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Revisiting my nightmare design and giving him another outfit for fun!
Also some practice with expressions based on the expression sheet by @/capochiino because I need to work on drawing faces more expressively-
I’m not quite there yet, but it’s not doing terribly I think…

Nightmare was made by jokublog
I also drew this cause I wanted to explore a better dressed nightmare- personality wise I feel like it makes more sense to have him be a bit more extravagant or well put together than his cannon design with just the hoodie.
For my own interpretation of him, I feel like it would be interesting to approach his character in a way where he does both- the more elaborate or fancy outfits preferably, but the hoodie fit as more of a crutch for when he needs it, linking his outward expression and appearance to his stability and control over his own emotions/ the corruption.
I think when he first turned, the corruption would’ve made him quite unstable emotionally, and taken away a lot of control- being visually represented by it soaking through and staining all of his clothes to be the same colour as the corruption itself. Kinda showing him being overwhelmed by the new influence. But the more comfortable he becomes, the better he’s able to manage the new state, giving him the opportunity to do things more to his own taste.
This also allows him to experiment with adding some pops of colour to his clothes, though he’d still stick to darker tones to protect his pride- so that it’s not as obvious when his control lapses and the corruption seeps through to contaminate the garments. On particularly bad days he’d revert to his cannon clothing, both to save the clothes he likes from being tarnished, but also as a way to seek comfort.
I’m not sure if I explained that super well lol, but those are kinda my personal head cannons.
#nightmare#nightmare sans#sans#dreamtale#drawing#digital art#anime art#my art#digital drawing#undertale multiverse#utmv#bad sanses#nightmare dreamtale#I kinda wanna make his vibe somewhere between dark academia and goth#cause one fits his love of books#and the other has the potential to help him look real dramatic#and I feel like he would be a melodramatic king#like#he’d enjoy being a little over the top#when he’s not trying to intimidate people#maybe the two would feed into each other#but for sure#he definitely likes getting a reaction out of people#finds it funny#now I just have to take these character ideas and actually write for him#(this is easier said than done)
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So does anybody else ever think about how Loop felt the need to demonstrate that the party's deaths wouldn't have any effect on the loops. I know I do but that's besides the point. Anyway I don't think Loop actually needs to bathe, they just like to feel included.
#'but lucabyte didnt you already do a comic with this exact same message? that loop has potentially killed their party intentionally before?'#yes i did absolutely do that thank you for noticing. that is what the cannibalism comic is about. no that was not a metaphor. lol#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#sifloop#isat siffrin#isat loop#in stars and time fanart#isat fanart#lucabyteart#ill ramble elsewhere some other time. maybe in a text post. but. long and short of it: even if you assume the answer to 'how do they know'#is that in sasasap isa got frozen once. theres still the fact that the loops are from sif being too distressed. how far gone does a siffrin#have to be before they can witness a party member die and notice it has no effect. how does loop feel to have planned to kill the party#during act 3. why did they NEED to show sif that. are they trying to preemtively stop them from getting the idea in their head#that maybe that might work? when they're out of all other options? when they just get so frustrated and at wits end?#loop helps in subtle ways through the whole game. and in less subtle ways like begging sif not to use the dagger. and while yes the#overarching reason you need to learn that the loops are tied to sif is because you need to figure out wish craft.... loop doesn't know the#actual mechanics of the loops themselves. just what didn't work. the power of friendship. getting the final hit in. being perfect. etc...#and besides all that.. how did loop feel during that hangout. being so deceitful. especially since before the other shoe drops#sif is enjoying themselves. but they know what's coming the whole time.#as for: why bathing? its the obvious imagery for blood on their hands/washing/never being clean. and is a bit of an inversion of the other#piece i just drew with the other casual closeness and nudity being kind. this one is cruel instead.#anyway tag ramble over ill do a masterpost of all my fanwork with some directors commentary sometime i promise. since i know im often vague
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theyre in my head. forever. take some scraps
#tadc#the amazing digital circus#tadc gangle#tadc jax#tadc zooble#tadc pomni#before anyone speaks up i am a lesbian pls dont point out the dyke part#i simply think he could be lesbian material. is he? no#i personally see him as very questioning and weird. too stunted with too many walls for romance#begrudgingly accepts friendships and maybe gets One close enough that gives him a weird. moment. realization#kicks his ass into gear that oops cant be driving them all away now or ill wanna kms#i wish i was capable of multishipping bc ribbun has some funny potential but man.#as is its too Not For Me. but gangle beating on jax for revenge is sooooo funny#also the fact ragatha and jax are the same person in different flavors? delightful.#both hiding themselves to such an extent that the one everyone knows isnt Real.#rags hiding herself through helping others while jax does it through pushing them away viciously and acting out#despicable. they care for each other in their own weird way.#she hates him but doesnt want him to die. she hates him but if something happened then she would be worried.#thanks for reading my rambling
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For the art requests: A Pokemon Mystery Dungeon team comprised of a Banette, Phantump, and Drifloon struggling to read a map?
