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no but peeta was being a dick after the first games. yes it's understandable why he overreacted but it doesn't change the fact that he did overreact, and that it was him who created the distance between himself and katniss. which is exactly why he was the one to apologize (and another reason why the movies suck because his line if i stop acting like i'm wounded is changed into if you stop acting like i'm wounded).
#everlark#it's not that i think his reaction comes from cruelty or naivety#and at first you're confused#cause why is he even mad#he and haymitch started the whole bit#but then she saves him#that conversation before their first ''real'' kiss#when peeta says that katniss isn't doing him any favour by sacrificing her life for his#and katniss tries to use that as an opportunity to sell their love story and how she did because he matters#but then stops and fumbles because he does matter to her#because the love is real was always real#and what does peeta do?#he says (and this is so important) then i'll have to fill in the blanks myself#this is where he starts to see it as something more than performance#and then she almost dies for him#so he assumes she has feeling for him to#and he's not wrong#but katniss is confused and she has every right to be confused and it's not even that he thinks she doesn't#and then haymitch appears and makes everything worse and now peeta's doubting everything#now he's questioning everything to the point of being irational#was everything just a plan haymitch made and katniss knew how to follow#did she save him because she knew it would work or because she wanted too#and he knows it shouldn't matter and that he should be grateful but he's being selfish in this moment#and then he's also traumatized and scared and hurt and embarrassed#and nobody needs him right nobody needs him and nobody cares for him and nobody protects him - his family didn't his mother didn't#so why would katniss#he's worthless really and how didn't he see it coming he's supposed to be in control cool calm collected mild but he wasn't and that's scar#and now he sees that he's not being fair and it would really help if katniss was yelling at him and telling him how ungrateful he is but no#instead she's hurt and she's sad but now he's confused and maybe it's all just guilt but whatever it is it's already to late to fix it#so he leaves and vows to keep living as he always had - with a too comfortable of a distance from others cool calm collected mild
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What the fuck are you talking about?" Squad 451 after listening to Peeta mumble to himself pt ? WIP
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After Peeta finished all those monologs, Gale angry went right up to him and said: âwhere the fuck did you get the idea I was a prostitute from?â Peeta was startled and his face turned white. âUm, well it is speculation, she seemed like such a natural at seducing me, after Snowâs mandate and I vaguely remember you being popular with girls and going out with them despite you being with Katniss, that I think it is a possibility,â âYou were hungry after your father died right?â âI was never a prostitute, you never raped me, and Gale wss never my lover! " Katniss says angerly.
âSnow met with Katniss and sold her, he had us sell our sex lives to the capital and sold her to the capitals beasts as wellâ âŚâŚ
"Snow told me to sell the love story there was nothing about me being sold like Finnick!"
katniss is not lying, Peeta asseses but he knows they fucked sometime he wants to know. There is something weird about his sexual memories regarding Katniss. He sees an opportunity to ask about it .
"This theory Is a leap but I feel something more when I think of us fucking, that memory has likely been Jackered up to kingdom come" Peeta's face blushes with shame "I know whatever happened on the trains our parts did touch, I remember sexual attraction also, I'm sorry Katniss I just did an Arlo. I will never know the answer to this question." His face blushes the biggest pink I have ever seen. I also blush he remembers the night before the quell and assumes that he lost the other memories, the capital fed him pornography a false positive memory. "Did the capital show you footage of us....m" "Yes, I referenced some of it when I tried to get you removed, but some of the sex was consensual, or not becuase it was capital mandated, I hate that I enjoy it"
Peeta clearly wants me to fill the blanks he gives me the most intense stare, both exhibiting shame and interest. Then he remembers we are in public. "So how are you and Gale doing now that I'm out of the picture?, I don't mean this as an insult." Translation an attempt to back out of the conversation with the subtext anyway your with Gale now so it does not matter also did you fuck him?
"Me and Gale have only ever been friends really, I love him just not enough to have him in my bed. He's like a cousin, everyone expected me to marry him"
"Didn't you scream his name on the train?" He looks miserable as he says this.
"No I had nightmares and you comforted me, I asked you to stay with me you said always"
The easiest way would be to go in detail on my history with Gale, how to approach the subject of Gale?
Peeta: she is telling me this while Gale is here and is talking about such intimate matters in public there's no way she is lying.
Jackson: would you 2 like some privacy?
Peeta and Katniss: yes
WIP Is not awkward but the first question asked is "did we fuck and if so how"
#peeta mellark#the hunger games#katniss and peeta#mockingjay#thg katniss#suzanne collins#everlark#finnick odair
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Kat-Eye
Written by:Â @567inpanem
Prompt 44: Katniss is hired as a writer for Hallmark cards âŚ.. [submitted by @thegirlfromoverthepond]
AN: My thanks to @thegirlfromoverthepond for the excellent prompt I couldnât resist which inspired me to try writing a story for the Everlark Fic Exchange!
My thanks to @javistg and @xerxia31 for the opportunity to participate in all the fun at Everlark Fic Exchange.Â
Javistg, I never would have attempted a story without your encouragement. I am so grateful for your enthusiasm and the generous time you spent helping me improve. Thanks for being a great teacher and sharing your expertise. I learned so much and had so much fun, it was like a game finding all the things wrong with my storytelling and grammar and fixing them one-by-one. The biggest compliment I can pay you is to say that I think I want to write another story! Through the experience I certainly appreciate fanfic writers even more. Thanks so much. XXXOOO
Peetaâs pace picked up at the roar of uninhibited laughter. He found his co-workers around the conference table laugh-crying, some doubled over gasping for breath.
âWhatâd I miss?â
Wiping tears from his face, Finnick choked out something about âKatniss.â
Peeta grinned like heâd won the lottery. âWhatâd she do now?â
Across from them Jo slapped both palms down, drew an exaggerated breath, and gleefully began recounting the latest âKat-Eyeâ (short for âKatniss Incidentâ which became a thing not long after the new girl began working at Hallmark and earned herself a reputation for social blunders).
âYou know how Brainless inhales those cheese buns you bring in every Monday?â
Peetaâs blue eyes sparkled. Biting his lower lip, he gave a quick nod.
âWell,â Jo continued dramatically, âshe couldnât stop raving about how good they wereâhow she tasted some asiago or some other shitâhow youâre so creative and have amazing handsâŚmoaning through her very loud and very public oral orgasmâŚbragging about how she could eat everyâŚlastâŚone âŚâ
Peeta barely breathed.
ââŚhow she could out-eat every man at the table,â she emphasized with a wicked smile.
Peeta swallowed. âYeah?â
Jo held her spread fingers near her mouth and swiped the tip of her tongue across her lips. âSo, licking her hands clean, she blurts out: I could eat you all under the table!â
Peeta guffawed, âNo! She didnât!â
âShe did!â cackled Jo. âAnd the entire place goes still. For seconds, nothing. Then we all lost our collective shit! That will never make me not laugh. Twenty years from now I can be at a funeral, think of that, and Iâll laugh.â
âWho all was there?â Peeta needed to know.
âJust the guys. The girls were all down at that monthly weigh-in diet thing theyâre doing together. But the cafeteria was packed at that hour.â Jo chortled, âWhoâdâve thought Miss Pure would be clueless enough to confuse a brag with a blowjob!â
Just then Haymitch entered the room. âAlright, children, letâs get started. Iâm expecting a call, so letâs see how much we can get through.â
In his wake, a scowling Katniss silently slipped in and, without meeting anyoneâs eyes, took a seat beside Annie who gave her a gentle pat hello on the shoulder.
For two hours Haymitch worked his way down his agenda like he always did, efficiently and acerbically, before coming to Katniss. âKatniss, whatâs going on with the budget Easter cards?â
Katniss hesitantly asked for more time.
âShow me what youâve got so far,â he ordered.
âCan I show you in private later?â she requested softly.
âWhat? Hell no. Meeting with the new girls in private is how my predecessor Crane got fired, and I have 43 months left before Iâve earned my pension. Go.â
Katnissâs annoyance spiked as her co-workers, sensing an impending Kat-Eye, leaned forward. She cleared her throat and tried to ignore them.
âWell, most of the nearly completed pieces are religious in nature.â
Haymitch cut her off. âI specifically told you to focus on the non-religious.â
âBut Easter is a religious holiday!â she snapped. âYou canât take Jesus out of Easter!â
Haymitch glared at her until Katniss reluctantly presented her first non-religious card.
âThis first card is a springtime scene, meadow grass and dandelions. The text reads,
Happy Easter,
Happy Spring,
Happy Happy Everything.â
Giggling and shifting from around the room irked her.
âSee here, I had it made into a pop-up cardâ,â
âIt canât be a pop-up card,â Haymitch interrupted, âit has to stay at the 99 cent price point.â
âI know but, for your consideration, I took the initiative to have it made into an optional pop-up to show you I can be trusted with something besides the budget cards! Look, the Easter bunny hops!â Katniss held out the card, opening and closing it repeatedly to show the bunny hopping.
