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glorifiedagents · 3 days ago
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Paid to be Ruined — agatha harkness
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"YOU LISTENED." Agatha’s voice was velvet and steel, laced with amusement and unmistakable hunger. Her gaze dragged over you — slow, knowing, lingering on the bare skin of your thighs peeking from beneath your coat. She took a step closer, fingers brushing the belt at your waist, her smirk deepening as she tugged — just enough to loosen it. "Good girl."
SUMMARY: agatha hires you for the night again - and you know for a fact that she's gonna ruin you PAIRING: g!p agatha harkness & escort!fem!reader CAUTION: swallowing cum, creampie, deepthroat, size kink, stomach bulge, spit, dom!sub!dynamics, overstimulation, escort!reader, g!p agatha, degradation and slight aftercare from agatha WORD COUNT: 5.1K AUTHOR'S NOTE: not proof read, let me know if i made mistakes! currently going through my agatha phase - literally need fucking help
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You weren’t new to this.
The job, the money, the whole give them what they want, take what you need, and walk away thing. You had it down to a science. You knew how to read people, how to figure out exactly what they were looking for and play the part they wanted. It was easy. Simple. No emotions, no attachments, no mess.
But then there was her.
Agatha Harkness had been different from the start. The first time she hired you, you had expected the usual, maybe a drink, some small talk, a client who wanted to pretend there was more to this than just an exchange. But Agatha? She didn’t do small talk. She didn’t waste time.
She had taken one look at you, studied you with those dark, unreadable eyes, and smirked like she already knew exactly how the night would go. Like she had already decided how far she was going to push you. And the worst part?
She was right.
That night, she had left you wrecked. Not just satisfied — ruined.
You had walked away with sore thighs, a raw throat, and a pay-check big enough to make your head spin. You should have left it at that. Should have chalked it up to just one really good night with a really dangerous woman.
But then she called again. No discussion. No questions. Just a time, a room number, and the unspoken expectation that you would show up.
And against your better judgment, you did.
Only this time, you weren’t just going to show up. This time, you wanted to see just how much further she could break you.
You remembered something she had said the first time around, almost offhand but still deliberate in that way she did everything.
"Red suits you."
So you wore red.
Your best set — delicate lace, thin straps, garters and thigh-high stockings that made you feel like sin itself. And as the elevator carried you up to the top floor, heart pounding, pulse racing, you knew one thing for sure.
You weren’t just getting paid tonight.
You were getting owned.
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The black car idled outside the grand hotel, its sleek design gleaming beneath the golden glow of the streetlights. You sat in the back seat, smoothing your hands over your thighs, nerves buzzing beneath your skin. The fabric of your long coat was soft, but it did nothing to still the pounding of your heart.
The driver hadn’t spoken much since picking you up from your apartment — just a clipped greeting and a quiet confirmation of the address before pulling away from the curb. You were grateful. Any attempt at conversation would have been wasted on you. Your mind was too preoccupied, too restless, too consumed by what awaited you on the top floor of this building.
Your breath hitched as you stepped out of the car, heels clicking softly against the pavement. The grand entrance of the hotel loomed ahead, its revolving doors ushering guests in and out with quiet efficiency. The warm air inside wrapped around you as you stepped through, a stark contrast to the crisp night air outside.
The lobby was a sight of wealth — high ceilings, polished marble floors, chandeliers dripping with crystal. The hum of quiet conversation surrounded you, but none of it registered. You walked with purpose, straight to the bank of elevators tucked near the back of the lobby.
Agatha’s message had been simple. A room number. A time. Nothing else.
Your fingers toyed with the belt of your coat as you waited for the elevator, a mix of nerves and anticipation coiling low in your stomach. You had dressed for her. The finest red lace and silk clung to your curves beneath your coat, the bra delicate yet daring, framing your breasts perfectly. The matching panties sat low on your hips, sheer enough to leave little to the imagination. Garters held up sheer thigh-high stockings, adding an extra layer of tease.
She would appreciate the effort. And then she would ruin it.
The elevator doors slid open with a soft chime, and you stepped inside, pressing the button for the top floor. The space was empty save for you, the only sound the soft hum of the elevator rising.
