#and if it doesn’t work out with this guy then I’m done 🤷🏻‍♀️

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lalalove

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carlosylln my roman empire. horror movie lalaland irl

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ynupdted heavy on the lalaland… they had to break up to pursue their own dreams and they still support each other 😭😭😭

⤷ carloscharles15 wym break up… THEY BROKE UP? ⤷ ynupdted … THEY BROKE UP LIKE A YEAR AGO😭??????? ⤷ carloscharles15 BUT I JUST SAW HER COMMENT ON HIS RECENT? ⤷ ynupdted yeah they comment on each other’s posts but nothing else aside from that 😞

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carlossainz55 Happy new year from the Sainz’s 🥂🎊 Wishing everyone all the best for 2024. We missed you anasainzdec ❤️ view all 1,574 comments

yn.yln Feliz año nuevo, el mejor familia! (happy new year, the best family!) yn.yln Anaaaaa!!!!! Bonita🤍

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⤷ anasainzdec te echo menos, yn🤍 a ti también! (Miss you, yn🤍 you also!) [ liked by yn.yln]

yncarlos ouch first christmas w/o yn 😞

⤷ ynlover girl no need to comment.. im sure theyre all aware 😭😭

yn.yln

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yn.yln absolutely in shambles as i’m typing this but… my sophomore album “silence between songs” will be yours next week, january 8th :,) so incredibly grateful for this opportunity and hope you guys enjoy it 🤍🤍🤍

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carlossainz55 👸🎊

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⤷ totalcarlos MY HEART. anasainzdec😍😍😍

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⤷ yn.yln te quiero😽

carlossainzoficial Felicidades! [liked by yn.yln]

⤷ yn.yln mi padreeee! muchisimas gracias

yn.yln

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yn.yln at a loss for words. silence between songs is out 🥹🎀

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♫ king of everything - yn yln | caption musica de dia!

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yn.yln muchas gracias, carlitos 🥹🤍

⤷ carlossainz55 de nada🥳

anasainzdec “We’re not together” you said 😂

⤷ carlossainz55 no necesitas repitir. muchos personas dice estoy enamorado con yn (you don’t need to repeat. many people say i’m in love with yn)

⤷ anasainzdec y estas? (and are you?)

⤷ carlossainz55 un poco. (a little)

yn.yln

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yn.yln don’t u? view all 31,374 comments

carlossainz55 😍

⤷ yn.yln The hypnosis photo worked, didn’t it?

⤷ carlossainz55 I am still stuck at the first slide. ⤷ ca55yn WHAT

charles_leclerc carlossainz55

⤷ carlossainz55 I got here before you

user55 HELPME CARLOS DOWN BAD.. AGAIN.

user52 yn, babes, you don’t need the hypnosis slide😭 we all down bad for u [‪‪❤︎‬ carlossainz55]

iMessage

YN

en serio? (are you serious?) con tu commento? (with your comment?)

CARLITOS

piensas estoy jocoso? (you think i’m joking?)

YN

Ya no se, Carlitos. ( i don’t know anymore) We’ve done this before.

CARLITOS

I do not stop thinking about you though

YN

Too bad, you broke it off last time.

CARLITOS

That was a mistake; we both know that, Hermosa.

YN

🤷🏻‍♀️

I’m not risking it again. I like having you in my life, even if it is s a friend

CARLITOS

But we can be more than that

YN

How come

CARLITOS

i’m going to win you over one day;)

delivered

ynupdates

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ynupdated Yn Yln kicks off her tour in Madrid Spain and sings an unreleased song: Decode! Lyrics are seen in the next slide. Many believe this is about Carlos Sainz, her ex, who many say attended the concert. #ynyln #tour

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user1 dramaticcccc why doesn’t she just get with him? it’s obvious he’s obsessed with her

⤷ ynupdates it’s not really easy to have a tour everywhere and have your boyfriend race everywhere lol. Yn mentioned it was the distance that ultimately ended their relationship, no bad blood. ⤷ user2 long distance with her first bf is so😭

⤷ ynupdated carlos being her first bf is 😭 she does not dilly dally

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yn.yln wouldn’t trade this for anything 🤍 thank you madrid, te amooooooo te quierooooo

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carlossainz posted an instagram story

caption: a star

yn.yln replied!

stop being a simp boyy

you are going to get us EXPOSED ITS BEEN 10 MINUTES

⤷ I can’t help it when my GIRLFRIEND looks like that😍

yn.yln

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yn.yln Hi! Hello! Released a new song! And a music video! It’s called Please Please Please! Check it out! Love ya! Xx Yn (and Carlitos)! view all 2,822,593 comments

user1 YN ITS 3 IN THE MORNING. carloyn THE HARDLAUNCH AND MV HARDLAUNCH

user2 this is why she’s been silent for a month aside from tour 😭😭😭😭

carlossainz55 👸😍

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ynupdated STOP SPAMMING MY PHONE 😭 YN RELEASED A NEW SONG CALLED PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE (LYRICS NEXT SLIDE) GNB

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Userq let admin sleep😭

user2 dont embarass me motherfucker😭

carlossainz55

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carlossainz55 Will not be that motherfucker who embarrases her ❤️

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user7 BRO PULLED OUT ALL THE GF RECEIPTS IN ONE POST

yn.yln babe… why these pics 😭 love you tho

⤷ carlossainz55 what? You look gorgeous, you always do

⤷ yn.yln😍🩷❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜💜🤎🩵 LOVE YOU😍😍😍

⤷ user4 atp yn will be embarrassing Carlos with her random shit AHAHAHA ♥ yn.yln

[harrysgal]

I DIG YOUR CINEMA (2)

harry styles x yn aspiring filmmaker — social media AU

I know I’m just starting and don’t actually have much experience with this, but I’m actually having a lot of fun doing it and already can’t wait to post more.

About the smau: yn starts posting videos on youtube and is trying to build a career as a filmmaker. Things are going pretty well for her and she starts getting more attention when she creates content about shows she goes to. She’s also a fan of Harry’s music and some of his fans start getting suspicious when his team starts interacting with her.

Disclaimer: The story it’s set in 2021 and it will follow their relationship through the LOT leg in the US. Since this is nothing but fiction, I will be following some of the real timeline but also adding my own stuff. On top of that, I won’t be basing myself on Harry’s actual posts.

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I DIG YOUR CINEMA (PART 2) — LAS VEGAS

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yourinstagram HELLOOOOOOO FABULOUS LAS VEGAS NEVADA 

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user1 soooo… a new full time job that took you to las vegas? 👀 yourbrother Please behave  bestfriend don’t get (too) drunk without me pls harryfan STOP FIRST LOT SHOW IT’S IN VEGAS 

↳ harryfan2 She’s going to the show right???? I mean it can’t be just a coincidence anymore IT JUST CAN’T ↳ harryfan NO I KNOW THIS IS IT I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONES

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yourinstagram you’d think a lady in vegas would be out there getting wild but this one actually has been locked in her hotel room for the last 27 hours overthinking her ideas and freaking out about this new job lol if any of you could send me a pizza or something id appreciate it. thanks. 

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user1 nooooo you’re so talented whatever it is i know you can do it!! bestfriend yn ✋🏻  cuteguy Should I give you a call? 😊 harryfan17 I would too be freaking out if I had to work for THE harry styles lol

↳ harryfan16 we still don’t know if she is tho  ↳ harryfan17 C’mon she’s in vegas and molly and jeff are following her ↳ harryfan16 still 🤷🏻‍♀️ tour doesn’t start for another few days so this could be just about something else  ↳ harryfan16 also maybe she’s there because she wants to be and not bc she’s “working” for him. she’s done videos about several artists and she isn’t working for any of them is she?  ↳ harryfan17 Well yes but she literally just said she was starting a new job so 🤷‍♀️ ↳ harryfan16 so everyone just assumed HARRY, out of all people, hired her? c’mon guys lol she could be working for just anyone and STILL go to a show. one doesn’t have to be related to the other.

