#and i really dont feel like going over it again...

[hoolaand]

Three besties

💌: childhood bestfriends! lando x reader x oscar

💌: smau n basically oscar and lando whipped for reader

💭 @LandoNorris posted a story: (25 minutes ago)

Story liked by @oscarpiastri, @maxverstappen, @ynmwah and 34k others

Comments (3k):

@user1: oops, got caught

@user 2: damn all 3 of them are fine asf

@ynmwah: was it really necessary to type that on my ass?

@user 3: Norris def did that cuz he knew what we would all look at first

@user 4: I am no better than a man.

@ynmwah posted on Instagram: (12 minutes ago)

Yn: guess who ditched zak and his meetings to dress up as my gay twink sidechicks for halloweennnnnn. ps i luv my gay twinks

Comments :

@user 5: NO. FUCKING. WAY. IS THAT OSCAR SHIRTLESS YOOOOOO

@user 6: I can't believe they agreed to do this

@user 1: type 1 if you are held hostage @oscarpiastri @landonorris

-@landonorris: 1

-@oscarpiastri: 111111111111111!

-@ynmwah: Oscar.

-@oscarpiastri: sorry ma'am

-@landonorris: lmao pussy

-@ynmwah: LANDO.

-@landonorris: SORRYYYY MA'AM!

@user 7: no way these are two guys who drive 300kmph an hour

@user 8: What a baddie, she has them wrapped around her fingerssss. TEACH ME YOUR WAYS @ynmwah

-@ynmwah: js find sm deranged twinks

@user 9: she's suck a pick me its honestly disgusting like imagine being a grown ass woman and still obsessing over 2 drivers like ewwwww

-@user 1: girl stfu. She's a literally self made actress and singer and has done way more in her life than you ever will. plus Oscar and lando are the ones always running after her okay? And not to mention the fact that those 3 are literal CHILDHOOD BEST FRIENDS, have been besties since diaper days so stfu.

Comment liked by @ynmwah @landonorris @oscarpiastri

@user2: I'M SO EXCITED FOR HALLOWEEN!

twitter

#1 trending in f1: yn oscar and lando

Comments:

@user1: the kissing scene. I js saw the movie in the theaters and i dont think they were even acting.

@user2: I feel like they are in a poly realtionship and even if they come out, I won't be surprised. I lowkey like that.

@user3: OKAY these 3 are either best friends for life or they fuck each other for life, any one of that

@user4: I get oscar and lando, like have you seeeen her? that's why the mclaren boys never get into a relationship.

-@user5: omgggg, that reminds me like the Mclaren boys never dated especially seriously, all that was circulating was that they were hanging out w models cause most of the time it's js them and yn.

-@user 6: are WE FORGETTING that she showed up as their double date in f175 and the way they GLARED on live TV when the host tried to flirt with yn. and the host literally on screen backed off. NO ONE IS EVER FORGETTING THAT plus the fact that she gets princess treatment whereever she goes is crazyyy

@user5: whatever guys may this life ATTACK ME

💭YN posted on Instagram : (12 minutes ago)

Yn: the song for f1 movie is out now! stream babesss. @f1

Liked by @Oscarpiastri, @LandoNorris, @LewisHamilton, @f1 and 267k others

@f1: soooo exciteeeddddd

@lewis hamilton: lovely to hear you sing again!

-@yn: thankkk uuu lew

@user 1: What comes after 7 😛

@user 3: she is such a baddie omg

@user 5: this js GOING TO DEFINATELY top the chartsss

@user 6: QUEEEEN IS BACK

@user 7: OMGGG GUYYSSS DID U JUST SEE LANDO AND OSCAR WORE HER FAN T SHIRTS TO THE PADDOCK. I want friends like this.

-@user8: lovers***

A/n: THERE ARE SO MANY FUCKING MISTAKES IN THE TWITTER SMAUS BUT I AM TOO LAZY TO DO ALL THAT. I'M SORRRY. (PLS DONT JUDGE ME, I WAS IN A HURRY 😞)

[starlinggirll]

YOUR FAVORITE PLAYER – ૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა

AUTHORS NOTE — this is lowkk an old draft, i had to release it. also i lovee anything with dilf art sooo.

WARNINGS — predator-ish vibes, age gap (you're in your early twenties and he's in his mid thirties), sexual implications, pervy behavior

you were spoiled. of course you were.

you came from a family of actors, your parents being famous actors, your older siblings modeling, even your do uncles and aunts were famous!

you were the baby of the family. too young to act (or atleast in your father's eyes) but old enough to do a photoshoot here and there.

but god did you hate how much of a tennis fanatic your dad was. your whole family actually. you didn't get the hype, the constant work of moving your head to see where the ball is going.

but here you are, walking into the court because somehow your family was able to get front row seats. you sigh, placing your purse on your lap while seating down. "art!" you hear your dad shouting, you tilt your head, only to see a rather muscular man.

"its great to see you!" art says while giving your dad a 'manly' hug. art was like an inch taller than your dad, his muscles rippled when he hugged your dad, showing his biceps, forearms, veins. you dont realizing you're staring until you hear your dad. "sweetie, be nice and say hi." your dad orders. seeing how your mom, dad, and siblings were already greeted by him. "oh uh," you stand up, looking up at art. "it's nice to meet you mr. donaldson."

he grins, his hand engulfing yours completely. you were pretty, tiny, young, like in your early twenties, he assumes since you're still living with your parents. he cant tell whether you're the obedient type or the naughty type. "its nice to meet you too sweetheart." he bows down slightly to be closer to your height.

he stares into your eyes for far too long, long enough to make you start to squirm. "you like tennis?" he asks while looking at you up and down in a way that makes you both uncomfortable but desired. "uh, no not really." you mumble, looking away from him to look at the floor.

he tuts, standing up straight, gently patting your cheek. "ill make you like it. dont worry." you swear the world stops when you feel his calloused huge hands on your cheek. his words sound like a threat, but it makes your stomach turn in a way that's completely different from what you ever felt. he finally lets you go, giving your dad one last nod. "my win is going towards such a beautiful family you built." art praises your dad, nodding towards all of you. but his gaze lingers on you.

your dad laughs, nodding softly. "it couldn't be done without my beautiful wife over here." art chuckles before turning away. "you're all invited to the after party, its in my house. i cant wait to see you all there." he sounds confident, like he knows he's going to win. like he knows you will all go. you cross your legs, wanting to quell the throbbing inbetween your legs.

the game ends and obviously art wins.

he's so sweaty it makes him look even hotter. art approaches your family again, patting a towel to wipe sweat off his face. "see? you all are my lucky charm." he hums, making your dad laugh before art is walking towards you. he kneels down infront of you, his hand on your knee.

you dont understand how your dad doesn't see anything wrong about it, he would literally lock you up if you even showed interest in a boy your age. but somehow he doesn't bat and eye when art touches you. actually, he's too busy talking to someone else! "so, do you like tennis now?" art inquires, smirking. you shrug, bringing your purse closer to your chest.

god you're cute. with the way your lips jut out into a pout. he can feel himself getting harder by the second. "oh come on, all those points i did were for you, you know?" he purrs, tugging at your skirt teasingly. "i bet if i show you all of my awards you would love tennis." you roll your eyes before looking down at him.

he cuts you off before you can answer him. "its settled. you're going to my party, im expecting to see you there okay?" he leans in, his lips grazing your hair as he whispers into your ear. "wear something tight, and pink. you look beautiful in pink." your eyes widen, hands curl into your purse.

"anyway," he pulls away, grinning again. he walks away from you and approaches your dad again. "see you all at my party, cant wait to see you all!"

then he walks away, like nothing happened. like he didnt just make a mess out of your panties without even having to touch you.

[caitvi1room]

distracting much?

18+ men dni minors dni : amab cait , online sex , giving head , cockwarming , slut/whore used , I rushed this im sorry;{

word count: 1.6k

Your girlfriend was a famous streamer on twitch who went by the name “caitlynkiramman” on twitch , it was just her name but god did she have followers , over 3 million on youtube , instagram twitch etc etc

But her being a streamer meant less time away from you and you ending up touch starved because she would just go straight to bed when she was done because she was way to exhausted to fuck you or even make dinner.

You suggested giving her head under the table multiple times . just so you could feel her – feel her cock down your throat again , one more time but she always let you down because she was whiny , her followers would probably hear her whimpering 

But they wouldn't be complaining because mostly all the women who followed caitlyn was because she was attractive , there were even fanfics , tumblr accounts and edits of her and yes to admit it you were really jealous of it., she was your girlfriend not theirs.

But right now she seemed to be more of the damn computer's girlfriend since she spent all her time there.

But today she was playing the famous tlou2 (the last of us 2) for her chat , since she already played tlou 1 that made her blow up , that's how most of her followers had found her.

Starting the day she got up – you were still asleep so she gave you a kiss on the forehead and went into the kitchen , cooking her some eggs and pancakes , eating them quickly she grabbed some snacks , chips , cookies etc

Where the fuck was her water bottle? Oh. you were washing it.

“Goddamit baby”

She looked up – spotting your water bottle and grabbing it. “She wont care..” she mumbled to herself

After she filled the water bottle she went into the room she used for streaming, sitting down in the chair and taking a breath – stretching. She turned on her monitors and her ps5 , started up her streaming service and the last of us part two , she's only ever seen playthroughs so she was happy about this.

She put on her headphones and started her stream off with the same greeting. “Hello guys! How are we doing today? Today we will be playing the last of us part two , as many of you know i did play the first one and that was a – hit.* 

Comments started pouring in as usal  *emma3359* “i ove your accent and your channel im a big fan!* *londonbon* “i fucking love ellie shes so hot , be perpared to cry though”

“ I'm gonna cry? Why shit dont spoil it for me last time i seen or heard about this it was when it came out and me and my girlfriend watched it together , she cried i dont rember if i did though . no spoilers” she said 

“Thank you catlover for the sub! Cool now we are gong to get into the game and as i said before please do not put spoilers in my chat you will be timed out.”

She loads up tlou part two and starting a new game , the first cut scene of joel talking to tommy playing so she decided to answer some comment questions now

*beabaddoobelvr* “how old are you?” *twitchuser83907* “Are you on of? *mamamia” *what's your girlfriend's name?”

