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happy happy holidays to @jeonwonwoo, from your carat secret santa! 🎅🏻
#hiii zay <3#i hope you enjoy your gift!!#sorry i'm a little late OTL#also sorry for asking you about the 95z and then boochan entered the chat 😭#userzaynab#seventeen#svt#boochan#dino#seungkwan#lee chan#boo seungkwan#caratsecretsanta#heysol#wzfct.gif
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Pepito: It doesn't matter if you're not with me all the time, I'm gonna love you.
Quackity: Aw, I'm gonna love you too, son! 🥹 I'm sorry, come here! I love you son, I love you. I just want you to know that you're my greatest son ever. I wish you could've met Tilin, because Tilin was also a great- a great daughter of mine.
Quackity: Tilin is taking care of you and me from the sky.
It means a lot to me when characters choose to keep living, despite all the horrible things they've experienced, so here's a small tribute to choosing life in spite of suffering, and to two Eggs who made life so much better for q!Quackity and everyone on the Island. ❤️
#QSMP#Quackity#Quackity Multiverse#Quackiverse#Tilin#Pepito#I'm glad QSMP Quackity's choice to stay with Pepito wasn't retconned#I would've been very disappointed#I'm also really glad the Karmaland revolution arc wasn't retconned because I also would've been very disappointed about that#No Richas sorry Richas I couldn't fit you in there anywhere OTL#If only for the bragging rights if nothing else pftt#Edited#I know he technically gave his parental % back but I think Richas should have as many fathers as he wants#Anyways I know it's a Terrible posting time but I need to post this now and today because otherwise I won't#December 29 2024#Anyways x2 I DID cry while working on this because I miss the Eggs and QSMP and I'm so sad about these frickin Minecraft children#I remember it was one of Quackity's Las Nevadas streams that introduced me to Mice on Venus#(or at least got me to remember the name)#so it felt like a fitting song choice here
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Took me five million years, but I finished it!
#i started this back in June OTL#the vampire dies in no time#kyuuketsuki sugu shinu#kyuushi#tvdint#vampdies#draluc#ronaldo tvdint#ronaldo kyuushi#hinaichi#tou handa#hiyoshi#ydan ojisan#northdin#draus#tinydraws#color wheel challenge#I've really been entering my 'i'm gonna take a whole year to finish this one wip' era lately#:) wonder what that's about#sorry i didn't upload the last few characters individually#i feel like i'm losing the thread on some things and uhhhhh i don't know what to do about that !
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Oh! Oh! For Baby Prime AU, I know the perfect character from the high guard that will remain loyal to Optimus! Skyfire! Concept art showed that originally he was dead with the Primes but what if he's alive in this AU? That means there are TWO legendary breakups here, Dee and Orion and now Starscream and Skyfire!
"He is not the Prime we need! He's not set on properly avenging his own siblings like we are!"
"Star, do you not understand? He's thinking about a better future for everyone, like the other Primes would of done."
"THAT SAME THINKING GOT THEM KILLED! If you ask me, Megatron had the right idea. Who needs a Prime anymore with what good that's done us?"
ACTUALLY YEAH THAT'S PERFECT!!
he's a decepticon turned autobot in most continuities anyway, isn't he? it makes total sense he would be one here too! and i'm always down to add more drama <33
also i loveeeee the idea of starscream's grief over the primes eventually twisting itself into misguided anger and bitterness. him almost blaming them for dying because if they hadn't been too preoccupied with being honorable and righteous then maybe they would've won the war sooner and sentinel wouldn't have been able to betray them.
it would even reconcile his whole "all that counts is the strength of a bot over another" thing with him following megatron even after he was defeated by optimus. because to him it isn't so much about raw strength as much as what you're willing to do with it. like. he's seen what happens to those who aren't willing to do whatever it takes to win. they end up dead. it doesn't matter how strong and powerful you are, if you're not willing to get your hands dirty then you're weak.
and from what he's seen of the little prime, he's just like his siblings when it comes to that. and he'll probably end up just like them too. he already got himself killed once after all.
#hey i got an ask#Anonymous#tfone#transformers one#baby prime orion au#starscream#thanks for sending this!! i'm sorry i can't speak too much about skyfire i'm not a skystar connoisseur OTL
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Vash and Wolfwood's infomations from an interview with Nightow (Trigun's author)
Vash's Profile Height: I haven't decided. But he's around 180 cm (5.9 ft) (5'11")
Name's origin : Stampede is a nickname/ street name. It means 'runaway cattle'.