Your pulse quickened. You could already imagine the way she would look at you. The weight of her gaze, dark and knowing, as she took in every inch of you. The way she liked to test your limits, the way she devoured, possessed. She was dangerous in the most intoxicating way, and you had walked straight into her grasp.
Another chime. The doors opened.
The hallway was quiet, lined with plush carpeting that softened the sound of your steps. Each step forward sent another jolt of anticipation through you, every breath felt heavier. The door number burned in your mind.
And then, you were there.
Before you could knock, the door swung open.
Agatha stood in the doorway, bathed in the soft glow of the suite’s lighting. Her dark button-up was partially undone, sleeves rolled up to her forearms, revealing toned, elegant wrists. She looked effortless, but you knew better. Everything about her was intentional.
The moment the door clicked shut behind you, Agatha wasted no time. She had you pinned before you could take another breath, her strong hands pressing you back against the door, her body a solid wall of heat against yours. Her mouth crashed onto yours—hungry, claiming, her teeth scraping against your lower lip before she bit down just hard enough to make you gasp. She swallowed the sound with a satisfied hum, her tongue slipping past your lips as she deepened the kiss, rough yet tantalizingly slow, like she had all the time in the world to ruin you.
Her fingers trailed from your wrists, still trapped against the wood, down the length of your arms, her touch featherlight—teasing. By the time she reached your shoulders, she slid her fingers beneath the delicate straps of your red lace bra, pulling them down achingly slow, her mouth never leaving yours until she finally ripped herself away.
"Look at you," she murmured, stepping back just enough to take in the sight of you, her dark eyes raking over your body like she was devouring you whole. "Dressed up like a good little whore, just for me."
Heat flared through your body at the way she said it, dripping with amusement but edged with something dangerous, something that made your pulse stutter in your throat.
You barely had a second to react before she was on you again—her mouth hot against the curve of your jaw, trailing wet, open-mouthed kisses down your throat. Her hands were everywhere at once—sliding down your arms, gripping your hips, owning every inch of you as she backed you up toward the bed. You whimpered when she took one of your nipples into her mouth, sucking hard, her tongue circling the sensitive peak before her teeth grazed it just enough to make you jerk in her grasp.
"Mm, so fucking sensitive," she mused against your skin before switching to the other, her free hand rolling the abandoned nipple between her fingers. Your hips bucked reflexively against her, needing more, desperate for friction.
And fuck, you felt it. The thick, hard length of her cock pressing against your stomach through her slacks, the outline making your mouth water as you squirmed beneath her.
"Pathetic," Agatha laughed, the sound low and mocking, her fingers trailing down your stomach, stopping just at the waistband of your panties. She could feel how wet they were, her smirk widening as she pressed her fingers against the soaked lace, applying just enough pressure to make you moan. "This soaked already? And I haven't even touched you properly. Such a desperate little thing."
"Agatha, please—"
A sharp slap to your thigh cut you off, the sting making you whimper as your skin burned beneath her palm.
"Did I say you could fucking beg?" she growled, her tone dark, commanding. "You're so needy it’s pathetic. You don’t deserve my cock yet."
You let out a choked sound of frustration, your body aching for more, but she just smirked, dragging her fingers up the inside of your thigh, making you tremble.
Then, without warning, she dropped to her knees.
You gasped at the sudden shift, your breath hitching as she pressed a kiss to your hip, her mouth lingering over the thin straps of your panties. She breathed you in, her nose nudging against the damp lace before she let out a low, satisfied hum.
"Fucking filthy," she murmured, dragging her tongue over the wet fabric, slow and deliberate, tasting you through it. The friction was exquisite—a teasing, maddening pressure that made your thighs shake. She licked a second time, the heat of her mouth soaking through, her fingers digging into your hips as she held you still.
You whimpered, your hands gripping the sheets behind you as your hips jerked up, chasing her mouth. But she pulled away just enough to deny you.
"Patience," she scolded, voice thick with amusement, before reaching up and undoing the garter straps excruciatingly slow, watching your face the entire time.
And then—fuck.
