#and like tbh it WAS but only to a degree and it became something else completely

[stevethehairington]

omg okay saltburn mini review:

1. i genuinely do not know what i expected the plot of this to be but it was NOT that and oh my god i LOVED what it ended up being

2. it was NOT as pretentious and obnoxious as i thought it was going to be

3. honestly not as like ✨️scandalous✨️ as everyone made it out to be either

4. could've been even more homoerotic

[notyouraryang0dd3ss]

I was thinking about Taylor wanting to break Harry Styles' vinyl record, and I remembered something else she did. Last year, Harry Styles broke the record for concert attendance in Scotland. Then, about 6 months later, it was announced that Taylor got special permission to open up space behind the stage at her show in order to allow more people to attend. Even though her stage setup isn't suitable for a 360-degree view, she did it to break the record.

Another thing not directly in an effort to break Harry Styles’ record: Last year, he became the only artist to play at Wembley Stadium 6 times in a year, and then Taylor decided to add two more shows.

My question is, why does it seem like she's threatened by Harry Styles? Is she worried that he will give her a taste of her own medicine in his music and have a number 1 hit for like 10 weeks?

tbh it’s not just harry styles she’s threatened by any one who can/proven they can/have the potential beat her. see: olivia rodrigo, sabrina carpenter

i’m so glad she wasn’t contemporaries with the vocal trinity (whitney, mariah, celine) because she would’ve actually been insufferable 😭

[song-writer-melo-wrath]

Silly Game Time: Who are some of your favorite mechanical characters, be they robots, androids, cyborgs, or something else? And what do like about them?

OOOOH...

Well, first, gotta mention my man Data.

A lot of people has said that he is autism-coded in the way that he is presented, and in how other people react to him. And I kind of agree tbh. He's also just a sweetheart, and his bonds with the crew (especially Laforge), his cat Spot, and sometimes with people who are briefly onboard are so lovely.

I also feel I should mention Connor,

Because his arc has probably inspired so many OCs at this point. Bryan Dechart did such an excellent job playing him, and his growing bond with Hank is very well-written. I think it's honestly touching how it's often emotional bonds that show humanity.

Another I feel would be a crime not to mention,

Because between the iconic lines and the dynamic he has with John Connor, and the way it shapes his various decisions, how could I not? And yes I'm specifically talking Terminator 2 here. Though I will say he makes an EXCELLENT force of nature and presence of absolute horror in the first movie.

Then, of course, the sapphic community's favourite,

Because "Want You Gone" hurts me on a personal level, and I don't just mean because it's how GLaDOS says farewell. I relate to that song so much (and did a cover of it :D) and, in general, relate with much of her story. Of course, she's a sassy motherfucker who you can't help but love. But for how much Portal 2 is considered the inferior game, it really does make her story into one of self-discovery and complicated morality. I guess it just gets overshadowed by Oh hi. How are you holding up.

Next,

I MEAN. COME ON. This guy used to be, and honestly still is, one of my biggest fictional crushes. His charisma is magnetic, of course. His STORY being wrapped up by the connections he used to have being rekindled, resulting in him choosing to be a star for those who need one most, rather than a star for the most people possible???? Ugh, poetic cinema.

Speaking of stars,

[vibrating] I have so many headcanons when it comes to this one But more to the point, Star Dream is an absolute force of nature. Its boss fight is incredible, an absolute marvel of multiple types of play styles coming together. The themes? Slap.

Star Dream's draw, for me, is that its sentience is so…debatable. I'm on the side of “had sentience the whole time”, and more to the point, “based on how much Haltmann copied homework, it's possible he brought something back from the dead” but I dunno, I don't like arguing my case when it comes to the second. The point is, for many of things that it does, it's uncertain whether that's just part of its program, or if it's a sentient decision. Was Susie sent away because of something accidental, or was it Star Dream's intention? The fact that Haltmann became so focused on its creation after her disappearance, in my eyes, kind of implies the latter…

… It's also interesting that even without Haltmann giving it a voice via him-being-possessed, it only chooses to speak to Meta Knight.

Can you tell I have The Kirby Autism, is it noticeable, is it obvious—

Also I'm gonna put two of my OCs here, because self-indulgence is alive and well.

This is Palharine and Mayday! They're my favourites out of a group of robot/android characters I created about three years ago, and have finally taken the time to draw recently:

From left to right, you got Eodel Remidoros, Palharine, Mayday, and Ziah Hyperion. All very different interpretations of robotic.

Palharine and Mayday stand out to me due to their emotional states. They're kind of opposites, in that regard. Mayday is a very sensitive gal, who has been through a lot of pain, and is trying to become stronger so she can confidently say she has no doubt in who she is. Palharine, as far as they're aware, has no emotions. Which is interesting, since the other three all seem to, to some degree. Among the four, Palharine is also unique in that they're programmed to dream. Both of these things shape them a lot.

But these two have a very sweet bond, where they're both passionate about biology, especially botany. Mayday, in a training exercise, also nearly wipes the floor with Palharine. It's more touching than it sounds.

Also, Palharine's genderfluid and Maydays a trans woman, so those things just inherently spark joy for me, haha!

This has been, real robotic character hours.

[slutisnotabadword]

Lets look at Caroline’s character more critically…

Did she really have character development after she became a vampire?

The only thing that I could posisbly see development is her insecurity…. maybe. But this thought came to mind because that one scene in season 1 in Elena’s kitchen, with Caroline, Bonnie ad Elena and Bonnie tries tot ell Caroline’s a witch and she’s not even listening. And Caroline’s all like:

“I listen! When do I note listen?!”

