#and no one else does either! that's why he's kpop's ace!

[blessyouhawkeye]

also move set the stage for slutty songs in kpop when it came to boys. songs like bambi mmmh taste wow spider etc etc would all not exist if move hadn't been released/love had been the title track instead

literally the difference between move and flower is that everyone was trying to copy move but flower sounds like every other kpop song being made rn. like they're just not comparable.

[perventivesecretarial]

kpop idol tarot : zb1

what does being a witch and a kpop stan mean? why i ask my tarot cards what they think of my fav idols. today's group? zb1!

for the group i pulled the 7 of pentacles and the star;

a humble group, waiting patiently for cultivation, shines brightest and transcends in the dark. They just need to keep their origins in mind

for jiwoong i pulled strength, queen of wands, and nine of cups;

A refined conscience, jiwoong is au natural (thanks for confirmation), he's commanding but also not afraid to get his hands dirty, and he's also in connection quite well with his spiritual side. also: victory! he's done it. he needs to remember to continue giving back to his community though; they helped him.

for hao, i pulled the wheel of fortune and the eight of wands;

ups and downs and change is definitely something he's used to, and they'll continue, but he's ambitious, plowing through the downs to get to the ups. change leads to swift growth.

for hanbin i pulled the 6 of swords, and the queen of wands;

OH BOY OH BOY. made to be leader!! he's commanding but soft, and he leads the way when needed. like jiwoong, he's commanding when he needs to be, but works really hard right beside them.

for taerae i pulled 3 and 8 of wands;

this man is so balanced i swear. he's confident in his abilities and like hao, extremely ambitious. the only difference is he's ambitious because he knows his abilities can truly take him far.

for matthew i pulled the wheel of fortune, 4 of pentacles, 2 of cups, and 5 of swords;

again, the ups and downs and changes are familiar to him, but none of the ups and downs are monetary. he's comfortable, to say the least. this man is so bubbly, the amount of good relationships he has is...crazy. an ominous warning, though: figure out a new strategy for whatever "battle" there was, the last one didn't work out.

for gyuvin i pulled 5 of pentacles, and the hierophant;

wbk this man is rich. but he also wants more, classic human greed. and then he's learning, either learning new things like knowledge-wise, or he's learning to give back. the latter is highly recommended.

for ricky i pulled the magician, the page of swords, and the knight of pentacles;

healing? maybe seeking to connect more with those who came before him. A messenger likely will visit soon, though it will be someone close, with the message that you shouldn't hurry time. be patient, good things come to those who wait.

for gunwook i pulled the king of wands, the wheel of fortune, and the queen of swords;

a classic textbook charismatic leader, entrepreneurial and ambitious. he's accustomed to change, and a recent change will make him sensitive. he'll be urged to conform, but that's not him. he's intelligent, too, but that can be uncomfortable to other people.

for yujin i pulled the four of swords, queen of wands, queen of cups, and the ace of cups;

dude. take a break. rest, seriously. visit your grandma or something. he almost works too hard, focusing on everyone else's feelings and emotions over his own, one way or another you'll overflow soon. thank you deck for showing yujin is like every teenager ever.

[hydr9]

the perception of all-rounders and "out-of-place" members in kpop

I watch a lot of full-focused/choreo-focused cams of groups, and 2day I got sucked into a small itzy choreo-cam rabbit hole, and now I'm in the mood to talk out of my ass.

itzy, obviously, as a group of their fame and status, has a lot of expectations, and a constant flood of commentary, praise, and criticism.

so, as the resident advocate for simplification, let me simplify it for you: itzy is a performance-based group

its not about having the best vocals, its about having good and stable vocals. its not about being able to sing flawlessly and with good technique and unique color, its about having good power that you can execute while doing equally good high-energy choreo.

and lia, as we've seen, faces a shitton of criticism. her vocals are too weak, her dancing is too weak, she's out of place in itzy. this gets thrown at soo many different idols, and i honestly think its mostly a downright stupid take. with how cutthroat the trainee system is, and especially with how small itzy is, do you not think there is intention behind every choice?

lia has something to offer that no one else in itzy does. that's the point. it's not about every member excelling at everything---something kpop stans seem to be obsessed with nowadays---its about being greater than the sum of all your parts.

thats why its a group. all-rounders or aces are special, of course, and theyre to be admired, but theyre not necessary. it doesnt make a group better than any other group. positions can be limiting, sure, but its important to acknowledge a member's strengths. before a group becomes famous enough that each idol will be known for what they are good at, they all have a role. something to take care of individually so that when they are together, they mesh and perform something that is the unique combination of them.

lia has this sweet, romantic, honey-voice quality that the other members dont. there are definitely some performances where her stage presence is weaker than others but she is absolutely not incapable of having a special aura about her while shes on stage. her dancing is not as powerful as the rest of the girls. but then again, for example, yuna's voice isnt as powerful as hers either. and ryujin can't capture her sweet and honey-like aura.

being an 'all-rounder' doesnt make you better at any of this. doesnt make you stand out. doesnt give the audience something to chew on, when you have average-to-good singing, dancing, and rapping skills. when idols are pigeonholed into this position, it almost makes me feel more like they dont have any actual standout skills rather than that they are actually good at everything.

this is why, for example, han from stray kids and soyeon from gidle are not all-rounders/aces just because they sing rap and dance (which most idols do, for the record). it's because they have something special to offer in each of these things. they are rappers (something many idols cant claim). and they are singers. they are all of these things, they dont just possess the capability of all of them. this might seem arbitrary and like im just picking at semantics, but i hope my point picks up.

rm from bts, for example, has a good voice. but for most of his career, he was only seen as one thing: a rapper. he didnt fight that, wasnt necessarily trying to break out of that box. he was a rapper, and that was the one thing he really cared about. he dances because he's part of an idol group. he doesn't sing, because that's not what he does. people joked about it, but no one tried to claim he was talentless because all he did was rap.

and then he released his fools cover with jungkook, and the fans were Amazed. years of joke-bad singing, and suddenly, he is singing. maybe his voice is not as strong or versatile as jungkook, but he had his moment to show another skill, and it wasnt a bad thing. because he didnt have to be good at singing. he was good enough at rapping. there wasnt any shame in that, to have one skill, one thing to be proficient at that no one can argue.

and what is this tangent to say? its that now, if an idol is bad at something, its as if its a great shame. its a great shame to say, they're the main vocal, it's okay if their dance isn't as strong as others. they're the main rapper, it's okay if their voice isn't that strong. and any combination of these things!!

i don't understand kpop fans attachment to taking any group you like, or want to support and always claiming it's a group of all-rounders. they're all always main vocals, dancers, rappers, visuals. i don't think there's any pride in that.

i think it's great to let some members step out of the spotlight when there's something they're not good at. i think it's okay, and it should again be acceptable for an idol to joke that they're not a good dancer, or a good singer. and yes, it's never okay to bully or harass or insult them, but i don't think fans should act as if there's shame in it. aren't you making it worse? to say, fuck you, my idol is better, they're all-around perfect singers, rappers, AND dancers? as if being one of these titles isn't enough pride?

and this all goes into my problem with the hate towards lia. maybe there is members of groups that are shoved into a concept that doesnt suit them. but before you jump to that, acknowledge the value they have in that group. how they can show that concept in a way no one else can.

how seungmin from stray kids, with his "pure and romantic" image can portray thunderous, an aggressive and loud song, in a way changbin with his "tough rapper" image can't. how eunchae with her young and cute image can portray antifragile in a way that yunjin with her confident and powerful image cant.

in fact, even chaeryeong has a feminine and graceful quality to her dancing that's different than yeji's powerful and precise one, and even to ryujin's fluid and heavy one.

in FACT, imagine how the fuck seventeen, a group with THIRTEEN MEMBERS, manages to have SO many different concepts, and still manages to excel at all of them, with no one feeling out of place. because there's an intent and a positive to every member, no matter how different they seem.

