#and my shoulder is gonna HURT tomorrow
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I spent a good couple hours trying to smooth out my walls (textured via age and bad previous patch job, rip so can't do the fast methods) and cleaning the ceiling bc it needs a good scrub after the previous owner
..I'm only 20% done in the livingroom/kitchen area and about 5% for those rooms ceiling 😭💔
#i mean its progress for sure#and my shoulder is gonna HURT tomorrow#and wrist#but it doesnt look better bc the sanded areas are darker bc the previous paint was dark grey#and shitty priner over top#trying to tell myself its ok to not have completely smooth walls as i kick and scream and cry about it#it's just annoying bc i wanna paint but the previous owner left it such a mess and i keep finding new stuff#how do ppl stay motivated to work on projects all day i beg for advice#my adhd lets me do it for maybe an hour before i get orditated and then do it in 10 min spurts for a few hours
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hey body it's 3:30am do you wanna start getting tired anytime soon or
#fredspeaks#please!!!!!!#i closed all of my apps to make myself sleep and all i did was lay down like >:( for an hour#i know my shoulders are gonna hurt tomorrow i can feel it bc i am Not gonna sleep well. alas
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Fuck u I shouldn't have to work on weekends vs Jesus christ I have so much to do. Fight.
#i did fuck all this weekend so its gonna hurt monday when i have to start scrambling#ive gotta do extractions and make media and back up cultures and work on my preproposal#and do 3 assignments rip. ugh im so tried. ill just work on things tomorrow#i have an appointment tomorrow to get accommodations for my learning disability tomorrow and idk what thatll b like#ive sorta got a chip on my shoulder abt using accommodations so im afraid ill come off as rude#but idk itll make me freak out less if i get etra time on exams. i never stay after tho basically i wont use any#so whats the point but everyone is telling me to do it so i am#my mom calls the way i read a lil ADD bc i cant pay attention long enough to make the words make sense bc i get distracted by my thoughts#its real annoying 😒#how to cure that? stop reading. problem solved 😌#unrelated
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oh man today has not been a good day lmao
#I stay silly!!!#but what the fuck!!!#I wake up after having weird dreams#idk what drawfee and chappell roan and a party have to do with anything#but okay???#I had trouble getting to sleep too#and ugh#anyway!! I wake up and immediately my neck and shoulders hurt way more than they usually do#for some reason I decide laying my head in a weird way is an okay thing to do in response to that#except it totally isn’t because when I tried to get up it made it worse#like I literally couldn’t move#I was very close to tears about it#very close#and then once that settles I have to do dishes#which is just… it’s fine but it’s not a task I like doing especially when I’m already feeling like shit#and then my plan/timeline gets thrown off bc my mom decides to clean the drains#and so then dyeing yarn gets delayed#(the black yarn I need for this commission wasn’t black enough)#but only by like half an hour so fine whatever#I dye the yarn and that went kinda fucky#like it worked but it was finicky and i got shit tangled at one point#but again! I got it sorted and it all turned out okay!!#but that took a couple hours to untangle shit and rewind it only to unwind it again and then blow dry it#aka way fucking longer than I wanted#and then I finally finish crocheting one out of two of the things#and I hate it. tried something new and it didn’t work and so I had to frog it#and ideally I’d have this done by Wednesday but idk man#I didn’t dye enough yarn either so I’m gonna have to do that tomorrow#and I also don’t have enough t-shirt scraps to use as stuffing#ALL THE WHILE MY STUPID NECK AND SHOULDERS STILL HURT!!!!
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i have a report to make: i was feeling bad and then i did 10 bad pushups and 10 okay reverse pushups you know the ones where the point of the exercise is to lower your body to the floor real slow like controlled descent and then i spend 45 minutes reading a book and now i kind of feel better
#my shoulders are gonna hurt so fucking bad tomorrow#im halfway thru the book i started reading 2 months ago!#all around cause for celebration#i've had a productive day!#i want to go to bed
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Gencon is very busy...!!!
Ummmmm highlights of the day..!!!
I maybe bought 4 Naruto figurines. Thankfully not individually expensive (though perhaps a little expensive all together...) see I wanted Sasuke but I also wanted Kakashi and I couldn't have Sasuke without Naruto and well it would feel wrong to have the 3 of them without Sakura and so I somehow. Got all 4. Haha. I'll most likely post pics later, whenever I end up opening them. I'm still at the convention center rn lol
(Putting the rest of this under a cut bc it got a little long lol)
I was on the field of the Lucas Oil Stadium, aka the stadium that the Indianapolis Colts play at. I've attended all of One game here (not professional football, it was a high school game lol) so I've felt the size of it, but it's still fucking crazy being on the field. It's so BIG...... and obviously they've got the grass covered rn, but it's still pretty cool!!!