Change in hair color: There is a reason. But I can't tell you yet.
Coat's weight: Not sure. It would be quite light so he can run and move in various ways.
Vision: Pretty good. His visual acuity is also good. Plus, his ability to make last-minute decisions in times of crisis and his reflexes to make the most out of close chances are what keep him alive. It's not like he has supernatural powers.
Living expenses: He also works as a bodyguard, etc... So I guess that's how he earns his daily money. It's stable and he doesn't use money wastefully.
How long it takes to get dressed: I haven't decided on that. Since he wears those clothes every day, wouldn't it be pretty fast?
Wolfwood's Profile
Height: Not sure. But he is a little taller than Vash. About 1 to 2 cm taller (about 1 inches).
Name's origin: It's a pun. Tortoise Matsumoto is the model, so the name came from Ulfuls. The D in his middle name stands for "ドコノクミノモン ジャワレスマキニシテシズメタロ カコラ"(Dokonokuminomon Jawaresu Makinishi Teshizu Metallo Kakora) (laughs) TL Note: I think what he meant is the "Wolf" in WW's name (ウルフウッド) came from Ulfuls (ウルフルズ) - a Japanese rock band (The aforementioned Tortoise Matsumoto is the vocalist of the band) as a reference. The middle name, D, is "Where (D)o you belong?" It is an abbreviation of "Dokono~" in English. Smoking amount per day: I don't know. Well, I was thinking he would smoke a lot. But cigarettes seem expensive, so he might be smoking with a toothpick/stick.
Clothing (light clothing): The reason for the simple clothes is because it's would be hard to draw him holding the cross otherwise. The cross alone can make him stand out.
Dialect (he speaks in the Kansai dialect in Japanese): Since they are in an English-speaking setting, he is not actually speaking the Kansai dialect. Please think of it as an accent expression.
Gun's name: Punisher. Are you punishing the enemy or yourself?
Gun's weight: I feel like it weighs over a hundred-something kgs (> 240lbs). He carries it well. He must have great balance to be able to wield/swing it.
The size of the gun: about 170 cm (5.6 ft) (5'7") on the long side?
How long it takes to rewrap the cloth after using the gun: Not sure. I guess he would have to pick up the cloth, rewrap it, and carefully fasten it with belts. In order to look cool, you have to work on the little things.
#I made some corrections#sorry for the confusion OTL I'm not really fluent#Thanks to the og fan who shared this on twitters#It's seems interesting so I tried my best to translate it#If there any mistake you can correct me#Trimax!Vash is shorter than 98!Vash confirmed?#About how nightow said Vash has no superpower#I think he meant to talk about Vash's skills in general. He's a good gunman because he has a cold head a good vision and he trained a lot#not because of *spoilers*#Trigun#trigun maximum#trigun manga#trimax#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#translations#vash#wolfwood#yasuhiro nightow#long post
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God i love Hireath so far. Like you don't understand how refreshing it is to find such a well written fabrication where Sun and Moon act like their in-game self. Also I live your asshole Sun like WOW he's amazingly written- the passive aggressive and straight up aggressive uncalled for behavior has me wild. Not even to mention Moon- he's my favorite character thus far. He's just a little prankster guy. He's just so him. Rrr I love your writing style and Y/N like yay! We have a backbone! Very good. Anyways, I will be eagerly awaiting the next chapter! Love your work!
WAIT HOLD UP. WAIT. YOUR HONOR. I'M SO FLATTERED OH MY GOD. THANK YOU!!!!!
