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Damn you Kikuo for making yoru no uta like actually
#please im trying to sleep#and my brain just keeps going#yoru yoru yoru yoru yoru yoru yoru#pls it is nearly 3am
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mourning black and the death of ideals
#i haven't moved on from this yet. btw. i'm still here#finally decided to draw the thought i've been ruminating over for days on end bc it's like a parasite eating away my brain#stated this on the initial post i made days ago but there's just smt so gut wrenching and sickening#about how dazai will have worn black exactly twice in his life: once as a member of the mafia and now at kunikida's funeral#a color that initially signified devotion to the mafia and his demon prodigy alias now signifies his grief#him having to wear black again at the funeral of another doomed fatalist who chose his heart over his survival. his own partner.#kunikida's death being so reminiscent of the tragedy that initially caused him to defect and flee#and everything tying together full circle and effectively breaking him#asagiri rly said fuck knkdz it's doppover we lost gang 😭😭😭#why did bro leave that fucking notebook behind#fool. do you know that angst potential you have left me to work with?#love never won in bsd. it lay dead and festering#i don't know how much longer i can keep saying i miss them. i'm going to kill myself if he doesn't come back#i've never wanted something to be death bait so desperately#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#bsd#dazai osamu#osamu dazai#kunikidazai#knkdz#kunizai#(??? technically. its implied anyway)#lotus draws
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horrible truth bomb dropped on my head 20 min ago
#I DIDNT KNOW I DIDNT KNOWWWWW#when i say damn thats crazy its bc i DO think its crazy i think a lot of things are crazy. like how birds have cloacas#or the way ppl draw a five pointed star in different ways and everyone assumes their way of doing it is how everyone does it#my brother is not letting me live this down btw he literally shouted at me like HOW DID YOU LIVE THIS LONG AND NOT PICK UP ON THAT#IDK!!! IDK I THOUGHT SOMETIMES IT COULD BE USED TO EXPRESS GENUINE SHOCK??????#he says its my delivery that makes it sound insincere bc i say it in a monotonous voice which when i think abt it YEAH....#THAT DOES MAKE IT LOOK KINDA BAD IN HINDSIGHT.....#and then i told him i keep a list of phrases that tickle my brain so i can remember to use them in conversation and apparently#most ppl dont do that bc he was like ???? stop doing that??? just let the conversation flow naturally it sounds fake>????#idk man i feel like if i did that and blurted out 'i forgot people find stuff like underwear arousing for some reason' instead of#smth like 'i wonder what kind of ppl find this kind of stuff the bees knees' like i normally do. it would. not go so well.#ALSO THE FLOW CHARTS ARENT NORMAL? i make flow charts before i call the bank or smth so i know what to say#its not just to blend in its also so i dont waste ppls time going uhhhhh as i think of how i put smth into words#its called stalling for time and i dont care if i have to say smth like thats just how the cookie crumbles if it gives me#5 more seconds to process whatever the fuck someone said without letting them think im not paying attention#doodles#diary#sona#puppysona#comics
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*wheezing and heaving* *shoves metal gear solid and nier automata into a blender* *slams the shitass smoothie into pint glass* *hysterically throws it back* i finished the line up. im at peace now
#metal gear solid#nier automata#mgs#mgr#drakenier#raiden#mgs rose#samuel rodrigues#I fucking haaaaatteeeeeeeeeeee HATE that I keep going ‘oh golly oh boy I wonder how I can expand this and make sense of my ideas’#I JUST WANT TO DRAW HOT PEOPLE LOOKING HOT#but then it’s oh how can I bring robots into this#and then it’s HOW CAN I MAKE MYSELF MORE SAD ABOUT SAM THAN USUAL#OH LETS MAKE HIM AN EXECUTIONER#AND REALLY HAMMER IN THE RED#CUZ WE SURE LOVE RED IN AUTOMATA#DEFO DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING#oh and what’s that about swords in automata and spirits#fuck knooooowssssss#putting my own brain in a blender#and I never want to talk about this again#note:#there’s a tiny tiny samuraiden doodle hidden in there
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guys i promise i have other ideas i just go back to drawing domestic jegulus at every minor inconvenience
#me having 10 started wips#and my brain just goes#LISTEN... HEAR ME OUT... WHAT IF... BARE WITH ME NOW... we draw jegulus sleeping together for the 285th time#i think i keep drawing sleeping ppl bc i cant sleep myself#youve heard of living through someone else now get ready for sleeping through someone else#googling “insomnia symptoms” every 3 days just to make sure#anyways where was i going with this...#marauders era#marauders fanart#regulus black#james potter#regulus black fanart#jegulus#james potter fanart#jegulus fanart#my art
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Also, Jinshi in "How to Buy Out a Contract" was hilarious.
