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â â Yandere Five Hargreeves (S1) â â
Clicking off the last light, you wish the department store a peaceful night. It was your best friend during the weekdays. The boisterous speech of irritated moms and angsty teenagers was replaced with pure silence. No exhausted cashiers or store emergencies due to shoplifters or disgruntled higher-ups.
It was almost daunting. Taking the last shift and closing as the manager made it seem like the world had ended. It was like you got a picture-perfect frame for the all-consuming feeling of being alone. You almost enjoyed it, if it weren't for the reminder that this was real life and tomorrow would be just as noisy as the last.
You take out your extra pair of keys and secure the right one as you walk towards the exit doors.
"Question?" A slightly high-pitched, younger male voice inquires.
You whip your head around to see the outline of a pubescent boy standing near some mannequins.
"Hey, kid. You can't be in here. It's past closing time. Take yourself and whatever other sneaky friends you have and go home." You state dismissively. You really don't want to have to call the cops again because of some moronic teens.
You are frozen for a moment as the kid appears right in front of you. It was like some weird magic trick.
"Damn it. You don't remember me. You haven't met me yet." The kid mutters to himself as he paces around you. "It's me, Five." He urges. "Question, remember. You have to remember me. You have to remember us."
"Hey, we need to get youâ"
An unexplainable force pushes you onto the tiled floor. Before you are able to groan, the kid, Five, wraps his arms around you, and suddenly you are halfway across the department store. Not even given a second to process the commotion, you are tugged along by Five. Shots ring out, and you try to pull yourself out of his grasp.
"Wait!" You hiss. "What the hell is happening!?" You snap while crouching beneath the rack.
Five stares back at you incredulously. His expression spells out 'excuse me, dumbass?'
"Shit. We don't have time for this. We're partners, like in the future. Some bad shit happened, and we ended up together. Got that? All caught up? We have to go now."
He yanks you up and tries to do his weird teleporting thing again, but gets hit with some weird bullet. It causes him to seize and fall to his knees. You risk a glance up to see two armed people in masks heading straight towards the both of you. You can't breathe.
"W-What?" You squeak out in panic.
You drop to the ground near him as your breath quickens. The air around you smells so stale, like it's depriving you of oxygen instead of giving it to you. You clutch your chest in a futile attempt to calm yourself. One moment turns into two, and you hear nothing going on around you.
A sneak peek, and the intruders are frozen. You turn your gaze toward the floor and see that Five isn't moving an inch. There are no smellsâputrid or refreshing. There seems to be no air, but your chest is still moving. There is nothing but this moment.Â
"Completely alone. Frozen in time. I can freeze time!? What the fuck? This is like... I can do this?" You whisper-shout to yourself. Why are you whispering? You can shout as loud as you'd like. "Fuck yeah!"
Another bullet rings out.
Okay, perhaps yelling isn't okay in accordance with freezing time.
The same pair of arms drags you under the check-out counter. You take a moment to catch your breath and smile. Police sirens blare from somewhere outside. You hear the intruders scramble to retreat and escape.
"You haven't gotten any smarter." Five mumbles wistfully as he leans against your shoulder. "I've found you again. Question, my baby. Stay with me a while. Stay."
He finally has you again. Clever darling, thinking you can use your past to hide from him. He'll just have to start all over again. He can do that, and not even time can keep him away from you now.
#more of an introductory to yandere five#hyperfixation: đ#tua#tua x reader#the umbrella academy#the umbrella academy x reader#tua fanfic#yandere tua#yandere tua x reader#yandere#yandere x reader#five x reader#five x you#five hargreeves#five hargreaves x reader#yandere five hargreeves#yandere five hargreeves x reader#five hargreeves x reader#number five x reader
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sweet nothing âą 9
| in which he patiently waits one day at a time|
âł Description: being a guest at the Jeon Estate after a mishap of being kidnapped and dragged into your brothers affairs isnât all that bad. Truth be told it brings you a lot closer to the mobster and owner of the estate Jeon Jungkook himself.
His two rules are simple, donât cause trouble and donât give him a hard time. Somehow you manage to constantly do both in the most endearing way despite being pregnant and waddling around most of the time.
Pairing: Jungkook/reader, ???/reader
âł Genre: slice of life AU, mafia!AU, pregnancy, thereâs likeâŠa little bit of a plot but not a lot, future smut? maybe? it's very domestic!
Word count: 2.9k
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Note: no matter how many scenes i write, they're all sad and i'm kinda sorry bc i said this fic wasn't going to have much plot but it somehow has a lot of plot now??? and its kinda sad??? HERE YOU GUYS GO THO
The commotion going on in the estate wasnât difficult to tell, men had been actively walking more than their usual rotations required and Jungkook knew this was a sign you were causing some sort of chaos as you seemed to do every day now.Â
And upon following the trail it led him just a door down from your own room, items being moved and you were currently pouting as you sighed.Â
âDo tell me what your idea is for this little renovation project.â Jungkook hummed, leaning against the door, not actually annoyed at how much you always move things around in his estate in factâŠDare he say he felt a little endeared.Â
And Jungkook found himself falling into old habits, habit he found himself missing, such as being able to take the time to admire you, all thoughts of work fading from his head at the sight of your dress, just past your knees and a faded checker blue, flowing sleeves that went to your elbows for room and of course the ever growing bump.Â
Your hands were set around it seemingly pouting over something before his words drew you out of your thoughts, âJungkook, I didnât realize you were home so early.âÂ
âI have a meeting I have to attend in person later,â Jungkook replied, âYou didnât answer my question.âÂ
There it was again, that small pout he hadnât realized he missed so much until it dawned your lips once more, âWellâŠâ You seemed a bit hesitant before you spoke, âI gave it some thought- what we talked about a few days ago, about a nursery and I figured you were right. Itâs better we be prepared for it then not.âÂ
Jungkook was relieved to hear this because while he was trying his hardest to get something on Wonho, there was a smaller, more selfish part of him that enjoyed this, enjoying having you at his estate.
An even smaller part of him not wanting it to end so soon, he had to let go of you once and no it wasnât fair, but even there was even the slightest chanceâŠwell, he didnât want to let it slip through his fingers and have to let you go once again.Â
Jungkook only nodded, âSo what's with the look then?âÂ
âWell,â You gave him a sheepish smile, âI had all of this stuff moved out and realized I have nothing to actually put in hereâŠâÂ
Jungkook couldnât help the chuckle that escaped him as he pushed off the frame stepping into the room, âHm, thatâs a strange way to ask for money.â
âJungkook I wasnât-â
âIâm teasing relax,â Jungkook cut you off, your lips tugging even poutier, you had always been like this, since day one in fact, always worried heâd think you were using him for money, always trying to deter him from paying even if you didnât have the means to actually afford it yourself.Â
It was sweet, âBut youâre also in no position to not accept it and I have more than enough money to afford it- itâs a win win.âÂ
You stared at his outstretched hand, black shiny amex in his hand, âI donât feel right just using it.âÂ
Jungkook sighed wistfully, âYou didnât seem to feel too guilty helping your brother with rates and statistics for drug sales.âÂ
Your lips parted somewhat in surprise, âThat was differentâŠ!âÂ
âYouâre right,â There it was that stupid teasing, charming smile of his, âIt was probably worse.âÂ
You knew he was only teasing, but something about it made you feel gross still, you had a reason you were in that room, a reason that is long gone from you now, âWell it doesnât matter anymore does it?âÂ
Jungkook paused at the sight of your expression dimming as you continued looking out the open window as your hand absently rubbed your bump, âI havenât done that for a long time nowâŠâ
âY/n I didnât mean-â
âI know,â You cut him off softly looking back at him and there was an unmistakable look of regret in his eyes, not wanting to cross any lines with you but you were afraid they already had, âI justâŠI guess I just have some regrets about getting involvedâŠ.I never wanted to hurt anyone,â You whispered out, âI had a reason I was there and it had nothing to do with the money...For myself at least.âÂ
Jungkook frowned, there were still so many things he didnât know about you, your time together having been cut short when you both had first met, âWhat other reason could there be?âÂ
It was an indirect question, rather than a rhetorical one, you knew what he was asking.Â
You hesitated, but then again, you supposed it didnât matter now, it was all in the past, no matter how dull it made your heart ache.Â
âWellâŠâ You let out a soft sigh, âIâm sure you remember I wasnât exactly financially stable, and for me that was fine. It was enough,â You nodded to yourself in thought, âIt wasnât much, but it was enough.â
âUntilâŠ?âÂ
âI received a phone call,â You mumbled, recalling the event, âA foster agency, telling me that they did a DNA test on one of their cases and it came out as a match on me and my brother. Just a week old, dropped off right outside the police station.âÂ
You had to bite down on your tongue, you had thought you were over it, but it still stung just as raw, âSince we were her only blood family I was given the opportunity to adopt herâŠâ You let out a sigh trying to keep it together, âExcept I was too poor, I didnât even come close to having a qualifying salary to show that I could be responsible for her and take care of herâŠâ
âWhat about Wonho?â Jungkook cocked his head to the side, baffled at this information.Â
You let out a loud scoff, bitterness that you had tried so hard to let go of coming back up as you shook your head, âWonho didnât give a shit, told me that it wasnât our problem but I struck a deal with him, if I helped him up until his annual evaluation with you for his first year of work, heâd help me get the expenses that were required to foster her.âÂ
Jungkookâs brows furrowed as he shook his head, âAnd?âÂ
There it was, that little niggle in your head that was angry about it all, angry at Wonho, angry at yourself, especially at Jungkook, âWell all of it fell apart. Very quickly, one thing after the other. I mean obviously you dropped off the face of the planet for months so Wonho wasnât making money- I got let go of my job because of the murder- everything went void.âÂ
Jungkook looked away with a long inhale as if he had been mentally prepared for the moment youâd finally cave and say it, but it wasnât as if you were wrong, you were simply stating a fact, he completely ghosted you and civilization as everyone knew it and just like that, he had left your life as quick as he entered.Â
It was difficult to not be angry about it when he was the one that convinced you that the very thing you were afraid of wouldnât happen, just for a few short months later, let it happen. And you were sure he had his reasons, you were certain of it, but it didnât change the fact that he left you with little to no explanation and just like that, never bothered to come back, didnât even so much as send a letter, a proper apology, nothing.Â
âIâveâŠâ Jungkookâs eyes squinted on the ground, âIâve been meaning to talk to you, about what happened.âÂ
You shook your head, âJungkook, itâs been two years,â Your voice softened, his eyes glancing up to meet yours and once again you felt the dull ache that never went away, âI shouldnât of brought it up, Iâm sorryâŠitâs in the past now, life went on.âÂ
âWell it didnât for me.â Jungkook let out a small breath and you could hear a hint of bitterness in his voice.Â
Your lips quivered a little, âDo you have any right to say that?âÂ
âProbably not,â When did he get this close to you, âBut it doesnât change how I feel.âÂ
Old feelings were like a dam bursting inside you and you began to shake your head, âIâm not ready to talk about this Jungkook- canât we just keep pretending like nothing happened?â
Jungkook shook his head, âWeâve both tried this and neither of us are good at it Y/n, I canât, not when I have a second chance.â
You raised your brows, âNo! No this isâŠâ You took an immediate step back, âThis is not what this is Jungkook, what happened is over. Iâm only staying here because Wonho has a target on his back and you were kind enough to keep me out of the crossfire.âÂ
âMaybe thatâs how it started out,â Jungkook replied just as quick, taking another step closer to you, âLookâŠI know itâs not fair,â He frowned, as if he hated saying it, âI had every intention to stay out of your life, it wasnât fair to drag you along back then and thatâs why I didnât, butâŠYouâre here now, right in front of me. So yesâŠI do see it as a second chance, and if thereâs any way I can make it right, I will.âÂ
You groaned, âItâs not just making it right anymore!â You wanted to scream! âI have baggage now Jungkook!â Your eyes threatened to water as your hands dropped from your stomach, âA lot of it. Itâs not just me anymore Iâm getting ready to have a baby, you donât know what youâre asking for.â
