#and i understand that i can give myself a fucking break

[littelovelunette]

age gap relationship reader x sevika, whereas reader is at her parents and they would never approve her relationship so they sneak off to each others houses and just fuck. it’s more sexy when sevika goes to readers house secretly and even tho reader doesn’t wanna admit it and she’s scared they might get caught by her parents lol

Only If They Knew

Contains smut, mentions of parental abuse, gambling, nipple play, fingering, gagging, implications of getting caught

As you walk into your room, you call Sevika. You had just finished your class and you were exhausted but wanted to check up on your girlfriend.

When she picked up, due to the dimmed lights around her, you could tell she was probably at a bar, gambling and effortlessly winning.

"Hey, babydoll, how was class?" Sevika asked, propping her phone so she could continue playing her game, she didn't mind talking to you over the phone while she was doing anything really.

Even if her social image was super important to her and always had been, she could never deny the thought of spending time with you even if it was through a measly screen and WiFi.

"Not too well, my mocks are coming up and I'm barely done with the whole syllabus," you said, letting your hair down from your claw clip ponytail, the silky locks cascading down your face, framing it and giving you a much softer look now.

"Mhm? Is that so?" Sevika hummed as she used her hand to pull the chips towards her already stacking pile of chips, "Hmmm, well, maybe you should study now then."

You sighed and shook your head, "Not so easy, Sev," You propped your head up using one hand and sighed, "It's almost impossible with all the sexual frustration pent up in my body."

"Is it now?" Sevika asked, her voice now an octave lower, she didn't care if the men playing Poker with her heard. She took a sip of her drink and glanced at the phone screen.

"Mhm, last time I touched myself was like... Weeks ago and you punished me for it at your place so I won't really, y'know, repeat," you said, sighing and tilting your head a little.

You watched her play in comfortable silence before reaching out and turning the switch off so the only light illuminating your face was the table lamp and your phone's screen brightness.

"You should sleep, love. Have you eaten?" Sevika asked.

"Yeah, I ate out with a few friends," you answered before questioning back, "Have you eaten?"

"Nah, how can I? You're all the way there at your parents'," she let that sink in for a while before chuckling and shaking her head, "I did, don't worry, bunny, go sleep now."

"I wish you were here so we could spoon and all," you sighed a little, pouting your bottom lip out like an offended child.

Sevika found you absolutely adorable and a little annoying but not in a negative way. You were 21 and she was 41, not the most ideal age gap, but it was definitely something your parents would slap you silly for.

But oh would it be so cozy being curled up in those juicy biceps of Sevika's and being awoken with kisses to the forehead, tender and loving as ever. Someone as experienced as Sevika would do anything to please you. Just thinking of it made you all giddy.

"I wish that too, doll," she exhaled the smoke from her nostrils, "Wanna come to mine tomorrow after your class ends?"

"I wish, I can't, I need to use the break to get some revision in," you said with a shake of your head in pure disappointment, pulling your fuzzy blankets over your head, "I'll just sleep now then, I guess."

You seemed sad and Sevika didn't let that just slide past her.

She noticed.

With the amount of women she'd dated before she knew how to understand when women masked their true feelings and knew better than to blatantly ask "What's wrong? You seem upset." When she was clearly aware of what made you upset.

"Goodnight, love," Sevika said letting you hang up first after you both exchanged I love you's and she finished her game.

By the time she finished it was 1 AM, she started walking towards your house, nothing really going through her mind.

Despite the more rational part of hers telling her to turn and walk back to her own house, she didn't let herself act on logic, only instinct.

Climbing the wall with ease, she reached your window, which was a bit open already for ventilation. Sevika climbed in, her feet landing on the floor with a soft thud.

Sevika inched closer to your floral duvet, grabbing the edge slowly and lifting it to see your sleeping figure. "My princess," she whispered under her breath and slowly clicked the lock of your room so your parents couldn't barge inside.

Sevika pulled the duvet down so she could see your figure properly, feeling the wetness dripping and soaking her shorts.