Literally, all the time babes. You don’t pay attention either. This carries literally all the way until season 8. Caroline is not considerate of people’s feelings, and she has no social awareness. And I say this because of her treatment towards Bonnie in S8, when enzo and Damon was captured by Sybil and Bonnie was trying to get Enzo back at all cost, and she strayed away from the gorup’s plan and just snatched Enzo for herself (as she should!). And then Caroline goes on about “We had a plan!”

And then later on kind of makes Bonnie comes to her wedding when her husband-to-be killed the love her life.

And then go back to season 4 when Bonnie and Elena and Caroline was in Damon’s bathtub, and this was right after ELena slept with Damon for the first time. Caroline couldn’t shut her mouth for three seconds without saying how much of slut Damon was. Now, that entire scene is something else on both sides, tbh. And I’m all for friends holding their friends accountable and telling them the truth but like… read the room?? In that moment, Elena just needed a day to spend time with her girlfriends. She just got through a breakup and she just had sex with someone, she just needed her friends and Caroline ruined that. I’m sure Bonnie had plenty to say about Damon or whatnot, but she DIDN’T because she could readddd the room. And Bonnie’s very considerate of people’s feelings and her own mouth.

Idk, I love Carolien to a degree. Her personality itsself annoys me. She annoys me. I just know if she was a real person in real life, we would NOT get along.

But what do you guys think?

[jefferybezosisurmom]

Life update even though I’m the only one that reads this tbh

1. I got injured playing football (Ik shocking 🙄)

I was doing a drill and my teammates beside me fell on my knee so I got a patellar subluxation (partial knee cap dislocation) and I’m out for the season

2. Also football related, my team is EATING.

We went 6-0 regular season and we’re now going into the second round of playoffs before our finals

3. I did dash 2 math

I realized maybe it’s better to do something at a lower level that you’ll actually succeed in. Rather than trying to follow everyone else and struggle

4. I hate to admit it 🫣 but Lowkey I’m liking Shakespeare this year.

Macbeth actually eats and is 110% better than Romeo and Juliet

5. All my classes except for English are at 92+.

English tho I gotta lock in cause my mark’s at 79 and it’s because of dumb group projects so it’s not even entirely my fault. That’s also why I’m locking in for Macbeth so I can get an insanely high mark to boost my average. I cant stand having all my marks really high except for one. Especially when it’s sitting at 79 idk why but that number bothers me. Which is ironic since it’s my football number.

6. I’m at a point where I’m looking at uni’s

I obviously won’t say which university’s I’m looking at cause that’s like internet safety 101, but I’ll talk about the programs. So I want to become a junior high phys ed teacher which means 5-6 years of post secondary and two degrees. Obviously I need an education degree and I’m thinking I want to get my second degree in something like kinesiology, athletic therapy, or physical literacy. I’ve done sports med in high school and really enjoyed it and became passionate about it so I think those degrees would make sense for me.

[purplesurveys]

1896

20 random people... Don't look at the questions beforehand! :D

Nina

Celeste

Hans

Lui

Kaye

Angela

Mom

Reena

Gabie

Kuya

Pau

Jo

Lei

Andi

Leigh

Marie

Dad

Dev

Sam

Pia

Ok, here we go...

How did you meet #4?: College org. I was an applicant at the time, they were already a member, and they seemed very friendly to all the newbies so I stuck around them. In time we became close and even got in the same friend group, which we're both still part of today.

How much does #9 mean to you?: She's a co-worker so while I wouldn't, like, die for her per se or can say that she's 'everything' to me, I'd look out for her nonetheless.

Describe #14 in 2 words.: Extremely intelligent.

What is your best memory with #5?: I loved when she came over to watch YTC Busan live with us! That was also such a random mix of friends to end up happening, so I was anxious they'd all be opposites – but it got really fun.

Do you know all of #2's secrets?: I know none of them seeing as we're only workmates and I like my boundaries.

When is the next time you're going to see #7?: In an hour or two, I'm guessing. She went out for a bit for errands.

When's the last time you saw #17?: 2 AM, Friday – dropped him off at the airport. From there, I won't be seeing him again until November.

How do you think #13 feels about you?: After trying to teach me one of her party card games last Sunday, I bet she now thinks I can get ditzy as all hell hahaha. But apart from that I don't know what else she thinks of me! We rarely see each other and are always shy when we do, lol.

Are #11 and #12 anything like each other?: Quite the contrary; they're a good example of how two people cannot be any more different.

Describe the relationship between #14 and #19.: They have a nonexistent relationship, but if we're gonna be extremely loose about degrees of separation – Hans went to the same school as Andi (#14); they both also were schoolmates with Gab, who used to date Sam (#19).

Is #10 single?: No. Has been engaged for a while now, too.

If you could tell #8 one thing right now, what would it be?: Let's go out soon and maybe we can try a new hobby together, too.

What is the funniest thing you've ever seen #16 do?: I haven't had many funny encounters with her tbh as she's kind of shy and doesn't really want to put herself out there – that, and we've always worked from home.

Can I name coolest instead? There was a time when my teammates and I each needed to make 10-slider decks about any topic (meant to be an exercise on public speaking); and she had what I thought was the most unique and personally relatable presentation – she covered her favorite lesbian media. Music, movies...and there's a bunch in there that I was able to relate to...just cause of my past, I guess. Haha. It felt pretty bittersweet, and I gave her some of my recs too.

How did you meet #15?: School. I can't remember when we got close, though. Maybe in high school if I had to guess – we stay friends these days, too, as she's with Andi.

