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how did you finish WAT in one night 😭?
im a pretty fast reader in general but i was really worried about it lol ive had crazy focus issues lately so i wasn't sure if i could do it. thankfully every time it looked like i was fading my beautiful roommates would cross the living room and pipette small amounts of diet pepsi into my mouth
#im joking but there was a diet soda run everyone was very supportive#asks#and it did take me 15 hours tbf
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Zookeepers could never go on strike cause that means their beloved animal coworkers would die. The national zoo relies a lot on underpaying their zookeepers and relying on unpaid internships and volunteers. I'm sure many other zoos are like this as well. It should be a part of AZA accreditation that zookeepers are paid according to their educational and work experience. Most of these guys are required to have at least a masters. And are paid $15 an hour OR LESS. And DC isn't a cheap place to live.
The zoo lives and breathes off of the passion of these people.
I actually got to talk to the previous director (who now was directing a different big zoo) and I asked two questions:
1. How can disabled people get jobs at your zoos, what jobs would be accessible to someone like me (wheelchair user)
2. What are your plans on increasing paid internships and wages for zookeepers?
The first one she said that working with the aquatic species or small reptiles would be best, since the reptile house is accessible despite being older. She said she would think about it and get back to me (she never did, but tbf shes extremely busy and I didn't continuously ping her)
2. They've been having meetings and workgroups trying to figure out how to increase pay and paid opportunities especially for people from low-income areas, as they are less able to take unpaid internships as they need to support themselves. Zoo budgets are extremely tight even for the Smithsonian.
Now idk if that's true, I'm sure it's mostly true at least, and most of the blame is on the government for not providing more funding to these places and instead most funding goes to the military and giving the rich fat tax cuts.
It just feels like most of us in the environmental and conservation field are extremely underpaid for the work we do. And if we strike our beloved animals and environments suffer.
#conservation#zookeepers#environmental science#natural science#aquariums#oh yeah this definitely applies to aquariums as well#if any zookeepers wanna chime in thatd be awesome#while ive never personally worked at a zoo#i have a lot of friends who have done unpaid internships#my friend just finished an internship where she was working 8 hr days#unpaid#unpaid internships
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lately ive been going through my google history when im bored (which is so incredibly entertaining btw. highly recommend) and apparently, after double-checking my camera roll that date & finding proof to support this theory, i did indeed first watch hlvrai on november 4th of 2020. absolutely insane. i thought i hadnt seen it until mid-2021 at LEAST.
shoutsout to my friends who i watched it with at the time half of which i dont talk to anymore... i owe u for getting me into funny half-life series. thank you oomf
WARNING !!! below the read more is a long fucking list of funny* things i found in my camera roll from the week i first watched hlvrai. like not the images themselves just me talking about them. i dont know why i thought that was a good idea but alas i already spent 90+ minutes writing that all out and tbf i did have a good laugh looking at that shit. anyway the warning is because its long as fuck and i'm willing to bet not at all interesting to anyone who isn't me. i think if i talk any more i will ramble for fucking ever so ill shut up. WARNING OVER !!! miami make some fucking NOISE. dj tsumugi.
*please note these were funny to both me in late 2020 (age 15) and me now (older but not at all wiser). what im trying to say is read at your own risk because 90% of this is unfunny as fuck but it could be worse. it could be shit from when i was 12. That would be really bad i think
anyway here are some highlights from my camera roll from like the day before, the day of & the day after "the incident" (me watching hlvrai):
a ridiculous amount of terezi pyrope pictures. i had not (and still have not) ever read homestuck
at least 30 pictures of hugh o'conner. probably more if im being honest with myself
the same few pictures of kokichi ouma? for some reason?
like a lot of pictures of nagito komaeda. there is at least one screenshot where my discord pfp is nagito. Something Happened
vriska and nepeta also make an appearance. the former more so but not nearly as much as terezi for some reason
a lot of screenshots of discord convos involving various hughdebeste aus. some favorites are the homestuck au, the peabody & sherman au(???), the meet the robinsons au(??????), splatoon au
blu and red scout tf2 they have taco bell and kfc shirts respectively?
professor sycamore from pokemon and professor sycamore from layton. there are multiple images of each and theyre right next to each other
screenshots of the homestuck wiki. Concerning
a screenshot of an email i got from nintendo about the special edition fortnite switch releasing
like a lot of screenshots of alfendi layton from when i was playing lbmr. not surprising but theres kind of a ridiculous amount
a picture of alvin (the chipmunk) that just says "WE DID IT"
screenshots of me talking in ridiculous 13375P34K on twitter and being accused of kinning from homestuck. quite frankly? i deserved that
hatsune miku makes a few appearances
many tumblr post screenshots. However i did not take these myself i just saved them from reddit. really ashamed to admit i did this for literal years even when i used tumblr at the same time
picture of professor layton standing in that one pose in that one picture i dont know how to describe it. the "you know i had to do it to em" one
that one bugs bunny suit meme and it says "i wish all boobed men a very pleasant evening". this was apparently important enough for me to save twice like an hour and a half apart
many screenshots of me on discord AND twitter posting quotes from hlvrai as i watched it. this includes on my masked disciple roleplay account
a picture of my danganronpa trilogy for ps4 copy. but its one of those live pictures so when i click on it i get attacked (i had the flash on because i took this picture in the dark)
that one really terrible picture of tommy coolatta thats like the first non-fanart picture of him on google images. thrilled to announce i think thats been the only image on his wiki page for years now
picture of hime & mikoto meika's mmd models. i think they had recently released or been announced at this point
catboy apollo justice & wolf boy klavier gavin gacha life gifs. i think my friend made this (if it was in fact my friend and not someone random this was the same friend who streamed hlvrai and thus changed my life forever btw)
that old meme about not passing [xyz] the aux because theyll play [abc]. it says "Do NOT pass the kinnie the aux / They'll just playin 'Alvvays - Archie, Marry Me (Official Video)'"
screenshots of calendar events i set up celebrating the anniversary of two dgs characters' deaths (genklimt fans rise up!)
screenshot of my real kinlist on my real carrd from 2020. i can tell it was just edited because this screenshot has scribbles on it (i circled the latest addition to my kinlist which is in fact "dr. coomer")
screenshots of me and my oomfs on this one specific anime rp roblox game that i WISH i could remember the name of. it let you import pngs of any character you wanted so we had pictures of ace attorney guys hanging out with madoka girls at some point. this specific instance includes klavier gavin, baby trucy wright, rosie from animal crossing & a blue orb thing(??). we are all incredibly small for some reason
john cena suit gangnam style depression. this is saved multiple times. does anyone else remember this post i used to be obsessed with it for some reason
picture of a historical moment in my life (the day i changed my ps4 username to "TheKokichiOuma" which i have regretted for years now. in my defense it did actually use to be worse than that im so serious. 2018 was a dark time why did i pick the name "DabWeebPolics". Horrific!
screenshot of a string of tweets between me and a friend at the time. the tweets arent actually important except for the first one which reads "these gummy bears taste british i cant explain it". this is only important because i remember these fucking gummy bears and they DID taste british in like the same way heathrow airport feels british you know
this one picture of my chemical romance in a forest(?) but bob looks like my fucking dad at a quick glance and it scares me every time i see it. i saved this multiple times over the course of that day
various pictures my friend made of jove justice being set on fire
the really short businessman with the fuckass bob from the lorax but my oomf edited him to look like kazuma asougi
picture of byakuya togami which is only funny because it has text on top of him that says "I. DO. NOT. GEC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
a single screenshot of a tumblr post about the events of That Day (destiel putin election day.) the only other thing referencing this in my gallery is a screenshot of the trending tab on twitter (the trends are, in order. 1. #TrumpMeltdown 2. destiel 3. #ElectionResults2020)
two paper mario character pngs followed by that one misha collins picture. you know the one
various screenshots of a mishapocalypse happening on twitter
more super paper mario pngs
im going through pictures slightly further out from nov 4th now (i think after i look at nov 2nd & nov 6th ill call it quits). first image i see is that "gay people i respect vs. gay people i dont respect" image and i dont know why i saved that nevermind i scrolled and immediately found i made a dgs meme out of that
phoenix wright BASED ON GAY MANGA?
went through the ace attorney mamboleo person's deviantart that day i think so i have various funny works of theirs saved. i think the average person actually would know them as the stamp on the ground animation person so. Thats them too. on a side note watching that video after you got into metal gear is fucking insane
that mom against cat boys tshirt
a lot of unnoteworthy professor layton & ace attorney & dgs images
ben shapiro on the ace attorney witness stand?
oh im finding out i got really fucking mad at william petenshy that day. iirc i got so fucking annoyed at this case i didnt even finish it i just. skipped it. i wasnt even playing it i was just watching it???
one of those "tag yourself / which mutual am i" posts but all the options are characters from my kinlist. one of the titles is a jfk clone high reference
screenshots of dms to klimt van zieks begging him to drop a kinlist
a screenshot of a friends reply to my tweet (hi doop) which did just remind me of my "damon gant is apollo justice's grandpa" theory. this tweet manages to tie yanni yogi into the family tree
screenshot of a discord music bot playing a youtube video (remember when they could do that?). the video is titled "henry ledore does his taxes for 10 minutes asmr"
apparently i looked at characters i share a mbti with that day. highlights include souseki (the dgs guy. no idea about the real one), ron delite, flora reinhold, pyro tf2, agent 8 (splatoon), n harmonia & my goat DERPY HOOVES
screenshot of part of twitter's trending page. it says that trending in the united kingdom, with at least 3,610 tweets, is "Homosexuals"
screenshots of multiple tweets in a row from me. they all involve me frantically talking about how i really want to kin nagito komaeda even though i know fuck-all about him
various pictures of markiplier (both in real life & in fma)
real screenshot of me unironically saying "mental illness innit" in reference to myself. this was in my twitter dms with my friends klimt van zieks roleplay account which is even worse
original gina lestrade & egg benedict image made by me. if you know the apollo gant image its basically that
okay i lied i went back to nov 1st and i think i'll check nov 7th afterwards. one full week of nonsense. this proved to be a good idea because i immediately found a screenshot of a text to my mom asking her if she kinned gnomeo from gnomeo and juliet. she said yes
possible origin of why i own a boss baby poster: oomf kin-assigned me the boss baby
possibly my favorite example of the twitter feature where it shows you the original tweet and then the last two replies on a long thread of replies to that post. the original tweet is me saying in all caps "i care him so much he is so small" about luke triton (what a 2020 sentence!). the last two replies are from me and then my oomf but i think only the first of the two needs recounting. it says "do you really want to explain vore to your teachers". i know i say i want context a lot but i genuinely do really want context for this what the fuck happened here
oh good! boss baby update: theres a screenshot of my ebay purchase of "BOSS BABY Poster A5"
im on pictures from november 7th now. i think i went through a figures bot that day because i have a frankly ridiculous amount of figures (mostly nendoroids. mostly miku nendoroids.) there's also the default hime & mikoto png in the middle of these
twitter notification screenshot. apparently kristoph gavin ace attorney followed me that day
i think i went and looked through a christian memes subreddit or twitter account or SOMETHING i dont know where else these all came from. this is followed by a staggering amount of facebook minion memes
side note: does anyone else remember the aatwt (ace attorney twitter) & puyo puyo twitter crossover event in the michael's customer service chat incident? that feels like a different universe
this one is really nothing compared to any of this other stuff but i do have proof of me saying "pog" unironically
grand finale to this saga is actually from a couple days after (nov 9th 2020) but after seeing the staggering amount of death the kid images i had saved over like two days (i had watched a couple episodes of soul eater with my pals) i felt compelled to dig up my "death the kid get wifi anywhere you go" fancam. i might post it later cause its a classic (only to me)
thank you all so much for watching remember to like and subscribe and whatever. thank you for reading this if you read it for some fucking reason. i spent just over an hour and a half looking through this shit & typing this but it was a nice walk thru memory lane tbh! im gonna shut up now before i start rambling. feel free 2 ask for the images or context to any of these i literally love rambling. peace and love on planet earth. LOVE YOU ALL!!! GOODNIGHT NEW YORK CITY
#muffin mumbles#and in cass anyone wanted something to do. feel free to give me a date from any time after like christmas 2013#and i will dig up an old search or video i watched or email or image from my history#its so entertaining to me. DONT FEEL PRESSURED TO THOUGH!!! the option is there if u want it but it is NOT mandatory#so again i say... goodnight new york city. (i take a bow and walk off stage)
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i had a whole rant written out about mari's age in here since this batch of episodes drops a whole bunch of Skeevy Romance Plots That Really Didn't Have To Be Skeevy but i deleted it bc it was A Lot and i don't think it's anything that hasn't been said eight billion times already so there. i'm just acknowledging it now. it just sucks because in a normal situation i'd be very much up for it bluhhhhhhhhhhh (i'm cutting myself off. no more ranting!!!!)
