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parrrty-poison · 2 years

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it's so weird how visiting people makes me feel lonelier than actually being alone

#idk what it is #but nowadays every time i go visit someone i get this deep seated sadness #and i feel so lonely all of a sudden #idk if it is the fact that i get to see everyone move on with their lives and have new people #while im kinda just stagnant right now #or the fact that i always feel like i dont actually matter that much to anyone #that if i were to disappear no one would really notice #and no one would really care all that much #cause everyone has more important people in their lives now #idk im just sad maybe i should just never drink #im always sad the next day #i kinda just wanna go home and hide in bed forever #but going home sounds so lonely too

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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 11 months

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is any man as late night grocery store run date coded as satoru gojo

#that is a MOUTHFUL but hear me out #i just feel like . he wakes u up at 1 am to go get snacks w him bc he got a sudden sugar craving #and its annoying and u want to sleep but he needs ur company or else he ”gets lonely 🥺🥺” so u go w him and hes all :33 #and the sky is dark and stars are peeking out and he carries u on his back if ur too sleepy to walk . and the air is cold but hes so warm.#and then he gets all ur favorite snacks (and eats most of them)#too much gojo on the brain today :// i need to be sedated

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melto · 7 months

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my birthday week is like a fight for my fucking life.

#like i dont like my birthday bc i dont like attention and also bc the fact i am still alive when i never planned to be is so heavy #which makes it feel like all of a sudden i have a timer and i need to kiilllmyself #but mostly. The biggest issue is i think of my exbest friend bc it was our week always even if they treated me horrible #and i would just go along with whatever they wanted even if i hated it and i just think about them think about them think about them #and i dont want them in my life but i will talk myself into missing them #and feel guilty like its my fault like i deserved everything they did to me like i should never be allowed to move past it #and then i get so embarassed over how i let them rule my life and ruin so much for me and made me break away from people i care about #but then its like im so lonely at least they were always there even if they hated me #even if they wanted me to be so miserable even if they just wanted to know they would always have someone to push around #And i still have trouble when it comes to food im still scared of opening up to people im still scared of my friends of buying new clothes #somehow everything they said to and about me was true even though none of it is and it hurt me and ruined so much #but i must have deserved it. they were supposed to know me best. and i never have known myself #so everything they had said about me has been true for so long.#every time i have the thought that i miss them i think i need to crash my car #every year it gets better every week it is easier but its been so bad recently its been so bad i feel like pieces of me are falling apart #i dont want to manifest this year it being bad bc its just starting to get easier after my total depressive state but god #im looking at are they made for me years ago and i want to rip it apart but i cant every time i try i almost throw up.#i think im going to throw up right now.#deeply pathetic.#news with isaac

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shrekshugebadussy · 15 days

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i wish that I was a girl. I wish I wasn’t so unhappy with myself. I wish I could be happy and fine and make myself look beautiful in my gender assigned to me at birth. I wish people didn’t view me as undesirable. I wish I didn’t have to transition to pass in order to actually be seen as somewhat attractive. I wish that even then people still would find me desirable. I wish I was skinny. I wish that I didn’t feel like my youth was wasted away. I wish I didn’t feel like I am falling behind in life. I wish I didn’t feel like the people around me were leaving me behind

#vent post #cw vent #personal vent #been thinking lately #been lonely lately #literally feel like i have no friends #i have no one to talk to except my mom and maybe a coworker #all my friends are going off and getting with their partners and doing things i want to have and experience so bad yet i’m stuck being left #behind as they seem to be too busy for me now #idfk #and of course i’m a trans man who has barely transitioned and i hate feeling like i HAVE to do something in order to even be perceived as da #datable. that is until they learn i’m trans and have a vagina and then all of a sudden i’m undesirable again.#i feel stuck #i’m tired #i’m lonely #i’m trying sometimes but it’s just so much #how is it so easy for others yet i’m stuck feeling unwanted and forgotten #anyways

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thebleedingeffect · 6 months

