#and not emotionally devastate myself with it

[cyjhhyj]

So I just opened Tumblr, since idk 2-4 days I have been fearing that this might happen as so many of my favourite authors also did the same. For the last 2 days, especially last night, I had this feeling whenever I thought about her, "what if she does the same?" and some people might be like, "those were just some stories", nah you'd never understand that it was so well written I almost got attached to it emotionally. As I opened Tumblr a while ago, I still had this feeling that something might go wrong hence I almost avoided opening the app, but I was somehow attracted. Opening Tumblr, saw my last reblog which was dkp part 7.3 and was shocked to see that she deactivated, I knew the feeling was correct and it was devastating, losing your favourite author, even though I never talked to her, I felt a connection as if she was talking through her writings. Despite having a feeling it was almost unexpected.

I understand that it might be in her best interest that she gets away from the toxicity, but idk why, how did this happen, maybe i could have talked to her, might have helped her in some way so that this situation could have been avoided, i just don't feel right. It's extremely disheartening that she has to go through all of that mentally to such an extent that she had to deactivate her account, and same with many of the authors that did the same. I hope I could get to connect with her in some way, would love to be friends. I just needed to write my thoughts here, though I almost never post myself and nor do I share my thoughts, I just needed to get this out here.

[hinamie]

should i draw one of those meet the artist things one of these days ,,

[marlenacantswim]

hey gang, do we all agree that ten's massive ego and god complex (or rather those traits being especially prominent in his regeneration) were a direct result of what happened in Parting of the Ways?

"marlena what the fuck do you mean" okay well think about it; ninth doctor. fresh off the time war. thinks himself unlovable, unworthy of love. just did a double genocide, including against his own people. he's returning to his old ways of lallygagging around helping humans in a more-than-desperate attempt to repress his feelings and try to mimic the person he was before the war. he's so vulnerable.

enter rose tyler. to him? she's the most amazing person in the universe. he loves her, full stop. she makes him feel like maybe he's still capable of love, but does he really trust her love for him? after all, she doesn't really know him, does she?

all that comes to a head when rose tyler becomes the bad wolf. in that moment, she sees everything. everything everything. the doctor's past, and the doctor's future. every horrible thing they did and will do.

and in that moment, with all this truth streaming constantly into her brain, most amazing person in the universe rose tyler looks at him and goes "i want to save you. you are worth saving."

bro no fucking shit ten has a motherfucking god complex, jesus christ i would too!!!

now personally i think nine would have rationalized it and been relatively Normal 'bout all that noise had he survived onwards, but unfortunately he didn't, and so when the doctor's subconscious and the universe were holding hands deciding what their new little guy should be like... well, we're already making him just for her, and she loves him.

rose tyler loves me. she loved me even when she knew me.

i'm just saying, that "Bad Wolf chose to save me" to "the laws of time are mine to command" pipeline is a straight vertical drop only a few feet long.

[alexpression]

Please rb if you vote ;3

[rinkitay-againstheworld]

reading the poppy war in public so everyone knows that i’m dying on the inside.

[thinkingisadangerouspastime]

soldiers, we have officially moved from the brainstorming to the outlining process for my aang mcd fic o7

[jamiethebee]

Fully caught up on the manga (minus spoilers for the last chapter) and..... Ya know what maybe I am a villain stan because I just.... Don't trust that anything really changes in society. Everyone outside of heroes, when given speaking parts, seems to indicate that they'll step in or do something in order to protect themselves - not out of any sense of responsibility or community, but to safeguard their lives in case the other person ends up a villain. Or maybe I'm just pessimistic? But we've seen irl time and again that this ending attitude doesn't work. Doesn't have change. Certainly not long lasting change. I really really wanted to finish the series still liking Deku but throughout the fight, every cut back to someone other than Deku, talking about his heart and how good he was and how much he was doing to fight for the person - and the cut back is just "punch". He never responded to Shigaraki's words. He never engaged with the man himself. And at the end of the day, I feel more trust in Uraraka. More trust that she'll actually work on saving people's hearts. And she's back in construction work like her parents. And of course the camera dies and no one sees Toga's heart. Because how dare anyone think a villain could be a person (paraphrased that one interview guy).

I really really wanted to end this manga happy with it. I'm not stupid enough to conflate the reality of the story with fandom. I'm not. I really wanted to enjoy it for what it is. But when they directly ask "how do we fix villains being made" the answer is "you don't. We can't" and ???? That's supposed to be what the manga was working towards this whole time? I - .....

[residentsocialfailure]

Who else is not emotionally prepared for Candela Obscura this week?

[nanakibh]

One of the things that has puzzled me the most is the question of how Demyx ended up in his current condition if he's the MoM.

After spending like a whole day thinking about the Darkness for completely unrelated reasons, an idea finally hit me.

It might have been the Darkness.

