#and mentioned this fact so casually

[hetagrammy]

Currently thinking about how after 1991 former GDR citizens could access their Stasi files to see what info was collected on them and who exactly was informing on them. Could you imagine how long and extensive Gilbert’s would be just because of the sheer amount of bullshittery he got up to over the course of four decades?? It would be mental

[vaguely-concerned]

say whatever you want about the combat in this game it's ultimately a subjective thing what form of gameplay you enjoy more, but c'mon tell me you don't understand the thrill and High Romance of setting up a detonation combo with your LI as rook and hearing then exchange little pleasantries about it as everything goes BOOM

[icebluecyanide]

AR Meta: John Rider & Alan Blunt

I was rereading some parts from Scorpia and I do love the sense you get that Alan Blunt actually liked John:

“A very brilliant spy,” Alan Blunt muttered. “We recruited the two brothers - Ian and John - in the same year. lan was a good agent. But John was the better man by far.”

A man as cold as Blunt probably could appreciate John being a very good agent, aside from that business about him wanting to get married. And just, I do have to laugh at Blunt saying John was the better man despite Ian being in MI6 over a decade longer. Poor Ian could never live up to the standard his big brother set in his few years as a spy.

And then later in the conversation when Alex asks how his parents died, it's actually Blunt who answers, not Mrs Jones, and we actually see a rare glimpse of emotion from him:

He paused. His eyes, as ever, showed nothing. But there was a little pain in his voice. “Somehow Julia Rothman discovered that she had been tricked. We don’t know how; we'll never know. But Scorpia’s a powerful organization: that much should be obvious to you by now. She found out that your father was still alive and that he was flying to France, and arranged for a bomb to be placed in the luggage hold. Your parents died together, Alex. I suppose that’s something of a mercy. And it was all so quick. They wouldn't have had any idea…”

He even tries to soften the blow for Alex by reassuring him his parents wouldn't have suffered! And this comes from a man who sees the world as a series of calculations, but I do think John and Helen's deaths was something Blunt took as a personal failure. Because the Scorpia mission was his mission as much as John. He was the new head of MI6 Special Operations, he sent John out there, and the least he could do was help keep John safe after John gave up his own identity for the mission. And yet Scorpia was able to plant a bomb on the very plane Blunt arranged for John and his family. He failed them and even fourteen years later, that failure still hurts him.

And I love how while Blunt can be truly a horrible character in the way he callously used Alex before, in this book we also see a different and dare I say, sympathetic side to him. Sometimes, things do get personal for him.

[charizardstolemynickname]

Jimmy Solidarity just gave me a heartattack by mentioning tumblr

Please sir, never again, pretend we aren't here

[sunburstsandmoonshadows]

Very very interested in how Elody's place among the "destroy everything" princess brigade will end up shaking out, because one of the clear ideas we had gotten from Gerard and the flashbacks is that she is a woman governed by her duty to her people.

Like. She went to war with the giants, despite the hardship of it, despite how her husband hid away. She could have turned her back on her subjects and decided this was no place for princes and princesses. But she didn't; she fought for them.

Which is a heavy contrast to the princess brigade's murder plan, because it really is very selfish. I mean, it's understandable how they got to this point! From their perspective life is nothing but suffering and imposed happiness that doesn't last, which is a hard concept to grapple with, but they are still planning a suicide mission to end everything. It's easy to see it as selfish of them to take their pain as a reason to try and give everyone their idea of freedom by essentially killing them all.

These few princesses have agreed that the happiness the fairies force upon them is not worth the pain. The rest of the Neverafter may not have, and yet the princesses are making it happen with force.

But Elody is suggested by past deeds to be someone who cares primarily with others, so why go for a risky plan that ends in their deaths after trying to protect them from death via the giants? Is the idea of a free world, shaky as it is, too good to pass up.

I wonder how much the death of Gerard and the value the princesses place on princes factors into this. It feels like the princesses would have definitely pointed to Gerard and said, "he's meant to pacify you, to make an easy story. He's a tool, and the people of your kingdom are too. We've killed many of our princes, because they are simply tools for the fairies."

Then, the destruction plan will become one to free not only Elody from her place as a character with a certain ending, but the others as tools. After all, Elody is used to making choices for a kingdom, what's a whole world?

