanced?🧐

She was the result of an experiment of the same bad guy of this arc who was trying to recreate what Alastor did with Wilson

and while he did create a human person who was GENERALLY enhanced he failed to create the ability he was trying for

so he deemed the kid a failed experiment and told one of his other scientists to get rid of her

this lady wasn’t about to kill a baby so she just kinda gave Hollister a name and dropped her off somewhere and went “BAM no longer my problem.”

now hollister is having a crisis bc turns out her entire life has been based on the fact that she wasn’t good enough which is her worst fear :/

so that’s fun

anyway once again they murder the shit out of the bad guys

hollister gets therapy and is no longer having a crisis and has actually started to accept herself MORE for who she is!

did I mention this is all severely oversimplified

im skipping so much

its not this boring I promise

anyway everything is fine again

Arc 6

Hollister is now almost 18 and getting ready for her ~official~ graduation into a real agent

Fox is very proud of her😁

Too bad for him tho bc he fucking dies!

kidding kidding

everyone just THINKS he’s dead but he’s not because he fell out of a helicopter down a several hundred foot drop into the sea BUT he got caught by some telekinetic kid on a boat so he’s Fine Actually

everyone is sad

especially Wilson

because Fox actually proposed the day before

so sad

thats really as far as I’ve gotten

😇

[enigmaticxbee]

✖️✖️✖️✖️✖️ 7x22 Requiem

The one where... they go back to Bellefleur, OR and Mulder is abducted, leaving Scully pregnant and alone 😭

Best: GA’s acting in the final scene with Skinner!! Just, the range of emotions that flicker over her face as she tells him she’s pregnant... The little half sob that the episode ends on haunted me all summer and fall of 2000 and the past 21 years.

Worst: Once again, CSM should have died here. I place the blame on Krycek and Marita for pushing him down the stairs and not stopping to make sure he was dead!!!

✔️ Flashlights

✔️ Woods

❌ Slideshow

❌ Autopsy

✔️ Evidence Disappears

✔️ Scully Misses It

✔️ Mulder Ditch

❌ Sunflower Seeds

❌ Voiceover

❌ Catch Phrase

❌ Scully is a Medical Doctor

❌ Mulder is Spooky

✔️ Scuuullllaaaaayy!

❌ Fox/Dana

✔️ Inappropriate Touching (that I am here for)

❌ Casual Scully

✔️ Casual Mulder

❌ Trench Coats

❌ Bad Tie Watch

❌ Glasses Watch

✔️ Taking! It! Personally!: Scully & Mulder

50 States: Oregon x2 & DC x73 (40/50)

Investigate: Together & Apart

Solve Rate: 62%

❌ Bechdel Test: The only conversation between women is about a man.

MSR: 🐝🐝🐝🐝🐝

Goriness: 👽👽

Creepiness: 👽👽

Humor: 👽👽👽

Rewatch Thoughts:

SOSS: Mulder: We could start sharing rooms. Start, right...

Scully: I’ve seen things that I cannot deny. Way to prevaricate Scully.

Scully: Let’s go waste some money. They’re so pleased with themselves 😂

I hate the ‘caught in an alien force field’ special effect, it looks so weird and hokey 😆

Mulder watching Scully with the baby 😭 He doesn’t know she’s PrEgNanT witH thEiR BaBy 🙃

For symmetry’s sake she really should have come to his hotel room in her robe, just saying.

I love how both familiar and intimate and yet awkward they are with each other when she comes to his hotel room. She comes to him for comfort, he slips her shoes off as she slides without hesitation into his bed and then he wraps himself around her. But she also thanks him, because maybe this is still new, maybe being vulnerable with him like this, letting him take care of her like this is something they’re still getting used to.

Mulder: Looking at you tonight holding that baby... knowing everything that’s been taken away from you. A chance for motherhood and your health and that baby. I think that, I don’t know, maybe they’re right.... Maybe what they say is true, though for all the wrong reasons. It’s the personal costs that are too high. There’s so much more you need to do with your life. There’s so much more than this. Maybe she’s just upset at the thought of their work together ending, but I can never get it out of my head that he means that it’s time for her to move on, not for them to move on together. This is also the only episode in season 7 where Mulder’s behavior makes sense to me in the light of Mulder’s stupid brain disease - if he were really dying he would be (TELLING HIS DOCTOR!!) preparing Scully to move on from the X-Files, from him.

