#and i have NO idea wtf is gonna happen next. so stressed rn

[shellem15]

Two thoughts: One, Ludinus WISHES he could monologue like the Lord of the Hells. Matt put his whole asmodussy into that performance.

Two, HOLY FUCKING SHIT THEY RELEASED PREDATHOS AAAAAHHHHHH

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[autistic-crypt1d]

The Rig Live Blogging:

Season 2

Ok wow I have no idea what's gonna happen next and I'm so excited!!!

S1

Updates:

- Episode 1

- why only those two?

- this is so not gonna go well

- what exactly are they gonna do when they find them?

- of course he had an ulterior motive, wtf did he just swipe?

- oh hell

- oh fuuuuck that is spooky

- please don't die :(

- Episode 2

- oh shit!

- I like this diver guy, sucks that he's probably gonna die

- how tf is that think gonna move???

- hot damn that's cool

- why are they doing more if it's already breaking????

- are we finally gonna find out what Hutton was trying to get back to?

- oooo pretty

- :(

- this is so sad

- hate this guy

- Episode 3

- all my notes got deleted again!!

- damn y'all I paused halfway through this episode and picked it up like 3 days later I don't remember shit about what I said so we're just gonna move on

- I can't tell if Fulmer is telling the truth rn

- I'm readily intrigued about the noise

- no!!!!

- GET HIM CAM!!!

- oh thank god

- :(

- damn it Fulmer please be bullshiting him

- BEAT HIS ASS CAM

- oh shit

- Episode 4

- come on guys you can't blame him, he was defending himself!!

- I'm so curious what the stain will be

- oh shit is she really gonna expose herself finally???

- uh oh, that doesn't seem good

- damn that's pretty

- SHE'S ALIVE?!?!?!

- oh hell

- Episode 5

- guys there's only 1 episode left after this I'm stressed

- HELL YEAH ROSE!!

- STRESS

- she came through!!!

- she's coming for rose isn't she, ya know I've been thinking and, she's gotta be secretly her mother or something. The weird lore and how similar they look? Gotta be

- oh man she's gonna die

- ow :(

- Episode 6

- she did infect herself!!!! Oh thank fuck

- crap :(

- it's so beautiful 😭

- oh wow

- I'm gonna cry 😭

- y'all that was SO GOOD

- there's no season 3 confirmed yet but I'm gonna put this here as a hopefully

Season 3

[frillypaw]

《ok I've been needing to start writing a diary for a very long time now (even my therapist tried to encourage me to do so) so here i go ☆-diary entry day 1-☆》

13.3.2024

(9:24 am)

currently sittinh in the bathroom floor at school, it's been like ten minutes already oughhhjf i need to get back to class soon or my class assistant is gonna bomb me with the cvtting accusations yet again wahh

im feeling so anxious but relaxed and empty at the same time..

this whole over 1.5 hours I've been just thinking about trying out snorting my adhd meds (equasym) to see what would happen lol

and also thinking abt either cutting a styro/babycut on my throat or cutting a vein on my hand so i would maby get the medical attention I've been needing this past 5 years or so

cuz like apparently me telling my psychologist that the random episodes where im actually considering sewerslide like /srs isn't concerning enough then idk what is

LIKE ALL SHE PRETTY MUCH SAID WAS "everyone has bad days sometimes and if u feel like you want to cut mby consider usind the ice cube or rubber band method next time ☺️☺️" LIKE HUHHH.... DID U GET UR LICENSE FROM TEMU OR SOMETHING WHAT THE FUCKKK !!!?!?!!!!.!?!!!!!!

(9:51 am)

alr went back to class ghhgjd

my teacher just got me a cup of coffee ty pookie but i feel so weirddd feels like im hot ad cold at the same time amd my whole body is shakinf dies and fucking explodes

(10:13 am)

ok i pussied out from snorting them and instead tried to just put the meds under my tongue to see if it has any effect ..💀

currently not really feeling any effects minus shaking and light-headiness but maby that's just me being a whimp idk I'll update later if anything happens im scareddd ( T∀T)

10:45 am

OK BAD BAD MISTAKE GGELPL..

I SRARTED SHAKING LIKE REALLY BADLY AND IT FELT LIKE I WAS GOING TO GET AN PANICATTACK OR SOMETHING

then my pussy ass went to whine to the teacher rhat i felt pretty sick and wanted to go to the nurses office, so i did

i relaxed a little after talking to the nurse but still little shaky and light headed tbh

she questioned me then told me to go eat a little then come back when im finished like alrr pooksters 😚😚

11:58 am

at the cafeteria rn but we have tuna lasagna I HATE TUNALASNGA 🗣🗣🗣

like what even is that it looks like it has the mind of it's own stopit

(erm ignore the bunnies, had to put something over that hideous creature so it wouldn't be on display in my profile 😛)

11:18

FUCKING HELLL SHESBCALLING TO THE HEALYHCENTER FUCKKKKFLFKEKJW LIKE I KNOW I NEED HELP BUT I DONT WANT MY PARENTS KNOW WE JUST HAD MY GRANDMAS FUNERAL LIKE5 DAYS AGO AND MY MOM IS PRETTY STRESSED IN GENERAL RN FUCK IM SL HORRIBLE WTF I DONT WANNA MAKE THEM WORRIED STOPPP IM THE WORST SON EVER UGHHH

11:25

the nurse said that she's just making a quick call to the center GIRL IT'S BEEN OVER TEN MINUTES WHO ARE YOU CALLINGG MY WHOLE BLOODLINE??? PLS IM SO NERVOUS

11:43

alr ok im not going to the health center, but the nurse told me that if i get worse i should go see her immediately, or go to the center.

idk im little dizzy and shaky rn but i think we good 😀👍

11:50

hm im thinking about getting a therapy dog/ animal so i wouldn't get these weird toughts and ideas maby

having animal company just relaxes and helps me so idk i did talk abt it with the nurse and she was very positive abt it and said it was a good idea :3

i remember talking to my mother abt it too but she said something like "yeah but your anxeity isn't 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 bad 🤗"

like miss mam your kid cut himself in school multiple times, is paranoid that he might k1ll himself on a whim, tried to get high from his meds just for fun and sometimes even cries in class when left alone but okay if you say so 🤷‍♂️

12:41

alr idk actually maby i should go to the nurses office then the center after all..

maby i could finally get some help to my actual issues, rather than just for my learning problems but who knows

12:50

guys maby taking my meds drug abuser style wasn't such a good idea after all me thinks

13:06

alr school ended but im currently sitting at the nurces office ughh my head spins

feels like im in a dream

13:41

okk walking to rhe health center rn wish me luck gusy

13:46

NVM UHHHSH IM HAVING DOUPTS HHELPP....

IM SO NERVOUS MABY TH8S WAS A BAD ISEA ARFTER ALL UHH

13:51

ight fam im here what noe

14:15

alr they checked my pulse and stuff,

everything was much normal than earlier but my pulse was somewhat high

now im just waiting for another doctor to come and talk to me gulps shivers

14:37

attempt to finally get proper care failed miserably im so pathetic man

they just checked my pulse n stuff and let go

no guestioning why i tried to overdose on my meds but okay.

that shit was so embarrassing dawg💀

i should've just taken more fucking piss baby pussy whimp why didn't i make them check the huge gaping scars on my leg to see if they're infected ugh

alr then i have to think something else, my fucking family and psychologists only care about my academics like i just wanna know what's wrong with me and how could it be fixed

im only diagnosed wirh dyslexia and adhd and in my opinion neither one of them makes a guy act like this tbh..

i also feel like that me being self aware of my situation and everything makes me feel like im just faking this all/ being mentally ill and it just makes me feel so embarrassed and total shit

like it's not valid

like the ppl arounds me, especially my family and friends are just being stressed out over my nonsensical shenanigans

(took me over half an hour to yap allat wtf💀)

15:13

GUYS IS EMOTIONAL SUPPROT FERRET A THING PLEAS3 JUST LOOK ST THEMMM 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️

the way i would never even look at a blade if i had one omgf

i know they are alot to handle and probably wouldn't be a good therapy animal but please jst let me be happy okay?? 😢😢💔

16:01

eepy

16:50

AAAHH HELP STHIT I FORHOT TO TELL MY PARENTS THAT MY DRUMMING LESSON ENDS AT 16:45 ...

both of my parents were just calling me non-stop (my phone was on silence mode 💀)

giggling when i walked out of the building where my class was i just saw my dad pulling away and i just stood there watching him leave like

17:13

meow got home likw 10 minutes ago

it's so weird trying to act all normal with my parents while they have no idea taht i nearly almost overdosed with my meds at school tday 😛

22:28

prolly gonna go sleep soon my heaf hurts so bad gn guys follw for more bangers🔥🔥

[wikiangela]

finally watching 911 lone star 4x04

finally a good tarlos/carlos episode, the last three their storyline was so fucking boring 😂

all my thoughts while watching under the cut! spoilers ahead!

okay, the first 3 minutes are already far more exciting than their entire storyline through the first three episodes altogether, and I'm loving it haha I cannot fucking wait to see it unfold 😍😍 it's the most invested I've been in carlos' storyline since s3 finale lmao (and he's my fave character - so glad they're stepping it up rn haha)

I know the FBI lady from something and I need to look it up finally because it's bothering me 😂

"do you have to take it" "it's my son" awww I miss their relationship, I wanna see more this season

okay, so I accidentally saw a bit of a spoiler about that scene, and that people were mad about Owen's advice here? but like... it's a good advice? 😂 like, he told TK to give Carlos space and let him reach out first whenever he's ready, it's not unreasonable, since they both have no idea what's really happening, and TK just thinks Carlos is with Iris 😂 and like, yeah he basically hung up on him, because the fucking FBI were literally rushing him wtf, I'm not Owen's biggest fan either (tho he looks so fucking hot this season I'm not even that mad that he gets so much screen time lol) but jfc he's not always the worst 😂

shit, Carlos' situation is stressing me out but it's so exciting 😍

aw, not TK blaming himself 😭😭

"it's not entirely legal, but it's not entirely illegal either" thank god for Grace 😂

like, I'm sorry, it is all very stressful and I'm worried for Carlos (well, not really, I know he's gonna be fine 🙄) but I just can't help but laugh bc the dynamic between the serial killer and his mom is lowkey so funny 😂 - sometimes I laugh more at lone star than at actual comedies istg 😂

while I generally really don't mind Owen's screen time all that much anymore (I actually enjoyed him in s3 and now in s4 so far, and I like O'Brien's actor) - this is supposed to be Carlos' episode, pls fuck off Owen lol

Carlos' parents!! yaaay! I'm loving this episode

"I'm a fireman, our codes are like: fire" 😂 Owen has been hilarious since s3 and it's the main reason I don't mind him that much anymore 😂 (also, seriously, why does he look so good, is he like... less annoying or something? why am I noticing it this much this season jfc)

we're getting protective and worried TK!!! 🥺🥺😍

omg TK is literally right there!!! oh my god I'm gonna cry

I love Gabriel so much, I'm so happy we're seeing him, and that he's on the case - if anyone's gonna find his son, it's him (I hope lol)

that police officer didn't just turn away like that... 🤦🏻‍♀️ like, you're looking for a missing person, you hear even the least suspicious thing, you should check it out, right? 😂 idk, lmao

they found out who the murdurer is kinda quickly and easily, and it's almost the end of the episode 😂 idk why I expected more, this is not really that kinda show, but I just binged criminal minds so I guess subconsciously I kinda connected that to the serial killer and expected more? 😂 idk, still loving this 😂

YAS GABRIEL AND TK ARE HERE!!

it's so dramatic, and like, yeah, he's dying, but like, I would be so much more worried if we didn't see photos from next episodes, and, like, Carlos and TK in suits/tuxes or whatever 😂😂

like, I loved this episode, but like, with all the promo stuff for the season, there's like no stakes when it comes to tarlos because obviously they're gonna be okay? 😂 imo they kinda fucked up with the promo because there's no suspense sns 😂

I hate that Owen isn't answering TK's calls, because, like I said, I miss their s1 relationship, but also, he has a valid reason - but then again, it is his fault he got himself into that mess 😂 I just want wholesome dad-son moments between TK and Owen pls, I'm a sucker for parent-child relationships 😭

I was about to say that I hope this FBI/whatever the name of the gang is storyline is over, but apparently not....

and that's the last scene? no Carlos? if the next episode doesn't show us Carlos in the hospital bed with TK next to him, I'm gonna be so disappointed

now that the serial killer thing is done, I hope we'll see more of the 126 again - please I am begging you, give Marjan and Paul and Mateo and Nancy some fucking storylines, PLEASE (and can Iris like, leave? like, I don't dislike her, but she's so whatever 😂)

anyway, this might've been the best episode so far, it was great, I enjoyed it - tho, like I said, no tension or suspense because they fucked it up by the promo stuff 😂 if they kept us in suspense about later episodes, if we had no idea if the wedding was gonna happen, if there was even a hint of a possibility that they'd kill Carlos off, this episode would hit so much more fr

still, I really liked it, I love the focus on Carlos, and Gabriel was there, and we got worried TK, it was great 😅

looking forward to the next one! (not really "can't wait" somehow this season isn't really keeping me waiting for the next episode eagerly idk, I just want some other team members to get some storylines pls)

[kaebedom-me]

OKOKOK SO I HAD AN IDEA-- so like maybe modern AU where childe is a tattoo artist/piercing guy and you've been friends for a long time and one day u go in for a nipple piercing and things get ✨spicy✨

Ok but this au is [chef's kiss] thank your for this opportunity

You being friends with tattoo artist Childe is like him showing off new tattoos he did or new designs he made all the time

He texts at really odd hours of like designs? Asks you how they are and spams your phone til you wake up

You gotta tell him to go tf to sleep wtf

You like bring him snacks and stuff when you go hang at his place too like pastries and stuff?

