#and im not about to try snd change that if he doesnt like me he doesnt like me

[b00m-b0mb]

Something really funny that's occurred to me is the way Joe talks about Maccie is like she's some catastrophic event that happened to their family "I can't believe she's been here that long." / "Everything's been different since she was born" / "Everything changed." / "She changed everything."

And it's just rlly funny to me. I want to up the dramaticness of his words at some point. And anyway, he's talking to the Samurai/Ronin for the first time and I'm wondering the impression he's getting lmao

Joe is certainly expressive to me, but only when he's given the chance. And I think w Ronin, he just started letting a lot of stuff out bc thus guy is gonna go on his way anyways.. but then he's like wait!!! Actually let me go?? For a little? (Platonic yearning so bad)

Ronin like 》^. "I suppose.. Alright, curious karate man, I'll accompany you a little longer."

Or something I'm messing around UGH

[catfishofoldin99colours]

me when my coworker is worried another guy in the office doesn't like her: Ah that sucks for her. Glad I'm not affected by that tho

Me when that same guy gives me a short teams message: Ah. Well good thing I don't care about being liked by him or not

Me after thinking about it for maybe 32 seconds: no actually I hate this

[alienaiver]

Who do you ship me with? (Don't automatically pick my favorites, please 😋) You can choose fandoms I don't know yet too.

ill go for some different fandoms !!!!

in bnha im going with......

sato rikido! i think your lovely nature would compliment his as well; and i bet he would do his absolute best to find alternative ways to bake something without sugar or any other ingredients so that you'd be able to ingest snd enjoy his baking!! he would loooove to try and bake tons of things. some of them would end up disappointing for you both, but he loves how you always find anything, even the tiniest thing to compliment; like the crust, or the consistency of the batter!!! he'd love date nights with cuddles and movies about the big questions of life with happy endings but that makes both of you sniffle a little during the sad parts. he'd be very flustered when you met his parents, and even tho its HIS own parents, you'd end up speaking for both of you during the dinner because hes just such a smiley, nervous wreck who nods and stutters !!!

for haikyuu.... that was a tough one solely because of all the lovely options! 👀 but i have to go with fukunaga shouhei !!! 🥺 he'd end up wooeing you with his dry but perfectly delivered jokes and nicely personal pick-up lines. he'd spend a long time making them personalized to impress you! in the beginning theyre a bit hit or miss, sometimes even accidentally insulting. but he ALWAYS makes up for it with a little silly choreographed dance and your favorite drink from the convenience store !!! its very precious and silly, and he completely fell for you when you delivered a witty pun to one of his jokes during a training camp. he was heart eyes for a while in secret (everyone on the team knew) before he decided to give it his shot!!!

im also assigning you a d. gray man husband !!!

this wasnt too hard actually, bcos i think youd make a really adorable pair! im pulling bak chang along, and he'd be a stumbling, stuttering mess introducing himself to you. he doesnt completely trust me that ive told only good things about him to you, because hes a silly goose with various (lazy) morales even tho he has such a high position. tho fret not, when needed he is a good branch chief!!

his dates are a little bit chaotic as he tries to woo you because of the nature of his job, but he never skips on any of the romantic tidbits! theyre just sometimes cut short. after he's successfully (at least he hopes theyve been grand enough to impress you) he spends a lot of time finding you secret hiding spots where he can just. be himself, comfortable and relaxed around you, talking about anything and nothing in particular. hes never had a normal childhood or youth or big experiences outside of the branch, so he enjoys listening to your story from the outside world and what mischief you mightve done as a kid. its a lovely change of pace for the both of you, and you love seeing this relaxed side of him, that he only shows you!!! hes not big on taking care of himself, but he will always make sure youre well fed, well rested and comfortable 🧡 (he even skips work if youre sick to take care of u!!! but he kidnaps you LMAO from the sick ward because otherwise won would find him there and drag him back to work 🤡)

[rogue9cg]

-vent-

i’ve still got my friend’s things from when we used to play d&d at my place. we haven’t spoken in years as he slowly faded away from the group. going through his stuff again made me realize how much i miss him.

i feel very selfish admitting this, but i miss him a lot. selfish because i never reached out to him, i havent asked where he’s been. its not fair for me to feel this way after so long. and the idea that he might ignore me when i try, or that he’s beyond reaching at this point is pretty painful to think about.

missing him isnt the only thing that hurts though. i miss a lot of people. sometimes i miss people i talk to every day. i used to experience a lot of things, i used to be close to people, but as i get older i get lonelier. this friend and I would go walking together around the lake and discuss our philosophies, our future, things like that. with other friends i’d put my arms around them, pat them on the back, help them whenever i could. being helpful really made me feel good. so often i got to help friends move, give them rides, talk them through relationships despite having little experience myself. and i had the confidence to do those things.

i dont really know when things changed. i’ve regressed to the point where i feel pathetic, useless, unloved. and i feel really horrible saying that because there is clearly people that care about me. but i’ve forgotten how to connect with people. or maybe im just too scared. every person i know is a mountain of possibilities that i havent been strong enough to face.

the problem is me, i dont face anything or anyone anymore. every day i live is a lie because im scared of being selfish, or pushing my friends away. im really fucking scared of making people i care about uncomfortable because of my feelings. nothings scarier to me than being alone, of asking for too much and being left behind. but the real, embarrassing truth of it all is that im sad, i want to be loved, i want to be held, i want to be wanted. hugs arent enough! i wont feel like a real person again until someone squeezes me tight and doesnt let me go!! its not even romantic, i’ve just never been treated like that more than a couple of times in my whole life! maybe i dont deserve it, i dont fucking know, but not even my family ever treated me that way… maybe they did at one point… but i wouldnt remember because that was a different me, a me that i lost. my memory has gotten fuzzier and fuzzier over the years. the worse part is i remember the stuff that hurts but the good things i have to wonder if they actually happened.

i dont even like typing all this out because i just never feel like i have the right to feel this way. but its been really hard being in my own head all this time snd im really tired of it. tired of feeling like im not enough. tired of doing the same thing every day and expecting to feel any better.