Mulder: There has to be an end Scully. And later, Mulder: It has to end sometime, and that time is now. It bothers me that he’s making that decision for her. The kind interpretation, at least in the first scene, is that he’s letting her off the hook, telling her that she won’t be abandoning him or letting him down by moving on. But in the second scene he’s drawing that line for her. I do like the symmetry of the moment in 11x09 Nothing Last Forever where Mulder says I’ve always wondered how this was going to end. And this time it’s Scully making that call and asking him to do it with her, together.

Why is the ABH so good at pretending to be Detective Miles and so bad at pretending to be Deputy Hoese? Maybe because he’s abducting her so once she lets him in it doesn’t matter if she believes it’s him 🤔

Mulder: These abductees aren’t just systemically being taken. They’re not coming back. On what are you basing this assessment Mulder? Some of them have only been gone a few hours!

So... they didn’t find Billy Miles at his house so they immediately gave up and went home 🧐

And Scully did not get a medical check up in those two days, sure...

The awe and wonder on Mulder’s face as he steps into that beam of light changing to oh shit when the ABH steps in after him...

When I saw this when I was 15, during the original run, this ending - Mulder abducted, gasp! Scully pregnant, gasp! - took me from obsessed to OBSESSED. I remember reading all the online speculation and fic over that long summer and fall before the season 8 premier, there were some wild rumors out there about how they were going deal with DD’s absence - some of it was probably way better than what the show ended up doing. Sigh, good times.

Episode-Related Fanfic Recs:

I just don’t have it in me to wade through the 1000+ Requiem sad, sad Scully fics on Gossamer right now... If anyone has a favorite Requiem fic please let me know!

[lothcatlovesysalamiri]

Thinking about all the people who are actually praying for Roe v. Wade to be struck down makes me physically sick. Outlawing abortion solves nothing. It only further oppresses economically disadvantaged women and forces them to risk their lives and turn to dangerous alternatives like Lysol. Whether you want to believe it or not, even if (when?) abortion is outlawed like you are praying to God it will be, it does not stop it from happening. It does not make women change their minds. It only kills them. (Read the damn article, even though I know it won’t change your mind because you have White privilege and it’s so easy and comfortable to judge from your ivory tower.)

You know what, pro-lifers? I am a pro-choice progressive Democrat who DOESN’T like abortion myself. You also know what? I recognize it ain’t my fucken business what other women do, and I don’t believe in holding women back or down. Being pro-life IS making a choice — you are CHOOSING to FORCE THEM to carry a baby they do not want, over a mistaken belief that the Bible says it’s wrong to abort. The law does not even acknowledge a fetus is a life and will not prosecute death of a fetus. Ever heard of that marble/mountain argument? At what point is a clump of cells an actual baby? A heartbeat? A brain? Furthermore — and I have held back from posting this next part for so long because it terrifies me to know the answer — if you believe a woman should be forced to carry to birth, and her life would be at risk as mine would should I become pregnant against my will, do you believe I deserve to die in childbirth? Do you believe it is “God’s Will”? Can you look me in the eye and say, “Yes, I am okay with you dying and leaving behind your young child, because that unborn child that was forced upon you against your will was more important”? Do you believe children being raised without a mother are better off, because by GOD if a woman becomes pregnant, abortion is SO WRONG that that bitch better carry till she spreads her legs again to deliver? I take it you’ve never heard of original loss, then, and how fucked up kids are when they lose their mothers. And a very merry FUCK YOU to you as well. 🙃

Tl;dr: OUTLAWING ABORTION SOLVES NOTHING AND ONLY SERVES TO HOLD WOMEN DOWN AND HOLD THEM BACK. YOU HAVE RUTH BADER GINSBERG TO THANK FOR YOUR WHITE PRIVILEGE TODAY, AND YET YOU THINK ABORTION IS SO WRONG OUT OF A MISGUIDED RELIGIOUS BELIEF. ALSO WE ARE NOT A FUCKING THEOCRACY!!! IF A FETUS IS NOT CONSIDERED A LIFE UNDER THE LAW, IT CANNOT BE MURDER! YOUR ARGUMENT IS FUNDAMENTALLY FLAWED!!!!