#AHHH I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE ENJOYING HIRAETH I'M OTL#I'M DOING MY BEST YOUR HONOR BUT THE DEMONS..... THEY GOT HANDS.........#I'll admit Y/N being a pushover or completely oblivious IS a pet peeve of mine#Like I get that narratively speaking it's way easier to portray someone as 'neutral' or 'reader insert' when they're not noticing things or#they're not causing shifts in the story#but I just. I don't like it. We all understand that 'Y/N' is an oc anyway. we all know it's just the author projecting.#so my y/n is a little shit who bites back#and Sun being aggressively mean is both a 'I wanna be closer to canon' AND a 'lol wouldn't it be funny'#anyway sorry I WILL ramble on about this for hours actually#//asks#crustysoapbubbles#ty for the compliments!!!!! I'm really really flattered thank you#technically#hiraeth spoilers#?#only for the tags though#hiraeth
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know that every day i resist the urge to become a chainsmoker
#mostly because i'm well aware it'd kill my already weak lungs#but also god i was gonna say ''at my lowest about last year i considered doing it XD'' well girl the thought never went away OTL#a nada wey. nadita. se me sigue cayendo el pelo de los nervios. queria hablar con mi doctora pero la maje me cancelo la cita#como de costumbre. y ahorita ya no voy a tener tiempo de andar dando vueltas para ir a consultas y todo eso#dios no se. a quien le importa akfnsnmfnsdkand ayúdenme me estoy volviendo loco#esta vez por una sola mezcla de estres académico problemas intrafamiliares y mi perro trabajo qlero#IM SO SORRY. HELP. i keep venting every week instead of saying anything else nobody wants to keep hearing this alas i have nobody else to#complain to. hashtag deeply sorry
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starting to get restless so i'm going to the gym now but have this javieran wippy in the meantime cux i miss posting here
#sorry i have no thoughts lately i'm so tired from work#things have been ... rough but i have tomorrow off too so i think i'll be feeling a little better by then even tho i destroyed my sleep sche#dule OTL#depression is my biggest opp because it prevents me from thinking about Anything and if i can't think abt my gay cowboys then i have nothing#to live for anymore :/#anyway i really hope i can finish this piece#it's lowk kicking my ass cuz i never ever ever want to finish or render or paint or even colour anything#so for me to have gotten this far already is worrying cuz i my just. never finish it LOL#we'll see#anyways if anyone wants me to talk abt the actual premise or thots behind this piece feel free to ask but i'll def talk more abt Them when i#post the actual finished piece. if i do.#anyway#i don't think i'll tag the characters so as to not clog the tags up but i will tag as#javieran#because i'm the only one who uses the tag anyway#and for organization purposes#rdr2#hero never finishes anything
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「It wasn't fate,
but my will, that brought me here.」
Happy (belated) holidays! Sadly I didn't finish the piece I had specifically started two months beforehand to try to get done before christmas, but I did finish up this piece that's been sitting in my WIPs since july... Priorities, I guess Σ(・o・;)
#arknights elysium#oc art#arknights#dino#tbh I struggled with this for so long I just want to be done with it UGHRUTHGAUIEG#not suuuuper happy with the final result but WHATEVA time to offload this badboy and not think about it OTL#I'm kind of into adding lyrics to my posts these days... sorry if it''s a bit out of vogue but I like it... huehuehue#this one is will by mika nakashima....!! Go listen to it!!!#hmm maybe I should tag for ocxcanon since I'm releasing this into the main tag.... what's the most used tag for that hm hm#oc x canon
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Ignore all logistical considerations of "would they ever meet each other under these circumstances". If you don't think Jules Bashir would have chosen to join Starfleet, imagine he is on the station for some other reason, or they meet in some other location.
I wanted to make this poll because I've seen various fics where Garak reassures Julian that far from being upset over him being augmented, Garak is grateful for it, either explicitly because (he thinks) they wouldn't be able to have their usual conversations if it weren't for the augmentations, or simply because he likes Julian "just the way he is" and wouldn't want him to be "different". I disagree that Garak would think like this (or at the very least, I think Julian would react negatively if he did, rather than be reassured), so I wanted to hear everyone else's thoughts.
#garashir#Star Trek: Deep Space 9#this is not just a shipping question btw so please answer whether you view them platonically/romantically/whatever!#Julian Bashir#polls#Starky's original posts#I'll admit. to me there is a very clear right and wrong answer here.#again not in terms of Garak's characterization so much as in terms of JULIAN'S.#I would be fine if Garak said this and Julian felt at least somewhat conflicted about it but I've never seen even that........#I've wanted to make this post for SO LONG but it's a very common thing in a lot of fics that I otherwise REALLY LIKE#from authors that I REALLY LOVE AND ADMIRE#and I have no idea if I'm just being completely insane and oversensitive OTL#but I just read yet another fic where Garak was like ''I have no choice but to be grateful you were genetically enhanced#because Jules would never have joined Starfleet so we never would have met.''#and I just want to yell WHY DO YOU ALL ASSUME THAT#like not even getting into assuming that Jules would be permanently significantly intellectually disabled#based on limited information about his early childhood developmental delays#but more importantly assuming he wouldn't (read: couldn't. because I KNOW that's what you mean.) end up on the station#You! Star Trek fan! Do you think people with intellectual or learning disabilities are allowed in Starfleet? Answer quickly! :)#sorry I told you I've held onto this for too long. and now I'm a deranged bitch about it :|
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The Beauty and The Beast Children Playing in The Snow
Ah, December. The month announcing the beginning of Winter by the cold temperatures and snowflakes falling gracefully from the sky, creating a thick blanket of snow. While some preferred to stay inside where it's warm and cozy, others, especially the kids, liked to play outside; making snowmen and snow angels or having snowball fights or other such activities.
