#and i just wanna say i enjoy the anon vibes too. and the ppl who reblog things that i reblog. yall are Wonderful!!!!

[daz4i]

Honestly I'm with you that it is pretty hard not to get jealous whenever a fic gets suuuuper popular like that. Like when they write a fic, they get an entire fan base and waves upon waves of fanart; when I write a fic I get like three single sentence comments and one person listing every single thing wrong with it.

I know they don't decide to have that happen but like... What am I doing wrong? I'm trying my absolute best, I'm rereading and rewriting like ten times to make sure it's as perfect as it could possibly be, but no matter what I try, nothing works. Meanwhile they're like "yeah sorry wasn't feeling too well lately so this chapters not as good" and they get hundreds of comments, playlists for the their fic and a whole gallery worth of fan art.

Maybe I'm just bitter but it really does just crush your motivation and self esteem after a while.

this is an understandable reaction tbh 😔

for what it's worth, i don't think you're doing anything wrong. i can't say for sure bc none of my fics ever reached wild popularity or smth but i assume in their case it's a combination of

popular ship in an already popular fandom (also, gen usually doesn't catch on unless you're VERY lucky)

existing following. i noticed a lot of popular fic writers usually have a bunch of followers from stuff like art already

luck. ofc

common tropes. easily digestible stuff that is kind of familiar

length and consistent long term updates usually help (like, spreading it out as multiple updates keeps you at the top of tags when ppl click them)

this isn't for all of them. but like. one thing i noticed. and i mean this nicely. is smth i wanna call wattpad-style writing? kind of an underlying edgy vibe like more swears and ppl reacting to things in kind of extreme ways at times. every most-popular-fic-in-the-fandom i read fit that description, so. (i assume it's bc a big part of any fandom is teenagers, and this, well, fits a teen mindset)

if you don't wanna fall into common tropes and stick only to popular ships, it's better to stick to writing for fun, as hard as it is sometimes with no external validation 😔

i see why this would be very discouraging. i think ik who you are off-anon, and if I'm right then i saw comments you got on fics before, and yeah i would definitely get discouraged by these too

i think if you don't gain any joy from writing, it may be good to find an additional hobby, or try a different type of writing for now maybe :? (like if fics aren't working, try original work. or dabble in poetry. or switch up the genres etc. doesn't even have to be a long term thing, just to scratch the creative itch for now, and maybe get inspired to write what you're used to again)

i imagine you're probably tired of hearing that you should write for you and don't have to post it. bc i get wanting to get validation. so instead I'll tell you this is an extremely valid feeling, including the jealousy part. this is a very normal reaction honestly, and i could never blame you for having it

i will say tho! you should channel that feeling somewhere. not for others, but for your own sake. don't let bitterness eat at you or you'll always be miserable, and you deserve better than that :(

finding a new hobby can help with self-esteem (like, for example, baking smth and enjoying how it tastes, and feeling proud of yourself for making smth that tastes good) and is a good way to let out creative energy! it will take time, but maybe slowly you'll be able to lay out building blocks that will eventually make you feel confident enough in your own creation to not need external validation :0!

(ofc, you don't have to listen to any of this. please make sure to go at your own pace as well! either way i hope things turn out well for you, and i thank you for sharing your honest feelings with me!!)

[blkkizzat]

Haiiii babes!!!! Hope u been well 😙

(Literally just came from rereading plug choso once again to keep it fresh in my brain hehe) istg i love him so bad but….nicki was right, trauma is the way. Him sharing that blunt with gouda bitch has me steaming every time smh. I would fuck cho infront of her but she dont deserve to see the dickk!

Venus in gemini and mars in aries HELP HSJKSKSK NO OKAY U and toji would be so good for each other 😭 yall can play games and he drag u back in so u dont get too bored hehe. My mars is in leo and my good friend studies astrology and she deadass do be saying thats the corruption kink placement hehe, plus i got some virgo in there too so my shit is obsesseddddd with corrupting purity whoops (and obsessive + possessive AF like i wanna be someone's first and their everything) which is so true cause i be fucking with ppl to make em obsessed with me and ion even want them jdksks. I js cant do virgin reader bc i have a SA trauma which sucks bc there are so many virgin reader fics and i gotta sit em out which is why i flock to shit like otaku!gojo where the man is a virgin like that heals me so much u have no idea lmao (even tho this pussy can squirt by itself, i would show virgin gojo all the tricks hehe) Yes ma'am i do fuck w astrology, and recently tarot a lil bit 👀 got me a lil reading and erthing hehe

Tbf i dont feel like u have a truly irredeemable character because they all have some sort of bg story (okay lets ignore reader from gf!choso literally killing a man bc DAMN when i say the dialogue you gave him had me stressing tf out, like i almost had an angry cry when he was airing out shit at the party. The bat scene from there was so iconic tho) like even plug choso, reader is a brat but i rlly feel like its bc shes an overachiever which i vibe w soooo hard. She's the definition of "honey u need to get some dick and RELAX" bc she trying to do it all and none of it is for herself. Im similar so i see her bratiness as a defense mechanism iykwim. Ngl the ending of pt 2 had me scared bc like i can dish it out, but i cant take it LMAOOOOOO like choso shared a blunt w some other bitch and i was already in tears istg he gon have to make that up to me smh. YESSSSSSS i love with the characters are still downbad for the reader even when she's a bitch like, thats the kinda ride or die i wantttt.

I feel u bc i cant do angst that effects the reader lol.

Guestprofessor yooooo i love that dynamic!!! I rarely read gojo (or geto too) bc i rarely find a version of him that doesnt turn his charisma into fuckboyness like it just aint for me, but w.e the girlies enjoy :p

Ohhh i do need to check out those websites even tho i have nowhere to go rip. I love me a gown but they almost never reach past my shins 💀 got that damn amazoness genetic smh

LMFAOOO ur so real for that. Tbh cho could be a virgin and id still talk to him like a two dollar hoe 😭

Sending u all the good vibes frrrrr its always fun chatting w u too kali babes ��

🍒 anon

Awe you are so sweet reading it again. I hope I can get the next part out tonight for u, I’m getting 2 people to read so once they are done I will make changes and post. 

LMFAO im crying cause you are like the 3rd person who told me that part had them heated. But hehe funny you should mention fucking him in front of her…. *shhhh*

Yeah no I would need the games to keep me interested lmfao. Oooh corruption kink!  you know until Choso I never had one of those but I just want to ruin him dskhfkjhdkHSa. But relatable, sometimes you just flirt because you can LOL

Oh no, im so sorry to hear about your SA trauma. I completely understand. While I don’t necessarily have drama, I think another reason I lean towards bimbo!reader is I don’t like how society places a woman’s value on virginity. It’s a totally different thing that wanting to be someone’s first or even corrupting, cause im into those kinks too. I don’t like when it seems like the whole value of them is their virginity if it makes sense. 

I actually own a tarot deck too! But I haven’t studied it enough to do it on my own. I’ve had mine done by friends before though!

Lmfao yeah gf!choso reader is also a bit crazy, when I eventually do the p3 to that, it will go into more of how she doesn’t have bloodlust like choso, and actually wants him to slow down a bit so he doesn’t get caught (gf!choso finds himself not needing to kill as much bc he has reader as a stress release). But she doesn’t have qualms with blood or the fact he’s a serial killer lolol. She kinda slow lowkey lolol. Her mind: “killing is bad. But I love Choso and he loves me so Choso is good too.” I mean she joined his major cause she watched Dexter so she aint the brightest bulb. jhdfkhdskjfhsd. <3 Unlike plug!choso sorority bimbo tho, she is never ashamed of Choso and wants him to come to frat parties as her date (which he reluctantly goes to because he’s whipped and jealous as all hell). Ahhh I rambled about this too much lol

Oooh how tall are you if you don’t mind me asking? Im 5’7 and some of the gowns I got from there drag a bit so maybe you’d have more luck with them!

Mwahhmwahhh babes <3333

[myaoiboy]

heyy sorry dunno if ur ok with ppl asking for advice, but ive been on the twitter mgs fandom for a little while (mostly as a watcher rather than participating other than liking, rting and occasionally commenting or posting some art) and after a while i realized (a bit too late) that quite a few people that i interacted with are aggressively anti and i dont know how to pull away from them now.

Some were mutuals, i stopped following most of them but they still follow me and im not sure if i should just ignore it or whatever. My main account is very clean when it comes to pro/anti discussion and NSFW in general, altho i do like/rt/discuss a lot of anime art and media that has some questionable content in it (like the monogatari series for example)

Anyway, im just a bit scared they might see these "cracks" and it gets to a point of agression/exclusion/doxxing etc and im a bit terrified of that. Sorry if this sounds dumb, but could i ask you what you experience with the mgs fandom is like on twitter? Have you ever been in a similar situation?

