#and it hurts to see it happening because I can relate

[ghostlyferrettarot]

★Pick a Picture: ˚˖𓍢ִ໋🛒✧˚.💓⋆ What gossip is being said about you lately˚˖𓍢ִ໋🛒✧˚.💓⋆

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˚ ༘⋆🛍️｡˚Pile 1: Judgement, The Star, The Knight of Swords

The rumors that have been circulating about you lately have a strong energy of judgment. With this card present, people may be talking about a significant transformation you have, whether on a personal, professional, or emotional level. Perhaps someone has noticed a change in you, like a rebirth, and they now see you differently. Some people may talk about how you have “reinvented” yourself or how you have let go of aspects of the past that no longer serve you. The important thing is that these changes have led you to a new version of yourself that is more authentic. Despite the rumors, you are spoken of with a sense of admiration. People may see you as a source of inspiration, as someone who has been through hardships but has managed to overcome them. This is a time when your inner light shines, and while there are rumors about you, they tend to be more positive. The rumors about you are likely to be more about what you have accomplished and how you inspire others to follow in your footsteps. The rumors may be coming from people who are speaking impulsively or even somewhat aggressively. Someone may be passing on opinions quickly and without much thought to the consequences. Perhaps there are those who feel attacked by your success or transformation, and, rather than confront you directly, they just talk badly about you or criticize your decisions. However, despite this somewhat combative energy, the people who are talking about you probably don't have a solid basis for their comments. It's more a matter of weird opinions. The tone of these rumors is more positive than negative, but there are those who, without knowing the whole story, may speak about you in a hateful manner.

You keep doing you pile 1, you are the star!

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˚ ༘⋆🛍️｡˚Pile 2: The Moon, The Devil, The 5 of Cups

The rumors circulating about you have a enigmatic energy, so to speak. The Moon indicates that there is confusion or misinformation in what is being said about you. People may be speaking superficially or even making up things that are not true. These rumors may be based on misunderstandings its what i feel, and the details of what is being said about you are likely to be unclear or distorted. Some people may not be seeing the whole truth or may be letting their own fears or insecurities cause them to misjudge you. There may be those who are speaking negatively about you, accusing you of being involved in unethical behavior or even situations that have put you in a bad light. There could be rumors about your personal life that have to do with excesses, temptations, or outside influences that are not well-regarded. The Devil may also suggest that some people who are talking about you are doing so because they feel jealous or distrustful of you, projecting their own fears or insecurities onto you. The rumors about you may be related to situations or relationships that didn't go well, and some people may be talking about you from a place of sadness or resentment. There may be circumstances where you or someone else has lost something important, and now there is some sort of gossip about what happened. Someone may feel hurt or disappointed in you, and those feelings are driving the gossip. Some people may be speaking from a perspective of resentment or sadness, perhaps because they feel like something has been lost, i feel the energy of a past friendship, something that you ended. Be careful of the people around you, as they may be projecting their own fears or insecurities onto you.

Don't listen to what others say, you keep focusing on your journey and you will succeed in whatever you want pile 2! dont let otehrs bring you down <3

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˚ ༘⋆🛍️｡˚Pile 3: Strength, The Chariot, The High Priestess

Rumors about you lately seem to be very focused on your inner strength and determination, with 3 mayor arcanas in your reading, it's powerful! With Strength, people talk about your resilience and your ability to overcome obstacles with grace and courage. You are likely seen as someone who has bravely faced challenges, and those aspects of your personality are reflected in the rumors. Some may even admire your ability to remain calm and stable, even when things get tough. The rumors, in this case, tend to highlight your strength and your ability to keep going without giving up. People may be commenting on your accomplishments, whether professionally, personally, or even emotionally. You may be seen as someone who has taken charge of your life and moved forward with determination, which can provoke admiration, but also jealousy in some cases. Rumors may speak of your efforts to succeed despite hardships and how you have managed to maintain control. Finally, The High Priestess suggests that many of the conversations about you are guided by deep intuition or a more inner perception. Some may speak of you with a sense of mystery, as they sense that you have a wisdom or deeper understanding of life. Rumors may relate to how others perceive your inner wisdom and your ability to remain private. You may be seen as someone who is moving towards your goals with determination and control that others find intriguing.

So keep putting in the good work and you will keep shining pile 3!

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˚ ༘⋆🛍️｡˚Thanks for reading and tell me if it resonated ˚ ༘⋆🛍️｡˚

[obsessedhoneycomb]

Family

George Russell x fem!reader

Summary: While you thought you're about to spend your perfect anniversary night with your boyfriend, life reminds you otherwise.