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#okay I'm talking in the tags of this post cause shit is happening in my life and I gotta talk about it somewhere #one part of it is my step brother crashing and burning before my very eyes and there's nothing I can do to stop his own destructive actions #so it's just me watching this poor kid ruin his relationships and blame everything and everyone around him as he does so #despite the fact that he's undeniably been treated horribly at times- he's just turned that anger back onto others and himself #and I have no idea what to feel as I watch him get arrested. have drug problems. because I'm just waiting for the inevitable spiral #it doesn't help that my mom has been comparing us and saying that I'm the much better child and she wishes he was like me #not understanding that I could’ve been him if I was just more angry at the world at that age instead of being so sad and scared #and that leads me to my fucking mom cause like- I love her. we've been through alot of bad shit with her #I've almost done some really bad shit for her and I know that she loves me more than anything else #but it feels like its been getting more and more suffocating cause I'm not sure she's able to start seeing me as an adult #and start loosening her grip around me and let me breathe. to have my own experiences without her by my side #to be able to go places and imagine a future without her constantly by my side #she talks and it's like she doesn't even think to wonder that perhaps I want to form my own experiences #and experience the world on my own terms because I feel like I've spent my whole life having so little damn control #religious family. shit and neglectful father who turned into the exact opposite and nearly killed me. family who refuses to listen and talk #having to move and run immediately. put survival above all else. go to school. get out. and god I just wanna breathe #she loves me so much and I love her too. but I feel like I'll be sooner crushed if I stick here for long enough #I'm just mad that my life has been nothing but absolutely no love. sudden waves of intense love. absolutely nothing. sudden spike #and I feel like I'm just finally starting to form good. healthy relationships on my own terms and actually make friends #because I had no idea what I was doing when I was a kid cause I was so fucking lonely and hurting #now I just. gotta figure out how to tell my mom that I can't carry this expectation that I'll continue to stay forever by her side #it just feels like I'm her child first and a person second. and it sucks. it really sucks.#ough. spins and spins and spins and spins-

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thesundanceghost · 6 months

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why can't people just like. not ghost.

#it was casual from the start but like. spending a night with someone and leaving on good terms and then just.#nothing.#it so makes me feel like i did something wrong all of a sudden #god i cant even have CASUAL relationships???#im honestly so tired of all of it but at the same time... im really fucking lonely #and it just leaves me feeling like theres something wrong with me even though i dont logically think there is #im just so tired of feeling like this.#and i wish i didnt care but i do and im sick of having to deal with it #and so whatever its not that big of a deal but i have to start all over again now

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echolett · 2 years

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also when scary let willy in like That scene I painted was crazy

Like?? He gets let out, All beat up and shit and runs to the party, No words spoken between them as Willy looks at Scary, then to Tony, them back to scary. He asked, She, knowing what his question was, Answered. No hesitation between the answers and the action.

Such a good fucking scene. And its gonna hurt if Willy ends up using Scary

#dndads #dndads s2 #dndads spoilers #scary marlowe #willy stampler #I like.#I like them alot #I dont believe Willy has changed but the time he spent in the void car Might have. left him deprived of the only think Ron could give him.#Ron gave willy so much love and Willy didnt care because that love constantly available #But Ron stepped up #and Willy's contant source of unrequited Love from his son was gone #Leaving him in the void with him and his lonely little thoughts on hoe to kill the doodler #When all of a sudden he feels a pull. a connection to someone so similar to him in many ways and he feeds it #unlike what he did with Ron Willy allows bond to contuine and nutures it #for his own needs? Or because he needs it after being alone for do long #Anyways

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delicatetaysversion · 9 months

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i don't know what im doing with my life

#im going thru it so fast keeping myself hyper busy so i don't have to be alone with my feelings for a minute #but it's weekend now and im alone with my thoughts again #i feel so empty and lonely all of a sudden 😭 i hate being like this this isn't me #i wasn't able to make any new friends for like starting ke 9 months in 11th std bc new town everyone was too different #and i was totally fine with it kabhi fark nahi pada #but now.

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sufranstevens · 1 year

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que hoy ni se le ocurra a la vieja del orto del subte tratarme mal como la semana pasada porque puedo llegar a hacerle mucho daño (llorar)

#m #i feel so anguished and lonely all the sudden. fun!

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pearl-blue-musings · 1 year

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Why is it my favorites can’t even bring me out of this funk?? Like I’m trying to think of scenarios and shit to try and comfort myself but nothing is working???

#elle stop talking #where’s kaveh and alhaitham and Shinsou and Tsukishima comfort???#why isn’t it working???#like I’m feeling extremely lonely all of a sudden #and physical touch is my love language #and I need to be held so badly #imagining it isn’t helping it’s making me feel worse #why doesn’t anyone love me irl???#where’s my real life anime husband to hold me and wipe my tears???

