#and like there were so many things i had wanted more surely idk

[marlodramatic]

pick me! pick me!

I literally became a fan like a week ago and I have some insane insight still fresh in my mind. I will disclose: I knew sorta about them. I am younger than them but don't remember anyone directly speaking about them in my presence. I heard their names mid 10s but not sure related to what, and I remember Tumblr exploding when they came out, but again, none of my mutuals in my previous blogs were phans. I again heard about them when they came back from hiatus in the form of trending topics on this site.

Now, I think anyone who boils down DNP's popularity to "are they or aren't they?" (including baby boy Danny) are oversimplifying it, and it's horrendously self-deprecating of Dan, which, mood.

With my limited knowledge of them, the above points of awareness in my small corner of the world were more the introverted weirdos happy to have serotonin. Games, banter, comfort.

My many blogs across this site and my subscriptions on yt were like anime (hello, sailor moon revival blog) and I was cosplaying as a (secretly) bisexual christian good girl who didn't even know what trans or cis was. So I did see a few very rare strays of assumptions which were always clapped into silence by people asking for respect.

When they came out, I didn't see anyone ship in my newer, more closeted blogs. Instead, again, an outpouring of love and support and applause for the videos. (I think at that point I just assumed they were married and had a strong fanbase atp)

When they came back and blew this shit up again, I only ever saw happy humans. Again, games, some bunch of shit I didn't recognize then but now realize was the weird ass alien language???, and just overall chaotic disbelief that they came back. (And bets whether 1D were next.)

I did see a few more theories then that they might be romantic but not the creepy, mouth foaming insane and perverted assumptions about them. These things fizzled away under the countdown. (Ig to the next video? Idk, weird time for me irl)

My impression from the very far outside has been they're weirdo gamers on yt with their niche super fanbase.

In fact the many people, besides my Cynical Friend, I've spoken to irl have the understanding that Dan and Phil are just a comedic pair of gamers.

That was why when I was having an almost 24hr panic attack after literally fleeing my whole life, I tried them out. Anyone even scrolling through my posts in the tags has seen me fall for them. My anxiety is much better, my mind is on them instead of Death™️ snd I've laughed so hard I almost had an accident at 32.

It really is so easy to believe and fed the negative assumptions about ourselves. Dan has inspired and helped MILLIONS. Dan has done publicly what some of us cannot think privately. Phil has probably saved more lives than he can imagine. Phil probably couldn't understand his mere existence is comforting, with his breezy attitude and smile. It's not a fatal flaw to fail to see how others perceive us, but it is a tragedy that the viewpoint we focus on is negative.

When I spoke to my Cynical Friend, she went off about shippers. She always does. And three years after learning about real people ships, I've never been able to put into words that I'm not spying or prying or obsessed with these perfect matches.

I couldn't explain why I found Ryan Bergara looking at Shane Madej in the early years spark some vague recognition, or why when I found out about the Harry Styles and Louis Tomlinson ship I literally LITERALLY almost died. But after watching Dan and Phil, I knew exactly why some people might comb over thousands of moments with a fine tooth comb or play videos at .75 or read interviews in magazines they'f never even heard of. The answer fell off my lips and after, I understood, "I just want to see gay people happy." And it wasn't "gay people in love."

It is so easy to simplify and explain away your success and accomplishments with dribble. It's easy to overlook someone else's feelings because of your own. It's not easy being known, it's not easy being overstimulated with the same damn shit, but it's your responisibility to improve the way you think.

So on the off chance Dan or Phil see this, you're looking at a very loud section of the Phandom. To the majority of us, we tune in, rewatch because we like the content you show us.

Source: youtube comments, phans who have talked to me, people blogging in tags, phanart, the far and old reaches of the community they have built.

Ok I’ve just had a truely eye opening conversation, I was talking to a non dan and Phil fan friend of mine and she casually said “oh well people only really watched them because it was like the mystery of whether they were together or not”

and then I remembered the line in Dan’s diss track where he says “the only reason you get views is because you’re another white guy that people ship with his friend because they think it’s kawaii” and now I’m thinking, is this true?

like I personally would watch them no matter what, like even if they both had secret other spouses, it makes me sad though that the general public and maybe even dan and Phil themselves could think that the only reason they’re entertaining is because their relationship is ambiguous, I think they’re genuinely very smart and incredible entertainers and they should be proud of that

[littelovelunette]

could you do a part 2 of the anemia fic, where reader and vi are dating and they go on a few dates and vi keeps being over protective and worried about reader? maybe reader faints again idk just vi being protective and worried

Nurture (2)

Vi had always been a worrier, but ever since you fainted in her arms that first time, her protectiveness had skyrocketed.