Warnings: sadness, depressive thoughts, infertility, pregnancy, endometriosis

Word count: 1k

A/N: What can I even say.. I've been at the doctor's today, for check up after my surgery, which was a year ago and I got confirmed that my endometriosis is growing back. Not that I wouldn't know, because I know my body, but being said the facts out loud is hard. I spent my afternoon crying, curled on the couch, questioning myself in case of being able to have a child one day. To get myself out of the misery, I wrote this, because I would like to have someone to come home to me and hold me in his arms, just giving me the support through all this shit. I already wrote a few pieces endometriosis related, so if you want, check it out too. Love you all. <3

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It was meant to be a perfect day, you had plans to cook some dinner and also had some spicy things in your mind for the night.

Getting through your doctors appointments was something you got used to in the last year, after you had a surgery for your endometriosis. You felt something was off for a few months, your cramps crawling, stabbing you in the back again, those flares being harsh to the point you couldn't even sit. But you held your optimism, trying not to scare George, because worrying him while he was at his prime perfomance during the season wasn't on the list.

Today was meant to be special because you had a two years anniversary.

"Can you see these lesions here? It's back again, I'm sorry."

The words you somehow expected, but didn’t want to hear. The same spiral of pain, hormone shots, nausea and... infertility.

Yeah, you discussed it with George, because everything seems so easy to talk about with him, the idea of having kids.

It gutted you deeply, that you might not be able to give him a child.

As you got home, the space was quiet, only the soft humming of aircondition was heard, making your heart clench, that he's not even there to embrace your mess, even though it's not his fault. George was meant to be home in the evening, but you had a message in your voicemail, that he can’t get home in time, because of the delayed flight. Okay, he'll be here in the morning.

But your sadness and depresive thoughts will be with you through the night. Torturing your mind, getting the best of you, making you feel worthless and weak.

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"Baby...?"

The faint sound of the deep voice woke you from the nap. You cried yourself to sleep in the living room, still wearing your clothes you went to the doctors in. The coat scattered on the ground next to the couch, your shoes kicked in the hallway, tissues to which you drowned your tears everywhere around you.

George knew something happened, it tugged at his heartstrings, when he saw you like this. Sad, messy and depressed.

You groaned a little, disoriented, while he sat beside you, his gaze locked on your face.

"What happened?"

Softly, he took your hand into his, brushing over your knuckles, the warmth of his skin seeping into yours.

Then it hit you again. "It's back again, I'm sorry."

Tears burning in your eyes, you avert them to the side, not able to look into his beautiful ocean blue eyes.

"Hey, love... Don't do this. I know, that something is wrong, but don't try to avoid me, I'm here for you, remember?"

The flicker of hope, that you’re not that worthless went through your mind, your gaze finally locking on his, pouring all your hurt into the pool of his positivity.

"I was at the doctor's today."

Oh no. There's was only one thing that was able to get this reaction out of you.

"How bad is it?"

His hand wander slowly to your cheek, brushing a thumb over it.

"It's not worse than last time, but still... It's there. Again. For fucks sake, again. I hate it so much. I hate myself."

The breaking point, your emotions flew out, your voice cracking and your tears staining your cheeks, your eyes red even more than before.

George pulled you closer to him, letting you lean against him, as you buried your face in the crook of his neck. The scent of him mixed with his cologne was enough to calm you down a little bit. He was your safe haven.

"Shhh... It's okay, just- just let it out. Be angry, scream and cry. Don't hold it in your mind. I'm here to hold you, to pick up your shattered pieces." his voice was soothing lullaby, when your cries got louder and more desperate. Brushing his fingers through your hair, he pressed the kiss on your temple, rocking you as his arms were wrapped around you tightly.

"I might not be able to have a child, George." you choked out between your sobs, and he looked down at your face with frown.

"Is that the thing that concern you the most?"

"Obviously. What a woman I am, to not give her man a child."

George felt partly offended by your words, but he kept his composure, because he was used to your hateful comments towards yourself, even, for the most of the time, you were a hell of a confident woman, loving yourself.

"Don't talk like this, please. You're much more than a baby machine." he tried to be funny and.. it worked. You smiled through your tears. He reached for your cheek, wiping off your emotions, smiling a little.

"You can't lose hope just like that. We can be lucky, you know. We just have to try, be patient and somewhere along the way, we're gonna be blessed. I don't care if it's gonna be in a month or in years. I'll be there for you along the way. As I always am. And even though we don't get lucky, I'm lucky to have you. And that's all that matters in my life, because you're my family."

