#and like idk I’ve very much wanted to be in an rs recently but idk why

[jechristine]

I honestly don’t mean to offend you because I like your blog usually. But once in a while you get stuck on a point that is clearly not making sense and it’s almost as if you want to save face and not admit you were wrong, so you keep on going and making it even worse. You want to talk about celebrities feeding the parasocial, fine, it’s a reality, but picking a promotional post to make your point is weird and is giving I just have an agenda. Would it make you feel better if he said I watched it and it’s worth it? It would be pointless regardless, he’s just helping his brother out and being transparent about it. You are also comparing with celebrities that either have nothing in common with him (age, how they became famous, how they had to use social media) or you are giving passes because they had it harder (and they did, but does that make Z’s continued rs with her fanpages make it any less parasocial)? And all that about some comments he made on fame 1,5 years ago. Unless he has given interviews more recently…

I like your blog, I do, but you aren’t being astute on this, you just really want to make a point. It’s just weird that you feel this need.

Well I’ll agree that my point is getting clearer in my own head as I go around with different anons. I think of my blog as more of an ongoing discussion that shapes my own thinking, and less of a “I make a fully fleshed out argument that’s either right or wrong.” From my pov, developing a viewpoint in tandem with others is a common process is talking and writing especially in low-stakes space like tumblr. If my point is unclear it’s because I’m working on it as I go and trying to respond to different angles that anons bring up. I’m pretty open to being challenged, I’d say.

There’s also a central point I’m trying to make—that celebrities play a role in nurturing and activating parasocial relationships that they benefit professionally and financially from. Some anons seem to be feeling really defensive about that point as applied to Tom Holland, probably because of the parasocial relationship he’s successfully created with them! But I’m not going for good vs bad, criticize vs celebrate, as they seem to be expecting me to.

And there are ancillary points that have come up because anons who feel angry love to take conversations to whataboutism or other deflections. Those ancillary points: 1) other celebrities create less toxic (?) or potent versions of those parasocial relationships, maybe because they’re older and more mature? I’m 33 and I don’t see 26yo’s sm lives as that much different than mine idk. Or maybe because those other celebrities have simply never been committed to an idea of showing vulnerability the way Tom has? Or something else or some combination? 2) the immutable traits of a person’s identity play a role in how they are able to succeed in the entertainment industry and to what extent they need to connect to fans for that success. And 3) that some quasi political figures who are also celebrities like the BRF Harry & Meghan have additional or different incentives for putting themselves out there.

So to your point: I guess I agree that the Paddy post isnt the best example of Tom activating the parasocial relationships that he’s played a role in developing, but I do think it’s an instance of his doing so. I didn’t pick it exactly. The issue that I’ve talked about many times over the last year popped up yesterday again on @wetheoriginals blog, and I said the same kind of thing I always say about it.

I think about the point I’m trying to make as being spurred more by the desire to defend fans who are caught up in a market system that doesn’t really benefit them in any material way. Maybe it makes them feel good for a second.

Like I said, I think most celebrity-fan relationships include an element of the parasocial, and how much each contains and activates can be better assessed along a spectrum. It’s a part of celebrity culture, and I usually see very reductive or shallow assessments of it (I.e. “this stan needs to touch some grass”). I’d like to think more about it and how it works.

[leejenowrld]

oh i see!!! thats great advice actually bc when i ask most of my friends who r around the same age group as me, they typically tell me the same things so its great to hear from someone slightly older!!

maybe i just need to wait to mature completely before i date again 😵‍💫 i started dating guys abt the same age as u started dating ur bf, and its crazy & admirable to me how u guys navigated the ups and downs of growing up tgt, bc for me i definitely noticed that change (in terms of growing up) is also a huge factor that affects how my relationships turn out! or maybe its the difference in environment, i live in asia and i’m def not implying anything but having to take a whole lot of national exams this year has really taken a toll on my current relationship and i feel myself losing feelings everyday and honestly i don’t even know why 🥹

i feel horrible for my bf bc i lowk almost don’t want to be in a rs anymore w him as i don’t rly feel the attraction to him but i still care deeply abt him so i’m super lost atm esp since we agreed to wait until ive finished my exams to sort everything out! if u have any advice too that would be great but absolutely no pressure!!!!

and i also want to ask how u split time between ur interest in nct and ur relationship, bc i recently got back into the dreamies after a 2 year break to cope with the stress of my exams and ive realised its kinda hard for me to juggle fangirling and a rs at the same time esp since i keep up with jeno jaemin and jisung 🙂‍↕️

sorry for the rambling!!!!!! i js find that u give great advice 💘

thank you! i try to give good, meaningful advice lol. i might get honest here but don’t take anything to heart <3 i just wanna help as much as i can lol. and why do i feel so old omg 😭 damn how young are you? i hope you’re not a minor… i still feel like a teenager so like

and yeah i feel like relationships you defo need to compromise and mature. two very important, vital things. and yes <3 growing up, so many ups and downs but we managed to get past them!! and true but i feel like when your foundation is so strong then it becomes stronger than the change, i defo feel like me and my bf have been through so much together so we can handle so much.

and oh :( yeah that is a super sad situation. honestly idk what advice i could give cus i’ve never really been in that position before. me and my bf did break up once but we still loved each other, we only broke up cus i was going through so much and everything was so much but we got together again because we never stopped loving each other, if anything our love grew. so like if you’re even doubting that you have feelings for him then i’d say it isn’t a good sign, as you should be sure and confident on it, you know? i feel kinda bad for him ngl cus you said he’s sweet right? 😭 i forgot but yeah don’t break his heart 💔 just be honest and communicate and do whats best for you and him. falling out of love is hard but tbh as i said, always go with your heart! don’t force things as it will end up hurting the two of you more. but maybe you’re just stressed about exams and stuff so i’d wait until they finish then have a really good think about what you want to do and communicate well!!

also i’m ngl i don’t really get that 😭 i feel like i don’t need to split anything because my interest in nct doesn’t take up much at all? and if it comes down to anything, i will always prioritise and five more attention to my boyfriend over anything lol. like yeah, i love jeno, i’m a casual fan of them, but i’m definitely not as deep into them as i used to be. at the end of the day they’re idols, people i don’t know, i can’t trust them or act like i know them (eg proved by the whole taeil situation) so like yeah i don’t force myself to watch all the content and keep up with everything, that’s unnecessary and boring, i only watch and listen to what’s worth my time. i feel like stanning/being into a group defo isn’t a full time job and should only be treated like a hobby 😭 like idk you can fangirl but there can be limits and levels, like you have a life and education and your social life etc, your love for nct (imo) should just be something that’s more casual yk

[bisluthq]

Nat what's your present opinion on Olivia Wilde? This is my sheer speculation but I think her and Harry's rs was a weird thing, pandemic-influenced and the breakup maybe was inevitable but I think it was also more influenced by the drama than it happening super naturally but they both seemed to be lingering on it post-breakup (Harry got caught creeping on Olivia fan pages in early-mid 2023 ish) but when Harry got with Taylor R and their relationship progressed, seems he moved on. But Olivia still just has....weird vibes to me idk.

I was a huge fan of Olivia. I’m not anymore. I think she’s unprofessional, a liar, petty, and a little daft. I could deal with some of those qualities and still be a fan but the full spectrum is just genuinely unacceptable to me. She’s still hella hot and in many ways inspired me to identify as bi in The OC and House so I’ve got to give her that - she did that for a lot of girls - but like how she handled herself with DWD was just…. unprofessional.

I also think she did lie to Harry which makes the whole thing even stupider. I totally get why she wanted to leave Jason but I don’t think Harry knew the situation he was getting into and that’s fucking unfair. If we gender swapped them - a male director fucking his star and lying to them - they’d be mad cancelled. For me she’s not MAD cancelled but I’m just idk very very disappointed, having been a fan for 20 yearsish. Like I was first a fan of her on The OC. That’s how old I am and how old she is lol. And re creeping on pages like idk he was hurting? He still cared? Not enough to be part of the mess though? He’s MUCH better off with Taylor R.

Olivia needs to like spend some time working on her own issues and sorting her drama out and maybe she’ll try work again but idk who’ll back her because DWD was like the biggest failure in recent cinematic history and it was because of HER like the movie didn’t actually suck - I enjoyed it - but she fucked everything up and then Miss Flo fucked stuff up because she was pissed and Harry is just daft so we had “this movie is a movie” soundbites and ALL of that is on Olivia for not having her shit together.

yes, women have to work harder than men to achieve as much but like she didn’t achieve as much. She just… fucked up. Again and again.

[whimsyprinx]

Do I actually want to be in a relationship or a glamorized version of a relationship?

[antiloreolympus]

10 Anti LO Asks

1. Why does RS keep putting Aphrodite down? Like she keeps teasing us we’ll get more on Aphrodite and then uses her like a punching bag like she does with Minthe. Like Aphrodite got “redeemed” sorta 

2. Is there like no justice system for the Nymphs? Daphne turned into a tree, echo and Thanatos know, but nothing is getting down about that. Minthe is a plant for like Idk how long it’s been 3 days?? Maybe more??? Hades told Thanatos she’s a plant (just like his gf) and nothing is getting done about that??? BUT HES CALLED A NARc for actually turning Persphone in which is something that Zeus really wants (I know Poseidon said it but I don’t much on his character which way he leans on this whole thing) honestly feel like this trial arc was written by someone who doesn’t know basic court room stuff

3. Didn’t Rachel mention that she thinks Artemis and Apollo are black? Cause if that’s true, that’s just another example of a poor portrayal, and making those characters black is very…questionable? 

From OP: Artemis in her dream cast was black, Apollo wasn’t there but it’s pretty unlikely that they’d be completely different races (so, he’d be black as well).

4. Maybe Rachel should have played the multi-award winning games Hades™️ to get the basic idea that the three sections of the Underworld are as ancient as Time itself, and no one, not even Nyx, was there when it was created, and Hades and Persephone and co. are merely servants to the realm, not them controlling it and adding whatever they want to it as they please. JFC, how can Rachel claim to be so well researched and even a voice for accuracy when she makes stuff up so egregiously like this?

5. Hey! Not really, LO related (sort of) but I wanted to know if you’ve ever heard about this musical called Mythic? It’s another kind of modern adaption of the Hades/Persephone kidnapping, and although it’s not perfect, it’s probably one of the better ones I’ve seen. Again, there’s a few problems with it, but the fact that Demeter isn’t demonized and there’s actually a healthy mother & daughter relationship already makes it so much better than LO and a few other adaptations I’ve seen

6. yeah im also under the impression the "trial" seems more like rachel trying to "one up the haters" and frame any and all critique thrown at LO as "character assassination" and "slander" when its like, girl, you know she's only on trial for murdering a whole village because YOU wrote it that way, right? the people critiquing it didnt write it this way, YOU did. she seems to be act as if LO exists out of thin air and she can't be held accountable for it or its writing when its HER work!

7. Ah yes, the Goddess whose character consists of making baklava and scrapbooks, the epitome of beauty,  grace and wisdom even though she would be about an infants age in godly years. I also love that fields of Asphodel has been reduced to some purgatory places.

You know what hurts me the most, recently I’ve written a research paper of modern iterations damaging the authenticity of knowledge. For example, due to translation errorthe biblical use of Hades is hell, so most of the western people associate Hades with the Devil while Hades is both the god of the dead and the place where dead people go.

Lastly I find it relevant since how I started my Greek Mythology journey was through the Percy Jackson series and it shaped my initial thoughts, it might be possible that young people will actually associate god Apollo with r**e 

8. There's so many canon LGBT+ couples and characters in greek myth and yet the best Rachel could do was to make up a ship that makes no sense and has as much chemistry as two piece of stale white bread. i dont want her to force diversity, but seriously? it seems like she went out of her way to make it as heteronormative and 1% status quo as possible.

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9. So Hades in all that time of being the absolute monarch, instead of making Elysium or the Asphodel Fields himself to prove he's a caring and thoughtful king, he decided instead the best option was to enslave them so he could make his vast fortune off of their labor? Like this plot point isn't just stupid in regards to how bad LO tries to make Persephone "powerful", this reinforces LO Hades is literally evil, and a random teenage intern has to try and "fix" his self-made issues instead of himself

10. FP// even if Persephone wants to "save the Underworld" (whatever that means) that doesn't negate the flaws in her writing? She even admits its not for the shades or out of the goodness of her heart, it's for herself to feel better, so it's not even a "Savior" moment. No one cared if she if could be dark and complex, we want that! The issue is Rachel going out of her to always excuse P's actions and this "Elysium" plot only proves she doesn't get why P's depiction is critiqued in the first place.

[aryastark-valarmorghulis]

I posted 1.655 times in 2021

87 posts created (5%)

1568 posts reblogged (95%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 18.0 posts.

I added 2.962 tags in 2021

#art - 1027 posts

#wolfstar - 933 posts

#remus lupin - 239 posts

#sirius black - 187 posts

#fic rec - 136 posts

#rs - 118 posts

#marauders - 107 posts

#queue - 92 posts

#arya stuff - 66 posts

#my writing - 57 posts

Longest Tag: 124 characters

#ugh is it bad that every time i see a fanart of those 2 i want to write something where they hook up and remus suffers a lot

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

Idk if you’ve said this before, but what are some good LLaL fics? I’ve never been into them before but I loved yours so much I’d love to read some others that you like. Thanks!!

Oh, Anon. Thank you so much, it makes me very happy to hear that you liked my fic ❤ Those are my personal LLaL favourites (they’re all pretty old/not recent):

Adagio and we’ll not get anywhere, but we’ll go on by lupinely Ok, I know everyone read those two fics, but they deserve the hype and they hit me hard every time I reread them.

To Fill A Gap by sqvalors This one is part of one of my favourite series and ugh, sqvalors digs so deep that this fic reaches the most tender parts of me and it hurts in the best way.

Like Tinder for Ghosts and Leave the Children Behind by montparnasse Only one word: montparnasse. 

What we Lost by toyhto Everything toyhto writes is perfect and this one is no exception.

The hush of waiting by victoria_p This one is heavy and light at the same time and it leaves me teary-eyed every time I reread it.

i can tell you the telling gets old by misandrywitch This one will give you so much nostalgia that you’ll be messed up for days and won’t even be sorry 

121 notes • Posted 2021-05-13 19:55:01 GMT

#4

Hi all ❤ I wrote a story. It’s the fic I’ve always wanted to write, and I finally did. 