(I was possessed by the idea of a trio team made up by these three spookies who have a neat possible dynamic when you look at their 'Dex entries, and I'd love to see your take on them in your style!)
Ooh this is such a good combo! All fantastic ghosts with that loose relationship to children falling to some misfortune

Team leader Phantump seems pretty confident, but hard to trust a pokemon’s sense of direction when their claim to fame is “child who got lost in the forest and died”
#Sincerely-sofie#Drifloon#banette#phantump#pokemon doodles#original art#thanks for the ask!#Been thinking about this dynamic and honestly there could be so much here#Thinking of phantump as the potential leader#They’re technically the “child” so resonate most with the central theme#banette I feel would assume the role of caregiver/guardian a bit#Looking out for their kid#Maybe they were a plushie the child had left in the forest by mistake?#Came to life as a banette and was upset/angry for being abandoned#Until they found the body of the child who lost them next to a confused looking phantump#Who’s saying something about how much they missed their toy that went missing the other day and how they got lost looking for it#As for drifloon maybe they started following the child when they came back to the woods?#Had some not so holy thoughts about spiriting them away#Couldn’t pick them up but maybe ended up leading them deeper in/causing them to get lost?#Possibly were the indirect cause of them meeting their demise/winding up as a phantump?#But banette doesn’t know that#They made themself scarce when the kid died#And “appeared” later and joined their team#they felt guilty about being involved and want to help the pair#eventually genuinely come to enjoy their company and become real friends#of course until banette learns the truth#Sorry that took a rather non-pmd turn for a silly doodle XD#pokemon like phantump make me a little insane#There’s so many implications for stuff like that#And I get it’s probably more of a “legends have it this species arose like this” thing
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I personally subscribe to the idea that Adventurer Zenos shows his affection and appreciation for his peers in very odd ways (like yoinking the Students' taxes and dealing with their expenses and maybe also paying for some of their expenses but shhh).
#ffxiv#sketch#fan art#zenos yae galvus#g'raha tia#krile mayer baldesion#adventurer zenos#I like the thought that krile and zenos go from mutual ignoring/dislike to krile and tataru having to hunt zenos down#because after he starts caring about the students and scions he would purposely keep away from krile knowing that she could#potentially hear how he's feeling- and I write Adven!Zenos as starting to do better but I dont imagine his idle thoughts are there yet#I imagine the groups going from “we put up with him because we're trying to keep him from making the same mistakes again” to#“wow he's actually surprisingly chill and helpful” (other than- well- the obvious)#local former prince putting in the effort + and being given a proper chance? he gets to thrive a bit. as a treat#maybe ill also work a bit on the concept that he still really doesnt know what fully drives him and makes him happy#but he at least starts getting a bit of enjoyment out of seeing the people he cares for happy#(so much so he'll make himself suffer through stacks of paperwork)
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These are brain worms that have been eating me and idk what to do with but what if danny phantom × pjo/toa crossover that's danny/amnesiac!lester. He hit his head when he crashed landed in that dumpster and forgot everything, stumbled out of the alley and wandered away. Meg just misses him, instead good ol Danny finds him and because he's a nice guy they go to the hospital together and stay in touch. They find out Lester (or whatever he'd be going by with no memories) is basically a ghost (ha) and Danny is like hey you know where ghosts belong, the most haunted town in America:] and lester has nothing else going on so they both leave and the gods have no fucking clue where mortal apollo is. I imagine he stays like that for a while (years in my head because it's funny for me but has horrid implications) until he gets hit in the face with a dodgeball and it all comes back to him. Cue monumental mental breakdown because as far as he was concerned he was 100% human until now.