âI know exactly what Iâm asking for.â Jungkook sharply replied, eyes brewing with anger, âAnd what Iâm asking for is you, all of you.â
âYou had your chance and you left me, plain and simple, you left. I donât understand why nowâŠOut of all the time, two years later, nowâŠ!?â You hadnât meant to raise your voice, but you were angry, perplexed, scared.Â
Scared just the way you were when he was upfront the first time in that stupid bakery you wanted nothing more then to pretend like didnât happen, you wanted to pretend like you never got drunk at that stupid bar, that he wasnât late that day, that he didnât sat down and offer to pay for your meal for making you wait.Â
You wanted to pretend like he had actually listened for once when you declined him asking you out, that he didnât visit you every morning at work, and more then anything you wanted to pretend like you had a stronger will, that you didnât let him convince, your mind was flooding with so many memories of him.Â
His hand trailing down your thigh while drunk in the back of his car, his eyes when he saw the bust in your lip, his smile when your fingers intertwined with his, his skin etched into yours for the first time, ushered sweet nothings that heâd love you forever.Â
But at the time you didnât realize that forever would only be a short three months then just like that, it was over, and oftentimes you were left many sleepless nights wondering, was it even love? Everything had happened so fast, it felt like forever.Â
But two years later, standing in front of him you realized it had been two agonizingly long years since you saw him in person.Â
âI made a choice,â Jungkook defended himself, âI stuck to that choiceâŠI was leaving you alone, even if I didnât want to and thenâŠâ He ran a hand through his hair, revealing his face in full detail his eyes baffled as if trying to understand himself, âSuddenly one night youâre dropped in the middle of my office. I didnât have any pretenses, I was just being nice letting you stay here, I had fond memories of our time together, I didnât want to let you get caught in the crossfire- it was the least I could do after everything.âÂ
You crossed your arms as he continued, âAnd thenâŠI donât know,â He muttered, âI look at you, I see your smile, I see you standing here pouting and trying to do it all yourself, like you always tried to do. And suddenly itâs two years ago and weâre both drunk sitting at the bar talking about what it would be like to be in love. And I feel the exact same way I did back then, looking at you and wondering if maybe I had finally found it.âÂ
You felt physically sick, it was like he was intentionally wanting to break your heart all over again, âYou sent them to raid my home, you canât tell me this wasnât plannedâŠâ
âI didnât expect them to fuckinâ kidnap you Y/n!â Jungkook let out a hurt laugh, running his hand through his hair, âIn fact I gave them direct instruction to do the shakedown while you were at work and to not destroy your apartment- you were supposed to be at work!âÂ
âWell I wasnât!â You shouted back, âI wasnât feeling well and my coworker offered to cover! You canât do this to me! You canât, not after all this timeâŠâ You voice died down, âYou canât justâŠopen all of this back up as a second chance because youâre feeling nostalgic over a fling-â
âYou were never a fling to me-â
âThatâs how I felt after you left-â You suddenly winced, hand immediately pressing to your stomach, instinctual almost despite the pain coming from your chest, Jungkookâs eyes immediately widening and he had closed the small gap between you both.Â
âLetâs get you sat downâŠâ Jungkook murmured and you couldnât help but stare at his hand, big and calloused, multiple rings just the way you remembered, pressed against your bump and a wave of intense sadness thrummed in your heart, what youâd give to go back and change everything.Â
You were too tired to fight his touch, and a smaller part of you cryingâ begging inside your mind to just give in, to put your worries aside and roll the dice again, maybe heâd actually keep his promise this time.Â
But you refrained from leaning against him too much as he sat you down on the bed in your room, phone immediately in hand as he called Doctor Choi, after hanging up the air was thick with a silence and tension.Â
Jungkook sighed as he sat on the edge of the bed, â...If you donât wanna talk about it, we wonât. I donât want you going into pretermâŠButâŠI want you to know I didnât make that decision because I wanted to, and I didnât do it easily either.â
You self soothed, rubbing your tummy as your eyes closed, âI know you didnât. At least that's what I told myself the last few years, that surely there was a really good reasonâŠAnd you wanna know the worst part Jungkook?â You whispered, sad eyes as you opened them to look at him, âI waitedâŠI waited every day, sat at that stupid register hoping youâd come, even after Wonho stopped talking to me I went to the Red Light anyways, hoped maybe youâd be there. There wasnât a day I didnât check my phone only to be disappointed by your name not being on the screenâŠâ
It was silent again before you tried to hold back your tears, âYou broke my heart. Right in two, promised you wouldnât leave me, and then you did. And now youâre asking me for another chance?âÂ
You said you wouldnât cry, but here you were softly weeping in your bed, feeling like a child once again, helpless and wondering why no matter how hard you tried, nobody ever stayed, you had thought he was different, but it turned out he was just like the rest.Â
Jungkookâs hands cupped your cheeks, thumbing the tears away as he pressed his forehead down to yours, âFor what itâs worth, I am sorry,â He murmured, âIâm just as much a sinner as anyone else, Iâm ill-tempered and cruel, Iâve killed a lot more people then you could ever imagine, but most of all Y/n, Iâm selfish, Iâm not really a good man. But I could be good, for you.âÂ
âYou donât know how bad I really want to believe you,â You whispered out, âBut I had so long to think about it, to look back and realize I know nothing about you. It was my own fault really, youâre not a good man and I knew that back then, just like I know it right now.â
âI know I hurt you,â Jungkook had a sort of determination in his eye, the kind that you knew was unwavering, he meant every word he was saying, âBut there hasnât been a day I wished it could be different. Iâll do whatever is necessary to earn your trust again.â
You pressed your lips together for a long moment, âIâm not saying it isnât possible, but you have a long way to go if you really want it.âÂ
Jungkookâs long slim finger traced down your jawline, âIâll take it one day at a time, just like the first time.âÂ
#bts#jungkook#jeon jungkook#jungkook x reader#jungkook x y/n#mafia bts#mafia jungkook#jungkook imagine#bts au
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Hi :) I know it was your example so I'm so sorry if you wanted something more creative, but I'd really love to listen to Back For You with Oikawa please. As soon as I heard the song it made me think about reuniting with him after he's been away, I'm sorry if you don't want to write it. Thank you and have a nice day <3
Now playing... Back For You
word count; 570 â gn!reader, for my 1D x Haikyu event
âIâm not scared,â Oikawa said, in a defensive tone that suggested you claimed he was. You hadnât said that, but perhaps he heard the voice at the back of your head pondering how to make him feel better about moving away tomorrow.
âYouâre very brave then,â you answered softly, running your fingers through the side of his hair. At first, he leaned away so you wouldnât mess up his hair, but then he returned so youâd caress his cheek instead. As he leaned into your touch, you stroked his cheek with your thumb. âI would be scared.â
His eyes slowly moved up until they met yours, and you pulled your hand back to intertwine your fingers with his instead. The crickets played their song outside the open door that led out into the garden, the sound carried inside by the cold evening air. You sat on the sofa, legs resting over his lap as his free hand drew patterns on your skin.
âArgentina is so far away,â you whispered wistfully as if he wasnât still in your grasp for another 20 hours. You glanced at the clock, only 19 now.
He lifted your hands to kiss the back of yours, then the top of your bare ring finger. Youâre young, foolishly in love and silently begging for him to promise you something he probably shouldnât.
You want him to promise heâll be back. Not just because his family and friends are here, but because he wants to come back for you.
âYouâll be busy with university, probably wonât even remember me in a few months,â he said, mixing in a chuckle as if that could deceive you.
âItâs been a long time since I had a day that wasnât plagued with thoughts of you. Sounds peaceful,â you tease him, happy to see him break into his dramatics with an offended look.
âThat was almost so romantic, and then you just had to ruin it.â And yet he drew invisible hearts above your knee while he pouted.
âDo you know when youâll be back?â you asked, eyes following Tooruâs finger on your skin.
Tooruâs heart begged him to tell you about all the great universities in Argentina, but his brain knew asking you to give up your life here was absurd, just for a high school sweetheart. So then his heart beat louder, asking you instead. Asking you to suggest it yourself. To say you could both make a new life for yourselves as long as you were together.
âNot exactly.â His mouth didnât listen to his heart, even with the strain it put on his throat. âWill you visit me?â
âHopefully!â you said, straightening up your back to lean your face closer to his. âBut you will come back?â
âOf course.â He leaned in too, lips pressing against yours like a feathery touch. âMaybe not long term, but⊠as long as the people I love are here.â His hand squeezed yours.
âMaybe thereâs a chance of taking a year abroad with my degree,â you suggested slowly, jumping slightly at how his eyes widened.
When your Tooru looked at you, you could swear there were stars in his eyes.
Perhaps it was a reckless thing to indulge in, this love plagued by an uncertain future, but thatâs what you do when youâre young. You grow and you learn and you love, and you come back for those who mean the most.
a/n: I love it when someone requests my example!! although, I went a bit of a different route than reuniting, hope that's okay<3
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#haikyu#haikyuu#haikyu x reader#hq x reader#haikyuu x reader#fanfiction#hq#haikyuu x you#haikyuu fluff#haikyu fluff#oikawa#oikawa x reader#oikawa tooru#haikyuu oikawa#hq oikawa#oikawa fluff#oikawa toru#oikawa x y/n#oikawa x you#oikawa toru x reader#oikawa torĆ«#oikawa tĆru#oikawa toru x y/n
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YOU. IM GOING TO GET YOU.đđđđđđđđi hope you dont mind i showed my friends this comment because it actually made my day... you and the others on hildablr leave the most lovely supportive tags all the time it makes me smile each and every time but holy moly what a treat to open my notifications tođ
it honestly means so much coming from someone of so much talent like your writing is genuinely phenomenal and your fics have been one sucker punch of awesome after another this week.. i havent yet got round to reblogging all of everyone's posts because i want to spend the time to properly comment on each one but it has been the highlight of the past 6 days seeing them pop upđđ
im so glad you picked up on all that stuff!! i had so much fun breathing in a bit of life with the colours and ofc i had to include vicky and ol eddie who show up a joyful amount in your writing and by god i have to catch up on fireflies over the wall because i dont think iv properly said yet but those two melt my heart you have such a knack for these characters đąđąđąmeiri is the sweetest heart of all
i'm not joking when i say in the ideal future where i keep doing illustration as a career i will remember your comments for ever and ever. making art for myself or for school is great but sharing it with like 5 people online is so inspiring and fun and it motivates me so much to know people actually for real like what i'm doing not just for a grade etc đ
@sketchbookweek DAY 4 - SECRETS
another late one im so sorry but IT TOOK ALL DAY OK!!! here is a comic for you about johanna and kaisa and growing up a lesbian. they are 14 here in the middle of a pe lesson
i normally prefer sketchbook having just met as adults (fully grown up and still dorky losers) but given they both presumably grew up in trolberg (and depending on kaisa's age) its not unlikely they at least knew each other
im learning to be more experimental and try more sequential stuff... i'm specialising soon in illustration and the tutor showed me some really inspiring student work im enjoying drawing a lot rn *smiley face*
the actual hilda comics are a major inspiration for me i love luke pearsons panels and pacing and everything its so fun to read
i know this is a big one but still it might look rushed bc i have work in the morning (xmas is round the corner and i work in a supermarket god help me...) but wanted to get this one out... i'm still a day behind but there is more in the oven.. peace and love :P
#ignore me while I howl at the moon wistfully#soz for the melodrama but if i actually ever (ever) in like my ideal life did like a real comic or book or something i would put a thank yo#thats like my future career goal for now i think#i dont rly post my academic art on tumblr but maybe i should do it on my main like just bc its fun#anyway sorry for going on and on and on but thank you this meant so much
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Just Say You Love Me
Summary: Dean is trying to embrace his emotions and look to the future. Part 3 of 3. Part 2 - The Right Guy On Paper.
