#and im rlly rlly annoyed with a few ppl rn im so bothered but im not someone who is just rude as hell to ppl

[enden-k]

You mention that you're quite a sleepy person. Is it an energy expenditure thing, a medicine thing, or a I-have-no-fucking-clue-why issue?

Sending love over ♡.

more of the third. im a really really sleepy person in general (unless im having an episode) and i can usually tell what kind of sleepiness im experiencing, like when its of mental nature (depression etc) or physical nature (sunlight and warmth, after intense physical activity, pollen allergy puffing up my eyes etc)

but theres this kind of sleepiness (the one thats bothering me sm) i really dont know where its from; i get the hours of sleep i need to function but i wake up like i havent slept at all. then im wide awake and energized for a few hours until im suddenly so sleepy, i often doze off right where i am (often unfortunately at my desk, in class, even the train or bus) i need naps in the afternoon and still feel tired. i can still sleep at night despite naps but i wake up often. caffeine doesnt rlly hit anymore. i have chronic migraines in general and often my headaches are triggered by too much sleep (too much sleep!!! imagine) some days (like today) my sense of balance is off and i cant even walk properly, im swaying to one side like one part of my brain is heavier. probably the one filled with thoughts about kvthm or smth smh

whats bothering me the most is that sometimes im so sleepy, i can feel my brain is not working properly and i have trouble forming a thought or just focusing. im non speaking but im pretty sure if i would try now, i would probably be even worse at communication than usual bc i usually have to focus hard and rn i dont have that focus. it really troubles me

anw i doubt its caused by mental health issues as i dont feel the usual signs my body sends, and its not bc of allergy or any of the meds i take. and its confusing as hell bc im a healthy boy!!!!!!! i only drink water, my meals are balanced, i love the sunlight and fresh air, i dont smoke and i only drink on occasions ughhhhhhhh ppl actually think im lazy and comfy jsut lazing around all day and happily napping away when im home. id rather use the time im wasting on naps for smth more useful, it really sucks

anw this got super long sry, just proof how much it annoys me that i complain this much ig 😩

[rwibbit]

So tired of existing i must say

[serowotonin]

˗ˏˋ 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗮𝘄 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗿𝘀 ˎˊ˗

𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗿 ` sakusa kiyoomi ` 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁 ` 1.2k ` 𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲 ` pure crack ` 𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗺𝗮𝘁 ` hcs `

𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲 ` umm idk what this is.. lowkey based off real events? midnight ramblings? yeah that kind of thing i guess... also big thank you to @kaguol​  for giving this a read (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄) `

it was sports day at your school and most of the events were over and done with but the teachers didnt allow anyone to leave yet cuz,,,, reasons✨

which is why some of the students kinda just flocked to the gym to chill and maybe play around

that was until somebody suggested they host an unofficial, volleyball game

the net was still up nobody bothered to put it down so yeaahhh

rules of the game were simple: there were none, except keep the ball in the air and get it over the net…however you can

at first only a few ppl played… the “energetic” and “athletic” ones and it still seemed like a typical volleyball game

then more ppl started joining

and it slowly started getting more chaotic

it got to the point where the entire gym was the court

there were ppl running around chasing the ball, others just hitting it as hard as they can in practically any direction, then there were those who just stood there cuz everyone else was standing there so why not ??

now sakusa didn’t want to be there

he was tired because his class had signed him up for ALL the running events

why? well cuz he was tHe OnLy AtHLeCtiC PeRsOn in his class

utter bullshit btw

he plays volleyball hes not a runner

but still ended up winning tons of races just cuz… it was him💅✨ no explanation needed

n e wayss he was tired and wanted nothing more than to go home and take a nice long shower

but ofc the students of itachiyama wouldn’t let him

some of them dragged him into the game early on

again, because he was aThLeTiC ~

but this time they actually got the sport right lolol

honestly he was lowkey annoyed at how un-volleyball the game started to become but continued playing it anyway

it was hilarious how the others tried to receive even his weakest, half-assed spikes

sakusa always made sure to aim his spikes directly at ppl’s arms tho

not out of consideration for their pride or anything no no 

it was cuz whenever the ball touched the ground the ENTIRE gym groaned rlly loud and there’d be ppl going “NOOOOOOOO” 

