#and it works so much better verbally
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he makes me so crazy. most repressed man in the world chooses a career that encourages and feeds his repression and within that career enforces professionalism to the upmost
#id in alt text#disco elysium#wild to me when people hc kim like. talking harry through his emotions. he Would Not Do That#he ACTIVELY discourages harry from feeling things or discussing his feelings#idk i'm only like halfway through the game maybe it changes later on but. i feel like it maybe won't#he certainly reassures and comforts harry when necessary but actual verbal expression of emotion is wayyyy out of his wheelhouse#his advice for harry on getting through a total mental breakdown is 'focus on work it'll make you feel better'#he sucks. i love him so much <3
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...... word-of-god saying that miranda sees freckles as very attractive. she's deeply into freckles. partially it might be because she's an abyssal and they look a little like her bioluminescence, partly because merfolk find striking patterns on the extremities and other particular parts of the body attractive, but mostly this is just part of her personal taste and something shes into.
its one of the things she likes very much about aaravi, and likes keeping track of where all the little freckles and dots are on her body.
#all the care guide says is 'biomass'#miravi.txt#monster prom#tbf flashing the bioluminescence on her face is mostly an expression of discomfort or upset#but also markings on the nose crest specifically for merfolk is seen as Attractive#(which is why a lot of shallow water species will have patterns on it or have it be differently colored)#and freckles are close enough to this#freckles on the ears shoulders and hips would be a lot. closer. to the kinds of bioluminescence that miri would be attracted to#honestly miri may or may not really really like aaravi's doofy ears#just because they ARE so similar to merfolk fins#and emote and move in a similar way. making it easier for miranda to read aaravi.#tbf this doesnt necessarily work in reverse aaravi had to learn just as much as everyone else#to read miri's earfins and what they Mean#and her ease in learning mostly had more to do with. well. to put it bluntly aaravi being autistic.#where she has trouble reading human facial expressions and did the thing a lot of people do#where animal expressions are simply taught MORE and in an accessible way that doesnt assume innate knowledge#on top of her job putting her in closer contact with wild animals than social situations and people#so she just picked it up quicker because she was better prepared to learn that#and it also helped miranda didnt immediately assume her own expressions were always mean or rude#because aaravi just. doesnt emote like allistic people and gets treated badly because of it.#but having some highly visual markers that she could keep track of helped! on top of how much of merfolk emoting is verbal!#aaravi appreciates it greatly. she wishes more people made noises to directly tell you what emotion they were experiencing.
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notoriously awful at remaining up to speed on current events and trends
worse still at keeping in touch with my friends and my loved ones
had to ask my partner if it was me who cleaned the dishes or him
dissociation is so exhausting, dude… it just gets worse as you get older and take on more responsibility
i kind of hate thinking about the people i care about… they must think that i don’t give a fuck about them, but i do… im just in a constant state of confusion
i don’t know what to say to people directly, other than saying sorry and slinking away
always in apology to others and confusion to myself
that’s not a good friend to have, is it?
the reality is i’m living moment to moment, confused, a little scared, a bit excited
you’ll see me online but not quite present… if there’s one constant here, it’s that im sorry…
im sorry
im sorry all the time
i wish I could be better to my friends
#dissociative disorder#unspecified dissociative disorder#im sorry if this came out the blue a little bit#I’ve just felt like….. really truly horrendous about how little I keep in contact with people#how little I know what to say#I think it’s why DE was so impactful for me… Harrier as a character#he just makes so much sense in my head with how mine works#with the chiming voices and the strive to be better#I want to point at it to everyone and say this is how it works up here in my skull#but I’m less verbal than that to be fair#idk…. this has made me really sad the past few months#im gonna be okay#I just don’t want my friends to suffer me much to be honest#im like… a ghost? and they deserve more than a ghost#idk…….. sorry new followers but like… not really…
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hello bees how are u today
oh generally unappreciated, exploited, and unhappy about how little accountability, communication, or care for employees there is for a state and rich people funded institution. i really want to make this my 2 weeks notice. in fact, i don't even want to be back here tomorrow. thanks for asking!