[flecks-of-stardust]

Okay sorry im sendi g an ask but the character limit worries me so im doin this here! Trigger and squicks list for bugsnax is as follows:

-alcohol-esque drinks are mentioned and consumed several times

-unnatural changes to bodyparts occur

-this is more a squick but theres a fair bit of romance, idk im aro and you have the flag so idk how much it bugs you but theres three relatively healthy relationships (two are queer if that means anything) and then one thats sorta uncomfortable and iffy

-bullying of other characters (just in case)

-paranoia, theres a character who is very paranoid and afraid and he discusses these things with the player, if you have problems with intrusive thoughts or fear that someone is watching you, this could trigger that

-theres some yelling, notably from a man in the game which may bug some people. Its not super serious and hes got a goofy accent but be warned

-a woman also yells at you in a gruff voice and hits stuff early in the game, though she doesnt appear again, just in case

-there is cannibalism in this game, though not depicted on screen it is mentioned snd the effects of it can be seen

-unsanitary warning, i think thia is minor but im trying to be comprehensive, the characters can sometimes be seen running to the bathroom in game and there is a sidequest where you collect someones poop, not explicit and its all in like a little bag and everything but still a bit icky, and your character is implied to have thrown up at one point, though not shown.

-theres lots of mention of death as a whole and lots of remonders of it. If death scares you, or existential questions and that sorta thing bug you, theres a character that can be found whos sidequest really ventures into that and it could be rough

-sort of melancholy ending no matter what

Overall the game is definitely aimed at kids, but there is darker stuff and its pretty prominent. Sorry for being thorough about this, but im thoroughly hyperfixated on this game and also want more people to enjoy it while being safe!! I hope you do get into it and enjoy it, and even if you dont drop 20 bucks on it, theres a couple people who have streamed playthroughs. Theres also a free dlc coming out in a bit so if that sweetens the deal then go wild.

Sorry to bug you! Have a nice day!!

OH also a couple minor sexual innuendos!

no no this is great, thank you so much!! i really appreciate it! and this is really helpful tbh. im very grateful you thought to mention the unsanitary stuff, because i have fairly severe emetophobia and info like that is really useful to me. i also appreciate you warning me about the romance; for the record, i Am romance-averse to an extent, but unless the romance is front and center itll probably be okay.

it sounds like it might be the paranoid character who might pose the biggest problem, tbh, cause fuckin same. my paranoia is wild and that's the biggest reason im worried about playing any games heavy in psych horror, though cartoony graphics and silly themes help cushion it (and ive been told bugsnax is heavy on the silly). im willing to try it, at the very least!

im still guilty about never finishing one shot but holy hell that game Fucks with me hard, with how meta it is and how anxiety inducing it is to quit out of the game. maybe ill watch a playthrough of that at some point,,

[ahopelessromanticwriter]

Idk if this has been posted before, and judt a forewarning this is somewhat of a shit post.

But.

Kotlc characters as high school band instruments.

Music kids, help me out. Anyone else, enjoy the ride.

So first off we got Sophie. Shes quiet, but is determined to reach her goals. What im seeing here is ✨clarinet✨. Just think about it. She can play really well and does- and she squeaks (kind of a lot and she says her clarinet is going through puberty)- but she just doesnt talk very much.

Dex Dizznee? 1000% a trombone. Hes also quiet, but once you get to know him he is definitely n o t quiet. The pranks. The Lego Death Star. The Star Wars music. And he's in jazz band. Change my mind.

Biana is a flute. Shes not quiet but shes more likely to commit murder and get away with it thrn anyone else is. Shes thr gossip the life of thr party.

Tam is a trumpet. Albeit a quiet one at first, but the amount of ego (and hair gel) he has does not lie. I know your secret. I know your trying to hide something. I know you're only here for the credits.

Linh is also a flute. She and Biana can both play really high and do not hesitate to. She gets a bunch of gossip from biana but just doesnt spread it around as much.

Marella Reddek is a trumpet. Do i need- wAIT. i am wrong. The saxophone vibes..are too much. Alto by the looks of what she knows and how she uses the information. Also Marella just kinda seems like a meme lord to me (dont judge me on that). Oh and shes in jazz band as lead sax i just see it too well okay.

Fitzroy Avery Vacker you are headed straight for the saxophone section. Lead tenor and does jazz band, marching band, snd wind ensemble so he can brag. Also so he can do solos and brag about that too.

My boi Keefe is a percussion player. He can cause trouble and gets into his fair share of trouble, but he is r e a l l y good. Hes in drumcore, marching band, and iazz band just so he can play everything drum-related there is to play.