as usual i'll always end by unnecessarily praising seventeen. have a nice day

[dingodad]

act 2 is... not fun! i can basically go down the reasons i didn’t enjoy the game without spoiling anything about the game’s actual plot.

like i’ve said already pretty much the entire charm factor of the first act is gone. act 1 laughed in the face of trial-and-error point-and-clicks that acted like you were stupid for putting the wrong two items together by giving completely unique flavour for every combination of items. even if you knew two items didn’t go together, there was incentive for you to try! act 2 has none of this. 90% of object interactions are the same almost verbatim “these items probably won’t work together” text. there’s no incentive to try out different items, which makes a majority of the game’s objectives into just “click on the one right thing and then walk to the end of the room”.

the rooms themselves are totally empty! most have between one and three interactive objects in them; any other setpieces, no matter how intriguing they might be to the player and/or the viewpoint character joey, serve no plot purpose and are therefore purely background. the few objects that can be observed have only short, dry descriptions; any object description longer than a single sentence is a RARITY. even extremely obvious and again, interesting to the player combinations yield zero returns. there’s a huge ant lusus in one scene. applying the lusus handbook to this lusus returns the message... there’s nothing in this book about giant ants.

there are entire rooms full of CHARACTERS who can’t even be OBSERVED... 4 characters in a room of maybe two dozen can be clicked on, and no real reason is given for this. i suppose the player is just expected to “recognise” who the “main characters” are because they already saw the troll call... how many years ago?

not only are the rooms empty but they are huge. they are way too large for the miniscule amount of content in them and this is ONLY compounded by the backtracking fetch quests you start being put through in the second half of the act. a character literally makes fun of you for going back and forth through the game over and over again but no remedy is provided. one of the ultimate objectives of the game involves backtracking all the way back to the START of the game... only to be told you have no reason to be there, and should walk right back to the end again.

the entire inventory system is basically a joke in this act. most of your items will not get used. when you do get a new item, you will almost invariably get rid of it again by the time you leave that same room. again, almost no item combinations result in anything funny. one of the only act 1 items that gets used in this act is - if you’ll allow me to spoil one thing - xefros’ microphone, which he gives away to another character at almost the beginning of the act. xefros’ entire "rapping about random objects” shtick from the first game is completely discarded! it literally almost feels like an excuse for the writers not to have to write any more witty flavour than they absolutely have to. joey gets a new abilitech in this act which she uses exactly once. the rest of her abilitechs are basically dead space in her inventory like everything else.

instead of the actually charming... you know... pointing and clicking aspects of the first act, the developers seem to have taken on board how popular the friendship simulators were, and tried to make act 2 a dialogue-driven character game? which would be fine if... the characters were interesting. the fact is that most of the stuff they might have wanted to explore in act 2 has ALREADY BEEN DONE, in the friendsims. let it be said that the ace attorney minigame we all knew was coming takes up about half of the game. anyone who told you hiveswap act 2 was about 8 hours of playtime obviously milked as much out of this courtroom sequence as they could, which, if you don’t care about hiveswap’s small cult cast of jadebloods and tealbloods, is very little. most of the game’s dialog was obviously written for this scene. unlike the rest of the game, almost every little combination of choices has its own unique text in this part of the game: but if you’ve never played an ace attorney game before, you will have a hard time finding any of the right or even interesting combinations. to put it bluntly, unless you were already really invested in some of the elements involved, this part of the game will be a long, boring slog.

the game isn’t even particularly funny. act 1 got laughs out of me. act 2′s jokes either fall flat or quickly beat themselves to death. the cultural references serve no purpose. ace attorney “because lawyers!” is funny as a sight gag (like terezi’s OBJECTION!s in the original homestuck) but it serves no purpose as an extended, hour-long part of gameplay. and why does an ongoing gag about KPOP of all things take up so much of this scene, in a game that’s been patting itself on the back over its appeal to 90s nostalgia? (this to me is one of the most damning examples of the what pumpkin team putting out stuff that they personally find hilarious without once stopping to wonder if it’s a product that will actually have appeal). why is the “highblood statue” used in a single scene actually an anime figurine? because anime is funny, i guess?

the game DOES look beautiful, with little exception (the game’s minimalist philosophy makes most of the rooms like pretty empty, after the immediate “wow we’re on an alien planet!” magic wears off), but i struggle to say it’s even a serviceable bit of software. the gui is practically inscrutable. every door says something different on it. “exit”? “open”? “use”? some doors just have a pair of feet hovering above them, which means “walk through door” (just like in act 1, which worked fine). except sometimes the feet just mean “walk on this floor”. it depends entirely on which room you’re standing in.

the actual gameplay is hardly any better. let’s ignore the ace attorney minigame for once. any puzzle that isn’t “bring item from character a to character b” is literally indecipherable. they’ve graciously allowed us to finally use the hint button, which is completely necessary for some of the more arcane ““puzzles”“ (which are really just more of the same trial and error click-and-clicks), but for some reason... only joey can get hints? you’re free to switch between joey and xefros at any time, but only for xefros does the button say “hints currently unavailable”. if you want hints you have to switch to joey. this has no other bearing on the gameplay.

music is fine, but not “we’ve been sitting on this soundtrack for years!” or “we got the undertale guy to compose for us!” levels of blow-your-mind incredible. it’s obvious that the soundtrack composed years ago is not reflective of a game that was clearly cobbled together within the last 15 months. did i mention that out of the 38 troll call characters who were literally advertised as “the cast of hiveswap act 2″, zebede and charun are just entirely absent without cause or explanation?

[mega-bastard]

i was kidnapped by shiratorizawa ?!?!?!?!

this was painful to write, but like a masochist I did it anyway. this is my part of the the first Whorehouse Collab, located here. Finally getting back into writing fanfics since like 2015, this was oddly therapeutic.

I wrote this under the influence of magic grass after binging several wattpad fics, enjoy at your own risk-- by which I mean laugh alongside me LMAO

The ending is sososo rushed, in true wattpad fashion <3 this was 1.3K words of nonsense

When I woke up today, I didn’t think I’d end up in such a bind— bindings to be more specific. I’m just your average little miss no one, another everyday student easily lost in the in the crowd. Wearing glasses and being like super shy does that to u, yknow?

Now, blindfolded and tied up, I can’t help but wonder just how someone so unnoticeable had gotten snatched up so suddenly— perhaps that was had why you were taken (insert Liam neeson voice: I will find you, and I will kill you hehe >:3). Now, with the full throb in my head beginning to subside— I started to recount what had bringed me into such s predicament

~ rewind to earlier in the day ~

I’d only just waked up when I received a text from my best friend mina (bnha wink wonk) gushing about or schools volleyball match— to say she was crazy in love aoba Joshuas volleyball team would be selling it crazily underwhelmed. Especially their captain, oikawa tooru ! Most of our school did, but I was really observant of the people around me— he gives me weird vibes, like he puts on an act or something. But still, I keep that thoght to myself so no one comes for me. Seriously, he’s got fans like a Kpop star (a/n haha stan bts for clear skin uwu)

Either way, her dragging me to a volleyball game is nothing new— and as she’s blowing my messages up like the world is ending I know  what to expect this coming afternoon. What a pain, I had planned on watching naruto when I got home today :(

There was no telling Mina no, so when we enviably met to walk to school I was well aware I’d be attending the volleyball match today. Boring, but I’d manage— I don’t care much for sports but sweaty and muscley men are finer than fine, I’d at least have spank bank material hehe (a/n not to whore on main buuuuuut ;3).

The day flew by and suddenly I found my self seated on the stands, waiting for the game to begin. Mina was chatting away, so when the urge to go to the bathroom came I simply got up and left— I wouldn’t get a word in edgewise, everyone always runs at the mouth and I can never get a word in as a result.