She leaned in, lips slowly grazing yours as her hands held your boobs in her big palms, squeezing them and rolling your nipples over your thin nightdress.

"M-mmmph..." As you stirred and slowly woke up, Sevika let out a little grin followed by a soft chuckle.

"Stay quiet, yeah?" Sevika whispered and you nodded before letting out a shuddering breath.

"Oh, Sevika, I can't, it feels too good," you whimpered and she sighed, letting your panties slip down your legs slowly, she clumped it in a ball and stuffed it in your mouth.

"Mm.." you whimpered lowly, trembling as her expert hands trailed down your body, stopping you squeeze at your curves.

Her hands trailed back up so she could pinch and pull at your nipples, rolling them, your nipples felt swollen after being pinched so hard. Your hips thrusted up in a gesture of getting more friction down there, too but Sevika dismissed it.

The need for having something lodged deep in your hole grew with passing time, much to Sevika's dismay anyway, she liked playing with you and pushing you to the edge before she absolutely destroyed your body.

However, today she was being surprisingly gentle, maybe simply because she didn't want you letting out filthy pornographical screams and moans for your parents to hear.

Sevika lined two thick fingers over your slit, arousal dropping out from anticipation, "You ready for the fun, bunny?"

You could only nod as you moaned loudly into the makeshift gag, digits sinking deep into your cunt as wetness gushed out coating them.

Her fingers felt so thick, stretching your hole out after weeks of punishment for touching yourself without her punishment.

You loved this woman unconditionally and endlessly, she was good at whatever she did. Especially good at sex from her history of daily brothel visits.

Your hole clenched almost desperately at the feel of her thick fingers so deep in you, it felt like reality and pleasure blurred into a thin line but you had to ground yourself or your parents would hear the sounds.

If only they knew their good, obedient daughter who they wished would become either a doctor or a lawyer some day was here, in their house, under their roof, getting roughed up and fucked up by a woman just about twice her age.

You lolled your head to the side, drooling all over the fabric in your mouth, almost tasting yourself faintly due to your vaginal discharge still sticking onto the cotton, as Sevika rubbed tight circles around your clit, making you see stars.

Eyes rolled back into your head as she gave one final thrust, twisting her fingers at a blissful angle and you squirted all over the sheets, blankets and her hand.

"Oopsie daisy," Sevika raised a brow, rubbing your pussy up and down slowly, "You wet the bed, love," her soft voice made you flush in shame and you let out a muffled whine.

Sevika took your soiled panties out of your mouth tutting a little at how jelly-like your legs had gotten from one measly orgasm.

Despite all that and her mocking, she helped you get changed into fresh clothes after washing your body tenderly.

While you were in the bathroom peeing, Sevika had taken it upon herself to change the sheets of her bed and replace the duvet. You loved this woman to all your heart's content and beyond.

[grubus]

I have a little more time so here's a few more!! I'm trying to pick the ones I think don't have nearly enough kudos this time.

Shen Jiu's Didi is Adorable, Send Tweet by Bideroo is an ADORABLE cumplane fic. It has secret identity porn, reveal and Airplane absolutely secretly losing it over how cute Shen Yuan is when being an Angry Fanboy.

The Cultivating Force by esama is, I hope known by SOME but vastly underappreciated. It's a WIP, but don't let that stop you! It has Anakin and Obi-wan Kenobi stumble upon Bingqiu+NYY and MF who have, ironically, transmigrated into the star wars universe. It explores the force vs cultivation, Protagonist Tragedy, growth and Kenobi learning how to become a better mentor. Martial arts nerds nerding out at each other, but also the jedi getting HUMBLED by cultivators? pls I love it.

Luo Binghe's 5-Step Guide to Consensually Breaking Your Shizun by TentacleFetters is a porn series where, well, BingQiu get KINKY. *leans in* one of them focuses on choking. I love choking.

Some Fleeting Oblivion by ketolic (corrose) is a Moshang fic where SQH loses his memories and SQQ is working SO hard to cover for him. We are talking "Airplane forgot he fucking transmigrated". We are talking "MBJ doesn't understand why he can't be around his husband" and "I laughed myself sick reading it".