*okay – okay jesus fucking christ hold on”

“So to answer the first one i am 23 , no i am not on only fans keep your dick in your pants – or your pussy dry whatever the fuck but my babys name is “y/n”

“Shes a year younger than me uh .. we've been in a relation ship for – oh shit gameplay sorry” 

She starts at the beginning of the game . riding the horse as joel and then she gets to the scene where joel goes into Ellie's house , playing the guitar for her

“Jesus christ he turned into like her whole father figure now – thank you pipers for the sub i really appreciate it.”

She went back to gameplay , starting off as ellie and then going to the bar . where ellie talks to seth then goes out the door with jessie talking about stuff – then she was met with dina.

*HOLY SHIT? WHO THE FUCK IS THIS BEAUTY?* she practically scream

*shit .. this is ellies girlfriend? Damn ellie has some good taste oh my gos shes literally so hot id bend her over and eat that shit from the back if she asked.*

*bunny3r78* “caitlyn is extra freaked out oh my god? Shit i wish to be your girlfriend if shes getting that.* 

“Okay guys , shut up i am not freaked out and yes my girlfriend gets that.”

She flexs. Jokingly.

“Every..damn night okay not gonna lie i gotta lock the fuck in dude.”

She gets to the patrol part – fucking up with her aim as she gets to the first big part , the shopping center and the whole chat starts flaming her for having the worst aim ever , it was worse than a fucking kids.

“Fuck you all , my aim is not that bad i just am not used to it okay? Damn shut the fuck up.”

Idiot shoots a clicker so the whole infected was on her , oh she was pissed. She was saying fucking cuss words under her breath and how much she hated this damn game already – but she was being loud enough that it woke you up.

You woke up – getting out of bed because of Caitlyn's obnoxious screaming , god she was already streaming at 12pm? Did she like not have a fucking life anymore than streaming oh god you hated this , hated it so fucking much.

She gets to the part of Eugene's  hideout, well old hideout , the basement part. and people tell her to get prepared.

“Perpaared for wha– OH MY GOD THEY'RE KISSING holy shit are they fucking?”

Oh god. Oh fuck there was a bulge in her pants already , and to make it even worse you texted her . oh my god it was a picture of you in lingerie.

Honestly , she doesnt know how u ended up like this , under her desk with her pants and boxers down while she was playing the game , but did she care? No. not really but she was getting hard to the point it was starting to hurt because you were teasing , licking just the tip of her long , slick shaft.

You slid your tongue onto the hole on her pretty pink tip , making her groan.

“Fuck! Uh.. sorry guys i um stubbed my– OH!”

You put your head down onto her cock , gagging by accident , oops. You gathered some saliva and spat onto it , grabbing her balls as you deep throated her girthy cock. Making her whimper , but she bit her bottom lip to muffle it.

*o-okay guys we will continue on now! –m-ngh okay! Day one seattle lovely , damn uh.. Rip-fuck! Joel.”

She grabbed her controller shakingly as you grabbed her balls , putting your head all the way down on her cock , running your tongue on her cock , her veins popping out of her cock , oh fuck you were doing it just right. 

A little bit of pre-cum came out of the tip of her dick , lifting your head and looking up at her as you spat on your hand rubbing it onto her tip and down onto her shaft , pumping her cock into your hand ,earning a whimper from her making her die.

“Ahh! Shit. i fucking died sorry guys i suck , haha.” she whimpered out.

Your hand started pumping her cock faster , spitting on the tip of her cock again , rubbing your tongue against the hole on her tip , your head going back down her cock as you look up at her – saliva and cum dripping down your chin.

“G–guys i think i need to turn the difficulty down hah- ngh–mmph! Its too  hard.”

Pushing your head down you gag once again , saliva running down your china s you grab her balls one more time , veins popping out of her thick long veiny cock , it was obvious she was close just by the way she was biting her pretty little lip.

“Okay guys ,, wow basement part , uh theres alot of infected in here i really hope the gas is in here because uh yeah , for right now i dont really like abby.”

She looks over at the chat.

“Huh? No guys im okay my ankle just.. Really  hurt you know? Bloody twisted it yesterday.. Heh.” she mumbled out.

Her orgasm came crashing over her as her thighs twitched and pushed together , her cock staying her as you looked up at her , her looking back down – she got the hint

She covered the camera pretending that you had just came in , sitting on her lap – taking your pants off , along with your navy blue underwear that had just happened to match her hair color pooling down to your ankles

Sitting down on her cock – going in easily because how fucking soaked you were , you fucking slut.

Sitting on her cock you watch her play her game like you werent fucking cockwarming her right now like her little dominant whore.

Elliewlover ; “were you fucking getting head?* H0pe08 ; “holy shit caitlyn is getting action right now.*

Caitlyn looks at the chat and groans , fuck were they catching on? She tried to be as quiet as possible.. Making no noises or face as she came , fuck you and fuck her my god.

*NO! I am not getting head for fucks sake , god ill just fucking end stream , bye guys ill see you tommrow*

And with a click the stream , her computer went black and her microphone went off , letting out a loud moan finally , but you could tell she was fucking flustered.

*ngh– fuck – gonna cum in you baby gonna breed you!* she says ,her voice highpitched , accent deeper.

*you are ? your gonna put a fucking baby in me huh?* you add on , bouncing on her cock with a lewd squelching noise.

Witha final moan she bust a hot loud out of the tip of her cock into your sweet tight pussy , breeding you.

*gonna fuck you so hard next time.*

She says with a defeated sigh , leaning back on her worn put pink gamer chair.

[sergeantbarnessdoll]

Hello hello is mee agaain (sorry not sorry) hope you doing well and eating and drinking well (drink your water folks) i have a request if you dont want to do it is fine im just here to ramble

Alright hear me out, i did some digging and i didn't find about it so-

Bucky's accent

I feel like he has a accent when he is emotional, vulnerable? Like when he just woke up and his brain is still shut off or when he just gets really REEEAALLY angry

I don't even know if people from Brooklyn have a accent (?) Im sorry if i offended anyone

How does reader reaction will be? Do they just stand there trying to understand what he said or just go with it?

Brooklyn Accent » Bucky Barnes/Winter Soldier

Pairings: Boyfriend!Bucky Barnes x Girlfriend!Reader

Summary: You hear Bucky’s Brooklyn accent for the first time.

Warnings: Fluff, language, kissing, pet names

A/N: @laweona150 thank you for the lovely request🩵

Written on my phone. My apologies for any mistakes.

Header made by @buck-star / divider made by me

GIF IS NOT MINE! Gif credit goes to the creator.

You and Bucky have been dating for a few years and it feels like you’re still finding out new things about him. It’s like the little things you find out about him. Like his Brooklyn accent. Not that it’s a bad thing. You love everything about him. It’s just you’ve never heard him talk with an accent until recently. You only hear his accent when he’s tired, waking up, or if he’s mad about something. If you’re being honest, you think his accent is cute.

“Good morning, handsome.” You say softly.

“Good morning, beautiful.” Bucky says softly, his voice raspy.

You kinda stared at Bucky. Even though he just woke up and his voice is a bit rough from waking up, you could hear his Brooklyn accent through the roughness of his morning voice. It’s thick.

“You ok, doll?” He asks.

“Hmm? Yea. I’m fine.” You answered.

“You sure? You’re staring at me.” He says.

“So it’s a crime to admire how incredibly handsome my boyfriend is?” You joked.

Bucky smiles and rolls over on top of you, making you giggle. Bucky put his weight on his forearms so he didn’t crush you. He leans down and kisses you softly.

“You’re so beautiful.” Bucky whispers.

“And you’re handsome.” You whispered back.

Later is when you heard Bucky’s Brooklyn accent again. You were sitting on the couch while Bucky was ranting about something that made him mad today. You were too focused on his accent to hear what he was talking about. His accent sounds just as thick as it was when he woke up this morning.

“Are you listening?” Bucky asks.

“I’m sorry. What were you saying?” You asked as you came back to reality.

Bucky frowns at you, wondering why you weren’t listening to him when he was ranting. You always listen to him rant when he’s mad about something or when he needs to get something off his chest.

“Are you ok?” He asks.

“I’m fine. Why do you ask?” You asked.

“You have the same look on your face like you did this morning.” He says.

“Oh umm- I was listening to you. I really was, but I got distracted.” You say.

“Distracted by what?” He asks.

“Your accent.” You say.

“My accent?” He asks.

You nodded. It took a few seconds for Bucky to realize what you were talking about before it finally clicked for him.

“Oh-” Bucky realizes. “I didn’t know I was talking like that. I’m sorry. I’ll try not to do it again.” He says.

“No, baby. You don’t need to apologize. It just caught me off guard is all. I’m used to you talking without the accent. If I’m being honest, I think it’s cute.” You say.

“You think my accent is cute?” He asks.

“Yes. It makes you more you. Not the Winter Soldier. Just you.” You say softly, putting your hand on his chest where his heart is.

Due to the height difference between you two, Bucky smiles down at you. He gently grabs ahold of your hand and lifted your hand to his lips, kissing the back of it softly.

“How did I end up with the sweetest woman in the world?” Bucky asks softly.

“I don’t know. Fate?” You replied softly.

Bucky dips his head down just enough to kiss your lips. The kiss is sweet, soft, and passionate.

“I love you so much, doll.” He whispers against your lips.

“I love you too, baby.” You whispered back.

-Bucky’s Doll

[cositanuestra]

while on my dair rant….

sassy!pogue!reader x kook!rafe is soooo blair x dan coded.

like js thinking abt the slowburn from s1 with sassy!pogue!reader with her smart lil mouth bantering with rafe, while he just rolls his eyes acting like he doesnt enjoy her company. (they are sooo every breath you take by the police.)

“rafe, are you constipated or is that just your face?” you say, hands on your hips after a run in with the kooks. he scoffs; “how mature,” he pauses “you’re lucky you look like that.” he comments, before of course, taking an exit before sassy!pogue!reader can say anything. and as per usual, it flies over her head.

rafe, who even thought he hates pogues, cant help but feel a little bad for a specific pogue girl, like maybe there was something beneath that title. Emotions, humor, vunerability. His tongue tasting bitter after seeing the look on your face after a rough encounter between jj and him.

sassy!pogue!reader who is aware of what a piece of shit rafe cameron is, also feels a bit of concern and sympathy for him. there was more under that rough exterior he presented to outerbanks, and you were the only one who could see through it.