Before downfall

Rating: M Wordcount: 15K Tags: Lie Low at Lupin’s, Getting back together, Sirius Pov Summary: Sirius goes to lie low at Lupin's.

128 notes • Posted 2021-05-12 17:14:39 GMT

#3

Inspired by the amazingly talented @mlim8 and her PERFECT, fun, sexy, wholesome Rembus and Hunter AU, I wrote this little fic, set in that ‘verse. Expect lots of sexual tension between Rembus and Hunter.

No rest for the wicked

Rating: M  Wordcount: 2.7K Summary: “In the lovely village of Gryffindor, there's a problem: a demon, an incubus, is terrorising the villagers. Hunter Sirius Black knows everything about demons, but he has never met one like Remus.” - Evenings in the village are chilly and windy. Like any other remote village up north, Gryffindor is nestled in a narrow valley, surrounded from all sides by dark, sloping mountains, their summit hidden by a mist of clouds, dissolving into the grey, thunderous sky. Sirius observes what’s outside the window of his room – he requested a room on the third and last storey of the inn to have a good view of all his surroundings: a tailor’s shop, a baker, the huge soap makers’ brick building, thatched cottages in a row, all with shiny puddles of water in front of them, and a cobblestone road that twists and slithers. You can’t see the rundown church from here, but Sirius knows it’s there, feels it, to the west, on the outskirts of the village, half-covered by wild, overgrown ivy and surrounded by tall oaks.

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128 notes • Posted 2021-06-25 14:59:10 GMT

#2

Happy New Year, Wolfstar fandom ❤ (I know I’m late but who cares) Here’s a short happy fic with a lot of pining ❤

I wanna be your boyfriend

Rating: T

Wordcount: 3.5K

Tags: Marauders Era // Canon Compliant // New Year's Eve // Friendship // Getting Together // Friends to Lovers // Pining // Romantic Comedy // Happy Ending // Fluff and Humor // 

Summary: New Year’s Eve, 1976. Remus goes to James’ party and Sirius doesn’t know how to accept gifts.

Remus’ first New Year’s Eve party looks a lot like Gryffindor winning the House cup – or any Quidditch match: James and Sirius smuggle in the alcohol and entertain the guests, Lily pretends to lend her records reluctantly but she’s the first one to dance, Alice makes eyes at Frank and Frank makes eyes at Alice, both too shy to do anything else, Dorcas does her Slughorn and Dumbledore impressions that make everyone laugh, even Marlene who’s usually curled up in a quiet corner, and Peter, well, Peter talks to any girl who’ll listen, or at least he tries. Remus usually pours glasses of whatever foul beverage there is and shuttles back and forth between being the perfect audience for James and Sirius and keeping Marlene company. In the process, he manages to find the exact moments when Sirius isn’t watching him to pine at the sweet sight of him.

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156 notes • Posted 2021-01-03 23:18:21 GMT

#1

Written for the Candy Hearts Challenge hosted by @goodboylupin​. 

I had the following prompt: ME & YOU, and I used it to write something a little bit angsty (but it has a very happy ending, I promise)

'cause you and me (we’re on the edge of the knife)

Rating: T

Wordcount: 3.5K

Summary: Remus and Sirius have an honest conversation after James’ stag party. 

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It’s the uncertain hour when late night and early morning blur together, and the starless sky is a nebulous ceiling above Remus, the rolling hills surrounding him shrouded in a damp, padded darkness that conceals the apple tree and Sirius’ motorcycle parked under it.

All Remus can see is the stone balcony railing, shiny with drizzle, and the orange butt of his cigarette, white puffs of smoke curling up and then dissolving lazily into the chilly winter air. The distant beat of music from the living room, dulled to a feeble thump by the Insulating Charm, doesn’t quite break the sleepy silence.

Remus can’t remember whose idea it was to smoke the mallowsweet picked from Sirius’ garden, but its pungent smell pleasantly prickles his nose and sharpens his mind.

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200 notes • Posted 2021-02-13 15:21:52 GMT

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[candygothjester]

AAAA idk if my other ask went in but I think it was for your oc Jax w 7 and 21 from that as game ?? But if my other one DID go in then dont worry abt this one if u dont wanna alsjdkhfg

IT DID IM JUST so slow at responding to asks omg kjsdhkjsfd

I shan’t complain though because I love rambling about my OCs to no end, though apologies if this lacks coherency it is like 3 AM right now? But thank you sm for the ask!

3. What does your oc’s voice sound like? (Or, if you have one, what’s their voiceclaim?) Can they sing, whistle, or roll their rs? Do they have any speech impediments or notable dialects/accents?

Honestly!! This is something that I’ve struggled for the longest time with! I keep trying to think of a voice for Jax and I’ve yet to settle on anything? I’ve figured his voice would be on the higher end, generally being heavily emotive unless he absolutely wants/needs to mute out his feelings... which, either way, is a good tell to get a grasp on his state of mind in that moment, same with the pitch of it that well follows suit. Jax definitely has an awful singing voice, but I’d imagine him being able to whistle, roll his r’s, and he is (canonically to my campaign!) able to do other accents very well. Otherwise, he has an extremely strong Elvish accent, though I’m not sure what accent in the real world it’d be reflective of (one of my friends suggested Australian, which I can see for better or worse,).

7. What song reminds you of this oc? Does this match up with the type of music your oc likes to listen to?

yes /j

Realistically? An absolute fuckton of songs, though I’d have to say Grand Finale (matches his general personality and what I want his character growth to be like!) by Studio Killers; Nightlife, Music People, Welcome Kingdom of Addiction, and Ghosts of Utopia (all discuss very corruptive influences on his life and thus how those then reflect on his own actions and ultimately drag him down, making him suffer more and more) by IAMX; The World Does Not Revolve Around You and Irresistible (this man’s awful ego) by Temposhark; and The Prince (his present self more-or-less being reflected upon by him when he’s older) by Madeon! I can’t say this without including songs about his pairings, so I particularly associate Achilles, Come Down (if there’s any song that I could dedicate to their dynamic as a whole, it would be this) by Gang of Youths with Jax and Dekida (where I find that the singer’s voice would match Kida’s, to reflect on the previous question), then world.search(you); (again, another close descriptor of Jax and Hazel’s dynamic, particularly while they both think the other is dead) by Mili with Jax and Hazel! None of these match his music taste, I’d imagine at most he might listen to a FEW songs from IAMX, but regularly I think he’d listen to rap..?

21. What’s a fact you haven’t shared about this oc?

THERE’S SO MUCH... this man has an incredible amount of lore and things to his personality, I couldn’t even begin to start with just one... but I think I’ll go with the most recent development of him since it’s fun? So, to give context, Jax’s forearms and hands are completely black, their surface looking a lot like charred wood with many, many lacerations thanks to corruption from The Tower (and to give even more context, this whole world has a singular set of very magical tarot cards called the Dwelling Cards that all come with their own unique properties, abilities, intuitions, and corruptions, generally being held by a person that matches their stereotypical traits within divination. Only one Card can be held at once by a person, unless that person holds The Fool like Jax), as upon killing his father who held it, Jax took the card and it completely corrupted his hands which now burn with absolute hell levels of pain. From this, his mother created gloves for him which numb the pain of the corruption, though it still hurts plenty and tends to spike at random moments regardless; their edges are magically sewn into his skin to ensure that they will never accidentally come off. Eight levels of context aside and completely disregarding that I’ve mentioned this nowhere before besides TH, the one thing that I really wanted to talk about was the solution since I really haven’t put that anywhere before! I was thinking that when this whole situation gets sorted out and dealt with, since my campaign has an odd focus on elemental creatures (the Bronze Dragon, Mary, & a stone/construct hawk goddess, Uvetta, are like. two major characters), I’d make his blood turn golden in response (I think Uvetta would partake in his healing..? This would take more context, but for basic knowledge she is something of a healer and is also the essential creator of the Dwelling Cards) to match, in a sense, his ego and status, reflective of how much he sees himself as something wonderful and how others do too, but also how he’s not only a “null” prince but an idol, regarded by, looked up to, and favoured by many to the point where he makes his own self conform to these visions much like a trophy. He’s a god in his own right to some extent, the golden blood only reflecting that. On its own, the properties of the blood can be healing at first in regards to a person’s mental state, though if enough of it consumed it quickly becomes addicting and intoxicating whilst not once quenching thirst, only drawing people in to drink more and more. It is cool, kind of like water that’s been sitting out for a while in a colder location, and it solidifies into a metal outside of Jax’s body after some time passes. Since I think it’s cute, his own blush becomes very much golden, though I think at the same time his tears would turn black for... no true reason really, it just sounds kind of fun and ultimately reflects his contrast from the self he presents to others to who he actually is. Bodily fluids aside, I feel as though his hands and forearms would be permanently covered in tinted skin, like thick lines of blue kind of like bandages running over them.

[gratiasancti]

100 PERSONAL QUESTIONS

because @ineffablequestion​ decided to really put my patience to the test today . not that i mind , ily .

1. What is your middle name ?

maria 

2. How old are you ?

23 as of right now !

3. When is your birthday?

oct. 19th

4. What is your zodiac sign?

libra waddup

5. What is your favorite color?

i don’t really have one ? muted colours probably

6. What’s your lucky number?

again, can’t say i have one but maybe 29

7. Do you have any pets?

a dod and a horse

8. Where are you from?

finland / uk

9. How tall are you?

174 cm

10. What shoe size are you?

eu 39-40

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

like seven, if you don’t count my collection of riding shoes and boots. oxfords, brogues, wellies, trainers, and the rest are probably heels. as for riding boots, a lot.

12. What was your last dream about?

that i was late from work and got thrown in a tar pit because of it. and then i sold my old history teacher 500€ worth of alcohol and lottery tickets.

13. What talents do you have?

none?? unlimited sarcasm, idk

14. Are you psychic in any way?

i’m not sure if i believe in this stuff

15. Favorite song?

honestly, anything from hippo campus or glass animals.

16. Favorite movie?

the grand budapest hotel

17. Who would be your ideal partner?

someone who counteracts some of my anxiety and excitedness with a calm and, when needed, firm character but is still funny and can be themselves. preferably someone who i feel is my intellectual equal, and we can share everything with each other. maybe a bit older than myself, but not by much. other than that, i really don’t care.

18. Do you want children?

currently, i can’t see myself ever having kids. just doesn’t seem like my thing. especially babies. maybe adopting or fostering could be an option, but only if i was sure i could give the child a good home.

19. Do you want a church wedding?

i don’t think i want to get married

20. Are you religious?

not particularly

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

maaaaaaany times. multiple riding accidents, broken bones, a car crash. then just being an idiot in general. and chronic back problems.

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?

apart from once forgetting to pay for the underground and getting an 80€ fine, no.

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?

i’ve met and had dinner with two different finnish presidents and some other ‘upper class’ people but other than that, no. 

24. Baths or showers?

one of those rain shower things

25. What color socks are you wearing?

i have no socks !!!

26. Have you ever been famous?

uhhhh not in the literal sense of the word but i’ve been infamous at school when i was like 15. made a meme of one of our teachers that went low key viral in our city.

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

definitely not in the hollywood sense of things. 

28. What type of music do you like?

a lot of things. anything, really, depending on the time of day and if i’m feeling particularly emo.

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

that’s like the only type of swimming finnish people partake in. naked in the sauna, naked in the lake/ocean. so yes, multiple times a year jhdsnhb

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

currently like five

31. What position do you usually sleep in?

either on my back or on my stomach. depends on what place hurts that day lmao.

32. How big is your house?

closer to 400 m^2 . i still live with my parents but will move into my own flat in six months, once it’s ready. that’s going to be appx 70 m^2.

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

i know its a bad habit but i often dont have breakfast. if i do it's usually fruit and yoghurt or some toast.

34. Have you ever fired a gun?

yes

35. Have you ever tried archery?

yes. fun fact; my cousin has won the european championchip ( in some form of archery idk ) like twice , i think. 

36. Favorite clean word?

defenestrate

37. Favorite swear word?

fuck. i use it Too Much™

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?

can’t remember the exact amount of hours but we were sailing and our shifts got messed up to the point where i had either not slept at all or slept so little in like four days i was genuinely hallucinating. almost jumped into the sea because i thought i dropped my life vest,,, which i was wearing.

39. Do you have any scars?

a few. dumbest one probably when i rode in my shorts but used a saddle and rubbed the skin off of my calf. also from hay work, those little dots that look almost like moles.

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

not that i know of

41. Are you a good liar?

yes, unfortunately. it’s a bad habit in the sense that i tell a lot of white lies when i could genuinely tell the truth with no consequence. like, it would be the one and the same.

42. Are you a good judge of character?

also yes. i’ve seen some shit. also i have surprisingly good people skills.

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

i can speak english in my normal accent which is kind of queen’s english (?) upper class idk, then in world’s english ( so basically no accent / neutral ) and then in finnish (rally) english .  i can also speak swedish with a rikssvenska (standard swedish ???) accent and then finlandssvenska which is finnish swedish (and an actual thing lmao). also i can butcher a norwegian or danish accent in swedish if i really try. my finnish is very neutral, but it does vary a bit depending on what city i’m in.

oh, and also a shitty southern american accent. 

44. Do you have a strong accent?

if i let it shine through, yes, but i tend toward world english because anything else scares finns. but when i speak finnish (which is most of the time) i don’t really have an accent. maybe you can hear that i’m not 100% finnish but that’s about it.

45. What is your favorite accent?

i don’t really have one ! all accents are really fascinating.

46. What is your personality type?

entj-a

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

i have a few expensive dresses, and then of course my riding clothes which cost ridiculous amounts of money because fuck everyone who likes horses, i guess. like excuse me but why is it normalised that you pay over 1000€ for a helmet??? anything less and you’re a peasant.

48. Can you curl your tongue?

mmmmyeah. 

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

innie!

50. Left or right handed?

pretty much ambidextrous, though i prefer to write with my left but do everything else mostly with my right. my handwriting doesn’t differ too much from left to write.

51. Are you scared of spiders?

yes. ew. and we’re lucky to only have tiny ones in finland !