But now Gerard, the man who was a tool that was left to die, killed by one of the fairies who would have used him to make the tale work, is back, and awake, and growing and changing, and telling her that he believes that their past of suffering can be built into something better.

And that's a very different line of thought than the princesses' have ended up with. Completely the opposite, really.

So there's probably a good reason she excused herself after their talk for time alone.

[mulders-too-large-shirt]

s5 episode 5 thoughts

it’s been a few days. and you KNOW what i’m craving!!! 

ohhhh this episode… so i’ve heard about this one before. specifically it was brought up a lot when i voiced my complaints with small potatoes, with a lot of commenters comparing it to this episode. so that doesn’t fill me with a sense of joy and anticipation.

well, i had a nice day. the only way out is through. let’s see if this makes me as mad as small potatoes, shall we?

(author's note: i have many, many questions. i mean i can tell that this was an homage to old spooky movies but beyond that: huh?)

why now in the series? who came up with this? why do multiple episodes explore the concept of forced impregnation as something silly and harmless? why did the agents look so good in black and white? have they danced together before? do you believe in life after love?

let us take it from the top.

we begin with a comic book, it seems? inside is a black and white scene. is this whole episode in black and white? i looked at the image for the episode and it was black and white, too

this guy izzy is trying to go to a comic book convention, but his mom said she’ll kick him out. damn. being a nerd is hard. is this taking place in the distant past or something? well, the cars look older too.

(it was not taking place in the distant past... also, i thought izzy's mom, mrs. berkowitz, was mean at first because she joked about kicking him out, but she was actually the best character in this episode) 

later that night we see their home, including a photo of izzy with a pig, but she’s watching jerry springer. which seems anachronistic to the black and white setting. it’s an episode about a hairy baby. while the windows are being covered up with a sort of striped tent??? and something is smoking. 

enter cher???? no, enter someone else as cher plays. i do like when they put music in the episodes.

mom is coughing while a man with two faces comes to get her???

i mean, okay, the song slaps. i am unfamiliar with the work of cher and i was jamming out to it, even if i had no idea what was really going on except that maybe izzy made a frankenstein dupe in a comic, and it somehow came to life and hurt his mom. sure. why not?

the intro was shortened... you still can’t fool me.

the whole episode is in black and white????

OH GOD. this lady felt a presence in the room, woke up three days later and was pregnant??? with izzy??? 

so frankenstein is the father????? and it happened again??? and she heard cher when it went down??? man. man what.

scully is reading this letter… LMAO mulder was mentioned on the jerry springer show episode about the wolf baby, which is how she found him <- BAHAHA this cannot be good for his covert work!!!! 

her name is mrs. berkowitz and she is pouring our agents a soda as they enter her home. it is very kind to offer them caffeine as they rely so heavily upon it. and she wants to know about the wolf baby. it feels very weird to hear mulder do the medical talking.

WHAT THE HELL??? she is somehow pregnant again despite having a tubal ligation…. hey what. how is she not losing her mind? scully looks utterly gagged. 

the camera work here is so different, there are these intense closeups on the character with a sort of fisheye effect, it's both off-putting and cool

mrs. berkowitz says mulder knows what is happening, but he says he’s not even sure if he believes in aliens anymore??? he has to be lying. or does he actually believe that everything was faked as put forth by the redux trilogy? i thought he saw through that when he told CSM to go fuck off. also, i KNOW he is not dead.

sorry, but scully looks so good in black and white and a pinstriped suit. ohhhh my god.

anyway, scully says hmm, your description of the intruder is funny... because it MATCHES THIS COMIC BOOK CHARACTER FROM IZZY’S ROOM!!

izzy created that comic book character… so the plot is thickening??? 

enter izzy. we must confront him with this fact. he says that he’s seen “the great mutato” too, and that plenty of people have!! is he hanging in the neighborhood?? doing evil activities??? he's like, a real guy? and not some mysterious intruder???

cut to izzy outside with a peanut butter sandwich, luring in the beast

“i think what we’re seeing here is an example of a culture for whom daytime talk shows and tabloid headlines have become a reality against which they measure their lives- a culture so… so obsessed by the media and a chance for self-dramatization that they’ll do anything in order to gain a spotlight” (twirling my hair... kicking my feet a little... hey scully...)