“rafe?” you say, peering into his bedroom door after hearing accidently quite the outburst between the blonde and his father. “[y/n] [l/n] in kook land, sorry, did you get lost? Sarah’s with—“

“are you okay? are you using again?”

starstruck that you were even in his house, the fact that you acknowleged his drug use, and even more, you seemed—worried?

sassy!pogue!reader and rafe who begin to realize they have more in common than they let on, ultimatley forming what seemed like … a friendship? it was undeniable that the two were quite the duo. Shared looks across the room when jj says something stupid, slapping his arm when he mentions one of your exes or talks shit about one of your friends.

its only when during a little heart to heart between the two while rafe is struggling to deal with his emotions, the two share a ‘briefly’ intimate kiss. just to ‘test the waters.’

“just one kiss.” rafe inquires, leaning closer, elbows on his knees. you looked at him confused. “theres a reason why you feel the need to act like you still despise me infront of the pogues.” you chuckle, “rafe, just because I tolerate being in your presence a little more now doesnt mean I still dont despise you.” Rafe lets out a breathy laugh. “alright I wont get ahead of myself, my bad.” he puts up his arms in defense. it becomes quiet again. “i’m being serious, though.” “you’re being, impulsive.” rafe crossed his arms, smirking. “thanks, thought it looked good on you so I thought i’d give it a go.” you scoffed, thinking to yourself… “just… one kiss?” “one.” the kiss was soft, and vunerable. rafe’s large hands holding your cheeks and tangling into your hair, your hands layed on his shoulders, feeling your manicured fingers dig into his shirt with curiousity, a crimson color dusting your cheeks; eyes fluttering closed.

after that, you both acted the same—but not. when an argument arose between rafe and sarah, you averted your eyes elsewhere, rafe looking helpless at the fact that you didnt really acknowledge him, only acknowledging him to tell him how cute he would look with sofia, or that he should be with her. you had always been there, the annoying pogue girl with a loud mouth, and nice legs. turned to the still annoying pogue girl that began to see through his tough guy facade. and then it became more. you’d been there when ward died, when he shot and attempted to drown sarah, when he was struggling with his coke addiction, the whole morroco fiasco, you’d been there the whole time, hidden in plain sight. did he regret kissing you? no, surprisingly. but he began to, now that he no longer had you beside him as someone he could turn to. so thats how he winded up at your front door, your eyes widening at the sight of rafe, him running a hand through his blonde buzzcut. “rafe, what are you doing here?” “do you really want it to be like this?” your voice softened. “what are you talking about—“ “you know exactly what I mean.”

you shifted your stance, “I just want you be happy, rafe. tell me what would make you happy.” he leaned in closer, your cheeks in his hands, face flustered. you wrapped your arms around his neck hesitantly as his hands reached the small of your back, settling comfortably on your hips. he felt the familar taste of your vanilla flavored lipgloss, “you. it’s always been you.”

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[homano222]

No Coriolanus Snow was not “pure evil” from the beginning of the ballad. And yes he was capable of love and empathy. But that makes him so, so much scarier.

LONG time lurker and first time poster here and I’m aware the hype for TBOSAS is wayy past but ive seen a lot of conflicting takes and thought id share what I gathered from not only the books but also an interview Suzanne Collins did about TBOSAS that I dont see many people talk about in their interpretations. Interview is the scholastic interview from 2020.

So yes, Snow is bad, Im a long time book fan so going into the ballad I was fully aware of who he was going into. But something I found really interesting at the beginning of the book was the quote from Mary shelley’s Frankenstein

"I thought of the promise of virtues which he had displayed on the opening of his existence, and the subsequent blight of all kindly feeling by the loathing and scorn which his protectors had manifested towards him." 

I think this quote, paired with Collin’s mention of tabula rasa:

“When I read it, I'm reminded of Locke's tabula rasa, or blank slate, theory, in which all we know comes from experience, as well as of Rousseau's state-of-nature human beings, who were capable of pity and compassion. She seems to be saying that naturally good creatures exposed to an abusive world result in monsters. You can apply that to Frankenstein, Coriolanus, or anyone you choose.”

Allows us to conclude that no, Coriolanus was not simply “born evil” he is instead very much a product of his upbringing. In fact, if we’re going with her thoughts, he like everybody, is “naturally good”. Witnessing horrors in war and also being fed capitol propaganda his whole life has led him to believe that the control and power the capital has over the districts is the only way to ensure order. And that when people are desperate or ungoverned, they will do terrible things. He sees Nero Price cut the leg off a maid to feed his family, and subsequently believes this is humanities natural state. I could go into how Collins works to reject this belief system through the use of Locke and Rousseau but honestly I might make a separate post about that.

Point is, Snow has a very negative outlook on humanity, but he was not born that way. He was made that way.

Now, as Collins states in the interview, upbringing is not an inherit excuse for behavior but it is a good explanation of why he has his initial cynism. You cant completely excuse his behavior because you need to leave room for his actions.

“But given all that, you still need to leave room for Snow's personality. Is a he a product of nature or nurture? Everyone of his generation experienced trauma, loss, and deprivation. And yet Sejanus, Tigris, Lucy Gray, and Lysistrata turned out very differently.”

So from the beginning of the book we are introduced to a young, starving Coriolanus with this viewpoint on the world. So naturally, hes going to be an asshole.

He views vulnerability and empathy as weakness, he is obsessive as states in text. But again I dont think this makes him inheritably evil from the beginning. Yes he has some troubling thoughts, I see this one talked about often:

“He thought of people putting a price on her. With her long, pointed nose and skinny body, Tigris was no great beauty, but she had a sweetness, a vulnerability that invited abuse. She would find takers, if she had a mind to. The idea made him feel sick and helpless and, consequently, disgusted with himself.“

Now, this is not a good thing to think about. But no, i dont think he “wanted to sell his cousin” a take i see mentioned a lot?? Hes disgusted at the thought but because he grew up in a society that he believes takes advantage of those who are “weak” he views his cousins “vulnerability” as something that would cause people to harm her. This is not a good viewpoint by any means and in my opinion it appears he is almost blaming victims for their “weakness” but within the context of his upbringing, this is the conclusion he draws, its not inherently malicious, just merely Collins solidifying that Coriolanus finds empathy and vulnerability to be something that can be used against somebody.

Now despite his beliefs i would argue that yes, he does experience love and empathy throughout the ballad. He experiences conflicted emotions after Arachne’s death:

“In the near scalding water of the shower, he scoured the remainder of Arachne’s blood from his body. For a minute a painful sobbing made his chest ache, but then it passed”

I think this is Collin’s way of showing, that yes, Coriolanus can feel empathy but he untimately chooses to suppress it and instead revert back to his cynical worldview, in which he uses Arachne’s death as a tool to allow himself to look better and ultimately states that her funeral was a “ridiculous and out of proportion”. So yeah he can feel empathy but he chooses to suppress it. This is far more complex and honestly more interesting than the take “Snow has no empathy”

Now on to love:

So of course one of the biggest debates in the ballad is the nature of Coriolanus’s feelings toward Lucy gray. And now i would like to state that like many of you, i found their relationship progression to be deeply unsettling. Yes they have their moments but with Coriolanus’s constant thoughts of possesion and his constant undermining of her culture its a very hard read. (Im not going to quote examples of this bc its everywhere in the book lol). Despite this however, I do think in his own way, he did love her. At least the only way he knew how. Not only is it a key part in understanding the nature of his descent into villainy it is also stated by Collins in her interview:

“For whatever reason, Snow has a very controlling personality. Then he experiences one of the most out-of-control emotions, falling in love. It turns out to be a bad combination.”

This sums up the nature of his feelings for her perfectly. Yes he does care about her, though he himself admits initially her wants her to win so he can succeed. He grows to care for her, though it gets twisted because of his need to control every aspect of his life . He genuinely wants her to win, not just for him, but because he cares about her, at least in his own way:

“I’ll be a wreck tomorrow! When I told you that you mattered to me, I didn’t mean as my tribute. I meant as you. You, Lucy Gray Baird, as a person. As my friend. As my —” What was the word for it? Sweetheart? Girlfriend? He could not claim more than a crush, and that might be onesided. But what could he possibly have to lose by admitting she’d gotten to him? “I felt jealous after your ballad, because I wanted you to be thinking about me, not someone from your past. It’s stupid, I know. But you’re the most incredible girl ’ve ever met. Really. Extraordinary in every way.”

Now again. Not glossing over his need to control her, his constant undermining of her culture, and him objectifying her as “his” but even he admits his jealousy was foolish.

And again his attempt to seperate her from the districts, although indirectly more demeaning, and his need for control both come from his idea that he cannot love someone from districts, who stole his upbringing from him and plunged his world into chaos and misery. Not justifying it but his reasoning is there in the text.

So if Collin’s wrote Snow with the capacity for empathy and love. Where did it all go wrong? And why is he still so evil?

Because time and time again, He is given the opportunity to change, to change is viewpoint, to see that no, love and empathy is not weak. Because if it was, how did it fuel the rebellion that ultimately led to his downfall as president?

Time and time again Snow is given choices, and at every turn he chooses himself, power and ultimately Gauls, Hobbes-like worldview i.e people are evil and must be controlled.

Snow is given three examples in his life. Three people who endured pain and trauma. Three people who did not turn out hateful and resentful. Lucy Gray, Sejanus, and Tigris, who notably endured worse than him and yet still maintained her empathy. And again, these are three people who he, at the least, had relationships with. And while him and Sejanus’s was much more one-sided, thats not up for debate I do think Snow cared about him a little more than he let on:

“There’s an empty seat by me.” The words came unbidden from Coriolanus’s mouth. / The offer distracted Sejanus, and then he seemed to deflate. He took a deep breath, walked back down the aisle, and slid onto the stool.”

As he says himself, those words come unbidden. Almost as if on instinct, as if subconsciously he wants to help him. Again their relationship is very onesided but I do think its more complex than Snow wants to let on. But honestly to unpack all of it is another post in itself and this one is already super long.

So yeah Snow does, at least a little, cares about these people. Its what makes his betrayal of them so much worse. He knows them, he listens to them tell him that the worlds not all evil, that humans have a natural goodness, that they see the goodness, even if its small, in him. And yet he chooses Dr. Gaul. He chooses power and stability over love and nature.

And that is what makes him a monster. Not that “oh hes an asshole in the beginning so surely hes just predestined to be an asshole!” No. He has every opportunity to love, he even understands it! And yet he chooses to cut it out and weaponize it.

