#and it sucks because shes very dear to me. i just dont know if keeping her makes any sense.

[toonfinatic]

Sighhhh if i didnt have pets living at my dads house i'd go non contact/low contact with my family

[crumblinggothicarchitecture]

Hey. This might be very stupid, but i hope you answer this.

Today I accidently got sucked into your blog, which is ironic since I'm a huge swiftie. (but I'm not here to hate on you, I swear)

The thing is for months I've been doubting where I stand on that. Like if i should call myself a swifte or not. when I was young, I used to worship the ground she walked on. but in the past year, I've slowly realised I've been very sheltered. like the problems people point out about her sometimes are actual real problems, but my brain just doesn't know how to respond to that as it has been taught taylor swift is a goddess and can do no wrong. Since your posts are tagged with #exswiftie, i figure you'd understand.

I am not from america, so I can understand then politics part of it all only to a certian extend. the other things, I just dont know what to say to that. The most i can reply is..."yes that is a bit of a problem". I feel don't feel like a swiftie at that moment.

I had fed my mind this narrative that people who hate taylor swift passionately are like untrustworthy or just a walking red flag, or just "don't get it". Now after reading your actual breakdowns I understand you have a rather educated opinion and perception of things. Which clearly rules out my narrative.

I don't know what I feel like I have to define where I stand on this, I just do. I know I genuinely enjoy her music a lot, even there are songs I don't want to hear more than once. I love the whole swiftie lore, digging deep on each lyrics finding out what they mean, finding clues easter eggs just losing my mind over surprise songs. Then i see this other side, which can't be defined with anything less than deeply toxic, which makes me question whether or not this thing i love so much is genuinely good or not.

Hello dear, apologies for the delay in reply :) I am happy to chat with you. I hope that you did not think I would ignore you.  

I was also a Swiftie for nearly 15 years. I got her debut record as a Christmas present in 2006 or 2007. Though I cannot remember which year it was, I loved her from the start. At 10 years old, I was immediately interested. My mother approved of me owning her music simply because she was inoffensive. She didn’t curse or talk about sex, in the beginning, so she was deemed appropriated for my childhood self.  She and I have since grown up. She is now a terribly pretentious bully- and, well, I grew up much too poor and much too hungry to turn into a bully like her. 

The problem- and something I think you’re very much aware of- is that Swift has built herself up in her fandom as perfect. She encourages fans to defend her every action- and rewards them for their efforts through “Swiftmas” or “Secret Sessions” or “hidden easter eggs that only the smartest- most dedicated fans will figure out.” It’s all methodically calculated to keep up an air of reciprocity between Swift, as the fearless leader, and her band of merry misfits- the fans.  

You are not dumb for falling into her rhetorical situation - she's set the marketing strategy up on purpose. It’s specifically created to attract attention- and, to make people feel good, or productive, by participating in her marketing strategy. She gives people an image of herself as a poor innocent victim of the media, or of any critique, and then rewards people for defending her. In Literary study, we call this “Pathos” as the rhetorical appeal to emotion through messaging- textual work of some kind. Rhetoric like this can be found in all sorts of media- commercials about starving children or beaten dogs, charity event banners aiming to persuade someone to donate. It’s all predicated on the appeal to our common emotion, or human capacity to empathize with each other. For, every time fans are rewarded by her attention- after defending her from a perceived enemy, or figuring out some hidden clue- they feel closer to the idol, they feel happy to have her attention. They get that emotional impact of believing they are helping Taylor Swift, or understanding her better on some more human, connected, level. It’s a game of risk and reward for her. Never mind that none of this altruistic- she gets paid through our attention on her- and if you are not directly lining her pockets with your cash money, she does not actually care about you. It’s the image of caring she projects that matters much more than the fact that she doesn’t actually care.

I’m sure you can think of many more examples wherein Swift has played this game of attention and reward with fans. It’s everywhere- her easter eggs are a great example. Sometimes her use of Pathos is benign- non malicious, therefore a non-issue. However, she often weaponizes this rhetoric in a way that is harmful.

This interplay she sets up, between herself and her fans, is made more intensive through her pathos- heavy approach to Rhetoric. To further illustrate, one of the ways people often explain Pathos is by saying that it represents our, as human beings, judgement affect. We see, or hear, the narrative Swift espouses and make judgements about it. If she says: The music critics are sexist towards me. We say: 1.) Sexism is morally wrong, 2.) Taylor Swift is facing sexism from Music critics, Therefore.) The music critics are sexist and morally wrong, because they are criticizing Taylor Swift.

So, all the critics are bad- and we don't need to listen to them. It's also a way Swift creates permissive attitudes towards attacking anyone who critique's her- because she can so easily label them all as sexist.

She uses this basic syllogism to justify leveraging her fans against all kinds of people- it's not just the critics. I just wanted to give a concrete example, and I will go more in depth on this subject in another post.  

She is playing with people’s emotions, while she is also self-victimizing,and leveraging her audience’s innate human rejection of, for instance, sexism as it offends our personal values. No one is saying that sexism isn't morally corrupt; however, Taylor Swift points to valid criticism and calls it sexism so that her audience will attack. People often have valid critique of Swift- She just doesn't want to face critique at all- ever. If people say her music is too self-centered- Swift says that is Sexism. If people say her music is boring- she calls it sexism. If people say her music is shallow and only centered are relationships- She calls it sexism. When, in reality, it's valid criticism that has nothing to do with her being a woman. Only ever writing songs about your own myopic, self-centered perception of interpersonal relationships is shallow. Her music is objectively boring, because it's derivative. Her music is completely self-centered- and she only admits to that when it benefits her, but when critics say it, she calls it sexism.

Please don’t think badly of yourself. I am not here to hate on you either- I was you. I am not here to hate on anyone at all- I just want to share how my own knowledge, and expertise, of rhetorical appeals and literary analysis can expose Taylor Swift. Swift relies on this rhetorical technique to thrive, she obfuscates the truth, schemes, and manipulates people into thinking her music is the best thing on Earth- or thinking that she is literally a Saint. Clearly- nothing on Earth is that perfect- So why does she need her fan base to consider her a genius, and a saint, so badly?

Personally, I have no problem admitting I have flaws. I think most sane people can admit to their flaws. It’s not a bad thing to have flaws. So why does Taylor Swift react to all criticism like it’s the worst thing on Earth. Why does she have a whole song about calling critics “mean/ and a liar/ and pathetic/ and alone in life” (“Mean” 2010). She has the nerve to call that song an “anti-bullying” song; yet, is it so clearly bullying that random critic who wrote a bad review about her concert one time in 2009? She really hated that guy- and all he was doing was his job. She called him a drunken loser for just doing his job. 

She's written so many songs about how all her critics are just stupid, morally corrupt, or sexist: "The Man" (2019), "Mean" (2010), "But Daddy I love Him" (2024), "New Romantics" (2014), "Shake it Off" (2014), "I know Places" (2014), "Anti-Hero" (2023), "Paris" (2023), "Blank Space" (2014), "I did something Bad" (2018), "Dancing with our hands tied" (2018). There are more songs wherein she carries this theme of "everyone is out to get me, and they all hate me for no good reason" but I think I've listed enough.

The general message is all over "Evermore" and "Folklore" too every time she calls the general public "Clowns" or "masqueraders"

It's just everywhere- her subtle devaluation of legitimate criticism. Trying to chalk it all up to the critics being simply dumb, sexist, or malicious in some way. Perhaps some people are mean- true- but to generalize every criticism as evil? That's just her actually playing a victim card. There's no way every single critic, or person who doesn't like her, is evil, bad, or malicious in some way. Okay?

I’m tired of her claiming to be an amazing person and an amazing poet- when she is just not either of those things. She’s not a kind person- it's all over her music in the ways she maliciously hurts people for fun. She’s not an amazing poet either. I have a few college degrees- and one pass through her work, with a serious intention of literary analysis, I discover that her writing is plain, banal, and derivative. 

She wants everyone to compare her to Emily Dickinson, Dylan Thomas, and Shakespeare. So, I’m doing what she wants and taking her work seriously enough to critique it. Except that, in critique, I find out why it’s all poorly written- and why it’s just a bunch of thinly veiled conservative iterations of the same boring message over and over. All she ever says in her music is “poor me” and “I hate” (insert person- Kim K., Kanye, Matty, Joe, Jake, John, Scooter, Scott, Harry, Calvin, the media at large, anyone who critiques her, and men in the music industry as a whole). She has the longest list of enemies I think I’ve ever seen- and the funny thing is that all these people avoid her at all costs. None of these people talk about her- yet she is still singing, writing songs, and getting her fans to post memes about how awful they are years, even decades, later.  

It all gets a bit tiresome? No? Personally, I don’t wish to live a life full of such self-pity and hatred- so why should I listen to it in music form? Ya know?  

In my posts, I am attempting to find the truth. I don’t want to “hate” on anyone or anything- but I am going to seek truth in her work.  

I will be posting more about how she devoids Shakespeare of his social reformist efforts. I’m going to post more about how she twists the meaning of every literary reference she’s ever made. I am not kidding, she has misrepresented, and misinterpreted every single literary reference in her entire discography. It’s astounding how hard Swift tries to sound thoughtful- without actually being thoughtful. I will be posting about how she only ever name-drops to either tear other people down or self-depreciate herself in effort to seek pity. I will be talking more about her use of rhetorical appeals to both attract an audience, keep their attention through risk-reward trade-off, and manipulate them into fighting her battles for her. I will be talking about how she upholds a bunch of harmful stereotypes in her music. She often alludes, or blatantly includes allusion to colonialist attitudes. She’s used the LGBT community for profit without making any real activist efforts. She’s leveraged feminism like a weapon against other women- yet never actually has feminist themes in her music. She’s just so painfully hollow- upon closer inspection.  

