#and im gonna go to urgent care tomorrow

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Gonna complain in the tags

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

So yeah avoiding my phone didn't work and also meant I sat on the kitchen floor staring into space for about 3 hours before Alfie woke up but hey at least I didn't break anything

Them being around is helping a little but they're also struggling and it fuckin sucks bc I know we're both just. Rotating money stress in our minds

[blorboresidue]

okie the way the next few hours go is gonna determine whether I call out of work tomorrow wish me luck!!!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[tkbrokkoli]

a colleague of mine used to be a professional athlete in the 80s and today she showed me and another colleague photographs from back then and she casually mentioned that two of her team mates outed themselves as trans men and two as lesbians later in life and i was like !!!!!! im

[boystalkr]

wheres that tweet god isnt real but he does punish me

[jerma-985]

Ive been sick with rsv this week this is like? The worst ive had since covid and mono

My ears are still filled with fluid to the point im trying multiple over the counter meds (tried sudafed and now trying claritin) but im prrtty sure i need to go back to the dr 😐 which makes me pretty upset bc money and stuff

[oetscop]

I MAY HAVE STREP. IVE BEEN CONVINCING MYSELF IM JUST OVERSTIMULATED AND NOT SICK. AND NOW THERES WHITE STREAKS IN MY THROAT

[chimerabytes]

i thought my migraine was finally going away but its still here 😥

[paladin--strait]

Hello! I love your blog!

Could I please request…

1 - "I'm sick, don't get near me" "I don't care"

With Nico Hischier? I currently have Influenza A and im dyingggg for some comfort 💖❄️

chills - nico hischier

i hope you get better soon! 🫶 sorry this took a while to come out, i hope you enjoy it!

tw: sickness, medicine, vomiting

prompt: "i'm sick, don't get near me." "i don't care."

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chills, headache, fever, cough, stuffy nose, sore throat, body aches, all the classic symptoms of some sort of sickness. i sit on the edge of the leather bed in the checkup room at urgent care, kicking my legs and waiting patiently for the results for my tests. covid, flu, influenza, strep, anything could be positive at this point. but right now i just want to find out so i can get my prescription called in and leave.

about 30 boring minutes of waiting later, the nurse comes back, now wearing a mask, and tells me that the only test that came back positive was for influenza A. she says that it's highly contagious and that i should start on my medication as soon as possible. she gives me a steroid shot to help with some of my symptoms, then sends me on my way.

i get in the car, driving to the pharmacy. i bop my head to some light, upbeat pop music to distract me. i pay for ny prescription and then drive off to go pick up some food for nico and i. he should be home by and now, hungry and tired from practice. i pick up the food and drive home, seeing nico's car in the driveway.

i grab the bags and head inside, shutting the door behind me. i set the food down on the counter, hearing nico coming down the stairs. "hey love, where've you been?"

my shoulders slump as i turn to look at him, "nico, don't come near me, i'm sick." i say, sniffing.

nico's expression drops from excitement to concern. "what's wrong? what do you have?" he asks me questions at a million miles per hour, stepping towards me.

"i have influenza A, it's highly contagious!" i say, trying to get him to stay away so he doesn't get sick too.

but that doesn't stop him, he manages to back me against the counter in my attempt to distance us, putting a hand on my shoulder. "love, i don't care that you're contagious. we've been practically right up on each other since i got home from that roadie. if you're sick, i'm probably gonna be sick anyway."

"that's no excuse, nico! you have to play tomorrow. i don't want you sick." i say, shaking my head and pushing him away.

"don't do that, don't push me away." he says, a twinge of sadness in his tone. "i want to care for you. let me do that." his voice is pleading, wanting to help take care of me while i'm sick.

"nico, if you get sick too, i'm gonna have to take care of you, too." i say, laughing softly. "did you think about that?"