And this is what makes him so evil in the original trilogy and SOTR. He knows how out of control love is, he knows how it feels to be vulnerable, to love someone. And yet, because he views it as weakness, he utilizes it as a weapon against Katniss and Haymitch. This is why the ballad is so tragic, he knows what its like to be a lovestruck teen, and yet he goes on to torture people with the same love that could have saved him, had he let it.

TL;DR

Snow is very much a product of his upbringing. It explains his worldview, but it does not justify it. He is capable of love and empathy as stated by both Collin’s in her interview and in the text. But throughout the book, he chooses power and inevitability rejects love, making him evil. This is why hes so evil in SOTR and the original trilogy; he knows what it means to love and fear, he is the original victim of the capitols and Dr. Gauls propaganda, but you stop being a victim once you victimize others. I would also argue that by stating that Snow was “always evil” buys into his and Gauls toxic worldview.

Thanks for reading! Sorry about the long post lol and idk who will see this but these are my thoughts. Im always open to discussion and give me a follow if you want to talk TBOSAS!!

[numberonekrisfan6453]

"Suselle this" "Krusie that" STFU!! THIS IS WHY ALL OF THEM ARE PEAK

+Kriselle is peak too and why Krusielle is THE BEST out of everything. Posting this on tumblr before I maybe post this on tiktok, Its pretty fucking long tho so I doubt anyone would read this all

TLDR:

Each one of them gives something to the table every ship is missing overall. Suselle is sweet but missing closeness, Krusie has chemistry but is missing maturity, and Kriselle has tension but is missing boldness. All three of them are very well written and unique to where all three ships are very well made and they all have their own type of chemistry with one another.

SUSELLE

"Suselle is stereotypical, boring, and Noelle only likes Susie from the outside" NONE OF THOSE ARE TRUE!! IF YOU ACTUALLY GAVE A FUCK ABOUT UNDERSTANDING THE CHARACTERS (esp Noelle) THEN YOU'LL UNDERSTAND.

First stereotypical is only bad when the stereotype is harmful and shallow. Yes it is nerd x strong girl all over again but Noelles whole personality and reasoning for liking Susie isnt that she wants to be saved by some strong butch. She likes Susie because she hates the part of herself that is vulnerable all the time. This is seen throughout the whole game, her father mentions how she gets like "A deer stuck in headlights" when facing her fears, and shes actively trying to be better by exposing herself and eventually feeling comfort in scary things. This is why she adores Susie because she wants to be stronger and the same thing people hate about Susie, Noelle loves and appreciates. (Kriselle part goes abit more into Noelle)

And also Susie definetly likes Noelle back. Have some media literacy people!! Susie is constantly trying to know what Noelle thinks of her, shes always asking questions of if Noelle thinks/dreams of her. She doesnt do that with anyone else. And Susie 'spared' her because she thought her smile was nice?? After chapter 2 she also talks and thinks about Noelle pretty frequently. Thinking about what Noelle would do or like, we dont obviously see into her thoughts all the time but that just proves that when she thought about what Noelle would do that its something to note. Though its not implicitly stated, Susie does have feelings towards Noelle and likely doesnt know what romantic love feels like. Also she tells Kris to look for the clues instead of her despite knowing Kris is close to Noelle more, maybe im looking into it too much but shes definetly interested in knowing more about Noelle and wanting to know what Noelle thinks of her. She never cares about that with others thinks until theyre close.

The two of them together two have really good chemistry. Noelle needs someone who can put her out of her comfort zone and matches her freak (in scary things.) Meanwhile Susie needs someone who can give her reassurance, love her flaws, and be mature enough that Susie doesnt accidentally do something stupid.

KRUSIE

Kris and Susie definetly have the best chemistry out of all the ships. The shippers piss me off though, the 'Cuckelle' memes is really disgusting considering thats a highschool girl youre talking about and the image is likely from rule 34. Theyre the whole reason im making this post in the first place cause yall just dont care about Noelle and it shows. So if you skipped the Suselle part, go the fuck back and maybe try to actually understand Noelle. (Im not saying all Krusie shippers are misogynistic, but this is constantly happening with fandoms hating or ignoring feminine women because they get 'in the way of a ship'. This is why ship wars are always happening because you refuse to see every character equally and respect others opinion)

Im not saying all Krusie shippers, just ignorant ones. If you dont think youre apart of that then its not directed to you. -- This was mainly aimed at tiktok people, idk about tumblr shippers but yall seem chill

Anyways!! Krusie is very much peak and I SWEAR Tricky Tony is hinting at it. YOU CAN NOT TELL ME THAT THAT SCENE WHERE KRIS PULLS SUSIE, IT WASNT IMPLYING THEY WERE ABOUT TO KISS. Like the build up hello?? for the arguments

"Susie used to bully Kris so its weird" Which I feel is a somewhat valid argument for not liking it especially if you have been bullied before, but them as characters make it work. Susies bullying came from a place of jealousy, it hasnt been stated yet but Susie obviously has a bad home life. When Susie mentioned her being treated by Toriel at the Diner, at that point Susie started seeing Toriel as an idolized maternal figure. It seems like every scene Susie was being mean to Kris, she mentions their mom. Susies frustration to Kris comes from a bad childhood and maybe also because shes afraid Toriel told Kris about Susies soft side so tries to seem tougher around them? But not sure.

Kris doesnt give a fuck, or atleast tries to show that they dont. On Noelles blog when she was writing about Susie picking on Kris, Kris seems very nonchalant about everything, even laughing and then saying something to make Susie immediately run off. It may also seem like Kris is just acting but even during the game when Susie almost bites off their head, they just dont move or struggle. (They can move without our influence, just not certain choices and gameplay). Though we dont know why Kris isnt responsive, its likely that they just dont care or some people think they may be suicidal, but I (want to) believe more in the first reason. They understand Susies pain and insecurities and they know she wont actually cause any harm. Though if the second reason they might not care because they dont care about what happens to them, or worse they like that Susie harms them... Getting abit dark, I love character examinations tho so I really might do one of kris one day. >:)

Now for the present, all of their interactions literally make me say "I love these two so much", theyre both just weirdos with maybe violent tendancies and trauma but seem to find comfort with one another which makes everything so much better. They are constantly saving one another, Susie also expresses alot of guilt that they werent friends before. I feel that in future chapters we'll likely go into that hopefully. Susie also gives Kris a sense of freedom. Kris very obviously hates their situation that they have no choice in what to do oe say, Susie just does whatever she wants. Shes constantly dismissing the players choice and pointing out certain things that Kris themself does. She is what Kris needs, someone that they can be goofy with and forget that theyre being controlled. Though, this ship is also a breeding ground for angst

Susie doesnt know Kris. Though Kris's personality shines out sometimes, theres scenes where its obvious that she doesnt understand them. Noelle states that Kris has been acting weird, and its said before Kris knows Noelle better than anyone, this can be seen as vice versa as Noelle was Kris's best friend before they got possessed. But when Noelle says that, Susie says "thats just how Kris is" thinking that Kris is normal when being controlled. Not only that, Susie has major trust issues. She says "Theres nothing I hate more than people who dont tell you the full deal". Theyre really leading us into angst, because Susie is going to be seriously heartbroken when they find out that Kris is in cahoots with the knight (supposedly) and that the person she thought was her first closest friend was actually posessed all along. Also note in the snowgrave route after you and Noelle talk in her room, when youre walking to the chuch with Susie she thinks you were talking bad about her with Noelle. Which KILLS me. Kris isnt able to say anything about it too. It seems like in the snowgrave route Susie is also pretty affected by everything.

Still, I really like the ship based on their chemistry together. Susie is just what Kris needs, platonic or not. Also I love angst but if they dont get a happy ending where Kris and Susie are happy together I will hunt down Tony.

KRISELLE

Besides the very angsty toxic yuri snowgrave route, Kriselle is also very cute and rare in the fandom. Though its not as popular I still think theyre pretty cute for each other and have a good dynamic

Its established that Kris and Noelle were very good childhood friends, and even though its hard to pinpoint their relationship now, they still very clearly care for one another and consistently go out of their way to help one another. (Also though I said besides the snowgrave route, ill still be using it for reference). For Noelle she still always wants to help Kris, first scenes we see of her she offers to ask the teacher for a trio since Kris was late. She also mentions how Kris knows her the best, Noelle is very much a weirdo, maybe not as much as Kris but she does love games, horror movies and creepy pastas. Shes interested in things that scare her and wants to be braver. Though Kris is controlled now, whenever Kris was little and pranked Noelle I like to think that Kris knew about Noelles situation and wanted to help her. Kris helps Noelle to be more of her true self, and despite Noelle being unsure if they’re friends now (likely to the whole Dess situation and their familys being seperated), shes still always fond of Kris and knows Kris always wants the best for her. She also knows Kris the best out of everyone, able to tell whenever theyre not themselves and does show concern. Also Noelle was so easily manipulated in the snowgrave route because she trusts Kris so much, she believed that Kris is just helping her get stronger and they would never do anything to harm her.

For Kris to Noelle, though we cant see it alot in the main route we do go more into it in snowgrave. Its likely that Noelle was Kris first friend, Kris has been described as sorta a menace growing up. Noelle is always really understanding and patient for others, even for berdly who probably makes her uncomfortable alot, she still stays his friend and helps him with his grades. Those aspects are something Kris needs especially with their condition right now. Its also seen throughout the snowgrave route, Kris very much cares about Noelle aswell. After chapter 2 snowgrave route, Noelle mentions Kris coming over to their house, reassuring her that everything will be ok. Even in their souless weak state, they go out of their way to walk to her house, probably climb her gate, and say sorry. And in chapter 4 snowgrave, this is the most we ever see them frustrated at our actions. Their mood becomes less happier, theyre frantic to stop the soul making everything worse, and becomes more violent, kicking us constantly and biting their hand from us doing choices they do not agree to. My theory why their relationship deteriorated was a part of this reason, cause they were scared that the souls actions would hurt her.

NOW WHY KRUSIELLE IS THE BEST OUT OF ALL OF THEM

Ive already gone through all of each others relationship so ill just go over why adding the character to the different ships is the best option

Suselle - Kris is the bridge for them, Susie and Noelle didnt start hanging out till Kris was there to help them. Yes maybe at some point they wouldve started hanging out by themselves, but Susie only started softening up and being ok with others because they were friend with Kris first. Right now, Kris knows the both of them the best. If Kris does have romantic feelings for any of them, it just feels super sad.