Idk why i just see modern Childe really digging pastries

Also being friends w Childe and the two of you not acknowledging your feelings? So it's also just flirty and y'all doing bs things for the longest time

If you're into tattoos!!! He's always willing to give you them for free and you have to yell at him to take your money???

But he also gives you really good advice for your tattoos and stuff?

If you manage to convince him to take your money after a tattoo he gives you free touch ups

Just the best man i think he's treats his friends the best

So you wanna get your nipple pierced by Childe huh

Ok, but honestly i think he'd take it real seriously? Like he'll tell you about the precautions and as stuff and what happens after?

Like he cares a lot for you so uwu he wants the best for you

Like you tell him one day after strolling in with a fresh croissant and you're kinda nervous and he can tell?

You tell him eventually tho and he take a while to process the information? HAHAA one you're asking him, your friend for the longest time, to pierce your nipple

He'll ask if you're sure and tells you the stuff? And asks you again if you're sure and you're like yeah

Then he like fucking smirks at you HAHAHAH his usual less serious self like "oh you know you'll have to take off your clothes for that right"

HAHAH you like all confident at first but his damn charming ass smirk just makes you falter?? Jajdjdlsjd

But you're also all like "yeah are you gonna do it or do i have to find someone else"

And his eyes darken right just a bit before returning to his normal eyes and is all like of course I'll do it in your friend i wouldn't do you wrong and you shouldn't just let anyone pierce your nipple

And he takes you to the backroom uwu tells you to strip

Admittedly, this was a little more nerve wracking then you thought because

Childe's not talking to you like- um hello?

Honestly, he takes his job pretty seriously? So he won't pull anything on you til after his done

But y'all the tension in the air as you lie half naked on the cold ass leather Childe and him disinfecting his equipment and not talking

Honestly just ask him to take you tf

I wrote like smth else already but i suddenly have a different better idea so here you horny bitches go

So you're a little stressed now because Childe isn't really Childe and you're like nervous

And he's like "aw don't be scared it's just me" moving closer to you with the needle

You're horny and your scared now no turning back man

And you're stiff so Childe tells you it's going to hurt more if you're not relaxed and you're like "how can i be relaxed when your looking at me like you're about to slit my throat"

For the first time since y'all went into the room he laughs

Shakes his head and gives you some space to calm down a little and waits like a lil puppy

And listen you're in good hands because Childe does his job very seriously and is very experienced so you'll be ok

And you're calmer so you just tell him to get it over with

So Childe tries his best to make it as painless as possible right

And I'll interrupt this building tension now to tell you Childe at this point has figured out your plan to like lowkey seduce him and bitch he's so into it

Anyway he leans down to pierce your nipple with the needle and you're like looking because you don't know where else to look

He tells you stay still and try to not to jolt when he pierces through your nipple and that you might feel a bite

Childe once he gets a good angle on your nipple leans downward a little more and kisses the bottom of your chest

The half whimper half gasp you let out almost had Childe lose his composure but he doesn't and swiftly continues with the procedure

You're honestly trying so hard not to buck up into him or squirm because honestly you feel like you just came from the sensation and the tension when he kissed you as he looked at you

Your brains so fried rn dude

So it ends relatively painless but god you're so turned on its unreal

Childe laughs and is ready to send you on your way when you pull at his shirt to bring him down for a proper kiss

He kisses back with the same intensity

He won't push further than a grinding and a sloppy make out session though he's got a shop to run

And is very careful he doesn't touch your newly pierced nipple because he doesn't want it to get infected

After though i think y'all just fall into a relationship? Like you don't really talk about it because you just know you aren't just friends anymore

After after thought when you're fully healed Childe's back on his bs

Is all smug like "hey how's your nipple piercing" tells you to strip again so he can check

You know what happens next uwu

[rynhaswritersblock]

tiktok famous (hc) - part three | p.p.

summary: you and peter doing various tiktok trends. y'all know the deal

warnings: ultra chaotic writing (i have nine other drafts forgive me i am a tad bit stressed), cussing as always, and HOPEFULLY GOOD WRITING??? oh and yes as always peter being Babey

+ + +

- HI!!!!!! BACK AT IT AGAIN WITH THE TIKTOK HCS!!!!!!!

- i got a few requests/ideas from y'all for more tiktoks so here we are

- tbh since so many new trends are constantly coming out i might just make this a whole ass SERIES but we'll see

- who knows if i can even handle that

- btw:: if i forgot one or there's one you really want me to write you can comment it and i'll try to add it to this!!! if it's too long since posted though i'll add it to my drafts <3

- OKAY TIME FOR CHAOTIC ENERGY

- as mentioned in past versions of this series

- tiktok dances are ADDICTIVE!!!

- and you literally broke a goddamn sweat learning supalonely but we're NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT IT

- and you and peter are hanging out one day

- and as all of these ideas happen

- you get ~inspired~ by the for you page

- you set up the camera, flipping it so that it's facing peter and not you

- the lil shit hasn't even noticed that you got up yet what a poop

- but as soon as the music starts playing he raises his head

- you're doing the supalonely dance like a fucking BOSS

- all while pretending to be looking at yourself in the camera

- you don't let yourself stare at the screen so you don't get distracted

- but

- of course

- peter is nodding his beat to the beat, clapping for you, and when you to the body roll thing on "drinking" he lets out a whoop that makes you wheeze

- when you finish you laugh, letting out a sigh and grabbing your phone

"not gonna lie, you ate that."

"i know."

- you sit back down next to him, heart rate in da Clouds, and start watching the video

- petey boi is just sitting there like a puppy, crooked smile on his face as he watches you

- in a few parts he's even doing the dance with you

- and he looks so in awe

- you can't stop watching it and smiling at the screen

- but then the fucker sits down next to you and is like "you should post that it was really good"

- so you show him it

- his face gets all red bc he's babey

"you were videoing me??"

- OKAY NEXT ONE

- so i think we all know the rosa videos

- for the b99 fans: rosa rosa rosaaaaaaaaaaaa

- she's a QUEEN

- and you constantly quote those things like

- every time there's a silent moment you're just like "you're fucking lying let me see" and the whole team (avengers squad) is like ayo stfu

- one day y'all are just hanging in the commons of headquarters

- we're getting the band back together!

- and you start videoing cause you're bored

- you point the camera at peter

"aye dude come here?"

- everybody groans and peter gives the camera a sassy look, tilting his head

"you're gay? i fuckin-"

"language," steve mutters

"-knew it dude!" you smile, zooming in on the camera

- peter gets a confused look on his face

"wait no i'm bi"

- tony effin SHOOTS UP

- sitting like there's a goddamn board in his back

- and he slowly turns his head in your direction

- eyebrow raised

- you bust out laughing and so does everyone else, including peter

- tony's looking around like "hey what the FUCK is HAPPENING"

"stark, you didn't know?"

"NO??"

- lol we stan bi peter parker

- aight BACK TO THE SHITS AND GIGGLES

- so you and peter are obsessed with that quirky tiktok bartender girl who makes all the drinks

- i forgot her name but she's like

we're gonna do 2 ounces so that's 1, 2, 3, 4! we're gonna give it a nice strain! andddd shake shake shake shake! fun, right?

- yk what i mean

- hi it's editing ryn it's her tiktok is like paradise bartender

- and so one day

- jk one NIGHT

- it's like 2 am

- and you and peter are like

- let's make lemonade. but like. Fake Alcohol Version Because We're Underage

- and so y'all run to the kitchen

- you almost crush and die from slipping on your socks

- the two of you and laughing and giggling as you run and around and get all your materials

"where is the fucking STRAINER"

"bitch idk help me find the lemon flavor packets"

- it takes FAR too long but y'all are finally ready

- you start recording and the two of you are already laughing

"hey guys so today-"

"TODAY" he pushes you to the side "we're gonna be making LEMONADE!"

- the two of you keep laughing as you shove each other trying to be the one in charge

- so basically

- peter gets water all over the counter

- some of the ice flies out when you shake it

- the strainer DOESN'T WORK AND ALL THE STUFF GETS EVERYWHERE

- and the small amount that lands in the cup tastes like whispering lemon

- like hella watered down there's like nothing there

- the lemon is SHY

- and then in the last 10 seconds of the video bucky walks in

- and he's like wtf... wait y'all are making lemonade??

- and the three of you end up making lemonade for real and drinking it while watching infomercials

- at two in the morning

- fun, right?

- those videos are so satisfying NEXT TIKTOK

- thank u ritxal for the idea !!

- so our boi PETE HERE

- is hella addicted to those cool pov videos

- and he gets a really good idea even though it would make him a SIMP

- he ends up deciding FUCK IT I'M MAKING ONE

- MY TIKTOK ACCOUNT IS PRIVATE ANYWAYS

- so he sets up his phone and jumps around to get ~~in the zone~~

- feeling stupid as hell

- he films one of those ones where it's the "from the other side" *noise!!!!!!!!* one's yk where the ppl are like "are you sure you want to __?" and it has the yes and no buttons

- you know

- i hope

- and he puts the text on it and shrugs, posting it

- meanwhile you're home and you get the notification that peter posted a tiktok

- obviously you click on it because

- uh

- because

- and you watch it and gasp because the caption says pov and ur like who tf is this man peter never posts povs

- you watch as peter is looking nervously at the camera and text pops up saying "are you sure you want to give up?"

- he presses yes and you're like oh god oh peter wait is this a sign shit FUCK

- a new text bubble pops up saying "do you want to see her?" and you fucking yeLP

- you're like holy FUCK WAIT WHO IS HER???? WIFE???? DAUGHTER?????? HUH!!!!!!!

- and then he presses yes

- and the screen goes black

- you see urself in the screen

- and you basically DIE

- a wheeze so hard that it hurts flies out of your mouth and you IMMEDIATELY PRESS DUET

- you start filming with your phone facing the ceiling and as the beat drops (or whatever when it's like ahhhh!) you pop onto the screen, smiling

- and you're like RANDOM CONFIDENCE BOOST WHATEVER POST

- and then BACK TO PETER'S PLACE

- HE GETS THE NOTIFICATION AND IS LIKE WHAT

- AND WHEN HE SEES YOU POP ONTO THE SCREEN HE'S LIKE HOLY FUCK

- AND SO HE FACETIMES YOU

- YOU ANSWER OBVI

"y/n what the hell"

"did you like it?"

"maybe"

- okay i wanna do another pov one so here we go

- i'm sure everyone here is acquainted with the "they call me tiago.. i don't know who's margo" ones

-  these are lowkey difficult to write out so i'm just gonna lay it out for you as best i can

- really trying here

- so peter posts the boy's voice part ("no no no... they call me tiago. i don't know who's margo? i just hit this lotto" etc etc etc)

- and when it's like idk who's margo he just holds a stare with the camera in like an InTiMiDaTiNg way

- even though he's babey and a literal puppy it actually like.. works

- and when you see it you're like yes so you post the other part (that people never do lol "her name is margo" etc all the female voicing)

- and you hold the stare too and EVEN LIKE RAISE YOUR EYEBROW SUGGESTIVELY AND GIVE HIM THE LOOK IYKYK

- so BASICALLY

- i'm really trying here i can visualize these tiktoks perfectly but GOD if i don't struggle a bit while writing them

PETER'S CAPTION: pov: we're rivals on separate missions but you keep screwing with my plans so i try to intimidate you

Y/N'S CAPTION: pov: we're rivals on separate missions but i found you cute so i decide to mess around with your mission

- OH BY THE WAY THE TWO OF YOU LIVE AT AVENGERS HEADQUARTERS AND HE POSTED "YESTERDAY" SO YOU DECIDE TO POST "TODAY" AND WALK OUT OF YOUR ROOM TO WHERE HE WAS IN THE COMMONS RIGHT AFTER YOU POSTED

- can y'all tell how messy my brain is holy shit

- pls forgive me i keep getting random ideas but IT ADDS TO THE CHAOS SO IT'S FINE RIGHT

- OKAY

- BACK AGAIN

- so you post and walk out and as you turn the corner to the commons you can hear the sound play and have to stop a moment to silently scream

- thankfully no one else was in there except for peter (whose back was to you) otherwise you woulda looked INSANE

- you walk up behind him and smile as he laughs slightly and watches it another time, pulling his phone closer to his face to read the caption

"holy shit," he mutters

- he closes his eyes and smiles and tilts his head back, resting it on the back of the couch (🥺)

"you like it?"

- lol

- this kid SHOOTS UP

- HELLO

"oh my god, y/n, what are you doing"

"coming to hang out with you??"

- he sighs as you come and plop down next to him

"what the hell is this"

- he shows you his phone

"a tiktok"

- he smiles and shakes his head (doing that thing where you like look down while doing it and it's so CUTE)

"yeah. i got that."

- NEXT TIKTOK

- alright guess the scenario

- just fucking guess

- i'll wait

- ...

- you'd best BELIEVE that y'all are chilling at headquarters in the commons rn

- where da HELL ELSE

- and

- like LITERALLY EVERY OTHER TIKTOK THAT I WRITE OUT IN THESE

- YOU AND PETE BE CHILLIN

- AND YOU SET UP YOUR PHONE

- god i'm starting to question if i'm capable of writing literally anything else damn

- peter's in the background of course

- and it's this godforsaken audio i'm sure most of you have heard

- you know the one where it's like fast music and then it goes "mm, yeah" and it's usually accompanied with a video of some really pretty girl fake moaning and like rolling her eyes while pushing up her hair??