52. Favorite food?

ummmmm. currently carelian pie maybe?? idk such a good snack.

53. Favorite foreign food?

squints??? sushi????

54. Are you a clean or messy person?

depends. often too lazy to clean but incredibly stressed and uncomfortable when its messy. meticulous about all the wrong things.

55. Most used phrase?

either some form of keysmash or “FUCK”. also in finnish either “voi jumalauta” or “voi saatana” which both basically translate to “jesus fucking christ”.

56. Most used word?

also fuck. this really must say something about me smdh.

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

really depends. sometimes 10 minutes, sometimes two hours. on a normal day w/ shower and moderate make up, 15-25 minutes.

58. Do you have much of an ego?

depends really. i hope i don’t!

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

whomst the FUCK bites lollipops ?!?!?!

60. Do you talk to yourself?

i’ve only recently started. it’s terrifying.

61. Do you sing to yourself?

when driving if i’m listening to music, yeah

62. Are you a good singer?

honestly, no clue. i don’t really sing in front of people so i haven’t gotten opinions.

63. Biggest Fear?

failure.

64. Are you a gossip?

not about my friends, ever. but i will definitely listen to any tea you want to spill.

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?

idk does kingsman count as dramatic?? the first one was hilarious.

66. Do you like long or short hair?

both have their perks!

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

LMAO i can name like 3 if i really try.

68. Favorite school subject?

history, english lang & lit, economics.

69. Extrovert or Introvert?

extrovert but i get tired easily

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

yes ! we go to the maldives once in a while, because finland doesn’t offer much in terms of diving sites.

71. What makes you nervous?

not a lot of things? i guess some responsibilities. things left for me to do even if someone else was supposed to do them.

72. Are you scared of the dark?

a dark room ? no. a dark forest at midnight ? hell yess. finnish winter darkness is terrifying simply because its so depressing. seasonal depression is real yall.

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

depends. if it’s a trivial mistake and they haven’t asked to be corrected, no. if it makes me or someone else feel bad or just makes any situation worse, then yes. but never unkindly.

74. Are you ticklish?

YES. ugh

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

no. i can’t recall doing so, at least. but i have participated in spreading them.

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

yes. at work a couple of times simply out of necessity and also when i took part in MEP. was committee president twice and president of the general assembly once. though idk if that counts since i was like 17 and its all p much play pretend.

oh! and also when i captain our boat. but again, idk if that counts.

77. Have you ever drank underage?

yeah, ever since i was like 16 :/

78. Have you ever done drugs?

no, and never will. not my thing !!

79. Who was your first real crush?

probably a boy from class. i can’t remember, really. i’ve never been too  ‘romantically inclined’ i  suppose.

80. How many piercings do you have?

just my ears, once.

81. Can you roll your Rs?

almost every r in the finnish language is technically rolled so yeah. i feel bad for those finnish people who cant !! makes everything so hard.

82. How fast can you type?

according to this thing 75 words per minute on my first try, so idk how accurate that is.

83. How fast can you run?

not fast. i  hate running, and am very out of practice. 

84. What color is your hair?

idk ? like, light brown ?

85. What color are your eyes?

again, idk. blue/green/grey

86. What are you allergic to?

dogs, cats, birch, and almost anything that flowers in the spring jshbdsjh

87. Do you keep a journal?

not a journal per se but i have a ‘little black book’ which i keep rather meticulously about my thoughts on the day, important things i need to remember, my expenses etc. a habit inherited from my dad. i’ve gone through like six of these in the past few years.

88. What do your parents do?

my mum is a mayor and my dad is a ceo

89. Do you like your age?

yeah !

90. What makes you angry?

injustice.

91. Do you like your own name?

yes !

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?

ksjdsjhb no. at this rate i’d end up naming a child crowley or sum shit

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

i don’t want kids but if i did gender would be a non issue

94. What are you strengths?

lmao i have good people skills, work well under pressure, get along with everyone, am determined and ?? a good leader??? idk

95. What are your weaknesses?

i take on too much responsibility, i have anxiety and depression, i get frustrated at my own failures, i’m very self-critical and unforgiving. also no self-control when it comes to rp.

96. How did you get your name?

i think somewhere from my dad’s side, not entirely sure.

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

possibly? not sure. but fun fact! a great great grandmother (? or something of the sorts) from my mother’s side actually survived the sinking of the titanic.

98. Do you have any scars?

wasn’t this asked already?

99. Color of your bedspread?

this blue mandala like pattern idk

100. Color of your room?

white and a very mellow blue

[twerkhammett]

1-100

1. What is your middle name?

Maria

2. How old are you?

21

3. What is your birthday?

April 4th

4. What is your zodiac sign?

Aries

5. What is your favorite color?

green

6. What’s your lucky number?

don’t have one

7. Do you have any pets?

Yup! My ball python Severus, a Kenyan sand boa named Salazar, a rose hair tarantula named Penny, and my shithead cat Vegeta.

8. Where are you from?

Florida

9. How tall are you?

5′6ish

10. What shoe size are you?

8

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

5 

12. What was your last dream about?

Can’t remember, but I had one recently about Nik jumping off a cliff and turning into this big majestic bird lol

13. What talents do you have?

Drawing, ceramics, latte art if that counts

14. Are you psychic in any way?

No

15. Favorite song?

Can’t decide

16. Favorite movie?

Shrek

17. Who would be your ideal partner?

Nikolas

18. Do you want children?

One day

19. Do you want a church wedding?

I don’t want to be in a church for any reason ever lol

20. Are you religious?

No

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

Nope

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?

Nothing major

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?

No

24. Baths or showers?

I mostly take showers but I love baths

25. What color socks are you wearing?

Black

26. Have you ever been famous?

Nope

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

Nope!

28. What type of music do you like?

Classic rock and metal mostly

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

Did that a lot in Florida, the waters too cold here sadly

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

2

31. What position do you usually sleep in?

On my left side

32. How big is your house?

3 bedroom

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

A granola bar, don’t eat much in the morning

34. Have you ever fired a gun?

No

35. Have you ever tried archery?

No but I want to!!

36. Favorite clean word?

Shit

37. Favorite swear word?

Fuck

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?

Like 40 hours I think

39. Do you have any scars?

Yeah

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

Lmao Nik when I first met him bc I’d just gotten out of a relationship and I wanted men to leave me tf alone

41. Are you a good liar?

No lol

42. Are you a good judge of character?

Sometimes

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

Sure

44. Do you have a strong accent?

Nope

45. What is your favorite accent?

Idk man

46. What is your personality type?

Still dk man haven’t taken that test

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

Prob a jacket that I spent like $25 on lol

48. Can you curl your tongue?

Yup

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

innie

50. Left or right handed?

Right

51. Are you scared of spiders?

I wouldn’t have a tarantula in my room if I was

52. Favorite food?

Pizza and wings

53. Favorite foreign food?

Pizza is foreign

54. Are you a clean or messy person?

Depends on the state of my mental health :)))

55. Most used phrased?

idk

56. Most used word?

fuck

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

like 15 mins but I need an hour before I leave the house to properly caffeinate

58. Do you have much of an ego?

No

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

Is there anyone that can resist biting lollipops?

60. Do you talk to yourself?

Sometimes lol

61. Do you sing to yourself?

Yes

62. Are you a good singer?

No

63. Biggest Fear?

Probably failing at my ambitions and losing the people I care about

64. Are you a gossip?

Not really

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?

Kung Fury

66. Do you like long or short hair?

Long

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

Probably

68. Favorite school subject?

Art and science

69. Extrovert or Introvert?

Introvert usually, extroverted around people I actually like

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

I wish dude

71. What makes you nervous?

A lot of things my dude

72. Are you scared of the dark?

No I need it to fall tf asleep

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

Sometimes I guess?? Depends on the situation

74. Are you ticklish?

Very

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

Nah

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

Lol

77. Have you ever drank underage?

I drank for most of the time I was underage

78. Have you ever done drugs?

Not meth but yes

79. Who was your first real crush?

This bitch I met when I was a little kid that stalked me for years after that..

80. How many piercings do you have?

6

81. Can you roll your Rs?“

No and trust me I’ve tried lmao

82. How fast can you type?

Not very my guy

83. How fast can you run?

I haven’t been running in a while so prob a lot slower than I used to lol

84. What color is your hair?

Auburn or some shit

85. What color is your eyes?

Brown

86. What are you allergic to?

Cats but I let one sleep on my bed like an idiot

87. Do you keep a journal?

I used tp

88. What do your parents do?

My dads a chef and my moms a cashier

89. Do you like your age?

Not really I’m broke af and confused but yay I can legally drink

90. What makes you angry?

So many things..the orange one in office especially

91. Do you like your own name?

Sure

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?

I’m just gonna name all my kids after indica strains

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

I want a nb child

94. What are you strengths?

Procrastinating

95. What are your weaknesses?

Not being able to function without a shitload of caffeine

96. How did you get your name?

My parents named me

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

Nope

98. Do you have any scars?

Yes

99. Color of your bedspread?

Black and white

100. Color of your room?

Beige? Or something

Thanks my anonymous dude

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I put them below the cut! I hope I answered all of them / didn’t add extra. lol  💕 💕 💕 💕 💕 💕get to know me uncomfortably well.

1. What is you middlename? Taylor.

3. When is yourbirthday? October 5th!

8. Where are youfrom? South Carolina.

13. What talents doyou have? Uhh. I don’t think I have any? Lol. I used to play piano. Thatwas my only talent. Writing too, I guess.

14. Are you psychicin any way? Lmao no jdfjsfsjdjds

15. Favorite song?Hmm currently it is…. Games – Demi Lovato or Dramarama by Monsta X

16. Favorite movie?Moana.

17. Who would be yourideal partner? Someone who can understand my mental illness and won’tostracize me or belittle me for it. Someone who won’t be overbearingly socialand that is just laid back. Idk someone who’s just super chill and nice. Whodoesn’t look for all out things or expect a whole lot from me and I wont expecta whole lot from them beyond both of us having a healthy understandingrelationship. But, the thing about that is, I’d have to be completely andutterly comfortable with them as in they’d have to be my friend for a good twoyears at least to even have my trust. Which lmao makes me feel bad because Isee so many people NOT having to do that and so then I feel bad but if someonetruly loved me like that I imagine it’s something they could understand andhandle until I’m ready.

20. Are youreligious? Not really, no.

22. Have you ever gotin trouble with the law? Nope!

23. Have you ever metany celebrities? I met Patina Miller! She was in The Hunger Games and she’sfrom Madam Secretary and the musical Pippin to name a couple of things lmao.She’s so sweet.

27. Would you like tobe a big celebrity? No. If I was ever a celebrity, though, I would like itto be like general recognition where I live for cooking.

28. What type ofmusic do you like? I like most anything really?? I wind up liking a songfor beats half the time lol. I like slow songs but I can’t listen to them awhole lot or I’ll get bored / side-tracked.

30. How many pillowsdo you sleep with? 2 to 3.

33. What do youtypically have for breakfast? I don’t eat breakfast – but any childrenreading this you better eat your breakfast or I’m going to fight you. On secondthought, anyone reading this EAT YOUR BREAKFAST AND EAT YOUR MEALS.

34. Have you everfired a gun? Yes.

35. Have you evertried archery? Yes. Failed miserably. Probably cause I was like 10 and weakas hell lmao

36. Favorite cleanword? Uh….beautiful I guess? Lmao I never think abt that.

37. Favorite swearword? Fuck

38. What's thelongest you've ever gone without sleep? 48 hours and some. Dark time lol. 2to 3 days without sleep sometimes.

39. Do you have anyscars? Yes! I have a scar on my left knee from falling off my bike and on asharp rock when I was a kid. I have a scar on my right hand right on theknuckle of my index finger from catching my hand on a metal door to try andkeep it from closing on me.  I have a veryfaint scar below that across my right hand where my hand hit the oven elementwhen I was baking a cake and my mother scared me. It’s almost completely gonenow. And on my right arm I have a long scar from a baking pan from when I wasin culinary school. I don’t know how I got it, really. Because it didn’t stingor anything. I just happened to look down and see the burn because my team matewas like Morgan oh my god what did you do lmao. Chef instructor made me putsome gel on it and cover it up so the gel would stay for rest of the class

40. Have you ever hada secret admirer? Nope. Never. Lol :\

41. Are you a goodliar? No. And even when I’m not lying and I’m being asked for the truth Igiggle my way through it t_t

42. Are you a goodjudge of character? Lmao NOT REALLY I mean maybe now I am but back when Iwas younger lmao nope

44. Do you have astrong accent? Lmao probably I’m in the south. I get made fun of thoughbecause apparently I use a lot of northern phrases/pronunciations too. Idk if I’vedone it recently but when I was younger I got made fun of a lot by my grandfathersdfjasdfjsj lmao

46. What is yourpersonality type? Ok I asked my friends this for an accurate depictionlmao.

@kimbeokjin said: both of yall are some fucking WRECKS thatsur personality type. on a serious note ur sensitive and understanding and fullof too much love and anxiety. ur funny and super family oriented and talentedand generally positive. and an intellectual ur truly the ONLY white girl i trust

47. What is your mostexpensive piece of clothing? A red lace dress.

50. Left or righthanded? Right handed.

51. Are you scared ofspiders? Yes and no. Like I don’t inherently fear them, but I always getfreaked out when they show up because I don’t expect them so my scary ass jumpslol

52. Favorite food?Hmmm my mom’s spaghetti/the recipe.

53. Favorite foreignfood? Hmmm I haven’t really gotten to eat a whole lot of foreign food whichmakes me sad but I really, really loved an udon bowl I had at a Japanese restaurantat the beach.