And as ever, he managed to give you peace, calming warmth flooded your soul, making you sure in that George is the one.

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Watching the screen of the ultrasound machine as you laid down on the examination table at your doctor’s, you couldn’t shake the excitement. George, holding your hand, standing beside you, was watching your expression, his chest fluttering at how happy you were.

"Ah, seems like you got very lucky." The doctor chuckled, pointing to the screen, showing two strong fetuses.

"What does it mean?" George asked first, clearly confused.

"That means that you're gonna have twins."

You nearly passed out while you gasped loudly.

"What?! Two of them?"

George only chuckled, kissing your forehead, nuzzling his nose to your hair, inhaling the scent of your shampoo.

"Guess we were pretty thorough with our trying." he whispered with teasing tone in his voice.

[in1-nutshell]

Can I request more of Apollonis and drift with them forcefully bonding? Drfit needs to make up with his child

And make you Drift needs to do.

Hope you enjoy!

Apollonis and Drift

SFW, Platonic, Familial, Cybertronian reader

MTMTE

Apollonis tries to avoid Drift at all costs.

Which isn’t an easy feat considering that they were in the same ship, everyone was bound to bump into each other at some point.

And when one was working in the med bay, the chances of seeing the same bot increased by a tenfold.

Rodimus didn’t make things easier either.

As soon as he found out about Drift and Apollonis being related, he tried his best to get his Amica to reconnect with her.

While she has respect for her Captain, this is one thing she has asked him to stay out of.

Which he politely disagrees with and continues to try and help Drift.

Too bad things haven’t been working out well for both mechs.

Apollonis walks over to her assigned med slab. There is a slight glare in her optics when she see Drift sitting there. Apollonis: “What happened this time?” Drift: “That’s a bit harsh to ask, isn’t it?” Her glare hardens as she continues to do the checkup. There was a heavy silence. Apollonis: “How did you get this rod in your gears?” Drift: “It may have involved Rodimus and I—" Apollonis: “Oh if Rodimus is involved, you’re going to have to bring that up with Ratchet. And this time, keep things short. You can’t keep using the med bay as a way to keep on talking to him like that.” Drift: “Like wha—OW!” Apollonis gives a fake smile as she squeezed a bit hard around the mesh wound area. Apollonis: “Oh did that hurt? I’m so sorry.” Drift grunts a bit. Drift: “Look at you, your sarcasm has improved so much Little One.” She freezes for a second before putting on a neutral face. Apollonis: “You’re free to go now.” Drift: “Wait…” The young doctor turns and walks away from the med slab. Drift looks sadly at his daughter walking away.

Drift knows he messed things up with Apollonis.

There isn’t a day where he doesn’t regret how he treated her back when they were with the Cons.

He was her father for Primus sake!

He should have done more to protect her!

The mech accepts all the cold shoulders and sarcastic comments as part of his punishment.

Most bots can physically feel the tension these two have whenever they are in the same room.

It was generally thought that the two had some sort of shared bitter history.

What exactly is it?

No one has managed to get the story yet.

Mainly because Drift is very vague about it and Apollonis gets a bit touchy on the subject.

Also they didn’t want to push the Ex-Wrecker and mini Ratchet too far.

Though that doesn’t stop some crew members from asking.

Apollonis and Tailgate are sitting in a booth at Swerve’s. He was waiting for Cyclonus to show up and wanted some company. Tailgate: “So… what happened with you and Drift?” Apollonis sighs deeply. Apollonis: “Tailgate, we’ve talked about this.” Tailgate: “I’m just trying to think on what he could have done! I mean you’re a nice bot, kinda like a nicer Ratchet.” Apollonis tries to hide a chuckle at that comment. Tailgate: “Your even nice to Cyclonus and not everyone is. Why hate Drift?” Apollonis: “I don’t hate Drift… I don’t think I could if I tried…somethings can’t be so easily talked about Tailgate.” Tailgate sighs in defeat. Tailgate: “You’re starting to sound like Cyclonus.” Apollonis chuckles a bit at the minibots expense. Apollonis: “I’ll take that as a complement.”

Ratchet does try and talk to her about talking to Drift.

She needs closure and Drift needs it too.

Apollonis proves to be just as stubborn as her mentor and father.

Even with her avoiding the topic of talking to Drift, Ratchet did catch a little moment the two shared.