Not paying attention on my way to the bathroom, I suddenly shivered— feeling watched. I looked up from staring at the floor and was brought face to face with...the Shiratorizawa Volleyball Team ?!?! At the head was the tank of a captain, japans number one ace Ushijima Wakayoshi (a/n a whole snack yumyum) was indomitable and a scary man to be faced with. Ushijima was still as fierce as ever; I say that because we’d gone to middle school together— we never spoke or anything like that but we’d been in the same classes. He scrutinized my small form with impassive olive eyes, I felt rooted in place at such a state.

I shook myself from my little reverie and quickly scurried off, heart beating a mile a minute. “ just find the bathroom and head back to Mina “ I murmured to myself, finally finding the bathroom after rounding a corner. The feeling of being watched finally lifting.

After using the bathroom and began to head back, I could hear someone...singing something? I began to head towards it out of curiosity, peeking around a corner to see a tall red haired guy and a grey haired guy— they were wearing the same uniform so they must also be a part of the team as well! Lost in my thoughts, I was only briefly able to dick away before the red haired guy turned around to where I was peeking.

Ok seriously, let’s head back ‘ I thought before scurrying back to Mina— who grilled me on my absence before becoming entranced in the starting game. I stayed on my phone for the most part, reading one direction fanfic— with the phone screen down waaay low (a/n who else has done this before ???). Id peek every now and again to watch, at one point catching the eye of the tall red head— a chill ran down my spin at his impish smile that I looked away immediately.

He was...cute. In a scary way.

A sudden hush flew across the crowd and I looked up in time to see oikawas serve hit clean across the net, received by some guy with brown hair before being set by some twat with shitty hair (a/n shirabus a twat, their I said it >:/) before the ball was spiked back with a force unmatched.

That was Match point. Shiratorizawa wins.

The air is oppressive, oikawas fan girls— mina included, are wailing. That’s my cue to exit, bidding a mina goodbye I began my way down the hail, the rush of the court fading into background.

Then suddenly, rushing feet and the crack of something hard against my skull.

Darkness consumed me.

~ back to the present ~

Now back to the hear and now, I hear murmerings-- voices I don’t recognize. I try to listen, try to focus in on their voices but I can’t as the throbbing in my skull takes my focus away. A whimper escapes me, and a silence sweeps across wherever I am like a breeze-- it’s scary.

“haha, is she awake?” it’s the sing=songy voice from before-- the red head probably then? I know I needed to say something, anything, but I was still to disoriented. The sound of shoes nearing me immeadiatly set me off, beginning to wiggle and move before I was held still vision suddenly assaulted with brightness as my blindfold is redmoved.

Standing before, me in all their glory, is the Shiratorizawa volleyball team??

It looks like I’m being held in...an empty dorm room? I’m trying to gather my bearings and cannot figure what to possibly ay before being yanked up harshly from a laying position. It’s the red head holding me up, wicked smile and everything as he crouches in front of me before opening his mouth.

“ You belong to us now, got it~” his voice is too cheery given the words he’s just said to me (a/n tendou owns my heart and soul <3333 ), and only now does my voice find me. “ B-but w-why m-m-me ? You c-can’t j-just do t-that, please just let me g-g-g-g-g-g-go !” by the time I finish blubbering, theres tears streaming down my cheeks like rushing rivers. Through my lashes, I look pitifully around at everyone-- landing on an umcomfortble looking kid with a bowl cut, but he looks away as soon as i stare up at him.

no, no ,no nononono no ones going to help me. the tears fall puddle on the floor, only growing in speed when ushijima speaks. “ You’ll be transfering here, become our manager, and be staying in this dorm room-- it’s already been settled” (a/n idk I’d be p happy to be shiratorizawa’s manager uwu) his voice is deep and leaves no room for any back talk, but my stomach drops at his next sentence “Semi, put it on her’ my head whips up, starring doe eyed at the grey haired guy from before as he approaches with...IS THAT A COLLAR AND LEASH??? (a/n insert debby ryan face)

my face heats up, embarrassed and ashamed at the idea of being collared like an animal. I try to wiggle away, annoying Semi, “Tendou hold her still damnit!” at that Tendou-- the red head, grips my face with one hand to keep me still, gripping it hard enough that hes smushing my cheeks (a/n tendou, t e n d o u, loml, how I cherish thee) . He mutters a quiet cute, so faint I think I’m hearing things, before the tightening of the collar breaks me from that train of thought. With that done, I’m released, falling to my hands and knees staring up at the entire team now gathered before me.

A tug on the leash tugs me forward without much effort, and the tears spring up once more at the humiliation. 

“This is gonna be fun~”

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ok so I hoped you guys loved it <3 I’ll try my best to get out weekly updates, next chap I’m thinking I either focus on how ushijima and reader-chan actually do know eachother, shirabu and semi fiighting of reader-chans attention, or maybe tendou and reader-chan getting into trouble while draggin goshiki into it! SOund off in the comments and let me know what you think ?? anyway love you guys sm <33333

[kachulein]

Got tagged by @ultkyu to answer some questions! Thank you dear, I'm so excited for this~🥺💞

1. If you were an animal, what animal would you be and why?

× I'd be a cat, 100%. Cats are my love and my life, I've always wanted to be one, tbh (not in a furry type of way, but I feel like life would be easier if I was a cat, lmao). I love how cats take no shit and do whatever they want. They're very independent and individual and I'm all here for that.

2. What two anime characters or kpop idols are your type?

× Can I do both anime characters and kpop idols??

× As for anime characters, Jaeha from Akatsuki no Yona and Kirito from Sword Art Online are totally my type!!😍

× And in terms of kpop idols... omg,, how am I supposed to *only* name two?? Hmm, thinking about it, I guess not all of my biases are my "type" per se... but there's two that come to mind right now hhhh. One of them is Kevin Moon from The Boyz, he really ticks off (almost) every bullet point in my list for my "ideal type" and honestly, this list is freaking contradictory and has vvv high standards but Kevin is THAT boi, basically my imaginative ideal boyfriend personified. :') And the second one who I'd say is totally my type is Hwang Hyunjin from Stray Kids. I've always loved drawing him the most of all kpop idols and I still do tbh (but I can't fill my feed on my insta art account with JUST Hyunjin drawings,, you know,,,). His fashion!! I'm so here for it and vibe with it so well. Plus,,,idk,,, I feel like I could connect to him in some ways so ajxjsjdjjs yeah. There's just something about him and Kevin that inspires me so much, I really love these two bois.

3. Are there any writers or artists (art or music) that inspire you? If so, list 5.

× YES. I decided to name a few artists because I realize I've never talked about the artists whose artworks inspire me the most. They're all on Instagram, so I'll be naming their @'s

a.) @/shooky_dough: I'm probably not the only one who knows Nikki, hehe, but her art is SO amazing. She's got this really distinct style which I'd put into the category of semirealism. Her kpop fanart is soooo good and I used her tutorials to learn how to get better at sketching. If you look at the sketches I've been posting for the past few months on my insta art account, you'll notice that they're highly inspires by Nikki's art. She's definitely the artist I'm looking at most in terms of inspiration and improving on my own art.^-^

b.) @/angelganev: His art is sooo pretty. He does semirealism and I've found him by browsing through pinterest to find some art inspiration/references/tutorials. He also does drawing contests in which his followers can draw one of his work he selects in their own style and he gives a shout out to the ones he liked best. It's always interesting!!

c.) @/melmadedooks: This man can draw about ANYTHING, he's so talented. He used to draw lots of his 'dooks' and I've found him through seeing some of his works on pinterest (again, lol). I've actually redrawn two of his 'dooks' and posted them to my art account AND HE LIKED BOTH OF THEM, I WAS SO HAPPY OMG!!! He used to draw his dooks using only one coloured pencil, so I've also started experimenting with that and instead of using a graphite pencil, I used coloured pencils for my sketches and those gave off very different vibes that I really liked!!