Krusie - Even if theyre lovable stupid weirdos together, we need someone in this relationship who will be mature and not lead them to accidentally kill themelves. Ralsei is originally this role but considering Ralsei may or may not be related to Asriel its sorta weird without confirming. Also Ralseis pushover when it comes to them (love u Ralsei sorry). Noelle is the best person for this. Shes smart, non judgmental, and though shes also a pushover shes actively trying to be better and most likely less more bold the more comfortable she is with the person. In the long run Kris and Susie will probably end up burning everything if Noelle isnt there to help them be more mature. Noelle will also likely be a mediator, Kris doesnt talk about their problems and Susie needs communication. Noelle is mature enough to help the both of them.

Kriselle - Even though theyre childhood friends, they both seem to be very avoidant about their situation right now. Like how Susie is in the fun gang, shes always the one being bold and being a beacon of hope when Kris and Ralsei is pessimistic. I like to see it as Susies the only one out of the three who would point out they didnt want pickles in their burger. Susie is also likely to convince Noelle to talk about Noelles and Kris's damaged friendship, Susies always curious about them being close and even though Noelle dismisses it, Susies bold enough to make Noelle face the problem.

Conclusion:

Shut the fuck up, they are all good ships.

Uh, Kerdlys also here ig

Torturing Kris in a funny way,

TECHNICALLY, You can see it canon that Kris is Berdlys gamer soulmate since they both play the same games,

I hate that damn bird but I support yall Kerdly shippers u guys funny,

[epicqtefail]

i'm really sorry that once again i'm making a personal post, i keep doing that lately but then i shoot myself in my stupid foot because i play it down and say i'm getting better and that i'll be back to normal and then i don't go back to normal and feel ashamed about it and idk why i do that

i never want to talk about personal issues and usually the thought of putting it on my blog would make me want to shrivel up into a raisin. i'll keep it short and sweet like the raisin i'll become once i hit post. i think i'm having or about to have a nervous breakdown. i've somehow now lost the capacity to cope with a stressful situation that I was previously handling, and because of that, just lately i can't trust myself to do anything without spectacularly messing up including my job which is scary. i'm losing weight rapidly which i imagine is making it worse and i can't stop shaking in an on-and-off rhythm like a phone on silent lmao so i've been advised to make a GP appointment tomorrow which i will listen to this time and will hopefully get the ball rolling on finding some help to function around it again *spongebob bwomp sound effect*.

that's not to say you'll be rid of me that easily. maybe i should stay off social media but my mood shifts to where i get a lot of comfort from looking at art and writing and keeping up with you guys and if i dont get my dose of wretched robot video game characters i'll perish (it isn't lost on me how lucky i am to still have these comforts and that i get to interact with and collaborate with such wonderful people who keep me inspired). and when i started writing this post i wasn't at all in the mood to joke around, i was really sad and now i want to be light-hearted.

but i just wanted to warn that i'd like to keep being social but i might be worse at it, and i might be extra boring. i disappear because things happen, but i also struggle to come back from those times because i worry about coming across as unenthused or behaving differently. but if i've expressed where i'm at, even if no one reads this, i might subconsciously worry less about that. i have no idea when i'll be back to normal, and i don't want to be gone until then.

this is not a plea to be gentle with me. god no. i like the opposite (disclaimer: i mean that in an appropriate way). it's also not a plea for your attention or time either, like if i comment on something of yours please don't feel like you have to interact with me just because im going through it rn. everyone is dealing with something and just because i have my bullshit i haven't forgotten that nor have my feelings changed about interacting with this community (also if you struggle with replying i am forever holding your hand and telling you its fine and that i love you). i just want to be As Usual, that's what this is all about. i want to go about as normal but obviously i won't be completely normal atm so would like to just get that out there so at least i've explained why

ok here are my guts spilled all over the floor thanks for reading i'm gonna go make a cup of tea but accidentally smash the handle off the mug on the cooker grate or pour the whole drink into the bin in the process and hope my rattling eyeballs don't explode because i'd like to read fanfiction tonight

so much for keeping it short and sweet *turns into a raisin*

[meadowlarkutility]

i’m gonna say something and i need you guys to not crucify me for it…

we already know mike and el are gonna be physically separated by different plots for virtually the entirety of s5, and they’ve already been put through the wringer with the whole “my girlfriend doesn’t need me” and “my boyfriend doesn’t love me / i need to find myself” sentiment…

from a television perspective and also just plot wise, WTH are they gonna do while they’re apart from eachother AGAIN? eight more episodes of mike missing his girlfriend and el having doubts about their relationship when she’s supposed to be trying to save the fcking world???

i really dont see them recycling the same S4 relationship drama with them esp when, if their intention was to consolidate their love, they could’ve given Mike and El a solo mission or a plot in the UD together, or literally anything where they’re working towards a common goal and developing their relationship💔. And this next thing I don’t mean in a way that’s attacking his character but it’s just an objective fact; Mike, plot wise, is dead in the water without Will or El.

Every single one of his personal struggles, goals, or “quests” in the show revolves around either Will or El. El’s struggle with her powers and search for independence/ identity, Will’s supernatural plot and his emotional turmoil that Mike is constantly being put in a position to “save” him from — but he’s also kind of like a timebomb with all of these unexplained things he does. And this could just be chalked up to bad writing, or the fact that his character, right now, is literally just a reaction to the happenings of Will and El.

But he has an opportunity to be developed, and explain all this, because otherwise, it looks like they’ve written themselves into a corner.

Will has already “confessed” and his reveal of his feelings towards Mike is done. Yes, they’re still setting up a way for him to come into his sexuality and be open about it with Joyce and Jonathan — but (at least in my opinion) he’s already “ripped off the bandaid” and accepted he’s never going to pursue a relationship with Mike. There is no way for this plot to be propelled forward any more without Mike’s involvement.

El and Mike still have some unresolved tension but it looks like they’re still going strong where the season takes off! So going back to my original question… what are Mike and El, if not breaking up and going on separate quests on the search for identity, going to do for eight more episodes they’re not spending together? In the last season???

The trajectories of ALL THE OTHER characters are clearly defined:

Lucas is grieving Max. Dustin is grieving Eddie and wrestling with his continued rebellion against conformity, Will is just obviously cooked 🥀 (and having nightmares, visions, ect and an incredibly strong plot that goes beyond his sexuality, but that is also inexorably linked to his sexuality and a reclamation of his trauma in a way where Mike’s involvement arguably isn’t even needed!)

El has an incredible amount at stake: Her internal feeling of failure for not being able to save Max, having to shoulder that she’s the savior of their world, her relationship with Hopper… her complex relationship with her past. El is a fucking beautiful character thats emotionally stunted when she’s pushed into these insular fights with Mike and contemplating her relationship, so it makes sense that in the last season she’s moving even further away from it.

So everyone has a (somewhat defined) goal, we know what they’re up against next season, we’ve seen their perspectives and understand their motives… WHY are we being evicted from Mike’s head over and over BRO.

Mike’s family is obviously going through it too, but El is going to be on her own and the plot has been allergic to developing him as a character outside of his broken relationship with El — where he does so many things that are left open-ended and deliberately confusing— that with the way the writers have set up the show, the only thing he can do right now is either spend the entire season with El, or have a sexuality crisis💀

and it doesn’t look like he’s spending the season with El💔💔

[riemanifests]

rie's reflections #2

mamas got new thoughts she wants to share so here are they!!! this is more me talking to you and myself... not really any thinkity thinks. 　

don't be embarrassed to boldly assume that reality must conform to you and to believe that what you decide will happen is what's going to happen. you only live once so commit to going all in!! be delusional or crazy who cares!? don't be afraid to choose your own truths rather than just leaving them up to reality because why would you anyways? reality must follow YOU so RUN THE SHOW BABES!! LEAD US! 　

be like fucking ice, stop being like water flowing with reality every which way and just taking everything it gives you. stop being so fucking easy. NO. reality must conform to you so be like ice instead and stand so solid in your desired assumption that reality must reflect them back to you because either way it has to! 　

you're allowed to be crazy if you want to be. you can be strange, delulu, or weird whatever the fuck you want to be. your life can be like a fucking movie you can have experiences that look like the ones that happen in only movies, experience whatever! you're the god here so you dont have to be normal or live a normal life! if you want to experience delulu moments and make your life your own movie then be free my dear and manifest it! 　

does it seem like reality is playing tug of war with you? do you feel this inner struggle because of your difficulty to control reality? then fucking pull back ten times harder bitch! be fucking tougher and control yourself! you CAN control your mind, so tell that inner resistance or doubts to get the fuck up and out of your damn way because YOU are the boss here! now this does not mean freak out over every single thought you get because the only thoughts that matter are the ones you hold onto and continue to think. but again anytime you feel like you're about to stand down and conform to reality like a dog i want you to get the fuck up and bark at it ten times harder. show reality who's the boss because it's you boo! 　

you're not separate from anyone in reality. i like to visualize an invisible energetic string that links you to everyone else like your sp when i think of thought transmission or even in general like i have a true inner belief that even if my sp is not in the state or not physically with me or even if we're not talking it doesn't matter we're still locked the fuck in together! so you can fucking send them thoughts make them do shit or whatever, bitch use your free will because they don't !! be creative omg yall we do not use our power enough and it shows, like guys can we start manifesting the most crazy shit and just use our free will in weird ways?? 　

stop overthinking it. it's okay if you feel delulu or fucking crazy, just let yourself feel that way! go all in and assume that you have what you want, be cocky and have the audacity of a god because you are one. leave no room for hesitation or doubt don't even give yourself time to doubt yourself because you already decided that it's yours and period thats your truth babes! but seriously just be willing to be fucking "delulu" and crazy. you don't need to give your doubts the microphone every single time they come up, i know that there are moments where you can just let them go without entertaining them. don't suppress them though, but be aware and accountable! and honestly you have nothing to lose sanity is overrated. 　

it is not that serious. like what reality shows you doesn't matter because either way it's the loyal reflection of your mind so you know just like i know that no matter what it "looks" like right now no matter what "may be going on right now" it has to show you whatever it is in your mind. and well if you're being truthfully loyal and persistent in your desired assumption then stop stressing and know that reality must show you that babes. 　

why would you choose to live in a reality where you don't feel safe? why would you let your fears stay and fester and be scared that they'll manifest? BITCH CUT THAT OUT! you deserve to live in a reality where you know that shit absolutely goes your way and that nothing that you don't want to happen EVER happens!! yes you are capable of doing that you are the god of your reality so start acting like it. tell yourself that you do not live in a reality where that is possible nor is something you will ever experience because you decided so as the boss! 　

also one last note realest is don't be afraid to feel your feelings and be upset about something in the 3d like it doesn't matter as long as you know that this is in the moment and temporary and not something permanent. but don't suppress your feelings and don't make them mean anything about your desires either like just be upset for the sake that you're upset you dont have to overthink it and overpile your problems just let yourself feel babes

[letshaveaconclave]

Aldo’s Adventures in Babysitting

Description: When Aldo gets left to babysit his grandniece for a night he’s left with no choice but to get help from an unlikely source.