Sealing the Deal by zarasu is a selkie au. It's a oneshot, and all I can ask is to give it a read. It takes place in the water prison <3

The Peace Between Divine Pec- ah-hm sorry- uh... Peaks by AceOfDivineChlorophyll is a fic I'm a bit behind on now, but it is GREAT. It's a fix-it, misunderstandings, "SQQ gets kidnapped by demons and then gets kidnapped by Binghe but somehow SQQ becomes his advisor/empress/everything without knowing it" and it is simply great. A WIP, and I'm a few chapters behind. But. It has SQQ being a monster nerd, a strategist and oblivious. And also a badass. And also- ok i'm shutting up now (it also has several "what ifs" oneshots to its name)

That is it!!!

Hi! do you have any svsss fic recs? I really like syonr and I'm curious about what you like to read!

*rubs hands together*

Alright alright. Now some of these are probably already well known, but still!!

I make no secret of this, but as Prim is my favorite author and very cool friend, I will HAPPILY recommend these first;

Masochism is probably THE qijiu fic of all time, absolutely adore it. It's set in their disciple era, with YQY just grabbing at whatever scraps he can even as SQQ tries to push the boundaries and see what will make him BREAK. So, so good. Happy ending!

Tarnished Gold is my favorite original Binghe fic, and I hope more people give it a chance. I think the summary scare some but it's GREAT! I love it! Binghe's thought process, the way someone perceives SY as GYX from an outside perspective, and omg LPM is such a great character in it...

of course I recommend basically everything Prim writes.

(Shen Yuan Voice) It's not gay if- by Nachtofthedead is porn. Just straight up modern time BingYuan porn. It is filthy and great and *thumbs up* love it. Bingge decides to play along with SY's delulu thoughts on gayness and everyone are happy.

The Many Trials and Tribulations of Ming Fan by The Feels Whale (miscellea) is great and I think often overlooked. A oneshot from MF's point of view on how to handle SQQ's wife beam, deeply funny to me. They also wrote-

Dust and Broken Grains , which is basically "Binghe discovers early that Crying Works" and it becomes a fix-it fic. but there's more to it than that!!! Love it a lot.

Celestial Afterglow by elanor_pam is just. So good. SO GOOD. It's hilarious, it uses the System in a way few fics ever does and it has me cackling every time I read it.

What Is Seen by CaveteDracones is a fix-it with a side of whump fic, where SQQ's trial at HHP goes VERY differently. Truth serum! Torture! System Reveal! Yay!

Dual Cultivate or Date by acernor is THE BingLiuShen fic out there. Adore it. I'm sure many have already appreciated it, but it doesn't hurt to remind others that it exists!

A Child Once by Tossawary is a very, very good BingQiu and MoShang fic, and I honestly love not only BingQiu being forced to play parents, but also the MobeiBing friendship? Great, amazing. All the relationships in this is great, and I know most have heard of Tossawary but if you haven't given this specific fic a chance you SHOULD.

easy fix by airplanelanding (TheCourtSorcerer) is a smutty cumplane oneshot, where they are friends with benefits (approved by their husbands) for whenever said husbands are unavailable for Dual Cultivation Cure. This fic just really captures the snark and is also *chefs kiss*

with the tail of the snake by tciddaemina is a very, very good monsterfucker!SQQ fic where Binghe became a dragon in the abyss. I LOVE IT. It's a WIP, but *clenches fist* it's just so good. Soft and gooey and so HHHH yes good. I would probably put all their svsss fics in here but I am running out of time!!

.... but I have enough time to recommend my other favorite fic from them, which isn't even svsss! And is how I found them to begin with!

come all ye mighty is a Solo Leveling fic! It's Igris/Jinwoo, from Igris' pov, and I love the world building in it. As they say in the author's notes, it's a little bit of an au since it doesn't follow the original plot of the comic, but I reread this so, so often. 10/10, if you like solo leveling at all please give it a go I BEG OF YOU.