i can't help but wonder what my reaction to kusaka would be if i did not have The Stuff Everyone Knows About Kusaka lingering in the back of my brain. bc i don't know if my endeared "oh look at this asshole" reaction is because i Know or not. but so far i'm at the very least enjoying him bc he's making takumi act like a bitch and bitch takumi is my favorite takumi so yayyyyyyy. tldr i love antagonistic fake bitches!!!!
the fact that yuka is the most violent of the orphnoch trio is intensely funny to me. 1) because yuji keeps monologuing to her about not hurting people and she keeps going :] yep. that's definitely what's going on over here! 2) kaido talks the most game but literally hasn't done anything ever
also yuji's obliviousness is getting increasingly funny both re: yuka killing people (which tbf he has no real way of knowing about it's just funny) and. well. he kind of just bungles all of his interactions with yuka it's just amusing to me.
not-hojo's haircut seems to get less flattering by the appearance. fascinating. extremely funny that one of his attacks is just POETRY BLAST. extremely unserious show. anyways he's way more competent than i was expecting i really thought he'd be outta here by the time this set of episodes was over.
increasingly becoming more and more enamored with takumi. like yes he's pissing me off bc he's terrible at communicating but he's also wallowing in his own misery which is lovely. also his hair has been looking really great. (i wrote this and then immediately in ep 20 it looks perhaps the most jank its ever looked)
btw i keep doing the thing where i'm like "i'm gonna take my notes concurrently this time so i don't lose all my funny thoughts" and then i go watch 5 episodes on my tv where i can't be writing shit down. so i've lost all my funny thoughts. but rest assured i am cracking myself up on my couch between the hours of midnight and 2 am.
for the minutes in between episodes 14 and 15 where takumi and yuji were both in the river i thought they were going to somehow bump into each other and i nearly made myself cry laughing
also takumi and yuka are making me want to bite chunks out of my television. oughjafjhgfjgkgjjgf pain pain pain pain suffering
everybody point and laugh at kusaka's mandatory sidecar
the idea that yuji still thinks that faiz is being used by a smart brain agent is interesting
also. these episodes have a critical lack of smart lady. where is she!!!!!! :[
i feel like no one in this show gives a fuck about collateral damage. if i was at this college that got attacked by monsters and once it was fine to leave i went out into the parking lot and i found out my fucking car got exploded bc takumi couldn't step around it to do his finisher i'd go crazy.
this really does bring up the question of what the public thinks about faiz. though tbh it seems like orphnochs have some sort of quality that impacts people's memory of them and they fight generally in secluded places so idt it's all that well known (+ the police are actively covering the whole thing up) but like. they're exploding shit and knocking chunks out of parking garage beams surely someone's got an idea about faiz. he's got a flying fucking attack bot for christ's sake. kusaka just sent a fuck ton of missiles into a completely public area. huh???? (this is not legitimate pedantry going on here i'm riffing bc it's funny but if they actually address this i'd die laughing)
kaido seems to have been downgraded to being a sleaze / jokey character but ultimately this is Fine. Whatever. i'll just ogle him without any seeds of Investment forming it's Fine.
anyway my curiosities for the next batch of episodes are: 1) we still do not know wtf is going on with the underground school???? are those guys just dead now???? 2) what bizarre cult shit was going on with the ryusei academy stuff / how do they relate to what smart brain is doing now 3) i know delta is showing up next ep so i'm curious about that (EDIT: it was not delta i'm maybe an idiot and forgot takumi could get other forms) 4) i need to dissect yuji's brain or something man i feel like i Still don't have a handle on him
#kalo watches faiz#half this shit is out of order (again) bc i wrote it both retrospectively [i started writing at ep 13] and concurrently.#so it's stream of consciousness. idk man#and then went retrospective again bc i watched half of this on my tv not my laptop#which is not conducive to notetaking#idk why my system is like this it is not intuitive at all
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Tuesday 4th march 2023
Hey journal, so today started by me needing to be at work for 5:15am however suprise suprise I ended up being about 15 minutes late as I couldnt get out of bed this morning due to feeling so tired and down again. Anyways once I got to work I was on instore for the first couple hours of my shift and it was ok and was very smooth sailing tbf however it was really busy bare in mind how early in the morning it was. Anyways after being on present for a couple hours I got put on break and on break I decided to have a breakfast roll ketchup, flatbread and a caramel frappe which was nice. The frappe was really sickily though as the person that did it knew it was mine and put extra caramel in it and to be fair I did say I wanted more as it is the best part of the drink. Anyways whilst eating I watched some youtube and spoke to others that were in the crew room. Then after a little while I chose to write in my journal and wrote about a page as I did not really have to much to say for the day so far. Anyways once my break finished they got me to go onto window one to cover someone for their break. Window one is the place where I take payment and also take drive thru orders. Anyways whilst being on here for some apparent reason I made a few mistakes and I was only on their for about 45 minutes. So one of the mistakes was this person came to my window and they wanted to change a part of their order however instead of pressing modify I accidentally pressed zero price, so I said through my headset to the other person on headset that I needed a manager to window so I can work out what I need to do in this situation and how to take payment, so a manager came and once they got their the women had decided to be crafty and left the window and went to next window and took her food without paying. So basically she stole from us and was really crafty. This means my till was going to be under about £8 however a manager did a refund thing through the system so it looked like I did not make this mistake and so my till was not under. Anyways after being on here for about 45 minutes I got put on instore for a little bit. Whilst being on instore at one point I was taking parks out and I gave this car their order and a different car shouted at me after I did it. they shouted at me really rudely where is my order I got here before them how do they get their food before me. So this frustrated me so I got the their food however I really did not want to give it to them after how rudely the woman spoke to me. Also someone also today decided to park nearly on the other side of the car park so for ages I could not find them.
Anyways at a 11am-12am I got put on fries and I did well and I done it without crashing which was good we always had a good amount of fries ready which is good. Anyways after being on here for a while I got put on instore for the rest of my shift. After work my mum picked me up and dropped me of to the gym, this gym session I did a push session. My body definitely felt the hard work and I was feeling shattered. After the gym I decided to get myself a protein flapjack at the cafe connected to the gym. Then after this I walked home. Since I have been home I have not really done much apart from repost a tiktok and also play some games on my phone and on my pc. Anyways speak to you later journal!
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F1 Re-Watch 2022: Round 14 - Belgium
So I remember sweet f all from Spa, bc I’m pretty sure that was around the time of both family stress, and my parents catching covid, so this and the next two races are total blanks to me bc I was both not on tumblr much and didn’t watch any of Channel 4 highlights.
(I mean I’m also running on the assumption that Verstappen won bc that’s almost all he did last year).
So let’s just jump in and hope Seb and Lewis had a somewhat fun time
I am highkey dreading this race, Zandvoort and Monza bc I have NO IDEA what happened so like these combined could be six hours I never get back
at least Seb looks pretty in the intro
As I also watched Spa 2021 I’m glad I have context for whatever that race was.
ANYWAY, starting grid:
Mick P19 :(
why the fuck is Charles in 15th????
NICKY P11, GOATIFI
Seb and Lance top 10 😭🙌
how on Earth did Alex get 6th in quali?! (I mean, the ultimate good for him, but HOW?!)
I’m really going to have to start looking up quali results before I press play to avoid all this whiplash bc I didn’t even notice Sainz on pole aovhaeog
[Start/Lap 1]: Perez almost driving into Alonso at the start aegehg
“A brilliant start from Sebastian Vettel” THAT’S MY BOYYYYYYYYY
oh fuck me Lewis on Fernando violence
so Lewis does not have a fun time in this race then 😭
The racing gods giveth (Seb up into P5) and the racing gods stab you in the chest (Lewis DNF)
[Lap 2]: The way you can literally see the Ferrari bouncing up and down the straight. Yikes.
NICKY NO don’t take out Val like that
cut to a solitary Lewis by his car. Does not spark any joy.
Thank fuck we have a replay bc WHAT WERE THOSE TWO LAPS?!
Seb’s start was bloody gorgeous though. KING SHIT.
but yeah... no F1 car should be flung up into the air like that with any kind of contact.
Oh not even Lance and Seb being violent on the first lap. Everyone left their braincells at home it seems.
[Lap 4]: Charles making his first pit stop bc pain I guess????
Seb being in 5th is the race’s only saving grace rn
...there was a tear off in one of Charles’ front breaks is2g I’ll start causing violence next
right safety car coming in, I paused to grab some chocolate for emotional support snacking.
oh boy Charles doing his own strategy calls and you know what I trust him more than the Ferrari pitwall
[Lap 5]: Perez v Russell v Alonso. I AM IN DISTRESS
“Then comes Sebastian Vettel” INJECT IT INTO MY VEINS
I mean he’s just there in P5 vibing but GO ON SEB!!!
Verstappen already into P6 after starting 14th
oh no don’t cut to a solitary Lewis I’m sad again
[Lap 6]: ALEX??? PASSING A McLAREN????
What is going on in the House of Commons
Seb drops to P6
[Lap 7]: Jesus that shot of Verstappen closing on Alonso really shows how strong the RB18 was last year.
“We are for Plan B” Please... I’m not strong enough I am already at my limit 😭
[Lap 8]: Verstappen already into P3. If I speak.
also my emotional support chocolate had been devoured.
Charles passing Gasly at the bus stop chicane? Nice.
[Lap 10]: Okay I think the race has finally settled down now, apart from Charles making his way up through the field
I’m still this close to asking for a refund though
Clinging onto Seb in P6 and Lance in P9 with both hands rn
cut to Jacky Ickx, watch Ferrari disrespect his presence with more clownery
[Lap 11]: Ignoring potential RBR team orders and focusing on Seb being almost a second behind Alonso
oop Sainz pits, tbf comms have been talking about high tracks temps so no wonder people are complaining about high deg
[Lap 13]: Oh Verstappen got past Perez.
anyway, Charles up to P6!!
“Could George Russell undercut Perez” oh I hope so I’ll take anything at this point
Seb also pits, it was slow 😭
[Lap 15]: Charles being a little bit unhinged trying to get past Perez, I support his right to go feral
“We are considering Plan D” I WILL BURN DOWN MARANELLO
No, I’m not kidding. I’ll call it a belated Ides of March.
Russell v Charles 👀
whew he actually got past on the kemmel straight!
George said I’ll avenge Lewis by dragging the W13 places it doesn’t deserve to be
[Lap 17]: SEB INTO P8!!! LET’S GET IT
I’m also acknowledging Ferrari putting Charles on Plan D and moving on
MICK PASSING NICKY UP EAU ROUGE!!! A KING!!!!
[Lap 18]: ...and Verstappen retakes the lead
“Hasta la Vista Carlos” eafuvhefuawh okay Brundle I’ll give you that one right it was funny
oh Seb is on the hards. I do not know how to feel about that.