I don’t hate her as a person. I think she’s unethical, sure, but that doesn’t mean I hate her, want her to die, or anything extreme at all. I would never wish harm to another human being. In fact, after seeing a lot of the harmful stuff in her music, especially about her kind of fucked up views on relationships, I sincerely hope she gets some professional help and finds some peace in this world. When I critique Taylor Swift it’s about her work and her brand- It's not about her personhood.  

I just think that no one Earth is above reproach, or critique, and we must all be held accountable for our own actions. She’s the one that puts her work out there for people- It's therefore completely appropriate for me to discuss her work. 

Edit: Oh and I want to add- I wish you luck in figuring out what you really think about Taylor Swift. If you ever need to talk or vent more- my inbox is always open. :) With peace and love- bye bye

[lieslab]

hihi dear author !!

i just followed you like yesterday and read almost all of your fics in a sitting AHAHAHH

i cant even express how much i loved them all like so SO MUCH. i adore your way with words- it is really something and just so much more than perfection honestly, genuinely so so sosossoso comforting heart touching and well written :((((

im not sure if your reqs are still open? but if they are, id want to make one bc i think youd write it really well like capturing the actual essence of the situation? hehe

f!yn x bf!chan ; comfort/fluff/angst (any 2 or all 3 is fine too!) they're young, under 21, age gap of 1 year or 3 max? them being roomies, yn having daddy issues [dad being not physically abusive but absent, lying, selfish; mentally draining-yn pretty much avoids him] and chan knowing very little about it. yn's parents dont talk to each other and basically she's the 'communicator' between them and its draining; until one day they're getting a divorce and yn is communicating it. she is happy because she wanted this for way too long she was sick of the arguments and even her dad arguing with HER when she defended her mum. so for some reason she just tears up and cries slightly. its just all overwhelming. and then chan just comforting her and stuff. could be a sprinkle of angst in the middle, up to you totally !! js really need it heh🥹

sorry if im asking for a lot😭😭 id appreciate it sm if u do write it, and if u dont, idm either its up to you !! once again thank u for your fics <333

have a happy day ml <3 💞 ~anon🍙 (maybe check your inboxes if u wanna know who i am😭)

Omg hello. ALL OF THEM?!?!? That's crazy. Some of them are like a year old and not written well. Thank you 🥹 I try my best with my stuff. Sometimes they are and sometimes they're not. Currently, they're not, but I've given up on keeping track of them. So if something gets thrown in my inbox, I add it to my list of requests. I believe I have like two or three currently.

I haven't been writing a ton recently because honestly, I haven't been having a great time with life. I think the majority of it is the weather. It's cold and icky outside, I just want to curl up in my bed and hibernate, but I'm trying my best to get through it.

Lately, I've been writing a request, writing a drabble that I randomly come up with, and then I go back to writing a request, and then go back to another random one I pull from my ass. I do every request by first come, first serve, so it'll probably be a bit. Forgive me, I'm fighting my own inner demons.

Reading all of that was like a knife to the heart. That was a little too real actually. Too relatable, holy shit. I don't really go into age range specifics on my stuff because I try to keep it neutral, unless it specifically calls for it. With yours, although it is personalized, I'll probably make it gender neutral and not mention ages. You know what you want, so you're very welcome to imagine it that way in your head. I find it's easier that way with most drabbles. I usually don't describe the reader because I like people being able to fall for the illusion and sink into the story.

You just untapped some feelings that have been dormant in my heart for so long, so I guarantee that it's probably going to have quite a bit of angst sprinkled throughout, but I'll definitely make it comforting in the end. Sometimes for some of the drabbles, I very specifically write them to get out my own personal feelings about issues in my life. This was a great request because I've gone through this myself.

Sometimes we're still healing from things we never talk about. Parents can cause some havoc and sometimes, it's incredibly difficult to go through things and then keep trying to go on and succeed in life. Everyone wants good parents and healthy relationships, but for some, unfortunately, that's not how life goes. It hurts, it sucks, and it's shitty. I wish that aspect of life was different for a lot of people.

This sounds so personal, so I hope you have people around you supporting you. It doesn't matter if you're a teenager or in your twenties, thirties, and so on. Issues with parents can be tough to deal with. I'm snooping in my inbox after I post this.

You're not asking for a lot, you're asking for a flicker of hope. That's not too much, you just want some comfort for your situation. I'll do my best, but don't be surprised if you see other random drabbles first. I will not forget, I write all my drabbles down in a notebook.

Thank you for reading my stuff and coming to visit. Sometimes I doubt my writing abilities and get too in my head, so I love it when people come hype it up. I'll write it down and get it out when I can <3

[bishiglomper]

Damnit

I can't sleep

I took a whole muscle relaxant but.... yeah

My brain won't stfu

I keep trying to run scripts

Being one of those self conscious autistics freaking SUCKS

I figured out how I could ask Amir stuff though.

I'm weird and can't curse IRL without some major effort so to just SAY "You don't have to fuck to be fab" is already hard enough without the extra layers of social anxiety that come with it. I was about to conceded defeat with that idea. But fuck it I'll just hand him a note like "Can you say this line as Alastor pls?"

Also I was kind of hoping for a-

"You dont have to fuck to be fab, darling!"

But then I thought if he did it more like-

"You dont have to fuck to be fab, my dear."

THEY HAVE SUCH DIFFERENT VIBES AND I LOVE THEM BOTH like a "let your freak flag fly" VS encouragement UUGH how do I verbalize that exkncbfjsn. Like honestly if he did the latter I might get teary fr 🥺

Also that would be fun to share with a panel and voice it at a mic but LOL like i could do that. 💀

Also. If I WERE to have the courage to use the mic..

I would want to pose a question to him as Alastor, and say something like "Do you consider yourself asexual? (a sexual)" (ty 🤭 @grownupchangeling)

But that's a very risky chance of Amir catching onto the wordplay let alone expecting him to run with it.

Though.....

If I can get a hold of him before the Sunday panel (which, I freaking hope I would) Maybe I could just run it by him and then he'd be prepared.. 👀

See, I told you, my brain just won't shut up. I'm so anxious lmao I hate speaking to people. I wish I could just emote irl. Sigh.

You know nephew is so different when he's in a mask costume. Pikachu or plague doctor, he loves interacting with people. He actually had the confidence to sit away from his family to join other kids at an interactive thing at the Ren Faire, and he sat himself at the edge of the road to greet and pass out gems to passerbys. He's just totally different.

My friends said her kid was like that too. With masked costumes, they're just more confident. And she can tell how comfortable they are by whether they're wearing their covid mask or not.

I. DO NOT HAVE THAT.

IT REALLY OFFENDS ME THAT I DO NOT HAVE THAT.

I cannot put on that type of mask, my self consciousness runs too fucking deep. I can't even play imaginary with kids. I can't read/sing aloud. Barely even alone. I feel like too much of an idiot.

One time anime club asked me to explain the plot of the anime we were gonna watch because they didn't see the first episode, but I had. The lights were off, I was in a corner, I didn't have to look at anyone and they didn't have to see me. I also knew beforehand that they were going to ask it of me. I did it but I felt like I was on fire. Even all that only helped by like 15%.

It is just. So bad. So, so bad. My online interactions are only marginally better. The think-to-text filter is a lot more forgiving than the think-to-speech one.

...........

So anyway, that's the trauma dump of the day ✨️💅 I hope you enjoyed your stay ✌️

[missangelcat]

Mr Cold

Pov : you are jungkook's wife and He hate you alot and torture you because of many reasons for that read the whole book in Wattpad (Mr. Cold)

Jungkook: yn listen tonight you have to go a business party with me my friend Lee Jong suk came back to Korea after a long time so i want to you be to be presentable in the party the dress will be delivered by this afternoon keep yourself ready till evening

Yn : your order will be done sir

Jungkook: and yes behave as my wife in the eye of world we are a happily married couple

I remained silent and he leaves for the office

Later in Evening

Yn pov :

I wore the dress jungkook send to me

and tied up my hair

Jungkook Pov

Ive been waiting for her since 10 minutes it's already 9:00 pm we are late for party why ladies take so much time to get ready then i hear heel footsteps

Homo she is looking pretty i just stare her for 5 mins and forget how much friction we have then i realised no Jungkook wake up all girls are slut and gold digger and yn one of them

She sit in the back seat of the car i never want her to sit with me in the front sit but she also never ask for that

Her scent God why she is damn attractive today

We reached there

Jungkook: we reached

She remain silent

Jungkook: i Know yn there is nothing between us but we both have to be as a happy married couple it's for my business act like my wife Got that

She remain silent

Jungkook: GOT THAT

YN POV :

He loud up his voice and i got scared what if he beat me like my mother did

I get nostalgic about the day when Mr and Mrs Jeon came for my relation and how my mother agrees me for marriage with jungkook

Jungkook: i think you are not listening

He forcefully pressed my cheeks between his hand and again ask me

Jungkook: Got that my dear wifey

I nodded my head in afraid

Jungkook: Good girl

He open the car door for me and leads me to the hall like a very caring and loving husband then someone shout from behind

??? : Hey Jungkook!

He turned around

Jungkook : Suk how are you after a long time

Lee dong suk : im fine buddy and she maybe your wife (whispering : damn hot )

Jungkook: Huh

Lee dong suk : Nothing buddy you got your self pretty wife . Hii I'm Lee Doung suk .

