#and i think today they crossed a line
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ough. just more or less laid a boundary with my best friend and it feels really bittersweet. good because i did it instead of taking the passive route that would make me uncomfortable, but bad because i don't want to hurt their feelings... but good again bc maybe if i start having better boundaries with them, they'll realize there's some stakes to continuing the shit they're doing..?
#i love them but there's just not a solid piece of motivation in them to take any initiative towards bettering themselves#like. i get that they're struggling and that's real and valid#but there's struggling and trying to do something about it and then there's struggling and wallowing in it#and they're so caught up in learned helplessness that they just keep making bad decision after bad decision#and even though they know that it messes them up they keep getting high#and i'm pretty sure they're due to get drug tested by their doctor soon exactly for this#and they keep getting high bc it's the only way they can cope with the hellhole job they refuse to leave#and even though there are things being handed to them to find other options they won't take them#and i think today they crossed a line#we were about to hang out for our weekly discord call (which 60% of the time they bail on bc they're too fried from work)#and they were like wait. i'm still high. didn't think i still would be by now.#and they asked if i was okay still hanging out#and my first instinct was of course as long as they wanted to#but i couldn't do it. i'd either wanna be high with them which i can't do or it would just be kinda awkward#and it's bad enough being their vent board for work drama when they're sober#i couldn't say yes. so i gently said we'll hang out next week with a heart and#some lighthearted texting back and forth. but. going with the flow with them does wear on me#i know they're time blind but i also know the time blindness is worse bc they're always high. i know they don't intend to hurt my feelings#but them always being late to our hangouts when they do show does really feel like they don't value my time or ours together#especially bc our schedules don't line up well and i always end up staying up an hour late when we hang out#i really wanna have a candid talk with them about it and i don't think they'd ditch me over it or get mad at me but...#i just don't want to hurt them. even if a lot of it is their own doing they have a lot on their plate#it puts me in a tough spot which isn't fair. theyir best friend shouldn't hurt them but who else should call them out on their bullshit?#maybe in a day or two. i'll start with something small. i'll refresh my memory on DEAR MAN and stuff#fuck. bc who better for me to test my own challenges at having better boundaries on than my friend who's also struggling#having better boundaries is one of the few things i really have stagnated on and won't take initiative to heal so if i want them#to do the same i need to set an example#personal#and. well. guess i get to play halo tonight after all
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So.... why'd Peri get assigned Dev as his first godchild?
Jorgen’s usually not the one in charge of assigning godchildren. There’s an entire department that weighs and classifies potentail Godkids to the right Fairy. Although it’s on strike at the moment.
So Jorgen has to do it by hand, until the union negotiations are resolved. Turns out trying to use paperclips is very hard. Itty bitty paperclips. Big muscular biceps. Not a good combo.
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#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop timmy turner#fop timmy#timmy turner#fop jorgen vonstrangle#fop jorgen#jorgen vonstrangle#asks#itty bitties fop au#you'd think they'd have automated everything what with technology advancing to how it is today#but nah.#institutions are very slow to update or switch onto new tech or new efficient system. so everything's still on paper at the moment#(<- upset that most of the court systems in the u.s still rely on paper trails and refuses to digitize important documents)#anyways the department's in negotiations which means jorgen has to pick up the work to ensure no other fairy crosses the picket line#which means handling itty bitty paper clips for itty bitty papers#the amount of paper clips that have lost their lives because he accidentally snapped or bent them.... o7#ALSO.#I THINK IMMA MAKE A NEW POST FOR THIS BUT#I THINK IM GOING TO ADD A NEW LINE OF LINKS FOR THE PLOT-RELATED POSTS#THAT WAY YOU CAN JUMP BACK TO THE IMMEDIATE PREVIOUS PLOT LINK#WITHOUT NEEDING TO JUMP THROUGH A THOUSAND OTHER UPDATES THATS BEEN PUT BETWEEN THEM#when i go back to the chimmy moving plot and the timhazdev argument plot i'll also do the same thing
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cc: my only main hobbies are playing video games and like, spending time with my wife. uh, nothing really outside of that... like i don't secretly read, for example. (background laughter) that would catch you off guard. (screaming with laughter) wait why are you laughing so hard. (still laughing) why are you laughing so hard. what the fuck. that was rude.
heard you all needed a dose of "partner causing chaos off screen"
tina changed my brain chemistry with this one
(april 2021 highlights) (full qna) (stream) @tinadayton
#can't believe i almost didn't think about this today#i'm BEGGING YOU all to watch this#please#ray narvaez jr#twitch#shoutout to pee pee poo poo or poo poo pee pee#that's my streamer#(i also wish i could see this as streamer au but i know these guys personally and dont really cross that line ha)
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Tbh i am not surprised that a person who openly talked about having drinking problems since 1d days, because of how crazy 1d worked has been agressive. What surprises me is people being surprised (they never seriously saw drunk person?). But i am also confused about this whole book. Apparently Maya said that that book is not fully bout Liam but compilation about her exes and some of the worst parts are not about him. But recently she said that the book is “ofc about him” so what is true then? Or did she meant it that ofc some parts are about him or that whole book is about him?