- well

- all of that

- everything i just said

- is exactly what you do

- and the thing is

- as soon as peter hears the audio he recognizes it

- are we gonna talk about the fact that peter probably spent at least a whole night watching those videos because 1) girls are really pretty and 2) every time he heard it he could vividly imagine you doing it??????? no??? okay

- so he like

- sits up

- does the thing where he rests his forearms on his knees and leans forward, glaring at you through the camera

- and in the background

- if you're paying attention

- peter FLIPS HIS SHIT WHEN YOU DO THE "MM YEAH" PART

- he tHROWS HIS ARMS IN THE AIR LIKE WHAT THE HELL DUDE I THOUGHT I GAVE YOU SIGNS THAT EVEN THOUGH WE'RE NOT A COUPLE AND WE BOTH KNOW YOU LIVE YOUR LIFE OUT OF SPITE,, DOING SOMETHING LIKE THAT ON VIDEO IS ABSOLUTELY OFF LIMITS!!!!!!!

"Y/N!"

- it's still recording and you turn around and laugh, throwing your head back as he jumps up and grabs you by the waist, pulling you in

- the two of you start play fighting just like elio and oliver from cmbyn (but a bit less steamy yk?? more innocent yet still w a bit of tension yeye)

- needless to say you keep that video in a very special place of your heart

- and so does peter like once the two of you stop wrestling you realize that the video had just been looping behind the sound of your laughter and fighting y'all watch it and it loops a few times while the two of you are silent and he finally goes "can you uh. can you send that. to me. ???????"

- next oneeeeeeeeeeeeee

- thank u lilmissquackson for the idea <3

- so in this one you and petey are dating

- and y'all decide to do the put a finger down challenge lol

- but instead of using an audio y'all decide to switch off coming up with ones on the spot

"put a finger down if your boyfriend tackles you every time you're standing near a couch or bed"

"put a finger down if your girlfriend still calls you dude"

"put a finger down if your boyfriend once webbed you to the wall because you wouldn't stand still when he was trying to kiss you"

"put a finger down if your girlfriend used her telepathic powers to keep you out of her room when she was mad at you"

"put a finger down if your boyfriend took TWO YEARS TO ASK YOU OUT"

"put a finger down if your girlfriend started laughing after you told her you liked her"

"put a finger down if you only started laughing because it TOOK YOU LONG ENOUGH"

"put a finger down if your girlfriend showed no signs of liking you before you decided to ask her out"

"put a finger down if your boyfriend is the most oblivious boy in the world"

"put a finger down if you're in love with your girlfriend but haven't said 'i love you' yet because you're scared she won't say it back"

- your jaw drops and turn to him

- needless to say you were very glad to have caught your first "i love you"s on camera

- SIDE NOTE you did not post cause after you and peter watched the video back y'all were both like "we don't wanna be THOSE bitches"

- next one woop

- thank u MrsLillianAmbrose for the idea !!

- okay buds

- so here's the thing

- i hate to under-perform

- but i feel like the best way to get the full effect of this tiktok is to watch it and then just roll with me here

- SOOOOO (if u can)

1) open tiktok 2) search @_tharealjohnnyyy_ 3) go to his account (or it might just show up when you search) 4) and scroll to the "ways to cuddle" video 5) it was posted in february 2020 if that helps give u a time reference lol

- OKAY

- I HOPE Y'ALL GOT TO WATCH IT

- I TRIED JUST PUTTING IT IN HERE BUT WATTPAD WOULDN'T LET ME AND I COULDN'T FIND IT ON YOUTUBE (let me know if one of u does!!!)

- if u weren't able to watch it (i'm so sorry) i'm gonna do the best i can to at least make this entertaining

- WOOP

- so if you could see the tiktok that's really all this is

- you and peter doing literally the same thing

- y'all are giggling in between positions and peter struggles to set the camera up every time it falls

- he ends up just webbing it to the ceiling

- and in the end the two of you fall asleep in the reverse OG position with your fingers playing with his hair 🥰🥰

- i hope that was good enough im sorry AH

- next!!

- thank u Mendesmycam for the idea <33

- okay so y'all know that sound

SOMETHING ABOUT YA GORLL

REALLY MAKES MY HEADDDD WANNA TWIRLLLLLLLLLL

- or whatever the lyrics are

- those tiktoks are SO FUNNY

- AND YOU DECIDE TO COPY THEM

- so you grab a chair and sit peter down in the middle of the room and set the camera up

- luckily for you he has a bag of cheez-its in hand that you plan to utilize later

- babey has a confused look on his face as he watches you press play and he shoves some more cheez-its in his mouth

- the music starts playing and you just about bust out laughing as you walk all around him, running your hand across his chest

- his heart is racing he's like AYO WHAT THE FUCK IS GOIN ON

"y/n what the hell are you-"

SOMETHING ABOUT YOU GIRL

- you practically snap into a weird position

- ur freaking arms are out in front of you and you're on your toes and knees are bent and you're hunched over and it's like

- a very interesting pose

- peter BUSTS OUT LAUGHING

- his eyes are all crinkly as he bends over in the chair

- you just about break but you manage to keep a straight face as you start dancing around weirdly

- needless to say you look like a goddamn CONTORTIONIST

- peter can't stop wheezing

- you make one of your hands in the shape of like the italian man hand this iykyk and fucking SWAN DIVE YOUR FINGERS INTO HIS CHEEZ-IT BAG

- meanwhile peter's STILL DYING

- and you take the cheezits and lean back, sprinkling them all over you (like the popcorn one if you saw that tiktok lmao)

- and the video finally ends and you get to laugh

"y/n what the hell was that"

"i don't know i thought you might enjoy a little entertainment"

- and of course

- that's exactly when no other than SAM WILSON fucking strolls in

- hey how y'all doin'- AHHH (get yo fucking dog bitch! ~it don't bite~ YES IT DO GET YO-)

- sorry got distracted

- and he hears you and his head SPINS ON OVER TO Y'ALL'S DIRECTION

"a little what now?"

- AIGHT GUYS

- LAST ONE

- Y'ALL ARE AT HEADQUARTERS CAUSE WHERE DA HECK ELSE

- this time you're in peter's room though

- and i'd like to imagine this one with the cool led lights because 1) tiktok and 2) i feel like peter would have those in his room

- y'all are just chilling watching hot rod (GREAT MOVIE BTW)

- and

- peter sets up the camera

- not to mention his heart is RACING RN CAUSE HE'S A NERVOUS BEAN

- and he hits record and leans back, letting out a sigh

- you don't even notice his phone literally right there cause you're just enjoying the movie

- a few seconds into the video and petey is like Visibly Freaking Out

- but a funny part plays and you laugh, looking over at him to see if he found it funny too

- he notices you're turning your head so he's like YES I LOOK AT TV HOT ROD MOVIE I AM LOOKING THAT WAY AND WASN'T STARING AT YOU OR THE CAMERA YES THIS IS A FUNNY PART I AM LAUGHING

- and then you look away

- and then he looks at you

- and ever so lightly grabs you by the chin

- and pulls you to him and plants his lips on yours

- finally, dumbass

+ + +

huzzah

i hope u guys enjoyed !!!!!!! ヽ(✿ﾟ▽ﾟ)ノ

[nctdoingthings]

Bulleted scenario w smartypants kdy pt2

Aight so we left it at y’all acquaintances now. The library stuff doesn’t happen again bc, uno, this ain’t to all the boys I’ve loved before ok

We gonna make it kinda realistic

So both of y’all are ill which sucks since y’all did wanna go to school but whatever so u go to ur teacher during lunch to get the handout n catchup n ur teachers like ‘it’s an easy topic I’m sure you guys will get it but how about u sit down n work through it together n if u have questions ask me, ignore the ppl on the other side of the room they have detention’ n

Ur like aight yeet so u mainly work in silence apart from just checking ur answers with each other’s until there’s a question where u got differing answers so u ask the teacher n they’re like ok let’s go through it on the whiteboard and ur and doyoungs differing points get him rEally confused n y’all kinda riled n angry at each other thinking ‘you’re being such a dickhead’ but at each other, with ur eyes, idk fam

So the teacher is tryna work it out and you and doyoung are lowkey/Highkey bc the passive aggressiveness ain’t subtle insulting each other it was aLL GOIG GOOD UNTIL THIS ONE DAMN QUESTION FFS DOYOUNG WHY U GOTTA RUIN ITN

N then one of the kids in the detention r like ‘oooh lovers quarrel’ n snicker to themselves so u turn around like ‘bitch come at me so u wanna fight? Like legit I will fight u rn let’s fucking go Im not joking let’s fucking gO IM READY SWUARE UP MOTHERFUKER’

Doyoung is kinda like ?? Why u so sensitive do u like me or something and u just give him the bIGGEST EYEROLL LIKE BITCH JOT EVERYTHINGS ABOUT U PERHAPS IM STRESSED BC IM NOT GETTING THE QUESTION RIGHT DONT FUCKING FLATTER URSELF n he gets kinda embarrassed n the kids in detention r like oooooh bro u better say sorry or she’ll break up w u

So u roll ur eyes agAIN n mumble ‘just when I started thinking u were actually cool but no u became an arrogant dickhead again fucking wanker’ y’all I’m sorry I swear too much but there’s nothing I can do

Y’all just sit n the teachers like ok start of next lesson I’ll go through it bc I need to ask the other teachers but if y’all are done u can go

So u angrily but quietly pack ur shit up n go and doyoungs eyes follow u but ofc u don’t notice ur angry as shit

When u leave he walks after u n goes “hey yn Im sorry for pissing u off but seriously it’s not that deep?” N u just,,,

Bc this bitch really hit u with the ‘it’s not that deep’ so u just kinda puff ur chest out n walk up to him like ‘excuse u? “Is not that deep” who do u think u are?’ N he’s just staring down at u but more importantly at ur lips

He doesn’t reply, ur looking him in the eyes but his eyes are a little lower uno ;)))

So u and ur filterless mouth go “Kim Doyoung do u like me?”

Nd he ducking snAPS liek his eyes get widened n he takes like 3 steps back and has the dumbest face like ‘pshh no where’d u get that idea from?’ And u smirk u are sOoooooo smug rn bc it all cLICKS NOW

He made a joke saying “do u like me or soemthing” because he wanted to see if u would be up for it and kinda gauge how u feel about him

So ur like “oh my god Kim Doyoung has a crush on the dumb obnoxious girl who sits in front of him”

And he reddens and quietly says ‘no’ bc he wants to deny it but bITCH ITS TOO LATE U CAUGHT ON

So u smirk (for the 17th time) and say “we shall see, Kim Doyoung”

And u leave and he’s liek scARED SHITLESS BC HE HAS N O IDEA WTF YOURE GONNA DO

Y’all roll up to class the next day all chill, neither of u say anything but he’s watching uuuuu n ur very aware of it so you’re thinking hmm maybe I’ll tease him a little it’d be fun so u go up to ask the teacher a question n as ur walking back, everyone’s got their head down working uno, u wink at him n it sends him ducking wiLD like he jumps in his seat and the person sitting next to him is like bro u good???

So he just has to play it off like oh yeah I just thought I saw a spider

Meidbddhsid U love playing with kdy bc uR in control now.

U maKE the library thig happen again bc u wanna see him flustered bc it’s funny but like,, also,, kinda cute? Shdidbdj Maybe u kinda like him too?? Shut up no you dONT (u totally do)

The ppl who sit closest to u inclass have kinda noticed this weird energy where y’all don’t speak but U make a lOT of eye contact n express stuff through it so they might perhaps bring it up Doyoung and he’s like whAT no I just she’s annoying so I And theblesson the And Yeah.

They just ignore him like fuck it whatever it’s his life

After that class he decides to confront u bc he’s a little tired of being teased so he pulls u out of the corridor n into another one n says ‘hey look yes I like u I think ur cute and smart and funny and u might not like me back but I need some kind of answer I’ve been waiting for a while for some kind of reaction uno’

Suddenly u feel kinda bad for teasing him for such a long time so u go ‘ugh Kim Doyoung u big dope I might kinda maybe like u too? But idk yet? Plus uno school is really important and idk if either of us have time for a relationship...’ and he nods like ‘yeah I understand and you’re right actually, wanna walk to the bus stop together?’ So you do that but ur both mainly silent it’s kinda awkward

Next day u take the seat next to him in the library and maybe just maybe talks hands touch a little and you end up going to the library together like everyday almost like a study date

You guys don’t speak you just work together quietly next to each other

And then perhaps get some food after

Make watch a movie

Perhaps Kiss a little ;))

U might not have time for a full relationship but what’s wrong with a little fun??