Thats all i can think of music kids tell me if im wrong this all came from the pov of a tenor sax no hate no shame on any of the instruments just my opinions please dont come for me

[milkybonya]

Hi bby!!! Whats's up? I am once again asking for Wooseok content 🙏🏻🥺 Drunk confessions are always funny and so sincere.. do you think you can do something im with that? :o maybe a college AU ? If you don't feel ok with that you know you can change it as you please, I'll love it anywyas 😩 thanks!! 💛 I hope you had happy holidays💙💙

omg it is my FAVOURITE WOOSEOK ANON !! but not on anon anymore ofc hehe i love this idea! so much! (and happy holidays to you too ♡) i hope you enjoy this even though it's a whole mess~

Drunk Confession

Warnings: party/drunk mentions

Pairing: College!Wooseok x (gender neutral)reader

When Wooseok, your roommate, texted you saying that he was going to a party, you considered going. You considered it because you knew this boy was going to get drunk and cause trouble like he always did... but this time, you didn't go. For once, he should clean up after his own messes.

You still kept your phone close to you in case he called, though, and later that night, your phone screen lit up.

[y/nnnn]jsjsjsjssnksnwoahsoehxuxh

???

weeeeeeee

Wooseok ur drunk

hidrunk im dad

no Wooseok. YOU'RE drunk. and im dad in this case i guess

ur notb dad... ur [y/n]&&@

yes.. im glad u know. why are u texting me when ur at a party?

i feel lonelyyy

ur literally surrounded by people

but none of fhem aee [y/n]

none of them what?

are

[y/n]

you havent caused any trouble, right?

no, [y/n].. are u troublencause i canf seem to stop causing you ehhehe

that... doesnt make sense?

uwu

?

pls pick me up i miss u pls ecome pls

it's late, Wooseok i'm tired :(

ur cute pls dont do :( or my heart go boom

we wouldn't want that to happen..

i'm coming, Wooseok

yaaaay

Without any further consideration, you grabbed your jacket and rushed out the door. Luckily, Wooseok had told you where he was headed, so you were able to find him easily. Also, the loud singing and flashing lights in the middle of a fairly quiet street of houses was a dead giveaway.

With your head down, you quietly entered the loud space, trying not to draw attention to yourself. There were people dancing wildly, socializing and doing.. many things that you would have rather not seen.

After asking around for Wooseok, you found him and his long limbs sprawled out on a couch.

"Wooseok! Are you okay?"

"[y/nnnnn]" he slurred, grinning.

Just as you were about to help him up, he fell off the sofa while reaching for your hand. Laughing it off, he brushed himself off and let you help him leave the house.

Out in the cool air of the night, Wooseok stumbled back to your shared dorm with you.

"So, Wooseok, did you have fun?" you asked him, smiling up at the tall boy.

He smiled, pushing up the frames of his glasses which he somehow had not lost.

"No. I told you, someone was missing. [y/n] was missing. And I was sad," he muttered, pointing his finger in the air while pouting.

"Why were you sad?" you asked.

"Because [y/n] wasn't there. They're my best friend, I can't live without them. My heart hurts when they're not near, but also," Wooseok continued, turning to look you in the eye, "I want to hold their hand and hug them.. we hug sometimes but I want to hug them for hours on end and give them a kiss on the cheek and.."

"Are we talking about the same [y/n]?" you asked, unsure how your legs were still moving when your roommate and best friend had just confessed to you.

"Yes.. you're [y/n], I like [y/n] and we're all happy! Woo!" Wooseok cheered, pumping his fist in the air.

"You're drunk.. You're just drunk.."

-

Back home, you tucked Wooseok in despite him whining about how he needs bed time cuddles and him holding onto you for dear life. Drunk Wooseok was affectionate Wooseok, so none if this was new, but butterflies were raging a storm within you.

When he said that he wanted to cuddle you snd hold your hand earlier that night, you tried to remain calm but you were so overwhelmed with emotion. Wooseok. Your goofy, fun but super cute roommate liked you... back. Back since you also liked him but suppressed it to maintain the friendship.

It was complicated.

But he was drunk.

He was just rambling. Perhaps he liked someone else but because he saw you so often, he had mistaken you for his true crush.

When he woke up in the morning and the two of you awkwardly ran into one another in the kitchen, and Wooseok's face turned red as he scratched the back of his neck while pretending to search the fridge for something... you had a feeling that maybe Wooseok wasn't just rambling last night. He was being overly nervous even though you'd seen him get drunk before.

"Wooseok... do you remember everything you said last night?" you slowly asked.

He simply hummed with his head still in the fridge.

"So you remember confessing to me?"

"I'll only remember it if you also like me back," he said, finally closing the fridge and turning to face you. His hair was a mess and his face was puffy but his smirk and the way his white shirt hung from his shoulders made him look so good.

"If you don't like me, then i don't remember a thing," he said, reaching for some cereal.

"No, Wooseok. I like you too.. only if your confession was a sincere one," you say, leaning forward against the kitchen counter.

"It was as sincere as it gets.. do I have permission to hold your hand now?"

[gaylonelydyke]

if it’s not too late, 12 for episodes and ships, and 17!

its never too late! thankyou for the ask 🥰 oo damn this is gonna be a hefty one, just to prepare you this is gonna be long 😅😅😅

spoiler alert for my friends who are finishing up season 2 rn, be careful if you look at my top five episodes, pay attention the the episode numbers, i will put [ ] in bold at the beginning and end of spoilers!