54. Are you a cleanor messy person? Messy.

56. Most used word?Probably mess or childish

57. How long does ittake for you to get ready? Sometimes less than 15 minutes, sometimes up to twohours.

58. Do you have muchof an ego? I don’t think so at least

59. Do you suck orbite lollipops? Both lol

60. Do you talk toyourself? Mostly when I’m cooking

61. Do you sing toyourself? Yes!

62. Are you a goodsinger? Lmao no

63. Biggest Fear?Abandonment. Failure. Not being good enough.

64. Are you a gossip?yes

66. Do you like longor short hair? I love long hair on me personally but I love short and longhair on women and men lol

67. Can you name all50 states of America? Lmao no I always get close so I get like 40 of themnamed then I’m like UHHHHHH

68. Favorite school subject? English.

69. Extrovert orIntrovert? Introvert. Extrovert when I’ve gotta get those extra points lol

71. What makes younervous? Insanely large crowds. Men. Older men to be specific. Okay, yeahall men lol. There are very few dudes I trust but men in public tend to make mesuper nervous when they stare like they were raised in a damn barn lol

73. Do you correctpeople when they make mistakes? Not entirely

74. Are you ticklish? Yes

77. Have you everdrank underage? Heheh yeah …

78. Have you everdone drugs? Nope!

80. How manypiercings do you have? I have one ear piercing on both ears and I had anose piercing but I accidentally ripped it out and couldn’t replace it.

81. Can you roll yourRs? No

82. How fast can youtype? I think last I checked it was 120-130 words per minute

83. How fast can yourun? Lmao I have no idea

84. What color isyour hair? Brunette/dark brown

86. What are youallergic to? Apparently I have a slight allergy to squash onions and appleslol. I am allergic to dust though.

88. What do yourparents do? My dad is a maintenance supervisor.

89. Do you like your age? YES

90. What makes youangry? Racism homophobia sexism etc. a particular thing that makes me angrycurrently in rampant anti-blackness in kpop.

91. Do you like yourown name? Yes!

92. Have you alreadythought of baby names, and if so what are they? I have but…I’m not reallysure lol :\

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? I want a girl themost. But I’d love to have a girl and a boy.

94. What are your strengths? I don’t have any I feel.

95. What are your weaknesses? Insecurity.

100. Color of your room? Blue

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!!!!!!!!!!!1-100!!!!!!!!!!!

1. What is you middle name? Alan 2. How old are you? 15 3. When is your birthday? November 18th 2001 4. What is your zodiac sign? Scorpio 5. What is your favorite color? Deep passionate red 6. What’s your lucky number? 42 7. Do you have any pets? 2 birds, Azir and sunny, and a toy poodle named Ellie 8. Where are you from? Bumblefucksville Nebraska 9. How tall are you? 5'11" 10. What shoe size are you? 10 11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? like ~6 12. What was your last dream about? I met someone I miss and it made me sad when I woke up 13. What talents do you have? I am part of theatre, i play bass guitar mandolin drums piano and sing abhorrently 14. Are you psychic in any way? Sometimes i feel like i can use dreams to see future or just deja vu i guess 15. Favorite song? This is fluid, mostly it's the memories and people I attach to songs, like some are linked to relationships and those give me the most meaning. 16. Favorite movie? sos I can't think of one 17. Who would be your ideal partner? Someone who makes me feel like I'm always wanted, is willing to do cute things with me, and is willing to cry with me. 18. Do you want children? This is tough because I enjoy spending time with children, but I currently dont want any, nor can i forsee it. But i'm sure my values will change 19. Do you want a church wedding? For my parents, plus that means they provide the cake >:D 20. Are you religious? Recently I've been drifting away from the catholic church I've belonged to since I was born. I still read in mass, and play in the band, but i don't feel as sincere as i once did 21. Have you ever been to the hospital? Not for an injury, I'm too stronk 22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? I once got a protection order from a divorced step parent (whoops) 23. Have you ever met any celebrities? I met the guy who worked on pirates of the caribean, he had hair down to his ankled and it was cool 24. Baths or showers? showers in a rush, baths when i have a whole afternoon of privacy and relaxation (that and i don't fit in my bathtub :( 25. What color socks are you wearing? Invisible 26. Have you ever been famous? I want to say no, but i've done some noticeable things 27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? I'd like to be recognized for doing cool things, but not so much I cant live the life i want 28. What type of music do you like? I go from heavy core metal to flute solos, i dont even know what i like 29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? Not yet 30. How many pillows do you sleep with? Two, one for my head and one to hold 31. What position do you usually sleep in? Fetal position i guess 32. How big is your house? Midsize, it's really nice for my situation 33. What do you typically have for breakfast? Two poptarts, microwaved, and milk 34. Have you ever fired a gun? Yes, my brother and i shoot a .22 and a glock at a farm occasionally 35. Have you ever tried archery? Ehhhhh not really 36. Favorite clean word?a disapointed "Oh" 37. Favorite swear word? Shiet 38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? 23 hours, i was close but I am weak 39. Do you have any scars? I have a black mark in the middle of my hand because I stabbed myself with a pencil once. On my temple and my galendilil, idk why tho. 40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? I think, but i usually find out eventually 41. Are you a good liar? Depends on who i lie to, friends see through me, but adults are ez 42. Are you a good judge of character? Not really, I see too much good in everybody 43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? Name it and i'll try 44. Do you have a strong accent? God i hope not 45. What is your favorite accent? Jersey accent, not because it's pretty but it makes most things funny 46. What is your personality type? Enfp-t 47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? My suit 48. Can you curl your tongue? like a hot dog 49. Are you an innie or an outie? Innies for the winnie 50. Left or right handed? Right 51. Are you scared of spiders? Only if they fite me 52. Favorite food? Spaghetti 53. Favorite foreign food? I lik indian 54. Are you a clean or messy person? Messy 55. Most used phrased? Oh, okay 56. Most used word? Uhhh 57. How long does it take for you to get ready? 30 mins tops 58. Do you have much of an ego? Yeah, it's starting to be a problem 59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? a good succ 60. Do you talk to yourself? Too much 61. Do you sing to yourself? TOO MUCH 62. Are you a good singer? uh uh 63. Biggest Fear? Being hated and alone 64. Are you a gossip? More than i should be 65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? The beginners 66. Do you like long or short hair? depends really on who it's on 67. Can you name all 50 states of America? uhhhhhhhh no 68. Favorite school subject? Math or band 69. Extrovert or Introvert? Extrovert 70. Have you ever been scuba diving? Nope 71. What makes you nervous? Being judged and answering 100 questions but it's okay i love you 72. Are you scared of the dark? I'm afraid ill trip or step on something 73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? Yes but i try to be nice about it 74. Are you ticklish? y e s    i t s   a   p r o b l e m 75. Have you ever started a rumor? Not one that is untrue 76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? Not really 77. Have you ever drank underage? Hell yeah, it was peach schnapps and a shot of ginn 78. Have you ever done drugs? kinda? hard to explain 79. Who was your first real crush? Eighth grade, A fellow percussionaist. When i asked her out i said the stupidest nerdy thing and got shot down real hard. 80. How many piercings do you have? none yet 81. Can you roll your Rs? Not sexily 82. How fast can you type? Fast enough i suppose 83. How fast can you run? I wouldn't be very good in a slasher film 84. What color is your hair? Blonde 85. What color is your eyes? Blue green 86. What are you allergic to? Cats 87. Do you keep a journal? I write down things tht bother me and look at them later and analize them 88. What do your parents do? one teaches the other sells insurance 89. Do you like your age? I realize that all my friends were met because we were born all at the same time, and the ones i wish i were older for I wouldnt know either 90. What makes you angry? People being rude for no reason, rare but happens 91. Do you like your own name? My names sounds like a frat guy, but i cant complain 92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? I wouldnt be very good at choosing 93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? A girl probably 94. What are you strengths? Being willing to volunteer for others, being forgiveing but not forgetting, lying when i have to, pain tolerence 95. What are your weaknesses? Feeling rejected, i judge myself based on ohters, Emotional vulnrebility in general 96. How did you get your name? My mom just like the name Brad, But my middle name comes from Alan alda (like from mash) cus they liekd him a lot 97. Were your ancestors royalty?I come from the clan O'Donovan of Ireland, not really loyalty, but coolio trivia 98. Do you have any scars? One in my hand, two on my head 99. Color of your bedspread? Blue 100. Color of your room? Like eggshell it is really boring not gonna lie one wall isn’t even painted yet

[y0ung-and-l0aded]

1-100 ;)

1. What is you middle name? Ew. Jiandong. It’s Chinese and I don’t even know how to pronounce it tbh2. How old are you? 223. When is your birthday? March 14, 19954. What is your zodiac sign? Pisces5. What is your favorite color? Green6. What’s your lucky number? 147. Do you have any pets? Ye. I have a cat of my own, her name is Stella, and my family has two dogs - Rosie and Tilly. Tilly is my everything8. Where are you from? China, but I grew up in upstate New York9. How tall are you? 4′11″ RIP me10. What shoe size are you? 4 kids11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? 812. What was your last dream about? Honestly I had a nightmare and all I remember about it was that it involved the Great British Baking Show, specifically Nadiya from season 613. What talents do you have? I can play the piano, but idk if it’s much of a talent14. Are you psychic in any way? Lol no15. Favorite song? I HAVE MORE THAN ONE. All time favorite - “We Are Young” Glee cast version. Close second all time favorite - “Decoration Day” by the Drive-By Truckers. And then a one of my other favorites is “High Hopes” by Kodaline16. Favorite movie? The Shining and also I recently watched Train to Busan and that’s deff one of my faves17. Who would be your ideal partner? Someone I’m in love with, can see myself spending the rest of my life with, trust, have fun with. All that good stuff18. Do you want children? Yesss19. Do you want a church wedding? Yes and no, but honestly I’m pretty indifferent about it20. Are you religious? Lol nah21. Have you ever been to the hospital? Yes. I was inpatient three times, had to go for a day another time, and had an overnight and those were for mental health issues. When I was younger I went a few times bc I had a tic disorder and had to get these weird brain tests done. I also have scoliosis so have been a few times for that. And then when I started testosterone I went every week to get my shot until I learned how to do it myself lol. And recently I went for a consultation for top surgery!22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? Kind of. It was a complicated situation23. Have you ever met any celebrities? Yes24. Baths or showers? Showers25. What color socks are you wearing? Black. One with a grey stripe and one with a red stripe26. Have you ever been famous? LOL NO27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? Not a big one. I’d like to get a bit more popular on YouTube, but my ultimate goal is 1000 subs, so just a mediocre celebrity lol28. What type of music do you like? EDM/electronic instrumental and tropical house29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? I was in a lake when my friends skinny dipped, but I didn’t myself30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 0-2, depending on the night31. What position do you usually sleep in? On my right side32. How big is your house? I don’t even have a house lol, I have a studio apartment and it’s v small33. What do you typically have for breakfast? I usually don’t have breakfast34. Have you ever fired a gun? Yeah it was really cool tbh35. Have you ever tried archery? Yep. I sucked haha36. Favorite clean word? Porkchop37. Favorite swear word? I don’t have a favorite, but I say shit and fuck the most 38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? 44 hours, that was actually a couple weeks ago39. Do you have any scars? Yes40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? Who knows, that’s why they’re called secret admirers 41. Are you a good liar? I guess I can be idrk42. Are you a good judge of character? I’d like to think so43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? Yes, I can do a British accent but I have never done it for someone44. Do you have a strong accent? Not to me and compared to the people around me, but I’m sure I do to someone else in the world45. What is your favorite accent? BRITISH 46. What is your personality type? ISFJ-T47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? LOL I have no idea, I probably paid $30 dollars for a sweatshirt at some point in my life48. Can you curl your tongue? Nope49. Are you an innie or an outie? Innie50. Left or right handed? Right51. Are you scared of spiders? FUCK YES52. Favorite food? Mashed potatoes but I have recently been obsessed with frozen key lime pie. And I really like pork fried dumplings53. Favorite foreign food? Chinese hands down54. Are you a clean or messy person? Both but overall more clean than messy55. Most used phrased? I say what the frick a lot usually when I play video games56. Most used word? Recently it’s been dude57. How long does it take for you to get ready? Ready for what? In the morning like getting ready for work not long, maybe ten minutes58. Do you have much of an ego? Not at all59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? Suck then bite60. Do you talk to yourself? Yes61. Do you sing to yourself? I sing in the car to music I turn all the way up62. Are you a good singer? I can match pitch but I wouldn’t say I’m good63. Biggest fear? Being burnt alive64. Are you a gossip? Not really65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? Train to Busan (I think that can be classified as drama)66. Do you like long or short hair? Short hair on me. I’ve found I’m attracted to girls with long hair and guys with short hair67. Can you name all 50 states of America? If I thought about it and wrote them out, probably68. Favorite school subject? Music and if you don’t count that then Englsih69. Extrovert or introvert? Introvert 70. Have you ever been scuba diving? No71. What makes you nervous? Social situations72. Are you scared of the dark? Not really73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? Not really. It’s a downfall74. Are you ticklish? No75. Have you ever started a rumor? Never76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? Not authority per se, but I’ve been in a position of leadership a couple times77. Have you ever drank underage? Yeah lol78. Have you ever done drugs? I smoke weed if you count that and I accidentally did molly one time79. Who was your first real crush? This girl Megan I went to elementary school with. When we were in eighth grade I realized that I was totally in love with her (if that’s what it even was in eighth grade, but that’s what I thought at the time) and that’s when I realized I was into girls haha80. How many piercings do you have? One81. Can you roll your Rs? Nope82. How fast can you type? Very, very fast83. How fast can you run? I used to be able to run really fast. I was a sprinter in high school for the track team. I could probably still sprint really fast but I’d be near to death after it84. What color is your hair? Black85. What color is your eyes? They is brown86. What are you allergic to? Cats, lanolin (it’s in sheep’s wool and some lotions), nickel and cobalt, and eggs but I still eat them bc it’s pretty minor87. Do you keep a journal? Yes. But I haven’t written in it for at least a year probably88. What do your parents do? My mom is a third grade teacher and my dad does some political science thing or something or other for the NYS government89. Do you like your age? I guess? I wouldn’t mind being a couple years older tbh but 22 isn’t bad90. What makes you angry? When people lie to me91. Do you like your own name? Ye92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? I want to name my son Price if I ever have one, and I have’t really thought of girls names93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? Both 94. What are you strengths? I don’t think of myself having strengths 95. What are your weaknesses? I’m too dependent on people96. How did you get your name? I chose it lol97. Were your ancestors royalty? I don’t know anything about my family history due to being adopted98. Do you have any scars? Yes, but not any new ones since question 3999. Color of your bedspread? Blue100. Color of your room? The walls are like tan/beige

:D

[mega-aggron]

ask meme 1-100

throwing this under a read more because hoo boy

1. What is you middle name?

paul

2. How old are you?

20

3. What is your birthday?

august 7

4. What is your zodiac sign?

leo

5. What is your favorite color?

turquoise + teal

6. What’s your lucky number?

2

7. Do you have any pets?

not anymore, but my family is getting a dog soon!!