Ok dONE!!! I’m currently sitting on the toilet sibdirbeifd. I might like upload this (edited bc I used the word like soooooooooo many times and I probably made typos n shit) on @eggjorp idk maybe I’m not bothered so once again hope this was fun have a nice day I love Kim Doyoung ~ EJ @eggjorp or @ej-reading-blog or @thebritishchildren bitch take ur pick ;)

[m4rkshouse]

hello hello so vivi [@astrofireworks] came to me a few weeks ago with a prompt/fic idea she had nd i really liked it so here it is in bullet fic form vivi i hope i did your idea justice: 

okay so basically jinjin and mj have been dating since their first year of university

they met when jinjin accidentally walked into a first year chemistry class when he was trying to find his philosophy class

and when he realized he was in the wrong class he was too awkward to leave so he stayed and missed his very first university class ever

cue stressed jinjin basically just sitting there the entire hour long introduction, not listening at all 

and at the end of lecture mj tries to take the advice their professor just gave, and he talks to the kid next to him and asks for his contact info in case either of them ever miss lecture for whatever reason then they can trade notes

jinjin: “i’m uhh... i’m not in this class.... haha”

mj: “.......????”

jinjin: “i actually walked into the wrong classroom and i felt weird leaving, haha” he’s trying so hard to laugh it off but he’s internally dying a bit [a lot]

and mj is like “:oo dude that sucks but i get it, i probably would’ve been too awkward to leave too.” 

and after that they part ways and jinjin gets totally roasted by his roommate eunwoo bc he’s a whole idiot and he can’t believe he did that

but after that mj and jinjin keep running into each other everywhere

jinjin goes to the library to study? mj is a table over also studying

jinjin and eunwoo go to a party? mj is at that party

jinjin and eunwoo go to eat? mj is also there, sitting just down the table from them, eating with a couple of his friends as well

so eventually they just start talking nd cracking jokes bc they ALWAYS see each other and they’re like “haha the universe is trying to put us together”

and after some time, jinjin finds himself crushing on this super cute and sweet and funny dude he accidentally sat beside in the wrong lecture and so he asks him out

and he’s kinda expecting mj to say no bc he’s been on a few dates here and there with this guy in his chemistry class named moon bin

but mj’s like “finally you idiot i’ve been waiting for you to ask me out for forever”

and jinjin’s like “why didn’t you just ask me then????”

and mj’s like “.......... i don’t actually know??” and they’re both shook bc what an idiot but it’s okay bc one of them asked the other now

and they go on a date to a bowling alley and have a ton of fun and mj pouts when he loses but jinjin just smiles at him really big and kisses him on the cheek so it’s all good

and after that they’re pretty much inseparable and they start officially dating a little while later and they’ve been together ever since then

so skip a few years later and mj’s pursuing his Ph.D. and as part of his program he has the opportunity to do a co-op abroad

and obviously he takes it bc why wouldn’t he but it leaves poor jinjin on his own for six months while he’s gone

and obviously he’s super proud of mj bc it’s really awesome but also he’s sad bc the love of his life is gonna be away from him for six months

and he can’t tell mj anything but jinjin’s secretly been planning on proposing to him on their sixth anniversary for almost a year but now mj’ll be away for it

and he’s got a ring picked out and everything and he’s got it hidden in the pocket of this old backpack he has from when he was in university that’s sitting in a closet in their apartment

so mj packs all his stuff up and he needs a carry-on and so he takes the backpack and packs all his carry-on stuff in it and somehow jinjin doesn’t realize that this is the bag until after he’s dropped mj off for his flight and they’ve said their goodbye’s and he’s on his way home

and when he realizes he’s like “shit what have i done” and he’s freaking out and he doesn’t even go back to his apartment but rather to eunwoo’s and he’s losing his mind bc mj’s gonna find the fucking ring shit [and that’s if he hasn’t found it already]

and eunwoo just kinda looks at him like “you’ve always been an idiot when it comes to mj haven’t you?”

and jinjin’s like “this isn’t the time, idiot, what do i do?”

and eunwoo’s like “uhh how the heck should i know??”

and so amidst his freaking out they come up with a plan that they think actually isn’t that bad [it is] and basically jinjin’s gonna casually tell mj not to look in that specific pouch bc eunwoo’s hiding something in there that he doesn’t want ppl to see and then move on with it

so when mj calls him from toronto, where he’s doing his co-op, that night he’s like ��!!! jinjin hi i made it safely”

jinjin: “i know, you texted me when you landed and when you got to your hotel”

mj: “i know but idk i wanted you to hear me say it not text it”

jinjin: “you’re so cute i love you”

and mj’s like “stop” and he’s blushing even though they’ve been together 5ever and also jinjin can’t even SEE him

jinjin, lowkey smug: “are you blushing rn??”

mj: “shut up park jinwoo >:/“

and jinjin calls him cute again before they get to talking about their days and what happened after jinjin dropped mj off and then he’s just randomly like

“oh btw eunwoo says he’s got something secret stashed in the left pocket of my backpack but he really doesn’t want us to check it so can you like..... not open that??”

and that’s literally the most sus thing mj has ever heard like first of all why would eunwoo randomly have something hidden in there that they don’t know about

second of all how does he even know mj took the backpack

so he’s like “wtf what’s in the backpack” and he goes into that pouch of the backpack while jinjin shouts in his ear to stop bc eunwoo rlly doesn’t want them to look

and he finds the ring and he tears up and nearly starts crying bc “holy shit jinjin’s gonna fucking propose to me”

and he loves jinjin so much and is literally thrilled by the idea of being married to him so he’s actually really really happy

but he doesn’t want jinjin to know he’s found it bc obviously he’s not supposed to know so he’s like “????? it’s nothing but an empty pouch in your shitty old backpack???”

and jinjin’s like “....... OH ofc he must’ve been talking about a different bag haha”

and part of him is RELIEVED bc mj doesn’t know but the other half is like “holy fuck the ring is supposed to be in there i lost a $4000 ring what the fuck”

so time passes and mj doesn’t tell jinjin he knows but while he’s away he wears the engagement ring 25/8 bc it’s so beautiful and he loves it and loves jinjin and wants ppl to know that he’s engaged [even if he technically hasn’t said yes yet]

and when he finally gets to go back home he just kinda forgets that he’s supposed to put the ring back bc he’s so used to wearing it and he keeps it on during the flight home

and he gets home and sees jinjin waiting for him once he gets to the baggage claim and he’s like “!!!!!!! jinjin” and he’s so so happy bc the love of his life is right there after six months

jinjin: “!!! baby !! i love you i missed you !!”

mj: “i missed you too!!”

and jinjin goes to take his hand to lead them to the belt where his luggage will come off and it’s then that he noticed mj is wearing a ring and he’s like “???? mj doesn’t have a ring”

so he looks a little closer and chokes bc that’s not just a ring that’s the ring

jinjin: “mj wtf you found the ring?!”

mj: “........ fuck i forgot to take it off i wanted to surprise you before i said yes :(“

jinjin, v shook: “b-before you said yes??”

nd mj’s just smiling so big and he throws his arms around jinjin’s neck again and he’s like “jinjin i love you to the moon and back obviously i’m gonna marry you”

and jinjin is kinda sad that the proposal didn’t go how he wanted but he’s also so so happy rn bc he loves mj and that makes him not rlly care about the proposal so he just hugs him really really tightly and tells mj how much he loves him and how much he means to him

but park jinwoo is also a huge sap so he still gets on one knee in the middle of the literal airport and asks mj to marry him and mj is so flustered bc a ton of people are watching

so he shyly says yes again and hugs jinjin so so tight and they kiss nd people are clapping bc this is a literal airport and it’s highkey awkward and mj just starts killing himself laughing at the whole situation

mj: “you’re actually a whole idiot i wouldn’t have checked the pouch at all if you hadn’t said anything”

jinjin: “yeah but i’ve always been kinda dumb whenever you’re involved, you make me unable to think clearly; in a good way though”

nd mj just scrunches his nose at him with a smile and tells him he’s a sap before kissing him once more

they collect mj’s luggage hand in hand and a few months later they get married and jinjin tells the story in his speech at the reception and it makes everyone laugh

and yeah it was kinda dumb but mj honestly couldn’t be happier with the way things turned out

[lasttwocells]

08252022

Bruh, I just got hella in my head and am lowkey freaking out rn. like i wanna cry cause i'm overwhelmed, but im in an online training and my camera is on. Fuck dude.

So let's start with yesterday. I was supposed to pick up dude from the airport last night after work. He's been out of town for a week visiting family, which is great. He had a great time, love that for him. He told me that he would text me when he got to his layover and when he boarded the plane, but he didnt. So i'm out here trippin cause i didnt receive a text or call from him.

Naturally, I looked at flight trackers to try and see which flight/airline he might be at to see approx when he'd be back. Called/texted/messengered him, no answer. Shit, i even left a voice mail. No answer. He ended up calling me an hour later saying that he flies in today in the morning and he apologized for not communicating with me and making me stress. I appreciated that.

he texted this morning and gave me more details as to why he had to reschedule his flight. His reasons kind of irritate me, like this could have all been avoided! like he could have been home with me but he made irresponsible decisions. So we're gonna have to talk about that at some point. He works nights the next few days (nights?) so it's gonna be a minute before that converstation happens.

anywho, so about my current stressors! fuck. so, I'm in a training about racism in schools or some shit. the presenter has a doctorate in education. So i looked it up and decided that it's definitely an option for me. I did some research on the courses and requirements. All seem super doable. No big deal. Then I looked up how much its gonna cost. 7k per semester! thats 42k for 3 yrs! Thats so expensive!

So now i'm stressing myself out over shit that's still in the pre planning phase! Like I haven't even fully done any of my research! I still need to get a music therapy certification/degree thing. like fuck man. like this doctorate thing wont happen for at least 7 years, realistically. I have to be financially stable first.

but it's all so overwhelming! I got myself in this headspace. I got myself stressed out for shit that might not even happen. I literally got myself overwhelmed at the idea of that the bigger picture can potentially look like all before lunch time.

such a stupid brain thing to do. I hate that. I hate that my brain does that. like its really dumb. And it's taking away my focus from this training. Which actually has some pretty good material and it's super engaging. But here I am stressing at the thought of getting another degree so my parents can be proud.

Like im about to cry at the thought of my parents maybe being proud of me. like wtf brain. not cool. not cool at all. Like it's not even lunch yet. y u gotta do this to me!?

ugh.

Until next time, D.

[sithara-studies]

We texted a lot people 😭 I'm finally like having convos with him. So here's how it's going- me: wow we r relating today😭i have completely given up on my sci preboards tmrw

him: Oh we have chem board practical tmw😭 Dw um keep trying hard 👏☠️

me: you too!!

him: Oh i am trying hard To not fall asleep

me: coffee? does that help u?

him: I actually just drank coffee and it ain't helping cuz this shit ain't ending Bro I slept for 4 fking hours and I'm still sleepy this is shameful

me: Lol coffee doesnt help me too. I try doing pomodoro or animedoro. It releases the stress too Ahh fuck that's rlly bad

him: Shit it's been long since I watched any animes

me: Oh i recently started

him: Ikr... Cool what genre do u like

me: mostly action and smth mysterious So thts y rn I'm on death note

him: I watch romance mostly and not just any romance Like the saddest ones (even I like those types, but get really emotional at the end😭)

me: mhm never heard of them

him: Have u heard of "your name" or "weathering with you"

me: nope

him: I can tell u some but u shouldnt watch them or you'll just go into depression That's sad like it's so sad I felt bad for my existence after watching it

me: Lmao I'm already depressed due to cbse, so just tell

him: just watch the ones I told or maybe dont they're too painful bro

me: lol I'll give it a try tmrw and lyk (and I didnt </3 instead binged on 23 eps of death note and completed the series)

him: I can tell u the saddest anime of all but that'll be a crime so I wont

me: makes me look forward to it more :)

him: you'll um...best of luck

me: Uhh ty?

him: yeah mate yw😭

Next day

me: Oh hii how did ur practicals go?

him: hey they were so good I was shocked at how easily I could do them☠️ wbt u how was ur exam

me: oh damnn kinda gud i got set 3 which was the easier one so yeah could do good but there was like 2 or 3 qs which was which kinda tough

him: wow yall have sets in models? That's new ig cuz we didn't have back in 10th grade

me: oh yea we do hav bc in boards they give lik tht

him: bro even the extrenal I have no idea who she was but i wanted to hug her cuz she asked me the easiest stuff for viva😭 yea ik well hopefully you'll get the easier ones (he means the sets)

me: omg lmaoo tbh I'd not answer anything in viva out of anxiety😭 yea tyy 🤍

him: yall have viva? wtf wait ur in 10th right?

me: nah lol yea in 10th

him: I'll tell u a lengendary tip, never go first in viva always go in the last I was like the 3rd last and I got the most basic questions ever Bro the 1st guy omg I felt so bad for him the question she asked ☠️

me: Ayee you were in luck, tyy btw Oh btw how's science streak like?

him: It's um like idk wtf happened in 11th cuz obv it was online but 12th is like bw good and bad

me: oh you took bio or comp?

him: Bio Bio is so easy (guys this makes it more confirm that he's my soulmate😭)

me: ikrr

him: 11th grade bio is a bit hard but 12th bio is like a dream

me: my frnds says its difficult but lik it's easy guys just byheart and understand stuff 😭 Also if its okay, like where r ya frm? Like in india (I already know where he's from but like still for the blushes😭)

him: What bio? bro they're bluffing it's the easiest out of every subject fr omg hyderabad...wbu

me: ikrr 😭 FR????

him: yea why..☠️

me: same place 😭

him: oh wtf wow 😃 that's a coincidence lol

me: ikrr lol finding hyderabadis in our school is like finding a needle in a haystack

him: 😭kinda true ngl but there are like 2 people including me from hyderabad in 12th what are you gonna take in 11th?

me: Oh (insert a girl's name) is the other one ryt? pcb

him: Oh never heard of her. I know like only 4 girls from my grade It's probably cuz I really dont talk to many people...like I'm an introvert ifykyk 🚶

me: mine's like worse, ik lik one guy cuz we went to the same tuition whn we were little but now i dont talk cuz like I'm an introvet and you're the only senior guys I talk

him: Oh ur an introvert too? damn that's relatable then ig 😂 you should honestly talk to more they're really good guys Bro my situation is bad I just hate talk to anyone ☠️

me: idk how to start a convo lol like if i start talking to the other, like do they think I'm clingy or weird or smth like that

him: no ur pretty ok tbh even for someone who doesnt talk to anyone you'll probably need to find partners in 11th and 12th so u need to talk to them!

me: well u r prettier, like i am an introvert and I complimented u in the public so that beats

him: prettier?😃no no like i meant u have the ability to talk to anyone so dw abt it ☠️

me: oh 😭😭💀 ty but still i think ur pretty

him: wdym pretty..☠️ (srsly lik SRSLY he didnt get what i meant 😭)

me: dud like in looks or smth lik tht?

him: why..what no ones called me pretty I'm so confused but yeah mate thanks ☠️👌🏻

me: i mean like is usually used for lik complimenting the girls but I tend to use it to both lol idk y, but I think pretty like in handsome wise lik attractive wise (someone teach me how to say that you're pretty to this guy)

him: oh oh yea thanks I really dk how to responds to that but thanks😭

then he sends me like 6 snaps of spiderman edits and I say "Andrew tho 😍😍" and guess what THATS HIS FAV SPIDER MAN TOO 😭. Then we fangirled about andrew for a bit and the convo shifted to my introvertness because he asked if I saw batman and I was like no. He asked that becuase on insta he saw many people from my grade watch it and I was like first of all Idk that people watched it from my grade.

someone please tell him to give me hints if he likes me or not 😭 I hate suspense and this guy here is giving it too much 💀 Guess what? me and my guy are now in seperate buses </3 </3 so according to my theory, I'm guessing that we'll be on the same bus again next week monday because it would be holidays for the KG kids,

so currently manifesting that we both are on the same bus on monday and that he atleast says a hi or waves at me😭

First love???

