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every year i dont have time to draw something for connors birthday but i also have a mini comic idea that's about missing connors birthday so i can draw that at any time

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it connor day

Connor!! Connor no!!! think about what that will do to your mechanisms!!!! (a jaffa cake is the closest thing i have to a cake)

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seeing your connor be so goofy is sort of like a palette cleanser after the entire fandom treating him like some sort of sex symbol. they forget that hes awkward and strange.

the greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing people that his fanart wasn't sex symbolifying connor detroit.

for real though! it doesn't seem to me that the fandom forgets he's awkward and strange? I get my motivation and inspiration from the fandom,, i’m obsessed with this robot and everyone's flavour of connor is very special to me. sexy, scary, goofy, boiled or fried i’m satisfied as long as i get my egg. so he’s a product of that love, really

it will always mean so much to me that you like how i portray him, and people comment absolutely hilarious things about it that makes me glow, i'm so glad i started making detroit fanart. but i wouldn't want my depiction of him to be propped up over what anyone else is doing with him. I may have read the tone all wrong i dont wanna twist your words, but i wouldn't want to take credit for my stuff being #notliketherestofthefandom :'''V (especially when there are plenty of goofy connors about! and when i enjoy so many other of his facets that people emphasise) .... unless it's an insult directed at me, then that's fine i like that.

my socially awkward ass is also worried about this sounding chiding. that's not how i'm trying to be,,, just desperate to not be misunderstood in my feelings about fellow connor artists, writers, editors and yappers. Is this sappy and gross? Probably. but the world is shite innit so im gonna be sincere.

EDIT: i'm worried that i've made you worried about this ask, i don't mean to,, it prompted me to clear up something i want to clear up and did so in my response because the ask was anonymous, but i'll still delete the post soon in case it's awkward

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i have 3 consecutive days off!! which should give me time to switch into non-fight or flightwork mode before i have to switch back again yeehaw

i'd better actually do all the things i've been wanting to instead of just staring at a wall for 3 days straight

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i've not had time to do anything over the past week but i had to quickly doodle them before i sleep

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MORE CONNOR !!

post-revolution summer clothes because i cba to draw his uniform

I tried another way of colouring - if it looks off please tell me im colourblind and i have no idea if it looks good in normal vision :,)

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I mean this as the biggest compliment ever and I'm so sorry if you don't take it that way: Your drawings of Connor and Hank remind me of King of the Hill. I think it's just the style, but I really adore it. It brings lots of character to them and is such an expressive style ❤️❤️❤️ PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TAKE THIS THE WAY I HOPE YOU DO 😭🙏🙏

!!!! there does not exist a reality where I wouldn't take this as the biggest compliment ever!! i LOVE the art style of King of the Hill!! i'm fanning my face to cool my blushing ❤️‍🔥 THANK YOU

connor is responsible for steering the trajectory of how my art has developed over the past 5 years, so if it can be in any way reminiscent of such a charming and (what i imagine is a) laborious (for animation especially) style like in king of the hill,, then that's another reason i feel lucky to have found a Blorbo in Connor Detroit (the other reason being the friends made along the way, of course)

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i yearn to draw connor like you do

i'm honestly not sure if you mean you want to draw him in the same way i do??? (my disbelieving brain wants to read it like "i yearn to draw connor, like you do" as in just a yearning to draw him in general lol) only because...if you do that's WILD and confusing, albeit extremely flattering :'''^D

but i wouldn't want to encourage just wholly replicating my stinky way of drawing him when you could have your version of Connor!!..... a Connor that maybe i could get to see sometime? *bats eyelashes pleadingly* (every artist's Connor fanart to me is like getting to hear my favourite song in so many different styles and flavours). most fun you can have with him is picking out your favourite aspects of him and emphasising them, and i assume we have similar preferences but i still miss out/misdraw a whole lotta details that you might not.

but if i can provide any guidance (hilarious and bold that i'm giving guidance on drawing connor when i dont even know what im doing) then i've pointed out features i tend to focus on/exaggerate when i draw him (definitely by no means accurate!!) in case you wanted to incorporate them into your connor fanart. If that's even what you meant (sorry for the secondhand-embarrassment if not ;''''D)

he's so fun to draw! (said 20 mins after inwardly throwing a tantrum over unintentionally drawing him looking like a bug)

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i absolutely need you to see the second half of this video (0:43) it had me in tears he's so freaking scared rn

AaUuuahuuarghh, easy..........duohg. i love how panicked he gets! tbh i don't know why Sumo wasn't panicked when another big dopey dog just came crashing through the window.

i can't decide what's goofier: ^ this reaction or the nervous teehee he does if he does know Sumo's name.

