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#today of all days might feel the hardest of them all#I have been having a really hard time coming to terms with the reality of this and what it all really means#I feel as though since liam passed I haven’t been able to really understand it all or believe it to be true just out of pure shock and#not wanting to believe it#it just doesn’t seem possible or real#but today is different#today somehow feels more painful than ever before#my heart hurts my chest hurts my whole body aches#I know people say when they lose someone they feel like a part of them is missing#well I really do have a piece of me missing#these boys are what allowed me to survive#if it weren’t for these boys I don’t know if I’d even be here today#they kept me going and gave me a purpose and a light that I couldn’t find by myself#I haven’t been able to sit down and actually write something meaningful as a tribute to liam bc it just didn’t seem real and I knew if I#tried to write something that would mean it was really real#Liam was actually going to be gone#and here we are today seeing horrible horrible photos of the boys from some fucksd up people who think it’s okay to invade someone’s most#private moments and share them with the world#and I think this#seeing their faces#is what really made this all come to life for me and made me really grasp the fact that he’s gone#and it just made me so furious I#I don’t know how to go on with my life knowing that he’s gone and there will just forever be a piece of me missing#like I just can’t process the fact that the person who kept me going is now ??? gone#and I just have to somehow accept that?#and continue on as if everything is fine ??#I can’t understand how to do that#I just don’t know#I grew up with these boys#they quite literally shaped me into who I am today and it just hurts so so so much and I don’t know how to handle it
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kinda fascinating to be in a situation where I've had to call / online chat with insurance representatives during the whole UH CEO fallout. I have BCBS and maaaybe they're always this helpful but idk, they just seem so responsive and taking extra steps to help me out and it turns out the issue I'm having isn't even on their side, it's the dentist's! also their online chat is a real person??? I don't have to work around the AI before it finally transfers me??? Incredible
anyway turning this post into a psa to 1) ALWAYS check that your medical bills match what your insurance's Explanation of Benefits (EOB) reads (you do this by checking what amount your insurance says "patient owes" in the EOB and if your bill doesn't match that, your provider is overcharging you) and 2) DO NOT Get Your Dental Care At Great Expressions Holy Shit I'm Pissed
My wife and I went to the dentist in fall 2022 for the first time since the pandemic started, and the bills we both received were so high i've never gone again since then, because i don't wanna spend 500 bucks on a basic cleaning + X-rays. But my wife has continued to go twice a year cuz her teeth suck so the frequent check-up matters more for her.
And lordy, we've been naive lol. We've heard dental is expensive so we've just been resigned to the high costs; we also both have terrible executive functioning around all things financial and are woefully under-educated about how bills and insurance work — but the latest bill we got was just too damn much and I finally mustered up the spoons to figure shit out.
Aaaand it turns out that, while the dentist charged nearly one thousand dollars for her three fillings, the EOB shows we only owe $128. Buck. Wild.
So I've gone through every charge we've gotten over the years and they are all hundreds of dollars higher than the EOB. Great Expressions has been taking advantage of our ignorance and naivety to rob us for two fricking years.
If I understand what one insurance rep told me, since Great Expressions has a contract with BCBS they're supposed to charge us an in-network rate, which is far cheaper than out-of-network rates. Basically they send their proposed bill to our insurance, who send back a fraction of the money proposed as decided in the contract between them; insurance also tells the dentist the cost the dentist can then charge us.
But Great Expressions is pocketing the insurance money and then charging us the remainder of their original proposed cost instead of the contracted rate. So they're clearly aware that we are in-network, but still charging us like we're out-of-network. WTF
Anyway thank you BCBS reps who helped me figure all this out, incredible to actually have some non-AI customer service in this age lol. And everyone else please wish me luck as I make a chart of each dental bill we've gotten since 2022 versus what the EOB states — and then take it to the dental clinic in person because they are Not Helpful over the phone lemme tell you
The plan is to try to talk it out with them myself, and if I can't get them to listen to me I'm going to call an BCBS insurance rep while in the clinic with them so they can talk it over lmao. And if that doesn't get me the past years' charges back...idk if i can consult a lawyer or whatever but I'm gonna get this damn money back.