"i didn't..." he says, looking down. "but, i can start taking some antibiotics and stuff, try to keep healthy while i take care of you? but first you need to take your own medicine before i start even looking for mine."

he walks to the bag of medicine i brought home and pulls out my prescriptions, measuring the liquid and setting out water for me to take the pills. the care nico takes in giving me my medicine is incredible. he googles the side effects and what you shouldn't take with it before giving me the medicine. i drink the liquid, the taste making me scrunch my face as i take the pills next, drinking water with it.

nico gives me a kiss on the forehead before he moves to our medicine cabinet and pulling out some antibiotics and vitamins, checking the labels to make sure it'll help with what he needs. he takes his own medicine as i wash my hands, pulling the food out of the bag. i leave his in the package so i don't breathe all over it, and sit on the opposite side of the table as him.

nico frowns when he sees where i'm sitting, but he doesn't argue, taking his seat across from me. we eat our food in a comfortable silence, with a question here and there.

about an hour after dinner, we're sitting on the couch watching the canucks vs. oilers game, when my stomach begins to churn. i stand, immediately rushing to the bathroom. i barely make it in time, my dinner hurled into the toilet. i kneel, placing my hand on the counter next to me to steady myself. i feel two hands grabbing my hair and pulling it back, a kiss pressed to the back of my head.

after a few minutes, i finally feel okay enough to stand. i use the counter to help pull myself up, sighing as i wipe my mouth with a towel. i turn and see nico standing there, a sorrowful expression on his face. he opens his arms, pulling me in for a tight, grounding hug. i cling to him, pressing my face into his chest. he whispers kind things into my ear softly, rubbing my back.

nico leads me to the bedroom, helping me out of my day clothes and into my sleep clothes, laying me in the bed and telling me he'll be right back. he slips out of the room and returns a few minutes later with a mug of hot tea. he sets it on my bedside table and changes into his sleep pants.

"time to take your medicine." he says, walking back over to me and helping me sit up. he hands me the little cup of liquid, watching as i quickly try and drink it, trying to rid of the awful taste with a sip of tea. i then take my pills as nico climbs into bed beside me.

i finish my tea, slipping back into the bed properly. nico pulls me into his chest, "i love you so much, you know that?" he says, i can almost hear the smile in his tone.

"even when i'm throwing up?" i ask, looking up at him.

"even when you're throwing up." he laughs softly, pressing a gentle kiss to my forehead and reaching back to turn off the lamp on his bedside table. "goodnight, my love." was the last thing i heard before i drifted off to a comfortable sleep, still in nico's loving arms.

[lmaonade]

i dont wanna get too into it bc it's a bit of a personal matter but basically my leg is fucked up and in a lot of pain right now and im struggling to like move and function and im going to urgent care soon but i know they're not gonna be able to help and i'm just in a pretty miserable spot right now plus my work week starts tomorrow and idk if im gonna be able to stand it literally

[userttpd]

Liv im so sorry that you're not feeling well ☹️!!!

not to be totally insensitive and change the subject but Free Now has been in my head all day, I've been listening on repeat honestly its so underrated

also i wore a all purple fit and i looked so cute today if i do say so myself 💜💜💜

Sorry you're not feeling well bestie i hope that it gets sorted out soon and you feel better 😘!

also how did the photo shoot go?

(Sorry this was so chaotic lol 😅)

hiii, thank you hopefully it’ll get better soon but i’m gonna go to urgent care tomorrow so they’ll maybe be able to help with some meds.

free now is so fucking beautiful i love it so much. and congrats on killin it in the purple fit that’s such a good feeling!! the photoshoot went pretty well! i was a bit stiff and nervous but i think i let go enough to get some cute pics! we get the back in two weeks so we shall see! <3

[disabledwarrior]

i have a fuckinggggg spiderbite on the back of my THIGH and the redness and hotness has gotten WORSE today and if its worse tomorrow and i have to go back to urgent care im gonna lose my mindDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

[ambersky0319]

so

my past week has been:

Saturday: coworkers leave kitchen an absolute mess day before. like by the time i leave yesterday's dishes are STILL THERE bc we didnt have time to clean it, there was a LOT, and we were already behind. i shredded chicken literally all day and found 6 chickens that werent cooked right. cooks call out (both of them). one tried calling out but ended up coming in - SICK and stood near me as i packaged shredded chicken for like. the last 15 minutes of my shift

Sunday: i work an hour overtime bc its just THAT busy so it screwed up how i was gonna go about my day. also migraine by bedtine

Monday: wake up with a migraine, feel warm but maybe just body being hot without ac. thermometer broken so we cannot check. coughing begins. end of day find out i DO have a fever and start testing for covid (first test negative) as well as deduce cough is definitely different to my usual one