(a bittersweet story: this is the version of the scene i got on my very first playthrough. because during Waiting for Hank i spotted gavin in the break room and immediately went to bother him which triggered Hank to show up before i could snoop at his stuff. I think you then get a second chance to interact with the desk, but i followed Hank into Fowler's office instead and got cut off from desk snooping :^[

so i missed out on some of the best hank and connor interaction in the game and didn't even realise it at the time! couldn't ask him about Sumo, couldn't ask him if he listened to heavy metal.

But at least i got to hear him go AaUuahuaarrrgh)

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me, around this time 5 years ago: detroit become human? BAH that game doesn't look like it meets my very specific and snobby preferences for robot media therefore i will NEVER enjoy any aspect of it but sure i'll give it a try i guess.

me, present day, afflicted by the curse: my prized possessions... hock (hank rock) and cock (connor rock)

coming out of hiding to show you m,y hank and cornor rocks :^)

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i wish this site wasn't so jam-packed with buttons to save me the embarrassment of accidentally unfollowing people and then having to awkwardly follow again and it showing up in their notifications. please,, at least an 'are you sure you want to unfollow?' checkbox for us clumsy fools PLEASE

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coming out of hiding to show you m,y hank and cornor rocks :^)

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i, personally, love to straddle that fine line between “fandom blog” and “record of complete psychological breakdown”

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i'm really sorry that once again i'm making a personal post, i keep doing that lately but then i shoot myself in my stupid foot because i play it down and say i'm getting better and that i'll be back to normal and then i don't go back to normal and feel ashamed about it and idk why i do that

i never want to talk about personal issues and usually the thought of putting it on my blog would make me want to shrivel up into a raisin. i'll keep it short and sweet like the raisin i'll become once i hit post. i think i'm having or about to have a nervous breakdown. i've somehow now lost the capacity to cope with a stressful situation that I was previously handling, and because of that, just lately i can't trust myself to do anything without spectacularly messing up including my job which is scary. i'm losing weight rapidly which i imagine is making it worse and i can't stop shaking in an on-and-off rhythm like a phone on silent lmao so i've been advised to make a GP appointment tomorrow which i will listen to this time and will hopefully get the ball rolling on finding some help to function around it again *spongebob bwomp sound effect*.

that's not to say you'll be rid of me that easily. maybe i should stay off social media but my mood shifts to where i get a lot of comfort from looking at art and writing and keeping up with you guys and if i dont get my dose of wretched robot video game characters i'll perish (it isn't lost on me how lucky i am to still have these comforts and that i get to interact with and collaborate with such wonderful people who keep me inspired). and when i started writing this post i wasn't at all in the mood to joke around, i was really sad and now i want to be light-hearted.

but i just wanted to warn that i'd like to keep being social but i might be worse at it, and i might be extra boring. i disappear because things happen, but i also struggle to come back from those times because i worry about coming across as unenthused or behaving differently. but if i've expressed where i'm at, even if no one reads this, i might subconsciously worry less about that. i have no idea when i'll be back to normal, and i don't want to be gone until then.

this is not a plea to be gentle with me. god no. i like the opposite (disclaimer: i mean that in an appropriate way). it's also not a plea for your attention or time either, like if i comment on something of yours please don't feel like you have to interact with me just because im going through it rn. everyone is dealing with something and just because i have my bullshit i haven't forgotten that nor have my feelings changed about interacting with this community (also if you struggle with replying i am forever holding your hand and telling you its fine and that i love you). i just want to be As Usual, that's what this is all about. i want to go about as normal but obviously i won't be completely normal atm so would like to just get that out there so at least i've explained why

ok here are my guts spilled all over the floor thanks for reading i'm gonna go make a cup of tea but accidentally smash the handle off the mug on the cooker grate or pour the whole drink into the bin in the process and hope my rattling eyeballs don't explode because i'd like to read fanfiction tonight

so much for keeping it short and sweet *turns into a raisin*

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THANKS! not what i thought but still very fun!

@tmgt he does say bucket of bolts!

i was messing around with the freecam and accidentally caught some cut Hank dialogue?????????????????????????!!!???!! (this could be common knowledge and im just years late to it lol)

it sounds like "almost believed that fuckin bullshit.......*big sigh*"

it's cracking me up because we know Hank can't help but humanise Connor and is even reluctantly charmed by his awkward or obvious ingratiating behaviour in this scene, but it's really funny to hear him grumpily mumbling about it. if thats what that is