#fantasy work vent rp 1shot where i fucking g quit for a better job LMAOOOOOOOO#miserable fucking place#getting told in writing lost wages are being ✨reviewed ✨ while the open verbal narrative is that we are asking a paltry amount#(compensated for scheduled hours during a really cool week where the citys water infrastructure failed)#when the ceo makes 3mil a year and most of us are paycheck to paycheck#but we cant officially organize. bc its fucking state. is CRAZY#i got a cute little corporate denial. let this be my last straw lol#really fucking bad pr look how much they do not care one single fuck abt their employees#not unique to me but actually not being able to do anything is INSANE.#whatever at least theres strong agreement overall that shit sucks. gonna look into collective brgaining#but we cant have official union support and that is so awesome#department heads i have never met who use ai generated texts to show their 'appreciation' like dont even bother dawg ive never met you. die#bees personal
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Trying to access headspace/innerworld except when you try to visualize the places you remember, they're just memories and not the real thing, and when you visualize a SINGLE person/character/sentient thing, it's like Other Wybie from Coraline where bro can emote and make expressions but can't speak at all.
And yes I can TELL that the visualization isn't REAL. It's like looking at a photograph of a place you've been to.
#sepiasys.txt#Naturally one took to a specific muse for the other person/character in the scene#once realizing/coming to terms with the fact it would probably work better if one simply saw themself present wherever they manifested#As you can {[clearly] fucking} tell; 👑's faceclaim or stolen identity or 'source' came to mind. OH MY GOD IT REALLY IS LIKE A CORALINE OTHE#Well sorta ig /lh. I won't lie with how much I was thinking about the appearance; like 'well there's atleast 3 versions of this character b#AUs so maybe it could be a different one' but try as I might I could not put a different body to the idiot's face#I unfortunately receive smug looks from this definitely npc in my mind#Also. Did wonder if 'pseudo-verbal' speech internally is limited to those closest to front. or smth.#Like if you exist and are a thing why can't you talk? I don't want a purely vibe based conversation from you while I use words 🥺#I even suggested writing and probably got ignored initially. or the response vibe of 'No that won't work' or 'I don't want to' smth#Btw saying that I could absolutely see this dude drawing on a pad of paper (or whiteboard now?) and like being far away and tapping on a#wall of glass. Like just an actual physical barrier. Looks more like clear plastic though in my opinion /pf#I'm gonna try and go back to it and pretend to write my findings even though I need to sleep real soon
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Were they each other’s first anything (kiss, relationship, etc.)?
Who’s better at comforting the other?
For any ship or selfship that you would like! :) <3
Well when left to my own devices today I'm just gonna do Mariocest because the movie has infected my brain. Thankyou very much for asking.
4. Were they each other’s first anything (kiss, relationship, etc.)?
They were each other's first everything. They've always been together. I can't imagine either of them ever had another relationship. Maybe a handful of crushes, they both probably got asked out once or twice, but they're so much more important to each other than anyone else could ever be. They're each other's everything.
8. Who’s better at comforting the other?
I could see this going either way, because they know each other so well. Mario has more experience comforting Luigi, and Luigi has a better range of emotion than Mario. Does that make sense?
I'm gonna say Luigi's better at comforting Mario. Mario faces the problem head on, where as Luigi knows how to take a moment to be upset, let that feeling out, and calm back down first.