#it doesnt have to be lester/danny but i think its especially funny#because i subscribe to the danny is adopted son of clockwork aka the crooked one aka kronos#but neither of those things have to be true or one can be true and the other one isnt#its just funny to me like picture this#apollo/lester is helped through his mental breakdown by his loving bf. he pauses in the middle of the mental breakdown#to look at said loving bf like this 😐 for 20 seconds straight and then immediately goes 😬#his loving bf is the son of The Worst Guy Ever and they have a good relationship#and lester/apollo unfortunately still likes him#real talk i think danny and apollo would get along even better after tho because they would understand eachother more#like theyre different but Lester thought he was 100% mortal for years and now he finds out he isn't and in canon a couple of months impacted#him greatly so imagine YEARS#like hes not a demigod but he doesnt feel like a god anymore hes fundamentally changed.#even worse if lester feels like apollos memories were shoved in his head and less of him awakening as a god (prob wouldnt happen this way)#(but the angst potential pleases me)#like sorry danny can say hes half human and half ghost but i think hes just fully something else#and maybe not physically but in his soul apollo/lester is also now something else TM on like. an emotional level#anyway picture apollo walking into olympus 6 years later like hey...how yall doing...#idk how hed get his divinity back thats for yall to dream up#danny phantom crossover#dp × pjo#danny phantom#pjo crossover#<- crossover tags so i dont bug ppl that have these blocked lol
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thinking abt how one of the defining traits of metal sonic who's supposed to be this cold unfeeling machine is that they completely block out logical thinking to blindly attack sonic whenever they cross paths.. attacks him like an animal, not like a killing machine. attacks him in the way that only someone who feels an obsessive hatred could attack someone.. idk.. something something their most defining trait disproves what is allegedly their other most defining trait.. if that is the case then who are they at all?
#me posts#metal sonic#sth#the identity crisis is baked into her!!!!!and yet they still just add her as killer robot number 5608#which dont get me wrong i love it when she mauls and kills but i just mean like auugh yknow there is so much story potential but#in universe they are just cast aside. which is so strange bc sonic typically is all for helping his rivals but with metal for some reason h#es so reluctant. like yeah he wants metal to 'be good' but he barely cares whenever she shows signs of life and most other characters just#write it off as acting strange or dont even seem to notice at all#man these tags could be a whole other post idk im running on no sleep falling asleep at the keyboard mayb this makes no sense#but im rotating metal in my mind so now its ur problem my followers#sonic the hedgehog
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very sad still see the saria/silence divorce headcanon still going around
have you ever tried to consider that they never dated before lone trail because it would be unrealistic with the timeline and the events and also because it would be overshadowing the actual truth of why they couldn't get along
#i'll elaborate#firstly it's ok if you headcanon this i don't want to invalidate what people think#it's just that I think it's a fanon joke that have been going around for way too long#and I can't help but shed a small tear when I see people really headcanoning it#I personally think it's way more interesting if we consider that they never had something going on before Lone Trail#mostly because it's weird that they started dating in like some months when they barely knew or saw each other#but also because it adds nothing but just makes things even more harder for them#my personal headcanon is that Silence was maybe having feelings for Saria but like#you know these very premature feelings#like just “oh wow she's pretty and nice”#but nothing like really deep#but they never had anything going on before the diabolic crisis#and after lone trail after they made up and saw each other's true person#they start to actually get real feelings#I'm just complaining but I've been still seeing it around somehow and it's sad to me that this joke became a fact for many people#there's still a lot of fanfics about how they had been dating and now they're on bad terms#I think that going on the “they're exes” route is way too easy and actually hides the potential and interesting reason#of why Silence was mad at Saria#it's not because she hates Saria or blame her#it's because she's mad at herself for being so weak#really making them appear as exes just hides this really interesting truth and makes it all seem to be a sad love story#consider that they never had any of this and that this tension between them is because they blame themselves!!#their story is not a love story but above all a story about self love and acceptance#just my two cents enjoy my rambling i go back to bed now#(not putting this in the main tag I don't want to start a war I'm just rambling)
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woke up like 40 mins ago at like 4:30 unable to fall back alseep so im once again thinking about ragatha and pomni as The Ocd Havers. its everything to me. oh whoops i ran out of tags on this post