[kingmaxstatic]

Goodmorning, Goodbye and Goodnight: A Post About Farewells.

... How do you break away from something or a piece of yourself for so long? Or at the very least, do so in the public eye?

Let's not beat around the bush.

I'm not happy in the Sonic fandom at the moment.

(More below the post)

So let me make this PERFECTLY CLEAR I have not fallen out of love for Sonic. I still adore Sonic and I will more than continue to enjoy it!

But I'm unsure if that enjoyment can really be.. public.. for the time being.

For a while I've always couldn't help but notice that the fandom is a bundle of bickerers. Makes sense. Most of us here are ND and VERY opinionated!

But this all came to ahead when I was watching a video about Amy Rose. And as I watched, as interested as I was. A video dissecting her current writing I realized something...

I was fucking miserable!

Why do I CARE so much about other people's opinions about something I enjoy? Even if I cringe at that one bumblecast clip of Ian saying "he wishes he could redesign Amy".

Even IF I understand the concern.

I still LOVE Modern Amy! I was letting this video give me insight, yes but it also made me feel guilt for even LIKING IDW's take on Amy (and IDW in general).

Infact guilt is something I've felt A LOT in the fandom.

Shit man, Starline is my FAVORITE character in sonic, period. But it feels like both the fandom (and the writers, to an extent) want to guilt you into not liking him.

That liking him is some moral failing on YOUR part? (Literally Ignoring the fact we've literally had a few years to grow attached pre-imposter syndrome and that he didn't just magically appear post-Chao Race Arc)

Yes, Starline sucks. Yes, he (in canon) used two random mobians for cyborg stuff. I know this. He's still an enjoyable character and I don't excuse his canon actions. It's even why in my own canon of him Imposter syndrome isn't canon.

I'm tired of the stress, man. I'm tired of not enjoying Starline. I haven't been able to properly enjoy him in a wile.

For my birthday I actually bought a Bad Guys physical copy!

And I have not touched it at all.

The stress of keeping up with this fandom has actually caused me literal anxiety shivers. I don't have fun any more. There's just.. too much discourse.

And I think it's best for me if I take a step back from it. At least.

So.. What Happens Now?

Well! What happens now is that I take a public step back from the fandom! Like I said I still very much enjoy Sonic.. I just don't think that enjoyment will be AS public any more. Gush about it with friends! Play the games! Draw art.. For Myself!

This doesn't mean I won't be keeping a close eye on my sonic moots (you haven't gotten rid of me JUST yet!) but it does mean I'll probably start blocking tags. Taking some breathing room. Finding that love for Sonic again on my OWN time. Be a lil selfish with it!

I still love and adore my ocs (and they'll still be around on Toyhouse and Art Fight!) But their stories are mine to share.. and sometimes I can just.. not share them!

What happens to this Blog?

SHIT MAN! I'll still be around! I probably just won't be posting in the sonic tag any time soon. I'm in OTHER fandoms right now (Nicktoons, Crash, Etc) If you like my writing and my art In THIS fandom surely you'll enjoy it in others!/pos

Even if those fandoms are more.. obscure to say the least? This Blog, at it's core, has always been ABOUT multifandom stuff and It feels like it's finally returning to that!

Nature is healing! KingMaxStatic is finally posting about WEIRD fandoms only 3 people know about again!!

What Happens To Starvoltz?

Though not an as.. urgent question. It's one I feel has held a lot of weight, at least to me. I know people are GENUINELY such big fans of Starvoltz and I think it's been the ONE BIG THING keeping me back from making me step back from the fandom...

So... I'm killing both Starline and Voltz off..../j (I would never)

I still LOVE and ADORE Starline and Voltz! They mean the world to me (and even the MOON to me!) But over the course of the past few months I've felt a nagging GUILT about them.. and I don't want to feel that anymore. I want to ADORE Starvoltz like I used to...

and In order for me to do that I GOTTA step back.

If you wanna get a lil cute about it, you can think about it like the two going on a honey moon or a vacation!

