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listen-to-the-inner-walrus · 1 year ago

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@teapunks did your mum ever threaten to put mustard on your fingernails to stop you biting them? because by my count 6 different adults directly threatened me with that or mentioned it in a "in my day, they would do this so youre lucky i havent done that to you".

the direct threats came from my dad, my paternal nan and my maternal great aunt while the guilt-trip-that-always-felt-like-a-threat-to-me came from my paternal aunt, the other classes' year 4 teacher and an english teacher who wasnt even my english teacher, for anyone curious.

you could reblog for a bigger sample size or not who do i look like the freakin queen of england

#the threats never worked and i doubt doing it would work either #because like 1) im autistic so making me consume anything i dont like the taste ot texture of is soon going to be a nightmare for you two #i will throw up and probably all over you and i will go into sensory overload especially as a fucking child #and 2) me biting and picking my nails is related to my mental health. currently my mental health is pretty good all things considered #yes its a habit formed by being undiagnosed adhd autism in school and having no way to stim without getting into trouble #but i do it a lot more when my mental health is bad #and uh that 'trick' is a great way to give someone trust issues and an unhealthy relationship with food and their own body #also just fuck mr mark stirley #like i remember when he made the weird ''in my day teachers would be able to do this to you'' speech #BECAUSE #it came right after him telling me that ''no kai you dont get migraines. what you get is tension headaches'' after i struggled in DoE #because i got a migraine because both the sun and overexertion can trigger my migraines and wow they did #and that made me very uncomfortable because a c t u a l l y it was being investigated by gp at that time but i was a wildly depressed #undiagnosed autistic abused 14 year old who didnt think they could tell the teacher that because 1) that would be talking back 2) that would #be telling a teacher they were wrong and 3) i really didnt think hed believe me so why even bother trying to convince him otherwise #and like i went on to see a migraine specialist. i have taken propranolol every day for nearly ten years because i have migraines #but nope this random english teacher straight up decided he knew better and violated the fucking equality act #and i was that uncomfortable and on the verge of tears so i started biting my nails and oh now hes got a problem with that too?#...im venting in the tags about a teacher i havent seen for like seven years lmao #i just think the man is a bellend and that 14-year-old me deserved to give him a right lamping #when i got home from that practicr expedition i did cry it out while hugging my mom

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