#and katniss tries to use that as an opportunity to sell their love story and how she did because he matters
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sanjarka ¡ 1 year ago
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no but peeta was being a dick after the first games. yes it's understandable why he overreacted but it doesn't change the fact that he did overreact, and that it was him who created the distance between himself and katniss. which is exactly why he was the one to apologize (and another reason why the movies suck because his line if i stop acting like i'm wounded is changed into if you stop acting like i'm wounded).
#everlark#it's not that i think his reaction comes from cruelty or naivety#and at first you're confused#cause why is he even mad#he and haymitch started the whole bit#but then she saves him#that conversation before their first ''real'' kiss#when peeta says that katniss isn't doing him any favour by sacrificing her life for his#and katniss tries to use that as an opportunity to sell their love story and how she did because he matters#but then stops and fumbles because he does matter to her#because the love is real was always real#and what does peeta do?#he says (and this is so important) then i'll have to fill in the blanks myself#this is where he starts to see it as something more than performance#and then she almost dies for him#so he assumes she has feeling for him to#and he's not wrong#but katniss is confused and she has every right to be confused and it's not even that he thinks she doesn't#and then haymitch appears and makes everything worse and now peeta's doubting everything#now he's questioning everything to the point of being irational#was everything just a plan haymitch made and katniss knew how to follow#did she save him because she knew it would work or because she wanted too#and he knows it shouldn't matter and that he should be grateful but he's being selfish in this moment#and then he's also traumatized and scared and hurt and embarrassed#and nobody needs him right nobody needs him and nobody cares for him and nobody protects him - his family didn't his mother didn't#so why would katniss#he's worthless really and how didn't he see it coming he's supposed to be in control cool calm collected mild but he wasn't and that's scar#and now he sees that he's not being fair and it would really help if katniss was yelling at him and telling him how ungrateful he is but no#instead she's hurt and she's sad but now he's confused and maybe it's all just guilt but whatever it is it's already to late to fix it#so he leaves and vows to keep living as he always had - with a too comfortable of a distance from others cool calm collected mild
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zenkor123 ¡ 4 months ago
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What the fuck are you talking about?" Squad 451 after listening to Peeta mumble to himself pt ? WIP
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After Peeta finished all those monologs, Gale angry went right up to him and said: “where the fuck did you get the idea I was a prostitute from?” Peeta was startled and his face turned white. “Um, well it is speculation, she seemed like such a natural at seducing me, after Snow’s mandate and I vaguely remember you being popular with girls and going out with them despite you being with Katniss, that I think it is a possibility,” “You were hungry after your father died right?” “I was never a prostitute, you never raped me, and Gale wss never my lover! " Katniss says angerly.
“Snow met with Katniss and sold her, he had us sell our sex lives to the capital and sold her to the capitals beasts as well” ……
"Snow told me to sell the love story there was nothing about me being sold like Finnick!"
katniss is not lying, Peeta asseses but he knows they fucked sometime he wants to know. There is something weird about his sexual memories regarding Katniss. He sees an opportunity to ask about it .
"This theory Is a leap but I feel something more when I think of us fucking, that memory has likely been Jackered up to kingdom come" Peeta's face blushes with shame "I know whatever happened on the trains our parts did touch, I remember sexual attraction also, I'm sorry Katniss I just did an Arlo. I will never know the answer to this question." His face blushes the biggest pink I have ever seen. I also blush he remembers the night before the quell and assumes that he lost the other memories, the capital fed him pornography a false positive memory. "Did the capital show you footage of us....m" "Yes, I referenced some of it when I tried to get you removed, but some of the sex was consensual, or not becuase it was capital mandated, I hate that I enjoy it"
Peeta clearly wants me to fill the blanks he gives me the most intense stare, both exhibiting shame and interest. Then he remembers we are in public. "So how are you and Gale doing now that I'm out of the picture?, I don't mean this as an insult." Translation an attempt to back out of the conversation with the subtext anyway your with Gale now so it does not matter also did you fuck him?
"Me and Gale have only ever been friends really, I love him just not enough to have him in my bed. He's like a cousin, everyone expected me to marry him"
"Didn't you scream his name on the train?" He looks miserable as he says this.
"No I had nightmares and you comforted me, I asked you to stay with me you said always"
The easiest way would be to go in detail on my history with Gale, how to approach the subject of Gale?
Peeta: she is telling me this while Gale is here and is talking about such intimate matters in public there's no way she is lying.
Jackson: would you 2 like some privacy?
Peeta and Katniss: yes
WIP Is not awkward but the first question asked is "did we fuck and if so how"
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everlarkficexchange ¡ 7 years ago
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Kat-Eye
Written by: @567inpanem
Prompt 44: Katniss is hired as a writer for Hallmark cards ….. [submitted by @thegirlfromoverthepond]
AN: My thanks to @thegirlfromoverthepond for the excellent prompt I couldn’t resist which inspired me to try writing a story for the Everlark Fic Exchange!
My thanks to @javistg and @xerxia31 for the opportunity to participate in all the fun at Everlark Fic Exchange. 
Javistg, I never would have attempted a story without your encouragement. I am so grateful for your enthusiasm and the generous time you spent helping me improve. Thanks for being a great teacher and sharing your expertise. I learned so much and had so much fun, it was like a game finding all the things wrong with my storytelling and grammar and fixing them one-by-one. The biggest compliment I can pay you is to say that I think I want to write another story! Through the experience I certainly appreciate fanfic writers even more. Thanks so much. XXXOOO
Peeta’s pace picked up at the roar of uninhibited laughter. He found his co-workers around the conference table laugh-crying, some doubled over gasping for breath.
“What’d I miss?”
Wiping tears from his face, Finnick choked out something about “Katniss.”
Peeta grinned like he’d won the lottery. “What’d she do now?”
Across from them Jo slapped both palms down, drew an exaggerated breath, and gleefully began recounting the latest “Kat-Eye” (short for “Katniss Incident” which became a thing not long after the new girl began working at Hallmark and earned herself a reputation for social blunders).
“You know how Brainless inhales those cheese buns you bring in every Monday?”
Peeta’s blue eyes sparkled. Biting his lower lip, he gave a quick nod.
“Well,” Jo continued dramatically, “she couldn’t stop raving about how good they were–how she tasted some asiago or some other shit–how you’re so creative and have amazing hands…moaning through her very loud and very public oral orgasm…bragging about how she could eat every…last…one …”
Peeta barely breathed.
“…how she could out-eat every man at the table,” she emphasized with a wicked smile.
Peeta swallowed. “Yeah?”
Jo held her spread fingers near her mouth and swiped the tip of her tongue across her lips. “So, licking her hands clean, she blurts out: I could eat you all under the table!”
Peeta guffawed, “No! She didn’t!”
“She did!” cackled Jo. “And the entire place goes still. For seconds, nothing. Then we all lost our collective shit! That will never make me not laugh. Twenty years from now I can be at a funeral, think of that, and I’ll laugh.”
“Who all was there?” Peeta needed to know.
“Just the guys. The girls were all down at that monthly weigh-in diet thing they’re doing together. But the cafeteria was packed at that hour.” Jo chortled, “Who’d’ve thought Miss Pure would be clueless enough to confuse a brag with a blowjob!”
Just then Haymitch entered the room. “Alright, children, let’s get started. I’m expecting a call, so let’s see how much we can get through.”
In his wake, a scowling Katniss silently slipped in and, without meeting anyone’s eyes, took a seat beside Annie who gave her a gentle pat hello on the shoulder.
For two hours Haymitch worked his way down his agenda like he always did, efficiently and acerbically, before coming to Katniss. “Katniss, what’s going on with the budget Easter cards?”
Katniss hesitantly asked for more time.
“Show me what you’ve got so far,” he ordered.
“Can I show you in private later?” she requested softly.
“What? Hell no. Meeting with the new girls in private is how my predecessor Crane got fired, and I have 43 months left before I’ve earned my pension. Go.”
Katniss’s annoyance spiked as her co-workers, sensing an impending Kat-Eye, leaned forward. She cleared her throat and tried to ignore them.
“Well, most of the nearly completed pieces are religious in nature.”
Haymitch cut her off. “I specifically told you to focus on the non-religious.”
“But Easter is a religious holiday!” she snapped. “You can’t take Jesus out of Easter!”
Haymitch glared at her until Katniss reluctantly presented her first non-religious card.
“This first card is a springtime scene, meadow grass and dandelions. The text reads,
Happy Easter,
Happy Spring,
Happy Happy Everything.”
Giggling and shifting from around the room irked her.
“See here, I had it made into a pop-up card–,”
“It can’t be a pop-up card,” Haymitch interrupted, “it has to stay at the 99 cent price point.”
“I know but, for your consideration, I took the initiative to have it made into an optional pop-up to show you I can be trusted with something besides the budget cards! Look, the Easter bunny hops!” Katniss held out the card, opening and closing it repeatedly to show the bunny hopping.