Warnings/Genres/Troupes: fluff, mentions of cheating.Â
W/C: 4,901.
Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Mentioned: Jody Mills.Â
Pairing: Dean x fem!reader (you - no descriptions of body type or ethnicity).
Bingo: @jacklesversebingo Square Filled: âWould you please, shut up, Iâm trying to confess my love for you.â
A/N: Obviously this was supposed to posted on a certain day (you'll get what I mean when you read) but it just wasn't where I wanted it to be at the time so I waited. Two-ish weeks later ain't bad though.
Graphics: made by be on canva. Dividers by @talesmaniac89
Master Lists: JAcklesVerseBingo / Dean Winchester / Main
Pulling off the highway, Dean grumbles, âThis is stupid,â to himself again. Yet, he had called Jody to make sure you werenât working, made the two-hour drive, and hadn't veered off route to the nearest bar.
Itâs been a few weeks since he saw you at Jodyâs cabin. Youâve spoken on the phone a few times and met him halfway to Kentucky to give him a lore book Claire had borrowed. But no in-depth conversations have been had, which heâs okay with because one, itâs a conversation to be had in person and not while he is neck deep in a case, and B, he doesnât know what to say or how to tell you what he wants because heâs still not sure himself.Â
So, in the safe confines of Baby, he asks himself again why is he driving to your house on Unattached Drifter Christmas or âValentineâs Dayâ for the schmucks?Â
Before he can do a little soul-searching and find the answer, his cell phone rings.Â
âHey Sam, whatâs up?â he answers.Â
âWhy are you in Sioux Falls? Something wrong?âÂ
âEverythingâs fine. Wait, how do you know where I am?âÂ
âYou were way too vague about where you were going. You always have a plan for today,â Sam explains, âfigured you were up to no good and better keep an eye on you in case you get into trouble like last time.â
âLast time was almost five years ago, and for the hundredth time, I didnât know she was married,â Dean snarks.
âPlus, you didnât turn off your GPS,â Sam says as if he hadnât heard Deanâs argument. âSo why are you in Sioux Falls on Unattached Drifter Christmas?â
He falters for a second, thinking of an excuse, and before his pause becomes suspicious, he blurts, âThereâs a new bar opened up. Wanna try it out.â
âThis bar called Y/Nâs, by any chance?âÂ
âWhat? No!â
Sam laughs, and that all-knowing chuckle reminds Dean that Sam is onto him and thereâs no point in denying anything. âItâs a good thing, Dean,â his brother assures him. âYou may not have told her outright, but sheâs smart. Sheâll recognize you showing up today, of all days, is your way of telling her you wantâŠâ Dean waits, hoping that Sam will impart the answer that eludes him, but huffs in defeat when his brother adds, âWhatever it is you want.â
âThis is stupid,â Dean grumbles, âIâm being stupid.âÂ
âNo, it's not,â Sam scolds. âIâm sure today will be tough for her. So, just being there for her is a good thing. It doesnât have to be deep conversations. Showing up and supporting her is enough.â
Dean considers that Sam is probably right, but it doesnât make him feel any less insecure. âMaybe.â
âHave fun,â Sam says before hanging up.
Five minutes from his final destination, his phone chimes, alerting him to a text message.
Jody: Sheâs at Lucky Shots, fifth wheeling it.Â
âDammit, Sam!â he snarls, but heâs not really mad, saves him a trip to her empty house.
The break at Jodyâs cabin was revitalizing, and the feeling has stuck for the few weeks youâve been back in your routine. It probably helps that you removed every trace of Luke from your life the moment you got home. The confrontation with Dean was cathartic, too. Youâve analyzed what heâd said about not wanting you to meet someone new and that he missed you, and asked Jody for her opinion, too. Sheâd wistfully smiled as if aware of something you werenât, âMaybe you gave up on him too quickly.â
You didnât want to admit that Jody was probably right. Yet you had made assumptions, choosing to believe that he didnât want anything serious, and after admitting to yourself that you wanted something more, you had decided to go out and find it somewhere else.
That realization turned out to be at the forefront of your mind today. You're thankful to your friends, Laura and Sara, for the invitation and for not allowing you to stay home and eat your emotions. Being the fifth wheel isnât the issue. It doesnât bother you, even on Valentineâs Day. They chose a lowkey, casual games bar, not some romantic, candlelit restaurant, and for that, you are eternally grateful. The issue is Luke is there. It could be worse. He could be with her, but fortunately, heâs with two of his buddies.
The bar has darts, beer pong, pool, skee ball, knock down a clown, and a few other amusements. You're locked into a tight game of girls versus boys beer pong - the beer having been replaced with tequila shots - and you can feel Lukeâs every glance as if heâs waiting for an opportunity to approach.
Itâs the last thing you want, and your friends were kind enough to offer to leave when he arrived, but you stubbornly refused. You had no reason to leave. He should be filled with so much shame and regret that he canât bear to face you, but he has the audacity to look like a wounded puppy, and that makes you angry.Â
The game is down to the wire, and the final ball is down to Chris and Dylan, your friends' partners. Dylan massages Chrisâ shoulders, âCome on, buddy, you got this. For the win!âÂ
You all hold your breath as Chris releases the ball, and the boys celebrate the victory with loud cheers as it lands in the cup, having barely touched the sides. You, Laura, and Sara shoot another round of tequila. The sourness of the lemon you suck on adds to the disapproving look you catch Luke throwing your way.
Asshole. How dare he judge you!Â
âI demand a rematch!â Laura declares.Â
You agree. âMy turn to buy the drinks.â
Sara escorts you to the bar. Though she masks it as helping you carry the drinks back to the table, you know sheâs doing it to protect you from an unwanted visitor.
âI need the bathroom, but Iâll meet you back here,â Sara tells you, ïżœïżœïżœif he comes over before I make it back, stomp on his foot and poke him in the eye.âÂ
You laugh, really belly laugh, because sheâs totally serious, and itâs also hilarious to think heâd have the balls to actually approach you.
âWhoâre we looking out for, honey?â the elderly woman beside you asks, lips pursed and looking sassy.Â
Sara tells her, âOther end of the bar, tall white guy, blond hair.â
âGreen shirt?â she asks for confirmation.Â
âThatâs the one.âÂ
âUh-huh,â she tuts, âI know the type, handsome as an angel, spirit of the devil. You go on to the bathroom. Iâve got your friend until you get back.â
You donât doubt the ladyâs confidence. You wouldnât mess with her.Â
âThank you, MissâŠâÂ
âCall me Beverly,â she introduces, and Sara shakes her hand before skittering off to the bathroom.Â
You wait your turn to be served, listening to your protector tell you all about her first husband, âthe devil incarnate.âÂ
If only she knew.Â
You face forward, not even side-glancing in Lukeâs direction, not wanting to give him any inclination you may want to talk. You donât. Beverly turns and rests her back against the bar to see the whole room without looking over her shoulder.Â
âOh, sweetie,â your new friend says, âthereâs another one of those handsome-as-an-angel men walking this way, and I think heâs looking for you.âÂ
You still donât turn, but look up into the mirror behind the bar and see him. Dean maneuvering around people and tables, coming straight toward you.Â
Unintentionally, you gasp, a sheepish smile creeping in as you lock eyes with him in the mirror.
âFrom that reaction, I donât think you need help with this one,â Beverly says, sweetly taking a step to the left to make room for Dean.Â
âHey,â he says, a half smile making him look a little awkward. Â
âHey,â you say as he leans in to kiss your cheek, and when heâs close, you whisper, âEverything okay?âÂ
He pulls back, nodding with a slight frown as if the question was offensive or something. âYeah, everything is fine, just passing through and wanted to say hi.â
âPassing through?â you ask, suspicion clear in your tone.
His frown deepens, clearly trying to sell the lie, pretending to be confused by the suspicion.
You smirk. âJust happen to be passing through on Unattached Drifter Christmas?â
He rolls his eyes and shakes his head. âHow much do you and Sam talk?âÂ
âA lot,â you confess, âemails, phone calls, memes, and then thereâs the weekly newsletter.âÂ
âBusted.â He laughs, and it shakes off whatever anxiety he was feeling.
The bartender comes over and takes your order. You add on whatever Beverly is drinking for the rest of the night, which reminds you Sara has been gone a while. You turn around to look for her, and Dean looks over his shoulder. Saraâs back at the table. All of them are staring at you but quickly and comically turn around as if they werenât when Dean finds them.Â
âSorry,â you chuckle, âtheyâre just looking out for me cause Deputy Dick is here.â
âShit,â he grumbles. âIs me being here going to be a problem?â
âProbably, but that's his problem.â
Dean laughs, and you really have missed it. The easy relationship you had seems to be a thing of the past, but you want it back. Maybe not the sex because youâve realized that's where the problem lies. You want more from him than you'll ever get, but at least the friendship could be mended.
âBut donât waste your Christmas on me, Dean,â you say. It's subtle but enough to tell him that hooking up is off the table.
That disgruntled frown appears again, and he looks genuinely offended. âIâm not here âcause I think Iâm gonna get laid.â He explains, shrugging. âRunning into you isnât a coincidence. I was on my way to your place because I didnât want you to be alone tonight. Jody told me where you were.â
âI donât know what Iâm supposed to take from that?â
âTake it for what it is,â Dean suggests. âIâm trying.â
You can work with that. Trying to be friends sounds like just what you need. No pressure or expectations from either side, so you quickly squash the thought that it means something deeper that heâs choosing to spend time with you instead of finding a warm body to lie with.Â
âOkay.â You smile, trying to look as sweet as possible. âWell, can part of that trying be helping us win at beer pong?âÂ
âGirls versus boys?â
âObviously.â
He scoffs, âAbsolutely not! And you get an extra shot for asking me to rig a sacred game.â He hands you a shot off the tray of drinks, and you knock it back.Â
He watches you, grinning the whole time, and you shake your head as if it will shake away the taste. âHappy Valentineâs Day,â he says, leaning down to kiss your cheek.
âDonât try and soften me up, Winchester,â you warn, âIâm not gonna take it easy on you.âÂ
He shrugs, âWas worth a shot,â and walks away with the tray of drinks.Â
Chris and Dylan merrily call his name as he approaches, and you follow, smiling fondly.Â
âNow the odds are even. Prepare to go down, ladies,â Dean says, taking off his jacket and rolling up the sleeves of his shirt to his elbow.