A/N: I haven’t published in a really long time so please forgive any spelling and grammar, thank you to my beta reader @will-we-talk for checking over any religious mistakes for me.

Let it be said that Aldo Bellini had never claimed to be a ‘kid person’ nor good with children. He skirted by at baptisms managing to not hold the infants for longer than needed and he had always tried his best to avoid Sunday school when possible. That’s not to say he didn’t like children, quite the opposite, he had plenty of nieces and nephews- some of which have now had children of their own. He had spent time with them growing up, watching the older ones for an hour or two whilst their parents had a meal or talking to them during family events. But one thing Aldo definitely wasn’t prepared for or used to was the small ones, babies, they were certainly a lot of work and took so much observation that Aldo thought them simply out of his depth.

He wasn't quite sure how he had ended up in this situation, sitting on a sofa staring at a wide eyed infant in a car seat that his niece had thrust into his arms. It was possible he had agreed to this last night? His niece was visiting Rome for a few days with her partner and had called him to discuss the trip a few days ago, he supposed she must have taken their discussion of her dinner plans as a confirmation that he would watch the little one.

Maria was a little thing, six months he thought? Certainly younger than he’d thoughtbabies could travel but he was no expert. So far she didn’t seem to be much trouble but then again he’d only had her about twenty minutes. Twenty minutes of sitting staring at her just sitting there. As he was about to accept that the situation perhaps wasn’t so bad her little face contorted into a grimace before her heart shattering screams came through.

He sat there in stunned silence for a second before coming to his senses and reaching for her, “Uh-are you hungry? Maybe- um” in his panic he struggled to undo the little plastic buckles of her seat “you’re gonna have to help me here i dont know what I’m doing”, her screaming simply continued. Pulling Maria clumsily to his chest, hands gripping her underarms he bounced her slightly trying to calm her.“Come on what’s the matter Maria- I can’t fix it if you don't tell-oh” a slightly foul smell graced his nose, good god he was going to have to change her, he didn’t know how to change a baby, maybe he could watch a YouTube tutorial?? How was that going to look on an old priest’s search history he dreaded to think.

“Can’t be that hard can it?” His train of thought is derailed by a loud series of knocks on his door making Maria sob louder. Securing his hold around the infant Bellini walked to the entrance, who on earth would be visiting him right now?

“Tedesco?” He questioned through the screaming “Why are you here?” He really needed to do something about Maria’s diaper, the poor girl was just sitting in it whilst he stared down Tedesco “eh come in”. It wasn’t so unusual for Tedesco to drop by unannounced, since the conclave the two had developed an interesting dynamic. They would often go to each other’s homes whilst they were in the area, meet for meals, and spend a night together. The last addition being the main motivation for their meetings, if neither of them were to be Pope then why should they repress their inner frustrations and needs, it wasn’t exactly uncommon for members of the Curia to disturb their vow of chastity and if anything this was better since there wasnt much in the way of feeling involved right?

Tedesco stepped into the apartment and observed the scene before him, eyes drawn to Maria and quickly softening as a slight smirk reached his lips “I did not think you would have a visiter eminence”. His amusement was clear in his tone, seeing Belini so out of his depth was a rare site to be cherished indeed.

“Until thirty minutes ago I didn’t think I would either.”

“And who is the piccola principessa? Don’t tell me she’s yours” his booming laugh came through at the end, it was almost enough to warm Bellini out of his stupor.

Bellini slightly held out the squealing infant “this is my grand-niece, Maria, her mother dropped her off half an hour ago. She needs her diaper changed but I don't know what to do with these things I’ve never had to watch a baby before” he didn’t miss the slight sympathetic glint in Tedesco’s eyes at his words, good God now he was standing here in his apartment with Tedesco and a crying infant. The man was a traditionalist, it wasn't as if he’d know what to do in this situation, he probably thought the child care should be left to the women.

“Bah, we can’t have that, Posso io?” He reached towards the infant and in his confusion Bellini handed her over to the man.

“Where is the, uh, borsa per pannolini?”

Bellini gestured vaguely in the direction of the kitchen “diaper bags on the kitchen counter, are you sure you know what you’re doing?” He looked to Tedesco as he lightly rocked the infant from side to side, much to Aldo’s amazement having managed to calm the girl from screaming to muffled sobs into his shoulder.

“I have hoards of nieces and nephews Aldo, if I didn’t know how to change a diaper by now I'd be a poor uncle indeed”, Bellini blushed at that, the mixture of embarrassment over his own shortcomings mixing with the butterflies of the informal first name. Without another word Tedesco had moved to the kitchen table, unpacking the bags contents and laying out the small mat with one hand whilst continuing to bounce Maria in the other. Bellini followed behind him awestruck at the situation, it didn’t matter how many private nights the two of them had spent together learning such things about Tedesco, Goffredo was a level of intimacy he hadn't expected to ever reach with the traditionalist.

Goffredo had Maria laid on the mat now babbling at him whilst he spoke softly to her, tasking his time changing her as to not cause any distress.

“Where is your bin?” He asked over his shoulder, dirty diaper in hand.

“It’s in that cupboard next to your legs” he replied, still awe struck at the site in front of him.

“Bah you Americans, always hiding things away in cupboards and drawers, when I was young we simply had a bin in the corner of the kitchen and we all knew where it was.”

He was shaking his head but not in such a disapproving manner as one would typically expect of the Italian, more in an amused fashion whilst he continued to entertain the infant. Tossing the soiled diaper into the bin, Tedesco wiped his hands with one of the wipes and lifted the one redressed infant into the air “ah nice and clean now huh” her little giggles filled the room bringing a smile to Aldo’s face, god he was learning a lot about his colleague tonight.

“Would you like a coffee or anything? If you came for a hook up I think it's clear that’s not happening tonight”.

“Are you sure you can make a proper coffee? You Americans can never make it right”

the site in front of Aldo was one he thought he would commit to memory forever. Goffredo dressed down in a blue button up and slacks, Maria rested gently on his arm with her head in his neck as he bounced her. The scene was enough to send butterflies through his stomach.

“My plans for the night have… changed, there is a bottle of vino in my satchel I brought for us if you want some.”

At this point Aldo saw no point in rejecting his offer, although slightly perturbed by the comments on his American-ness (he was half Italian for Christ's sake) he grabbed two glasses from the shelf as he and Goffredo made their way to the couch. Setting the glasses on the table, Aldo poured the wine, it was a deep red as per usual from Goffredo. Traditional to the end. Sitting back on the couch he glanced to his side, Goffredo sitting there holding the small girl on his chest while she lightly dozed, Aldo supposed she wasn't actually such hard work after all. It was a lovely sight to behold, almost letting him imagine another life for the two of them; one where they could have been together in a more permanent sense, perhaps with a small child of their own.

“Take a photograph, it will last longer Aldo”, he flushed, Aldo hadn’t realised he had been staring at them.

“I never expected you to be so good with children, she adores you, I couldn’t even get her to smile” he responded, only slightly exaggerating his prior interaction with Maria.

“Like i said, i have many nieces and nephews, i am the youngest of twelve after all- at some point you must learn” a clear picture was being painted in Aldo’s mind, of Tedesco as a young priest playing with the children of his parish, being the proffered option for baptisms considering how much the children loved him. God if Aldo had met him when they were both young men he thought he might have fallen in love with him- perhaps that was still an option.

“So do you-“ “shhhhh, principessa is sleeping” Aldo looked closer at his niece to see that she had in fact dozed off in Tedesco’s soft arms.

”should we move her? Is it safe to do that- i don't think i have anywhere for her to sleep” the slight panic was evident in his shushed voice, he didn’t know what to do with her.

“It’s alright, we’ll put her on your bed with pillows around her so she can’t roll off”.

That was enough to send alarm bells through Aldo’s mind. “Roll off! She can do that?”

“Calm down she’ll be fine” Goffredo moved so easily with her in his arms, carrying her directly to the bedroom while Aldo followed, “take the pillows and put them into a little box shape so we can lay her down,” Aldo did as instructed allowing Goffredo to slowly transfer Maria to the bed grabbing one of the thin blankets to the side of the bed and laying it gently overt her.

“There nice and accogliente, come we have wine.”

They made their way back to the couch, sitting that bit closer, thighs touching whilst they both grabbed their wine glasses. Tedesco reached his arm over the back of the couch resting on Aldo’s shoulder and pulling him into his side.

“Your niece, she’s very cute.”

“Cute yes, but perhaps a bit more than I’m used to, it's been awhile since I’ve done a baptism or anything like that and even then you hand em back in a few minutes.”