Only, it wasn’t the Easter bunny, it was two bunnies. Chasing each other.
No, they were …
GASP!
They were fucking!
The room erupted, and Katniss dropped the card like it was on fire. Someone yelled, “Kat-Eye! Two in one day!”
“All right, all right, settle down, people. Katniss, tell me you have something else to show me. You’ve had this assignment for a month!”
Determined to regain her pride, Katniss continued with her presentation.  
The next card looked good: lots of hopping baby bunnies, greenery, attractive gold lettering.
Hoppy Easter
“Cute pun,” offered Annie.
Finnick leaned in for a closer look. “Wait, is that hops? Like, beer brewing hops?”
Katniss looked to where Finnick was pointing. “What? No. I didn’t…”
“Yeah! That’s what it looks like to me, too,” crowed Jo. “And the bunny ears are shaped like beer bottles!”
“Sweetheart, did you piss off the entire graphic arts department?” suggested Haymitch.
“No!”
“Well, you must have done something! They seem committed to embarrassing you.”
“They’ve got these stupid, unnatural, red-eyed rabbits in smelly cages everywhere that they’re using as models! For all my cards! Just mine!” Katniss boiled over in frustration. “I warned them if they gave me one more vampire-looking bloody red-eyed rabbit that I was going to return with my bow and–”
“OK,” Haymitch cut her off, “well, make nice and bring them a peace offering, like a bouquet of carrots. You got anything else?”
Katniss clenched her jaw and reached for the next card (You’re no bunny ‘til some bunny loves you) when she noticed that besides red eyes this bunny had tiny fangs. She inconspicuously moved that card to her growing pile of rejects.
“I wanna see that one later, Brainless!”
Katniss swallowed hard and grabbed for the next card, a die cut one featuring flowers with a bunny wearing a bee costume.
Bee My Honey Bunny
After an uncomfortable silence, Katniss unceremoniously dropped that one onto the stack of rejects. Fighting her inclination to leave, Katniss stoically announced, “I have one last non-religious card to share.”
Several people applauded.
Katniss scowled.
This last card was her shot at redemption. They had to love this one. And she had to sell it.
Wishes for an Egg-tastic Easter
Below the message, a cute yellow chick, newly hatched from her shell, smiled and winked. Several people murmured their approval.
“Cute chick!”
“Aw, so cute!”
“Nice job, Katniss, really cute.”
Hope loosen the tightness in her chest. Katniss plastered on a smile. “Graphics actually did a really good job here. I requested a cute chick.” Next, she revealed the inner greeting.
At the sudden boom of laughter, Katniss jumped in alarm. She couldn’t understand what had set them off. She turned to Haymitch who was staring at her with a mixture of amusement and suspicion.
“That for real, Sweetheart?” he asked over the noise. “Read it out loud.”
Katniss took a closer look. The words were innocent enough, and yet…
Blushing furiously, Katniss ran from the room. How had she not realized that the same people who twisted her innocent cheese bun praise would willfully misinterpret what she meant as a clever greeting:
From the cutest chick ever laid.
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javistgs-ficlibrary ¡ 7 years ago
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Unforgettable Fics
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Last year I posted my first Unforgettable Fics List (you can find it HERE). In that list, I included the stories that had left their mark on me as a fangirl, writer, and reader.
Those were the stories that pulled me into fan fiction, the first ones I read, the ones I think back on when I remember my earlier days in the fandom.
The fics in this year’s list are the ones that keep me here; the ones that inspire me, that prove that this fandom is still kicking, alive and well.  
Some of the fics you'll find here are very new, others are well-known classics I read (or re-read) this year.
Go ahead, take a look, you might find a new favorite among them.
Happy reading!
All the World Drops Dead by @andthisisthewonder
Peeta’s voice has been inside her head since she turned 14. She doesn’t know why they share a connection, and she doesn’t care. She likes having him with her. They comfort each other. Protect each other. Until he goes where she cannot follow. Until he enters the arena. (Based loosely on the film “In Your Eyes.”)
Peeta is reaped. Katniss stays behind in Twelve and follows his struggles on TV. Sounds a little bit like One Victor, doesn’t it? Well, that part of the premise might be similar, but the rest of the story is completely different. In this fantastic fic, Katniss and Peeta share an extraordinary gift that keeps them connected. Even though they’re miles apart, Katniss guides and comforts him. Spending her days glued to the TV screen, she stops him from eating poisonous berries and keeps him updated on his enemies' whereabouts. I’m really intrigued to see how this story is going to end.
Cadavres Exquis by @andthisisthewonder, @mtk4fun, @finnicko-loves-anniec, @xerxia31, @nancymay, @titaniasfics, @peetabreadgirl, @hutchhitched, @sandyeyes, @burkygirl, @geekymoviemom, @i-roaring-girl, @mega-aulover and @javistg 
After six years of radio silence came the call Katniss Everdeen had been dreading for years. Her mother, the last living member of her family, was dead.
Though it had been six years since Katniss had fled her hometown of Panem, she knew she had no choice but to come back and take care of her mother’s possessions, sell her house, get rid of the last vestiges of the life she once knew.
Organised by @loveinpanem. The principle behind this challenge was very simple. Each author was given a very tiny amount of world-building, (that summary you see above) and the last two sentences the previous writer created. From there, the sky was the limit. The resulting story was charming and funny, with unexpected twists and multiple visits to the bank while Everlark tried to solve a riddle they didn’t understand.
An awesome example of what it means to be a member of a creative community. I loved being a part of this!
Camp Mockingjay by @peetabreadgirl, @katnissdoesnotfollowback, @hutchhitched, @javistg, @appleblossomgirl0305, @titaniasfics, @xerxia31 and @burkygirl 
When Katniss agrees to spend the summer working with Gale at a summer camp, every choice brings her closer to an opportunity she thought she'd missed forever.
Another collaborative fic. This one was organized by @everlark-your-own-adventure. Following the principle behind the Choose Your Own Adventure books we read as children, readers were asked to choose between two options at the end of each chapter. Writers had to follow the story and adapt to the readers’ demands.
The resulting fic is as sweet as a summer adventure. Each chapter closely follows the storyline while showcasing its author’s personality and writing style. The last installment --an epilogue written by @burkygirl​ and @xerxia31-- is one of my personal favorites.
Cinders by @ghtlovesthg
Canon-Divergent AU. As rebellion starts sweeping through Panem like wildfire, Katniss quickly learns it will take all she has to keep her loved ones from getting scorched. Submission to PIP. Everlark. WIP
Katniss and Peeta find common ground when Gale and Delly are reaped. Defiant, stubborn, and too consumed by anger to think about the consequences, Gale challenges the Capitol.  In a shocking twist of events, his family pays the price. An intriguing fic, full of twists and turns that still has me at the edge of my seat.
Destiny by @xerxia31
“This would have happened anyway." Canon-divergent Everlark.
In the cave scene in THG Peeta implies that being reaped was the best thing that ever happened to him. Well, in the case of this fic, it is. The dread I felt while reading the introduction, quickly turned to excitement when I found the surprise @xerxia31​ had in store for us. A must read.
Dominion by @muttpeeta
Killing me would be a waste when you could leverage something much more useful out of me.“ Captain Peeta Mellark strikes a deal with his captor, the Empress Katniss Everdeen.
This intriguing one-shot shows Peeta as Katniss’s prisoner. I love the way their relationship evolves here, how they gradually learn to trust and care for each other despite their circumstances. 
Elaborate Lives by @booksrockmyface
Katniss had a normal life, two kids, a husband, and a great job. But it all turned upside down when she shook hands with Peeta and got the literal shock of her life. So how can they handle this delicate situation without destroying their lives in the process?
I’m a sucker for soulmate fics, and this is one of my favorites. Katniss and Peeta meet through their children, who are best friends. She’s married. He’s a widower. They want to be together, but they don’t want to hurt those they care about.
A lovely fic about friendship, love, and the inevitable pull of being with the one person who’s right for you.
Everything But Money by @mtk4fun
Katniss Everdeen learns how the other half lives, and finds love in this Everlark historical set in 1936 during The Great Depression.
@mtk4fun​ takes us through the toils and struggles of the Great Depression. In her fic, Katniss and Peeta face poverty, hunger, unemployment, and jealousy as they fight to find stability in a world that’s collapsing around them. Haymitch’s role as Katniss’s uncle is definitely worth reading!
First Love by @sothereff
Primrose Everdeen makes a friend in new neighbor Peeta Mellark and looks forward to spending her summer days with him at the creek. But when he finally meets her sister, Katniss, Prim finds she has some competition for Peeta’s time… and affections. Loosely based on the film The Man in the Moon.
 I love this version of Prim! She’s sweet and innocent at times, but she’s also as angry and hateful as only a teenage girl can be. And, while we don’t want to see her suffer, we all know this is a battle she just can’t win. 
Five kisses that should have been, and one that was by @muttpeeta
Katniss and Peeta keep meeting on New Year’s Eve. Unfortunately, it’s just never the right time.
