#and its hard to know how to address that

[4vienne]

getting back into bnha is like simultaneously bad and good for my mental health...i think?

[dayurno]

this is somewhat of a vent post & something i said i would not do again but has been plaguing me enough that i think getting it out might feel better. so. has anydoggy else been. Baffled and upset by nora sakavic’s refusal to speak on how terribly aftg has treated its characters of color? with the author of the series coming back with a new book and starting up on her online activity again, and questions of what she’d change about aftg bubbling up, it’s particularly glaring to me that we are all playing this very long game of pretend where we ignore how badly the non-white cast has been treated & her lack of thoughts on it

and i understand not wanting to bring up nicky and thea because people pick on her for it. i’m not trying to discredit nora sakavic’s terrible history of getting harrassed online by aftg fans. but i think it is very cynical, and it is very juvenile, and most of all very cruel, that she gets to ignore the very real ways the books have set up these characters to be hated. i think it’s obvious why the characters who get the most hate are the only canonical characters of color, and i think we do not get to treat this like a deliberate decision on the fandom’s part when the books have put these same characters in degrading and embarrassing and terrible positions in the first place. aftg is not a story about nice characters with clean pasts, but there is a very specific nastiness to the only characters of color being a brown man who sexually harasses and later assaults the main character, a black woman whose only scene is her lashing out at her love interest after being ignored for the first two books, and the japanese villain who gets maybe two lines of complexity before he goes back to being a terrible person. the white cast, in comparison, while not at all free from flaws, are never shown to commit mindless evil; all of their actions are ultimately justified. the book goes out of its way to give them concession after concession. we know exactly who to side with, because aftg tells us who these people are. does nicky’s assault ever get addressed in the books? does riko’s reasoning to be the way that he is ever gets more than briefly aluded to? is thea reserved even a shred of humanity or grace in her one scene?

anyway. it’s been years of talking about this and the fandom has been constantly hostile to criticism in this regard, and more recently any criticism at all, and it’s Grating to be on the other side of this discussion. it’s exhausting to know that in ten years we do not get even an acknowledgment besides the author saying she will not answer questions about nicky and thea anymore. it’s upsetting and it’s ugly and i wish no one had to talk about this again, but we do because what i thought was common sense has been washed away by a sudden influx of no-nuance adoration for the trilogy. basically i hope we all explode

[daily-hanamura]

[reel-fear]

MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!

grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.

[scopophobia-polaris]

I swear to God the fact that frulleboi was releasing a comic FOR FREE and bitches harassed them about not updating enough when last time I check they....

Uploaded weekly

God even if they uploaded monthly or every few months some of you people need to grow the fuck up and learn to wait instant gratification culture has ruined a good lot of people

[wiki-howell]

guess who managed to mention dnp in his a level media exam 🔥🔥

[westwiiind]

i feel like ppl who don’t like the hidden world because all the dragons left have never experienced grief ever

[faggling]

I love taking care of people omggg 😍😍😍

[pegasusknightsonly]

paired ending with ingrid 🤮 and yet no supports with the other guy who cares about heroes relics and crests and thinks stealing is probably fine if its from the church........... my gorgeous mind so open to potential and my agony unlimited

[blueparadis]

the fact that i have been feeling so horribly down since yesterday is explainable now.

[taeyungie]

😺

[cmedics-hell]

thinking so much about the parallels between heavymedic and cheavycmedic right now i am losing my shit. medic's breakdown in chapter 7 over the ghostlights and the narration going "He needed someone brave, someone immovable. He needed Heavy." followed by Cmedic's breakdown in chapter 9 with the narration "He needed someone soft, someone kind, someone with a bleeding heart. He needed someone unlike Cheavy."

And then Heavy putting his hatred for Cheavy aside, because he realizes that Cmedic, someone who he believes is a genuinely good person, needs Cheavy. He encourages Cheavy to be better for Cmedic's sake.

do you understand how deranged i am over this do you UNDERSTAND how abnormal this shit makes me because i have been thinking about this 1 thing nonstop since i finished chapter 9 and i need someone to recognize my madness over here. i could write a full literary essay on the cheavycmedic dynamic this fic has. i could talk about them for HOURS

[wizardrights]

i wish there was a way to come out without coming out. have people use they/them pronouns and my chosen name and stop calling me “girlie” and “lady” and shit without my telling them i’m nonbinary. i don’t want to come out to family and have to try to explain it to them when they don’t actually want to understand anyway. i don’t want to be talked about as if i’m weird and i don’t want pushback and i don’t want overly eager allies. i want to just continue existing as who i am now to them (barely anything, just the quiet kid-now-adult who barely participates in family events) except they use my pronouns

[seraphim-soulmate]

oh jesus remember when before I left for the US I tried to get back into dating and I went on a date with a guy who was a server at a prestigious restaurant and for some reason I thought that nevertheless this might go well? bcs I really needed something to go well in my life.

we were both fine as people of course and had a nice chat but between my intense auto derision at the end of the date as well as mentioning that "I don't like food that much" uhh meant I did not get contacted again! you live and you learn! and what you learn is to say you're fucking autistic much earlier on in meeting someone (if things are going well and you feel safe sharing that) (which they always seem like they are because most people are normal but you might just not want to spend more time with them). and you live to meet people who you click with better! who bring out sides of you that make you feel okay with having a hard time with food! and who won't let you talk at length about yourself negatively or make you feel bad for being open about your self-analysis! and who make you want to be a better version of yourself, but that also, make you feel like this version right now is good too.

[arionawrites]

how tf did me facetiming someone i matched with on tinder turn into them giving me unsolicited advice about giving people your full attention after i already let them know that i recently got diagnosed as adhd and it’s hard for me to focus on just one thing/person and then them telling me that ��based on my behavior” they think i’m autistic like ?? didn’t ask, we literally started messaging each other like a day ago, even if i am autistic (which wouldn’t be a bad thing if i am) when has it ever been socially acceptable to tell someone you JUST MET that you think they’ve got some kind of mental disorder/illness/disability/etc.

my friends have mentioned that i might be autistic and that’s fine bc i’ve spent a lot of time with them and they actually know me and i take their perspective of me very seriously because they’re the people who see me 100% unfiltered and have known me whenever i’ve been completely unmedicated. i trust their word.

this person from tinder, however, i have sent like maybe 20-30 messages to where we talked about nanowrimo and i was like omg it’d be so cool to meet someone who also writes, whether it’s as friends or as more, i would love that—only for our facetime call to be less than 20 minutes long and for them to try and diagnose me as autistic just because i, after ALREADY TELLING THEM that i have adhd and after them asking about meds and me telling them that i haven’t taken my adhd meds today because i didn’t have work and also i’ve taken multiple naps today which has made my head even more foggy and made it even harder than usual to focus, found it difficult to focus.

like. i wasn’t unresponsive. i wasn’t ignoring them. i was listening and i was responding, i just also was looking between my phone and my laptop screen.

which okay i understand that maybe i’m just frustrated because of the “based on your behavior” comment because an 18 minute facetime call does not give someone enough interaction time to try and fucking diagnose me as anything, and maybe this is more of a we just didn’t vibe and that’s fine, i don’t think they’re like a bad person or anything and if nothing else i’m glad the mismatched vibes were felt before deciding to meet up or anything, but also.

eighteen minutes. literally eighteen minutes and they fucking “based on your behavior i think you’re autistic” and “here’s some advice, when meeting new people you should give them your full attention”

FUCK that.

[youngestdaughtersyndrome]

sitting in bed eating cheese absolutely stewing