Only, it wasnât the Easter bunny, it was two bunnies. Chasing each other.
No, they were âŚ
GASP!
They were fucking!
The room erupted, and Katniss dropped the card like it was on fire. Someone yelled, âKat-Eye! Two in one day!â
âAll right, all right, settle down, people. Katniss, tell me you have something else to show me. Youâve had this assignment for a month!â
Determined to regain her pride, Katniss continued with her presentation. Â
The next card looked good: lots of hopping baby bunnies, greenery, attractive gold lettering.
Hoppy Easter
âCute pun,â offered Annie.
Finnick leaned in for a closer look. âWait, is that hops? Like, beer brewing hops?â
Katniss looked to where Finnick was pointing. âWhat? No. I didnâtâŚâ
âYeah! Thatâs what it looks like to me, too,â crowed Jo. âAnd the bunny ears are shaped like beer bottles!â
âSweetheart, did you piss off the entire graphic arts department?â suggested Haymitch.
âNo!â
âWell, you must have done something! They seem committed to embarrassing you.â
âTheyâve got these stupid, unnatural, red-eyed rabbits in smelly cages everywhere that theyâre using as models! For all my cards! Just mine!â Katniss boiled over in frustration. âI warned them if they gave me one more vampire-looking bloody red-eyed rabbit that I was going to return with my bow andââ
âOK,â Haymitch cut her off, âwell, make nice and bring them a peace offering, like a bouquet of carrots. You got anything else?â
Katniss clenched her jaw and reached for the next card (Youâre no bunny âtil some bunny loves you) when she noticed that besides red eyes this bunny had tiny fangs. She inconspicuously moved that card to her growing pile of rejects.
âI wanna see that one later, Brainless!â
Katniss swallowed hard and grabbed for the next card, a die cut one featuring flowers with a bunny wearing a bee costume.
Bee My Honey Bunny
After an uncomfortable silence, Katniss unceremoniously dropped that one onto the stack of rejects. Fighting her inclination to leave, Katniss stoically announced, âI have one last non-religious card to share.â
Several people applauded.
Katniss scowled.
This last card was her shot at redemption. They had to love this one. And she had to sell it.
Wishes for an Egg-tastic Easter
Below the message, a cute yellow chick, newly hatched from her shell, smiled and winked. Several people murmured their approval.
âCute chick!â
âAw, so cute!â
âNice job, Katniss, really cute.â
Hope loosen the tightness in her chest. Katniss plastered on a smile. âGraphics actually did a really good job here. I requested a cute chick.â Next, she revealed the inner greeting.
At the sudden boom of laughter, Katniss jumped in alarm. She couldnât understand what had set them off. She turned to Haymitch who was staring at her with a mixture of amusement and suspicion.
âThat for real, Sweetheart?â he asked over the noise. âRead it out loud.â
Katniss took a closer look. The words were innocent enough, and yetâŚ
Blushing furiously, Katniss ran from the room. How had she not realized that the same people who twisted her innocent cheese bun praise would willfully misinterpret what she meant as a clever greeting:
From the cutest chick ever laid.
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Unforgettable Fics
Last year I posted my first Unforgettable Fics List (you can find it HERE). In that list, I included the stories that had left their mark on me as a fangirl, writer, and reader.
Those were the stories that pulled me into fan fiction, the first ones I read, the ones I think back on when I remember my earlier days in the fandom.
The fics in this yearâs list are the ones that keep me here; the ones that inspire me, that prove that this fandom is still kicking, alive and well. Â
Some of the fics you'll find here are very new, others are well-known classics I read (or re-read) this year.
Go ahead, take a look, you might find a new favorite among them.
Happy reading!
All the World Drops Dead by @andthisisthewonder
Peetaâs voice has been inside her head since she turned 14. She doesnât know why they share a connection, and she doesnât care. She likes having him with her. They comfort each other. Protect each other. Until he goes where she cannot follow. Until he enters the arena. (Based loosely on the film âIn Your Eyes.â)
Peeta is reaped. Katniss stays behind in Twelve and follows his struggles on TV. Sounds a little bit like One Victor, doesnât it? Well, that part of the premise might be similar, but the rest of the story is completely different. In this fantastic fic, Katniss and Peeta share an extraordinary gift that keeps them connected. Even though theyâre miles apart, Katniss guides and comforts him. Spending her days glued to the TV screen, she stops him from eating poisonous berries and keeps him updated on his enemies' whereabouts. Iâm really intrigued to see how this story is going to end.
Cadavres Exquis by @andthisisthewonder, @mtk4fun, @finnicko-loves-anniec, @xerxia31, @nancymay, @titaniasfics, @peetabreadgirl, @hutchhitched, @sandyeyes, @burkygirl, @geekymoviemom, @i-roaring-girl, @mega-aulover and @javistgÂ
After six years of radio silence came the call Katniss Everdeen had been dreading for years. Her mother, the last living member of her family, was dead.
Though it had been six years since Katniss had fled her hometown of Panem, she knew she had no choice but to come back and take care of her motherâs possessions, sell her house, get rid of the last vestiges of the life she once knew.
Organised by @loveinpanem. The principle behind this challenge was very simple. Each author was given a very tiny amount of world-building, (that summary you see above) and the last two sentences the previous writer created. From there, the sky was the limit. The resulting story was charming and funny, with unexpected twists and multiple visits to the bank while Everlark tried to solve a riddle they didnât understand.
An awesome example of what it means to be a member of a creative community. I loved being a part of this!
Camp Mockingjay by @peetabreadgirl, @katnissdoesnotfollowback, @hutchhitched, @javistg, @appleblossomgirl0305, @titaniasfics, @xerxia31 and @burkygirlÂ
When Katniss agrees to spend the summer working with Gale at a summer camp, every choice brings her closer to an opportunity she thought she'd missed forever.
Another collaborative fic. This one was organized by @everlark-your-own-adventure. Following the principle behind the Choose Your Own Adventure books we read as children, readers were asked to choose between two options at the end of each chapter. Writers had to follow the story and adapt to the readersâ demands.
The resulting fic is as sweet as a summer adventure. Each chapter closely follows the storyline while showcasing its authorâs personality and writing style. The last installment --an epilogue written by @burkygirlâ and @xerxia31-- is one of my personal favorites.
Cinders by @ghtlovesthg
Canon-Divergent AU. As rebellion starts sweeping through Panem like wildfire, Katniss quickly learns it will take all she has to keep her loved ones from getting scorched. Submission to PIP. Everlark. WIP
Katniss and Peeta find common ground when Gale and Delly are reaped. Defiant, stubborn, and too consumed by anger to think about the consequences, Gale challenges the Capitol.  In a shocking twist of events, his family pays the price. An intriguing fic, full of twists and turns that still has me at the edge of my seat.
Destiny by @xerxia31
âThis would have happened anyway." Canon-divergent Everlark.
In the cave scene in THG Peeta implies that being reaped was the best thing that ever happened to him. Well, in the case of this fic, it is. The dread I felt while reading the introduction, quickly turned to excitement when I found the surprise @xerxia31â had in store for us. A must read.
Dominion by @muttpeeta
Killing me would be a waste when you could leverage something much more useful out of me.â Captain Peeta Mellark strikes a deal with his captor, the Empress Katniss Everdeen.
This intriguing one-shot shows Peeta as Katnissâs prisoner. I love the way their relationship evolves here, how they gradually learn to trust and care for each other despite their circumstances.Â
Elaborate Lives by @booksrockmyface
Katniss had a normal life, two kids, a husband, and a great job. But it all turned upside down when she shook hands with Peeta and got the literal shock of her life. So how can they handle this delicate situation without destroying their lives in the process?
Iâm a sucker for soulmate fics, and this is one of my favorites. Katniss and Peeta meet through their children, who are best friends. Sheâs married. Heâs a widower. They want to be together, but they donât want to hurt those they care about.
A lovely fic about friendship, love, and the inevitable pull of being with the one person whoâs right for you.
Everything But Money by @mtk4fun
Katniss Everdeen learns how the other half lives, and finds love in this Everlark historical set in 1936 during The Great Depression.
@mtk4funâ takes us through the toils and struggles of the Great Depression. In her fic, Katniss and Peeta face poverty, hunger, unemployment, and jealousy as they fight to find stability in a world thatâs collapsing around them. Haymitchâs role as Katnissâs uncle is definitely worth reading!
First Love by @sothereff
Primrose Everdeen makes a friend in new neighbor Peeta Mellark and looks forward to spending her summer days with him at the creek. But when he finally meets her sister, Katniss, Prim finds she has some competition for Peetaâs time⌠and affections. Loosely based on the film The Man in the Moon.
 I love this version of Prim! Sheâs sweet and innocent at times, but sheâs also as angry and hateful as only a teenage girl can be. And, while we donât want to see her suffer, we all know this is a battle she just canât win.Â
Five kisses that should have been, and one that was by @muttpeeta
Katniss and Peeta keep meeting on New Yearâs Eve. Unfortunately, itâs just never the right time.