#Mariocest#Thankyou for asking#shipcest#I apologize I'm going to be talking about this for a hundred years it seems#I just. I love them.#They are eachother's everything#I really am soft for a Twincest ship that's just. I don't know where I end and you begin we have ALWAYS been together#I love them I love them I love them SO much#They are a PAIR. Do NOT separate!#Not to say Mario doesn't feel a wide range of emotions btw I mean like#When your an emotional guy (coward) you end up knowing your own emotions and other's emotions a lot more#Out of necessity#Maybe I'm projecting#Anyway Mario's first step to Comfort is put himself between Luigi and the problem#He wants to take whatever it is head on as physically as he can#He's also a lot quicker to get mad FOR Luigi in situations rather than like. Empathize and feel Luigi's emotions#Meanwhile Luigi seems Mario frustrated or upset by something and thinks#'What would make me feel better in this moment?' And the usual answer is a hot plate of pasta and someone to listen#And yeah that works for Mario too#He's a verbal person Mario he says his thoughts and issues out loud and it encourages him to get back up#Take the issue on head on like he likes to#That's what I was trying to say but I didn't want to talk for nine years in the actual post#Thankyou again for asking very blessed with my Mariocest obsession being fed
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Me when i just gened a whole pair and then a new breed drops and itd fit the pair lore and appearance wise so much better when will the pain end
#vani verbals#flight rising#said thru grit teeth at least the genes they have are cheap#my latest undertide pair would work so much better as a fathom pair....#based on the lore tidbits weve seen of them so far#and i think theyd look better too since i cant stand how either adult UT pose looks#this is so painful. and its happened . TWICE NOW#i completely gened my plague UT pair as faes RIGHT BEFORE UNDERTIDES WERE REVEALED#SO I HAD TO REDO THEM#AND THEN I HAD TO REDO THEM AGAIN WHEN THE GENE EXPANSION FIR THE BREED DROPPED#*AND THEY ARENT EVEN POPULARRRRR*
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listen okay ive been going on about this for like a week now but i just think it's a little funny that ever since i had to stop therapy there's been a MASSIVE increase in my writing. it is not only a wonderful creative hobby but also helps me get through shit and process my emotions and i dont think that's bad at all! but i am living up to the stereotype of creatives Not Being Okay and i do love that and think it's a little bit funny.
#in fact. the less okay i am the better my work gets and that is sooooo toxic cancel me#i wont fuck myself up TOO bad on purpose de#*dw#but anyway i keep being told by even like GOOD therapists that i know all the things anyway and i just verbally work out the problem w them#listening rather than them give me advice so maybe i should just continue this i might actually Be Good. ........ for now.#and YES i know it's probably a bit of a maladaptive coping mechanism but im autistic im allowed one (1) maladaptive coping mechanism as a#treat. and i dont watch tv and havent been gaming SO LET ME HAVE THIS#i must CREATE WITH MY HANDS it feels so much more relaxing to me than doomscrolling and also silences the developing workaholism by giving#me a Product#OKAY IM SHUTTING UP NOW I HAVENT TALKED MUCH TODAY IVE JUST BEEN WRITING SKFBDJDJ#'im shutting up now' i say on my Own Blog as if anyone gonna read this anyway wkfjeksjs#in my can't stop wont stop era fr#lessons of the hand and the mouth
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today in girlfailure hours: got sacked
#now im jobless loveless friendless (not really but yk) broke and degreeless#at least i had the job working for me. time to get on indeed dot com#don’t ask me what happened. i was careless and forgetful one too many times#and apparently sneakily opening your phone at the till to read the book you have downloaded while you wait is a no-no#i don’t know how i’ll explain this to my mother but w/e.#wish my workplace got blown up or something. this is so much lamer#bracing myself for impact (all sorts of probably justified verbal abuse) (it’s okay i can watch a sylvia noble scene later on and feel#better through recognition of self in recognition of the other. or something)#at least i got to be snarky at the end and genuinely say ‘maybe i’ll find a real place that actually pays me next time’ before i left#jamie.txt
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Waiting on seeing if a more solid job wants me and if not I'll explore some other options, that'd be real nice to have a consistent, scheduled job again but a lot of WFH stuff entails very specialized experience and certifications and/or regular phone and Zoom use with customers and not just coworkers/higher-ups and that is way not my jam. This is also just a weird time of year for jobs anyway based on my experience
#my audio processing goes out the window on phone calls#and sometimes I'm non verbal so that's just not a feasible thing for me/unfair to customers to have to deal with that#any digital meetings I've been in had the chat as well and we just did that and actually speaking was reserved to admins/etc.#which is a format I enjoy very much lmao#vena vents#not art#Having a job that forces a schedule on me even if we can make our OWN schedule makes my mental health get way better#even the part time job that I worked like 10-16 hrs a week was a big mood boost (and I miss it)#Because even with WFH I still clocked out and was done for the day
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no bc i agree i think kirishima can only handle being cool headed for so long but like does he feel bad for snapping that bad or no🤔🤔🤔🤔
(ref post here! - @/katsukikitten)
of course he does!!! ....kinda.
i mean. i think it depends of if it's really your fault or not. and the situation you're in.