What would you do if #4 died?: I'd be shocked to say the least. I'm imagining that'd bring the college friend group back together again.

What's the weirdest thing you've ever seen #3 do?: He had a brief stint as a camp...something (guide? counselor? idk terms) in the US a few years ago, so when he came back the first thing he did to me was share a bunch of camp songs he picked up from his time there. After he taught me, he proceeded to sing them all to entire time hahaha.

Are you friends with any of #19's friends?: Not with most of them. We only have a few mutual friends, all linked to Angela/Hans.

Who is #7 to you?: My mom.

What is one thing #13 is really good at?: I'm gonna go with biology and chemistry as she's literally a licensed pharmacist.

What would happen if #1 and #3 hated each other?: That would crush me, tbh. Hans is family at this point, and it'd be sad if he and my sister actively disliked one another.

Is #11 anything like #18?: I guess. Very surface-level similarities, but yeah. They're both leaders, their personalities are both pretty nonchalant...that's what I can think of now.

How much trust do you have in #12?: Lots, in the grand scheme of things. Jo is reliable and trustworthy.

If you fell off a bridge, who would you trust to catch you, #4 or #6? Why?: Angela, 100%. We're exponentially so much closer.

Who do you like the most?: It's a tie between my dad and Angela.

Who do you hate the most?: I didn't put in anyone I dislike.

How did you meet #1?: I would guess she was introduced as my little sister when I was 2.

What would you do if you never met #14?: I probably never would've gotten back into wrestling.

Would you date #20?: Hypothetically, in another universe – sure, why not? She's pretty and so so so SO ridiculously kind and has just such a warm personality.

Have you ever seen #8 cry?: Just once. We cried together at the time, but they were happy tears.

Would #5 and #13 make a good couple?: I've never thought of that. But I don't think so.

Describe #9.: I don't know her much outside of work, but from what I've seen she's hardworking; has a sensitive side in that she doesn't really like getting scolded; and she's a million times friendlier than I am – she gets along with everyone which makes her such an important part of the team. You gotta have an extrovert in PR, and she's that.

Do you like #16?: Yes.

Do you think #4 is attractive?: Personally not my type.

When's the last time you talked to #19?: Around two weeks ago.

Would you date #10?: Hard pass, that's my cousin.

What's the best thing about #15?: She has this innocent and pure aura around her that I adore very much. Like she can never get mad at anything and anyone.

Best thing about #7?: She's very resilient.

Have you ever kissed #11?: Nope.

Have you ever slapped #18?: I've never slapped any one person on the list.

When's the next time you're going to see #12?: I have no idea, our group rarely makes plans to see each other anymore. The last time I saw her was mid-2023 and we didn't even get to meet up after to talk about our Yoongi concert experiences like we planned.

Is #16 pretty?: Yes!

What was your first impression of #4?: Kind, approachable, helpful, reliable, older than me.

Is #13 your BFF?: No.

Have you seen #15 in the last month?: I haven't seen her in years actually lol. Andi and I hang out all the time and I always check in if Leigh will be tagging along...and she just doesn't.

Have you been to #20's house?: I have not. We're not that close.

Last time you saw #14?: April! We watched a wrestling gig. I'll be seeing them again later this month for trivia night – they added me to their team because two of the topics will be Friends and BTS, haha.

Next time you'll see #10?: Tomorrow, I'm guessing! We'll be coming over tomorrow and I think he'll by home.

Are you really close to #1?: Not heart-to-heart talk levels because we're a dysfunctional family and can't bear baring our souls to one another LOL – but it's a close-friend type of close for sure.

Would you give #20 a hug?: Sure. I'm sure I hugged her a few times when we saw each other 2 weeks ago at our surprise engagement party for Angela and Hans.

Tell me a secret about #5.: I don't know her enough to know her secrets.

Describe the relationship between #14 and #3: They were schoolmates in grade school until Andi moved.

What's your relationship with #5?: She's one of the school friendships I've been able to retain all these years. We're not best friends but we check in on one another from time to time.

Have you ever danced with #18?: I have not.

How do you know #13?: She's my closest cousin on my dad's side.

Does #2 have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: I don't think so. She had a dating phase early in the year, but I haven't heard much updates from her since.

Have you ever wanted to punch #6 in the face?: Maybe just once, heh.

Has #11 ever met your mother?: Nope.

Have you traveled anywhere with #12?: Nah. We could've, for Yoongi's tour! But I ended up in Thailand, she in Singapore.

If you gave #7 $100, what would they spend it on?: Probably on groceries.

Best memory of #2?: One of our events where we both ended up fairly tipsy.

What is one thing you most want #14 to know?: That I always feel bad for being the occasional terrible replier, but I hope they know that I always love it when they message and send me the most random questions or rants.

What's the last thing you did with #15?: I honestly have no clue. She's the one I've seen the least often.

When did you meet #8?: We first met around six years ago, when Angela brought us together for some drinks. We never talked again until 2021 when it was Angela (again) who put the three of us in the same chat since we all liked BTS. We got super close from there.

What do you wish for #17?: Good health is #1. It's something I find myself thinking about more often now; and for him not to feel lonely and sad when he's away.

[jankwritten]

For spotlight: what does Hades do/what’s the relationship w Nico?? Oh also what’s Persephone up to? Does she get along w Nico?

Okay so it's never really FULLY explained in canon - and maybe I will explain it at some point later in the story, who knows - but Hades is a super rich politician/business man. Not really politician, but he's very Influential and works really closely with a lot of politicians and so people kind of lump him in as one of them.

