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KISS ME,KISS ME,KISS ME LOVE ME
*pairing: nerd Heeseung x reader
*tags: fluffy,kiss,smut, jealousy
*synopsis: Heeseung didn't mind you because he was busy playing video games like any nerd so you could only do one thing "tease him"
*word count: 2k (Tell me if you like this kind of stories:)
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(English is not my native language)
Heeseung had two personalities and lived completely two lives.
The first was the idol he became super confident on stage with his harmonic voice that made crazy thousands of her fans during the various tours of Enhypen, he loved to flirt with her fans during meet and greet, and as he danced on stage he transformed and loved to emanate that super sexy aura but extremely illegal aura for most of his fans but at the same time, he was a little nerd who loved spending hours playing video games with his friends, Lego building and watching old movies with a nice plate of ramen, especially during the autumn evenings where at five in the afternoon it was already dark in Seoul.
Y/n and Heeseung had not yet formalized their relationship with the other members but every hour or day when Heeseung had time to spend alone he invited her into his dormitory, especially in his room, or they spent those hours walking in places not too crowded of the Korean capital or they played basketball in one of the many parks that were near their apartments; Y/n wasn’t very good at playing basketball but her competitive side always came out because Hee loved to tease people especially that girl who was now part of her heart.
The blue light of the computer illuminated the faces of Heeseung and Y/n, Hee was playing a game that he had given the girl next to him and she had taken note of not giving him more video games because it was almost two hours that he moved his hands in the controller sexy way and at the same time he passed his hands in the hair when he lost a life in the game for exploitation.
Y/n loved those hands especially when they were attached to her hips, when Hee would arrange a strand of her long hair behind her ear, or when the boy with the eyes of a deer made her come countless times in an evening between his fingers.
"Hee, I understand that you love this game but you’re not a nerd who has to spend the whole evening in front of this computer if you haven’t noticed I’ve been next to you for almost two hours and I’m seriously bored, it’s better to see you beat me at basketball at least I know I have your attention!"
a small grin formed between Heeseung’s lips and he felt one of his big hands hold your thigh "Stop behaving like a child and if you have so much need of my attention sit between my legs, within 10 minutes the game ends and I’ll be all yours!" You wanted to seriously sit between her legs and put your head between her neck and smell that delicious mix of hot spices and the scent of laundry that emanated from her skin but she was seriously tired of not being looked after by her "boyfriend"
"Don't worry i let you play, i go to prepare a shield of ramen in the kitchen who knows maybe there will find someone who appreciates my company!" You felt a small laugh come out of Heeseung’s lips and a slight puff went out of your lips. In the kitchen, there was strange silence but immediately after you heard the laughter that you could recognize immediately from the common room that they had the guys, one was that of Jay, and the other of your bias, nobody knew except Heeseung that "ICE PRINCE" was your bias and when he discovered it a slight jealousy took over in Heeseung’s body.
"look who we have here worthy of his presence" A small smile came out from your lips when you felt Jay make fun of you.
<<How come you’re all alone? your boyfriend doesn’t give you the right attention or is still playing video games...>> You loved Sunghoon but sometimes he behaved as if you and Heeseung were not engaged and it was also true because he had not yet asked you to be his girlfriend.
"Don’t worry Hee gives me a lot of attention i came of my own free will to prepare ramen, you want some too, and stop me and Heeseung are not engaged?" you had just stopped in the kitchen to warm up your ramen and Sunghoon oddly came out slightly talkative towards you.
<<If you don’t get your girlfriend back that guy has problems because you do exactly a "cute couple" watch movies together, go to the games rooms together, wear his sweaters as at this moment, and for my bad luck, i have the room next to that of Heeseung and hear your groans, especially your Y/n>> A slight redness made its way into your cheeks and at that moment you just wanted to have the power to disappear because Heeseung had told you that the rooms were soundproof because people like Jay could play guitar in the room.
Heeseung was not at all jealous of his teammates he knew that he could trust all 6 but since he had discovered that your bias was not him Sunghoon had become extremely towards you. As you could have Hoon as bias and stay with him, they had two different characters and even beauty were opposite; Sunghoon was introverted, Sunghoon’s look was enough to stop a possible argument between the members and he was cold enough with the girls instead he liked touching you (maybe too much) wanted to always have physical contact with you, He easily made friends with everyone and loved to flirt with girls. So when he heard Hoon talk to you like that he ran to your side and kissed you in front of the two members of the enhypen, it was not a shy kiss that gave you just awake or when he greeted you to go to work but immediately crashed his lips in yours and made you open your mouth more to get into your tongue and heard a small moan coming from you and this made him proud of himself same.