If you've made it thus far.. thank you. Genuinely. Thank you for understanding! I hope you understand. I love sonic, I will always love sonic. But I need my own space to love Sonic.

I suppose maybe like the main character I need to be free.

Free like the wind.

[asilaslaughters]

Part 2.

Johnny carefully opened the balcony door and tried to quietly make his way, but his steps were always heavy and Alice scolded him, calling him “you always stomp like a wild boar! Do you have stones in your shoes?” He snuck into her room, he was covered in blood, the knife was sheathed in his back pockets as before, Johnny looks menacing next to her, like a huge shadow looming. Like a terrible nightmare that was about to grab her and drag her into the darkness to torture her, he reached out and brushed a strand of hair from her face and noticed the scar that he had left. The only thing he could squeeze out, but it sounded too quiet. Is he to blame? Yes, is he ashamed? Deep down, yes, does he want everything back? Hell yes. The painful minutes passed and patience came to an end, Johnny began to bother her, “Get up!” Alice almost jumped out of fear and pressed herself into the corner of the bed, groping for the gun, “WHAT...ARE YOU??” Alice threw a pillow at him, hitting him in the face, "GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE!" She rolled over and was about to take her revolver, but Johnny intercepted him, emptying the drum, “Calm down, you crazy girl! I didn’t come to kill you!” He threw the empty revolver to the side and just looks at her. She just snapped, “What do you want?” Johnny exhaled and took a chair nearby, sat down, he looked collected, but his nervousness showed, his leg was swaying. “It’s been long enough for both of us to cool down, are you going to go back?” She answered "No" and crossed her arms over her chest as she sat on her bed. “Your actions are shitty Slotter, and you think you can get away with what you did? No, you never hear? I will NEVER come back to you. Get out.” Johnny had a nervous tic in his eye, he stood up and hovered over her, “I don’t give a fuck about your right words Alice, you will come back to me, and this time we will create our own family and we will be happy.” He took her by the palm and dragged her off the bed, she fell with a dull groan, “Fuck...” She tried to break free from his grip, but he was always stronger than her. "Let Johnny go now! You psychotic bastard!" Johnny just smiled at her, the same smile that Alice always didn’t like and grumbled, “God, you’re so ugly when you smile like that.” She snorted and turned away so as not to look. Johnny stood behind her and sat down so she wouldn't run away. “Ohhh, you know, I missed how I was always on top when we were alone,” he ran his finger along the collarbone, leaving a trail of blood from those students. She tried to remove his hand, but he intercepted and with one hand squeezed them up to the top of her head, “You know, I always liked the way you resist during sex,” he kissed her on the lips, smiled and laughed, he kissed her again and began kissing her chin, neck, chest. Alice tried to kick but was literally pinned to the floor, Johnny's free hand touched her body, he lifted her T-shirt and noticed the cuts. The smile immediately faded, he squeezed the glove with his teeth, removing it and touched the cuts, “What....what is this?! What are you doing to yourself, FOOL,” he touches them, smoothing them a little, “Why? You have delicate skin, you idiot, you will have scars, do you understand?” He brought his face closer to her, “answer the sheep.” But she laughed, “I don’t have to answer to my ex, I don’t have to answer to the killer cannibal whore!” The blow, the red mark on her cheek began to become brighter. Johnny leaned over and literally growled and asked again, “Answer. Quickly.” Johnny was bothering her, “You fool, I’m worried about you,” Alice just snorted and turned away. “Don’t you want to talk? Okay, then I’ll do it as usual, I’ll rape you,” Alice squeaked, “Okay, okay, I’ll say it. I have a kind of depression, and I hurt myself to stop thinking about... everything.” Johnny didn’t believe her words, “I don’t believe you, explain yourself,” he let go of her hands but didn’t get off her, now Johnny was fully looking at and touching the cuts, some were crusty, some fresh ones made yesterday. “Maybe a tear.“