But there I go again, tryna argue with the right with silly things like LOGIC, when they argue with FEELINGS. UGH.

[akshstudios]

Aksh❤️

I hope youre doing well and been taking care of yourself. Im seriously hope the uni shit is sorted. I just read The Lily Of Bangtan and the only regret i have rn is not having read it sooner!

This is such a wonderful story, and for a Namjoon enchanted peasant like me, this is such a blessing. Namjoon has such a powerful and enigmatic kind of vibe in here ( you might say obviously he's the next in line to be the Don hes supposed to be that way, but i think the way youve portrayed him makes it soooooo mysterious yet so powerful did it for me)

I love Nari too, damn she's got such sass and i love the fact that she doesn't back down, and keeps Namjoon absolutely on his toes while she expresses her displeasure over his "You can have anything from me but love" wtf!!!!!!! I can't wait to see this man losing his heart to her (please tell me does)

I have one question though, Is there going to be a back story to why Namjoon didn't want to have love in his relationship with Nari? (I may sound dumb but i was curious)

The chemistry between them is a freaking hundred here, like dude they'd set fire around them with that sexual tension and the intensity ✨

I am in love with the Don and his wife, I mean where do you find Such in-laws?!? They're so amazing and I lost it when the Don had the entire elite dancing with Nari to prove her point! Smooth! Genius!

While we are it, Please tell me where I can find a best friend like Jangmi:)

I loved the story so far, Please add me to your taglist for everything. I want to be tagged for the entire series for all members.

Take care and have a good week ahead:)

Leah ♥️ Hello hello 👋 Life's finally being nice to me, so I'm doing well —great even 🤩 The university shit is kinda solving by itself at this point, so I'm absolutely ✨ thrilled ✨

Joon stories are blessings in itself and honestly, any story that lets us fantasize about his buff body, deep voice, dark eyes, sweet dimples and classy personality is just ✨ chef's kiss ✨

I truly hope that anyone who reads The Lily Of Bangtan thinks Namjoon is mysterious and powerful too because this man levels up and levels down at the same time as the story progresses 😅 All that mystery will probably melt down soon 😂

Namjoon's softer, lovable side is gonna come out and his mafia-ness will make loud, random appearances —and I fully intend to make Namjoon both stupid, frustrating in love and ruthless, powerful in love.

No, love 🥺 You don't sound dumb at all and I completely understand your curiosity considering I haven't spoken much about his life and thoughts from his point of view 😅 and I hate to admit it but there isn't a backstory necessarily but more like reasons behind his hesitance to love if that makes sense —questionably valid reasons, which I will talk about over the course of the story. It's not one huge event, but more smaller events that snowballed into him denying love for his partner and himself.

He's seen things around him and decided that no, love is too much —it gives too much and takes too much and I don't want it 🙂

I absolutely adore mafiatan!nari too —i remember the first trait I wrote for her personality was fiery. It's something that I remember everytime I write her —fiery, sweet and hopeful.

A lot of things Namjoon says really doesn't please Nari in the beginning —it crushes her hopes for future, you know. She doesn't like that he was talking like he knows nothing will come out of the matrimony. She wants to hope for something good and he was just dampening her blossoming hope, on the day they were engaged no less 😂

Namjoon does lose his heart to Nari. It's not like he has a choice 🤪 I love Nari too much to put her through any unrequited affection bullshit, but it's an odd way Namjoon handles things 🙃

At this point in the story, Namjoon definitely respects her —maybe even cares for her as his duty towards her as the husband but the affection isn't quite there yet 🙂 but it happens and it happens fast for them 😉

After every scene of the two together, I pray that people can sense the ✨tension✨

It's the effect of them knowing for years that they are going to be together while running in the same circles, being so close to each other and yet not being able to acknowledge the other and their impending relationship 🙄

It is bound to do something to people 🥴 for these two, it got them fired up and ready to explore the other 🤪 they just need the green light and alone time now 😂

I'm trying to not give spoilers 🥴but I feel like I've already slipped something up somewhere 🤡

As for the Don and Madam 🤩 They are some of my favourite side characters in the series —at this point actually, only favourite side characters. I would love to have them as my in-laws ☺️ I've seen ��toxic✨ in-laws and honestly, I'm just trying to manifest great in-laws for myself 🙄 they say writing it down works 😉 that's what's I'm truly trying to do 😂

The Don is a very action-oriented man —he doesn't talk as much but he's really good at making a point with his actions, which might I tell you is a family trait with the Kims.