“i am alarmed that you would reduce these people to a cultural stereotype” <- YEAH YOU TELL HER MULDER ‼️

they’re fighting about if this is possible or not and frankly i think they should just kiss about it 

(about the rumors, he says:) “but nonetheless unverifiable, and therefore true in the sense that they’re believed to be true” hey. when they talk all academic?? i'm swooning.

and they’re soooo close as they're fighting over all of this <3

“is there anything that you don’t believe in, mulder?” <- i was really looking forward to hearing him answer that, but no!! a distant moaning cut him off!!

scully….. oh my god…….. nothing to note here in terms of plot, she’s just pretty

the great mutato EMERGES for his sandwich!! and mulder is in trackstar mode absolutely SPRINTING, coat billowing behind him as thunder crackles and his long long legs carry him into the woods. and scully is fast too, but he is so much faster it’s actually funny. that man was made to run. absolute horse DNA

oooooo spoooooky, mulder is running after the great mutato into the woods with scully not too far behind, and they can’t find him!!

BAHAHA the old school movie effects are kinda endearing. mulder pointing “there!” and then a dramatic crash of thunder revealing a silhouette… yeah, i giggled 

i’m not well versed enough in old movies to understand all of these references, but i bet they had the horror girlies losing their minds 

but it’s just some guy walking a pig?? telling them to gtfo. well!

guy with pig sends them to his son???? who i later learned is named dr. pollidori. and who has a newspaper article about some experiment he did. this guy is looking like a stereotypical mad scientist. “my father is a simpleton farmer. he understands nothing of my scientific achievements” <- okay nerd, let’s not get in a science-off with dr. scully… also, let's not be mean to your dad!!

this mad scientist dr. pollidori says he is going to remembered for his incredible discovery of the “homeotic hox gene” and i hope he is taken down by scully. i hope she disproves every single thing he says. and then spits on him. fuck this guy for real.

i paused to write that down and she’s smiling at mulder behind this evil doctor’s shoulders :,)

mad scientist dr. pollidori tries to pull the whole “oh, let’s have scully explain my incredibly advanced research” card, further proving his evil tendencies, and she says it has something to do with growth. which is more than i could say.

he says he has to leave to go to an important international talk and she hits him with “sir, unless you want your scientific achievements to end up as a footnote on the jerry springer show, i suggest that you make the time” <- DAMN, GET HIM AGAIN FOR ME!!! i love when she puts people in their place.

i love this sort of "fishbowl/actors looking right into the camera" angle, because they look so cool standing like that. and i want to draw them like this, but i can’t draw. so i will just admire them instead. yeahhhh. they look cool as hell.

so it seems that what this mad scientist fellow dr. pollidori does is torture fruit flies and act mysterious? while thunder crashes about. kind of a sick gig aside, from the fly torture, but i could be mysterious and be way nicer. i could be a friendly mad scientist. i know a few of those, and they’re fascinating people!

so he fucked up some fruit flies and gave them legs in their mouths. that is rude as hell.

mulder asks “why would you do that?” (we were all thinking it) and mad scientist dr. pollidori says “because i can” with another crash of thunder. throw him to the dungeons at once!!! 

dr. pollidori says "it" (editing genes to put legs in mouths) could theoretically be done in humans. scully tries to assure mulder this really isn’t the case, and it’s not quite that easy, but mulder isn’t so sure

“given the power, who could resist to create life in his own image?”, mulder asks <- honey, you just need a cat. you’re not ready for a child yet. i know you want one so badly, but you sleep on the couch. it's just not the right time.

ohhh she got him with just that LMAOOOO “we already have that ability, mulder; it’s called procreation” <- i am very attuned to scully, as you can clearly tell by me anticipating that line

she says she’s going to really see if mrs. berkowitz is pregnant tomorrow... i did not know that this was a service scully could provide. but i guess i should have assumed.

dr. pollidori has a wife??? her name is elizabeth. she wants to talk to him about children?????? but he says “you know how i feel about children” okay well elizabeth seems too good for you anyway, so??