It was he who made you groan and loved to hear his name come from your lips, it was he who had the luxury of being able to kiss you,he was the only one able to show you the stars while he was inside of him and it was just him that you wanted as a boyfriend and maybe it was time to seriously arrange an appointment but now he just wanted to take you out of the kitchen and be with you in his room.
"The ramen is ready, if you want a little get up to take it, me and Y/ n go to the room" A slight redness was seen in Heeseung’s cheeks but he was drowning in jealousy and also a bit of anger.
<<I recommend you have fun i’ll stay in the living room with Jay and do not make me become an uncle at 22 years old that there are still people like Ni-Ki who for me are still a child to care!>>. Jay and Sunghoon gave each other a high five, they couldn’t understand why their older member hadn’t asked you after almost 6 months of being in a relationship to be his girlfriend and they loved seeing him jealous.
You took Heeseung to his room and sat him in the giant gamer chair that he had in the room and a look full of questions formed in his face from the eyes of deer.
"how come you have reactivated the video games i want to be with you Y/n" A smile came out of your lips and before sitting between her knees I took a beautiful pink lipstick that you loved to wear and that stood out from your white skin and your green eyes.
Now you say that you want to be with me after being next to you for 2 hours and having heard from Sunghoon that he hears me moaning, and that I've been with you for almost 6 months and you haven’t had the balls to ask me to be your girlfriend." you sat between his legs and immediately his big hands will go to touch your waist to get closer to him but you with a small slap remove the feet from Heeseung
"Now play your stupid game as long as i want, and don’t try to touch me or i won’t make you come you can’t touch me for days and we know that when you see me you look like a little puppy who needs attention, especially my touch." Heeseung looked at you with a drool in his mouth, it was rare to see you blubbering and this thing made him even more excited.
You put on your favorite lipstick and you took his face with one hand as you had seen on Tik Tok there was this trend where you kissed your boyfriend with everything but the tongue and you had to see how long it lasted without kissing you.
You kissed Heeseung in his neck socket, in his adam’s apple and now you were trying to give him a kiss in the mole that had in front, and without fear, you pulled up and felt its length become harder and harder between your legs and felt a slight moan come out from his lips.
"What’s your game, Y/n, you want to make me cum in my pants without even touching you? What is this thing that you kiss me for everything and not on my lips." another moan came out of his lips and a hand went in his hair to make him mess a little, you loved to see that gesture because he always did it when he was agitated and as a bitch as you were you rubbed between his pants and felt the controller fall on the ground.
"How come you don’t want to play video games anymore, Hee? Before I left you couldn’t take your eyes off the computer and now you can’t take my eyes off my body" you came to give them a big kiss and he was beautiful, his hair was slightly messy and locks were falling out of his eyes that he tried in every way to take up, His face and neck were covered with pink kisses, and his cheeks were red from the things you said to him and all those kisses you left for him.
"Kiss me, kiss me, kiss me love me, and not that nerd asshole who left you to bore yourself and suffer the teasing of Jay but especially Hoon."
A light laugh came out of your lips and you couldn’t believe that in that state Heeseung had sung the part of an enhypen song to tell you to kiss him and love him "You didn’t seriously sing a part of "Daydream" to have my lips between yours true?" "Sometimes being Idol has its advantages and I could not think of it asking you to kiss me using one of my songs, seriously y/n you’re driving me crazy I need to kiss you right now" Without thinking for a moment you put your lips in her and a light moan came out of your lips, a hand of Heeseung leaned on one side of you and the other went under his sweatshirt to touch your belly and then to tease your breast. Your breasts were perfect for her hands and after a few seconds you took off the sweatshirt and mouth that you longed so much sucked a hood "Hee, tell me it’s not true that Sunghoon can hear us" You moved your hips where there was his length and to make you suffer began to morph softly your breast and pulled slightly her hair "maybe i told you a lie, love to hear you moan especially my name and must understand that you are mine" His bites became more intense and this asshole nerd with deer eyes made you come in your underwear and a slight stain formed in the pants of his suit.
"I hate you," Lee Heeseung
"I love you, y/n"
#lee heesung x reader#lee heeseung#heeseung enhypen#heeseung imagines#heeseung x reader#enhypen fluff#enhypen smut#enhypen fanfic#sunghoon x reader
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So uh yeah here he is. He's a silly guy, a scrunkle if you will.