d.) @/rezajeez: Probably *the* kpop fanartist I've been following for the longest of times. They are AMAZING!! They mainly do huge photorealistic portraits with INSANE details. It's funny actually, because their work is the complete opposite to shooky_dough's work. While Reza draws photorealism on a big surface (probably A3? maybe more??) and draws very detailed, Nikki focuses more on sketches/more semirealistic and "simplistic" art and it's usually drawn quite small, so seeing these opposites really broadens my horizon, I think^^

e.) Last but nor least, @/rossdraws: In my opinion, he's the modern day Bob Ross! His art is so freaking stunning, have you checked out his digital art landscape series?? The amount of talent this man holds in his pinky finger is more than I've got in my whole body like- OOF a huge inspiration to me!!~

4. If you could play any instrument, which would you play?

× The guitar!! I really want to learn how to play it~

5. If you could choose one anime to live in, which one would you choose and why?

× Either Ouran High School Host Club or Your Lie In April. The first one is just so much fun and I'd love hanging out with the host club members and as for the latter,,, I just really want to be here for Kousei and help him through his anxiety because I know so well how it feels like and I also wish I could sing while he plays the piano, we'd be a great duo✊🏻😔 (I'm sorry, I couldn't choose one)

6. This is a bit of an old DeviantArt fic trend, but if you received an Android of your favourite character from any anime/show/etc., who would it be?

× Hmmm... that's a great question omg there's so many amazing choices I could make😭😭 But I think I'd go with Kirito, I just really really love him ahhhhh

7. Is there anything you would like to do but haven't because your friends/family didn't want to do it with you?

× There's actually a few things I could name... first, I really want to go bungee jumping (preferably from the Macau Tower, as it's the highest bungee jump in the world😍) but my fam and friends think I'm crazy for wanting to do this but I'm actually quite an adventurous person which probably not many people know about me, so I love doing stuff like that.✊🏻😂

× I would also really like to travel with friends... it's not that I dislike travelling with my mom and stepdad but whenever I can't take someone with me, I feel like such a child ??? idk,, never travelling (I wanted to say "without adults" but then I realized I AM an adult) on my own with friends and always tagging along with my parents kind of make me feel like I'm not independent or mature/grown-up for it. But I feel like none of my friends want to travel with me... most of them have a travel buddy already but I just... don't akdjsjs

× and last but not least, getting more specific, I really want to travel to Hawaii and South Korea, but so far, I haven't made it there yet :c

8. What's your favourite flower?

× Cherry Blossoms all the way💞 but all flowers are beautiful and I really like roses, too.

9. What are some of your hobbies?

× My hobbies include singing, drawing, dancing, writing, reading, researching astrology, studying Korean, watching youtube videos/netflix, listening to music and OF COURSE DAYDREAMING✊🏻😔

10. If you were going to be stranded on a deserted island with nothing but the clothes on your back and a bag, what would you put in the bag?

× I'd definitely put food and water in the bag, my phone, earphones, a portable solar charger with a USB cable (so that my phone won't die and I could chill for however long I want while watching kpop mv's and then also use my phone to call for someone to rescue me from this island once I start running low on resources), all the books I still want to read, my art supplies and a few sketch books, some towels that I could use to lay on or use as blankets, a pillow and my teddy bear, and obviously a toothbrush and toothpaste, a hairbrush and a few hair ties and bobby pins (you don't want long sweaty hair stuck to your skin during a hot summer ewww), some soap to wash myself and my clothes, sunscreen and also some insect spray to keep the bugs away!! (it's a big bag, okay)

~

Sorry for writing such an essay omg!!

Here are my 10 questions:

1. What compliment you've received meant the most to you?

2. Would you rather meet your favourite celebrity/group/bias and realize they're not at all how you imagined them to be like (maybe they're not as kind as you thought, for example) or never meeting them in person but it turning out that they're actually the amazing, kind, sweet, generous, etc. person that you thought they were? (I hope that makes sense hhhh I think the ethics of this question are really interesting)

3. What's your current favourite song you always use to get hyped up to or a song currently stuck in your head?

4. If you had to write the book of your life, what genre would it be and what would you choose as a title?

5. Name your top 5 musical artists and your favourite song of each of them?

6. If you were invited to a big humanitarian event and had to give a speech on a topic you'd want to bring about a huge change for the better, what topic would you choose to speak about and voice your opinions/ideas? (Assume public speaking is one of your strongest assets and you'll ace this no matter what)

7. What is something (a skill, personality trait, or something appearance related, it can be whatever) you wish you had and/or you really admire in other people?

8. What's your favourite anime/show/youtuber (you can answer whichever you got an answer for, it can be all three options of course :D)?

9. In kpop, are you more into vocalists, dancers, rappers, maknaes, leaders, or visuals (or maybe a mix of some/all :'))?

10. What's your most beautiful/favourite memory?

oof I hope these questions will be interesting to answer🥺 hmm, Imma tag @littlefallenrebel @jinniesmeow @softpastelmx @yeonki @hanstagrams @marculees @chrryjin and anyone else who'd like to do this~💞💞💞

[kitsune-og]

5, 8, 25, 26, 34, 57, 58, 74, 89, 95, 111, 117, 141 - connor, maxy, preston (lol enjoy)

Ye Olde Muse asks

OC: Connor Walsh

5. Tell me about your first kiss? Back when I was in Junior High, some girl was trying to steal the last chocolate milk. I knew she had a crush on me, so I went up to her, grabbed and kissed her, then stole the milk and pushed her over.

8. Do you think you’re attractive? Bitch please, of course I am. Have you seen me?

25. What do you like most about yourself? Apart from my impressive metabolism, I like my drive. I work hard towards the things that I want and I always get them.

26. What do you like least about yourself? It’s a bit of a stretch, but I hate the way I was raised. I don’t want to go into details, but my parents are shit.

34. Do you love or hate being alone? I prefer being alone, but I still like company. Having a sibling in my house has actually turned out to be pleasant.

57. What’s your morning or nightly routine? Hmm, my morning routine is getting up at 6am, having coffee and breakfast, hitting the gym by 7 and then heading to university. I don’t really have a night routine.

58. What’s your favorite genre of music? If you were to make someone a playlist that just gets you, name of songs that would be on it. I don’t have a favourite genre, but upbeat songs over 130bpm are good. My playlist would be full of workout jams and some old school rock; How You Like That - Blackpink, Stupid Love - Lady Gaga, Helena - MCR, Cherry Pie - Warrant, Poison - Alice Cooper.

74. Any kinks? Plenty. You could say I’m well versed in the kink scene.

89. What does your room look like? Pretty standard, I guess? King sized bed, guitar in the corner, overflowing drawers, TV, bookshelves stuffed with random crap. Need to get a new rug though, and more pillows.

95. What’s your strangest hobby, if you have one? That’s for me and Lissa to know.

111. What is your favorite childhood story of yourself? The time I tried to jump of my friend’s roof is pretty hilarious. His bedroom was on the second floor and you could climb out the window and chill on the roof, right above the pool. One night, hyped up on sugar and Coke, we decided to jump off the roof into the pool. I went first, landed perfectly in the deep end, managed not to break anything. He pussied out and I got my revenge by shoving him off the roof. He broke his arm.

117. What is your favorite form of self expression? I love tattoos. I have several and plans for many more.

141. Describe yourself in 6 words? Chaotic, handsome, rich, ripped, sex god. 

OC: Maxy Sanchez

5. Tell me about your first kiss? Uh, my ex girlfriend Misa was my first kiss. It was really nice.

8. Do you think you’re attractive? Not really, but I’m not ugly. I’m like average.

25. What do you like most about yourself? I dunno, I guess I’m funny? My partners seem to think so.

26. What do you like least about yourself? My stupid, depressed brain. 

34. Do you love or hate being alone? I hate being alone, but I don’t really have to worry about that any more, due to living with Cora.