” “Fuck off and answer the question.” Alice grumbled, “OK! I’m doing this because I want to switch off the pain from the past and forget myself like that!” Johnny looked at her and...was very surprised? “Are you a fool? From the past? Do you understand what you are talking about?” He sighed and put his forehead to hers. “An idiot, a real idiot.” Alice pushed him away from her and somehow got out and straightened her pajamas. “Why did you come? What do you need from me?” He took her hand and squeezed it tightly. He looks serious, “I miss you, do you understand? Come back to me, whore, so much time has already passed, do you understand? I..whore. Okay, I made a row with a drunk and..damn it, I’m sorry okay? I screwed up seriously.” She tried to break free from the grip but she was clamped, “Let go!” Johnny twisted her arm behind her back and wrapped one arm around her waist, sniffing the smell of her neck, “You still smell the same, Miss Root,” he stroked her waist, moving up to her chest and gently squeezed it, “Just as soft...” His hand reached her neck, “And just as sweet as when we first met..” He kissed her neck, biting it gently, causing a random moan to escape from her. He hugs her, wraps her legs around his waist and pushes her against the wall. He kisses her neck, his hands roaming over her possessively. He looks like he's about to lose control, his eyes wild and unfocused. “Alice...” He sighs heavily. Alice sighed softly with a groan, “Johnny better don't...” Johnny suddenly snaps, his control crumbling. He bites her neck hard, his hands tightly squeezing Alisa's waist. He begins to shake, his body trembling from the effort to control his instincts. “Fuck, Alice! You drove me fucking crazy! I can’t think clearly when you’re around!” He buries his face in her neck, sucking hard on the wound he just inflicted. He begins to rock back and forth, his body shaking violently. He was lost in the moment, completely consumed by hunger. “Alice... lamb,” he pulled off her shorts, stripping her in half, and threw her aside. He doesn't hesitate, his hands moving to unbuckle his belt and his dark jeans. He kicks them off along with his boxers, revealing his hard, throbbing cock. He presses himself against her wet pussy and slams into her, not caring about tenderness or preparation. he kisses her, muffling her moans. Johnny thrusts into her mercilessly, his hips moving at incredible speeds. He has fallen into madness from the long separation, his mind consumed by primal instincts. He leans down and bites her shoulder, marking her as his territory. He fucks her like a wolf. He suddenly pulls out of her and turns her over, pushing her face against the wall. He spreads her legs and slams into her, his hands squeezing her thighs so hard they leave bruises. He fucks her from behind, his movements fast and rough. Alice screamed from time to time and smoothly flowed into moans. Johnny continues his assault, his hips slamming against her ass with each powerful thrust, the sound of skin slapping against skin echoing through the room, mixing with their mutual moans. His fingers dig into her hips as he pulls her back onto his cock, plunging all the way down to his length. He growls as he feels her tighten her grip on him. “Fuck, Alice, you're squeezing my cock so hard...” His thrusts become erratic, losing rhythm as his orgasm approaches. He leans in, his lips brushing hers. With one last brutal thrust, he plunges into her and releases a torrent of cum, filling her pussy to the brim. Johnny pressed himself into her, hugging her. She became very weak and could barely hold on to him. “Fuck....fuck” He holds it for a while and pulls his dick out of her and carries it to the bed, laying her down he unbuttons his jacket and climbs in next to her. Being already dried blood. “Miss Ruth, tell me why you are so cute? Especially when you moan,” he said playfully ruffling her dark hair and hugged her. "Sorry again, I'm an asshole" Alice rolled her eyes "if you apologize again I'll hit you and smother you with a pillow he just laughed "Okay okay...

sorry)" Alice growled and poked her elbow in his side. In turn Johnny hugged her "I missed you" "Me too." She hugged him and fell asleep. In the morning, Johnny told what happened after she left, Nubbins died, the family had to hide. He himself lives alone in a new place, Alice allowed him to spend the night with her. “We need to save up money and move into our personal sheep house,” said Johnny. Two years later in 1980, Alice approached him with a distant face, “Is everything okay, little lamb?” Alice exhaled. "Johnny Slaughter, you're about to be a father."