He's a #humanexchangestudent (well ignore demon version that's a different universe yeah we'll say that)
His name is Oliver (haha who would've thunk it)
But yeah he did not in fact want to be there and didn't like anyone at the beginning. He grew to enjoy the presence of everyone though :]
Relationships with everyone:
Lucifer - Genuinely scared of him for a while because he's loud and mean, but found comfort in him later on
Mammon - was originally annoyed as fuck that Mammon was being rude to him, but when mammon started being nice and affectionate and stuff he quickly warmed dup to mammon. (Mammon is also #1 protector fr fr. This man can't defend himself for shit)
Levi - They're buddies!!! He dies get second hand embarrassment from the way he talks sometimes, but he very much enjoys anime as well so they get to nerd out about that stuff. He also will make Levi play horror games with him because it's silly fun.
Satan - He loves Satan. It took a while because of how abrasive he was, but once he calmed down and started being sweeter to Oliver he enjoyed his presence a lot more. He really enjoys analyzing things with Satan and snuggling with him while he reads. He also goes in Satan's room when everything else is too loud .
Asmo - Oliver was freaked the fuck out because why was he needlessly freaky??? He calmed down a bit after a while, and the two of them love doing cool outfits and makeup and such!! He always makes sure to compliment asmo and says he loves him as a person.
Beel - He's a silly guy idk what to tell you. It's not his fav to make more food than necessary when he's cooking for himself, but he still loves beel so he's willing to do so. He's also beels #1 hype man and occasionally works out with him.
Belphie - he hates him. That fact makes everyone upset. Genuinely don't know what they expected to happen.
Diavolo - Really liked him at first !! Thought he was so silly! But he started to not trust him after lesson 16 and really doesn't like the way he treats lucifer. To him it seems that lucifer is stuck there against his will to keep his brothers safe and not out of true friendship. Also he has a distrust towards government in general.
Barbatos - Mostly neutral towards him, but really enjoys his food. He also let's Oliver ramble so that's a plus.
Simeon !!! - Oliver's favorite (Don't tell mammon). Oliver didn't trust him at first because the idea of angels and heaven was really weird and corrupt to him, but when Simeon was nothing like that he clung to him. Oliver frequently visits purgatory hall to see him. He gets so much comfort from Simeon it's insane.
Solomon - He is a tad bit concerned but they're buddies. Refuses to eat his food whatsoever. Sorry pookie 💔
Luke - Little guy!!! Oliver doesn't tease him much and is just happy to help him learn and grow as a person. The two of them get up to silly shit. Loves showing him human world stuff.
Raphael - Mostly neutral. (He hasn't appeared very much in the amount of the game I've played)
Thirteen and Manifesto - Literally no clue lmao. I stopped playing during season 2 of the OG game because it's so difficult to actually get into and the writing isnt very good.
But yeah Oliver is a guy 👍
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plz comment or reblog this and talk abt your OM mc’s bc I love hearing about them and I rly rly wanna read abt peoples mc’s, and you should totally show me any art you’ve made of your mc,
or don’t that’s ok to
only if you wanna
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also I’d totally love to draw anyone’s sheep mc with my mc’s sheep version
they can have tea:)
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looking at past cosplay crafting on fb memories like 'ooouuughhh I miss cosplay' as if I'm not literally in the middle of a big costume project right now
#it's DIFFERENT THOUGH....#seven years ago perc'ahlia went canon while I was working on our percy and vex cosplays a week before the con 😌💕#I miss cosplaying... siiigghh and I REALLY miss group cosplaying#but our con friends group have almost all either had babies or moved away#and like not that you stop being a nerd and liking fun#but it's just a lot harder logistically to DO a convention weekend when you have toddlers and preschoolers to consider :')#justin and I went to youmacon just the two of us one time and man. it turns out 85% of why it's fun is the social aspect of it#I don't wanna go to panels I wanna goof around and take a bunch of nerdy costume pictures with my friends ;n;#alas.....#about me
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Im still not over that time when I tried to explain why I read only shakespeare for book reports in high school to my mom and she teased me for using the phrase "human folley" unironically. I dont think I'll ever recover from that one. like yeah ok sure I'M the weird one...... sorry you cant understand the universal appeal of the Bard, MOM!!!!!!!