also we're going to get a new damn dentist. obviously
#log#if someone reading this Happens to be a legal professional of some kind#and wants to let me know how likely they think it is i can get all this money back...pray tell#i'm just SO furious because that fall 2022 we weren't as financially stable as we are now#and our dental bill made things more precarious#and i just think of how many people are barely making ends meet#who might go into debt or have to skip meals to pay a bill so unexpectedly high#and i RAGE. if they're doing this to other people too i feel like i need to idk#get a lawyer?? tip someone(??) off to look into it??? they can't keep doing this
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you've heard of "see how your date treats service workers" now get ready for "see how your classmate/professor treats the librarians"
#just had the WORST social interaction with a classmate who i thought i was making friends with#wherein he mocked our english librarian for (horror!) trying to expresss interest in his thesis by asking about his interest in metatheory#with the exact inflection of a teenager complaining about their stupidcringefail relatives trying to ask about their interests#like why are you being such a little brat about university staff trying to make you feel seen and supported???#i get that people in academic humanities right now feel very under attack and like there's no security or support to be had#but the solution is not to treat every single person outside of your department like a simpleton who you must tolerate#how the fuck do you think you're going to do any good in a teaching field when your response to everyone without a phd is to roll your eyes#just the thoughtless contempt made me absolutely furious!!!!!!!!#and he literally said it in my fucking kitchen i wanted to kick him the fuck out#it made me so incredibly mad#personal nonsense
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I feel like the first time Camila tells Vee she loves her, Vee is just going to immediately start sobbing hysterically. Both because nobody’s ever loved her before—especially not anyone like a parent—and because IMMEDIATE guilt spiral of “But I’m not her real daughter or her real anything, and I Can’t Be That, Either”
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yeah....
shoutout to AU vee and luz for both being like "i can't be camila's daughter, i'm not good enough" except for Wildly different reasons.
vee is like not only can i not BE your real daughter, but i hate your real daughter's guts. and camila isn't even Angry with her about it. she's just like baby i'm so sorry she hurt you. anything you need, i'm here
and vee is like. what have i DONE to TRICK YOU into being this nice to me. i'm just gonna. crawl into your lap and bawl now....
#replies#there's a whole thread in one of these drafts where like#camila is trying to figure out how to explain like#'i can't abandon luz to a man like belos even if he has made her as evil as you say'#without making it sound like she no longer prioritizes vee or cares about vee's feelings#while ALSO trying not to explicitly be like 'i am so scared of what it might mean for her to be that man's favorite'#but in her hesitation vee just hears 'i'm furious with you for hating luz and for not getting me to her immediately'#and camila loves vee So Much.....#toh#princess luz au#vee noceda#camila noceda#luz noceda
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Sorry what’s up w the Ethan slater stuff? I know him only from your posts / SpongeBob stuff
HI HELLO please buckle in
yep -- the same guy from the spongebob musical, and my posts abut the spongebob musical.
he blew up completely and now the general public knows him as 'ariana grande's new boyfriend' - their relationship seems to have started off the back of co-starring in the upcoming wicked musical film adaptation.
it's just been like. a monkey's paw curling sort of a way for him to get catapulted to fame, as i had always really enjoyed him as a performer (as spongebob, yes, but also in the other roles i'd seen him in,) and my biggest hope back around 2017 was that he would continue in and be really successful in theatre, get a lot of broadway roles, maybe take on some existing parts i thought he'd really suit, like seymour in little shop or ogie in waitress.......... but instead he booked the role of boq from wicked in a massive hollywood film production instead, where he met ariana grande. THE ariana grande.
and then yeah. at some point, he and grande broke up with their respective partners, (slater leaving both his wife AND newborn son) jumped into a new relationship, and now the whole wider internet knows who he is but certainly not for the right reasons.
there's been speculation regarding whether or not grande and slater had cheated on their previous partners before their relationship began with various sources coming out of the woodwork saying "yes they did" and others saying "no they didn't" -- humans are all perfectly capable of making stuff up, the media especially, so i simply don't know who to trust and i admit it had completely shattered my whole good impression of him - PLUS it gave the wider internet an absolutely awful first impression of him, resulting in, yeah, the (frankly, unflattering, sometimes downright cruel) memes of him popping up on twitter and, as i discovered yesterday, in non-theatre youtubers' videos who would literally never have heard of him if not for the slater-grande romance 🥲
FULL COVERAGE of the situation as it was happening can all be found on the lovely @notasimpleslater's blog under the tag 'ozgate' if you want to delve deeper!