The games continued; the boys won at Beer Pong, but the girls won two rounds of darts. Once Chris and Dylan had gushed over the Impala, you said your goodbyes in the parking lot. Each of your friends hugged you. Dean got a kiss on the cheek from the ladies, and the guys gave him a firm handshake before pulling each other into a one-armed hug. It looked natural and easy, and you love how well Dean slots into the group.
You realize youâre staring as he drives, and he glances over when he feels your eyes on him. âAre we still social distancing or something?â he jokes, reaching a hand over to tug on your leg, requesting you get closer.Â
You oblige, sliding over the leather seat, and he slips an arm behind your shoulders to rest on the seat back. âThank you for that,â you say, kissing his cheek.
âFor what?â he asks.Â
âPretending like you couldnât hit that bullseye with your eyes closed.â
âWell, Iâm supposed to be a mechanic, right? Not sure a mechanic would have perfect marksmanship.â
âIf youâre not sold on the mechanic thing, you can always tell them youâve changed your profession,â you suggest, and with a teasing wink, add, âbut they all already know youâre good with your hands.âÂ
âWould you, for once, get your mind out of the gutter?â Dean jests, âI already told you, no sex for you.â
âSorry, Mr Winchester, sir,â you joke, âIâll be on my best behavior.âÂ
He laughs but looks out at the road. His fingers lightly brush your neck. You arenât sure he realizes heâs doing it. When you were sleeping together, it became a thing - absentmindedly, heâd lightly stroke your skin while watching a movie or falling asleep. It's familiar and comforting, and you lay your head on his shoulder the rest of the ride home.Â
Dean follows you up your path, and while you search your bag for your keys, you notice him looking to the left, eyes squinting, trying to see something too far away.Â
âWanna come in?â you ask, distracting him from whatever has caught his attention.
âItâs not a good idea,â he says, giving you his full focus, âI meant what I said, Y/N. I didnât show up cause I was expecting to get laid.âÂ
Youâd be lying if you said you hadnât considered throwing caution to the wind and jumping into old habits. And you're surprised by Deanâs rejection. He could have followed your lead and taken you to bed without any objections.
âPresumptuous much?â you counter, smirking.Â
He smiles, all charm and smug joy, because he knows heâs right. âDonât try and pretend you werenât thinking about it.â He steps closer, crowding your space and gripping your hips to pull you against him. âYouâve been flirting with me all night.âÂ
âI can stop,â you threaten, but it falls flat as you wrap your arms around his neck.
He grins, âNo, you canât,â against your lips, kissing you before you can claim otherwise.
The kiss is not hesitant; itâs deep and long, but you feel him holding back. His hands donât roam, remaining wrapped around your waist, but he takes his time, savoring the shared warmth, each brush of your tongues, every breath shared.Â
Dean is the first to pull back. âI gotta go,â he swiftly kisses you again. âI told Jody Iâd be there before midnight.âÂ
âGonna turn into a pumpkin, Winchester?â
He laughs, pecking your lips again, but then his features soften, something close to pleading, âIâm trying,â he grumbles, but you're not sure if it's to remind you or himself.
He doesnât say exactly what it is that heâs trying, but you know he means heâs trying to do things the right way, and thatâs enough. âYou're doing great,â you assure.Â
He kisses you harder, tongue sweeping over your bottom lip, and you let him in. He walks you backward until your back hits your door, and he groans when he presses himself into you. âNope,â he scolds himself, pulling back and comically jogging away down the path, but while you're still laughing at him, he turns back. âCan I take you to breakfast tomorrow?â
You smile, and it widens to a knowing grin. You spare him the OMG shock when the realization hits you, but you do ask, âAre we dating?âÂ
âOnly if you say yes?â
âPick me up at ten.â
He winks, unable to contain the boyish grin, and just as he opens his mouth to say something, a siren blasts, and a sheriffâs car pulls up to Babyâs bumper.
You walk a few feet to stand beside Dean as Travis, the rookie, and Luke, in plain clothes, step out of the vehicle.Â
âYou gotta be kidding me,â Dean says.
Luke and Travis stand beside each other on the sidewalk but donât approach you.
âTen out of ten for dramatic flair,â you snark, clapping once.Â
âBut should have done it while I was kissing her,â Dean adds, âwould have been way more dramatic.â
âI think you meant douchier,â you suggest with a confused frown.Â
âYouâre right,â Dean clicks his fingers as if you're right on the money, âI meant douchier.â
âFunny,â Luke says. âTravis, this man has been driving under the influence. Please breathalyze him.â
You put a hand on Deanâs arm to keep him in place should he decide Luke deserves another punch to the face. After all, heâs not in uniform. Travis is wise enough not to move. You're his boss. Luke has seniority over him but not over you.Â
âReally?â Dean sneers. âThat's all you got?â
âGo home, Luke,â you tell him, âyouâre making a fool of yourself.â
âSo what if I am,â he says, âI just wanna talk.âÂ
âWeâve talked,â you remind him. âYou talked, I listened to your piss poor excuses, and it changed nothing.âÂ
âWe were going to get married.â
You raise your voice, âThat was a reaction to your cheating! You only asked me because you felt guilty, and I only said yes becauseâŠâ you cut yourself off, but Dean looks at you, knowing what you had been about to say.
âWe were good together,â Luke says, seemingly oblivious to the silent conversation that passed between you and Dean. âHeâs just a,â Luke sneers at Dean. âWhat did you call it? A situationship.â
Dean tenses under your grip, and you know the comment had the intended effect. Youâll have to address it later.
Clenching his jaw, he briefly looks away before leveling a glare and taunting, âDude, have some dignity. Sheâs already told you itâs over.â He practically growls his next words. ïżœïżœïżœSo leave.â
Luke ignores Dean, looking directly at you. âYou're angry, I get it. But donât make any rash decisions, please.â he implores.
âI was angry,â you agree, âI was furious, but now Iâm indifferent. You were a rash decision, Luke, and Iâm not saying that to be cruel or get back at you. Itâs the truth.â
Saying those words aloud drives home your previous thoughts of why you started dating Luke. Getting engaged was a reaction to your feelings of rejection from Deanâs honesty about commitment. You release a breath as Lukeâs face drops, finally seeming to understand.
âIâm sorry,â you say.
He shakes his head, blasting out a breath filled with disbelief. âWe were never going to work out,â Luke realizes aloud, âyou were too hung up on him.â
âTravis, Iâm sorry you were dragged into this,â you sigh, âbut please take Luke home.â
âYes, maâam.â
Luke stares for a second longer, but chooses not to say anything further, allowing Travis to usher him into the car.
Dean doesnât move, watching the car disappear from view at the end of the street. Your heart pounds in your chest; youâve just gotten to a good place, and now that might have all been unraveled.
Though you suspect not a lot of it is surprising to Dean. The day you told him about Luke, heâd begged you not to tell him you loved him and he was right for the assumption that you did - or do or might. You can not say it even reject the idea if anyone suggests it, but you canât deny it to yourself. You sought out Luke to replace the emotions you felt werenât reciprocated by Dean.
âMaybe I should take you to breakfast,â you suggest, with a nervous chuckle, âto make up for that. Iâm sorry.â
He shakes his head, giving you a small smile. âNothing to be sorry for,â he assures you, but heïżœïżœïżœs looking you over like heâs trying to read the emotions behind the words. âYou okay?â
Quickly, you reply, âYeah, of course.â
âYou sure? You look like a bit of âdeer caught in headlightsâ.âÂ
âIâm okay,â you sigh, taking a deep breath. âJust a little worried that's undone all the progress weâve made.â
âIt hasnât,â he tells you, slipping a hand on your hip and pulling you into him. âThis situationship can handle an ex-situationship.â
You grimace, âIâm sorry.â
He laughs, nonplussed, âDonât be. Iâve been called worse.âÂ
He silences your next apology with a deep kiss and slowly, seemingly reluctantly, pulls back. âIâll pick you up at ten for breakfast.â
You're rambling again. Since Valentineâs Day, itâs been happening a lot. Dean knows why you're doing it. He can see it in your expression every time you catch yourself and stutter over the words, changing it to something else and hoping he doesnât notice.Â
The first time it happened, a few weeks ago, Dean thought he misheard you. You were both breathing heavily, your thighs pressed against his ears, holding him in place, writhing while you rode his tongue. He watched your face as much as he could, eyes rolling to the back of your head. Your body twitched, and your climax coated his tongue and wet the sheets, âI love yoâŠwhen you do that.â
Three days ago, after a double date with Sara and Dylan, Dean woke you up in bed with coffee and French toast. Still in the haze of sleep, you smiled contentedly, and it almost slipped out. âI loveâŠâ you coughed to cut yourself off, correcting it as you sat up, âI love French toast.â But he could see it in eyes, the adoration tainted with the fear of saying it aloud.
âI love youâ is on the tip of your tongue, and it almost escaped a moment ago.Â
A car accident had kept you late at work, so the dinner reservations had to be canceled, but Dean wouldnât let it ruin the night. Heâd ordered pizza, knowing youâd be starving when you got home, run a bubble bath (with the ulterior motive of joining you), popped open a bottle of your favorite wine - he hated it, thought it tasted like vinegar - and was waiting in the middle of the living room for you with the glass in hand.Â
Taking the glass from him, you lazily kissed him. He could feel how tired you were. Listlessly, you mumbled, âOh god, I love yoâŠâ but had stifled it so quickly that the rim of the glass clinked against your teeth.
Clearly unable to think of an alternative, you began rambling about your day while unnecessarily blitzing around the already clean kitchen with a dishcloth.
He wants you to say it. He figured out how he felt about you when it finally sunk in after youâd told him youâd met someone else. It was more than physical, and it always had been. Otherwise, it wouldnât have hurt so damn much when you told him about Luke.
He hasnât said the words to you, but you have to know thatâs how he feels. He told you heâs trying. Although, there havenât been any conversations about exactly what that entails. Heâs been more communicative. Heâs made future plans - okay, only a week or so ahead at any given time, but that tells you all you need to know, right?
But the way you keep avoiding the phrase sets off a little ripple in his heart. Maybe you donât know. Maybe youâre afraid heâll hightail it out the door like last time if you say it aloud. Maybe he needs to expand his communication skills. He says your name softly, but you either donât hear him or pretend not to, afraid of what comes after.
âI should get you a key cut,â you blabber in. âSave you having to pick the lock next time Iâm not home. Donât want the neighbors calling it in. Mrs Brooks next door is always twitching her curtains.â
He tries again, âY/N,â louder this time.Â
âI need to put a load of laundry in,â you say, striding into the laundry room.Â
âI did it already,â he calls after you.Â
âIâll put it in the dryer then.âÂ
He follows, trapping you inside the smaller space so you have no choice but to turn and face him.
