#and idk if im ever gonna come back to this account properly

[m0e-ru]

hi ive been binging your blog a lot recently. i rlly adore the sheer effort you've given to these dumbass fucking characters that otherwise get such little people even attempting to appreciate or engage with them beyond very shallow depths. as someone who only really got into the p4 games relatively recently (2022. my only remembered experience with the series beforehand was like a couple episodes of the the p4anim years ago and playing p5 in 2016/2017) and kind of being shell-shocked by how characters like marie and teddie and namatame were perceived by the overall fanbase once i started engaging with it more i really appreciate all the writing and analysis and art and other shit you do for them. even the gas station attendant, a character i overlooked initially, i've come to love because of all the time and energy you put into picking them apart like a dead frog in a science class

uh yea idfk i feel generally vindicated by seeing the way you characterize these bitches. especially marie as someone who felt like a lot of her interesting aspects were evaporated by the fandom (somewhat because of p4ga i feel but but still) and wanted to see more silly fanart of her (and shumarie/soumarie/whatecvrer the fuck that wasn't just kind of surface level romance becuz i rlly do love their dynamic w how i see bancho in my head. idiots who dont know how to properly express themselves w one repressing themselves to adopt a likable persona and the other unable to shut the fuck up much to their own detriment. im not gonna get over that fucking "marie makes everyday sunny for him" post ever i think) so uh keep on keeping on and ill continue to like your posts and something

anyway dumb stupid cringe fucking rant over. i apologize if i come off like a loser i dont use this website and idk the general tumblr etiquette. im pretty sure shit like this shouldnt even go here but . dont need to respond to this i just wanted to yell into the void cuz i appreciate this account. rest of this will just be panels of marie and teddie and bancho from some of the p4g anthologies i own that i wanted to share in the off chance that you also dont already own said anthologies n have seen them befor. these r only from the last ID antho and the dengeki one because those r the only 2 i have proper pictures of

hai i read this ages ago and i wanna get back to it by saying youre so awesome possum forever and ever dont worry about your ettiquette because getting 3 essay worthy paragraphs of you talking is basically everyone ive met in the tumblr nation

another thing i remember is that a bestie also loved your offerings esp the last one because those two look so lalala AUAHUAHA okay i should answer this ask properly now that i have the time 🏃🏃🏃🏃

can we give it up for the bingers and blog skimmers !?!?!?! you guys are such an interesting breed i remember trying to do that in 2018 i can already recall the thrill going through my blood im so honored to see people doing that and moreso coming to me to tell me about it WAHAUHAHA 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶

this gas station (blog) really is catered to the niche market of all time also because the way my brain is wired to just go in the dustiest nooks and corners of a community and thrive and live there. i AM the bug you see when you lift up the rock . hai . i'll do anything for these poor poor characters being tossed around like hot potato with people who dont bother understanding thing or even try to pick them up at all. also im getting such a kick every time someone tells me i got them into appreciating the attendant or even iznmi more OR in a different way. thats why im here bros . me when i do my JOB !!!! 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

the way fandom handles shipping has always irked me because theres just SO much you can do with two characters than just make them hold hands. what if there was blood invovled, you know . /starts pacing around the room / you know im glad you know the know it's so cool you know /shaking you/ im glad i have a post that's affected you so much like i thought it was just a silly caption at the time and seeing it after 2 or 3 years is like "YEAHH i cooked this " and im glad you brought it to me hehehe

i hope this gas station brings you joy and you keep coming back for more etc etc and please know i really am happy to see you around in whatever branch you show up at 🫡🫡🫡 /explordes