A couple bots had managed to get the drop on Drift and left him a bit banged up. Bot 1: “So what are ya going to do Deadlock?” Drift flinched a bit hearing his former name. Bot 2: “Aww look at him on the ground. Pathetic!” Drift gets a swift kick to the tanks and grunts a bit. Bot 1: “What? Not going to make us pay? C’mon, hit me!” Apollonis behind him: “With pleasure!” WHAM! The doctor decked the bot square in the face, successfully knocking him out before kicking one of his friends in the face. Out of pure surprise and shock the bots drag their leader away. Apollonis dusted her servos a bit. Apollonis: “What a bunch of beryllium baloney…” She turned to a slightly battered Drift. He notices her optics soften a bit as she hoists him onto her back. He slightly remembered the position being called ‘piggy back’ or something like that. Apollonis: “I can’t leave you alone for one minute, can I? Always getting yourself into trouble… ” Drift: “Aww—ouch. You do care—Hey!” She gave a little smile when she pinched the back of his pedes and made her way to the med bay.

[therese-lokidottir]

Oh, it is an attraction thing, but it has nothing to do with the actors physical appearances.

For Loki, the audience is introduced to his character first, it's shown what drives him, his pain is shown first before he becomes villain. Moreover what Loki's pain and trauma is something that can be deeply relatable to people. People can relate to feeling like they don't belong and that they are different. That is attractive to people, not necessarily in a "Oh, he hot" way, but the way that people are intrigue watching and they want to see more. Loki is a whole character the audience sympathizes with before he starts doing the bad, and it's shown the complicated feelings he has while he's doing the bad thing.

Also, yeah Loki does bad things, he hurts and kills people that had nothing to do with his traumas. But Zemo complains about the collateral damage killing his family and then with almost no sense of self-awareness cause so much collateral damage that kills people. Even Zemo motivation is kind of nonsense, his thought process is breaking apart avengers will mean things like ultron won't happen again, even though most of the other avengers had nothing to do ultron and the accords were already in motion.

When Loki calls people out, he is actually calling out their hypocrisies and flaws. Zemo just talking bs to make himself seem smart, nothing he says is supported by text. Ultron was built because Tony thought he knew best and the avengers falling apart does not change that. Also, whatever nonsense Zemo spouts out about superheroes bad because people believing too much doesn't work because a) we are never shown just regular people perspective and b) nothing Zemo does breaks the regular people beliefs nor changes the fact superheroes exit.

Before I continue, I want to clarify that I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with liking Zemo just as much as Loki. I’m simply trying to explain why characters like Loki tend to attract more fans.

It's going to be more effective to see a character break then be told it. I feel that heartbreak when Loki learns he's been lied to, and he doubt if he was ever loved at all. I don't care that Zemo's off-screen family died, I don't him and all it results in is making look like a hypocrite.

Also, a factor that plays in to specifically Loki vs Zemo is that Loki in the comics had the Kid Loki and Ikol arc going on at the height of his popularity, not to mention how Norse mythology can be something interesting to get into and Zemo is a straight-up Nazi in the comics. That probably also played a part.

While to extent we all forgive certain things in some characters we like while condemning in characters we don't like I do think there is more nuance in it than that.

Not everyone who likes a character is trying to justify them of woobify them. People can be intrigued and entertained by a character while understanding they have done terrible things and are bad.

Me personally I much prefer watching Loki over Zemo any day of the week. I just watch creature commandos, Doctor Phosphorus is a sadistic monster, he's my favorite character in the show.

a bit aggressive post, but I can't handle emotions sorrry (no)

how fucking annoying I am when people wank on Loki, but who at the same time hate Zemo, I mean seriously guys? Do I need to remind you how many people have suffered because of Loki? Oh yeah, he has a tragic story and he didn't hurt your minions, so he can, but Zemo... you don't understand, he doesn't have a pretty face like Loki and he hurt precious Bucky. Guys, either don't be buzzkill moralists or treat villains equally.

P.S I like both Zemo and Loki, I don't feel negative towards the latter and I don't hate him.

P.P.S in any case, justifying bad actions with your psychological trauma and problems is wrong and is not an excuse, but when it is a fictional universe, everyone decides for themselves what to do, I do not think it is bad to love villains. but I think it is hypocritical to justify one and hate another