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yourinstagram fun fact: if you post something on the internet people around you might see it 🫠

guess im lucky this lovely group who still don’t know me at all cared enough to drag me out of my room and show me around the city. sometimes i get so caught up inside my mind that i forget how important human connection is — which is funny if you think most of my videos are exactly about that lol. so plssssss make sure to surround yourself with (nice) people. also get some sleep, drink water and feed yourself. it’ll do wonderful things for you!!!

anyway my mom was worried about my “not leaving the room post” so this is just me saying everythings good!! (i also already called her of course <3)

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bestfriend LOVE YOU harryfan the new followers the new likes 😭 it’s happening i knew it  user1 so true bestie!! this reminded me of your 2nd video i think

↳ yourinstagram omg yesssss!!  ↳ user1 ahh i missed your interactions <3  ↳ yourinstagram i knowww! promise i’ll try my best to keep interacting even if it’s not as much as before 💗

lookitsnyoh my belly still hurts from all the laughing 

↳ yourinstagram and my mind is still rushing from all the talking ↳ anthonypham go to sleep you two 

harryfan9 I DON’T KNOW WHAT’S HAPPENING BUT OMFG I’M SO HERE FOR IT

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yourinstagram sightseeing left me speechless. but here’s a picture from tonight. 

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user1 omg you’re feeding us this week! i’m so happy you’re being active again <3 harryfan78 POST A PICTURE OF YOURSELF I WANT TO MEET YOU AT THE SHOW BUT I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE 

↳ user4 calm down pls? we like to behave as respectful human beings on this profile

bestfriend ❤️❤️❤️ bestfriend i’m losing my mind but i’m also so excited and proud! user7 I miss your videos :( lookitsnyoh when was this? where was I? bummed that I missed it!

↳ yourinstagram sorryyy just a last minute decision after dinner :( ↳ lookitsnyoh ohhhh makes sense now! Glad it left you speechless ↳ yourinstagram i mean the city is beautiful  ↳ lookitsnyoh sure thing it is 👽

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fanwhometharry GUYS I JUST MET HARRY I’M SHAKKNG I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE NOW 

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harryfan64 omg where did you meet him??

↳ fanwhometharry AT THE BELLAGIO  ↳ harryfan64 is he staying there???  ↳ fanwhometharry NO!! I MEAN IDK?? I DONT RHINK SO I JUST MET HIM OUTSIDE AT THE FOUNTAINS  ↳ harryfan74 hmm not tryin to be rude or something but that sounds like a weird place for him to be tbh ↳ fanwhometharry I FUCKKNG KNOW THAT?? I MEAN MY PARENTS WANTED TO SEE THE WATER SHOW SO I TAGGED ALONG BUT NEVER EVER THOUGHT ID BUMP INTO HIM THERE

harryfan62 you’re so lucky!! was he alone???

↳ imetharry I DONT KNOW?? I DONT REMEMBER I WAS SO NERVOUS  ↳ imetharry I KNOW THERE WAS A GIRL NEARBY BC SHE HANDED HIM A PEN WHEN I COULDNT FIND MINE BUT I DONT KNOW IF SHE WAS WITH HJIM OR NOT ↳ harryfan62 who was this girl? Anyone from the LOT crew? ↳ imetharry IDK I JUST SAID I DONT EVEN KNOW IF SHE WAS WITH HIM OR NOT 😭

harryfan15 Hi hun! Don’t listen to people, they're just jealous. It was really sweet of him to sign that for you! Hope you have a great time at the show 💕

↳ imetharry THANK YOU 😭😭 HE WAS THERE JUST WATCHING LIKE A NORMAL PERSON SO I DIDN’T WANT TO TAKE A PIC IF PEOPLE DON’T BELIEVE ME THEN I DON’T CARE I KNOW IT’S REAL 😭😭

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yourinstagram having to keep this secret from the world was the most cruelest thing that anyone has ever done to me. but whatever… it’s fine… i’m okay… i’m just gonna pretend this wasn’t a big deal and i didn’t just watch one of my favorite artists perform my favorite songs… and then i’ll just casually say: pls stay tuned for next wednesday when my new video will be up 😇

(i’ll be back and share more details once my serotonin levels have normalized again)

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bestfriend i love you so much thank you for representing us so well  harryfan I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW IT OMFG I CANT WAIT I KNEW IT harryfan2 YN KASDHUHHD PLS OMFG YOU CAN’T JUST SAY THIS AND LEAVE user1 😲 i can’t wait for this one! harrystyles soz 

↳ harryfan OMFG HARRY ↳ harryfan5 ?????????????????????????? ↳ harryfan3 AUIDHIAUSHDBAJH WTF ↳ harryfan9 ARE YOU F KIDDING ME WHATS HE DOING HERE

cuteguy Nice! Glad you’re having a good time darling. 

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PART 3: DENVER

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If you happen to read and enjoy this, pls let me know? 🙏 thanks!! it would be nice to know if this is working, or what else would people would like to see.

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(My gif🤷🏻‍♀️🤞🏼)

Keegan P. Russ NSFW Headcannons

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Contrary to Rorke’s nickname “our quiet friend” he’s actually pretty vocal in bed

He talks a lot, likes to praise you, (and degrade you)

Also because he groans, moans, grunts

I agree with other writers but he is A THIGH MAN

He loves ass

He loves breasts

But he lives for thighs.

He can spend hours in between your thighs, and will, and has.

Like I said he’s very vocal, he talks into your pussy while he’s eating you out.

He makes you sit in his face, he does not care however much you tell him “I’m too heavy Keegan” or “what if you can’t breath?” He gets you on his face somehow

He gets every trick in the book to get in between you legs.

He cums in his own pants while he’s eating you out. He gets off out of making you feel good.

Even though he’s been in the military for a while he’s pretty experienced

He has a lot of stamina.

He’s in the military 🤷🏻‍♀️ he can be there for hours, several rounds, but he’d never push you against you limit.

If you can’t take anymore he’ll just jerk off and then take care of you.

He also doesn’t jerk off that much, he’d rather wait to fuck you, then use his hand (because he loves the way you feel around him)

One song that reminds me of him “earned it” by The Weeknd

He likes cock-warming

He misses you a lot when he’s gone, so he tries to be inside you as long as possible when he’s with you.

With that being said, after sex he likes to stay inside of you for while

_

His favorite positions? missionary to see your face, cowgirl to watch your tits bounce, depends on his mood, sometimes he just walks into the kitchen and bends you over and fucks you right there on the island.

but yk he almost always waits, so you two are in bed and he can eat you out before he properly fucks you.

If your a virgin and he's your first time, he'll be as gentle as possible.

but when you two have been together for a while, and he's mad/jealous, he's not holding back on you, actually, he taking everything out on you.

this man also has this dirty secret of wanting to record you guys and then show it to his team, or to fuck with the Ghosts in the other room, so they know who you belong too.

Keegan also the type who gets horny when he's drunk

although he hides it pretty well.

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If you guys work together you in for a treat.

He’s always taking his chance with you whenever you two are alone.

Usually it’s just kisses on the cheek when no one is around but Keegan started getting riskier.

He’d touch you when you guys were alone

He’ll fuck you on a mission when you two are left alone

Or when debriefing are over and everyone’s gone he’ll get you on the desk and fuck you then and there

And then when you two are done he’ll always give you a pat on the ass, like a “alright we’re done” and then he’ll leave

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aftercare with Keegan is so sweet

he waits for a while inside of you before he slides out and gets up

he gets a bath or shower running for you two (he makes sure that its the perfect temperature)

he gets you some water

and after your guy's bath (or shower) he gives you a massage (because he wants to looks at the marks from him, forming on your skin, and the ones from nights before)

or he'll cuddle with you.

Other than that he asks you if there’s anything else you want him to do for after care since your his first intimate relationship

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(Bonus) (what his usual phrases are)

“Open those pretty eyes for me”

“Eyes on me beautiful”

“Tastes so good”

“Quiet, someone might here us”

“Y’want me to make you feel good?”

“You sure? Your thighs’r shakin sweetheart”

“How you doin?”

“Love how you feel around me”

“Feels so good baby”

“Missed you so much”

“You want me to fill you up?”