12. Top 5 ships

5. faith x myself because have you seen faith? shes such a babe! spare consensual kiss maam?

4. willow x oz, i dont know if this is an unpopular or not but i feel like if the 90s had been more accepting of term then willow wouldve been bisexual, but like even now tv shows will rarely let characters say that word :( but anyway i love them! theyre both quirky and kinda awkward but its such a sweet relationship and you really see how they go from awkward crushes to an actual deep relationship, oz is one of my favourite characters too what a dude!

3. giles x jenny, mlmxwlw solidarity in this bisexual couple! there is no an ounce of straight between them and i love it, i love their dynamic, i love that giles *respects women* (im staring daggers at xander rn), also the original girlboss x malewife couple askdjaksjhd

2. drusilla x spike, these two!!!!!! once again a bisexual couple with zero straight between them, the vibes are off the charts. sexy vampires, goth x punk love, i just love them man, and their relationship is so interesting to delve into. like theyre vampires, theyre soulless and yet they have a capacity for love, they care deeply for eachother, theyre so tender towards eachother in season 2 in the way they take turns to care for one another, also drusilla picking spike up with one hand made me gay and thats on that

1. willow x tara!!!!! lesbians man lesbians! they have a beautiful relationship, until a certain point wink wink, they feel like a perfect match, willows become more outgoing due to buffy and xander snd having a proper group of friends, so its cool to see her as the more outgoing independant one in the relationship, and tara is such a honey 🥺 the biggest sweetheart in the world what a babe!!!! also like how groundbreaking was their relationship? as a queer couple, they had p much the dame amount of screentime as a aueer relationship today! and willow says the word lesbian so many times and is always making gay jokes which is something shows today are too scared to do, its honestly refreshing which is weird for a show in the 90/00s

12. Top 5 episodes

this is so hard because its such a damn good show so i had to rlly be picky about this but here we go

5. 6x22 ‘grave’- i watched buffy for the first time last year at work coz i worked with one other person just packing shit, and THIS was the episode that made us cry infront of eachother. the scene with willow and xander at the end is one of my all time favourite scenes and like legit we were watching and we starting going like ha.. this is so sad Q_Q and we looked at eachother and we were both crying akdjdjsjdhs its SO GOOD, like this is a friendship ive been so invested in and [seeing xander be able to pull her back from that dark place was so heart wrenching and amazing god its so good]

4. 3x12 ‘helpless’ - im finishing up s2 in my rewatch rn so i havent rewatched this one to double check but i remember loving it man. buffys father daughter relationship with giles is my favourite of the whole show they make my heart ache, so i love that this is an episode that really shows you how dedicated giles is to her, [its the breaking point where he finally disregards the fact that hes a watcher and acts as her father once and for all, its a turning point for their relationship where he is finally embracing the fact that shes like a daughter to him and i just love to see it Q_Q get you a dad who will leave his lifes calling for you]

3. 4x22 ‘restless’ - season 4 is interesting coz it has really good episodes and them some gd awful ones 😂😂 but this one just blew me away, i love a good character study episode and this is THE SHIT! its so weird and creepy but in the most perfect way, its not on the nose its so subtle, it feels like an uncanny valley version of buffy almost, i like that they finished the season first and then took this episode to do something out of the box and different i feel like it lets them fully explore this idea without the pressure of needing plot included. [also the cheese man is iconic. dont however like xander being all nasty with willow and tara but whats new there man]

2. 1x12 ‘The Prophecy Girl’ - for my first watch of buffy i wasnt that into the first season, like i enjoyed it but i didnt think it was anything super special? but this episode changed EVERYTHING for me. up until now buffy had been fun, witty, charming, but not anything new atleast for me, maybe in the 90s it was but right now its your average teen supernatural show. but this episode!!!! the emotion! buffy facing her death, her speech about how shes just 16 and shes scared and she doesnt want to die, that is what i wanna see!! its heartbreaking and it made me cry, and then it gives us the wonderful moment of giles trying to take her place and buffy realising that she has to be the one to do it, man its so good! basically anything with buffy and giles being a duo is gonna make it an automatic yes from me and this is indeed the case for this episode, i just love that the show remembers that shes a child! shes not brave all the time, shes not strong all the time, shes just doing her best and sometimes its overwhelming, 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 i bow to this episode

1. 2x17 ‘passion’ - i know i just sang praises about prophecy girl but THIS EPISODE IS THE SHIT, the best episode full stop. i wont accept any argument. angel is probably my favourite big bad, its so funny to see plain bread, mopey brooding angel become this charismatic, funny, poetic, blood thirsty angelus, hes everything i want in a villain and in this episode he delivers! rip jenny tho love her. i think the tension built around angel is so good, because of his drawings and notes left around, every scene youre worrying like is he here now? are they safe or what? its so tense! and also it is me and im a slag for buffy x giles father daughter moments and this episode fucking delivers! giles discovering jennys dead body is probably one of the best scenes on the show, the dramatic irony is heAVY, we know jenny is dead, we know that these flowers arent from her, but giles is so so happy, and i want to see him happy but you just know somehing horrific is about to happen and damn does it. its a masterpiece! i love jenny and giles so much it is so sad, but also the fact that it gave us that scene makes me almmmoost ok with it? i also love the moment where giles breaks down in buffys arms, hes been there for her and now shes returning the favour and hes accepting it i just 😭😭😭 also on a different note, angels narration of this episode is amazing! it gives us great insight to who he is as “evil angel” and like even though hes awful i was also kind of rooting for him coz hes just such a great villain

sorry this is so long lmao, last question!