Like if he snaps when you aren't aware he's in a bad mood, or you're just trying to be helpful about something, like stress or eating enough (he never means to actually make you cry) ...
but if you're picking on his nerves about something you know he doesn't like? it's not like an apology is completely out of the question......... but he's not exactly going to feel... bad, either.
gives an apology that's more like a reminder, so to say. a hug and a kiss to remind you that he loves you, but also a stern look that says "you better not do that shit again" (gee, i wonder who he learned that from?).
i also think there's, idk, maybe three/four outcomes?
the nice one where he coddles you, the mean one where he coddles you but doesn't feel bad.......... the one where he fucks the shit out of you (gentle) to make you feel better, AND the one where he fucks the shit out of you (mean) if he can't think of any other way to make it up to you AND get the message across at the same time.
it's a lil freaky.
#kirishima#he def has that weird problem where you can't tell what is too much until it's WAY too much#so you'll be giggling laughing playing with him and not realize he's at the end of his wits#this is like... if he's busy or not in the mood or whatever (not like when you're both into the play fighting)#and that's really what hurts#and yeah he feels guilty abt not being clearer (even if he does feel like you should know better)#and i also feel like ... he gets upset if u can't tell what's important to him#for ex. like staying home from work or not caring about certain things#he just can't verbalize it in other ways than yelling it out#i have no idea#sorry kitten if this ask was meant for u!!#but thanks for letting me answer anon!!!#making me crave some blood riot out here#anon#caitie things#gen
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if u ever wonder why a reply takes me a while its bc it sits in my drafts like this for 30 years
#i come up w one piece of dialogue and write that#no but this one little line is. i actually have paragraphs worth of action and expression in my head for this reply i just have to.#i have to work out how to make it something that isnt hard to reply to if that makes sense#like jase is very introspective and doesnt always have the most. Outward responses to things#but i know that can be hard to work w in threads so i try to give a little something without it feeling ooc#if u look at jases blog from 2019ish its just. its All Dialogue he spoke so much bc i was scared to not give dialogue#but we have grown since then i have learned to better have communication without always being verbal ab it#now when he talks hes very iconic and funny actually#obviously this little bit of jason being all 'healing isnt linear!!!' is soft and meaningful#but i also think its so funny for him to just 'its not a line ❤️' so true buddy
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me vs the urge to rewrite my bio for no reason
#i say for no reason there is one it's because i wrote it almost a year ago and i think i could both do so much better now#And have established things that don't. necessarily contradict whats in there but are more specific#idk i think part of whats making me feel weird currently if the nature of having to leave so many things open#on one hand i like doing that both to adjust to other peoples portrayals and to have different opportunities for dynamics/aus based on that#but i . am worrying a lot of what i do comes off as character inconsistencies.... beyond just. the complexity of who michael is naturally#i dont know i am trying to pinpoint why i'm feeling weird and like i'm not really bringing anything interesting and that?? makes Some sense#but also it's quite literally not that deep and i have other things to worry about rn KDFHSDJSF#this is not me looking for reassurance or anything lmao i'm just trying to verbalize my thoughts so they stop bothering me and i can get my#fucking work done instead JHDFGSJ#⁂ ・゚: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc
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the way i fully cannot move my arms above my head right now. #mma
#general#sorry i know people talking about the gym is super annoying. um i just love fighting people physically so much that i need to share that lov#e sometimes. verbally to other people even. the joy in being so so so so bad at beating up men but GETTING BETTER#i'd be general neutral im open to beating up anyone but unfortunately only men are in literally any of my classes. so.#well. getting beaten up by anyone is a better way to put it. with where my skills are at.#love to spend my days on somewhat hopeless incredibly grueling tasks (MMA and japanese language acquisition)#not even trying to be good just trying to work towards sort of okay
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WIBTA for taking advantage of my boss’ possible manic episode?
I know this already sounds bad but hear me out.