“Lemme hear those beautiful sounds”

“Cmon baby, Lemme hear how much you love it”

“I can stay between here for hours”

“Such a pretty pussy”

“Open those legs for me”

“Spread em wider”

“So sweet”

“Gonna drink you up like some water”

“One more round”

“Please”

“Pleasee”

“Cmon baby”

“So sensitive huh?”

“Say that again”

“Admit it, y’love it”

“Good girl”

“Your too good princess”

“I don’t deserve you princess”

“What’d I do to deserve you, huh?”

“Y’look so good”

“Don’t get all shy on me now”

“I love you so much princess”

[crazychaoticizzy]

I Wanna Ruin Our Friendship Part 2

feat. Levi, Erwin, Hange, Reiner

Part 1

Continuation of that one trend that was popular forever ago because why not

WARNINGS: fluffy, Hange is written with they/them pronouns

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LEVI ACKERMAN

He will literally just stare at you with a straight face

Let’s be real he probably doesn’t care (I’M SORRY-)

And it ends and there’s no more audio and your phone is still recording as you just kind of stare back at him

You hold intense eye contact for what feels like literal hours before you grab your phone from the kitchen counter and stop

You awkwardly apologize and play it off as wanting to do a funny video before running off to the bathroom and beating yourself up over this

When you finally calm down you walk out and tell Levi that your roommate called and they need help with something

He most likely will never bring it up again and if/when one of you ask the other out. he’s gonna pretend that’s the first time anything feeling related had been done

But in theory if he does care, don’t be surprised when the next day there’s flowers on your counter that your roommate brought in

Theres a handwritten note hidden in the blossoms that has the kind beautiful poetic writing that people dream of getting (he asked Hange what to write and they found something on Pinterest)

It practically summed up that he would like to be more than friends as well, and asked you out to dinner

Of course, it was fron Levi

And of course you accepted his dinner date

ERWIN SMITH

He had zero clue what you’re doing

Honestly I don’t even think he noticed cause he was working on paperwork or something

He probably heard the sound but didn’t register it and just said “Y/n, I’m working”

It’s a lesson to not bother him while he’s working and actually talk to him when you have his attention 💀

So the trend didn’t work but hey you actually talked to him about it later!

And hey he probably returns those feelings and starts slacking off a tiny bit for you 🤷🏻‍♀️

But yes afterwards you actually confess to him and he is appalled

But he does like you back and so he kisses your hand and asks you out like the gentleman he is

HANGE ZOË

Hange was actually escatic

Like jumping off the walls escatic

Y’all were on a walk in the park and you suddenly stopped and told them you wanted to film a cute video because the scenery was nice

They were kind of confused at first but then the sound played more and they jumped up and wrapped their arms around you so tight you swear you saw Jesus for a moment

They gave you a big, sloppy smooch so close to your mouth they almost kissed your lips

And then they kind of lifted you off the ground and yelled that they like you, too

You got some weird looks but it doesn’t matter because they kissed your cheek again and said “you’re my significant other now” with the cheekiest smile it was so cute

And y’all turned your walk into a cute date and lived happily ever after

REINER BRAUN

You guys were making pumpkin bread (mostly because I’m craving that right now but that’s unimportant)

You literally got your phone out while you were stirring the batter and started to set it up

“What are you doing?”

“Don’t worry about it.”

And then you told him immediately after you wanted to make a tiktok and he just let you

He was listening to the sound in case it was one of those traps where you played the pornhub theme to get his reaction

And he watched as you set it up directly in front of where he was making the sugar topping for the loaf

A smile crossed his face when he recognized the audio and he glanced down at you when you wrapped your arms around him

He brushed the sugar off his fingers and put his hand under your chin, tilting your head up

You were immediately flustered and almost regretted doing it because oh my god-

And then he kissed you

Right on camera

[tikosblogg]

if you’re down for another request, imagine like touring with the guys and you’re Folio’s best friend and you end up falling in love with Noah, and gotta keep it a secret from everyone because Folio would get upset if he found out…👀

Reader is a singer/songwriter as well that ends up with working with Noah and he finds her creative and very talented, he can’t keep his mind off her.

Reader grew up with Folio as a best friend and Folio envy’s his relationship with her and has feelings of his own that aren’t revealed. Reader doesn’t want a relationship with Folio since she’s also in love with Noah but won’t tell Folio since she believes it can cause a spiral in the band.

This is extremely messy in a since, if you like the idea of it💀

I love your work, and your writing ❤️❤️

If you’re taking more requests, if not 🤷🏻‍♀️

- Amanda 🩶

Ahhhh thank you so much for your requests! I’m always taking requests unless stated otherwise!!❤️

I LOVE this idea. I’ll get it done! I hope I do it justice!❤️

[bisluthq]

Thank god Saoirse isn’t online because if she saw the tradwife content she would probably become one 😭

I actually really doubt that because again I relate to her a lot in her current situation lol. I mean obviously she was historically a lot more accomplished than Jack but my partner and I have a bigger age gap than them and tbh when he was in his 20s he was less accomplished than I was in my 20s so if we’d met then it would’ve been the same as with them (without either of us being worth 7 figures but still). He studied film and communications and then worked as a cameraman but he hated it and then he worked as a production assistant which he hated because he had to listen to idiots and then worked his way up to produce commercials for a while and haaated that and then because he’d always been into tech and shit, he got into editing actually while producing like he started fiddling with what people were doing and has done that since and went on to bigger projects and is legit great at it but he started in his 30s with no real formal training lol. He also loves it and works a looooot.

Whereas I’ve just done random shit lol but a lot of random shit and often very well paying random shit until I got with him and now I do like… enough stuff to hold up my end of what we have agreed on when that’s been agreed upon.

I’d love to write a book but I’m soooo lazy lol.

I don’t want to be a trad wife though and I’ve been extremely annoyed when people/friends have suggested I’m anywhere close to that lol because like I legit am not and that’s not our vibe. He just likes his job more than I like working and in our case he’s older so ergo has more money than me in savings + he’s a Western white guy so had inheritances come in so 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ doesn’t mean I don’t hold up my end of the bargain or don’t want to work or that he pays me an allowance to exist or anything lol. Like we split chores pretty evenly depending on who’s working more (he does have breaks between projects and I sometimes have like projects that are FT so then he has to do more around the house because I’m physically not there and that’s cool with us both right because it all evens out) and we both always contribute financially. But also yes he obviously pays more monthly than I do.

and fwiw when Jack and Saoirse started just realistically she would’ve had to pay more so 💀😂

If anything like Jack is what I wish my ex was like - I wish she’d discovered a passion for work and making money while we were together so I could do EXACTLY WHAT I DO NOW lol but she didn’t until we’d broken up 🙄

also I probably should write a book.

but neither Sersh nor I are tradwives 😂

if anything Taylor might one day try to cosplay as one but she’d fail harder than Sersh or I would after a single week because of her personality.