Everything seems to conspire against Everlark in this fantastic one-shot. They date the wrong people, they wait, they drink, they cry. Somehow, they push through. A wonderful read with a very satisfying ending.
If I Have You by @everlarkeologist
Everlark, months after their divorce. Written for the F4LLS charity drive.
Katniss wants Peeta to be happy. Why is he in so much pain then? A beautiful story of sacrifice and love that shows us how the pressures we put on ourselves can drive us to hurt those we love.
Kindergarten by @heyyouao
Katniss and Peeta meet in kindergarten and develop a relationship that will last a life time. Modern day AU. Rated for teens initially, although the rating will change as the story develops. This work contains depictions of child abuse which may be difficult for some to read.
This incredibly cute story follows Katniss and Peeta as they grow up as best friends. I especially like Peetaâs connection with the rest of the Everdeen clan --who immediately adopts him as one of their own.
Love Letters by maddmaddworld
You are my best friend in the whole world, and I promise you that you will never feel this much pain ever again. You are my heart, and I intend to keep it safe.
Love, Katniss
Sometimes itâs easier to write what we feel than to say it out loud. I love Katnissâs  reaction to Peetaâs letters in this fic, and what he says is as beautiful as what he writes.Â
The Murder Game by @deinde-prandium
College AU fluff.Â
This fic is a lot of fun. Katniss and Peeta survive a Murder Game by hiding in his room. With great parallels to canon and the cave scenes, this story seamlessly blends the world of Panem with a modern day AU.
Museum Marriage Proposal by @badnovelsâ
This is such a Peeta thing to do.
A sweet drabble that makes me smile every time I read it.
The Percentage of Us by @badnovels
Katniss finally believes Peeta when he says he wants her to stay.
How can something so wrong feel so right? A fic that leaves you reeling; dazed as you try to remind yourself that this particular version of Everlark shouldnât be together, and still.. how can they be apart?
The Playdate by @awhiskeyriver
When Peetaâs son is having trouble in school, he thinks the last thing they need is to plan a get together with the source of the problem.
Daddy!Peeta faces off against Mommy!Katniss in front of Principal Abernathy as they each try to protect their respective children. Just that scene is well worth a read! But, of course, thereâs more. Thereâs friendship, and love, and loss; the frustration of divorce, and the loneliness that comes with being a single parent. And then, thereâs also some smut.
Procreate by Loudmouth Lamb
In a version of Panem where young men and women are bred in an annual ceremony to produce the next generation of manual laborers, Gale and Madge try to make the best out of the worst. AU (no Hunger Games). Mild Everlark.
I havenât read a lot of Gadge fics, but this one is one of my favourites. Inspired by A Handmaidâs Tale, Madge and Gale are chosen to provide a child for Panem.  I love the balance between the two charactersâ voices. Madgeâs quiet dignity and strength shine though this story as she stares an angry Gale down.
Ruse by @purple-cube
âI should have volunteered to take your place in the first Games,â Gale tells him. âProtected her then.â
âYou couldnât,â says Peeta. âSheâd never have forgiven you.â
Friendship and loyalty are tested in this beautiful canon-divergent fic in which Gale and Katniss are crowned as co-victors of the 74th Hunger Games. Forced into marriage, the best friends help each other find love and happiness.Â
Silver Thaw by @eala-musings
Set during the Dark Days rebellion. A Capitol hunting guide and Panem Games Biathlon champion is enlisted to hunt down and capture a mysterious rebel troublemaker in the snowy mountains of District 13.
Once again, Peeta finds himself acting as a pawn for the Capitol. As the story unfolds, he realises things are not what they seem. Gradually, Katnissâs strength and resolve draw him in, and they become allies and much more. With perfect pacing, beautiful descriptions, and believable interactions between the characters itâs no wonder I consider this an unforgettable fic.Â
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Happy Birthday infinitegraces!
We apologise @infinitegraces for the delay with your gift! We hope you had a wonderful birthday on the 9th of August. To help celebrate your birthday the lovely @pagedancer87 has written you an Everlark story just for you! We hope you like it :)
Title: Selfish
For user: infinitegraces
Prompt: Everlark without the Games AUâGames can never have existed or still exist, Iâm just a sucker for âIt would have happened anywayâ fics
Summary: âItâs really okay for there to be times when you stop putting everyone else first, and just do whatâs best for you.â
Rating: K+
A/N: All errors are belonging to me. Happy Birthday!
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As a rule, Katniss Everdeen didnât allow herself many things.
The first and last time she had asked for something, was the one thing she had ever regretted: to selfishly have her father with her on her birthday. It was a request shyly made, and gently denied, but he had wanted to surprise her. It had him going to work on a day he normally had off, which ended up being the day that he died. At eleven, watching her mother spiral into grief driven madness and her younger sister nearly starve to death, she blamed herself. From then on she vowed to put her family first.
It became the way she lived. Everything she did and every choice she made was for the benefit of her younger sister. Not only did it make her happy, it was also very easy.
 Once in awhile, something came up that made her choices not so black and white.
 The Careers Exchange Program, for example.
 Their assigned counselors, Haymitch Abernathy and Effie Trinket were to go through the entire district and pick two people (a boy and a girl) between the ages of 12-18 to travel to a different district and learn a trade. They came every year, and every Tribute that went inevitably found their way to prosperity and only returned to District 12 to collect their family. No Tribute had ever chosen to come to 12. To her surprise, this year they chose her.
 Her initial response was to refuse, which she did as firmly and rudely as she could.
 âButâŚdonât you want a better life for yourself, dear?â Effie asked, understandably shocked as no one had refused before. âEvery district has something wonderful to offer. Why, the Capitol will have opportunities youâd never ââ
âThanks, but no thanks,â she interrupted standing up, âIâll just head back to class now.â
 âSit down.â Haymitch said, speaking for the first time since she arrived.
 She immediately stiffened at the command she heard. âYou can go fââ
 âLanguage!â Effie chided. âPerhaps we were mistaken in our assessment.â
 âAw hell, Effie. We both heard about that attitude.â
 âBe that as it may, if she hasnât the sense to even see what a dream come true this isââ
 âLook, why donât you go find yourself an overly complicated caffeinated beverage, leave sweetheart over there to me.â
 With one last glance at her and a baffled shake of her head, she left them.
 âYouâll have to excuse her. Sheâs Capitol stock, born and bred. To someone like her, staying in a place like 12 when you have a chance to leave is something sheâll never really understand. She still doesnât get why I keep coming back.â
 She studied him for a moment, âJust because you lived here once, doesnât mean you know anything about me or my life, Mr. Abernathy.â
 âMaybe, but I did my homework before we approached you. Whenever anyone comes to you, begs you for food, you give it to them. When you canât have much to begin with. Why?â
 She shrugged, âBecause I know what itâs like to be starving to death and have someone do something about it at the cost of a beating.â
 âSo, youâre not refusing our offer because of pride. Why then? Surely you know that the skills youâd learn and the trade youâd pick up would mean at least financial stability for you and your family. So why?â
She thought about her reasons for staying. Her sister needed her. Without her many people at the Seam would go hungry. Then there was him. But really, none of those were why she didnât want to go.
 âI already have skills and a trade. We are far from being financially stable, but we get by.â
 For awhile, though things werenât exactly alright (she doubted theyâd ever be alright again) they were stable. District 12 provided the coal that not only powered the trains that brought trade between the districts but also heated the homes and businesses all over Panem, as such the government provided a monthly stipend to the families of the miners who died in the same accident that took her father. Every month their stipend was just barely enough to get by (even before they added motherâs medicine and the shots for Primâs damn cat). So, she began hunting again. With her fatherâs bow, she ventured into the forest to hunt, often skipping school to do so. When Gale Hawthorne joined her, trading tips and skills, together they made sure that their families never went hungry. Â
In addition to game she also began to scavenge for roots, berries and herbs. Her mother used the plants and herbs in her apothecary, her sister made jam from the berries as well as selling milk from her goat, while she sold the meats, furs and such to either traveling tradesmen or to merchants. It was a bartering system that had served her well.
 Haymitch sat back in his chair. âBoy, you really arenât what I expected. Well, someoneâs got to go, sweetheart and Effieâs liable to pick some girl off the slag heap.â
 So, she did one of the hardest things sheâd ever done.
 âMe?â Prim was shocked. At just 12, she had little hope of being chosen for the Careers Program.
 âKatniss tells us you have a gift for healing, dear.â Effie spoke to her kindly. âI know just the school for you. Youâll be a doctor before long, Iâm sure.â
 So, they packed her up and sent her off with promises to write and to visit. As part of the program, not only were her expenses taken care of, but sheâd begin working while she studied. Though it hurt her heart to send her off, she knew that this would be giving Prim her best chance.
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Not long after, she found herself staring down the barrel and another life-changing moment.
 Gale Hawthorne. Her hunting partner, and her dearest friend. He was chosen for the Careers Program, and was moving to District 5.