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diari0deglierrori · 11 months

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“Why have I had a headache that doesn’t go away all day?” *remembers* oh

#not even 30 yet and I’m starting to get hungover like that #I know it was stupid and all but I was bored and alone and lonely and needed to feel things so what had to happen happened #maybe it’s just that one that I can’t take too much other things don’t have that effect #I can take them well #and also it was useless because it wasn’t even the good kind of tipsy #just made me sleepy all of a sudden

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veshialles · 1 year

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nvm i understand fuck all actually

#this comedown is hitting really hard and I feel hopeless like I'm not gonna figure anything out I'm gonna lose everything #I just want to isolate myself for a hundred years #I feel so alone all of the sudden..... even though I literally woke up next to my gf and her gf this morning #not even a full day. but today's felt like a hundred years long......#ugh I guess that's why all the guides online say 'don't do shrroms unless you know in a very good space mentally and physically'#i should have listened this sucks I haven't felt so depressed and lonely in years wtf

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01themagician · 1 year

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-- 4. When was the last time you had a life-changing revelation? What revelation did you have?

-- had a combo of really rough moments a few weeks ago and thought it would end in a total disaster, but it turned out fine. i stressed a lot and beat myself up over it--because the problems were a result of my own procrastination tbh--and in the eventual happy ending, the revelation i got was "i should be more responsible BUT ALSO keep calm/dont sit there stressing out & doing nothing if i do have a problem & just do my best to fix it". so really just a longer version of the Law of Holes i guess LOL.

-- today, I am looking forward to hanging out with my friends! and also enjoying some RAIN + cooler weather, finally:) -- today, I choose to think about the near future, responsibility style! -- today, my goals are to analyze & consider my spending habits... and also talk to my friends about some worries ive got re: how much time we could spend together before uni starts and eats up all of my spare time.

-- ♪ the bravery -- bad sun ♪

#01 my post #05 challenge #maybe ill get to watch a couple of episodes of house on the train... thatd be nice! id finish season 6 today!#and re: time w friends UGH yesterday my bestie told me they r planning to have a trip like. RIGHT before my uni starts. for like 10 days #and i was so apalled like... theyre the one who was the most bummed about me having little time to socialize come school year #and now theyre cutting those 'our' days by a good third!! i get that family trips could be hard to timemanage but come on!!#theyre also gonna miss my fucking bday (!?) if their current plans go through like... its all so sudden and dissapointing:(#and to top it off they + another friend were hanging out together yesterday w/o me due to some other sudden plans #i just feel so lonely because of all that. not something i usually have an issue with but all the things came in such a combo so.

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justcoffeeandbooks · 2 years

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So why is it that inspiration only hits when you're around and it hits even harder, when you aren't around.

So do something, because I'm going crazy and once those words are on that paper, they'll be there forever until you crumble it and throw it away.

But will you do that?

And I know the answer to it already but maybe somewhere the heart just wants what it wants.

Or maybe, in another world, you won't give me a chance to write those words and my heart won't go on a rampage or I won't try to pull you when all you did is push me away.

I really hope you go away, I really hope you don't.

But why did you choose to show up all of a sudden when I wanted to be gone.

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bunnihearted · 2 years

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#also i made a mistake #i shouldnt have messaged him #i should've just not have done it #that would've saved me from all of this inner turmoil #im kinda mad at myself for being ugly. it always ruin everything for me #ruins** everything #but also im irritated with him bc we've talked for a week now he says i need to send a pic ㅠㅠ #like we live in two different countries and have two completely different lives #it's not like we could have smth irl all of a sudden??#why cant it just be a nice fun online messaging thing?#and like this shows that he wasnt as nice as i thought he was bc he was kinda rude and didnt care at all when i said it was uncomfortable #and yet.... i feel bad for wasting his time. but also in general unpleasant convos make me feel very very bad so idk #anyway i have no idea why this bothers me sooooo much. why do i even care? prov bc im so lonely and have no life lmao #but yeah i wish i hadnt messaged him. i thought it would just be a short convo not this ㅠㅠ #bc i cannot send a pic and get rejected. i cannot handle that. and i KNOW it will happen bc.. i have seen me #fuqqqq stop caring abt !!!

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sweetoxic-cas · 2 years

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#hi i think im like over thinking and stuff so like i am here instead of on my main cause like the cat image gave me like too many followers #but like i think that i was like too trusting with my guy friends and like even tho a few of them r like super great and i love them so much #im still like :/ huh i really just let them be like weird and stuff and like idk i feel like im always weird in december cause like #one of them like was talking to me so much and i was like super happy and stuff cause like im kinda a lonely person so i was like !!!#but then it kinda got more uh close and i was like uhhhh ok ig and then all of a sudden he like ghosted me #and im not gonna go into detail cause like its not really a big thing but like i just think im soooo gullible and naive all the time #cause like i know stuff but im just like oh whatever! and then im right about someone and its like brooooo come onnnn >:P #but like also one of my irl friends follows me on my main so i dont want them to see that im still thinking about this cause no im not :)

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