[Lap 19]: Alpha Tauri finally remember to pit Yuki
“Why would we stop now” A very good question Charles, you tell em
[Lap 21]: I’m actually glad Seb is holding the gap to Alonso ahead bc I still haven’t recovered from the first lap
And Perez passes Sainz like he’s just taking a stroll
oooh Lance passes Galy round the outside of the the chicane for P11, noice
[Lap 23]: It’s me I’m the unimpressed McLaren garage
also thank fuck we’re past half-distance
Lance v Dan up Eau Rouge??? BOYS THINK OF MY NERVES
[Lap 25]: Seb watch: he has really closed up to Alonso, I’m stress
[Lap 26]: oh looks like we’re gonna get another pitstop shuffle *cue Disco music*
oh fuck Ferrari are double stacking
okay it wasn’t awful
[Lap 28]: Oh dear potential Canadian on Canadian violence.
Anyway Seb’s in P5 so I think we should end the race and call it a day
[Lap 31]: Charles closing up to Seb, my Ferrari boys 😭
oh and here we are with a Charles onboard
not surprising that was an easy pass, nice to see my lads briefly reunited though
[Lap 33]: Russell hunting Sainz for sport, gap down to just over 4 seconds
[Lap 34]: Seb pits, he couldn’t make the 1 stop work I guess 😔
but still in the poinnnnnnnnnnts!!!!!
[Lap 35]: and he passes Gasly for P7!!!!
oh shit he got double French tag teamed
asdfghjkl Ocon with the double slipstream, maximum zoom
[Lap 36]: Sainz v Russell watch: gap down to under 3 seconds
oh jeez not Brundle calling the Merc a Williams asvhauvhuhu
[Lap 37]: a 4 car battle for P10 you say? 👀
Midfield spice (beloved)
[Lap 38] I can’t believe it took this long to make reference to the Great Contract Drama of Summer Break 2022. I may have been tuned out of a lot of the races last year but boy was last Summer Break the most hilarious
“It’s too late for Plan G” McLaren???? Don’t take lessons from Ferrari I BEG
[Lap 39]: Alex having the best time being a train conductor as he clings onto P10. Pet power!!
[Lap 40]: I’m still trying to get my head around Verstappen going from P14 to P1 in the dry like ?????
Like yes I will acknowledge that Verstappen is a good driver, but jeez man
[Lap 42]: ANYWAY, Seb still in P8, please Spa give me something in the way of joy
Sainz v Russell watch: gap holding at 2 seconds so I think Ferrari are going to escape Spa with a podium
and cut to a replay of Yuki passing Zhou before the bus stop chicane
[Lap 43]: I was about to question why they were pitting Leclerc, but it’s to try and get fastest lap.
oh jeez but Alonso is right there.
And he passes Charles. Clowneria Ferrari strikes again.
There is not a big enough facepalm emoji.
[Lap 44/Finish]: oh phew Charles got past Alonso on the Kemmel straight
and Sainz holds onto P3. Props to George for trying though.
Charles didn’t even get fastest lap. And he got a 5 sec penalty for speeding in the pitlane so he drops to P6 🥲
but anyway SEB POINTS!!!!!!!!!! WE LOVE TO SEE IT!!!!!
Seb finished in P8 and nothing else happened idk what any of you are talking about.
Ugh yeah I’m trying to not let my personal attachment to some drivers affect my thought on the race but... oof my friends. This didn’t spark that much joy. Granted, there was a somewhat decent amount of action, but the first two laps were not fun to watch. So I’ll give it a tentative 6 front wings out of 10. Next race - Zandvoort!
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you guys really hate me i swear
1. What is you middle name?
only really close people know it
,,so like no one HAIPWEHRQW
2. How old are you?
15
3. When is your birthday?
6/20
4. What is your zodiac sign?
gemini
5. What is your favorite color?
poorple
6. What’s your lucky number?
5
7. Do you have any pets?
gonna (hopefully) get a bunny for christmas
8. Where are you from?
massachusetts
9. How tall are you?
4′11
10. What shoe size are you?
5
11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
8
12. What was your last dream about?
today i dreamt about being kidnapped and stabbed in my lower thigh
shit was wack
13. What talents do you have?
draw draw draw
14. Are you psychic in any way?
i sense
THE SOUP
15. Favorite song?
sweaaateeerrr weaathhherrr
16. Favorite movie?
ponyo!! best movie ever change my mind
17. Who would be your ideal partner?
i don’t really think i have like,, eXPECTATIONS??
like bro just have someone who’s willing to genuinely love and fight for me and that would be nice,,
18. Do you want children?
if my partner would want one
19. Do you want a church wedding?
i like outdoors
20. Are you religious?
not really
21. Have you ever been to the hospital?
yes
22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?
uhh no? at least i don’t think so
23. Have you ever met any celebrities?
nop
24. Baths or showers?
showers
25. What color socks are you wearing?
none
26. Have you ever been famous?
with 14k subs at one point before i said “ight ima head out”
27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?
not really, i just want my art to be somewhat appreciated LMAO
28. What type of music do you like?
anything tbf
29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?
no
30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
three
31. What position do you usually sleep in?
hug pillow on one side, sleep on back, or hug pillow on other side
32. How big is your house?
two story
33. What do you typically have for breakfast?
i don’t eat breakfast
34. Have you ever fired a gun?
WATER NERF GUN PEW PEW
35. Have you ever tried archery?
i WISH MAN
36. Favorite clean word?
uhhhhhh i dunno
37. Favorite swear word?
bitch
38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?
two days
39. Do you have any scars?
yes
40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
yes
41. Are you a good liar?
no
42. Are you a good judge of character?
wut
43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?
no
44. Do you have a strong accent?
nO
45. What is your favorite accent?
OH GOODNESS,,///
i like,,,british,,, and probably more i can’t name off the top of my head
46. What is your personality type?
i don’t knoW???
i guess just the person who has your back when youre down or smth since i usually get a lot that i’m ‘helpful’
47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?
50 buck sweater
48. Can you curl your tongue?
yus
49. Are you an innie or an outie?
innie
50. Left or right handed?
right
51. Are you scared of spiders?
not really
52. Favorite food?
SOUUUUP AND DUUUUMPLINGS
53. Favorite foreign food?
..
dumplings
54. Are you a clean or messy person?
both
55. Most used phrased?
im hungry
56. Most used word?
soup
57. How long does it take for you to get ready?
1 million hours
58. Do you have much of an ego?
not really
59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?
suck at first and bite it when it’s small
60. Do you talk to yourself?
sometimes
61. Do you sing to yourself?
yes
62. Are you a good singer?
NO
63. Biggest Fear?
UHHHH being abandoned i would think?
64. Are you a gossip?
no
65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?
a silent voice
66. Do you like long or short hair?
both,,
67. Can you name all 50 states of America?
no am dum
68. Favorite school subject?
MAAATH
69. Extrovert or Introvert?
both
70. Have you ever been scuba diving?
don’t think so
71. What makes you nervous?
“we need to talk”
72. Are you scared of the dark?
a lil bit
73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?
not really
74. Are you ticklish?
yes but please dONT TICKLE ME I WILL DIE
75. Have you ever started a rumor?
no??? wtaf
76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?
don’t think so
77. Have you ever drank underage?
nop
78. Have you ever done drugs?
n o
79. Who was your first real crush?
uhhhhhhhhhhh
80. How many piercings do you have?
6 (three on each ear)
81. Can you roll your Rs?“
shut up
82. How fast can you type?
fast if i want to
83. How fast can you run?
NYYYYYYYYyyrrroooom ok im tired
84. What color is your hair?
brown
85. What color is your eyes?
brown
86. What are you allergic to?
nothing actually
87. Do you keep a journal?
yes
88. What do your parents do?
my mom is a radiologist while my dad is a computer mechanic i believe
he fixes computers from all i know LOL
89. Do you like your age?
tbh yes
90. What makes you angry?
uhhhh
91. Do you like your own name?
yes i lov my name
92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?
i don’t know any names, but if i have nicknames i’d call em squirt or booger heHE
93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?
either is fine
94. What are you strengths?
probably being able to stand through anything
95. What are your weaknesses?
the aftermath of numbness CRYIGNIEUWRWQ
96. How did you get your name?
..a window ad on tv
97. Were your ancestors royalty?
they were spanish
98. Do you have any scars?
yes
99. Color of your bedspread?
like 348072819342 different colors
100. Color of your room?
yello and blu
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RvB17 Episode 2 Review: Everwhen
Do you ever hear about how some say that some characters just cannot work as the main? Like ‘this character is too ridiculous’, or ‘this one is too dark and brooding to like’. Or, as I hear it, being lazy. Yeah, that's what that excuse is: laziness. Any character CAN work if you put time and effort into making it work. Like when Kishimoto admitted that Sakura was not suited to be the lead female in Naruto, all I hear is “I didn't want to put in the effort in making this character good so I didn’t, my bad!”. It's a stupid, stupid excuse. But that being said, there are certainly some characters that are hard to envision as the central focus. Like IDK how many people would take RWBY seriously if Zwei was the main character... actually I'd watch it.
Despite RvB being... RvB, it's not immune to this. It's probably easier to but say... Carolina as a lead over someone like Jax, for example. So having Donut as the main character in this season... is likely going to tilt some heads. Donut? The innuendo spouting, eternally optimistic character that no one listens to and is missing every other season? That character, of all characters, is going to be our main character this season? How is THAT going to work? Well... how about we find out?
Overview
We begin in what I guess we can now officially call the Everwhen. Donut's still falling through, but it doesn't take long for him to figure out how it works. He can recall different memories, and he'll be shown them. He tests this for a few seconds before deciding to focus to actually get into a specific point in time. The point in time he ends up at? The tail-end of Season 7. Where, if you recall, Wash shot him... yeah... worst? He repeats this about three times. Sheesh. Ugh... at least he knows that Simmons was concerned now? Right?
Okay, anyways, Donut's finally able to get out of the memory and into a new one, though the pain still persists for a bit. He ends up back in S15... I want to say Episode 9. Been a while since I rewatched (the ONE SEASON I fella sleep through during that 30-hour livestream last week), but I think it was Doc's re-intro form the setup. Oh and Doc is in this episode, whoo. Anyways, once he's got himself collected, Donut tires to tell Tucker and Simmons to round up the others... except Tucker refuses. Why? Because he assumes that it's just going to be a tirade of innuendos, and he's not in the mood for it. Donut is confused as he tries to explain that they're reaching an explosive climax... which only makes them less willing to listen. Fed up, Donut leaves for another memory, leaving his past self acting like nothing happened.
We now go back to S10 where Grif reveals that he still has The Meta's Bruteshot... err, Grifshot. First, Microsoft let him have it back. Second, Donut again tries to get the others to listen. Yeah, three guesses son how well that goes. They end up more concerned about Sarge forgetting his speech, Wash trying to encourage him to remember it. Tbf it IS an epic speech that I too would like to hear again. Naturally, Donut is peeved that not only is he bring ignored, but he's being ignored over the guy who... you know, shot him. So he leaves again, this time going back even further... kinda.
We now end up in S3 during that whole 'we got blasted into the future' mess that I'm not going to even try to recall. It's during the play that Donut wrote to explain to Tucker about their circumstances. Donut lays everything out about everything. About being from the future, about technically being made by Chrovos, about Chrovos' current status, and how they're all stuck without being able to recall anything. Naturally, no one is listening, Simmons, in particular, being too annoyed that Donut took his role. Well... actually one person DOES believe it: Grif. Yeah, he says that it sounds familiar somehow and that crazy shit has happened to them before. You know, like being blasted into the future. Now Grif DOES get sidetracked seconds later by Sarge reminding him about who he's listening to, but at least SOMEONE listened.
But yeah, as I said Sarge calls bull and everyone continues to not believe it. Sarge even outright tells Donut to shut up forever repeatedly, no matter how much the poor guy begs him to hear him out. As a result, Donut gives up and returns to Chrovos' domain. In contrast to Donut being a mix of disappointed and annoyed, Chrovos is cheery and happy. Why? Well, their prison is cracking more and more, but after being locked up for an eon, having anything happen is enlightening to them. They also point out what they continued to point out to Donut last season: the guys have never listened to him, and are never going to listen to him. They even tell him to go ahead and stop as they don't like seeing him suffer like this. Still talking like Donut is their 'child' and in that nurturing father... err, motherly type of way.