 âCome with me, Catnip.â
 She rolled her eyes at the nickname. âThey already picked Madge Undersee, Gale.â
 âFamily can go, too.â
 She looked him, confused. âBut weâre not related.â
 He hesitated, before taking both her hands in his. âWe would be if we got married. Marry me, Katniss.â
 Sheâd heard the gossip. People had paired them together since they were kids. With all that they had in common and with how much time they spent together, everyone assumed it was just a matter of time. If she still had Prim, she mightâve considered it. Marrying Gale and moving to District 5, wouldâve meant that neither of them would need to worry about not having enough for the mouths they had to feed.
And she loved him. Of course, she loved him. But not that way. He was her brother. She just couldnât. Even if it meant she lost him. Even if it meant she lived the rest of her life alone. She couldnât marry him.
 He mistook her silence for shyness, and was bending his head to kiss her. Her first kiss. No. Not you. A panicked voice in her head whispered. Unthinking, she raised her arms and pushed him back. Losing his balance, he fell into the fence behind him, which broke under his weight.
 âGale! Oh, Iâm so sorry!â
 When he sat up, instead of being angry as she expected, he just looked at her and smiled sadly. âNo, donât be sorry, Katniss. I know how you feel. Iâve always known. But I had to try.â
 Her eyes began to sting with tears. âI donât want to lose you, Gale.â
 He laughed softly. âOh, Catnip. Youâll never lose me.â He pressed a kiss to her forehead. When he bent his head again, it was to whisper in her ear. âYou know, itâs really okay for there to be times when you stop putting everyone else first, and just do whatâs best for you. Tell him how you feel, I promise you wonât regret it.â
 She blinked when he stepped away. How did he know?
 He just smiled. âIâve seen the way you look at him, when you think no oneâs looking.â
 Life slowly went on, and slowly got better. She saved enough to open a shop in the merchant side of town, coincidentally right across from a certain bakery.
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 This time Iâll talk to her. Today for sure. Peeta looked out the window to the shop across the street. The Hob. Katniss had set up shop the month before, and still made the walk between town and her house at the Seam. They either sold goods or traded. He watched her come in every morning, as she often opened up her shop as he was getting the bread made, and as she left for home at night.
Every day was an opportunity. Every day he tried to build up the courage. At the end of the day he promised himself that the next day would be when he finally did it.
Peeta, by nature, was a giver. It may have begun in part to avoid the attention of a cruel mother, but even when she passed, he still didnât ask for anything. Instead, he tried to go above and beyond for both his customers and his family.
 There was only ever one thing he truly wanted. One quiet wish he clutched tightly to his heart.
 Katniss Everdeen.
 All his life he was drawn to her. He held his breath when he heard she was picked for the Careers Program, and again when he heard Gale Hawthorne intended to marry her. Was ashamed at the relief he felt when she stayed and turned him down. He felt he was slowly running out of chances, and if he didnât act soon someone else would.
 âOh, look. The mooney-eyed prince returns.â
 He was pulled out of his thought by the teasing comment. âYouâre in early today, Delly.â
 Delly, had been his dearest friend since before either of them could walk. She was also his sister since she married his older brother. The former gave her a front seat at his infatuation with Katniss, and the latter gave her the influence to push him. Which she tried to do regularly.
 âBut of course. I couldnât miss todayâs Everlark episode.â
 He raised a brow. âEverlark?â
 Her blonde hair bounced as she nodded. âThat what we call you two. Rye and I have a bet going on how long before you two get together. My moneyâs on sometime before Christmas.â
 He shook his head. âPretty sure she doesnât even know I exist. Why would she?â Though, sometimes he thought he felt her eyes on him, she was never looking his way when he glanced up.
 âOf all the places she could have set up shop, she chose the on across the street. Donât you think that means something?â
 He tried not to get his hopes up like that. He shrugged. âItâs a good location, thatâs all.â
âSo youâre saying if Hawthorne came back and made another pitch, youâll just let it happen?â
 He winced, still remembering the scene he had haplessly witnessed, of the two of them about to kiss. Heâd turned away rather than have that in his memory banks. âI have way too much to do. Between keeping up with the bakery, and making sure Dadâs being taken care ofââ
 He started at the hand on his shoulder. âYou know, itâs really okay for there to be times when you stop putting everyone else first, and just do whatâs best for you.â
 He smiled at her. It wasnât the first time sheâs said that to him, âIâll keep that in mind.â
 He spent the rest of the day going back and forth between the kitchen and helping Delly at the front counter. During the busier seasons, he usually had a few more hands, but most days they got by with just the two of them.
Inevitably, heâd catch himself looking across the street, hoping to catch a glimpse of Katniss. Between the myriad of expressions heâd seen play across her face and the rich tones of her skin, she was a feast for his artistic eye. He hoped to paint her one day, but all the colors in the world would hardly do her beauty justice. Besides, if he couldnât even drum up the nerve to talk to herâŚ
 It was near closing when he noticed her on a ladder grappling with large wooden sign. Every store on the street had a place above their door for a sign to hang to be easily seen from afar, and it looked like she had finally gotten one made.
 He could tell right away, however, that the sign was probably much heavier than she anticipated and the chain for the sign much higher. She was on the top rung when he saw the ladder start to lean backwards. She was going to fall!
He was out the door faster than he could blink, miraculously catching her just as she slipped off the ladder.
He found he breath knocked from his chest, both from her slight weight and fright of what mightâve happened.
âA-Are you alright, Katniss?â Â He asked over the thundering of his heart.
âI-I think so.â Shocked grey eyes met his, and for a moment they just stood like that. She was just as warm and soft as he thought. His felt his face heat at the direction his thoughts went.
Clearing his throat, he set her down. âI have a sturdier ladder in the back you can use.â
He brought it out to her, and held it steady as she climbed it.
 âLooks good.â He commented, as they both stood back surveyed the newly hung sign
 She nodded, standing closely next to him. âThank you, PeetaâŚand thank you for saving me.â
 He smiled, âYouâre welcome.â
 It was the beginning of what would be the most selfish thing either of them had ever done: falling in love.
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Mockingjay Inn
Written by: @burkygirl
Prompt 25: Katniss and Peeta are both frequent pop-in guests at an out-of-the-way B&B. One weekend, it is surprisingly booked up and the manager asks if they can share a suite in an effort to be less of an inconvenience for such loyal customers and since they sort of know each other. (Submitted by @roseymama )
Rated E, Trigger warnings for smut, a few curse words and mentions of a dying family member.
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The silver Civic slipped up the paved drive that sloped through the woods before bursting into the clearing where a white, two-storey colonial waited serenely, like a queen holding court.
The driveway twisted around a shade garden tucked into a copse of trees and Katniss veered into the parking area, pushing the grief that threatened to overwhelm her away long enough to shift the car into neutral, set the parking brake and turn the key. Closing her eyes, she let her head fall against the headrest and drew in a breath. Her belly filled with air and then she expelled it slowly, imagining the stresses of her day floating away. She did it again. Â And again, drawing the negative energy along her limbs and visualizing it drifting away on the breath. Some days it helped.
Today was not one of those days, not after the news Prim had delivered this afternoon.
Her eyelids fluttered open and the square corners of the heritage home came back into view; its perfect symmetry, its black shutters and red front door bidding her welcome. The sheltering walls of the Mockingjay Inn had become a second home to her these last months. She loved this old house, tucked away in the woods, invisible from the main road and advertised only by word of mouth. Her old school friend, Madge, had painstakingly renovated it after inheriting it from her grandmother a few years ago. It was a labour of love for Madge, who seemed to have planted her spring flowers since Katniss was here last week. She spotted the happy faces of pansies peeking out from around the hostas that lined the beds next to the house and red and white petunias spilled from the urns on the front steps.
When she stepped from the car, the heady rush of the crisp breeze set her heart racing and teased at the hem of her skirt. A fresh gust whipped the wayward wisps of raven hair that always escaped the confines of her braid. She breathed deeply again, filling her body with the brisk, clean air and whisking away the stench of slow decay and antiseptic attempting to permeate her bones. This time, her exhale carried a piece of her burden away.
Her sorrow eased, however briefly, Katniss popped open the trunk of her car and grabbed her black overnight bag. Sheâd go inside, get checked in, and then curl up in front of the Innâs fireplace with a glass of wine. If she was lucky, Peeta would be there already and they could chat. It was a real stroke of luck that his business seemed to bring him to Panem, New York every week since sheâd first met him here at the Inn. There were few things she enjoyed more than sitting beside Peeta as he sketched whatever came to mind and they talked about the days that had passed since they last saw each other. She loved putting aside the drama of her own life to listen to stories about the eccentric customers who frequented his gallery.
Her feet all but flew up the steps and she breezed through the door only to find Madge and Peeta engaged in a serious conversation near the antique dresser that Madge had placed in the foyer and from which she liked to conduct her business.
Peetaâs hand was fisted in the golden curls at the back of his head. He pulled his hair and then released it to scratch at the back of his neck. In the dresserâs mirror, Katniss could see that his face was twisted in consternation while Madge tried, a little desperately, to convince him of something.