“what happened to our dream?” “i think that’s your dream” <- BABE LEAVE HIM!!! FUCK THE MAILMAN!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!

everything is so incredibly 1950’s coded in this scene, down to her little apron

i’m picking up a sword for elizabeth, why are you being so mean to her, mad scientist dr. pollidori!!!!!!!!!!! NO, SHE’S CRYING!!!!!!!!! DIVORCE, BABES, DIVORCE!!

but something is at the window?? NO!! STAY AWAY FROM HER, GREAT MUTATO, SHE’S HAD ENOUGH!!

diner time with the agents. seems the whole town is there and they are smiling at them. in an unsettling manner. oh lord, why is MULDER so good looking in black and white too?? someone put me down like a rabid dog.

awww, scully finds a newspaper and it mentions their FBI stuff… who snitched on them!!! :(

mulder is presented with an IMMENSE amount of food (he only wanted coffee!) on behalf of JJ (that’s with two J's), and i still can’t figure out the vibe here, because on one hand we’ve got spooky silly mad scientist dr. pollidori, and on the other hand we have a rapist monster so. like?? hey???

some reporter character next to mulder is writing down everything he says and does. and this waitress gets right in his face to ask if jerry springer is coming to town. i’m uncomfy, you’re uncomfy, we’re all uncomfy.

so the newspaper article had everything they said last night word for word!!! who was sneaking around?? other than that person who was just sneaking over mulder’s shoulder, but we had not seen before??

izzy is being questioned for potential recording of their conversation and they’re sticking their heads in one at a time LMAOOOO. mrs. berkowitz has had ENOUGH of izzy's shenanigans!

he pulls out a tape recorder, and their whole conversation from the night before was on there!!! and then mulder rewinds, and they hear the cher song???? what!!! how is this connected??? and they hear a voice singing along!!! it’s the great mutato!!! he wasn't even there when that happened!!!

SO WHO WAS RECORDING EVERYTHING?????

the great mutato is dancing around in the doctor’s house!!!!!

LMAOOOOO mulder’s spouting frankenstein analysis in relation to this case (hey. call me btw) and scully hits him with the “mulder, i’m alarmed you would reduce this man to a literary stereotype” <- yeah the roasting should be mutual

he asks who else would go to such lengths to get mrs. berkowitz pregnant, and she’s looking around as if she has to gently break the news to him that "well, mulder, certain men love to hurt women", etc etc

scully is reading mrs. berkowitz’s file as they drive off, and everything DOES look true, both the tubal ligation and the pregnancy!!! when mulder starts driving the car backwards???

WE GET ANOTHER CHER SONG MOMENT as they run into a house that is covered with a tent!!! like we saw before at the very beginning with mrs. berkowitz!!! i think it’s dr. pollidori's house!!! and it’s filled with smoke!!! 

the girls (the agents) are breaking in!!! have we considered that scully should get out of here considering what happened last time we saw this exact scenario go down????? she’s coughing!!!!

mulder emerges from nearby, but nooooo!! they both collapse!!!!!! and the pig guy/dr. pollidori's father from before has a gas mask and says there ain’t no monster!!! HUH??

dr. pollidori comes back to his home a few days later, and poor mulder and scully and elizabeth are on the floor in a heap, looking terribly hung over from this gassing. they must have been out for like three days!!!

mulder says out loud that he thinks that he thinks dr. pollidori's wife elizabeth was impregnated, which is crazy to say btw, but elizabeth seems deeply excited at the fact. and then he tries to stand up and confront dr. pollidori, but he crashes into some stuff. and people are so right, mulder IS my baby girl. 

scully, meanwhile, is explaining that she thinks this is all some big hoax.

but mulder!!! he finds a frying pan!! and mrs. berkowitz also had her frying pans “violated”, in his words!!

his tie is all messy and he’s stumbling around. we are given a brief insight into what drunk mulder must appear like. but a principled man, he has generally sworn off alcohol, so this is all we can use to imagine how such a sight would appear.

when they pull out an empty jar of peanut butter like izzy used to summon the great mutato, he proclaims that he found his smoking gun. lmao

IT’S THE DOCTOR'S DAD?????? THE ONE WHO WAS WALKING THE PIG EARLIER??? HE’S BRINGING THE MUTATO SANDWICHES AND CALLS HIM "SON"??? please put your son on a leash sir, because he is clearly committing crimes

ohhh confrontation time between dr. pollidori and his father…. OHHHH choking is going on. the dad said he did "it" because he can….. terrible reasoning to make a guy, btw

mulder is back in the diner, and now everyone is avoiding his gaze, throwing things at him, trying to trip him!!! JJ spits on his plate!!! he still looks good as hell though. 