Everything seems to conspire against Everlark in this fantastic one-shot. They date the wrong people, they wait, they drink, they cry. Somehow, they push through. A wonderful read with a very satisfying ending.
If I Have You by @everlarkeologist
Everlark, months after their divorce. Written for the F4LLS charity drive.
Katniss wants Peeta to be happy. Why is he in so much pain then? A beautiful story of sacrifice and love that shows us how the pressures we put on ourselves can drive us to hurt those we love.
Kindergarten by @heyyouao
Katniss and Peeta meet in kindergarten and develop a relationship that will last a life time. Modern day AU. Rated for teens initially, although the rating will change as the story develops. This work contains depictions of child abuse which may be difficult for some to read.
This incredibly cute story follows Katniss and Peeta as they grow up as best friends. I especially like Peeta’s connection with the rest of the Everdeen clan --who immediately adopts him as one of their own.
Love Letters by maddmaddworld
You are my best friend in the whole world, and I promise you that you will never feel this much pain ever again. You are my heart, and I intend to keep it safe.
Love, Katniss
Sometimes it’s easier to write what we feel than to say it out loud. I love Katniss’s  reaction to Peeta’s letters in this fic, and what he says is as beautiful as what he writes. 
The Murder Game by @deinde-prandium
College AU fluff. 
This fic is a lot of fun. Katniss and Peeta survive a Murder Game by hiding in his room. With great parallels to canon and the cave scenes, this story seamlessly blends the world of Panem with a modern day AU.
Museum Marriage Proposal by @badnovels​
This is such a Peeta thing to do.
A sweet drabble that makes me smile every time I read it.
The Percentage of Us by @badnovels
Katniss finally believes Peeta when he says he wants her to stay.
How can something so wrong feel so right? A fic that leaves you reeling; dazed as you try to remind yourself that this particular version of Everlark shouldn’t be together, and still.. how can they be apart?
The Playdate by @awhiskeyriver
When Peeta’s son is having trouble in school, he thinks the last thing they need is to plan a get together with the source of the problem.
Daddy!Peeta faces off against Mommy!Katniss in front of Principal Abernathy as they each try to protect their respective children. Just that scene is well worth a read! But, of course, there’s more. There’s friendship, and love, and loss; the frustration of divorce, and the loneliness that comes with being a single parent. And then, there’s also some smut.
Procreate by Loudmouth Lamb
In a version of Panem where young men and women are bred in an annual ceremony to produce the next generation of manual laborers, Gale and Madge try to make the best out of the worst. AU (no Hunger Games). Mild Everlark.
I haven’t read a lot of Gadge fics, but this one is one of my favourites. Inspired by A Handmaid’s Tale, Madge and Gale are chosen to provide a child for Panem.  I love the balance between the two characters’ voices. Madge’s quiet dignity and strength shine though this story as she stares an angry Gale down.
Ruse by @purple-cube
“I should have volunteered to take your place in the first Games,” Gale tells him. “Protected her then.”
“You couldn’t,” says Peeta. “She’d never have forgiven you.”
Friendship and loyalty are tested in this beautiful canon-divergent fic in which Gale and Katniss are crowned as co-victors of the 74th Hunger Games. Forced into marriage, the best friends help each other find love and happiness. 
Silver Thaw by @eala-musings
Set during the Dark Days rebellion. A Capitol hunting guide and Panem Games Biathlon champion is enlisted to hunt down and capture a mysterious rebel troublemaker in the snowy mountains of District 13.
Once again, Peeta finds himself acting as a pawn for the Capitol. As the story unfolds, he realises things are not what they seem. Gradually, Katniss’s strength and resolve draw him in, and they become allies and much more. With perfect pacing, beautiful descriptions, and believable interactions between the characters it’s no wonder I consider this an unforgettable fic. 
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everlarkbirthdaygifts ¡ 7 years ago
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Happy Birthday infinitegraces!
We apologise @infinitegraces for the delay with your gift! We hope you had a wonderful birthday on the 9th of August. To help celebrate your birthday the lovely @pagedancer87 has written you an Everlark story just for you! We hope you like it :)
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Title: Selfish
For user: infinitegraces
Prompt: Everlark without the Games AU—Games can never have existed or still exist, I’m just a sucker for “It would have happened anyway” fics
Summary: “It’s really okay for there to be times when you stop putting everyone else first, and just do what’s best for you.”
Rating: K+
A/N: All errors are belonging to me. Happy Birthday!
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As a rule, Katniss Everdeen didn’t allow herself many things.
The first and last time she had asked for something, was the one thing she had ever regretted: to selfishly have her father with her on her birthday. It was a request shyly made, and gently denied, but he had wanted to surprise her. It had him going to work on a day he normally had off, which ended up being the day that he died. At eleven, watching her mother spiral into grief driven madness and her younger sister nearly starve to death, she blamed herself. From then on she vowed to put her family first.
It became the way she lived. Everything she did and every choice she made was for the benefit of her younger sister. Not only did it make her happy, it was also very easy.
 Once in awhile, something came up that made her choices not so black and white.
 The Careers Exchange Program, for example.
 Their assigned counselors, Haymitch Abernathy and Effie Trinket were to go through the entire district and pick two people (a boy and a girl) between the ages of 12-18 to travel to a different district and learn a trade. They came every year, and every Tribute that went inevitably found their way to prosperity and only returned to District 12 to collect their family. No Tribute had ever chosen to come to 12. To her surprise, this year they chose her.
 Her initial response was to refuse, which she did as firmly and rudely as she could.
 “But…don’t you want a better life for yourself, dear?” Effie asked, understandably shocked as no one had refused before. “Every district has something wonderful to offer. Why, the Capitol will have opportunities you’d never —“
“Thanks, but no thanks,” she interrupted standing up, “I’ll just head back to class now.”
 “Sit down.” Haymitch said, speaking for the first time since she arrived.
 She immediately stiffened at the command she heard. “You can go f—”
 “Language!” Effie chided. “Perhaps we were mistaken in our assessment.”
 “Aw hell, Effie. We both heard about that attitude.”
 “Be that as it may, if she hasn’t the sense to even see what a dream come true this is—”
 “Look, why don’t you go find yourself an overly complicated caffeinated beverage, leave sweetheart over there to me.”
 With one last glance at her and a baffled shake of her head, she left them.
 “You’ll have to excuse her. She’s Capitol stock, born and bred. To someone like her, staying in a place like 12 when you have a chance to leave is something she’ll never really understand. She still doesn’t get why I keep coming back.”
 She studied him for a moment, “Just because you lived here once, doesn’t mean you know anything about me or my life, Mr. Abernathy.”
 “Maybe, but I did my homework before we approached you. Whenever anyone comes to you, begs you for food, you give it to them. When you can’t have much to begin with. Why?”
 She shrugged, “Because I know what it’s like to be starving to death and have someone do something about it at the cost of a beating.”
 “So, you’re not refusing our offer because of pride. Why then? Surely you know that the skills you’d learn and the trade you’d pick up would mean at least financial stability for you and your family. So why?”
She thought about her reasons for staying. Her sister needed her. Without her many people at the Seam would go hungry. Then there was him. But really, none of those were why she didn’t want to go.
 “I already have skills and a trade. We are far from being financially stable, but we get by.”
 For awhile, though things weren’t exactly alright (she doubted they’d ever be alright again) they were stable. District 12 provided the coal that not only powered the trains that brought trade between the districts but also heated the homes and businesses all over Panem, as such the government provided a monthly stipend to the families of the miners who died in the same accident that took her father. Every month their stipend was just barely enough to get by (even before they added mother’s medicine and the shots for Prim’s damn cat). So, she began hunting again. With her father’s bow, she ventured into the forest to hunt, often skipping school to do so. When Gale Hawthorne joined her, trading tips and skills, together they made sure that their families never went hungry.  
In addition to game she also began to scavenge for roots, berries and herbs. Her mother used the plants and herbs in her apothecary, her sister made jam from the berries as well as selling milk from her goat, while she sold the meats, furs and such to either traveling tradesmen or to merchants. It was a bartering system that had served her well.
 Haymitch sat back in his chair. “Boy, you really aren’t what I expected. Well, someone’s got to go, sweetheart and Effie’s liable to pick some girl off the slag heap.”
 So, she did one of the hardest things she’d ever done.
 “Me?” Prim was shocked. At just 12, she had little hope of being chosen for the Careers Program.
 “Katniss tells us you have a gift for healing, dear.” Effie spoke to her kindly. “I know just the school for you. You’ll be a doctor before long, I’m sure.”
 So, they packed her up and sent her off with promises to write and to visit. As part of the program, not only were her expenses taken care of, but she’d begin working while she studied. Though it hurt her heart to send her off, she knew that this would be giving Prim her best chance.
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Not long after, she found herself staring down the barrel and another life-changing moment.
 Gale Hawthorne. Her hunting partner, and her dearest friend. He was chosen for the Careers Program, and was moving to District 5.