8. Where are you from?

maryland

9. How tall are you?

6′3″

10. What shoe size are you?

13

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

6 or 7 but some i havent worn in quite a while

12. What was your last dream about?

swimming in a river with a family friend

13. What talents do you have?

i can whistle well? i’m a good listener? idk what constitutes a talent

14. Are you psychic in any way?

no but one time i correctly guessed a coin flip 9 times in a row

15. Favorite song?

too many (newest addition: “heroes” by david bowie)

16. Favorite movie?

begin again

17. Who would be your ideal partner?

someone who makes me laugh and who i can just be myself around

18. Do you want children?

probs not, i think i would be a pretty good dad but idk if that’s what i want to do

19. Do you want a church wedding?

idk! my pastors are pretty cool so i wouldn’t mind them officiating but it doesn’t have to be at a church

20. Are you religious?

ya, holla at your local friendly presbyterian

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

about a year ago i bust up my eyebrow after i fell from a bed and got hella stitches

22. Have you ever gotten in trouble with the law?

uH not that i’m aware of

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?

i’ve met some broadway actors/actresses at the stage doors after a show but no super big names

24. Baths or showers?

showers

25. What color socks are you wearing?

white

26. Have you ever been famous?

nah

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

i think the concept is cool but i really don’t think i’m quite cut out for that role lol

28. What type of music do you like?

a wide mix tbh, mostly synthpop, folk, and alternative

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

no

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

depends, anywhere between 1 and 3

31. What position do you usually sleep in?

either facedown with an arm crossed underneath me or on my side

32. How big is your house?

my apartment is pretty small but it’s nice

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

a muffin or granola bar

34. Have you ever fired a gun?

paintball once

35. Have you ever tried archery?

like once or twice maybe

36. Favorite clean word?

idk there are so many good ones!!!!!

37. Favorite swear word?

fuck or damn

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?

~24 hours probably

39. Do you have any scars?

one on my knee from when i was 2, one from the aforementioned eyebrow incident

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

if i did they kept that secret really well

41. Are you a good liar?

i’d say no but my friend just commended me on my lying skills last week when i gave a fake name for my blaze order so maybe?

42. Are you a good judge of character?

i think so

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

ah kin do a sko’ ish aksen pri’ ee well

44. Do you have a strong accent?

no

45. What is your favorite accent?

don’t really have one

46. What is your personality type?

isfj

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

idk probably a suit jacket from like 6 years ago? i don’t really buy expensive clothing

48. Can you curl your tongue?

ye

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

in

50. Left or right handed?

right

51. Are you scared of spiders?

no they’re pretty neat

52. Favorite food?

cheese tortellini and pesto mmmmm

53. Favorite foreign food?

chicken tikka masala mmmmmmmm

54. Are you a clean or messy person?

depends on my stress level at the time but usually pretty clean

55. Most used phrased?

anytime one of my friends said the word “straight” i used to reply “that’s so heteronormative” but i have since stopped since that got old

56. Most used word?

like

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

10 minutes?

58. Do you have much of an ego?

i hope not

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

succ until it’s near the very end

60. Do you talk to yourself?

not really unless i’m trying to figure out why my code isn’t working

61. Do you sing to yourself?

if no one else is in earshot

62. Are you a good singer?

i wish ;-;

63. Biggest fear?

insignificance, or worse, being a burden to someone

64. Are you a gossip?

not really

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?

man idk i haven’t seen many movies recently

argo was good? idk if it’s the best i’ve seen

66. Do you like long or short hair?

both

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

yeah thanks to this freakin puzzle i had when i was like 4 i knew all the states and their capitals before i started school

68. Favorite school subject?

programming (if that doesn’t count, probably science)

69. Extrovert or introvert?

introvert

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

no, snorkeling is as close to that as i’ve gotten

71. What makes you nervous?

public speaking (a little), when all my schoolwork piles up, and messaging people about emotional issues that i’m going through if they’re involved

72. Are you scared of the dark?

no

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

to a fault, sometimes. i just want to be helpful but it’s not always the right time or place for that

74. Are you ticklish?

yes

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

no?

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

uh in boy scouts i was senior patrol leader for a while? and i’m often de facto group leader in projects but nothing to serious

77. Have you ever drank underage?

a few times

78. Have you ever done drugs?

no

79. Who was your first real crush?

first “crush” on a girl in 6th grade who was in my homeroom, first crush after i realized i was gay was a close friend when i was 16

80. How many piercings do you have?

081. Can you roll your Rs?

ye

82. How fast can you type?

i got 92 wpm when i compared with friends in class last week and just got 77 in another test so probably somewhere in the mid 80s on average

83. How fast can you run?

i probably run a 9 or 10 minute mile? i haven’t timed myself in quite some time

84. What color is your hair?

brown and purple (this dye was blue but it’s fading to pink it’s p nice)

85. What color are your eyes?

blue

86. What are you allergic to?

FREAKING POLLEN DESTROY ME SPRINGTIME

87. Do you keep a journal?

yes, but i haven’t updated in a while because life has been so crazy (i should get back in the swing of that)

88. What do your parents do?

mom works for the government, stepdad is in telecomm. idk what my dad does

89. Do you like your age?

yeah it’s pretty alright!

90. What makes you angry?

injustice

91. Do you like your own name?

yeah

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so, what are they?

no, but i do like more uncommon but still traditional names so if i’m naming characters in a game i have a few that i go back to (oscar, felix, jasmine, etc.)

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

boy girl nonbinary idc since i probs won’t be having kids anyway

94. What are you strengths?

good listener, get along well with most people

95. What are your weaknesses?

i want to help people and when they don’t want me to help i take it pretty personally, also i procrastinate a fair bit

96. How did you get your name?

i think my parents just liked it

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

i was about to say this question was weird and then i remembered i’m directly related to george washington so

98. Do you have any scars?

i swear this question was already asked

99. Color of your bedspread?

navy

100. Color of your room? 

turquoise and teal at my parent’s house, white at my apartment

ty winston!!!

[elarrendajoazul]

Just Hug It Out (A RS fic)

Based on this piece: http://adultnarwhalshinyeyes.tumblr.com/post/151130107462/ive-been-talking-to-a-friend-about-an-au-to-au

Sinopsis: The guys found themselves in trouble after Margo decides to hide away from the rest of the people, because he has to deal with his weight gain. Their friends will kepp nice about that but soon, Rigby will get in a lot of obstacles after she will try to get Margo back on track. Even he would face the posible antagonist of the history: Margo’s boyfriend, CJ. 

Atención: Anthro, r63, shipping, gay couple and chubby birds (possibly fetish, idk)

Fic right down below after “keep reading”

A quiet apartment in the middle of the city, lights were off and the interiors looked quite dark.

Even though it has pass midnight, fast and cold feet cross from the bedroom to the fridge, striking without mercy, because he was looking for a snack before going back to bed. Joyful, discovers samples of Chinese food he ordered with his boyfriend during last dinner, thanks to his memory which he recalled ordered too many for himself, even he could not finish it. But, his stomach was growling just like he did not get any tiny bit to his mouth.

He keeps the rest of noodles over their hand and stroll right to the comfort of his couch. It creaks, loudly, after he put his huge weight over it. Hearing that awful sound, he looked with surprise how his round belly overshadowed anything over his lap, it was big, and not even a shirt could fit all that, leaving his belly button exposed. For a moment, he felt with guilt.

“Oh, no! How much I gain this time?”

Being recently skinny, he had a harsh time conflicting over negative feelings and dealing with depression, he could not stop eating and he gained weight because of that. Having adopted such unhealthy practices from his sweet boyfriend, which he noticed since he kind of meet each other, but he followed his path, right until the point he was right now. He closed his eyes, to gain focus and loosely keeping his thoughts shut, and so, allowing to swallow some more noodles, which they were their favorites, by the way. Trying to calm his fierce hunger. Only after that, it came the need to open his eyes, because he felt somebody was lurking behind his back.

As you see, even though he tried to be silent, trying to not waking anybody up from the living room, his couple noticed and he woke up with curiosity over what was happening with all that noise, turning the lights on when he got there, he sigh with relief as recognizing a friendly face, worried that it could be someone strange trying to get inside their home.

“Margo? Honey… Are you awake?”

Cloudy James or how people know him, CJ, quickly noticed the food box of Chinese on the young bird’s hand which it makes him smirk a little bit, finding out it was alright.

“Margo, you are only eating… a midnight snack, before bed?”

Margo nodded, looking pretty bashful in front of him. Nervous, he kept eating until finally, he broke silence.

“CJ… I’m worried. You know, I’ve been gaining weight once again and it’s already faster, I’m getting hungry pretty fast too! I’m dealing if this will interfere our relationship, making me not attractive for you!”

“Oh, Margo. What are you talking about? I’m still in love will you and I’m keeping being like that. You will always be beautiful for me, does that counts for you?”

Getting close to the light as he walked, CJ’s figure revealed being as huge as Margo’s, even though he could not mind about his weight at all, he could handle that matter better than CJ as he was gifted by being a cloud and his metabolism could work faster as any anthropomorphic animal could ever think, ever! Margo, being a male robin, just passed to his adult age, he get to CJ’s weight real fast in a short period of two month, making him having a bad time trying to get some sleep. Shocked by all the weight he was getting on himself.

CJ got to his face, and leave a passional kiss, erasing any worries from Margo’s face, making his mind go white and letting himself go, concentrated on the lips of his caring lover. When they separate, CJ took a sit on his side, their hands were touching.

“Margo, please get some sleep. In the morning you will see how everything will fade away. Come with me and relax a little bit”. CJ said in a pretty convincing way, in such a warm voice.

“Alright… but first, let me end this! I don’t want this on the trash can, you know?”

“Do it pretty soon. After that, you will go to bed. Margo, you and me will work this out, together. Goodnight.”

CJ got up and took rest on bed; Margo kept eating, indulging noodles inside his mouth. But, Margo could not resist looking down there, as seeing himself falling to an empty pit, he knew as a shock under his shoulder felt shaking on the inside. He was already in rock bottom.

Next day, on the super market, Margo was using his cart, putting some articles it will give him something to eat for the rest of the month, trying very fast to accomplish his duty so he could get to his apartment.

Trying to achieve that, familiar voices were sounding on the other side of the hall, coming closer and closer….

“Dude, I’m telling you! And then, a giant shark jump to the boat and he tear his whole arm, my own grand uncle’s arm! And that’s how you lose an arm, with style!”

“What? Dude, there’s no way a normal shark could do that! Maybe he lose on a fabric or something, sometimes relatives prank once in a while when you are younger”.

“Hey, hey, Mordo. Quiet! That’s my family you are talking about, and this is the truth! When he comes to visit, oh, I will love the look of your face when you see the place his arm left after he vanished. You can see the mark of teeth that terrible beast lay on his arm forever!”

Margo worried a lot when he recognize them, fearing he would be seen as his condition were getting worse and worse. No one could not see Margo yet!

“Oh, no! The girls, what do I do? What do I do? I need to hide and soon!” he thought immediately, discovering a really and inexplicably huge lot of cookies which will work as an improvised hide out. Amazingly, he got away with it, as Mordecai and Rigby leave just right beside him without seeing him, at all.

He cleaned his forehead as cold sweat run through it, the girls keep chatting until they get to the cashier right far front on the hall, their voice still sound pretty clear until, it inevitably fade away on the distance:

“Dude, that’s crazy. I wish it was worth it that day of fishing, though…”

Margo keep on his way, running right on the other side the gals took a walk, so, he kept with his buy. Then, on the coffee shop, CJ was looking helpless and worried in his own reflex, made by her own coffee, allowing to see his sad face on the liquid.

“It’s not working out, right?” the young mole said, friend and worker of the Coffee Shop.

“No, Eugene. Not at all. He doesn’t even want to go to the coffee shop! I have invited him to drink coffee, something quiet, right? But, he got away and told me he was getting food sooner, because we don’t have any on the fridge anymore. He will to home after that”.

“That… doesn’t sound very optimistic, CJ. To be honest, you are the closest person to him right now, but I am his best friend. I made a promise, for when it could happen something like that, I will do everything in my power to make him feel better. Now that I’m telling you that, well, I wish you the best and I hope this works out! If you need help, don’t doubt to ask me anything!”

“Thanks, Eugene. I’m glad to hear that!”

A brief “yeah” come out of their mouth at the same time, they keep making the same thing they were doing, leaving themselves go under the depressive environment. Then, door open. Two familiar voices start sounding once again.

“Better we got to have some breakfast… I could die for some… ¡oh snap! ¿CJ? ¿How are you, dude?

“Hey, Mordecai! Hehe, nice to see you again!”

“It’s been so long, hey, do you know if Margo will be here?”

“I’m afraid not. This time I’ve come alone. I shouldn’t say this, but just earlier I speak with Eugene about was going on.”

“With Eugene, huh? And what do you talk about? Asked Rigby trying to get in conversation.

“Well, Rigby, now that you asked… we need to help Margo, now as ever. His condition has worsened and I don’t even know how to calm him” CJ speak in the name of both.

“That bad?”

“Yes, Mordo… serious. Like, I’m going to need help to be quiet about anything related to his weight, that’s what been keeping him awake on nights recently.”

“That’s a shame, I really miss him” said a very sad Mordecai.

Rigby watched silently, while the rest of three keep making his plan to don’t let Margo down, which he does not even wanted to assist to the reunions.

“Rigby, promise me you will keep the word.” CJ plead again, waiting for a confirmation.

Rigby’s eyes rolled with disgust. She decided to keep silent about her true feelings, for this one time only.

“Huh, yeah. I don’t promise anything, though.” Mordecai quickly interrupt her, trying to represent both before CJ.

“CJ, we’ll try out best to help you! You guys can go to the park anytime you want!”

“Hey, hear me out! We should do another movie night in your place, gals!” said Eugene very quickly. “It’s not that I’m free on Friday’s nights though’, haha”.