THEY POUR THE COFFEE RIGHT IN HIS LAP???? RUDE AF????

now the newspaper is publishing that the agents think the monster is a hoax, which i guess explains his treatment. so do the townspeople LIKE the monster, then??? and so denying him is to deny what makes them unique? but hold onto that thought, because now everyone is running outside!!!!

THE POLICE HAVE IZZY???? he has a mask on!!! the cop says they've caught their monster. a cosplay mask doesn’t make him a monster, you utter fools. mrs. berkowitz is a good mom though; she says she WILL throw hands with the whole town for judging her boy, and i respect that 

oh, scully with the big reveal: the stuff on the frying pan they found at the doctor's house is used to knock out farm animals???? and farmers have to be on a register to use it!! which leads them to dr. pollidori's father aka the guy who walked his pig!!!!

the great mutato finds his father dead in the kitchen and mourns him, bringing him into the barn where he sobs and digs him a grave. it is sad. but. he still did those terrible things to mrs. berkowitz and elizabeth, so i'm not sure how bad i'm supposed to feel.

so the agents arrive, while it seems he is hiding up in the rafters. they find a puck of that weird gas that knocks you out, and mulder says he thinks they’re too late as they find the freshly dug grave

OHHH they hear a creaking and he WHIPS out his gun, but does this thing where he backs up so he is RIGHT in front of scully… wait, i need to watch that again. yeah, it was good. 

it’s the journalist person??? from before at the diner?? here to get a good scoop on the murder!!!!

but now the angry townspeople are arriving!!! lead by dr. pollidori! it’s very much giving gaston in beauty in the beast with the flaming torches. well. they’re going after him. while our agents are in the rain. probably still enduring a crazy chemical hangover. 

NOOOO!!!! scully turns around and sees the mutato!!! wow, she actually saw the creature for once lmao. that never seemed to happen in the early seasons

so they go in the cellar after the mutato and find a shrine to CHER NOW HOLD ON. HOLD ON. i have to pause and laugh. WHAT THE HELL. LMAOOOO

at least he has taste, i guess??

they find him in the corner and tell him to come out. scully seems deeply compassionate.

meanwhile, the barn is fully on fire as the journalist tries to write everything down. who will think of the sheep and pigs??? and even the chickens???

they emerge from the cellar but nooo, the journalist sees them!!! and the townspeople are invading!!!

the doctor says to let him go or they’ll burn him out. and he reveals to the crowd it was his FATHER who created him!!

mulder holds up a finger to wordlessly say “WATCH IT, WISE GUY” while the mutato is trying to say something. oh he can fully talk. “i have never acted to harm another soul” <- BUDDY. BUDDY WHAT DID YOU THINK YOU WERE DOING TO THOSE WOMEN????????

he’s monologing now, explaining he was the product of the doctor’s experiments. but his father rescued and loved him. and he tried to learn the science to make him a friend. also a horse is listening to all of this btw.

dr. pollidori's calls mutato a mistake which is rude as hell. 

however, if i’m supposed to feel bad for this guy for saying sorry after being caught raping women, i’m not gonna 💀 it sucks that he was abandoned and unloved, but we still need to have ethics in our conduct

scully looks deeply upset though.

he says he learned so much about humanity, and about love; “cher loved that boy so much” <- well. yeah. i laughed.

izzy declares that the great mutato is no monster!!!! i guess that he is his father, so he might be a bit biased there.

mulder is troubled by the fact that unlike in the original book of frankenstein, this monster did not escape to look for a bride! he wants to speak to the writers

“there’s not gonna be any bride, mulder. not in this story” “well then where’s the writer? i want to speak to the writer” <- LMAOOO why did this feel like a dig at the MSR shippers, i'm HOWLING

we end with more cher as cars drive down the road. AND THE AGENTS HAVE THE GREAT MUTATO IN THEIR CAR??? he’s just chilling in the back.

AND THEY TAKE HIM TO A CHER CONCERT??? OR IMPERSONATOR??? OR SOMETHING!?? AND HE’S LOSING HIS MIND?? WHILE IZZY AND THE AGENTS WATCH???