âThe laundry is done and folded in the basket in your room.â he continues, speaking to your back. âThe kitchen is clean. Pizza is on the way. The bath should still be hot.âÂ
You finally look up at him, and thereâs that apprehensive smile again, but your eyes are aglow with the words you chew your lip to suppress.Â
âJust say it,â he sighs, trying to hide his smile.Â
âSay what?âÂ
He steps closer, crowding your space and using a gentle touch to tilt your head up to keep your eyes on his. âYou know what.â He smirks, teasing, âYou canât bite your tongue forever. So just say you love me.â
âI wasnât bitingâŠâ you stammer, âI neverâŠI only meant I was going to get a key cut for you. I didnât mean anythingâŠ.âÂ
âWould you please, shut up?â He silences your rambling with a hard kiss, grabbing your hips and hoisting you to sit on top of the dryer. Wrapping your arms around his neck, you sigh placidly, but he pulls back and grins, âIâm trying to confess my love for you.â
You drop your gaze, avoiding eye contact. âPlease donât.âÂ
He notes your avoidance of looking at him, and panic sets in that maybe heâs got it wrong, again. But he hopes heâs right, so he chuckles, âgiving me a taste of my own medicine.âÂ
You shake your head, âNo. I donât need to hear it, and you donât have to say it âcause you think it's what I want to hear.âÂ
âThatâs not whatâŠâ he tries, but you raise your voice to speak over him.Â
âDean, please!â you wait for him to close his mouth. âI like how things are now, and I donât want to jinx it or have to watch your ass run for the door again.âÂ
âIâm not going anywhere,â he promises, âit will be different this time.â
âWeâve been through this already. I donât want promises, and we donât need to open old wounds.â
âI get why youâreâŠâ
The doorbell interrupts him, and you use the excuse to push him aside as you jump down and scurry out of the room.
He leans against the doorframe facing into the kitchen and listens to you thank the delivery guy. You must have given a generous tip because he thanks you multiple times as you say goodbye to him.
The click of the door closing echoes, and he waits for you to appear, but you donât. He imagines you standing in the hallway, trying to calm yourself.Â
He waits, counting the seconds in his head with the promise that heâll go find you if he reaches thirty.
At fifteen, you enter, eyes glued to the floor, pizza balanced like a cocktail waitress. âIâm gonna go take that bath,â you tell him. âHopefully, it's still warm.âÂ
Youâre assuming the conversation is over. Only it isnât. At least, not for him. He hasnât been working up to it. Heâs never had a grand plan for the first time he says it, but now he knows he needs to say it so you understand and believe him.
Silently, he watches you put a few slices of pizza on a plate - so he presumes heâs not invited to the bubble bath. The stopper gives an audible pop when you pull it from the wine bottle, like an exclamation point on his thoughts.
He clears his throat and proclaims, âI love you.â
The only indication that you heard him is your frozen state, bottle tipped, ready to pour into your glass.Â
âIt took me too long to figure that out, but I do. And saying it or not saying it out loud isnât going to change a damn thing.â
You continue to pour the wine into your glass but donât turn to face him, recorking the bottle and resting against the countertop.
You havenât run away, so he continues, âI always knew we were good together, but now I see that we have a whole future of being good together, not just the here and now.â
Hesitantly, he stalks closer to you, watching you take a large gulp of the red liquid. You must hear his approach because you turn around but jump slightly at his proximity.Â
âIâm ready to move forward,â he confesses, âand I want to do it with you.âÂ
âAre you done?â you ask, finally looking up at him with a teasing but joyful smirk under a shy gaze. âYouâre on a roll there. I just want to be sure before I say anything.âÂ
He laughs but shakes his head once, âNope.â He takes the glass from your hand and puts it beside the bottle. âOne more thing,â he leans in closer, tilting your chin up, lips whispering over yours, âI love you.â
You chase his lips as he pulls back, âCâmon, you know you want to,â he teases, making no attempt to hide his smugness. Heâs got you right where he wants you. âJust say you love me.â
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Dance for Joy
Caldarus x gn! farmer
Word count: 902
Warnings: not proofread and honestly kinda rushed, but I was listening to some dance music and felt inspiration. Enjoy!
(I cannot wait for the day that I can smooch the dragon. Lemme plssss give the dragon a smooch)
    âDance for me. Please.âÂ
     These words would have been jarring to hear no matter who it came from, but the word âjarringâ took on a whole new meaning when this phrase was spoken by Caldarus of all people. Or, well, creatures?
     âWhyâŠâ The farmer asks, their confused gaze falling upon the regal statue, an impressive carving standing tall and proud.Â
     âThe people of Mistria are joyous people-â
     âEvenâŠâ
     âYes. Even March. Even he finds joy in this life. Though I, like many, cannot see it. I can feel it, though. Deep within me, I can feel when he is prideful, when he fashions a blade just to his liking. I can feel Lady Adelineâs desperation when her thoughts are about Mistriaâs future and fate. I can feel Holtâs excitement as he thinks of a new joke to share. I can feel the joy of the people as they dance around each other at the seasonal festivals, and how their excitement and merriment are shared with each other as they enjoy themselves. AndâŠI can feel your desire to join them, to dance alongside them. I can feel that, and I can see how you hesitate. I see and feel, yes, but I cannot understand.â
     The farmer remained silent, taking in the new information. They considered Caldarus their friends at this point. Their daily banter and amicable exchanges have slowly made them forget his true heritage. They heard his stories daily, grinned as he recalled some of his past, but at this moment they truly remembered that he was a dragon.Â
     âI enjoy dancing, I do. But I donât enjoy it when others watch me dance. I feel out of place and I get embarrassed, so even if I work up the courage to dance with them, I donât think I would feel happy doing it.â
     The Guardian of Mistria grew silent. His words were often so expressive that one could easily overlook the fact that he didnât have the ability to show any expressions on his stone face.
     âFarmer, tell me. Would you find joy in dancing if I were to avert my gaze. I wish only for your joy, for you to dance freely.â
     âWhy?â
     Again, the farmer is met with a brief silence.
     âI feel the joy of the inhabitants of Mistria. I feel their content and their happiness. I revel in their joy and laughterâŠthough I find myself yearning to feel yours as well.â
     This time the Guardian is met with silence from the farmer.
     âYouâŠâ The farmer pauses, collecting their thoughts. â...you yearn for âŠmy joy?â They ask, hesitantly, as if waiting for the punchline to a joke made at their expense.
     âYes. Although if I were to put more thought into it, I feel as though craving would better encompass my feelings on the matter.â
     A silence is shared between the two. One lost in raging thoughts, the other calmly navigating through them.Â
     âThereâŠisnât any music. How shall I dance?â
     Caldarus was made of stone, yet the farmer swore they could see him light up.
     âI am of the opinion that the sounds of nature provide the most brilliant music. HoweverâŠI may remember some music from a long time ago. Music that could be used for dancing. I am not the best singer, but I can follow a tune just fine.â
     âYouâd sing for me?â
     âIf you dance for me, yes, I shall sing for you.â
     âHow shall I dance?â
     âYou may dance however you wish, farmer. My only request is that you may feel joy in your dance.â
     The farmer smiles wistfully, feeling that aforementioned joy creep up on them.
     âVery well oâ Guardian of Mistria.â They took a dramatic bow before the statue. âSing and I shall dance for you. Caldarus chuckled heartily, amused by their theatrics.Â
     The Guardian and the farmer made good on their vow to each other, singing and dancing for hours upon hours. Even as the day turned to night, the stars provided a spotlight for their performance. The farmer danced and danced, laughing and smiling, singing along as best they could as they talked and shared stories.
     As the night continued, the Guardian Dragon found himself yearning, craving for something he could not yet have. The farmer danced beautifully. They were not classically trained, nor was their technique flawlessâŠbut they were having fun. And Caldarus felt odd about that. An odd feeling bubbling up from deep inside of him. He cravedâŠhe wanted that joy. He looked upon the farmer and watched as they dancedâŠhe wanted to dance beside them. He wanted them to look upon him with a joyous smile and dance alongside him. He wanted to hold them, smile at them, and be joyful in their presence. Ah to feel that joy, the joy of dancing. The joy of loving.
     The night progressed wonderfully, up until a point when the farmer suddenly collapsed from exhaustion, sometime around 2am, if he recalled correctly. They stopped, but he still sang. He sang to them throughout the night, until he could not sing anymore. He was regaining strength, thanks to the farmer and their offerings of essence, but he could not remain conscious for as long as he hoped. No, he could not dance with them, nor could he smile at them. But he could sing for them, if only a little, in hopes that they would dance for him another night.
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Scorpion, Quan Chiâs daughter, and granddaughterâs interactions with each other in battle?
A/N: You got it! As for those of you who don't know what the Hell is going on here, check out my Masterlist under "Scorpion" to get a better idea.
Scorpion and Y/N
Y/N: I am still... bewildered I married at all in the future.
Hanzo: I understand that Netherrealm is not a likely place to find such joys.
Y/N sadly: I never expected to have any joy in my life at all.
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Hanzo: How you are from the Netherrealm still eludes me.
Y/N:Â Wasn't you who always tells your students it is their hearts, not their blood, that makes them who they are?
Hanzo: It's because every morning, I wake up with proof of that fact beside me.
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Y/N: Do you remember the first time we ever sparred?
Hanzo: You were still teaching me how to harness my new abilities.
Y/N wistfully:Â You, in turn, taught me how to be a better warrior, coming full circle.
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Scorpion: I am truly sorry for the loss of your husband.
Y/N: My grief for him has become a fire that threatens to burn me from within!
Scorpion: I know precisely about the fire you describe.
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Scorpion and His Daughter:
D/N: I'm not a child that needs protection anymore.
Hanzo: I only want you to be safe and well.
D/N growing frustrated: I am a trained Shirai Ryu and an adult, Father.
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Hanzo: Do not think that because you're my daughter, you will receive any special treatment here.
D/N confident: I never asked, nor will I ever.
Hanzo with pride: Spoken like a true Shirai Ryu.
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D/N: After learning about Quan-chi, were you ever tempted to kill Mother for being his daughter?
Hanzo:Â To my eternal shame, I was, for a moment, amid my rage.
D/N:Â Fortunately, you didn't. Otherwise, we would have never spoken again.
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Scorpion: Did I raise you well?
D/N genuinely: Despite being overbearing at times, you and Mother are the best parents I could ask for.
Scorpion sadly: If only Satoshi were alive to also say those words.
Y/N and Her Daughter
Y/N: How are you getting along with everyone at Special Forces?
D/N: Takeda's betrothed is alright, although Cassandra gets on my nerves.
Y/N: Patience, my child. Do not be so quick to judge all you meet.
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D/N: How are you faring, Mother?
Y/N solemnly: Not a day goes by that I still don't miss your father.
D/N: Then let us try to alleviate our grief through Kombat.
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Y/N: You inherited your father's tenacity.
D/N: Along with the hellfire that blazes within you both.
Y/N:Â Then be warned to avoid repeating either your father's or my mistakes.
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D/N: Seeing how her handlers treated her, I don't see any reason why I can't keep Xin Yan.
Y/N exasperated: Do you know the first thing about caring for an Outworld Tygore?
D/N: ... No, but I will surely take better care of Xin than they ever did!
#mortal kombat#mortal kombat x reader#oddball writes#scorpion x reader#mk11#mk scorpion#hanzo hasashi x reader#hanzo hasashi#mkx#mk#mk x reader#mk9#mortal kombat 9#mortal kombat 11#quan-chi's daughter#quan-chi's granddaughter#mortal kombat intros#anon ask#ask answered#requests
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Fast Times | LN4
Couple days in, I call you "baby" Three stories up here contemplatin' But what the fuck is patience Give me a second to forget I ever really meant it
pairing: Lando Norris x Reader
warnings:
word count: 1.6 k
note: again this isn't based on the entire song, just a couple of lines mentioned. also english isn't my first language so any corrections feel free to let me know and any feedback is welcome :)
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Lando Norris found himself caught in a whirlwind of fast times and fast nights. Lando had always been an ambitious soul, determined to make his mark on the racing circuit. He had fought tooth and nail to reach Formula 1, facing countless challenges and overcoming numerous obstacles. Now, he was living his dream, racing against the best in the world.
