#and my ex who im still friends with suspects they have it so lmao

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

npd culture is coincidentally attracting people who have bpd… or am I the only one?

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[destinyc1020]

Sunday Confessions: JE was lucky that Z kept it classy after their breakup. The braids pic was tame to what she cudlv done (unfollow him), she just got a fanbase/locals who are smart and JE was dumb to bring all his gfs to the same place lol. Im nosy n wanna know exactly what happened lmao bt ignoring his existence is prob for the best ☠️

Z starting to like some of Kaias IG posts last yr shows her class cuz i personally culdnt b "friendly" with the gurl who was prob talking to my bf while he was still with me (at the time) lol. I wuldnt b shocked if she was referring to Z when doing that "if yr nt helping ur hurting" post, cuz although i think she likes/admires Z (and her career), people act different when they want to b with man/woman (in Kaias case, her being with JE). Hunter unfollowing her/JE (when they were together) n Z taking yrs to like smthn of Kaia kinda tells me Z knew 🙄 bt who knows what JE told Kaia about his/Zs relationshiop n gurl was lik 18/19 n may have been naive (n still seems a lil naive too tbh)

Whew, yea girl... I mean, Z really could have set JE up after their breakup. But, being the classy woman that she is, she didn't ever badmouth him, hint at anything negative with him, or tear him down on social media. I love that about her. 🥰

It's so HARD sometimes as a woman to take the high road when you feel like a relationship has ended or you feel like the man did you wrong, etc... I always admire women who can keep their private life private and not drag their ex in the media or even on social media.

RE: Kaia... Yea, I'm not gonna swear that her post was in reference to Zendaya... Cuz I just don't know? 🤷🏾‍♀️ She personally comes across to me as out of touch with reality (i.e. real life) and seems a little naive to me too? But, I guess what can you expect when she's a nepobaby and has lived in the lap of luxury her whole life? lol. 😅

I def think Z suspected something going on btwn the two of them though, cuz I just remember Z following Kaia out of the blue one day, and I was like: "Hmmm...." 👀

Z knew that Kaia was a "friend" around her man at the time...

With that said, since this is #ConfessionSunday, I'll just add my own confession... I don't really trust Kaia like that lol. I have seen too many things in the past... And maybe part of it has to do with the whole JE, Austin, and Cole Sprouse thing. Idk... but yea, there are just some women I give the side-eye to lol....especially when it seems like they don't have any "Girl Code". Some women in Hollywood I keep my eye on them.... I think she seems nice enough though. With that said, Sydney is another one I don't really trust. 🙊 Like I said, I don't trust women who don't seem to have a "Girl Code"....sorry if that sounds mean, but that's just my gut talking here. And it's Confession Sunday lol. 😅 But anyway, in Z's defense, I wouldn't have trusted her either tbh 👀, so yea, I don't blame her. 🤷🏾‍♀️

[manonblaqkbeak]

Dating and Goodreads

Back for Day 8-Blind date (how the hell do u guys come up with good title fics i struggle so bad lol). I wasn’t really going anywhere with this one, but when i read all of the others and saw how fun the fics were, i decided to finish this one.

also for Summertime and Fresh Strawberries, I deliberately left it blank but I can’t hold onto the secret bc two people were curious as to what happened, so i’ll let the rest of you know that aelin and rowan decided to keep summer and be a cute little family, bc im a sucker for happy endings lol (unless its angst, it’s safe to assume that all my rowaelin fics have happy endings bc they’ve all ready been thru so much and even in alt fics i need them to be happy lmao)

anyway, on to the next one. hope you enjoy!

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Aelin was a confident woman, something that she was proud of. But that didn't mean that there weren't times she didn't feel self-conscious or awkward and full of doubt.

Because right now, all those negative feelings were swimming inside of her.

And those feelings were just magnified today, especially since she had gotten fired only a few hours beforehand. It was utterly unexpected, she had never received any prior warnings, and while she was a fighter, Aelin didn't feel like stepping into the ring for this one. Not when her boss was a demon from hell that made life unbearable and she had to physically push herself into entering the work building.

Aelin told herself that it was for the best. She was miserable there and hated working in an office typing up the worlds most boring reports and working in a space that was entirely too drab.

But she wasn't looking forward to job hunting. Aelin was aware that she could ask her friends for favours, but if Aelin did something wrong, she didn't want it reflected back onto whoever helped her.

And she was still a little peeved over the damned argument she had online again with that haughty prick on Goodreads. Aelin wasn't sure why those arguments kept going, but each time she would post a review, White Tailed Hawk would respond, telling her that she read the book wrong and this and that and blah blah blah.

Aelin repaid the favour each time, telling him how he was wrong and he had no reading comprehension skills. And on and on it went until Aelin or whoever the fuck that guy was went back to their own lives.

Depressingly, it was the most fun she had some days.

Shaking her head, Aelin forced herself to think of the now and not of her shitty day. Still she sighed, not quite believing that she had agreed to this blind date. Couldn't believe that she had let Aedion convince her it was a good idea.

Aelin had said no at first, after Aedion had voiced his offer, and her cousin left it at that. But days went past, and he would bring up the topic of Rowan, about the things he had said that day, how his dry sense of humour took some time to get used to but once you figured it out, he was actually pretty funny, how he had finished a project perfectly and this and that.

But it got to her, annoyingly. So the other day when he was helping her out with some housework that was a two person job, Aelin told him to set up this date. Aedion cheered as if it was the best thing he had ever heard, telling her how she and Rowan were the perfect match for each other.

Aelin rolled her eyes, but didn't say anything of the assessment.

She had only agreed because it was getting frustrating being asked at every family event if she was dating someone, when she was going to give her parents grandchildren (that question pissed her off the most, as if Aelin was nothing but a birthing machine and that was all Aelin could contribute to society), and who was going to look after her when she was old if she didn't have children (because apparently carers didn't exist).

Aelin was also lonely—she could entertain herself just fine, but she did like the idea of coming home and talking to someone that could respond. She loved Fleetfoot and her enthusiasm when Aelin came home, but human companionship would be nice.

But Aelin didn't have high-hopes for this date because the universe liked to kick Aelin's ass from time to time, she suspected that they were going to hate each other.

Taking a deep breath, Aelin got out of her car, smoothed down her romper and went inside the restaurant, head held high.

X X X X X X

Rowan couldn't believe that he was about to go on a blind date. That Aedion had convinced him to go out with his younger cousin. He hadn't dated anyone since Lyria and he knew that his dating skills were going to be rusty as hell. He had been with Lyria since they were nineteen, married at 23 and divorced at 31; he had been single for the last two years.

It had been...fine, a little strange, after being with someone for so long to find himself a bachelor. Rowan never thought that he would apart from Lyria, but their relationship had just faded. Long before the divorce, it had been more like a housemate relationship than a marriage. He wasn't surprised when his ex-wife had come home after work with divorce papers. He had only stared at the paperwork for an hour before he signed the forms. Truthfully, Rowan was just glad that he was still on good terms with Lyria, that they could still talk to one another from time to time.

Rowan had almost called her earlier today, to ask how the hell dates went, but felt that it would have been crossing some invisible line, so he didn't call and instead had Googled the questions instead.

They didn't really help.

Rowan drummed his fingers against the steering wheel, telling himself that if things went wrong, then it wasn't the end of the world. That if he had to be a bachelor for the rest of his life, then that was fine. He had plenty of ways of keeping himself busy—he had a good career, a nice house, plenty of books to read and to argue online about them with.

He had one earlier today, actually, with Queen of Wildfire about a new release that Rowan had eagerly read within days of its release. And once again, he ended up with an argument with the woman about the messages and themes within the book.

It was stupid, he knew, to be at his age and to be fighting online with a stranger, but something about this woman just had his fingers flying over the keyboard.

Some days he looked forward to it, as embarrassing as that was to admit. He didn't really want to look into himself to figure out what it all meant.

Eyes drifting to the dashboard, Rowan realised that his date was about to start. Popping a mint into his mouth and smoothing out his clothes, Rowan took a deep breath and left the car and went to his first date in twelve years.

Hopefully, it wouldn't be too bad.

X X X X X X

The date had started out a little awkward, but that wasn't a surprise to Aelin, because what blind date started smoothly?

It picked up after Rowan admitted that he was divorced and that he had no idea what the hell he was supposed to do. Aelin appreciated that stark honesty and admitted that she too had no idea what to do.

Since then, the conversation went well, the food was good and Aelin had even swiped a few bites of his dinner because it just looked so much better than hers. Rowan had playfully grumbled underneath his breath, but smiled as he said it.

It was going really well. Maybe the universe had decided to give her a break for the rest of this evening. There was a part of her that maybe wondered if they would have sex, because the man did look fucking fantastic, but at the same time, she didn't want to rush anything in case this actually turned into something more.