Almost a month ago

Most of the scenes happen in my school bus (so the seating arrangements' divided half for the boys and girls, you'll know later why I'm saying this) Also the friend mentioned here is @aislingisstudying, I'm just too lazy to tag her everywhere so I'm referring her as friend

me: *looks at a boy and thinks his hair is really cute* *turns towards friend* Don't you think that boy's hair looks really cute?

friend: mhm yeah it is actually cute. Do you want me to go and say it to him?

me: What the fuck no, that's really embarrassing

friend: nahh i'll go and tell

me: bruh stop it would be really embarrassing

friend: fine okay then

10 minutes later

me: you know what, go. Go and compliment him from my side

friend: okay my guts level has gone poof you should have used to the chance before

me: mhm okay whatever

20 minutes later

me: you know what, i'll go and say it to him myself. Anyway I'll leave this school in like 3 or 4 months so i'll just say

friend: fine go ahead

5 minutes later

him: *getting out of this bus*

me: Hey dude!

him: *turns back*

me: your hair looks cute!

him: *traumatized or surprised eyes under the mask and leaves the bus*

all girls around me: *surprised eyes and giggling* you okay? have you gone out of your mind?!

A week ago

so me and my friend was sitting was the end of the girls side and my guy came and sat right behind us. OKAY LIKE RIGHT BEHIND US and the mf bus conductor and tells us to sit in front of the bus. So when we sat and settled down, behind us were our friends in 12th grade-

me: DUDE WE WERE SO CLOSE AND THIS CONDUCTOR CAME AND UGHHHHH

friend: I KNOW RIGHT YOU WERE LIKE THIS CLOSE *pinches fingers*

12th graders: okay what are you guys talking about?

*me and my friend narrates the story and shows the guy*

12th graders: Ohh we know his info, his name's ***** and he's in 12th grade PCMB and like he's an introvert and he watches anime and he's from hyderabad

me: INTROVERT??!!! HYDERABAD(im also from the same place and finding a hyderabadi in my school is like finding a needle in a haystack)???!!!! SCIENCE?????!!!!!!!!!!! *excited faces, hand gestures and noises*

friend: chill okay?

me: okay you have his snap?

12th grader: I have insta but like I'll give his snap too

me: omg thank youu!!!

Today

I actually got his snap 2 days back but I had my hindi exams going on so I sent him request today. So here's the texts-

me: *goes on snap, checks his snap id and takes a screenshot to send to my bsf*

after a few minutes

him: you took ss??...

me: *me realizing that people can see screenshots* Oh im sorry I actually meant to take my friend's but took urs btw hi

him: Oh ok hi

me: Um kinda awkward but do u remember like the compliment tht u got while leaving the bus?

him: yeah I do why?

me: oh well I said that 😅

him: oh thanks ig 😂

me: oh lol okay But lik I still wonder lik y u gave like a traumatised expression that day 😂

him: I was just trying to see who said that lol

me: Oh I thought u got offended or smth 😂

him: Nahh I can't remember who it was tho Like the face I just left cuz my stop was there How did u find my snapchat btw..?

me: Ahh I get it Uhhh that's sources lol i mean friends help to find socials??

him: Oh but I dont follow anyone from our school tho? It's a bit weird so that's why..

me: Oh okay

him: 👌

me: oh btw u up for streaks?

him: oh yeah sure i really need streaks i was about to ask *sends a picture of this fingers*

me: *internally crushing* oh ok

him: What😂? ur just there lol it's kinda creepy TYPE SOMETHING

me: Lolol I'm actually double texting on discord so 💀💀💀

him: oh oh makes sense ☠️

me: yea 💀

Idk what to talk next 😭😭😭 I wanna make convo but like idk what to talk about without being so awkward. Now I know ya'll will say to talk about anime but I dont watch anime too 😭 So give me tips <3 and he's my first crush (boys at my school mostly don't look attractive to me)

[nightandstarlight]

Wow I love waking up from how stressful a dream is

About what you may ask

Well, as everyone already probably knows I'll never fully get over headband fuqboi even though I haven't seen him in forever

In the dream tho it was so many times more awkward and weird than anything I've lived during the times I happened to be around him because our families were having dinner together??? for whatever reason except before the dinner even began, while 'the adults were sitting at the table talking' my mom calls me to where she was sitting and tells me that they didn't have time to buy the cake and that I should probably go get it

At that point things were extremely uncomfortable already and i hadn't even seen fuqboi, cause there were a lot of people I didn't know at my house and everyone was being so incredibly loud and I couldn't hear my mom and she wasn't even speaking to be understood if that makes sense like she was speaking at a normal voice volume quite fast and she was rambling a lot instead of straight up asking me to go buy some cake so it took me a while to get it

And then when I finally am understanding that my mom wants me to not only go somewhere? specific in my town to buy the cake but that she also wants me to take someone with me to show him around I realize that headband fuqboi is standing right there I'm my living room and that we're gonna have to be alone in my car just the two of us

and Then I realize that the reason my mom had been so vague and quiet compared to everyone else is because she was trying to be casual about the fact that she was setting us up cause when i awkwardly said hi to him and looked back at her she had the most ridiculous smile on her face and the woman next to her who I assumed was his mom was also smiling and it was Weird™ and I wanted to die basically

So then we go outside, I was walking behind him and next thing I know he's sitting in the passenger seat of his? car and i freaked cause I wasn't gonna drive his car wtf but also how do I ask him what the hekc he's doing there so then when walk closer to the car with my anxiety levels off the charts I see that a) he's already getting off the car but also b) his sister? is asleep in the car but he doesn't wake her up and basically starts walking from the car without closing the doors?? which looks wrong to me bc it's doesn't seem particularly safe to let girl sleep like that in the middle of an empty street at night and even if she's not in plain sight someone could definitely try to steal their car or whatever since at least one of the doors is wide open but idk I tried to ask him about it and he didn't give a convincing answer but I wasn't gonna try to tell him what to do or argue with him or idk i i just start walking to my car, that was across the street for some reason

And that's when it gets even weirder because we're both crossing the street and I can see my car is right there but then as dreams tend to do we're no longer in the street but we're walking somewhere else and he's talking about politics maybe idk it was loud I don't know why exactly but it was pretty damn hard to hear him so I had to ask him to repeat himself a few times and I hate doing that cause not only I couldn't hear him but I had no idea what he meant with the little I could make out so it was bad bad bad and then we were by some lockers and he was putting something away in one of them and then

Ugh my parents are annoying rn and I cant write I hope I won't forget the rest

[damnimhooked]

Can u actually answer all the questions ahah I'm intrigued

Oh shit. Ok. I'll try1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? - well I'm scared of sex but yes cause it's the girl I was talking about the other dayyyy 💓💓
2. You talked to an ex today, correct?Actually no but I spoke to her like a week ago
3. Have you taken someones virginity?
4. Is trust a big issue for you?Actually yes. I don't trust easily cause I always trust the wrong people
5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?Ye she was next to me in the last exam so I saw her on Friday 
6. What are you excited for?Idk nothing really ATM aha 
7. What happened tonight?Um I had dinner. Texted my crush. Watched tv and played a game from 2002 aahaha
8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?Not disgusting but I don't like anyone who gets wasted. Male or female
9. Is confidence cute?Confidence is hot. To a certain extent. I don't like people who are full of themselves
10. What is the last beverage you had?Water I think
11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?3
12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?Heck yeah love them
13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?Probably crash after work
14. What are you going to spend money on next?Idk whether to buy the new Fitbit it's expensive 
15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?Not anymore
16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?I hope so
17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?My best friend
18. The last time you felt broken?Honestly this weeks been a little rough mentally
19. Have you had sex today?No
20. Are you starting to realize anything?That I can't please everyone. And that I have no idea who I am or want to be 
21. Are you in a good mood? No not really aha
22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?Yes I love sharks
23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?I don't think so
24. What do you want right this second?Kiss jack AveryLie in bed and cuddle and chat with someone I loveOr go on a romantic and chill date
25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?Probably nothing. I'd just cry
26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?Yeah it's just highlighted a bit lighter
27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?Not at all
28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?The girl I'm talking to made me giggle aha
29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?I think so. I feel like I do but I don't know who
30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?Yes
31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?I mean I hardly talk to guys but I think the last guy I spoke to was my friends boyfriend where I wished him a happy birthday so no I don't hate him. He's actually really cute aha
32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?Kinda. I mean I don't know if I'm crushing or just think she's cute af but she knows I think she's cute
33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?It's called soft drink and I do drink it
34. Listening to?Nothing rn just the sound of the ceiling fan
35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?Yeah I like pencil
36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?At home in bed. Maybe with her new guy idk
37. Do you believe in love at first sight?Not really but I believe in instant attraction 
38. Who did you last call?My mom
39. Who was the last person you danced with?I don't dance cause I can't but probs my bff
40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? Already answered. Cause she was my ex and I thought I loved her
41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?Fuck idk. Ages ago
42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?Yes
43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?All the time
44. Do you tan in the nude?No
45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?No
46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?No not last night
47. Who was the last person to call you?Mom
48. Do you sing in the shower?Who doesn't
49. Do you dance in the car?No
50. Ever used a bow and arrow?Once
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?Probably for uni photo Id
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?No but I'm not a fan of them
53. Is Christmas stressful?No it's beautiful
54. Ever eat a pierogi?No
55. Favorite type of fruit pie?Ew
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?Vet. Policeman. Singer. 
57. Do you believe in ghosts?I believe in spirits
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?Always
59. Take a vitamin daily?Magnesium and c (I work in a chemist)
60. Wear slippers?Not anymore. They get stinky
61. Wear a bath robe?No
62. What do you wear to bed?Just underwear
63. First concert?Troye Sivan
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?Wal mart isn't in Australia. So target
65. Nike or Adidas?Nike. My crush loves adidas ahaha
66. Cheetos Or Fritos?Cheetos. Wtf is fritos 
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?Neither
68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?...ready for it 
69. Ever take dance lessons?Nope
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?Something they love
71. Can you curl your tongue?Yes
72. Ever won a spelling bee?No we never did one
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?Probably
74. What is your favorite book?Already answered. Atm superwomans book
75. Do you study better with or without music?It depends on the day
76. Regularly burn incense?No. Too scared to. Fire risk
77. Ever been in love?I don't know how do we know what it actually feels like. 
78. Who would you like to see in concert?Why don't weAriana grandeJai waetfordTroye Sivan again
79. What was the last concert you saw?21 pilots
80. Hot tea or cold tea?Both
81. Tea or coffee?Tea
82. Favorite type of cookie?Chocolate
83. Can you swim well?Yeah I was a national level swimmer for 4 years
84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?Yeah
85. Are you patient?Not overly
86. DJ or band, at a wedding?Band
87. Ever won a contest?Yeah a few I think
88. Ever have plastic surgery?Not unless it's beneficial
89. Which are better black or green olives?Neither. Ew
90. Opinions on sex before marriage?Already answered. Go ahead
91. Best room for a fireplace?Main room
92. Do you want to get marriedI don't know. Yes. But I'm scared of hurting her cause I have commitment issues lolOmg this took forever. Sorry some are short it's 2am here and I'm tired ahah. Love you all x

[doctormelapples]

admit it a l l

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

My little sister,,,, absolutelyfuckingnot

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?

Incorrect i have spoken to one (1) person today

3. Have you taken someones virginity?

Nope

4. Is trust a big issue for you?

Yeah homie, no one is trustworthy, not one fucking person

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

I don’t hang out with people I don’t like, but ya girl doesn’t actually have a crush rn so no

6. What are you excited for?

I’m excited to see the world someday

7. What happened tonight?

It’s 4 pm

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

Homie I’m not that disgusted with myself. me, generally always wasted, couldn’t care less

9. Is confidence cute?

Yes but arrogance isn’t

10. What is the last beverage you had?

Whomst the fuck knows. maybe orange juice?

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

Revisit question 4 please

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?

I own 2 pairs of skinny jeans

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?

Probably see spiderman: homecoming for the third time, or maybe I’ll be purchasing new bed spread for my new bed now that I’ve been kicked out of my room to make way for my new half-sister

14. What are you going to spend money on next?

Probably a slushie or coffee

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?

Not anymore

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?

Hell To The Yes

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

No,,, maybe becca? my posters? the wall.

18. The last time you felt broken?

Ya girl out here in a state of Always Broken

19. Have you had sex today?

Never

20. Are you starting to realize anything?

Um? starting to realize i could either say fuck you to this question or spend Paragraphs on it

21. Are you in a good mood?

Never

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?

My sister just saw that movie 47 meters down and described it in Great Detail. so i might take a few months on that one

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?

Hell no. nothing on me is the same color as my dad. his eyes are yellow/green mine are brown

24. What do you want right this second?

Spaghetti,, real talk omg but I don’t know how to make spaghetti sauce and all we have like it is tomatoes so… it’s a shit ton of work but i might do it tbh

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?

I would probably just be sad™. If we were dating there would be Hell To Pay

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?