“Yeah, not bad! We could be us, like old times! Without making the effort of exposing him in public! I’m already excited! I’m completely sure; Margo will love to go out!”

Mood changed completely as he came home.

“What do you say you won’t come with us!?”

“CJ, look… I’m not in the mood for such stuff right now. I don’t think I’ll have to strength to face it yet”

Margo found herself, leaving shirtless, exposing his naked torso, CJ was looking from behind as his reflex of his face on the mirror expressed anger. Margo was observing explains with such a blue expression and even tired of what he was trying to do with himself.

“I will need more time”.

“More!? But, Margo, what else I can do!? I do everything possible to make you happy and you leave me dumped in the last minute of anything I want to share with you! Every time I invite you, you say no! C’mon, you promise me you will deal this to work it out but I only see that you are getting worst and worst! For heaven’s sake! How much longer do I need to wait until I heard you’ll be ready to see our friends again!?

The constant strength of his voice scale with such intensity, even his dialogue shock and increase constantly in every second. Failing to hide his wrath, his body started to dematerialize itself, turning into a scary and dark cloud running over the apartment, which spread sparks and thunder filled with such anger. Blind for his ugly temperament, CJ could not get down for himself.

Margo stare silently and walked closer to him, trying to block his path. Soon as CJ realize what he was doing to Margo, he saw he was doing wrong and then, he came back to his normal state, holding hands with his love couple. Both her foreheads rest in each other, holding together for a brief time, as sweet little bells sounding through the placid windy air of a fresh dusk, their minds turned white and they calm down. They truly show without telling a word, that love was still there and no one was searching to make any harm between each other.

“You don’t know how much I understand that, right now. It hurts when you looked so confused, because you are the only one who can help. Help me to help myself, now, more than and ever~”

CJ sigh after hearing those words and kept his eyes shut, hiding any emotion he dealt with, by only staying by his side.

“Of course, Margo. I will do it, more than ever.”

…………………………………………………………………………..

Walking over the sidewalk, Margo took the next day with much optimism than he could expect. Taking conscious and getting better again, he realized only a quiet stroll could sweet his mind without compromising to anything to anything hard for the moment.

Or that was he intented to, before Rigby found him in the same sidewalk-

“Oh, shit…” Margo said on his mind as quickly tried to hide in some block, sideways to the street. Unfortunately, that plan would not help him again.

“Margo? Margo! I see you, Margo! Don’t pretend to hide! Come out, man! Come on!”

Embarrassed till he got red, trying to hide back the trash dispenser, he walk in front of the young raccoon. Girl were using sunglasses and some little handkerchief over her head, he wear shirt dead open with a extra-large t-shirt which it helps to expose her huge knockers. Margo even felt scared for the hard attitude this raccoon could show.

“You don’t believe I couldn’t see you over the sidewalk, dude… it’s been so long since we have seen you in the Coffee Shop, how it’s been with you?”

“Huh…” Margo took his time, but clearly was trying to take a walk to keep on his way. The short space between the block and the trash dispenser made it impossible to cross by, leaving her completely defenseless. Rigby raise an eyebrow, watching him.

“Rigby! Huh… you see! It was very hard to go over there these day ¡I’ve been busy, I really am! ¡So, as soon as I can, I’ll tell Mordecai right away!” Margo smiled nervously, while cold sweat runs again over his face.

“Margo, you are still a horrible liar… dude, said it… Why are you embarrassed to hang out with us?”

“¡I don’t know what you are talking about! ¡No one is embarrassed! Who!? Me!? Hahahaha~!” Margo turned red as he blushed, staying between ropes as he put his body on the dispenser.

“Admit it. I see you’d change, but I don’t care about that. You are still being the same dude we appreciate. C’mon, why don’t we scrap all this crap and you can go and have a visit?”

“Huh… Rigby, I don’t think I can but maybe…”

“Mmph… it’s getting late, Margo. I have to go to the park… see ya!”

Rigby leave as soon as she said that. Meanwhile, Margo’s heart was beating faster as he could not have an easy time to breath, trying to hide his stomach holding his breathing, such concentration were broken as he sit, nervously beside the trash dispenser and after he started to breath heavily, victim of a panic attack.

With a quick jump, he started running on the other side Rigby took path and he run away straight to his apartment, which it was shared by CJ. When he get home, CJ received with surprise how Margo run away to his bed in a way to hide on his bedroom. He closed the door, very loudly.

CJ started to worry, because of the huge progress Margo was already making, that’s why she decide to take part and started to knock the door.

“Are you here that soon? Margo, are you right?”

“What!? Yes, CJ, I am fine! Better than ever!” his voice was higher and he truly exposed how uncomfortably nervous he really was.

CJ did not believe that as he heard how Margo was breathing very heavy, he put his face right to the door to listen, sadness come to his reaction as she was trying to figure out what was happening on that bedroom.

“What has come to you, out there?”

“Nothing! Nothing at all! I only… take a break! Tomorrow I’ll try again… promise! Maybe I could not met someone less familiar though.

That last part was mumbling that Margo tried to keep to herself but it was loud enough for CJ to catch it. He stood on the door, starting to ask himself the meaning of such strange wording. Only then, as soon as the strike of thunder, it all started to make sense, when she acknowledges creating a link which only follows to one suspect.

“Rigby!” she thought.

There was inactivity for the rest of the day, until then, the morning after, when the inevitable confront in the Coffee Shop happen. Early, Mordecai and Rigby were in the Coffee Shop, having breaking.

“You don’t think how awesome I could look if I had a robotic arm!?” asked Mordecai leaving such a jokingly grin.

“Huh, I really like to but, I would never play strong arms with you for the rest of my life.”

The door open and CJ came quickly at the table, recognizing someone which needed to hear something very important:

“Rigby! Where were you, yesterday?”

“Oh CJ, how’s it going? Any update with the Margo situation?” She slurp one sip of coffee as she wait for an answer.

“That’s exactly what I come to talk about! Everything was just fine until he came back and he locked himself on the bedroom… after seeing someone familiar!”

“What are you guys talking about? Did you see Margo, yesterday, dude?” Mordecai said pretty confused. Eugene leave the kitchen, holding a jar of coffee on his hand, hearing all the noise.

“Fuck’s sake! Yes, I did meet with Margo and yes, I talk to him. But what I said was that she needed to come with us! He was acting already weird since he recognized me on the street, even he tried to hide but after that, we talk a little until I leave”.

“What a way to do it, then! Can you explain? You make that one week of progress were thrown to the trash can, I told you, Rigby! Don’t be direct, you promised!”

“Dude, I didn’t do shiet! Even I said we miss him pretty lots and we needed him back! Are you trying to boss me for something you asked me to?”

CJ took a long sigh, leaving frustration: “Rigby, I’m not mad, but that’s the last time! I’ll go home with Margo, see you later” As that, CJ go away, waiting for a relaxing day, taking another day to not find with their friends, again.

“What the hell was that?” Eugene asked, finally taking enough courage to get close to his friends.

“I forgot to bring my raincoat. I didn’t know it could rain down here!” Rigby cynically joked and put her hands under the head, taking an exhausting break over the table.

“So… how was Margo, like?” asked Mordecai.

“Huge, Mordo, he was huge!” Rigby stopped after he looked face to face how sad was Mordecai about Margo, he could see how pain was rolling upon her blue eyes. “Seriously, they are making a huge deal about this. When they get ready, they need to come back, whenever they want, I don’t want to get in any trouble if that’s you want to believe.”

“Well, if it’s impossible for us to act and seeing CJ its mad with you, Rigby, what we can do?”

“I’ve no idea, Eugene. And that’s worrying me, right now! I could call CJ promising that everything shall be fine now but I don’t see possible for us to visit them on their home. It will be very awkward for everyone involved.” Say Mordecai.

“Fuck, you are making things worst! We’re making a huge deal about it! We need to see Margo, now!”

“Maybe you should calm down, dude! Maybe you are the one who are complicating this”

“What!? Now I am the trouble!?

“I’m not sure but Mordo it’s trying to tell that your reactions are making to misunderstood anything you try to say. If you were conscious about accepting what CJ propose instead of not promising anything, maybe we could not even had this problem with Margo in the first place”

“Now it’s my fault that Margo’s been ignoring me in the middle of the street and talk to me like I’ve never met her! It’s so easy to walk out of his home and come with us in the Coffee Shop! You guys were not even there! How do you think you can criticize my actions?

Mordecai tried to defend herself: “But… Rigby…”

“Stop with the buts, Rigby! I don’t like we have tried so hard to make Margo feel better and this guy does not had the sense to return these favors. I’m not the one to talk but you are your best friends, reason with him! Mordecai, Eugene?

Mordecai and Eugene looked each other, without knowing what to do, Mordecai looked back trying to show empathy as it failed miserably, her mouth couldn’t assure the words of support she needed to hear, as she only come a brief mumble.

This make Rigby insane and she took her hands over back of the neck and hide her face over the table. The talk turned quiet and dead cold for a few minutes.

It looked like CJ could have the same awkward evening until he opened the door and left his key over a bowl. Suddenly, as he turns on the lights, he found out Margo was sitting on the couch, he smile as soon as he noticed CJ was here.

“Margo… you’re outside.”

“I want to apologize for what I’ve done. I’ve thinking about it and I want to try it again.”

“Really? Um, look, it’s pretty early yet, why don’t you take a walk if you want to try that.”

“No, CJ, I’ve had another idea in mind…”

He jumped with so much energy that it shock CJ a little bit. He got closer and he gave him such a warm kiss in the cheek, making him blush, but it makes him wonder with such anxiety, what was the great news.

“Let’s go with the guys, let’s make the movie night!”

“At last! It was time!” one scream of jubilee came out of the cloud man, as they gave each other a little kiss in the mouth. They soon leave the apartment as they closed the door.

They soon remembered and they open it again, getting inside the apartment. CJ was the only one who recovered sense: ¡Wow, wow, wait! What are we doing? Margo, it’s 9 o’ clock! It’s not even night yet!

“Oh, yeah… hehe, you are right!”

Half an hour later and soon after Mordecai and Rigby ended breakfast and say goodbye to Eugene, a cellphone rang. The owner which was Mordecai, answer it.

“Hello?”

“Mordecai, it’s me… CJ! Are you free tonight?”

“Huh… what’s the ask for?”

“You won’t believe this! Margo said yes! He wants to go to the movie night! Is it going to happen!”

“Well…”

“I said if it’s going to happen!”

“Yes, yes! Dude, we can make it!”

“Perfect. I’m in the supermarket right now, Margo took a walk, you will see him tonight. Hand me over Rigby!”

“Huh… I’m not sure if you will like what I’m going to do now.” Said Mordecai to Rigby as he blocked the speaker of the phone and immediately hand it over: “It’s CJ” Rigby closed her eyes and took a deep sigh before taking the phone.

“CJ, what’s going on?”

“Rigby! Margo’s out of the bedroom and tonight we’ll go to the movie night! You better don’t do what you did last time, okay!?”

“Yes, CJ, I won’t do anything. I promise”

“You better be, Rigby! I don’t want to see you making stupid things again! You are on my sight!”

Rigby got annoyed for that rude comment about herself, such an attack on her person.

“CJ, listen…” before she could make her statement, Cloudy James had already end the call.

“UGH!” Rigby yelled and rise her face up to the sky, giving the phone to her best friend.

“That was weird, right? I don’t know what the hell it’s going on in that house but at this point, dude… I don’t want to know anything.” Rigby looked down the ground with closed arms, being feed by her own weakness.

“Well… Everything’s even and all it’s good, right?” Mordecai smiled very optimistic and friendly, but Rigby face her, still with crossed arms.

Mordecai kept insisting, forcing her big smile and making a frown, forcing Rigby to make an answer: “Riiiiiiight?”

Rigby kept quiet for a few seconds and suddenly, she shakes her head like a tambourine, indicating what Mordecai did not wanted it to her: No. He up her hands in signal of disapproval. “Mmmph, mmph!”

“Wooow, what? No… Why!? Why!?” Mordecai yelled.

“Mordecai….!” Rigby tried to explain. But Mordecai raise her finger right to her.

“No, Rigby, no! Don’t screw this up! Rigby, we’re so close! Why do you keep going with this?” Mordecai beg with his hands.

“CJ don’t learn, dude! It seems like he will annoy me about Margo forever. He’s going to bury his old cauliflower looking head over my neck to make me not tell any word about it, tonight! And if I don’t stop him, he will go after you and Eugene too!”

Mordecai whined a little growl and bury her hands over his face. “Okay… but don’t tell I did not warn you. Margo it’s too sensitive over that stuff, and see Rigby, people like him sometimes need that protection. Eugene and I used to deal more with him and we love him oh so much, that sometimes we need to protect him. But, I’ve never get that far with him. Good luck with the result!”

“I’m not the problem. If they’re looking for it, they will get it! Besides, nothing will happen until CJ will decide to keep his hands over me. I mean~ the problem, that’s it!

“Yeah, right… just help with the junk food and renting the films”

“Oh yeayuh~ I’ll follow you if you bring food~!” Rigby followed her path.

………………………………………………….

It was night at Pops’s house, movie night was happening.

Five individuals were seated on the floor as they served the first box of pizza they order. Around them, you could see popcorn, table games and even some beer cans and bottle of alcohol already consumed.

“Oh hell yeah, pizza!” Eugene yelled as pizza came by.

Margo was seated on the floor, tasting some of the pieces of pizza that they were so hot, they could steam, making them see much tastier. On his side, in a backwards sense of a clock, you could find: Eugene, Mordecai, Rigby and on his other side, CJ.

“Damn, where do you get these, girls?” said Margo.

“Villa Giulia, that’s one of the few local 100& Italian pizzerias. They’re homemade and they’re made by firewood” said Mordecai.

“You know, CJ? I guess you and I should ask for some, later.” Said Margo.

“Oh… you know we’ll get them” Margo and CJ smile at each other.

“Heh. We should recommend more places like that. We know a lot of local of every kind, because when we need to plan events for the park, we need a little helping hand sometimes, few experts on feasts.” Rigby said.

