#and im gonna go to urgent care tomorrow

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Gonna complain in the tags

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

So yeah avoiding my phone didn't work and also meant I sat on the kitchen floor staring into space for about 3 hours before Alfie woke up but hey at least I didn't break anything

Them being around is helping a little but they're also struggling and it fuckin sucks bc I know we're both just. Rotating money stress in our minds

[desperatepleasures]

okie the way the next few hours go is gonna determine whether I call out of work tomorrow wish me luck!!!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[tkbrokkoli]

a colleague of mine used to be a professional athlete in the 80s and today she showed me and another colleague photographs from back then and she casually mentioned that two of her team mates outed themselves as trans men and two as lesbians later in life and i was like !!!!!! im

[slashrfag]

wheres that tweet god isnt real but he does punish me

[oetscop]

I MAY HAVE STREP. IVE BEEN CONVINCING MYSELF IM JUST OVERSTIMULATED AND NOT SICK. AND NOW THERES WHITE STREAKS IN MY THROAT

[chimerabytes]

i thought my migraine was finally going away but its still here 😥

[lmaonade]

i dont wanna get too into it bc it's a bit of a personal matter but basically my leg is fucked up and in a lot of pain right now and im struggling to like move and function and im going to urgent care soon but i know they're not gonna be able to help and i'm just in a pretty miserable spot right now plus my work week starts tomorrow and idk if im gonna be able to stand it literally

[hitsdifferents]

Liv im so sorry that you're not feeling well ☹️!!!

not to be totally insensitive and change the subject but Free Now has been in my head all day, I've been listening on repeat honestly its so underrated

also i wore a all purple fit and i looked so cute today if i do say so myself 💜💜💜

Sorry you're not feeling well bestie i hope that it gets sorted out soon and you feel better 😘!

also how did the photo shoot go?

(Sorry this was so chaotic lol 😅)

hiii, thank you hopefully it’ll get better soon but i’m gonna go to urgent care tomorrow so they’ll maybe be able to help with some meds.

free now is so fucking beautiful i love it so much. and congrats on killin it in the purple fit that’s such a good feeling!! the photoshoot went pretty well! i was a bit stiff and nervous but i think i let go enough to get some cute pics! we get the back in two weeks so we shall see! <3

[disabledwarrior]

i have a fuckinggggg spiderbite on the back of my THIGH and the redness and hotness has gotten WORSE today and if its worse tomorrow and i have to go back to urgent care im gonna lose my mindDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

[ambersky0319]

so

my past week has been:

Saturday: coworkers leave kitchen an absolute mess day before. like by the time i leave yesterday's dishes are STILL THERE bc we didnt have time to clean it, there was a LOT, and we were already behind. i shredded chicken literally all day and found 6 chickens that werent cooked right. cooks call out (both of them). one tried calling out but ended up coming in - SICK and stood near me as i packaged shredded chicken for like. the last 15 minutes of my shift

Sunday: i work an hour overtime bc its just THAT busy so it screwed up how i was gonna go about my day. also migraine by bedtine

Monday: wake up with a migraine, feel warm but maybe just body being hot without ac. thermometer broken so we cannot check. coughing begins. end of day find out i DO have a fever and start testing for covid (first test negative) as well as deduce cough is definitely different to my usual one

Tuesday: no longer have migraine, now have a cough along with fever and a slightly irritated throat (not sore, but like theres a hair suck on the very back of my tongue). second covid test also negative. assuming its a cold

Wednesday: morning throat is back to fine unless i have a coughing fit, which leads to it being raw instead. fever still present. end of day, sore throat returns and so decide to go to urgent care tomorrow

Thursday: still have fever, irritated throat, and cough. urgent care diagnoses me with strep throat (i have had far worse sore throats that were not strep before. idk how i just didnt get the bad sore throat for the terrible sore throat disease) and prescribes antibiotics/steriods doc says will work fast (they do). contact work, internship, and a professor to be excused from attending until nov 4

Friday: no fever! throat is only irritated very briefly too. coughing feels much more prevalent without the other two existing. lots of energy until i succumb to bed rot. take more of the medication, one is easy the other has a weird taste. brush it off as harmless for now.

Saturday (today): wake up and immediately think; huh, my tongue sure does sting. look up what signs to allergic reactions to drugs look like and come to the conclusion im PROBABLY having a reaction to the weird taste medication. pharmacies and doctors dont open until after 8, does not feel serious enough that i need to go to emergency room (i can still breathe and swallow fine, dont feel pain in stomach or abdomen, its JUST my tongue that feels weird) so decide to wait to call and hope i dont have to go in again. hold a grudging sadness bc i was actually looking forward to an event for internship + my shift at work today. It is 4:53am only.