It's totally cool to ask for advice! I'm not sure how much help I'll be though.

I have a twitter that's mostly MGS-focused, but I've been building up defenses against the anti movement for a long time before that. I used to be mutuals with someone who was a really notorious asshole twitter anti, actually. I broke that when they started publicly slandering me, but before they could actually dox me, and they still followed me on side accounts for a couple years after that. I got very careful about vetting who I regularly interact with after that.

I got lucky dropping into MGS fandom, I've found a bunch of people who enjoy freaky stuff as much as I do. But I also had one of those friends get doxxed a while back over ship discourse that was spun as something much worse.

Personally, if I see a callout post and it looks fishy (only includes accusations of fic or art, etc), I will a lot of times block everyone that's retweeted or liked it. It's made me sad a couple of times to break mutuals, but I know I'm saving myself the pain later of potentially seeing them fall for it with me. This, when my friend got doxxed, ended up causing me to block like half of the twitter MGS fandom ngl.

Honestly, my secret to not accidentally making full on anti friends is that when I get into a new fandom, I look up their discourse and who antis say shouldn't be shipped together. Then I look and see who makes art/fic of those ships. If I don't like those ships specifically, I find people who ship both that and whatever I like. Usually I end up liking one or more of them anyways (solimiller...). Or I'll go through that fandom's fics with warnings on them and check out those authors' other works.

That's how I keep accidentally meeting a lot of people in fandom, it turns out. I read a fic, I look at the author's other works or their profile, it has a social media handle, or a discord link, or whatever else, next thing I know I'm talking to them and 5 more people they recommended about whatever freaky kink I found of theirs.

I do actually have a (mostly nsfw) discord link that I would share here, but given some of the weird interactions I've gotten tonight I'm gonna wait a couple days before I post it publicly. It's fandom neutral technically but a lot of us like our war boys (mgs/cod mostly). But uhhh if anybody sees this and wants in feel free to dm me/send an off-anon ask and I'll slip ya a link real quiet.

I warn people some of the heavier content that I regularly post as well, even though I don't explicitly use any discourse labels, but honestly the biggest thing is just pulling your interactions like weeds. People on the internet are, mostly, strangers. You don't like someone's vibes? You can block 'em. You see them being a dick to someone else and don't wanna risk them doing the same to you ? Definitely block. Someone makes posts you don't like and it keeps filling up the tags you frequent? You can block that!

[crescentfool]

I love your blog it sparks joy :)

ANON HELLO????? i got ur message last night and damn im about to keel over from kindness (again, to no one's surprise, lmao). seriously!!! thank you so much!

i know that this ask has a similar sentiment to the one that i just answered- but i can't help but reiterate... thank you for the incredibly sweet words!

i really enjoy being here on tumblr, it's slow-paced and chill, and the tagging system is BLESSED (god do i love when people say stuff in tags).. so i'm really happy that my blog can be a part of that positive experience for you! i do what i can to make this corner of the internet a brighter place- so knowing that it's reached you makes me truly happy. seriously!! thank you so much.

i hope that whatever you're doing right now makes you happy anon!! thank you for stopping by the inbox- you keep being you anon! im support u and appreciate ur words sm 🥺💙

[gunsatthaphan]

Hi, as you asked (in the tags) "Why do I feel like the show is kinda underrated"? Cause as you point out, the views and hastag trendings are not so great.

I have to say I didn't notice this but maybe, could it be because people don't understand the plot yet? and maybe because they aren't familiar with the actors (Sea and Jimmy)? Or they too familiar with the character of Wai (played by Jimmy) that they can't help but not be able to unsee him.

And lastly, could it be that the plot is way different of what its usually seen that people are not ready yet?

Nevertheless the show is great. Hopefully if it's not now, maybe with time people will see it and appreciate it.

yeah anon it's really a mystery to me lol.

I've been reading a bunch of comments on MDL and so many people are saying they're confused about the story; there are too many plotholes regarding the universe-switch and that they were expecting a more sci-fi kinda vibe, as opposed to a cute and fun one. Which has me confused because theyre complaining about a plot that’s not abstract enough but at the same time they’re complaining that the plot is too complicated?? Make it make sense. Like obviously ppl are allowed to dislike it lol but also we’re on episode 4. Give it some time. Also as someone who generally has trouble understanding more elaborate plots, I don’t find this confusing at all? Like to me everything makes sense so far. So idk. 

Also some ppl legit said they wanna see more ohmnanon which is just annoying as hell. It was nice seeing them and all the BBS stuff was fun but this is jimmysea's show and they're doing amazing so far and they deserve so much more attention than what they're getting right now.

Also I'd like to point out that when cupids last wish aired earlier this year, people ate it up with no questions whatsoever. I don’t wanna generalize it but from my perspective, the majority was enjoying it so what’s so different about vice versa? it’s literally the exact same concept (except for the universe switch). From the body swap to us seeing the people who are “inside”, as opposed to the vessels etc. - so like??? idk I’m gonna stop rambling now but I don’t get it. Hopefully it’ll gain some more attention in the future because if someone deserves it it’s them 🥺 

xxx

[ofgentleresolve-a]

*brings cart full of these*: @ @ @ @ @ @ @

positivity for now bc i hate it when ppl say good vibes only ( ft. positivity meme ) || still accepting!

for every ‘@’ sent (anon or not) I WILL mention and post some positivity about a fellow tumblr user

fjskdlfjl thank you so much anon!!

okay!! so alex ( @gwyynbleidd ) is always a wonderful presence on my dashboard!! i love how they aren't afraid to show they are actively interested in their mutuals, just by how they'll spam memes. also they've got an eclectic section of muses- i've never seen a selection more varying in personality, but also backstory and like genre too?? also it's cool that many of them are connected to one another- really makes them feel more real!! also alex?? wonderful personality- super chill, fun, and funny to talk with via dash comm- i also very much appreciate their philosophy on writing... and they definitely practice what they preach!!

do you want chaos? okay about a mun who likes chaos but also is like super sweet and chill? io ( @kwatregats ) was one of the first people i also interacted with when i first came back to rp and i always really appreciate how relaxed and free-flowing they are when it comes to the progression of muse dynamics!! ester is a riot and i love that she along with the rest of io's muses enjoy making trouble ic....it makes my dashboard v entertaining to watch :D

speaking of ppl who i first wrote with, i must talk about cyan ( @bloodxhound )!! ah, yes- the other one of two reasons i initially came back to tumblr rp!! first of all, ray!! i love the gruff detective man who bullies to show love :'D he's so much fun to interact with regardless of WHICH muse i pick...most of if not all of my muses at least know him to some capacity and somehow it is inevitable that ray will be bullying them to some capacity :D ( unless ur mana, mana has rights ). but cyan!! SO SWEET. SO NICE. GREAT WRITER AND ARTIST I WANNA STEAL IT- i'm really the lucky one here to be able to write and plot with her for all these years!! i can't wait to give her and ray more chaos ( or sweetness ) to mess with!!

i don't interact as much with leo ( @thereckoniing ) but what i do know is that he's really chill and supportive of his mutuals!! i appreciate the layers that taewon has to his personality and to his backstory and I can't wait to learn more about him- that and i actually really like the himbo energy that taewon exudes around like ray and mana?? great times truly!!

oh yeah!! jiwon's mun ( @interxstitial ) is also super sweet and encouraging just like their muse! we haven't gotten far into our thread yet but i already ADORE the friendship between jiwon and lamon developing...jiwon's sweetness definitely matches well so far with lam's prickliness :'D

on the note of plots and great dynamics tho- you know who's really fun to plot with? yeah that's right, alex ( @jeoseungsaja / @theimpalpable ) is a BLAST to both write and plot with!! and even though i'm throwing different muses at the same muse ( so far ), alex shows such techinque with characterizing saja in each verse that it still feels fresh each time?? reaper and calum- wow that's gonna hurt/be fun when they finally meet via erza. hyuk and patrick - YEAH THAT ALREADY GOT ME IN THE FEELS. but alex!! super sweet and patient- i definitely adore talking with them and i love how excited they get about characterizations and relationships and character development AND how supportive they are of their mutuals on dash!! it's so sweet to see and really just...comforting?? rp can feel a lil' isolating so it's always lovely to see someone who genuinely loves writing and characters for the sake of it!!

another person who's devoted to character development tho has to be lena ( @mythvoiced )!! although i haven't gotten the chance to write with her yet, i do appreciate how much thought she puts into each and every one of her characters so they feel distinct!! i also love the curiosity she shows towards her mutuals' ocs just in how she'll send them hc questions :D also she's super supportive of her mutuals and i love seeing her excitement in the tags- it makes me excited about rp too!! all in all, someone i definitely admire on my dash :D

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

tbh I'm glad to find someone who doesn't ship clemerva either. I worry if I admit I don't ship it, I'll get hate 😔 it's weird to me that ppl have violet and louis but ship clem with minnie? don't get that but ppl can ship what they want, not saying they cant just that its weird that they see it as a ship after they fight and almost kill eachother in game

Yeah, I still haven't quite figured out the clemerva thing, either... not that I'm trying to because I avoid content for that ship but y'know. I've kinda accepted that I'll never fully understand it so it's whatever haha

But y'know what's kinda funny? The Minnie crowd who ship clemerva are some of the nicest people I've talked to in this fandom, and they've never held the fact that I don't like Minerva or clemerva against me, which is way more than what I can say for other crowds for other ships. Most of them are like "haha we get it, don't really like them in canon but love 'em in au's so we feel ya" and it's super chill. We have a good time.