#adddna#it was very lighthearted but how does ur pride ever recover from your 55 YEAR OLD MOM implicitly calling you a nerd like that......#she likes making fun of me a little for being smart in a way she deems unrelatable but is still like abstractly proud of me for#like ok mom im trying to be smart WITH you work with me here. Stop brushing me off when I explain film theory to you PLEASE
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surprise art attack!!! here’s @deityofhearts ‘s cashmere, everyone’s favorite whimsical tiefling
#pose taken directly from the kikuomiku4 album cover bc i’ve been listening to UFO on repeat for idk how many days now#finally gave me the inspiration i needed to do something like this it’s like both sad and super whimsical#actually tbh it gives me more wishful vibes now that i think about it but 1. idk what wishful looks like and 2. cashmere design my beloved#kikuo just in general has a lot of whimsysad and/or fundark which is why i love him#tbh ufo has quickly shot up to one of my fave songs it’s the iconic accordion and the tempo being unstable in places#uh anyway ignore me being a kikuo nerd again#wahhh this was fun to work on it has consumed me these past three days#jumping up and down hehehehehe#glad i finally cut to the ‘it’s done *collapses*’ stage of the arting process bc i’ve been having trouble finishing pieces lately#man i WISH i could come up with poses this good on my own. idc i’m still proud of this#my art#ok yeah i just got the time total. 12 hours#i knew it would be a long time but i didn’t think that long#tbh a lot of that was spent inefficiently bc i kept having to resize the image up when i realized the pixels were too crunchy#and when you make an image bigger the lines get blurry so then you have to redo them. yeah i had to do that TWICE. like a dummy.#12 hours used to be like par for the course for me but i’ve finally gotten faster. or maybe i’ve just stopped doing as many full figures#lol
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Rating (the translated, not actually OG) titles of manhwa/manga because I was bored
Monstrous Duke's Adopted Daughter/The Monster Duchess and Contract Princess - not egregiously long but boring when the story is actually interesting. 6/10. Rename it with something more snappish like the Adopted Shadow or whatever. idk. Have I mentioned I've been banned from naming things?
My In-Laws Are Obsessed with Me - 4/10. Also not horrible but it's clearly a clickbaity title and I roll my eyes. Better to rename it to like ..... something to do with blood maybe? Or if you want to keep it family-themed. Blood Ties? Also boring and you can tell I'm speaking from a western YA-genre reader
Beware the Villainess - 8/10. This needs no change
The Perks of Being an S-Class Heroine - .... it's exactly what the title says, ngl. 7/10. But it could be better and less of a summary. Don't know what, though
The Noble Girl Who Finds a Nerdy and Plain Guy Moe Thinks That the Arrogant Prince Is in the Way - 0/10. I just. Why? The official English title is something like The Lady Likes a Nerd over Princes, which I found weird but the summary was interesting (turns out it was a good manga. But the author just has zero respect for the agency of women. Like. Comically so that it's not even funny as it gets a tad bit narratively frustrating as it's used as a device to drag on the plot) Anyway. Just why?
An Archdemon's Dilemma: How to Love Your Elf Bride - 2/10. Not as unforgivable as the previous but horrible all the same. And while the concept was interesting and I gave it a try because it was a rec, it turned out to not be for me at all. The title is dramatic, I'll give you that. It reads like it's a self help book for demon kings who want to learn how to Love and that's basically the manga
Frieren: Beyond Journey's End/Frieren at the Funeral/Frieren the Slayer - 10/10. Look. Any of those titles are good. It doesn't pop out but neither does it force you to hide the title out of fear of being misunderstood
The Savior's Book Cafe Story in Another World - 5/10. Inoffensive but another summary title. You could have literally just called it the Savior's Otherworld Cafe instead. Or something
I Listened to My Husband and Brought in a Lover - 1/10. Encourages cheating with consent. Actually, the manhwa kinda did too (the husband cheated first and was like you should cheat too). At least people know what they're in for? Don't want to retitle it. It deserves it for starting with decent potential for that premise and kinda failing to deliver.
I Stole the Number One Ranker's Soul - 6/10. Again, it's pretty catchy and not terrible but I still don't like these summary titles. Manhwa is amazing, however.
Can't Stop Cursing You - 8/10. Dying laughing because it reads as someone going "man, I just... can't stop cursing you. Really can't help myself you know? Sorry not sorry" while zapping you repeatedly with curses. Still pretty stupid when the actual manga was REALLY shiny with all that horror and bloody gore and interesting plot
Gingerly in Love - 10/10. Trust me. Once I saw what it was about, I died laughing. Not the most memorable manhwa but the wordplay of the title....
The Tyrant Wants to Be Good - 6/10. Again. Inoffensive but there's something annoying to me personally. The manhwa is great, though. Love me a woman who makes her trauma everyone else's problem, regrets it, and then internalizes the guilt in her do-over at life so bad that she ends up getting aggressively adopted into a found family
I Got a New Skill Every Time I Was Exiled, and After 100 Different Worlds, I Was Unmatched - 0/10. Why are isekai titles actually the worst sometimes. Manga itself is meh, in my opinion. It has potential ruined by the usual commodification of women, so I dropped it despite my interest
Bonus:
A Connecticut Yankee in King Arthur's Court - 3/10. Twain really was isekai titling when he probably didn't know that Japan was even a thing, huh. Not terrible, but it has that isekai style of summarizing the premise.