Two young boys by the names of Vil and Jack seemed to be latter. Well, Jack more than Vil. The young celebrity didn't have anything scheduled for him today and decided to indulge his young beastman friend by playing with him. Both were dressed in their warm and cozy winter attire as to not get sick, Jack's winter coat being able to only do so much to protect him from the cold. The process of making the snowman was calm and peaceful, the two exchanging words every once in a while.
"Okay, we're done. Just need to add the finishing touches." The little wolf beastman announced with a small grin to which Vil nodded and hummed affirmatively in response.
"I'd say it looks rather beautiful." The little beauty smiled in satisfaction after the two friends were completely done with the snowman.
"Yeah! We did a good job!" Jack grinned, his tail wagging happily. He then looked around, thinking of what else to do, not ready to end playtime when they just started. His gaze landed on a small hill not too far from where they were standing and he got an idea.
"Hey, Vil. What do you say to going down that hill over there with my sled?" He suggested, pointing at said location.
"Hm?" Vil's gaze followed his friend's finger to where it was pointing at the hill. He hesitated for a minute before deciding there was nothing bad about going down with a sled, a smile finding its way on his face. "Alright. Let's go."
After getting the sled and going on the hill, it was time to slide. The two kids pulled the sled so it was closer to the edge and Vil got on, making sure there's enough space for his friend. Jack pushed the sled so it was sliding down and quickly jumped in next to Vil.
As the sled slid down the hill, the two boys screamed in clear excitement. They soon reached the bottom of the hill and it wasn't even a minute later before Jack very excitedly suggested they do it again to which Vil giggled and accepted the offer.
They went down the hill with the sled a few more times before deciding they've had enough. But playtime wasn't over yet.
As the kids wondered what to do next, Jack suddenly flopped on his back and started moving his limbs up and down, in and out. Vil raised an eyebrow at his friend's behavior, but couldn't help the giggle that escaped him when he realized the little wolf was making a snow angel. Part of the young celebrity wanted to join and make a show angel as well, but hesitated, knowing the snow would probably get on his hair once he laid in it. But it seemed like fun. And he could take a much needed warm shower afterwards. Finally deciding for it, Vil went to lay in the snow besides Jack and copied his movements.
The young wolf looked at his friend rather quizzically. Although Jack didn't watch much TV and didn't know about celebrities, he knew Vil liked to keep himself clean. But he soon shrugged it off, decided it wasn't really his business.
Not long after, the boys got up to look at what they had done.
"I'd say I did a good job with mine." Vil stated proudly, clearly satisfied with his seemingly perfect snow angel.
"Huh. My ears are part of mine as well." Jack observed, rubbing his ear with his hand. "Yours turned out well though, Vil!" He added with a smile.
"Hm?" Vil turned to look at his companion's snow angel and couldn't really help the giggles that escaped him, finding it to be funny looking. Which earned him a snowball to the side. He blinked, stunned before turning to the culprit.
Jack had his arms crossed, a playful pout on his face. It was clear the wolf pup wasn't actually offended, and was just looking for an excuse to start a snowball fight, this seeming like the perfect opportunity. Despite keeping the facade, his wagging tail quickly betrayed him.
The young celebrity seemed to quickly catch on to his friend's intentions and a smirk founds its way on his face. He bent down to scoop up snow in his gloved hand and shaped it into a ball before throwing it at his companion, successfully hitting him. For now, he didn't care about any consequences. For now, he wasn't the famous child actor Vil Schoenheit, he was just a kid playing in the snow with his friend.
And thus, a snowball fight began. Laughter and squealing could be heard from the two boys as they hit each other with the snowballs. This went on for quite a while and eventually the two were called back home to their parents. They couldn't wait for the next day when they could play again, whenever that was.