“Oh, oh~ could you give some contact cards? I think it could be awesome to ask for homemade food once in a while, don’t you think, CJ?” Margo looked with jubilee and excited as his feet were flying trying to talk and imagine one of those plates, above all, the taste of Italian cuisine and noodles of any kind and nationality, they were their favorites. Cloudy James looked surprised and answered immediately.

“Yeah, Margo… we’ll do it. We should change the subject, though; I want to see the movies already. I’ll tell Mordo about information, later.”

“Of course, CJ. Whatever’s up to you, guys, I’ll be always helping!” said Mordecai as he handle a whole slice of pizza to her beak. Her mouth were splat with sauce and cheese that couldn’t stick out of her face: “Huhuhuh I love pizza”

“Rigby, can I talk to you for a moment?”

“Sure, dude”

Before CJ could got up, Margo looked at him with happiness. CJ only gave him a pat on his back and walk to the kitchen, leaving Mordecai, Eugene and Margo together at the living room.

“Um, I will put the movie if you both don’t mind.” Eugene jumped directly to the screen.

“Mordo… now that we’re alone, I…”

“Ha, you will ask me something important or you will talk about that neat slice of pizza down here? ‘Cause I won’t let you take it!”

“Hahaha, no! I want to apologize personally for what I’ve been through the last couple of days” he then take a sip of his bottle of bear “I’ve abandon you all many time, but that will not happen again”.

“That’s cool, Margo! Tell me if that happens again, I wish that you would not bear with the same again.”

“I wish not, it was too hard though. Now, raise that can for me!”

“What, this one? But, that was Rigby’s been drinking.”

“Hahaha! Doesn’t matter… I’ll tell Eugene to give you a new one, a full one, I mean. I can’t take it for myself. Let’s do a toast for my curation!”

“Oh… yeah.”

Mordecai take that can and raise it to the air and the, Margo did the same with his bottle.

“For my good friend, Margo! For a healthy and happy relationship!”

“My friend Mordecai. Wish he will be… always, extraordinary!”

They clash their “glasses” and laugh about the impact. Mordecai’s hand was soaked in alcohol and proceed to clean it over his jeans. Margo kept drinking the whole bottle in one sip, until it was over.

“Huh… I’ll go see what’s going on with CJ” said Margo, before he took up.

On the side of the eating table, CJ was talking with Rigby:

What do you think you’re doing? Talking about food so casually now, Rigby?”

“Of course, I’m the Pizza Queen! Besides, CJ, what’s the matter?”

“Shut it! Margo didn’t get it in the beginning, but I see what you want to say! I won’t let you critize her way of eating!”

“Look, CJ… I swear it’s not what I wished for, ok? It’s a beautiful movie night, why don’t relax and eat some pizza before it gets cold? I only took part of serving the pizza, it was Mordecai’s idea to buy it!”

Of course, deliberately bringing the topic on the table by yourself, isn’t it?” Rigby took a long pause.

“I don’t know what you’ve been drinking the same as I do, but I hope it won’t harm your head, permanently!” she raised her finger, keeping her space, keeping him away  “I want the same happiness for both of you, such as we respect what Margo wants to do”

“Doesn’t look like it”

“Ha! Holy shit! Eugene warned me about this crap”

“You never did. I had to come to the Coffee Shop to force you to do it. It took you too long to follow me and then, you make everything possible to hurt Margo!”

“Oh, it’s so good you bring the topic again, because it doesn’t look like I haven’t make clear exactly how it happen”

“I don’t care, Rigby! I don’t care what you need to say if you hurt him with such rude comments! Be a good friend and leave that crap, okay? Or maybe you have something against him.”

“Me!? Please, I don’t have a problem. Maybe you should think if you don’t have something with me!”

Margo entered to the kitchen, looking for CJ.

“Oh, CJ~! The movie’s starting!”

“I’ve had enough problems to deal with beside you, you little rat! I won’t get tired telling you what because you don’t even listen in the first place!” CJ yelled at Rigby, without finding out Margo was already listening, pretty confused.

“Oh yeah? Like what? You haven’t do anything else to breath over my neck! Completely busy to worry about any other stuff! Crying like a baby every time I speak to Margo about he can eat more than a familiar size pizza!”

“Huh, guys?” Margo, heartbroken, only could hush, failing again in keeping the guys’ attention.

“Better shut your mouth, Rigby! See, that’s the bullshit behavior it makes act like you say!”

“Dude, why won’t you leave Margo to be honest to himself for one time? Accept what he’s doing instead of shutting up and swallow his guilt? Do we need to make the same crap every day? For what? Repeat it again when he fails and so we need to bear how he lock up to his bedroom once he gains weight again?

“Rigby! Stop!” Rigby could see him, but she did not care. CJ’s body was turning dark again.

“CJ!” Hearing that voice, they both immediately look. Margo was calling CJ to calm him down.

“It’s… it’s that what you think?” said Margo to CJ. James preferred to not answer, as she swallow saliva and then, he looked to Rigby.

“I hope you are happy!”

“CJ… look at me!” Margo tried to get closer, acting as a moderator: “Why you didn’t tell me that? You have a problem with Rigby?”

“Wow! What’s been taking so long!?” Suddenly, Mordecai entered, at the same time as Eugene. “Oh no” Mordecai whimpered right when he saw what he thought was going on.

“Well, dude… We’re fucked” Eugene said.

“I’m done, CJ. That’s enough! Listen, Margo, I apologize for the last time we met on the street the other day. If you believe I’ve been a drag all this time, that’s okay for me, I respect that. But you need to listen to me: this path of denial and false optimism you are taking, it will only make to swallow that guilt. You’ve been too depressed lately because you don’t find another way to face your weight gain! And that’s okay, but you should face the problem and accept it, you must talk about that with us! We worry about you and we want you to be happy, we do it for you, fuck’s sake! Mordecai and Eugene are too nice to tell you but we all think the same!”

“Is that true, Mordecai? Eugene?”

Mordecai nodded, felt with such shame. Eugene hide his hand behind his neck, constantly scratching as anxiety.

“And I won’t let CJ, even if he is the one you love, to silence me about it, because I know, this is important for you!”

Margo only looked down and cleaned his wetted eyes. He was almost on the verge of crying.

“Are you done, Rigby? Are you done ruining the night and hurting the person I love?” CJ said.

“I can’t tell if it’s the best, CJ. But sometimes you need to shake things up, facing them. That’s what I need to tell you!”

“I don’t care what you need to say! I don’t care if it’s “right”! I don’t give a damn what you think, Rigby! You don’t only bother to annoy him but even you manage to ruin this beautiful night! Do you have any fucking idea how selfish and hypocritical you act like when you talk about someone’s health!? Eating junk food as you fucking want, huh!? All this time you pretended being a friend, when really, you’re not most than a nasty annoying piece of garbage! It’s over; I won’t let Margo to suffer because a whore piece of shit will tell him how to live his life!”

A gasp of surprise came out of Mordecai mouth.

“Stop talking!” Rigby yelled at CJ, as he run with sadness to the stairs, trying to hide.

“Rigby, Rigby!” Mordecai tried to channel his best friend, to console her.

One arm stood to stop her, making Mordecai to not follow Rigby. “Mordecai, I’ll go see her.”

Mordecai look him at his eyes, with bare tears flowing over his round cheek. His look expresses calm, liberated at last, with conscious back on track and with such a voice it transmits security. Instantly, the blue jay, stop trying.

Following this, Margo took upstairs.

CJ and Mordecai watch how he took every step, cautiously.

“Wow, Rigby has really did it, this time! I told her, again and again and she never listened!”

“Could you please stop?”

“Why? You know, Mordecai, that I’m right!”

“Even if you are, I won’t be your trash can to receive all your complaints, CJ. All this time, Rigby tried to make something good and you did not do nothing else than reduce her and humiliate her. I promise to respect Margo as many times you’ve asked for it, but I will tell you something you are failing to do and I need to remind you again. This is my house and my friend’s as well! And you’re none than guests! So, from now, you will respect her, because if you mess with her, you will mess with me! Leave. Rigby. Alone!”

Words made their effect, CJ gaze for a moment on the ground as he recall what he had done, look back to Mordecai, taking his time and bringing him, the right.

“You are right… I apologize for that, Mordecai. I, didn’t want to say all that, but, it hurts seeing Margo like that.”

“Like everybody here, dude. Do you forget that Rigby was part of this too? You won’t even remember that you compromise their best friends with this conflict, it will only matter for them to make their paces, like It should be done since the beginning.”

In the roof, Rigby stare at the green grass, how it fades away in the dark, loosely attached to the weak horizon was painted by electric light. Remembered with sadness, anything what happen just a few moments ago and sigh as anything shameful come to her head, aching herself for what she has done.

Suddenly, a few steps and a very large figure interrupt his thinking, making her look quick: “Rigby?” Rigby started looking back to the ground.

“Rigby, I’m so sorry. You need to forgive CJ when she acts like that. He doesn’t really mean it when he said those things.”

“Still fucking hurts, man.” Rigby answered very weakly, as she tries to gain composure making a nervous laugh when she confesses it. “That guy roasted my ass in front of everybody” she said, to the point she even shakes in anger when she said it: “It’s not a big deal, but… I guess in some point I should deserve it”.

“Don’t say that, you know it’s not true!” Margo tried to get close to her, keeping him away from the window: “Rigby, you defend your point till the end. Even, you make me change my mind about it, because I know, very deeply, that you’re right. So many days alone in my apartment without seeing my friends, that is wasted time, you know! Rigby, I needed that last talk we had! But, I don’t think you are 100% honest with me. You won’t even had said everything you have in mind, yet!”

Rigby said to Margo: “I can’t simply apologize to you and CJ. I can’t believe how Mordecai and Eugene accept so easily this stuff but when it’s about me, I can’t even shake the comments I receive, every day. I’m not being honest, Margo, I’m jealous! I’m furious because I need to accept everyday how people can call me a fat whore or that I am a sexy bitch! That I could look if I lose weight or that I already see better looking so dumb thick! I’m not going to accept anything from that guy, Margo! I can’t let him to talk about my body like that!”

He cross his arms over his bust and his tail twirl over her legs and her hips, looking shameful to the sky, being embarrassed of her figure.

Margo sighed: “Well, at least we are talking about it. I don’t anyone who is trying to act tough or superior making me convince about something, but now, I can see each other like two equal persons, speaking honestly and with respect, one fear after another.”

“I also think you have been a pretty huge asshole for hiding under your bed because you’ve gained weight”

“Alright, touché. Finally I listen the truth. Rigby, the world it’s already complicated to deal with this, we don’t need that kind of crap between us, even I want to share that I too receive those comments all the time and it hurts so much that what people expect from me, it’s never the same they see with both of their eyes. I get around people, frequently, and I see with pity how as days turns by and I notice how always they force themselves to feel bad about me, how they spend their time as a tragedy and how they must keep in that way to feel sympathy about it, pretending everything’s okay and that my weight it’s not such a matter. Even I know they knew but they simply don’t want to tell me that! They want me to grow up and that I need to spend the rest of the day smiling and that I swallow my own sadness! Why the hell, Mordecai, Eugene and CJ had to lie to me in such way, why do they have to be like this!?

Margo couldn’t help to weep and finally, as flesh, wound recently exposed, pain was flowing from the core of his pain, it run through his face, in the form of a trail of tears. Rigby looked with shame as she was astonished by the intensity of his speech, through the emotion she felt as she saw Margo breaking in tears after finally revealing his anger, her eyes started to way after see him.

Quickly look to the floor to try and connect with his friend, broken in tears.

“Because they love you, Margo! They want to protect you and to be happy with yourself! Even they wish that much more than I could even do it!”

Margo looked at Rigby, a shady figure which was fading because the constant wetting of his pupils. Margo then gasped an ache of angst and pain.

“I’ve never liked you! I hated you since you met Mordecai and I hated you as you gain his trust and friendship! And now I can’t even bear CJ as since you are together! But I know you like Mordecai and Eugene it’s your best friend! I won’t let this friendship to die because I’m only mad and that I am such a piece of garbage and that I am such a fat crybaby!

“Rigby…” Margo covered her in his arms giving him a strong hug, reducing her pain and calming her by his conflicted conscious, Rigby was shaken by the quick and warm affect which she means a lot to her “you’ve gained my respect as someone I can completely trust! Just like any of us! Sometimes, if words don’t work, we must just hug it out to calm such violence”.

Rigby looked at Margo and closed her eyes, without helping to say something: “So? Is this what we are doing, now? This hug is really happening?”

“Yes. This hug it’s already happening and I won’t stop until you get proud to be yourself” Tears flowed finally through Rigby’s face, in a little range. Rigby then, quickly clean her eyes with her hand.

“Stop it~ you can leave now. Keep your hands out me! Don’t be gay!”

“Perfect, Rigby. Come on down, we need to end the night”.

“Sure, with all this noise? You won’t think we need to be cautious”

“When does that stops you anyway, Rigby?” Margo smiled at him, very witty, as Rigby couldn’t help return it him leaving a little laugh.

“Ha! Look at yourself! I won’t ever apologize for what I’ve done!” Rigby raised her finger.

“I know. That’s why you are my friend.” Margo get inside the house by the window and Rigby quickly followed her.

Meanwhile, down there, Mordecai, CJ y Eugene walk silently waiting for the consequences of the talk, when suddenly, they listened right from the stairs how Margo walk down to there.

Margo runs to hug CJ, as he sighs with relief how great the young robin looked since he came upstairs:

“Margo!” his wording was interrupted as Margo run to hug him very passionate.

“Don’t worry CJ; I’m happy as I’ll ever be, we should keep with the movie night!”

“Sure, Margo, as you want” Margo then took his place in front of the screen.

But then, Rigby’s feet were seen for the guest downstairs, she silently stared at his friends reunited without looking to gaze upon CJ’s eyes, which he looked with fear waiting for the next reaction. Rigby looked at his eyes and CJ couldn’t help to start breaking in tears:

“Rigby… I… I’m sorry for what I tell you. I was very bad to you for offending you like that and-”

“Ugh! CJ, stop crying! We had enough tears to resolve the third world crisis!

Margo explode in laughter as CJ looked in confusion to his couple, Mordecai only smiled with pride for what was happening, CJ could not help to look at her as well. Only then, he could understand that the only think she could do, was to get closer and give her a strong hug.