“What's the dumbest thing that you've done recently or in the past?” Aelin asked. There was no such thing as small talk between them—Aelin had all ready asked if he believed in aliens and was glad when he said yes, because “it's ridiculous to think that we're alone in this wide universe of ours. It makes sense that there'd be other lifeforms out there.” Which was pretty damned close to Aelin's reasoning as well, so asking him about stupid moments felt like nothing in comparison.

Rowan smirked at the question and took a moment to think before answering. “I engage in online arguments.”

“Really? About what, exactly?”

“It's stupid. But my all my arguments occur on Goodreads of all places. Not Facebook, or YouTube, or Twitter, but Goodreads. It's never anything insulting but just arguments about how wrong some people's in depth reviews are.”

“Fair enough,” Aelin said, “I've been known to do the same thing as you. There's this one user on there, White Tailed Hawk—a stupid name if you ask me—and he just never...” Aelin stopped when she noticed that he stopped eating and was just looking at her weirdly. “Rowan? Are you okay?”

“Do you, by any chance, go under the name of Queen of Wildfire?”

Aelin blinked, and then blinked again, and once the pieces fell into place, she knew right then and there that the universe really hated her. She let out a harsh laugh, the sound echoing throughout the space. Aelin wasn't really sure what to say, because it was true what he said; it had never been insulting, but ending up on a date with the man she had regularly arguments with was just...she had no words, other then, “It really is a stupid name.” She took a sip of her wine, needing to do something other than wanting to bang her head against the table.

“I couldn't think of anything else to write.” And it wasn't also his favourite animal, he had told her that earlier.

They lapsed back into the awkward silence of earlier, both picking at their food.

But Aelin didn't want this night to go to waste. “It'd be stupid to let something as small as this get in the way of whatever this could be,” Aelin said, deciding to be blunt.

Rowan nodded. “It would be. Although I have to be honest, you really have no idea what you're talking about when it comes to Call of the Wild Winds.”

Aelin just about stormed off when she noticed his playful smile, his eyes sparkling bright. Laughing, Aelin threw a bread-roll at his handsome face, and once he caught it and split it in half for them to share, they went back to their earlier conversation.

And when Rowan walked her to her apartment door and kissed her on the cheek goodnight with a promise to text her later, Aelin couldn't help herself by telling him that all his opinions sucked and that he had no idea what he was talking about—all with a big smile on her face as Rowan sputtered as she closed the door on his face.

They spent the rest of the night texting, and all of Aelin's earlier woes faded away. And she looked forward to tomorrow, despite the horror of job hunting. Maybe the universe will finally let things turn around for the better for her.

Aelin went to sleep with a smile on her face, all because of White Tailed Hawk.

And on the other side of the city, Rowan also fell asleep with a smile on his face.

[bokutosbestie2]

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Ah thanks to those who are reading this story! Love you all ☻

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Y/N Pov:

After getting dropped off by Atsumu, I check my phone to only see 20 miss calls from Semi.

Yikes, he probably thought I died or something...

I decide to call him back.

" Hello. "

" Y/N WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU! I WAS TRYING TO FIND YOU ALL OVER THE PARTY! " he shouted through the phone.

" OK FIRST OF ALL CALM DOWN! I'M OK DON'T WORRY! "

" Thank GOSH! I REALIZED YOU WERE GONE AROUND 3 am?! "

" Wow what a nice friend realizing I was gone after 5 hours at the party! " I say with sarcasm.

" HEY! AT LEAST I REMEMBER?! "

" YEA! You right... " I laughed.

" OH ALSO?! How did you get home your car is still at the Venue?! " Semi asks confused.

" WELL!  A guy name Atsumu helped me out when I was completely out! "

" ATSUMU?! THE VOLLEYBALL PLAYER?! LIKE THE REALLY GOOD ONE?! "

" Yea?! The one with the twin! "

Why is he so surprised?

" DO YOU GUYS KNOW EACH OTHER?! "

" No, we just met last night! How do you know him ?" I asked curiously.

" We used to play volleyball together in high school same with his brother Osamu! Also, Osamu catered for the party! "

" Hmm, interesting... Well, I met Osamu at his restaurant."

" Osamu is the calmer twin but he still pretty crazy, on the other hand, Atsumu is a big flirt with the girls watch out!" Semi laughs on the phone.

" Yea not interested. "

" Haha, that's a loss for him! Anyways you need a break from volleyball players. " Semi laughs.

" Yea I do! Alright SEMI SEMI I'm gonna get going now I have to finish a couple of things from work. Also, I need to cure this hangover before tomorrow. "

" Ok then ILL LET YOU GO! BYE! "

" Bye Semi! "

We both end the call.

Now I need to find a way to get my car before noon because I have tons of work to do.

I can't ask Semi to take me there because he staying at a friend's house, I can probably ask Kenma to help me. I haven't seen him in a while so maybe we can catch up a little also.

I shoot a text to Kenma.

Texting on phone:

Y/n: “ Hey are you free right now? “

5 minutes later

Kenma: " yea why? "

Y/n: " Do you think you can come over right now?!

Kenma: " I don't see why not. "

Y/n: " PERFECT! "

I put my phone down on the counter and change into different clothes because I was still in Atsumu shirt.

I guess I'll be keeping the shirt until we meet again, or if we ever.

30 minutes later

I hear my doorbell ring, and it was Kenma.

" KENMAAA COME IN! " I say happily."

" Hey what's up its been a while! " he says as he went in for a hug.

" Nothing really.. "

" Bs I heard you and Kageyma broke up.. "

" FROM WHO?! " I say confused.

" Hinata... "

" OH YEAAA HIS BESTFRIEND... "

" Yea, he didn't really tell him but Hinata suspected when he texts him " how are things going with y/n, " and let's say he didn't take it well. " Kenma said in a conflicted tone.

" WHY did he not take it WELL! He the one who broke up with me?!" I say angrily.

" Did he ever tell you why he broke up with you? " Kenma asked.

" No, he just said I dOn'T LOvE yOu aNyMoRE "

I’m so annoyed right now why is he acting like the victim.

" That's it? " Kenma was surprised.

" YEA! "

" Oh wow, I really didn't think that the reason like... Strange."

" Who cares, I don't like him either. "

Obviously, I was still hurting but it's fine I don't need him.. Screw him.

" If you say so! "

Kenma Pov:

Yea no she still likes him...

Y/N Pov:

" Enough about him... DO you want to help me get my car?! "

" Wheres your car? " Kenma asks confused

" UH well, It's at a Venue.. "

" Did you go to a party or something? "

" Yea Semi had a party yesterday and let's say I got a little too wasted... BUT don't worry someone helped me out... "

" Uh, who helped you out? "

" I don't know if you know him but he is also a Volleyball player, his name is Atsumu the last name is Miya? "

" Wait a minute the one with the twin? "

" YEA HIM!"

" Are guys friends?! " Kenma asks

" No, I literally just met him last night. "

" Atsumu is a nice guy he just a big flirt. "

" THAT'S WHAT SEMI SAID?! "

" Well, it's because he is always out with a new girl every week. "

" Yea no thanks... " I say weirded out.

" Ok, so are we going to get your car?! " Kenma asks in a bored tone.

" Ok, let us go! "

I got into Kenma's car, luckily the venue is only 20 minutes away.

" AHH MY Precious car!! " I shouted.

" SHEEZ be louder next time will ya. "

" Kenma stop being grumpy... " I say as I try to keep in my laugh.

" Yea whatever go get your car now! "

" Already kicking me out... "

" Yes! "

" AH YOUR SO COLD! " I laugh

" Ok well thank you Kenma! We actually need to hang out ok?! "

" Fine... We will one of these days. " he smiles.

I get out of the car, wave to Kenma then I get in my car.

Finally, I can go home now and start working on projects.

After the 20 minute drive, I get in my house and start working on the three projects.

Meanwhile At this time:

Atsumu pov:

I'm sitting on the couch, my phone started buzzing uncontrollably.

What the heck.

I flip my phone over only to see texts from my friends. I open up the group chat and see something unexpected. A PHOTO OF ME AND Y/N IN THE CAR ON “ THE PEOPLES “ TWITTER PAGE.

The big 4 :

Sakusa: Oh so is she another new girl?

Bokuto: Already Atsumu?!

Hinata:  Isn't that Kageyama's ex!

Me: NO NO THEY GOT IT WRONG WE ARE NOT GOING OUT!

Me: ALSO HINATA DID YOU JUST SAY?! KAGEYAMA EX?!

So that's who broke her... What a small world.

Sakusa: Sure that's what you say about every girl..

Bokuto: Can we get a Rip

Hinata: Rip.. Also Yes

Sakusa: Rip

Sakusa: Damn already making moves on a girl who broke up with her boyfriend.