17. Which characer do you wish had less of a focus on them in the show?

i dont wanna get yelled at butttttt i dont like the amount of focus on dawn. i think it makes sense for the her first season considering the story arc but that season really does double down its focus onto dawn and buffy and it barely leaves room for anyone else to have a storyline, it keeps the episodes super depressing too its like a constant level of just sadness the whole time because we’re so stuck in THEIR arc, theres no room to balance it out and have a breather, some people might like that its more serious but i really really didnt like, i love episodes like prophecy girl where it is campy and brings the more emotional notes in when the time comes, but dawns whole arc is just constantly depressing the whole time i just hate it, and also just shes not a character i felt i could connect to because of how suddenly shes introduced, so its weird to have her SO focused on in the first half of that season coz we dont know her yet so i feel like the emotional moments dont land the way that they should? basically they shouldve eased us into dawn or introduced her differently and maybe i would like her enough to want the focus on her but i really just dont

adksjakjshd apologies for the essay this is, thanks for the ask!

[no-worshiped-roads]

Okay so im back to writing sorry about the wait

Yinu

In her fight it starts off with just her and zuke and mayday just basically dodge her attacks snd counter em not wanting to actually fight a child

Her mother shows up and now they actually have to fight

Thorny vines will try to hit or throw them they try to trap them in bramble patches and they can poison

It doesnt kill but it makes them slower and weaker

At one point mama summons a tree under all of them and lifts em way high in the air

They continue their fight (never actually going for yinu) it gets more agressive and they don’t realize theyre damaging the tree till a massive attack from mama destroys it

They all fall and mayday and zike combine their powers to try and slow everyones fall as much as possible though they still hit the ground hard

Yinu and her mother are confused asvto what id going on before yinu calls out to her and runs to her

They hug like they haven’t seen each other in a long time

The two leave but on their way back are surrounded by security bots

They think theyre here for both of them but they just say they want the runway orphan

This confuses zuke but sees that may has frozen up and looks startled

And that in that fight and fall her bandages have come off (minus the ipper arm one) and her glasses are gone too

Her eyes are like they are in game but her arms and legs that were covered have lichtenburg scars up and down them, with a little bit of pink coloring around the edges (same as her eye color)

And there had been some old wanted posters that they saw throughout the districts of a young girl who looks a lot like mayday now

Zuke doesnt really get to question it as they have to fight the security bots which manage to seperate the two

As zuke tries to fight his way over to may who has bern pushed back to a wall, a set of six hands come out of the wall and grab her, pinning her arms down and making her legs immobile

May is only able to call for zuke before shes yanked through the wall and gone

Zuke has to run since he cant fight the security bots all on his own

When telling kliff what happened he just nonchalantly mentions that it’s the ability of the leader of the next district

Eve

Zuke is actually shocked to learn nadia is here

Since she goes by eve he didnt know it was her

In this the reason is they didnt break up they got seperated when they were escaping from some rather cruel humans

Anyway to mayday

Mayday wakes up to find herself in a completely white area she finds that there is a bandage on the left side of her head thats sore to the touch

“Wh-where the heck-“

“So youre the girl on the wanted posters? Hmm”

Mayday doesnt see eve at all when she looks for her voice

“Hmm i guess it would be rude to talk to you like this”

Eve emerges out of the wall in a swirl of colors

“Apologies for the accommodations but i need to ensure you stay here until tatiana arrives to collect you”

“I am not a damn object to collect!”

“Silence. Any powerful mutant is required to protect everyone else. You will join nsr, as will zuke when he gets here.”

“Im nor gonna- wait. You know zuke?”

“How could i forget the one who abandoned me?”

“Zuke would never-“

“ENOUGH! HOW WOULD YOU KNOW?! WHEN WE HAD FINALLY ESCAPED FROM THOSE DAMNED HUMANS I WAS LEFT BEHIND AND RECAPTURED AND HE NEVER CAME BACK!”

“...there had to be a reason”

“The reason is i was foolish to trust him just because we were in the same situation. Tatiana saved me, i owe her my life, and my loyalty. Be happy you should be powerful enough to run your own district.”

“...why be after zuke if you hate him?”

“Id be foolish to overlook his power, he will simply stay away from me though. And what of you? Why would you run away from a great destiny with nsr?”

“People change ehen they join, in a really weird way-“

“Ha. They change for the better. I did. And you will too. Nsr protects all from humans, even you. I know you hate them. Youd have to what with your arm”

May slaps her hand over the bandage “hey what the- why would you-“

“I did not remove it. It fell off when i brought you here. I put it back on though, inunderstand not wanting to see it. Not wanting such a glaring reminder of humans cruelty.”

Her hand brushes against the bandage on mays head and she winces

“Sorry. There were injuries i had to tend to, and this was something that had to be done.”

Before mayday can answer a sound catches their attention

“Ah company. Ill be back if its tatiana.”

“...and if its zuke?”

“Hmph. I’ll still be back but he’ll be in his own realm. Now i must attend to my company”

Eve then leaves mayday alone in that realm

[pbandjesse]

It is still to cold!!! It was not as windy but still very cold. Today was weird but not a bad day.