[luetta]

i'm going back to what 16 year old me used to do in full swing i think. type to myself on dead forums. wanna know a story about me? i used to post on that nazi reddit alternative website voat. for years. not anything political, i just made a subreddit that was my username and made posts everyday about how obsessed i was about a girl called rebekah in the grade above me. i never talked to her a single time in my life. she was just pretty. hundreds of posts. eventually randoms on the website found my posts through the new section and started commenting how creepy i was. and then i guess i referred to myself as a waitress and they started thinking i was a girl who had a lesbian crush. of course i did nothing to disavow that notion. and then when i was with my friend finlay in class, i was on a school provided laptop, seeing what the suggested autocomplete web searches for a, b, c, etc were. and when i looked up 'v' it came up with 'voat [my username]. i guess on this laptop sometime before i had searched it up. i begged him not to look it up and deleted it all the moment i got home but he just went on internet archive and essentially held this blackmail over my head for about 3 months. at the end of high school finlay wasnt popualr in our group (there was always someone who was the cyberbullied person of the day in our group.) and i honestly did a fucking asshole thing. i always say that i was nice and just a victim of this mean group but i did this thing, which completely undoes all that. there was a barbeque for the entire grade on a saturday, school organised but essentually our own thing. in the discord finlay was wondering whether to come, lots of us were there already. i said that there was barely anyone here lol. and that was a complete lie. i lied and made him miss this event for no reason other than to dogpile on him. that night everyone was fighting and i chimed in and he told everyone about my voat account and also about how we had accidentally discovered each other in a league of legends erotic roleplay discord server. so yeah that was fun. i refused to talk to him for like 2 years lol. anyways. the point of this is to say. that im gonna start doing that again i think. post a bunch of stream of consciousness text posts of angst and self loathing and envy and hatred. cus i feel like shit and that's my self harm. im too much of a pussy to do anything else when i feel like shit. i just sit on the computer and make myself feel worse. this can be my self therapy. getting my thoughts out instead of letting them fester inside my brain forever. i can't be fucked going to therapy properly. it doesnt help cus idk how to articulate anything properly. ill get asked whats wrong and ill be like. i dont know. and honestly thats barely a lie. i dont fucking know whats wrong with me. i know that there is something wrong with me, but i dont know the reason why ive turned out like this. im just a fucking weirdo i think. i literally thought that i wasnt a creep anymore after transitioning, that i figured it out. but nope. im still a fucking creep, thinking about girls that i know, obsessing about them. urgh. i feel like. i've fucked my transition up. i fucked up the choices that i didn't know were choices and now im someone i don't want to be. i just want to be someone else but thats not possible because the person that i am, currently, isn't someone that can be someone else. i know that you can just change who you are ! you can do new things and stop doing old things. you can be someone else. but i just cant. i try but i just always circle back to this. uninteresting blob of a person. who does nothing except sit in their room and wish they were someone else. an uninteresting blob of envy. that's all i am and will ever be, i feel. and that sucks. i dont want to be that, but there's nothing else i can do about that. im too uninteresting and unadventurous and afraid to reach out and form connections to people that i wanna. cus thats how you change as a person. by being with other people. you slowly give each other parts of yourself

[cococrazyfangirl17]

Thanks for 1,000+ notes, guys 😭🥰

Why 2019 was SEVENTEEN’s year

Boo Seungkwan started off the year by going viral among K-netizens for his hilarious impression of Yoon Jong Shin’s 2017 song ��Wi-Fi’.

In the 2019 ISAC Ceremony, DK scored 4 bullseyes in a row in the archery competition and achieved the highest score in ISAC history of 95.

SEVENTEEN won the ‘Disk Bonsang’ at the 2019 Golden Disk Awards for You Make My Day, their 2018 summer 5th mini album. This is also where they infamously broke the stage due to how passionately they were dancing.

SEVENTEEN won two awards at the 2019 Gaon Chart Music Awards: ‘Hot Performance Artist’ and ‘World Hallyu Star’.

SEVENTEEN’s 6th mini album, You Made My Dawn, topped the Worldwide iTunes Chart, beating out Queen and the A Star Is Born OST. Furthermore, they became the fourth group to surpass over 300K first week sales on Hanteo.

You Made My Dawn’s title track, ‘Home’, won 1st place 10 times on Korean music shows, giving SEVENTEEN not only their first Inkigayo and Show! Music Core wins, but triple crowns on Music Bank and M Countdown. This meant that SEVENTEEN became the K-Pop group with the highest number of music show wins in 2019. They held that title until April, when BTS surpassed them.