Bokuto: Wow..

Hinata: HAHA I WONDER HOW KAGS IS GOING TO REACT TO THIS..

Me: CAN YOU GUYS STOP THAT?!  YOU GOT IT ALL WRONG...

Sakusa: Ok then if she, not a random hook up who is she, and does she know she on " the people's " Twitter account label as mystery girl?!

Bokuto: YEA DOES SHE KNOW!?

Oh my, we just met and she isn't going to like this.

Me: NO SHE DOESNT KNOW...But she was some random girl at the party Osamu was catering. I decided to help her out because she was alone and drunk so I took her to Osamu's house, so she can sober up. The next morning I took her home because she left her car at the Venue... I DIDNT THINK THE Paparazzi WOULD CARE SO MUCH?!

Hinata: Wow Atsumu that was nice of you.

Bokuto: ^^^

Sakusa: Well you're going to have to tell her or do something about it because we all know how crazy your fangirls get.

Me: Fine fine let me tell her right now.

After texting the group chat, I was about to text y/n only to remember... I don't have her number, but I think Osamu has her number.

I texted Osamu, now I have to wait for him to respond.

Now back to y/n :

Finally, I'm almost done with this projects...

Then all of sudden I get a text from Tendou.

I looked at my phone and I can't believe what I see... He sends me a screenshot of Me and Atsumu in the car... It was trending on Twitter. The title was " Star setter mystery girl? "

Texting On phone:

Tendou: I didn't know you guys were going out?

Y/n: OH MY GOSH? Please tell me this is a joke?!

Tendou: No I don't think so...

Y/n: WE ARE NOT GOING OUT... I MET HIM LAST NIGHT!

I explained to Tendou what happened last night.

Tendou: this Has to be the most miss interpreted picture ever. LMAO!!

Y/n: YEA IT IS NOW EVERYONE AT WORK IS GOING TO ASK ME... OH NO KAGEYAMA PROBABLY SAW THIS!

Tendou: HAHAHA.. WHO CARES HE BROKE UP WITH YOU... His loss..

Y/n: YOUR RIGHT! BUT I DON'T WANT TO BE KNOW AS ATSUMU ANOTHER GIRL?! I DON'T EVEN KNOW THE GUY!

Tendou: Has he talked to you about it?!

Y/n: No HE DOESNT EVEN HAVE MY NUMBER?!

Tendou: Well this is going to be fun to watch...

Y/n: NO it's NOT..

I stressfully put my phone down on the counter...

What I'm I going to do?! HOW DID I GET INTO TO THIS MESS?

I hear another notification go off on my phone... It was an unknown number.

Text message:

Hey can we talk?

Y/n: Who is this?

Atsumu: Its Atsumu

Y/n: NO WE CANT TALK DID YOU SEE TWITTER?

Atsumu: YES I KNOW THAT'S WHY I WANT TO TALK?

Y/n: Also? HOW DID YOU GET MY NUMBER?

Atsumu: OSAMU GAVE IT TO ME!

oh, yea I forgot I gave him my number.

Atsumu: WELL HEAR ME OUT! This will die down tomorrow, me and the team are leaving for Osaka in the morning so you don't even have to see me again.

Y/n: Sheez that's a harsh way to put it.

Atsumu: I mean if you want to see me you can~

Oh my, I can hear his flirtatious tone from here.

Y/n: NO!

Atsumu: AW you're SO MEAN!

Atsumu: ALSO I DIDNT KNOW Kageyama was your boyfriend...

Y/n: Who told you that?

Atsumu: Hinata! We play on the same team..

Y/n: OH Gosh NOW IT SEEMS LIKE IM JUMPING AROUND Guy to Guy...

Atsumu: YOU THINK IT MAKES YOU SEEM BAD? IT MAKES ME SEEM BAD TOO!

Y/n: Atsumu Shut up! Everyone knows you're a big flirt.. now I'm going to seem like I'm one of your little playthings.

Y/n: WHAT IM GOING TO SAY at WORK PEOPLE ARE GOING TO ASK IF WE HOOKED UP?!

Atsumu: I have an Idea.. What if we pretend we're dating?

Y/n: HUH?

Atsumu: It will fix both our reputation.. I won't be seen as the guy who hooks up with every chick and people at work can stop questioning you. There's a BONUS we can make Kageyama jealous... You can win him back.

Y/n: IF we do this... together in private we don't have to act as a couple right.. I just MET YOU...

Atsumu: Yea don't worry your not even my type, this should be easy because I won't be near you.

Y/n: DEAL!

Atsumu: PERFECT! Just let me know if anything happens tomorrow! Ill fill you in too!

Y/n: Fine.

I place my phone down on the nearby table.

WHAT HAVE I DONE? IS THIS REALLY GOING TO WORK?

Atsumu pov:

Why couldn't have it been with much cuter girl? Now no girl is going to talk to me.. Stupid paparazzi.

Chapter 5

[tumble4rpdr]

Ok so I just watch Brookes Podcast with Sibling Rivalry and I had some takeaways/tea

Brooke mentions how 2 months after filming s11 (time B&V were still dating) he got asked to do a WOW series (we kinda already knew). I doubt that the series didn’t have anything to do with those two. I ain’t saying anything but... imagine if somewhere lurking inside WOWS computer is ideas or videos of them doing couples for cash, or some other series together 👀

Monet mentions how she moved to LA and went out with Brooke and Vanjie. So they were together, all together, and we got no content?? Or at least I don’t remember and they are no obligated to give us content... but still lmao. So Brooke and vanjie were already together probably hanging on the couch when Monet said she wanted to hang out. Then later silky joined them.

Brooke said after that evening the next day Vanjie FaceTime her and they were laughing about how insane Silky was and how shook Monet was.

Brooke gave her cats sparkly nails. She is actually insane

Brooke talks about her dating life and how she’s gone on a few dates. She mentions seeing someone in the summer (Puerto Rican mr clean) but then breaking up. So I guess that’s confirmed but I still think it was very strange how flirty Brooke was with vanjie during that time... BUT IM NOT GONNA GET INTO IT

Sorry it took me so long to reply to you nonny but I wanted to listen to the episode first so I could give a better answer💜

I remember Brooke telling that story and I know she describes it as her being in talks to do a WOW show but I don’t know if anything ever came of that or if they had her do Canada’s Drag Race instead. But I completely agree with you that they definitely had B and V do something together at the time (it wouldn’t make sense for them not to get as much footage of the two of them together and we know they were likely there at the same time since V was in B’s makeup tutorial). I’ve thought along exactly the same lines as you that there’s very likely a Couple$ for Ca$h episode with B and V that WOW has hidden somewhere and who knows what else and you know that there’s at least some B-roll footage of the two of them being cute and smiley and flirty that WOW is hanging onto😊

And as soon as Monet mentioned that I was so happy because even though (like you) I would’ve wanted some content from all of them being together, I just love knowing that B and V are regularly spending time together because that means that they’re likely hanging out and talking (and FaceTiming) much more than we know (I’ve always suspected that so I don’t really worry when it gets quiet between them) and I always love hearing how close they are and how they continue to be such great friends. And I’m thinking that maybe that video that was posted (I forget if it was by B or Silky) of B filming Silky in what I think was a parking garage and we thought we heard V’s voice in the background was likely the four of them hanging out (though I’m just speculating). And I love your thought process anon and I love the thought of B and V already hanging out at one of their houses and then one of them gets a text from Monet so they just both show up to see her😁

Then of course Brooke bought her cats sparkly red claw covers😆I had to look up exactly what they are and B was right when she said they look like you painted your cat’s nails so of course B had to get her kitties the most extra claw caps there are but that truly is such a Brooke thing to do. This makes me think of when she dressed them up in Christmas themed outfits because she thought it was cute or when she put Apollo in a tie or even buying leashes for her cats so I’m honestly not surprised at all🙈

And I think from all the information we’ve collected from these different interviews with Brooke that her and Andres dated for about 2-3 months over the summer (and she really did like him) but then she broke it off and they’re now very good friends (like she seems to be with most of her exes/people she has been sexually/romantically involved with). I do agree with you though that she was being very friendly/flirty with V around that time but with B you honestly never know🙈I had mixed feelings when it came to Brooke talking with Bob and Monet about her dating life because on the one hand it reinforced (to me) about why she liked/likes V because she was talking about how she likes a guy to make the first move and be a little forward since she doesn’t like doing all the work (and that definitely sounds like how V was with her on Drag Race-and how I imagine V continues to be with her now) but then on the other hand B talks about going out to Beaches WeHo and a guy giving her his number there and that was the bar her and V went out to together (that night that we got all that content of the two of them) and then V later asked B in a live about how the dates were so I’m wondering if the guy gave B his number when she was out with V 😬 (and that makes me have so many other questions too but it could’ve been completely different nights)

I know you didn’t bring it up but I also loved hearing B giggle throughout the episode since B’s laugh is definitely one of my favorite things and I love B’s endless pageant knowledge. And I super appreciated Bob telling Brooke that she thought that she should be the main host because she can relate the most to what the queens are going through (like when she tells them to lip sync for their life) and I was glad B agreed with them. I’m not entirely sure when this episode was recorded but I’m wondering if it was around the time when B changed her Twitter/Instagram bio to say host of Canada’s Drag Race (instead of judge) so maybe B actually knew that she was being promoted to host but couldn’t reveal anything (so she just agreed instead)

I wanted to thank you for this ask nonny because I truly could hear about/talk about Brooke all day, everyday so it was great hearing your point of view on the podcast episode😊

[dagnylarsson]

basic ass intro over here bc i do not have time to put a graphic together ;-; i’ll update this with something more thorough later on bUT ANYHOOPS im frankie and this is my sour grape dagny! more about him below!

trigger warnings: death, mental illness, pregnancy, suicide attempt.

dagny ludvig larsson. forty. detective. 