We slept in really late. My alarm went off at 9 and I was like no. And we didnt get up until after 10. I still wasn't thrilled but we got up.

I went and got dressed. Wore many layers. Tried to be as cozy as possible. James went to do dishes and make muffins for us.

The muffins were good. I hung out in the living room. He came and sat with me and then I asked if he would make me an egg sandwich. I went over how to do it. He doesnt make eggs. He doesnt eat eggs. But he wants to learn. But he messed it up real bad. And I got frustrated snd we threw it away and we tried again. The 2nd egg had a double yolk! Ive never had that before ever! And I eat a lot of eggs! It was crazy to me. James was really upset about messing up and his energy really leeched into me and I got more and more upset.

We bundled up and i tried to not feel miserable. I wished i had one more layer on my legs. We got to thr post office and i sent my little shelby off. I broke even in the shipping. Live and learn. I'll get better at this selling thing.

James upset me again whrn we were leading because I felt like he wasnt listening to me. We talk later and made up. He is trying to not be in his own head and listen to me.

I told him about ERS last year and all the burst pipes we had to deal with. How miserable it was and how sad. And then the bus was there and we said goodbye.

I really wasnt feeling good though. My sinuses are dying from the change from hot and cold all the time. When i got to the school I tried to feel okay but i just didn't. Chelsi was worried but I held it together.

We had a very very small day!! Only 6 kids. We did coloring sheets and listened to music. I set up large paper for them to paint on. I worked on some oil pastels. It was fun. I forgot how much I like that.

The kids slowly started going home. I think its because their parents didnt want to go outside when it was dark. And i dont blame them. But soon enough everyone was going home.

Both Liz and Lauren offered me rides home but i wanted to check out the thrift store. And so i wandered up there and it was an okay place. Lots of furniture. I had a nice time looking around. I went to the dollar general and picked up a few things and then went to get the bus.

It took a while but I got on the bus and got home in one piece.

When i got back here I unpacked my bag and put on sweatpants for warmth. The mailman came and ibhad 3 packages! My new chargers. My new fake airpods. And my lady liberty furby!! Shes so soft and beautiful. Doesn't turn on but I still love her.

I made rice and nuggets for dinner. And i watched the new shane dawson doc. Just trying to be warm and rest. Im going to go wash my face and have a snack. I hope you all sleep well tonight. Im spending the day out with James and then im at the science center for the first time this season! Nervous!! Wish me luck. Sleep well!

[k-urokonobasket]

kurotsuki headcanons bc im weak for like. the housekeeping stuff.

third gym all xchanged numbers at training camp, kept in touch. it wasn't super active, but once someone sends smth it just keeps blowing up. (kuroo bokuto akaashi lev hinata and tsukishima are all in it!) its active like once a weekish probably, mostly . not tsukishima! hes in it but has it muted but sometimes hell humor them and react to the messages and stuff - this kid loves to have fun. akaashi is even less active then him though, bless his heart. but sometimes when kuroo or bokuto come up north to visit family, theyll ask if they can play at the gym or meet up and sometimes. kuroo will text him directly which makes tsukishima Raise His Hackles but he doesnt say no, and the first time they meet up, its at Ukais shop (albeit when someone else is at the counter.) tsuki voice you arent getting me to any secondary location sister. its also the first thing he addresses - youre a cradle robber? chasing firsties? cant land anyone your own age? kuroo laughs but says hes not really interested in anyone but he wanted to properly apologize for his comment over the summer, and in return he'll allow tsuki to lend his ear - for anything. tsukishima is like. w h a t ? ¿ he accepts the apology for the hinata thing but then chdbzhsbj he gets this Glint In His Eye when he says "he might be creeping up on me and inevitably over come me, but im not kind enough to make it easy for him" and like not to be dramatic but kuroo gets goosebumps and is like Ah Hah. he commends tsukishima on the change in perspective, and asks if they wanna go to the karasuno gym - hell help in his endeavors, and after sitting on a train for a few hours hes restless. the . offer to talk kind of slides to the wayside, but neither particularly mind because theyre not Really The Talking Type and tsukishima enjoys being around someone with the same sort of cunning edge he has, and they make slight jabs during the walk and its . light. easy! when they show up its free practice, so some of the people from the girls team are there, as well as the third years. suga notices them first, and gets daichis and asahis attention and hes like. Hello ? tsukishima is like. Now We Dont Have Time To Unpack All Of That, so he lets kuroo explain. daichi raises an eyebrow but leaves it alone, at least until right before they leave and he talks to him and is like. i know youre not so despicable to go after a kid but . be kind. and kuroo nods and smiles and says his "im always this kind" line and daichi rolls his eyes but he trusts him and wishes him well. kuroo is kind of surprised everyone things hes trying to flirt with tsuki, but. people will just be like that.

anyway, they meet up sometimes, joking and talking about teammates and school and kuroo helps tsuki with chemistry and they find out kuroos going to school for molecular bio and tsuki is thinking about lit, or maybe compsci, but he's not too pressed about it yet. kuroo is like Ah, The Wiles Of Youth and that earns him a soft smack on the back of his head.

tsukishima doesnt go to see him graduate high school, but he does send a text, which is nice.

as kuroo settles in at his university (north or tokyo but not by much, hes a city boy!) they visit less but tsukishima has a lot to do because the new first years have a lot of work they need and now that hinata and kageyama are less incorrigible spending time with them can actually be fun, but they still try for once a month, splitting the difference. kuroo got recruited to his team and still plays volleyball and its exciting to watch him get better - tsukishima says hes not going to watch until kuroo muscles his way onto the starting lineup because otherwise whats the point.