And yeah, I loved the idea of the Elites dancing with Nari to prove a point to someone unimportant too! I mean, I kinda was proud of myself for coming up with that and I know many others have far more grand ideas but I loved this one ♥️ I wish I could've written it better though because I don't feel like I did the scene enough justice 😅 I mean in a movie, that could be an iconic scene or maybe not and I'm just this too far 🤡 I mean, imagine the music, the grand dresses, the handsome men taking turns to dance with you but yeah, I love the scene, but I don't like how I wrote it 🙃 and this is a running theme —one elite fucks up, the remaining six will be there to fix it 😂

Don't we all wish we have a bestfriend like Jangmi 😂 and yes, I have added you to the taglist 🤩 Your interest means a lot, bubs 🤧 especially considering your works, talent and your namjoon-loving ways 🥺 I'm honoured, truly 🥺

I know you are crazy busy these days but I hope you are taking care of yourself ♥️ stay hydrated, eat well and get enough rest 🥰 You need to be happy, healthy and hydrated this holiday season 🎄

I hope you are doing well, lots of love and take care, aksh 💕

[foulapricotartisanduck]

😏City of negligence!📣

👻🧐😆🎙️ I see you!📣📣

👻🙃🧐😆🎙️I see you!📣📣

👻🤭🤔🙃😆🎙️Desk duty beep beep!!📣📣

🤪🤘👻🤭😆🎙️Desk duty beep beep!!📣📣

😏👻😏Hustle and Flow remember this when it comes down to it when it comes down to it the most the officer really gets is to (🚶walk off the job) is to (walk off the job) and it's all designated before they start, premeditated with that government s***.......

🤭🤘😏And it's rumored, it ain't teaching them officers nothing it ain't teaching them officers nothing by letting them just walk off the job and on the safety of officers when predicted with that 😆🎙️government sh*tt they don't detect 😏suspicions of wrongdoings with the government sh*tt with some of the most high tech s*** in the world yeah that government s*** and the authority they have they can't figure it out and/or do the proper procedure but yet certified for that position yeah (the white shirts) thinking brainwashing solving the problem......

🤭🙃😆🎙️Desk duty beep beep 📣📣

🙃🤔🤭😆🎙️Drug Dealer beep beep📣📣

😏😏Putting people's names in Philadelphia police departments 👉drug deals and/or drug corners going down thinking it's watering down that they were dealing with them to have the drug corners to that percentage as well....🚔🏢👮👈👈👈

🤭🙃😏That Montgomery county officials confirmed to Hustle and Flow amongst the investigation going back into the 90s......

👻🤭🙃😏One of the best ways to hustle is behind the badge where it all starts...😘🤘😘😘

🤪👻🙃😆🎙️ Desk duty beep beep!!📣📣

🤘🙃👻😆🎙️Desk duty beep beep!!📣📣

We come clean over here in Montgomery county!🤚

CW Daily Briefings😁👍

[comfreyhollywings]

Hello! I would like to join exchanges ☺️ my initials are M.S,i am a sagittarius and your blog reminds me of heaven really, it's very outer worldly 😍 I love the gentle purple.I wanna ask how BP (scorpio, I was involved with him romantically but we're no contact rn, Idk why, he stopped communicating, yet he stalks me online 🙃) feels about me and if we will reconnect?Hence the specific question, I Will give you an exchange about your next romatic interest.

Here it is: i drew the 3of pentcles and the magician, but the 2of sw and 7of pentalces flew right away. I think this person has great potential, but right now is a bit burden. The cards that flew right away signify to me that they are at a cross road, confused about a decision, whether that be a person or something related to their work and life in general (my intuition is hinting more at this tho). It feels kinda heavy tbh, like they are contemplating their next move and don't notice anything else happening around them and don't put their energy into it. I think this will pass tho.Other then that, this person is someone really smart, both street and book smart. Very well spoken and charismatic, hardworking and detail oriented. They seem to devote much energy to their career and community. I can see this is someone respected and appreciated. Heavy earth and air energy. Appearance wise, tall, slim to average weight, pale skin, good hair and always nicely dressed, gives the vibes of someone clean and fresh lmao. They don't seem like the most emotional and romantic tho, more so someone who shows love by acts of service and just being there, solving your problem, it's like they rationalize their emotions. The relationship will be fun and interesting I feel like, becouse you seem like different person, I'm not sure about the longevity but it's definitely inspire growth in both your lives. Hope this resonates 😊