 “Come with me, Catnip.”
 She rolled her eyes at the nickname. “They already picked Madge Undersee, Gale.”
 “Family can go, too.”
 She looked him, confused. “But we’re not related.”
 He hesitated, before taking both her hands in his. “We would be if we got married. Marry me, Katniss.”
 She’d heard the gossip. People had paired them together since they were kids. With all that they had in common and with how much time they spent together, everyone assumed it was just a matter of time. If she still had Prim, she might’ve considered it. Marrying Gale and moving to District 5, would’ve meant that neither of them would need to worry about not having enough for the mouths they had to feed.
And she loved him. Of course, she loved him. But not that way. He was her brother. She just couldn’t. Even if it meant she lost him. Even if it meant she lived the rest of her life alone. She couldn’t marry him.
 He mistook her silence for shyness, and was bending his head to kiss her. Her first kiss. No. Not you. A panicked voice in her head whispered. Unthinking, she raised her arms and pushed him back. Losing his balance, he fell into the fence behind him, which broke under his weight.
 “Gale! Oh, I’m so sorry!”
 When he sat up, instead of being angry as she expected, he just looked at her and smiled sadly. “No, don’t be sorry, Katniss. I know how you feel. I’ve always known. But I had to try.”
 Her eyes began to sting with tears. “I don’t want to lose you, Gale.”
 He laughed softly. “Oh, Catnip. You’ll never lose me.” He pressed a kiss to her forehead. When he bent his head again, it was to whisper in her ear. “You know, it’s really okay for there to be times when you stop putting everyone else first, and just do what’s best for you. Tell him how you feel, I promise you won’t regret it.”
 She blinked when he stepped away. How did he know?
 He just smiled. “I’ve seen the way you look at him, when you think no one’s looking.”
 Life slowly went on, and slowly got better. She saved enough to open a shop in the merchant side of town, coincidentally right across from a certain bakery.
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 This time I’ll talk to her. Today for sure. Peeta looked out the window to the shop across the street. The Hob. Katniss had set up shop the month before, and still made the walk between town and her house at the Seam. They either sold goods or traded. He watched her come in every morning, as she often opened up her shop as he was getting the bread made, and as she left for home at night.
Every day was an opportunity. Every day he tried to build up the courage. At the end of the day he promised himself that the next day would be when he finally did it.
Peeta, by nature, was a giver. It may have begun in part to avoid the attention of a cruel mother, but even when she passed, he still didn’t ask for anything. Instead, he tried to go above and beyond for both his customers and his family.
 There was only ever one thing he truly wanted. One quiet wish he clutched tightly to his heart.
 Katniss Everdeen.
 All his life he was drawn to her. He held his breath when he heard she was picked for the Careers Program, and again when he heard Gale Hawthorne intended to marry her. Was ashamed at the relief he felt when she stayed and turned him down. He felt he was slowly running out of chances, and if he didn’t act soon someone else would.
 “Oh, look. The mooney-eyed prince returns.”
 He was pulled out of his thought by the teasing comment. “You’re in early today, Delly.”
 Delly, had been his dearest friend since before either of them could walk. She was also his sister since she married his older brother. The former gave her a front seat at his infatuation with Katniss, and the latter gave her the influence to push him. Which she tried to do regularly.
 “But of course. I couldn’t miss today’s Everlark episode.”
 He raised a brow. “Everlark?”
 Her blonde hair bounced as she nodded. “That what we call you two. Rye and I have a bet going on how long before you two get together. My money’s on sometime before Christmas.”
 He shook his head. “Pretty sure she doesn’t even know I exist. Why would she?” Though, sometimes he thought he felt her eyes on him, she was never looking his way when he glanced up.
 “Of all the places she could have set up shop, she chose the on across the street. Don’t you think that means something?”
 He tried not to get his hopes up like that. He shrugged. “It’s a good location, that’s all.”
“So you’re saying if Hawthorne came back and made another pitch, you’ll just let it happen?”
 He winced, still remembering the scene he had haplessly witnessed, of the two of them about to kiss. He’d turned away rather than have that in his memory banks. “I have way too much to do. Between keeping up with the bakery, and making sure Dad’s being taken care of—”
 He started at the hand on his shoulder. “You know, it’s really okay for there to be times when you stop putting everyone else first, and just do what’s best for you.”
 He smiled at her. It wasn’t the first time she’s said that to him, “I’ll keep that in mind.”
 He spent the rest of the day going back and forth between the kitchen and helping Delly at the front counter. During the busier seasons, he usually had a few more hands, but most days they got by with just the two of them.
Inevitably, he’d catch himself looking across the street, hoping to catch a glimpse of Katniss. Between the myriad of expressions he’d seen play across her face and the rich tones of her skin, she was a feast for his artistic eye. He hoped to paint her one day, but all the colors in the world would hardly do her beauty justice. Besides, if he couldn’t even drum up the nerve to talk to her…
 It was near closing when he noticed her on a ladder grappling with large wooden sign. Every store on the street had a place above their door for a sign to hang to be easily seen from afar, and it looked like she had finally gotten one made.
 He could tell right away, however, that the sign was probably much heavier than she anticipated and the chain for the sign much higher. She was on the top rung when he saw the ladder start to lean backwards. She was going to fall!
He was out the door faster than he could blink, miraculously catching her just as she slipped off the ladder.
He found he breath knocked from his chest, both from her slight weight and fright of what might’ve happened.
“A-Are you alright, Katniss?”  He asked over the thundering of his heart.
“I-I think so.” Shocked grey eyes met his, and for a moment they just stood like that. She was just as warm and soft as he thought. His felt his face heat at the direction his thoughts went.
Clearing his throat, he set her down. “I have a sturdier ladder in the back you can use.”
He brought it out to her, and held it steady as she climbed it.
 “Looks good.” He commented, as they both stood back surveyed the newly hung sign
 She nodded, standing closely next to him. “Thank you, Peeta…and thank you for saving me.”
 He smiled, “You’re welcome.”
 It was the beginning of what would be the most selfish thing either of them had ever done: falling in love.
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Mockingjay Inn
Written by: @burkygirl
Prompt 25: Katniss and Peeta are both frequent pop-in guests at an out-of-the-way B&B. One weekend, it is surprisingly booked up and the manager asks if they can share a suite in an effort to be less of an inconvenience for such loyal customers and since they sort of know each other. (Submitted by @roseymama )
Rated E, Trigger warnings for smut, a few curse words and mentions of a dying family member.
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The silver Civic slipped up the paved drive that sloped through the woods before bursting into the clearing where a white, two-storey colonial waited serenely, like a queen holding court.
The driveway twisted around a shade garden tucked into a copse of trees and Katniss veered into the parking area, pushing the grief that threatened to overwhelm her away long enough to shift the car into neutral, set the parking brake and turn the key. Closing her eyes, she let her head fall against the headrest and drew in a breath. Her belly filled with air and then she expelled it slowly, imagining the stresses of her day floating away. She did it again.  And again, drawing the negative energy along her limbs and visualizing it drifting away on the breath. Some days it helped.
Today was not one of those days, not after the news Prim had delivered this afternoon.
Her eyelids fluttered open and the square corners of the heritage home came back into view; its perfect symmetry, its black shutters and red front door bidding her welcome. The sheltering walls of the Mockingjay Inn had become a second home to her these last months. She loved this old house, tucked away in the woods, invisible from the main road and advertised only by word of mouth. Her old school friend, Madge, had painstakingly renovated it after inheriting it from her grandmother a few years ago. It was a labour of love for Madge, who seemed to have planted her spring flowers since Katniss was here last week. She spotted the happy faces of pansies peeking out from around the hostas that lined the beds next to the house and red and white petunias spilled from the urns on the front steps.
When she stepped from the car, the heady rush of the crisp breeze set her heart racing and teased at the hem of her skirt. A fresh gust whipped the wayward wisps of raven hair that always escaped the confines of her braid. She breathed deeply again, filling her body with the brisk, clean air and whisking away the stench of slow decay and antiseptic attempting to permeate her bones. This time, her exhale carried a piece of her burden away.
Her sorrow eased, however briefly, Katniss popped open the trunk of her car and grabbed her black overnight bag. She’d go inside, get checked in, and then curl up in front of the Inn’s fireplace with a glass of wine. If she was lucky, Peeta would be there already and they could chat. It was a real stroke of luck that his business seemed to bring him to Panem, New York every week since she’d first met him here at the Inn. There were few things she enjoyed more than sitting beside Peeta as he sketched whatever came to mind and they talked about the days that had passed since they last saw each other. She loved putting aside the drama of her own life to listen to stories about the eccentric customers who frequented his gallery.
Her feet all but flew up the steps and she breezed through the door only to find Madge and Peeta engaged in a serious conversation near the antique dresser that Madge had placed in the foyer and from which she liked to conduct her business.