Donut, not being that kind of stupid, refuses to buy into this again and is still determined to try and prevent Chrovos from destroying everything. Chrovos protests that it'll be painless, and at this point, they might as well since the paradox has caused pure chaos... backward. Yeah, backward. Donut picks up on this, asking about what happened after the paradox. Chrovos tries to pull back, saying that there's just two timelines: one where Wash was shot and one where he wasn't. But Donut points out something: that there's a third. A place out of time, like they themselves are. And aside from him, who else from the Reds and Blues weren't caught in the paradox? Wash.
With this little revelation, Donut gets the discarded time gun and leaves. Chrovos, due to the barrier, can do nothing to stop him. Donut arrives at a canyon on Chorus, assuming that it is where Wash would go. Wash isn't there, which means that our wide-eyed hero is going to have to go through the entire planet in hopes of finding him. Let's just hope that he won't bring up the repeated shootings when he finds him, haha...
Review
Okay! Good episode! So the first thing that I've noticed so far is the pacing. Much as I loved Joe's seasons, the biggest issue I had with both 15 and 16 was the pacing. 15 was rushed and 16 had this bizarre trend of having a lot of having things happen, but taking too long to get to anything significant. IDK if this is due to Jason taking over or because we're in the second half of this arc they can go faster, but things have been going very quickly so far. And I mean that in a good way. We get into things, have a fun little romp with it for an episode, and get back to the point. Both this and last week's episode did that very well, and I like that. Mind you I am concerned about things going too fast, especially since we only get 12 episodes this season, but so far it's been good.
This episode was essentially about showing us how the Everwhen works and Donut's struggles along it. It works simple enough, you can go through the memories of your choosing and possess yourself int hat period. IDK if that's how it goes for Genkins since he possesses AI-figured people, but it makes sense for Donut. It luckily doesn't take him long to figure out how to make it work, so we get a nice laugh when he gets stuck getting shot... and then feel bad for laughing... but my point is, we don't waste time on having Donut figuring out how it works. Again, very fast but the episode doesn't waste our time as a result. It does what it has to do, and moves on to the next thing.
So... Donut. He's freakin' great here. As I said above, there are some characters that are hard to envision as the main character, and even harder to figure out how to execute it. When I started this show two years ago, I would have never, ever, ever, EVEEEEER been able to imagine Donut as the focus character. Ever. Back then, I saw Donut as funny, but utterly pointless compared to everyone else. He'd been gone for various points so he missed out on many events, didn't do much during Chrous or S15, and his double entendre/flamboyant jokes had gotten stale very fast, at least to me. It was gonna take work to pull off Protagonist Donut... and they did. S16 did a VERY good job of helping Donut flesh out as a character and making us sympathize with him. It pointed out how Donut is constantly ignored, belittled, and treated like a joke by his peers, which makes him falling for Chrovos' manipulation all the easier to buy and keep him likable despite obviously doing the wrong thing. Which makes him choosing his friends and the subsequent fight against O'Malley all the stronger. Not just because it was a badass fight and finale all around, but because Donut came in and out of it a much stronger, much better character.
It is because of this that Donut in this episode was so good. First, we do get to see that he IS competent. We all kinda forget that sometimes, but Donut is an overall very capable soldier when he focuses. After all, who grenaded Tex in S1 again? But yeah, he's able to quickly figure out how the Everwhen works and also pieces together that time, to some extent, is still intact after Chrovos' slip-up. The boy is... well I can't say he's not dumb, but it's RvB, everyone is at least a little dumb. But the boy IS capable when he's given the chance to be. He also remains sympathetic throughout as the memories continue to make clear that yes, Donut is constantly ignored and belittled by his “friends”. Chrovos isn't wrong about that. Yeah, they DO care about him. Simmons didn't get upset about Donut being shot for no reason, after all. But they're so horrible at showing that, not just to Donut but amongst themselves,s but Donut's probably the one who gets it the worst. Even when Grif actually listened, it died the second that Sarge reminded him of who he was listening to. And none of them make any attempts to hide it either.
It's clear throughout that Donut is getting tired of this. It was what got him to fall for Chrovos' manipulation prior, after all, and even he pointed all of this out in the S16 finale. The fact that despite it he's still determined to save them all is something that should be applauded. It's time for the guys to start recognizing how far Donut actually goes for them and to be at least a little bit more respectful. They can still be annoyed at the innuendos, which I'm SO glad that my headcanon of Donut having never realized what he was doing is confirmed, but it won't kill them to be nicer. They've all slowly been coming better people, so... yeah.
...did I just write three paragraphs worth of a Donut analysis? Damn, me two years ago would have NEVER seen that coming. But it makes my point I think. Any character, even a ridiculous one, can be done well if the effort is put into it. S16 did a solid job of building up Donut’s character and essentially preparing him and us for this season. As such, because of the character development and the particular situation, he works very well as the focus character and I am loving every second of it. Anyways, moving on!
Chrovos continues to be a fantastic villain. Jason has done such a good job on characterizing the Cosmic Powers (speaking of, when are they coming back? I need more ProZD in my life dang it!). Not only does Chrovos have a ton of personality, including some incompetent traits akin to his son Atlus, but I... almost felt bad for them. When they expressed being so happy to have anything happening after billions of years in isolation, you can hear their pure joy and relief. Mind you they're going to eradicate time as we know it to shape it into their image, but it's good to have that there. It makes Chrovos a more three-dimensional character who we want to see more of, even if they are the bad guy. And them realizing that they fucked up by telling Donut about the paradox effects and failing to stop him from leaving? That was some funny shit. Move aside Mercs, at this rate I may have a new favorite villain very, very soon.
What else can I comment on? Well... it was nice seeing some of the moments again, namely S10 and the S3 skit. I also liked how Grif is the one who believed Donut. Sure he got thrown off, but with this and him being the one who mainly got deja vu last episode and in the finale, I think we've got some strong hints that chances are, he's going to remember first. Which means my fear that he's going to be shown what happened to Huggins, which he's NOT going to take well, grows closer... but hey at least we got one person who listened, brief as it was. Oh, and joking about Wash having shot Donut throughout? Are we finally touching on this? THANK YOU! Even if it's just for this episode, THANK YOU. Now if we can have Wash apologize at some point...
Speaking of Wash, so... we finally got the answer to what I've been wondering for a while now. Wash wasn't caught in the paradox, so his fate was left wide open. Well, now we can confirm that he, like Donut, is in an out of time period. Now we know from last season that he went back to Chorus, my guess is to confront Dr. Grey about his brain damage. Which means that... yeah, he's likely not going to be in the best state when we see him. We're probably also going to see how the regular timeline is doing with the paradox breaking things as Donut searches for him. So... well... next week should be fun, right?!
Final Thoughts
Great episode! It wasn't too long, but it did what it needed to do. It established the Everwhen, gave us a fun romp of Donut's adventures through RvB history, did some character stuff for our main hero and villain, and perfectly set up for next week. I have no complaints that I can think of aside from my fears about the pacing, but again that so far hasn't been an issue. So what will Episode 3 have in store for us? IDK, but I'm going to work on getting my heart ripped out so that I won't be in pain. So gonna go take care of that, and I'll catch you all next week!
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Rare question tag game I stole
I’ll tag @j-erseyboy and @gayperrymason and if anyone else wants to do then go for it!
1. What is your favorite childhood story of yourself?
When I lead a small gang of kids to steal some supplies from a building site and we built a fort in the woods. I was like 7 or 8 and didn’t realise how disruptive it was to do that sfjsdf
2. What is the stupidest way you have ever gotten hurt?
Zipped up my hoodie then pulled it on over my head to see what would happen and what happened was I got the zip stuck on my eyelid. Was also around 7-8 years old then too
3. What was the first PG-13 movie you watched?
Not a clue!
4. What was the first R rated movie you watched?
Scream. I was 4, horror movies were just always on in my house
5. When was the moment you felt most badass?
A rapper (Hyro Da Hero) was supporting a band I was going to a few tour dates of and I’d talked to him a few times and he was cool as hell. One morning we just walked past each other on the street and without speaking or signalling each other we high fived and it felt so damn good, just the timing...perfection
6. What is a band you can reliably always love?
Green Day, I guess. I’ve been burnt thinking that shit before tho (I’m goin’ with band-bands and not solo babes)
7. What is your favorite form of self expression?
Music/songwriting but basically whatever makes the person show their feelings the best
8. What is something from your childhood you wish you still had?
A collection of original Jurassic Park toys, I had all the jeeps and dinosaurs and characters and stuff and played them to death but my dad sold them. I re-brought a few from ebay last year but it’s not the same
9. Where is your favorite place on earth?
I haven’t found it yet
10. What is the longest friendship you have ever had?
18 years so far
11. Is there anyone is your life you wish you had met sooner than you did?
Ya
12. Do you believe in ghosts?
YA
13. What is the coldest water you have ever swam in?
A beach in Cornwall during the winter, I ran from the road to the water and my mom got mad because my teeth chattered for like an hour afterwards
14. How old were you when you learned how to swim?
Around 4, ish?
15. What song do you listen to when you’re sad?
I don’t really listen to music when I’m sad cos I usually end up feeling worse even if it’s good stuff and I’m trying to actively avoid wanting to die
16. Are you an adrenaline junkie?
Noooo I’m a huge wimp. I was 22 before I rode a rollercoaster
17. What is a song that takes you back to childhood?
So many but the first I thought of was Livin Da Vida Loca by Ricky Martin
18. What is your favorite word?
Fuck
19. What is your least favorite word?
Genitals. It’s just sounds so fuckin gross
20. What scent reminds you of childhood?
Gingerbread men
21. Were you sad when you found out clouds weren’t like pillows, or did you never think that?
Nah, I never thought that
22. When in life did you laugh the hardest?
Definitely with Jay, I don’t have a clue what we were talking about but it was some time in like 2014 and I laughed so hard I was crying and couldn’t see, and I bent my head into my lap and just smashed my head straight on the desk
23. What makes you laugh when you don’t feel like laughing?
Also probably Jay, we’ll just talk about something ridiculous. And that vine of the girl saying “hello?” when a whole bottle of water is tipped on her face
24. Do you come from a big family?
General family yes cos I have like 30+ cousins but my immediate family is small
25. What is your favorite part of yourself?
Weird flex but I like my forearms
26. What is the worst pain you have ever felt?
When I broke a couple ribs, but that’s probably pretty tame tbf
27. Do you swear often?
All the time
28. Do you get confused for being older or younger than you are?
Younger. I brought a bike the other day and the dude was like “you’re between frame sizes but you’ve got loads of time to grow into the bigger one” but I’m 27 :/
29. What is your favorite way to eat a potato?
Chip shop chips (british chips, not like crisp-chips)
30. What is the best compliment you have ever received?
Just when people say I made them feel better when they really needed it, that shits important
31. Describe yourself in 6 words?
Small man yearns for cat cabin
32. What is the worst insult you have ever received?
When someone mistook me for someone else who I super hated
33. Have you ever taken in any media that changed your life?
I kinda take in a bit of everything worthwhile so that’s a hard thing to answer
34. Have you ever collected anything?
^^ JP toys mentioned above and I’ve got a lot of Game of Thrones and Alien merch and figures too
35. Strangest thing you have ever broken?
Nothing that strange, other than my ribs it’s just been fingers and toes
36. Weirdest food you have ever eaten?
I used to put gummy cola bottles in a sandwich with crisps. English people will put anything in a sandwich but I don’t think cola bottles are the go-to anywhere
37. Childhood nickname?
Theebo, which my mom still calls me
38. Most people you have shared a bed with in a non sexual manner?
Three others I think, so four of us in a king size
39. What is something that makes you fall asleep?
god i wish i knew please tell me
40. Did your parents ever accidentally lose or forget you?
They lost me in the Magic Kingdom in Disneyworld and I thought they were going to fly home without me, it was about 4 hours til I found them. scary shit
41. If you were a superhero what would your weakness be?
Kittens. If you made me pick between a basket of kittens and bus full of people...sorry folks, you’re dead.