Everytime he just checking me out he is staring me from head to toe I'm feeling so uncomfortable

Yn : Nice to meet you Mr Suk im yn

Jungkook: Jeon yn Jungkook full name wifey

He just stared jungkook and take my hand and kiss it and it's not a gentle kiss it's sucking he tried to suck my hand i tried to remove my hand from his grip but he that damn strong that he won't even let anyone think that what he is doing finally he left hand and again open his mouth for fliterous comments

Lee dong suk: i just listen that Indian girl are kinda attractive but today i also saw that they are kinda very damn attractive

Jungkook left and started talking with other business men he left me with that jerk who is trying to seduce me what kind of husband he is oh i forgot he didn't accept me as his wife

Lee dong suk pov

Oh my god i never see that damn hot girl in my life i don't know how jungkook resist himself for not touching her i know everything about them they just acting as happy married couple it's all written on yn face that jungkook is still affected by his past

Lee dong suk: if you don't mind i take you to the table or you have a plan to stand whole party like that

Yn : i Dont mind

I take her to the last table

Lee dong suk: so when you come Korea

Yn : 3 year later

Lee dong suk: you might comfortable with Korean peopl e or still find difficult to adjust

Yn : if I'm feeling uncomfortable then why i marry a Korean young man

Lee dong suk: oh ... One second pardon me i have a little work

I go to the bartender and put 7000 on his pocket

Bartender : Sir Sir

Lee dong suk: kept it

I put a white powder in red wine and show the red wine glass to the bartender

Lee dong suk : Make sure the girl who is wearing black dress should drink it

Bartender: ok sir

I go back to the table

Lee dong suk: Sorry lady actually urgent call

Then the waiter serve us with glass of wine

Lee dong suk: please have some

The waiter put the same glass at her front and she took a sip from her rosy red lips oh God i am just thinking how she taste

Yn pov :

Warning: Sexual assualt don't read if you are not comfortable with that stuff

Suddenly everything started blurring

Yn : i want to go washroom

Lee dong suk : don't worry lady i will take you

Lee dong suk:

I put my hands on her waist and instead of taking her to the washroom i take her to the up floored room which is totally black nice place to fuck some one

Lee dong suk : Don't worry my lady i will be very soft to you

I touch her waist and hips and take out the handcuffs from the drawer ever single thing made me lip bite

I put the handcuffs to her hands and tied her to the bed I'm just admiring her body my hands can't wait to touch she is totally left unconscious oh God i miss the moans

I removed my coat my shirt and

I started first removing her clothes and just left her in her bra and panty which is also will be on her body for less than 10 mins

I suck her neck and touched her clothed breast oh God she Got beautiful boobs and put my hands under her bra cloth and stared massaging still sucking her neck then trailing down the kiss to her waist and down and down i kiss her thigh inner area i lick her area and start touching her with my finger i removed my pant then but even a single second away from her Making me more aggressive i again starting touching her God she is so tight what she is virgin then it's been very enjoyable to fuck her

I started playing with her underwear sting and started removing her panty

Then someone open the door agressively

Jungkook: YOU BASTARD ! HOW DARE YOU TO TOUCH MY WIFE

He punch me that hard that i fell on the ground and my nose started bleeding

Lee Dong suk : What I did nothing wrong i just try to give her that you never gave to her that pleasure that a husband should give to his wife

Jungkook: oh SHUT UP

Lee dong Suk: Actually you don't have dare to fuck her you cant give her that pleasure that I'm giving to her the s*x

He again punched my face that time i left unconscious

Jungkook pov :

I want to kill that bastard

Jungkook: yn !

I Cover her with blanket and see how cruel suk be on her the hickey god if there is no court i definately kill him

I wear her the dress and cover up with my coat

I lift her in my arms and without even a single interaction i take her to my car and put her in car front seat and start driving for home

Jungkook Pov :

Next evening

The thoughts of the words Lee jong suk said to me still getting in my mind . I am feeling so agressive that how he can say i can't give her pleasure of s*x i have no dare to fuck her wait and just watch I'm so damn dominated I'm the only one who can take her virginity tonight i will tell her how i fuck her so hard

I open the door of my bedroom and i see yn already there combing her hairs

Yn pov

Warning: Sexual assualt and domestic Violence don't read if you are not comfortable with that stuff

Jungkook open the door so agressively he close the door and started approaching towards

Yn : what happens Jungkook

Jungkook : Yn tell me who will take your virginity

Yn : what

Jungkook: tell me yn WHO WILL TAKE YOUR VIRGINITY !

He started arounding her arms across me

Jungkook: TELL ME!

He push me closer towards him and i could feel his warm breath on my face

Yn : what type of question is this

Jungkook: oh yeah you are IM YOUR HUSBAND SO OFF COURSE I WILL BE THE ONE WHO WILL FUCK YOU FOR THE FIRST TIME !

Yn : What jungkook have you losted yesterday you are the one who saved me from that jerk and today you are acting like a jerk

Jungkook: I am not a hero who saved you just for i care about you because I'm the only one who can torture you more than him

He trying to kiss me i tried to push him away he is not

Yn : Jungkook please don't do this NO ! NO

He started kissing my neck or i say sucking my neck on one side he make a dark mark i am just punching his back that is creating no effect to him

Yn : No please

He threw on the bed and start ripping my clothes and left me only in my undergarments the suck my neck waist and leaving dark mark on it i am just moving my hands my legs but it doesn't matter him

Jungkook: This will remind you whome property you are

He unclip my bra and start sucking my breast while massaging the other he pinched my nipple and i just moaned he find my soft spot he started sucking me and moving his tongue

Yn : JUNGKOOK YOU ARE... AAH JUST SEXUALLY ASSAULTING ME

Jungkook: you are really intelligent that you got that now Keep your mouth shut otherwise i will fuck you to your death

Yn : jungkook please don't NO ! AHH

I am still moving my hands , my legs punching his back

Jungkook: so you can't understand nah .. now wait

He took the small lengthy strip of clothes and bind my hands to the bed

Yn : Jungkook NO ! PLEASE HAVE A LITTLE MERCY ON ME PLEASE

He does not even listen once and bind my mouth with clothes to resist my voice

But I'm still shouting, screaming and crying

He again sucked my neck and touched my eyes and preventing me too see his devil personality

He trail down his lips to my waist and suck the portion just before my underwear his hands traveling down like the same way his lips he move his finger on my heat which make me damn clothed moan but he still enjoying it without even a single second he removed my underwear and eating me up his tongue exploring me God he is a super psycho he is sucking me all the way he can eating me up his tongue fucking so good

Now i stop myself from prevention he already admiring and staring my naked body in front of him and i can't do anything i become a bad women whoes virginity is going to taken tonight

I open eyes and i expecting to see his pervert face but i see the tears building up in his eyes he just move away from my body and unbind me and Remove the binded cloth from my mouth and say nothing just went away from the room i sat up and so shocked I'm breathing so heavily and started crying so loud that hard that even a person is in balcony can hear me

[shoujohn]

Hello it's me again. Thought it was a smash and pass huh? A one and done. A toot it an boot it. Get it then let it. Hehe.

I do admit that I initially wanted to do this as a daily log typa vibe. But nah, things come up and things wont always go the way you predict or try to orchestrate. But you dont let that stop you. Dont let the common unfortunate events get you down. It's just a part of the journey yano. Heh. "Yano?" She says that...quite a good amount of bit. "Who?," you migh ask. Well, lets call her Bella. She's someone I've ha my eyes on for a while. Thing is, Ive been told that she isnt available. So that sucks. Not that I was gonna do something...at least not anymore. Am I? WOW, thats concerning. Also I'm a bit buzzed. Got a whole bottle of brut with pineapple juice, so it's mimosa night baby.

ANYWAYYYYY so what to talk about tonight. Honestly, I feel like this is just freestyle rambling. And I am a rambler. Babbler moreso. Yknow, I ...want to be a better version of my best self. Yes i babble...but I'd like to be that babbler that youd sit and stay to listen to..because I make good points. Or my words help....inspire...motivate. I want to be so good about things that I just radiate this kind of energy that just pushes you to fucking thrive. Thats something to be proud of. I think. I mean, i have no family. No partner. no one dear to me apart from the family i was born in. Guess all i can do for now is to be proud of myself. Thankfully I'm starting to do this, it KIND OF keeps me accountable. Okay let's find a topic.

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I'm typing rn @ 22:50 08/25/24 whilst listening to "Gusto" by Zack Tabudlo and Al James. Why? Idk it's good. And Zack is a great opm artist. I forgot how in character it feels for me to spend time at night listening to music WITH HEADPHONES ON and typing on tumblr. This is very high shool era of me. Hmm lets talk more about Bella. She's a recent coworker of mine. She's awkward, artistic?, very into her own shit, music listener, a total zillenial(like me but she's more zoomer and into pop culture rather than the nerdier shit I'm in.) She's like 3 years younger than me. Still a 90s kid, but barely. She LOVES Taylor Swift, which I respect. She came up to me saying shit like Panic! is her fav emo era band. She's honestly someone I'd like to try to fuck with. I'd love to get to know her...on a deep and emotional level. But alas, she is a coworker and my harder worker work ethic is fighting me about it. Is this really something for me to try to pursue? Obv fucken NO. She..supposedly has a bf. Didnt stop me from buying her ketchup tho lmao.

Anyway, I'm such a simp. But I have this new outlook of tryna attract instead of chase. That may be easier on my ego as looming 30 year old. I just need to focus at constantly being better at what I do everyday and building myself up as a man. This way, I wont feel like a sorry ass sucker who anyone can just toss away or baliwala bc I'm so replaceable. FUCK THAT. Lemme be one of a kind. Someone thaat people will feel lucky to have met and be associated with. Someone sgnificant. I'm sure that's a goal I'm not alone on. Id love to be a person of such value that people are willing to fight to be by my side. Hmm. Is this what Ha wanted and envisioned to be? It's fitting if so. Anyway. I'm pretty buzzed and listening to opm youtube. Pretty buzzed from pineapple mimosa. This hs been a fun log so far. Someday I'll be more intricate, more entertaining, more relateable, more inspiring, more entertaining, more.....better.

Again, this is my ramblecast (yes that's gonna catch on) it's 23:06 and I gotta go to bed soon. The ramblecast has no agenda, just a freehand typa thing. Maybe It's just a runon paragraph, maybe it's a vlog, maybe it's a voice log, but one thing is for sure. This comes directly from my heart.

And to this 2nd entry, I just release my mental floodgates. It'll maybe be the same for the future. Maybe not. Maybe something different. Maybe something better. One thing is for sure, you'll definitely know and understand that I prolly have some sort of undiagnosed ADHD and OCD. Niki from Indonesia is a beautiful being and Ana De Armas is my current dream girl. Good night!