She hooked her fingers into the waistband and pulled your panties down, dragging them down your legs inch by inch, her lips brushing along your thighs as she went. And then, instead of tossing them aside—
She brought them to her mouth.
Your breath caught as she slid the drenched fabric between her teeth, her dark eyes locked onto yours as she pulled them taut, letting them drag over her tongue. She moaned like she was savoring the taste, her smirk never fading as she finally removed them—only to shove them into your mouth.
"Since you can't seem to stop moaning like a desperate slut," she taunted, her fingers trailing down your exposed cunt. "Now you can keep quiet."
You whimpered against the soaked lace in your mouth as she finally pressed two fingers between your folds, spreading you open. She groaned at how wet you were, her thumb finding your clit and rubbing in slow, devastating circles.
"Fuck, look at this mess," she muttered, her fingers teasing your entrance, just barely pushing in before pulling away. "So fucking needy for me. Do you even have a single ounce of dignity left?"
You tried to respond, but your voice was muffled by the panties in your mouth.
Agatha laughed. "That’s what I thought."
And then, without warning, she thrust two fingers inside of you.
Your entire body arched off the bed, a muffled scream escaping past the gag as she filled you all at once, stretching you open with zero hesitation. She set a relentless pace immediately, her fingers driving into you with obscene, wet sounds that only seemed to fuel her amusement.
"Listen to you," she groaned, her free hand palming her cock through her slacks. "Taking my fingers so fucking well. You were made to be used like this."
Her thumb pressed against your clit, circling in time with the thrusts, sending sharp jolts of pleasure racing through your core. The pressure was unbearable, the pleasure so intense that your legs started shaking.
"You're gonna come already, aren’t you?" she mocked, watching you struggle. "Go on. Make a mess."
And then—fuck, fuck, fuck.
She angled her fingers just right, curling them against that perfect spot inside of you while pressing harder against your clit. Your entire body locked up before pleasure exploded through you, a sharp, overwhelming rush that had you squirting all over her fingers, your release dripping down your thighs as you writhed beneath her.
Agatha groaned as she watched you come undone, fucking you through it, her pace unrelenting as she worked you through every wave. "That's it. So fucking messy for me."
When she finally pulled her fingers out, they were dripping. She brought them to her lips, eyes locked onto yours as she sucked them clean, humming at the taste.
Then she stood, undoing her slacks, letting them pool at her feet.
Your breath caught at the sight of her thick, hard cock springing free, the tip glistening. You reached for it immediately, but she caught your wrist, pinning it back against the mattress with a warning glare.
"You don’t get to touch until I say so," she growled, leaning over you, pressing the heavy length against your overstimulated clit, making you whimper. "And you will take every fucking inch."
And fuck, you knew she meant it.
Every single word.
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Agatha’s cock drags against your slick folds, teasing, the head catching on your clit with every slow, deliberate stroke. The obscene, wet sounds fill the room, mixing with your breathy whimpers and the low, guttural hum of amusement from her lips. She’s playing with you, watching the way you tremble beneath her, the way your thighs try to clamp together, only to be forced apart by her strong grip.
"Spit." The command is sharp, leaving no room for hesitation.
Your lips part instantly, tongue pushing forward as a warm strand of saliva drips onto her waiting fingers. She smears it over her cock, mixing it with the slick beads of pre-cum already glistening at the tip. A slow, shuddering breath leaves her as she fists herself, pumping with languid strokes, eyes heavy-lidded as she watches you. A few stray drops spill onto your stomach, smearing across your skin, and marking you.
She lines herself up again, pressing the swollen tip against your entrance but not pushing in. Instead, she leans in close, mouth ghosting over yours, her breath hot and teasing.
"You want it?" she murmurs, smirking as she rubs herself against you, teasing, taunting. "Say it. Beg for it."
"Please," you gasp, fingers digging into the sheets. "Please, Agatha, I need—"
The words cut off in a sharp cry as she thrusts into you in one smooth motion, burying herself to the hilt. The stretch is instant, overwhelming — your walls clenching desperately around her thick cock as she fills you completely.
But she doesn’t give you time to adjust.