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For @twistedwonderlandshenanigans
Hey, V. Guess who your Secret Santa is :3
Hope you like my gift. Love you 💜/p
#willow's stuff ♡#willow's moots ♤#v 🦋#riofy 🏚#secret santa#twisted wonderland#vil schoenheit#jack howl#writing for those two was pretty challenging#but I'm somewhat satisfied#first time writing for someone else pfft-#I think I did well :3#and it was pretty fun#until my brain decided to get distracted#good thing I started as soon as the secret santa message was sent LMAO#or I don't think I would've finished in time#although I gotta admit the ending's kinda rushed#but that's all my remaining braincells could come up with I'm sorry 😔#and it's the two characters I struggle writing OTL#maybe it's because it's my first time writing them LMAO#don't ask about the title I came up with it last minute#okay enough yapping
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AND AND AND a vampire letting himself get bitten is I know you do not feed like me, but I would be that for you if you needed it. I know how it feels to be on the other side and I’m giving it to you oughhh AND THE MUZZLE???! Who is it protecting, really? Tim from getting ravaged or Jason’s conscience? Is it ensuring that he doesn’t hurt anyone or that he doesn’t touch anyone but Tim? Getting to the point where Jason is so deep he can’t pretend he doesn’t want to. That’s when the muzzle can come off -🐺🦇
"I know you do not feed like me, but I would be that for you if you needed it. I know how it feels to be on the other side and I’m giving it to you" - *softly sobbing into my pillow over this T_T OTL
"Is it ensuring that he doesn’t hurt anyone or that he doesn’t touch anyone but Tim?" - AND I'M UTTERLY RABID ABOUT *THIS* to the point that uh. I put off responding to you because I had to write this:
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“I still don’t think we need it,” Tim complains, turning the key in the lock. It clicks shut with a small snik.
Jason doesn’t budge an inch.
“Sorry, princess,” he says, his breath puffing warm past the cool metal bars against Tim’s neck. “Them’s the breaks. We agreed: if you don't bite, then neither do I.”
Tim feels his face heat. He huffs, settling back on Jason’s thighs and leaning back into the arm Jason has around his waist. He presses the key into Jason’s chest for him to take.
The muzzle is big on him, a loose cage of steel and leather; reinforced in certain places with silver. When the transformation takes him, he’ll grow to fit it— which, by the way, was not an easy measurement to get.
“That’s not strictly true,” he says, thinking about how he’d been forced to wrestle Jason down to the ground to wrap the measuring tape around his big furry head. He’d needed to use teeth to do it.
They’d both been bloody and sweaty by the end of it, and Tim was finding fur in places he didn’t want to dwell on for the next month. But at least it meant the wolf was in a playful mood for the rest of the night, and not a murderous one. Some nights it took longer than others to make that transition.
Jason raises an eyebrow. He puts a heavy palm over the key, trapping Tim’s hand against his heart.
“Oh? Please, enlighten me.”
Tim scowls, and he knows he must be practically scarlet from the lazy smirk sharpening Jason’s mouth, the smug glint in his eye. He loves to see Tim turn red.
“Quit it,” Tim scolds. “You know what always ends up happening. We go out, and then you get fussy, and what else am I supposed to do? You always goad me into biting you.”
It’s true, too. Tim thought Jason was bad enough outside the full moon, but that’s nothing compared to the unleashed desires of the wolf. Jason continues to look smug, and Tim narrows his eyes.
“Every. Single. Time,” Tim can’t help but tease, sinking the fingers of his other hand into the scruff at Jason’s nape and watching his eyelids flutter. “You can’t help yourself. You need it.”
Jason growls low in his throat, hand flexing over Tim’s. The moon hasn’t risen yet, but Tim swears his teeth have gone sharp.
“Shall we reevaluate, then?” Jason asks, voice low. He knows exactly what he’s doing. “How about this. The muzzle stays on—”
Jason pushes Tim’s hand to his own chest, then slides his hand with slow intent to flutter at Tim’s hips, digging into the meat of his thigh and pulling him flush to Jason’s core. Tim watches his lips move, hypnotized, “—until you take it off.”
Tim wraps his fist around the metal, feeling the weight of it in his palm and all it implies— and meets Jason’s dark gaze with his own.