The only time anyone has ever gotten mad at me over it was an ask I got about how much they hate the "but Minerva tried to kill Clem in ep4" argument. I blocked them since they sent it to me off anon and were also incredibly aggressive sooo.... yeah.

They pretty much said it's the stupidest argument since it doesn't hold up in an AU so stop using it... which is super funny to me? because when I checked out their blog, they had reblogged some interesting things.

Y'know Marlon can be pretty cool in an AU, too? In fact, we shouldn't use the argument "but he killed Brody!" when going off about marlody, or "he was gonna shoot Clementine!" when it comes to marlontine because it doesn't hold up in an AU.... right?

Or is that only allowed when it benefits your argument and the characters you enjoy?

I dunno, no good vibes from that person, they called me nasty names, and I haven't had to deal with them since so it's all good.

And for the record, clemerva, vinerva, marlontine, whatever-- ship it if ya want. If it makes you happy and you're not hurting anyone, create all the AU's you want. Just be respectful, y'know?

Do wanna add that I use the whole point of Clem and Minerva nearly killing each other because that's what the game gives us, and I'm not understanding what you apparently understand, because yeah I look at anything clemerva and all I see is Clementine about to shoot before Minerva literally spits blood in her face. It doesn't sit well with me, even in an AU.

So yeah.... you're not alone, anon. Plenty of people don't ship it, and most of the clemerva crowd are pretty chill about that.

[dukeofonions]

hi so i.found ur blog and its honestly like a breath of fresh air to look at so if its ok i might just fuckin,,vent here.

so. ik a lot of other people have been talking abt how pof was really straining to watch and i am.very late to the party but i need to talk abt it bcz holy fuck. when i first watched it i was in a way better place mwntally, also the general excitement of wow,content kinda overrode the headache and the eye hurty and the just. bad. but i was rewatching it recently because i was basing a fic off it and i just. i couldnt finish it because all of it was just so much and there was no fuckin warning?? so that was pog ig

next thing because i have. a lot of thoughts. ive been in the fandom for not-very-long, i joined in the middle of 2019 or something.and it just kinda sucks because im only still here for the fandom. i love the series but i can only watch dwit and compilations of logan/roman being sad so much before i can basically recite them off the top of my head. but i reallyreally love writing for the fandom!! it makes me so happy to do the writing, its just the fact that im not as invested with the series that makes me feel,,idk man guilty ig?? anyway thats too deep for a rant so im.a move on

god so tw me not liking post aa virgil and me talking abt toxic friends but hoooly fuck man. i just. pre aa virgil was fun because he was snarky and sarcastic and i could actually stand the nagst because his character made sense?? he was the 'bad guy' and he wasnt as woobified back then and he was honestly a solid vibe. but post aa virgil gives off the vibe of that one friend who fuckin, gets angry at you when you bring up any of your mental health issues and then blames their outburst on their mental health issuea and its like?? no i hate that character dynamic. people say bad things when the feel bad, sure, ik i have, but its the vibe of 'im gonna threaten you and then blame it on my mental health but if you so much as look at me wrong while ur having sensory overload or something i will smite you with the force of one thousand suns' and i am just.so tired. also ithink someone else said this but we should just call the series 'virgil sanders and the rest' because thats what it is now ksbdjqkbsq

also (all ofthese are my opinions btw and im not trying to say im rigbt im just tired honestly) the way. in pof the way patton's whole thing is 'you need empathy' is not funky fresh for both people with low empathy and high empathy 😎 bcz ppl with too much/too little empathy are always told theyre 'cold' or that theyre 'oversensitive', the whole 'there is an average amount of empathy and if u dont have that fuck you actually' is icky and bad and gross. i do think patton's character is really well done in the series but that episode jjust personally. ick.

and finally the moment uve not been waiting for bcz this is probably really tiring to read but the moment youve been waiting for-fwsa.just. why. its cute and stuff and i love nico. nico is a vibe. also bathroom man john is great. but shouldnt roman still be on shit terms with thomas?? like lk we're just gonna sweep away the whole 'i thought i wad ur hero' shizz? cool cool, glad to know romans arc still aint happening. also i get it, we needed to cement that virgil is a light side now. but like..did we?? actually bcz this is so long im gonna send in a second ask (im sososorry if this clogs up ur ask box if u tell me to stop i will i just. many thoughts) abt how even though i hate virgil, his arc should have been done. so differently. just gonna put like,, a mushroom emoji here so u can put the 2 asks together if u want 🍄

You’re always free to vent here! Sorry it took so long to respond but life has a cruel habit of getting in the way of things I need to do. 

So for starters, the POF problem should be talked about more so I can assure you that you’re not late to the party. It never really got the amount of attention it deserved so I am more than willing to bring that back up and trust me, you’re not alone. 

And again, you’re not alone in this either! Plenty of people still enjoy creating content for these characters. You don’t have to feel guilty for not finding the actual series interesting because honestly, I’m kinda losing interest too. But I still love these characters and I love that the fandom is still creating stories with them through different mediums.

Honestly I agree with just about everything you said about Virgil and I do eventually plan on tackling a lot of this in a future post. You know, if I ever force myself to just sit down and write the dang thing... 

Oh my gosh I’ve been waiting for someone to talk about this because that whole thing about empathy in POF really ticked me off because you’re absolutely right, not everyone is 100% empathetic, and some people can be empathetic to a point where it hurts themselves. Like I get what they were trying to say but it came across as, well, like you said. “If you’re don’t have this exact level of empathy then eff you I guess you’re a bad person.” Maybe that actually wasn’t their intention but it sure came across that way and maybe I’ll go into it a little more in another post because now that I’ve been reminded of it again I kinda wanna talk about it more. 

Okay yes, FWSA on its own is a good episode. Heck, it’s one of my favorites. It feels closer to a season one episode than ATHD that’s for sure. The problem with this episode isn’t the quality but the fact that it comes right after POF. And I’ve basically gone over this in my “Problem With Asides” post and how it affects both Roman and Virgil’s current arcs so I won’t go into much more detail here but just know that I pretty much agree with all of this. 

Also don’t worry about cluttering up my inbox. It’s here for people to share their thoughts and that’s exactly what you’re doing! Hope to see your part two soon mushroom anon! 

[domjaehyun]

hii heEeey! <3 i'm the anon who's in love with u and ur sexy brain <33 i'm gonna panic jsksks i have a lot of things i wanna tell you and talk about that if i were to put it in one ask, it's gonna be so so long UgH😭 for now, imma store them in a folder inside my mind and try my best to not forget them bUT ANYWAY. i love the new theme!! 😻😻 and that racist bitchass is so stupid, what a waste of time and space they are!!! 😤 it was soul satisfying how you roasted them though😌 ialsomayhavefallendeeperinlovewithyouseeingyougooffonsomeonelikethatmadememalfunctionthatwasveryattractiveofyouplskissme HHHHHHHHh

okaY so i don't really believe in astrology that much, i just see it as for fun but i kinda do but don't (guess my sun lmao) and my knowledge on it is very limited and basic so reading your analysis got me giddy cause i feel like i'm learning more from you and about you ehEhEHe. now i'm curious >< i wanna know what you think of me jsksjsjs. i'm a libra sun, sagittarius moon, pisces rising, mercury in libra too, venus in virgo, and mars in capricorn. i know nothing about birth charts but tbh when i saw mine i was like uhhh :////// LMAO NAKSSKS

oh my gooood, i also have to ask you, do you know cusp signs??? part of the reason why i don't believe in astrology that much is bcs of my birth date, that sometimes it's under libra or virgo (i remember u said ur least fav air sign is libra and u don't like virgos damn i'm not winning ur heart huh😭😭😭) like for example, i'm looking at a daily horoscope and i try to find mine, and it has dates too, sometimes it'll say until sept blah blah to sept 22 for virgos so then that means i'm a libra??? since sept 23 is the start of libra is what they're saying, but other times it'll say it's until 23 for virgos so i'm not a libra but a virgo????? it's just so confusing that i feel like i don't belong JWKSKSJW but from what google said it's what they call a cusp sign, when uhh it's in the process of transitioning from one sign to another or something something i really dunno like where the hell do i even put myself in *sobs*. this time though my birth chart result said libra so lemme just roll with it ig :"))