She sets a ruthless pace from the start, each powerful thrust driving deep, punching the air from your lungs as she claims you. The slap of skin on skin echoes through the room, the mattress creaking beneath the force of her movements. Your back arches, head falling back against the pillows as wave after wave of pleasure crashes through you.
"Feel that?" she growls, grabbing your wrist and guiding your hand down to your stomach. She presses your palm flat against your lower abdomen, right where she’s buried so deep inside you. "Feel me stretching you out? Fucking you open?"
The sensation is dizzying — you can feel the thick, hard outline of her cock through your own skin, feel the way she moves inside you, relentless and unyielding. Your body is burning, electric, the pressure coiling tight in your core with every brutal thrust.
"You’re squeezing me so fucking tight," Agatha groans, her fingers bruising against your hips as she fucks into you harder, deeper. "Like your body's desperate to milk me dry."
The words send a violent shudder through you, the pleasure teetering on the edge of something devastating.
"That’s it," she pants, her grip tightening as she slams into you harder. "Come for me, you filthy little thing — fucking soak me."
It’s too much. The overwhelming fullness, the sharp slap of her hips against yours, the way her cock presses against that perfect spot inside you — it sends you spiralling. Your body seizes, the orgasm ripping through you like a lightning strike, white-hot and all-consuming.
Fuck.
A strangled cry breaks from your lips as the pleasure turns into something explosive — your walls clenching down in rhythmic, desperate spasms, forcing liquid heat to gush from you, soaking Agatha’s cock, your thighs, and the sheets beneath you. The release is violent, messy, your body shuddering uncontrollably as the pleasure crashes over you in waves, each one dragging you under deeper.
Agatha curses under her breath, watching as you fall apart, watching the way you soak her cock, your slick dripping down onto her thighs. Her movements grow erratic, her breath ragged as she slams into you one final time, burying herself to the hilt as her own pleasure overtakes her.
A deep, guttural groan rumbles from her chest as she comes, filling you with heat. You can feel it — the thick warmth spilling deep inside, coating your insides. As if it was seeping into every inch of you. She doesn’t pull out, just grinds against you, making sure every drop stays buried within you.
Your body is still trembling, aftershocks pulsing through your core, your skin flushed and feverish. Agatha finally collapses against you, her cock still inside, pressing a searing kiss to your jaw, her breath still ragged as she murmurs against your ear:
"Mine."
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Agatha pulls out slowly, deliberately, watching with dark, predatory eyes as your walls clench around nothing, your body still trembling from the force of your release. A satisfied smirk curls at the corner of her lips as she watches the thick spill of her cum start to leak out of you, glistening as it drips onto your thighs.
"Messy little thing," she muses, voice dripping with amusement and something darker, something possessive. Her fingers trail down your stomach, teasing over the sensitive, overstimulated skin before she presses two fingers against your entrance, spreading you open just enough to watch more of her cum seep out.
"Don’t waste it," she commands, and when you hesitate, she grabs your wrist, guiding your hand down. "Use your fingers. Push it back in."
Your breath stutters, but you do as you're told, your own fingers gathering the warmth of her release, feeling it slick and sticky against your skin before pressing it back inside, your walls fluttering around the intrusion. The act is filthy and it makes you burn with humiliation and arousal all at once.
Agatha hums approvingly, dragging her thumb over your bottom lip, her smirk widening. "That’s a good girl."
But she isn’t done with you.
"On your knees."
Your body obeys before your mind fully catches up, slipping off the bed and sinking onto the floor. The shift makes more of her spend trickle down your thighs, and Agatha notices; her gaze flicking down, her smirk deepening.
"Open your mouth," she orders, tilting your chin up with two fingers.
The second your lips part, she grips the base of her cock and taps the heavy length against your tongue. She’s still hard, impossibly thick, coated in a mix of your slick and her own release. The taste is intoxicating — salty and musky. The scent clings to her skin, warm and heady, something rich and masculine with the faintest hint of sweat.
You could get used to this.
Agatha doesn’t ease you into it. She grips the back of your head and pushes forward, the thick head stretching your lips wide as she sinks deep, pressing against your tongue. The intrusion makes your throat tighten, and she groans at the feeling, her other hand coming to rest heavy on the back of your neck.