42. What food reminds you of home?
Bread and butter pudding. I rarely even ate any but it was something that got made on Sundays when I was growing up
43. What is your comfort food?
Pizza
44. Cold room with lots of blankets or hot room with no blankets?
Cold every single time
45. No shoes without socks or no shoes with socks?
First one, I’m usually barefoot
46. Do you run hot your cold?
So, so fucking hot
47. Favorite condiment?
Ketchup is king
48. What utensil do you use the most?
Knives I guess, while cooking
49. When are you most comfortable?
Like 2am when I have nothing to do and am just playing a video game and chatting shit with Jay and it feels like the rest of the world is in bed
50. If you could be really good at one thing, what would it be?
Carpentry. I’d love to just have the skills and $$$ and lack of fear around giant saws half an inch from my hand to go for it and fix shit up/build whatever I could think up
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right, i’m going by my word and doing it anyways
1. mai
2. 16
3. 24th november
4. sagittarius
5. i wanna say either burgundy or black
6. 7
7. yeah, i have a dog 🥺
8. uk
9. 5’4
10. uk 5 1/2
11. about 10 (?) that are just normal shoes, but i also have dance shoes so that takes it to probably about 16 or 17
12. i dreamt i got tickets to neighbourhood weekender (pain 💔)
13. i literally do not have any lmao
14. not rly lols, just your average will guess future things right every now and then
15. do me a favour - arctic monkeys
16. inception
17. alex turner
18. no i do not
19. yeah but at the same time it’s not my main wedding wish iykwim
20. yes, but i’m not v strictly religious
21. yeah, mainly just for visiting
22. not that i can recall lmao
23. not like v famous celebrities but i’ve met like musicians who are just starting out or not v big yet yk
24. showers 100% , tho a cold bath is nice in summer
25. one blue and one pink lols, i have no clean matching ones
26. no i have not
27. no i would not
28. a bit of everything really; pop, indie, alt, indie rock, alt rock, country, britpop, indie rap, pop punk, grunge, r&b, hiphop, garage, etc.
29. no
30. 2
31. idk the names of them lols but the one where you just curl up on one side of the bed that doesn’t rly take up much room, idk
32. relatively small for what it is
33. toast or cheesy potato waffles , sometimes I’ll have crumpets
34. no i have not
35. yeah lols, on the year 6 residential
36. idk really, i keep saying ‘bestie’ tbf
37. ‘fuck’, it’s so versatile
38. idk for exact but probs somewhere between 24 and 36 hours
39. yes i do lols, mainly on my legs from this weird spots kind of thing i had in primary school, it was like chicken pox but nothing like chicken pox idk
40. no :(
41. ppl often believe my lies so do w that information what you wish
42. idrk tbh
43. i can do an alright brummy, scouse, yorkshire, manc but that’s about it
44. apparently i do according to other people lmao
45. probably the irish accent
46. infj (the advocate)
47. probably my dolce & gabanna jeans my mum found in the loft from 10-20 years ago that have never fitted me 😭😭😭
48. yeah i can acc
49. an innie
50. right handed :) always did feel bad for the left hand mind you :/
51. ish
52. cheesy potato waffles because they’re so nice, so easy and you can have them at literally any time of day
53. probs either croissants or pasta
54. messy
55. “you know what i mean” “stop it” “no because”
56. “bestie” “wank” “divvy” “melt” “dickhead”
57. depends on whether i’m getting READY ready or just dressed, smallest amount of time is 10 minutes, largest is probably about 2 hours
58. not rly lols, sometimes when i’m being sarky and i’m joking i’ll pretend i have an ego but other than that, not in the slightest
59. i suck it until it’s small enough to bite
60. not rly
61. all the fucking time
62. not rly :/
63. rats. or failure. either works
64. not rly
65. we would be here forever, don’t get me started
66. on myself, long hair. on other people, i like either, it depends on what they feel more comfortable and confident w
67. absolutely not hahahahahaha
68. german, i do rly like re atm tho tbf
69. i’m not rly either
70. no but that’d be cool yk
71. again, we would be here forever
72. no, but i completely get why so many ppl are
73. it depends on the mistake and my mood and who the person is
74. so ticklish 😳
75. no
76. i’ve been asked to watch my brother when my mum goes shopping, does that count?
77. ...next question
78. no i have not
79. greg heffley from diary of a wimpy kid lmao
80. 4 (2 sets)
81. i acc can
82. v fast
83. not so fast
84. dark brown
85. hazel
86. fabric plasters
87. no i do not
88. my dad’s a support worker
89. i’ve not rly thought about it, it’s a bit of a limbo age rly, like some ppl view us nearly young adults and others still view us as little iss
90. numerous things tbh
91. i like my first name and middle name together, my first name alone is a bit meh
92. i don’t want kids but i have a full notes page of baby names 😭😭😭 for a girl i like keva-mae and for a boy i like river, after river phoenix
93. i don’t want children lols
94. idrk tbf ive never rly thought about it
95. again, never rly thought it thru
96. my mum just liked it lols, as for my middle name i’m named after my great auntie
97. not that ik of
98. swear this question is a repeat of a previous one, but yeah i do
99. white and black/grey marble pattern
100. white
Get To Know Me Uncomfortably Well
PLEASE DON’T LET THIS FLOP AHHHH
1. What is you middle name? 2. How old are you? 3. When is your birthday? 4. What is your zodiac sign? 5. What is your favorite color? 6. What’s your lucky number? 7. Do you have any pets? 8. Where are you from? 9. How tall are you? 10. What shoe size are you? 11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? 12. What was your last dream about? 13. What talents do you have? 14. Are you psychic in any way? 15. Favorite song? 16. Favorite movie? 17. Who would be your ideal partner? 18. Do you want children? 19. Do you want a church wedding? 20. Are you religious? 21. Have you ever been to the hospital? 22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? 23. Have you ever met any celebrities? 24. Baths or showers? 25. What color socks are you wearing? 26. Have you ever been famous? 27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? 28. What type of music do you like? 29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? 30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 31. What position do you usually sleep in? 32. How big is your house? 33. What do you typically have for breakfast? 34. Have you ever fired a gun? 35. Have you ever tried archery? 36. Favorite clean word? 37. Favorite swear word? 38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? 39. Do you have any scars? 40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? 41. Are you a good liar? 42. Are you a good judge of character? 43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? 44. Do you have a strong accent? 45. What is your favorite accent? 46. What is your personality type? 47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? 48. Can you curl your tongue? 49. Are you an innie or an outie? 50. Left or right handed? 51. Are you scared of spiders? 52. Favorite food? 53. Favorite foreign food? 54. Are you a clean or messy person? 55. Most used phrased? 56. Most used word? 57. How long does it take for you to get ready? 58. Do you have much of an ego? 59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? 60. Do you talk to yourself? 61. Do you sing to yourself? 62. Are you a good singer? 63. Biggest Fear? 64. Are you a gossip? 65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? 66. Do you like long or short hair? 67. Can you name all 50 states of America? 68. Favorite school subject? 69. Extrovert or Introvert? 70. Have you ever been scuba diving? 71. What makes you nervous? 72. Are you scared of the dark? 73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? 74. Are you ticklish? 75. Have you ever started a rumor? 76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? 77. Have you ever drank underage? 78. Have you ever done drugs? 79. Who was your first real crush? 80. How many piercings do you have? 81. Can you roll your Rs?“ 82. How fast can you type? 83. How fast can you run? 84. What color is your hair? 85. What color is your eyes? 86. What are you allergic to? 87. Do you keep a journal? 88. What do your parents do? 89. Do you like your age? 90. What makes you angry? 91. Do you like your own name? 92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? 93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? 94. What are you strengths? 95. What are your weaknesses? 96. How did you get your name? 97. Were your ancestors royalty? 98. Do you have any scars? 99. Color of your bedspread? 100. Color of your room?
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Cookies and Hot Dogs and Meatloaf, Oh My!
What's the Tea? Tuesday
Welcome back!
This is the last time we have to do two weeks combined, because this will bring everything up to date! Finally.
Week 9 (April 10 - 16)
Ooh Sunday was an interesting day. While Cuddlebug went to work I took over his kitchen and baked probably a solid 8 or 9 dozen butterscotch cookies (it was hard to count because people started eating them before I was done) that were mostly gone by the time I went home Wednesday night.
He then blew a tire before he got home and almost got into an accident.
I am definitely a jinx.
Sidebar: Do you have a tv in your bedroom? I do. I've had a tv in my bedroom since I was a child, except when I couldn't afford one.
Cuddlebug does not. Baymax did not. Space Kitten does not. Meximelt was adamant about the fact that he did not. Aquaman does not - in fact he has a tv in his living room but it's not even connected to anything, it's just there for decoration.
The audacity. What do they even DO??
Anyway. Cuddlebug had to take his car to the shop, where they would (spoiler!) somehow manage to spend a solid week and a half fixing a thing that should have taken an hour to do (and then charging him out the ass for), so the rest of our time together was very chill and inside.
Sunday night we were hanging out and Cuddlebug told me he was gonna do something on his computer real quick and he'd start dinner in 15 minutes. An hour and a half later, he was actually making dinner. This is par for the course. Tbf, I also do this when I'm alone.
I also imposed on him that we were going to watch Wristcutters: A Love Story which he really liked (a movie I tried for years to get Dr. Strangelove to watch, and he refused) Honestly, one of the hardest parts about dating someone new after being in a long-term relationship is having to catch them up on movies and tv so they understand all your references and weird things about your personality. He gets to pick the next movie, and I think it's gonna be Cloud Atlas.
Monday he made us hot dogs for lunch, and I'm gonna be nice and just say that I appreciated how excited he was about it. A man will always get points for feeding me, regardless.
I did say "Oh, he's lucky he's cute" more than once, though.
That night we hung out with a friend and one of the housemates, and I got to hear them yell at YouTube videos for about 4 hours while I made meatloaf and my good good mashed potatoes (with bacon, caramelized onions, and sauteed mushrooms) and gravy.
Me: "The mashed potatoes are over there, and the gravy is on the stove."
Cuddlebug: "Eh. I'll taste the gravy."
Cuddlebug: "Oh shit, babe."
Let it be known, I can fucking cook. He had seconds, and also leftovers the next day, and even the day after that; I nearly cried.
Tuesday...I don't think we did a damn thing. It stormed, and I was in the vicinity of him and one of his housemates playing 40k again. I recall being wrapped up in a blanket watching Kaguya and eating leftover meatloaf with lots of yelling off to the side.
Wednesday his car still wasn't ready, but I wanted to go home so I had a friend come and pick me up.
Before that happened, though, I was watching Drag Race on my tablet in his room (because there's no tv) while he played on his computer and his mom called, and I got to be present for that.
Let me tell you.
It is fucking adorable to be around someone who has a good relationship with their mother. Dr. Strangelove dodged his mom's calls like the plague (not that I blame him), and when he did have to answer or call her, he'd go outside and chain smoke the entire time and then usually want to be alone for a while afterwards.
But Cuddlebug was just like...chatting. He stopped his game. He leaned back in his chair. He smiled and laughed and talked to her for over an hour.
It's a shame I went home after that because it was super fucking cute.
Saturday night I got to go hang out with Space Kitten! Woot! We caught each other up on our respective love lives, ate some chicken, watched a little YouTube, did Mad Libs, they performed a geomancy for me, we talked tarot for a while, and I got to take home a cute pair of Bunny ears.
Week 10 (April 17 - 23)
Sunday was Easter.
Monday I was hanging out with friends, and Meeko Neko called me from a concert that hadn't started yet, just to chat. I miss him.
I started talking to a guy that I guess I'll have to name, so let's go with Tie-Dye. He's 25, works as a cook (this is a new subgenre for me but I'm leaning into it), and shares both a home and a child with his ex. It's a little complicated but not messy. He's nice, very...free-spirited, maybe? It felt more like friendship and not romance, and our conversations helped him clarify some things he’s been struggling with in his life. If I have to get older, I can at least be sage-like.
A few days later he messaged me and let me know that he didn't want to just ghost me, but his life is going in a different direction and he wasn't going to talk to me anymore. Men are exhausting.