lastly, look at this haechan vid and suffer with me ;-; https://twitter.com/odetolhc/status/1467137355953819648?t=eNf-X0ikjGz0njFmoiS6hw&s=19

omg omg omg okay here we go fjgsdkl hi my love :D (just so you're aware, i officially give you permission to send me as many asks as YOU need to get everything out that you want to say!! you're literally such a cutie and i find your excitement v endearing fdsgkjd)

thank you my love :D i'm glad you like the theme !!!!!! and also . yeah they're pathetic. it's unfortunate that people are like that but it's more unfortunate that they're allowed to interact with people ://

but DJFGSDLK THANK YOU IM HAPPY YOU LIKED IT OMG tbh it always surprises me when i like. Do Things Like That, like. go off on people like i did, and then other people like. encourage it 😭😭😭 it's a little bit maddening to my libra rising AND just the general personality trait i have of . not rly acknowledging hate or doing things like that like. i was p much a "good vibes only" type of person for a whiiiile bc i didnt wanna get like . painted as Mean or whatever but now i'm like. fuck it. and ....ppl.......enjoy it........ which means i could have been doing this all along 😭 so all the times i chose "peace" I COULD HAVE BEEN GOING FOR THE JUGULAR !!!! DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH JOY THAT WOULD BRING ME !!! *heavy sigh* anyway . yeah dfjgshdklj but i'm very happy you don't think i'm like . a bad person or anything ig !!! makes me very relieved :D

and omg my love i wish i'd . been able to answer your chart reading earlier bc i think i had more energy earlier fjdgshdjk but i will try my best regardless!!!!

NO MORE ASTROLOGY ASKS!!!

okay i'm gonna try and keep it as. concise yet informative as possible bc now im in a small time crunch w a deadline for today fgjsfdlk but here i GO

libra sun - you could either be very "mediator" / "peace maker" in behavior or could go the absolute opposite direction and play "manipulative puppet master." virtually nothing else in your chart suggests the latter, nor does anything about your demeanor, so don't worry. you might, as the peace maker, be more likely to compromise your own comfort for the sake of "keeping the peace" -- do not do that. do not do that. you deserve better than to be uncomfortable in situations because people keep disrespecting you!!! that also, quite honestly, might play a role in why you find it so attractive when i go off on people–your sun sign is the opposite of my sun sign and we are pretty contrasting in vibes fdkjgslf so it might in a way inspire you because you may think i have the voice, candor, ability/power, and freedom to stand up for myself in ways you might like to?

pisces rising - i mentioned this in another reply to an anon's chart, but you might have the habit of idealizing yourself to an extent? hiding parts of yourself you don't believe fit the image you're attempting to portray to others around you and pisces risings can be described by some people as kind of daydreamy, like a person whose head is always in the clouds !!!

libra sun AND pisces rising - these are both placements/signs that aren't always the best at speaking up for themselves, so the fact that these two work so closely in your chart might suggest that you at times might feel like a pushover in some regards and more passive where maybe you might not actually want to be.

libra mercury - mercury is the planet that kinda rules communication and libra mercuries can really go a number of ways, i think. i think more evolved libra mercuries (evolution in the sense that i am using it means the actual process of you growing up as an individual and developing and coming more into your own/finding your voice) can be excellent communicators; diplomatic and respectful, patient, well-spoken, and in a sense can be pretty good, like, flatterers ig? yeah fjgsdjlk your libra mercury could also make you an excellent communicator who doesn't exactly use your abilities for good; you might be very good at manipulation and deceptive language and behavior; be mindful of this if it concerns you!! however, i would say that unevolved libra mercuries might have a really hard time finding their voice because of their tendency to hold back slightly and compromise on expressing themselves for the "peace keeping" aspect of the situation. do not do that!!!! speak your piece!!!!!!!!

libra mercury AND libra sun - i saw a tiktok like yesterday that made such excellent sense when i actually thought about it, and it said that people whose mercury and sun placements are in the same sign (like you!!) tend to be very good at expressing themselves!! which to me makes perfect sense bc like . in keeping w the example ive used a while today, your libra sun, your core/essence/energy, is speaking one language. when it comes to expressing yourself, your libra sun is passing that to your mercury sign so it can handle the communication part; because your mercury is also in libra, this means there won't be any need to "translate" in a sense because your libra mercury speaks the exact same language as your libra sun! (fun fact: i also have my sun and mercury in the same sign dfkjsghl i am an aries sun and mercury which . might explain to some extent why being Assertive and Sticking Up For Myself feels so cathartic when i do it dfsgjfsfldj)

sagittarius moon - i mentioned this in i think another reblog, but again, sag moons are the least "fiery" of the fire signs to me!! quite honestly, they're more of an airy fire sign to me i think in that they're very free spirits and really value independence and the space to explore and have adventures and try new things!! your sag moon might make you a little surprised at times and it might have a little more fire to it than your libra sun/mercury and pisces rising might expect, but it's probably, in a way, protecting you from some sort of stressor you might not be fully cognizant of. i feel like specific triggers that might upset you most are when people are being unfair (a lot of libras have like . diplomatic, fair energy; my libra rising def plays a factor in how i handle conflict in a similar way), specifically some form of biased, if you feel as though someone just Keeps Starting Problems and therefore making your internal role of "peace maker" kick into overdrive, and from your sag moon, you might react very strongly to feeling controlled or trapped in some sense.

capricorn mars - i don't know much of Anything about capricorns but words that do come to mind are Methodical, Logical, and Driven. you might really attempt to rationalize and justify your anger and truly make sure that if you're gonna raise a fuss, it's something worth raising a fuss about !!!

capricorn mars AND libra sun/mercury - these signs could actually be pretty harmonious, i think!! libra is fair and wants to know the whole story, with an unbiased opinion, and capricorn wants to do just that; gather every bit of evidence, analyze it carefully, and then read a bitch dfgkjsdlk you might be the type of person who finds yourself compiling "receipts" against people and situations and maybe even keeping them very organized in a way that makes sense to you. think about it, in a sense, like your libra sun is the big CEO of the company that is you. your libra mercury is kind of your libra sun's right hand man in that your mercury sends out all the official emails and statements/handles the correspondence. think of your capricorn mars as, like, maybe HR...if that makes sense. when there are issues that you feel need to be handled, your capricorn mars HR department is gonna be in charge of getting all the facts and analyzing the situation and bringing said info to your libra sun, who looks over the evidence, makes a final judgment, then gives your libra mercury the go ahead to send out an official statement!! you have the potential to be a very well oiled machine when these three signs come into play with each other!!!

virgo venus - gonna be 100% real with you, my love; i do not know very much about virgo venuses but i will do my best!!!! if i'm not mistaken, virgo in venus isn't actually a super harmonious placement? venus is about peace and love and things like that, whereas virgo is typically more...logical? i would say? it's a far more grounded sign than venus would usually like to have in her orbit djsfgkld think of it kind of as venus being the happy child who just wants to daydream and have good vibes, but virgo is like . the parent who never entertains what they believe to be venus's "nonsense" and would be the type of parent to ruin venus's daydreaming and dream world; for example: the type of parent who would tell their child santa isnt real just to "be realistic" even though their child might be devastated 😭😭😭 virgos do seem as if they could be attracted to intelligence in a sense; wittiness, cleverness, etc. (this...also might play a factor in why you find it attractive when i tell people off dfjkgskdk) and might want to be in a partnership with people they believe they can stand to learn something from!! virgos may be very critical when developing affections–they might be more prone to getting "the ick" from people or just having what others may consider Very High Standards–but once they're in love, they're usually there to stay !!! virgos are very loyal lovers and can be very protective of their lover and might really like to be in a partnership where, again, they can learn from one another, but also protect each other. virgo in venus might really benefit from a more patient lover because they might initially have a hard time expressing/coming to terms with their feelings!! (me: i don't know much about this!! also me: says A Lot)

libra sun AND virgo venus - you might be kind of a serial crusher in that people catch your eye frequently, but because of your virgo venus, you might find a reason to stop liking them quickly jfgfsljgdh think, again, of virgo as a parent in a sense? and libra is the child in the grocery store asking their parent if they can get X treat and every time they ask, virgo says no quite snappily and might leave libra feeling a little stuck and frustrated, as they don't feel as if the situation is fair. this could manifest in, like, you criticizing yourself for repeatedly losing interest in people and wondering to yourself why you're "difficult to please" but i don't think there are any inherent issues with having high standards for yourself!! you might just want to make sure the standards you have are reasonable expectations for people to meet, otherwise you might not have very happy relationships!!