Madgeâs offered Katniss a bright smile as the door closed behind her. âHello, Katniss. Welcome back!â
Peeta nodded in her direction, the expression in his usually bright blue eyes still troubled. âKatniss.â
âWhatâs going on?â Katniss dropped her bag on the Oriental rug arranged under the chandelier in the middle of the room.
Peeta grimaced and dropped his hand to the granite top of the dresser. âYouâre going to love this one, Katniss.â
Madge shushed him. âKatniss, the Inn has just been given a remarkable opportunity. A team from a Capitol TV travel show is coming to do a story on the area and they want to feature the Mockingjay Inn as Panemâs best kept secret.â
Katnissâs chest surged with pride for her friend. âWell, it is,â she said firmly. âThatâs wonderful, Madge! Such great exposure for you!â
Madge beamed, her blue eyes sparkling with excitement. âIt is. Iâm so thrilled. I just knew youâd understand.â
Peeta scoffed. âNo, she doesnât Madge. You havenât told her when theyâre arriving.â
A leery tingle of suspicion crept up Katnissâs spine. âWhen, Madge?â
âTonight,â her friend enthused. âSo, if you and Peeta would just agree, then everything will be just perfect.â
âMadgeâŚâ Peeta warned.
Madge caught her perfect pink bottom lip between her teeth. âWell, you see, Katniss,â she cleared her throat. âThey will be staying tonight, to get the full experience. They require four rooms, and the Inn has-â
âFive,â Peeta interrupted impatiently. âThe Inn has five rooms. Madge wants us to share a room.â
âNo,â Madge corrected hastily. âThe Inn has six bedrooms. The master suite has two bedrooms. Itâs usually booked by families, but you and Peeta are such good friends, Katniss, that Iâm sure it would work. Iâll cut your rate in half for tonight, if youâll agree.â
Katniss had to admit that a cut on her room was rather appealing. Travelling up to Panem from the city each weekend was costing her a fortune. She could stay elsewhere, but the lonely, cookie-cutter rooms of the hotels in the downtown held no appeal at all. She could stay at her sister Primâs house but that felt like a prison sentence, especially after Primâs revelation today. The quiet of the Inn and her time with Peeta have been her oasis in the middle of this ordeal. She wasnât sure she would get through the night if she wasnât able to put her troubles aside for a little while and enjoy his company. Plus, she knew she would be safe with him in the suite.
âOkay,â she decided. âIâll allow it.â
She almost laughed at their reactions. Madgeâs face was the picture of relief. Peetaâs was filled with shock.
âReally?â they said in unison.
She shrugged. âWho am I to turn down a cheap night in a four-star bed and breakfast?â
âPeeta?â asked Madge. Katniss watched him clear his throat and nod.
âIf Katniss is comfortable with it, then Iâll be fine,â he softly replied.
Madge was still clapping her hands in glee when Katniss turned to pick up her suitcase and started for the mahogany staircase. âAlright Madge, show us tonightâs accommodations.â
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The room was not what she expected.
As theyâd travelled up the broad steps in the heart of the house, Madge had nattered on about her  master suite, then sheâd opened the door to the room and whisked off to prepare the other rooms for her Capitol TV guests.
A queen-sized four-poster bed dressed in a russet orange duvet graced the main room of the suite and was heaped with a mound of plush and inviting pillows. In the corner, a couple of rich leather armchairs with embroidered footstools flanked a gas fireplace. Two doors stood firmly closed on each side of the bed. Behind one door was a tiny private bathroom with a marble stand up shower. Behind the other was tucked a double bed and a small nightstand. Madge had obviously renovated a walk-in closet and a dressing room to construct the suite. It was perfect for a family with young children.
Not so perfect for a couple of friends, Katniss thought, and scowled. âWeâve been bamboozled.â
Beside her, Peeta huffed in frustration. âIâm not sure how to be the gentleman here,â he frowned. âIf I take the smaller bed, I compromise your privacy. If I take the bigger bed, Iâve consigned you to the smaller room.â He scrubbed his hand over his face. âWe could get rooms in town?â
She turned to observe Peeta watching her warily. His light blue button-down was hanging over a pair of well-worn jeans, its sleeves rolled halfway up his forearms. His leather overnight bag still hung from his shoulder. Was he expecting her to have a fit over their accommodations? Not likely. It was still better than her alternatives. At least he wasnât suggesting they split up. She was a little afraid to be alone with her thoughts. Theyâd pull her under and sheâd never find her way out. Dropping her bag on the butlerâs bench poised at the foot of the bed, Katniss shook her head. âWeâre here now. Weâll just have to make the best of it. We can flip a coin for the bed later.â She lowered herself to the bench. âHow was your week?â
The corner of his mouth twitched and he closed the space between them, dropping his bag on the hardwood floor as he perched on the edge of the bed. âNot bad. Ms. Trinket finally bought that piece sheâs been eying.â
âThat was the modern one with all the bright colours, right?â
Peeta nodded. Effie Trinket, a retired Broadway actress who Katniss figured had more money than brains, was one of Peetaâs customers. âThatâs the one. Then I sold her a sculpture of a man made out of recycled cans. His legs once held creamed corn, I swear.â
Katniss couldnât help it, she laughed. âShe lurves you, Peeta. Sheâd take anything youâre selling. Youâll be husband number 6, I just know it. â
Peeta shuddered. âIâm pretty sure she made more money collecting on divorce settlements than she ever made on the stage. Her latest husband, Mitch, I think his name is, answered the door when I made the delivery this week. He was as drunk as a skunk.â
Katnissâs eyes rounded. âYouâre doing the deliveries now?â
âOnly if the client pays for a professional installation. Which Effie always does.â
She shook her head in resignation. âEffie, huh? Well, youâll have to be sure to give me her address before you leave. If you donât show up here next Saturday, Iâll send the police to check her basement. Sheâll have you tied to a post, trying to make you her love slave.â
Peeta gagged and threw himself back against the bed, clapping his hand over his face âYouâre going to give me nightmares.â
Katniss was still laughing when he raised his hand and turned his head to look at her; his face so close to hers that she could count each one of his long, golden eyelashes.
âDonât worry, Katniss. Iâll be here next week. Wild horses couldnât keep me away,â he whispered, brushing her cheek with the pad of his thumb.
Katniss wondered if theyâd ever been this close before. Sheâd never noticed the flecks of grey in the blue pools of his eyes or the tiny freckles that sprayed across his nose. His lips were smooth and softly parted.
A swift rap on the door interrupted her train of thought. âI opened you guys a bottle of merlot in the drawing room,â Madge called out from the other side before carrying on down the hall.
Peetaâs hands slapped against his knees as he sat up. âA drink before dinner sounds great.â He stood, and offered his hand to Katniss. âShall we?â
She took it and Peetaâs long fingers wrapped securely around hers as she followed him to the door. She missed their steadiness when he let go to allow her passage over the threshold ahead of him, but then they ghosted along the small of her back as he guided her through. The warmth of his touch lingered all the way down the stairs and into the drawing room.
After Peeta poured them each a glass of wine, they settled into their usual spots on the couch in front of the fireplace and Peeta began a story about his client, Mr. Craine, his strange beard and his taste for phallic imagery in modern art.
âHonestly, Katniss, I showed him a cubist portrait the other day. I told him the subjectâs nose, which was located where the ear should be, appeared to have been subtly but deliberately widened at the base, and he bought it on the spot.â
Katniss looked pensive. âI wonder if you could sell him a still life bowl of fruit.â
âIf itâs got bananas in it, consider it sold.â
They were still snickering when they heard the entrance door burst open and the house was filled with chatter.
âLovely, just lovely,â boomed a pompous voice. âItâs so perfectly quaint and cozy. What do you want to bet her grandmotherâs needlepoint hangs over the fireplace?â
A high-pitched female voice tittered and Katniss peered up at the mantle. She thought the intricate needlepoint was probably done by Madgeâs great grandmother, but wasnât sure what was so hilarious about valuing where you came from.
Another female voice, this one lower and more soothing murmured to the group.
âI donât know, Cressida. Is there a bell on that old dresser, there?â the male voice replied. âRing it, why donât you?â
âNo need, no need.â They could hear Madge bustle in and begin tending to their varying needs. Yes, the heat had been turned down in Mr. Heavensbeeâs room. There were no feathers on Ms. Cardewâs bed. Yes, the rooms were large enough to store the equipment. Yes, Madge could provide a vegetarian meal for dinner. No, vegan was not an option. Yes, the list of Cressidaâs food allergies had arrived by email. Yes, she had free wifi. Yes, there were private bathrooms in each guest suite. No her towels were cotton, not bamboo.
Peeta rolled his eyes and Katniss laughed again.
âYouâre sure you donât want to stay downtown?â
She imagined herself dissolving into tears in a sterile hotel room. âIâm positive.â Peeta smiled at her and raised his glass to sip his wine. âThereâs no way we could drink wine and talk about penis paintings in a hotel lobby.â
Peeta was still choking when the rotund body that belonged to the booming voice in the entryway appeared in the doorway to the room.