Lando had met you a few months earlier at a charity event. Your infectious smile and captivating presence drew him in immediately. You spent the entire evening engrossed in deep conversations, bonding over your shared love for adventure and passion for life. Lando had never felt such an intense connection before, and he couldn't get you out of his mind.
As the days passed, Lando found himself daydreaming about you during training sessions and team meetings. The thought of you gave him an inexplicable sense of joy and comfort. But he also experienced a whirlwind of emotionsâan amalgamation of excitement, fear, and uncertainty. He was ahead of himself, dreaming of a future that was yet to unfold.
One evening, unable to resist his longing any longer, Lando picked up his phone and dialled your number. The phone rang, and his heart raced. When you finally answered, your voice greeted him with a warmth that eased his nerves. He couldn't help but call you "baby," a term of endearment that slipped from his lips before he realized it.
You, on the other end of the line, smiled at Lando's sweet gesture. You too had been thinking about him constantly since your encounter. You admired his dedication to his sport and his undeniable talent. Your connection was undeniable, and you wanted to explore where it might lead.
"Hey baby," Lando said with a hint of nervousness, "I hope I'm not interrupting anything."
You chuckled softly, "Not at all, Lando. I was hoping you'd call. How's everything in the racing world?"
Lando's voice grew more animated as he shared the latest updates on his training and upcoming races. You listened intently, genuinely interested in what he has to say.
"I wish you could see me race in person," Lando remarked wistfully. "Having you cheering for me from the stands would be a dream come true."
"Who knows, maybe one day I'll surprise you at a race," you replied playfully, feeling your heart race at the thought of sharing those adrenaline-filled moments with him.
As the conversation flowed, Lando and you talked about your dreams, your aspirations, and the shared excitement for life's adventures. The more you spoke, the more it became evident that your connection was something extraordinary.
"Hey, Lando," you said gently, sensing the underlying hesitation in his voice, "I want you to know that I'm not expecting you to choose between your career and me. I admire your passion for racing, and I believe in you. We can make it work, whatever comes our way."
Lando sighed with relief, feeling the weight of uncertainty lift from his shoulders. "Thank you for understanding, baby. I don't want to lose you, and I also can't imagine giving up on my dreams. With you by my side, I feel like anything is possible."
And so, days turned into weeks as Lando and you embarked on a journey of discovery, both individually and together. Lando's racing career took him to different parts of the world, and whenever possible, you would join him. You explored new cities, indulged in local cuisine, and revelled in each other's company. The exhilaration of Lando's victories on the track was magnified by your presence, his greatest supporter.
Amidst the chaos of Lando's demanding career, your love affair deepened. Lando found solace in your presence, a sanctuary in a world that moved at breakneck speed. But as the racing season neared its end, doubts began to creep into Lando's mind. The demands of his career were relentless, leaving him with little time for anything else. He struggled to balance his love for you with the pursuit of success.
You, too, grappled with your demons. You had always been a free spirit, tiptoeing past various stages in your life, refusing to be confined by society's expectations. You cherished your moments with Lando but couldn't ignore the nagging thought that your love might be overshadowed by the pressures of his racing career.
Amid your passionate affair, Lando and you faced the harsh realities of your chosen paths. The outlines on your bedsides told a tale of stolen moments and missed opportunities. Your love was like a flame flickering in the wind, uncertain and fragile. Lando was torn between his love for you and his relentless pursuit of success on the racetrack. The fear of losing you gnawed at him, as did the fear of sacrificing his dreams.
But as Lando's inner turmoil reached its peak, he had a moment of reckoning. He had to confront his demons and make a choice that would shape the course of his life. Would he choose the intoxicating rush of success or embrace the fragile love that you offered?
In a heart-wrenching twist of fate, Lando realized that his love for you could not be forgotten. It had seeped into the very fabric of his being, leaving an indelible mark. With a newfound sense of clarity, he mustered the courage to follow his heart, to take a leap of faith into the unknown. The racing circuit had given him everything, but without you, it would be empty.
On a starlit night, Lando found himself standing at the edge of the racetrack, searching for you amidst the sea of faces. As your eyes met once more, he knew that he had found his true home. The engines roared in the background, echoing the beat of their hearts as they embraced, leaving the world behind.
At that moment, Lando Norris and you embarked on a new journey, one where fast times and fast nights were replaced by the infinite expanse of love and vulnerability. You vowed to rewrite your story, to create a world where your love could thrive, even amidst the chaos of your chosen paths. Together, you would face whatever challenges came your way, united by your shared passion for life and a love that defied the limits of time and speed.
As Lando continued his racing career, you became an integral part of his journey. You provided him with the stability and support he needed, grounding him amidst the whirlwind of the racing world. Together, you navigated the highs and lows, celebrating victories and finding solace in each other during defeats.
In your quest for a harmonious balance, Lando and you experienced life's twists and turns. You faced challenges, made sacrifices, and celebrated milestones together. And through it all, your love only grew stronger. You knew that your journey would not always be easy, but your commitment to each other was unwavering.
As the years went by, Lando and you built a life filled with love, adventure, and shared experiences. You found joy in the simplest of moments and cherished the bond you had forged. Lando continued to race, his skills evolving with each passing season. You pursued your passions, carving a unique path for yourself while supporting Lando's career.
One evening, as the sun set over the racetrack, you and Lando found yourselves strolling hand in hand. The memories of your journey together flashed before your eyes.
"You know," Lando began, breaking the comfortable silence between you, "sometimes, I still can't believe how lucky I am to have you in my life."
You squeezed his hand, smiling affectionately. "And I feel the same way, Lando. Our love has been the guiding light through all the ups and downs."
"I remember those early days, filled with uncertainty and doubt," Lando admitted. "I was torn between my passion for racing and the fear of losing what we had. But you've always been there, supporting me and reminding me of what truly matters."
"It wasn't easy," you said, your voice tinged with honesty. "There were moments when I questioned if we could make it work, but it worked out, and it made us stronger."
"And you've taught me that taking risks, following my heart, is worth it," you replied, recalling the times you had embraced new challenges, encouraged by Lando's unwavering support.
As you continued your walk, the sounds of the racetrack faded into the background. It was just the two of you, wrapped in each other's embrace.
"You are my home, Lando," you said, your voice soft but resolute. "No matter where we go or what we face, as long as we have each other, we'll always find our way."
Lando pulled you close, his arms encircling you with a sense of security. "You're right. We've come so far, and our love has been the driving force behind it all. I promise to cherish every moment, to be present in this journey with you."
With tears glistening in your eyes, you pressed a kiss to his lips. "And I promise to be your biggest supporter, your pillar of strength, no matter where life takes us."
#lando norris imagine#lando norris x reader#lando norris one shot#lando norris x you#ln4#f1 imagine#f1 x reader#f1 fanfic#Spotify
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àŒșA Golden MomentàŒ»
àŒșSummaryàŒ»
Astarion shares a tender moment with Aristen, his beloved Bhaalspawn, and contemplates the future
àŒșPairingàŒ» Astarion x Aristen (Female Durge / OC)
àŒșWarningsàŒ» None
àŒșWord CountàŒ» 1018
àŒșA/NàŒ» Thanks to @icybluepenguin for the beta, as always my creative partner. This fic is for @aristenfromwarsaw as a thank you for the lovely photos she did for me of Serafina and Astarion. Aristen is her wonderful Durge. Thank you again!
âShe doesnât look like murder,â Astarion thinks to himself as he watches the elf run her fingers through the water in the fountain outside of Sorcerous Sundries.
Aristen then laughs and flicks some of the water playfully at the tiefling child she was bantering with. One of the brood from the Grove they had run across in the city, Astarion canât remember a name, only the idol thief, Arabella and Mol, the ringleader, really stood out to him.Â
âShe looks like a hopeless do-good type, an aspiring hero.â It makes his stomach clench almost instinctively.Â
For Astarion, thereâs only two types of interactions with heroes, being forgotten by them to languish in hell for centuries or possibly being hunted by them for being what he is.Â
But Aristen is different.Â
The tiefling child laughs and flicks water back at her. The droplets in her pale hair sparkle in the sunlight like gemstones. Itâs idyllic, the sun, the laughter, the warmth of the day seeping into his skin.Â
Aristen is not like other people who would call themselves heroes and put on a display of the good they want to do. Sheâs different because she has seen real darkness.Â
Even after her true nature as a Bhaalspawn had been revealed, she kept going on, trying to do the right thing. She pushed so hard, she made Bhaal himself try to take her life.
Astarion shudders involuntarily thinking of that moment. He'd stood there speechless, numb to the world, terrified to grasp what he'd just lost. If it hadn't been for Withers, or whoever he actually was, that may have been the end.Â
The sun is starting on its downward path and the tiefling child waves farewell to Aristen before running off with his friends. For a moment, she stares after them wistfully and he wonders why.Â
Perhaps they remind her of the simpler life she wanted, the life she thought she would have when she came to the city. The life that was all a lie.Â
Or perhaps she is fearful of what could happen to them. The group will move on Gortash soon, and the confrontation with the brain isn't far from that.Â
Those blue eyes suddenly turn his way. âWhat are you staring at Astarion?âÂ
He feels caught somehow, like he's almost embarrassed to have been seen contemplating her.Â
âNothing, just thinking about how delectable you look.â He smiles, trying to convince her.Â
âIs that so?â She gestures to the spot on the edge of the fountain next to her, returning his smile with a knowing one of her own.Â
He scoots closer to her and loops his arm around her, feeling her sun-warmed skin beneath his fingers. âBut of course, my sweet. Would I ever lie to you?â
âI can think of a few times when you did,â she teases him and snuggles closer to him. Â
âThat has been awhile,â he insists with exaggerated hurt at the teasing.Â
âAstarion, youâre playing far too innocent.â Her sweet smile hides her intentions as her fingers dip back into the fountain and she splashes him with the cold water.Â
There isnât anyone else who he would allow this from, but Aristen is different.Â
âMy curls, you wretch!â He lets go of her for a moment to defend himself, putting his hands in front of the watery onslaught, as the two of them both begin to laugh.Â
It feels good to laugh. After everything they've been through and what was still to come, they need it.Â
Gradually, it dies away and he puts his arm back around her, pulling her close.Â
âWhat was it really, that you were thinking about?â She lays her head on his shoulder and looks back off toward the horizon.Â
Heâs not even sure why heâs keeping quiet, sheâs seen the worst of him, what else is there to be embarrassed about?Â
âEverything- the past, the future. What all of this will ultimately mean, what will our lives be from after - well after it.â He canât quite get himself to describe what they still have to do, the grim possible outcomes weighing his tongue down.Â
âThat is a lot to be thinking about. Was there anything you wanted to say in particular?âÂ
He isnât sure they have the time right now for all that he wants to say. He hums indecisively. âI suppose if Iâm facing the end of the world, Iâm glad itâs with you. And whatever comes after too.âÂ
âYouâre too sweet, loveâ she says, tilting her head up to kiss his cheek.Â
The square around them gradually grows quiet as shops close for the day and the crowds head home. Astarion knows from dreadful experience that other businesses are just beginning to get busy, the taverns and brothels of Baldurâs Gate will soon fill with patrons. On past nights with such mild weather, hunting would have been easy, so many targets to choose from, he might even be able to dally a bit and remain away from both Cazador and his potential victims.Â
They should move on, the rest of their group is probably wondering where they are by now. But the peace of the moment is like an enchantment, one word and it all could slip away like the ephemeral strands of the Weave that Gale is always going on about. And it is so nice to watch the night fall without the dread of Cazador or Bhaal looming over them.Â
âWe should probably get back,â Aristen finally breaks the magical silence and the world comes back into sharp focus for him.Â
âHmm, I suppose we canât let everyone go too long without us. Who knows what trouble they could get themselves into.âÂ
Astarion reluctantly lets go of her and rises from the cooling stone of the fountain. He extends a hand, the very picture of gallant chivalry, to help her up. The blue of the sky is fading into pinks and purples, colors he may not ever see again soon. But he has today, they have today.Â
Arm in arm, they walk back to the Elfsong, one day closer to destiny.Â
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Halfway through July, and I have neglected to write my yearly birthday introspection, although it did occur to me that between my birthday and the new year I was in fact doing two introspections a year anyways.