No matter how many times you told her you were fine, she refused to let her guard down. It was sweet—endearing, even—but it also meant her demeanour around you had changed.

No more spontaneous nights running across Zaun’s rooftops. No more reckless brawls where you had to drag her away before things escalated.

Now, Vi double-checked every plan, made sure you ate and drank enough, and kept a watchful eye on you like a hawk.

Tonight was no different.

She had taken you to a small, tucked-away café in the heart of Zaun, one of those rare places where the air wasn’t thick with smog and the people weren’t sizing you up for a quick pickpocketing.

The place was dimly lit, the scent of fresh bread lingering in the air, and the owner—a kind old woman—greeted Vi like family.

You smiled as Vi pulled out a chair for you, a habit she’d picked up since your last episode. “You gonna babysit me all night, or are we actually gonna enjoy this date?”

Vi snorted, but there was a flicker of concern in her eyes. “You say that like I don’t have a reason to worry.”

“I feel fine.”

“You always say that before you keel over.”

You rolled your eyes as she ordered food for both of you—hearty, nutritious, no-nonsense meals.

As much as she tried to play it cool, her leg bounced under the table, and every time you shifted, her eyes flicked to your face as if checking for any signs of dizziness.

“You don’t have to be this on edge all the time,” you said, reaching across the table to squeeze her hand.

She exhaled through her nose, squeezing back. “I don’t wanna lose you.”

“You won’t.”

Her jaw tightened, and for a second, she looked away, like she was trying to push down a memory she didn’t want to resurface.

Vi had lost too many people. She didn’t say it out loud, but you knew—she was terrified of losing you, too.

The night went on smoothly, conversation flowing with ease, Vi finally relaxing as she cracked jokes and teased you.

But then, the familiar sensation started creeping in.

Your hands went cold. Your vision blurred at the edges.

Shit.

You gripped the table, but the world tipped sideways.

You barely heard Vi curse before the darkness swallowed you.

When you woke up, you were cradled against Vi’s chest, her heartbeat hammering in your ear.

You were in a different place now—outside, maybe? The air was cool against your skin.

“Damn it, babe,” Vi muttered, voice strained. “You scared the hell out of me.”

You groaned, trying to sit up, but her arms tightened around you. “Nope. You stay right here.”

You sighed, letting your head rest against her shoulder. “Guess I ruined our date.”

Vi let out a short, breathless laugh, but there was no amusement in it. “I don’t care about the damn date. I care about you.”

You could feel the tension in her muscles, the way she was holding you so tightly like she thought you’d disappear if she let go.

“I’m okay,” you murmured, voice weaker than you wanted it to be.

Vi buried her face in your hair. “No, you’re not. But I’m gonna make sure you are.”

You had no doubt she meant it.

And honestly? You didn’t mind being looked after—not when it was Vi.

[mari-lair]

You know what i'll be petty, this will be my complain time, feel free to skip this post:

I don't like how easily Nene got inside the clock keeper's boundary.

They made a big deal of how hard it is to get there in the last arc, of how time needs to be stopped for the entrance to even show up.

And even then, only Akane, Teru, and Tsukasa had been able to move while time was frozen.

Nene could not. Even Hanako could not.

So her just following the cat (regardless if the cat is just a familiar or a yugi twin, it doesn't matter) I don't like it.

Cause the clock keepers should still be powerful (or else they would lose the op power of rewriting the world). And Aidairo is at least pretending their rules are the same, considering Akane was right and only he could use the clock/key.

So it feels less like weaving a new set of rules in this brand new world to explore, and more like "this is convinient to move the plot were i want" with no care for consistency.

Why did Aoi never remembered about the new timeline even when everyone explicitly told her during their dinner hang out? Is it because she wasn't in the keepers boundary? Then why did Mitsuba and Kou did? Neither of them were inside the keeper boundary when it reset either. What about Hanako and Tsukasa? They were in the clock keeper's court, but they don't have the clear memory Teru and Yashiro do of the old timeline, is it because they are ghost? Twisted into brand new forms compared to their old selves? But then we are back to wondering why mitsuba (who was a supernatural stitched up by remains) remembered.

The sad thing is that Aidairo spend so many months building up interesting ideas in this new world, ideas for things that wouldn't be able to be explored in the old one, and instead of giving the characters internal comflicts, moral comflicts (which we know they can do, picture perfect is right there) or exploring anything, they just used the dramatic "THIS WORLD IS BAD!!! NO NUANCE ANYMORE, IS JUST BAD NOW! LET'S GET OUT!!" solution to get everyone to go back.