OKAY ummmm about cusps; i don't know !!! i think that personally i would be more inclined to go with whichever placement resonates best, which is most likely going to be your actual calculated sun sign! cusps are kinda wishy washy so i don't rly know much about them :((( i'm sorry abt that, my love!!! (also don't worry; you do not give me virgo (derogatory) vibes at all dfhglksjdf and i DO LIKE LIBRAS!!! they're just not my favorite air sign but i like . have actual reasons to like libras!!! i only placed aquarius higher on the list because....quite frankly, i am not sure why but i repeatedly find myself drawn to aquariuses, and they also seem to be drawn to me dfghjslk)

aaaand last but certainly not least: haechan is going to make me scream at the top of my lungs. he's so . he's so PRECISE like he's SO talented oHHhHhhhH my god he's so in control of himself that is insane to me im gonna scream oh my god i'm gonna cry and have a meltdown perhaps!!!!!!!

[dainobones]

it baffles me that ppl on here still send me messages about the pokemon fandom, and more specifically the g/s fandom, like i care or have anything to contribute

so lemme just. sum it up one last time and then the anons are getting blocked, along with a couple of other semi-regular questions i'm not gonna answer

i dont write fics atm bcuz i'm busy and uninspired

part of why i'm uninspired is absolutely ppl messaging me about Drama

mostly i'm uninspired bcuz other stuff i've been writing is 1000x more interesting than anything i was writing for pkmn fandom

i left that one discord server bcuz i didnt like it

there's nothing deeper to me not liking it. i thought the place had bad vibes every time i visited, so i left

i cannot tell you anything about the ppl on the server or who runs it bcuz i literally cant remember them and to my memory, never rly knew them / was never friends with them

if you think it has bad vibes too, cool, i don't care, it's got nothing to do with me how you feel about a place that also has nothing to do with me

if i had to say any one thing that annoys me about g/s fans, it's the tendency to whine incessantly about lack of content while never contributing content or supporting what there is. THAT'S why i dont check tags any more, and yes, it's a contributing factor in my lack of interest in the ship any more. i find the hypocrisy annoying and the complaining about what's there unfair. the way ppl talk about that ship and the content for it makes me second-guess why i even like it, which is sad bcuz i've shipped it since 2000, but oh well!!! i dont rly miss it i just get frustrated when ppl remind me of all this

yes i was online harassed for years and it was horrible. there is literally no reason for anyone except me to bring it up any more tho. and no!!! it does not have anything to do with that server!!!!

i literally never think about that server unless ppl are on here asking me shit about it or telling me their grievances for god knows what reason. i cannot emphasise this enough: if we're not friends, that's your personal problem, and you need to deal with it instead of dumping it on a stranger.

"do you think ppl are parasocial with you" dont be absurd. i'm too much of a non-presence for that to be the case. i think ppl are either venting bcuz they dont know anyone else in the fandom, or they think venting their fandom frustrations will make me wanna be their friend but no, it doesn't, bcuz it's petty bullshit and i dont care

"are you going to update [insert fic]" probably not

"are you going to write [insert fic idea]" probably not

"where can i find your original writing" lol it's. not hard but i'm also not gonna tell you bcuz *gestures at vague legal things*

"why dont more ppl support your original writing??" idk. have you tried reccing it? i dont promote it more than the bare minimum requirements. in part bcuz of my personality disorder but also bcuz i dont have a reason to be invested in it being successful. no i will not explain that further, the moment anyone says something about how Publishing Industries Work ppl take it as gospel but this is a very unique and localised situation. that's as much as you'll get.

i'm also not invested in my fics being read or whatever bcuz to me fics are a low-pressure low-priority hobby and it's easier to keep it that way if there arent many ppl reading what i'm writing. it's nice when ppl do!! love it when ppl do and enjoy it and have nice things to say!!!! but i write fics just to have some fun and then post them if i think other ppl can have some fun with it too. no skin off my nose if they're not read, but also: i know other fic writers see it differently, and they are completely right and valid to feel that way!!! it's MUCH easier to write with validation & attention, if you are someone who thrives from validation & attention.

"why dont you post more" bcuz i dont have anything to say

"can i follow you on twitter" if you can find the one i actually use, sure, give a go, i'll prob deny your req unless i recognise your username

and inb4

"why dont you just remake" that.... seems like more effort than this place is worth? and mostly i dont get this stuff it's like. once or twice a month and then i get annoyed

"why dont you turn off ask" bcuz mostly theyre fine and old friends/mutuals checking in and i mean. it's not that i dont LIKE attention/validation i just dont NEED it

"why are you being so rude" i'm trying to scare ppl off....... duh.....

"why is this so unreadable" i thought about formatting it better but god that's more effort than i wanna give like. just writing this is enough, and that's an effort born out of frustrating from almost two years of these messages

ANYWAY GOOD NIGHT

[seijorhi]

asks :)

guess who crashed super fucking early last night and woke up to a whole bunch of asks? me. it was me.

Hey Rhi, so I just wanted to say how much i love your fics and we are all honestly so lucky you give them to us for free. Every one of your works is amazing and you put so much effort and time in to make them all really quality. I'm sorry some people are being rude like honestly they're requests not demands and you have every right to write non requests or not respond to every request. Keep on keeping on. PS I would be down for more soulmate content if you wanted to do that in the future.

Thank you!! Honestly requests are kind of a double edged sword because I genuinely love writing prompts and stuff for you guys but some people kind of get a bit... rude about it :( but thank you for the sweet message! And as far as more soulmate fics go... we’ll see 😉

okay now I'm wondering which characters got the most requests? and does your post mean you might open the requests for Kita, Suna, Ushi and Sakusa??? 🥺👉👈

Lmao I legitimately went through my requests and tallied them all up and even though you didn’t ask:

1 request - Bokuto & Akaashi, Todoroki boys (yes all of them ya filthy heathens), Kiri & Bakugou, Oikawa, Noya, Yamaguchi, Tsukki, Suga, Bokuto, Overhaul, Atsumu, Shinsou, Futakuchi, Bakugou, Iwa & Oikawa, Semi, Iwaizumi, Coach Ukai, Aizawa & Shinsou, Kageyama & Oikawa, Suga & Daichi, Aoba Johsai

2 - Shigaraki, Tendou, Aizawa, Dabi, Kuroo & Bokuto

3- Kageyama, Kenma, Kuroo

4 - Makki & Mattsun, the Miya twins, Hawks

and you know what? Fuck it. Send me shit - doesn’t guarantee that i’ll write it, but i’m open :)

I got CHILLS reading the InariMnger fic! I was all giddy at first and the more I read, the more that turned into anxiety as it was so FOREBODING LIKE 🏃‍♀️😰 it gave me the same vibe as Home ( Home really made me cold in 35°C weather) but in a different sense like, oh no, oh no way whilst Home was more brrrrr🥶 (my words are failing me right now after reading) but the sentence at the end!!! 👁👄👁 i was 🤯☺️😰☺️ i didn't know how to feel! Also, Atsumu, Suna and Osamu combo was*fan self* 

And I am so sorry to hear people have been shitty to you! There are really some immature people out there sometimes, and I wish I can protect you against them but all I can rlly do is say to ignore them, those kinds of people aren't worth an inch of your time, and you are free to answer and write as you wish. It might not be easy though, I get that. For me, if my Asks inspires you, you don't even have to answer it to my Ask. 

And I'm too scared to come off anon (lmao i dunnoe which direction I want to take my blog yet hahahaha) but if u need someone to bounce ideas around, I'll be happy to let you know my username so we can chat if Asks aren't going to work! 😊 and sorryyyyy I wasn't around for a while!! I lurked but haven't had the time to settle down to really read anything until now, and I was not disappointed 🧠=🤯 - 🦊 anon

oH my god you are trying to make me cry?? You’re the goddamned sweetest! Also, and this goes for everybody, y’all can come slide into my dms and chat whenever. I am very shy and awkward as a human being, but i promise i’m nice. No pressure though, but 

hey dude u r under NO obligation at all to fulfill reqs like do ppl forget u do this for free???? from the good of ur heart n horny of ur soul???? everything u write is bomb i enjoy literally everything u put out n like writing should b fun! write what u wanna!!! (also i do love ushijima so like i sure wouldnt mind if u wrote more for him)

i think some people forget that like... i’m a person, not a writing machine? I love answering requests from you guys - some of the requests i’ve had have been super fun and exciting to write (i will forever be in the debt of the lovely big brain anon who sent me the first gift wrapped prompt) 

and as far as Ushijima goes... i was talking (bein horny) with a friend and the words ‘breeding kink’ may have come up?? and I may have promised her I’d write her some yandere goodness around that concept?? mayhaps?? 😇

hey girl!! i just have to tell you. i was doing work and was super bored and in my head i was like, “hmm later i should call oikawa”... call WHO?? ma’am Bully Oikawa lives in my head rent free, and im not even mad. anyways hope youre having a splendid day ❤️❤️

Bully Oikawa is literal trash and I adore him. This made me laugh though, so thanks for that bby!