Bonus again:
The Fortunes and Misfortunes of the Famous Moll Flanders Who was born in Newgate, and during a life of continu’d Variety for Threescore Years, besides her Childhood, was Twelve Years a Whore, five times a Wife (whereof once to her brother) Twelve Years a Thief, Eight Years a Transported Felon in Virginia, at last grew Rich, liv’d Honest and died a Penitent - -10/10. It was an okay book but you shouldn't have had this power over your book titles, Daniel Defoe. Seriously. My edition just says "Moll Flanders". Never have I wanted to shame a dead author more. It's not even an isekai but it's worse than an isekai title. It's a whole anime opening credits.
#i just spun a wheel and chose titles from random#if you want ACTUAL recs. then.....#the 1st 4 are decently solid in terms of art and plot#Noble Girl x Nerd is adorable if you can stand an antagonist's role being overly drawn out with a weak explanation of 'well he's the prince'#frieren is really the only one you need to read tbh#and i stole the number one ranker's soul? I'd rate it to be among the 1st 4#and after that? can't stop cursing you is SO MUCH FUN if you can stand that the author discontinued it after wrapping up the 1st arc#and also if you are okay with psychological and body horror and some gore#lemon duck quacks#literary lemonade#stories told through art#look. i could have made fun of spanish titles like the ingenious gentleman don Quixote de la mancha#but there is a spanish author who titled his works things like the lights of September and the shadow of the wind#so spain escapes it for that one guy#as for other languages? don't know em
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claire should have had a minor for her first undergrad and there’s a funny option here but i’m not sure if i’m willing to make it Real
#it would make sense for her character and the career path she planned on following#+ like. pressure from her father to follow in his footsteps#it’s not bug related by the way. i’m starting to think that perhaps claire wouldn’t have pursued that career wise#as in. entomology is an interest of hers of course but not something she pursues while majoring in bio#since it doesn’t fit her father’s ooops her view of her future#does this make sense? she plans on going to med school#a minor in entomology would be fun and it wouldn’t matter much for pre med being honest but I Don’t Think her father Would Be Pleased.#and that’s something i have to take in account while writing claire#which is sad. i liked her thesis being about insects. it’s so unabashedly claire. it’s cute#<- but it Does make sense that she’d hide her interest in insects#right. she wouldn’t really write a thesis about it when you consider her character… it’s like… nerd emoji. Too Much nerd emoji.#there’s a reason why she stops collecting bugs after she gets in hollywood u#anyway the minor i was considering is psychology. i am not being biased here. i just think it’s Really funny if she has a minor in psych#<- + her father is a psychiatrist so that’s what i wa going for
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#Twitter's weird. It's like people know what a fandom is in the sense that they have heard the word before and use it in their lexicon#But they get stumped by every single aspect of fandom culture#No; “multifandom” is not just liking multiple pieces of media. The term “rarepair” is not applicable to a ship that recieves fan art daily#Reposting old fan works made by other people just to make fun of them is a dick move. Yes; strange topics recieve rendered artwork sometime#No; being a hater does not make you cool or funny. Being negative on someone else's post is rude and annoying#Private quote retweets are often used by shy people and folks who want to use twitter without engaging with the community. -#- It is not a dislike button and you should stop treating it as such#Crying “when is the new season/episode/chapter/whatever” is not going to make it drop any faster#And the list goes on. It'd be one thing if it was just kids acting like this; but it's older people too#My only guess is folks on there are autistic about their interests; but don't want to appear that way to people outside their fandom#It's kinda like those movies where a nerd puts on a pair of sunglasses and approaches the cool clique then points at his friends-#-and says “haha imagine being like those losers. Not us though; right guys?” but the cool clique doesn't like him either#Are you picking up what I'm putting down?