#i also saw a good post abt moral ocd followed by a wildly bad resoonse to it#like 10 mins after waking up#so im esp thinking abt ragatha moral ocd#i like giving them versions of ocd that are unpleasant and not cute and that people have a hard time even acknowledging as real forms of ocd#its probably me giving myself too much credit or holding myself to very silly idras but like#i wanna be able to depict the two or even just characters in general having ocd#in a way that could potentially help someone get a better idea of the different ways that ocd presents...#the amnt of ppl who responded to my ragatha ocd posts w 'wait i do this' is like its not necessarily GOOD to relate but also#i dont think all facets of ocd are well represented so its hard for people to figure that sorta thing out...#so in my heart im like maybe it could help to depict characters in a way i find cathartic and important bc then some ppl will Find Out#esp as someone who only even got diagnosed w ocd once it got bad enough that my therapist was concerned for my safety when i was like 18 ish#(true story... if youre thinking 'how could someone having ocd put their safety at risk'#research magical thinking ocd. andalso responsibility ocd and try connecting random dots and you might find it 👍#but also i think id need to add like 400 tws to this post if i actually elaborated)#point being. ragatha ocd and pomni ocd are dear concepts to me as someone with a very unfun version of ocd#ragathas themes to me are like. moral and responsibility. and yknow what maybe aprinkle in magical thinking too#pomnis themes to me are existential and sensory motor and a little bit of magical thinking too and harm ocd#i think they both would have other themes. after all ocd usually doesnt manifest as Just having a few themes and thats it#ppl usually have a Little Bit of most possible themes and then have some more prominently#and even then themes can shift over time...#i also think both of them have early onset ocd is good because i do too and i like it#ocd thats characterized by it worsening over time!!!!! thats them...#to me human younger pomni spent so much time with just right ocd compulsions#i also generally interpret pomni as having Some Sort Of Issues with anxiety or panic pre entering the circus already#so it relates to that . in my mind#and i do think the circus has made ragathas obsessions so much worse...#bit i think they did exist before the circus. just peobably got more extreme w trauma :(#bc the evil thing abt ocd is that it teams up w trauma. ypu WILL get obsessions related to trauma#ptsd already has unwelcome thoughts abt ur trauma as a component so ocd compounds it and gives you#fake new ways you come up with to ease the fear that if you dont do a compulsion itll Happen Again
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I have to be honest and say that it’s kind of amusing to see Guignard/Fabbri look pissed every time their score appear on the screen, not only have they completely dismissed the very valid feedback they got on their programs and packaging this season (like they legit gave an interview where they were borderline arrogant about it) but they are also losing levels left and right and for some reason they don’t really seem to be improving that. They are a team who never had a lot of personality or stand out material and their technical proficiency was their biggest strength and unfortunately it’s not really there anymore the last two seasons and doesn’t seem to be improving.
#their faces when their WTT RD score came up were very telling#but I honestly feel like they learned nothing from this season and seem to refuse any self reflection m#sad because they are a team with tons of potential#but between the return of teamNarc and the wildcard Russian team that will be at the Olympics#you’d think they will think long and hard about their own role in how things are playing out#and not just blame judges and other teams and such#maybe the off season will help? who knows#figure skating
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qantoine’s coping mechanism to feeling left behind being both self-isolating and becoming possesive of those he cares for is so juicy as a concept . like yeah you go you funky creachure, manifest those complicated and sometimes contradictory emotions
#anyone remember that one fanart of qantoine like . grabbing onto qetoiles and covering his mouth antoine reposted to his insta story .#anyone wonder what was up with that . like he reposted fanarts every now and again but like . that one specifically was such a Choice on hi#part . fantastic fanart btw it occupies space in my brain still#but yeah god . i think qantoine’s self-isolation (+ his secrecy the way he struggled generally to connect with others etc)#was the more obvious Thing he did as a coping mechanism . but damn were those smaller moments of possessiveness interesting#bc you could often just read it as protectiveness instead and well it Was that . but i think it becomes even more interesting if u read it#through a possesive lens . theyre two sides of the same coin anw it just depends on where the limit between the two lies for u#anw i think it manifested itself most obviously with pomme bc a parent-child relationship lends itself to that dynamic more . ough some goo#moments there i’d need to revist their relationship more . ‘je te connais comme si je t’avais créé’ which just has layers of