[thatoneidot]

What your thoughts on the man with the scarred neck I was wanting to buy it

⚠️Minors do not interact‼️ Oh anon poor poor anon you just don’t know what you have done because I can ramble about this book for weeks so I’m going to give you a break down review. ‼️

Reminder The Man With The Scarred Neck is for a 18+ audience because of its dark themes and if I’m not mistaken it’s a splatterpunk!!!!!

Let’s get started 😈 I had just learned about the Hellcrew a month before I turned 18 and then I found out sanity had a book and when I turned 18 I decided fuck it and bought it I got it on Amazon kindle and if I’m not mistaken it was only 4 dollars which is pretty cheap especially for a splatterpunk book. Going in I was a little blind and had low expectations because of the amount of books I’ve read that was supposed to be dark themed. As soon as you open the book on kindle your met with the copyright and a message to sanity’s co-creator and best friend @gracilissart and then sanity writes a message to the reader stating that the dark themes is in no way glorified and that the villain ( Killian Lynch) is based off the cold hard truth of an abuser.

The first point of view in the book is Killian’s grandchild Jim (if I’m not mistaken) to break it down with out saying to much Jim got a letter stating he inherited his grandmothers ( Elaine Smith) estate he drives to her property and finds her diary and decides to read it and in her diary she wrote on how she met Killian and how he turned out to be.

What stuck out the most to me is when Elaine would turn down Killian from trying to take her virginity he would get very mad and a few minutes later he would tell Elaine how sorry he was and not to be afraid to tell him no and that he had a problem with self control from a very young age which Elaine would understand and reassure Killian that everything was alright. In the book the reader can see how Killian gets more and more frustrated with Elaine for “denying a man’s needs”

Sorry I was rambling 😂 not to say to much because of spoilers Killian and Elaine’s relationship is described to a tea on how a relationship with an abuser and a victim would be. As a victim myself I could relate to Elaine in many ways now if your a person that has had nothing to do with dark themed books or have anything to do with splatterpunks sanity’s book is a very good first read by the end of it I even had a wtf moment.

At the end of the book sanity leaves another note from personal experiences that Killian is accurately portrayed as an abuser and as a victim myself it’s scarily accurate. Sanity also leaves crisis hotlines for victims.

Sanity has my most out respect for writing a book that shows the fucking truth.

Rating this book it’s automatically 5 stars 10000/10 you can tell it was wrote with great thinking and wanting the truth about abuser’s out in the world.

You can find out more on sanity’s page @sanityshorror

Sanity owns the book and all the characters mentioned. Damn we should get me on yelp 😂😂😂

[tyliocellier]

Nobody ever fucks and then gets breakfast and doesn't end up somewhere between a rock and a hard place. "They don't?" He asked, and even though it was asked sort of absentmindedly, it was still an earnest question. She sounded as though she'd had this experience before. Did she? Maybe it was simply a more common experience than he realized. It could very well be the case...he was kind of rusty in the dating department. For several years now, his sole focus had been work and basically nothing else. The fact that he took this vacation was quite a miracle by itself and it had been spurred on by one of his friends after they found out that he hadn't taken a break for a whole year. Thinking about it now, it did sound rather extreme. Time just seemed to flow so quickly when he was working...one assignment after another...before he knew it, the year was over.

The more Anna explained her reasoning, the more it started to make sense to Tylio. It was much easier to reject someone she didn't know very well and to do it fast was kind of merciful in a way. Better than stringing someone along. "I understand", he concurred with a short nod of his head, because he did agree that it was very easy for things to get complicated. She'd sort of done him a favor in letting him know very quickly and concisely. Besides...their night together had truly boosted his mood so much it was hard to be too upset about anything right now.

"I've not been in this situation many times but...I know people can be complicated. I think that might be one of the reasons vacations are so enjoyable. It's very simple - go to a nice place, do the things you enjoy for a few days and then leave. Speaking of which, have you been in this city before? I don't vacation a lot...actually, almost never. I've been told it's a problem." He smiled for a moment, vaguely amused at the memory of his friend. While he spoke, he grabbed his jacket as well and put it on, briefly checking his pockets for his phone and keys. Once he had everything, he turned to look at her once more. "I told myself that while I'm here, I'd do at least one thing someone suggests to me. Maybe you've got some ideas you can give me over coffee? I'm ready to go if you are."