#loren talks#ethan slater#months later let's call this my actual full response/reaction lol#i think at the time this was going down at the end of 2023 i was sort of just Freaking Out like my blood was boiling lol#i was parasocially furious with both of them#ofc now i do realise i'd put him on something of a pedestal#having seen his cute posts about his then wife an former childhood sweetheart plus posts welcoming his new son#AND having watched a youtube mini-series he'd made with his then-brother-in-law. i was SO invested and then.#i was like OH. he really DESTROYED his family huh.#but ofc! every situation is nuanced. we don't know what went on behind the scenes#wrg to his relationship. or what grande's was like with her ex-husband#since everything came to light there's been articles stating that slater wants to work with his ex-wife to share custody of their child#and that he's been spotted backstage WITH his son at spamalot on broadway (his current production)#so it sugggests he's not trying to be an Absent Father#which tracks with some of his own artwork as he and nick blaemire DID write a whole musical about the strained relationship between#a father and son and i just feel like. that suggests something about his personal character. and makes me HOPE he'd want to#be a present and loving parent regardless of circumstance.#anyways.#it's simply not my business BUT. seeing his face#popping up every now and again#it does just. feel extremely weird haha#there's a part of me that's like oh but that's musical spongebob my bestie what's he doing here#as for ariana i really have never had a strong opinion of her#but i have to say hearing her songs out and about these days...... :') i could do without it
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Historically accurate dad!England (dadgland?) 👇👇👇
#hetalia#arthur kirkland#aph england#hws england#this shit made me laugh so hard when i first saw it bc yeah...yeah 😭😭😭 and i immediately thought of hetalia 💀#he's definitely yelled at his colonies in a furious drunken rage at least ONCE cmon...maybe even hit them a few times just sayin 🤷🏾♀️
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i want to properly hit people with the keykid dalia lore but unfortunately i’m a perfectionist and i believe text should be accompanied with pictures in order to have a stronger impact which means i gotta draw which means it’ll never happen
#i can provide the gist in text though#long story short there’s a kind of meta thing going on there#in reference to the fact that as opposed to everyone else’s keykids who actually existed when khux was online#and had their own personalities before the story was complete#whereas i came in late and made an oc for a story that was already long over#hence like i made her knowing she would die. doomed from the start#so the meta aspect there is that she’s kind of like aware that she’s in a story already over. she knows the future#whether that’s her own strange power or that she got a look at the book of prophecies somehow#but she’s too scared to try interfering with fate so she willingly plays along with the role that destiny has for her#she doesn’t want to risk messing stuff up#she hides the fact that she knows all this from pretty much everyone and it messes with her#for example she is already aware of strelitzia’s existence (strel isn’t that good at hiding lol. but dalia is also just observant)#she would love to say hi but she knows it shouldn’t happen#i imagine like fast forward to later people find out she knew about everything. and particularly lauriam finds out she knew strel’s fate#which has him furious bc why didn’t dalia do anything about it?#simple. because it was meant to be this way. as much as it breaks her heart#’dalia’ appaaaaarently. don’t quote me on this. is some pagan lithuanian goddess of fate/destiny#or something along those lines#it also means like ‘branch’ or ‘bough’ in hebrew/some similar language so that’s interesting ig#but i was going with the fate thing#just in general she’s a very shy and introspective girl. polite and reserved#loves cutesy wholesome things like gardening and reading#and like. Soul Crushing Knowledge#kingdom hearts#khux#oc: dalia
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When Zunesha did this, I genuinely felt so happy.
Jack drowned, but isn't dead yet.