I maaaade dice!!! Pretty precise process it seems, & definitely would require a Lot of work (after the sanding and the painting etc etc). I do still wanna get into it, but if I wanted to spring for stuff like the vacuum chamber or the pressure pot...
Yeah, it'd get expensive. Add in the fact that I don't have a good place to do this away from the cats & it really is not feasible to start rn. But!!! Eventually!!!! I think I'd really enjoy it. I just need a dedicated workshop space where I can spread out without worrying about poisoning my cats lol.
Here's some cool game set stuff I saw in the event hall. This picture is maybe... hm... a fourth of the event hall? And then when you consider that the vender hall (connected to the event hall, though it's closed right now) is maybe 1.5 times as big as the event hall?? Give or take a little...
Aka just imagine booths upon booths upon booths... I'm gonna have to take a pic of it tomorrow. I was there too briefly to think about taking a pic. Honestly I maybe managed to get through like a tenth of the whole vender hall in an hour of wandering. It's fucking huge. And So Many Dice... I bought one set of 14 (I think it was) dice. Aka an extended set. And then I got a random set bag of dice (just a basic 7). And then a d20 with a cat on it. And a dice of LETTERS. Aka I guess a d26 (I totally did not have to double check that there were 26 letters in the alphabet)(I have 702k words written & posted to ao3)(😂😂😂 I'm very tired) but with letters instead of numbers. And it's glow in the dark!!! And I found some hxh buttons, and a mighty nein poster, and uhmmmm. A cute lanyard. And that's all I bought. Which really is such restraint for me. (Omfg I just saw a dragon cosplay)(someone just dressed as a dragon)
OH YEAH I saw a fucking. Persona 5 Ryuji cosplay. Hanging out with the biker lady from Durarara. Featuring the Ryuji holding her scythe hfksbfmd which was such a funny image. I was too shy to ask for a pic but just trust 🙏 i saw this
Anyways yeah the only real big thing I bought is the naruto figurines. I'll show pics later once I got the stuff again (I dropped it all off in the car earlier)
Omfg literally as I've been sitting here (on a bench at the side of a main hallway) someone stopped by and gave me a handmade bracelet !!!
DND's 50th anniversary!!! So cute!!!!
#speculation nation#not Too much anime stuff. tho i clearly found some stuff. no trigun yet unfortunately 😔#which i already walked thru the artist area (as much as i could)(i was getting a little stressed by how crowded it was)#so idk maybe i missed a booth or smth but it'd definitely be less likely to see elsewhere in the vender's hall#but WHO KNOWS it's a wonderful massive world in there.#im actually sitting outside it rn and staring longingly at the closed doors. tomorrow... i will be able to Actually peruse it more...#and i will quite possibly wear some ear plugs next time bcus i was getting Stressed Out!!! overstimulated!!!!#pulled in a million different directions!!!!! aaaaaaa!!!!#anyways yeah my events are all done for the night. just kinda hanging out now waiting for my sister's game to be done.#gonna collapse into bed as soon as we get back. so i should probably eat some more.#i had an overpriced and underwhelming sandwich. but there is pizza somewhere. maybe i should eat pizza.#i actually... still have the keys lol. from when i dropped the stuff off at the car earlier.#which is weird. I have the ticket to home with me. but i still wait. bc it would be a dick move to leave with them lol#and also. while i Can drive. i do not have my license. so that would be. a bad. idea.#my shoulders Huuuuurt but thankfully i dont have any combat classes tomorrow#hurting shoulders is more just from my bag bc my shoulders fucking suck. but it makes me glad i can rest more tomorrow.#oh yeah i did the sword knife and longsword today. might get bruises from that knife one. it was very focused on parrying#swords. swords. swords. swords. the longsword class made me really want to own a longsword. i dont own one. yet.#i could. i could. i could. sometime. eventually. i want a longsword. i think i technically just own uhmmm um um#a rapier? a machete? a uh. i dont know what that cheap anime convention sword is actually. OH YEA AND CANE SWORD#no longsword though. i really want to own a katana too. someday i'll own both. someday.#real swords are unfortunatelly really expensive. thats why i only have uh. uh. uhhh. oh yeah i do have those 2 swords from mountains trip#i dont really know what those are either. you know i really should know what bladed weapons i own. i dont though.#i own cool swords and knives bc oooh fun pointy things! wheeeeee!!!#i'll study up on it later. lol.#anyways i guess i should go look for more food. i have rambled enough. bye!