57. What’s your morning or nightly routine? I don’t really have a routine, I just roll out of bed, have breakfast, live my life and then flop into bed at night.

58. What’s your favorite genre of music? If you were to make someone a playlist that just gets you, name of songs that would be on it. I love chill music! My playlist would be full of like Radiohead, Muse, BTS, Conan Gray, Dodie and Niall Horan. 

74. Any kinks? Um, haha, yeah? I have some... Nate and Cora know them. I’m a bottom.

89. What does your room look like? It’s full of yellow and white furniture. Cora helped me add a chalkboard wall and we drew some sunflowers in one corner. Nate says my room is soft like me. I have some of his and Cora’s artwork on the walls and a bookshelf crammed full of books to read. My bed is really soft and I have piles of fluffy blankets and cushions and stuffed animals.

95. What’s your strangest hobby, if you have one? I dunno if it’s a hobby, but I kinda collect sunflower things. Anything cute with sunflowers I always wanna buy. I have a cushion, a bunch of fake sunflowers, artwork, some yellow makeup that Cora got for me that has sunflowers on it, tops, hoodies, all sorts.

111. What is your favorite childhood story of yourself? It was kind of funny when I found out that I was really badly allergic to bees. My mom took me to this flower park when I was ten and I was running around the flowers, and then all of a sudden I saw this bee hive. So I go up to it and this bee comes flying right at me, but I thought bees were cool so I just held out a flower and tried to get it to land on me. The bee comes over to my flower and then suddenly a bunch of bees are surrounding me and rubbing on me and I started getting really itchy. And then when I dropped the flower to itch my hand, I must have upset a bee because it stung me. And immediately, I just started having this really bad reaction and I was covered in hives and my face got really swollen and I couldn’t breathe properly. Luckily, my mom carries epipens because she’s allergic to almonds so I didn’t die. But since then, I’ve hated bees.

117. What is your favorite form of self expression? I love singing! I sing in the shower, when I’m tidying the house, when I’m working on uni work and I drag Cora and Nate to karaoke all the time. Cora likes to sing BTS with me and she showed me the DRR machines that have kpop.

141. Describe yourself in 6 words? Depressapuff! It’s the word I came up with for myself because I’m a depressed Hufflepuff. (I know it’s not 6 words but idk what else).

OC: Preston Haynes

5. Tell me about your first kiss? God, I hardly remember it. It was with some girl way back when, she was a terrible kisser and her lips were covered in sticky gloss.

8. Do you think you’re attractive? Yes, why wouldn’t I? I own a mirror.

25. What do you like most about yourself? I like the body I was given. It’s very well toned, attractive, slim without being too lanky. 

26. What do you like least about yourself? Hm. Nothing.

34. Do you love or hate being alone? I like being alone, but I also crave affection and sex. Honestly, I’m happy either way.

57. What’s your morning or nightly routine? I don’t really have any. In the morning, I get up and have coffee, go work out, shower, come home for breakfast, have more coffee and then continue with my day. At night, I wash my face, occasionally get in a second work out and shower, and go to bed.

58. What’s your favorite genre of music? If you were to make someone a playlist that just gets you, name of songs that would be on it. Classic rock and songs to have sex to. My playlist would have songs like Back In Black - AC/DC, Under the Graveyard - Ozzy Osbourne, Enter Sandman - Metallica, Walk This Way - Aerosmith, Sex on Fire - Kings of Leon, Side to Side - Ariana Grande, Freak - Doja Cat, S&M - Rihanna.

74. Any kinks? Almost all of them. I’m a very well rounded kinkster.

89. What does your room look like? It’s currently a bit of a mess as I’ve just moved. But it has some artwork on the walls, black matching furniture, 45″ TV, a display of my favourite whips and crops, and a floor length mirror. 

95. What’s your strangest hobby, if you have one? A lot of my hobbies are considered strange. But perhaps the strangest one is collecting sex toys to display.

111. What is your favorite childhood story of yourself? I don’t remember much of my childhood.

117. What is your favorite form of self expression? Tattoos and/or piercings. 

141. Describe yourself in 6 words?  Attractive, deathly and better than you.

[adastreia-12]

tag frankenstein

I was tagged by @darkside-cookies thanks dear, i decided to do the ones that weren’t repeated and also english cause i’m me

nickname: i’m pretty partial to nicknames, have a bunch of them, don’t really care which one people use to call me but the most common one is Ele with like. the accent on the second e. sounds like elè. i use my full name tho.

gender: female 

astrological sign: saggitarius baby

height: 1,60

hogwarts house: hufflepuff *peace sign*

favourite animal: felines in general, love me some cats

number of blankets: i don’t do blankets, i do quilts. all year long. during the winter it’s not enough and I add a wool blanket, during the summer i just blast my AC to achieve proper conditions so I can keep my quilt

dream trip: save up, go backpacking around the world for a year, ideally with my boyfriend (and that’s why we call it a dream people)

where i’m from: greece

when i created this blog: 2016, not long after vld came out

why i created this blog: i had a personal blog when voltron came out summer 2016 so i made this one as voltron blog, it worked for the first few seasons, then i liked my dashboard here more and stopped using the old one, made this one my personal when i stopped being into voltron

time: 13:10

favourite band/artist: i’m going through a kpop phase and really loving ATEEZ these days

song stuck in my head: Joji- SLOW DANCING IN THE DARK

last movie i saw: uuhh... i don’t remember actually, i’ve been binging series instead. last series i watched was mr. iglesias on netflix, check it out it’s nice wholesome comedy about a teacher who believes in his students and does everything in his power to help them succeed

last thing i googled: quilt μετάφραση cause my bilingual ass needed to be sure quilt meant the greek equivalent

other blogs: @sing-to-me-muse is my writeblr that is more of an archive rn since i,,, don’t write that much (soon to change hopefully) and a bookblr that i haven’t kickstarted yet but have created and it’s on hold for now

do i get asks?: nope, just from one (1) friend tho i wouldn’t mind more

why this username?: haa well the thing is this username is kinda a result of my fucked up reading skills and the need for a permanent name across platforms. so yeah, my previous username was hagane-no-shiro (god that was a goddamn smart username, i still mourn it sometimes) while i was a voltron blog but after some time i wanted to make it a personal blog and was brainstorming for a username when i talked with my uncle who’s a gamer and he told me that he uses the name proteus across his online gaming accounts to stay consistent and i was like aha, this is what i need and i went on a list of female ancient greek names. one of them was adrasteia and i liked it the most. however, i read it as adastreia instead, and ended up liking the misread version better so i went with that. 12 is my favorite number so when the username adastreia alone wasn’t available i slapped a 12 at the end and voila. adastreia-12

(sidenote: apparently adastreia is one of the canon versions of this name which is cute, there is also a band called that, and adastreia was a nymph so that’s cool)

following: 250

average amount of sleep: about 6 hours. i don’t sleep well.

lucky number: don’t have one

what am I wearing: black pants, purple t-shirt

dream job: professional author, or you know, a formless blob in the great abyss that is not concerned with earthly bullshit

instruments i play: does coming to contact with a guitar for 2 years and a piano for a semester count

eye colour: hazel

hair colour: dark brown at the roots and sides, various shades of pink after a certain point, mostly a cold, pastel pink rn

aesthetic: i’ve answered this aesthetic thing before with a whole ass paragraph listing things so this time i want you to picture this: a quiet beach with no one else other than yourself, the sky is grey with clouds decorating it, there is a pleasant but strong wind blowing on you as you sit on the rocks near the sea with shorts and a hoodie on. you are not cold, you are not hot. the waves are crashing rhythmically on the sand and your favorite songs are playing without headphones so you can listen to both at the same time. you are alone. you are calm. you are a child of nature and she has welcomed you back in her arms. the world and its depravity cannot reach you now.

languages i speak: greek, english, veeeery basic italian

most iconic song: ac/dc either back in black or highway to hell, yes that is cliche but it is also the hill i will die on like mf braveheart.

random fact: remember that quilt I use year long? yeah my mom took it away from me for the summer and hid it and i will not forgive her that.