[josiebelladonna]

a little collection, all one right after the other, picked up last week, not sure why i didn’t post it then 🤷🏻‍♀️

i also saw a tweet saying that it shouldn’t even be called “art”, which… yeah, i agree. it’s scraping art and treating it as if it’s gum on the bottom of a desk and throwing it into a blender at a whim when it should’ve been put to good use and made a natural evolution of digital art—i keep saying it but it’s the biggest missed opportunity in the history of missed opportunities. ai had the potential to build upon digital art and to be worked with, but that’s not what’s happening, though. moreover, way too many people are doubling down and supporting it, often knowing the nefarious nature of it, which makes them complicit in the abuse of hard-working artists and their life’s work. i’ve also been seeing accusations of ableism against human artists—these comments are often oblivious to the fact that disabled artists have existed for centuries (look no further than frida kahlo)—even accusations of racism and sexism.

excuse me, but taking the art from a black artist or a female artist or a transgender artist or a guy who paints with his feet and using it without their consent in your k00l ai app is a million times more discriminatory than anything any artist has ever done (bonus if you know about all this but keep contributing to it—if anything, that’s worse).

even if you aren’t active in the art world, all this alone should piss you off.

i’m also seeing more things about slurs thrown at artists (”paintpig”, “drawslave”, and “drawcel” being only three examples), and i’d say “you’re gonna have to do a lot better than that” à la cosmo kramer, but i don’t think that’d suffice, tbh—as i said before, they almost feel like compliments, like yes! i am a drawslave! i am a slave to drawing and my craft! 😂

and yes, ai replacing humans has already long begun: go read about disney, and also book publishers like tor books. replacing human artists and their digital art with soulless robotic ai with watermarks included has already whupped up and let a bunch of diligent people go on their own for the sake of $$$$ and mass appeal. it’s very quickly approaching the point where, unless you have a very distinct, visceral style that’s heavy on textures and just looks different like mine, digital art made by a human being and a digital piece by a machine will have no distinction between each other, and traditional art will be the only truly human art left. mind, every human alive is capable of making art no matter what the excuse is—there’s no excuse. if you’re human, you’re an artist. you can create something. it’s part of who you are, as unique as your fingerprint and your dna. “but i’m not an artist!” BULLSHIT. B U L L S H I T. you are as capable of making art as i am. if you can pick up a pencil with any part of your body, you can train yourself—go read about the guy who draws with his feet, he’s amazing. “i won’t be as good as you, though.” yeah, and? that doesn’t mean you can’t be good in your own way. i tried making tutorials or how to draw like me before and i wound deleting them because no one was willing to try it out, and i soon learned that it’s because my art is unique to me, as well as cop outs like “not an artist”.

the rise of ai art tells me that people are way too lazy and entitled for their own good now. our ape bodies are too reliant upon technology, and technology is advancing faster than any of us can keep up. it’s not only the biggest wasted opportunity ever, but it’s a sign of not caring about your fellow human and what they can make with their bodies and brains, especially with their hands. we have spent millennia using our hands to build the very advancements that brought us to this point in history… and we’re willing to throw it away, and what for?

bitch. my hands have used pencils, pens, paintbrushes, turpentine, metals, heavy machinery, wood, axes, hatchets, knives, ceramic clay, acids, bases, chemicals that can leave blisters on the inside of your lungs, literal fire, rocks and minerals, a fucking Geiger counter, soldering irons, welding torches, heavy tools like table saws and sledgehammers, bicycle chains, one of those old rotary telephones, typewriters, fucking floppy disks!!, all kinds of fabric, a drum kit, a piano, guitars, microphones, xylophones, baseball bats, hockey sticks, basketballs, volleyballs, and some of the most delicious food i have ever eaten… i got to touch pitchblende (uranium ore) with these hands. i got to touch lead soldering and broken glass. these hands have gotten to touch silver ore and 24-karat gold. i even got to touch things from the softest cat fur to the skin of a snake and the exoskeleton of a scorpion. these hands have shaken the hands of teachers, famous people, and people no longer with us. these hands have fired guns and shot arrows. these hands have helped me climb up hills and small mountains. these hands have been cut, scratched, burned by both fire and dry ice, stepped on, slapped, but also lovingly held and massaged. these hands have written millions of words of literature and poetry. these hands have written words in english, french, spanish, german, italian, danish, latin, japanese, russian, and most recently portuguese. these hands have fixed houses, planted gardens, even built a car from the ground up. these are working hands, and they always come back to art.

i have toiled in obscurity since 2006, and to a further extent, 1999. i refuse to ever work with art shops anymore because they continue to rip me off and take my money, and they’re making me vulnerable to scraping. i have had my art insulted, mocked, patronized, laughed at, called dumb or stupid, rejected from art competitions, lost out to trashy artworks that look like they were done in about five minutes in total darkness, soiled on, burnt (yes, for real), thrown in the garbage, and yes, even stolen, not once but twice—the second time around, the thief is still giving me shit two and a half years after i called her out on her bluff. yes, me. the person she took from. she is continuously giving me shit and being a bully—and, get this, two and a half years later, you can see how miserable she is from a mile away.  so, let me ask you, ai people and those who (un)willingly support it: is that what you want? to become increasingly miserable as tech advances and you sit your own hands to the point you become so idle that your brains scramble themselves and you don’t even know how to function anymore? plus, you’re going to look at me dead in the face and tell me that i deserve to be shat on and everything my hands have done is all in vain all because i refuse to ever use any ai app for as long as i live because i know what the hell is going on?

have your fucking precious ai. play the victim and be complicit. if you don’t care, then i don’t care. but know what you’re doing. know that it all comes with a steep price and a dark side more foreboding than you can ever fathom. karma is a bitch, and a bigger one than i ever will be.

and this is not even touching on ai infiltrating fan writing or actual published literature, or music for that matter, but—i’m not even touching those ones.

[alyjojo]

Next Major Life Change 🏃🏻‍♀️ - April 2024 - Sagittarius

Meditation: A beautiful outdoor gathering, something like a brunch or dinner party. Everything was perfect, there were pink flowers everywhere 🌸, among all of the white tables, arches, tablecloths, a lot of white. The food was amazing, buffet style set ups with sophistication. It could’ve been wedding related, like a rehearsal dinner or something. The one thing you had forgotten was the seating, chairs, there were none. You didn’t care, you had several huge & cashmere looking blankets (also white) covering the ground, to make it more like a picnic. Every single person there was too good to sit on the blanket, this was a real snobby & pretentious crowd that did nothing but judge the entire time this event was going on. The only two that didn’t was an old lady in a wheelchair - she had a chair 🤷🏻‍♀️ and her idk 6-7 year old granddaughter who was oblivious to anyone else because they were playing patty cake together, and she loved picnics.

What It Is: Answering the Call ☎️, First Light 🌅 (bottom), Independence (Moon Aquarius), 2 Wands, 3 Cups rev, Death with Assertion (Sun Aries) & Justice

I’m getting possibly work or friends the most for you, having to separate yourself from “the group”, or at least think independently from them. A way of life as it was is over now, Answering the Call with First Light shows you already know what you have to do, or you will when the time comes, but you may not want to or feel ready. When is the right time? There is none, heavy Fool energy, but it’s like…forced? By fate? It doesn’t feel *bad*, just uncomfortable, like where you have to go, be, change for, whatever - it’s not what you’ve grown accustomed to and you’re not in your element anymore. Essentially that’s a good thing, it’s making you grow - because there is none of that anymore where you’ve been - if only a state of mind & habits.

The situation you’re put into may be spontaneous, there’s no time to prepare or plan, you have to act. I don’t see Towers, but I do see Assertion and Independence, that’s standing your ground regardless of who around you isn’t going to like it. Justice clarifies, whatever you’ll have to do will be the right thing, probably cutting off people around you that aren’t working out anymore as friends, I’m hearing “associates”, and possible coworkers if you have any level of authority, there could be some problem people you have to take care of. Do you want to? No, not at all, but whatever it is you’ll know you have to. Some of you may even have to get kinda harsh or very straightforward and blunt with it, there’s no sugarcoating with what needs to be done here. For someone it’s possible their aggressive behavior pushes you away, or another person if that’s something you struggle with. Someone is standing their ground and has the moral authority to do so, or the actual authority and this is disciplinary.

Why It’s Happening: 4 Cups, 2 Swords, Page of Swords with Fleur de Lis ⚜️ rev, Procrastination & Happy Accident

“Stop focusing on your problems and excuses; take a small step and do something constructive.”

“Fortunate accidents can act as guides to edit and be open to where you should go next.”

Why - because you haven’t cared until now. This isn’t something you want to deal with, whether it’s an issue with you or others, you’ve just kinda gone along with the status quo for who knows how long, pushing off any sort of action, sitting in indecision by choice. If these are friends that aren’t that great, maybe they party a lot and you don’t, or switch it, you haven’t been bothered that people are different than you and have mostly considered them friends. Again I hear “associates”, so you’re not particularly close with any of these people - thaaaaat’s it. That’s why Ostentation is here I got it. You’re using people, or you feel like they’re using you, money probably plays a big role in this…and you’re kinda looking like the bad guy, the Habits are yours. Choosing whatever option makes the money, having not much concern for what others are doing so long as you Assert your own position on things. It’s possible you’ve lost friends or supporters because of a narrow-minded way of believing or behaving, a “what’s in it for me” mindset. Or people around you do - that’s the main story. If it’s literally their job and they’re not doing it - you’re done putting up with it. If it’s people not on your level, same story. Balance will be restored even if you have to be “the bad guy”, or someone else takes on that role for you, depending on which side of this you’re on.