The8 (Minghao) was chosen to be a dance mentor for the second season of Idol Producer, and warmed the hearts of viewers with his patience and kind attitude towards the trainees.

Woozi was promoted to be a regular member of the Korean Copyright Music Association alongside BUMZU (Woozi’s composing partner).

SEVENTEEN’s Chinaline (Jun & The8) both partook in an OST for the Chinese drama Seven Days, recording a song called ‘Brothers For One Time’.

DK  was chosen to star in the summer musical Xcalibur, and was cast as the lead role, Arthur. The musical was well received and DK was praised for solid performance as Arthur.

The8 released solo Chinese single entitled ‘Dreams Come True’, which went on to perform very well in the Chinese charts, beating out 95.56% of new Chinese songs in Q2.

Vernon featured on, American rapper, Tobi Lou’s song ‘Looped Up’, which appears on the latter’s album Live On Ice.

Jun starred in a music video to promote a brand new Chinese mobile game, A Dream Of Jianghu.

SEVENTEEN broke all their previous album records by just surpassing 700K first week sales for their 3rd full album, An Ode. The album also landed first place on the Japanese Oricon Charts for first week sales, and SEVENTEEN were 17th on the Global Digital Artist Ranking Chart.

SEVENTEEN have also partook in charity work. Mingyu and The8 showed their support for the Pink Pony breast cancer organisation, and The8 donated the profits from his Chinese single to help others “make their own dreams come true”, as well as doing community service for local Chinese primary schools.

SEVENTEEN won ‘Worldwide Fan Choice’ at the 2019 Mnet Asian Music Awards.

SEVENTEEN won ‘Stage of The Year’ at the 2019 MelOn Music Awards for the Seoul stop of their 2019-20 world tour, Ode To You. The award is solely decided by judges, meaning no fandom bias and/or chart performance can interfere with true, raw talent.

SEVENTEEN performed ‘HIT’ and ‘Very NICE’ at the 40th Blue Dragon Film Awards and broke the ‘idol graveyard’ associated with actors by not only getting the audience to stand up, but happily sing and dance along with them.

SEVENTEEN was 7th in Billboard’s Top Social 50 Groups Of The Decade, coming behind Linkin Park and in front of Monsta X. This is especially commendable for a group that has only been around for the latter half of the decade (having debuted in May 2015).

SEVENTEEN hold the title for K-Pop group with the best selling album in the first and third quarter of the year on Gaon, with You Made My Dawn and An Ode, respectively.

SEVENTEEN won a total of THREE daesangs this year: ‘Album of The Year’ and ‘Group of The Year’ at the Asian Music Festival in Shenzhen and another ‘Album of The Year’ daesang at the Asian Awards in Vietnam.

In conclusion, 2019 was an incredible year for SEVENTEEN. I’m so proud of them and all they’ve achieve and I know they can only go up from here! Here’s to another year with our 13 Shining Diamonds! 💖💎

[noticemedeku]

honestly same here though, i have really bad anxiety and no social life so i barely know how to be among others but also idk how tf to behave properly bc anxiety fucks me up real good, i be acting like im stressed or something lol, because it makes me feel so dizzy like im gonna faint, but yea you got a point about it being superficial. but could also always tell em we could get to know each other or sommet first. but also literally me because nobody ever shows me any kind of attention like that, i be like flip floppen: *casually giving said person a throwaway email account bc i dont own a phone anymore* lmaoo

me 🤝 anon. we r the same </3 i wish mental illness will detonate someday 🫶🏽

BUT NAWT THE FAKE CONTACT INFO. i literally think about doing that but id hate for them to be waiting and receive nothing back pls. but anxiety makes people go to great lengths so its not necessarily your fault you just want to find some nice way to leave the situation without saying no or “coming off as rude” even tho saying no and leaving is literally not rude at all but it appears that way because everybody hates rejection

cuz one time i said no and they made an insult. i could only imagine like if person A was walking down the street and was approached and said no to person B and B got physical. but had person A given a false contact would they leave the situation unharmed? idk just thought

[urscottsdale]