Music tag! Write 10 songs you’re obsessed with and tag 10 people to do the same 

Joji- SLOW DANCING IN THE DARK

ATEEZ- Illusion

Blackbear- idfc

Treasure Planet OST- I’m Still Here (Jim’s Theme)

Moana OST- I Am Moana

K.A.R.D.- Rumor

The Neighborhood- Daddy Issues

Sara Skinner- Bring Home the Glory

Ruelle- Madness

The Unlikely Candidates- Novocaine

Bonus songs: The Unlikely Candidates- Violence & Bastille- Blame

I don’t know enough people to tag tbh, that haven’t been tagged that is so whoever feels like doing this by all means go ahead

[justmorefandomtrash]

A Pinch of Love

Prompt: Relationships

Ft: Demisexual Seung and the eight types of love

(Will be posted to AO3 asap)

@leeseunggilweek

There were eight types of love according to the Ancient Greeks.

Eros was sexual love, eratic and all-consuming, the carnal desire to seek pleasure.

Philia was affectionate love, friendship and without physical attraction.

Storge was familiar love, for family and childhood friends.

Ludus was playful love, the early stages of love and the glee of young lovers.

Mania was obsessive love, leading partners into the depths of madness and obsessiveness.

Pragma was enduring love, matured and aged over time to create a unique harmony.

Philautia was self-love, caring for oneself and feeling comfortable.

Agape was selfless love, the love that accepts, forgives and believes for the greater good.

Exploring each of them however, was something that Seung had never expected in his life.

---

Storge - familiar love

Seung knocked on his sister’s bedroom door, shifting nervously from one foot to the other. It opened to reveal a smiling Yeong-Hui who pulled him inside, chattering excitedly about the latest kpop song.

“Noona.”

She stopped, spinning on her heel and pulling him into a tight hug, running her fingers through his hair.

“What do you need?”

“A skirt.”

“Got it. Bundle yourself up in my duvet and I’ll set to work.”

He nodded and slipped out of her grasp, flinging himself onto her bed, wrapping his arms around Ji-Hye, who prefered to nap in Yeong’s room rather than his. Nuzzling into her fur, he giggled when she patted at him with her paw before resigning to her fate. He heard his sister humming as she hurried around the room, occasionally followed by quiet thumps as she threw clothing into a pile. Ji-Hye whined as he rolled over, and he pushed himself back against her gently, pulling a pillow to his chest. It wasn’t often that he felt the need to wear certain types of clothing, but some days he couldn’t stand it.

“Okay, so I’ve got those leather shoes you like? The black pair and the white pair, I’ll match some outfits around those. Eomeoni will be back soon, Abeoji a little later so we can get them to do your hair and makeup okay?”

Nodding, he curled into the pillow a little more, stroking Ji’s paw as she patted at him again. She loved attention, especially hugs and was probably a little annoyed that he wasn’t looking at her.

“I found that paint splatter top you love, the one with the stars on it. Want a skirt to match or several outfits?”

“Several outfits please.”

“Got it.”

Unburying his face from the pillow, Seung pushed himself up onto his elbows, gently patting his dog as she snuggled up to him. True to her word, Yeong-Hui was setting out different outfits, the paint splatter top closest with a pair of knee high socks next to it. She threw a plaid miniskirt over the back of her chair, quickly retying the ‘sleeves’ at the front. This was quickly followed by a sheer skirt, with flowers around the hem and a black skirt underneath, then a lace up one on the bed next to him. Shuffling through her draws, she tossed over a white t-shirt with a cloud saying “I’m okay” on it, telling him to put it with the sheer skirt. A lace top dropped onto the lace-up skirt, a pleated top landing on his face by accident. He threw it onto the chair, chuckling as Yeong-Hui huffed and sat on the floor next to him.

“It’s not like you’re much better at it anyway! You can’t throw straight.”

“Do I need to explain it?”

“Just try the outfits on!”

He rolled over, falling onto the floor and groaning, pushing himself up before wandering over to the outfit on the chair. Running his fingers over it, he shrugged and turned back to the one on the bed. He held the lace top against himself before switching it out for the skirt.

“This one.”

“Go for it!”

Slipping out of his pyjamas, he found himself pulled in front of the mirror as Yeong-Hui fussed around him, tightening the laces before wrapping her arms around him.

“There’s my sibling.”

“Thanks Noona.”

“Anything to make sure you’re happy.”

---

Philia - Affectionate love

Whenever Seung was in Japan, he found himself being greeted at Kyushu airport and taken to Katsuki Yuuri’s family onsen. He’d spent many nights there, relaxing and partaking in traditional activities to the point where he felt like he could consider Yuuri a close friend. They were affectionate to each other in a friendly way, not being too concerned if they shared a bed at night or swapping clothes if they were in a rush. There was nothing romantic or sexual between them, and they were perfectly happen to maintain that friendship, deflecting any questions about their relationship.

“What do you have to say about the rumours that you and Katsuki Yuuri are involved behind Victor Nikiforov’s back?”

Yet here the press were again, pestering and pestering them despite the rather public announcement of Victor and Yuuri’s love for each other. Before he could answer, he saw Yuuri out of the corner of his eye, clutching onto Victor as if they were a lifeline.

“We are? Well that’s news to me. Last thing I knew was that I was happily single with my dog whilst Victor and Yuuri were engaged with their own dog. If I’d known I was involved in an affair, I might have tried to make an effort if I could be bothered.”

“B-”

“No buts, Yuuri and I are simply friends, now let me go.”

He pushed through the crowds of reporters, nodding to Yuuri and Victor who smiled their thanks. No one, no one at all, tried to destroy the friendship he had so carefully maintained.

---

Ludus - Playful Love

Seung was not new to the game of attraction and love. Most of the time it was fleeting, there one moment and gone the next. But with Phichit, it was like falling in love for the first time, hard and full of those cliche moments like tripping over because he was staring too much, and the world being just that bit brighter when he was around. It was the tiny gestures that made his heart beat just that little bit faster, the words that made him smile that little bit more.

“Seung! Great to be competing against you again! Let’s both get to the final this year, no?”

“Sure.”

Even as Phichit pulled him into a tight hug, much closer than he would allow other skaters, he couldn’t help but squeeze back and smile. This was new, this inability to hide behind the mask he’d carefully constructed for years, and he found himself not caring about the way the press whispered and wrote articles about the way he began to express himself. He started being more daring on the ice, going for music and costumes he would never have dared to before. Allowing himself to show expressions seemed to simply draw in new fans from across the world, yet he silently dedicated every program to a single person.

Phichit.

For coming into his life and unintentionally sweeping him off his feet, cracking the facade he’d perfected over the years and giving him the freedom to show the true him on the ice.

He had it bad, and it simply made life that little bit more exciting.

---

Eros - Erotic Love

Eros was terrifying for someone who had never experienced it before. It was need on a primal level, the carnal desire to seek and receive pleasure. It left Seung confused, the small gestures sending shock waves through his body. Arousal scared him, the idea that someone could experience those feelings on a regular basis almost unreal. He found himself shying away from contact with other people, especially Phichit. His coach didn't seem to understand and would keep arranging meet ups with fellow skaters that he either ran away from or didn't show up at all.

"You are meeting up with them! They flew over from Russia specially to see you."

"Well send them home! I don't want to meet people, I want to stay with Ji-Hye and phone my family because I don't need anyone else. Why won't you listen to me?"