She bites back a smile when he agrees. God, she wishes he wasn't so...agreeable. Not to mention charming, sweet, kind...A deep breath, trying to keep her thoughts from wandering too far down that road. No, she couldn't. Couldn't handle anything serious right now...Hell, she probably never would--not after the last one. And that was OK. Or at least that's why she constantly tried to tell herself.

Not a date. And yet he still wanted to go out with her for coffee? Honestly, she was surprised. Then again, maybe he thought he could change her mind once they were sitting down at a coffee shop and chatting. He wouldn't, though...No matter how much she admired his maturity and respect.

But, ah...There it was.

She sighs, rolling her eyes a little, though she's still got a charming smile on her face. A little hum. "I wouldn't say it's a fear, more of an inclination," she explains with a small wave of her hand. "You know? Like, nobody ever fucks and then gets breakfast and doesn't end up somewhere between a rock and a hard place..." Maybe that was a bit harsh, but marriage could be a terrifying thing...A hard thing. Something most men weren't ready for.

"Look, rejection is easy to do after one night of really good sex," she continues, as if the previous explanation wouldn't be enough to persuade. "But once you add dancing and breakfast and all that comes after, it gets..." She shrugs pointedly. "Complicated."

[nagdabbit]

im tired i don't care if it's christmas and i got help at the shop, if it blizzards tomorrow im not leaving my bed i am so fucking tired and i need A Break

[the-woman-upstairs]

It’s just…so painful to watch Armand readily submit in order to obtain the love he so desperately craves. And while it’s most assuredly a manipulative tactic, it’s still one borne out of fear and desperation. He cannot lose this person he’s come to love and so will become whatever they want, do whatever they want just so they’ll stay with him. But it won’t be enough. No matter how much he acquiesces or seeks to control (himself, others, the environment), he won’t be able to make Louis stay with him in the perfect life, perfect self he built in the hopes of finally being loved. It will all crumble with Armand left alone in the rubble of what he created, the author of his own abandonment.

[wildflowercryptid]

something that's been weighing on my mind ever since learning about the situation with ezra / toonimal is seeing how these predators will take the active hostility that is frequently directed towards minors in online spaces to their advantage and use it to prey on vulnerable children. i think that we as adults in online fandom should probably come together and maybe rethink the language / manner we go about interacting with kids bc clearly the way things are rn is causing active harm.

like obviously, if you're an adult and aren't comfortable with minors interacting with you or your content, you should be allowed to set that boundary and should be vocal about it, ( especially if the content you create isn't safe for them to consume. ) but i don't think talking to them like they're a blight on all that is good and holy is the way to go about it. maybe just saying you're an 18 plus account will suffice, you don't have to tell them to fuck off.

[phagodyke]

this is like my fourth or fifth consecutive bad gym session I might as well just kill myself

[theultracharmingladynoire]

I am just so tired of everything but I can't do anything about it

[mydr3aminvi0let]

i wear a lot of skirts and pink and whatnot as my style has developed with me & my personality but when one of those age regression girlies latch onto me....i do not like that

[our-lady-of-mcr]

everytime i think im done ranting i remember something else LMFAO this one is extra long i hit tag limit god mf damn

[gibbearish]

u ever have to back out of a drama explained video bc ur like. i agree that that person was in the wrong but the way youre presenting them is just unsettling

[brainjuicey]

I like those little stories about heartbreak and two people who come back together like streams of a river, like the one by my house, because i think life was cruel to me and the love I had that "all turned to guilt and shame" because. because. there's a lot of reasons and also none. it just happened. we broke up. I don't even know who I'm mourning. if we could've figured out how to fix what went wrong, I would have, she didn't feel the same way. I was tired of always being the one who had the plan, until the plan didn't serve her anymore.

[iamnotlookingidonotseeit]

day one million and one of the struggle of whether to come out to my parents or not