Peeta’s hand was fisted in the golden curls at the back of his head. He pulled his hair and then released it to scratch at the back of his neck. In the dresser’s mirror, Katniss could see that his face was twisted in consternation while Madge tried, a little desperately, to convince him of something.
Madge’s offered Katniss a bright smile as the door closed behind her. “Hello, Katniss. Welcome back!”
Peeta nodded in her direction, the expression in his usually bright blue eyes still troubled. “Katniss.”
“What’s going on?” Katniss dropped her bag on the Oriental rug arranged under the chandelier in the middle of the room.
Peeta grimaced and dropped his hand to the granite top of the dresser. “You’re going to love this one, Katniss.”
Madge shushed him. “Katniss, the Inn has just been given a remarkable opportunity. A team from a Capitol TV travel show is coming to do a story on the area and they want to feature the Mockingjay Inn as Panem’s best kept secret.”
Katniss’s chest surged with pride for her friend. “Well, it is,” she said firmly. “That’s wonderful, Madge! Such great exposure for you!”
Madge beamed, her blue eyes sparkling with excitement. “It is. I’m so thrilled. I just knew you’d understand.”
Peeta scoffed. “No, she doesn’t Madge. You haven’t told her when they’re arriving.”
A leery tingle of suspicion crept up Katniss’s spine. “When, Madge?”
“Tonight,” her friend enthused. “So, if you and Peeta would just agree, then everything will be just perfect.”
“Madge…” Peeta warned.
Madge caught her perfect pink bottom lip between her teeth. “Well, you see, Katniss,” she cleared her throat. “They will be staying tonight, to get the full experience. They require four rooms, and the Inn has-”
“Five,” Peeta interrupted impatiently. “The Inn has five rooms. Madge wants us to share a room.”
“No,” Madge corrected hastily. “The Inn has six bedrooms. The master suite has two bedrooms. It’s usually booked by families, but you and Peeta are such good friends, Katniss, that I’m sure it would work. I’ll cut your rate in half for tonight, if you’ll agree.”
Katniss had to admit that a cut on her room was rather appealing. Travelling up to Panem from the city each weekend was costing her a fortune. She could stay elsewhere, but the lonely, cookie-cutter rooms of the hotels in the downtown held no appeal at all. She could stay at her sister Prim’s house but that felt like a prison sentence, especially after Prim’s revelation today. The quiet of the Inn and her time with Peeta have been her oasis in the middle of this ordeal. She wasn’t sure she would get through the night if she wasn’t able to put her troubles aside for a little while and enjoy his company. Plus, she knew she would be safe with him in the suite.
“Okay,” she decided. “I’ll allow it.”
She almost laughed at their reactions. Madge’s face was the picture of relief. Peeta’s was filled with shock.
“Really?” they said in unison.
She shrugged. “Who am I to turn down a cheap night in a four-star bed and breakfast?”
“Peeta?” asked Madge. Katniss watched him clear his throat and nod.
“If Katniss is comfortable with it, then I’ll be fine,” he softly replied.
Madge was still clapping her hands in glee when Katniss turned to pick up her suitcase and started for the mahogany staircase. “Alright Madge, show us tonight’s accommodations.”
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The room was not what she expected.
As they’d travelled up the broad steps in the heart of the house, Madge had nattered on about her  master suite, then she’d opened the door to the room and whisked off to prepare the other rooms for her Capitol TV guests.
A queen-sized four-poster bed dressed in a russet orange duvet graced the main room of the suite and was heaped with a mound of plush and inviting pillows. In the corner, a couple of rich leather armchairs with embroidered footstools flanked a gas fireplace. Two doors stood firmly closed on each side of the bed. Behind one door was a tiny private bathroom with a marble stand up shower. Behind the other was tucked a double bed and a small nightstand. Madge had obviously renovated a walk-in closet and a dressing room to construct the suite. It was perfect for a family with young children.
Not so perfect for a couple of friends, Katniss thought, and scowled. “We’ve been bamboozled.”
Beside her, Peeta huffed in frustration. “I’m not sure how to be the gentleman here,” he frowned. “If I take the smaller bed, I compromise your privacy. If I take the bigger bed, I’ve consigned you to the smaller room.” He scrubbed his hand over his face. “We could get rooms in town?”
She turned to observe Peeta watching her warily. His light blue button-down was hanging over a pair of well-worn jeans, its sleeves rolled halfway up his forearms. His leather overnight bag still hung from his shoulder. Was he expecting her to have a fit over their accommodations? Not likely. It was still better than her alternatives. At least he wasn’t suggesting they split up. She was a little afraid to be alone with her thoughts. They’d pull her under and she’d never find her way out. Dropping her bag on the butler’s bench poised at the foot of the bed, Katniss shook her head. “We’re here now. We’ll just have to make the best of it. We can flip a coin for the bed later.” She lowered herself to the bench. “How was your week?”
The corner of his mouth twitched and he closed the space between them, dropping his bag on the hardwood floor as he perched on the edge of the bed. “Not bad. Ms. Trinket finally bought that piece she’s been eying.”
“That was the modern one with all the bright colours, right?”
Peeta nodded. Effie Trinket, a retired Broadway actress who Katniss figured had more money than brains, was one of Peeta’s customers. “That’s the one. Then I sold her a sculpture of a man made out of recycled cans. His legs once held creamed corn, I swear.”
Katniss couldn’t help it, she laughed. “She lurves you, Peeta. She’d take anything you’re selling. You’ll be husband number 6, I just know it. “
Peeta shuddered. “I’m pretty sure she made more money collecting on divorce settlements than she ever made on the stage. Her latest husband, Mitch, I think his name is, answered the door when I made the delivery this week. He was as drunk as a skunk.”
Katniss’s eyes rounded. “You’re doing the deliveries now?”
“Only if the client pays for a professional installation. Which Effie always does.”
She shook her head in resignation. “Effie, huh? Well, you’ll have to be sure to give me her address before you leave. If you don’t show up here next Saturday, I’ll send the police to check her basement. She’ll have you tied to a post, trying to make you her love slave.”
Peeta gagged and threw himself back against the bed, clapping his hand over his face “You’re going to give me nightmares.”
Katniss was still laughing when he raised his hand and turned his head to look at her; his face so close to hers that she could count each one of his long, golden eyelashes.
“Don’t worry, Katniss. I’ll be here next week. Wild horses couldn’t keep me away,“ he whispered, brushing her cheek with the pad of his thumb.
Katniss wondered if they’d ever been this close before. She’d never noticed the flecks of grey in the blue pools of his eyes or the tiny freckles that sprayed across his nose. His lips were smooth and softly parted.
A swift rap on the door interrupted her train of thought. “I opened you guys a bottle of merlot in the drawing room,” Madge called out from the other side before carrying on down the hall.
Peeta’s hands slapped against his knees as he sat up. “A drink before dinner sounds great.” He stood, and offered his hand to Katniss. “Shall we?”
She took it and Peeta’s long fingers wrapped securely around hers as she followed him to the door. She missed their steadiness when he let go to allow her passage over the threshold ahead of him, but then they ghosted along the small of her back as he guided her through. The warmth of his touch lingered all the way down the stairs and into the drawing room.
After Peeta poured them each a glass of wine, they settled into their usual spots on the couch in front of the fireplace and Peeta began a story about his client, Mr. Craine, his strange beard and his taste for phallic imagery in modern art.
“Honestly, Katniss, I showed him a cubist portrait the other day. I told him the subject’s nose, which was located where the ear should be, appeared to have been subtly but deliberately widened at the base, and he bought it on the spot.”
Katniss looked pensive. “I wonder if you could sell him a still life bowl of fruit.”
“If it’s got bananas in it, consider it sold.”
They were still snickering when they heard the entrance door burst open and the house was filled with chatter.
“Lovely, just lovely,” boomed a pompous voice. “It’s so perfectly quaint and cozy. What do you want to bet her grandmother’s needlepoint hangs over the fireplace?”
A high-pitched female voice tittered and Katniss peered up at the mantle. She thought the intricate needlepoint was probably done by Madge’s great grandmother, but wasn’t sure what was so hilarious about valuing where you came from.
Another female voice, this one lower and more soothing murmured to the group.
“I don’t know, Cressida. Is there a bell on that old dresser, there?” the male voice replied. “Ring it, why don’t you?”
“No need, no need.” They could hear Madge bustle in and begin tending to their varying needs. Yes, the heat had been turned down in Mr. Heavensbee’s room. There were no feathers on Ms. Cardew’s bed. Yes, the rooms were large enough to store the equipment. Yes, Madge could provide a vegetarian meal for dinner. No, vegan was not an option. Yes, the list of Cressida’s food allergies had arrived by email. Yes, she had free wifi. Yes, there were private bathrooms in each guest suite. No her towels were cotton, not bamboo.
Peeta rolled his eyes and Katniss laughed again.
“You’re sure you don’t want to stay downtown?”
She imagined herself dissolving into tears in a sterile hotel room. “I’m positive.” Peeta smiled at her and raised his glass to sip his wine. “There’s no way we could drink wine and talk about penis paintings in a hotel lobby.”