potential#meaning . if you subscribe to the theory that qantoine had a hand in creating the eggs then that adds even More to the potential#possessiveness there . love it#and it manifested with qfrench too i think just in more subtle ways . like idk when there were implications he’d done a Thing to help them#out in some way . like the implication that he had a hand in getting ayp out of prison that one time . or when he was protective of etoiles#during prison . or even moments where he failed to achieve some sort of level of power over them like when bagz and ayp broke into his#secret room and he kept giving bagz the cold shoulder when she was trying to apologise to him 😭 . idk stuff like that . semi petty bitch#energy . but i LOVE the idea of this eldritch dude who’s still figuring out how mortal relationships work kinda just . being too possessive#too controlling . all in the effort to try and keep them in One Piece . and maybe in the end it won’t matter How he keeps them safe as long#as he manages to . he’s old as hell and he’s probably gonna outlive them and theyre all so fragile and small . they won’t see the bigger#picture so he’ll have to make sure he’s manoeuvring them around inside it correctly . <- absolute hc territory in the end there but it’s#very fun to think about :P#jay rambles#antoine daniel#qfrench.posting
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people who do STEM or administration as a career full time and continue to do art as a hobby, I am scared of you but like in a hot way. youre like if we were allowed to have cold drinks in winter. i look at you and think of miles morales with his two cakes. do you want to make out sometime
#i say all of this positively bc i just! i cant help admiring it!! even if its mundane or not a big deal to you i seriously cant wrap my head#around it.. this is in no way at all meant to be condescending or anything. whenever i look at someones bio and theyre like oh im working#as a lab assistant biologist pharmacist realtor etc im like woag.... thats insane.. and then i peep your art tag and it knocks my socks of#how?? what lives do you lead??? im so curious. i seriously want a peek inside your brains someday. or at least shadow you at work lol#i cant help but feel sad when someone says smth like well i have to support myself and art cant do that for me. or maybe you were#pushed into pursuing a 'safe' career bc i hear it a lot. all of my relatives have the same story working as nurses and OFWs for the family#i think for me its not about missed potential but rather its being sad about making a decision to put your happiness aside to get by#ive tried so hard to do it but it didnt work out. i guess watching you guys do it is fascinating to me#or maybe youve made peace with your decision or actually like what you pursued but im still amazed!! it makes me wonder what made#you pick one over the other in that case.. is it like putting time for two different things the way you would for a schedule?? hmmm#im doing graphic design so i dont really interact with ppl in other faculties even humanities like sociology or childcare... so i cant help#wondering what it must be like as someone whos pursuing visual communication both as an interest and career#i seriously wish i could do smth like a desk job or even admin and maybe ill try that if this doesnt work. or i could look into trades#but dyscalculia already makes it hard to do things like cash and mental math so i get overwhelmed if i think about this too hard#yapping
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I’m kind of interested in the setup of TFP post-war Cybertron
Because up until the finale, it was a dead world, and the only people there now were the people who were there when it got restored in the first place. There’s no one there, everyone has to come back
So like, anyone, Autobot or Decepticon, could come back to help and rebuild Cybertron, and by proxy, have a second chance. The only ones standing in their way would be the TFP cast, and they let Knockout join them. So like unless you’re causing real trouble, you probably won’t get discriminated against for your faction
But also everyone coming there would learn that the war is pretty much over, since Optimus is dead and Megatron renounced the cause (though he could probably also be declared dead as well, since he doesn’t really seem like he wants people looking for him). So again, having to make peace with the other factions
I think the setup could make some interesting post-war stories, rebuilding Cybertron and trying to reunify the race, without Optimus or Megatron around
I know IDW had stories post-war, but I think there the Senate was still around in some way and Cybertron still populated and with certain biases. With the Prime setup, pretty much everything’s a clean slate, with no government or war faction leaders (though there’s still some commanders and such), just the ruins of Cybertron and whoever comes back to rebuild
#I know that’s not the angle RID did since it takes place after the rebuilding of Cybertron#and admittedly you might not get the most fun show out of it#but there’s potential in it I think#with conflict coming from people who won’t accept the end of the war#though I also would like this setup for its own story that maybe includes Optimus and Megatron#because I’m attached to megop#but also having Megatron help in the rebuilding of Cybertron in a literal sense#I think I’ve seen someone else do that on here#but it’s still a neat idea#especially given how skilled the g1 Decepticons are at building things#the Autobots could use the help#but anyways yeah#I need to rewatch tfp at some point#but I have other shows to watch too#transformers#transformers prime
