#and it's not like it's gotten significantly better

[decoyhounds]

councilwoman sevika...

once sevika joins the council, it doesn't take long for the number of seats to grow. they need the man power, the original number just isn't enough to properly manage and govern 2 cities. sevika brings in more people. some of the older council members disagree with zaun having seats on the council and retire, opening up spaces for younger piltover politicians with a brighter outlook to join.

that's where you come in.

you're young and fresh blood. life is tough, especially on the council. you're passionate about making a change and helping people, but sometimes you can't help but feel like sevika lives to make your life in that room a living hell.

she's always teasing you, making fun of you in a way that just borders disrespectful. and she must be allergic to suggesting changes to your ideas in a nice manner. it always comes with a biting laugh and a smirk thrown your way, like you don't know any better. it aggravates you so much, you start getting your lick in too. antagonising her wherever you can, mocking her when she makes an honest mistake. nothing she doesn't do to you first. and the 2 of you never break the bounds of professionalism, you are councillors first before anything, but damn sometimes the tension in the room gets so thick everyone else starts sweating.

not to mention, the way she stares at you sometimes. like she knows something you don't. like a predator stalking its prey. it makes your heart flutter, much to your annoyance. you shouldn't, but sometimes you can't help but revel in her gaze. it's always heated, charged up with emotions you can't exactly read. her eyes are a mesmerising shade of grey, her lips kissable. you hate yourself for thinking of it.

one day after a long day of frustrating meetings where everyone feels like nothing was resolved, it's just the 2 of you left in the room, slowly packing up. everyone else had gotten out as quickly as they could after you and sevika started butting heads once again, much to everyone else's exasperation. you can't help but make one last sarcastic comment at her, just to rile her up. something about a trade route she suggested, and how your proposed idea would be miles better than hers. and it works. she slams everything down and rounds the table quickly, getting in your space and having you right up against the table. she's staring hard at you, neither of you say a word. just breathing heavily. and then you can't help but look between her eyes, down to her lips, and back. when you meet her gaze again, you know she's caught on. your breath catches, you feel like you're standing on ice.

she fucks you against that table, spreading you on it and drawing out lewd noises from your mouth as she degrades you and tells you how annoying and pathetic you are. neither of you care about the risk of anyone else walking in, all you care about is her warm, long fingers inside you as she drives you towards the most intense orgasm of your life. when you've recovered, you sit her back down on her seat and undo her pants, on your knees and eating her out until she's writhing on the chair and telling you how good you're doing. when she comes, her thighs clamp down on your head and you bask in the bliss of it all.

the next meeting goes significantly smoother.

[samaspic31]

Exactly. has star wars always tried to be radically progressive ? sure, yeah, the ot compared the alliance to vietnamese anti american imperialism resistance, the prequels depicted victims of religious persecution and genocide as sympathetic at the height of demonisation of islam and violence in the middle east. Has it always suceed? does it give characters played by actors of all ethnicities the same care ? does it avoid falling into racist tropes? fuck no. And it’s undebatable it historically has centered white characters. So yeah the dudebros are wrong to say star wars’ thesis is either politically neutral or milquetoast liberal “both sides have flaws”, but that doesn’t make star wars good at being radical and exempt of examination of how itself perpetuated racism in many instances. both can coexist.

"in star wars, the villains are old white men for a reason" and the heroes are almost always young white people. So.

[meat-loving-meat]

hinds and hounds

[bluemew-theturtle]

So like did we all agree we're going to ignore the fact that China is a little old lady now, or is it just me.

[think0fmehigh]

tw mental health vent , deleting later. i don’t need sympathy i just need to vent

i hateeee doing this but lately i’ve been feeling mentally really REALLY bad and i don’t know how to express how bad im feeling. like i have people that i can talk to but i don’t know how to even express that im just stuck and there’s nothing i can do except to continue living at home until i graduate??? get a job??? i have no fucking idea anymore?? my home life is part of the reason i’m so fucking stuck. i’m going to be 21 soon and it’s laughable that i’ve spent about 8 years feeling like this when i thought i would be better by now. i only got worse.

the only option other than just sucking it up is going to outpatient again and i really don’t want to do that. depression and anxiety are the worst, i wouldn’t wish these feelings on anyone. and suicidal ideation consumes a lot of my thoughts and i just can’t do anything except be in my bed rn. my therapist has had a lot of health issues and was unable to meet for a long time so i think that was a ticket to a downward spiral mid semester. it’s not her fault and im happy she’s feeling better now but i didn’t really want to see anyone else cuz i didn’t feel like it would be beneficial. so i just didn’t have a professional to speak to for a while. we are just now getting back into a normal schedule.

i think i needed to vent to you guys, bc it’s always the tumblr people that understand this shit at the end of the day lol. my room is so messy which makes me so anxious and my entire wardrobe is unwashed on the floor bc all the energy i have is spent taking care of the stuff that goes wrong (literally i think im cursed, but im not gonna list out everything that has happened in 2024) and taking care my mom, who’s been disabled since i was 15. i feel such awful shame and guilt from not doing the most i can for her but i can’t even do things for myself. if i tried working more frequently to save up money to move out i fear i would just collapse and if i did move out my mom would still be here and left with my incompetent family members.