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i miss dominion smp :(
#also i wanna be in one of legs videos i couldnt be in the undercover one bc when i try and log in on my wifi i jsut insta crash#this used to not happen when i joined legundos server but now it does bc verizon wants me dead ig#like that GOT one looked SO FUN fr#like im a silly goofy guy! im good at the game! i could be an asset!#this isnt relevant to the post at all i just got instantly distracted#except like. only patrons and like. really active members are prolly ever gonna get to be in those#and i had to cancel my patreon membership for a little while so i could save money#so im only a patron until october rn after having been a patron for. many months#im kinda sad about it fr#legs you follow me if you see this. hi. sorry i had to stop being a patron im also not happy about it but i had 20 dollars to my name#ill rejoin later i prommy#also viking if you see this. start a patreon nerd i wanna be a member when i have more money#what was i talking about? OH YEAH videos players can be in#they look so fun i was in the ryan one recently and im super excited for it to come out#even tho i wasnt a big part of the story besides getting my ass kicked that one time#it was still fun. wish my group hadnt continually had everything we owned burned down. that sucked really hard#very excited for that video tho i wait w bated breath#i should go rewatch the got video
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Yes I’m alive yes I made fanart
I did write in maximal and in autobot
(And yes sentinal got a HORRIFYING grade)
The meme in question
(The autobot wording is just a massive THE while the cup says best GF it was made by rung…he had to learn a whole new language for that cup and he is not disappointed)
<sorry for my cringe behavior 🥲>
the little mug is just perfect omg
Sentinel you loser you really think you could get away with this?? it's like that spongebob meme. he put all the effort in the wrong place. probably tried pawning it off on some other sucker like Orion trying to get them to do his homework until the last second and panicked
#also#i will say this as nicely as possible#my dude. you HAVE to stop calling yourself cringe and APOLOGIZING for it. STOP!! stop insulting yourself!!#dont bring yourself down! have fun and OWN IT! be enthusiastic not apologetic! kill the cringe response and stop giving it power over you!#also. this blog is my place to be a nerd about robots. so when you come here calling yourself cringe for being a nerd about robots#you are kind of calling ME cringe too. i dont think its intentional or anything but this is a side effect of your bad self talk#i cant control your negativity or opinions but at LEAST stop bringing it to MY BLOG which is MY space to have fun!#id love to see more of your ocs and art by all means! keep up the good work! but not if you keep acting like its shameful or stupid#im saying this to ENCOURAGE you please dont take it as an accusation. i want you to have fun and stop thinking badly of yourself for it
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slowly starting to understand the reason most people like me on a casual friend basis but never in a friend friend way is because i am kind of a huge buzzkill lol. like i hold myself to this impossible standard of altruism and guilt trip the fuck out of myself when i can't reach it and though i most definitely don't hold other people to the same standards they probably still feel kind of judged and shitty for like. enjoying themselves in indulgent ways around me. it's not like i do judge them or think they're shitty people for it but that's probably hard to believe when i would feel guilty and think that of myself if i joined in?? sort of like how people tell me they don't judge me for being fat and then shit talk their own bodies for being fat 24/7. self mutilation has collateral damage. and while i don't really think of what i do as punishing or hating myself and more like being hyperaware of the world around me in everything i do, it's the same concept. and there's nothing that can be done about that, we're just too different. and maybe that's not the worst thing. i don't need to be besties with everyone
#something something true selfnessness is a paradox that can never be achieved#ive had this obsession with selflessness and renunciation since i was a kid#blame it on the ocd lol#obviously ive grown a lot since then and its not toxic like it used to be#like i've moved from selflessness to kindness#and that includes kindness to myself#but im fundamentally wired to think “is this really necessary??” for every indulgent thing i do#and it probably gets exhausting being around me when you just want to have fun and not overthink about shit all the time#tl;dr: im a nerd#anyway#liveblogging.pdf#hopefully ill be less lonely now that ive realized this#thats its not something intrinsic about me that is just unfun and lame but its an active choice that i wouldnt change#heck there are so many people like me. i should stop chasing people who just vibe differently#like we can be friends without having to be close#and them not wanting to be close is not an attack on me as a person#vagueposting the shit out of tumblr dot com#i guess
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heheh friends :)
#no seriously nothing like spending time and hanging out w friends alskdjfalskjh i feel so much joy#we were sending one of the other students off cuz he completed all his training and stuff so big celebration#it was a lot of fun honestly!! i really wanted to do a little get together so we could all just hang out#we also got ice cream after ;; v;; (they had weird flavors!!!! habby)#it was a nice time i guess i just needed to stop being a hermit in my depression LAKSJDAFLKSFH#friends tag#depression: nooooo you cant hang out w friends youre gonna be a bother!!!!! stooooop#today: :)#snow speaks#anyways its been a good night#except now i realize im like 20 x more of a nerd than i thought before#literally everyone else slacked off for this rotation and im out here stressing and anxious like T _ T yall couldve told me i couldve been#in on it alksdjfhalskjh yall....#and now. i have to make myself study. or attempt to#asdlafkjsdh basically! ride the high#but as soon as the shower happens im going nightnight#fuck around and play honkai some more ig LMAO
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i went to this place today with a bunch of arcade and pinball machines and had a super fun time and now i'm thinking about arcade date fluff with copia....