Peeta was still choking when the rotund body that belonged to the booming voice in the entryway appeared in the doorway to the room.
“Brilliant! Other guests.” His beefy hands collided in a swift clap and then he rubbed them together. “Plutarch Heavensbee. I’m the producer of Byways and Getaways for Capitol TV. We’re doing a segment on the town and the inn. But, don’t you worry. Your visit will not be disturbed.”
Peeta, now recovered, offered him an easy smile and stood, offering his hand. “Peeta Mellark, “ he said and gestured to Katniss. “My friend, Katniss Everdeen.”
“A pleasure to meet you, “ Plutarch enthused. Katniss wished she could say the same. He had invaded her favourite space and now he was interrupting her Peeta time. “What brings you to the inn?”
“Just up for the weekend, “ he replied, and Katniss thought it odd that he didn’t mention he had business in the area.
“Exactly the demographic we are trying to reach with our show. I knew we were right about this place. Where do you hail from?”
“I’m the curator of PMG in the city. Katniss lives there too. She’s an environmental engineer.“
Katniss reached out her hand to shake Plutarch’s and it felt like she’d wrapped her fingers around a dead fish. Her father used to say that a man’s handshake told you all you needed to know about him. “It’s a pleasure, Katniss. Well, what do you think? Isn’t this the perfect spot for a romantic getaway?”
“I suppose,” Katniss conceded, though she found it hard to imagine staying here without tragedy looming over her head. “I’m from Panem, actually, so I’m just here to see my family.”
“No reason why the two of you can’t mix family obligations with a little romance, especially in a setting like this one,” said Plutarch with a laugh before turning to Peeta.
As Plutarch and Peeta continued with their social niceties – it turned out Plutarch had heard of Peeta’s gallery and knew Effie – Katniss pondered why her path had never crossed Peeta’s until they had met here. They both lived in the same city. They were about the same age. But it was a huge city, and she wasn’t much for the nightlife, so maybe it wasn’t such a surprise after all. But even now that they’d met, they didn’t see each other between visits to the Inn.l They exchanged the odd text, but they never met for lunch or grabbed a quick drink after work. She’d never questioned it before, but now she wondered why that was, and whether that would change if she were no longer coming to the Inn each weekend. What if it didn’t? Would another female guest take her place? The idea clawed at her.
“Dinner is served,” called Madge from the doorway.
As they passed under the chandelier in the foyer to the dining room across the hall, Peeta tucked Katniss’s hand under his arm. She was surprised to discover his bicep was rock hard beneath the soft cotton of his shirt. She chanced a glance up at him and found his eyes full of concern.
“Did I do something wrong?”
“No, of course not.”
The thumb of his free hand stroked over her knuckles. “I wasn’t sure. You seemed so distant in the other room.”
“It’s not you, Peeta. I’ve just… Got a lot on my mind.” He nodded in understanding, but did not release her hand. That was fine with Katniss. His gentle strength was exactly what she needed.
In the dining room, the lights had been dimmed and the large table where they usually supped with Madge was already filled with the television crew. Katniss spotted Plutarch settling in beside a dark-haired woman whose face powder gave the apples of her cheeks a silver glow. Across the table from him was a man with a red-tinged beard and another willowy woman whose hair was shaved on one side of her head.
Madge pointed them to a table for two she’d set up near the windows. “I thought you two might enjoy some privacy.” Peeta gave her a grateful smile and he led the way to the more intimate setting, where the flickering of the candle was reflected in the glasses between their places and glimmered in the polished silver that lay on the tablecloth. When Katniss reached her chair, Peeta quickly pulled it out for her and slid her into place. Madge arrived tableside and poured another rich red, wine into fresh glasses.
“This meal has to be perfect,” she whispered to them, her back to the camera crew.
“It will be, Madge,” Katniss soothed. “All your meals are perfect. They’ll love it.”
“Let’s hope so,” her friend sighed, and outlined the evening’s dining choices: a braised lamb shank in a red wine sauce and served with rosemary garlic mashed potatoes or eggplant parmesan with arugula salad.
Peeta grinned at Katniss. “I know what you’re going to choose.”
“The lamb,” they said in unison.
“For you as well, Peeta?” Madge asked. He nodded and their hostess pasted a smile on her lips. “Okay then, wish me luck.” She turned back to the crowd at the table to take their orders.
“I guess you know what a carnivore I am by now,” Katniss teased after Madge left.
“You told me a few months ago that lamb is your favourite.”
“I did?”
“Sure, one night Madge served a gorgeous Beef Wellington and you said that you enjoyed it but that lamb was your favourite.”
Katniss remembered that night – the flakey crust wrapped over the succulent steak, the rich aroma of the wine. Madge had dimmed the chandelier over the dining room table and they’d talked for hours. Peeta had told them all about the hours he’d spent on a beach in the south of Spain, painting the sunset over the Mediterranean Sea, frantically mixing his paints to achieve exactly the right shade of orange. His eyes were as blue as the water that night and Katniss has never looked a a sunset the same way since.
“I can’t believe you retained a little detail like that,” she said.
Madge arrived with their meals and the savoury aroma curled tantalizingly toward her.
Peeta tugged his napkin from under his cutlery and laid it in his lap. “I remember everything about you, Katniss.” He cleared his throat and looked back up at her. “So, how were things today?”
She fiddled with the stem of her wine goblet before lifting it to take a healthy swallow. “Rough, as usual.” Rougher than usual, really, but she’d promised herself she wouldn’t think about that yet. “Dad just lies there, fading to nothing. Prim takes Mom with her every day when she goes to work at the hospital. She drops Mom off in his room, works a 12-hour shift, then picks her up in his room when it’s time to go home. Mom doesn’t leave his side, except to go to the bathroom.”
“She’s certainly devoted.”
“She is, but it’s more than that, Peeta. It’s like she can’t function without him. Dad’s car accident was four months ago, and she’s barely said a word since it happened. When she’s not at the hospital, she’s sleeping.”
Katniss adored her father and she’d missed him every day since he’d lost control of his truck on that icy road last winter. But it was her mother’s desertion that hurt the most. Her father might have been alone in his vehicle, but she and her sister had lost both of their parents that night.
And since Katniss lived and worked in Capitol City, poor Prim was bearing the day-to-day stress of caring for both of their parents. It was Prim who’d called Katniss to say the doctors had decided their mother lacked the competency to make decisions about their father’s care. Prim had closed up their parent’s house and moved Mom into her place. Prim made sure Mom got out of bed, ate, washed herself and went back to bed. Prim dealt with the myriad of decisions that had to be made for both of their parents every day. All Katniss had to do was show up on Saturday morning, take their mother to the hospital and spend the day watching their father waste away while a respirator and a feeding tube kept his body alive and her mother desperately clung to the hope he’d wake up. When the sun began to set, she kissed her father’s cheek, took Mom back to Prim’s house and put her to bed.   
Every second of every minute that she sat in that ass-numbing visitor’s chair beside her father’s bed, Katniss wished she could be somewhere - anywhere - else; to run to her car, drive back to the city and never return. Only the bone-crushing guilt that her baby sister was dealing with this fiasco on her own had her packing her car every Saturday morning for the 60-mile drive north to Panem.
Well, that, and the man sitting on the other side of the table, whose smile lit up every room in her heart. He smiled at her sympathetically.
“I’d like to say I understand what you’re going through, Katniss, but my father’s death was so sudden, it can’t compare. Just know that I haven’t forgotten what that felt like. I understand what it means to lose someone so important to you.” His hand covered hers, and then his thumb stroked over her knuckles. “I’m here for you, Katniss, whatever you need. I hope you know that.”
His kindness made her want to laugh and cry at the same time. What did she ever do to deserve a friend like him? “Thank you, I-”
“Look at that!” Plutarch’s voice boomed from the other table. “Pollux go get your camera. Do you see it Cressida? They’re perfect!”
Katniss turned her head towards the other table where Plutarch was grinning like someone who’d found the prize at the bottom of the cereal box. The woman across from him was considering them carefully, the long, platinum locks on the unshaved part of her head falling over her left shoulder. Finally, she nodded. “Yes, you’re right. They’re perfect. And the setting is just right.”
“Well, you two. How about it?” Plutarch rose from the table and loomed over them. “Want to be on our show?”
Peeta was the first to recover. “We’re not-, I mean…”
“Professional actors. I know,” Plutarch said. “That’s what makes you so right for this. Your chemistry is palpable. It was slapping me in the face, even all the way over there.”
It was? Her attempts to process that revelation were interrupted by the thumps and rattles of the cameraman, Pollux, who came back into the room, a television camera hoisted on his shoulder.
She was already working up an impressive no speech when Cressida spoke up. “You don’t have to of course,” she demurred from the other table, “But don’t you want to help your friend? Footage of an actual couple enjoying the inn is so much more effective than shots of charming but empty rooms.”