Which isn't my personal favorite approach, but I usually wouldn't mind. I mean, everyone know they need to go back to the old timeline at some point! No problem there!! Except nothing was explored. We got the news the minamoto mom is back but we didn't get a single dialogue between her and Teru or her and a Kou that remember she used to be dead. We got the news Aoi and Teru are in an arranged marriage but didn't explore that wild comcept much. They set up a deadline of three days before the cast start forgetting the old timeline but it haven't even been one day in this new world before something conviniently awful happened.

Why set up a stage if you just want to move the characters out of it as quickly as possible?? Mitsuba and Kou whole relationship in this new world was basically sumarized to us in a single chapter, which was the same chapter where they died to rush the rest of the cast out. Yes is tense in the moment but the more time passes the more it just feels rushed. Like a million ideas thrown in a table and now that they are in the open is time to move on.

I bet a million dollars this won't be talked about.

Why would it? Aoi and Teru are probably dead, so who cares about their engagement and it shadyness? this world is 'fake' so who cares about anyone in it?

Sure, I want to go back to the original world too! but idk, I kind of cared about this world.

Wasn't that the point? To care about the world? If it wasn't the point then what was it? Yugi lore?? Show exactly how evil the entity that originally possessed Tsukasa is?? That's it? Brand new world created ONLY to focus on Yugi twins lore? No Minamoto family moment now that they are all together (an impossible feat otherwise!), no comflict or temptation at all? When Kou remember his old memories he goes 'omg sousuke was dead' but doesn't even bat an eye that his mom was dead too?? Was the mom reveal really just a cheap shock value moment for the audience??

I still have no idea where yooko and satou are, I guess mitsuba is Kou's only friend in this timeline? hard to say since we only focused on Kou and Mitsuba's relationship with each other, barely interacting with the world as a whole (what is Kou's relationship with Aoi now that she is his brother's fiance? Or with his brother now that Teru have more free time?? Who cares, am i right??). They made Mei alive but there is no interaction with her so what? is it a cute fanservice too? A way to show how powerful the 'curse of the house' is? Is that it? It feels so hollow. This rush will make them go back to their old timeline faster, sure, but it takes away the characters depth.

I am glad many people like this arc but I see it as a big waste of potential :/

[lilacella]

hello slothy, i keep thinking about the chaos amnesia au, do the potters ever find out the truth about sirius? does remus??? what happens if they do???

Hello Cat!! Eh. This kind of escalated again and I'm not sure I even answered your original question 😅 also. Also it gets a bit dark so. Beware? Idk I think I have written worse, hahah

What happened previously: Part 1, Part 2

Well at first noones finds out anything and James continues having fun coffe dates with his new amazing friend Sirius 😊 They get along so well, and James really enjoys their intellectual discourse! He's not supposed to discuss work matters with other people but Sirius seems very trustworthy so he doesn't think much of it, when he talks to him about the case of the dead man found in a lake a couple miles away. They don't know much yet because the body has yet to be identified which is surprisingly hard since someone has done some great work at making the body unrecognizable (removing whole parts of the jaw, cutting off ears and fingertips, burning off the face - the water has done the rest).

Who ever has done this clearly is doing very methodical work! It's gonna be hard to catch them!!

Sirius nods along and supresses a smile - good work indeed, although he's a bit disappointed that Peter has been found so quickly. He should have weighed down the body!

But of course, because he's such a good friend, he offers James some welcome input about what kind of person could have done this. Now, you may think he is purposefully misleading James by giving him wrong ideas but no! Sirius actually describes himself quite accurately! It's just that.... James really doesn't know all that much about him. All James knows is that Sirius is a charming man with great humour who is amazing with his baby son and taking great care of the recovering Remus (They have told the Potters about the headinjury during the "robbery" by now - no reason keeping secrets right?😊😇)

But when do they find out? And how?

Things are going great! The Peter case has been filed away, James and Sirius have become great friends and things couldn't be lovelier between Remus and Sirius 😊 They are so happy and Sirius is starting to think that maybe this is the perfect opportunity to have a new shot at life! To be happy again! No more crime, just lazy sundays with his lovely boyfriend, spending the day tinkering with various projects, hanging out with his friend (Sirius never had a real friend before! At least not one he actually liked!). Things could be good 😊

Until a person from Sirius' past shows up and blows it all to smithereens...

Because Sirius wasn't robbing that bank alone. And Peter isn't the only one who would really like to know where the money is...