Sorry, just confused
I also am not surprised- we've learned so much more about the real stories of things and about the guys' actual lives over the last years, and the story that has unfolded around Liam has been totally consistent throughout if you've been following it, and so the information Maya is telling us is shocking and upsetting but not difficult to believe. I got an anon yesterday saying they were worried about getting similar revelations about the other boys, like "if Liam could be doing this we just don't know, any of them could", and while in a way that's always true I guess, anyone could be doing anything in private like... that doesn't really concern me. Because none of these Liam revelations are coming out of nowhere, there have been many MANY steps along the way leading us here if you've been watching, and he has talked openly about both his mental health struggles and his addiction issues. So to answer that anon... to find out something similar about Louis would in contrast contradict everything we know about him and no I'm not worried about it. Is he probably very irritating, absolutely, but an abuser or a loose cannon, well that news would shock me. But anyway as for the book I don't find it strange that she was nervous when it came out and treading lightly and later decided, fuck it. In the absolutely on point tiktok she dropped today (YES👏GIRL👏FUCKING TELL THEM👏) she even mentions attempts to keep her from publishing the book, presumably by Liam's team, that I am riveted by and cannot WAIT to hear more details about actually- like I said I don't find it at all strange that she was nervous and downplayed it a bit then. But if she says now that it's just about Liam, well, I would say it's been clear from the beginning that the book is their story. Maya herself brought up the parallel of songs being written about stuff and I think it's the same thing; it's true (she was in an abusive relationship that involved certain kinds of events) but maybe not 100% literal (I'm sure details were changed to make the story work, it's not like a word for word timeline of their interactions or whatever).
#maya henry#blah blah blah#re the tiktok also lmaoooo are people really saying she wants money her family IS RICH like RICH RICH#but hot damn the part about enabling UH HUH !!!!!#yep yep yep#in terms of the other guys and what would shock me... well obviously we know Zayn has also had a history of agression#and we know WAY too much about him being pushy about sex lol#I would not be shocked to hear he crossed a line... but think he's probably just a bit of a fuckboy#I absolutely do not trust Niall behind closed doors but the songs we have about him seem to tell a pretty consistent story;#self absorbed but basically harmless#harry... who tf knows what he is like outside of being with Louis but I would be shocked to hear of him being aggressive yeah#I have a lot of issues with him but taking advantage of people or being pushy are not even on the radar#and as for Louis... like I said yeah it WOULD shock me. I don't just love him because he has a nice face!#it's BECAUSE of the ways we do know him and know what he's like. because of his tenderness and care#and his consistent kindness and love#and his openness about his private side#so yeah- it would shock the hell out of me it really would#but then I think that anon also was worried about eleanor spiling smth about their relationship so we are not coming from the same place#my kneejerk response was I'm sure he paid her on time what else are you worried about lol#although out of everyone if someone was going to say he lashed out at them I suppose it would be her#it was probably one of the most difficult and frought relationships in his life#and one that he did not want#so! but still no it doesn't worry me#tbh there was one thing in mayas video today that did surprise me which was the premeditation#Liam actually planning using the fans against people and sneaking around doing stuff#I guess even believing everythign I had chosen to paint a picture in my mind of someone who was still#basically unaware of the wrong they were doing and more flailing than plotting#and that shakes me a little. and makes me very unhappy to hear#liam discourse
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#doodle#art#ensemble stars#enstars#fanart#leo tsukinaga#izumi sena#izuleo#thinking about that one leo line ...he fell into a river#also animal crossing parody bcs i randomly thought abt whitney today and izumi looks so much like her ....