"Because maybe, just maybe they can help you understand what's going on."

"What the hell can playboy Victor Nikiforov and strip off and pole dance Katsuki Yuuri understand about me? The pair of them probably have k-"

"Seung!"

He spun on his heel, nearly tripping over his coach before she caught him, pushing him slightly towards the duo walking towards them.

"Good morning! I haven't been here in so long, it looks great still, as do you."

"A-ah, thank you?"

"Come on, I want to see the sights!"

"Vitya darling, please calm."

"Fine, thanks for bringing him coach!"

They beckoned for him to come over and reluctantly he followed, trailing along behind them as they chattered. He found himself seated on a park bench, Yuuri and Victor on either side. Yuuri leans over and grasps his hand, squeezing it lightly.

"Your coach said that you're shying away from everyone. You seem confused about something and Phichit is panicking, thinking he's done something wrong. Is there anything we can do to help?"

"Eros."

"Hm? Eros... You're struggling with eros. I can explain what it is, but not what it feels like I'm afraid."

"Neither of us have ever felt sexual attraction."

He slumped down on the bench, thinking back to a time where he'd been at Phichit's (a long time ago) apartment and he'd been laughing at an Instagram post of the duo and...

Oh.

"You're both ace?" "Uh huh. Now tell me, what does it feel like?" "Like... I can't think, as if there is a need to..."

"There's nothing wrong with desire Seung. I know that it's terrifying, but it's okay to let yourself fall."

A tear drips down his face and a tissue appears in his vision. Taking it, he dabs the tears away, nodding his thanks.

"Let us arrange a day between you and Phichit, or perhaps even get you two to stay in the same hotel room next competition to

give you more time to prepare."

"Thank you. Thank you so much."

---

Mania - Obsessive Love

Mania was definitely worse. It was the sparks of jealousy whenever someone approached Phichit, it was the envy when someone touched or even spoke to him. Seung found himself sulking every time he couldn't spend time with him. It didn't take long for it to go away when Phichit hugged him and made it clear that they were best friends. He could deal with best friends.

---

Agape - Selfless Love

Agape was a complete contrast to mania. It was the lazy early morning cuddles in hotel rooms, it was the forgiveness after an argument, it was a reunion at an airport after a long time apart. Phichit nuzzled into his side, clutching at the blanket covering them. Seung pressed a lazy kiss to his forehead, admiring the way that the sunbeams broke through the curtains and fell across their skin.

“Morning darling.”

“Morning to you to sweetie.”

Quiet pop drifted through the air as he ran his fingers through Phichit’s hair, breathing in the refreshing lemon scent that clung to him even after a night spent pressed up against his side, a hint of orange mixing in.

“Seung…”

“Phi?”

“You’re crushing my arm and I have god-awful morning breath.”

He laughed, an honest and free laugh, rolling over to lay across Phichit’s stomach.

“Get off you heafty lump!”

There was no malice in the words, Phichit sitting up to pull him into a proper hug, their bodies fitting together as if they were two halves of a whole.

This was the love he’d been craving, letting himself fall in more ways than the way they fell back against the heap of pillows at the head of the bed, hair fanning out as hands wandered, exploring the soft skin of hips and thighs, gentle kisses assuring the other that they were there and they were perfect. This was the love that so many sought, and so few found, choosing to focus on other types of love rather than seeking the purest of the forms.

---

Philautia - Self Love

Seung stood in front of the mirror, fiddling with one of his piercings to loop it around his ear. It was a dragon cuff that Phichit had sent over as a gift from one of his brothers, insisting that it would be a perfect match with the dragon tattoo he had curling at his hip. The gesture was appreciated, and as he twisted it into place he pulled his vest over his head, leaving himself in his shorts. The purple and black stood out against his skin, a harsh contrast, covering up one of many scars that littered his body.

Call him cliche, but perhaps Phichit’s words about how beautiful he was were having an effect, because looking in the mirror all he can feel is the ghost of Phichit’s kisses across his skin, the gentle drag of his fingers across his thighs and hips, lingering on the tattoo and quiet whispers of how proud he was.

Phichit loved his body enough for the both of them, but looking in the mirror and not loathing some part of it? It was a strange feeling, but freeing at the same time, knowing that he could look in the mirror and love himself. Not to the point of narcissism, but enough to be confident about what he wore and how he looked.

“Flaws… are something that everyone has. They are nothing to be ashamed of. Damn right Phichit, they’re not.”

---

Pragma - Enduring Love

Years later, Seung settled on his sofa, an elderly Ji-Hye and Phichit curling up onto him. They had a unique relationship, able at times to finish each other's sentence.

They wouldn’t have it any other way.

[durianstar]

HEY OK I DID SOME BIOS FOR HISAO AND MASAKO A  WHILE BACK SO. HAVE THESE SKETCHES AND INFO UNDER THE CUT

FACTS ON MASAKO WAKABAYASHI:

17, 2nd year of highschool. 5’6”, 130~ish lbs.

hyperintrovert. despises people. interacting with others is a chore. zero social skills

empathy problems. cannot imagine why anyone would go out of their way to help people on their own. her own self interest is her priority. doesn't care if she hurts someone or their feelings. she does mind her own business though and can’t understand why people would ever start drama

uses her mind control for petty stuff (better grades, more money from her uncle, if someone is coming up to talk to her she can turn them around, etc. her mind control is very powerful but the other person is vaguely aware they’re getting controlled and so if she tried getting them to do something big like attacking someone else they would know.) keeps her powers a definite secret, doesn’t want any attention over it from others

secretly desires a companion where they could just chill and talk about hobbies. craves a real personal connection but she doesn’t even know she wants it. who’d want to talk to her anyways she's difficult. “no one understands me”

honestly just really depressed and disaffected. she’d be a lot nicer if she was happier but she hates her parents she hates her school and she hates the system

enjoys basketball, pretty good at it. knows krav maga (mom is from israel, taught her what she knew from the IDF because masako was genuinely interested. she was like 7 when she was learning though)

not really all that smart. the glasses make her look clever but she's bad at math and studying is her worst nightmare. she’s also terrible at articulating her thoughts. that being said she's very good at writing

relatively interested in fashion. dresses nice in general and keeps her appearance tidy

her clothes smell like mothballs though. her uncle puts them everywhere. she fucking hates it

her hair is naturally mousy, dyes it red with henna. very soft tresses

quite pretty. gentle features, severe eyes and clear skin. has a couple of secret admirers but she’s scary and they would never interact with her

has a lot of story ideas but her characters fall flat. enjoys writing in general though

likes music. listens to everything but enjoys ambient creepy-sounding stuff and kpop girl groups

lives with her uncle on her dad’s side because her parents are always on trips and they need someone to watch her

her and her uncle don’t really get along. he’s very kind but he’s always worrying over her. she hates it when he does that because it actually does makes her feel bad when he’s just trying to help and she snaps at him

she’s fond of him. although they have nothing in common he cooks dinner every night and tries his best to understand how she feels. he's way better than her parents (never there for her, fed up with her attitude, always blamed her for everything, never spent any time with her, never encouraged her hobbies). sometimes she’ll buy him a nice outfit for his birthday with the money she accumulates on new years

fast metabolism. she eats A Lot

favorite food is soup of all types. rice and miso soup is her go-to meal. jewish style chicken soup as well

and yeah she's technically jewish since her mom is. japanese jew

uses “あたし (atashi)” to refer to herself around strangers. uses “あたい (atai)” around her uncle and hisao.

cv: miyuki sawashiro (the deep voiced tough girl voice. the intimidating one)

FACTS ON HISAO EGAWA:

23, draws on commission and works at mcdonalds. 5’3”. also like 130~ish lbs

disgusting

sorta introverted but very outgoing. hes got a couple friends he can kick it with

he lives in his van for sure, can’t afford his own place to live. he lives in his mom’s apartment parking lot

bipolar. can’t keep an office job because his manic episodes are pretty severe and he does get mildly psychotic.