hi m.s!! i'm very happy to hear about my blog's impression to you! it's always interesting hearing what others have to say about that. as for the reading (since it pertains to the future), i think i.. can see myself fancying this person? the heavy earth and air energy really stands out though because that's a huge factor that stayed consistent whenever someone talks about my romantic interest/significant other so,,, man. i don't know when i'll be meeting this person but im definitely intrigued for sure. they sound like a really good balance to me (majority is water and fire lmfaoo) so .. yeh. now. let's get to your reading, shall we?

key notes: - very closed off about his feelings. shuffling the deck for a long time, - nothing is coming out. - bitter taste in my mouth  - volatile.  - growing lightheaded  - very cautious and reserved. traditional.  - religious teacher or figure in his life? or maybe a figure he looks up to?  - might give off mixed signals bc his communication is lacking.  - religious system or figure might be lutheran.  - throat hurts ●▬▬▬▬▬๑⇩⇩๑▬▬▬▬▬●

cards: 

- 9 of pentacles 

- the hierophant

- the devil ●▬▬▬▬▬๑⇧⇧๑▬▬▬▬▬●

this is such… interesting energy that b.p has revolving around you. to be honest, shuffling the deck and trying to channel his energy is such a struggle because it’s almost like he refuses to talk about you due to  being so… restrained?? reserved?? like, cards spilled out but only very few got revealed. i get the sense that b.p, as a person, has severe issues distorting his relationships with control, so he keeps a lot of what he wants to say back. like, this is a very deep thinker with very little to say because of this distortion of control. intuitively, i’m guessing something might’ve happened in his family about that? like.. family trauma? or religious thinking? 

yeah. uh. i think he’s at a loss about how to interact with you. because he views you as naturally someone very independent and “free-spirited”. he thinks you’re.. financially stable? or at least, something to do with your resources being stable. this might not be accurate since this is from HIS point of view, but he views you as someone emotionally.. ‘stable’ in a way bcause you’re not afraid to stand out. i don’t know if you wear bright colors (tie-dye is standing out to me in particular) but in this sense, he admires that about you. he admires that you seem so secure in yourself because that’s something that he lacks. 

see, when i get to his emotions, two cards stand out. the hierophant and the devil. i….. strongly feel like he has some sort of religious trauma/guilt when it comes to you. it’s this cycle of ‘binge and purge’ that he’s getting around you because there’s something in his life that he’s been taught that has something to do with forbidden teachings? like, some religious figure in his life (or his very ingrained values) might’ve condemned you as a person because of some beliefs you may hold that is very contrary to his own. 

god, the more i look at the devil card, the more i think there’s like.. a strong influence around him (i hesitate saying it’s a third-party but whoever/whatever it is is being personified here) that’s causing him to stay away from you. he views you as the “devil”??? almost?? like, you unlock something really deep in him that he has no idea he had within him and it’s like he’s scared to confront that due to his need for control + emphasized by the fact his religious beliefs taught him otherwise since young. it causes him to have some sort of bitter taste in his mouth and it manifests as him seeming somewhat volatile. also, i don’t know if the way he communicates is naturally reserved but he seems like one of those people who don’t have much to say, yet his words hold a lot of weight whenever he does choose to talk. and rn.. personally (this is from me, not from spirit lmfao), i don't think he feels secure enough to talk rn?

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cards pulled if you will reconnect with b.p 

10 of Swords Rx  4 of Cups  ●▬▬▬▬▬๑⇧⇧๑▬▬▬▬▬●

so. yeah, you two will reconnect, but i’m getting it’s going to take a while. because i still see you (or the feminine energy in this relationship) holding a cup for him — an offer, really. but i think…. he seems like he’s sorta sleeping on that offer? and on you? like he, in a sense, recognizes that you’re something good to him but it’s on him if he decides he wants to wake up and accept that offer. like, if he’s going to connect with you, it’s.. gotta be on his terms? because i get the sense that something in him will have finally hit rock bottom until he decides to open up to you and see that you’re offering something good.