So one day, some really unpleasant people knock on an unassuming Remuses door. They say they need to see his gas meter, they are from the city and need to check. Remus is a bit suspicious and doesn't really want to let them in but they are very persistent. Apparently there has been a gasleak somewhere and they need to check if Remus' lines were affected of some shit.

When Sirius returns with James (they had been hanging out somewhere else but now James wanted to say hi to Remus on the way back) the house is empty. The door is open. James immediately draws his gun, while Sirius already knows exactly what has happened and storms past him to the kitchen. And there it is. The note he had expected.

It's an easy deal: Get the money, get your man. The longer you take the less limbs will he have, next time you see him.

Sirius wants to hide the letter before James can see it but it's too late. In his worry he has taken too long and James can tell by his reaction that this doesn't exactly come as a surprise. And also that Sirius exactly knows what they mean with "the loot"...

He wants to ask Sirius many questions but when his friend turns around, looks at him and asks him to "help me out here" with a husky voice, how can James say no?

[Insert dramatic rescue mission because Sirius really doesn't trust the fuckers to keep their word - and he is so right about that!]

While they are driving away in the car from the scene - James is driving, the battered Remus is in the passenger seat and Sirius is sitting in the back, holding James' gun just in case they are being followed - Remus suddenly gets all white. And then he turns around to Sirius and starts screaming at James to stop the car. Because that guy back there has killed someone! He has seen it! He was suddenly in his car and now - Oh my god!

Sirius watches in horror as the realisation and memories flood through Remus' eyes at full speed and a very confused James is stopping the car at the side of the road.

This wasn't how it was supposed to be. He never wanted to scare Remus. And now look at this mess. Now all is lost.

When they stop Sirius carfully puts down the gun, jots down an adress and hands it to Remus - who refuses to take it from him. He looks at him like he's a madman and maybe he is right.

Sirius gets up, exits the car and walks away into the dense trees along the road.

"Where's he going? - Oi, mate, where are you going?" But neither Remus nor Sirius answer James questions.

Not for now at least. James will hear it all once they get back home...

tbc...?

[fuckthisshitimin]

I will never be over how "male socialized" and "female socialized" are almost exclusively used to legitimize transmisoginy, when upon first hearing them i thought they could be a good way to start a conversation.

One of the most used example is trans women being "too loud" or "talking over" "people who were female socialized" first off fuck off, second off. I thought this was an interesting angle because my construction and my being raised as "a girl who would have to become a woman" is important to understand who I am now. Oh I'm so "shy" and "pacifying" and "good at de-escalation" and "discreet".

Yeah, in part because women are the keepers of the status quo and the peace in my family. In many families. And I was raised to become that. Now, I understand that a trans woman will not have that experience and it's... uhm, well I think it's probably good for her? She's experienced misoginy in ways I have not, she's experienced transphobia in ways I have not, maybe that's not a bad thing that there are women out there who didn't grow up being told they would have value when they had a husband and kids? That's a divisive opinion?

Like. "Little girls are taught to sit still, look pretty." <- yeah

"Trans women are less likely to have been taught that." <- sure

"So trans women should be taught to sit still, look pretty" <- what the fuck is wrong with you.

This is when TERF rhethoric starts, because internalized oppression becomes a requirement for womanhood. Womanhood becomes a cage. It's not.

And we are forgetting also it goes both ways. Sure, we are in a patriarchy, but who benefits from it? Do all men even benefit from it? Manhood comes with privileges, but please. Patriarchy and sexism are systems that need people conforming to ideas of "gender roles" we know that, it's old fucking news. Being "male socialized" isn't all glitter and rainbows, it's in fact, no glitter no rainbows, and it sucks for cis men, and it sucks a lot for trans women.

If you want to do a reverse version of internalized oppression, let's start with how "little boys" are taught to keep their feelings inside and not cry and not talk about this stuff too much. So trans men might not have been taught that. None of you would ever dare to shun a trans man for being overtly sensitive but you'll shun a trans woman for being unapologetic.

In fact, that trans men could be "more in touch with their feelings" is mainly celebrated. In fact, cis men who are "more in touch with their feelings" are celebrated.

But that a trans woman could be "loud and boisterous" is shunned. But that a cis woman could be "loud and boisterous"...

You're not shunning trans women because they are being oppressive you are shunning trans women because they are doing "woman" wrong according to misogynistic standards.

Hating on a woman because she's exhibiting behaviours associated with masculinity is not revolutionary.