and that annoyed tf out of him so he was nice with his spikes

then there was you

you were outside with one of your friends when the whole volleyball thing started and only came to the gym cuz the rest of your friends were in there

so you walked in, scanned the crowd, immediately noticed your crush *cough*sakusa*cough* and then found your friends standing in a group on the other side of the gym

now here’s the thing

sakusa has a crush™️ on you too. took him a while to realize and accept it but he did and now he officially has a crush on you

he just hadn’t really gotten around to the idea of asking you out or anything

mainly cuz he just very recently realized his feelings aka last night he was thinking about all the events he had to do for sports day and he groaned cuz ppl made him do it but then he realized ppl wasn’t actually ppl it was just you

you were the one who smiled at him and said “why not sakkun,, it’d be fun” and like that he agreed. then he realized further he actually thought about you a lot. like earlier he was thinking about how’d you look tmr since u weren’t gonna be in normal school uniform and you’d have your hair all done. and then he realized he was looking forward to seeing you which led him to realize you were one of the few ppl he actually enjoyed being around. THEN he fucking finally realized “oh… i have a crush…. on y/n……. oh”

somewhat conflicted abt it for the entirety of the day,,, bois experiencing feels for u ofc its gonna take some time >.<

he didn’t get to talk to you all day though,,,,,, he was busy with his own events and you were elsewhere

either way,, when he saw you walking past in the gym he kind of lost focus

lost focus in that the ball was coming to him and he jumped to spike it but only had his eyes on you causing his aim to mess up and well,,

he hit his target

*your head*

and because he wasn’t focused, it wasn’t a “soft” spike like all the other ones hes been doing 

it was a full-blown sakusa kiyoomi spike

that hit your face

(;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)

sakusa just went: ᶠᵘᶜᵏ

you saw stars,,,,,,,, and fell on ur bum

like a split second later, you heard a calm voice asking if you were ok. you muttered out a yeah and felt arms helping you up

one of them was your friend you were pretty sure, but the other one’s hands were too big to be any of your friends’

“let’s get you to the nurse,” the calm voice said again. 

“mkay,, thats probably.. a smart choice.. yeah….” and, vision still blurry, you were guided to the nurse by your friend and someone whose identity you weren’t sure of yet

sakusa was still standing there

all that, the spike hitting you, you falling, your being escorted to the clinic,,,,, that happened in like 2 seconds

he didn’t even have time to say anything yet

to make matters worse, some random ass guy was the one who came and swept you out of the gym

sure your friend was with you but to sakusa,,, that guy sus af

after they left, the game continued and sakusa rlly didn’t feel like playing anymore

he wanted to make sure you were okay and wanted to apologize 

however,,,, the teachers came in shortly after and told them it was time for the closing ceremony

throughout the entire thing, his eyes flit through the crowds looking for you

he couldn’t find you tho>:((

big sad

after the ceremony was over,, he went to the clinic but you weren’t there

then he just kinda,,, /slump/

figured he’d just pull you aside tmr and apologize then

except,,, tmr came and he still hadnt found a good time to pull you aside for a proper apology?? 

you were just so… busy.?

finally,, at around lunch after you finished eating, you kinda just sat with your friends and were talking and stuff when sakusa decided now would be an appropriate time to apologize

he walked up to you and asked if you two could talk in private for a bit

your friends shot glances at each other. he saw,, but he didnt let it bother him

anyways,, he led you out into the hall and in the softest tone he could manage he says, “about yesterday… i’m really sorry, spiked the ball a bit too hard.. how are you feeling?”

you tell him ur fine,, just that it aches a bit but nothing serious

he nods and mutters another ‘sorry..’

then this happened:

“no it’s ok you don’t have to be so sorry. accidents happen.”

“it wasn’t an accident tho..? so im sorry, it wont happen again.”

“yeah ok,, wAIT WHAT?? wdym not an accident?!?? u spiked the ball into my face on purpose?!?!!?!?”

“WHAT NO- ofc not. i just,,, i kind of lost focus… on other things… at the time… and yeah”

“????”

*sighs* “i was focused on you when you walked past and didn’t consciously control my aim or whatever and ended up spiking it into your face”

“?!?!?!??…. why were you focused on me??”