Also Item 9 requested to hang out with Cuddlebug and I over the weekend.
Tuesday I was lazy all day and then woke up from a nap around 8pm and decided to hit up Eclipse who had finally gotten out of the hospital a few days before.
We had planned on going to the same Thai place that Cuddlebug and I went to, but it was going to be closed by the time we managed to get there, so we had to pivot. His car is still in the shop and he hasn't picked it up because he's been busy dying, so he hopped in an Uber and they picked me up on the way to...Applebee's (this is the suburbs, there aren't a lot of late-night options). He is so super cute in person, and is voice is a lot deeper than I expected for some reason.
We talked a little about music, our dating experiences, and then started talking about my true love - disturbing cinema. We decided to go back to my place and watch something spooky. I settled on Poltergeist because it's been a while and you know I enjoy some old school horror. He was really sweet and cuddly! I did get to play with his hair, which is much more solid than I was expecting.
But yeah, we had a nice time, and I'm glad we FINALLY got to meet up (we both talked about how we’ve had other people come and go from our lives in the last two months since we started talking). Hopefully we can get together again soon, I think he's a lot of fun!
And he has...abs? What's that all about? I'm body-inclusive and everything, but I do tend to gravitate toward what Space Kitten refers to as softer folk, so it was just something I haven't felt in a while. Bodies are fascinating.
Wednesday there appeared this other guy, and the whole thing was a whirlwind. I really don't know what to think. We're gonna call him Shaggy, and he was a handful. He is also a cook, and he came out of the gate really forward - he has no filter. Normally I hate that. But idk, this one worked on me. He's 30, poly, married, collects Yu-gi-Oh cards, and asked for my Snapchat so he could send me food porn - which he absolutely did.
After that he was almost manic, switching between being really sexually-aggressive and being super sweet and wanting to get to know each other. There was definitely some kind of connection there, but it was so weird. Like he'd be asking me about my favorite movies and telling me that I'm so cool and cute and he likes me a lot, and then he'd be graphically describing sexual fantasies and things he wanted to do to me, and then he'd apologize for being too needy and saying he was just super into me because I’m amazing. By Saturday he sent me this message that was something like "I don't think this is gonna work, I don't think I'm what you need and you don't seem to have a lot of time" - this from a man who is poly, married, and works as a cook at a popular restaurant. You okay, bro? And then when I took longer than 10 minutes to respond to a message at 2 am, he blocked me on Snap and on Tinder.
Why. Are. Men.
Friday evening, a very poorly-time-managed Cuddlebug picked me up and we went over to his friends' house to eat pizza and watch the Drag Race finale. Then I got to experience more of life's greatest treasure: Cuddlebug watching monkeys. It is impossible to convey the joy this man gets from monkeys doing monkey things.
Saturday was fascinating. Cuddlebug and I were supposed to hang out with Item 9, but the latter woke up sick and had to postpone. So instead we scooted over to Space Kitten's house.
Cuddlebug loves to argue, and Space Kitten has a degree in Philosophy, so Cuddlebug showed up ready to go. And the first time he threw out a philosophical term, Space Kitten was like "...well, no," and then I spent a long time sitting on the couch listening to dudes argue about philosophical concepts and swooning into the mantle of the motherfucking earth.
There was philosophy talk, there was witchy talk, there was looking through tarot cards with pictures of nude guys on them, there was a good 10 minutes where I was just smelling different incense, there was staring at pretty lights, there was much adoration of Space Kitten's actual cat, there was discussion and eating of something that may or may not have been Italian food, there was couch cuddling, there was lengthy back-and-forth (both literally and figuratively over my head) about various and sundry RPGs that I'm not at all familiar with. All in all it was probably the best night ever. I'm always so happy when I'm able to successfully get my friends together!
Then we drove home and Cuddlebug spent a solid hour loudly (ofc) pitching various anime series to me (Death Parade, Psycho-Pass, Death Note, Kaiji, and like a million others I can't remember). We were supposed to drive thru somewhere for me to get food but I forgot until we pulled up to his house. I was just gonna say fuck it and go to bed, but he made me get back in the car so he could take me to Taco Bell. A gem, this one.
That's all for now! Things are going really well, honestly. Tomorrow I want to look at some weird dudes.
Feel free to submit asks and suggestions.
#Spotify#okcupid#dating#poly#online dating#dating app#tinder#men are trash#quality time#relationship#relationships#love#thoughts#feelings#cute#dating apps suck#long#long post#long reads#polyam life#polyamory
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I’ve been tagged a lifetime and a half ago by our local Pop Team Epic duo @holysea and @musso-musso-black-forest (thank you <3), finally I’m getting to it. I think everyone has been tagged already in the meantime, so I’m not tagging anyone but if you see this and wanna do it consider yourself tagged!
01. Nickname: Over here it's Jae. Some also call me Jyo. Real life it's Sofy.
02. Gender: F (cis)
03. Zodiac sign: Pisces
04. Height: Huuuh somewhere around 163-165 cm, which I always forget what's like in feet? Imperial units are so confusing to me lmao
05. Age: Turned 27 this year
06. Time: 11.21 AM.
07. Favorite bands/solo artists: Aaaah too many to count... my staples are Cynic, Death, Pink Floyd, Dead Can Dance, anything with Anneke van Giersbergen in it, Marina and the Diamonds, Lana Del Rey...but seriously as an avid music listener it's pretty damn hard to narrow it down :')
08. Song stuck in my head: "Take me Home, Country Roads" by John Denver ever since Fallout 76. Also a lot of Post Malone songs lately.
09. Last movie I saw: Pfftttt it should've been "The Killing of a Sacred Deer", but I'm laughing at the realization that the last movie I saw was the classic italian comedy "Ragazzo di Campagna" at a friend's house :'D We needed a laugh.
10. Last thing I googled: …the word "bodice" because I wanted to make sure it was what I thought it was. Being EFL is fun.
11. Other blogs: my Ibun blog @saiyuki-the-strange (what do you mean this isn't an Ibun blog already?)
12. Do I get asks: I don't get asks often, but when I do I make sure to procrastinate to the point of forgetting them and never reply. Same thing happens with tags lmao
13. Why choose my URL: I told this story before a couple times before. To keep things short short, this url pretty much means "nighttime butterfly" and it's a reference to my otp.
14. Following: Around 100 people? Mostly mutuals.
15. Average amount of sleep: 6-7 hours
16. Lucky number: Number 3 and number 11.
17. What I am wearing: My house clothes, aka a pair of red bermudas that used to be my dad’s old bathing suit and and oversized black tee.
18. Dream job: Realistically, working full-time as a translator with profit. If we're talking about actual dreams, I wanna be a writer and a singer. Possibly both at the same time.
19. Dream trip: Sweden is always a dream trip whenever I go because I love it so much and I wanna move there someday; if we're talking about places I haven't visited yet, definitely Japan. Also a tour in which visit all my online friends from all over the world :') Or at least meet them all in one spot. That'd be the dream.
20. Favorite food: I'm gonna be real predictable and choose ice cream and pizza, I'm italian after all. Too bad I'm a bit lactose intolerant, so can't eat a lot. Also all kinds of curries and spicy food.
21. Play any instruments: My vocal chords? I used to play the flute in middle school and I was quite good at it, but then I stopped. I tried learning bass and guitar, but my teeny tiny hands aren't made for these instruments.
22. Favorite song: Again, how am I supposed to choose only one?? I could perhaps make a list of favorite songs per artist, but even then I wouldn't be able to decide... yeah, you don't go ask an avid music listener to just choose one, I'm sorry :')
23. Play(ed) any sport: Swimming. I did karate as a kid and was abysmal at it, lol.
24. Hair Color: Dark reddish brown. The red hue is there naturally, I just intensify it with henna, even though it's been a while since I last done it...I should soon.
25. Eye color: Dark brown.
26. Language you speak/ are learning: Ofc italian, then english, french and swedish, even though it's been a while since I last spoke french and I'm still learning swedish, so. Some german too. I guess you could say I'm passively learning some japanese too due to all the google translating work I've been doing in the past couple years :') But I haven't really studied any yet. Maybe someday.
27. Random fact: Hmmm...I've had some strange paranormal experiences, especially as a kid. I'm not someone who actively seeks the paranormal, but I guess I tend to attract this kind of energy? These days it happens especially through dreams.
28. Describe yourself as an aesthetic/thing: A metalhead/vintage/hippie blend who's too lazy and broke to dress like my sense of style would require so I probably look like your average Jane most of the time. Tbf I tend to change styles quite often depending on my mood and seasons.
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Tagged by noone technically I stole it from @wererightbyyourside
1. what takes up too much of your time? Work at the minute, especially this time of year.
2. what makes your day better? Browsing through the internet and just having a 'nothing day' where I don't have to do anything or talk to anyone
3. what’s the best thing that happened to you today? I got an extra hour of sleep because the clocks moved but tbf I only woke up half an hour ago
4. what fictional place would you like to go? Hoenn!
5. are you good at giving advice? I tend to be good at giving relationship advice
6. do you have any mental illness? Eeeeeyup, diagnosed with PTSD at 7 years old and Clinical Depression at 14 years old
7. have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? Thankfully, no
8. what musician inspired you the most? SHINee and NU'EST are both definitely up there
9. have you ever fallen in love? No, not yet, but I'm seriously getting there at the moment.
10. what’s your dream date? Just lying in bed with takeout watching shitty movies on Netflix sounds perfect
11. what do others notice about you? How hyper and bubbly I can get when I'm happy
12. what is the annoying habit you have? I do a nervous laugh when I'm losing my patience and getting angry to try and diffuse the tension and my flatmate hates it because its a little passive aggressive but I can't control it
13. do you still talk to you first love? I won't say they were my love but we definitely dated, and no, I don't, because they're an asshole
14. how many ex’s do you have? Two
15. how many songs are on your playlist? over 400 on my mixed journey playlist...
16. what instruments can you play? Violin
17. who do you have the most pictures of? My cat lmao
18. where would you like to go before you die? I really want to go to Japan, South Korea, China, Thailand, Singapore, Canada and The Netherlands
19. what is your zodiac? Capricorn
20. do you relate to it? I don't really look much into it, so no
21. what is happiness to you? knowing that theres always a light at the end of the tunnel and even if things seem dire and hopeless, I know at least one good thing is still coming, even if its just a comeback or a cat cuddle
22. are you going through anything right now? Just exhaustion from work and the stress of a new relationship
23. what’s the worst decision you’ve ever made? Pretending to be straight for so long before I came out
24. what’s your favourite store? GAME, Lush and Typo
25. what’s your opinion on abortion? Pro-choice
26. do you keep a bucket list? Not really, nothing formally at least
27. do you have a favorite album at the moment? I'm currently obsessed by W,HERE by NU'EST W again
28. what do you want for your birthday? GAME Gift Cards so I can get Kingdom Hearts
29. what are most peoples first impression of you? People either tend to think im very loud or I'm very shy, it depends who I'm with when they meet me
30. what age do you seem according to most people according to most people? People seem to think, from looks, I'm 12. I'm not sure what people think when theyre just talking to me online
31. where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping? Next to my pillows
32. what word do you say the most? "ughhhhh"
33. what’s the oldest age you would date? I tend to work with about a 5 year window, I'm 21 so I'd go up to about 26 comfortably
34. what’s the youngest age you would date? As of right now, 19, because anyone younger feels a bit iffy to me, but once I'm older I'll stick to the 5 year window I give myself for older
35. what job/career do most people say would suit you? I get told I should be a writer a lot, but I've also been told I should work in the Gaming Industry
36. what’s your favourite music genre? Kpopppppp
37. if you could live in any country in the world, where would it be? I'd probably go to Canada
38. what is your current favourite song? Euphoria - BTS
39. how long have you had this blog for? Apparently I made it September 2016 so just over two years
40. what are you excited for? Christmas Period at work to be over and to be able to see my girlfriend more again
41. are you a better talker or listener? Listener
42. what is the last productive thing you did? I went and fed the cat when I woke up???