(his mother thought that she was going to have twin girls but she ended up with a boy and a girl and got too attached to the name dagny so she stuck with it since most americans might not know that anyway) 

parents were both swedish immigrants. he and his twin sister tove (did i name them after 2 scandinavian pop singers? probably) were born in las vegas but their parents split when they were 2 years old and they lived from motel room to motel room until they ended up in pleasance.

he and tove were helllaaaaa close. they were also your cliche spoopy twins: they used to go around pleasance (especially southwood forest) trying to encounter the strange figures of the town’s history.

at one point he started to have recurring nightmares. it was in these nightmares that he saw edith alby, gideon’s friend, the black locust tree on bell street, the strange man, etc etc and it gave him A Lot of anxiety. so he stopped going on these ~explorations with tove, who secretly continued them without her brother.

signed up for the marines when he was 19 bc he felt that he needed to get out of town.

on the night of their 21st birthday, he received word from home that tove had disappeared.

he started getting nightmares a little while after tove had disappeared. he think she’s still in pleasance.

got his best friend pregnant when he was 23. he married her and they had a beautiful baby girl they named elise shortly after.

started an affair with someone from his company in the marines and struggled heavily with his sexuality. he wasn’t sure if it was the loneliness or if there was really something there— he still did love his wife but now he’s trying to figure out if it was possible to love more than one person at once or if they were both a different kind of love. 

FAST FORWARD to more or less a decade later and his lover got killed in action. several months went by and dagny was unable to bear the grief, so he tried to shoot himself with a pistol that ended up blank. 

got discharged, went home, and told his wife all about his affair. they had an amicable divorce (they’re still close friends and keep in contact) and decided to coparent their daughter. he moved back in with his mother. this was in 2017.

after his recovery, he got a job at the sheriff’s station and got promoted to detective. he still gets nightmares and wants to pursue the case of his sister’s disappearance but doesn’t know where to start. he has yet to fully realizes that his nightmares could be the first clue.

WANTED CONNECTIONS

these are all v general and at the top of my head-- i’m down to brainstorm and workshop any of these!

his best friend/ex-wife

childhood best friend (that’s not his ex-wife lmao)

someone his sister was close to. either a friend or a partner.

someone who was involved in a case dagny worked on. either as a victim or a suspect.

HIS DETECTIVE PARTNER PLS

neighbors (he lives in residential area 2 with his ma)

a flirtationship where dagny is oblivious bc he’s a dum grandpa

younger ppl he treats like the bear cubs to his papa bear

someone who helps him loosen up and have fun and not look constipated half the time

[abbiegail200]

ok les go

absolutely, I love them both dearly, and I'm very thankful for them

my cat lmao

hahah yeah my breakup

a little. I dont like showing skin so I'm always worried about keeping my clothes in place. sometimes when I realize my teeth are showing, I'll hide them.. they're not terrible I'm just not that great at keeping them brushed 😅 .. I also have pretty bad dandruff so I'm always worried about that too 😭

single and sad

uhh no clue lmao

those breakfast corndogs, sausage on a stick with pancake around it yknow

yeah a few years ago my parents made me play softball :| I played for two years. I have a good arm just terrible aim

YES ITS REALLY BAD I vs manage to not bite them when I'm wearing a mask but I still pick at them, idk how to stop aaa

uh? I mean me and my sister mess around but we don't really fight like that so never?

not really.. I did have a small crush on my friend but he uh straight up told me he wouldn't date me BECAUSE I'm his friend lmaoo but its fine, I still cant get over my ex :') lord help me

hmm i don't think so..

myself LMAO

..what do y'all think ._. also all my friends who just dont talk to me anymore too :')

just a cat, Cinnamon Toast. I had another one but we had to put him to sleep in February because of his age.. sleep well Butterscotch

a little tired, kind of excited. I made a friend with a vet in need (he's technically not homeless so I don't wanna say that) and Im gonna give him a $50 gift card as an early christmas present 😊

no lmao we had to be sneaky, especially after our moms found out about the park activities ;)

not scared, grossed out

ugh yeah and smack myself upside the head and tell her to take her fucking meds 🙄

uhh lets see.. I think his house

*shrug* work I guess

No.

nope but I wanna get my ears pierced

math

again, all those friends that don't talk to me anymore weeee

nothing really, its still pretty early

man

god I hope not..we both hate cheaters but i don't know everything in the world..I never suspected anything though

no he couldn't cry and he hated it 😔

my cracked ass screen, I dropped it on the stairs at work yesterday 😭 its so bad uuughh

well I mean my family says they love me LMAO idk about anyone else

PURPLE FOR THE WINNNN blue next

no not really

uhh I don't really remember lol

u h h fuck idk probably my mom??? bro my memory is shit

idk I've never really had issues with friends and I've only ever had the one relationship

again idk

FUCK NO I think the best years so far were middle school to the beginning of high school.. great times

16

no wtf

CAN YALL TELL ME WHY IT SKIPS THE FOURTIES ????

never

gonna

give

you

up

never

gonna

let

you

chicken wings

uhh

ate some beef jerky

relationship wise NO there's no fucking reason, work wise you really shouldnt but if you get caught thats on you

I feel like I am.. its why made that mistake...but also I was off my meds like a dumbass hahah

none

uhh

early/late summer, I hate the cold but I also dont wanna be cooked yknow

yeah again its the COLD I don't like

I guess eventually?

I guess, we never used that one

uh fuck uh my cat?

probably not

family wise we're all really close so we kiss and hug and stuff all the time so no, now.. uh maybe a little..

he doesn't we start dating I guess ??

yeah same guy we have a lot of the same humor and stuff and his family is cool, they even swear freely lmao

my dad LMAO

hmmmmg idk

nice uhh

any of my friends and family but top would be my sister, only I am allowed to mess with her lmao

ok have a nice day bye

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

03: Do you regret anything?

04: Are you insecure?

05: What is your relationship status?

06: How do you want to die?

07: What did you last eat?

08: Played any sports?

09: Do you bite your nails?

10: When was your last physical fight?

11: Do you like someone?

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

14: Do you miss someone?

15: Have any pets?

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

18: Are you scared of spiders?

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

26: What are you craving right now?

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

30: What’s irritating you right now?

31: Does somebody love you?

32: What is your favourite color?

33: Do you have trust issues?

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

51: Favourite food?

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

54: Is cheating ever okay?

55: Are you mean?

56: How many people have you fist fought?

57: Do you believe in true love?

58: Favourite weather?

59: Do you like the snow?

60: Do you wanna get married?

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

62: What makes you happy?

63: Would you change your name?