He's also super mysterious and...quirky. Like, he's just. A weird guy. He's super goth and believes weird things (he believes in Santa and the Tooth Fairy and shit like that) and he's pretty emotionally distant a lot of the time. Think of him as like, the walking poster for undiagnosed Dad Autism, y'know? Does that vibe make sense? Like he's very "I love my kids but hugging and touching makes me feel horrific. I love my job because I get to work with numbers and sort data and make solutions that are obvious to me but apparently nobody else understands and therefore I Have To Teach Them" but he's also super stressed all the time and has had drinking problems in the past.

Nico and Hades don't have the best relationship. Nico loves his dad, of course, but he also feels rightfully distant from him. When they lost Maria and then Bianca, Nico kind of felt like he lost his dad, too, because Hades withdrew entirely into his work and, since they lived in such a big house, they didn't see each other a whole lot. Plus, when Nico was first getting really into Hockey, he basically had to sneak around his dad to play, because Hades was strict about Nico not doing anything that would get himself hurt. He'd done a lot of research into hockey in an attempt to get closer to Nico, be interested in his interest, and instead found himself loathing the idea of his son being in such a hostile environment.

Hades and Nico have a very complicated relationship that's just kind of always been how Nico is with his father, so he doesn't know anything other than that. It doesn't bother him all that much day to day, though when he goes and visits it definitely weighs on him a little bit, especially after he's gotten a taste of like, what it means to have somebody really there for him and looking out for him, like Jack Seas and Snowy do on the team.

It's also an issue of independence, TBH. Hades never really wanted Nico to be independent, Hades wanted Nico to stay home, go to a really good school, get a business degree and start working his way up either in Hades's business, or starting his own business and thriving that way. Hades wanted to keep Nico close because he knew Nico's mental health struggles and feared that if he let Nico get too far out of his web of control, Nico would spin out and end up dead.

TLDR; Nico and Hades have a super intricate relationship that's spun out of their grief over losing Maria and Bianca, and the intricacies of their own mental health struggles and how they handle that.

PERSEPHONE is thriving living her best life etc. etc.

No but actually she's Hades's business partner, a lifelong friend who was there for the deaths in his family and became a big part of helping them through the grieving process. She and Hades started dating not too long after Maria died - I've said it before somewhere and I can't exactly remember where, but I think I mentioned something like the three of them had been in a polycule? IDK, but I like the idea either way.

ANYWAY Persephone runs the arts and PR side of Hades's business because he loathes that kind of thing, and she also helps him with numbers and some of the bigger projects when it gets to be too much for him to handle on his own. She moved in after Bianca died, and planted a big garden in the back yard that has memorials to both Maria and Bianca, as well as various family-and-associated pets who have passed throughout the years.

Persephone and Nico get along pretty well. He's a little awkward around her only because he sometimes still doesn't know if he's meant to treat her like a mom or what, because some days he does see her as more of a mother figure and some days he feels really disconnected from her. She cares about Nico in her own way - she was a little tough-love on him growing up, especially after he started hockey. No bullshit excuses would get past her, basically, and if Nico had a problem and came to her crying with it, she would let him cry it out and then make them have a logical, rational discussion about it. (This was pretty rare, though, because Nico used to do that with Maria and he feels like he's betraying her a little bit by going to Persephone. It's fucked up, but y'know.)

Persephone is super supportive of Nico playing hockey, though, as opposed to Hades. She thinks it's great, and cool as hell that Nico found something that he's really good at, kicked the shit out of stereotypes and all that.

Persephone and Hazel also get along really well, not that you asked about that :P But Hazel and Persephone have met a couple of times, and Persephone does know that Hazel is Hades's kid - she was there when the original "scandal" came out, after all. Hazel doesn't see Persephone as her half-step-mother, but more like an Aunt, or a really good family friend. Hazel likes to teach Persephone how to make spell jars and tea blends out of the herb and flower garden.

All in all, the family isn't very close-knit and they have a lot of internal structural problems between themselves, but Nico still loves and cares for them because they are his family no matter what. They're what he has left and he's not letting that go.

[from-izzy]

https://www.tumblr.com/from-izzy/741244952356519936/0321-tbz-kim-sunwoo?source=share

you wrote here how hard work didnt betry you. Do you mind telling me your side of the story. i love your stories btw! life has been pretty hard and not a lot of writers write smth thats reltable like yours!

hello hello!! thank you for telling me your thoughts about my stories, i appreciate this so much 🥰 ahhhh...i hope things will get better for you soon 🫂 keep pushing on!!

warnings: mentions of academic struggles, anxiety, panic (sorry this became a rant (and a self-reflection) more than anything tbh...)

so for my uni degree, the first three years is guaranteed in a way that there is no competition. anyone can do the first three years. however, fourth year is the hardest part. a lot of people say to get into fourth year, you basically need to score about 80% to even be considered for fourth year and even then, there's no guarantee. so, this bummed me out so bad. i remember going to uni thinking if this is right for me because if it isn't, then wouldn't i have just spent my first three years for nothing? i just didn't know how i would feel like if i reached the end of third year and then realised that i didn't get into fourth year. i also remember looking for other postgraduate courses i could apply to because my confidence was so low and in my head, i just had to prepare for everything.

i had a backup plan for my backup plan that was a backup plan for my first backup plan.

but the thing that changed me were: am i giving up when nothing has started? even when this has been my dream job for the past four years (at the time)? i even moved high schools so that my chances to get into university was higher, and now that i'm here, i'm going to give up now? after all the things i've been through, am i going to stop just because i'm scared of something that i can somewhat control?