Does this give us permission to send reqs? 👀

Yep. New disclaimer that not every requests will be answered (think of it more like a suggestions box??) and that it may take time because i’m a slow ass writer and i’m also writing my own concepts and stuff, but hit me up :)

Oof I saw you’re working on a daichi/suga fic and I think I might have been the one to request that, regardless I’m so so hype to see it 🤩

Ahh I hope it won’t dissapoint!!

I'm never going to get sick of your soulmate fics❤️ Soulmates a a trope I enjoy very much and add in some yandere things and OMG ❤️

listen,,, i will never tire of soulmate things. like, ever. personally it makes me feel extra loved and i adore just about every story that has a soulmate au. and yes, that includes yanderes. 🥰🥰

I speak for everyone when I say that we will never get sick of your soulmate aus. You are such a talented writer, you can publish your grocery list and I would give it 5 stars

I’m answering these three together but W O W i was not aware y’all liked them so much. I’m trying to make sure everything i write is at least a little different, but hey if you guys want it, who am i to say no? ❤️

[jiminieloved]

I’m happy to read that I wasn’t the only one who found it awkward. I enjoyed watching their reactions to trying to figure out what they were trying to make. Tae didn’t look interested and Jungkook just looked lost lol it was quite funny. I’m a kindergarten teacher so art class is always fun and this is what it reminded me of. If they don’t have clear direction and left on their own they go through many emotions spoken through their eyes and expressions

Okay I’ve watched it now and I think it is a little awkward. a lot of long silences and awkward eye contact, I don’t know.. once they got more into their crafts and started playing music it got less painful to watch. 

I think the vlive came off as awkward cuz jk obviously was shy like he was soo engrossed in his work n also understandable cuz the man hasnt done sole vlive for a year now. And V kinda stays quiet these days n hes not that chaotic anymore.... so u think it got a little awkward.

They were both acting awkward, but as I said in my previous asks, there’s a lot of pressure with a livestream that will be watched by millions of people, so I kind of get it. 

Listen the vlive was cute especially when ugh started playing but tk just don't have "it". Like shipping aside compare it to the other paired vlives, I get it that jk was focus on his flower but tae was free to start any conversation or something, his solo vlive he was doing so good singing and talking to armys really love his FM shows, but here it was just :/ not trying to start a war, I'm just being honest.

damn harsh

lol I actually didn't think the vlive was awkward maybe a little in the beginning it was just that they didn't seem to have much natural chemistry and rapport so it was kind of bland and boring

I thought it was awkward at the beginning and they got more comfortable as they went. 

Hey! I just saw tae and jks vlive n i dont wanna trigger anyone n i love taekook but didnt u feel it was a bit awkward like i saw all other vlives n even tho hobi n rm did similar vlive as tae n jk but it was not that awkward. I dunno this vlive just felt a bit off to me? Maybe it was just them feeling awkward i dunno. Its just my opinion. What do u feel bout it?

Yeah, it was awkward compared to the other member’s recent vlives. I think they felt awkward for whatever reason. 

I started watching the Vlive too and Tae and JK are so chill and slow and calm and awkward that it feels like a minute equals five, I can't stop laughing. They're so cute though, I don't mean it in a negative way. :)

Haha they were so focused and methodical.

Hey what are your thoughts on taekook vlive?

These are my thoughts. 

Pt. 1 Everyone thinks that one must dislike Tae or Kook to believe they aren't super close. I believe they love and appreciate each other no doubt but their dynamic has been awkward since 2016 imo. Every time they are alone together it feels uncomfortable. I See this in BVs3 when they share the same room, Vlives etc. I don't claim to know why, I have opinions but won't elaborate much in anon, but their discomfort is undeniably felt. Pt. 2 There have been people in my friend circles that vibe well with me in group but alone we seem to have very little to say to each other and it's awkward. I've grown apart from ppl that once upon a time used to be my close friends but when we tried to reconnect discomfort was apparent. This isn't to say I hated these people, contrary i liked them but no longer vibed with them and it took a group to make our interactions less awkward. 

I get what you mean for sure. It could’ve just been the camera / livestream aspect, though. Oh just saw your part 3.

This is the nature of growing up with people. I always see people saying they are super closer and I feel guilty for disagreeing. They are close in the familial sense but in the chemistry sense I don't see it and haven't seen it since 2015. I know a lot of ppl feel the same but are scared of being attacked for saying it because saying anything against tk makes one an anti. But simply put, we feel their discomfort not because they are hiding a secret love imo but because they are uncomfort

They were extremely close in early BTS days, and I think people grow and change. Not to say I don’t think they’re close anymore because that is by no means my place to say, but it did seem that they were kind of awkward interacting with each other. 

And it could be the added dynamic of being so heavily and aggressively shipped by your fans and having every moment over sexualized- that would make me feel a bit cautious of what i do on or say camera with them as well.

Girl, even taekookers themselves noticed how awkward they were 💀 Search "taekook awkward" on Twitter and you'll see. The delulu ones blame the staff for the awkwardness

Lol

dont you think jungkook is awkward during lives with any member tho? i think the only time he wasnt awkward was during jikook's vlive in december 2017 before the wings tour finale. in ot7s lives he's okay but now with one other member.

I don’t think he’s awkward in every vlive. This one stuck out to me as awkward, but no other vlive (besides that one where Jimin was sitting on the bed, which was awkward in a different way) felt awkward. In my opinion. 

Lol this was a hot topic, thanks for sharing your thoughts and opinions. 

[lnarizakis]

— sam’s match-ups masterlist

hi! if you sent in a match-up ask, you can find ‘em all here! if you sent off anon, i have just tagged you and added the link to the post. if you sent as anon/anon with identifying emoji, i included your description along with the link. this post will be constantly updated as i continue to post my match-ups! thank you and i hope you all enjoy your match-ups!!

— @hqprotectionsquad . . .

— anon . . . ❝ could i get a matchup🥺 with 2 boys~ i'm 4'9, i'm really tiny and i've been told i have really nice hair hehe personality wise i've been told i'm really gentle and calming, i had a teacher that said my voice is "serene" and "soothing" >__< i'm the mom friend of the group🥰 i'm quite the introvert, i enjoy just staying home with some takeout, studying quietly or playing acnh underneath all my blankets.. i'm quite fond of hugs and cuddling and forehead kisses too though😚😚💞💞💞 ❞

— anon . . . ❝ could i request for a matchup?🥺 i'm about 5'3, my friends always say i'm the perfect height to hug 🤗 i have long hair till my waist that i dyed a rose-gold colour, i like wearing green or grey contacts because i like the way they make my eyes look. i have a resting b!tch face though...i'm not very approachable because of it😭 i've been playing netball for about 6 years now and i'm quiet irl i guess, but off the court and when i'm comfy, i'm quite the goodball🤙🏻🤙🏻 ❞

— anon . . . ❝ grats for 500! I'd like to request a matchup w 3 ppl pls! Im female, 5'2, i LOVE volleyball! i play wing spiker but i used to play setter, i loved setting for my besties in hs after training. I like to work out, read books & study. i clean my room every morning cos i like neat things, my closet's organized. i have dark brown eyes and thick thighs, proud of em! i also dance, im flexible, and im taking journalism. i wanna play pro vb in the future but tbh 158.5cm's too short, but im not giving up! ❞

— ⭐️ 🌸 anon . . . ❝ Hey hey! If ur still doing the matchup event i would love one!! Im a short gal with wavy dark hair and green eyes. I wear makeup p often esp red eyeshadow and black winged eyeliner (bc im an egirl until i DIE). Speaking of egirl i dress in black and with a chain most of the time but i also randomly flip into floral soft girl hours?? As for personality im really energetic once im comfortable and i love people who can match that energy, esp bc i get anxious rlly easily so i need someone . . . who will help keep me calm and happy when my drive for success gets a lil out if hand lmao. I’m also v combative towards ppl who i think are disrespectful! I love classic novels and watching foreign movies, but I also LOVE sports and get rlly hype abt them. I also LOVE music esp metal but i can and WILL vibe to literally anything esp if its during a workout (bc i live at the gym and someone spotting my squats is so romantic 2 me 🥺). A match w/ 2 boys would be sick, tysm in advance! ❞

— anon . . . ❝ Im medium height with long brown hair and sharp features. I like drawing, reading, cooking. I’m rather chill and level-headed, i’m usually the one to fix objects and solve problems, I avoid drama. I’m compassionate and caring but sometimes indifferent. I like mountains, art galleries, concerts, cello and graphic design. I’m adaptable and open to learning new things but I don’t like changing my routine too much. + 1 male character. ty for this and congrats on 500 followers!!! you deserve it ❞