#i lost track of time but we fully spent like 5 and half hours there lol and only left because i needed to eat#it was really fun!!#there was a phantom of the opera pinball machine and i played it a ton#i suck at pinball but it was phantom!! i couldn't help myself#it was based on the book and i kept nerding out on all the little details that i really liked#also played darkstalkers for probably over an hour#and i had to stop because i felt like i was getting carpal tunnel and i was getting way too frustrated because it was really hard#but i grew up playing a lot of arcade games so i had a lot of fun!!#we already know copia is a Gamer so i think going to an arcade with him would be really funnn#gonna cheer him on while he tries to get the high score on a game<33#and being totally in sync playing co-op games and still trying to one-up each other even when we're on the same team hehe#we play a fighting game and he's annoyed that i'm using the same strat i've used since i was a kid#which is just randomly mashing buttons and wiggling the joystick aimlessly until i accidentally figure out a combo and then spamming it#and more than that he's frustrated that it's working and i keep winning#i could go on but yeah arcade dates my beloved <33#what do you have to say doll?
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That previous reblog, actually something I think about a LOT, LOL. Everyday I’m sad fnv didnt get more development time because i think I could really love it… and while I consider it the best fallout game, its not my favorite. fo4 takes the cake there its just too much fun to play, regardless of the story… i SOOOOO desperately want to enjoy fnv more but the gameplay makes it REALLY hard for me. as a stupid bad gamer. dont come at me with “skill issue” i KNOW!!!! its a phenomenal game with awesome art direction and storytelling and characters. but the tiny amount of time they had to develop it Does show. You and i both know that.
fo1/2 are a close third place because i think theyre really strong basis :] and i love the art direction in them. Praying bethesda will one day stop making us be vault dwellers though. It could be so much more interesting. this is fo4 lovemail… ily fo4.
edit bc i should mention this YES they should put back the story-based gameplay elements that were in previous games. the karma system most notably. when i say better gameplay here i refer to Action gameplay and not Story gameplay. But they SHOULD bring back the story gameplay elements bc they rule and i miss them.
rant in tags dont argue abt it with me if you come across this by searching fo game names this is for my own BLAG!!!
TLDR; i like all the fallout main games. Dont hate on my girl 4 so much… I know shes the poster child of bethesda mainstreaming the games. its not her fault… its still SO much fun to play.
#ok personal gripe goes in the tags.#i understand that people are against fo4 due to it being an RPG where they feel their roleplaying is limited.#and like yeah i get it i guess but that has never been an issue for me )3$/)/6;&3#like if you are really so thrown off by the story invading how you want to play… ignore it. maybe im just too experienced ignoring canon.#but its fun easy & free to just turn off the main quest and do your own thing and imagine as you go along.. as opposed to feeling like you#HAVE to follow nate/nora’s story..#and even if your imagination isnt strong enough to completely block it out then theres mods for it#i would understand being angry abt it when the game first came out and there were no mods. but be serious… its been a long time.#IDK just . it gets on my nerves LOL. Im not saying it couldnt have been better. it absolutely couldve. bethesda is an enormous company.#dont ignore how fun it is to Play#RANT OVER#i love falout#gaeming#normally i keep this kind of thought to myself cause like whatever. nerd rage. but i like talking abt fo…#everyones allowed to hate fo4 im not going to try and stop u. but when this is the only argument i see against it its like YAAWWWNNNN!!!!!
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a/n. second time writing from bkg's perspective. this was so fun! (1.1k)
the moment that cemented bakugou’s resolve to marry you wasn’t exactly grand.
it wasn’t your first kiss.
or the first time you made love to each other.
not even the first time you met his nerd-ass friends or his (slightly) overbearing parents. although those two come as close runner-ups.
no, it was rather a random saturday morning after you spent a night at his place, now clad in what he thinks is nothing but your intimates and a burnt orange t-shirt of his that drapes loosely over your frame.
and as he enters the kitchen and closes the distance between the two of you with a few strides, he can’t help but wonder what you’re doing—deeply focused on your laptop—when you’re probably the one who’s extra pedantic about not bringing work home.
“morning,” he grunts, leaning down to kiss your cheek, which you happily accept. although, to his chagrin, your eyes remain on your computer screen, not even sparing him a single glance.
he knows it’s fucking embarrassing, how strongly you elicit feelings within him without you even fucking trying, but he can’t stop the frown that takes over his face even if he attempted to fight it.
shaking off the irrational disappointment from not even being ignored, he rounds the kitchen island and starts brewing the two of you coffee.
“by the way,” he starts, glancing at you over his shoulder, “the old hag’s birthday is coming up. she wants to have dinner with just the four of us, or some shit.”
“i know,” you simply pipe up from where you’re seated on one of his fancy bar stools, gaze still glued on whatever the fuck it is that’s keeping your attention from him.
he turns to you, a manual coffee grinder in tow. “you do?”
at that, you finally look up at him, an innocent expression etched across your features. “you don’t remember? i asked you when your parents’ birthdays were way back in march.”
way back in march.
back when you unanimously decided to decisively end the dating phase and become boyfriend-girlfriend.