“Thank you, Rigby” he confessed by hushing on her ear.

“There, there. You are forgiven.” Rigby make a hand sign; give a pat over his back. “Well… there’s more pizza left?”

“Like three boxes!” said Eugene pointing at the table.

“Go for them, young Roberts! Mister Smith, anything for the lady?”

“Bring soda”

“Make it two glasses. In the rocks.” CJ answered. They looked at each other and they smiled, as they both keep hugging each other.

“I’ll help with the drinks, dude, before we start to the screening” said Mordecai.

“Oh, yeayuh! Of course, pal!” said Rigby.

Eugene put the pizza in place and Rigby’s and Mordecai’s feet move right to the drinks and the cups, ¼ of the plastic content were filled with ice, just right before to start.

The sound of transmission starts to be heard over the TV after the snap of a button from the remote control. When the movie started, only the force of sound editing and the movie soundtrack was silenced by the strength and strike of the sizzle of a recent opened 3 liters bottle of soda.

“Fzzzzzzzz” was the sound it made, as the private screening of five friends was starting, inside the house, without knowing any problem from the exterior world, in a pretty tasty movie night.

[circlesofts]

Please don't hate me... from the "Get To Know Me" questionnaire: All of them? Or at least all that you choose to answer. You don't have to answer those that you don't want to

Thanks for asking! Don’t worry about it, no hate, i’m happy to do it (Sorry it’s a day or two late, mobile Tumblr doesn’t give me notifications for messenger. Luckily I remembered to check…)

1. What is your middle name? Claire

2. How old are you?20 years old

3. What is your birthday?6th of Feb, the 20 years old thing is fairly recent

4. What is your zodiac sign?Aquarius

5. What is your favorite color?I quite like green/turquoise/purple (#339933, #008060, #990099 for an idea)

6. What’s your lucky number?I don’t really have one, probs 6 or 2

7. Do you have any pets?Used to have lots of pets, currently just a dog and cat, they’re p cute

8. Where are you from?I’m from the North West of England, around the Fylde Coast

9. How tall are you?5″5

10. What shoe size are you?I’m a size 4.5-5 for shoes

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?There’s 10 pairs with me at uni (including slippers) but I have an extra 5 or more pairs at home I think

12. What was your last dream about?I can’t remember my last dream

13. What talents do you have?Umm, I don’t really have any talents, I can sort of do things but nothing I’m really good at? 

14. Are you psychic in any way?I don’t really believe in psychic stuff, but I sometimes really vividly dream stuff before they happen? Then a strong sense of Déjà vu

15. Favorite song?I have too many favourite songs, from too many genre. A few good ones that I listened to recently, Vectors by Area 11, Boy With A Coin by Iron and Wine, Salad Days/My Kind Of Woman by Mac Demarco and finally, the hot new meme Bag Raiders by Shooting Stars

16. Favorite movie?Again, there’s a lot. Anything Ghibli is a hit, also Your Name is a banger. Rogue one was p fantastic, Amélie, Fight Club, Animatrix, so many more

17. Who would be your ideal partner?Idk, someone who tries to understand me I guess, who never stops trying and always want to find out more. Also patience is key, I’m not the easiest person to live with

18. Do you want children?I do want children, but also the idea of it terrifies me

19. Do you want a church wedding?I’ve never been super fussed about marriage but a church wedding does sound appealing in some ways.

20. Are you religious?None Religion with Left Beef

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?I’ve been to the hospital a few times

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?Nah, never been caught

23. Have you ever met any celebrities? Met Alfie Boe, his aunt or mum or smth lives v close to me

24. Baths or showers?Showers for sure

25. What color socks are you wearing?No socks lad

26. Have you ever been famous?I’ve been in the local newspaper a few times, wouldn’t exactly call it famous tho

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?Yes and no, like the idea of being remembered and being influences. Also kind of a poor background so the money would be nice. But also too much pressure

28. What type of music do you like?Cliché as it is, I like a bit of everything. Although preferences for rock, indie, folk. Although I’ve been on a vaporwave jam recently

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?nah

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?2 usually, sometimes 3

31. What position do you usually sleep in?On my front or side I think

32. How big is your house?My uni flat is p small, my parents house is 3 bedroom, small but not super small

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?On the rare occasions I have breakfast, toast w/tomatoes on. Although I did just treat myself to a box of cereal which is very rare.

34. Have you ever fired a gun?Air rifle at scouts, I wasn’t half bad

35. Have you ever tried archery?Again, at scouts

36. Favorite clean word?Altruism

37. Favorite swear word?It has to be cunt

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?3 days, it was during exam period as well

39. Do you have any scars?2 on my face

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?Umm, not in the super romantic sense with surpise gifts and shit. More like people have had crushes and told me months/years later, doesn’t end well usually

41. Are you a good liar?Yes

42. Are you a good judge of character?I’d like to think I am, but probably not. Sometimes tho

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?Poorly

44. Do you have a strong accent?North-west doesn’t have any particularly strong accent. That being said, some people at uni can tell I’m not from the south

45. What is your favorite accent?Italian probs. Although for comedy, it’s gotta be Somerset (think Hot Fuzz)

46. What is your personality type?Quiet probably, I’m not really sure

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?I own some Dr Martens boots, that or a shirt I got in a sale that turned out to be heckin expensive

48. Can you curl your tongue?Ye

49. Are you an innie or an outie?Innie

50. Left or right handed?Right

51. Are you scared of spiders?Definitely house spiders

52. Favorite food?Burgers or chocolate.Although red peppers.

53. Favorite foreign food?I really like Indian curry, not spicy tho. Although there’s nothing more British than going for an Indian, unless it’s a Chinese.

54. Are you a clean or messy person?Kitchen is always clean, bedroom is always messy.

55. Most used phrase?Soft boy, Ayy lmao, That’s gay, it’s chill, It’s a banger. I have a lot of stock phrases I just kinda say without thinking, I don’t remember all of them

56. Most used word?Probably soft, or dickhead

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?if I’m late and I don’t have to look nice, I can be ready in 10-20. However for most things I’m late because I take too damn long59.  Do you have much of an ego?Not really, but it’s easily bruised

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?Bite

60. Do you talk to yourself?Sometimes

61. Do you sing to yourself?Yes, a lot

62. Are you a good singer?Average

63. Biggest Fear?Forgetting things, memories, smells, how something felt. That and things like aneurysms and strokes, I’m really afraid of them.

64. Are you a gossip?Definitely. If it’s not v important or a secret I’m gonna be all over it

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?Little Miss Sunshine

66. Do you like long or short hair?All hair is good hair

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?Nope

68. Favorite school subject?Sociology, Philosophy, Art

69. Extrovert or Introvert?A shy and anxious extrovert

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?Nah

71. What makes you nervous?People with any authority to judge, people judging, being alone, loud people and loud noises. Laddish people

72. Are you scared of the dark?Nah

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?Depends on the mistake, but usually

74. Are you ticklish?Very

75. Have you ever started a rumor?Kinda, yeah. In high school. My friend put his newts in the bathtub while he was cleaning their tank. We were all having a laugh in maths about it and I made a joke about him bathing with his newts and then it became A Thingl. It wasn’t super bad, mostly funny.

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?Yeah

77. Have you ever drank underage?Ye

78. Have you ever done drugs?Ye

79. Who was your first real crush?One of my online friends from back in my Deviantart days

80. How many piercings do you have?None,

81. Can you roll your Rs?Not really, with great effort

82. How fast can you type?Very fast on my phone, average on my laptop

83. How fast can you run?Not sure, I don’t do a lot of running anymore, probably not v fast. Used to be p fast tho

84. What color is your hair?Currently brown

85. What color is your eyes?Hazel

86. What are you allergic to?Nothing

87. Do you keep a journal?Nah

88. What do your parents do?My dad is a welder fabricator, my mum is currently unemployed

89. Do you like your age?Not really? I don’t feel 20 but it makes me anxious, I wanna be a teenager again

90. What makes you angry?injustice, being tricked, when people make me feel stupid

91. Do you like your own name?Ye

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?Nah man

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?Gender or sex isn’t important

94. What are you strengths?I’m a good listener, and I always try and be as kind as thoughtful as I can be. Although sometimes salty, I am usually p good at moving past things and forgiving people, although sometimes a weakness.

95. What are your weaknesses?Anxious, sometimes way too defensive. Because I hate being tricked I have a very bad reaction to pranks. I’m also really forgetful and have poor motivation.

96. How did you get your name?My Grandma is Irish and there’s a river Shannon, also my older bro is called Shaun. Shaun and Shannon is a good name combo.

97. Were your ancestors royalty?Don’t know, don’t think so

98. Do you have any scars?question 39

99. Color of your bedspread?Green and White

100. Color of your room?Room at home is red, room here is white and pale blue.

[jackymedan]

film ask game

stolen from @theniftycat

What’s the most depressing movie you’ve ever watched?

probably either The Green Mile, La Vita È Bella or Brokeback Mountain idk, I don’t watch that many depressing movies, I tend to avoid them

What’s the most disturbing movie you’ve ever watched?

probably Saw (I watched at least 1 and 2 idk if I ever saw 3 as well but none beyond that).. but the one that gave me the biggest trauma for a long time was possibly The Mummy but only because I was TOO YOUNG to see that scene with the scarabs going underneath someone’s skin and it freaked me the fuck out ok.. ALSO “Love me if you dare” a.k.a. “Jeux d’Enfants” ??????? ??? ? ?????? ?? ???? w h a t ? Also Cashback had some pretty disturbing blatant non-con nudity that was pretty icky and the nature of it was pretty disturbing as well (the guy can freeze time but he’s an “artist” so he decides to undress random women while they’re frozen in time and draw nudes of them without their consent and afterwards he just “fixes their clothes back on” and unfreezes time and acts as if nothing happened ????? ew.)

An actor/actress you’ve seen in more than 8 movies? Name the movies.

I’ve done that with multiple actors.. and with most of them it’s too many movies to name all of them so I’ll just name the actors: Callum Keith Rennie (SO MANY movies and I still haven’t seen all of them), Michael Palin, also probably John Cleese since he was in quite a lot of movies Michael was in as well, Channing Tatum also just about reaches 8 films I watched (mostly) just for him.. Jamie Bell is just a few movies short of that I think..

A film you could watch on repeat for the rest of your life?

Possibly Amélie since it’s my favourite movie and I know it by heart anyway and it has a great soundtrack.. but I’d rather watch other things as well instead of just one thing on repeat

What’s the very first film you remember watching?

no idea honestly.. I’m not great with figuring out the chronological order of my earlier memories..

A film you wish you hadn’t watched?

The Wicker Man just because it was awful and I actually spent money on it to see it in the cinema with my classmates.. everyone was very “?????????????? wtf did we just watch” at the end.. also I just hate nicholas cage in general tbh.. also Suspicious River.. I watched it for CKR and he wasn’t even remotely attractive in it anymore because he played an incredibly sleazy, gross, LITERAL rapist asshole.. also the plot was terrible and weird.. 0/10 would not recommend

A film you wish had a sequel?

sequels often suck though so idk..

Which book would you like to see adapted into a film?

movie adaptations of books rarely live up to my (too) high expectations tbh so idk.. are there movies of diana wynne jones’ chrestomanci series books?

The most aesthetically pleasing movie you’ve ever watched?

Anything by Jean-Pierre Jeunet tbh, but especially Amélie.. also The Fall with Lee Pace was gorgeous too, but I should watch it on dvd quality (I have the dvd now) because that’ll probably be a lot better than the download I watched.. (The Fall was also pretty disturbing in some places imo btw) I also need to re-watch Big Fish, it was pretty but I watched it while I was down with the flu and I only processed half of it..

What’s your favourite movie director?

300000% Jean-Pierre Jeunet, no question about it.

Your favourite movie genre?

idk preferably things that aren’t straight up depressing + have a happy ending if possible.. things that make me laugh.. things that have one of my favourite actors in it :)))

A movie that holds a special place in your heart?

Ferngully lol idk.. probably more but idk

Your favourite comedy film?

idk Monty Python’s Holy Grail or Life of Brian? or idk

A music video you would love to see developed into a film?

no idea

A film everyone loves but you hate?

idk about hate.. but many people love st*r w*rs and I give maybe 1 or 2 fucks about it total (I only like the imperial march cover by rage against the machine and eddie izzard’s sketch about the death star canteen, I’ve never actually seen any of the movies and don’t really plan to change that.. I don’t “hate” them either though..) Also Action/Superhero movies in general.. anything in which there are 34567 explosions every 2 seconds and entire cities need to get destroyed because a couple of “super heroes” think a busy city is a good place to fight.. I hate p much every superhero movie with some slight exceptions.. I did like the first 2 captain america movies but hated the avengers (I only saw the first avengers movie because I needed to watch it to follow the plot of captain america 2).. also I watched deadpool and the spiderman movies with tobey maguire.. but that’s about it.. I’m also not a comic book person..

A film you love but everyone else hates?

idk who ‘everyone else’ is in this context.. most people have probably seen more movies in their lives than I have tbh, especially if you’re talking about recent productions.. I can’t really think of a movie “everyone” hates to begin with.. except like.. twilight or something.. I only saw the first movie of that and I didn’t have any strong feelings about it.. I didn’t hate it? (and actually kind of enjoyed the books, sue me)

Which cinematic universe would you like to live in?

Amélie please.. I’d love to live in paris with extra pretty colours <3

What’s your favourite biopic?

Milk about Harvey Milk (this might possibly be the only biopic I’ve seen tbh but it was good)

Mainstream movies or indie movies?

either/both idk.. although I do kind of tend to gravitate towards more obscure/weird movies a lot of the time.. I hardly ever watch the Big Hits “everybody” is talking about that “everybody” NEEDS to see etc.. that often makes me feel even less interested in watching it, I watch what I want >__>

Old movies or contemporary movies?

old-ish movies.. idk.. like I said, I’m not really the kind of person who goes to the cinema very often to watch all the big movie hits that “everybody” is telling you to watch etc.. I mostly watch things because an actor I love happens to be in it or I saw a gifset of it and it caught my interest..

A film with an amazing soundtrack?

I’m getting predictable: Amélie :)) also MicMacs à Tire-Larigot which is also by JP Jeunet :)))