[oathofkaslana]

Kiana Kaslana for the ask game

YAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAY ty <3

ask game here

My first impression: oh a lot of people seem to like her? she seems very silly.

My impression now: the things i would do just to see her again oh my god i miss her so so so much my everythinggirl..... every part of her story is so poignant to me and i feel like it only wouldve been elevated if they lingered a bit on points theyve already brought up (ex: her complicated feelings w siegfried)

Favorite thing about that character: aourghourghourgh.. her being sooooo stubborn. its super endearing and gets her into trouble all the time i loveeee when a quality is also a flaw <3. in terms of writing i really like hi3 changing her to be a clone since it provides suuuch a fun deviation of the chosen one trope and makes her resonating w the cocoon of finality so much more satisfying

Least favorite thing: early hoyo writing where kiana was written as a pervert sucks a lot esp since the jokes often relied on her not obliging by boundaries :/ it doubly sucks bc like. they were young teens then thats so fucking weird.

Favorite line/scene: EVERLASTING FLAMES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kind of a cheat answer but i love it so so so so so much. chapter 25 in general god. i loeveee kiana being put on trial by the herrscher of dominion and the layers of this herrscher defined by a collection of puppets and a belief in humanitys inherent worthelssness challenges k423's beliefs about herself as a clone and has her stubbornly refusing to believe in the worst in people :'''')

Favorite interaction that character has with another: ough there are so many i dont think i can choose dear god. im just gonna list various ones w different characters. this ones really small but w siegfried theres this one page where he falls asleep on the floor and kiana puts a blanket over him and curls up next to him and he wakes up, putting the blanket on her insteda (she is still on the floor.) its so so sad to me he's a pretty shitty dad to her at that moment especially but :(((( another strong contender is when he meets theresa again and starts asking abt donghua and theresas lambasting him about not even asking about kiana and he admits that he cant or he'll get distracted im going to fucking cry...... lament of the fallen is such an easy one for mei so ill say them in chapter 32 :''') kiana opening up abt her talk with himeko and audibly choking up when she talks about it i feel sick dear god. both telling each other how important they are to each other and the hope they give each other :' kiana grabbing her hand and telling her they'll go home togteher OUGHHH w bronya its definitely their goodbyes to each other. the fact that bronya is so sad that she makes an excuse to leave early because she doesnt want kiana to see her cry and schedules them for video game nights so kiana isnt lonely dear fucking god. another contender is ofc in everlasting flames where she defends kiana and uses the HoR powers to tie her hair up i feel sick theyre soooo sisters to me himekos also really really really hard bc both final lesson and chapter 25 exist but i think final lesson takes it for me. ive said it over and over again but himeko actively not wanting to die but choosing to anyways because she doesnt want kiana to die (even though this goes against the protocol shes been living and teaching by) and that ultimately being the thing that keeps kiana going OUGHHHHHHH. also fuck. the lyrics to nightglow. w sirin its of course that part of graduation trip who would i be if that line wasnt there. fuckkkk. her putting her hand back to align with kianas too :(

A character that I wish that character would interact with more: CHEWING ON MY WALLS. SO MANY PEOPLE. primarily i wish we got to see more of her with like. bronya, theresa, sirin, bianka. i know we got a lot of bronya and sirin alread ybut. consider there couldve been more..

Another character from another fandom that reminds me of that character: this is so fucking humiliating. bruce wayne. he doesnt struggle w his humanity the exact same way as kiana does but they both struggle with/are motivated by feelings of guilt and love of humanity. also. arc city kiana. i rest my case.

A headcanon about that character: aurgh ok sm i havent posted about before. man. i just think she has such complex feelings during her st freya days. i think she'd stay up late and think about her dad or think about days where she was didn't have the domesticity she has now and feel so thankful for it. i think st freya dorms was both hard and easy for her to settle into. i think she and bronya have spent some nights staying up together playing video games because they both feel that.

A song that reminds of that character: i'm still here by the john rzeznik o7 its soooo himeko and kiana to me.

An unpopular opinion about that character: i don't think i have any unpopular opinions about her actually skjhbdfbhd

Favorite picture:

these two :''

[kart0]

Little update !

Heyyy everyone !!!! Just wanted to write lol

So last update I told you I was going to my psych appt but she fucking cancelled it ? And then I rescheduled and then she just fucking bailed on me and didn't even show up to her own clinic ? Anyways I got very very upset and angry bc apparently she was TRAVELLING TO FUCKIGN NEW YORK ????????????? y'all...istg I must be a fucking saint to tolerate shit like this. Maybe I'm too passive...I didn't even allow myself to get mad and tell her but anyways. I guess I just am too used to sucking things up.

Ok so she told me to lower my dosage, and now I'm like ? Hm, I don't think so. And I might have done something really stupid ?

And I do not recommend anyone to do this PLEASE DON'T, TALK TO YOUR DOCTOR ! Erhm.... I might have stopped taking my meds ? For like. A month now ?

It kinda just happened honestly... I didn't have money to buy them, and then I started to forget taking them everyday, and then I guess I just. Idk I just stopped taking them ? And I only did that because I felt ok ? Not too bad, not too good, normal actually. And I know this is such a stupid part of me but I don't really think the meds were working anyways ? And since I dont feel bad, I guess I just. Do not care ?

I don't know ? I haven't been very anxious, I haven't been depressed, my mania ended a few days ago, I feel, normal. And ok. Idk ? When I got depressed it felt really debilitating but then I suddenly became maniac and it was over very suddenly and now I feel better. The only thing tho is now my sleep schedule is FUCKED. But idk ? Nothing else tbh ?

And I do not advise anyone to do this, I am making sure to say it as many times as it takes !!!!! Please ! I am saying dumb things I am not a doctor I have not studied medicine I have no idea what's going on !!! But I do know my body, and I can tell how I feel. And for now, I feel ok.

I am currently tabling at this anime convention and it's been taking my time for many weeks now, preparing merch and stuff, and now it's finally happening and ? It's very.... Idk ? Idk ? Idk idk I forgot the word (I'm not a native English speaker btw) it's when something goes below your expectation ? The event pretty much flopped, the tables were expensive, and I didn't sell too much. Idk ? Today's the last day (thank GOD, I forgot how much of a hassle and a pain and how tiring it is) so let's see how this will go.

I am so excited for my winter break tho !!!!! Can't wait to just play games and draw fun stuff and rot. Yay ! Soon.....

Also ! Haikyuu movie is finally here in Brazil !!!!!!! YAS !!! I AM SO SO SO HYPED AND EXCITED ! I haven't gotten tickets yet ofc cuz I'm busy but soon...soon my dear...

And ? It think I might have a little infatuation with this guy on my class. He is very, and I mean, VERY, handsome, and pretty, he's so good looking, I'm embarrassed to interact with him, and I get all awkward and shy. I just forget how to behave normally ? And I try so FUCKING hard to act normal (more than usual since..I act like this all the time. It's the tism) anyways and I found out he's not actually dating anyone ? Last year I knew he had a gf (she's in my class too) and I swore they were still together, but just were very low profile. Turns out no they broke up. Ugh I just. And he makes silly jokes of me and just, acting like an annoying little shit (he's the youngest sibling) and keeps saying I'm bald and stuff like that (just cuz...I dyed my hair blond ? Idk what his thought process is) anyways so like. I can't even tell if he likes me as a person ? He also keeps saying fuck yourself constantly to me . Like. Uhm ? Idk ? I am very intimidated by him but I can't tell if it's because he's the most beautiful person I've ever seen or if it's cuz of these "jokes". At first I thought it was very mean, and I tend to take things vry literally so I tried my best to not interact with him because i didn't want him to keep saying mean things, and didn't want to ruin even more my reputation or what he thought about me, but then I realized he jokes like this with everyone ? Which, honestly, is very very stupid. Hes a little stupid. I think it's because he's a man.

Anyways, I'm just so confused. I'm trying not to think too much about it because I tend to over project and my mind spirals and I start imagining scenarios and I might get confused and convince myself I have feelings that I might not really have ? Idk... I know I'm a romantic for sure so like. I tend to imagine too much idk idk idk so I keep trying to rationalize and think straight. Like, we don't even get along that well ? I think ? I don't even know if we're even friends ? I know he knows prettier people than me. I'm not very good looking. I'm not very nice too. I'm not good at anything really, and I don't have a very good personality. I am just not good. I have a friend and she's so sweet, and her nickname is "jesus". Cuz she's just nice and hardworking, and she always tries her best. And... I won't lie. I really really like her, and I can tell you all these things are true about her. And...it makes a little. Envious. I wish people thought about me that way I wished I was naturally good, and not having to try my best and work to be normal every single day. I wished people would see how much I'm trying. I really really am trying. But it's just not a natural thing to me, I guess. I always, constantly have this feeling, that I'm always performing. Someone is always watching me. And I always have to be my best and try hard and I just. I force myself to be nicer, more considerate, more careful, more thoughtful. Because these things just don't come up to me naturally. I am not good. Sorry for the rant.

Ugh. I think I just am forcing myself to feel something, y'know ? I've always dreamed about falling in love. I don't think I've ever did. Nor will ever do. I am pretty sure I'm aroace anyways.

Ugh. Ugh ugh ugh. Why are boys so stupid.

I just hope things don't turn out the way it did before, with my ex best friend. To sum up, he had feelings, I THOUGHT I had feelings too, but I just really really liked him, as a friend. As a best friend, in fact. So I ended up things and we just. Don't talk or hang out anymore. Which made me pretty upset, and made me think I might had actual feelings. Turned out I was just fucking lonely and miserable, and he was my ONE ONLY friend. Now that I've been hanging around with my uni colleagues, I don't feel that alone anymore. I made more friends ! Yay !

Also ! Happy pride month ! Happy to say that it's been some months since I came out as gender fluid, and I am so proud and never been better and as confident ( with my physical appearance) as I was before !