idk what i even want from this i just feel really lonely cause the people that do love me don’t understand depression or don’t know how to help me. i also was able to figure out that i probably have low level autism, i think i was vocal about that on my old account. so that’s just a thing i can’t even really grasp bc everything is just so shitty but i know i could do more to help myself now that im aware of it. i can’t even enjoy anything rn like literally nothing brings me joy. all i can do is just be like shits tough and i gotta get through it but i don’t know how long i can keep telling myself that. plus i still don’t have any luck in romantic relationships and i tried dating apps and stuff and i can’t even get past the talking stage anymore LMAO so that’s so fun. all my friends are in relationships and i’m still just sat in my room rotting. i think having a partner who understands would help me tremendously bc i could focus on that and have support but that’s not in the cards for me ig.

i just fucking hate this world lollll and i’m american and u know who our president is again and that’s horrific in every way as a bisexual woman. the election made me lose some of the crumbs of hope i had left too. it’s bad out here.

i’m on winter break rn so i have time to not be bombarded w college but it’s not really helping. i still have no sense of relief or motivation to do anything for myself.

[youredreamingofroo]

I don't think anybody rlly cares but I'd like to share that one of my parakeets, bolt who has been incredibly hand averse since I got him, has finally started to become comfortable with me, comfy enough to feed from my hand without *bolting* (ba-dum tss) at the slightest hand movement 🥹🥹 I'm sooo proud of him, I was super worried he would never become comfortable with me, he still has a lot to work on, as he still is jumpy, moreso than Scones (his companion), but progress is progress and this is the best kind of progress rn !!!

[sonflwers]

she vaso on my vagal till i syncope

[notmoreflippingelves]

I need to ramble more about Esteban Flores, because everything about this character and his arc seem as though it was tailor-made for me and specifically designed to make me absolutely feral.

This going below the cut, both because I do not want to spoil the entire show for my friend who is think of watching Elena of Avalor and because I go full-on apologist here and I feel like that will annoy some people.

Imagine making the absolute worst mistake than anyone could possibly make, because you are 18 and scared and stupid and tired of being ignored. And it results in you losing your family and your freedom and what little self-respect you had left because you know all of this is very much your own fault.

 And so you proceed to spend the next 41(!) years eking out a miserable existence in an oppressive state. Upon fear for your life, you are forced to be the reluctant right-hand of the evil witch-queen who conquered your country, killed your aunt and uncle and trapped your cousin in magical prison. In spite of this, you nevertheless do everything within your limited power trying to hold the kingdom together and make sure the people don't starve, because the queen certainly doesn't care about anything except greedily bleeding your country dry.

And no exaggeration, this is just what canon explicitly gives us outright in the pilot. Like that's not even getting into head canons/interpretations/common sense of what exactly this sort of life entailed for you. Because this is a children's show so there's only so much they will let us imply about living under that kind of system. Especially as a young, attractive, terrified person who is the last living member of the previous royal family who is likely being kept alive partly as a combination trophy/punching bag for the evil queen (even if the show never actually states this outright).

And then by some miracle, what's left of your family comes back after all this time. The evil queen is overthrown, partly because you yourself finally stood up to her at a critical moment. You and your country are finally free again, and what's more, you and your family are finally together again after over 4 decades. But you still feel like an outsider--partly because you always were an outsider in your family even in the better times and partly because  over the past 41(!) years, time stood still for all of them except you.

And as a result, no one ever cares to ask what those 41 years were like for you or even just if you’re doing okay. Not only because your family can’t even begin to comprehend what it must have been like, but also because they don’t care to even *try* to understand. Because the narrative has decided that everyone else’s respective traumas is worth way more than your own.  (Though tbf the narrative really doesn’t dwell much on anyone’s trauma in general but yours gets especially neglected , except to briefly play it for laughs or to remind you that your trauma is *your own fault and only your own*).

For a little while, life is pretty okay. It’s weird not having to watch your step every instant to make sure you’re not putting a toe out of line. And so you never really fully break out of your “survival mode” conditioning, making sure that you are still considered important and valuable enough to keep around.

But all the while, you know that your past—and especially your terrible little secret—is eventually going to come back to haunt you. And it does. First via blackmail and then via the return  of the evil witch-queen herself. Fortunately, she is defeated for good before she can take avenge your “betrayal of her” but you still have to deal with seeing the ghost from the past who terrorized you for 41(!) years.