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negan and maggie’s relationship is so. so fuckign fascinating to me. like. like…imagine teaming up with someone (repeatedly) who killed the love of your life and was also either directly or indirectly responsible for the death of your friends. imagine wanting nothing more than wanting to kill this person and feeling bitter and angry because your friends refuse to kill this person. you are so anguished over it that you leave with your son (whose father was murdered by this person), and then you come back, and all your friends seem to begrudgingly trust (or at least coexist) with this awful person. and this person is now trying to help you. he saves your life multiple times and also saves your son, the last living reminder of your murdered love. this person is asking to become the monster so you don’t have to. this person tells you that you need to come back. this person understands that you would kill him, and he might even let you. he lets you do the closest thing to killing him instead—he lets you turn him in, knife to his throat, and you’re leaving him, and your son won’t talk to you, and you come to the sudden realization that perhaps you need to go back for this monster. what the hell kind of dynamic is this
#caroline talks#dead city#like. yeah. i’m thinking about maggie and negan again#like. they’re sooo frog and the scorpion coded.#like. it’s so. good. but also so complicated#tbh in my head. i think that like . . .#i think negan and maggie will always walk this incredibly fragile line#i think it’ll only end with like. maggie saving negan a la rick grimes#and frankly. glenn rhee.#i keep thinking ‘if glenn were alive. how would he look at negan today.’#bc on the one hand i don’t think he would have ever forgiven negan either#but also i think he would have been a cross between daryl and aaron and gabriel in opinion of negan#kind of like. bitchy. rightfully so. but also like. understanding he could be vaguely useful#but then u hit the wall of ‘well. we’ll never know bc negan killed Glenn’#the other alternative is negan dying for maggie and hershel#which would ALSO hurt. esp bc as awful as negan could be#like . . . i do think he genuinely has it in him to be a better man and i want him to see his son and wife again#the FUNNIEST thing that could happen#would be if ginny and joshua and hershel all became friends#and negan and maggie become funny little play date parents#with like. maggie being begrudgingly nice to joshua and ginny#and glaring at negan…and meanwhile hershel kind of begrudgingly tolerates negan#and has to go ‘mom. mom stop glaring at him. joshua is RIGHT there.’
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tumblr ate my post, so if you see this twice, no you don't
i'm a big nerd and i really liked Gabrielle's season 2 vest, so i'm slowly working on making my own. my fabrics aren't exact colour matches, but they were the closest they had at the store, so it's ✨Good Enough✨
#miss lizzie the cat#fibre arts#my brain breaks every time i think about the lining/interfacing so that's a bridge we cross when we get to it#today's just a slow day of crafts bcs i had to walk a bunch yesterday running medical errands#and now i am ✨in pain✨ and thus must rest#life tag
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Fucking hell, I'm still reeling from the fact that we have actual cctv footage of a Palestinian being gang raped by Israeli soldiers, so severely that he has to be hospitalized with life threatening injuries, and then when those soldiers were arrested, mobs rolled up to DEMAND THAT THE SOLDIERS SHOULD BE FREED.
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Israeli Human rights groups are referring to detention centres for Palestinian prisoners as "torture camps" and yet the Canadian government is authorizing millions of dollars worth of military equipment and bombs to be sent to Israel next year and somehow most people seem to have 0 issue with this???
#sa tw#rape tw#Palestine#free palestine#today i saw a video of what used to be a human being turned inside out and splattered on a wall#and volunteers using knives to scrape these remnants of flesh off the wall and lamp post that it had been melted to#and that's just another day in Gaza now#i feel sick all the time#there is no line they will not cross#“they” being imperial powers and the armies they run#there's no limit to the atrocities they'll allow or they'll commit#I've seen too many headless babies#too many humans turned inside out#too many people ripped limb from limb and burned and mangled and twisted#and yet somehow#I'm the crazy one for thinking this is fucked up#somehow I'm the one who's unhinged
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sitting in line before dawn for the second day in a row trying to access my city free mobile spay clinic
#definitely too many animals and not enough space#fingers crossed today is our day#i dont think i can do this many more times without losing my mind#yesterday i was next in line and they got full#got here 30 mins earlier today and didnt account for extra weekend business#so once again fingers crossed and just hoping#they get full on dogs far before cats and it majorly shrunk the line yesterday#today i THINK im slightly closer to the front
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hozier again today who’s ready for me to shed a single tear about xarrastarion during like real people do Again
#second hozier concert in the last 12 months and my second chance to think about astarion in the pit#fun fact for anyone who reads my fic i started writing nothing but teeth in line for the last hozier show i saw#fingers crossed my beta reader (boyfriend. hi ramza) finishes the feedback on the sequel to nothing but teeth in line for the show today#so i can post that. finally. LOL#漫言
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there was supposed to be 1,5 hours between this train and my next, but it's so delayed that the gap has shrunk to a measly 10 minutes ahaha... the conductors have taken pity on me and let me have a bottle of mineral water on the house :')
#i don't even think im that visibly stressed but maybe im visibly sweaty#its very warm okay.#it's been an exciting ride. the delay Did get up to 1 and a half hours but they've caught up a bit#and until we crossed the border into norway they couldn't give a time estimate on arrival#i know this particular line is cursed with delays but i didn't expect it to be that bad!!#i also decided on a whim today to once again attempting pokemon ultrasun#it's the only mainline pokemon game ive never finished#but hours of playing and ive barely gotten started so we'll see if it sticks..... it feels so slowgoingggg
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It’s a fucking task to not just repeatedly post about I guess he wasn’t gonna touch me then. 今触らねえんだな. Please understand I am genuinely thinking about it 24/7. Like god. I know I already waxed poetic about it but SERIOUSLY what was Kagi gonna DO what was Hirano EXPECTING HIM TO DO. Huh? Okay… …I guess he wasn’t gonna touch me then. 今 right now 触らねえ not touch んだな I guess.