Maybe, idk, maybe we could try, and hear me out really, to agree that "shutting the fuck up" is not inherent to "womanhood"? No I know it's more comfortable when oppressed populations shut the fuck up about it, that's why whenever we can we teach them to keep it quiet, and if they don't they are you know... violent... taking too much space... and violence and space does not belong to these classes of people it is a privilege of oppressors, and surely by being soft-spoken and peaceful we can appeal to the oppressors and hope they don't eat our faces <3

Maybe demonizing the tools used by an oppressive violent system to keep us in chains is a good way for the oppressors to make sure we don't use those tools against them who knows.

[burger-louise]

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[averlym]

no one would notice if i ever vanished // if bodies could sustain // this never-ending army // like blood pumping through a vein

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:OOO hello. anyway since these are all posters i'd have in an ideal world or smth and i'd like to store the high res versions somewhere,,, here's the google drive folder for them? hehe ''

close up!

[13eyond13]

actually stunned by how gay The Beatles has been all this time and I just never knew

[sugarsnappeases]

thank you for the tag @fxreflyes this is so cute, except the format is trying to hinder my propensity to ramble, so i’ve rectified this in the tags lmao

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

no pressure tags for @static-radio-ao3 @inevitablestars @itsjaywalkers @carniferous @orbitfalls @transsexualpriest @futurequibblerjournalist <333

[faaun]

ok let's catch up quickly

[unnonexistence]

idk if there's anything in stories i get more petty about than poorly-written "main character shows up to a new place and meets everyone" character introduction scenes

[lemongogo]

i need 2 stop drawing static stuff . white bg . front facing pose. <will do it again

[fardf150]

fuck

[bbael]

Oh I just remembered that very early during the pandemic or a little before idk I had a dream on which I was living on a beach town and working as a teacher and I looked very different (long dark hair, prettier, just more mature, normie & put together in general ?) and when I woke up was like haha that's never going to happen, I could never work at a school or get out of the gastronomic system, I'm doing this for life + moving out is impossible anyway with my salary. And now... 5 years later (that felt like much less??) I'm doing (nearly) all that :|

[yappingmoxie]

made a birthday post for my grandma yesterday since no one else remembered it and immediately afterwards my sister made one and really drilled in hard about how she named my newest niece after her. and idk. I’m still upset. I’ve been crying off and on about it because like. I know it wasn’t right but my grandma would tell anyone who listened how I was her favorite grandchild (and tbh I think besides it just being true she did that bc she knew how awful my mom and sister were to me) and would brag on me constantly. and my sister did nothing but talk about how annoying my grandma was and say the worst things about her right before she died. but yet she loved her so much that she forgot her birthday 2 years in a row so I mean clearly she just had to take the name I fought with her over during her first pregnancy. I’m so glad I’ve had my cousin throughout all of this because otherwise I’d feel legitimately insane. She’s been amazing at reminding me how much grandma loved me and helping reinforce that grandma and I DID have an agreement that she wanted ME to name my daughter after her if I ever had one. Everything my sister does though feels so spiteful. Like I love my niece so much and it just sucks that I can’t even spend time with her without being reminded of how much my sister wants to hurt me. I don’t blame the baby though. Like it hurts and makes interacting with her a little difficult but she’s innocent. And the thing is I wouldn’t have even minded if she named her that out of genuine love and respect for my grandma but I know she didn’t. From not letting anyone be with my grandma in the hospital when she died to putting her ashes in my fucking mailbox to telling me that my grandma hated me and I didn’t do enough for her to telling me how awful I was for taking a week off to implying I should’ve been there even tho she lied to me about her being in the hospital to withholding photos she promised me of her to ruining my grandmas house (she lets my 5 year old niece write all over the walls and keeps a million fuckin farm animals like ducks and chickens and turkeys inside when grandma didn’t even let dogs in) to asking the preacher at her funeral to say some pointed remarks about me being no contact with my mom to now using her daughters name as a direct slight against me I can’t help but feel like all she wants to do is weaponize my dead grandma against me without even worrying about how disrespectful she’s being to her as long as it hurts me. I haven’t even tried talking to about my nieces name because after confronting her about my grandmas passing I know it’ll do nothing to actually remedy anything and will just lead to even more explosive fights where I know she’ll just double down on saying things she know will hurt me. And I don’t want to argue about my grandma. I don’t want to use her memory for something disrespectful. It doesn’t feel right and doesn’t feel like honoring her in any way that she’d appreciate. I just want her to be respected. I want her name to be used for something kind and loving instead of spiteful. Because ultimately that’s what she was. My kind and loving grandma. Not a tool to cause arguments and tension. She was always the mediator in the family and I can’t help but think how disappointed she’d be to know her passing has been used in the way it has to further drive a shift in the family.

[montanamp3]

tatimaxxing (something big just happened to me but i can't talk about it on this blog because ive posted face)