Anyways

last reaction i had to medicine was codeine(?) and it made me SUPER dizzy instantly, that upon taking it, i stood up and immediately collapsed back on my bed. so. might have to add this medication onto the list of things im allergic too (but that does not fall under Allergies I Get Shots For)

so

we shall see what urgent care says in 3 hours when i call

[fraener]

7/16/24

back from the road now for about a week. slowly each day i have succumbed further to the panic and illness of my everyday life here. dishes arent done, stomach is a mess, exhaustion and panic and an eczema flareup. sinus symptoms, rash on my hands. all of my physical gripes were completely gone while i was out of town, i had so much energy, i was so much less anxious. i feel paranoid and sick. i dont know how to talk to my therapist about how afraid i am to leave the house because of the old plague and now the new surfacing. i dont want to leave my apartment but the walls are covered in and filled with mold that is making me so unbelievably sick. h noticed an immediate decline in my health and energy levels the minute i stepped foot in my apartment. i feel like ive been fighting a wave for the last week and i dont know i ever stood up against it before. it felt so good to be out of here, it felt so good to see the world and be home in the desert. its been a long time, but i have such a complicated and massive tangle of feelings in me my chest feels tight and hot. i dont really know what to do about all of this. im moving into a less moldy place but that comes at such a personal price to me, i have to get rid of almost everything i own which is such a difficult thing for me. i somehow have to sift through the emotions i set out for later from my trip, my terrible wonderful trip. we walked a labyrinth in every town and i filled my pockets with so many wonderful things, crystals from the mountains and sage from the desert and bones from the pine steppe and salt from the basin. caves, mountaintops, waterfalls, forests, coasts, wastelands. and h and i got along so well the whole time. things are really good with us right now, i really really hope he can see how much this place gets in the way of my health and happiness. its only ever really been about him occasionally, i think, and all of the grief has been from my overwhelm and him not understanding my overwhelm. he says everything will be right as rain if i move into my new place but itll be really tough if he moves into the trailer because its even moldier than my apartment. i feel very raw. ive got so much to do and no mind to start any of it. f has to get an abortion. i wish that i never really had to come home, i wouldve stayed out there for much longer. f is getting a new roommate in kk's house because they told me to find a different place before they had decided to stay. staying to study with c.b for the year but feeling so trapped and trod on and just helpless loss after having a dream about those 3 and upon waking thinking about how lucky and privileged they are as people, especially b. what a terrible feeling this is. therapy this afternoon after a brief last moment in the metals studio. ceramics studio open hrs this summer were so short and are so very nearly over, ill have to try and find some time to go in tomorrow on top of everything else. i hate how rushed and urgent everything always is. i hate how little energy i have. i think i might try cleaning up a little today. going to seatown tomorrow night to take care of f. gonna wash wool with bg in the morning though. god i am really feeling terrible this morning.

[jewishrizahawkeye]

i’m gonna play by ear if i go to urgent care tomorrow. we’ll see how im doing

[shithitsmynipples]

My ankle is being especially fucky as of yesterday (as if I don’t have enough shit going on) and it’s not the usual Achilles pain either it’s the outside tendon??

I’ve had that before but this extra sucks to put weight on and I hadn’t don’t any cardio for three days prior to my fucking ‘injury’ so idk bro im just gonna wrap it and ice it and hope it fucks off cause I have no interest in spending hours at urgent care tomorrow and I can’t even take nsaids they fucking destroy my stomach

[worldwright]

Good evening ! I went to the doctor's office to ask for painkillers and maybe crutches, and left with prescriptions for a scan of both of my knees, an appointment to see a podiatrist, and a brain MRI

wtf

ive never done one of those things in my life before

Also, my doctor basically said "fuck off the notice of your antidepressants, just take ibuprofen when it's the only thing that works for you", so that was nice

I love her, she never says stuff related to my weight, because she knows, she also knows that I can't take more than a meal a day, and was fucking delighted when we saw I gained weight after my trip from the unit after my attempt.

So, yeah, apparently your knees shouldn't make the sounds of bubblewrap and your shoes shouldn't look like that after 2 years of use

Also, I always thought that it was just headaches because "they're not that bad" and she went "lol nope, sounds awfully like migraines" and oh that makes sense why my go-to to make them go away is sleeping because even if i wake up still in pain, at least i didn't feel the pain for hours

I knew my body wasn't the best, but, man, what the fuck

Now my knees hurt, because of course just making them do their job is hard for them, and I'm thinking about stealing my mom's crutches (she doesn't need them anymore) if it's worse tomorrow :')

Also. I'm always looking to be sure the scenes in my fics are around the same size, but, well, the third one's about 1k words and that's half the fic's words for now. it's going out of control, and that's a good news, because if a fic goes out of control it means that im gonna finish it :)

Have a wonderful morning my friend !

hey that's a solid amount of GOOD medical news for once!! or at least, measurable progress towards good news lol

it's awesome that your doc is actually understanding and helpful, and like. is actually doing stuff to try and help you

also FUCK yeah gaining weight!! congrats!!

yeahhhhh uh those shoes may be. indicative of an Issue... ehehe rip

I Also have medical news today lmao, though not for me -- my friend is FINALLY going to urgent care for her incredibly fucked-up back. like it took her being unable to WALK for several HOURS for her to go get some help... not that I blame her, cuz of a) depression and b) the dogshit medical system in this shithole country

anyway, hoping for her to get some corrective care, pain meds, and hopefully a back brace 👍👍 at LEAST

i saw a really promising apartment listing last night, but it turned out to be fake :'))))))))) I was like 75% prepared to push up the move to like next month if the listing worked out. but no that would be too convenient

I'm watching dunmesh with my dad lol, he seems to like it :3 not that he's super into anime in general, but I can usually convince him to watch stuff with me

I gotta start getting rid of stuff I don't need, to prep for the move... I can probably donate like 30% of my craft supplies lol. maybe I'll borrow the car for a day and make some runs to thrift shops

hope you have a lovely evening, friend!!