AND THEN WE SEE THE GREAT MUTATO BABIES ON JERRY SPRINGER and when he asks if the babies are hard to love due to their two faces (rude??) mrs. berkowitz says “what’s not to love?” <- okay queen!!!! she may have gone through a lot, but damn she loves her babies!!!

and then… mulder takes scully, and they dance??? they dance??? i knew there was a dance scene actually because i had seen in mentioned before, but i am seeing this??? with my eyes???? oh my god???

they love each other man... and maybe that’s romantic or maybe they’re best friends and maybe it's both or some secret third thing, but that is LOVE!!!!! LOOK AT THEM!!!!!

and then izzy turns it into a comic book??

WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST WATCH LMAOOOOO

guys please be kind to me if you understood this because i did not. i’m half laughing and half soooo confused

????? man, hold on

again, i see the similarities to small potatoes as has been mentioned before. and we’re supposed to just feel bad for the great mutato and wave off the rape. which doesn’t fly for me. and also why have there been two episodes with this theme now. what was chris carter smoking? and can we get him a different strain? 

tbh, i really haven’t listened to cher before but if nothing else this episode put me onto her?? i guess??

i don’t have that same visceral sick feeling that i had from small potatoes, which i take is because we did not see scully as the victim of the violence this time around, but still. not great. 

it felt like a huge inside joke i’m not in on. so i’m confused. and i appreciate that this is referencing old movie tropes, but that doesn’t mean i understand them any better, you know?

but they danced :( they danced :(

i waited two days before writing this up to try and let some time pass and hopefully make my perceptions a bit clearer, but i don't think it worked as well as i had hoped. this has to be a record for most question marks per episode writeup. so i am going to NEED to know what the wider community thinks of this episode. and also what you, the person reading, thinks of this episode. is this a cult classic? am i simply too young to understand the references? or is there truly nothing to get and the episode is just Like That for some reason?

i was, all in the span of 40-ish minutes, amused, disgusted, enamored, and baffled. with different percentages of each.

conclusion: mrs. berkowitz is real as hell, mulder and scully look AMAZING in black and white, and i do not forgive the great mutato. also they danced, btw. not sure if you caught that.

however, if i may venture a guess: this episode and the last were more silly than usual, and i appreciate that. but, i actually do sort of know what happens in the next two, in a "describe it in one sentence" kind of way, because before i decided to watch this show i googled it to see what it was about... and i came across this plot point. and maybe they decided to do something a bit more light-hearted before coming in with the emotional devastation. although, that did not stop them last season, so who knows?

i am excited to watch the next two.

[kendallroysmethpipe]

Cannot relate to the post about finding out ur coworkers are homophobic my manager is so gay he grocery shops at freshthyme

[anarchne]

i wish i could remove the word “adopt” from kept peoples’ vernacular lol

[covenofthearticulate]

“During our recent convocations, many of the old ones had offered Louis the power of their ancient blood.”

Girl please I need to know just HOW MANY older vamps offered up their necks to Louis like oh my god. We joke about him being the it girl of vc from his love affairs with Lestat and Armand, but deadass every single vampire out there has made some sort of pass at him!!!!! And he refused them ALL!!!!! this man is so hot and so suicidal it’s off the fucking charts 

[creamecream]

No one else seems to mention it, so I will.

Nadja and Laszlo’s matching hair streaks!

I assume it’s some vampire power and they aren’t like, dyeing them, and that Nadja probably controls it, and her being Laszlo’s sire gives her that power over him or something, but honestly I just think it’s really cute that they match.

[karlachismylife]

I saw your post about your gender feelings. Hang in there, bud.

If it helps, I was once told that no cis person ever questions "what they are", they just are. I get the imposter syndrome though, and the disconnect between your day to day and a small haven of peace where you can be yourself. I come from a conservative background, without any of the queer influences I enjoy today.

We're constantly growing, constantly learning new things about ourselves; I think that's part of the journey of being queer, rather than any indication you don't belong or aren't queer enough. You have a significant added challenge in exploring too and I hope one day they're gone. Much love and solidarity to queer Russians. 💜🤍💛💚

Already was on the brink of tears and now am crying, mate

Thank you, that thing about cis people not questioning kinda helped actually. I was told same about mental health issues (at least those can be confirmed with a paper and a stamp, huh). So i guess yeah. True. It's just the terf rhethoric about being confused and actually just seeking a way around patriarchy and all that bullshit that gets under my skin.

I'm happy you're free from those things in your past though, gonna live out my gay dreams through you and your art then, lol <3

I think another thing that is gnawing at me is that I am actually priviledged (and/or lucky). I had a lot of queer experiences that many other queer people here are absolutely robbed of. So it feels as if I'm kinda taking what they deserve more. Or that I can't be grateful enough for being able to have these things while others can't because I'm out here not even knowing what I am.