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went hard at the gym today and my left arm is numb, dead, muerto, kaput.
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Getting to experience what life would be like if my muscles WEREN'T holding my joints and entire body together by having to get up right after my muscle relaxants rly kicked in and discovering, uh, that my normal uncoordinated flailing leads to pretty much every joint just moving in and out of place freely and there is literally nothing stopping my shoulders from coming out due to the weight of my arms and stuff like that. 😐🤕. Uh. I dont like it.
#im the kinda person who cant enjoy massages bc. well 1 i hate being touched by almost everyone. but 2 my muscles are so tense all the time#from holding my body together and also probably from the ptsd not gonna lie#so like it just hurts very badly. and any time a medical professional touches my shoulders or back theyre like Uh Dude. What The Hell#on the other hand i have also been described as freakishly strong bc holding your muscles tense all the time (even subconciously) tones em#pretty well. on the other other hand when i use this strength there are usually Problems. of the Everything Is Dislocated variety#so fun. EDS is. so very fun.#chronic illness#at least i have tomorrow off. thank god. and now i will attempt to fall back asleep :)
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Fell down a fuckin flight of stairs so I think I'm gonna take it easy for a day 🥲
#jane journals#injury ment tw#IVE NEVER DONE THIS BEFORE#it wasnt a terribly long tumble thank god#but my knees and elbow are scraped up real bad#my shoulder neck and hip took a pretty bad hit too 😭😭#definitely called out of work tomorrow cause it feels mostly tolerable now#but ive been in a car crash#i know its gonna hurt way worse tomorrow :'3#but im fine don't worry about me guys!!#not concussed or anything#car accident tw#for mention of it#rip dorian (name of car that got totaled)
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Chronic pain really got me going to bed before it’s even dark out (also my little pink unicorn lights Millie got me look so cool in the second pic)
#my back and shoulder are killing me and I’ve done nothing but smoke weed and stretch and I just hurt so bad#so I’m gonna go to bed and hopefully feel better tomorrow#I work at nine again tomorrow so if anything hopefully going to bed early helps that#I’m excited to sleep hopefully a lot and hopefully really well bc 1) weed. 2) took sleepy cough meds to try and mooch extra pain reliever#out of meds in my cabinet. 3) took a back and muscle pain Aleve (even tho I hate taking pills and it took me like three whole min to get it#down my fucking throat. 4) tired from actually using my brain and anxiety from work tired#5) period tired and chronic pain tired#like guys my brain and my body are both exhausted and the idea of getting up tomorrow and doing any of it again makes me miserable and I did#nothing but sit at a computer for three and a half hours that’s itttttt#like doing two week road-trip then non stop either emotional or physical shit every day until my first day at work#like I’m already setting myself up for this to be the summer of the grind#gonna make a bunch of money (and spend too much and blame it on the summer time and needing a little treat every time I venture out into the#heat or work a day or do anything at all) and then save a bunch all fall winter spring and once it gets colder and I feel like I can handle#my job more I want to focus on how to make moving out happen. like I need to figure out if maybe there’s somewhere I want to live that has#an Office Depot I could transfer to cause office depots are everywhere and maybe that’s an added way for me to figure out where I want to#move#hmmm okay I’m gonna lay in bed on google maps looking at Office Depot locations in New England and I’m just gonna daydream and try to fall#asleep and I’ll look at / add to my Pinterest board of house and apartment inspo#going to think about the future because I want to live !!!!#anyways yeah this is the summer of being miserable and spending all my money on bullshit and daydreaming and disappointing my mother#and also the summer of my weed tolerance doubling forever until I’m back to smoking constantly to the point where I’m making myself sick and#then I’ll get sick of smoking weed for a bit and that’ll lead me into saving money again#or force me into a tolerance break where I stop buying weed#either way I’m going to smoke all summer it’s gonna be weed and sweat and fresh fruit and laying in my room during all of my days off and it#it’s gonna suck and I’m gonna be thinking about my dad the whole time and it’ll be depressing and isolating and lonely and I’ll come out of#the summer recentered and motivated towards big goals again like I always am#and then I’ll crash and burn next spring as always. cycles continue forever thank u seasonal depression.#I want to grow up and mature in the ways I deal with myself my health and advocating for my mental health I feel like I need to grow up a#bit so I hope I do that and it feels good. I hope I make friends and I can daydream about the future every night and my room will smell like#weed and incense and sweat and love and tears and it will be incredible
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My body is trying so fucking hard to give me more problems and I’m being so calm about it
#< guy who’s not taking stuff preemptively for pain to see if I can. and is doing so good at not being Pissed about that stacking with other#shit my body’s being immensely stupid about#my shoulder is burning but not the normal one so it’s like what do I do here what’s even the protocol it doesn’t even hurt like the other on#e normally does it’s so fuckign weird and I’m gonna rock up to pt tomorrow and they’re gonna be like good lord what the fuck happened and im#gonna be like shit man idek#on top of. Yk. the bs that my body occasionally pulls that enrages me on a good day
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It's sooo hard to do chores when being vertical is an agony that you already withstood for nine hours straight.