âBrilliant! Other guests.â His beefy hands collided in a swift clap and then he rubbed them together. âPlutarch Heavensbee. Iâm the producer of Byways and Getaways for Capitol TV. Weâre doing a segment on the town and the inn. But, donât you worry. Your visit will not be disturbed.â
Peeta, now recovered, offered him an easy smile and stood, offering his hand. âPeeta Mellark, â he said and gestured to Katniss. âMy friend, Katniss Everdeen.â
âA pleasure to meet you, â Plutarch enthused. Katniss wished she could say the same. He had invaded her favourite space and now he was interrupting her Peeta time. âWhat brings you to the inn?â
âJust up for the weekend, â he replied, and Katniss thought it odd that he didnât mention he had business in the area.
âExactly the demographic we are trying to reach with our show. I knew we were right about this place. Where do you hail from?â
âIâm the curator of PMG in the city. Katniss lives there too. Sheâs an environmental engineer.â
Katniss reached out her hand to shake Plutarchâs and it felt like sheâd wrapped her fingers around a dead fish. Her father used to say that a manâs handshake told you all you needed to know about him. âItâs a pleasure, Katniss. Well, what do you think? Isnât this the perfect spot for a romantic getaway?â
âI suppose,â Katniss conceded, though she found it hard to imagine staying here without tragedy looming over her head. âIâm from Panem, actually, so Iâm just here to see my family.â
âNo reason why the two of you canât mix family obligations with a little romance, especially in a setting like this one,â said Plutarch with a laugh before turning to Peeta.
As Plutarch and Peeta continued with their social niceties â it turned out Plutarch had heard of Peetaâs gallery and knew Effie â Katniss pondered why her path had never crossed Peetaâs until they had met here. They both lived in the same city. They were about the same age. But it was a huge city, and she wasnât much for the nightlife, so maybe it wasnât such a surprise after all. But even now that theyâd met, they didnât see each other between visits to the Inn.l They exchanged the odd text, but they never met for lunch or grabbed a quick drink after work. Sheâd never questioned it before, but now she wondered why that was, and whether that would change if she were no longer coming to the Inn each weekend. What if it didnât? Would another female guest take her place? The idea clawed at her.
âDinner is served,â called Madge from the doorway.
As they passed under the chandelier in the foyer to the dining room across the hall, Peeta tucked Katnissâs hand under his arm. She was surprised to discover his bicep was rock hard beneath the soft cotton of his shirt. She chanced a glance up at him and found his eyes full of concern.
âDid I do something wrong?â
âNo, of course not.â
The thumb of his free hand stroked over her knuckles. âI wasnât sure. You seemed so distant in the other room.â
âItâs not you, Peeta. Iâve just⌠Got a lot on my mind.â He nodded in understanding, but did not release her hand. That was fine with Katniss. His gentle strength was exactly what she needed.
In the dining room, the lights had been dimmed and the large table where they usually supped with Madge was already filled with the television crew. Katniss spotted Plutarch settling in beside a dark-haired woman whose face powder gave the apples of her cheeks a silver glow. Across the table from him was a man with a red-tinged beard and another willowy woman whose hair was shaved on one side of her head.
Madge pointed them to a table for two sheâd set up near the windows. âI thought you two might enjoy some privacy.â Peeta gave her a grateful smile and he led the way to the more intimate setting, where the flickering of the candle was reflected in the glasses between their places and glimmered in the polished silver that lay on the tablecloth. When Katniss reached her chair, Peeta quickly pulled it out for her and slid her into place. Madge arrived tableside and poured another rich red, wine into fresh glasses.
âThis meal has to be perfect,â she whispered to them, her back to the camera crew.
âIt will be, Madge,â Katniss soothed. âAll your meals are perfect. Theyâll love it.â
âLetâs hope so,â her friend sighed, and outlined the eveningâs dining choices: a braised lamb shank in a red wine sauce and served with rosemary garlic mashed potatoes or eggplant parmesan with arugula salad.
Peeta grinned at Katniss. âI know what youâre going to choose.â
âThe lamb,â they said in unison.
âFor you as well, Peeta?â Madge asked. He nodded and their hostess pasted a smile on her lips. âOkay then, wish me luck.â She turned back to the crowd at the table to take their orders.
âI guess you know what a carnivore I am by now,â Katniss teased after Madge left.
âYou told me a few months ago that lamb is your favourite.â
âI did?â
âSure, one night Madge served a gorgeous Beef Wellington and you said that you enjoyed it but that lamb was your favourite.â
Katniss remembered that night â the flakey crust wrapped over the succulent steak, the rich aroma of the wine. Madge had dimmed the chandelier over the dining room table and theyâd talked for hours. Peeta had told them all about the hours heâd spent on a beach in the south of Spain, painting the sunset over the Mediterranean Sea, frantically mixing his paints to achieve exactly the right shade of orange. His eyes were as blue as the water that night and Katniss has never looked a a sunset the same way since.
âI canât believe you retained a little detail like that,â she said.
Madge arrived with their meals and the savoury aroma curled tantalizingly toward her.
Peeta tugged his napkin from under his cutlery and laid it in his lap. âI remember everything about you, Katniss.â He cleared his throat and looked back up at her. âSo, how were things today?â
She fiddled with the stem of her wine goblet before lifting it to take a healthy swallow. âRough, as usual.â Rougher than usual, really, but sheâd promised herself she wouldnât think about that yet. âDad just lies there, fading to nothing. Prim takes Mom with her every day when she goes to work at the hospital. She drops Mom off in his room, works a 12-hour shift, then picks her up in his room when itâs time to go home. Mom doesnât leave his side, except to go to the bathroom.â
âSheâs certainly devoted.â
âShe is, but itâs more than that, Peeta. Itâs like she canât function without him. Dadâs car accident was four months ago, and sheâs barely said a word since it happened. When sheâs not at the hospital, sheâs sleeping.â
Katniss adored her father and sheâd missed him every day since heâd lost control of his truck on that icy road last winter. But it was her motherâs desertion that hurt the most. Her father might have been alone in his vehicle, but she and her sister had lost both of their parents that night.
And since Katniss lived and worked in Capitol City, poor Prim was bearing the day-to-day stress of caring for both of their parents. It was Prim whoâd called Katniss to say the doctors had decided their mother lacked the competency to make decisions about their fatherâs care. Prim had closed up their parentâs house and moved Mom into her place. Prim made sure Mom got out of bed, ate, washed herself and went back to bed. Prim dealt with the myriad of decisions that had to be made for both of their parents every day. All Katniss had to do was show up on Saturday morning, take their mother to the hospital and spend the day watching their father waste away while a respirator and a feeding tube kept his body alive and her mother desperately clung to the hope heâd wake up. When the sun began to set, she kissed her fatherâs cheek, took Mom back to Primâs house and put her to bed. Â Â
Every second of every minute that she sat in that ass-numbing visitorâs chair beside her fatherâs bed, Katniss wished she could be somewhere - anywhere - else; to run to her car, drive back to the city and never return. Only the bone-crushing guilt that her baby sister was dealing with this fiasco on her own had her packing her car every Saturday morning for the 60-mile drive north to Panem.
Well, that, and the man sitting on the other side of the table, whose smile lit up every room in her heart. He smiled at her sympathetically.
âIâd like to say I understand what youâre going through, Katniss, but my fatherâs death was so sudden, it canât compare. Just know that I havenât forgotten what that felt like. I understand what it means to lose someone so important to you.â His hand covered hers, and then his thumb stroked over her knuckles. âIâm here for you, Katniss, whatever you need. I hope you know that.â
His kindness made her want to laugh and cry at the same time. What did she ever do to deserve a friend like him? âThank you, I-â
âLook at that!â Plutarchâs voice boomed from the other table. âPollux go get your camera. Do you see it Cressida? Theyâre perfect!â
Katniss turned her head towards the other table where Plutarch was grinning like someone whoâd found the prize at the bottom of the cereal box. The woman across from him was considering them carefully, the long, platinum locks on the unshaved part of her head falling over her left shoulder. Finally, she nodded. âYes, youâre right. Theyâre perfect. And the setting is just right.â
âWell, you two. How about it?â Plutarch rose from the table and loomed over them. âWant to be on our show?â
Peeta was the first to recover. âWeâre not-, I meanâŚâ
âProfessional actors. I know,â Plutarch said. âThatâs what makes you so right for this. Your chemistry is palpable. It was slapping me in the face, even all the way over there.â
It was? Her attempts to process that revelation were interrupted by the thumps and rattles of the cameraman, Pollux, who came back into the room, a television camera hoisted on his shoulder.
She was already working up an impressive no speech when Cressida spoke up. âYou donât have to of course,â she demurred from the other table, âBut donât you want to help your friend? Footage of an actual couple enjoying the inn is so much more effective than shots of charming but empty rooms.â
One look at Madgeâs pleading face and Katnissâs protests crumbled. Three minutes on camera wasnât going to kill her. When she peeked over at Peeta, he was wavering too. But she knew he wouldnât agree, not without her.