i kept going then. then i heard about this degree that guarantees students to get into fourth year as long as i reach their minimum mark. i only knew about this degree mid year and i asked how i could move and they said i have to be invited 😭 the requirements was high. the lecturer said to aim for a 90-95% average in all my units. now, i want to dream big but at the time, i was sitting on an 86% and i knew i wouldn't get 90% (or at least not easily and i was not prepared to sacrifice my mental health for this) 😭 i remember accepting that i was just meant to compete for fourth year and i just kept going. kept studying as i did before.

and then at the end of first year, i got an offer to move. and i thought "...oh." AND I REMEMBER I WAS ABOUT TO REJECT IT 😭 BECAUSE THE 'TRADEOFF' WAS BIG (ie. compulsory units, study abroad (as mentioned in the fic!!) etc.) and like i mentioned before, i had backup plans and i think admist my panicking and anxiety, i fell in love with the jobs that the backup plans could offer me. but then my friends and family reminded the past me that would love this more than anything and with their support, even if maybe i don't want to go to this specific fourth year in this major, the title of my new bachelor degree is really good as it mixes theory, research and job experiences in the real world in an undergraduate degree.

so, i ended up accepting it and...i don't want this to seem like "yay! my life is great now! woohoo!!" because these compulsory units are hard 😭 and i honestly have moments when i just want to contact the office and be like "hey! respectfully and kindly, transfer me back please!!"

another thing about this is that, now that i'm accepted in this, i'm scared of failing even more now. i think it'll hurt me a lot and it'll take a big hit on me if i do considering that i feel like i sacrificed a lot.

but hey...if i do my best, what else can i do at that point? what regrets will i have if i tried my very hardest? i don't know what the future holds for me. i could fail. i could pass. but what i DO know is that i don't know. and because of that, i'll keep doing my best.

but this is my story 🫂 it seems kind of made up now that i read it and people can believe that if they want to 😅 but this is me and my story!! i hope you're doing well anon! you can do this!! 🥹

[cogbreath]

not a vent but it is a ramble of personal things but

im seriously so so like... shocked idk. i didnt expect this to happen. it seems like its really gonna happen. but im nervous. theres been times before where it was like. my mom was talking about how he might not be allowed 2 live here anymore and i was so hyped but then nothing came of it. i cant have that happen again. im 21 years old man. and i dont have a life because of the shit living arrangements we have going on bc of him. if hes really fed up and leaving this is gonnabe so fucking huge.......... like i said before i want his room so i can expand my waifu shrines 😈 ... lol. im being lighthearted. i seriously had 0 hope for a while. and idk. i once had a serious breakdown in front of my mom wherre i admitted that i felt like i was genuinely gonna end up killing him. and tbh i thought that there was a chance that ended up being the only way out. im really happy if this is true and im getting an actual happy ending for once. ive been. wanting this so desperately since i was a kid guys. seriously. i hate that man so much. hes a disgusting abusive asshole with 0 compassion + he m*lested me. hes got mad health problems that my mom manages for him and i wonder if shes worried about how he'll do on his own with that. personallly i dont care. i dont care. i want him out. i dont want my mama being his caregiver nomore. cruel cruel man. for all my life ive watched that man degrade her ans berate her and expect her to serve him afterwards ..... ive had to deal with overhearing him harassing her for never having sex with him.. which is something that was always extra painful for me because of my own sexual trauma.... theres honna be a lot of scary changes like my mom says i have to get a job again. im really not not good at working due to my disabilities. but i could hold a job for a year before i ended up losing it. it was very trauamtic. i dont want to work again. but i will be freed from the familial agony. its a lot guys. seriously. ive been so so so isolated and disconnected from eberything and everyone because of it for all my life. ive never been able to truly be a person because of it. it became my job to help my mother emotionally and mentally to degrees that no child really should havr to because she had no one else. i dont fault or resent her at all for that and im happy to defend her and help her and listen to her. its a lot though and especially when i was younger. also

ill probably do drugs less often because i wont be trying to drown out another fight theyre having.

im nervous because im a a psychotic autistic agoraphobic and i will have to be going outside now. but. i will be going outside now... which means having a life. my mom will be with me still. i will still live with her and probably will most my life because of my circumstances. but i love her. im okay with having to maybe do some scary things because of that. dude. theres a convention near me soon that i was hoping to go to. i kinda just had it as a pipe dream though. because basiclaly i have no ability or opportunities to leave the house. but now i will. im really hopping that this is rwal and i'll be able to go... its my goal. i want to make a misty monsoon cosplay. i really do. im crying rn bexause im just so excited to get a chance at things. trust me thougu im still gonna be a asocial shutin first and foremost. dont worry guys i wont be abandoning you. im a dedicated poster. but you know. im gonna be posting under better circumstances inshallah.

also this is a lot for me spiritually. my dad is heavily islamophobic and ive not been able to safely be open because of him. ive prayed and prayed a lot to allah to help make things to where i can finally do that. i really really feel like allah has given me a great gift here im so happy allahu akbar

[barrenwomb]

a bit of a personal question but. How were Ur uni days? Im currently enrolled in university and tbh i have a complete lack of motivation to even open my books and study (i also suffer from depression and i can go days without leaving my room).