#chit chat#my knee has been in so much pain this week idk if it's the weather or if im getting old early#and then idk what's up with my shoulder but that's been a bitch to use all day#and my back hurt but i know what's up with that#but the combo of all of them together means that since im too stupid to take my pills on time#i spent most of the day in so much pain that i could barely process conversation and if i find out tomorrow all my paperwork is fucked up#well i simply will not be surprised#i gotta do laundry that's not optional#but i was gonna clean too and like. i don't think im gonna make it lol#fuck this adult shit#i was fine with the taxes and the chores but i gotta work 5/7 days every week for the rest of my life AND have pain too???#this is so unfair
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one of these days my dad is gonna realize what my school schedule is in the meantime he will continue to exist adjacently to me and never in the same space
#guy who brags constantly about me getting into my program and didnt realize th school im going to is like good#until he told one girl and she recognized the name and freaked out#and now he wont fucking quit with it#meanwhile: keeps complaining its gonna get real old driving me to school and please please learn to drive#i have class. 3 days a week. technically 2 bc one class is online and i only go in that day really late in the afternoon lmfaoooo#does he know this. no not at all. has actually not asked a question about what im gonna be doing#instead keeps worrying i have no future and keeps asking what career i want to go into and also is it animation its animation right#why not animation... oh well maybe you can transfer into animation later : )#yeah ok. sure. why dont i transfer into animation so i can fucking smash a brick into my skull#screaming and dying he needs to go back to forgetting i am real he is paying too much attention to goings on now#idk how to relax and everything is coming up now and i feel like im dying slightly lmao. sitting at my desk working all weekend#working on what. who knows bc i hurt my shoulders too bad to do anything real. stressing myself out further for nothing#dies and explodes i should be excited and be doing fine but well lmao. lmao. i will probably feel better when i go in tomorrow#i dont know man ptsd brain is like nothing good can happen for long! standby for the other shoe to drop#and well it sure is coming to a head now bc getting in would be really. really good. so ofc the other shoe will drop right#i know it wont but my brain doesnt know that so fear sits in my whole body all day all night stress dream city baby#vent#ig#dies and explodes
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anxiety spike anxiety spike why this, the endorphin drop is killing me all of a sudden i want to puke
#idk why im just worried about my tattoo turning out good and sounding rude someone i was messaging when i didnt mean to#and i have ti get up earlier tomorroe than i want to and how my dogs gonna bark wheb my package gets here and the next week of pain from#my tattoo and the smell of my laundry soap and appointments i have to make and and and#my laser hair removal is tomorrow and its ginna zap me and i have ti submit paperwork to go to court and find a lawyer thatll work pro bono#and im stressed cause i want to be in nova scotia already and wity my person#im tired of not having my person and being afraid i never will becuase when i meet new people im always disappointed its not him#and also my shoulder really fucking hurts compared literally all the other ink i have and its stinging and making me feel sick#and it still smells like the antiseptic she put on it and i??? dont think she used it on be before#????#im tired of feeling this way
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Did over an hour longer and only got home now, but I LIVED BITCH
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everything hurts and I'm dying
#it's been long enough since i fell off my bike that the pain has gotten worse#I'm gonna be in hell tomorrow#i had class but i can barely walk I'm not going anywhere#my hip hurts and my leg hurts and my shoulder's starting to hurt sigh#i need a new bike mine's fucking falling apart#alex txt
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