For certain reasons I've been waffling about it, but it's also quite nice to be able to look back and compare with the previous year, to see what's changed (sometimes unexpectedly) and what's still the same. Last year I mentioned I "made a close friend [...] and disentangled myself from a draining relationship", but in the end I had been drawn to said friend because he was the polar opposite of the person I was disentangling myself from, and while a different extreme might have been refreshing in the moment, that too was unsustainable in the long run. I think what finally dragged me out of the cycle of too-clingy/too-distant nebulous just-friends-but-what-if sort of relationships was twofold: I started going to counselling with a goal (not the usual "I feel like I'm having a breakdown so I'll see a therapist for 3-6 months before ditching"), and also got into a communal hobby such that I was able to make casual friends and attend regular and diverse events with a time limit (rather than laser focusing on one person and relying on them for all my socialising).
A year ago I said I was feeling adrift, goal-less, and filled with the sort of summer malaise inspired by the scorching Taipei weather this time of year. Unfortunately we are still rather scorched. The temperature and UV levels somewhat put a damper on my usual practice of walking around outside looking at things. On the positive side, I did struggle through the adrift-ness and applied for one (1) grad school program over the winter, which I didn't get into but I did learn that I feel better when I'm working on something, and I was also motivated to finally take Taiwan's Chinese proficiency exam to open up my options for the sort of programs I could try for in the future (I passed a level higher than I expected to, and it was great to feel acknowledgment of my competence at something I'd really put long-term effort into). After the grad school rejection I started planning the trip to Ladakh, which allllmost felt like it involved a similar level of paperwork and fuss- and actually pulling that off in the end (ok, even tho this was after my birthday) despite all my fears and anxiety (particularly around travelling post-transition) was also a great confidence boost. (For a week after I also had this frantic urge to drastically change my life, and I can't tell if it wore off with time or if the heat simply drained out all ambition beyond staying out of the sun and sitting in front of the fan eating cold dragonfruits.)
I have at least two proper goals now, and although one may require starting over entirely from an educational standpoint, as they say, "the time will pass anyways". On my bike rides at night I do tend to start pondering what shall become of me, creeping along in the years but being no closer to permanent or even temporary residency status than any other time I write about it either wistfully or with well-intentioned but otherwise ultimately futile determination, nor feeling like I am useful for any sort of capitalist pursuits. (I suppose this is the part of reflection wherein things have stayed the same, and we must stay tuned for next year.) But I also believe I have made some progress in deflating a little the omnipresent catholic guilt at simply existing, not to mention the adjacent notion that enjoying life a bit and not being maximally miserable at all times is a SIN. By this I mean I have gone twice now to a nice hair salon to let a beautiful woman shampoo, condition, and also give me a haircut that doesn't bear a strong resemblance to a bichon-frise immediately after.
All in all, I would say the verdict is incremental improvement. (Okay maybe I'm also racking up incremental nerve damage from all the shibari but you win some you lose some.) My housing/employment/visa-running status hasn't changed dramatically but I feel more hopeful and kinder with myself. I think my Chinese reading speed has kicked up a notch. I've managed to keep the instant noodle consumption under control. I've sent a lot of postcards on my quarterly trips, which are generally well-received. I have taken great delight in growing many plants in the window cage (whether they survive is another thing, RIP to the tomato plants while I was away, bravo to the basil that miraculously rehydrated from what seemed to be a completely unsalvageable state, sorry to the lemon tree sprout that was apparently doing fine on its own before I came back and over-watered it to death). Things feel kinda okay, and I used to be quite suspicious of this because surely they were only going to get worse again, but these days I figure hey, even so, might as well enjoy it while it lasts.
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Afterglow
"Just wanna lift you up and not let you go, this ultraviolet morning light below tells me this love is worth the fight..."
Part of Inspired by Taylor Swift Series 'You're Losing Me' Chapter List
"I just can't believe they're going to be married in two days," you wistfully sigh, tossing your jacket onto the couch.
There was nothing quite like a wedding rehearsal dinner to put you in a particularly wistful, romantic mood. It also didnât hurt that you and Bucky had fallen back together so perfectly over the last few months. It all seemed to fall into place. "They're perfect for each other."
"They seem really happy," Bucky agrees, smiling at the lightness in your face.Â
You warmly smile back at him, "Yeah, they do."
"It was a beautiful night," Bucky continues. He ambles into the living room, following in your footsteps. âMakes you wonder, you know?â
Buckyâs not quite sure that you heard him. Youâre sort of lost in your own bubble of romanticism. He hasnât seen this side of you in quite some time, so heâs content to just watch you twirl around the room. He smiles at the way your dress swishes around you. Heâs not quite sure if the flush on your cheeks is the alcohol in your system or just the thrill of the night.Â
There's something about this night. Something that he can't quite put his finger on. He just doesn't want to end. It's like he wants to stay in these twenty seconds or live out the next twenty years with you in this very moment. He'll take either. Twenty seconds or twenty years. He doesn't just want this night, he wants them all.
His heart flutters, he can't remember the last time that happened. He walks over to his bookshelf, the that you almost burned down on one of your first dates together. He drops the needle and plays one of his records.Â
Your eyes flutter shut at the sound of music suddenly filling the room, gasping when Buckyâs arms suddenly wraps around your waist, "What are you doing?"
"I just wanted to dance with you. Is that okay?"
You chortle at him, looking up at him. It's in that moment that Bucky sees it. It's back, that glimmer of hope, of love. It's back. You nod, resting your head on his chest, "I always want to dance with you."
His heart flutters again. He keens at the feeling of you back in his arms. Itâs been six months of you back in his arms, but he never lets himself forget how lucky he is. In that moment, he knows he'll truly never get enough of you. "I really liked what Vision said, you know? About letting life surprise you with what it gives you."
"He is oddly poignant," you agree.
"Made me think of us."
You lift your head off his chest, looking up at him with a quirked eyebrow, "Really?"
"He said something like that when we were..." he trails off. It wasn't one of his finest moments in life, and he tried not to relive it as much as possible. To this day, he couldn't believe he almost burned down everything you had out of his own fear. It almost makes him feel sick thinking about the night he asked you to stay, to give him one more chance. He very well knows that it couldâve gone either way. "Well, you know."
Your head tilts to the side with an amused smirk, "You talked to Vision about us?"
"Yeah," Bucky anxiously chuckles. "I didnât really have a choice, everyone just about slapped me upside my head. Well, Steve actually did. But anyway, he told me, in no uncertain terms, that I was being an idiot, which wasn't that uncommon of a sentiment."
A laugh bubbles out of your mouth, "Vision called you an idiot?"Â
"Vision, Steve, Sam, Natasha, Wanda, Tony, Clint, even Peter. And honestly, I don't disagree."
Almost six months had passed since your brief separation. Six months had passed since he asked you to stay.
And stay, you did.
You talked that entire night, talked about how you could fix what was clearly broken.
You talked about everything, the future you wanted, the future he wanted. You agreed that Bucky would go back to therapy. You talked about the team and Buckyâs work. There was so much left uncertain at the end of the night, but you had one very solid conclusion: that you would both try. And in the months since then, things were settling fairly well. Bucky didnât wake up screaming in the middle of the night. He could envision a future that was brighter than the past. Your house felt like a home again. Light poured in once more. The silence was replaced with music. You finally danced with Bucky again.Â
Things were looking up. It all seemed brighter now.Â
Bucky finally stepped into the daylight.Â
"You don't?" you question.
"Well, I was being an idiot, and it almost cost me the best thing that has ever happened to me." You remain silent, a blush creeping up your face as Bucky continues talking, "You know that, right? You're the best thing that has ever happened to me, I love you, more than I ever thought possible."
"I love you too." You rest your head back against his chest, listening to the steady beating of his heart. It adds something to the moment. In this moment, it is you and him. He is all you see, all you care to hear. He is the only touch that has ever ignited hope within you. In this moment, everything is right. Everything is perfect. "And I'm glad we found our way back to each other."
"Me too." Just over your head, he looks at that bookcase. The one from your second date. What you didn't know was on a shelf just out of your reach, tucked in the corner, sat his mother's ring. He smiles to himself. He's sure in that moment that his heart will never be as full as it is in this moment. "I'm happy here. I want to be happy, to make you happy. I want us to be happy together."
What he didn't tell you was the he could see it all in his head. He could envision it like he'd live through it time and time again. He could see the home you'd build together. He could see the family you'd one day have. He could see you walking down the aisle to him.
He'd have the next twenty years, but until then, he'd have these twenty seconds to tide him over.Â
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Author's note: So... um... I've got a surprise for you guys. I couldn't actually decide what ending to go with. Sad? How unpredictable for me (That was sarcasm.) Happy? (I've always loved a happy ending, but I can acknowledge that they are not always the most realistic. So why not write both?
So here we are, dear readers, if you want to keep this image of a perfect, fluffy, happy ending, stop here. If not, I hope you enjoy! Let me know what you think!
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ok i texted people it has to be a post now everyone has to know that this happened. to me today. i am on my first day post-finals and as anyone who has been around for a minute knows i have had to literally claw at absolutely everything to get myself through the last eight months with job + classes happening at the same time as adjusting to a move AND adjusting to a really fucked up life realization that i realized only through deliberately putting myself in the torment nexus to "see what would happen" (the answer is that it's Bad). so today already has been this place of -- i am doing literally anything i want today, and what i want is to not clean the house and play video games and order in. and so i ordered from this indian place i love (wonderful) and added on a whim a slice of chocolate cake, and paid $6 for that slice of chocolate cake, which i felt was a solid price considering that this was a slice of cake i had really really enjoyed when trying it for the first time at a work event. and my "really really enjoyed" is A Lot because i get Super Emotional about dessert, just generally. closed my eyes mid work lunch and had a meditative moment with that cake.
ANYWAY. the place charged me the appropriate price of six american dollars for that slice of chocolate cake and instead of a slice of chocolate cake sent me . A Whole Fucking Cake. i got A Whole Fucking Cake. that i know i love. that i can have for an extremely late breakfast and probably also leftover dessert stretching far into the future. was literally thinking wistfully to myself that i'm a little tired of ice cream. this is the most loving kiss from the universe that i've ever received. i am losing it a little. called my father with my voice shaking like this cake , cost me , six dollars,
#musings#I JUST !J!!KJJHKJHNKJD#care SO MUCH about DESSERT??!?!!?!?!??!?!??!?!?#i think magic is real and it conspired to give me a $6 full sized really good cake
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Oh Em Gee, your request are open đ«Łđ”âđ«đ„”đ« You already know who I'm here who đŠââŹđđđ
(Also if you have a taglist add me bbg)
Bran x Reader please!! Preferably fem reader but GN is fine! (I felt so embarrassed writing this req idek)
Anywho, maybe Bran had just married reader (right after returning to winterfell) . She had been with him and Meera on their journey to and from beyond the walls. So they've pretty much grown up with eachother.