“Bah, devi solo esercitarti” Goffredo’s arm provided a nice weight on his shoulder, he could almost get used to this joint babysitting thing…

[sincerelystarry]

steve with butterflies for the 100 celebration 😋

B - butterflies: “how did they behave around their partner when they first fell in love? how did they confess their feelings?”

steve is lowkey a mess when he’s falling for you but tries his best not to show it, covering up with bad flirting and always messing around with his appearance when he’s around you. he gets really fidgety with his hair and clothes, always running his hands through his hair or smoothing out any wrinkles in his shirt that aren’t even there actually he’s just going a little insane.

steve’s love language is acts of service (which i can get into if someone reqs G for him) so if he likes you he’ll bend over backwards for you, still trying to not show it. offering to drive you around places even if you have a perfectly fine working car. stopping by your work to give you coffee or lunch as a friend! ofc as a friend!! it’s not like he’s your like boyfriend or something hahahaha how ridiculous…

steve is unfortunately not a funny man. he’s got some natural charisma, ofc, but humor is not apart of that. it doesn’t stop him from constantly making bad jokes when he’s around you, though, trying to get you to laugh and see you smile. robin definitely notices how his behavior changes whenever you stop by family video just to like chat and she clocks him as soon as you leave like. “stevie boy has a little crush?” steve denies denies denies at first but is like. “is it that obvious :(“ and robin confirms that yes it is.

somewhat akin to ‘i was made for loving you’ where robin continues to tell him to ask you out and he like. needs to plan the perfect date before he does it. he’s also terrified of you rejecting him bc it’s not like you’re some pretty girl that walked into family video with big hair and bubble gum and hoop earrings renting out ‘dirty dancing’ you’re special and different. robin just says it’s bc he’s chicken but does help him figure out your favourite foods and flowers and everything for a date.

confession can either go one of two ways. either you like him as well and robin also figures this out and you end up asking him out (like the ‘i was made for loving you’ plot) or steve successfully plans the perfect dinner date w robin’s help. so when you’re visiting family video one day and chatting to him as he restocks the romance section he just blurts out “would you like to go to dinner one day?” you think he’s just asking as a friend so you’re like. “sure?”

he knows its a date, you think it’s just friends going out, so you’re a little bit confused when he tells you to wear something fancy. it clicks when he shows up at your door saturday night all dressed up w/ a bouquet of your favourite flowers though and you’re just. “is this a date. this is a date, isn’t it- you asked me out. on a date.” and steve’s like panicking hiding the flowers behind his back like “it doesn’t have to be a date if you dont want it to be. i can. cancel the reservations and we can just have normal friend dinner” and bro is terrified he overstepped or something.

you are quick to reassure him like “no- fuck- i’d love to go out on a date with you. it’s just- unexpected. i didn’t think you saw me as anything other than a friend” taking the flowers and putting them in a cute little vase before heading back over to him and steve is a mix of anxious and relieved. the perfect date isn’t super perfect. you get stuck in traffic and barely make it to your reservation. your waiter is a bit of a dick and mixes up your order w some other table’s. at the end of the night bro is sweating bullets and is worried that the night sucked so bad you wouldn’t want to go out with him again.

he’s wrong though and almost jumps for joy when you say that you should do this again sometime. he gets home and calls robin in the dead of night like “THEY WANT TO GO OUT WITH ME AGAIN” and robin is just “that’s fucking great man. ok bye” bc she’s trying to sleep.

steve is bouncing off the walls the next morning when you pop into family video. you make it official that you’re in a relationship after your second date and eventually he calms down a bit, content and secure in your relationship, but that doesn’t stop him from surprising you every once in a while with a fun little excursion just to keep the old spark from the start of your relationship.

steve harrington masterlist — 100 followers event — taglist 🏷️ : @loveution @nozhdyved @daisyjonesgf

[sanwrioz]

shinsou who you met in middle school. who originally resented you because of your “heroly” quirk. 

shinsou who you found out was an outcast because of his quirk, and instead of believing he would automatically make a good criminal like the others, you just thought his quirk was cool. becoming his only friend, and the only friend he said he “needed.”

you : “i think they're wrong. imagine you brainwashing the villains into doing good!” s : “you think so? that's what i’ve been trying to say.”

shinsou who you grew so close to during your years in middle-school. the boy who, under the false “criminal” facade people placed on him, was a super smart guy (and a normal person) who wanted to be a hero like everyone else. 

shinsou who didn’t really know how to speak to anyone but straight-forwardly because he had no other friends. who you would speak to freely about a million and one things. not once did you fear he’d ever take advantage of you — because you knew him, and he wasn’t like that.

s : “i like cats.” you : “oh, me too!”

shinsou who you confessed to and began to date in your second year of middle-school. who was surprised that you’d want to be with him, even though you knew how he really was. he didn’t want the bad rumors about him to get to you. and people said things, sure, but he never let anyone talk bad as long as he heard it. and the same went vice versa, you corrected those who still forced the facade on him.

“i heard they’re only dating because he brainwashed them” you : “i was the one who confessed???” “they’re weird for being with him.” s : “you dont know them, or me.”

shinsou who you unofficially broke up with in your last year of middle-school. the cause? a silly argument over quirks. you wanted to keep talking about it, and shinsou just couldn’t see eye to eye with you. you didn’t stop, so he made you leave. he needed space.

ex!shinsou who, almost immediately realized where he went wrong. he wanted to go after you, despite being the one that forced you to leave. but he didn't, because maybe he was just like everyone said.

ex!shinsou who received the worst backlash after you two broke up. not because you told everyone he was an asshole, but because people stopped seeing you two together. you were the only person he had, so he had nowhere else to be. it was easy to connect the dots.

“they should’ve listened to us.” “we told them he was a bad person.” “what an asshole.”

ex!shinsou who you never talked bad about, or even told anyone what really happened. who you never reached back out to because he put you out first. you didn’t resent him — at least not days after it happened, you were scared of being too much for him again.

ex!shinsou who missed you heavily, and wanted you back in his life, but was scared you now thought of him like the others.

ex!shinsou whos quietly hoping you come back. he never stopped loving you, despite the small sense of jealousy he felt because of how “good” you were doing without him. when in reality, you didn’t feel like yourself without him.

ex!shinsou who you “re-met” in high school, who just speaks his mind and doesn’t hold back. he couldn’t give a shit about what others think of him, except for you.

ex!shinsou who comes clean about everything he felt that day, and just about every day since you were gone. he promises he wont ever do that to you again, and that he hopes you don't see him as a bad person. when you tell him you don't, he almost cries.

you : “i never saw you in that way.” s : “even after that?” you : “never.”

ex!shinsou who you “resume” dating. shinsou, the boyfriend who tries his best for you, and never makes the same mistake again. the man who, even when it gets hard, still works hard to become a hero because you’ve always believed in him.

boyfriend!shinsou that turns into husband!shinsou as you two become pro heros. your husband, shinsou, who fulfilled his wish of becoming a pro hero. maybe not everyone sees his quirk in a good way, but you do. and its all that matters to him. 

for a friend <3

[mattsunyums]

Let it happen again . — ex! Matsukawa i. x gn reader cw ⌗ ⋮ Mattsun as a yearning ex, angst wc ⌗ : 1.7k

Matsukawa Issei yearns to be close with you, being friends leaves a bittersweet sensation in his mouth but for the time being it was enough — just enough to keep you at arms length. But sooner or later, he'll cross that line and want more. So, he messages you at midnight, asking if you’re free to hang out this weekend, he's ecstatic when you do agree. You'll admit, you missed hanging out with him. So when he asks you again, you didn't mind saying yes right away. But after a few hangouts, he starts regularly texting you. He promised the two of you would really just stay as friends this time, that he wouldn't make a move on you, but didn't promised you that, did he?

Matsukawa can't help but enjoy how the distance formed after your breakup a year ago is starting to close, he gains hope thinking he'll have you back in his arms again. But it was like he jinxed himself, You started declining his invitations, reasoning "I'm busy with work this week, sorry Mattsun". He just shook it off at first, still sending messages through out the day. You replied a lot at first until you didn't. He really did think you were busy at first, then it dawned onto him — you're avoiding him. He wondered if you had finally caught on — if you knew he was trying to make a move. So, he stopped texting. What was the point? He was just making a fool of himself if you already knew

A few days passed, you started noticing that he stopped asking you to hang out, and eventually, he stopped texting altogether. You felt guilty, but it didn’t make you reach out to apologize.

Months passed, and then a full year. Your phone lights up at midnight once more, the moment feeling too familiar. Matsukawa’s contact appears on the screen, asking if you’re free for the weekend ➤ “ are you free this weekend?I know this newly opened bar, heard the drinks there are good. "

➤ “yeah I am :)! My cars getting fixed though lol pick me up at 7 if its alright. “ ➤ “Hahaha of course, you don't have to tell me twice :)”

His lips tug into a smile when he sees your reaction — a pink heart to his message instead of just leaving him on read. He watches as the grey bubbles appear again, and for a moment, Matsukawa anticipates you'll send a message to keep the conversation going. But you dont.

Even so, Matsukawa feels content.

His anticipation grows once more. He feels aloof knowing he's going to see you again, but a part of him is nervous to mess things up. The day of your the date finally arrives. His car is parked in front of your apartment ready to pick you up. He felt warm having to pick you up, it felt like it was the most natural thing. It felt so normal, like it's something that was missing in Matsukawa's routine. He didn't seem to notice you come out of the apartments building, only realizing you're there when you knock on the window of the passenger seat. "Matsukawa?" you say curiously, wondering if this was the right car that was supposed to pick you up. Matsukawa collects himself before he comes out the car to walk to the other side of the car to you. His anticipation and uneasiness surges him but then, there you were. In front of him — giving him a soft smile once more. He wanted to kiss you, to hold you close, to get on his knees and ask to start over. He thinks it's too early to embarrass himself, instead he opened the door and lets you in. - The hum of the car engine and sound of passing cars filled the silence between the two of you, but Matsukawa couldn't care less. Every glance he took to look you left him breathless. He relished how you looked like under the soft glow of the street lights you pass by. Everything felt familiar to him, as if this happened before— like it was a memory buried deep down, resurfacing to play again. It was as if no break up had happen, it felt like you two still share the same bed at the same apartment. The two of you arrive, the bars atmosphere was cozy, the place wasn't crowded, it was comfortable. The two of you opted for the seats at the counter, the clinks of glass and hums of conversation surrounds you both as the two of you settle in. As the night continues, your conversation with each other went in easy as more drinks came by. The feeling of comfort and nostalgia seeps into Matsukawa once more, feeling like no time has passed by between the two of you. The more alcohol served in front of you two, the restraint within yourselves starts to loosen as drinks poured down your throats, especially Matsukawa. The more Matsukawa drank the stronger the buzz in his head became, it made it hard for him to tell if the next thing he's about to say is the right thing. "There's no one new y'know"

He tells you, like its assurance you needed to hear from him. In exchange, you give him a raised brow.

"I don't think I had anyone after you" Matsukawa continued

He looks at you, small smile plastered on his face while you stare at him with furrowed brows. He's too buzzed to care why he's saying this to you. But even so, he would still do this sober.

He stops for a second, thinking of a reason to stop himself from ruining the salvaged friendship you two have after a relationship. But he cant think if anything, there wasn't anything stopping him.

"I dream about you— a lot, dreams about us too" "Yeah? What happened?" you ask as your curiosity peaks on what he's about to say

Matsukawa lays his head down on the counter, trying to avoid your gaze. Minimizing his view only to the cold marble where his drink sits, half-empty beside him.