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

[elmalone]

hi hunnies, rollin’ in fashionably late here because i had classes and then work whew !!  my name’s nova and i’ll be your lizzie malone tour guide today. i’m super stoked for this group holy shit  &  i’d absolutely love to plot with each one of your babes. i’m also chill af so feel free to slide into my ims anytime !!!  xox ok let’s move onto the heaux you’re actually here to read up on. just for funsies: her stats page is here, a regularly updated connections list will be found here, pinterest aesthetic is here, and i slapped together a lil playlist for her right here.

was that ( CAITY LOTZ ) I just saw around the Flower Garden Gated Community? No, it was just ( ELIZABETH MALONE ), the ( THIRTY-FIVE YEAR OLD ) ( CIS FEMALE ) ( POLICE OFFICER ). ( SHE ) has been living in Boston for ( FOURTEEN YEARS ). One thing about them that they wouldn’t want you to know about them is ( SHE RISKED HER CAREER AND REPUTATION BY HELPING A SUSPECT. ). ( ELIZABETH ) can be described as ( ALTRUISTIC & DAUNTLESS ) as well as ( FOOLHARDY & STOIC ) and If you ask them, ( BAD BOYS BY INNER CIRCLE ) would be their anthem. 

backstory

born and raised in san diego, california in a middle class family to two loving, devoted parents. her father was the chief of the san diego police department ( now retired ), and her mother was a guidance counsellor at the middle school ( also retired now ).  being the eldest, elizabeth was spoiled a wee bit during her early childhood, until victoria was born and then, three years later, alexander was born. with two younger children to eat up her parents�� attention, elizabeth was left to her own devices most of the time, which lead her to mixing in with ‘‘‘‘‘the wrong crowd’’’’’’.

teenage years were wild, she was rebellious. she was an absolute  s h i t h e a d  as a teen, actually.  she’d sneak out in the middle of the night with the boys her parents warned her to stay away from, smoke in the girls’ washrooms at school, used fake ids to purchase booze and get into bars/clubs, vandalized the neighbourhood however she could with whatever she could… girl was a savage.  classic defiant party girl is the very essence of her childhood. with her dad being the captain of the sdpd, she found herself being picked up in the wee hours of the morning by the men and women who worked for him. she still remembers the dreaded radio call in they’d make to her dad while she sat in the backseat of the patrol car.

OVERDOSE & DEATH TW; she was headed down a pretty dangerous path, and her parents feared the worst, which would have happened, if it didn’t happen to one of her friends first. elizabeth’s friend had overdosed in the bathroom during one raging party, and by the time anyone stumbled upon him, it was too late. this, of course, traumatized her; shook her to her core and straightened her up real quick. the fact that it could have happened to her was certainly a big awakening for lizzie.

she needed a change, to get away from her home town and the people who knew her for the defiant kid she’d been thus far. elizabeth decided to follow in her dad’s footsteps; she wanted to make a difference and help people, prevent them from making the same mistakes she had, or anything worse. she wanted to serve and protect. so, to start completely fresh, she applied and was accepted to the police academy in boston, where she eventually moved. she’s been living and working in the city for fourteen years now.

wanted connections

sO ya girl’s bisexual; after living in the city for 14 years, it’s safe to say she’s probably had her fair share of relations. most likely a couple exes, which either ended because she’s basically a workaholic OR because she isn’t the best person ever at talking about her Feelings OR she gets freaked out when things get too deep / serious OR a combination of everything ??? lmao yikes give me angst

her Wild Party days might be over, but that doesn’t mean she completely lost her sense of a good time. so if anybody wants a regular drinking bud down at the bar?? lizzie’s here for it. she can be a tough nut to crack, but once she has alcohol in her system, she loosens up. 

and on thAT note...... maybe a drunken one night stand would be funny. or it doesn’t even have to be drunken tbh bc she got needs??? that single life gets pretty lonely. fwb, fling, booty call, hook up once and say they’ll never do it again but end up.....doing it again?? somebody love her pls

HER PATROL CAR PARTNER !!!!! can be found on the wc page on the main

possibly someone who either calls in to the department a lot and she’s somehow always the officer who ends up taking the call OR maybe someone who is known to the department ( bad bad ) and she’s dealt with them a few times. she could either sympathize and be trying to help them turn their life around, or they could absolutely despise each other for angsty fun

literally anything !!  i’m here for it all, hit me with whatever you could use lizzie for / where she would fit in your character’s life and i’ll be so happy :’)

[blookmallow]

some stardews..... a bunch of stuff happened 

grandpa gave me a statue after the community center was finished 

,,,good morning to you too 

the wizard asked me to get some magic ink back from his ex wife and like

ok theres the theory that abigail is actually his daughter, bc she doesnt seem Anything like pierre, she’s got the purple hair (caroline claims its not her natural hair color but Hm), she seems like shes got some wizard vibes about her, and rasmodius says something like “i suspect one of the villagers in this town may be my offspring” occasionally when you’re close to him

and he says his ex wife became a witch (or became a violent witch anyway) because of a mistake he made, here he clarifies its a mistake involving envy... she cursed the valley because of it..... i think he had an affair with caroline and that was what ruined his marriage 

krobus let me into a secret cave !!!!! woah!!!! theres bugs in here 

also i caught a weird fish and i love him

FRIEND.....

HMMM

i fiNALLY finished the master qi quests..... this is a spot on aesthetic

gettin some twin peaks vibes somehow but maybe thats just me 

......huh

neat, but, why is this here, who’s tracking this and why, 

what a FASHION ICON

anyway its a casino, theres only like. one card game and slot machines. its not rly that interesting. you can win some cool stuff but i didnt have the patience to grind through the gambling games to get enough coins. great visuals though

i got into the witch house, turns out goblins like void mayonnaise, but he ran off somewhere after i gave it to him... im gonna come back later n see if hes still around.... he had a friendship dot... let me bring him void mayonnaises every day, 

i like these statues but i dont know what they’re for 

seems like a bad idea,

i forget what the middle one said but the purple one makes it so that you can have monsters appear on your farm at night (i thought that was already a farm type with the new update though? does it do something else if you have that farm already) 

the other ones dont tell you what they do tho and i dont want to risk finding out :’) 

oohhhh

its been driving me nuts seeing this pedestal over here lmao i could Not figure out what it was supposed to be for 

OHHHHHHHHHHHH

i dont rly need help with harvesting but I WANT JUNIMO FRIENDS

[purplesurveys]

439

What do you usually drink at meals? Just water. I can’t finish my meals drinking anything else. Does your washer make a lot of noise? I’m not sure for the most part because our washing machine is isolated on the rooftop so I never get to hear it, but I don’t think it’s noisy. How many hair straightners/curlers/dryers are in your house? Three in total, I think. My mom has a hair dryer and a straightener; I have my own hair dryer. Which side of your face do you like better? I like them the same amount? Do you think that was a weird question? I wasn’t weirded out too much by it; I know there are some people who really prefer a certain side of their face.

Did you pull any pranks on April Fool's day, or vice versa? No I hate pranks. Do you wave when you see people from your classes outside of school? Depends how close I got with them. Most of the time I would ignore them. Would you prefer a black or white cellphone, or a bright colored one? Definitely just a plain black or white one. I don’t really like my stuff colored unless it’s pink. When you believe in the Easter Bunny, what did you picture him/her like? The Easter Bunny was never as big a deal here as Santa Claus is, so I was never familiar with it up until I was a little older. I don’t really have a vivid image of the Easter Bunny other than it being a bunny carrying a basket of eggs. Does your mom, dad or silbings play any instruments? My dad plays some guitar. My sister had piano and guitar lessons but she never quite learned either haha. Are you allowed to eat meals in the living room? We’re allowed to eat anywhere in the house as long as we clean up the mess if we make one. How many people could fit comfortably to sleep in the room you're in? I’d say 5 if I put some mattresses on the floor. Around how much do you spend on Christmas presents? Too much. Idk, I like spoiling my friends. Your last ex: how did you two get together? We’re best friends. We just ended up liking each other and it solidified after a trip to a museum and a cute dinner date. Do you always have an ice cube in your drink? I prefer having them when I eat out, but it’s not like I religiously pay attention to ice cubes at home or anywhere else. Does the last person you spoke to have any siblings? Yes, my mom has two brothers. What's the best food for sleepovers? Pizza, wings, and chips. If you skip class, what one do you skip most? This sem, it’s econ. I used to have perfect attendance because the class has an incentive for not having absences (+5 on the finals) and I used to be obsessed with following it. By mid-April I started to get fucking sick of that class so I ended up having 3 cuts in one week LMAAAAAOOOOO. That class can go fuck itself. I hate it too much to care.   Do you have any pictures of yourself on your bedroom walls? I have my Prep graduation portrait up on my wall, yeah. Does your mom dye her hair? She used to have brown highlights for her old job, but she hasn’t done it in like ten years. If yes, does she deny that she does? What do you do for fun when the power goes out? Honestly, there is nothing fun when we get a blackout. It gets really hot and everyone becomes cranky, rightfully. I end up fighting Meralco on Twitter and demanding when they’ll respond to the power outage lmao. Are 'personal response' essays painful to write for you? I don’t see why they should be. I appreciate essay reqs that just make you write about your own experiences and opinions; they make it so much lighter on the rest of the workload I have. Do you say 'skip', 'pip off', or something else? I have no idea what this is referring to. Are we just talking about skipping? If you had to, would you rather marry your English or math teacher? I’m taking neither. About how many books are in the room you're in? Probably around 20-30. The rest of the books I own are in my sister’s room; I just ran out of space in mine. What number do you ignore when it comes up on the display? ??? What is the best restaurant in the mall? What do you typically order there? We have several malls in the area but my favorite is either Yabu or Torch. I’ll normally have a katsu set from Yabu; I forgot what my usual in Torch is called but it’s a maki roll that’s deep fried, has mayonnaise, and I think it has salmon in it. Do you find history interesting? Ugh I love history more than anyone I know. I didn’t need to take a history elective but I’m taking one right now and will probably take up some more in the next semester. Think of a friend whose name starts with any letter between A and M. Got it. How would you react if this friend kissed you? Slap them, ask them what the hell they were thinking, and tell her boyfriend and my girlfriend. If you were to a throw a party, would you invite them? She’d be the first person invited. Do you text this person? Pretty often. Have you ever had a sleepover with them? Yes, a few times. Does your best friend ever wear fake nails? I don’t actually pay attention hahaha.  What's the last thing you searched on google? ‘Pip off’ from the last few questions above, because I had no idea what it meant. Still don’t. Have you read all the books on your bookshelf? I’ve read them all but I haven’t finished them all. Would you ever go on a date with the last person you spoke to through IM? God no. She’s too overbearing for me. Harry Potter or Twilight? Twilight. Would you be okay living on your own? I most definitely would be. How far can you run without breaking a sweat? I wouldn’t know what to tell you as I haven’t tried this in a while haha. After swimming, do you just strip or go into a change room? I...go into the changing room and take a shower? Would you rather date an older man/woman, or a younger one? I haven’t experienced dating either so I might have to take a pass. I still prefer seeing someone my age. Have you ever seen the last person you hugged naked? Yes. What about in their underwear? Yep. Where did you get your favorite shirt? We got it in one of the indie stalls at the mall. It was a buy 3 shirts for P200 promo so we got two for Gabie’s siblings and the other one for me. How much was it? ~P65 for one shirt if we’re considering the promo that came along with it. Do you/your parents have any creepy pictures or painting up on the wall? No. I think my siblings and I would let them know if it were too creepy. What's the best kind of video game? (Adventure, shooting, etc) Not sure if this is a legit genre but I can always ride with open-world games. How young is too young to date? Idk, 14? How old is too old to date? I don’t think there’s such a thing as being too old to date. Does your mom swear? Hahahaha yup. What was your biggest fear as a child? Cockroaches and bungee jumping. Your biggest dream? Work for WWE. Do you know anyone who has road rage? ME HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA. It’s safe road rage anyway. My friends all point out that I have really short patience when driving but still prefer to ride with me than with anyone else who also drives since for them, I’m the only one who hasn’t tried to kill them lmaooo. How would you react if your mom got a lip piercing? I’d probably say ‘cool’ and asked if it hurt.