Nodding towards the meditation, there’s a clearly “boujee” way of life showing up and you just cannot care, do NOT care. Or whoever you’re dealing with doesn’t. There could be a lot of shallow behavior or materialism going on with the people around you, or you, people not doing what’s right - whatever that is - and you’ve held back long enough, it’s time to do something, probably SAY something. You’re about to teach some people that have impossible standards or expect royal treatment on some level, and you’re like uh huh “Welcome to Taco Bell…bitch”. It may just slip out, or a problem person finally hits the last straw before enough is enough and you can’t put it off anymore, they’re forcing your hand by pushing the line, boundaries, your buttons.

Advice: 9 Wands, Page of Pentacles rev, 3 Wands, Judgment rev with Starfish ⭐️ rev, Habits with Ostentation (Saturn Taurus) & Key 🔑, Courage

“Examine habits that may impede the pathways to your goals and encourage beneficial ones.”

“Have the courage to see the lessons in all situations and face them constructively.”

All you can do is persevere, continue moving through this cycle, feel confident that you’re on the right side of things (if you are), if someone else is disciplining you then you’ll know that’s your story too. Plans haven’t worked out, and you or whoever is in this Justice “knock it tf off” energy - that itself isn’t impulsive at all. It’s the straw that broke the camel’s back I’m hearing, maybe someone calls in all the freakin time. First it was illness, then it was kid issues, you’ve been patiently waiting for the story to change and growth to occur - to no avail. At some point, you’re going to be done with the all of the excuses and bullshit, it’s time to make a decision. Independence 💯 You have to do something on your own, because this indecisive, not taking action, not speaking up, hasn’t worked so far, and won’t. Happy Accident refers to the possible spontaneous events here it’s like that is IT, no more of this bs, I refuse. It’s going to take Courage, because you’d much rather sit back and allow chips to fall where they may. I’m hearing “if you don’t, someone else will.” - again this may pertain to many different things. Bad habits in business, financially, using people for gain or always needing something money wise. Like you’ve been nice and helping a friend out financially while they not only accept it but expect it at this point, like it’s your job: No ma��am/sir. Set boundaries 💯 Or, in some cases that’s pointless and they just gotta go, especially with people at work. With friends, idk how direct you’ll be, you could just realize there’s distance between you and assume the attitude of “take more time/space” because I mean…what kind of friends are those? Could be switched too. The habit of staying stuck in a rut to not address problems is what has to go, and whoever it’s regarding is likely to follow - or some habit of theirs perhaps.

[calmwaterstarot]

I'm just not seeing how an Empress would want Chris after this mess he's caused. She deserves so much better, and she'd definitely know her worth.//

Well I’m pretty sure she’d know the entire story vs speculation and limited perspectives. She’d also know the full man and not an image nor the fickleness of those whose opinions of him change like the wind because they don’t know him like that. 🤷🏻‍♀️

If she knows her worth and value she’ll know how to handle herself and determine if he’s being open and honest and if he’s truly a good guy. I see it as if she ends up with him, just confirmation there’s way more to this than even we know. Also confirmation he’s not as bad as many like to believe. I’m sure he’s done fucked up shit who hasn’t.

We can judge but we have to acknowledge our judgement is limited.

What’s between them …..would be between them, but energy is a funny thing, even when you try to hide things it reveals itself.

Energy doesn’t lie we see it with this current one and how she’s drained his ass, but choices are a funny thing.

I want Chris to win but not without putting in work and making amends to those he’s hurt, but if he is willing to in time then I think he should be allowed to, but ONLY if he’s willing, no one is perfect and we all must take accountability for our actions, but it begins by admitting to them and working to be better, that is a choice.

I hope this situation pushes him in the right direction but again, his choice. If he doesn’t that on him. Oh well.

I don't think he'll put in the work and learn his lessons. He took the easy route. But I'm all for Empress finding a true Emperor—her real divine match.

I also think people don't understand what being an Empress entails. She knows her worth and value, and she wouldn't put up with a man like Chris after this mess. He's sunk too low and is too far gone to fully recover. This isn't a queen or a princess. This is a woman who would absolutely obliterate anyone who stands in her way. That type of energy wouldn't just go out the window if she met him.

But hey, at least we don't have to worry about this union anymore!

[l0st-l0ser]

Taking advantage of the sun today because it’s been rainy as shit and me and dexter needed to get out of the house. I went to Toyota school this morning, I sat next to Craig and Will. Not going to lie, I was nervous you were going to show up. Kind of sad you weren’t there.

I’ve been meaning to find the words to respond to your message, I’ve had this in my drafts for a while…I guess nows the time to post it?

Hi.

I recently saw that you messaged me on here for my birthday last year. LOL. Thank you, it was a good birthday. This years was good as well. I tried replying but for some reason my messages won’t go through. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Not going to lie, reading your last post made my heart break a little for you. I hear and feel everything you’re saying.

I’m sorry you’ve lost yourself. I’m sorry you’re still stuck in the same situation you’ve been in for a decade. It’s easy for anyone on the outside to say “if you’re not happy, then just walk away”

It’s easier said than done. It’s hard to walk away from comfort and from someone you care about. You do care about her, or else you wouldn’t be with her for this long. I know you guys probably have good moments and memories together, and that alone is hard to walk away from. No matter what your relationship is, miserable or not, You’ve clearly built some kind of life together. It’s just a matter of really asking yourself if that is the life you want. I think it’s hard for you to open up and talk about it because you feel judged or you feel like an asshole, or maybe you’re afraid of saying the wrong thing. I do think it’s sad that she doesn’t try to get to know you on a deeper level. Like she knows you, but she doesn’t know the real you. But I also think that’s partly your fault. You have to open up, allow her to get to know the real you. Ya know? She won’t know who you are and what you want out of life or a partner if you don’t. I will say what I’ve said for years, I think you deserve better, and I also think she deserves better.

I think at one point in my life, I’m sure I told you I wanted to help you grow emotionally and do life with you. I’m sorry you felt I didn’t.

When you and I were together, I was so young. I was crazy, acted a damn fool, and said a lot of hurtful things to you that I regret. I can never take those words back, but I can apologize for them and hope for forgiveness. We were both young and crazy. I’m proud to say that over the last 4 years, I’ve done a lot of soul searching, worked through some trauma, worked on my mental health, and I’m actually happy. Sure I’ve still got some crazy in me, but I’ve grown a lot. I think you’d be pleasantly surprised. I’m still the same funny Becca, just with a different mindset, different outlook on life, and I have mad respect for myself. I really think you’d be proud of me.

I went through some really dark times after my mom died. Something changes in you when you lose someone that close to you. My Life definitely changed forever. I sat in my sadness for over a year. I sat with my grief. I sat with my trauma. And the hardest part was, I sat by myself. I didn’t know how to move forward or how to deal with life. I felt stuck, like I was in a routine and like my life was just meant to be shitty. I couldn’t tell you what it was that made me snap out of it, and it of course didn’t happen overnight… it wasn’t easy pulling myself out of the darkness, but I knew it was possible. I took things day by day. Well, minute by minute really. Slowly things started looking up. I feel like I am living proof that you can grow as a person, you can heal, and you can move forward. That’s how I know the life you desire is a possible thing for you too. You have to save yourself before you can help save anyone else.

I’m happy to be alive. I’m so glad that my trauma and everything in my life has lead me to where I am right now. Sure, I thought my life would be different, like I thought I’d be married with kids by now. But I’m not going to lie, I’m happy I’m not because I don’t really want kids. I fully believe everything happens for a reason and I truly feel blessed to be where I am in life! Sure, my life still has flaws… like my weight, it’s gone up and down and up and down… but grief, drugs, and alcohol will do that to you. I’m at my heaviest right now, which puts me down but honestly my mental state was more important to me than what’s on the outside. And I’m still beautiful, big or not.