âAlright, fine,â she acquiesced. Peeta gave a swift nod and Plutarch threw his hands up in joy. He might as well have won the lottery. Before long, Cressida â who apparently was the showâs director â had Pollux in position for a long shot.
âI want you to start wide,â she instructed Pollux, âAnd bring it in slowly on the two of them while they continue their dinner. Pollux nodded and got into position. She turned to Peeta, âAnd I want you to go back to looking at her as though sheâs the most beautiful thing youâve ever seen. And you,â she laid a hand on Katnissâs shoulder that Katniss had to force herself not to shrug off, âYou just keep looking up at him like he hung the moon.â
It was impossibly awkward, trying to eat while the camera was rolling. She was conscious of every chew of the lamb, every bite of her potatoes. They tasted like ash in her mouth because she couldnât relax. Meanwhile Cressidaâs words kept rolling through her head. Since when did Peeta look at her like she was beautiful? How ridiculous. Just the implication that he had feelings for her had even turned the tips of his ears pink. But now, that the camera was rolling he was putting on a masterful performance, smiling sweetly at her in the candlelight.
Three minutes turned out to be twenty. Each time Pollux finished the shot, Cressida reviewed it, picked it apart and had him shoot it again. Once Cressida was happy with the long shot, she had Pollux pan from one of them to the other. Then Peeta gazing at her. Then her doing her best not to scowl at him. She also had him shoot their joined hands before pulling out to their dinner.
She heaved a sigh of relief when Pollux finally turned off the camera, but by then her meal was cold. Madge collected their plates with a smile, and whispered that she was so grateful for their help that she was comping their room for the night.
At least they didnât bother her while she was enjoying her tiramisu. Plutarchâs plan that Peeta feed her a bite from his fork, was thwarted by Madge who suggested they all have a break and some dessert.
Katniss had never been so relieved to be finished with a meal. She was already making her escape to the staircase when Plutarch started wheedling for just a âfew more shotsâ in the drawing room. Before long, she found herself nestled hip-to-hip with Peeta in front of a roaring fire, Katniss tucked beneath his arm and their long-stemmed wine glasses clutched in their fingertips while the camera rolled.
âCut!â At Cressidaâs call, Pollux put the camera down and rolled his shoulders. Cressida was oblivious to his discomfort. âAlright, Katniss,â she coached. âThis time when Pollux starts recording, I want you both to be staring into the fire. Then on the count of five I want you to lay your head on Peetaâs chest. Got it?â
She bit her lip. It was one thing to hold hands over dinner or sit in front of the fire. This next shot felt terribly romantic and it seemed wrong to continue to pretend like this. Peeta picked up on her uncertainty and was arguing that they were tired when she realized she might never again have a chance at a moment like this with Peeta. Even if Prim changed her mind about tomorrow and she came back the following weekend, she had no idea whether Peeta felt anything for her but friendship. Suddenly, she found her tongue.
âItâs fine, Peeta. Donât worry about me.â His blue eyes were full of concern when they peered down at her.
âYou sure?â
She nodded, wondering if it were possible to drown in someoneâs gaze. âYeah.â The corner of his mouth quirked in a slight smile and she imagined pressing her lips to the spot.
Plutarch made a pleased noise. âOh thatâs perfect. Thatâs exactly what we want, Isnât it Cressida?â
âWeâll do it all in one take,â the director agreed. âFulvia, take Peetaâs glass, please.â
âIâm the host, not a gofer,â the other woman huffed as she snatched Peetaâs glass away.
âYouâre not a coat rack either, yet you insist on standing there and doing nothing,â Cressida snapped.
Katniss decided she rather liked Cressida, who turned back to her, her irritation buried under her professional veneer. âAs I said, you two, weâll do one last take and then weâll set you free. Katniss, I want you to do exactly as I said. Gaze at the fire, count to five, lay your head on his chest. Then Peeta, with your free hand, reach up to stroke her cheek. And if you two stare at each other with the same intensity that you just had, the Mockingjay Inn will be full for the next 10 years.â
âCan we please just do this?â Peeta sounded pained.
âRolling,â Cressida called. The room was silent except for the crackle of the fire. Katniss watched it dance in the hearth before relaxing against Peeta and laying her cheek against the soft cotton of his shirt. She could hear his heart racing beneath her ear. She closed her eyes, fixing the moment in her mind forever. The spice of his cologne, the natural musk of his skin. The firmness of his chest and the warmth of his body. Even if it wasnât real, she wanted to be able to recall this memory whenever her thoughts strayed to him. When his fingers grazed her cheek, Katniss opened her eyes and found his to be staring back at her, filled with fondness and, dare she say, longing?
âCut!â Cressida said and Peeta leapt to his feet, reaching out to tug Katniss off the floor.
âWell, itâs been fun, folks, but Katniss and I are calling it a night,â he said, never letting go of her hand. Cheerfully waving good night, but allowing no further discussion, he ushered her from the room. His jaw was tense, she noted, and a current was passing between them that was almost palpable in the air. When he glanced toward her, she could see something brewing in his expression that sheâd never noticed before.
When they reached the top of the stairs, Peeta opened the door to their room and allowed her to pass through before him. It snicked closed and they were left in the cozy space where it seemed Madge had snuck in to light the fireplace and turn down their beds. Lamps glowed on the end tables on each side the big four-poster.
âKatniss,â Peeta said, in a voice just barely above a whisper. Her eyes flew to where he stood by the door, watching her. She was reminded briefly of a stormy sea and then she found herself surrounded by him, wrapped snugly in his arms as his lips came crashing down upon hers. At once, they gave and demanded. Took and soothed. He bit her lip, begged forgiveness with a swipe of his tongue and then parted her bruised lips to slip inside. Here, her body sang as her tongue slid against his. Here is what youâve been looking for. What youâve been missing. The one you need.
When they were both gasping for air, he pulled back, framing her face with his hands, feathering kisses across her cheeks, the tip of her nose, her forehead before finally lowering his brow to hers. She locked her hands around his wrists.
âIâm sorry,â he apologized. âIâve been waiting so long to tell you how I feel. Youâve been dealing with so much. You donât need demands from me too, but the way you were looking at me down there, KatnissâŚ. I just- I couldnât hold back anymore. You mean so much to me and if you donât want this, Iâll try to under-â
She had to shut him up. Had to. So she rose up on her toes and kissed him with all that sheâd been holding inside for him; weaving her fingers into his hair as sheâd ached to do, revelling in the sharp scrape of his stubble, committing the taste of his lips to her memory. How could they both have been feeling this way and not known the attraction was mutual?
âItâs not just you,â she assured him when they broke apart again. âI didnât know how to tell you. Iâm not very good with words, especially when itâs important.â
A groan sounded low in his throat and his hands clutched at her hips, pulling her close. Heat flashed between them and she stroked the iron of his biceps and wrapped her arms around his middle before clutching the back of his shirt in her fists. Her own shirt rose slightly and his thumb stroked the bare skin that appeared just above the waistline of her jeans. Goosebumps prickled on her flesh and the sharp edge of need sliced through her again. A soft mewl escaped her lips and his hands slipped from her hips to stroke the soft curve of her bottom. His lips roamed her jaw then moved to suckle the sensitive spot on her neck just below her ear.
It felt indescribably good, like sheâd found a part of herself that she hadnât known was missing. She craved him, each touch drawing her ever deeper under his spell. Her panties were soaked and her mind was whirling. She wanted him over her, inside her, wrapped in the knot of her legs while he took her flying.
Was it wrong to give into this now? When theyâd only just confessed their feelings? When she knew tomorrow sheâd be kissing her father good-bye?
Peeta lifted his head to stare down at her. His lips were swollen from her kisses; his blonde locks tousled. His eyes burned with desire, but his gentleness and innate decency remained. Her hands slid into his hair, toying with the curls at the nape of his neck.
He leaned down to nuzzle her nose. âEverything alright?â
âPrim told the doctors they could unplug our dad tomorrow.â
With a curse, Peeta released her and then led her over to the bed. They toed off their shoes and curled up under the covers where he drew her into his arms. She lay there quietly, her body still thrumming with need, but her mind at peace.
âKatniss, Iâm so sorry. I know you were hoping heâd get better.â
âI was for awhile,â she admitted on a shaky breath, âBut now, I just want him to be able to hold on to his dignity. He would hate this, Peeta. More than anything. Sometimes I think he wonât wake up because heâd never want to face this.â
He pressed a kiss to her brow. âIâm sorry. I should never have started all that before. If Iâd known what you were going through-â
She covered her mouth with her hand. âStop. Please donât be sorry for that. I canât handle it if you say sorry for wanting me.â
He snorted and she wondered if heâd picked up that habit from her. âCanât be sorry for that,â he answered. âNot when it came to me as naturally as breathing.â
She gave her head a brief shake and raised up on her elbow. âWhat?â
âYou have no idea, the effect you have on me.â At her dismissive noise, he flipped her over, settling his body on hers and pinning her wrists above her head. âItâs true,â he insisted. âI walked into the drawing room that first night we met. You were curled up on the couch, staring into the fire, your braid falling over your shoulder. You turned to look at me and my mind just blanked. And then I knew.â
She felt like she should scoff and push him away, but another part â the part that remembered their first meeting like a favourite movie â hungered to hear the rest. âKnew what?â she croaked.