And then, your secret finally comes out in the open and you are disowned by your family—the family you *just* got back a few years ago—for an admittedly super bad decision that you made over four decades ago and have regretted ever since.  Rather than face the rest of your life in isolation (as though you didn’t already have enough of that during the previous regime), you escape before you can be sent into exile. This puts you directly in the path of *another* terrifying, evil magical milf who you are forced to ally yourself with. Because you have 40+ years of conditioning that when a woman like that says “jump,” you say “how high?” if you are to have any hope of survival.  Especially given that the only people who could’ve protected you from her are the family and friends who have just definitively washed their hands of you.

Despite this, you are still trying to seek your cousin’s forgiveness and to protect her in the little ways that you can. But you are constantly getting rebuffed over and over again, and if anything, your attempts at reconciliation only seem to make your cousin angrier, and she now hates you just as much as—if not MORE than—the woman who actually murdered her parents.

Your cousin is so angry at you specifically that she actively ignores the greater threat of Witchy Milf 2.0, because she happens to see your face and is enraged. This ends up backfiring spectacularly for you both, though it does indirectly lead to the defeat of said Witchy Milf 2.0.

But guess what?  There’s no time to breathe or celebrate, because her defeat occurred during the successful summoning of a third power-mad, feminine-presenting magical humanoid and her allies. At least, this one treats you with some initial respect and actually gives you outright what you-think-you’ve-thought-you-always wanted. But she also turns your family and friends to stone in front of you as a warning of what’s to come if you dare to defy her.

But this time, you are finally done with this, have finally lost enough that you have paradoxically found your courage. You sacrifice yourself to save your cousin, and she is finally able to accept that you’ve sacrificed and changed enough that she can forgive you. And her forgiveness is so powerful and pure that it not only restores you to life but also undoes all the other evil magic. Together, you defeat this final enemy, paradoxically by banishing her to the same Underworld where your mistakes accidentally sent your aunt and uncle and her parents long ago.  Peace has been restored. You have returned for good and are finally secure in your family’s love.

And after all that, there are *still* people (both presumably in universe and in the fandom outside of it) who say it's too little, too late and that it would've been better for everyone if you'd simply stayed dead.

Like I'm just... are we really victim-blaming the character who has 45 years of unprocessed trauma and guilt (both survivor's guilt and guilt in general) because of a decision he made when his brain was still developing and he was being manipulated by an older, much more powerful person?

[sleepy-stitches]

hi. ive taken this trip now. ive come out with new and controversial opinions on bus systems

[maximusboltaqon]

look if triton was able to be vox-ified after being literally blown up by a bomb that he was holding inches away from his face. then i think some of the other inhumans were also ok. like i think they could have just broke the mind control on most of them and theyd have been ok. there were like,, 15k inhumans attacked by vox,,, i think more than just the royals got out of that one

[sevicia]

last few times I've come to the hospital the mental health section receptionists have been like "Hi Dante!" like they don't even ask for my RUT anymore which is yknow the standard thing to do. they're just like yeah yeah Dante we've all heard of him we all know him .... and the 1st lady to do that wasn't TOO surprising since she's the one who usually makes my appointments but just now I had to change some appointments I had in March to fit better w/ my school schedule and the lady that greeted me I had seen maybe ONCE during my whole time coming here .... and she called me by my NAME ?????

[minafeu]

Me this afternoon before publishing the new chapter: There is nothing you or I can do to bring him back now

Me after finishing chapter 2: He has risen baby girl *iris by the goo goo dolls plays in the background*

[thousandheadeddolphin]

Guess who just got a new pfp

[opens-up-4-nobody]

holy moly your art has improved so much since the last time ive been on here!!!!!! every time i see your blog your art gets even better

Aw, thanks 🖤

[theskywaslookingback]

My dad: *texts my mom the day after Father’s Day to see if I was mad at him because I didn’t call him*

Also my dad: *sends me a text on Easter and then radio silence for months* *does not call to ask if I have plans for my birthday* *does not text to check in on me* *does not invite me over to his house for anything ever* *allows my stepmom to use his money to prioritize her kids over me* *literally doesn’t ever act like he wants anything to do with me actually* *cancels or changes plans at the last minute because he decides he wants to drink instead* *offers to help my mom pay my car payments and then never does* *gets us gym memberships and then cancels them without warning because he didn’t have the money and just doesn’t tell me* *cannot hold a thirty second conversation without mentioning ‘the Chinese threat’ or ‘Covid was invented by democrats to replace Trump in office’*

My dad: Why doesn’t my child call me? I am the specialist most important person in the whole wide world. What could she have to be mad about?

[sirompp]

i really want to make like a tomodachi life. mythbusters/fun facts/experiments video since i have an emulated copy of the game on my computer (it IS the british version and the audios a little funky but. we ball) and this game is genuinely so so interesting to me

but. i cant think of anything.

like i get one idea and im like aw man. i should do that. but i want to make the video and a video with only One Thing Being Tested is a little lame so i dont do it and i never write stuff down so i forget.

So. What im TRYING to say here is. if you have any myths or rumours you want checked or any experiment ideas or fun facts to check out with this game. Please reply to this post with them and Im gonna make a list and try to make a video trying them out!!