Anyway. Love wins. And we're here, proud and queer.

Love you 1969 times, thank you.

[prettyboykatsuki]

fang do u have any personal casual hookup rules u abide by in terms of safeguarding urself mentally and/or physically after the deed is done? i know u have a very rational insight to sex-ed & sex positivity and i appreciate it bc a lot of other ppl's advice and rules for casual sex boils down to no kissing (which is kinda heartbreaking to me but i'ma sap), use protection (obviously) or it just tilts in a way that shames women in particular for even wanting smth casual. sorry if this comes at an odd time i just feel like if anyone can give it to me straight it's you!!

ok i know u said for afterwards but i do want to say my number one general hookup advice which is don't have sex with someone you wouldn't share a meal with and don't have sex with someone who isn't willing to feed you afterwards!

this has been my general rule of thumb for any form of casual sex and relationships and it will save you a lot of trouble at any point. it's my golden rule for casual relationships.

its a very easy litmus test. if you ask the person you're sleeping with if they have any snacks or if they could get you some and they respond positively / without being confused or annoyed, you are like soo golden. even better if they offer without asking. it seems very basic, but sharing food like that is a very good sign they like genuinely see you as a person. don't sleep with someone who wouldn't be able to meet you at the most basic level of sharing food with you. its not an inherently intimate thing, but still shows respect. ik it seems random but im so serious

i think no kissing rule sucks booo i want to makeout i dont use it. protection is obvious. in terms of protecting yourself like 99% of the battle is just picking a person who is at a baseline decent like genuinely. so genuinely. but its also the hardest part

im not going to be helpful on the emotional front (ex manwhore) but physically drink a lot of water afterwards and keep some babywipes on you at all times!!!!! cleaning up downstairs and having washed hands can save ur life. i reccomend a toothbrush too like try to do all of those things immediately if u cant shower right away

[memorys-skyscraper]

i wish that when people bring up the fact that eating well and exercising and meditating and all that are good for your mental health/overall wellbeing, they would also mention the fact that doing all that shit fucking sucks

[nachtsoklein]

every now n then i rmmr about the church of humanity n how they tried to make kurt pope w intent to eventually break his image inducer so the vatican would lose their shit abt a "demon" being pope n coh somehow. hoping itd fracture the catholic chruch enough that They could move in in its place

[mad-hunts]

for the 'how well do you know barton' quiz, @deathl1es (adam) scored 1 point.

❝ hmm, you know what? i still don't know a lot about you either as we had just met each other not too long ago. so eh, i guess scoring something is better than nothing, ❞ barton shrugged his shoulders at the one point the results that showed before him on his laptop for adam. he can't really recall telling the other anything other than his name and that he had a daughter, so in this instance, he couldn't really be 'cross' about it.

however, that didn't necessarily mean that barton was going to let adam off the hook either. for, this meant that they'd just have to spend more time around each other if he ever hoped to learn everything about the doctor that was on the quiz. a devilish smile spread across his lips as he intertwined his own fingers in front of each other (this picture... i'm sorry, y'all, but the meme edits of him with the hair are back JSJSJ LMAO).

❝ but ahh, i have to say that this has really opened my eyes to how much information there is now to cover with you about my background, adam. so what do you say we set a date and time for when i can talk your ear off about one of my favorite subjects — myself — until you know about everything that my past therapist told me is wrong with me? ❞ barton announced this to the other with a straight face but soon couldn't hold it as he burst out laughing.

❝ no, i'm honestly just messing around with you. we'd be at wherever we're planning to meet for a long time if i told you all of that. and it's not one of my favorites because everyone tends to give me this look when i talk about my father, ❞ he looked down at the table and absentmindedly sniffed before looking back up at the other. ❝ he got killed when i was eight, so i bet you can imagine why. but anyways... how do you feel about indian food? ❞

[caspersscareschool]

having extremely visceral physical responses to emotion when you cannot identify a single said emotion more complex than happy/sad is so awesome it's like Hahah yeah dude sorry i just started crying hysterically and/or shaking violently for some reason. yeah sorry my face just got so hot that i fully blacked out for several solid seconds it was the Something I don't know. you know how it is with the something