—anon . . . ❝ hihi!!!! congrats on 500!! i lov ur content sm.. akfjag im asking for a two chara match up!!! im 5'3 and i have pink hair,, i switch between so many hobbies LOL i play volleyball and softball,, and i love singing and painting!! i have a really cottagecore aesthetic and i love baking things for people!!!!! im really energetic and v bratty over text but i get flustered so easily in person,, i hope youre having a good day//night !!!!!! ty for ur fics ❞

— 🐧 anon . . . ❝ match up please!!🥺 2 characters n no gender preference!! im a tall (around 184cm) kinda chubby girl w/ shoulder length brown hair, hazel eyes, pale skin w/ a lot of moles n i wear glasses! im p shy n it takes me a while to open up. but when i do i am a completely dif person,, making friends is hard but the ones i do have i love more than anything! when im w/ them im cheerful, talk a lot n goof around. otherwise i look p intimidating n serious cause i have a rbf n barely talk,, . . . im the mom friend, an optimist, a dreamer n a procrastinator. im p hard to piss off but when im angry i can get scary 😳 im sensitive n cry a lot, currently im working on being more confident! i love animals n flowers!! cause im not the best with words i use lil gifts n touches to express my love! my hobby is drawing! ive been doing it my whole life n im rlly proud of it!! congrats on 500 followers love❤ ❞

— @raevaioli . . .

— 🦆 anon . . . ❝ Happy 500 bubs! You def deserve it :)! I was wondering if I could get a #1 male matchup? Looks: 5’1 petite fem w/ small chest/tiny waist. Thick/medium brown hair and eyes. I’m a cancer with ENTP type! I’m a very affectionate person to my loved ones. I’m very stubborn, sensitive (but I try to hide it), ambitious, witty and very talkative! I like to tease my friends, watch Netflix and try new baking things! Although I show my love through actions, I’m fine with getting love back in any way . . . Also I like baths! (It’s random but why not 😌) I wish you a good day! ❞

— anon . . . ❝ Hey! Can I get a matchup? (#1)I’m a Leo and a ISFJ chick! I have medium brown hair and big eyes w/ glasses. I have a petite body with a small waist and chest. I’m really nice to people but very awkward (I’ll laugh at the floor) and when annoyed. I’m much more open to others like my best friend,I feel at home with her :,) .My hobbies include watching greys anatomy, shopping for clothes, and calling my friends. I would want my partner to be a lil more extroverted than me. Happy 500 😊 ❞

— anon . . . ❝ hi! Can I get a matchup? I’m 5’2 straight girl w/ long brown wavy hair and big brown eyes. I’m thick in all the right places🥴 plus I have a curvy body. My star sign is Pisces and I’m a ISFP. I’m more introverted than extroverted. I dress like Hobo type of way, but i always wear AF1s and I NEVER crease them. In my spare time I draw,listen to raps (mostly by Tupac) and oldies, learn raps, and hang out wit friends. I also have a bunch of piercings on my ears and one on my nose. ty CONGRATS ON 500+ ❞

— anon . . . ❝ CONGRATULATIONS ON 500 WHOOP WHOOP❣️🥺, can i please have a matchup doe! so happy to celebrate this with you❤️ i’m a female, straight, 5’4 and a half, dark skin with medium black curly hair, chubby cheeks and always smiling, i love being outside just experiencing life or trying new drinks at restaurants!! i also enjoy staying home to watch tons of anime & movies or dates to the museum or theme park, spring is my favorite season and orange is my favorite color, i’m so hyper and loving, thank you! ❞

— 🐾 anon . . . ❝ Twice the charm I suppose :) I’m a 5’1 girl with long wavy brown hair. I have a lot of piercings and I tend to wear a lot of jewelry. I wear two knee braces due to a connective tissue disorder. I’m bisexual, so either way works for me owo. I’m an INFJ and a type 4. I’m told that I’m pretty easygoing but I get angry real quick when someone I love is threatened. I’m very empathetic and I’m the mom friend of the group 🐾 . . . Fun fact, don’t leave me alone in public for more than two seconds or else random strangers come up to me asking for advice. This has happened way too many times now don’t ask me why lmaooo. I’ve been playing soccer for eleven years now. I was the captain of a coed college-age division team for two years. I play left defense and goalkeeper. 🐾 . . . I go hiking a lot, I love cliff diving, and I’m an archer. I am also a painter and a writer. My dream job is to become a book editor, but I want to eventually live off my books. I tend to be pretty clingy when it comes to people. I randomly need a lot of attention and force my friends to cuddle. They like rejecting me 😔. Sorry that this was so long aha. Ily and have a good day 💕🐾 ❞

thanks for sending in an ask ! didn’t see yours? please let me know !

[sunshinexlollipops]

How do u feel about the Mary debacle going down rn? U have had kind of an animosity towards her and you’ve written things against her so I’m guessing you’re not a fan of her, but hey!! I just wanted 2 kno how u felt about these posts saying ppl hate Mary unfairly. And w/ ACW r u going 2 represent that or go a dif direction??? Im super curious and I just wanna know if that’s ok! Also this isn’t meant 2 b hateful/assuming btw!!!

Hey, anon!

It’s okay, I didn’t get that vibe from this anon. I know how I’ve spoken of Mary in the past, and how that can be taken, so it’s alright! That, and I have also been clear about kind of where I stand.

I want to make a disclaimer though: I’m purely expressing my views in this post, and it isn’t meant to cause offense in any way! I’m just a chill person and I don’t have any intentions of zeroing in on anyone for any views on this. I promise I’m not trying to attack anyone or cause drama. I’m just answering you, anon, pure and simple.

And if it does seem that way, I apologize, and assure you that isn’t the case! :,)

If you want to ignore this, just scroll on! Otherwise this starts after the Arthur gif!

I’ve mentioned that I personally don’t like Mary, or at least, how things were between her and Arthur.

I don’t loathe the woman in a sense that I wanted her character to suffer, nor be redacted from the story.

Mary was put in there for a reason, and it not only gave further insight to Arthur as a character, but it helped his redemption and story in certain aspects. I respect her for that, and for certain things she did as well.

I would say the issue I did have with Mary is that she isn’t innocent, but that’s obvious— it’s mainly the reasons why she ain’t and how they affect Arthur.

While she isn’t beating Arthur nor putting him in a position in which he’s forced to help her, she does kind of corner him and know he cares for her in a way that can benefit her in her time of need.

That isn’t necessarily a bad thing in the sense of it validates crucifying her, but it’s kind of how Mary goes about it in certain ways. And how she also treats Arthur for it.

I don’t want to go into specific moments or quotes because it’s all just a mess— but I do want to say this: Mary wasn’t perfect to Arthur, just as Arthur wasn’t perfect for her.

That’s the point. None of these characters are necessarily good, or bad. But their flaws are put at the forefront of what you see, because this series is all about recognizing your flaws and trying to do better by them. To be a better person.

Arthur was a man that came with too many problems. Not necessarily with himself as a man, but mainly with the life he led.

He was an outlaw, and he couldn’t give that up easily. But he wanted to, for Mary.

The timing was just never in their favor.

As for Mary, she didn’t want to admit or realize how bad her father is. She criticizes Arthur but remains blind to her father, and does pin Arthur for what he is when what he is benefits her when she asks for his help.

Additionally, to make note of this too: someone mentioned to me her father does mistreat her (he had a line in which he wished her dead or something along those lines), and it’s sad to see how Mary is in denial about all of it. Her father is just a piece of shit and it’s sad to see how she just writes it off while holding Arthur accountable.

I think a lot of people hate Mary the way they do because of how her interactions with Arthur are because of that criticism. It does appear like usage, and certain things she does are manipulative.

And do some people hate mary for being with Arthur/breaking up with him (the first or technically the second time)?

Yes. Of course.

Personally, I can understand why they didn’t work out. I don’t fault Mary for leaving entirely. I just find an issue in her jaded and contradictory stance on Arthur and that she sided with her father’s notions on Arthur despite all of his hypocrisy.

Now. It’s all taken with a grain of salt.

Because it’s understandable they didn’t work out.

How could they have?

They were teens/young adults who were more caught up in love than to see the problems lying within their relationship. Feelings outweighed reality, and it came crashing down when they acknowledged the problems that were keeping them on two sides of the same fence.

She did care about Arthur. She wanted to run with him, and she insured his grave after he died. And Arthur loved her still, falling right back for her and in general, using his final journal entry to write about her first, and how he only wanted her to be happy.

They cared about each other, even if they never got to to about it right.

As for Mary writing Arthur as she did after Guarma— it makes sense, for both sides!

It can be frustrating for a player to see Mary deject Arthur as she did to return the ring, but how could she have known he got shipwrecked on Guarma like we did? There was no possible way for her to, and so it just looked like Arthur abandoned her and their plans.