Ugh anyways, thanks for listening to me. As always, I will try to work on myself and become a better person every day. Thank u all !

Oh ! Ps: I've been slowly eating more ! I might fail sometimes but I've been making sure to at least go to bed with a full stomach. So I won't wake up dying and feeling miserable and in pain. So this is an improvement I believe !

[systlin]

Dear Systlin, one of my dear friends got diagnosed with Crohn‘s disease last year and just last week was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis as well. she believes in the norse gods and knows more about them than me but since her birthday is coming up i want to make her a necklace or a bracelet adorned with runes to help with her pain and to give her strength but im so new to this that i dont know which runes to use or how to charge them right.

shes getting medication and has regular check ups with her health care providers but i feel that even if its a small gesture or just a good wish she might like to have something to hold on to when shes having a bad health day. She is very dear to me and seeing her in pain and knowing it will probably stay like that (henlo chronic illness and chronic pain) is hard to watch but instead of well-meaning Have you tried this‘s that never help and make her feel worse i think a rune amulet is less intrusive? Also since i know the gods are there for us (i can always count on Thor for company when i feel weak and lonely and can feel his presence when i ask for him) i think it might at least take a little of the weight, even if its the tiniest little piece and i really want that for her, no matter how small.

i hope my message doesnt get eaten by tumbul and i hope you can help and i hope this message doesnt come off demanding, please dont feel like you have to answer this.

Thank you!

Also thank you because since i follow you i have learned a little about the gods and they make my life much richer and i feel like i keep getting better at feeling them around me.

You know, I have chron's too. Not MS tho.

What's helped me most is medication that my gastroenterologist prescribed. But yeah it sucked while that stuff was kicking in.

And honestly, little things that let one know that their friends and loved ones are thinking of them...like a gift of some jewelry you hope they like...help more than all the well meaning advice in the world.

[xoxo-teddybear]

Bakugou’s daughter brings home a Boyfriend

Bakugou x wife!reader

Ft. Bakugou’s daughter

Warnings: fluff, lowkey Crack, sexual mentions, small angst, cursing, Bakugou being such a dad

BAKUGOU’S MASTERLIST

A/N: This is one of my favorite types of Bakugou. Domestic father Bakugou!! So bc of that fact, this piece was born. Hope you enjoy!

Bakugou as a boyfriend? Bliss. Bakugou as a fiancé? Heaven. Bakugou as a husband? Euphoric

Bakugou as a dad?.......he sure is something

Don’t get me wrong, Bakugou would be the ultimate dad

Baby crying in the middle of the night? Sleep love, daddy’s got it. Baby needs a bottle? He can warm it up with his hands. Baby’s feeling bored? Look at these mini fireworks in his hands!! Katsuki’s got it all

But that’s a baby Bakugou

Bakugou with a teenager

oOf

Katsuki’s teen will be either one of two things

His best friend

Or his mortal enemy (whom he still loves endlessly)

His 16 year old daughter, Katsumi, was both

And yes they loved each other very much, but they also got into battles on who could cook dinner better, who Y/N loved more, hell, when y’all came back from a restaurant THEY FOUGHT OVER WHO MADE IT TO THE FRONT DOOR FIRST

But this battle? Y/N might just let them Kill each other...just this once

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“WHO THE FUCK IS THI-“

*SMACK* (thx Y/N)

“Daddy, this is Izuru! Izuru this is my lovely mother and that’s my shitty dad that I love so dearly!”

Katsumi definitely inherited her guts from the Bakugou’s

“Nice to meet you Mr and Mrs. Bakugou!”

Ah man, here we go

Silence. Pure, awkward, scary, silence. And of course Y/N’s nervous twitching HOPING that her dear husband doesn’t murder the green haired boy. As the young couple stand infront of the doorway smiling, the older couple is staring at them, one in nervousness, and the other in shock. (I’m talking Denki going 4 million volts shocked)

“Well.....Welcome Izuru! I knew you’d be coming over soon but I didn’t expect it tonight. It’s lovely to meet you,” Y/N ever so kindly said once she let out a sigh.

Her husband almost got whiplash from how fast he turned to look at her. “Knew?!? You knew about this kid?? And didn’t bother to tell me?!??”

“Well if I told you, you woulda stopped this meeting from happening ya jerk!” Y/N visciously explained.

“YA DAMN RIGHT CUZ-“ silenced with another smack from his wife. Y/N sure learned a lot from Mitsuki. “Please come in you two, I’ll start dinner.”

As the young couple sat in the living room speaking, the older one was in the kitchen preparing food. Well one of them was, the other was too busy burning a whole into the poor boy’s body with just his eyes.

*SMACK*

“Ow.” Continues to stare

“Suki stop that, you’re gonna scare the poor boy.” Y/N said.

“GOOD. I DONT WANT SOMEONE LIKE HIM CONTAMINATING THE BAKUGOU LINE!” The blonde dramatically yelled.

“Contaminating? Love, we don’t even know if they’ve had sex. I doubt he’s “contaminating” anything any time soon.” You said with attitude.

Bakugou just stared at you know with the same look.

“Hmph!” And turned to look back at the kids.

“HEY!” Bakugou screamed.

“Heyyyyy~” Katsumi replied.

“No not “Heyyyy~,” Katsuki began and replied with a girly impersonation of his daughter as he walk towards the couple. “I mean, HEY, as in have you had sex with this kid?” He sternly asked.

“KATSUKI OH MY GOD,” Y/N screamed as she dropped something in shock.

“.......Yeah, so what?” His daughter replied.

Y/N wasn’t even mad. She already knew. She could tell. Mother’s instinct I guess.

Katsuki was fuming.

“NOPE! NO! THIS RELATIONSHIP WONT GO ON! YOU’RE TOO YOUNG TO BE HAVING SEX!” The older blonde screamed while looking at the now blushing green haired teen and his rebellious daughter. And Y/N was just giving him this...look.

‘What a fucking hypocrite’ you thought to yourself.

“How old were you when you fucked mom?”

(ITS QUIET AINT NO BACKTALK)

Pure and utter silence.

Katsuki started stepping back from the couple while facing them and nodding his head. “.....use condoms,” and walked back to his deceased wife.

As dinner is placed on the table and everyone takes their seats, Katsuki can’t help but stare at this boy. Why does he seem so familiar?

Everyone just ate and talked. Grades, school, when did y’all meet, how long has it been? The usual. But Katsuki remained silent while thinking. And then..it clicked!

Katsuki slammed his hands on the table and stood up from his seat looking at the boy across from him. “What’s your last name?!”

Izuru was nervous because he was well aware of who Katsumi’s father was and how her father’s relationship with his own father was kinda iffy.

“M-Midoriya sir.” He nervously stated.

Katsuki saw red.

“DEKU?!??????!!!!!” He screamed

“Oh come on Katsuki! Like that wasn’t obvious!” You said rolling your eyes.

“There is NO WAY IN HELL I’m gonna let the Bakugou line be contaminated with Deku’s genes! Our family line only brings in the best of the best!” Katsuki proudly and loudly stated.

“So what am I?” Y/N asked.

“The best of the best! You were and are the perfect one for me Y/N! You know this, I know this, everyone knows this. And look at what we created-“ he was interrupted by his wife.

“A mini you?”

“A MINI ME! And who wouldn’t want that?!”

“Dad.” Katsumi said.

Now that caught Katsuki off guard. For the past 16 years, Katsumi has always been a daddy’s girl. She never called him “dad,” ew. She said “Daddy,” or “Shitty dad.” As Katsuki turned to his daughter he could see the look in her eyes.

“.......you really wanna be with this kid?” He asked.

“I really do.” Katsumi said while grabbing onto Izuru’s hand.

“...Ok then. You can be with him.” Katsuki calmly said.

Katsumi excitingly got up and ran towards her dad’s seat giving him a hug.

“Thanks daddy,” she said while giving him a kiss on the cheek.

Dinner continued on as normal as it could. Katsuki was just gonna have to learn how to let go.

Later

As the married couple got ready to sleep, Katsuki was hanging outside their balcony.

“What was up with you Blasty? I haven’t seen that kinda Katsuki since UA.” You jokingly said as you went to stand beside him.

“You’re not scared?” Katsuki asked.

“Of?”

“Katsumi. She’s growing up. She has a boyfriend now. That girl is having sex! She’s not daddy’s little girl anymore.” He sadly said.

“That’s what this is about? Katsumi growing up? Suki, this was always gonna happen. She’s in her prime teenage years. She’s 16! A lots gonna start happening.” You began.

“I know that but-“

“But nothing Katsuki. You can be scared of her growing up, I am too, but we can’t be so scared that we try and stop her. You just have to know that Katsumi will always come back to us no matter how old she is. And she will always, always be a daddy’s girl. Her entire world revolves around you Katsuki, but we gotta let her go at some point. We have to let her grow. That’s how the best of the best are made after all, right? It’s what we look for in a Bakugou.” You finished.

Katsuki couldnt do anything but smile. You were right. He knew you were. And he was willing to let his little cub grow.

“......You’ve gotta stop interrupting me when I talk.” He laughed.

“And you’ve gotta stop saying the dumbest shit in the world.” You teased back.

He pulled you in for a quick peck and just held you there in his arms. He was so glad he had you to keep him grounded. You’re the best of the best after all. It only makes sense.

“Daddy?” Katsumi walked into her parents room, unnoticed.

As the two broke the hug to see their daughter, looking a little timid, Katsuki spoke.

“Katsumi, hey princess. What’s up with you.” Katsuki asked as he walked towards his daughter.

“You’re not...disappointed in me, right? You know, for who I chose to be with. I’m sorry if I chose Izuru but I-“ this time, it was Katsuki who interrupted.

“Hey hey, no of course not baby bear. I would never be disappointed in who your true feelings pulled you to. I don’t want you to apologize for anything when today I caused most of the trouble.” Katsuki said while wiping one of his daughter’s stray tears.

“You know I’m never gonna leave you guys. Right? I’m gonna grow up but I’ll always want to have a close relationship with you and mom. I love you guys, and I’m not going anywhere.” Katsumi said.