43. what do you want for christmas? Same as my birthday since theyre so close, GAME gift cards
44. what class do you get the best grades in? English and Religious Studies I did best in
45. on a scale from 1-10, how are you feeling right now? A solid 5
46. what can you see yourself doing in 10 years? Hopefully working in a job that means I can actually afford to do anything
47. when did you get your first heartbreak? I thought I was heartbroken at 16 but the older I get the more I'm just like 'eh'
48. at what age do you want to get married? I don't really care for marriage
49. what career did you want to have as a child? Author, Teacher, Ballerina
50. what do you crave right now? I really want flaming hot monster munch
Tagging: fuck it noone do it if you want to like I did lmao
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Cover Me
Author’s Note: happy birthday @yeolology <3 im just managing to sneak this one in for you <3 in your time zone, it is no longer you birthday but when you wake we will continue the celebration <3 welcome back to chanvember everyone!! enjoy more fluff that i am not used to writing! Pairing: Chanyeol x Reader (oc; female) Summary: On your birthday, you search frantically for your boyfriend’s hoodie only to find it is no longer there. Genre: fluff; romance Rating: PG Warning: minor swearing Word Count: 1,841
Technically, the hoodie is his.
His money paid for it, his hands chose it, loved it, without you in mind - years before he met you, and still suiting his taste even after you decided you liked it, too. Technically, it was never something you could rightfully call yours. Even though you wore it, even though you kept it, even though you imagined it was his body and his skin that kept you warm, breathing the scent of his cologne deep into your lungs while you wrapped yourself in the soft fabric, it still belonged to him.
Technically, these are technicalities, semantics. In the end, they mean nothing when it comes to true ownership, true devotion to a thing. His hands offered it to you first, lips pulled into a smile every time he saw it hanging low on your thighs. Mutually, it was decided that you would keep it, appropriating it to meet your needs: a sweater, a pillow, a comfort blanket, a cloth for your tears of frustration. It became him, amorphous and black and, therefore, able to be whatever you decided it could be.
And now, when you needed it, him, most, it was not here.
It’s not that your birthday is bad - far from it, it’s just that, without Chanyeol to turn every moment into something exciting, the moments in your day simply become pleasant somethings. Generic, pleasing things that fade without truly leaving a mark or imprint upon your soul.
Hugs from your family, cards from friends, the notion that tonight you will be taken to dinner and allowed to order all your favourites, these feel warm and sweet, like honey, delicate and wonderful. But, without Chanyeol’s touch or gregarious laugh, they fade almost instantly into your long term memory.
Without Chanyeol, you imagine a future version of yourself will look back on this with a furrowed brow and your tongue tucked behind your teeth, concentrating almost too hard to bring the memory back to life. In the end, all you will be left with is a summation of happiness, nice thoughts and dull colours. The notion that, I cannot remember anything terrible, so therefore everything was fine.
In the morning, you’d woken to a series of texts each more enthusiastic than the last.
Yeollie[4:12 AM]: ITS YOUR BRITHDAY Yeollie[4:13 AM] - Message sent with Confetti: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeollie[4:13 AM]: HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY Yeollie[4:15 AM]: i missed midnight Yeollie[4:15 AM]: im the worst boyfriend Yeollie[4:16 AM]: forgive me? Yeollie[4:17 AM]: i want you to wake up knowing i love you Yeollie[4:18 AM]: youre annoying but youre still perfect Yeollie[4:18 AM]: reading week was only last month but i already miss you Yeollie[4:19 AM]: i miss your knees and how they bump me in bed Yeollie[4:20 AM]: and how your showers take too long Yeollie[4:21 AM]: and how soft you are Yeollie[4:22 AM]: its your birthday and i love you Yeollie[4:23 AM]: ill call later today Yeollie[4:24 AM]: ill go back to sleep now Yeollie[4:25 AM]: MAYBE WE CAN MEET IN DREAMS!!!!!!
Waking to these felt like a paradox. At one moment, you wooned into your pillow, hands still stiff from sleep and unable to type a reply. Laughter spilled from your chest and into your pillow, eyes squeezed tightly shut as your smile started to border on painful. Every text was read in his voice, loud and demanding your full attention, rich and luxurious, and settling over your skin like feathers. Each word was chosen carefully for you, delivered with its full intent and said because they came naturally, because they were the only words he could fathom alongside you.
But hearing them in his voice meant accepting the cold understanding he was not there, imagination bringing forth the noise and the warmth of him against your skin. With your eyes closed, it was his voice in your ear as he spoke and his arm draped over your waist to hold you to his chest. You heard and felt these things with cruel tangibility while you basked the blackness of your mind, and opening them meant separating yourself from his adoring touch.
And so because your morning had started with him, because your birthday made little sense without him here to share it, you craved the fantasy of the hoodie, the easy way it made you believe he was near. Tearing through your room, it soon became apparent it was missing, neither in your closet nor in your laundry. And as you continued to search, you realized you hadn’t seen it in far too long.
With a final glance around your room, undesired clothing strewn across your bed and chair and floor, you sigh at the mess and pull out your phone, defeated.
Y/N[12:31 PM]: yeol wheres my hoodie? Y/N[12:31 PM]: :( :( :( Yeollie[12:36 PM]: which one? Y/N[12:37 PM]: the black one Yeollie[12:38 PM]: you have a lot of black ones tbf Y/N[12:39 PM]: you know which one i mean!!!! Yeollie[12:40 PM]: when was the last time you saw it Y/N[12:41 PM]: last time you were on break Yeollie[12:42 PM]: a month ago? Yeollie[12:42 PM]: how would i know where it is now?? Y/N[12:44 PM]: IDK! Y/N[12:45 PM]: maybe you took it Y/N[12:46 PM]: did you take it? Y/N[12:46 PM]: istg if you took it Yeollie[12:48 PM]: is it taking it if it was originally mine Y/N[12:48 PM]: chanyeol. Yeollie sent a Photo Y/N[12:49 PM]: CHANYEOL Yeollie[12:50 PM]: WHAT Y/N[12:51 PM]: T____________T Yeollie[12:52 PM]: it smelled like you! Y/N[12:52 PM]: THAT DOESNT MEANT YOU CAN TAKE IT Yeollie[12:52 PM]: ITS THE BEST PILLOW I OWN Y/N[12:53 PM]: YEAH BUT Y/N[12:53 PM]: LITERALLY Y/N[12:54 PM]: SAME Yeollie[12:55 PM]: it smells like your shampoo Yeollie[12:56 PM]: like youre with me just after a shower Y/N[12:57 PM]: ok but Y/N[12:57 PM]: now i have nothing to wear today Yeollie[12:58 PM]: you have…. Yeollie[12:58 PM]: clothes Y/N[12:59 PM]: omfg Y/N[12:59 PM]: im so mad Yeollie[1:01 PM]: don't be mad Yeollie[1:03 PM]: i love you so much Y/N[1:04 PM]: youre holding my soul hostage Yeollie[1:05 PM]: id rather hold your heart Y/N[1:05 PM]: FUCK RIGHT OFF LMAO Y/N[1:06 PM]: stop being cute Yeollie[1:07 PM]: no Yeollie[1:07 PM]: go outside Y/N[1:08 PM]: why Yeollie[1:09 PM]: just do it Y/N[1:09 PM]: what did you do
Excitement makes your fingers start to tremble; confusion molds your brow into something hard and quizzical. It takes a mighty effort, controlling your synapses and keeping your heartbeat steady. He couldn’t and he wouldn’t run through your mind a speed that takes a second to process their motions, body hesitant and apprehensive. Part of you feels as though you’ve swallowed your tongue, mouth suddenly dry and muscles turned to stone, wary of disappointment.
While it is not entirely out of the realm of possibility he would drive the many hours to see you, it’s also wholly like him to orchestrate something extravagant even when he is not here to experience it with you. And while you will be grateful for whatever lies in your driveway, the lack of his physical presence will hurt deep and down into the wetness of your blood.
So you brace yourself, close your eyes and wait for the shallow inhales of your lungs to become deep and languid.
As if pressing you for action, your phone buzzes in your palm.
Yeollie[1:14 PM]: stop overthinking and go outside
A great tidal wave of emotion consumes you, tears welling in your eyes as you move through your house and out to your drive.
Of course he would. Of course he would.
He runs to you the moment you throw the door open, long limbs stumbling and struggling to carry his tall gait. Chanyeol is a large blur of white teeth and pink ears, hair tucked beneath a black snapback.
It happens quickly, the arms around your waist and the scent of him consuming you. Beneath your ear, his heart thunders, excited and fraught with emotion - much like yours. Around you he is firm, grip on you tight and breath cascading into your hair, warming you and soothing you, both acting as though the height difference does not exist.
‘Happy birthday,’ he murmurs as his fingers press into your back, steadying himself as much as you. ‘You really thought I’d miss this?’
The wetness on your cheeks is hot, tears gently seeping into your pores without your permission. This is not like you. You are not one for emotional displays, but the relief you feel reaches down to your toes. Bewildered, it takes you a moment to answer, mind caught in a fog of realizing that love and loving are two different things; that you love your family, but loving Chanyeol means days are only special because he is there to make them so.
‘How the hell would I have known?’ you laugh, pressing your nose into his sternum. Your skin recognizes the fabric and, on instinct, you cling to him a little tighter.
Chanyeol scoffs in mock offense. ‘Yee of little faith.’
‘You were here last month. It’s such a long drive.’ On instinct, you take a step back to pull away to peer up at him, wanting to search his face and find all the pieces of joy he keeps tucked into his cheek bones. But he holds you too him, unyielding and unwilling to let you depart from him so soon.
‘You’re more important than the gas,’ he reasons, softly.
‘The gas is expensive.’
‘And you aren’t,’ he teases quickly, and you can hear his smile. Against your best wishes, you smile with him.
‘Ass,’ you laugh. ‘When did you take that picture?’
He laughs, deep and rich, the sound vibrating down in your bones. ‘A few weeks ago. Waited for you to wonder where it went but you never asked.’
Comfortable silence settles between you, time slipping by in unmeasured moments. Chanyeol’s touch warms your skin, raises goosebumps of affect and only when he shivers slightly to realize the air has taken on a chill.
‘We should go inside,’ you sight.
Against the crown of your head, he nods.
‘I brought the hoodie home,’ he says, sounding content.
‘That’s okay,’ you whisper, raising onto your tiptoes to kiss his cheek. ‘You can keep it for now.’
At this, he pulls back to regard you with surprise.
‘For now,’ you smile, ‘I just want you.’
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1. What did you do in 2020 that you’d never done before? * An FCD convention (2258) * got quarantined due to a international pandemic.
2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don’t do them
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? not sure of timing, but my cousin Jade i think, though by “close” i only mean by blood, we’ve not had dealings since she was in High School.
4. Did anyone close to you die? a friend (no names for the sake of honour) a friends father (no names for the sake of honour) a cousins familiar (no names for the sake of honour)
5. What countries did you visit? none.
6. What would you like to have in 2021 that you lacked in 2020?. Have some semblance of an actual life.
7. What dates from 2020 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? the end of Feb 2020 - I finally me Jason Carter, and yes I will be going on about this repeatedly for years to come. also in Feb I saw Counterfeit for what..i never believed would be the last time.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? not murdering someone count?
9. What was your biggest failure? for a change i don’t have an answer to that.. not on I’m willing to post publicly anyway.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? no
11. What was the best thing you bought? either my little black owl bag (codenam Morningstar) or one of the ghosts.
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration? Heather Louise Sharpe. takes a lot to survive what she has this year and not go to pieces.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed? as always i could quote a number of politicians and people in and out of showbiz. there have been a few fandom people and moments too. but personally speaking.. I was rather.. disgusted by someone I had thought actually possessed a brain (a hard thing to do where they come from) but as always I was proved wrong
14. Where did most of your money go?} survival. and for me that means geekery
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? MEETING - JASON - CARTER and some other stuff which consequently never happened and never likely will.