Do you think he's prettier than me
I was contemplating your murder but my future wife cat thinks you'll make a good brother in law so I'll let you live
My future wife cat trusts you, so I trust you. Don't fuck it up.
Have some money to leave my future wife alone forever go marry her sister
Did you see that Gaoshun? I did a socializing. Do you think Maomao will be proud of me?
Also Lihaku is precious. What an adorable golden retriever of a man. He went from absolute disdain at Maomao when she approached him for an escort to being like "help me little sister, I'm in love".
#Maomao and Lihaku's relationship development has been delightful#i like to think they genuinely like each other they're just too emotionally stunted to know how to say it properly#it started out as a mutually beneficial arrangement where they both got something they wanted from it#but Lihaku didn't have to keep her in the loop about the secondary warehouse theft#and Maomao didn't need to put in a good word with Pairin even if she thought they'd be a good match#i think they're friends#and i think this is constantly going to vex Jinshi for the rest of his life lol#Maomao: Jinshi you're the most jealous man I know#Jinshi: you know other men?! 😭😭😭#the apothecary diaries#jinshi#maomao#lihaku#my last remaining brain cell
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the terror (2018) requires a rewatch not only bc it is so good it will settle in the core of your brain and grow and spread there like a fungus until you die but also bc it is a show about a hundred something bearded victorian white men on a ship in the same clothes and by the time you start figuring out what name is attached to which guy half of them are already dead
#imma keep it real with y'all final episode when ned is like 'we gotta save the captain'#and dundy is like 'no we gotta move on'#i deadass was sitting there like 'whos this guy' bc id never connected the name le vesconte to his face#also when he was getting his toes snipped off i thought he was just some guy. complete blind spot in my brain for him#which is wild bc i would honestly start sucking face if he looked at me for 2 secs. dilf <3#there's simply too much going on every ep to keep a grip on what muttonchops belong to who the first time around fr#the terror
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just realized i never posted this out loud
#art#fanart#mob psycho 100#mp100#reigen arataka#abot#a breach of trust#based on a real story [me every time i go to bed]#proof of life#i promise there will be actual new art soon this is a few months old atp lol i just keep coming up with comic ideas and those take me 5ever#but ones almost done being lined so youll see it tomorrow god willing#hold up i just had a brain blast. yall know that 'thats gore of my comfort character' post right.#abot is 'thats comfort of my gore character'. to me. if that makes any sense.#hello? is anyone here?
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His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#tulu xuanwu#blood#Vomit on his sweater already; mom's spaghetti#I love drawing teenji because he gets to be a lot more expressive than Older Lan Wangji.#wwx is trying so hard to be supportive and it keeps backfiring for lwj.#“There's no way I would ever want you carnally ^_^” meanwhile the guy who wants him carnally is losing his mind in agony.#Hot tip if you keep finding yourself in Lan Zhan's shoes: consider being more obvious. Give up on trying to be subtle with an ADHDer.#His game is SO BAD. Abysmally bad rizz. I do not think it was possible for these to to have a chance to get together in this life.#He has no plan. He has no healthy outlet for his feelings. He is looking at his half naked crush and losing his shot.#F in the chat for Lan Zhan. He's just been accidently rejected and he is about to be accused of being straight.#Meta commentary moment: I am going to try very hard to be more consistent with outfits and details across comics#I have had some...difficulties in the past with forgetting details (COUGH the vermillion mark COUGH)#New year new goals! Wish my ADHD eyes and brain good luck!
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The fact that i still have more ideas of scenes to transform i to this meme...hopefully no one has beated me to these yes
#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool spoilers#deadpool 3#wolverine#logan howlett#dogpool#nicepool#sketch#ilustracion#digital ilustration#shitpost#i might make more of these ny brain is still going crazy over the movie#im also planning on getting a poster of the movie on my wall#genuinely in LOVE with this movie!!#deadpool#also sorry for keeping the last redraw with the spanish word i dont know how wolverine calls others in english#where i live the movie we watched the movie in spanish and thus he was just calling others papi#lots of fanart are drawing him saying bub? if thats the actual thing he calls him im not gonna fix it then cause papi is funner to me
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They were just a cameo but they were so cuteee
And he called her 'my love '🩷💗
#fop#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents#fairly oddparents a new wish#anti cosmo#anti wanda#just noticed his monocle keeps changing sides all the time lmao#hearing his voice again makes my brain go brrrr
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Potentially weird habit but. When I get really fixated on an oc/blorbo or whatever I get embarrassed thinking cringey shit "In front of" them. Like ah fuck I was cringe in front of my imaginary fursona. shit
#hoof draws#actually this. sounds weird now that I'm trying to explain it#roughhhhh the negative space is killing me ...#-once i think about an oc enough it feels like there's more ''reality'' to them and they go from like.#passive thoughts to In My Brain enough that they're with the rest of the brain stuff (where my thoughts live)#which probably only means that I put too much thought into organizing my brain#agh. this little pink stoat bitch is here because i keep vividly imagining them watching everything i do#and judging the cringey shit. like GO AWAYYYYYYYY#It's MY brain why can't I just think of cool shit. why am I making up a guy to judge me about shit#edit- i think this is the only time I've drawn myself instead of one of the sonas?