#jack#kaido one piece#animal kingdom#animal kingdom pirates#luffy#onepiece#what they did to Zunesha makes me so mad#one piece luffy#one piece#zunesha#zou arc#and after that#when they all bandage him#that whole thing#its so sweet#mugiwara no luffy#monkey d. luffy#straw hat luffy#zou op#Minks op#op#i respect a villain because they have their own random perspectives but when you are so vile as to harm someone just like that#and to just love destruction for no reason at all#it makes me furious because what even is that?#maybe I'm biased but they Harmed Zunesha so badly it made me really mad#so when Zunesha kicked them off I felt so so so good#because they totally had it coming.
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i’ll never forgive arcane for what they did to vi’s character in s2
#or for s2 in general#like s1 is SO. GOOD.#literally flawless#i cannot point out a single flaw in s1 of arcane#and then s2 was good. for another show. but it was terrible for arcane#people have definitely said this better than me but i cannot stop thinking about it#arcane was my favorite tv show ever. ive rewatched s1 countless times. i shoved it in the faces of everyone i knew#and then s2 wad just so.#lackluster#the thing that made s1 so good was the fact that everything came together#and you could see all of these lives merging and how all of these vastly different people were connected#and it all related back to the tensions between zaun and piltover#even down to the relationships (viktor/jayce vi/caitlyn vi/jinx etc.)#but then s2. it just felt like they stopped caring#especially with vi#to learn that vi’s character regressed so much just because ‘the writers didn’t care’ makes me furious#its their fucking job to care!!!#fran talks#arcane
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My cat just ran outside while I was taking my dog out to the bathroom, refuses to come back while calling her and shaking food at her. Actively runs in the opposite direction. And ofc someone broke the laser pointer I keep on my keys so I can't trick her back into the apartment. I'm so pissed that shit broke off, all my other crappy keychains are still attached. The laser was how I got her back last time she escaped but she'd only taken a few steps out and I was able to snatch her.
And I'm not supposed to have her so I can't even notify the apartment complex a cat is missing 😐 guess she's an outdoor cat now :/
#she chose a really bad time to run away#i already searched and tried to get her back for an hour#I'm dead to the world after 3.5 straight weeks of 12-13 hour shifts#i feel bad not caring but she made her choice. she wants to go back to being a street cat 🤷🏽♀️#she's spayed so i feel even less guilty if she doesn't come back bc shes not adding to the population problem#i'll miss her but if she doesnt want to be caught she wont be#the only reason she got picked off the street in the first place is bc she got stuck in an engine#any tips or tricks people suggest I've already tried them. shes not scared or lost. she actively does not want to come back#this cat is ridiculously food motivated and she still wouldn't come back as i shook the food bag and poured some in her bowl#if she comes back at all I'll be surprised#she's lived on the street she's not an indoor only princess cat who will realize it sucks outside. i know shes not gonna come back#I don't 'not care' really. honestly I'm furious she slipped out past me.#but atm i literally have 0 energy left. work has broken me. if she comes back hooray. if she doesn't wtf am I supposed to do#i don't have money for traps and if she doesn't want to be caught she won't#i just hope she sticks to residential areas :/#i just don't know what else to really do if I've done everything i can in my power to get her back
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therapy tonight and I don't fucking wanna
#it sucks! but not yet sure if it's time to hit the bricks#I'm just still so guarded w this guy after over 3 months#and I've made the great personal growth step of allowing myself to be furious w my ex#so there's that#gonna ask him how to deal w dysphoria and stick up for myself when im misgendered#and if he can't help me there i am mcfucking Done
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Gonna use this image any time someone says something low key sexist about Sable (ie "she's showing too much skin" regarding a fucking bathing suit 😭🤦)
I don't hear you complaining about Spirit 😭