AND something else I’m thinking too much about the hanzawa how do you know you’re in love and I know he said 触りたいとか wanting to touch them and it’s the same word because of course it is that’s how words and translations work but I’m sick in the head !!!! And also the love is when you can’t stop thinking about the other person or so they say and fucking. Idk. I reread the series today and goddamn does Hirano think about Kagi a lot. It’s sickening. I guess he wasn’t gonna touch me then. I’m SICK
#it’s on fucking LOOP in my BRAIN#I guess he wasn’t gonna touch me then.#man that sun is dazzling today#I feel struck by this crazy urge to do whatever I can to support him#I like you as a person#I guess he wasn’t gonna touch me then#今触らねえんだな#and don’t even get me started about like the physicality of it#Hirano laying on his back on the goddamn floor#Kagi crossing that line and leaning over him barely a foot away from his face#what was he going to do…..#and like. god what were they thinking in that beat that breath before Hirano spoke#he was expecting Kagi to do something. waiting for it#Kagi-kun?#(what are you waiting for?)#Christ alive.#and Kagi leaves and he gets up on his elbows like a jilted lover#… I guess he wasn’t gonna touch me then#it’s fucked. I’m fucked#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#sunnfish.kghr#Hirano to kagiura#Hirano and kagiura#if you see me posting about other things I promise I guess he wasn’t gonna touch me then is still on my mind. I promise
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I'm not even gonna lie a chill ran through me when I realized that Kresley was making edits to the A Hunger Like No Other trade release
#romance novel blogging#like.... minor edits i get#and i actually do think she made minor edits to the warlord wants forever years ago#and they were p minimal#but idk for me hunger only works if lachlain is The Worst#bc that's what makes emma's evolution so satisfying#and also where do we stop bc i'm gonna be real MOST of the best IAD books have some pretty 'cross the line' behaviors#by today's standards at least#i mean.... sabine chains rydstrom to a bed and sexually tortures him.... declan chase uhhh vivisects people#lothaire [gestures at his book]#anyway i actually do find the trade cover fun! but....... i don't want heavy edits......
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not only do i love little knick-knacks to put around my room but i am an absolute SUCKER for glow in the dark knick-knacks and such. i have glow in the dark dice and a glow in the dark tumbler cup and some bracelets and at night when they glow i just lie in bed and think neat
#if i were a dragon i would hoard cool glow in the dark things and i'd prob have neon eyes/claws just saying#all this to say that i bought electric green nail polish earlier today thinking it was glow in the dark but turns out i picked#the shade that doesn't glow lmao i'm disappointed but it's a cool color still#glow in the dark stars actually freak me out#there's a place near me that used to be a blacklight-lit mini golf place with neon shit everywhere#and it sounds cool in concept but it looks like a nightmare and i hated that place but it's out of business now#so there's def a line to cross#i bought my sis glow in the dark rainboots once as a gift bc she thought they were cool too#and they didn't have my size :( but then she lost them ages ago#those boots were so cool RIP#leigh speaks#also the new monster high skulltimate secrets line glow in the dark and i bought ghoulia tho i shouldn't have#she GLOWS i love her
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i feel fucking unhinged about these leon drawings. with great power comes great responsibility and im putting all my power into these trans tits rn
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I wish I knew how to describe how my life went to shit during one day. I wish today never happened
#i'm not going to elaborate because it would take too long and i'm not going to write a vent essay#but yeah basically my parents hate me now and think i'm the most vile and disgusting lying deranged monster#and i already know it will never change at this point. today crossed the line#vent#delete later
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