What animal is really common to see in the woods where you live? Stray dogs :( Would you like to follow in one of your parents' footsteps? Not really. I was never interested in what their degree requires or their subsequent career choices. Where did you get your favorite pair of pajamas? I don’t have a favorite pair. Do you know anyone named Desmond? Do you like that name? I don’t think so. Not really a fan. What/who do you take the most pictures of? My dog and my girlfriend. What's your screensaver? I don’t have one on my laptop. Do you prefer your hair in a bun or ponytail? Bun! Have you ever kissed someone who had reallllllllllllly dry lips? Mmm no. What is the last thing you celebrated? My birthday, though it didn’t feel like celebrating it. What were you last Halloween? I wasn’t able to celebrate Halloween last year :( I think I just stayed in that day. Have you ever suspected that your last ex was cheating? Why? No. Has anyone ever told you they wanted to be with you forever? No. And are you still with them? I’m still with my girlfriend after three years, but we don’t really tell each other lines like that. Was this survey interesting? I’m sure I haven’t taken it yet so yes, it was pretty interesting for me.

[yamlog]

before february comes

ok so like, it is one thing to know about smth hurtful when it has just happened but it is A COMPLETELY OTHER THING ALTOGETHER to be asked about it by someone who for some reason, thought that you knew all along all these months WHEN YOU DIDN’T. and why would i? did i not say many many times that i am NOT going to keep up? i am actively avoiding, i am keeping my feed clean and free from distractions, i NEVER look at my explore page except to follow very specific hashtags. i have been PROTECTING my peace of mind and sanity with all my energy and effort for like, what, 1.5 years. for good reason. and then to be asked (borderline informed) something so PREPOSTEROUS. do you know how sick i felt when i heard? i was trying to work and it became impossible because my brain was so confused i started feeling nauseas. i had to skip dinner and immediately take action instead of letting that horrible feeling burrow deeper into my chest. i didn’t even have to see anything in person. people sent me screenshots, telling me that they will look at it on my behalf and i shouldn’t go and see. and that’s not even the worst thing. the worst thing is all the consolation messages that came from SO MANY DIFFERENT PEOPLE later on, coming out and confessing and saying they knew and they suspected but they didn’t want to tell me because they knew i’d be shocked and disgusted and upset and they wanted to protect me from the news because i was trying to pass practicum. and i love them for that, i really do. my friends really just do want the best for me and they are not willing to start a war or actively do anything, but they do care enough to message me in private to share their thoughts on the matter. i got so many ‘i saw her story and i was so surprised,” “it’s such a shady thing to do,” and “what is she trying to prove.” then of course there were people who were very critical of the presentation and how it seems deliberately designed to mislead. and when i clarified, it just made everyone even more confused. ‘huh, if not dating then why she post as if they were’ ‘need to tag meh’ ‘she tag for who to see’ ‘is she trying to show off got a guy wait for her to end work and take many pictures of her on their dates? and then must tag the guy so everyone can see who it is even though he’s not inside?’ ‘how come her username is like a copy of your tinycl0ud’ (lmao i wish i knew the answer to this one but at this point is anyone surprised? no.) ‘is it she want his dick’ ‘dating or not dating it’s very obvious she has interest’ etc etc

so here are MY thoughts, after having talked to practically everyone in my life about it. my thoughts reflect most of what others think. i am trying to be conscious of the fact that i’m still too emotional to really formulate my own opinion, and so of course it is easier to mirror and receive the opinions of those around me. but i think until i can finish processing, i am okay with received feelings.

number one: indignation. because Yes, why the fuck even do this? sg is so fucking big and full of other men. if you want a bf or new friends it’s so easy to find. must go after your ex-friend’s ex-partner? the rest of the sg don’t have men isit? you won’t be happy unless you get to experience that which you have always envied in me isit? you tag, knowing full well that people in MY life still follow and EVERYONE knows what he looks like and who he is. so what is the fucking intention? to show that someone finds you attractive enough to take photos of you? you know, quite a few people have pointed out to me the fact that i used to be the frequent subject of his phone camera (i am grateful but i have also thankfully moved on), and that maybe you have always envied it, and now that it’s your turn you’re revelling. ppl take picture of you like you always wanted, ok good for you, but must tag to make sure everyone knows exactly who did it? so everyone knows you hang out? or maybe date? because who else would wait for you to end your shift and buy you drinks but someone you’re romantically involved with. and you tag so everyone knows it’s a guy, and it’s THAT particular guy. gross and pathetic. which brings me to the next point.

number two: disdain and disgust. why hanker after someone’s ex?? i really don’t get it. was it because on my private twitter i said that i enjoyed myself and he treated me well, so now she has it in her head that she wants the same treatment? a normal human being doesn’t do that. in fact, i have read her tweets about how much she enjoyed having sex with the guy from tinder she had a fling with, with very lengthy descriptions of his dick size and texture, and not once did i feel the need to go and experience it for myself. because there’s this thing called girl code, on top of basic human decency. normal people DON’T hanker after their friends’ exes, even after friendship ends. MORE THAN ONE EX TOO. normal people also don’t tweet stupid shit like ‘every time julian took public transport and waited outside studio i felt so envious because ___ never did that for me, even though he had a motorcycle and could go anywhere, which makes me wonder if i’m not worth being loved.’ LIKE UM OK HOW IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MAKE ME FEEL, reading something so MANIPULATIVE AND GUILT-TRIPPY ON TWITTER DOT COM. julian wasn’t a great ex (or even a great person) but he did occasionally do nice things, and you romanticise the ONE thing to the point of comparing it with your own lacking relationship?? red flag. and then when i have another ex, you hanker after what he represents once again, which is good treatment. well idk what to say but people i date generally treat me well sometimes. and the common factor here is obviously me. so even if you date the same guys i date it doesn’t mean?? u will be treated the same way?????? just a thought. it is truly extremely pathetic to hang onto hope that this Perfect Idealised Boyfriend On A Pedestal could someday be yours if you just wait long enough. you waited 2 years for your RC ex and he still dumped you for a virginal year 1. i hate him on your behalf, and never in a million years would i consider wanting him, no matter how attractive or charismatic he is. simply because, even though i hate you, i will NOT touch your exes that I KNOW FULL WELL have hurt you. 