One look at Madge’s pleading face and Katniss’s protests crumbled. Three minutes on camera wasn’t going to kill her. When she peeked over at Peeta, he was wavering too. But she knew he wouldn’t agree, not without her.
“Alright, fine,” she acquiesced. Peeta gave a swift nod and Plutarch threw his hands up in joy. He might as well have won the lottery. Before long, Cressida – who apparently was the show’s director – had Pollux in position for a long shot.
“I want you to start wide,” she instructed Pollux, “And bring it in slowly on the two of them while they continue their dinner. Pollux nodded and got into position. She turned to Peeta, “And I want you to go back to looking at her as though she’s the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen. And you,” she laid a hand on Katniss’s shoulder that Katniss had to force herself not to shrug off, “You just keep looking up at him like he hung the moon.”
It was impossibly awkward, trying to eat while the camera was rolling. She was conscious of every chew of the lamb, every bite of her potatoes. They tasted like ash in her mouth because she couldn’t relax. Meanwhile Cressida’s words kept rolling through her head. Since when did Peeta look at her like she was beautiful? How ridiculous. Just the implication that he had feelings for her had even turned the tips of his ears pink. But now, that the camera was rolling he was putting on a masterful performance, smiling sweetly at her in the candlelight.
Three minutes turned out to be twenty. Each time Pollux finished the shot, Cressida reviewed it, picked it apart and had him shoot it again. Once Cressida was happy with the long shot, she had Pollux pan from one of them to the other. Then Peeta gazing at her. Then her doing her best not to scowl at him. She also had him shoot their joined hands before pulling out to their dinner.
She heaved a sigh of relief when Pollux finally turned off the camera, but by then her meal was cold. Madge collected their plates with a smile, and whispered that she was so grateful for their help that she was comping their room for the night.
At least they didn’t bother her while she was enjoying her tiramisu. Plutarch’s plan that Peeta feed her a bite from his fork, was thwarted by Madge who suggested they all have a break and some dessert.
Katniss had never been so relieved to be finished with a meal. She was already making her escape to the staircase when Plutarch started wheedling for just a “few more shots” in the drawing room. Before long, she found herself nestled hip-to-hip with Peeta in front of a roaring fire, Katniss tucked beneath his arm and their long-stemmed wine glasses clutched in their fingertips while the camera rolled.
“Cut!” At Cressida’s call, Pollux put the camera down and rolled his shoulders. Cressida was oblivious to his discomfort. “Alright, Katniss,” she coached. “This time when Pollux starts recording, I want you both to be staring into the fire. Then on the count of five I want you to lay your head on Peeta’s chest. Got it?”
She bit her lip. It was one thing to hold hands over dinner or sit in front of the fire. This next shot felt terribly romantic and it seemed wrong to continue to pretend like this. Peeta picked up on her uncertainty and was arguing that they were tired when she realized she might never again have a chance at a moment like this with Peeta. Even if Prim changed her mind about tomorrow and she came back the following weekend, she had no idea whether Peeta felt anything for her but friendship. Suddenly, she found her tongue.
“It’s fine, Peeta. Don’t worry about me.” His blue eyes were full of concern when they peered down at her.
“You sure?”
She nodded, wondering if it were possible to drown in someone’s gaze. “Yeah.” The corner of his mouth quirked in a slight smile and she imagined pressing her lips to the spot.
Plutarch made a pleased noise. “Oh that’s perfect. That’s exactly what we want, Isn’t it Cressida?”
“We’ll do it all in one take,” the director agreed. “Fulvia, take Peeta’s glass, please.”
“I’m the host, not a gofer,” the other woman huffed as she snatched Peeta’s glass away.
“You’re not a coat rack either, yet you insist on standing there and doing nothing,” Cressida snapped.
Katniss decided she rather liked Cressida, who turned back to her, her irritation buried under her professional veneer. “As I said, you two, we’ll do one last take and then we’ll set you free. Katniss, I want you to do exactly as I said. Gaze at the fire, count to five, lay your head on his chest. Then Peeta, with your free hand, reach up to stroke her cheek. And if you two stare at each other with the same intensity that you just had, the Mockingjay Inn will be full for the next 10 years.”
“Can we please just do this?” Peeta sounded pained.
“Rolling,” Cressida called. The room was silent except for the crackle of the fire. Katniss watched it dance in the hearth before relaxing against Peeta and laying her cheek against the soft cotton of his shirt. She could hear his heart racing beneath her ear. She closed her eyes, fixing the moment in her mind forever. The spice of his cologne, the natural musk of his skin. The firmness of his chest and the warmth of his body. Even if it wasn’t real, she wanted to be able to recall this memory whenever her thoughts strayed to him. When his fingers grazed her cheek, Katniss opened her eyes and found his to be staring back at her, filled with fondness and, dare she say, longing?
“Cut!” Cressida said and Peeta leapt to his feet, reaching out to tug Katniss off the floor.
“Well, it’s been fun, folks, but Katniss and I are calling it a night,” he said, never letting go of her hand. Cheerfully waving good night, but allowing no further discussion, he ushered her from the room. His jaw was tense, she noted, and a current was passing between them that was almost palpable in the air. When he glanced toward her, she could see something brewing in his expression that she’d never noticed before.
When they reached the top of the stairs, Peeta opened the door to their room and allowed her to pass through before him. It snicked closed and they were left in the cozy space where it seemed Madge had snuck in to light the fireplace and turn down their beds. Lamps glowed on the end tables on each side the big four-poster.
“Katniss,” Peeta said, in a voice just barely above a whisper. Her eyes flew to where he stood by the door, watching her. She was reminded briefly of a stormy sea and then she found herself surrounded by him, wrapped snugly in his arms as his lips came crashing down upon hers. At once, they gave and demanded. Took and soothed. He bit her lip, begged forgiveness with a swipe of his tongue and then parted her bruised lips to slip inside. Here, her body sang as her tongue slid against his. Here is what you’ve been looking for. What you’ve been missing. The one you need.
When they were both gasping for air, he pulled back, framing her face with his hands, feathering kisses across her cheeks, the tip of her nose, her forehead before finally lowering his brow to hers. She locked her hands around his wrists.
“I’m sorry,” he apologized. “I’ve been waiting so long to tell you how I feel. You’ve been dealing with so much. You don’t need demands from me too, but the way you were looking at me down there, Katniss…. I just- I couldn’t hold back anymore. You mean so much to me and if you don’t want this, I’ll try to under-”
She had to shut him up. Had to. So she rose up on her toes and kissed him with all that she’d been holding inside for him; weaving her fingers into his hair as she’d ached to do, revelling in the sharp scrape of his stubble, committing the taste of his lips to her memory. How could they both have been feeling this way and not known the attraction was mutual?
“It’s not just you,” she assured him when they broke apart again. “I didn’t know how to tell you. I’m not very good with words, especially when it’s important.”
A groan sounded low in his throat and his hands clutched at her hips, pulling her close. Heat flashed between them and she stroked the iron of his biceps and wrapped her arms around his middle before clutching the back of his shirt in her fists. Her own shirt rose slightly and his thumb stroked the bare skin that appeared just above the waistline of her jeans. Goosebumps prickled on her flesh and the sharp edge of need sliced through her again. A soft mewl escaped her lips and his hands slipped from her hips to stroke the soft curve of her bottom. His lips roamed her jaw then moved to suckle the sensitive spot on her neck just below her ear.
It felt indescribably good, like she’d found a part of herself that she hadn’t known was missing. She craved him, each touch drawing her ever deeper under his spell. Her panties were soaked and her mind was whirling. She wanted him over her, inside her, wrapped in the knot of her legs while he took her flying.
Was it wrong to give into this now? When they’d only just confessed their feelings? When she knew tomorrow she’d be kissing her father good-bye?
Peeta lifted his head to stare down at her. His lips were swollen from her kisses; his blonde locks tousled. His eyes burned with desire, but his gentleness and innate decency remained. Her hands slid into his hair, toying with the curls at the nape of his neck.
He leaned down to nuzzle her nose. “Everything alright?”
“Prim told the doctors they could unplug our dad tomorrow.”
With a curse, Peeta released her and then led her over to the bed. They toed off their shoes and curled up under the covers where he drew her into his arms. She lay there quietly, her body still thrumming with need, but her mind at peace.
”Katniss, I’m so sorry. I know you were hoping he’d get better.”
“I was for awhile,” she admitted on a shaky breath, “But now, I just want him to be able to hold on to his dignity. He would hate this, Peeta. More than anything. Sometimes I think he won’t wake up because he’d never want to face this.”
He pressed a kiss to her brow. “I’m sorry. I should never have started all that before. If I’d known what you were going through-”
She covered her mouth with her hand. “Stop. Please don’t be sorry for that. I can’t handle it if you say sorry for wanting me.”
He snorted and she wondered if he’d picked up that habit from her. “Can’t be sorry for that,” he answered. “Not when it came to me as naturally as breathing.”