"I saw us being happy, together again. Everything felt so real, I wanted it to be real." Matsukawa closed his eyes shut. Even though no one could see him it felt like he could still see you stare at him, looking at him like what he said was the absurdest thing in the world.

"You've been thinking of me too much to the point you dream of me"

You joke, though only you emit an awkward chuckle. The man beside you continued to be quiet, occasionally turning his head side ways to peak at you.

"Yeah, there isn't a time of day where I don't think of you." "I've asked and prayed to every god that exists for another chance with you, to let me rewind the day things went wrong and fix it."

"Oh issei" you whisper, only for him to hear

he raises his head to look at you, surprised to hear his name pass your lips again. He hoped his confession shift your hearts direction back to him, but he could only hope.

"I know you mean well issei, I really do but I don't know what I'll do with what you've said." come back to me. Is what he would've said, but a part of him held back, a part of him knew it wouldn't do anything. "Is that wrong that I want you be the one I wake up next to again? "Can't you be the one I share my breakfast with? Can't you be the one kiss me goodbye when I leave for work?" Matsukawa pleads, his brows start to furrow in distress. He sits up, slouching and holds the glass of whiskey again upon hearing nothing from you.

"Issei this always happens when we drink together." "I thought you pieced things together that this was the reason I stopped hanging out with you." "Then why did you come to this one?" he spat, you became quiet after that. Now it was Matsukawas turn to stare at you, his gaze wasn't intense or laced with resentment, it was just a look of sorrow. A look that hopes to find an answer he wants to find from you. But the both of you knew you wouldn't be able to give any answer.

You give him a small gentle smile, yet to Matsukawa it felt like a punch in the gut, telling him no matter what he says it won't change anything.

“I'll always love you,” Matsukawa whispered, afraid you'll forget if he didn't say it any time soon.

“I know, you've told me countless times”

“Don't you love me back? why haven't you missed me but I linger on every memory we have together?!”

“ I do issei! I always do”

“Then why not come back if you felt that way?“ “Theres nothing stopping the two of us from getting back”

“I don't know Issei.”

“Not knowing isn't going to be an answer for me-“

“I know Issei, I don't feel I'm enough to try again. How do you expect us to be together again when I can't find a reason with myself to come back to you.” You finish, There wasn't anything the man beside you has to say. Matsukawa was just staring at you, it was like he'd knew you would say something like this but hoped it wouldn't happen

“This should be the last meeting we have” “You'll always have a place in my heart Issei, goodbye.”

He watches you pull out cash from your purse to pay for your bill, not once of every step you took have you looked back at him. You didn't want to. Afraid you'll cave in and try again with him, only for this exact situation to happen once more. Though you made sure this would be the last time it'll happen.

Matsukawa is now left alone with his own thoughts, the person he's shared his joys and sorrows is forever gone. The next time he'll see you will just be a coincidence, he'll have to act like he doesn't know everything about you. He looks at his drink, he chugs it dow in one go leaving it empty with the ice slowly melting. "You've been in my life for so long — how will I just forget you?" he whispers to himself, his voice is barely audible. He signals the bar tender for another drink "I just wanted it to be you."

Matsukawa knows it's better to stay away from you, but he doesn't make a single step to leave. Instead, he watches you do the one thing he couldn't bring himself to do.

a/n: this isn't proofread that much lawl likes & reblogs are vv appreciated ! ✦ — © 2025 mattsunyums ,Translation, edit, claim, use, repost of my work w/o proper credit and permission is prohibited .

[neolxzr]

I really love your analysis posts, and I want to say something spicy. Now let the record show…I support Suselle in canon…I love Krisuselle in fandom

That being said

I have a headcanon, That Noelle’s feelings for Susie are an alternative route because it’s hard her to navigate and fully her feelings for Kris. She’s afraid of her feelings and running away from them, and in doing so she is misconstruing her admiration and respect for Susie into romantic ones!

OOOH IM LISTENING

i think that susie for noelle represents a lot of things that she wishes she was. susie is a girl who is allowed to be mean, and crass, and allowed to express herself in ways that noelle has wanted but never been able to because of being raised in such a strict household. i think in a way that these feelings could certainly be romantic in nature but they also don't have to be. having romantic feelings for susie is a form of rebellion for noelle, in a way. it's something her mother would never approve of. but when you step back she doesn't really know susie, not yet anyway. they have grown much closer in chapter 4, but i would find it hard to say that she knows her enough to be in love with her. infatuated, surely, but not in love. there's a lot of complicated feelings involved here i think

and this does not mean i dont love suselle!!! i really do!!! i find their dynamic with one another really sweet and i really love the ways that noelle surprises susie with how strong she is. how she's brave enough to pick up the 'mouse' they were both scared of, even if susie is bigger and physically stronger than she is. and i think susie will continue to surprise noelle with just how much of a sweetheart softie she really is. i like how they break each other's walls down.

BUT. i sort of love the idea that kris for noelle is the childhood crush she never was really able to process or fully get over. i think how guarded she is about her relationship with kris and her unwillingness to acknowledge them as even being friends anymore shows how much their recent distance bothers her. and subsequently, her relief at kris insisting that they're friends if you choose that dialogue option i think paints a picture of just how much she wishes that her and kris were close again. in the wake of whatever it was that happened to dess, which was presumably the catalyst for why they don't talk much anymore, she no longer knows how to breach the idea of being in kris' life again.

then this brings me back to how susie is everything that noelle wants to be. because susie is CLOSE TO KRIS!!!! and immediately so!!! they disappear into the supply closet for the afternoon and all of a sudden they're attached at the hip. they wander around town together. have sleepovers. go to church together. go to the diner together. and it's just natural. i think noelle so desperately wishes that she could be that way with kris again. like when they were kids. like when everything still made sense.

i think with krusie's sudden closeness with one another it leaves noelle wondering which one of them exactly it is that she's jealous of. and then she has to realize that maybe its both. for different reasons

so yes. i think noelle has a lot of complicated teenage girl feelings to work out. i hear you and i see you my friend

tangentially related, i had this talk with my friend where i tried to imagine "is there a krusielle scenario in which kriselle is the one to happen first?" and i came to the conclusion that kris and noelle might end up being brought together via their mutual unrequited-but-maybe-not feelings for susie, who they are both convinced likes the other one of them more. and then they kiss about it. i may write a fic about this sometime sjjjghgjgj

[littlevenicebiatch]

Ride

biker Simon

It was a typical day in the bar, you- the barkeeper were not too busy. There were the few drunken men, the party girls and then there was another man. He wasnt from around here, no, he was new here and it showed. He was wearing a black seemingly soft mask over his face, only showing his intense grey eyes. He came over to the bar and sat down on a stool. "Well hello there, what can I do for ya?" You were cheerfull, you always were. He looked at you and he seemed to be smiling. "Whiskey, on the rocks, darlin."

You nodded and as you prepared his drink he kept watching you- staring at you. "Soo, kind stragnger, where are you from?" He downed half his drink before answering. "Its that obvious I dont belong here? I'm from England originally. Moved here years ago, as a soldier. Now I travel the country on my bike." Your eyes lit up. "You got a bike? Which one?" "A Ducati Multistrada V4." "Oh thats a nice one, I want one too, a Yamaha maybe, as soon as I can afford it." He nodded. "Yeah I get that, could only buy it after I retired." After taking care of a few other custoumers you returned to the bar, where the stranger still sat, watching you the whole time. "So, you got a name?" Your voice was raspy and rough, but still somwhow light. "Simon." "Nice to meet ya Simon, I'm Y/N." He smiled again. well he probably did, it was hard to tell with the mask. "Ya know, you could try sitting on my bike sometime." "Uhh dirty." You giggled and he playfully rolled his eyes. "But seriously, I would love to. My shift ends in like ten minutes." Simon downed his drink and placed a hundred-dollar bill on the table before standing up. "Ill be waiting outside." You tried to hand him his change but he was already gone.

Outside the bar Simon stood leaning against his bike, a cigarette dangling from between his lips and a smirk on his face. The mask was pushed up just enough for him to smoke so you still couldnt see his face. He reached out with his hand to hep you and you quickly stepped onto the bike. "oh this is really nice." "It is." He agreed in his deep voice. "You wanna go for a spin?" "Oh I shouldnt." You hesitated, this man could be a serial killer, he didnt even show his face. Simon noticed your nervousness and quickly pulled the balaclava over his head, showing a very handsome but scared face. "You could be my backpack." "Why not." You moved back and before he sat down in front of you he placed his big helmet on your face. "Hod on tight." You did, and it was so much fun. The wind going through your long hair and the dark streets, the only sound beeing the loud engine. Your arms were wrapped around his waist tightly, you fel starngly safe with him. At the street lights he would gently squeeze your thighs, just a way to make sure you were there, and comfortable. And you were. "You wanna go to my place?" He invited, and you accepted, how could you not? "Yeah." When he got off the bike he helped you off and took of your helmet. Your smile was wide and joyfull. "This was so cool, I've never.. wow." "Yeah." He replied, understanding the free feeling he just gave you.

In his appartment you didnt wait long, didnt make pointless conversation, you went straight to his bedroom and soon he had undressed you and himself. His mouth tasted of whiskey and maloboros, while yours had a sweet taste, your tongue meeting his and them playing a game of fire. Simon grabbed you by the wasit and placed you on your knees, he put your hands on the headboard of the bed. "Hold on tight." And you had to, because he pounded into you so hard you almost forgot your own name. Doing that, he also held onto your tits, leaving red marks from his grip. "Oh fuck Simon, I'm gonna..." But he stopped, just like that. "Oh not yet darling." "You're mean." You pouted, but he took you by the waist again and swiftly placed you over him, he lay there, smiling. "I am. Now ride me how you would rde my bike." Now you saw what you had already known, his dick was huge and wide and veiny. You loved it so much you buried it inside of you, moving your hips and moaning as you did. "Thats a good girl." He groaned, your walls clenched arounnd him at the praise and you moved quicker, more sloppy. The room was filled with the smell of two people, the noise of moans and grunts, the sounds of your felsh meeting and the wetness of your pussy. "Simon, I'm gonna..." You moaned again, and this time he didnt stop, he helped you, his hands on your hips, guiding you up and down his cock. "Cum for me, my little mess." You did, you came so loud and messily and so did he, burrying his sticky cum inside of you.