does a lot of illegal shit on the daily. like regular drug use and brewing alcohol at his friend’s crib. probably doing a whole bunch of other shit too while possessed.

has tattoos on both shoulders cuz his friend in the Yamaguchi-gumi did them for him.

speaking of the yamaguchi-gumi like he’s got a Few Friends In The Yakuza. he’s considered joining but he doesn’t want to cut ties with his mom

his pixiv is full of fucking porn like it is absolutely swamped with it. if something isn’t r18 it's definitely suggestive. prominent BL-artist but he draws women sometimes. big on saigenos

actually very smart. he was one of the best in his class all throughout middle school but mental illness ruins everything and at that point his priority was mostly on not killing himself. he didn't go to college

also the cool guy in his school when he wasn’t the shortest. was definitely the short one in highschool and was also suicidal so he was substantially less popular then. people started realizing he was poor and vulnerable around that time too so he suffered a Little Bit Of Bullying but he would beat the shit outta anyone that started a physical confrontation with him. started smoking cigarettes around his 3rd year of highschool. started befriending delinquents and other lower-class teens

he used to be the ace of his school’s ping pong team. stopped going to practice during an episode and got cut from the team

he really loves his mom a lot and he feels really bad for her because she's poor too so he’s determined to help her out as much as he can. he doesn't wanna be an economic burden on her

she used to be an escort but now she’s a nurse (and was part of the yakuza as well but she left when she got pregnant). hisao is illegitimate

has a lot of trouble with commitments. he is, however, determined to make a manga

his story ideas tend to be pretty dull but he can draw characters and dialogue with intense skill

he knows so many damn ghosts and he's friends with like all of em. he prefers them to living people much more since they don’t treat him like he’s an untouchable

no boyfriend or girlfriend. too busy being a loser. he really wants one too but he doesn’t fucking deserve it

terrible fashion sense he just puts on whatever he sees first and slathers himself in antiperspirant

shitty skin. the freckles on his face are mostly hyperpigmented spots where acne used to be. he still gets the occasional pimple on his scalp or hairline. the oiliest

he doesn't keep anything clean like ever. everything that's his is either messy and/or unsanitary

hes like. genuinely a nice person but circumstances had kinda led him to his garbage man persona. always gives a couple dollars to beggars and helps the elderly across the street.

he’s also pretty charismatic in general. he knows how to work the system

listens to speedcore and other garbage like that

LOVES KIDS he's so good with little children he even applied to work at a daycare but they didn't like his vibe and also he has zero professional experience

will eat everything. anything. not picky at all. he does like fruit and bread a lot though

also knows how to cook pretty well. had to prepare dishes for his mom when she was ill (all the time)

uses “おれ (ore)” around basically everyone because he doesn’t give a shit but “私 (watashi)” in restaurants and stuff. he isn’t rude at all he’s just a little coarse.

cv: kazuhiko inoue (like how he sounds when he’s playing a nerd character)

[fiftythousandgreenbacks]

behind the scenes tag thing

this is for @threejerseyboys

coffee: what’s your coffee order?

ooooh recently cold brew coffee is my shit. Cold brew coffee and heavy cream together is so tasty and pretentious I love it

cypher pt. 1: if you had to be part of a kpop group, what position would you want to be (i.e. leader, visual, lead vocal, dancer, rapper, maknae, etc.)

a maknae. Im the youngest of my family and I can’t do shit without other ppl taking care of me and doting on me so :) I can just be cute instead

boy in luv: when you are interested in someone (romantically, sexually, etc.), does your behavior change?

Sadly yes. I mean that’s what happens to everyone. If you think your behavior doesn’t change when you caught feelings, you’re lying t yourself hunny! I know because I’ve done the same, hunny! Not that it’s bad, but it’s also not always good either. 

just one day: who would you want to spend the last day of your life with?

My mom, since she was the one I spent my first day of my life with technically? May as well end things in full circle? Why am I sounding really casual

tomorrow: goal that you would like to achieve within the next year?

Don’t die, juggle a lot of responsibilities successfully without being a wreck, keep my emotions in check, get a goddamn research position in college, be chill

miss right: what is your ideal ‘type’?

I don’t really know right now tbh. But my heart always has a place for jk. So I guess as close to jk as possible. sweet. smol but strong. meme. weird as fuck. stupid but also smart n hardworking.

hip hop lover: three songs that are meaningful to you?

This varies every 5 minutes but for now, it’s...

Doves in the Wind by SZA. Whenever I catch myself in negative thoughts, I need to listen to this to remind myself of my self worth and whatnot.

First Love/late Spring by Mitski. I loooooove her so much i’m seeing her in october and her songwriting is so impeccable it hurts me and her voice is so ahh

Winter by Khalid. I’m seeing him tomorrow! And I’m going to cry if he does sing this!

24/7 = heaven: what are you most looking forward to?

Crying when Khalid sings! And meeting him! I’m gonna tell him about my depression! And it’s gonna be a moment!

move: last time you cried?

At my friends house and I was in a sad emotional state. I think she cried at one point too. Good times! Love hanging out with my friends!

butterfly: most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen?

Myself bitch. Jk too, especially when he performed in those weird hockey outfits and he had weird crimped hair that was flouncy

young forever: what is one movie from your childhood that you will always treasure?

To be honest? The shrek series. And this ain’t me being a meme. I genuinely loved it so much when I was a kid and I still thing it’s an excellent and funny and great and quality movie. Literally, name a better kid’s movie with kid’s humor that’s still clever and can appeal to anyone.

boys with fun: you’re going on a roadtrip with seven other people– dead, alive, fictional, real, famous, or not. who are they, and why?

I mean the obvious answer is bts. And I mean. It’s obvious for a reason. Since. It’s right. I don’t have the mental capacity to be creative and think of anything else. 

whalien 52: weirdest dream you’ve ever had?

Excluding all the sad terrible ones involving me or my friends and family dying, there was one dream where i went thru a bunch of alternate universes whilst being chased by a shadowy figure. A Wrinkle in Time style adventure, but with a less cool main character

house of cards: when was the last time you felt sexy?

0 seconds ago bitch I feel sexy rn

begin: who are you most grateful for in your life?

I’ll exclude my family since that’s too basic. I’ll say recently I’ve been really grateful for my roommate because she’s been like the main reason of my college experience turning out okay so far. Like, through her I was able to meet a lot of great people and she let me stay over her house during spring break, and she’s like simultaneously my older sister who keeps my messy ass in check and also a puppy that licks your face too much. 

lie: biggest fear?

Losing my friends. There’s a lot of things I’d rather suffer through than lose my friends. Especially the ones I’ve made in high school, because I’m so far away from them most of the year. 

reflection: if you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be?

If you think you’re ace and you don’t catch feelings and you’re above men, you wrong bitch. Unfortunate. 

cypher pt. 4: what do you do to treat yourself or relax?

Listen to music and read my old weeb drawings and diary entries and remember I’ve come so far since middle school

2!3!: your favorite thing about bangtan?

This can probably be applicable to any hardworking kpop group I guess but I really really admire their work ethic and the quality shit they put out every time. Like, their music is so well produced and written and performed and they’re just nonstop on the grind and even with all the success they’re getting, they don’t let it get to their heads with how chill their personalities still are. I love the emphasis on friendship and teamwork they push in their songs and concepts, and truly deserve all the success and hype they’re getting. They really started from humble beginnings and seeing how much they’ve grown and changed is really inspiring too. 

not today: what are your procrastinating right now?

I need to write a news brief about a lawsuit, I need to get a job/volunteer position, I need to clean my room, I need to clean my emotions...a lot

you never walk alone: how many people do you trust with your life?

Ten exactly. for now.