I don’t know if you want a life update on me but I’m going to give it to you anyways… lol.

I inherited my grandmas house after my mom passed. It was really hard living here at first, But I feel like I’ve done a pretty good job making it my own home. It’s old as eggs and small, but to me it’s home! I have so many childhood memories here and I’ve already made some good adult memories here too. It’s been almost 4 years and Its still weird to think that I am a home owner. LOL. I try to do 1 big project on the house every year. This year is my back patio! I had the roof of it replaced, painted the siding of the house back there, got some furniture, string lights, and of course have been adding my cool boho hippie style touch to it.

I’m still at Toyota. I’ve been a Main shop advisor there for about 4ish years! It’s definitely not forever but I do think I’m pretty kick ass at my job lol.

I finally sold my Subaru! My brother in law bought it from me. I currently drive a 4Runner and I love it so much.

Charlie and Dexter are still my boys. Charlie is 11?12? I forget. He’s getting old though, has trouble jumping on things sometimes and needs help… but he’s still huge and a big fluff ball. Dexter is 9, almost 10. He’s still a puppy at heart. I honestly don’t know where the f he gets all his energy from lol.

I’m still a summer girl. I’ve been paddle boarding and kayaking a lot the last 2 summers.

I’ve been going on vacations and exploring places. I went to Vegas and Texas last year and had a blast. I also went down to bend Oregon, floated the deschutes river with my friends and went to a reggae concert there. I loved bend! I would move there if I could. This year I went to Joshua tree for my birthday, it was wonderful. I was Basically shroomin in the desert for a week LOL! I went to Vegas recently for a concert, it was hot as ball there but I had a freaking blast.

I am currently dating someone, his name is Alex. He’s a tall nerdy metal head. I won’t go into too much detail about him, but he’s cool. He’s been one of my besties for a few years now. It’s pretty rad being in a relationship with your best friend.

I hope you know that I’ll always be here for you, as a friend. You were a big part of my life for a while, and I will always hold you close to my heart. I truly wish nothing but the best for you. I know you think that we can’t be friends without being more, but I would certainly like to try. I hope you have the courage to text me, because I would definitely reply. I hope someday we can be friends again.

Xoxo

Rebecca

[hasanawolf]

And she’s NOT EVEN MARRIED yet, she’s just engaged! And in the good words of my man Michael Scott:

Hmph! 😤

Ok not, but srsly. If in my AU they were a happy couple, I wouldn’t even think about messing with that. But I’ve had them in a rather toxic relationship even before learning about the Trojan Horse Project, which was before creating Max :’)

You wanna know since when I’ve had Afton as an antagonist? Since I made the comic about Mia catching Francis and Izaack kissing and then hanging out with Francis to hear more about their relationship. I was going to follow that up with a picture of Afton asking Mia “Since when are you such good friends with the Milkman?” implying that he’s accusing her of cheating on him without evidence.

I should’ve done it :’) But at the time I thought it was a minor detail that was not worth addressing, and I was excited to move on with the rest of the story.

When the Trojan Horse Project was revealed, I graduated Afton from antagonist to villain, AND I THOUGHT??? People were gonna do the same??? So then I felt rather confident to make Max interested in Mia, because I thought people were gonna be like “Oh yeah! She deserves better than the bad guy that created the doppelgangers!” But it seems I was the only one who saw Afton that way :’D

So… again, it was my mistake, I SHOULD’VE presented the way Afton was in my AU beforehand, but what’s done is done 🤷🏻‍♀️ What I’m planning to do now is maybe make a comic telling Mia and Afton’s story, or explaining the way their relationship actually is behind closed doors...

But I can tell you right now, there is no love in that relationship. Mia is star-struck with him because she thinks he’s so cool and mysterious, but she doesn’t even know the real Afton (she only met him after he started working in the THP 10 years ago). And Afton feels entitled to her because she’s his fiancée, but it’s more like that phrase “Do I like you? Or do I just like that you like me?” Afton doesn’t know the real Mia either. Or rather, he refuses to acknowledge her. He suppresses her bubbly side to whip her back into society’s concept of what a model 50’s housewife should be. And Mia complies because she wants to make him proud, she has him on a pedestal.

[Sigh] So, yeah. I’ll tell their story sometime. Anyway, thanks for coming to my Ted Talk.

Always funny to see "This ship won't work because one of them is married" posts on tumblr dot com. Besides AUs, divorce, and so on existing, I, tumblr user ntr lily, have even more ways to make "marriage" a non obstacle.

[ruminate88]

Changed after emotional abuse?

In my 20’s, I am a huge believer in love and the power of it. I had a crush on this guy Jesse for 10 years and had my first boyfriend, Stewart, when I was 18. At this point I’m single now. I had a following on Twitter of a little over 900 people. I did a live webcam every night and talked with people from alllll over the world. Italy, Australia, Brazil, Canada and of course, America. I had friends alll over at that time but had only met 1 of them in person. It wasn’t uncommon for me to meet a new stranger and talk to them 1 on 1.

That’s when I met Jake 😳😳😳 Jake asked to private message so we did 1 on 1 and talked the entire night. He asked could we call each other the next night and I said sure. (I was being friendly as I had done to everyone I met and I was beyond nice and supportive to ALL my followers) okay so Jake was 4 hours behind me so we had to talk very late. We talked yet again and I had NO IDEA Jake was mirroring me. 🥴😨😳 we had everything in common and he made me feel understood and seen. We continued to talk on the phone and as he sends me selfies, I am not attracted to him 😝 it’s hard to tell him that. I liked his personality tho AT FIRST. Eventually he’s pushing for a relationship and starts to love bomb me. I try to get him to FaceTime and he has excuses like, “my camera phone is broken” AND “I lost my apple I.D login” 🤷🏻‍♀️

Jake must’ve thought I was sooo stupid. I knew he was lying and it bothered me he wouldn’t FaceTime OR Skype. (Said he doesn’t have Skype on his computer ) but I knew everyone does!!! So I felt he was hiding his identity (boy was I ever right) Jake at one point got me to say “I love you” cuz he was pushing so hard AND love bombing me. He did take a photo of his hand with my name written on it and a heart with it… so, if you can send a pic of your hand, you can FaceTime too! What’s the problem?? Jake pushed me sooooo hard to be his “girlfriend” but I was reluctant and uneasy. I did like him overall, just didn’t find myself attracted to his selfies. He had to know that is why he was so pushy.

Jake was VERY controlling and critical but also was always always there…..: every time I’d get my heart broken, Jake was there to talk me through but was also very jealous. He said rude things over cody and Andrew. He tried to make feel bad for dating Andrew. Years off and on I would block Jake then somehow he would get me to unblock him and we were “friends” …. The first time I blocked Jake, he retaliated and posted allll my private nudes on Twitter. He made a fake account of me was tagging alllll of my 900 followers 😭😭😭

My followers were upset at me and began to tell me off for sending my photos like that to them and were all unfollowing me. After I had built such loving and supportive connections. I worked so hard to build friendships and they were being destroyed in 1 shot 😭😭😭😭 all thanks to “Jake”. Eventually he got me to unblock him and he apologized and said he’s sorry he did that to me but when I accused him of being a catfish, he got mad… wow.

after Jake exploited me, I met Cody and I was obsessed with Cody and he claimed he was obsessed with me… when we talked, it was just him and I. I still had most of my followers not all of them but I stopped doing the live webcams and wasn’t talking to my followers as much 😭 after Cody ghosted me, I’m pretty much numb, isolated and cold. I lose that Twitter account for the most part and started a new following on Instagram but it wasn’t the same and I didn’t even have half the followers I did on Twitter.