âThat you were perfect for me. I just needed time to convince you that I was perfect for you too.â
No convincing had been necessary. Not really. Not when she spent Monday to Friday thinking about when she would see him again. âI guess youâre lucky that work kept bringing you up here, then.â
He chuckled, pushing her hands higher over her head, his face so close she could feel the heat of his breath on her cheeks. âIs that what you think? That Iâve been coming up here week after week, for work? Do you really think there are that many art connoisseurs in this little town?â
âWell, why else would you-â
Peeta rolled his eyes, exasperated. âKatniss.â He clicked his tongue and shook his head. âWhy do you think?â
Oh. âBut you never called, hardly ever texted me during the week. How was I to know if you never gave me a sign?â
He blushed a little. âThere were plenty of signs. I guess I was waiting for one from you.â
She spread her legs until he was nestled between her thighs. Locking her feet under his knees, she brought her lips to his. âHowâs that for a sign?â
âIâll take it,â he rasped, locking his fingers with hers. She took his bottom lip between her own and clung, nipping lightly. He let go of her hands to frame her face with his own and buried his fingers in her raven tresses. Free to wander, hers fell to his shoulders, admiring their breadth before slipping between the two of them to loosen the buttons of his shirt. Dissatisfied with the amount of skin she could reach, Katniss tugged impatiently at the hem of his shirt.
âOff,â she muttered as she laved her way up his neck to take his earlobe in her teeth. âNow,â she whispered in his ear.
âBossy,â he complained from inside the shirt as he rose on his haunches to pull it over his head, too eager to be free of it to finish with the buttons. He tossed it aside and at last she could glory in his sculpted chest, his pectoral muscles dusted with blonde hair that narrowed into a trail that disappeared below the waistband of his jeans. She scratched her nails along his chest until they reached the button of his jeans. When she flipped it open, and reached for his fly, Peetaâs hand covered hers.
âYou first,â he insisted. âI need to see you.â he swallowed. âTake your shirt off, Katniss.â
The heat of her blush raced up her neck until even her ears burned. âIâm nothing special,â she protested. âLet me touch you.â
He shook his head. âIâve been having this dream about you. Please.â She huffed. Her fingers wrapped around the hem off her sweater so that she could whip it off, when he stilled her hand again.
âSlowly.â
Obediently, she slowed her hand. Her grey eyes locked on his face, watching his expression as she exposed the flat of her belly, the olive skin coming into view inch by inch. His eyes were dark, like bottomless pools. His tongue flicked out across his bottom lip, still swollen from her attentions. The sweater climbed over her rib cage and up her breasts before finally slipping over her head and falling into a heap on the floor. Â
She lay before him, her slight breasts still encased in the white cotton bra sheâd donned that morning. His eyes closed and he exhaled softly, then opened them and smiled. âYou are so beautiful.â
Her heart flipped over in her chest and she knew it was lost to him, that her feelings shone from every pore. He flicked open her jeans, lowered the zipper and lowered his lips to the soft flesh just above the hem of her panties. His mouth slid higher and her core burned as he laved a trail along her belly button, dipping in briefly before travelling up her sternum to the valley between her breasts. His lips caressed one soft mound and then the other. Her fingers wove themselves back into his hair, clutching him to her, and he moaned softly when she gave it a little tug to bring his mouth back to hers. He tasted of wine and she drank him in, revelling in the pleasure of his skin against hers. Her hips rose from the bed, sending a spike of heat through her as her most sensitive place ground against his erection. She moaned and arched her back as she moved against him again.
Peetaâs hand slipped beneath her to remove her bra, unclasping it, and then sliding it from her shoulders to toss it to the floor. Â He closed his hand over one before drawing the soft brown tip of the other into his mouth, the tension continuing to build ever higher between her legs. His name fell from her lips and he raised his head to give her a naughty grin and then lowered his mouth to her opposite breast. With his other hand, he rolled the nipple heâd already teased into a taut peak between his fingers.
Her hands ran down his back and slipped beneath his shorts, admiring the shape of his ass before driving him even harder against the apex of her thighs.
They grunted in unison, and Peeta raised his head, his eyes dancing as they laughed. He pecked her lips and then slid off of her. They lay side by side, their arms draped loosely over each otherâs sides. The next smile he offered her was sheepish.
âI didnât exactly come prepared for this,â he admitted, âIf you want to take this farther, that is.â
Katniss bit her lip as she considered the contents of her bag. âMe either.â She considered a moment. âWeâll just have to be creative,â she decided and sat up, smiling to herself when she noticed his eyes following her breasts.
She climbed from the bed and shimmied out of her jeans. âCâmon Mellark, match me?â
By the time she climbed back up on the bed, Peetaâs jeans were hitting the floor, his boxer briefs not far behind them. Still on all fours, her eyes roamed his body, the broad chest, the tight abs, the happy trail pointing the way to a long, hard cock. She licked her lips, thinking about what she had in mind and it twitched slightly. Amused, her eyes flew back to Peetaâs face. He shrugged. âItâs just saying hello. Come closer, please. I want to touch you.â
She crawled to him, enjoying the way his eyes followed the sway of her hips, then rose up on her knees before him. His hand slid up her inner thigh, trailing up until he brushed against her lower lips before sliding down again to her knee. He rose up on his elbow, placing a kiss against her hip.
âSo lovely,â he murmured against her skin. âIâm going to paint you, someday, if you let me.â His lips travelled just above the dark triangle between her legs while his fingers crept up her thigh again. âYour hair unbound, falling down your back in the sunshine. Your skin practically glows, Katniss. I can make all kinds of colours in my paint box, but I could spend all day trying to get your skin just right.â This time, his fingers caressed her slit slowly, drawing her breath from her in sharp pants, before delving deeper in search of the swollen bud seeking his attention. Her head fell back and a high pitched moan fell from her lips when he began to stroke it.
âPeeta,â she gasped, riding his hand.
âFuck, Katniss. Youâre so wet.â
Her hands slid slowly up her body, cupping her breasts and then rolling her nipples between her fingers. The pleasure shot straight to her clit and she groaned again.
âCan I taste you,â he asked, and she nodded.
âBut I want to touch you too. Lie back.â She turned in the bed, straddling Peetaâs body so that his cock was perfectly positioned for her mouth. She heard him curse again, then felt him lower her into position over his face. He licked her slowly, sending another jolt of pleasure through her body. Pleasure she needed to share.
Her tongue stroked down his cock, from the tip all the way to the root near his balls. The strangled groan that fell from his lips vibrated through her. She palmed his balls in one hand and then slowly began to stroke him with the other.
Peetaâs ministrations grew more passionate. He sucked her clit into his mouth, working it furiously with his tongue.
Katniss licked her lips, then took him in, sliding her tongue around the head and then deep into her mouth. Another groan sounded from behind her and she took him deeper, moving her hand in concert with her mouth. His hips rose and fell, even as he pulled her ever deeper against his face, his sounds of pleasure causing hers to spiral ever higher.
She drew back, licking the head of his penis before plunging down upon him again. His mouth worked her furiously, whimpers of pleasure bursting from her, when suddenly she felt her orgasm overtake her. She bucked against his face as he held her in place, drinking her up. She sucked him desperately, opening her throat and with one last groan, he erupted, and she swallowed each drop as it slid down.
They lay silently for a few minutes, while their hearts raced, Peeta kissing her thigh periodically. When she could avoid it no longer, she climbed off him. When she turned around, she could tell he was as stunned as she.
âI guess I should go to bed,â he said softly.
She lay her hand on his chest. âNo, stay with me.â
He smiled at her and held out his arms. She thought he whispered something into her hair as she snuggled down beside him.
Peeta sat up to pull the covers back over them. They each flicked off a light and before long she was once again wrapped up in his arms. They lay quietly in the dark as she listened to the comforting thud of his heartbeat just below her ear. She was just drifting off to sleep when she heard his voice again.
âIâd like to go with you tomorrow, if thatâs okay.â
She desperately wanted to say yes, which made her think she should probably refuse. âIt will be awful, Peeta. I donât want to put you through that.â
âTomorrow, your mother will be there for your father, and your sister will be there for both of them. Youâll be taking care of Prim. Someone should be there to comfort you, Katniss. And that should be your boyfriend.â
Her lips twitched upwards in the dark. âIs that what you are? My boyfriend?â
âIf youâll allow it.â
There was a brief silence before she answered. âIâll allow it.â
âAnd tomorrow?â
âIâll allow that too.â
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