#I swear to god some people in this community#just say ‘cover them up whore’ like a normal sexist does#also people who targeted the sables because of their bathing suit outfit and then others saying it’s fine to do that#because of what she’s wearing… do you not hear yourselves?!#purity culture will be the death of us all#and then when you play sable because you look and dress like her and then people say whoever plays her is a ‘gooner’#get off the fucking internet and talk to an actual alt woman#(this is low key a vague post about someone streaming with their friends and making fun of the sable that joined the three of them because#she had the bathing suit skin on and they were saying shit like ‘what a normal amount of clothing you have’ and the whole chat joined in.#it was the first game and I literally couldn’t watch them after that because it just made me so mad. YOU DON’T KNOW WHO’S BEHIND THE SCREEN#for all you know it’s just an alt woman who likes the outfit and your making fun of her because you think skin = sex = gooner which says a#hella lot about YOU more than the person playing her. if you know who I'm vauging about don't be a dick and harass them or send this to the#I was so mad that I just closed the stream and reblogged sable pictures because this hate against her so fucking insane.#I'm not trying to start drama. I'm just tired of this bullshit. I don't think they knew how insensitive stuff like what they were saying is#(even though they really should have; they're an adult and their words having meaning and they clearly have a young fanbase that looks up#them so they should be more careful about the shit they say) but I'm not here to try to fight anyone. I'm just furious about#constantly having to point out how fucking stupid this is and how it's rooted in sexism and purity culture.#when you say this shit you're not just 'making fun of a character'. you're indirectly making fun of alt women who dress less conservatively#you are indirectly shaming a group of people who already have to deal with prejudice outside of your 'jokes')#I love how misogyny and sexism is such a funny joke to these guys (no I don't)#I’m so fucking sick of how this community treats alt women#(speaking as an alt fashion afab person myself)#anyway. I'm just going to eat my dinner in silence.#nah who am I kidding I'm pulling up [popular 90s anime magical girl show staring 'rabbit' whose tag I don't want this to go to]#dead by daylight#dbd#rant#mint mumbles
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Thinking about Aiko....
#such a weirdo#realized a while back that Aiko is basically the shadow to Enmus sonic because um#i made them when i was getting back into demon slayer and at that point i hadnt seen mugen yet#so. they are incidentally.. so very similar😭😭 FUNNIER STILL IS I LIKE TO TINK AIKO TOGETHER WITH DOUMA. I HADNT A CLUE...#demon slayer#kny#demon slayer oc#my art#their whole thing is being really whimsical and being detached from reality.. Enmu would be furious with me. identity theft..#at the very least Aiko is a lot kinder than Enmu.. they just have a thick layer of oddity on top#like they think everyone around them is bugs but in a very very affectionate way#they believe humans and demons can get along but in the same vein they kinda dont think highly of demons#to them demons are like pitiful sick animals sorta#their relationship with douma is also very odd. they take turns studying one another like ameoba
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alright i got a lot of writing done on five & later i'll get some done on ten. i wanted to get 10 posts done apiece on each blog today but losing a big chunk of my shit to tumblr's nonsense put a dent in my motivation! wow who'd of thunk. so i'm taking a break rn & laying down before doing other things & running errands for a bit lol
#🏏 ( ooc . )#my mood is considerably soured i won't even lie to you#shit made me FURIOUS#i clenched my foot so hard i lost half a nail#not even playing w/ u#what i ended up rewriting is shorter & prob less detailed & it Just Makes Me Mad so
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One! Two! THREE Leading Lights, all for you!
Below the read more is a copy flipped right-side-up for your viewing pleasure (:
#hlvrv#leading light#m scribbles#You have no idea how much I had to crunch these files just to get them uploaded#Apparently I made them WAY TOO BIG so then I had to fight tooth and nail with Tumblr over it#May have been shadowbanned. may not have! I doubt I was but oh was Tumblr FURIOUS with me#There were some VERY tiny details on this that may have been lost in the crunchening so I might gush over my own art in a reblog later#But for now#Happy Valentine's to everyone! I hope yours was splendid (:
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when you have fanworks like fic and art that people made out of hard work and love for no compensation other than affection for a piece of media and some rando who supposedly loves that same media takes that art, strips off the credit and reposts it for, what, clout? likes? unearned attention?
that makes me furious
#fandom problems#fandom things#fandom culture#fandom#especially on a platform like this where there is literally a buttton for reblogging the artists work#reblogging retains the creator's credit AND gives them the notes for their hard work#it costs literally nothing to not be a jerk to people who are using their talents and time to make you stuff for free#and then when other fans reward these thieves????#BITE#i'm sorry to rant this just makes me furious#this era of AI and reposters is all clowns who want the credit for someone else's work#and I am so SICK of it#and the fact that it was work made purely out of LOVE is what makes it so much worse#fanart#rant
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