I met Andrew 5/6 months after cody and we were together for over a year. After Andrew, I try to keep a following going on Instagram but it’s hard cuz I trust people less and less.

eventually I stopped posting on Instagram especially when I found out my friend Bri died and I slowly pushed my friend emily away. At some point I try to make a following on TikTok but all I wanna do is talk about Cody and Andrew and it concerns me. I believe they’re toxic and don’t know why 🥴 eventually my TikTok fyp is nothing but videos about emotional abuse 😤 I learn so much at once and I stopped making TikToks!!!! I felt the drive to share my story but I don’t quite understand it.

the more I’ve learned about emotional abuse, the more I’ve pushed the world away and don’t trust anybody 😔😭❤️‍🩹 I currently have Jake and Andrew blocked but Cody ghosted me so but I always feel they’re watching me from a far off. ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 it’s creepy.

I want to be the person I was before when I was so outgoing and friendly but I can’t because now I know people can pretend and wear a mask with you. It’s never going back to the way it was 😔❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[anonymouswallflower24]

You know what I’m done being the person that gives and gives all the time just for people to be disrespectful and act like I don’t exist… like I’ve done so much for people either it be a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen, actually GOING OUT IF MY WAY to help with things, giving people shit I COULD HAVE SOLD for money just for them to sell it a week later and for what?? To be disrespected and tossed a side like trash to have everything I ever said or complained about thrown in my face?? Wonder why I complain about yall so fucking much dude wonder fucking why when all yall do is ignore me until you need something or when your bored and need someone to hate because your so unhappy with your life you just need to hate on someone else.. well you know what I’m done dude I’m done being the bad guy when I’m not knowing all the info ik and haven’t said anything because ik it would cause something.. being the bigger fucking person and taking all the heat just so others don’t look small because ik how it feels. 🙄🙄 well I’m tired of it.. I’ve had this shit happen to me my whole life and I never said shit and I finally do and finally try and vent to people and confine in people for once and learn to trust people just for them to use what I say against me when they also have said some nasty shit more so than me. 🙄🙄 I’m done with this generation and I’m done with fake friends I’m used as the “babysitter” or “co-signer” just for them not to give any fucks about me in return.. like I’m not just made on this earth to help people this much and be this kind person just for me to get burned and feel useless. 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ yeah I was concerned for your kids and asked questions behind your back.. yeah I said you smelled bad but was that something I was just suppose to say?? I kept it to myself until it was talked about just like everything else.. 🙄🙄 the people saying “we should have stuck up for you” did ya dirty dude they talked first telling me “watch out they will take advantage of you” “swampass” “they never change their kids” they said this FIRST to me I just talked back and yes that doesn’t make it better but maybe you should watch who your friends with 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ just like I should with all of yall cause I don’t trust a single person on this earth because of all of you.. I’ve been distant and not wanting to be around because EVERYTHING I say offends you.. and another thing you know that group chat was made for those 4 people to talk about hanging out and not talking shit because you have one with the same people done the same way 😂😂 just with you and your husband.. lol 😂 talking about the same shit and tbh me flat out saying I just didn’t think you where coming because you never do isn’t talking shit it’s speaking facts because you didn’t and I wasn’t saying it was bad or good just was spitting facts 😂😂 don’t even know why your mad and throw that shit in my face anyways dude your all a bunch of children and I’m so over it rather just stay home and relax until I go to work than hangout with any of my so called “friends” 🙄🙄

[celiastjamesoscar]

Lol, okay, okay. I will obviously support you and pray that Jon won't include any of your pictures (slight hope is still there, though 😉). Jon is the best!!! I love teachers who have humor and can banter with their students. My Latin teacher was the same. We both wore glasses, but yet he was still teasing me. Fun fact: he was actually the first person I ever came out to, in the middle of class. After that, he was also teasing me about that, but all in good faith. Also, I am a big Jon fan now!

Awww yes Stinky! I was worried there for a second. That little man chose you to be his new family, that's so cute!! Give him all the kisses and cuddles for me. Cat snores are the best! Honestly tattoo withdrawal is the WORST. I'm suffering with you. Thoughts and prayer to you 🙏 ❤️

😂 you were literally the Kris Jenner meme with the filming, smiling and saying you're doing amazing, sweetie. I would whip out that video every chance I get. Family gatherings, for blackmail or simply for my own amusement.

You make it easy to get to know you since you are such an open, welcoming, sweet, and loving person 🤷🏻‍♀️ And yeah! Working with your tutor is a great idea. Well done, honey! I really shouldn't be preaching about productivity, though, because in 2 hours, I only sent out 2 applications today...

Thank you for supporting me, and I will of course let it slide that you want him to include a picture of me into the slides. Jon makes class so much fun, but he’s giving us an exam right before finals week, which is not very cool of him 🙄 your Latin teacher sounds like a really awesome dude!! Especially if he was the first ever person you came out to! I’m a big fan of him now, as you are of Jon!

I’m sorry that I scared you a little bit with Stinky 😭 that dude is just here to kick ass and take names while occasionally sleep for 12 hours. He will definitely be getting all of the cuddles; he forces his cuddles onto people, it doesn’t matter if you want them or not, you will be getting them. Tattoo withdrawal is the worst, but you are getting one soon!! I want one, I just don’t know what I want to get :( I have a one idea, but my mom would kill me if I got it right now 💀

NOT KRIS JENNER 😭😭 I need to try and find that video so I can use it for blackmail/amusement

I’m honestly really glad that you guys feel welcome here!! Tutoring went good, and now it is time for me to pass out. Averaging 1 application an hour isn’t bad, because that means you are sending them out!! I’m wishing you the best of luck! <3

[waitingformyfavoritesongs]

4:11 pmpdt 4:12 Tuesday 4 April 2023

Incubus probably f*cked the 2 women trump f*cked. 4:13 pmpdt

4:17 pmpdt his face is always changing. They probably made it look 👀 like a face you should trust when you should NOT. They employed all psychological tactics. 4:19 pmpdt

4:19 pmpdt outside skull 💀 acid pain right side above ear 👂. Roof of mouth 👄 acid pain. 4:20 pmpdt

4:21 pmpdt I bet he doesn’t want the world 🌎 to read my blog Bcz all my suspicion is probably TRUE!

6:02 pmpdt I had an Instagram story I posted when they tortured me so much that I became shaky. I can’t (left eye 👁 pain 6:03 pmpdt) what I see is what I get: a fascist? Coercive? Torturous lecherous god who treats people like trash 🗑 but fakes people out with façades. 6:05 pmpdt tummy nausea pain 6:05 pmpdt he hides everything by falsifying documents. 6:06 pmpdt he edited probably all my photos. He made teachers 👨🏻‍🏫 like my Java teacher in high school 🏫 give me an A I didn’t earn. I think 🤔 he gave it to me for effort and for being nice to him. 6:08 pmpdt

6:09 pmpdt but I did put a lot of efforts in art 🖼, English, and math 🧮, and p.e. Read fast food nation the book 📚 in paper back? They probably mentioned about super sized chicken 🍗 legs 🦵 6:11 pmpdt anything? Is possible with god, including dumb jocks, which was most likely real Bcz why would it become a wide spread long lasting saying? I’m not trying to insult. I’m trying to say that is what I was. 6:13 pmpdt in some sort of way. Maybe you can understand? I spent a lot of time at home 🏠 alone. 6:14 pmpdt

6:16 pmpdt if you want to be a greedy jerk and take away from me, stealing my ideas 💡, which is the intellectual equivalent of raping me, and live a lavish lazy lifestyle, it speaks more about you than it does about me. You like to take away from those who operate at a deficit 💸 and who have to put in more effort than you to get stuff done. My art 🖼 was born from my pain and struggles. And you took it away so easy. You’re friends with the devil 👿. I lived without finding my own authentic happiness trying to find happiness. I tried to do well in my classes. I earned my transfer to uc Berkeley. I only did 1 math 🧮 class which was review of algebra. Acid burning 🔥 hot pain back? And butt. 6:24 pmpdt I worked hard in p.e. All my life. I was told I had s*xy legs 🦵 and a nice butt. S*xier than stroh’s butt. It was strange but I think 🤔 the incubus miñion knew it and I’d (gum pain 6:26 pmpdt 😞) look 👀 in the bathroom 🚽 mirror 🪞 b4 showering 🧼 and the sight of my own butt made me want to have s*x with a man 👨. 6:27 pmpdt