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⛔ this blog is 18+ !! minors and ageless blogs please dni ⛔ part of: blurb a day series (trying to get these gears moving)
ghost hates the feel of hands on his skin. despises it. it makes him feel dirty, filthy. even the cotton of his shirts feel too thin on some days and he wishes he would've added more layers. just as a precaution.
so when you ask, "may i touch you?" it catches him completely off-guard.
it's been a long time since someone asked if they have his permission to do something to him. simon has long since lost the privilege of choice, since he'd joined the SAS that is. he's long parted with the idea that he is something other than a weapon and a tool for the crown to maintain its power, however fleeting it may be. molded to obey orders and execute them as cleanly as possible. and yet, here you are, offering him a choice, something he hasn't had in years.
it makes his mouth water.
he nods silently, fearing he'll drool onto his mask if he opens his mouth. he watches your fingers work, peeling back the soiled fabric of his shirt as you expose the fresh wound. you're diligent, handling his arm with such care you'd think he was made of porcelain.
you rummage around in your kit, pulling out the alcohol and the gauze, "this'll sting a bit, apologies." you're so sweet for thinking that a mere swipe of alcohol would bring pain to his battle worn skin. too sweet.
jesus christ. he has to look away lest the entirety of his blood flow suddenly redirect itself between his legs. it's insanity that this bit of kindness is enough to drive him to such a state. he's had men hurl knives, grenades, shoot live rounds at him, has felt them thrash at his body with full force. has become so accustomed to violence and yet, your gentle touches make more of an impact than any of those blows ever did.
you are so careful with him. he wants to let you know that your hand, your blessed hands, could never harm him. not the way the rest of the world seeks to.
he wonders what kind of man he'd have become if you had found him earlier. if he had felt your soft hands before he ever felt the hot metal of a bullet graze his skin. what if he had been handled as softly as you handle him now since his birth?
would he still be here? a man turned weapon, in the perpetual cycle of violence? would he have opened his farm?
he doesn't know, probably would never know, but he knows one thing. he would have found you. would have still met your soft touch.
he'd still felt like a proper man, an honorable man, under your hands.
#.txt#.mine#.cod#.ghost#this just spilled from the crevices of my brain#still have to plan out my multi chapter fics but#writing blurbs like this keeps me going#simon ghost riley#simon ‘ghost’ riley#simon ghost riley x reader#ghost x reader#ghost#simon riley#simon riley x reader
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broke: Jiang fengmian thirsted after cangse sanren and took in wei ying bc he was cangse sanren's child
woke: Jiang fengmian was literally just good friends with cangse sanren
BESPOKE: Jiang fengmian and cangse sanren formed the Wei Changze simp club so they could collectively thirst after wei changze and jiang fengmian took in wei ying bc he was WEI CHANGZE (and his homie cangse sanren)'s child
#mdzs shitposting#wei wuxian#jiang fengmian#cangse sanren#this is a joke#i don't like jfm very much bc he IS a shitty father but this thought is too good to keep to myself#shitpost#jfm and cangse trading wei changze photocards and arguing who is closer to him#“I'm his master” “IM HIS FUTURE WIFE” “THAT DOESNT COUNT” “its ok we can go peer at his abs later” “good idea”#just some thoughts#my smooth orb of a brain came up with#this is not a serious post#don't take this seriously#yipeeee#bye pookies#mwah#mdzs#mo dao zu shi#mo dao su zhi
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me, a responsible being, working on the coding project as I should vs. me, a dysfunctional shithead, getting distracted by reading about brains (once aGAIN damnit (it's my favorite "I need to study my field but bc I should do that it's an impossible unthinkable feat now, so I'm reading about something else to fool my brain I'm still being productive"-topic))
#but after my thesis me & brains have been on a break bc got tired reading abt them during that (bc I had a topic that sorta allowed me to#sidetrack to brain stuff also) but seems I'm over the brain overload now#yay? i guess#also no one who actually studies medicine/brains/etc. yell at me abt wikipedia and like ''why are u studying that like that''#I'm just going through the wikipedia & reading article abstracts path; nothing serious#also my procrastination has reached inhuman levels like it's a full-time job now#bc I have like a chill week's worth of work to do and then I've done the courses for my bachelor's degree#but sending in that ''heyy i'm done with the courses let me graduate''-thing fills me up with sO MUCH anxiety & dread I'm working so slow#now (even tho couldn't send that in for like a month bc gotta first wait the courses to be graded and stuff so in actuality I should#not be slowing down even a bit bc I need to finally be done with this damn degree asap; gotta move on and should've ages ago (it's actually#super bad how late I'm with it (1.5 mf years jesus christ; I'm not even like a little bit proud abt getting a degree anymore like I'm sorta#just embarrassed if I have to tell ppl like ''yea I graduated'' bc dude ?? only now?? u were supposed to be done with that 1.5year#ago what have u been doing (fuck if I know) so I'm keeping it like ''if anyone asks'' basis)))#(the tags and parantheses started a life of their own lol sorry abt that)#studyblr#studyspo#bookblr#booklr#study#november 2024#2024