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rick becomes super into multiversal travel after prime introduces him to it, very hyperfocused on it and the opportunities it presents (like how the gotron episode establishes that rick can get carried away unless someone reels him in). diane might initially be supportive of this but as rick's appearances around the house become more shoddy, she gets fed up and they separate. after a much more complex deterioration of their relationship obviously rick considers this a win at the time, since he's now free to dick around and do whatever he wants, essentially adopts prime's life philosophy and hangs around him. him and prime would eventually have some sort of falling out, which leaves rick extremely bitter and annoyed. he ends up spending most of his life alone, still living by his pop nihilistic ideals because he thinks this is what he wants. eventually he'd still end up squatting in prime's dimension and realizes that he actually Prefers this family life. his infatuation with prime could develop into resentment when he realizes that he essentially robbed rick of a comfortable, idealistic life
#whatever. im crazy#and look im still incorporating parts of canon i like!!!#this is just. to me. would be a much more conclusive(?) approach to his character arc#hes given a choice between the entire universe and his family and he chooses the universe#and then hes given that choice again and he Chooses A Family this time#like idk. it would be so much more in line with whats been established of rick previously#like in the toxic ep where he considers morty an irrational attachment#idk maybe it would hit harder for a character who has constantly chosen loneliness?#for him to realize that hes attached but not being able to view it as anything other than a burden due to How He's Been Living#not to mention him being attached to prime in his younger years could help illustrate how he's always craved connection#does this make sense? whatever. im offering you a view into my sick and twisted mind palace#this is just my very self indulgent approach to an alternative rick backstory#not to mention c137 beth and diane could still exist as angst potential!!! what if rick went back to make amends!#or maybe even a solaricks situation where hes forced to confront the ugly past hes left behind right as he accepts a life with the smiths
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Imagine if in OoA, Fuuta wasn't unconscious when Amane showed up during the initial attack. Better for Amane since she's not alone, but probably much worse for Fuuta since he's forced to watch helplessly.
So... prompt? 👉👈
OUGHGH what a concept... You would think the near-death experience is what's most traumatizing to him but no, it's the fact that, yet again, he couldn't be the hero that he thought he was... Thank you so much for the request and uuhh sorry I beat up your boy...
TW for violence/injury, nothing super gory but I did try to detail out Kotoko's canon attacks
He’s probably never even taken a hit in his life.
Kotoko’s fist connected solidly with Fuuta’s jaw. His vision sparked.
And anyway, it’s his own fault. He got himself into this mess.
Her knee jabbed into his gut, knocking the wind out of him before he could gain his bearings from the previous strike. Kotoko had appeared out of nowhere in the middle of the night. He’d been dragged out of bed with a cheap shot to his face.
The voices in his head spoke oblivious to the situation. He hardly processed a single word they said, the sound drowned out by the prisoners’ shouts. By the ringing in his ears.
He’s so pathetic.
By the crack of his own bones breaking.
So weak.
By the choked sounds he could hardly recognize as his own.
So cowardly.
The room dipped and darkened as his consciousness threatened to give out. His chest rattled with a struggling breath. Kotoko’s arm raised, and he got the feeling this blow would be the last.
Well, whatever happens, he did it to himself.
She paused. Something distracted her from behind. Fuuta was left in a heap, his body unresponsive to his mind’s desperate pleas to escape with this chance. The most he could do was angle his head to see what had blessed him with this moment of relief.
It took only an instant for his gratefulness to sharpen into panic.
Just think of that poor, young girl. She had her whole life ahead of her.
Kotoko towered over her Amane. She had flattened herself against the cell door. The flickering fluorescents above cast a shadow across her face.
There was too much spinning inside – and blood outside – of Fuuta’s head to make any sense of what they were saying to one another. He got a pretty good idea when Kotoko lunged forward and struck the girl.
And now she’s dead. Because of him.
Fuuta tried to pick himself up. He had to stop this. More blood pooled around him, but he no longer cared. All he could focus on was the new splotches of red that Amane dabbed at with her uniform sleeve.
As hard as he willed himself to move, his limbs refused. He thought emergencies like this were supposed to give you newfound adrenaline. You were supposed to triumph over the pain, not succumb to it ripping through every inch of your being.