number three: anger. i don’t hate people. not really. like i don’t think i’ve ever hated anyone enough to wish they’d die a horrible and gruesome death. but the past two days i have felt anger so big it felt like my entire chest was on fire and if i screamed it would come out like a blowtorch. i wanted to take my new ceramic knife and saw off her fingers one by one and then grate her stupid ugly nose off. that was for a moment, and the moment has passed. but i don’t think the hatred will. i can very confidently say that, at least for the next two weeks or so, i will hate her enough to risk damnation. because she IS fucking despicable. and now i guess everyone knows it too. 

there was a moment when i wondered why i was so stricken. i spoke to a friend to try to figure it out. i asked her, why am i so bothered. is it because if he dates her after dumping me it means that she’s better than me and that’s what i can’t stand? or is it because he actively makes time to meet her but not me, so on some level he actually does prefer her to me? then my friend said that she doesn’t think that’s the case, and that he probably can meet her PRECISELY because he doesn’t have romantic feelings and he won’t get entangled. additionally, she also reminded me that just because one man, even my ex that i loved deeper than anyone else, chooses her over me, it doesn’t mean his opinion is god’s opinion (or even a wise/informed one) and therefore it is fallacious to jump to the conclusion that he is right and that she IS better or that she has ‘won’. i added to that and said that yes, people are not prizes to begin with anyway. and yes, one man’s judgment does not determine my worth. another friend just said, very bluntly, that his initial thought was ‘let the trash take the trash out’. im still not okay with someone i still love being called trash because like, hello my feelings, but i understand his sentiments lah. 

no matter how i rationalise it, i guess it does hurt that he’d spend time with her but not once try to spend time with me. i’d make all the time, i honestly would. and i have endless reserves of care and attention and i feel like over time my capacity just increases, even with the new job and the new charges. but i also know that i never had any power in this relationship. i can’t make the first move, i can’t ask for anything, i will never call the shots because it’s imbalanced from the beginning. so if he doesn’t care to meet me but cares enough about HER to meet HER then what can i do? nothing. just accept it like a horrible itchy clothing tag giving you a rash but u can’t exactly strip down bc ur in public. maybe over time he will start to think that she is right for him, she can make him happy, she is his soulmate. she will have won, my friends’ predictions will be right, i will have been wrong about his character, and once again there will be nothing i can do. 

maybe it’s better that he cares so little for me he doesn’t even want to see me at all. because i don’t think my feelings have gone away. it’s magnetic. like an orbital pull. and i know that if i get a little bit i will just want all of it. it was hard enough to pull away the last time and pretend i had to go and pretend i was fine. so if he doesn’t want me in his orbit, maybe it’s actually god’s blessing in disguise and god is trying to tell me that it’s better to be untethered in space than it is to be attached to someone who doesn’t even love me. better to be unhappy on my own than believe i’m happy with someone who doesn’t want me right??? 

serenity prayer: grant me the serenity to accept that which i cannot change, the courage to change that which i can, and the wisdom to tell the difference.

[donghun-s]

the very large sp3arb tag

so @sp3arb has tagged me in a total four tags recently and i’m finally getting around to all of them!! tysm for all the tags, meri (btw i love your name?? i think its super cute!) and i hope you learn a bunch of unnecessary stuff abt me lmao (under the cut bc this is a long ass post)

i dont have a name for this tag

1ST RULE: Tag 9 people you want to get to know better

im not tagging anyone bc im bad at things and most ppl i wanna know about, meri has already tagged so

2ND RULE: BOLD the statements that are true.

APPEARANCE: - I am 5'7 or taller - I wear glasses - I have at least one tattoo - I have at least one piercing - I have blonde hair - I have brown eyes - I have short hair - My abs are at least somewhat defined - I have or had braces

PERSONALITY: - I love meeting new people - People tell me I am funny - Helping others with their problems is a big priority of mine - I enjoy physical challenges - I enjoy mental challenges - I am playfully rude to people I know- I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it - There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY: - I can sing well - I can play an instrument - I can do over 30 pushups without stopping - I am a fast runner - I can draw well - I have a good memory - I am good at doing maths in my head - I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute - I have beaten at least 2 people arm wrestling - I can make at least 3 recipes from scratch - I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES: - I enjoy sports - I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else - I’m in a orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else - I have learned a new song in the past week - I exercise at least once a week - I have gone for runs at least once a week in warmer months - I have drawn something in the past month - I enjoy writing - Fandoms are my #1 priority  - I do some form of Martial arts

EXPERIENCES: - I have had my first kiss - I have had alcohol - I have scored a winning point in a sport - I have watched an entire TV series in one sitting - I have been at an overnight event - I have been in a taxi - I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year - I have beaten a video game in one day - I have visited another country - I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts

MY LIFE: - I have one person that I consider to be my Best Friend - I live close to my school/work - My parents are still together - I have at least one sibling - I live in the United States - There is snow where I live right now - I have hung out with a friend in the past month - I have a smart phone - I own at least 15 CDs - I share my room with someone

RELATIONSHIPS: - I am in a Relationship - I have a crush on a celebrity - I have a crush on someone I know - I’ve been in at least 3 relationships - I have never been in a Relationship - I have admitted my feelings to a crush - I get crushes easily - I have had a crush for over a year - I have been in a relationship for over a year - I have had feelings for a friend

RANDOM: - I have break-danced - I know a person named Jamie  - I have had a teacher that has a name that is hard to pronounce - I have dyed my hair - I’m listening to a song on repeat right now - I have punched someone in the past week - I know someone who has gone to jail - I have broken a bone - I have eaten a waffle today - I know what I want to do in life - I speak at least two languages [i don’t speak two, i speak one and sign in another] - I have made a new friend in the past year

alphabet tag

Rules: answer the questions in a new post and tag 10 blogs you would like to get to know better

I was tagged by Roxanne ( is it ok if I call you Roxy? I like Roxy) Actually @lxx-fxlix  And for some reason it did not give me the notification you did, I was casually stalking your blog when I saw:

A: age? 16 (01 liner)

B: birthplace? North Carolina

C: current time? 7:53 pm

D: drink you had last? Arnold Palmer (half sweet tea, half lemonade)

E: easiest person to talk to? for me, it’s my irl best friend gwen and my best friend on here, krys

F: favorite song? oof i’m super indecisive so i’m just gonna commit to mayday by got7 (it always changes but mayday has stayed on my constantly rotating playlist for nearly six months now; most are on for six weeks, max)

G: grossest memory? uh probably when one of my swim lesson kids tried to eat a bug (they were like four) and i had to make them spit it out into my hands 

H: hogwarts house? proud slytherin!!

I: in love? i love a lot of people, but i’m not IN love

J: jealous of people? not anymore, my self-esteem has gotten so much better in past years

K: killed someone? uhm a couple of times in fics (*cough* jinjin in not like this *cough*)

L: love at first sight or should i walk by again? not love but pls walk by again bc i’m probably enjoying your aesthetics

M: middle name? christine

N: number of siblings? one, an older sister

O: one wish? to adopt a kid with no family or an unhealthy one (obvs when  older and financially stable)

P: person you called last? my sister called me yesterday morning, and before that i had called my friend to tell him abt a near death experience when i was driving

R: reasons to smile? something good will happen to you, you’ll meet someone wonderful, and there’s always new experiences to happen

S: song you sang last? poet by bastille (an underrated fave)

T: time you woke up? about 8 am

U: underwear color? light heathered grey

V: vacation destination? i’d love to go to greece someday! santorini would be my first choice, and then my great-grandparents old village near thessaloniki

W: worst habit? probs my dermatillia (picking at acne on my face until it bleeds, then picking at the scabs, leaving a bunch of scars that will never go away)

X: x-rays? i got one on my tailbone one time, two years after i sprained it bc my mom didn’t believe me

Y: your favorite food? uhhh most anything tbh; i quite like the honey butter chicken sandwich from pdq

Z: zodiac sign? libra

✨ Fun Facts Tag ✨

Rules for this are:

Have fun with it!  

Tag some of your mutuals

1) Favourite colours:

orange!! and after that, any kinds of pastel or muted darks

2) Favourite song at the moment:

lotto by exo has been on replay in my head, my car, and my earbuds

3) Last book you read:

the sun and her flowers by rupi kaur

4) Last TV show you watched:

i tried to watch part-time idol bc hyunbin from jbj was in it, but within the first 15 minutes they set up an unnecessary relationship so i had to nope out of there real hard; i then reverted back to rewatching white collar for the fifth time

5) Last movie you watched:

does john mulaney’s nerflix comedy special comeback kid count?? if not, probably nightmare before christmas way back around christmastime

6) If you have a pet whats their name?:

four dogs: pheonix, kino, midge, and bess; three horses: little man, gem, and andy (ironically i’m allergic to dogs and horses, and my dad keeps buying more)

7) If you have siblings how many?:

one, my older sister

8) Favourite thing to do on a weekend:

i love doing my swim lessons and seeing all my kids!! i haven’t been able to lately bc of the weather, 

9) Best tumblr friends:

i only talk to @cheesyramynry on a daily basis, but i have a lot of blogs that i consider friendly acquaintances or casual friends as well!!