16. What song will always remind you of 2020? COunterfeit - It gets better. both becaue it got me through a lot of the year and cos.. well. just cause
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? meh.
b) thinner or fatter? meh.
c) richer or poorer? poorer
18. What do you wish you’d done more of? anything.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of? being stuck in the house.
20. How did you spend Christmas? not happened yet but will likely be stuck in the house watching reruns. in my family unit its not classed as a ‘big’ thing, even less so this year
21. What was your favourite month of 2020? Feb: Hu, Counterfeit, 2258
22. Did you fall in love in 2020? & 23. How many one-night stands? I am a Sex repulsed Aromantic Asexual.. form your own answer
24. What was your favourite TV programme? Cursed/Roswell/Charmed
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? several. one in particular
26. What was the best book you read? Ben Aaronovitch - False Values
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? this year i’ve personally not made one, but Allys sent me 2 bands who i now love. re-discovery however is another story - Black Veil Bridges saved my soul when Counterfeit split.
28. What did you want and get? the 13th doctors coat. AND IT ACTUALLY FITS not got it “yet” but I’ve finally ordered a Zat.
29. What did you want and not get? question is mute cos if i wanted it i’ll get it next year unless your talking events due to the pandemic in which case.. hindsight is 2020 aint it
30. What was your favourite film of this year? Cant say I have on tbf
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? its this week lik 4 days from now. i’ll be 36 and short of on of my breif trips to york i’m doing exactly fuck all.(december + pandemic)
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? how long you got? * getting a holiday * seeing my friends for more than a few hours * getting to a con * one of the few decent bands left not fracturing * this country not being subjected to a bunch of silver spoon fed, tunnel visioned inbreeds and their leader the great hair fail.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2020? PJ dont last a year if you werar them 5/7 days
34. What kept you sane? thats been debatable since i was 6 lol/. but this year.. whats kept me “anchored.” is: * My Pack * Teen Wolf and other fandoms * planing for 2021 even though I know my countries fked.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? see queston 22
36. What political issue stirred you the most? I try to avoid politics, my family are all socialists and its like verbal torture in this house since i was old enough to realise it.
37. Who did you miss? My Pack. yes i got to see Adam, Heather and Ally for a few hours on and off throughout the yar, but thats like being stuck in solitary and only gettng to go outside once a month out of all 12 months.. not even that if i’m honest
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. Happy! Happy! Happy! Happy! Happy! Happy!Choose your poison Poison! Choose your poison Poison! Choose your poison Poison!Everything is shutting down (Shutting down, shutting down) Everything is shutting down (Shutting down, shutting down) Everything is shutting down (Shutting down, shutting down)
<Danny Elfman - Happy>
41. sum your __2020 up in pictures (IN NO ORDER) will be dong that in another post as always
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1985 Albums
Friday 20th March 2020.
On the way home from work (for the last time in a while I think, thanks Covid-19) Radio 2 played The Whole of the Moon by The Waterboys. I loved and love that song from their album, This is the Sea. I knew the album was released in 1985. It’s a year I won’t forget in a hurry for lots of reasons; the main, unbearably sad one is losing my mum, but, also, for other reasons that were not at all sad. The aforementioned album being one, another being another album - Kate Bush’s Hounds of Love. (Another was Knebworth opening its gates to music for the first time in a few years….what a gig that was!) So, did I listen to any other albums that year? I seriously couldn’t tell you, for certain, the name of any other album released in that year….with aging memory it seems to me my turntable’s time was equally divided by Mike Scott and Kate - six months apiece. I decided to check it out. A quick search on Google and the first hit I clicked was this one from the NME that lists 50 albums.
I decided to listen to each in turn, from its count of 50 down to 1. I posted a one line review on each on FB. Here are those one-liners below, with supplementary comments as and when.
50. ABC, How to be a Zillionaire. I didn't learn that actual trick but I did learn to love Martin Fry's delivery once again.
49. Sade, Promise. Smoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooth.
48. Sheila E – Romance 1600. One I missed posting about of FB, probably because it was that forgettable. I can’t remember one track from it and it was only a couple of weeks ago!
47. Alex Chilton, Feudalist Tarts. Who knew? Seriously never heard of him before!
46. George Clinton, Some of My Best Jokes Are Friends. Funky. Another new one on me.
45. The Replacements, Tim. Never heard or heard of them b4 today. Shan't bother again!
44. Run DMC, King of Rock. Dunno why I like this album, just do. It's like that and that's the way it is.
43. Cameo, Single Life. I've already forgotten about it.
42. New Order, Low Life. The first album on NME's 1985 list that properly rocks all thru.
It’s a proper ‘of its time’ album and yet timeless. This gets the bold review ‘cos I would definitely take time out to listen to this again. First one of the NME list!
41. Robert Wyatt, Old Rottenhat. Out there. A defo doob album.
40. The Style Council, Our Favourite Shop. I recall this album & it's better than it was. Weller has a voice that sometimes sounds like it’s going to break at the sterner test but then he carries it off. It adds to the originality.
39. Sonic Youth, Bad Moon Rising. Proper industrial punk. I like it.
38. Dexys Midnight Runners, Don't Stand Me Down. Not one track had I heard before. Fab.
I really enjoyed this. I like the fact it’s a real deviation from what I remember Dexys for - all denim and oddly-antifashion fashionable. This album showed real confidence in their own ability, quite rightly.
37. Husker Du, New Day Rising. 'Salright.
36. Bobby Womack, So Many Rivers. “Let Me Kiss You Where It Hurts.” 😂😂😂 Yep - the only thing I wanted to post about this album, having listened to it (like so many others, for the first time) was the name of one track which still, as I type, makes be chuckle like a school boy. Sorry Bobby.
35. The Fall, This Nation's Saving Grace. I never really got The Fall. This album doesn't help. This post on FB attracted some comment - Ralph White (fellow Posh and music fan) was, I sensed, a little perplexed at my opinion. But, I can’t lie, the band, and Mark E Smith, just didn’t, and still don’t, do it for me. I’m too old and long in the tooth to persist. Sorry Ralph.
34. Propaganda, A secret Wish. If you had to guess the time of this album's release from its sound, it couldn't be anything other than slap bang middle of the 80s. I mean it is sooooo eighties. It’s the sort of record that will be used for educational purposes - in history lessons.
33. Scritti Politti, Cupid & Psyche 85. I feel I should be more impressed than I am.
32. The Pogues, Rum, Sodomy and the Lash. What an album, what a fucking album.
I listened to this while out walking and it really took me by surprise just how much I enjoyed it. Of course, I’d heard a lot of the songs before but, as a collection, along with the tracks new to me, it really stands out.
31. The Cure, Head on the Door. The Cure does easy listening.
30. The Cult, Love. What's there not to love? No sudden death, just love.
Contains one of my favourite all time tracks. Can you guess?
29. Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds, The Firstborn is Dead. Interesting. Definitely a band you have to be in the right mood before the needle hits the record.
28. David Sylvian, Alchemy: An Index Of Possibilities. Music to have acupuncture to.
By that, I mean it was very, very, very Japanese-y.
27. Suzanne Vega, Suzanne Vega. Singer song writing by numbers.
To be perfectly blunt, I found it boring.
26. The Smiths, Meat is Murder. The Smiths are an enigma to me. Good music, good musicians but, that condescension. Morrissey, Geldof, Thunberg....peas in a high & mighty pod.
All that being said a few days ago now, I’m sure I’ll listen to this (and maybe other a records of theirs) again. I fucking hate that it was that good.
25. Bryan Ferry, Boys and Girls. Slick as you like. Is he the coolest man in music? I think he is.
24. 10000 Maniacs, The Wishing Chair. I can take this or leave it. When I posted this on FB there were a couple of posters encouraging me to try In My Tribe - it’s on as I type and it’s a little better.
23. Whitney Houston, Whitney Houston. I like this debut album. What a voice she had!
22. A-Ha, Hunting High and Low. Not bad song writing in a second language.
Nice enough album...but this band will always just be ‘nice’ and, memorable for a video, not much else.
21. Grace Jones, Slave to the Rhythm. A mess of an album.
Worst one on the list so far even if it has got David Gilmour playing on it.
20. Simple Minds, Once Upon a Time. I always felt, & feel, this band are wannabes to U2's crown. Nice enough album though.
19. The Colourfield, Virgins and Philistines. A gem of an album.
Terry Hall reminds me of Bowie. So talented, so prolific.
18. Everything but the Girl, Love not Money. Pleasant enough but won't be on repeat.
17. Loose Ends, So Where Are You? Hmmmm, not quite Color Me Badd. Very Delia Smith. The Delia Smith comment was because I found this album was an embarrassment much like Delia that fateful night at Carrow Road. If you don’t know to what I am referring, Google it.
16. Killing Joke, Night Time. Great album, cracking band.
15. Tears for Fears, Songs from the Big Chair. A big collection of comfortably accomplished songs.
The first album on the list I had definitely played, in its entirety, before...just not in 1985.
14. Dire Straits, Brothers in Arms. By no means their best. Tbf, you’d have to go some to best a debut or 3rd or 4th albums of the quality Dire Straits had under their belt. And, a side note, I think probably the best name for a band, ever.
13. The Sisters of Mercy, First and Last and Always. A moody, gothic masterpiece. I reckon the growling vocals are the stuff of genius and nightmares. 12. Prince, Around the World In A Day. Prince is brilliant, this album isn't. Like a few on this list, the decade’s half-way point didn’t see his finest hour.
11. Felt, Ignite the Seven Canons. I've never heard of this band before, nor heard a single track from this album, until now. I like them, I like it.
And I reached the Top Ten....I found myself really looking forward to the next 6-7 hours of the supposed mid-80s finest....
10. The Jesus and The Mary Chain, Psychocandy. Mentally sweet.
It is a great album by a seminal band but I didn’t really get on the band wagon back then, and I don’t have the time nor the inclination to now. That’s gonna piss some people off, I’m sure! 9. Microdisney, The Clock Comes Down The Stairs. Never heard of them before, probably never listen to them again.
This album left me feeling nothing. It’s the most nondescript one of the list thus far and I doubt that will change.
8. REM, Fables of Reconstruction. This band were good before they got massive.
Fucking brilliant. I had never listened to this album before and it’s such a precursor - we all know how massive they became and one or two of their later albums were residence, for a time, in my CD player. I reckon this one could become a real favourite of mine. Not just of REM stuff but in general.
7. Lloyd Cole & The Commotions, Easy Pieces. Easy listening and first rate easy listening, at that.
‘Brand New Friend’ is the stand out track.
6. Prefab Sprout, Steve McQueen. I don’t switch the radio off if this band are played, but I never play them. This album doesn’t alter that.
5. Madness, Mad not Mad. Who'd thought the stalwart rude boys would be so innovative? Another cracker from this list. It really stood out for me, they way the band changed things up a notch with this record. I can imagine some long-time fans would have baulked at this at the time of release but now, 35 years on, it smacks of progression. I’ve just asked Alexa to play it as I’m typing.
4. Talking Heads, Little Creatures. A wonderful, totally original band and album. This album reminded me that I do not spend enough time listening to Talking Heads.
3. The Waterboys, This Is the Sea. Marvellous. This is an album I know and love. So, here it is, one of the aforementioned two. It’s is still one of my favourite albums, definitely, but, just a little bit, the metaphors grate - there’s enough of the fuckers on this album - the sea, the moon, the spirit. But I will always love this album and I will revisit many more times, I wager (and hope).
2. Tom Waits, Rain Dogs. Not really a musical masterpiece, more a lyrical one.
I found this a unusual choice for number 2. That’s subjectivity for you, I’d have picked many others before this one for the runner’s up slot.
1. Kate Bush, Hounds of Love. One of my favourite ever albums. The best of 1985, maybe of the 80s, very close to of all time. It’s number 1 for the NME and it most certainly is for me.
So, I listened to all of these NME listed albums in turn and it was, in the main, an enjoyable musical journey
And I reminded myself that, in 1985, I did indeed only put two albums, that first saw the light of day in that year, on my turntable (Kate Bush and The Waterboys). Any other releases didn't get a look in.
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