#OwO#woof woof bark bark awooga#SORRY FOR LEAVING YOU HANGING ANON BUT I HAD TO DO IT TO EM#🐺🦇anon#my writing#jaytim#i'm NOT WELL ABOUT THIS VERSE#this is going to lead into Actual nasty monsterfucking werewolf sex but not until I'm done with my other fics OTL#i CAN'T KEEP DOING THIS#the wip mountain is fucking insurmountable#🐺🦇#asked and answered
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hi robin :] very random but im watching craft videos while i eat dinner and it got me thinking about ur ceramics. giving u permission to ramble about the ceramics process (or literally anything abt ceramics), if you want to <3 idk anything abt ceramics like not a clue but im very curious and every time u talk abt them i stare at u w sparkly eyes (also i've recently developed a HUGE respect for all 3d arts bc holy shit making it look right at all angles ?????literally how)
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Hi thank you so much!! staring at you with the same sparkly eyes,,, watching craft videos while you eat that's so cool,,, Also, weirdly enough, I have the same "how???" thoughts about doing 2d art. I have trouble conceptualizing making something look right from only 1 angle; that seems like a lot of pressure. with a sculpture, if something doesn't look right from one angle, I know there's probably some structural problem, and I turn the sculpture around a little bit and usually figure out that the problem is deeper than what I thought. I'm thinking of ears, specifically—how, often, my problem with the outlines of my ears (seen from the front) is that the back of the ear isn't full enough, I need to add clay, and just nudging the clay to fix the outline wouldn't Work. and I wouldn't have known if I couldn't turn the sculpture around. the respect and awe goes both ways
longgg ramble about the ceramics process below the cut :]
okay SO. the ceramics process, huh? Well, I mean, I'm really in love with the sculpting part, where you take wet clay and make it into an Animal with Bones And Muscles. I just love the animal form—I think in a similar way to how you love the human form and the way clothing folds. I do wheel-throwing too (I make cups, bowls, that sort of thing), but I've been sculpting since I was like 8 years old and I'm way better at sculpture. it's one of a few things in my life that I take genuine pride in. I love teaching people about sculpting, too!! nothing better than seeing someone instantly grasp the insight I spent years developing <333 ANYWAY
one thing that often surprises people about clay is that it's very... flexible, water-content-wise. clay is basically made of a bunch of small "plates" of dry material with water in between. the water makes the entire structure flexible, which is why clay shrinks and goes brittle when it dries. and clay is always drying out. small sculptures like the ones I make, especially ones with thin limbs (more surface area for the air to leech moisture out of) dry out within half an hour. I have to add water to the thin parts every so often the whole time I'm sculpting. but of course the clay has to be firm enough to hold the creature's overall shape, so it's a balance. it's always a race against time. it's super exciting. To Me, anyway
it takes a day or two for a sculpture to dry. After the sculpture dries out, that's when I paint it with my special pigments. (pigments that survive 2,000+ degrees of heat!!) Like this:


these are the same sculpture. the first picture was from right after I sculpted the wet clay; the second picture is after it got painted.
Then once a sculpture is made, it sits and dries, right? the water leaves the clay. but not ALL the water. that's why you "fire" the sculpture: you put it in a kiln and heat it up to ~1800°F. EIGHTEEN HUNDRED DEGREES. at that point, all the water boils out and the clay CHEMICALLY CHANGES. the "plates" begin to bond to each other. But they don't bond all the way in the first firing, because you want the clay to still be porous / hydrophilic. you want it to SUCK IN WATER. this is because you want GLAZE to attach to the clay.
Glaze—at least the kind of glaze that I use—is basically DIY glass. It's a lot of very fine silica (sand) with other stuff (like powdered metals) in it to give color. The sand-metal-powder is suspended in water to make it usable, and I stir up the glaze in its liquid form and dip my sculpture in it, and the super dry clay goes YAY WATERRR I'M SO THIRSTY and GRABS the glaze, and the powdery part is left on the surface of the sculpture while the water goes into the clay. it feels funny on your skin when you hold a sculpture in the glaze; you can actually feel the dry clay accepting the water. it feels like... have you ever dropped water on a bone-dry wooden board and seen the water spread out in the direction of the wood's grain? it feels like that.
the sculpture is left looking white and powdery and generally not very attractive. unfired glaze is just... thick white chalk.
THEN I fire the clay a SECOND time. The heat varies, but I always fire to at least 2,244° F. >:D >:D >:D and the sandy glaze actually MELTS INTO GLASS. and I open the kiln, which has the products of about a year or two of work in it, and I WEEP IN JOY because everything has COMPLETELY TRANSFORMED. firing is always risky. some of the sculptures always fail somehow—they break in firing for various reasons, or the glaze runs onto the shelf, or the glaze color turns out different than I thought. but some of them always come out BETTER than I imagined. and it's always a process of discovery, slowly unloading the kiln, layer by layer... the objects still warm from the heat of their firey transformation... hot enough to burn, if you're unloading before they've cooled enough, which I usually do because it's just so exciting...
and my glaze shrinks slightly more than the clay does. imagine that: a thin layer of glass shrinking more than it can take. you can actually hear it breaking. little quiet "plink! plink! plink!" as the glass shatters just a little under the stress. we call it "crazing" and it leaves little cracks in the glaze, like so:

you can also see tiny bubbles in the glaze on the rabbit's inner ear!