“We know Katsumi. And we love you too. And we’re far from disappointed in you. We are so proud of the young woman you’ve become today.” Y/N joined in.

Katsumi ran to her mother and gave her the tightest hug, and Katsuki couldn’t help but stare at his two girls. His world. His entire reason for living. All right there in his arms as he pulled them in for a bigger hug.

“Thanks you guys. Well, I’m gonna head to bed. I’ve got a date with Izuru tomorrow and I don’t wanna be late.” Katsumi began walking towards her parents door until Katsuki called her.

“Hey baby bear,”

“Yeah?”

“Izuru. He seems alright. He’ll be good for you.” Katsuki admitted.

“Yeah. He really is. He’s the best of the best after all. Reminds me of someone I know.” Katsumi said while leaving the room.

Yeah. Katsuki will be just fine.

A/N: Sheesh. This kinda sucked but I did this in my literature class sooo....it’s still credible work since I was writing, right? Yeah..?....No?...yeah ok. Anyways, HOPED YOU ENJOYED IT BEAR CUBS🧸💗

P.S. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT!! And I PROMISE I’ll get better and produce more work. Feel free to leave requests!

[tillman]

what is Robo ky's role in the themes of gg?

hi wifey :-)

i actually rlly rlly love thinking about this particularly throwing his x series themes and ideas behind him next to xrds depiction and then of course throwing all of that next to the little slayer drama cd w him . theres a lot . to chew on . and i think its particularly sad a lot of people arent willing to give his depiction in the earlier games any mind... i have to put on my im sorry women hat but i love him in the x/xx games... sorry..... i lvoe him so bad.

anyways under a readmore cus . its . 3 am dont expect good concepts fleshed out i just want to talk about my favorite robert ideas ok ? hes cute to me.

i like. ok this is not even worth mentioning really but i really liek his like 7 lines in slash. SORRY. maybe just because i play him so so much and he is so so dear to me but well i will take all i can get. anyways this is my favorite of his its very cute. he only shows up in kys route for one ending that has way sicker art of it than it should haev but ..

i love this..... his raison d'etre being exclusively to defeat ky. <- this comes up later too (i love you nok)... like he kinda becomes Exclusively a pawn for the greater pwab story in mc and and also ac but.... like what a simple tie in to the constant gg theme of identity and being human and what not. this w his nok depiction make me fucking insnae... hes truly just some guy trying to prove he is Some Guy. like he sucks and should be put down ruthlessly but hey! thats something!! hes not just a ky clone hes the anticatholic ky clone and that makes him worthy of life just like anyone else. he should be not so weird about women though ok ?

i think i am too autistically attached to like. the assassins guild w millia and venom but the theme in gg that resonates w me most is this idea of life? and what it means to live. and this idea of wanting to live despite everything. life isnt something you earn or have to deserve . theres a lot in millia and eddies AC routes in particular when i think of this ...... anyways its why i genuinely really am touched by xrds portrayal of robo ky as this kinda like. dude who is jsut very confident in his own way of life. all his stuff about dreams and all is basically the exact same as millias ending in AC after she kills eddie and realizes she can move on and live happily and find life outside of zato and shit. u know? i liek when gg does this - telling the same story over and over in different ways. this one in particular is just the one i find myself coming to over and over again....

i also really like robo ky as a like . motivation for venoms arc? i guess? i cant word that. but all the assassins guild members go thru this mostly thru the urge of slayer this like realization they are more than just objects and weapons and can live and find themselves and what not. and like slayer kinda pushes venom over To robo ky as his own sort of mirror in that storyline. which is cute. it works. for both of them . theyre two very interesting characters to pair together and i get why they did it especially w the nok story of robo ky watching mk ii die and be unable to save him and venoms themes in ac mostly ending w this cautionary warning of his own destruction if he keeps up the whole ignoring the guild to look for zato thing. i just like it.

^ in this it does baffle me they became like the Yaoi bait or whatever i dont really understand that. i think theyre silly together but they have such a fucking interesting dynamic... crying rolling around i want their story to continue so bad and not because im biased and want either of them in strive because i think theyre the most fun gimmick characters. hey speaking of that htye are the most fucking fun characters im glad theyre the two arc sys paired up for xrd cus it means i get content of both my mains together easily. epic fucking win. the issue of this is that sadly they are both bad to women . venom is just slightly better because hes just awful to one specific woman and calls her a bitch so so so much . anwyays bad influences on each other on that issue but i like that two of the characters whos struggles focus on being human and reconning with being just a tool of those that gave them life get solace with each other. makes me happy

anyways. tldr. robo kys only addition to the themes of gg is that tits fucking rock and you should suicide bait ! thanks !

[i-wont-ever-leave]

Can you do Hange x reader smut where the reader rides Hanges tighs THAG WOULD BE HOT AF (if you dont want to just ignore this LMAO)

OMG OMG, I DREAM OF DOING IT WITH HANGE ALMOST EVERY NIGHT... so here we go, I hope you like it.

RIDE ME LIKE A HORSE

Character: Hange Zoe

Warning: smut, masturbation, slaps, riding...

x x x

- You and Hange have been in a relationship for about 2 years, you love each other more than anything and find in each of you the happiness you always sought

- You and Hange are the best couple in the world, you always help each other, Hange helps you in training and you help with the experiments

- The chemistry between you two is amazing, your lips look like they were created especially for each other, your body and Hange's body fit perfectly, sex with hange is the hottest thing in the world for you

- Hange is the active and dominant in the relationship, rarely you will be in control in bed, but when you dominate, Hange looks like a little bitch to you

- You are generally a very calm person, you always know how to respect the moments, you know the time to do things... but when you are horny, my dear...

- Hange was sitting on the lab sofa while reading reports about new titans that were sighted outside the walls, seemed to be super concentrated until you arrive

- "babyyy" you speak in a slurred voice trying to get Hange's attention

- "tell me, my dear" Hange speaks without taking their eyes off the documents is reading there

- "you could stop working for a while, right? I need you for something" you say maliciously as you sit in the lap of Hange that looks at you with a confused expression, probably because Hange is paying attention to the documents they haven't even noticed your malicious tone

- "love, now I can't, there's a lot of paper to read... ask Mikasa for help" Hange says making you roll your eyes and start laughing "what's wrong?" Hange asks staring at you

- "hmm, Mikasa is a hot kitten, but I won't ask her to fuck me" you say with a funny expression on your face and hange looks at you nervous

- "OF COURSE YOU WON'T ASK THIS TO MIKASA, ARE YOU CRAZY?" then Hange realize what you were in need of help "I didn't realize what you needed was to cum" you smile at her and Hange hugs you "but now I can't love, wait a few more hours and I can give you what you need" hange kisses you and pays attention to the documents again

- "but I'm really needy now mommy" you hold Hange hand and take it to the middle of your legs and moan squirming "I'm wet already" you make a puppy ​​face and hange looks you in the eyes with their hand still in your intimacy over your pants

- "are you that horny?" they ask moving their fingers on you, pressing your intimacy and you moan saying yes "okay then, lock the door and take off your clothes" hange ordered making you get off their lap

- While you locked the laboratory Hange lowered their own pants, and sat again on the couch only in panties but with the shirt still on, you then went back to the couch and started to undress until you were totally naked

- "Turn your back, I want to see your ass" hange says and you do what they asked, hange smoothes your ass and without warning gives a strong slap making you squeal "hot... now turn around, I want to see if you are really wet" you turn around and hange face your pussy and run their finger seeing that clearly you were soaked

- "mommy, please don't tease me like that" you moan as hange keeps caressing you, you soon see a perverted smile appear "what's up?" you ask seeing the little smile

- "sit on my leg kitten" you then sit on hange thigh "you're so wet I can feel it on my thigh" hange talks as you press your intimacy into the bare thigh of hange looking for more contact, hange then hold your waist with both hands and help you move increasing the friction, you feel your pussy throbbing wanting more "go on, have fun" hange then release your waist as they pick up the documents again and start reading

- "WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? WHAT THE FUCK HANGE" you say indignantly seeing hange make you all wet on top of them and going back to reading the papers "are you just going to make me wet like this and go back to work?"

- "no love, I said I needed to work and you said you were horny, so I solved our problems" she smiles "while I read the documents, you have fun on my thigh" you then understand what they means and smile mischievously "ride on my leg like I'm a horse"

- "okay, but don't complain if your thigh gets soaked" you say and start riding hange thigh, moving there with ease since you were super wet "ahhhn hange" you moaned shamelessly as you felt wetter

- The only sounds present in the lab were hange flipping through the pages of documents, your moans and the noises of your wet pussy on hange thigh

- You started to move more quickly letting out loud moans and calling hange name, you felt your clit swollen and your pussy dripped with pleasure leaking into hange leg

- "Aren't you turned on?" you ask as you continue riding on their legs and Hange looks at you with a naughty face

- "I'm almost cuming just hearing you moan and feeling your hot pussy on my thigh baby" Hange says and takes your hand leading to their panties "See how wet I'm? You do this to me" You feel your pussy throb hearing this phrase

- "let me make you cum too" you say sticking your fingers inside hange panties while you still rub against their thigh

- "fuck work" hange talks and throws the papers on the floor while leaning on the couch leaving you in a more comfortable position to keep riding and at the same time masturbating hange "ahnnn y/n, your fingers are so good" they squirms underneath from you

- You stay for minutes in these positions, your breaths become more and more labored and hange starts moaning louder and louder "love, I'm going to cum" they say and then you feel their cum touch your fingers, you then take your fingers out of their pussy and suck savoring the taste

- "kiss me and taste your cum" you say and hange pulls you closer while kissing you fiercely making saliva leak from your lips

- "you're almost there, right?" hange asks you and you nod yes "get on all fours on the couch" you get up off their leg and get on all fours "you're deserving a good orgasm babygirl" and then kneels behind you while stroking your ass hange licks your swollen clitoris making you moan loudly and you shake your ass rubbing your pussy even more in Hange's mouth "I'm glad I'm starving right now" hange talk and suck it right sticking their tongue inside you

- "FUCK AAAAHNNN HANGE RIGHT THERE" you moan loudly feeling your climax getting closer, every time hange moved their tongue you wiggled and your legs trembled "love I'm gonna come" hange sucked you even more and finally you came in their mouth that wasted not even a drop of your cum and sucked everything, you then without strength for anything else fell on the couch and hange lay on top of you

- "you're so hot my love, I'll never get tired of feeling your taste" you smile listening to this phrase and feel hange kissing your back "I love you darling" they say rolling to the side and pulling you into a tight hug to fit the two lying on the sofa

- "I love you too angel" you settle in hange arms and you two fall asleep

Request open

[minzart]

I SAID I WOULD CAME BACK

Family day with family update

(Might have mistakes)

Danna and Yuu having the best time at NRC

Vargas: Don't they look familiar?