Yeah, but ya girl is trying to change that real quick. fun story: i just got a haircut and one of the stylists was like,,, how old are you? have you ever considered modeling? and then told me she wanted a model with hair like mine to die RAINBOW so bich yeas… she took my info and hopefully we can get this going

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

I don’t think so

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?

Dan and Phil Undertale letsplay

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?

Always tbh

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?

Yes

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

No? that is a lot going on in that question but imma let it slide. 

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?

I don’t so..

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?

Ahah no, love me some pop

34. Listening to?

right this second? a song called Humongous by Declan McKenna, WHoM by thE WAy is coming out with a new album and it’s amazing, you’re welcome

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?

All the time. I only write in pencil in my journal

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?

THanKs to my HANDYDANDY SNAP MAP yes. they’re at home

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?

No

38. Who did you last call?

Local pizza place

39. Who was the last person you danced with?

Like actually danced? or like jammed and bumped in the car with? Becca probs

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

Because I liked them? And I like kissing?

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?

Thursday, I jokingly asked my mom to bring cupcakes back from her meeting and she actually did

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?

Blew a kiss to my mom

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?

I don’t believe in “embarrass” (yes)

44. Do you tan in the nude?

TaN? nO

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?

Probably not. Why? I see no reason to tbh

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

Not last ni- wait actually yes. They were fucking wasted and we snapchatted

47. Who was the last person to call you?

Probably my grandma

48. Do you sing in the shower?

Ye

49. Do you dance in the car?

Absolutely

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?

Does a fake one count?

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

School pictures?

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?

Hell No

53. Is Christmas stressful?

Nah

54. Ever eat a pierogi?

A WHoM?

55. Favorite type of fruit pie?

Strawberry Rhubarb my dude get this cherry blueberry apple shit outta my face

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

Fashion Designer, Author, Fairy, Teacher, in that order

57. Do you believe in ghosts?

Nah not really tbh

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

All the time real talk

59. Take a vitamin daily?

Self Care? me? you must be joking

60. Wear slippers?

Too much work

61. Wear a bath robe?

Wet + fuzzy no thank you

62. What do you wear to bed?

Shorts, crewneck

63. First concert?

When was it? Who was it? What do you want from me???

I crashed a jazz concert in the city once but it was outside and they got LIT but that probably doesn’t count. Let’s go with the first one I went to was A 5SOS sounds live feels live that my friends invited me to.

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

Target

65. Nike or Adidas?

Adidas

66. Cheetos Or Fritos?

Cheetos

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

Sunflower seeds

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?

snake

69. Ever take dance lessons?

For a little while, before i gave up dancing and tried gymnastics, then gave that up too

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

I have a future spouse??????????

71. Can you curl your tongue?

What does this mean, i just imagined someone taking a hair curler to my tongue wtf

72. Ever won a spelling bee?

2nd fucking place Hannah iforgotyourlastname will always be my archnemesis for this

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

Ye

74. What is your favorite book?

I have no idea tbfh. For right now let’s go with All The Bright Places

75. Do you study better with or without music?

With. It keeps my mind busy without distracting me so I can mainly focus on the task at hand

76. Regularly burn incense?

Not regularly but I like to

77. Ever been in love?

I don’t know

78. Who would you like to see in concert?

Twenty One Pilots. Young The Giant. Panic! At The Disco. Kendrick Lamar. Beyfuckingyonce. Rihanna. The Wombats. etc

79. What was the last concert you saw?

A jazz concert I think unless Tatinof counts. It’s been forfuckingever

80. Hot tea or cold tea?

If you give me cold tea I’ll give you beheading

81. Tea or coffee?

Tea

82. Favorite type of cookie?

Triple chocolate chunk like a teensy bit wam

83. Can you swim well?

Well enough i suppose

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

Yes

85. Are you patient?

Yeah I am capable of being patient

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?

At a reception? Dj for sure. bands need to take breaks and stuff, and ya girl needs to jam

87. Ever won a contest?

I won a Cakewalk once. I got fucking Cheesecake. I wanted to call BULLSHIT

88. Ever have plastic surgery?

Nope

89. Which are better black or green olives?

No olives

90. Opinions on sex before marriage?

Whomst the fuck cares homie nothing is real, that includes god, go hogwild

91. Best room for a fireplace?

Living room

92. Do you want to get married?

Who knows

[tayegi]

Equilibrium is blowing my mind 😮😮😮 I never expected jungkook to suddenly turn into some possessive psycho jerk 😨😨 I really hope he gets his shit together. What the flying f*ck 😱😱😱 In fact It'd be cool if Jin suddenly showed up with food and The OC leaves that chaotic relationship for food 😂😂😂😂 EVRYONE WOULD PICK FOOD OVER RELATIONSHIPS. right ? Am i the only one lol *cries*

AHHHH THANK YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE FOR THEIR LOVELY ASKS!!! IT’S GOOD TO KNOW THAT PEOPLE CAN HAVE HEALTHY, NON-PROBLEMATIC REACTIONS TO GROSS, CONTROLLING MEN! 

Anonymous said:Sorry for being late to the party lol, but I just read the new update of Equilibrium and I felt so fucking anxious and scared for the oc. I don't know how in the hell, some ppl find jungkook's actions hot when he is literally being psychotic and obsessive. Especially the part when he told her 'You'll regret it', he's basically threatening her there. It's obvious the whole relationship they have is toxic af and it only seems to be getting worse as time passes. Apart from that, have a nice day!

Anonymous said:OMG EQUILIBRIUM 11 Omg I still have goosebumps, like Jungkook was being so fucking possessive it scared the shit out of me. Even tho It was a shitty move for the oc to not attend his graduation, she still could had attended but that phone call... I don't want this to turn into some creepy murdering fanfic LOL. Ughhh Jungkook what is even going in your mind? I'll be looking forward to the next chapter! xx :)

Anonymous said:Dude, you did such a great job at writing o/c's anxiety in this chapter. I try not to be bias toward her, but it's really hard since the story us in her pov. I got seriously grossed out by JK, man. I was so uncomfortable with the whole morning ordeal. 😩 And his threat at the end?? I know it's a story, but I had my friend-instincts kick in and I just wanted to shake her and be like "PLEASE LEAVE THIS RN PLEASE" (1)

Anonymous said:(2) And I'm curious about how Jimin would react if he knew how JK was acting. He has this idea that JK is a perfect boy, but if only he knew...But, at the same time, they all have this distorted view of one another, huh? We see Jimin as Mr. Perfect cause that's how o/c sees him. I guess it goes into that whole "unreliable narrator" thing? I'm just writing what thoughts the chapter has provoked. I absolutely love how u pay attention to detail in this story!! Awesome job as usual, mane 😊🙆

Anonymous said:Jungkook needs to take a moment to realize how miserable and uncomfortable the OC is like my goodness. Things have gone waaaaaay downhill. Especially for the OC. Also Jungkook actions are just kind of creepy??? And just like so unhealthy. I know it can be really hard to get out of a relationship, and she still loves Jimin and all, but the OC needs to just get out of there.

Anonymous said:omg jk is becoming such a possessive creep like reading the last part gave me chills tbh. they all need to realize that this relationship is v toxic and dip out of it. i kind of expected this to become what it is from the beginning but you still added twists to it that caught me off guard, thanks for being a great writer lu

Anonymous said:oh man that last chapter. just really fucking scary.... i went back and reread the end of ch.10 to recap and it makes me wonder how far y/n's willing to go for what's "worth it" in exchange for her own personal well being. because fuck, what jungkook is exhibiting is extremely concerning. as always your writing is amazing! thank you for using your free time this way, i'm sorry people are being gross and rude. you don't deserve that kinda shit, lu :(

Anonymous said:I genuinely love how you describe the OC as a trapped bird, and seeing how Jungkook reacted to everything is actually causing me to fear for the OC's well-being. I just want her to exist the whole relationship and just hook up with sunshine, can do no wrong hobi instead of the possessive junglecock and the passive Jimin :/ just my thoughts. But you're an extremely talented writer and your PhD is more important than smutty fanfic, so take all the time you need

Anonymous said:Ok first of all what the hell at ppl asking u for quick updates cuz ive lived with phd students they literally have a never ending to do list and im so amazed at ur ability to find time to write unbelievable. U go girl. And 2ndly, the claustraphobia u mentioned that oc was feeling. That was so detailed and even i felt like i was in her place. And jk..uve characterized his possessiveness so well and i got so mad forgetting this was a fictional character i was ready to throw a chair

Anonymous said:eek jungkook is making the equilibrium relationship so unhealthy somebody punch him

Anonymous said:Jungkook makes me so uncomfortable and I can actually feel the claustrophobia that OC feels .-. Overall, really excited for the next parts and can't wait to reread to see if I can find more theories. Thanks for the new chapter!

Anonymous said:ch 11... HOLY FUCK SHE NEED TO GET OUT JK IS LOONEY!! you really know how to make a story really good dude. super excited for updates!! i'm really curious about jimin's thought process about all of this. you've given a really good insight on kook and oc but jimin is still a little hard for me to figure out, i assume that's coming soon? i feel for oc, i want to protect her and tell her she's stronger and smarter than all of this. she's worth more than all of this craziness!!! GIRL POWER!! lol

Anonymous said:Holy fucking shit everything is so messed up in equilibrium like !! I love it and at the same time i cry because of the way you describe the oc's feelings I SWEAR I CAN FEEL IT TOO HOW DO YOU DO THAT? I can feel everything, my heart is pounding so fast now. Im so into it and i just want her to run away from this toxic relationship and take care of herself first like i know she loves jimin to the core but she is more important my heart clenches at every exquisite word you writE THANK YOU SO MUCH

Anonymous said:The story is really great I love how original your writing is I don't even see the characters as Jm an jk Which allows me to see how disgusting they all let themselves be treated in the relationship, a lot of the times I feel like readers are blinded by the image of an idol it changes their perspective honestly even if it was just one person who was lying about loving the other it would still be just as horrible I'm really curious as to what's even going on and how you are going to continue it❤️

ahmie-cat said:I feel so sad for the oc in equilibrium. Jungkook don't own nobody! How dare he claim ownership on the oc! I will fight him any day! I'll fight for the oc's freedom rights. Lols, just kidding... But really all of the characters are so sad...

Anonymous said:Honestly in the earlier chapters i really liked Jungkook but now hes just scaring me. The way the OC reacts to all his actions is so relatable thats exaclty how I would feel in her situation. This is crazy I dont even know how this fic would end I love it so much

Anonymous said:I was the anon who recommended you watch wfkbj and I'm so glad you like it!! :) ALSO the latest chapter of equilibrium was so good oh my god;; it's just ramping up like tenfold and while I was reading it sometimes I just had to stop and take a breather bc of all the tension lol. Honestly I don't even know how the oc is dealing with jungkook rn bc his behavior would chill me to the very bone I would have to get out !!! Anyways as always thank you for updating

Anonymous said:ah goodness, it was autocorrect that changed jungkook to jongkook! maybe next time i'll just use jinglebook to refer to him instead thens ahahahah. "goodness gracious, jinglebook is hella possessive that i'm actually really scared for y/n :s"

Anonymous said:GIRL THANK YOU FOR UPDATING OMG IM SHAKING IN MY CHANKLAS JUNGKOOK IS SO DELUSIONAL AND I WISHED OC WOULDVE BEEN STRAIGHT UP WITH HIM AND LIKE IDK NOT MILK ON HIS CRAZYNESS IM JUST SO ANXIOUS TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT SORRY FOR TYPING IN CAPS

Anonymous said:So, uh. Equilibrium Jungkook is fucking terrifying....

Anonymous said:I hope the oc in equilibrium leaves the relationship. It's so unhealthy and I feel like she might develop some type of mental illness or just be very stressed and anxious if she continues the relationship.... It's just a fanfic, but man, i'd hate to be in her position... I feel like crying Lols. Is this what you intended?? Haha.... It's really good so far I'm looking forward to what happens next. I feel like there'll be a good moral to the story. *Fingers crossing.

Anonymous said:Damn wtf jungkook behavior is freaking me out 😳 "you'll regret it" like wtf crazy people say shit like that

Anonymous said:jkzldlzlldz TF IS HAPPENING I'M SO CONFUSED JK IS CRAZY WTF OMG

Anonymous said:the characters in equilibrium seem to have never been in an actual proper relationship so the fact that they seem to have lasted this long is by sheer miracle. It's also probably why their worst aspects are even more apparent like jk's obsessiveness (which btw yikes boy yikesss) they literally all need to walk far far away from each other cause they a mess but I do wonder who's gonna be the first to do it cause it's all so complicated now, sorry for rambling I just love this fic so much!!

Anonymous said:What the ever loving monkey fuck is wrong with Jungkook. See, i was okay with him being jealous of Jimin because that's normal. I was moderately okay with OC agreeing to Jungkook's terms because she wants to stay with Jimin. I AM NOT OKAY with his sociopathic tendencies and how obsessive he's become. I think he's mistaken OCs genuine kindness for romantic interest at one point. And the thing that scares me the most is how Jimin seems to have no idea what's going on right under his nose as well

Anonymous said:Bruhhhh jungkook is legit fucking scary but the story itself is amazing and complex im gonna reread it right now

Anonymous said:Equilibrium is getting really interesting!! I'm kinda worried tht ppl read sentences like "Even a domesticated pet needs a taste of freedom" in context with her just /looking/ at jimin and think 'oh how romantic' tho. In every scene between her and jk u can practically feel her discomfort and fear and his possessiveness and how he's abusing her. I would normally stop reading a fic like tht bc I don't like it when the ppl are written like that bc they are real after all but I'm super hooked (1/2)

Anonymous said:(2/2)now and I am also really curious as to if and how they all are gonna get out of that situation or if jk kills her before they can just bc she takes care of a literally puking-everywhere-bedridden jimin. I'm also curious how Jimin is gonna act towards y/n now that they're alone and if he even noticed the toxic stuff that's happening between her and jk or if he didn't even notice bc jk kept him "happy" (idk how else to put it) so yeah. Keep up the great work!! Have a nice day xx

Anonymous said:GURL YOU NEED TO RUN FAST AND YOU NEED TO RUN FAR. It sucks that Jimin doesn't like OC romantically, but he's just using you to stay with JK. But JK... that shit is gonna hit the roof soon soon and it ain't gonna be pretty @.@

Anonymous said:Hey Lu, thanks for taking the time to update again~ Regarding the story...Jungkook is incredibly terrifying, like I had to step away a few times as I read because I just want the reader to leave so badly. I wish she would just be like "peace out". Everyone should just leave this situation and say "peace out". Even though I know the feelings are so complicated between all of them, it's just such a shit show on fire :( . Well done on setting everything up though. The tension is insane!