She gave her head a brief shake and raised up on her elbow. “What?”
“You have no idea, the effect you have on me.” At her dismissive noise, he flipped her over, settling his body on hers and pinning her wrists above her head. “It’s true,” he insisted. “I walked into the drawing room that first night we met. You were curled up on the couch, staring into the fire, your braid falling over your shoulder. You turned to look at me and my mind just blanked. And then I knew.”
She felt like she should scoff and push him away, but another part – the part that remembered their first meeting like a favourite movie – hungered to hear the rest. “Knew what?” she croaked.
“That you were perfect for me. I just needed time to convince you that I was perfect for you too.”
No convincing had been necessary. Not really. Not when she spent Monday to Friday thinking about when she would see him again. “I guess you’re lucky that work kept bringing you up here, then.”
He chuckled, pushing her hands higher over her head, his face so close she could feel the heat of his breath on her cheeks. “Is that what you think? That I’ve been coming up here week after week, for work? Do you really think there are that many art connoisseurs in this little town?”
“Well, why else would you-”
Peeta rolled his eyes, exasperated. “Katniss.” He clicked his tongue and shook his head. “Why do you think?”
Oh. “But you never called, hardly ever texted me during the week. How was I to know if you never gave me a sign?”
He blushed a little. “There were plenty of signs. I guess I was waiting for one from you.”
She spread her legs until he was nestled between her thighs. Locking her feet under his knees, she brought her lips to his. “How’s that for a sign?”
“I’ll take it,” he rasped, locking his fingers with hers. She took his bottom lip between her own and clung, nipping lightly. He let go of her hands to frame her face with his own and buried his fingers in her raven tresses. Free to wander, hers fell to his shoulders, admiring their breadth before slipping between the two of them to loosen the buttons of his shirt. Dissatisfied with the amount of skin she could reach, Katniss tugged impatiently at the hem of his shirt.
“Off,” she muttered as she laved her way up his neck to take his earlobe in her teeth. “Now,” she whispered in his ear.
“Bossy,” he complained from inside the shirt as he rose on his haunches to pull it over his head, too eager to be free of it to finish with the buttons. He tossed it aside and at last she could glory in his sculpted chest, his pectoral muscles dusted with blonde hair that narrowed into a trail that disappeared below the waistband of his jeans. She scratched her nails along his chest until they reached the button of his jeans. When she flipped it open, and reached for his fly, Peeta’s hand covered hers.
“You first,” he insisted. “I need to see you.” he swallowed. “Take your shirt off, Katniss.”
The heat of her blush raced up her neck until even her ears burned. “I’m nothing special,” she protested. “Let me touch you.”
He shook his head. “I’ve been having this dream about you. Please.” She huffed. Her fingers wrapped around the hem off her sweater so that she could whip it off, when he stilled her hand again.
“Slowly.”
Obediently, she slowed her hand. Her grey eyes locked on his face, watching his expression as she exposed the flat of her belly, the olive skin coming into view inch by inch. His eyes were dark, like bottomless pools. His tongue flicked out across his bottom lip, still swollen from her attentions. The sweater climbed over her rib cage and up her breasts before finally slipping over her head and falling into a heap on the floor.  
She lay before him, her slight breasts still encased in the white cotton bra she’d donned that morning. His eyes closed and he exhaled softly, then opened them and smiled. “You are so beautiful.”
Her heart flipped over in her chest and she knew it was lost to him, that her feelings shone from every pore. He flicked open her jeans, lowered the zipper and lowered his lips to the soft flesh just above the hem of her panties. His mouth slid higher and her core burned as he laved a trail along her belly button, dipping in briefly before travelling up her sternum to the valley between her breasts. His lips caressed one soft mound and then the other. Her fingers wove themselves back into his hair, clutching him to her, and he moaned softly when she gave it a little tug to bring his mouth back to hers. He tasted of wine and she drank him in, revelling in the pleasure of his skin against hers. Her hips rose from the bed, sending a spike of heat through her as her most sensitive place ground against his erection. She moaned and arched her back as she moved against him again.
Peeta’s hand slipped beneath her to remove her bra, unclasping it, and then sliding it from her shoulders to toss it to the floor.  He closed his hand over one before drawing the soft brown tip of the other into his mouth, the tension continuing to build ever higher between her legs. His name fell from her lips and he raised his head to give her a naughty grin and then lowered his mouth to her opposite breast. With his other hand, he rolled the nipple he’d already teased into a taut peak between his fingers.
Her hands ran down his back and slipped beneath his shorts, admiring the shape of his ass before driving him even harder against the apex of her thighs.
They grunted in unison, and Peeta raised his head, his eyes dancing as they laughed. He pecked her lips and then slid off of her. They lay side by side, their arms draped loosely over each other’s sides. The next smile he offered her was sheepish.
“I didn’t exactly come prepared for this,” he admitted, “If you want to take this farther, that is.”
Katniss bit her lip as she considered the contents of her bag. “Me either.” She considered a moment. “We’ll just have to be creative,” she decided and sat up, smiling to herself when she noticed his eyes following her breasts.
She climbed from the bed and shimmied out of her jeans. “C’mon Mellark, match me?”
By the time she climbed back up on the bed, Peeta’s jeans were hitting the floor, his boxer briefs not far behind them. Still on all fours, her eyes roamed his body, the broad chest, the tight abs, the happy trail pointing the way to a long, hard cock. She licked her lips, thinking about what she had in mind and it twitched slightly. Amused, her eyes flew back to Peeta’s face. He shrugged. “It’s just saying hello. Come closer, please. I want to touch you.”
She crawled to him, enjoying the way his eyes followed the sway of her hips, then rose up on her knees before him. His hand slid up her inner thigh, trailing up until he brushed against her lower lips before sliding down again to her knee. He rose up on his elbow, placing a kiss against her hip.
“So lovely,” he murmured against her skin. “I’m going to paint you, someday, if you let me.” His lips travelled just above the dark triangle between her legs while his fingers crept up her thigh again. “Your hair unbound, falling down your back in the sunshine. Your skin practically glows, Katniss. I can make all kinds of colours in my paint box, but I could spend all day trying to get your skin just right.” This time, his fingers caressed her slit slowly, drawing her breath from her in sharp pants, before delving deeper in search of the swollen bud seeking his attention. Her head fell back and a high pitched moan fell from her lips when he began to stroke it.
“Peeta,” she gasped, riding his hand.
“Fuck, Katniss. You’re so wet.”
Her hands slid slowly up her body, cupping her breasts and then rolling her nipples between her fingers. The pleasure shot straight to her clit and she groaned again.
“Can I taste you,” he asked, and she nodded.
“But I want to touch you too. Lie back.” She turned in the bed, straddling Peeta’s body so that his cock was perfectly positioned for her mouth. She heard him curse again, then felt him lower her into position over his face. He licked her slowly, sending another jolt of pleasure through her body. Pleasure she needed to share.
Her tongue stroked down his cock, from the tip all the way to the root near his balls. The strangled groan that fell from his lips vibrated through her. She palmed his balls in one hand and then slowly began to stroke him with the other.
Peeta’s ministrations grew more passionate. He sucked her clit into his mouth, working it furiously with his tongue.
Katniss licked her lips, then took him in, sliding her tongue around the head and then deep into her mouth. Another groan sounded from behind her and she took him deeper, moving her hand in concert with her mouth. His hips rose and fell, even as he pulled her ever deeper against his face, his sounds of pleasure causing hers to spiral ever higher.
She drew back, licking the head of his penis before plunging down upon him again. His mouth worked her furiously, whimpers of pleasure bursting from her, when suddenly she felt her orgasm overtake her. She bucked against his face as he held her in place, drinking her up. She sucked him desperately, opening her throat and with one last groan, he erupted, and she swallowed each drop as it slid down.
They lay silently for a few minutes, while their hearts raced, Peeta kissing her thigh periodically. When she could avoid it no longer, she climbed off him. When she turned around, she could tell he was as stunned as she.
“I guess I should go to bed,” he said softly.
She lay her hand on his chest. “No, stay with me.”
He smiled at her and held out his arms. She thought he whispered something into her hair as she snuggled down beside him.
Peeta sat up to pull the covers back over them. They each flicked off a light and before long she was once again wrapped up in his arms. They lay quietly in the dark as she listened to the comforting thud of his heartbeat just below her ear. She was just drifting off to sleep when she heard his voice again.
“I’d like to go with you tomorrow, if that’s okay.”
She desperately wanted to say yes, which made her think she should probably refuse. “It will be awful, Peeta. I don’t want to put you through that.”
“Tomorrow, your mother will be there for your father, and your sister will be there for both of them. You’ll be taking care of Prim. Someone should be there to comfort you, Katniss. And that should be your boyfriend.”
Her lips twitched upwards in the dark. “Is that what you are? My boyfriend?”
“If you’ll allow it.”
There was a brief silence before she answered. “I’ll allow it.”
“And tomorrow?”
“I’ll allow that too.”
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