1-100

1 - Who was the last person you texted?on here? @lustroses in rl? my mom 😂2 - When is your birthday?november 193 - Who do you want to be with right now?her4 - What sports do you play?in high school? i played softball and tennis. growing up i played basketball, soccer, volleyball, football, baseball -pretty much anything and everything i could5 - Who is the first person in your contacts?my boss (only bc his name starts with an a tho lol)6 - What is your favorite song as of the moment?thats a tough one tbh maybe sorry not sorry by demi lovato? this honestly changes everyday7 - If you were stranded on an island, who do you wish to be with?hmm maybe @madisonbeer @demilovato would be interesting lol8 - What do you feel right now?content but also depressed9 - What chocolate is your favorite?reeses10 - How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have?ive had 411 - Why did you create a Tumblr account?boredom12 - Who is your favorite blogger?not sure tbh13 - Where do you want to be right now?cali, new york or tennessee 14 - What do you want to be in the future?wealthy and happy15 - When was the last time you cried? Why?last night and stupid shit16 - Are you happy?im alright17 - Who do you miss?anybody who knows me already knows18 - If you were given a chance, would you like to have a different life?idk probably not19 - What was the best thing you were given?tbh love from my family but also really loving the clothes @queenddl that i wear pretty much everyday20 - Who was the last person who called you?my grandpa21 - What is your favorite dish?https://goo.gl/images/SRxJRs22 - Who is your bestfriend?@queenddl and @thishailee23 - What is your biggest regret?too many tbh24 - Have you ever cheated on your partner?yes i was stupid back then25 - Who do you spend crazy moments with?family26 - Name someone pretty.to be safe im just gonna go with madison beer, demi lovato, selena gomez and all my friends27 - Who was the last person you hugged?probably my grandparents28 - What kind of music do you listen to?all kinds pretty much anything with good lyrics29 - Are you over your past?i wish i was30 - Who is the last person in your contacts?this guy named zachary who was supposed to watch my dog once31 - What kind of person do you want to date?someone who is all about me, loyal to me and wont give up on me/puts up with me tbh32 - Do you have troubles sleeping at night?no sleeping comes natural to me 24/733 - From whom was the last text message you received?group text with my mom and brothers, but specifically from my mom34 - What do you prefer, jeans or skirt?jeans35 - How’s your heart?its beating so i cant complain36 - Did you ever have a girlfriend/boyfriend whose name starts with a “J”?no37 - Do you like someone as of the moment?eh38 - What would you want to say to your latest ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend?i hope ur doing well and that ur happy39 - Do you have any phobias?i do40 - Did you try to change for a person?no41 - What’s the nicest thing have you given to someone?im not sure. i pay for my brothers food a lot lol.42 - Would you go back to your previous relationship?hell no43 - Are you in a good or bad mood?eh44 - Name someone you can’t live without.@queenddl and @thishailee45 - Describe your dream date.something we both enjoy doing so it would depend on what they like46 - Describe your dream wedding.anything with family and the right person there47 - How many roses did you receive last Valentine’s?one48 - Have you ever been kissed?kinda49 - How long is your longest relationship?about 6 years i believe50 - Do you regret your past?something’s yeah51 - Can you do something stupid for someone else?i have52 - Have you ever cried over someone?many times53 - Do you have a grudge against anyone?i dont think so54 - Are you a crybaby?no55 - Do people praise you for your looks?lol no56 - Did you fall for someone you shouldn’t?yup57 - Have you ever done something bad but you don’t regret?lol yeah58 - Do you like getting hurt?no but im good at it59 - Does anyone hate you?probably60 - Did you slap anyone whose name starts with an “R”?no61 - What hair color do you prefer?brunettes r hot62 - If you can change anything about yourself, what is it?gender and anxiety63 - Do you love someone as of the moment?i love my family and friends64 - Have you ever thought of killing yourself?a few times65 - Do you have issues with somebody in your school?no i avoided drama in high school66 - Can you live without internet?probably not at this point67 - What’s the song that remind you of your special someone?2u by justin bieber and body like a back road by sam hunt68 - Are you good at holding back your tears?sometimes yeah69 - Are you a crybaby?nope again70 - Have you ever experienced being hysterical?yeah lol71 - Are you a KPOP fan?nope72 - Do you study hard?lol i tried but i never knew how to properly study73 - Have you ever sacrificed something important to you for someone you love?yup74 - Did you ever had a kiss under the moonlight?nope75 - Have you ever ridden a boat?a few times76 - Did you have an accident last year?no77 - What kind of person are you?apparently my friends say im mysterious78 - Have you ever thought of killing someone?i mean its crossed my mind but not seriously79 - Have you ever been jealous?too many times80 - How can you prove your love to someone?ill tell ya when i figure it out81 - What are you thinking right now?so many things, mainly i dont want to go to work tomorrow82 - Who is the 6th person in your contacts?so weird but its actually my grandpa’s best friend, whos not even alive anymore sadly83 - Do you have any memories you want to erase?many84 - Have you been hurt so bad that you can’t find words to explain how you feel?yup85 - Did you ever badmouth someone?i have86 - Have you ever had an argument with someone?who hasnt?87 - Do you have trust issues?yup88 - Are you broken-hearted?yup89 - Who’s the person who first comes to your mind when someone mentions “love”?cr…..azy…batman ;)90 - Do you think all the pain is worth it?depends but usually not91 - Do you believe in the phrase “If it’s meant to be, it will be”?yes92 - Who do you want to marry?idk93 - Do you believe in destiny?yes94 - Have you ever thought “I already found my soulmate”?i have thought that95 - How do you look right now?relaxed and comfortable96 - Do you believe that first true love never dies?i do believe that but sometimes that love changes even tho its still there and always will be97 - Have you found your true love?nope98 - What should you be doing right now?cleaning99 - Name one of your ex-boyfriends/ex-girlfriends.ashley, danielle, whitney…100 - Did you ever feel like you’re not good enough?all the time