third year for tsukishima and hes vice to yamaguchi and he is proud proud proud and theyve got to wrangle these untidy underclassman and now that theyve got multiple national titles under their belt, they can now start to reestablish as a powerhouse snd get the fundng and managers and scouts they need so the captains have a lot of responsibilities, so it sometimes gets harder to get away. kuroo is settling well at school and did well in terms of grades and even if he isnt a starter, hes on the bench and thats Something. when he does start a game, tsukishima comes down to watch, and its. incredible? breathtaking? hes really good and hes connecting with the team and yeah its not nekoma but he looks just as home on this court as any other and hes made a family all his own right here. after the game he waits outside the locker room, and like not to be ridiculous but watching that game made tsukishima graduate from crush to like. being in love with kuroo. and he hopes people cant see. some of kuroos other teammates leave first, and most pay him no mind but theres a few who catch his eye, have a moment of recognition, and start snickering to their friends. it puts tsukishima on edge, a little, but even if these are college kids tsukishima has mastered his intimidation technique from the best (tanaka) (even if hes WHOLLY UNSUBTLE!) and then when kuroo exits at long last, tsukishima launches himself at him, wrapping him in a huge hug and kuroo freezes before hugging back just as hard.

tsukishima doesnt know if itll be worth much but he still whispers that hes so proud into kuroos ear and like. peak tenderness.

when they go apart, kuroo has fucking flowers and tsukishima is like. hello? hello? and kuroo asks him on a dste and tsukishima calls him an idiot and kisses him st its Cute.

before heading back home he visits suga and daichi who are sharing an apt in tokyo while they go to school and like. decompresses and loses his mind and they both give their blessing.

and when tsukishima comes back he keeps it quiet for a few months from the other two but yachi and yamaguchi both know pretty soon and when hinata finds out he absolutely drags out the groupchat and SHOVEL TALKS KUROO!! kageyama doesnt say much but they do need to, he and tsukishima have a quiet companionship now and hes fine with that. yamaguchi meets w kuroo seperately and its not a shovel talk but it is very much. be kind be nice be prepared and kuroo is happy someone he l*ves is loved but hes still properly scared of the murder of karasuno crows. and obviously bokuto and kenma and yaku reach out to do the same but its pretty sweet all around

kuroo watches him graduate. he helps him apply to college- theyre an hour or so apart but its a vast improvement and they make it work.

and they make it work!

[tamiddyinyourcity]

2:03pm, what the hell.

Thursday, January 2nd of 2020.

Time is a concept that I can't comprehend.

What's on my mind?:

Losing Patrick wasn't just losing a boyfriend or someone attractive to bang, it was losing a good friend. I don't have THAT many of those around here, and like, kinda sucks if the one person I'd like to be sitting in their car with at a view, or in a drive thru or sime shit, is someone I just can't really see or speak to.

Since on a day like this, I'd be going, "I should check in with Patrick", and trying to see if he'd like to drag me around the lake, or get some breakfast, or something.

And that's just not happened yet.

I shouldn't wait by the phone as if he's gonna pop up like, "Hey Tamia, let's get coffee today!", and totally ignore the "you threw sprite on me and potentially let me crying in my car" incident we had.

(Was he crying? I don't know, he looked only mildly uncomfortable. But then again, he always looks mildly uncomfortable..... And eh, I don't think a grown man would slam on his horn like that at 2am, unless he was either really enraged, or.... crying.)

I only feel bad about things when I think about how *he* feels too hard.....

But it doesn't matter how he feels. Not at this point in time, when I'm alone, and his request was specifically for me to not talk to him, and thats just obvious for me.

Going "aw i regret what happened that night :,(" doesnt change his decision, or the fact that im alone, yet again.

And it doesnt help me heal, or get over things at all.

So the alternative is easy; going "he did kinda deserve that", (the soda i mean,) and then looking elsewhere.

The thoughts will go away eventually, thats all.

.........

I guess his crying also rubbed me the wrong way.

It was:

Sweet, since, ive never seen him cry to that extent. And, i wouldnt have expected him to get this emotional about us breaking up........ Bittersweet, since crying wouldnt change anything.

Annoying, since he's crying over something that he could've resolved himself. Oh boo hoo, you're dumping me for..... idiotic ass reasons that all happened from your lack of responsibility and backbone, and yet you're crying on my shoulder snd holding me, for.... what reason? It feels off, "Hold me as i cry, right before i tell you i no longer want to date you anymore, and that i also am going to hate the idea of seeing or speaking to you anytime soon."

Maybe cute, but not in a sadistic way. Idk, it felt good hugging him, and he sounded like Scully when she's eager to be pet from the way he was whimpering.... That's a fucked up comparison, but idk, hard to explain why i find emotional vulnerability in a man that i obviously had romantic feelings for made me like them.....

......sigh.

I wondered his reasons for wanting to not see me.

The conk made him hate me? Or would seeing me just be too awkward too soon? He claimed he had absolutely no more romantic feelings for me, which could either be complete heartbreaking honesty, or a "i gotta say this, or shes gonna keep trying to fix a relationship that i dont wanna fix" type schtick.

.......god.