I just. (physically shaking) I just love ceramics so much. The sculpting part feels almost like meditation. it's almost a form of worship, for me, it's religious, it's a little version of creation, a way to look at bodies and try to express how they work. For the simple sculpture, I just make them from memory, but I work from references for my difficult sculptures—for instance, here's the little pile of images I collected to make my recent tiger:
the painting part is just plain fun, putting cool designs and stuff on a 3-d object in a low-pressure way. and then the two firings are pure magic. pure delayed gratification. it's incredible. you're telling me this thing I shaped with my mortal human fingers survives TWO THOUSAND DEGREES OF HEAT? you're telling me I get to MAKE COLORED GLASS? out of SAND and METAL? you're telling me after all that, I get to open up the kiln which has put these things through immense heat and see these beautiful objects and go I made those?????
YEAH. SCREAMS.
thanks for reading, I hope you had fun <333
#HIII#hi what a fabulous ask??#sorry I'm a little late; I was on a like vacation family visit thing#back now!! just in time to answer your ask and then vanish offline for a few more days I'm afraid OTL#this is so technical... augh... I only care about chemistry in the context of ceramics but in this context I go INSANE about it#sorry I wrote you a whole essay on the ceramics process... do you forgive me... do you still love me#ceramics#Robin speaks#am I *GOOD* at anatomy? eh... not the best! do I *LOVE* trying to figure out anatomy? YES
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wait omg i’m curious about your unpopular thoughts about temenos writing wise.. i love when people discuss octopath writing it’s really enriching to see what we all have to say about certain story elements. plus you’re like a temenos representative to me. your thoughts about temenos make me go “so true!”
Aw, thank you! It took a while for me to decide on what to write here, since honestly I could go on for… frankly any aspect of this guy, especially in regards to treatment in fanon. But for now, I'll focus on my thoughts regarding how people treat tragedy in Temenos' story— namely, Crick's death— and why I personally dislike it as a writing decision and why I disagree with the idea that it is necessary.
Note: Goes without saying, but this is my personal opinion. If you believe otherwise, then that's all good. I'm not writing this to say that any one person is wrong, just to talk about an issue I have with the game's writing itself.
To start, I'll say that my main reason for disliking Crick's death in SH route is a matter of practicality. Killing him off causes Temenos to lose the main person that he had a fantastic relationship and banter with, and in my opinion, Temenos works best when he's bouncing off another person; not unlike most under the Sherlock-archetype.
Also, genuinely? It works wonders to keep Crick alive, if just because it provides a fantastic avenue to explore Temenos' institutional trauma. Having a character that's lived a different experience but within the same harmful institution opens up ways to explore the scope of its harm. And yes, this is for Crick specifically; not Ort, not the travelers, but Crick.
I think it really adds something that Temenos was raised by the church while Crick converted as a teenager during a really difficult time in his life. These two are good for each other. Crick sure as hell makes it a lot easier to write Temenos in fic.
(If you have a different experience, again, that's cool. I'm glad for you. I, however, will never fail to take the easy way out.)
(This is a lie, I'm over here making up fantasy church law for fic stuff but that's not related to this answer.)
I won't pretend that disliking Crick's death is an unpopular opinion. I mean, "Stormhail Fix-it" is an entire genre of fic on the OT2 Ao3 tag. What I do feel tends to go unaddressed though, is the fact that the idea that Crick's death is canon, therefore it is necessary, therefore it is the best decision; an idea that I wholeheartedly disagree with.
Within the text itself, Crick is killed off in order to give Temenos a personal reason to pursue Kaldena, thus putting him at odds with Kaldena's motivations being driven by her ideology and worldview that, "because humans committed the massacre, it was the gods' mistake to put us here". I also won't pretend that Kaldena's writing here isn't fucking awful, because Crick's death is also a device to make the player want Kaldena defeated even though she is just as much as a victim of the church; and that's to say nothing of her portrayal as an indigenous and dark-skinned woman.
These decisions are ones I disagree with. Killing Crick off was unnecessary to give Temenos reason to pursue the culprit, because Temenos already had someone close to him killed; and that's Pontiff Jörg. He raised Temenos from infancy, but due to the lack of focus on him outside of banter conversations, it's never relevant to his motivations outside of the desire for truth because a crime was committed.
We also didn't need to kill Crick off to show that the church was a terrible institution, because Roi already went missing in action. The Sacred Guard is the main body of law within Eastern Solistia, it's not unreasonable to think that the reason why Temenos dislikes them is because they clearly didn't do shit to investigate his disappearance.