10) Favourite thing about yourself:

i value my compassion and empathy above all else; i am very much the mom friend and love to be it

11) Favourite memory:

ah i have so many; i think rn i’m gonna go with this past christmas, bc it was my last one with my grandfather

12) 3 weird habits:

swallowing gum, taking all my pills in descending size order, i tend to mimic how a singer sounds when i sing along to the song (ex: if they have a british accent, i’ll subconsciously sing in a british accent; if they stress certain syllables in certain ways, i’ll do it too)

13) What would you call your style?:

comfortable (stretchy jeans, t-shirts, hoodies) and with a few signature Gay Things (jean jacket, flannels, oversized mens’ button ups, a couple gay/bi pride shirts)

14) Odd talent:

if i have lyrics in front of me to a song i’ve never heard before, i can predict the pattern of the tunes and rhythm and sing along the first time

15) Do you have a tumblr crush?:

literally all of aroha and all of the sk fandom (y’all are the loveliest fandoms i’ve ever been a part of)

the stray kids tag

Rules: answer the questions in a new post, and tag 10 blogs you would like to get to know better.

I’ve decided that in celebration of Stray Kids pre-debut album I needed to create a tag. The ultimate goal for The Stray Kids Tag is to learn about your Tumblr mutuals, and have fun answering the Stray Kids related questions!  Here we go:

1: When did you decide to join the Stray kids fandom?

i saw a thread of information abt the suspected nine members before they were officially announced and was like ‘yes i must stan them and love them with all of my heart.’ so uh,,,,, back in august or september??

2: What is your favorite episode of Stray Kids? uhm, i’m gonna expose myself rn and let y’all know that i’ve never actually seen a full episode of the show; as soon as i heard it was gonna be a survival show, i knew that i couldn’t watch it bc my heart was too weak and i was emotionally incapable of becoming too invested while watching it; but from clips, i quite like the episode with the 3:3:3 mission, and also the last episode when all nine were reunited and told they were going to debut together

3: Who would you say is your bias in Stray kids?

my initial one was chan, and they i got rlly confused, and then slowly came to realize that it was jeongin (anything else after that is a fucking mess)

4: Who would you say is your bias wrecker in Stray kids?

literally kill me all of them bias wreck me so hard bUT hyunjin, jisung, seungmin, and chan have been wrecking me so hard in particular lately

5: What line would you want to be apart of in Stray kids? uHHH not dance line bc swimmers have 0 coordination on land; i quite like singing even tho i’m not good at, so probably that, but i can also hit all of chan’s english rap parts in 3racha songs, and keep up with lafayette’s raps in hamilton, and a lot of the english rappers i like too so uh,,, sign me up for rap line too

6: What is the first song you heard of Stray kids? hellevator

7: What is the first song you heard of 3racha? i think it was either hoodie season or runner’s high

8: What is your favorite song on their pre-debut album?

young wings or school life or yayaya (or grr or 4419 or glow or hellevator)

9: What is a concept you’d like to see Stray Kids try in the future?

i love their current optimistic and slightly rebellious teenager concept rn bc its an Eternal Mood; but i always love myself a soft boyfriend concept 

10: if you could meet with the members of Stray kids for one day what would you say to them?

how proud of them i am, and how proud of themselves they should be; i would tell them about how they’re saying things that resonate deeply for their fans and i love that they’re talking abt real world problems; i would also make sure to tell them (chan and 3racha especially) to make sure to rest more, and eat well, and take care of themselves emotionally as well as physically; and finally i’d like to tell jeongin how wonderful he is and that he’s doing so much at such a young age (lmao he’s actually eight months older than me but that’s no the point) and to never lose his cute little smile

finally done!! meri, if you actually read all of this, uh thank you????? i hope you now know everything you wanted to know abt me, and probably more than you wanted to know

i’m bad at tagging people, so if you also made it this far and haven’t done some of these tags, choose one, or a couple, or all of them and do them yourself!! just say that i tagged you!!

[bornconfused444]

What do you usually drink at meals? Water. Does your washer make a lot of noise?  Yes. How many hair straightners/curlers/dryers are in your house?  One straightener, one curler, one hair drier. Which side of your face do you like better?  My right. Do you think that was a weird question?  Nope.

Did you pull any pranks on April Fool’s day, or vice versa?  Nope. I kind of forgot April Fools Day lmao. Do you wave when you see people from your classes outside of school? I’m not in school. Would you prefer a black or white cellphone, or a bright colored one?  White or silver like I have now. When you believe in the Easter Bunny, what did you picture him/her like?  Just a giant rabbit like he didn’t walk like a human does or anything it was like a normal rabbit that was huge. Does your mom, dad or silbings play any instruments?  Nope. Are you allowed to eat meals in the living room?  Yes. How many people could fit comfortably to sleep in the room you’re in?  Like 5? Around how much do you spend on Christmas presents?  Depends on the person and how much I actually ahve. Your last ex: how did you two get together?  Friends. Do you always have an ice cube in your drink?  Nope only when I’m at restaurants. Does the last person you spoke to have any siblings?  Nope. What’s the best food for sleepovers?  Chips.

If you skip class, what one do you skip most?  I don’t have class. Do you have any pictures of yourself on your bedroom walls?  Nope. Does your mom dye her hair? She did when she was alive. If yes, does she deny that she does?  Nope she never denied that she did. What do you do for fun when the power goes out?  Sleep. Are ‘personal response’ essays painful to write for you?  Nope essays have never been difficult for me to write unless the subject of it was really really boring. Do you say 'skip’, 'pip off’, or something else?  Nope I just tell someone to fuck off. If you had to,would you rather marry your english or math teacher?  I’m not in school so I don’t have either one of those teachers. About how many books are in the room you’re in?  I don’t know not a lot because there’s no bookshelf or anything in this room. What number do you ignore when it comes up on the display?  Any number I don’t recognize. <-- What is the best restaurant in the mall? What do you typically order there? Depends on the mall but like McDonald’s or Pizza Pizza. Do you find history interesting?  Yes it was one of my favourite classes in high school. Think of a friend whose name starts with any letter between A and M:  Ashley. How would you react if this friend kissed you?  I wouldn’t care she’s my best friend. If you were to a throw a party, would you invite them? Well yea. Do you text this person?  Yeah. Have you ever had a sleepover with them?  Yea. Does your best friend ever wear fake nails?  Nope. What’s the last thing you searched on google?  I don’t know. Have you read all the books on your bookshelf?  No I literally have a habit of not reading the books I have so I just kind of give them to Salvation Army. Would you ever go on a date with the last person you spoke to through IM?  Nope. Harry Potter or Twilight?  Harry Potter. Would you be okay living on your own?  Yes. How far can you run without breaking a sweat? I’d be out of breath and need to stop before I ever broke a sweat. I can’t run at all. <-- lmao same. After swimming, do you just strip or go into a change room? I go to the change room. Would you rather date an older man/woman, or a younger one?  Older. Have you ever seen the last person you hugged naked?  Nope. What about in their underwear?  Yes. Where did you get your favorite shirt?  I don’t have a favourite shirt. How much was it?  - Do you/your parents have any creepy pictures or painting up on the wall?  They didn’t when they were alive. What’s the best kind of video game (Adventure, shooting, etc)?  I don’t play video games but when I used to it was first person shooter games. How young is too young to date?  Like 12. How old is too old to date?  Date as long as you want. <-- Does your mom swear?  She sued to swear like a sailor. What was your biggest fear as a child?  Spiders. Your biggest dream?  Being happy and living in the middle of the forest like snow white. Do you know anyone who has road rage?  Yes. How would you react if your mom got a lip piercing? She can’t get one. What animal is really common to see in the woods where you live?  Squirrels, some deer, coyotes. Would you like to follow in one of your parents’ footsteps?  No thanks. Do you know anyone named Desmond?  No. What/who do you take the most pictures of?  Nature. Do you prefer your hair in a bun or ponytail?  Ponytail. Have you ever kissed someone who had really dry lips?  Nope. What is the last thing you celebrated?  My friends birthday is being celebrated today. Have you ever suspected that your last ex was cheating? Why?  Yes and I was right. I suspected it because I knew he was flirting with his coworker by the things she said to him and the shit he said back. Has anyone ever told you they wanted to be with you forever?  Yes. And are you still with them?  Nope.