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yesterday i was insane about that fictional man. today i am insane about that fictional man. tomorrow? take a wild guess brother

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why can’t things be easy peasy lemon squeezy

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Quick sketches of Lucanis 💜

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what's it like being a guy who witnessed the deaths of those he loved taken from him at a young age and has spent his whole life since training to be an assassin and resigning himself to believing dealing death was all he was good for. being a guy who believed his life was always forfeit, the thought of wanting a fuller, different life beyond duties and expectations set for him was out of the question and death was his only escape. what if this guy goes through the most grueling torture hellscape of a prison for what seems like eternity until someone saves him. then this guy comes back and he learns his grandmother is gone and the threat of losing his cousin looms in the back of his mind but he has a world to save in the midst of all that so he offers his services to focus on settling a debt. now this guy is working alongside the team for some time and he starts to grow close (maybe more than he realizes but we'll get to that). finally the big moment to take down one of the gods comes and when the team needs him most, the plan goes awry and he misses his shot. now this guy isolates himself to sit alone with his demon(s), grueling and agonizing over every possible scenario of how it could've been different and how he could've done better, should've done better. except, what if you are a guy who also maybe doesn't realize it isn't simply a bruised ego about being 'whatever else i am, i'm a professional'. what if maybe you're a guy who believed if he can't employ that one skill he knows how to do - dealing death - to protect the ones he cares about, and save them and the world - what does he have left? what good is he for?

and then you have THIS:

coming from the man who is/was plagued by self doubt about his own self worth and abilities yet was willing to be so supportive of you!? coming from the man who begins to realize he can be there in other ways for the people he cares for beyond simply being a weapon??? honestly this man makes me feel ill. i love him.

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my star ⭐️

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I would literally be unstoppable if I didn’t have that persistent pit in my stomach that everyone in a room is just a little bit annoyed by my presence

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its unreal how all of my favorite characters have exactly the same traits and hobbies and diagnoses as me

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your wip just called. hey man your wip just called. its asking where you've been man.

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this game wants me dead btw

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when even that guy is like rook for the love of FUCK go make sure your man hasn’t died yet

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One of my fave things about the DA games is the parallels of characterization between the protags.

The Warden and The Inquisitor both have a kind of dignity and honor about them. They're both like "I absolutely did not want to be in this position, but here I am and we'll get this done one way or another." They both force people to work together for a greater good and unite under their banner and both are reasonably competent at their jobs.

Hawke and Rook on the other hand... things are just going wrong constantly for them, they are both consistently on their 13th reason, and their main defense is a "the horrors persist but so do I" attitude. They also did not want to be in the position they're in but they're "DOING MY FUCKING BEST CUT ME SOME SLACK I DON'T SEE ANYONE ELSE STEPPING UP" and if one more thing goes wrong they're both going to just start biting people.

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Lucanis: I have to be constantly vigilant. If I lose control for even a second, Spite will take over and hurt Rook.

Spite: Rook LOOK! I made us friendship bracelets! (hands them a twisted bit of possibly twine, possibly sinew)

Lucanis: He is truly a monstrous demon and can not be trusted.

Spite: Wrote you a poem! (hands them insane ramblings covered in purple glitter gel pen hearts)

Lucanis:….

Spite:….Ķǐşś?

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don’t compromise on how you want to be loved

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🪓Unpractical Magical Axes my beloved🪓

each one done in 1 hour, based on this list of prompts ( I wanted to do swordtober but i prefer axes and doing it whenever i want dfghgfh)

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okay so everyone complaining that rook isn’t there in lucanis’ quest ‘inner demons’…

spite *literally* spells it out.

‘there’s nobody there.’

‘of course not. rook can’t be there.’

‘me? why?’

‘you don’t close doors. you open them.’

you *can’t* be one of the people holding him closed off. you’re the one opening him up.

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someone help him.