[triglycercule]

can the mtt commit more crimes that just murder please i know theyre the MURDER time trio but ppppleasse,,,, please,,,,,,

they'd be terrible to be next to on the highway. horror's going 160 mph amd has long past gone over the speed limit. dust's out for BLOOD and by blood i mean your tires. he's somehow sniping those round rubber wheels from the high moving vehicle with the precision of a master fruit ninja player. if your car explodes or flips over in the process that's not his fault. and then to make matters worse for everyone on the highway killer's in the backseat scratching up the doors and windows of your car with a knife everytime horror gets close to another car and oops he accidentally just disfigured your face also did i mention theyre all drunk during this

ok so theyve all got the classic face WHY DONT THEY ABUSE IT!!!! horror gets to do a little paper mache to cover up his head hole and then wearing glasses. killer i dont know what the FUCK he can do to get rid of his perpetual tears but let's just pretend that theyre conveniently gone for now. and then all dust has to do is put down his hood! anyways identity theft is cool. imagine how much they could totally fuck up classic's reputation with this. set up fake tinder profiles and then scam people for their credit card info/free dates (while ordering every expensive thing) and stealing wallets. walking into various grillby's's around the multiverse and telling terrible jokes. like ACTUALLY bad jokes. and then of course just being a huge piece of shit at the bar. god theres so many things they could do pretending to be classic. which one of us is hikaru looking ahh except the only difference between the three is the color of the stains on their clothes (either gray (dust) black (killer) or red. well faded red (horror))

ROBBERY!!!! ROBBERIES PLURAL!!!??? train robbery gas station robbery bank robbery GOVERNMENT robbery (what would you rob the government for?? documents??? idk) anyways. mtt robbing a train except its just a really shitty plan and they dont know jackshit about what theyre doing. killer's taken over the conductor's cabin and now he is booking it. how fast are trains allowed to go idk but the maximum. anyways meanwhile horror's on the tracks fucking up the rails with his strength or whatever (listen i know he's weak but picking and choosing what hcs i believe in is my art) and dust is there to teleport him away before the train crashes into him and turns him into a trolley problem victim. and then of course that shit doesnt fucking work and the train just ends up flipping over and catching on fire or something (killer survives because of course he does he's killer). and then in the end dust just has to flip the entire train over and they just stroll into the part that actually HAS the money

and then they go out and get ice cream. sometimes the murderers need to take a break from murdering and just do NORMAL crime yk???

[quietwingsinthesky]

thinking about how dean’s character gets simplified in fandom, or more specifically, the very black and white lens that gets applied to him. because integral to dean, from my point of view, is that he is both a victim of abuse and a perpetrator of it. that these two things do not cancel each other out or outweigh each other to the point that only one matters. he’s both, you cannot separate him from the fact that he’s both.

but very often, people do. dean is either a victim. or he’s an abuser. it’s like it’s hard for people to hold both those facts in their heads at once. dean went through incredible amount of trauma as a child and an adult, is routinely faced with violence, has resorted to alcohol abuse to cope with it. he’s also a violent person, someone who retreats into tactics of emotional abuse and control when he feels threatened, who hurts the people around him constantly and the people who are closest to him (ie Sam, Cas, later Jack) get the brunt of that abuse. these are just facts. they’re things that happened on the screen and cannot be denied.

and it’s. idk it’s weird to me (not unexpected, because he’s hardly the only character to ever get this treatment) that dean of all people is the one portrayed in such an either/or way when one of the defining moments of the show for him is that during his stint in Hell, he was tortured and then became a torturer to escape that, to feel like he had some control again, and he relished in it. it’s baked into who he is.

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

Just once, I would like to be able to have a conversation about my feelings with someone where they don't, at some point, start trying to explain to me why something happened such that they are either implying or outright stating I should stop having noticeable feelings at them about a thing and/or telling me that I'm wrong about how I feel and actually if I just understood this thing I would see that I'm being unreasonable to say I feel the way I do.

Just once, for someone's response to be "it sounds like you're feeling [insert thing, e.g hurt, sad, scared, tired, angry, etc], I'm sad that you are dealing with that." Not to take responsibility for my feelings! But for them to acknowledge that they're happening and might matter to me before they move on to whatever the fuck next thing they have to say is

[forcedhesitation]

why should it just be steve who has all the torturous purgatory realm fun?

[mc-critical]

Bonus:

2.22 (46) / 2.24 (48) / 2.25 (49) / 2.35 (59) / 2.39 (63)

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Ugh..narrator...

[keeps-ache]

good morning and merry christmas !! aesthetic photo of my cookies be upon ye

[savage-rhi]

✨️Magenta✨️

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[biblicalhorror]

You ever had a friendship where like you kind of faded out of each other's lives for a period of time and then re-bonded without ever really addressing the distance so now every time one of you mentions something you never told the other one during The Dark Time you both just have to be like "yeah, this massive thing that happened to me that we didn't talk about at the time but I totally wanted to tell you about but it felt like I couldn't talk to you but I'm also not gonna say it was your fault because I don't want to drive you away again but I know and you know exactly what it is we're not talking about"

[catcatb0y]

Who up relating to the abused characters??