Darkness is said to prey on strong emotions. At the end of KHUX, the MoM finally begins to crack a little. When pressed by Luxu, he suddenly stands from his desk and reiterates that they mustn't let sentiment affect their actions. It's like he was saying it for his own sake - something he's probably repeatedly told himself before. In that scene, it's clear that he regrets his course of action, but he had to tell himself that it was the only way. If there had been another way, then what about all of the allies he's lost? Was it his fault for being unable to save them? It was probably easier to tell himself that there was nothing he could do. The MoM believes in the inevitability of the future he's seen, and Luxu accuses him of running away. And he's right. The MoM seems like he even knows that Luxu's right, considering the fact that he was banking on Luxu and the Dandelions being able to accomplish something that he hadn't been able to do.

Those are probably the emotions that allowed the Darkness to use the MoM as its vessel. Feelings of uselessness, the feeling that he's already lost before he's begun, that it isn't even worth trying.

He's a coward. Luxu sees it. MoM knows it, too.

The MoM said that he wanted to kick back and relax, but I don't think there would be anything relaxing about his escape to the fictional world if he were left alone with his guilt. He couldn't run away from the fact that he was running away.

So, I hypothesize that the Darkness preyed on those feelings. Having been exposed to his own insecurities, he could no longer recognize himself as he used to be. That's how you end up with Demyx.

The Darkness might be what made Xemnas realize that Demyx was an ancient wielder, but now that he's like this, nobody would realize that he's the MoM. lol

Basically, what I'm envisioning:

Darkness: Haha, yes! Succumb to your negative emotions!! MoM: onnghhgn, you're right... i'm useless... Darkness: N... No... Don't you want to destroy the world? Don't you want to spread darkness?? MoM: i don't want to do anything anymore... Darkness: Oh no.

Am I right? Who knows. But I'm entertained.

[thefuturewithoutus]

8x19 'the c-word' x 'night's thousand shadows' by christian wiman

[sammygender]

THANK YOU OLI I don't get the season 8 hype. No Cas, Sam and Dean have the same conflict they've been having the entire show with no new angles like why????

YEAH LITERALLY. inital conflict is literally dean being angry at sam for trying to move on and heal which is just so intensely unlikeable and for some reason i was shocked by it and it made me genuinely dislike him. to me dean is at his most awful in s8..... like he's not. he's definitely not. gadreel possession in s9 and like most of s9/10 with the mark is much worse than anything he does in s8 and killing amy in s7 was sooo awful too. but dean is just so intensely a dick in s8 and i was so angry with him and not even in a fun way. like in s9/10 he is AWFUL but i enjoyed the drama. i didnt even enjoy the interpersonal drama in s8. which is when you know something is wrong

then again. im probably too harsh on it and am basing it off memories of sitting through the first half because i LOVE the trials and sacrifice and the great escapist so so much. and i love kevin <3 he's s8 right. but. to me s8 will always be the worst season. maybe i just hate what it brings to the shows canon. sam leaving dean for a girl and a dog (which is NOT EVEN WHAT HAPPENED... and if it WAS it wouldve been justified.... id support sam even if i thought he abandoned dean unprovoked idc.....) is constantly brought back like the worst of his sins even as late as like. s11. SHUT UP. first half of s8 is just upsetting for sam reasons and not in a fun way

[ughgoaway]

I've never watched la la land (a tragedy ik) but the line "I hope you get everything you've ever wanted and I hope I never hear a thing about it" is SO HEARTBREAKING AND GOOD.

like I need to write more angst just to include that line????

[ike-mcswains-mortician]

very random thought that makes me sad- i think rebecca was helping sparrow stand up during them getting tortured so when she disappeared, sparrow would have fallen and then looked up, thinking that rebecca fell and then he sees her just poof away i am going to eat drywall i am so sorry leaaaaa

WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT TO MEEEEEEEEE I AM DISTRAUGHT WTF

LIKE. YOURE CORRECT THATS CANON IN MY HEART NOW. BUT OWIE

also taking this time to address your other asks lol yeah this scene hit me like a fucking BRICK. literally i was playing the ep in the background working on an essay and That Happened and i literally almost threw my laptop across the room like???? anthony count your fucking days i am On My Way With Hammers

and OUGHH YEAH THE TEENS SAYING GOODBYE TO D00D (collapses to the floor dead) i literally started weeping like ,, anthony said he wasn’t feeling very funny but he sure as hell was feeling very Let’s Make Leabee Sad,,,, d00d my BABYYYYY IM GONNA THROW MYSELF INTO THE OCEAN

ohhgh ok im normal im literally so emotionally stable rn hru

[burningcomputerpersona]

man hot mulligan makes some absolute bangers for ppl with mental issues and shitty parents

[27-royal-teas]

im so glad they made it! however . there is no way I am staying awake until three am to see their set. someone tell me what the eight ball and medley is in the morning .