Does he think this is one of his stupid video games? This is real life. He’s nothing special.
He dragged himself an inch or two forward, and that was all. He could only watch helplessly as Kotoko attacked again. Amane sank to the ground after a few harsh kicks to her legs. She lifted her arms to block her face.
If he wanted to help society, he should have protected people. He should have protected that girl.
Fuuta had never begged for anything in his life before.
He opened his mouth to beg Kotoko to stop.
But his body was doing everything in its power to sabotage him. His words dissolved into wheezing coughs. He couldn’t speak, couldn’t breathe. He couldn’t save anyone.
He hasn’t done anything useful with his life. Worthless.
Darkness invaded his vision. The horrible sounds within the cell grew more and more distant.
Amane was thrown to the ground nearby. She lay close enough for him to reach his arm towards her, though still out of his grasp. Her eyes were trained on him. He wished he had the voice to scream at her to look away – to turn her attention to Kotoko, and not the failure of a man who wasn’t going to help her.
All he could do was hold her gaze until his own eyes slipped shut.
Some hero he was.
Just before the world disappeared around him, he felt warm fingers interlock with his, and squeeze.
#milgram#order of attack#fuuta kajiyama#amane momose#i was messing around with the voices for one of my milgramblrgram attacks in progress and was struck with inspiration for this#i think so much fuuta angst for me is that he really really wanted to be heroic even in doing his crime#so a situation like this is Worst Case Scenario#it also made me think about the shit people were talking about the guilties at the same time they were being attacked#and made me think about what im saying about the characters right now while theyre potentially going through The Horrors....#i know we dont get to see amanes pov here but i hope its clear she is grateful and has no reason to blame him/expect him to help#in fuutas mind hes like 'im the man! im the older and stronger one! shes definitely looking to me to protect her!'#meanwhile amane is like 'Oh that guy is Dead i need to protect him'#anyway uhhhhh i hope you enjoyed 🤗#thank you for the requests hehehe#drabbles#i was going to wait until tomorrow but maybe i format and post a few others tonight
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post ankle-twisting clarity
#i slipped in the mudddddd the other day LOL i twisted my one ankle and scraped up my other knee#so the past few days ive just been kind of needing to waddle around.....#LUCKILY its healing well and fast <3 but yknow i was like#so stressed out over shit that doesnt matter in school. and like this is an awful unintentional habit i have but i will get like#overly stressed over shit and then i'll start getting SUPER careless with everything. and then i'll injure myself foolishly and Calm Down#happened last year with my foolish midnight woodcarving incident LOL its always november....#BUT yeah luckily this years foolish injury is a quick one at least!!#but yeah like genuinely i was so stressed out about all my fine arts major shit. teachers have been really getting on my case recently#my main professor said that it was a good thing people get so riled up with my work because it means its impactful#tbh i didnt believe her at all i thought she was just trying to placate me but then i listened closely to the things faculty say when#they look at my fucking. cartoon wolf drawing or something and i think. she might be right actually. people keep getting frustrated with me#because i think they see a lot of potential in me but i basically only have to drive to draw cartoon wolves etc HFKJSDHJVKRFEds#which is great for my ego. maybe too good for my ego. that my mark making and colour use etc is so evocative to these industry and#instutition people. but on the other hand i was told like thrice now that my work has no place in a gallery. which is fine although im not#totally sure how true that is. but also afterwards one time i was suggested to go into animation instead which is. um.#so its not out of nowhere i mean i did want to be an animator when i was like 10 but if you know anything about the current state of the#animation industry its like genuinely wild to tell someone who you've only seen 2 dimensional watercolour and acrylic painted#sketchy lined drawings from and who has said they cant do digital art anymore that they should get an animation degree?#brother they would kill me. i would be killed. i had an inkling but it really made me notice so clearly how limited the experiences my#faculty kind of have with certain industries. which is fine. or maybe not. for a professor LOL but yknow. but i was like huh. i guess i can#just kind of chill lol if i just keep doing things maybe something will come of it. i may not get as much help in my artistic development#rn as i would like. but its chill i think i'll figure it out if i just keep doing stuff <3#doesnt really matter that my teachers dont know what to do with me. my kneeeee has a booboo so i am CHILLING out :)
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