Crewel: Actually, they strangely do

Sam: They remind me of...

*The mirror actvates again with Ren and Caroline bringing an embarrassed Hector along*

Ren: I told you it was today

Hector: I am sorry, I thought it was next week...

Caroline: Didn't thought I would miss this place...

Vargas, Sam, Crewel and some previous students: This can't be happening

Trein, Crowley and students: Welcome to the club 🍻 (thats juice)

Crowley goes to give a speech but keeps pausing and trying to keep his laughs in but Danna keeps making gestures and faces to him so he messes up

Trein is also almost breaking up because she is sitting next to him and whispering inside jokes

Trein under his breath: You better Stop.

(They just missed their friend)

Hector: I dont know why everyone thinks I was the bad influence when I wasnt the one who almost ran over a kohai in the school field with a "borrowed" car!

Crewel:...

Hector: I was in the car but still

Vargas: *war flashbacks*

Crowley and Trein who had no idea this even happend: ಠಿ_ಠ

Hector: So you are telling me that you and Trein snuck up kitten Lucios and just kept him?

Danna: It wasnt hard to convince Crowley to it

Hector: When I tried to bring a puppy with Crewel and Vargas once we ended up in cleaning detention

Danna: Oh my dear son *pats him* these are times where now who the smarter one is

Hector: Mom!

Danna: Suck it up

Ren sneaks behind Sam and hugs him: DIBS!

Sam: WHAT? THATS MY LINE!

Trappola: And here I was thinking I wouldnt third wheel for these two anymore

Hector refering to Crewels coat: you wear this at class?

Crewel: Yeah! Why I wouldnt wear it?

Hector: I thought you didn't like your things to get dirty since we did that complicated potion that spilled all over the classroom and –

Crewel: That was ONE TIME!

Ren: Cool! you still got your business in school!?

Sam: Its easier when you dont have to hide it from the teachers

Staff: You what now!?

Ren picks up a crossbow at Sam's shop: Sam, is this mine?

Sam: No...

Ren: I've been looking for this for... Years now

*Sam beliving it because he can't remember where all of his itens came from*

*Ren checking the crossbow*

Sam: is that yours?

Ren smirking: It is now bitch *runs away*

Hector: This is my friend–

Caroline: You might be Crewel, nice to meet you

Crewel: How do you know my name?

Caroline: I was married to your famboy

*Turns to Hector*

Caroline: Are you blind? How did you let that one go??

Hector: your coat is amazing! *Touches* and so soft too did you made it?

Staff: oh no, he's dead

Crewel embarrassed: Yeah it isnt that hard...

Staff: How did he not die!?

Hector: I remember you saying I would get one of your pieces one day mister fashionista

Danna, Caroline, Ren and Yuu: Make his pockets hurt!

Yuu: These are my friends Deuce and Ace

Ren: they look like cool– WAIT A SEC

Braincell trio: ?

Ren: You befriended a mini Trappola??

Yuu: Yeah?

Ren: In this economy!?

Caroline catching up with Azul's mom: So I told myself that if I didn't became a star by 35 I was just gonna become a serial killer

Mrs. Ashengrotto: How old are you? Im getting nervous!

Caroline : Oh Yuu is at that very special age when a teen has only one thing on their mind...

*Yuu Running in the background with a manic laugh*

Caroline: Arson

*Hector walks up to Farena*

Hector: Farena is that you? How are you doing

Yuu and Ren: No!

Hector: You have kids? How great!

Yuu and Ren: The dad talk!

Yuu walking off: Im out

Hector: is that your little brother Leona?

*Ren pulls Yuu back by their shirt*

Hector: Its been so long since I last saw you I remember you when you where little

Yuu and Ren: hehehe

Im really scared by this because I didn't mean this to be this long anyways hope you liked it

HELLO DON'T BE SCARED THIS IS SO PERFECT

YOU KILELD ME I DIDN'T THINK I COULD FALL IN LOVE MORE WITH THOSE OCS BUT YOU PROVED ME WRONG OH GOD MY HEART

I kin Ace's brother being a third weel is ass

MINI TRAPPOLA? IN THIS ECONOMY??? MORE LIKELY THAN YOU THOUGH

I LOVE DANNA SO MUCH

I love how you made Trein, Crowley and Danna's friendship it's so wholesome MY HEARTH CAN'T TAKE THIS MUCH SUGAR

VARGAS' WAS FLASHBACK XD

Ren and Sam are so cute AND THE BUSINES STILL TUNNING IS HILARIOUS AMAZING

I stand Caroline

[sk-lumen]

hey! my names j! and i need some advice on friendship.

I have a best friend, A, and we have been good friends for about 5 years and have aknowlegded each other as best friends. But she doesnt act like it a lot. She loves me i dont doubt this but i wonder if she loves me as much as I love her.

She jokes a lot. Saying things like oh suck it up, and sarcastic responses when I ask for her advice or opinion or help. She doesnt talk to me about personal things or life events and I didnt either but Im starting too, and she seems unbothered.

She is very affectionate with her partner, family and other good frieds, She acts disgusted when I hug her, I think its a joke, but shakes me off whenever I try to touch her.

Its to the point where I cant tell if shes joking or not. Ive also had to come out to her a few times repeatedly about my prefered name and pronouns and she straight up forgets by the next week yet learned the preferd names and things of newer people who shes only known for a few months. I dont know what to do.

Hi J,

From everything you’ve said, I say this with all the kindness but that doesn’t sound like the actions of a friend. It’s important to note that it’s not the words that matter (her saying that you’re her best friend), but actions. That’s how someone shows how important you are to them.

The truth is, people will show their truest self, including their most authentic feelings towards you, through actions, small gestures, unconscious habits. Let me put this into perspective.

From what you’ve mentioned, this friend…

teases you (even though you may have visibly or verbally made it clear it makes you uncomfortable, I’m assuming)

invalidates your feelings (“suck it up”, sarcasm)

doesn’t confide/trust in you with her personal life

is affectionate with all those dear to her (which should include you), but not you, to the point of showing to be repulsed

completely ignores your preferred name and pronouns - to be frank, I don’t think this is accidental. No friend would forget about something so important and personal as this. Mess up the details or forget the first time(s)? Sure, we’re only human. But if it’s on multiple occasions and you’ve expressed your discomfort on the matter and nothing has changed, it’s all the answer you need. It doesn’t sound like this friend truly prioritizes you.

Here's what should happen:

A true friend validates your feelings, makes you feel heard and supported. A friend is affectionate (unless they have any general issues with physical contact etc, which doesn’t seem the case here) because it is yet another way of showing they care about you. A friend will trust you with the narrative of their personal lives and feel glad to offer a shoulder to lean on in exchange as well. They value your advice and are happy to offer it, too. A friend stops any words, actions or gestures that you point out as being hurtful to your feelings; furthermore they will actively remedy the situation, because that’s how you sustain a relationship: choosing to make it work, day by day. Last but not least, a friend will be very mindful and considerate about things like preferred name or pronouns, simply because it’s important to you. It’s not a trivial detail.

And that’s what a friend would do. What about a best friend? Multiply that twice, five times, ten times. That’s what best friend means.

I hope this gives you clarity darling, because you deserve more than this. Perhaps it’s time to have a heart-to-heart conversation with her and see what’s actually going on. Maybe she’s uncomfortable with something and doesn't know how to bring it up, maybe she just doesn’t care as much, or maybe she’s keeping a distance because of something from the past… who knows? Ask and find out. Communicate. And if the situation doesn’t change… don’t be afraid to cut your losses. It is by letting go of the old, that you can let in the new, and surround yourself with the kind of people that truly resonate with you and make you feel loved and supported.

Honestly, that is one of the best advices I would give anyone in their 20s, even 30s. It's okay to make mistakes by tolerating less than you deserve, but once you realize it, don't wait forever to do better! That's a lot of years wasted by settling for unhappy situations, unhappy relationships. Clear the space, admit you deserve more, then allow the universe to bring it into your life.