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Okay so this idea has been rocking around my empty skull for some time now just we know that Eddie can be a pretty mean DM and a shithead and I've been thinking abt romances in D&D and how it would work in Hellfire
And I had this thought that Eddie would like be "no romances!!" to the Corroded Coffin group (before the kids joined) and they're like why? and Eddie just to tease them says that he doesn't want to pretend to fall for their smelly ugly faces
Which just motivates them to try and seduce like every character that Eddie introduces for a fucking month and it leads to the creation of the rule: Every romance/seduction directed roll must be rolled above 15 to succeed AND if Eddie decides that the attempt is particularly bad the roll is with disadvantage
The Corroed Coffin boys are obviously teasingly like ohhh so we get an advantage if it's good?
"Doubt that would happen boys, but sure, if you make me, Eddie fucking Munson, to blush like a fair maiden then you'll get the advantage on the roll"
They try, they really do, but all the CC boys succeed in doing is killing off all of their party in three sessions and Gareth who is a little shit is actually rolling his third character (because the consequences of a failure are fucking brutal) by the time Jeff and [unnamed freak] give up
After that they know better (except Gareth who still sometimes does that just to annoy Eddie and be a little shit) to try and then the kids join Hellfire and Eddie has even less of an desire to flirt with fucking Wheeler, Henderson and Sinclair (they're baby children!!)
But the kids are a little shits too and they see Gareth being a little shit so they copy
It ends badly for them, they gripe about Eddie being unfair because like "all three of us have girlfriends Eddie and you don't so we clearly know more about romance then you do" Dustin not only gets a flick on the head for that but his character might have ended up being put into situations™ throughout the session that are "totally unfair!"
But fair to say all of Hellfire knows the rules and all of hellfire knows that no matter how well they try and how smooth they are (they really aren't ever smooth) Eddie will not blush or even consider they attempts as "good", the best they got was "tolerable" (Lucas got it and he's still very proud of it, as he deserves okay?), Eddie is impossible to fluster and so it's just is this fun thing they sometimes do when they feel particularly like little shits
And that's it about it
Until Vecna and all the upside down shit and the surprising friendship of Eddie and Steve happens
And suddenly Steve Harrington is not only sitting but playing D&D
Everything is going actually pretty good and Dustin practically vibrates out of his chair at how proud he is of Steve for how well he is doing so far and then
And then Steve tries to flirt with a pretty bard
Dustin deflates, he is ready for the absolute disaster that is going to fall upon Steve, he makes eye contact with Lucas - both of them ready with "it was actually a pretty good line tho!" at the tip of their tongues to defend Steve's decisions, he doesn't know Eddie's special rules after all and it would be funny to see Steve fail, sure, but it's Steve's first game and the kids wanted it to be good for Steve so convincing him to play again would be easier
But now Eddie is going to absolutely rip into him and Steve will never want to play again and-
"Roll with advantage" Dustin gasps, audibly, loudly, the room is silent, except for Steve who's very unaware of the chaos he just created and just rolls the dices, his usual confidence in place
And if someone looked closely - and all of the hellfire is fucking looking - Eddie Munson has indeed a light blush on his face
#i feel like it would have been so funny#steve and eddie just spend the rest of the session flirting through the bard and steve's character#steve also doesn't know why Lucas looks so in awe of him after the session Mike is scowling and Dustin is looking at him#as if he's a weird matemathical equasion#the CC boys give Eddie so much shit tho after the session#'oh so ours ugly mugs don't do it but king steve's jocky ass does?' 'it's a pretty great ass!'#steve doesn't really learn abt the rules until like a month later#also this is my gareth is a little shit agenda and i will be always pushing it#steddie#fic idea#stranger things#eddie munson#steve harrington#dom's au idea of the day#corroded coffin#also hahaha yes this is my official my brain cannot keep my ideas in my head anymore so im going to unleash all of them slowly here
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