Feel free to change whatever you want, but what if readers had a really bad day and all she wanted to do was hold Bran. So they're in bed and she's just holding him to her chest đ«. Cause he knows she needs the comfort more than her đ«Ł.
And she's worried for the future, so Bran is just telling her some moments that they will experience. Like together they visit a warmer kingdom for political reasons, but that they are both happy and safe.
IM SO SORRY IF THIS WAS WEIRD JUST IGNORE IF YOU DONT WANNA WRITE IT! Just do whatever you want to it, I'm good with anything fluff, smut, angst you name it. I just want a happy ending đ«Łâ€ïžâ€ïžđđ TYSM
we shall have to wait and see
navigation | warnings : fem!reader, slightly suggestive, talks of children, pet names, reader might seem a bit childish ngl, reader is wearing a dress, a little dig at brans nose but i promise i fucking love his nose itâs so hot, um anyways- | a/n : if this ainât what you wanted, i apologise BUT BRAN FLUFF IS LIFE | bran stark playlist | tags : @lost-in-fiction-like-ur-mom @knight-of-flowerss
Sometimes you hated being the Queen, but you loved Bran, and Bran was the King, so you did your duty as his queen.
It got lonely in the castle sometimes, so you liked to walk through the rebuilt gardens.
Of course, you attended meetings of the utmost importance, but sometimes you just didn't feel like it.
Since the war with the white walkers, you had constantly been paranoid of the future. Always worrying about every little thing.
As you entered your chambers, you took some of the uncomfortable jewelry you were wearing off, slipped off your shoes, and clambered into the silk sheets on your bed.
Podrick entered the room with Bran, wheeling him towards the bed then bowing his head in your direction.
"Your grace."
Once the door was shut, Bran lifted himself onto the bed, then positioned himself so he was laying down.
You swung your leg over him, positioning yourself on top.
"Eager are we?" Bran smirked as he placed his hands on your hips.
Your hand was cupping his cheek as you gently stroked it with your thumb, instantly he knew something was wrong.
"What's the matter sweetheart?" He grabbed your other hand, the one on his cheek still stroking the soft flesh.
"Do I worry too much?" Your glossy eyes travelled to his.
Bran wasn't going to deny it, you did worry too much, but you had a right to.
"Maybe a little too much, but so what?" His hand travelled under the skirt of your dress and he softly caressed the flesh of your thigh.
"I think the council finds it annoying." You paused for a moment, Bran tilted his head. "Can you tell me about our future?"
Bran already knew the majority of your future together, he may or may not have had a little peak.
"Well," He brought your head down to his chest, gently kneading your hair. "Together we shall visit Dorne, for political reasons of course, but we will meet lots of nice people, and they will welcome us warmly." Bran felt you smile against him, making him smile too.
"I've always wanted to go to Dorne." You gently whispered, toying with one of the sleeves of his shirt.
"Maybe we shall have children, I'm not sure of that one yet..."
"Children? Would they have your hair?" You peered up at him delightfully.
"Maybe." He whispered wistfully.
"And your eyes? Maybe they should have my nose though."
"Maybe my dear, we shall have to wait and see."
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How about..... kitadai? The possibility hit me one day and I feel like there are so few people out there who share my vision đ (for me, even better in a arankitadaisuga situation)
mhmhmhmhhmh đ€
I actually have considered them a fair bit if we're being honest. Maybe not so much as some other rarepairs, especially because arankita is like.... top tier for me, buuuuuutttt...
I can defintely see where you're coming from with kitadai. First of all I can imagine them meeting at nationals before/after their game in the hallway, and having such a long, genuine conversation about sports, their hyper talented under classmen, life, everything. I feel like they'd get along right from the beginning.
I also think Daichi would find Kita SO PRETTY. Like painfully so. And Kita isn't the most nice person, he's definitely capable of smacking some people over the head when needed, so I imagine he's constantly having to whack Daichi and be like "darlin' if you stare at me any harder you're gonna cut a hole through me" and Daichi is embarassed but cant really defend himself
I also think Daichi could be very happy moving to Hyogo in the future to work on the farm with him. In the way that Kita gets his calm happy-ever-after I think Daichi would also really like staring wistfully out over rice fields. And Kita is hella impressed with not only his work ethic, but how quickly he learns new skills (or how he doesnt give up learning new skills)
They trade off who makes dinner in the evenings and then settle together to drink tea and eat dessert and Kita was not a big sweets person but Daichi is ravenous all the time and has brought home enough by now that Kita is a certified convert to all things sweet.
Their home life is so calm and well put together but they always make sure to throw watch parties for MSBY or Adlers games, duel-wielding the proud ex-captain "those are MY boys out there!!!"
I dont think these two are chemically capable of fighting. Absolutely they'd have flown to Paris to see the olympics together. Osamu came with them and it was weird on the plane.
[Arankitadaisuga is also one I havent thought much of! But I feel like its just this times 1000. Suga brings the most hetic energy of the bunch but with so many level heads used to dealing with much worse (twins) he doesnt get much reaction out of them. Aran and Suga would, sort of, be a problem together, though. Kita and Daichi come in from working on the farm and they're just covered in glue and paint for some reason. Aran points at Suga like "NO HE STARTED IT-" and Suga gives them the sweetest angel puppy eyes like "we were just gonna DIY a gift for you đ„ș" and the puppy eyes melt Daichi immediately but Kita has no mercy and just shakes his head and steps over them to put his stuff away. For some reason Daichi ends up cleaning the mess up.]
Overall Ratings:
For me, Personal Interest: 4/10
Concept/Potential: 6.5/10
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oops! i did it again. lessons from this school year...
Hey, you remember that post I made about my winter term priorities? HAHAHAHAHahaha ha ha. That plan totally went to shit, but it's all part of the journey, right? đ
(Tbh, it's quite difficult to make a conscious effort to change yourself when the default response to being and feeling busy is to go on autopilot -> all the unconscious habits, even if unhealthy, take control, and bc it's unconscious, you don't realize it until it gets quite bad! anyway! no more! my future plans make it so this will be impossible to do while still retaining some sense of sanity. so to prep, we're gonna slowly implement little changes so hopefully it's not so overwhelming that i give up)
đ§đ»ââïž comparing mindsets in fall and winter term
Fall term was not that bad bc I had 2 STEM subjects I really really loved and was interested in (biochem and mol bio đ), and despite their difficulty, that love and interest and the feeling that "I am in the right field for me" kept me positive. There were times I thought I would feel burnout symptoms if I wasn't careful, but I really think that positivity protected me from the worst of it.
Winter term, however...I had one favorite subject: moral philosophy, which led to me wistfully dreaming about an AU in which I double majored in philosophy and piano performance, lol. After the highs of biochem and mol bio and the natural ease with which the bits of info flowed together in those subjects, I did not enjoy pharmacology or the 2nd half of psyc as much -> loss of interest -> negativity and feeling like I'm in the wrong field bc how dare I not like pharmacology (or psychology) as much as the other life science-y subjects when it's really so important for us to survive and thrive! đ
I mean, there were times I could get that spark from pharmacology or psyc, but it wasn't often enough or intense enough to keep me consistently inspired throughout the semester. The feeling of "maybe I don't have what it takes and I'm in the wrong field" was compounded by the re-realization that there's sm to know of bioinformatics and I struggle to know any of it! Persevering is important, but it's harder to persevere with a negative mindset.
đ€ what went wrong this school year and what i learned from it
I still struggle with perfectionism (and bc of it, procrastination). While it might not be as bad as it was in high school, I still spent too long on assignments that weren't worth much and during finals season, was so scared of getting less than 90% just to keep up my A+ streak. Like, I'm pretty sure no one who cares to know your GPA cares about whether you have an A+ streak or not. I have too high a threshold for what is a "disappointing" grade. I also struggle with deep regret about how I haven't mastered everything they throw at us in each course... definitely an unrealistic expectation, especially as the proportion of new info to absorb increases with each course. I did what I could using what I knew to do, so it is what it is. I may find ways to make improvements and learn more, but I won't beat myself up for not having known to do those things in the past.
Did not use effective study methods. Since first year, my problem has been keeping up with the readings and my solution has been to just use typed outline notes. It worked for the first few years when it was mostly review from previous courses with a few new concepts in between. But as I progress through my degree, the proportion of completely new info is increasing. This notetaking method won't work anymore bc it just causes cognitive overload, especially during exam season (when I've mostly forgotten the details of everything that isn't smth I've already known for years). E.g. for pharmacology, I got so bogged down by the details of all the drug classes that I didn't see the big picture and so didn't organize the info according to it. This made it hard to see patterns and better chunk the info. I was so stressed during finals season bc of this (and the sheer amount of notes that I had to read for psyc đ). What makes it feel like even more of a problem is that the cognitive overload problem from my notetaking method has been a thing for all other uni courses thus far, it's just that pharmacology was the first time I needed to create a stronger connecting thread between the otherwise disparate pieces of info (drug classes). In all other courses, that thread was part of the nature of the topic being studied so I eventually understood it as I kept going and mentally re-organized it in my brain...but even then it was hodge-podge and so my depth of mastery was and is so flimsy, and every semester I leave feeling drained and like I wasted the opportunity to maximize my learning. (How dramatic I get about this is also probably tied to my perfectionism, but I still think it would greatly benefit future me to change my notetaking style.)
đ advice for future me
Look at the academic calendar, specifically the faculty course descriptions. Look at how many hours they say you should expect to spend on each activity in the course. Try to use those learning hours as a guide for your schedule so that you don't spend too long on an item that isn't worth much. If there isn't such a breakdown, assume one based on whatever they give you or other courses and adjust from there.
Be a more efficient reader by skimming the text first so you can map the flow of info in a way that best creates ease of understanding/synthesis/memory (e.g. via an outline, tree diagram, flowchart, mind map, or simple drawings - and noticing when a list/outline will NOT be helpful bc it'll just be too overwhelming and not easy to compare/contrast info and see patterns). I knowww you've survived thus far without doing it this way and done well, BUT with this many courses, the increasing complexity of each subject, and the overload of info in each, you WILL need to do this to make quicker work of the readings, save you sooo much stress during exam seasons, and improve how much you learn while in school which is the real goal you've wanted to achieve all this time. Don't repeat the mistake you made in pharmacology. And it really doesn't have to be aesthetic and you definitely should NOT get caught up with it if you really wanna learn. You could just use one color for everything and a highlighter and just basic shapes/lines - that alone can be way more effective than boring paragraphs/lists or a colorful, overly complex diagram that'll just distract you from the main point.
Create a realistic daily routine (wake-up and sleep times, start and end times for schoolwork) and be strict about following it. Set your non-negotiables for personal goals to keep up with alongside your schoolwork bc academics aren't everything. Remember how you regretted not devoting more time to extra-curriculars and other skills in high school which would've rounded you out as a person. You can try theming the parts of the day so that you don't have to think about what task you should do first after study breaks and keep up the momentum (e.g. mornings for readings and notes, afternoons for active recall/homework). Then you can live the rest of the day after school as structured or unstructured as you wish. If this strategy doesn't work for you, you don't have to use it.
Take advantage of interleaving so you don't get bored. Whether by following the theming strategy or just switching subjects every hour, idc if you aren't done yet, you better switch bc the second consecutive hour of the same thing is never as effective as the first.
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