“yeah?” is the only thing he manages to get out.
you let out a soft laugh that’s nothing but music to his ears. “yeah, dummy.”
before you can get to see the red that’s most definitely creeping up to his cheeks, bakugou turns his back against you, returning to busying himself with crushing the beans into fine powder and pouring lukewarm water into the machine.
only a few months before reaching a full year together, and you still manage to make him fucking blush.
over the most mundane things, too.
when he first got into his very first relationship with you at the ripe age of 28, he thought he’d outgrown and was way past the embarrassing shit that the human body was capable of when dealing with anything remotely close to romance.
it didn’t take him long enough into your relationship to find out he was so, so wrong.
sighing, he pours out the cup of ground beans onto the filter, finally pressing the button and bringing the coffee maker to life.
you must be done with what’s highly likely is work by now.
but chancing a glance at you, he’s once again met with palpable disappointment when the very same sight greets him.
before he can rein them in, the words come tumbling out of his lips.
“the fuck is so important on that laptop?”
his booming voice must’ve caught you off guard, because you startle ever so minutely in your seat.
“sorry,” he quickly adds on, albeit through a mutter; frustration with himself and his inability to modulate his voice added to the increasingly long list of emotions he’s having to fucking deal with right now.
waving him off, you shoot him another one of that disarming smile of yours. “‘s funny that you ask. i was just about to ask you for your opinion.”
with that, you gesture him to come close with your fingers. curious, he once again rounds the island, ultimately occupying the spot to your right and leaning down to peer at the small text on your screen.
before he can even get a word in, you hurriedly explain yourself. “mitsuki-san mentioned her personal sewing machine broke, so i’ve been thinking about getting her a new one.”
you point to a sleek, off-white model among what looks to be a vast array of selections, “i researched the specs and i think this one’s the best. what do you think?”
a million things course through his mind in an instant, but what he ends up sputtering out is: “you’re such a fucking nerd, you know that?”
at that, you look up at him, your seemingly perpetually moisturized lips now formed into a playful pout, and it takes everything in him not to just pull you in for a kiss and completely abandon the conversation in its entirety.
but he’d like to think he at least has the slightest bit of self-control.
even if you do wear him the fuck out on a daily basis.
“i just want to make sure it’s perfect!” you argue, shifting to stare at your laptop again and bringing him back to the present. your voice is way smaller when you continue. “…i want her to like me.”
he doesn’t even miss a beat. “she already fucking does, dumbass.”
and she really does.
the morning after bakugou first brought you to meet his parents a whopping two months into calling it official, mitsuki texted him something along the lines of having the family heirloom slash ring already adjusted to fit your finger.
he immediately called the old hag after receiving the message just to reprimand her ear off for being too fucking forward and for meddling too much.
but, if he were to be completely honest with himself, he was angry not because mitsuki was imposing, but because he couldn’t believe his mother beat him to that important realization.
the realization that maybe, just maybe, you’re the one.
and now, as he studies you as you scroll through more and more iterations of the best sewing machines on the market with your eyebrows adorably furrowed in utmost concentration, it dawns on him.
it dawns on him that that maybe just turned into a definitely.
tagging. @bunnysaursushii @yawnzzzzzzzz @cholios @kashee-h @iluv-ace @lotuslovers @elarakive @sugurusmoon
˖⁺‧₊ this one made me smile like an idiot while writing lmao. as always, reblogs, replies, and tags are appreciated <3 have a nice day!
#i do think he'll /know/ pretty early on#given how perceptive and decisive he is re: what he wants#just takes him an extra second given his inexperience with relationships#bakugou x reader#bakugou x y/n#bakugou katsuki x reader#bakugou imagines#mha imagines#bnha imagines#mha scenarios#bnha scenarios#bnha x reader#mha x reader#bakugou x you#bakugou imagine#bakugou drabble#bakugo x reader#bakugo x y/n
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it feels like non-hardcore gamers hold a distaste for competitive spaces because of some notion that playing to win is inherently opposed to having fun - as well as the stigma against passion and dedication - and thats why people think pachirisu won a tournament just by being sejun park’s favourite
#txt#if you dont know what im talking about with “stigma against passion”#look at all the people who know a lot about a topic and upon expressing their knowledge get called cringe or nerd emoji or whatever#knowing too much is cringe#being dedicated is shameful#being a “tryhard” makes you a bullying target#and thats why the general public hates passionate people so much#if youre autistic or adhd and you have hyperfixations or special interest you get me#also some people legitimately find competition fun and enjoy playing to win#its not the same as valuing winning over having fun#stop calling people tryhards when theyre having fun just like you
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