[agaispus]

tbh you probably won't see this. i'm not sure you're gonna come back to see this, but here i am anyway. i miss you. you were the best friends i've ever had, and talking to you was honestly a gift. i think about all the conversations we had fondly and i want you to know i hope you're having fun, enjoying life and being brilliant. good luck my friend.

i don’t think thank u is a sufficient response to this message but i’m going to say it anyway and hope u know that i mean it so so so much. thank u thank u.

i honestly miss u too a lot okay? all these sentiments go right back @ u. you meant a lot to me and u still do. 

a confession, that idk how to word bc regardless i was a shit in this situation, and it makes me an absolutely rubbish friend but u deserve to know, so i’m going to be honest with u. i did actually create a different account and i’m p active on tumblr (which,,,, has also been Not a Good bc exams and stress and all that but i digress, that’s my own issue of procrastination that doesn’t play a role in this tale). i’ve just been too of an absolute dumbass to message or contact anyone i knew on this blog abt it - idk if it was initially a case of not wanting to bother people or being scared ppl didn’t actually want to keep in touch or wanting to move on but like either way? how fucking shitty and stupid and downright yikes of me in hindsight. i’m not good @ keeping friends and valuing them properly and for that, a million apologies im so sorry. i’m sorry for just thinking to check into this blog now. i’’m so sorry.

i hope ur doing well, and i know u’ll think i’m a bit (a bit? a lot. a huge metric tonne.) of a shit for creating another account and pretty soon after i left this acc too (like i’m talking a few weeks) (fucking hell am i rite)….and just. not. telling. u. im mad @ me and if ur not, then pls do be. i 100% deserve it. that’s not what friends do. i’m sorry. “i’m sorry” isn’t really a sufficient apology just like thank u isn’t enough but pls know it had nothing to do with how much u matter and more to do with my own shitty af personality. 

if you do want to keep in touch, pls pls pls do message me. i’m so so so sorry. ur welcome to have my other blog’s url or if u want, i have discord which is pretty lit. (probably a better idea bc i kinda,,, feel like moving blogs again ffff,,,, tumblr in general is shitty for my emotional state sigh)

i mean that’s if u do want to keep in touch - i won’t blame u if you don’t. it’s 100% okay. some memories are better left undisturbed etc. (i feel like i could be making the same mistake again but i think this time is different. i think. I’m sorry i’m kinda a mess) but all that said, this message seriously means so much. i’m sorry if i’ve ruined those fond memories but pls know i think of them just as fondly even if i’m a shit human. you mean a lot my friend. 