“cuz i like you dummy” /it slipped he didnt mean to say this/

“oh.... wAIT WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?”

and that is the story of how sakusa confessed

𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲 ` honestly think it would be better as a fic but uh,,, my lazy ass cant be bothered to write fics rn so uh,, hope this was good for now? lol might mess around and write one later tho.. maybe `

[jhopeego]

get to know me tag x3

tagged by @minghuo​ tysm!!!! ^^^ <3

ill do all three because go big or go home

✩ part one

1: Are you named after someone? nope!! im named after a flower tho ?

2: When is the last time you cried? a few days ago bc i saw a gif of jimin and tae holding hands i think

3: Do you like your handwriting? not rlly

4: What is your favorite lunch meat? uuuuuuuuuuu idk hHam??? iDK

5: Do you have kids?  no ???

6: If you were another person, would you be friends with you? no? im nastee

7: Do you use sarcasm? hmmm i say i do but now that i think abt it?? not rlly

8: Do you still have your tonsils? ya?

9: Would you bungee jump? hmm no but if it was for hobi id do it

10: What is your favorite kind of cereal? um captain crunch

11: Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? yea

12: Do you think you’re a strong person?  not rlly?

13: What is your favorite ice cream flavor? chocolate chip cookie dough !

14: What is the first thing you notice about people? ummm their hair , voice and height? i guess? 

15: Red or pink? pink

16: What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself? um i dont like my hands or my face lol :/

17: What color pants and shoes are you wearing now?  HGFD um im wearing frozen pajama pants with olaf all over them ;;; im not wearing any shoes

18: What was the last thing you ate? rice

19: What are you listening to right now? spotify ads :) ((after that it was 2! 3! in case u were wondering)

20: If you were a crayon, what color would you be? u know what hobis hair color looks like in the ynwa pics? id be that color

21: Favorite smell? the only one that comes to mind atm is the wings photobooks THEY SMELL RLLY GOOD

22: Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? my dad

23: Favorite sport to watch? ice skating i guess

24: Hair color? “strawberry blonde” but to me it looks more like a light brown

25: Eye color? i guess hazel ??

26: Do you wear contacts? Nope i have glasses

27: Favorite food to eat? hmmmm idk :/ dont like food all that much? maybe mashed potatoes bc my mom makes them well :/

28: Scary movies or comedy? it depends on who im with ! i like watching horror movies with other people but if im alone comedy is good !

29: Last movie you watched? other than school movies i was forced to watch? the great gatsby

30: What color of shirt are you wearing? white

31: Summer or winter? WINTER 

32: Hugs or kisses? um idk hugs i guess ive never kissed anyone before so :^)

33: What book are you currently reading? fgdh im reading demian for the third time right now

34: Who do you miss right now? @/kmlyrics :/ also maybe my sister and as always m hobi

35: What is on your mouse pad? dont have one

36: What is the last TV program you watched? flower boy next door

37: What is the best sound? ....... hoseoks voice

38: Rolling Stones or The Beatles? i dont like either

39: What is the furthest you have ever traveled? i have left my state like once to the one next to it so um. not very far

40: Do you have a special talent?  um annoying ppl

41: Where were you born? the us

42: People you expect to participate in this survey? jdfhdf idk no one

✩ part two (some of these are repeated so im sorry)

Last film you watched: the great gatsby Last song you listened to: bts dope  Last book you read:um romeo and juliet for school i guess is that a book Last thing you ate: riice If you could be anywhere right now where would you be: idk wheres hobi rn Where would you time travel to: um back to when i read demian for the frst time so i could read it for the first time again or when i first watched a bts mv Fictional character you would hang out with for a day: DEMIAN MY ONE AND ONLY

✩ part three

Instructions: Put your music on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, then tag 10 mutuals. 

-suddenly by one ok rock

- chewing gum by nct dream

- interstellar by monsta x

- 3xxxv5 by one ok rock 

- dunk shot by nct dream 

-no oh oh by clc

-mad city by nct 127

-sunny afternoon by red velvet

-red dress by red velvet

-good thing by nct 127

(not one bts song . i hate u spotify. i dont even stan any of those groups except nct dream . disappointed.)

ummm im not gna bother Ten Whole ppl ill only tag a few & only do it if u want!!! @valentinebaek @kmlyrics @1kth @parkejimins @namjooniewifey @jkookofficial @ilobyoongi & also .. anyone else who wants to do this !!