Anonymous said:Ugh I honestly want to slap Jungkook so hard. Possessive little shit.. As always your writing is amazing. Thank you for the update.

Anonymous said:OC, JIMINS DICK ISNT WORTH AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP GTFO THAT SITUATION GIRL IM SCREAMING

Anonymous said:JEONS FUCKED IN THE HEAD. HE WAS CUTE AND ALL AT FIRST BUT THEN IDK GIRL, I FEEL SORRY FOR JIMIN AND OC. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHATS HAPPENING ALL I KNOW IS I LOVE THIS AND I CERTAINLY LOVE YOU! IS HE PSYCHOTIC THO? FEELS LIKE JEON WOULD KILL ANYONE WHO DARE TO TOUCH OC..

mirajoey said:MY GAWDD!! Jeon Jungkook has gone mad😱 i pray for oc's safety

Anonymous said:i am terrified by jungkook's actions and NOTHING in this whole damn world is going to excuse what he is saying and doing in equilibrium. WHERE IS YOONGI DITCH THEM ALL Y/N AND GO FOR YOONGI. and today, i have been going through some really misogynic shit today and it felt so freaking uncomfortable and i was so angry and kind of frightened...i do not know how y/n is able to act like a normal person with jungkook around who is being very possessive and psycho-like

Anonymous said:When I first saw you updated Equilibrium I almost yelled "IMMA BUST MY LEFT NUT" (I was really excited lol) and now I'm lying here in a puddle of emotion really scared for the OC lol. I adore your writing so much, thank you for writing these xx

Anonymous said:JEON YOU CREEP. Man this is all such a disaster BUT I LOVE TO WATCH THE DRAMA UNFOLD. Anyways it was a great chapter and I am so e x c i t e for the next part to start. You da best 😆

Anonymous said:This is what your writing does to people, this is literally the only time I've ever dislike Jungkook that much in a fic. I wanted the OC and Jungkook together, but now I really thing all 3 should go their separate ways. Jungkook's possessiveness is getting too much, it's too obsessive. I feel sorry for her, but at the same time her own fault as well. As for Jimin who knows he may not be as oblivious as we think ?! He is using the OC to get with Jungkook in the first place.

Anonymous said:Equilibrium OC should just pack her fckin' bags there is no happy way out of this one

Anonymous said:(1/3) Right before I read this I watched this British PSA music video about abusive relationships, where a pregnant woman was choked to death by her boyfriend as she was trying to leave him and I feel like these people who romanticize these types of relationships forgot that this actually happens IRL. This happens to real women and men and some of them don't make it out alive. And when they try to defend it by saying "it's just a story, it's not real" it's very real for some people.

Anonymous said:(2/3) And the fact that the OC is having trouble sleeping and feeling this anxiety. And the that Jungkook didn't fell any sympathy/empathy for Jimin while he was ill, it just doesn't sit well with me. And the OC isn't innocent either. So afraid to shatter what's left of the already crumbling illusion she's built up. The need to keep the fantasy of this relationship with Jimin that I'm not sure existed outside of her mind. I really do enjoy this story and how you portray the characters.

Anonymous said:(3/3) The isolated relationships between the three of them is very realistic. I've seen some of my close friends go through similar situations. And it's hard to get out once you're in.Anonymous said:I cant believe anyone in their right mind is sympathizing with Jungkook in Equilibrium?! The way he is with Y/N makes me so uncomfortable, esp with his “You’re all mine” crap and being so “in love” with her when all he wants is to have her under his control even tho he thinks it’s love. Jimin too, the way he’s down to have Y/N in the relationship since JK wants her but she wants Jimin.. also I’m glad ur fanfics exist since they can give some girls a perspective on what’s NOT okay and NOT love

Anonymous said:' And if I find out you let someone else touch what's mine... you'll regret it' - I kept on reading this over and over but each time it makes me cringe more, the fact that he constantly calls her 'mine' is so fucking off, like as a kookier Stan in rl , I felt really bad for jungkook but now I find it so hard, this relationship is taking a big twist that I did not see coming and it's getting abusive real quick.

Anonymous said:(Cont last) I stood firm in my decision. On the last day that we talked, he finally understood why. It was only then he realized his mistakes, only then did he cry & apologize for everything. He tried to convince me to give him a chance but the time for that has already passed. We are officially over. I loved the guy, you know? and deep down, I know there's good in there. But I can't risk my heart and soul anymore. I'm sorry this has gone out of topic, I just needed to get it off my chest.

Anonymous said:(Cont.) When he got mad at me for one minor thing, he will accuse me of cheating and call me demeaning words. Our relationship was always on his terms. I was always the one apologizing & making an effort to make him happy. I paid for all our dates. Just wow, I'm stupid. After a fight early Feb, I got tired of it all. I broke up with him and that process took 7 fucking days in which he tried to convince that my reasoning was wrong and that he was right. My gut feeling was telling me to leave.

Anonymous said:just finished reading ch 11... yikes. like YIKES. oh my, I'm honestly very worried and scared for the oc. reading it actually made me anxious and nervous lol. that relationship is a nightmare oh sweetie no, she needs to leave asap

Anonymous said:(Cont. Part 3) I felt caged. I always had to inform where I was, who I'm with, are there guys going to be at the event I'm going to. If there were guys, he didn't want me to go. I couldn't even get a regular update from him where he was and couldn't check on his phone. As I said, I was being stupid. I tolerated all of his bullshit. When you're in an abusive relationship, you won't realize it immediately. He'll come off sweet and only wanting to protect you and your relationship.

Anonymous said:(Cont. Part 2) to the red flags he showed early in the relationship. He didn't want to me talk to any guy who wasn't a family and asked me to delete all the guys in my Facebook account. Stupid me did so because I believed him when he said that "It's not because I don't trust you, it's because I don't trust the people around you." I stayed loyal to him but he was always paranoid that I was cheating on him. When we broke up, I learned he was talking to lots of girls that's why he was so paranoid.

Anonymous said:I got curious and read Equilibrium. All I can say is whoa! The anxiety and fear that I felt was so visceral; it made me fill ill. I've recently broken up with my ex, who was like that - subtly emotionally and mentally abusive. I am fairly young, naive, and inexperienced in relationships. I had a low self-esteem. Growing up I felt that I was unattractive and no one would like me. He was the first guy to really pursue me and I guess I was so hungry for love and affection that I turned a blind eye

Anonymous said:oc's anxiety is getting worst in equal... 😞 i hope she gets out soon. i agree, SEND IN MAMA JIN! lol kook is getting crazier each chapter i'm getting scared for her well being 😟☹️😦. SHES WORTH MORE THAN THIS CRAZINESS!! 💔 side note, thank you for sticking to it, i know it's not easy. and thank you for updating. i always look forward to your work ❤

withlove-sydney said:Tbh I was worried that this story was gonna take a disturbing turn after jk revealed that he was purposely trying to keep jimin away in chpt 10 and this chapter just confirmed how toxic he is. I agree with that other person tho I'm glad that you're the one writing this because I trust that you won't try to romanticize this at all. My ex was really possessive like jk and its not cute or sexy at all. I ended up so scared of him and when I see similar things in fics it gives me chills...

btsninetyfiveline said:I just want to say thank you, thank you, THANK YOU for the relationship you're portraying in Equilibrium! It's soooooooo important to have stories that show abuse and possessiveness in an unhealthy light! I'm so tired of these "you looked at another guy for 5 seconds in the club so now I'm gonna take you home and show you who you 'belong' to" narratives. It's so important to address and educate young girls on signs of an emotionally manipulative relationship! 💕

Anonymous said:Hi Lu :) how are you? I love how you put out your stories unexpectedly, its always a pleasant surprise. Chapter 11 is so well-written (like all your work ofc).You set up the suffocating atmosphere perfectly with images and metaphors, like Oc's suffer is so real. I am really concerned about oc's mental health... in this chapter we see that she isn't in a good place and I am scared of what is yet to come. Thank you for your hard work. xo

Anonymous said:After reading chap 11, i feel so bad for the oc. Even reading about jk's possessiveness/threats makes me feel suffocated ;-; Though I'm excited for what's going to happen after he leaves for his trip hmm.... once again thank you for the update, Lu! :-) I'm really loving the pace of the story so far.

anonymouspseudonymous said:There's this anon that said "this ain't your ordinary fic where they all compromise and be happy" and i cannot agree more. Although, even if I get it that people hate JK for being cray, you have to punch Jimin as well hahaha idk man this is fucked

Anonymous said:I'm reading ch11 of equilibrium and the part where she wants to touch jimins face but jungkook has a tight grip on her wrist restricting her from doing so is so symbolic of their relationship and how she wants jimin so badly but jungkook is holding her back from him almost keeping her hostage in a way. Anyways I really enjoyed this part it gave me goosebumps so thank you for sharing your work with us even though you don't have to! You owe us nothing so I appreciate everything you give us💓💞💖💕

Anonymous said:I'm glad you don't tolerate the bullshit that jungkook isnt as bad as the protagnonist. People need to hear that that shit is toxic and manipulative. People are brainwashed into thinking it's romantic and okay. When it's absolutely not. No the protagonist isn't free of fault but she isn't being obsessively creepy.

Anonymous said:I think people tend to gloss over the fact that it IS an obsession (unhealthy and actually rather terrifying) and not actual "love" because they like the idea of someone doing anything to stay with them. But even in wanting to stay with someone, there have to be limits. You shouldn't end up losing yourself to someone if they want you as a person, not as just an object or a way to get what they want. There is a line between devotion and obsession, and people seem to ignore that all too often.

[survivor-kalymnos]

Ep. 1 - “I am THE Survivor Chick And I Am Here To Win It All!!” - Susan

Franco

hehe

Maxyne

I AM FREAKING THE FUCK OUT!!!!! I don't know why I am, it's just another Survivor game but... I have be someone else kind of. So for this game I have to be "Maxyne" and I'm keeping my pronoun flexibility but I'm gonna be pushing the feminine side a bit more. Maxyne is actually my irl sister's middle name so it'll be easy for me to quickly become familiar with that name being used for me. I also know that Tim is gonna be in this game but idk who and I sure as hell don't wanna find out. Tim actually told me to apply cause they said that they were applying to but my dumbass did NOT know this was an alias game so now I'm fumbling around in the dark trying get into costume n shit not knowing what to do or what to expect. The only thing I have to cling onto my knowledge of Survivor ORGs and Jay's style of hosting. Which honestly don't do me well cause I haven't played Survivor in... months and I haven't been tuned into a Jay game in months too so I have no idea the ride I'm in for. One thing I did do is scroll through the rules, cause my experience always tells me that whenever there's a tumblr blog for an ORG, there's always something hidden somewhere there. Lo and behold, I was right so come 9 PM tonight I will be camping on the rules page updating and waiting for a clue, or someway to start my search. Cause every Survivor game i've played, the idol is found in less then 5 minutes and by the way I've formulated a thought about the idol, it's already long gone. So hopefully, I can pull a Merida and change my fate. Also there was a mention of One World rounds happening in this game??? UMMMM WTF??? PLEASE LET THAT BE A ONE TIME THING. Anyways, sorry for the word vomit, I usually have a lot of pre game jitters and thoughts so I figured I'd get a jump on my confessional count and start talking now. Let's hope I can pull through for this game and make it far. Or vote me out first, i'd rather not have responsibilities right now. 

Rain

I’m looking forward to this. I’m looking forward to people not remembering who I am. I’ve been out of this a year now, I’m well and ready to get first boot, but I’m curious to see how a better, matured me will play. Probably badly, let’s be fuckin real. Anyway I’ll check back in toward the middle of this round. We’ll see how all my sockpuppet counterparts compare against my impossible standards.

Maxyne

5 minutes before the game starts and mama we. Are. SCARED.

Elle

This time around I am going to go for a peppy, happy-go-lucky girl. Not all of my tribe mates are online atm which majorly sucks! Plus, not everyone has me added. I am going to wait till people add me before I add them. I'll give it the night into the morning for that to happen. Otherwise, I'll slowly add them one-by-one. I want to do the slide puzzles because I know I am good at them. I'm going for a more hands-off approach when it comes to socializing so I need all the time I can get to set myself up in the tribe. If we can win the challenge then it'll be a great opportunity to really bond with my tribe mates. 

Maxyne, Fae, and Erick seem to be the most active atm with Fae being the most social. I'll observe how far that socializing and activity goes on. It can either work to my benefit or I need to get rid of the ASAP.

Frank

Wanna start by saying that having a round button in this form is the smartest thing I’ve ever seen. Now onto my confessional: this tribe is alright, some people haven’t spoken yet I think and people seem nice and cooperative thus far. I’m so nosy so not knowing who everyone is is going to be a struggle for me. But I’m guessing Maynor is Gregg on the other tribe bc of the Sophie icon, but watch me be wrong. I’ll try to keep confessionals interesting, but then again I lie sometimes so womp. 