i get this ask a lot and every time i struggle to give a proper answer because. i don't know. i somehow managed to graduate even though i was at my worst mentally wise. i think i had high functional depression or something like that. also i found my driving force into pursuing financial independence at all cost because this is something that's widely overlooked when you're a broken college student in your early 20s. i had no motivation beside wanting to leave my parents' house as soon as possible. these random bursts of motivation in between my depressive crisis really helped me out. a lot. and i know that sometimes getting a degree won't assure you financial stability, especially if ur a humanities student, but. to me, personally, getting a degree was the only way to get out and break my family's generational financial struggles. it may sound impossible for you rn if ur struggling with depression but maybe try to get a part time job? the moment you stop relying on your parents for your education is also the moment you stop feeling guilty for taking things at a bit slower path. even if makes a bit harder to keep up with exams and stuff, knowing it's up to you and you only will make the whole university thing a bit less like a moral duty and more like something you're pursuing because you want to. something that helped me also was finding another person to study with!! we would video call each other almost every day and study for our exams together. it really helped me to not get distracted and also gave me the motivation i lacked because i wanted to help her out as she became a dear friend of mine. we were both struggling so lol believe me when i tell you i never met a college student who doesn't want to end it all over university. it's extremely common. you're not alone. financial security + community really is THE combo that helps your mental health improve greatly. please reach out and ask for help, too. take breaks and don't feel guilty. slower doesn't mean stupider. try to change your surroundings. do it for yourself and no one else. drop out if university is making you legit suicidal. i'm serious. you can get a small job and cultivate your hobbies for a while before starting again. if you want to. it doesn't make you a failure. that's exactly what i did. wish you the best of luck.

[asknarashikari]

So...I know you've never really liked Lucky's "Yossha (Literally His Namesake)!" or AkaNinger's "Moete Kiita!"...or King's overuse of the word "Brave" albeit to a much lesser degree since you got through that show (it was your first sentai show iirc) in the first place.

Apart from maybe pre-battle or post-battle catchphrases...is Jeremy's "Well now..." technically one of the very few catchphrases that actually work for you? (Although then again, like with Houtaro's "Gotcha", he doesn't necessarily say it almost all the time and he tends to say that phrase when it makes sense to so obviously there's nothing to compare to the other negative examples)

Honestly...this does help me realize in interesting lesson regarding people's tastes in something. How one thing of a something (shows in the case of Geats, Ninninger, and Kyuuranger for you) can be so bad to someone that it practically overshadows everything that may have been good or interesting that you no longer differentiate that one thing you despise about the content from literally anything else like it's all just the same. Like the red rangers' catchphrases for Ninninger and Kyuranger were so bad, and the way Geats was written (Takahashi is up there with Mr. I-Wrote-Donbro/Faiz/Jetman/Kiva Man for you anyways) as the show got worse in the final fourth was so bad... it basically completely overshadows anything else that may have potentially been interesting or likeable. The one thing you despise basically kinda reduces your brain to mush and then you couldn't care less about the said shows anymore because the most frustrating and grating negative(s) are naturally the first thing that comes to your mind about the said shows that you can't bring yourself to like it again even if you tried to differentiate the bad with the good. But then again in the case of your two least favorite sentai shows, that annoyance was there from the get go whereas Geats just tanked hard in the second half and became a massive underwhelming disappointment as a result. At least that's I'm assuming...or I'm just overthinking it with the analysis on how even one single bad thing can overshadow everything else. Basically the negatives (even if it's just one) an severely overshadow literally everything else, including positives, you can't bring yourself to care nor like anymore even if you try to differentiate the bad from the good and okay. Everyone has different tastes and I respect that, you've just showed me an interesting lesson on this so I'll give you that. So thanks, I didn't need to think much on this but I did so here you go. (Okay, wtf? How did I completely shift the topic from asking your thoughts about Jeremy's catchphrase to this deep analysis shit?! Sorry about this but ah well... ^_^')

Well, you're not wrong. I'm not tagging this post for reasons that will become clear under the cut

In the case of the catchphrases, yeah, they tend to be dealbreakers for me. If they annoy me enough it really ruins the whole experience of the show for me. Heck, "Yossha Lucky!" nearly ruined Sentai as a whole for me, that's how much of a dealbreaker it became.

It also became the shorthand for a certain character type I don't care much for to begin with- and if that character is the focal point of the show... yeah.

As for Geats... well, it's true that the season tanked hard for me right during the JGP arc and that Takahashi used tropes that annoyed me (specifically the lack of a buildup to proper redemption arcs, or forgiveness/redemption arcs for those that don't really deserve it at all). I'm a bit more forgiving of the latter tbh, but only because Takahashi isn't the only one guilty of it.

What really ruined it for me wasn't the show itself... it was the Buffa apologists. It was the first time other fans ruined the show for me. At some points all I could think about was, "Oh great, Buffabutt's done [insert horrible thing] here, I wonder how they'll justify this bs again?"

And of course, the same people who justify him murdering Keiwa and Ace and scores of other people for his wish to have the power to beat all Riders with "it's okay, they all get revived anyway, what's the point getting mad about it"... are the same ones who harass the ones who point out the absurdity of their arguments by accusing them of sending anon hate (as if it being supposedly anon means they have no actual proof of the fact).

So yeah. Geats would've been just meh to me if not for those assholes. Maybe I would've cared for it more. But because I've come to associate their nastiness with Geats, I preferred to just move on with my life and the new show than dwell on it (and by extension them assholes).

[irxnmaiden]

(various topics meme) 15, 18, 26, and 29. :)

rpc thoughts/opinions prompt! [✉️]

#15. icons

icons are rly fun honestly! i think they have the ability to add a lot of personality to a scene, and sometimes can assist in establishing context or helping to emphasize tone. THAT all said, i don’t find them necessary at all—i’m primarily here to read threads, so icons or no icons, the writing is where my focus remains and my interests lie!! i don’t bypass blogs just bc they go icon-less, in fact its oftentimes the opposite? i love seeing how ppl can use their words alone to paint the entire picture. whichever way someone chooses to express their muse is valid tbh, do what feels comfortable!