So I (30M) am the sole employee of this guy (62M) who’s honestly just a miserable boss and an even more miserable person. It sucks so bad working for him—the pay is horrendous, he’s verbally abusive, and the working conditions are awful (in the winter I literally have to stay bundled up the whole work day because he refuses to put the heat on in the office). He wouldn’t even give me holidays off if it wasn’t for the fact that there’s basically nothing to do those days because everywhere else is closed. I’m almost positive he unironically thinks poor people should die if they can’t work. His nephew (aka his only living relative and just the nicest guy) came by yesterday to invite him to Christmas dinner and he told him he’d see him in hell.
I cannot stress this enough—it’s BAD. I’d quit, but it’s been hard finding a better job and I’ve got four kids at home, including one with special needs.
Anyway, so here’s where I’m wondering if I’d be the asshole. Today was Christmas Day and he showed up at my house out of nowhere (huge red flag, I know). At first I thought he’d forgotten I had the day off and he was here to chew me out, which was worrying enough, but then his whole demeanor changed and he was super happy and excited and talking about how he was going to raise my salary. He even mentioned possibly making me a partner in the firm.
Now if that was it, I’d feel a little weird about the suddenness of it but it’d be fine. I’m not going to complain about having more money to feed my family. But then he started talking about how he wanted to pay our mortgage off. He talked about wanting to pay for our son to get the very expensive medical care that’s probably going to save his life. He mentioned at one point that he was going to be donating a huge amount of money to charity too—I knew he was rich but it staggered me. All this from a guy who doesn’t (didn’t?) even want to turn on the heat or the lights because it costs too much money.
It was such a sudden and drastic change that happened very literally overnight and now I’m kind of concerned he’s having a manic episode or something. I really, really want to accept his sudden generosity (I probably will; my wife is all for it and thinks he owes it to us), and I would love to believe that he’s truly had a sudden change of heart (an actual Christmas miracle lol) but I’m just worried about the possible consequences of accepting huge financial gifts like this from someone who I believe might be experiencing some kind of break from reality. Even if there’s nothing legally wrong with it, I’m worried about the ethics of it.
TLDR, my asshole boss might be in the middle of a mental breakdown. WIBTA if I accepted his offer to pay off my mortgage and my son’s medical expenses?
#a christmas carol#charles dickens#the muppet christmas carol#watched this last night and we were discussing how it must be like to be Bob Cratchit on Christmas morning lol#personal#erika's blog and bar
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friends are making plans to go stay with each other but it's the weekend I'm going to see my favourite band. the universe fucking hates me
#I CANNOT have a third rsd episode in the space of a month i will kill myself. or at least do near irreperable damage#wish i was joking. i feel like im going to throw up even just thinking about it#well. well i can skip the concert i guess. i saw them last year anyway theyre just doing a second europe tour of the same album#and theyll probably release another album in a few years and i can see them again then#ahhh. ah okay okay i cant think about this right now ill decide at the weekend its not for a few weeks anyway#ahhhhhh but maybe theyre doing this bc they dont want me there idr if they know abt it already and if they wanted me there they would#plan it with me from the start instead of telling me once theyve already made the plan oh i cant do this right now i will Spiral#im going to take a cold shower 👍#to clear my head i was just starting to feel better @ my brain like that dont fucking ruin this for us andy samberg corgi gif#its fine i dont need to panic. im just frazzled from work i lost the ability to focus after like 3pm but they kept sending me emails with#stuff they want me to do before the end of the week and i was having stupid levels of task paralysis trying to think about it#bc i dont have time to fit everything into my schedule and its multiple projects so much thought. and my meds dont help anymore by then#AND ppl kept coming and finding me and giving me samples and verbal instructions for things and i couldnt write down bc i was busy#so ive probably forgotten smth important its fine its fine its just work#and tomorrow morning my meds will smooth everything out i can organise it then. but just made me feel so mentally congested#and ive had no signal again so couldnt even open tumblr to complain abt it#cold shower and then im gonna make stir fry so i have leftovers for lunch tmr to fuel me for the gym. and ill get my gym stuff ready#and i need to get my shit together bc im calling a friend tonight and i am NOT going to fall apart in front of them 👍#its all good its okay ill make everything work out#okay. showertime#.diaries
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