Worm

So I am an hour into my first alias game and I’m already stressing the fuck out. I am so used to being able to go on call with people and get to know them. I wanna say one of my greatest strength is getting solid reads on people when I talk to them but that is only when I can go on call with them. This whole thing is gonna be a struggle

Fae

well we are an hour into this game and I have already fucked up my story. Guess I'm moving home now because I didn't think anything through. dear god. Why am I like this? guess moving my grandmother is going to turn into Me moving home lol. welp, lets see how this goes. 

Maxyne

*googles How to stop oversharing*

Michele

Franco is a king we stan. Also I’m still laughing at worms name

Rain

Michele: Chosen one, will betray at f5

Susan: OTTN5 

Worm: oh, worm? 

Gregg: Dylan in disguise, watch me betray him again 

Uhhh I’ll be back with the rest eventually first night is horrid

Idol hunt: OTTNNNNNNN10

Dusty

So far im feeling good on my tribe! I'm getting along really well with Erick! We have a lot in common and match each others energy. I'm also talking well with Fae, who says they think we've played a game together!! So I'm trying to figure out who it might be! I'm a little worried about the people who haven't spoken yet, but hopefully I'll be able to get to know them!

Elle

I think I'm connecting well with Maxyne. Since we are both doing the same assignment, it allows for me to grow closer with them. I think I might make them my ride-or-die, but I want to see how well our connection lasts in the days to come. Van and I are making great conversation in the tribe chat. I hope they will want to work with me. Other than that, I have not chatted with anyone else on the tribe. The people who have contacted me I talk to sporadically. I hope this is enough to get me by as I do not want to be seen as a social threat later down the line. Also, like, why did so many people get a disadvantage? I am so disappointed in all of them, but I know we can pull through!

lenny

off to an interesting start! so far, I am enjoying my tribe. definitely more chill than my last one but only time will tell. people's true motives will come out soon and this time, I am trying to really pay attention to who is a leader and who is a follower.

Franco

Nera tribe has such good positive energies? There hasn't been any friction, everyone is joking with each other, and overall everyone is having a great time!! Very honestly though I'm not sure what to make of everyone in a game and strategic sense. I've tried talking game with the majority of the tribe but most of it was still just like small talk and vague sentences. Im tryna play this fast and hard but I don't think anyone else is ):   I vibe really well with Michele, Eliza, and Rain. Michele and Rain are so fun and probably down to get messy, so they'd be great allies. And eliza just seems like a genuinely good person that I think I would get along with really nicely!! I also REALLY want this reward challenge. Ive gotten three people at least who said that they would vote for me so!! Let's hope I win, at the very least itd be nice to prove to myself that I can have a good social game early on

Franco

On my very FIRST idol hunt of the SEASON I find?? A legacy advantage??? Im so??? Shook and excited. I just have a feeling that this is my game! Night 1 kinda sets the tone of the whole game and I had an AMAZING night 1. I also uhhh am dumb and told Michele that i found it. My goal was to gain her trust so we could work together but? She kinda just didn't respond and changed the topic. Idk if that's a good sign so yikes!!

Elle

Honestly, I should resign myself to the fate that we will not win the next challenge. So, it is imperative that we win this challenge so that we do not go to tribal two times in a row. I hope my score of 85 is enough because I could not get it any higher than that. I am honestly very frustrated with my tribe at the moment, but I guess we shall see how things develop. Maxyne and Erick getting the advantage is interesting only because it shows who has been the most social. I will either need to get in good with the both of them or take them out early. However, the most active and social people usually do not go home first. For now, I will just keep my eye on the two of them and see how they position themselves. 

Elle

Erick giving the tribe the clue was definitely a strategic move. He wants to build trust and be transparent with everyone in order for them to like him. I see right through it. However, it is nice to get an edge on the hunt. 

Fae

I FOUND THE IDOL!!!! Erick decided to share the clue and I FOUND IT!!!! 

Eliza

dear m’fucking diary...

Hey gays, this is a crack fest. I’m doing this confession rn so that I don’t have to do that fever dream of a puzzle. I got a bat to the face when I did the idol hunt, funnnnn. So, let’s recap! I’ve been connecting with a lot of people so far and that’s great, I love my tribe rn and I’m happy that Franco won the reward considering that I voted for them, so now I can at least get on Franco’s good side an maybe get some info👀. Because this is alias I probably will be playing a tad bit differently but I’m still going to be the social playing badass that y’all know and love! The worst part of this so far is that I can’t fucking say y’all, who the hell says y o u g u y s. I’m changing how I speak just a bit so that I don’t immediately get clocked, so basically I can’t use y’all and lmao in every sentence. The people I feel closest to right now are Franco, Michelle, tristin, rain, and worm. In that order, don’t get me wrong, I love everyone in the tribe, those are just the people I’ve been able to connect with the most. I’d love to move forward with that group but if that doesn’t happen well then whatever, I mean I talk to literally everyone so I’ll survive. Pretending to be interested romantically in men (sorry James Zachary) is horrible, but I think people are at least believing that I’m 20. Jay told me that all I have to do to be an adult is be excited about stupid boring shit, so I’m just gonna pretend that I’m happy about buying a new couch. Well I’ll check back in soon to update y’all about people and probably give an analysis about everyone.  That’s it, much loveeeee

Fae

I just want to say how ironic it is that I decided to do the idol hunt in the challenge and in reality actually found an idol 

Gregg

Well. Im already overwhelmed and literally wanted out. (Jay knows why) But im doing counting challenge and i hope another f4 counting challenge doesnt affect my perfermance for this one. I really want to help the tribe win. Honestly im not gunna bother trying to figure out who is who. Im just gunna play and think the people are the people and play normally. Trying to guess ppl is what gunna mess me up. So wont bother with it but some phrase some ppl have said. I feel like i know who they r.

Franco

I WON FIRST REWARD AHHH. I'm such a social legend? Look at me? I'm literally winning this game. I kinda don't care about the clue because I already have a legacy advantage, AND half of a super idol (that I gotta give to somebody else, booooo), so I'm kinda??? Being chaotic and giving the clue to everyone who voted for me. It can give me an opportunity to gain more trust on the tribe

Tristin

https://youtu.be/Wyi5uWAulnE

Maxyne

I know this is late and it's long but i fell asleep last night while this was uploading, so sorry https://youtu.be/mXmbL49orVI

Elle

Now that I have gotten to talk to everyone I can finally assess my tribe. I feel like I can be great allies with Maxyne. They voted for me in the reward which means we have a mutual good vibe from each other. Hopefully I can make them my ride-or-die. Fae and Van are really nice and I can get down with them. I think if I could choose a strong alliance of three I would pick them while having Maxyne as my real ride-or-die. Sasha seems to be the least social with me which means that they could be an easy target. I don't trust Erick or Cran because they just give me bad vibes. I do not think anything of Frank. They are probably with Sasha as one of the least social in the tribe. At least Sasha is being active within the tribe chat. Finally, I think Dusty is a sweetheart and could possibly be another one of my allies. At the very least, I know I was strong in the challenge and have at least been moderately social. This means I will not be the first boot if we were to go to tribal. 

Dusty

So now we've got an alliance in the works between me, Fae, Erick, and Elle. All in the name of working together to find the idol. I feel good about the group! Me and Erick are both each others closest ally. He won the reward challenge and in doing so he was able to will be half of a super idol! We don't know where the other half might be, but I'm really happy to see that Erick trusted me enough to will me a super idol!

van

So uh...I haven’t been super active because the world is burning around us. But I’m trying. So far I really enjoy the people I’m playing with!

Elle

Dusty asking me to work with Fae and Erick on finding the idol which works out well for me. This means I have already positioned myself into a sort of alliance which I hope will carry me in the future. 

Elle

Fae confirmed with me the alliance that Dusty approached me with. However, there was no chat made. Also, Cranjes was added to the alliance by Erick and Fae which tells me that those those two are very social with him. These people are making their connections to obvious. Either way, with those people I have a 5-person majority. Hopefully these people will carry me through the pre-swap phase of the game, but I am getting pretty nervous in my seat. I do not trust Erick and Cranjes. I like Dusty and Fae, but I cannot get a read on the other two. Plus, if no chat has been made, how are we going to solidify the alliance? Hopefully my performance in the challenge will cover me for now, but I am getting pretty nervous at the moment.

Michele

elfranchele just started! it's an alliance chat with michele, franco, and eliza. excited to see where this goes!!

I can't tell if Susan is just super into her alias or if she really is old with her hubs

Cranjes

everyone seems nice. i guess. idk. i fell off a waterfall and fucked up my ankle for a fucking idol. but if anyone asks, it was sasha. 

i have something against the name sasha bc peppermint should’ve won season 9 of drag race, not sasha velour

Fae

Soooo, there is now a chat for people to hell each other look for the idol. The idol I have...

Frank

YESSSSSSS!!! I’m not gonna be first boot. It’s a party even though I didn’t win my section. Eliza didn’t do their part on the other tribe and that’s a yikes (at least with a 2 hour time exactly that’s what I’m assuming). So like they’re probably going. I’m really happy I don’t have to worry about tribal tomorrow because my sister wants to drink and celebrate her birthday since plans went sour because of that quarantine life. But gamewise though, I want to talk to Erick tomorrow since they seem like someone I could work with, although based on reward I think multiple people think that. Gonna remember that. Gotta be social....but I’m me so it’ll be an uphill battle.

Rain

So, we lost immunity. 

I could have seen that coming - but at least we weren’t totally destroyed. I’m already thinking Susan as a name but uhhh we’ll see where it goes. I’m pretty good with Franco, Michele and Eliza. I wouldn’t be shook if there was an alliance chat made at some point. I like Tristan too! And Gregg. And Lenny. ....okay I like everyone but Susan. Susan I’m sorry I respect your character choice but it ain’t it, chief. 

Gregg

I feel like i might be good for this tribal. Only one name has been said which kinda worries me but im trying to stay positive. Susan is the target tonight and as long as it isnt me. Im okay with voting for whoever. Franco did share the clue with me. It was a simple clue so idk if itll be helpful or not. Im looking at a certain spot and doing all the 4 spots in the section. So hopefully i can find something.

erick

hi i have the eco fascist dream flu and i cannot move but cranjes is john and fae is birch confirmed, i fucked up the challenge but not to the extent that we lost so that’s nice. current alliance going with fae, elle, and dusty (dusty’s my fave). they elected to give me the idol clue and i got half of the super idol so i gave that to dusty as was required and then shared the clue with the group at large because i’m a communist

Worm

So we lost the first immunity challenge. It sucks but I'll get over it. The thing that worries me now is trying to get a read on everyone during the vote. Because I don't know who I'm playing with I'm struggling on getting a read on anyone. On the bright side though I think I'm doing pretty well socially. I've talked to Michele and Tristin and they seem to trust me so I'm happy about that. Also it seems like the tribe has come to a unanimous vote to getting rid of Susan. I feel bad about getting her out but she is firmly holding on to her character which I think is making it difficult for her to make connections with other people in the tribe. The only that has me worried about this whole thing is how easy this vote is going. My anxious head just wonders about how people behind the scenes could be plotting to get me out and I just don't know it. This also isn't helped by the reward challenge and Franco receiving 5 votes to get the clue. A couple votes wouldn't have made me suspicious but 5 just seems like a lot. Maybe I'm reading too much into it but all my anxiety is saying is that there is a majority alliance already formed in the first couple hours of the game and now I'm just playing from the bottom. Hopefully that isn't true but only time will tell.

Susan Burke

I Am SO SO Excited To Be Here!! I am THE Survivor Chick And I Am Here To Win It All!! Everyone So Far Has Been So Kind. I Love These Kids!! However, I Know My Age Will Make Me A Target. They Don't Believe This Ol' Hiney Can Keep Up With Them!! So, I Wanted To Make It Clear That I Am LOYAL To This Tribe And Its People!! When I Was Out Looking For The Idol, I Stumbled Upon The Other Tribe's Camp!! How AWKWARD!! I Decided To Tell Franco - He's Popular, And The First One To Really See SUSAN For SUSAN. Hopefully I Can Buy His Trust, Because He Can Keep This Nanna Safe!! It's Really Unfortunate We Lost...But It Was So Close!! We Won't Lose Again!! I Was Instantly Worried It Would Be Me, But Doing The Challenge With Tristin Bonded Us!! Together, We Decided That Gregg Would Be Our Target, And Now We Gotta Get Everyone ONBOARD!! #TeamSDB

Franco

Im very very sad we have to go to tribal. Like i genuinely enjoy everyone on the tribe!! But it's the way the game goes, every time someone leaves it gets me one place closer to winning hehe. I now have an official alliance with Michele and Eliza and??? We are going to SLAY this game. We all have our individual strengths and I think we could be a powerhouse. Unless Susan has an idol, shes going tonight. Its sad because shes so fun but im not surprised. Everyone else on the tribe seems to have some sort of personal stake or investment in the game besides her. 

Elle

Having immunity means that I can safely bond with my tribemates without the game hovering over our heads. I'm really vibing with everyone in the tribe chat. However, I do not want to go into PMs unless they want to talk to me because it is such a Raffy thing to do to talk to people in PMs. I will try to be as social as possible in the tribe chat to still have those bonds, but I do not want to be seen as some sort of social butterfly.

Tristin

So we LOST the challenge and that sucks!! It appears that the majority of people want to vote out SUSAN and I hate it!! She’s super sweet and the older players always get voted out first! Maybe because she hasn’t been as social as everyone else! At least thats the explanation. I pretty much solidified working with Worm, Franco, and Eliza pretty much. Michele as well I think! But separately of course! I can’t wait for an alliance chat! Sorry to this Susan!!

Sasha

It's strange to be playing in a game where I know there's people playing that I already know but I have no idea who they are. I've talked a little bit to each but not a ton. I don't have too many guesses as to who is who, though. That's it.