#18. fanon interpretations

throw a stone and hit any of my muses, and it's apparent how over-the-top and carried away i get from canon lmao... pkmn is the perf franchise for it too; not only are the settings vast and the thematic concepts plentiful, but there is often a lot of negative space to fill on these muses’ canvases (this seems esp true for most canon characters in the earlier games). i aim for my interpretations to feel realistic (to some degree) so i do keep in mind the little canon i am given... but that’s still more for reference, and not something i strictly abide by. its thrilling how ppl have fun w their muses’ exploits and interpersonal relationships, i’m so here for how muns deviate from canon in order to conceptualize something entirely new.

yes i understand in retrospect i absolutely did not understand the topic lmao

#26. your character

jasmine, jasmine... i will never forget witnessing her for the first time ;; it was after school, while watching my friend nick play gold before a crowd of like 12 of us (he was that kid that always had new games right when they came out lol his family had it made like that). he was just reaching the jasmine gym battle by the time i walked up. as you can imagine, being an elementary schooler i was not using the internet as it was back then much at all, so leaks etc were not accessible to me (what few leaks existed at the time, that is); same was true for p much everyone else in my grade, so none of us had any idea about the slayage we were in for. we all saw the two magnemite and kinda brushed them off like “lmao that’s cute”, the disappointment was kinda real ngl 💀 but that disappointment didn’t last long whatsoever, bc the second she sent steelix out... the collective gasps in that lunchroom, lemme tell you! it was quite possibly the greatest thing any of us had ever seen in our lives up to that point, so serious when i say lives were changed that day ;;

so then when i finally received the game a couple months later, i was so excited to get to her gym and battle her for myself. i fell more in love going thru the amphy plotline, and the rest was history as they’d say. she was (and still is) a v overlooked character, but writing her is tons of fun c: (as is seeing her get some exposure from pokemas!) srry this was long-winded as HELL-

#29. your first muse

for the pkmn fandom, my first ever muse was (surprise) misty! this was back on lj, in a community that prob died out in 06 lmao. she was a lot of fun to explore, and became the perf gateway muse before i decided to try exploring diff personalities within the pkmn universe. ive written her since several times, and she’s grown into a more developed muse of mine following that first incarnation for sure. always will have a soft spot in my heart for miss kasumi ♡

[tazzomi]

Is Scott the only non human or there someone else if so who and what

So far most of them are what people draw them as over all like grians usually avian to some degree I’m thinking frog for BigB since frog mountain was almost a thing and Scott of course became a selkie! Any ideas tho are welcome if you were thinking something! (Here’s a breakdown of everyone’s current status)

Scott-selkie

Martyn-human

Cleo-zombie

Scar-human(up for change)

Bdubs-human

Tango-blaze hybrid

Impulse-demon thing (idk what else to call it)

Etho-human

Skizz-Human

Pearl-moth hybrid

BigB-human or frog hybrid tbh (I don’t watch him so idk the vibes but I feel like it’s be fun if he were frogy)

Grian-avian

Jimmy-avian

Joel-human

[moki-dokie]

cats too, tbh. people like to push the misconception cats can't be trained, cats are solitary, cats won't do anything they aren't interested in, ect ect. but that's only true to a certain degree.

if you are part of a cats family, they will learn damn near anything. cats mirror behavior of their family almost like primates and corvids tend to. they WANT to learn, to be part of what you're doing, to be included in every event and conversation.

but the kicker to this is that unless you raised your cat from kittenhood, there's a good chance you or someone else in the household is not part of their family in their eyes. you share a territory, but you are not kin. they tolerate you and appreciate you as a food source, but they have no bonds to tie them to you otherwise, and would fuck off in a heartbeat if there was a similar source and the freedom to do so. and a lot of that comes down to people treating cats like dogs, thinking they will automatically pack with you no matter what, puppy or adult. a cat that has not grown up with you will almost never do this. you have to earn the status of family via respect, trust, patience, and kindness. but once you are viewed as kin, training them is easy. and using gestures works just as well with them.

atticuss who has since passed was leash trained. all i had to do was pick up his leash and he'd come stand at my feet for me to put his harness on. we also had a game where he'd hunt me from around a corner and pounce knowing i'd catch him mid-air, and soon became a thing where all i had to do was open my arms and he'd run and pounce.

mowgli, also passed, knew bedtime just from us getting into bed and getting under the blankets. once under the blankets it was time for him to come up and snuggle up with me. if we were on the bed any other time, it wasn't bedtime so he'd stay off.

dodger has learned to reach up and touch my hand to ask for his treats. originally i was trying to teach him to meow to ask, but he started reaching out unprompted - i assume because he's watched me use my hand to pick them up out of my other palm. again, cats mirror like crazy. so now when its treats time, he sits and reaches up to my hand to give it a tap, then gets his treat. no verbal cues at all, merely the sight of his treat bag and my cupped hand. he also knows a gentle push from my foot means to get out of the way immediately because it's dangerous to be near. he knows when i slow blink back at him, i want him to come to me, and most of the time he does (unless he's literally just woken up in which case it might take him a bit. understandable. i too do not like to get out of bed immediately.) he knows when i get down on all fours, its Floor Time (dedicated play time/affection time on the floor with him) - although it's hard to separate this from yoga for him lol and despite the fact he cannot tell time nor even has a concept of time, he knows exactly when it's 6pm and time for wet food. ans although this is a verbal one, i merely have to change the tone of my voice for him to immediately stop something he's not supposed to be doing. no yelling, no needing to physically remove him, don't even need to ask twice. I just take The Tone with his name and he's done instantly and walking away. all of my cats know what an accident is, too. they know how to apologize in their own way if they forget their bite inhibition whilst being excited and playful or if their claws got me instead of their toy.

not only does he know visual and verbal cues i've taught him, but he has many of his own to communicate with me specifically. he mirrors my actions so accurately when he wants something. because i use my hands for so much, he does the same with his paws.

train your pets. its awesome and fun and gives them a way to better communicate with you!