6:32 pmpdt idle hands 🙌 are the devil’s playground? Trying to remember the saying. 6:33 pmpdt you think 🤔 he’s going to save someone who will lie about lyrics? That’s like the laziest of the lazy. You can probably only save yourself by displaying any redeeming qualities. Like, confession? I did intaglio printmaking. Even though I had eczema I finished 2 semesters of printmaking (acid skull 💀 brain 🧠 pain 6:36 pmpdt) I guess what I said/wrote above is wishful thinking Bcz if god is lecherous without integrity? Or at least some smarts about work ethic you’d think he’d place some value on something! 6:38 pmpdt

6:42 pmpdt some people formerly told me I was pretty. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ what to believe anymore. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ if they were desperate for vag. But I’m trying to remember if some women told me, too? Maybe 🤔. I m not the prettiest... or was... even though someone told me I was the most beautiful woman in the world 🌎! But maybe he was desperate. When he was very attractive he had a girlfriend in every country 10 years before he said that, and I had an attraction to him in 2003. He was nice to me but I guess I wasn’t enough back then (acid hot but pain 6:46 pmpdt) again to another guy. Not good enough until later when I got into UCB, or after graduation 👩‍🎓 6:47 pmpdt never good enough for incubus. 6:47 pmpdt

6:48 pmpdt even when I did algebra it felt like a lot of work. I think I remember it being that way. I even worked backwards? I forget now how but I have a vague memory of “working backwards” (cramps 😞 6:49 pmpdt) to check if I really got it right/correct. 6:50 pmpdt all those graphs 📊 parabolas hyperbolas outliers. Art drawings always felt like a lot of work. Everything felt like a lot of work. 6:51 pmpdt

6:51 pmpdt I felt I really had to do the work myself. Bcz I needed to learn the skills so I can work. So I can be smart. 6:52 pmpdt and I did it with learning disabilities. 6:53 pmpdt I didn’t have a complete understanding of god. Not the way incubus does. 6:53 pmpdt or incubus friends do. 6:54 pmpdt I didn’t put all the pieces of the puzzle 🧩 together. I put in a LOT of effort. And all you devil 👿 friends want to ignore, negate, write off my efforts and my struggles. 6:55 pmpdt

6:56 pmpdt you do that to justify your bad behavior? 6:57 pmpdt I think 🤔 I now understand your logic. It makes sense. God had all his bases covered. The Greek philosophy says you don’t have excellence/righteousness. You have to display it in all your actions in everything you do. I learned that years ago. But now I’m being told it’s a lie. I guess it was psychology to motivate me to work harder and be behaved and celibate. I understand now, that god is saving me from the bad that is in me from my dna 🧬. It’s awful and not awful? All at the same time? I guess I lived in denial the whole time. Thinking I was good, and probably got a little confused 🤷🏻‍♀️ unfortunately but turned around in time before doing much worse, and that maybe my small actions served as learning lessons to prevent worse things from happening in the future. 7:03 pmpdt but now I get it. Now I really feel it and really? realize it. 😞😖😭🤢 7:04 pmpdt this is disheartening and sad. 7:04 pmpdt I really thought 💭 I could find someone to feel that best friend connection to if I fixed my brain 🧠 from all the brain 🧠 trauma. 7:05 pmpdt

7:24 pmpdt even if they confessed and everything came out they would probably all continue to punish me destroy me. And they would probably all continued to be saved and keep doing what they always did. 7:25 pmpdt I’m not looking forward to anything. 7:25 pmpdt

7:26 pmpdt it’s the way it’s always been. Why should expect real change. God saved who he wanted . They’d survive every thing probably. They’ll probably get house 🏠 arrest and a blingy ankle thing and probably still allowed to go every where. 7:28 pmpdt it would be a complete joke. 7:29 pmpdt

7:41 pmpdt so I guess all men rape then. Some are better at hiding it than others. So s*x trafficking I guess doesn’t matter to incubus god. And men who prey on young teens are forgiven then. Which is why no one will help me, and it’s highly probable they got the wrong man 👨 for Sierra LaMar’s case but incubus doesn’t care. As long as he himself is not caught. Antolin might be innocent of everything and thought he had to try to be good so he does non lazy stuff like trim trees 🌳. 7:44 pmpdt

7:45 pmpdt acid hot pain on butt. This world 🌎 is confusing. @_@ but I understand it now. I guess. Unfortunate. I don’t think I will ever reincarnate. My flesh will probably remain on this earth 🌍 and maybe 🤔 this earth 🌍 will become lifeless. 7:47 pmpdt

8:04 pmpdt if you ever heard 👂 of Mensa you might have seen testing is timed. If you can answer the questions in time like a fast rabbit finishing the race before the turtle 🐢 then you are smart. I see that I was gas ⛽️ lit 🔥 about the 🦇 bat (Hebrew) daughter hair. I think 🤔 I’m seeing a confession on maroon 5 story symbolically. I believe it. Who ever came around to touch me, even though the spots on my body they touched should have been a sign of intimacy it all felt very not intimate feeling. Except for one move but I guess it was a joke to them to tip things into their favor to trick me for some purposes I don’t yet know. They touched above my but rubbing that area in circles, daintily kissed 💋 my lips 👄, felt something inserted about 2 inches in to my vag back in 2015 and a quick kiss 💋 back then but I was too scared 😱 and ashamed to say anything/report it, and in 2022 end of the year b4 moving in with my aunt again only to move out again Bcz she wasn’t genuine about wanting to live together, while I was in the shower 🚿 they came in for 30 seconds and touched me with my back turned. 8:23 pmpdt 8:24 pmpdt incubus is messing with autocorrect again. Incubus likes to mislead people for his own gains. 8:24 pmpdt I have no memory of laying in bed 🛌 with incubus but he wanted to mislead me last year completely with all the things he did it seemed really like he wanted me to believe him even though it was all a lie. 8:26 pmpdt

[bisluthq]

i’m sorry but i cannot take joe stans seriously atp. saying he’s a better songwriter than TAYLOR SWIFT (praised by actual songwriting legends, has won awards in every category for music, is considered one of the best by the vast majority of people, over 100 million records sold, multiple no1 hits, most streamed artist ever, highest grossing tour of all time etc) is just bonkers.

i’m supposed to believe that he’s some kind of musical genius because a khia teacher said he could write when he himself said that he has no musical bone in his body, cannot sing and can barely play instruments? ohm

i know they love mediocre white man but damn this is a new low…

I think again a lot of things are being conflated here tho? His teacher called him a poetic soul, which has fuck all to do with whether or not he can write music. It’s a description of a creative, artsy type. Also, in terms of what he himself said, some of that is self-deprecation. We know he CAN sing, because he had it listed as a CV skill - that doesn’t mean he’s the best singer of all time, but he CAN do it. He also can play piano (clearly) because Taylor had him play on evermore in studio and she wouldn’t have done that if he couldn’t do it? He went to a school that required music as a compulsory subject so like obviously he CAN do it. Doesn’t make him Elton John or anything but come on. The National also credited him for notes on the album and that’s not Taylor, like obviously he is at least somewhat helpful when giving feedback and such. Justin Vernon seems to dig him and they worked together on exile idk so 🤷🏻‍♀️ Alex (Jemima’s ex) credited him on his album and they jammed together. He’s genuinely not like completely useless.

There is a HUGE LEAP - like Pacific Ocean sized - between saying “Joe has good ideas and is a creative guy and can play piano and a bit of guitar and sings a bit and enjoys doing that stuff for fun because he likes music” and saying he’s better at songwriting than Taylor (or Matty fwiw). Like we don’t need to completely shit on him or take what WERE clearly self-deprecating comments at face value to acknowledge that he’s not as good at songwriting/from what we’ve seen writing in general as people who have chosen it as a profession and especially than Taylor Swift (who as you rightly point out is a legend).