I wish you the best, and hope you find the kindness and supportive connection you deserve. 💞✨

-Lumen

[deviantartdramanow]

Proof over Trigonal's b.s lies

Ok, getting abit fed up this loser is talking out her buttcrack so here, I did some digging and found these: https://deviantartdramanow.tumblr.com/post/690254207509544960/proof-triagonal-is-a-creep-and-was-banned-from THIS comment thread in particular. We dont see no 'it's kid friendly and platonic' excuse here do we? https://www.deviantart.com/comments/18/2617047/4886760940 https://archive.ph/LN9jX (archived it, so you aint getting out of hiding this one or the others) https://www.deviantart.com/comments/18/2612773/4879845792 https://archive.ph/HYzuo (This was already archived lmfao, seems we aint the only ones keeping tabs on your ass) Again, where is the 'kid friendly and platonic' statement dear? Also date? You know what that means right? Or are you stupid? Nah you just in denial and lying out your ass as per usual. You seem very keen on requesting 'date fics' with this kid too. Sus. https://archive.ph/mc93s Also this juicer tid bit, WITH UNHIDDEN COMMENTS. (tried to cover her tracks it seems lmao.) https://www.deviantart.com/comments/1/872067015/4905954617 Also the 'little brother' excuse while also saying you want to go on dates with them? I myself have brothers from other mothers I see as kin, but do you see me fucking going 'i want to make date fics uwu' with them? FUCK NO. No we just goof off and send memes around, we dont fantasize about going on weird double dates and being determined to get a fic made of said fantasy like you do Triangle head. Also yes they are over 18, but still point stands, if you see someone as kin, dont make yourself look like a cringe anime incest fan, it's how you get the FBI called on you hella fast, especially since this kid was underage it appears from the comments of the others. Cuz guess what? Incest AND pedophilia are illegal clown. =D

Tri lying ass off about her banning here:

Of course she runs to Tall AGAIN and cries she was ‘tricked’ https://youtube.com/shorts/PVg8twXOMn0?feature=share And on the Reddit post, she bawls and says a different story. https://www.reddit.com/r/polls/comments/vn5m9l/comment/ie5b13r/ Here’s the uncensored thread right here gang (Feel free reddit lurkers to send it into the chat to show what a lying bitch she is.) https://www.deviantart.com/comments/1/920457771/4993534621 https://archive.ph/gs0aT How can you BE TRICKED when the user did NOT edit their comment where they said “I am blocking you for awhile.” here’s the post itself: I’m going to block you WHEN (not if, but WHEN) you reply (because you cannot resist). HOWEVER, it’s just a mute—I will unblock you sometime in the next few days or so (likely with my next upload). I’ve done this before—just tired of seeing your messages in my feed (you repeat the same things causing me to repeat the same things; it’s tiresome and I’m wanting to wind down from the day). HOW pray tell is that 'tricking’ you Triagonal? They were flat out honest with you about the block, the only one shown 'editing’ their comments was libra, not this user. No I aint defending them, but at the end of the day, you block evaded, DEAL WITH IT. Why not wait out the time when they would unblock you? Why tf send libra (your alt, quit lying it aint your friend.) in right after the block happened? Also dont give us that BULLSHIT excuse of “That was a curious friend boo hoo.” Yea no, not all friends have their noses up their friends asses and follow their chats around, try again ya fucking liar. You block evaded so suck our collective asses you lying pos. Also you ban evaded with the square name too, so why should we fucking believe you? Cope that you are banned, end of story. ---- So with all that being shown, let's see the loser lie her ass off at this one, or make another fake will to gain pity points. She did let slip to a few who now hate her how this blog and the forum regulars 'effects' her. Good, throw your guts up in fear that others know your dirty fucking secrets you pile of trash. Stay away from kids and sane people and go check into a mental ward, you really need help, otherwise you'll hurt an unknowing kid who's going to grow up to despise what you did to them mentally.

[sirenascales]

-> Chuuya with a Black F!Reader who's a bit insecure because of her skin.

@furrypostsoul said: Hello admin, I hope you’re having a good day! So stoked to see a fellow bisexual bsd fan! I would politely like to request a chuuya Drabble with a black fem bisexual reader where she thought that chuuya wouldnt be interested in her romantically cause of y’know, her skin. If you could also add in scenarios where she was racially harassed in public (pls dont write this is ur not comfortable, I understand if you don’t! it’s something I want people to be aware about)

note: ahhh thank you so much for your request! i immediately had an idea as soon as I saw it and I believe I came up with a good one, especially after asking some of my pals for advice on how to tackle it! Hope you like it!

warnings: colorism, mentions of racial fetishization, microaggresion, and racism [not from Chuuya] insecure reader, angst to fluff i promise,

"I still don't understand why it takes so long to do your hair... aren't you just getting braids?" The confused look on Chuuya's face was honestly super cute and hilarious and you couldn't help but laugh behind your hand.

"That's just the way it is, man. That's why I said we can go out on Saturday. I can't on Friday since I'll be strapped to the chair."

"Man, whatever," Chuuya huffed and you rolled your eyes at him, crossing your arms over your chest.

"Don't whatever me. Just suck it up!"

You shook your head, the hustle and bustle of the shopping district around you fading as you looked to your companion. Red hair, blue eyes, fancy clothes and a dumb hat; Chuuya was honestly too handsome, too damn fine. The scowl on his face was cute and you resisted the urge to pinch his cheeks. You knew he would literally kill you for that, and you valued your life.

You and Chuuya were in that talking stage and finally decided to go out on your first official date on Saturday. Besides his... occupation, you found yourself very much liking the man. Not just for his looks, but his fiery personality made him interesting, the way he carried himself. He was great and you were so into him.

You hoped he felt the same way. He had to, he agreed to the date in the first place! And how could he not? You were a sight, rich brown skin and he sorta, kinda, absolutely loved the cute afro puffs you had on your head. You were beautiful, a bright spirit with a bit of an edge that Chuuya definitely liked.

After talking some more, Chuuya had to go off to do his own thing, and after sharing a very tight hug, you waved him farewell, promising to see him on Saturday for your first date.

You couldn't help the huge, happy grin on your face, giddy as you made your way over to a nearby bench, sitting next to an older woman. You paid her no mind, grabbing your phone to text your friend as you giggled to yourself.

"Was that your boyfriend?" the woman suddenly inquired and you blinked at her in surprise. Then, your face started to heat up and you laughed lightly.

"Well, not yet. We're just dating."

"Ah..." the woman trailed off and you didn't like the tone of her voice. Suddenly feeling awkward, you turned back to your phone.

"I don't mean to be rude," the woman started and you couldn't help the sense of dread you felt. Here we go again. "But you should be careful, dear. You're a beautiful woman but... Japanese men don't really like dark skin. Not unless they are with you for... ulterior motives."

Even if you were already expecting some foolishness, the woman's words still stunned you, striking you to your core as you gave her a look that exceeded shock. You were appalled, your chest tightening in anger and hurt. You took in a slow deep breath, your fists clenching tightly. Your body had gone numb, and you tried your best to keep it cool. You couldn't make a scene.

"Wow," you laughed softly, shaking your head as you stood up. You didn't pay that stupid bitch any mind, storming away, your anger just boiling.

Not only did that woman ruin your entire day, she honestly ruined your entire week. The anger had soon subsided and you were left with the insecurities you tried to push down, especially when it came to Chuuya. Your mind ran at one hundred miles per hour, overthinking as the cruel words lingered in your mind.

Was Chuuya another one? Like your last relationship, were you just a sexual conquest for someone just wanting to try having sex with a Black girl? That was what your ex-girlfriend did to you, so was this just the same? Did he even like you?

No. Chuuya wouldn't do that.

Even so, you canceled your date with him as you sat in the stylist's chair on Friday, eyes burning with tears. You didn't want to experience that again, so you figured you give it all up before you get hurt again. Or even worse.

After spending day getting your hair done, you gotten a quick bite to eat before heading home, feeling completely dejected. Your hair looked amazing, long box braids swaying as you trudged along. But Chuuya didn't answer your text at all, and that honestly made you feel even more like shit. Did he not care at all?

You sighed deeply, coming up on your apartment, stopping when you saw a very familiar red motorcycle parked along the sidewalk. Your heart skipped a beat when you spotted Chuuya leaning against his bike, and when he finally noticed you, your heart dropped when he yelled your name.

"Oi!" he hollered, stomping over to you angrily. "What the hell do you mean our date is canceled?!"

"I-" you were at a loss for words. "Why are you here?"

"I was waiting for you! I didn't know where you were getting your hair done so I just stood here."

"Th-the whole day?! Chuuya!"

"I mean, I went and got food and stuff but-"

"That's not the point!" you interrupted. "Why would you even bother?"

Chuuya scoffed. "Are you serious? You suddenly cancel our date and you expect me not to worry about you?" As he finished talking, Chuuya is shocked to find tears pooling in your eyes, your lips trembling as you hung your head. "H-hey, what the hell happened?"

"You don't just want to fuck me, right?"

Now Chuuya was at a loss for words, his jaw hanging open as he registered your ridiculous words. You spoke again, telling him about the things that woman said to you earlier that week, as well as the horrible experience you had with your ex-girlfriend.

"... I tried not to think too much about it but... I'm used to comments about my skin and race, I mean, hello! I'm Black, but... " you trailed off, lifting your hands up to wipe your tears away. Chuuya beat you to it, and you stared at him with teary eyes as he gently wiped your tears away.

"I'm not your ex-girlfriend." Chuuya was firm as he spoke. "And that old hag needs to mind her own fucking business. I fucking like you. Not because of some weird sexual thing, I actually fucking like you. The whole you. You're beautiful and smart, you keep me on my toes. And yes, your skin and hair are amazing, I love them, but those are only parts of you that I find amazing. I'm not giving you my love and attention because I want something from you, I'm giving it because you deserve it. And I want to be the one who gives it to you."

You didn't know what to say, what to do. You could hear your heart pounding in your ears, your mouth going dry. Still, after a moment you just end up punching Chuuya lightly on his chest, choking out a laugh while you cried.

"Shut up... all that sappy shit..."

Chuuya scoffed, lowkey offended. "Excuse me? I basically just confessed to you."

"Yeah..." you sniffed, looking and giving the man a watery smile. "You did. I..." Lips trembling again, you took a step forward and Chuuya wasted no time in pulling you in for a hug.

"And you better accept me or else I will kick your ass," Chuuya said, pressing his face against your hair. "You smell nice..."

"Hm."

"And you're perfect. Worth more than an experimental fuck and the words of some old bitch." There was a bite to Chuuya's words, and that made you feel so much better.

"I'm sorry for doubting you..." you whispered and Chuuya shook his head, pulling away from the hug.

"Don't be. I understand, I promise."

You smiled widely, face getting hot as he gently cupped your cheek. "Are you sure?"

Chuuya rolled his eyes. "Fine, you can make it up to me by un-cancelling our date. Let me show you off."

You giggled softly, hugging him again. "Okay. That's fair."

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