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[kyrodo]

Reiteration. One thing that is a constant that started slightly before you became... a rando I focused on, is the constant reiterating. It is always great to get something off your chest to someone. And I feel in most cases it is expected to be a one off thing. Someone listens to you cry your heart out and the act of them listening and being a comfortable ear makes it all better, at least for the day. And to some degree that was why whenever I was directly speaking with anyone it was always a one off thing.

They hear my piece and whether or not I feel recovered I don't bother them again. The therapist I had the same thing except every hour is paid, and even if I could go back to them it was a waste of money tbh. I needed someone reusable as an outlet.

And I had an easier time reiterating the same shit over and over when it was you. I got comfort knowing someone actually gave a shit what I was talking about. The crush side of things didn't help any, but that was the unique role you served as my stalker that no one else in my life was ever able to fulfill. That is the true value you had to me as my penpal so to speak. Even if I can't see anything anymore you still manage to fulfill that role except it's your wrong doing that I rant about. You are my living journal, or rather my ghost.

I feel that the only way active friends at the time would have been able to stop things from happening would have been to approach me on a daily basis and ask about the stuff I was already ranting about before I even post about it. Which again, I had so many temporary moments of feeling fine that no one would have been able to expect my constant crashes an hour or two later. And what do I do the hour or two later? I rant again. My mind thinks up something to shove out the door and it ends up on Twitter anyway. I would have needed constant watch to avoid going where I did in terms of seeking social alternatives. And I guess it would have had to have been someone like Choskey who needs someone around enough that they'd stay on discord 24/7. Given that I still post here even with Choskey around though suggests even that wouldn't have made a difference. My addiction to social media is strong enough that I deeply care about my outward facing self, even if I'm actively making things worse not better. It still has a continuous self conscious element enough that I need to keep adding things whenever I proof read.

[murph-the-lurph]

Just FYI, I do not have a degree in any of this, I am not a professional, these are all just my opinions, I am up for friendly discussion, but will not tolerate anything I don't want to (ie not courteous) :)

America is so deeply religious and divided because of historical whiteness and white supremacy

As someone who is white, I feel this deep chasm from a lack of belonging/community (it's called white longing, plenty of other people who are smarter than me have talked about it before)

Before the later periods of immigration (late 19th-early 20th, mid-20th onward), most immigrants were Chinese, Irish, English, and German. We're going to remove anybody arriving on the west coast (ie Chinese immigrants) from the equation for the moment, just focusing on the Irish and Germans. The English are also removed as they are W(white) A(nglo) S(axon) P(rotestant) and not subjected to much, if any discrimination

The Irish were less "white" (for context, the idea of whiteness often fluctuates based on who is immigrating and from where, it's very transitory) than Germans, as WASPy Americans considered them less "anglo." They looked different, likely smelled different (due to diet), and were Catholic. To survive, they assimilated, all of them. Germans and Irish alike.

For "white" people (which exists as a social construct obviously, but the idea of whiteness is transient, Protestant Anglo-Saxons believed they were the only white people before this, it's in quotes to acknowledge that "whiteness" as a definite hard thing is not possible in a historical context over a broad period of time) to maintain a majority, minorities that weren't as different were pushed to assimilate and leave behind their culture (languages/traditions/clothes/food). Hence why some white Americans are shocked to hear that the Irish weren't considered white (in the late 19th and early 20th century), and also why older Italian Americans have strong feelings about Colombus Day being abolished in favor of Indigenous Peoples' Day. But, as immigrants became more and more diverse, more and more minorities were stripped of their ethnic identities (in a meaningful sense, my hometown is very "German" but that's mostly just code for crotchety, racist white people, we don't meaningful practice or engage with our culture) to maintain that majority. This is where white supremacy comes in.

I am German and English (and a little bit of everything else tbh, kind of super mutt of European heritage). I remember hearing about my great-great aunt, and how she didn't speak German at all. It stopped with her parents. Everyone of European ancestry (whose family showed up on the Western side of the pond a while ago) has a story like that.

This is (likely) the root of cultural appropriation. That deep disconnect from a culture and community (which also coincidentally leads to such deep feelings about sports teams, at least I think :) ) breeds a wanting for it, a soul-deep craving. Obviously, it's not okay to appropriate other cultures, this is just an interesting hypothesis (which again, was come up with by people way smarter than moi)

In my opinion, this also causes Americans (and probably other people who have been stripped of their culture due to white supremacy and colonization, but I am just speaking from my experience) to be so deeply religious. The Catholic church or LDS gives people a sense of belonging; they are part of something bigger than themselves and are surrounded by people like them. Humans are social animals (google the very old cave grave of a baby or the relative longevity of equally prehistoric people with physical disabilities, found to be provided for and supported to ripe "old" age) and it makes sense that they need other people. America is so deeply religious because its people were stripped of their culture by the shoring up of historical whiteness (and the ensuing white supremacy).

If you are a white American feeling that hole, trying to fill it with sports teams and fictional vampire/werewolf rivalries, try instead connecting to your roots. My mother and sister (having learned German and the former having lived there) have found peace in it.

Anyway, thanks for coming to my ted talk :)