Tuesday: no longer have migraine, now have a cough along with fever and a slightly irritated throat (not sore, but like theres a hair suck on the very back of my tongue). second covid test also negative. assuming its a cold

Wednesday: morning throat is back to fine unless i have a coughing fit, which leads to it being raw instead. fever still present. end of day, sore throat returns and so decide to go to urgent care tomorrow

Thursday: still have fever, irritated throat, and cough. urgent care diagnoses me with strep throat (i have had far worse sore throats that were not strep before. idk how i just didnt get the bad sore throat for the terrible sore throat disease) and prescribes antibiotics/steriods doc says will work fast (they do). contact work, internship, and a professor to be excused from attending until nov 4

Friday: no fever! throat is only irritated very briefly too. coughing feels much more prevalent without the other two existing. lots of energy until i succumb to bed rot. take more of the medication, one is easy the other has a weird taste. brush it off as harmless for now.

Saturday (today): wake up and immediately think; huh, my tongue sure does sting. look up what signs to allergic reactions to drugs look like and come to the conclusion im PROBABLY having a reaction to the weird taste medication. pharmacies and doctors dont open until after 8, does not feel serious enough that i need to go to emergency room (i can still breathe and swallow fine, dont feel pain in stomach or abdomen, its JUST my tongue that feels weird) so decide to wait to call and hope i dont have to go in again. hold a grudging sadness bc i was actually looking forward to an event for internship + my shift at work today. It is 4:53am only.

Anyways

last reaction i had to medicine was codeine(?) and it made me SUPER dizzy instantly, that upon taking it, i stood up and immediately collapsed back on my bed. so. might have to add this medication onto the list of things im allergic too (but that does not fall under Allergies I Get Shots For)

so

we shall see what urgent care says in 3 hours when i call

[fraener]

7/16/24

back from the road now for about a week. slowly each day i have succumbed further to the panic and illness of my everyday life here. dishes arent done, stomach is a mess, exhaustion and panic and an eczema flareup. sinus symptoms, rash on my hands. all of my physical gripes were completely gone while i was out of town, i had so much energy, i was so much less anxious. i feel paranoid and sick. i dont know how to talk to my therapist about how afraid i am to leave the house because of the old plague and now the new surfacing. i dont want to leave my apartment but the walls are covered in and filled with mold that is making me so unbelievably sick. h noticed an immediate decline in my health and energy levels the minute i stepped foot in my apartment. i feel like ive been fighting a wave for the last week and i dont know i ever stood up against it before. it felt so good to be out of here, it felt so good to see the world and be home in the desert. its been a long time, but i have such a complicated and massive tangle of feelings in me my chest feels tight and hot. i dont really know what to do about all of this. im moving into a less moldy place but that comes at such a personal price to me, i have to get rid of almost everything i own which is such a difficult thing for me. i somehow have to sift through the emotions i set out for later from my trip, my terrible wonderful trip. we walked a labyrinth in every town and i filled my pockets with so many wonderful things, crystals from the mountains and sage from the desert and bones from the pine steppe and salt from the basin. caves, mountaintops, waterfalls, forests, coasts, wastelands. and h and i got along so well the whole time. things are really good with us right now, i really really hope he can see how much this place gets in the way of my health and happiness. its only ever really been about him occasionally, i think, and all of the grief has been from my overwhelm and him not understanding my overwhelm. he says everything will be right as rain if i move into my new place but itll be really tough if he moves into the trailer because its even moldier than my apartment. i feel very raw. ive got so much to do and no mind to start any of it. f has to get an abortion. i wish that i never really had to come home, i wouldve stayed out there for much longer. f is getting a new roommate in kk's house because they told me to find a different place before they had decided to stay. staying to study with c.b for the year but feeling so trapped and trod on and just helpless loss after having a dream about those 3 and upon waking thinking about how lucky and privileged they are as people, especially b. what a terrible feeling this is. therapy this afternoon after a brief last moment in the metals studio. ceramics studio open hrs this summer were so short and are so very nearly over, ill have to try and find some time to go in tomorrow on top of everything else. i hate how rushed and urgent everything always is. i hate how little energy i have. i think i might try cleaning up a little today. going to seatown tomorrow night to take care of f. gonna wash wool with bg in the morning though. god i am really feeling terrible this morning.

[dearreader]

i’m gonna play by ear if i go to urgent care tomorrow. we’ll see how im doing