Arthur promised her he’d be back, and when he didn’t keep that promise — even if he meant to and was kept from fulfilling it — she broke it off.

She just believed what he did the first time, and that was choosing the gang over her as he did years ago. He even chose the gang over immediately leaving with her.

Just as she stayed with her dad when they initially broke up.

Because they both chose their families in the end— either by blood, or by love.

They were ill-fated. And I don’t think Mary should be attacked as much as she is and especially for certain things or in certain ways, but the dislike isn’t unwarranted.

And people can like her too, just the same!

Everyone is allowed their own opinion of her character (not saying anyone insinuated otherwise).

There’s a difference between disliking a character for valid reasons, or hating them for minuscule ones. And the same goes for loving them.

We can argue back and forth for ages but honestly, none of us are entirely in the wrong or right on Mary.

Like I said, it’s what you usually see. People either hate Mary with a passion, or love her with just as much depth. The middle ground here is often a vacant one, at least from what I’ve seen shared.

It’s just how it is. But I think we can all agree that how things ended was what neither of them wanted for each other.

Now— as for “Amidst a Clash of Worlds”!

I DO plan on having Mary in my fic, and as for her portrayal, I will keep her character as close to canon as possible (but I will have to go astray at certain points just since this fic does diverge from canon).

I’m not going to write with a slant with her character (aka portray her purposefully in one light), and I plan on doing her justice as I’ve attempted to with everyone else in my fic. Meaning keeping her true to as we have seen in the game and not completely going my own direction entirely.

As for her interactions with Arthur and the reader, you will see the true extent of this.

I don’t want to spoil the plans I have for their plotline entirely, but it won’t all be “fuck Mary” or “fuck you” with Mary being either attacked or an attacker against the reader.

Granted, there will be tension and other aspects involving it, but I promise, if you are worried, that this fic intends to do so much more with Mary’s character than to go forward with nothing but a sole attempt at villainously portraying her.

Whether that is accepted or not does not bother me, but ACW is not a fic in which I plan to be frivolous or superficial over things like how I feel about a character.

I’m not tossing Mary’s character and her relation to Arthur and his story away because of my own views on her or with the fandom’s views (be it good or bad).

I just want it to be organic and believable. Nothing more!

Hope that answered all your questions, anon! Thanks for the ask!

(Also I didn’t mean any offense to anyone over this post no matter their views on Mary! This is a video game after all and at the end of the day, it’s just how we feel over it! If there is a problem you want to resolve just message or DM me! Otherwise scroll on and just enjoy your day, lol.)

[baekhvuns]

i am back from the dead 🌃

2/2 ok so i think my last message here was in August... u don't wanna know how much I tried to get to my last anon😭😭 /// ANYWAY im back from the dead, started school and i feel like i should drop out and be a farmer sounds even better than any of my options rn 🧍🏻‍♀️

bestie how are u holding 😭😭😭😭 hope ur school is well and AWAY from all the trouble 😭😭😭😭

SO DO U REMEMBER how I mentioned i met up with mr audi and encouraged me on that summer fling? it didn't work out. turns out mr audi is only bold over texts cuz irl he's such a chicken i was actually so surprised that it wasn't ME who was the shy one or smth like... he couldn't even hold my hand without blushing and pretending to either hold it on the wheel if we were in his car or to either hold his phone or smoke if we were walking or smth im unbelievable amazed at this i did not enjoy it and i hope i never experience it again

YES I REMEMBER IT ALL JUST THE CAR SPECIFICALLY NAURR IT DIDNT??? 😭😭😭😭 oh man no way hfsdvffmh MANS IS SHY LET HIM BE FGJFHGF o he smokes?? ..... 🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️u better be experiencing some heart doki-doki-ing fluff romcom bc wtf was that 😭😭 sO UR SAYING U LIKE BOLD MEN HUH u may like him then <<<333

but how have you been omg we haven't really talked a lot at all this summer :( but also it could've been of me bc of what happened 🥲 but WE MOVE ON god i hope you're doing well and all ur uni stuff as well and life too!! and that you're healthy and u missed me2😞🌃

omg pls shfebhkjh i wouldnt have responded either bc i was travelling! like in my state so <3 WE MOVE ON YES BETTTER VIBES OKAY i hope YOURE ALL WELL forget abt ppl just focus on u ok bc mission is rich aunt FJSHFJSFH I DID I DID OKAY 😭😭😭😭

[knightofameris]

ANYWAYSBSJS (i cant stop thinking abt the minor detail of the mutual pining and driving everyone insane bc of it THATS SO ME IIII- and then semi putting an arm around- hhhhh AND THEN US INTERACTING AAAA we’re so chaotic pls THATS SO US- HDBAJbsshsbsj)

goodmorning!! i hope today treats you well! 💝💕💓 i just took my AP gov midterm exam and it was surprisingly easy? im not confident in the written portion but ITS FINE I HAVE AN A IN THAT CLASS ITS FINE- three exams down,,, five to go HDJSJ-

and yeah i totally get what ur saying about being social!! i miss seeing ppl too,, but im kinda glad? i had a beeeeeg friend group before quarantine and now i barely talk to ppl from school (that friend group was toxic LMAO) but i’m way more confident? like i know how to stand my ground now and be more of who i am rather than a shadow of who i am- idek my brain is on government rn still 🤡🤡 AND AAAAAA take ur time!! i usually study tutorials and look at other ppl’s art and if i see smth i like, i take it and make it my own w a twist!! AND YEAH?? colors are so hard to do!!??!!? my palettes are yikes... if u ever wanna see my art lmk bc i will just link my instagram HAHSBS-

NOOO PLS IM SO TALL >:( i am the tallest person here istg. fear me. i love hugging ppl bc they usually place their chins on my head or on my shoulder and it just makes me :D NDJSJDDK YOU TACKLING SUGA OUT OF NO W H E R E that’s such a funny mental image for me HDJSKDK and no. no u

OOOOO that sounds so interesting?? a natural born leader to me tbh. you could be a producer and help people’s dreams come true!! >:O that sounds to me like it would suit you well tbh,,, a teacher and a producer. :O and im actually taking comp sci this year! i like it,, it’s honestly pretty fun — i just wish my teacher wasn’t so confusing? she’s nice but doesn’t explain v well, i think it would be better to learn from her in person. but w the pharmacy thing i already know i don’t wanna go into that bc i’m struggling a lot w chem already :// and u really thought i had the braincell? im honored but also.. no BDJSNS -🧸

<33333 IM GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT THO ;-; HEHEH i had fun heh

ur so cute, good morning to you too!!! and OOF, I did not take ap gov in hs whoops. I’M GLAD YOU FOUND IT EASY THO. and it’s okay!!! you got this I believe in you <3 

OOO no I totally get that, i’m assuming you’re a senior in high school and this is just based off of my experiences and a lot of others and i’m sure pandemic really nailed it in, but by my junior and senior year in hs that was when I found my more, uh, reliable friends? but I also broke off from my group once I hit college and that’s when you really find the people you can rely on! i have a smol lil group now but it’s all really tight knit and I talk to each person at least like once a week, some more than others but that’s just how the other person works too yk? SO i’m really happy you parted from the toxicity!! don’t need that!!! and i’m glad you’re more confident too!! that’s really good. YOU’LL FIND MORE PEOPLE YOU VIBE WITH AND WORTH YOUR TIME SOON ENOUGH. there will be moments you feel alone and if you do, just remember you got me and the other lovely anons <3 

side note but omg if you are a senior in high school that means when I was a senior, you were a freshman and I was friends with a few back in high school since I was in band and a lot of them latched onto me alsdjflajsdf. i still talk to a few of them here and there and they also reach out to me occasionally so like owo

HNNG i follow a lot of artists on Instagram that i’m like wow, I love that art style and that art style and that art sty- BUT OMG I would love to see your Instagram,,, 

SURE WHATEVER YOU SAY ASDKFHASKDJF. i love it when people place their head on top of mine AHHH. that’s what I do to my shorter friends too and i’m like, wow I understand what it’s like to be tall and to hug people shorter than me. 

DSAJFDASFJ ITS funny cus I feel like I'm so LAZY LMAO. i always describe myself as “ah well if no one else will I guess I will” unless it’s something i’m really passionate about (like i loved band so I went for that section leader position ADSFJAD). but it’s also cus I like fucking around but i’ll get my shit together if I need to aSDFJDASKJF 

OOOO COMP SCI?? is it one of the AP classes? i’m glad that’s becoming more popular across schools,,, i think what saved me when I took CS in high school was just,,, lots of googling. also I guess kinda codeacademy??? 

IT’S OKAY. you’ll fine a way to forge your own path I believe in you!!! 

YOU NEED THE BRAINCELLS THO FOR YOUR TESTS SADLFJASDFJ