However, one thing I really don't agree with is the idea that Crick's death is necessary because Temenos' story is a tragedy. And if you asked me why, I'd ask this in turn: why is death the only form of tragedy? Furthermore, why must a tragedy contain only tragic events? That in mind, what gives anything value in a tragedy, then?
Pretend we cannot completely rewrite Temenos' story. Even then, changing Crick's death to a permanent injury, a coma, or whatever is still a tragic event; and that's nothing to say of living with the consequences. Isn't losing your faith a tragedy? Isn't losing something you worked for years to do a tragedy?
Similarly, I'd still argue that it's more valuable to make Stormhail a near-death experience because not only does it show Temenos succeeding in making someone question the church but also the terror that is feeling like you're doomed to repeat tragedy. Even if you really aren't, it's hard to dismiss that feeling; especially when it has to do with being victimized by institutions.
And before someone says, "but bad things happen to good people in real life", I'm not treating these characters as living, breathing people who are subject to things like gravity, hunger, and exhaustion. I'm treating them as choices, and choices made that I disagree with.
It's why I make different choices. I choose to make Crick have to deal with chronic pain onwards. I choose to make Temenos realize change is still possible. I choose to let them both leave Stormhail alive. Are these better choices? I don't know. But I'll never stop questioning the ones made by the writers regardless; much less stop disagreeing with them.
So, in summary: I dislike Crick's death. I dislike Temenos having to spend the rest of the story without someone he can talk to so easily because Crick's absence weakens a lot of his scenes in Temenos 4. But more than that, I dislike the idea that tragedy is necessary on top of the idea that it is superior. Tragedy's good, I adore the genre; but written in mindful doses and all that.
#ty sm for the ask!! i'm sorry it took so long to get to but i really wanted to like. get my thoughts sorted since there's sm i'd talk abt#i had fun writing this out. it also really helped to get my feelings on SH down on paper bc *man* i got thoughts on the last half of#temenos' story. along w/ how it does hurt his writing that it's not even fully resolved till endgame#um. again if anyone disagrees then cool. but this is just my thoughts on the matter and all that#also i did get kinda... harsh towards the game near the end but it goes w/o saying i say all that bc i love the game sm#i absolutely would not dedicate this much energy to smth i didn't care about and i'm glad for the opportunity to talk abt it haha#bestomato#telegram#8path tag#octopath 2 spoilers#also i def have more to say abt dena but again we'd be here Forever if i did. head full of thoughts on temenos' story OTL
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there’s another tot vocal song called “where the heart belongs” but it’s not in belonging however released around the same time
ah noted i'll add that to the list, thanks!
edit: after investigating a bit (see tags), I think this might not have been released globally yet, or is a befall and co. situation. like I do see the PV for it exists but I'm not seeing evidence that it was released officially as a single if that makes sense. i'll probably still just rip directly from that PV for now although it looks like there's also an instrumental version that I might have to skip bc i can't find it
don't know if this single will release globally later, it was released before belonging on the chinese server but i see belonging has been out for a little over a week now. guess we'll just have to wait and see. sorry for the rambling regardless of all that shit I will be uploading it 🤣
edit 2: thanks all for the heads-up it might be released on the anniversary (29th)! in which case I might just wait a bit (probably upload belonging first) and see if this single gets released then
#sorry for missing so much stuff with tot OTL i should have looked at the vgmdb overview page to begin with#i'm now also seeing there was a bunch of stuff released in 2024 but probably not globally? (namely ost 6 + 7)#those will be even harder if just straight up not possible for me to grab at this time :(#ah i see now. so for tot the chinese server is about a year ahead of the global one#so it'll similarly probably be a bit before the osts are released globally as well. i'll probably just follow the global timeline#i also see 4 physical albums one for each dude? but as far as i can tell the songs overlap with pre existing albums (?)#so i probably won't upload those either. do let me know if there are album exclusives though and i'll see what i can do#unfortunately tot ost rips haven't been easy to find to begin with though so :(#asks#anon#and now i'm realizing my masterlist dates are based off the chinese release not the global release........#i'll put a disclaimer. its easier for me to use the chinese dates bc thats how all the sources i use list them#tot is really this blog's problem child HAHA
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tentative.......... starter call for alucard's dead by daylight verse??? tentative only because i may end up moving back to my sideblog for these, but i want to try writing here first and see if it sticks!
#ooc#starter call.#even if i move them; i won't be dropping threads or anything so dw about that!#i'm sorry for the inconvenience as i try and figure this out otl ;ww;
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