[sakuurae]

I need advice. So I've always been congratulated about the way I write and a couple months ago I wrote a drama for college and the teacher said it was so good and that it was the best drama a student had written; he even asked me for copies to keep to himself I felt really proud cause I really gave my best and I honestly love the story I wrote. So yes I've always liked writing even tho I tend to be lazy about it. Yesterday I was extra soft for sicheng after reading a fluff one shot +

+ and I started having ideas for a fix so I wrote some notes down so I wouldn't forget those ideas but I wasn't sure if I should write something. Today I decided to give it a try and I mean I like what I've written so far but I tend to extend a lot the content when I'm writing. So since I know what's gonna be the outcome I feel like the story's interesting even if it's developing slowly but I'm afraid other's might not like it? Since I tend to write a lot I think I'll do it as a real fic +

+or just a big ass story because im terrible at making chapter ends so idk im just really nervous?? Also even tho influent in english, it's not my native language so reading other peoples stuff like yours makes me feel like Im lacking and it got me nervous. So idk do you have any advice for me? Id appreciate anything since it's my first time writing for this kind of audience. Im still not sure if I'll ever publish it, I need to make sure some ppl read it when I finish to see if they like it. -r.

Aaaahh, i see i see. Honestly, this will probably be one of those ‘easier-to-say’ type of things. But i believe that as long as you, as the writer, are content with your work then thats all that should really matter.

In further elaboration, you say you like what you have written to far and i find that the most important :) of course, there is also the factor of you and the audience—but the audience should forever be a bonus or an extra component. You shouldnt let external elements like those have an effect on your writing because then you would no longer be writing for yourself anymore, in a sense. Youd hold yourself back due to the thoughts of others restricting the vault of what youd want to write, entirely the way you ache to. Id say to go at your own pace, write however long and much youd like, and even develop your story slowly if thats what you want to do. After all, it is your fic, your writing, and your time that you are dedicating to it. It should be written in ways that you enjoy; otherwise, you wouldnt be entirely content with the finished product!

Ill toss everything else under the cut because this is quite a long response :)

Your writing is yours and you should work in whatever ways youd like. I think that if everyone took into account the audience and had a fear that ones writing would not be enjoyed for certain reasons, which would restrict the creativity drive, then everyone would be writing the same way—and it would be difficult to be unique. Of course, everyone has their own personal preferences as well—some like long fics and others dont, but thats okay at the end of the day.

Speaking on my part, i was hesitant and nervous to upload a fic that was 6k, then 12k, 14k, and soon 20k—and it was because i used to keep the audience in mind a lot. But after brushing it to the side and writing stories the way and pace i like is more fulfilling, and the writing feels more like me.

Fighting the nervous feeling is difficult at times, but i assure you that once you take your first step youll be on your way :) and first steps are always the hardest, as many say! Look at how much work you already committed: you were congratulated for your writing in college, took notes for ideas, and became content with the work you have so far. All you have to do is keep on going—for yourself.

For english not being your native language, its very good! Ehehehe. You shouldnt feel nervous from reading others works; we all took our own steps and walked our own paths to get to where we are/develop the style we write in. For me, i used to suck at english and writing (i even had the lowest lexicon in my class before, and it was embarrassing to the core for me! [so i worked hard]). My “large vocabulary” and “flow of words” that contribute to my style, and other factors that people message me about, did not come to me from no where, and in a short amount of time. I tutored people in creative writing, read a ton of books and took notes myself, perused a lot of word lists (and i still do to this day)—so it really does not come from no where.Feeling small due to others creations is the worst feeling, but there are endless ways to overcome it.

In regards to getting your work out there and making sure people read it, all i can really say is to tag your creations properly and play the waiting game!

Remember, everything takes time :)