I still just kinda wished we did something else for his birthday; seperately. It hurts a lot differently being told the day of, when I was excited and amped up and overall feeling so good..... that oh, she doesn't want me there.

And three different people want to fight me if I show up.

And...... jesus fucking christ, he's allowing them to express their right to curse me out over his supposed "right to have me there", how amazing! Yeah, enabler.

If I was just told on Christmas Night that it was a little soon, but that I could have a breakfast with him on his birthday, or whatever...... i wonder what all wouldve happened.

.....

But, things happened this way for a reason.

Revealed that he broke his promise to me. That I wasn't valued, in the way I hoped I was. That he could see or do all this and that with me, and still was happy to get rid of the relationship.

Since, God, all the things I did for him that he could never do for me? Even asking for compliments back or a basic "you look nice today" after taking forever getting ready to see him, was like draining blood from a rock.

And there I was, going gift shopping for fucking Bernard for Megamind! The most unappreciative asshole I have ever fucking met! Who gets a gift and then spends 4 minutes going "See, i drink coffee, but i dont LIKE coffee MERCHANDISE, you see???", and COMPLAINING over a gift that i got him.... and can barely even muster out a thank you?

Then he wondered why i was so fucking upset? God, i went to cry like, three times in his bathroom. What the fuck is wrong with him?

I'll try to not think about it too hard, since if I do, then I may or may not go to his door and demand it back...... which may reflect poorly on me.

.....

This is exactly why I don't like dating people who wanna be "trained" on relationships.

You'll have to practically give a TED talk on why groaning and scoffing in disgust at a gift you don't like, is not very cash money of them to do to the girlfriend they JUST had gotten back with.

Or why it's weird to have me meet every friend that lives miles away from home, but not the closest ones, who literally live in their freaking neighborhood?

Or "Patrick, I can't think of every date we go on, it makes me think I am not liked if you cant picture doing more than shacking up in your bed."

Which I think is why I went for XPatrick the second he texted me, "Hey, im in town for a wedding, wanna get in and out tonight?", in October or whenever that was..... Since XPatrick knew me a lot better, and was more experienced with chivalry, so it was easy as hell for him to know what to do sometimes.

"Me and Patrick aren't official, and I rarely get to see XPatrick, so itll just be a platonic date! And even then, well, not much will happen right?" - me, maybe an hour before the night i got my cervix tapped by my ex

Idk, just little things.

He was still an aloof guy, XPatrick, but that's his disability, and i wont bash him for it at all. Otherwise, he was sweet. Paid for my milkshake that night, gave me his jacket when I was cold, held my food for me when we were walking to find a table....

Plus, he remembered that I tend to get sensory overload when I am around too noisy of an environment and then I either am more prone to get disoriented, or irritable, so he helped me get to his car to eat and talk, as opposed to standing in a place of shouting teens..... Thoughtfulnsss plays a huge role in having chivalry.

(I wouldnt be shocked if this was the story i probably may have wrote on this tumblr once before, that Azalea tried to send to Patrick. But newsflash, no need to worry, he was literally informed of it the very next day.)

And.... yeah.

For once, I had a night of feeling fully satisfied. No having to say, "Hey, you glare at me every time you see me, seems like you dislike my presence", not having a guy nut in six seconds before fully sliding in, having valid emotional intimacy and positive sexual stimulation.....

Yeah, i needed that.

Its obvious that when its "The guy who will scoff and say that its 'uhhh, fine?', when he's dryly hitting it from the back.... before cumming in maybe ten seconds", and "Your hot ex boyfriend, who you clearly still have strong feelings for, emotionally stimulates you, knows how to make your whole face turn hot, and can actually tap your cervix in a pleasant way..."

It was obvious.

And, just one night.

Not to say I didn't feel guilty the next day, during the graveyard watercolor (was that even a date or a hangout? i think it was a hangout, but i was anxious, since its like "why do i feel so bad about banging my ex if im not even 100% sure this is even a date?????")

And then that's when we had our cute, yet insanely awkward, turned hostile.... "hangout".

Then we stopped talking.....

Till I apologized.

And I guess all of that, despite me obviously enjoying my time with my ex, to an extent, it was still "I care about Patrick, as a friend", and I didn't have dating him in mind.

But, one thing lead to another... and we dated.

Its a shame. I miss how we were before. Just kind of awkward friends, and whatnot.

And until I somehow find a way to desire how he's currently like in my life again......

I wont miss him.

Threw too much away too late and it hurt all too bad....

2:54pm.

I liked the innocence of when we had made up and became friends again. Or our first date, even. Way before other people got involved, and when it was just as simple as, "Patrick is free today, and so am I. Let's go get him out the house today".

....I'll cherish the memories, but not as intensely. I just wanted the whole relationship to feel as good as that had been, and, now im upset because.....

He doesnt wanna see me anymore, and, theres no more hidden crushes, or days spent wandering around with him. All the good shit is gone, and whats left is angry tweets and tumblr posts.

That's so upsetting. :/ I'll never be able to talk to him for a while, man. Its never gonna be resolved. Whether its friends, dating, him seeing someone else, and maybe even me seeing someone else; i dont think we can go back to how things were before.

And that says a lot; when the optimistic one in the relationship finally just goes, "Our friendship is never gonna be the same ever again because of the way all of this shit went down".

I'll always be thinking, "He's got his friends. He doesnt need me in the way id need him."

And he wouldn't fucking think about me period.

:)

Thats all. Peace out