"That’s it. Take it," she growls, rolling her hips forward, pushing deeper until your nose nearly brushes the coarse, dark hair at the base of her cock. There’s just enough of it for you to feel against your skin, soft yet undeniably masculine, a reminder of how utterly she’s claiming you.
Your fingers twitch at your sides before you reach up, cupping her balls — heavy, full, sensitive under your touch. You can feel the heat of them against your palm, the weight of them tightening slightly as she thrusts into your mouth.
"Look at you," Agatha sneers, pulling back just enough to let you gasp for air before she thrusts forward again, setting a punishing rhythm. "Nothing but a desperate little cock-sleeve for me, aren’t you? So fucking needy, drooling all over yourself just to have me in your mouth."
Your throat constricts around her, tears prickling at the corners of your eyes, saliva pooling and spilling from the corners of your lips. Your body shudders, caught between humiliation and arousal, between submission and the raw pleasure of being used like this.
"Messy, pathetic thing," she continues, her voice sharper now, laced with satisfaction. "You love this, don’t you? Love being on your knees for me, choking on my cock like the filthy little slut you are."
Her words send a fresh pulse of heat between your thighs, and she notices the slight tremor in your body, the way your nails dig into her thighs as if trying to ground yourself.
"You’re getting off on this," she chuckles darkly, shoving deeper, holding you there for a moment as your throat spasms around her. "Of course you are. You’d let me ruin you, wouldn’t you?"
She groans as she pulls back, letting you breathe just for a second before thrusting forward again, deeper, harder, until you’re gasping around her, tears streaking down your cheeks. And still, you don’t pull away. You take it.
Just like she knew you would.
Agatha’s grip tightens at the back of your head, fingers tangled in your hair as she thrusts deeper, groaning low and guttural as she feels herself teetering on the edge. You can feel the way her cock pulses on your tongue, the way her breath stutters, her rhythm faltering just slightly as she chases that final burst of pleasure.
"Fuck—" she growls, her hips snapping forward one last time, holding you down as her release spills down your throat. The taste is thick, warm, — salty and rich, coating your tongue in waves. She doesn’t let you pull away, making sure you take as much as you can, but it’s too much — some of it dribbles from the corners of your lips, spilling down your chin in hot, sticky trails.
She watches with dark, satisfied eyes as you gasp for breath when she finally pulls back, her cock glistening with spit and the remnants of her orgasm.
"Messy little thing," she murmurs again, thumb swiping at the cum dripping from your chin before pressing it against your lips. "Swallow every last drop."
Your throat bobs as you obey, the act making her smirk in satisfaction.
Then, without warning, she grabs you and pulls you up onto shaky legs, her lips crashing onto yours in a bruising kiss. The taste of her own release lingers between you, and she doesn’t shy away from it —if anything, she deepens the kiss, claiming your mouth with a dominance that makes your knees weak.
She moves you easily, pushing you back onto the bed, her body covering yours, heavy with heat and lingering hunger. Her cock, still hard, presses against your stomach, smearing the last of her release against your skin. You’re panting, dazed, body still trembling from the relentless pleasure she’s wrung from you, but when she starts to pull away, you catch her wrist, eyes glassy with need.
"I wanna ride you," you gasp, the words tumbling out breathlessly, your body aching but desperate for more.
Agatha chuckles, low and smug, dragging her fingers down your chest, teasing over your already-sensitive skin. "You think you can handle that?" she taunts, tracing slow circles over your overstimulated clit, making your thighs twitch. "You’re still shaking, baby. After everything I’ve done to you, you really think you can take control?"
The challenge sends another shiver down your spine, your breath hitching as you push up onto shaky arms. "Let me try," you whisper, lips brushing against hers, your voice filled with determination despite the exhaustion in your limbs.
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Agatha leans back against the pillows, her body stretched out beneath you, radiating heat and authority even in repose. Her cock, still thick and glistening with a mix of your slick and her own release, stands hard between her legs, a silent challenge. The way she watches you; head tilted, lips curled in a knowing smirk; makes your pulse spike, a flush crawling up your chest.
"Go on then," she murmurs, voice laced with amusement, fingers idly trailing up her stomach. "Show me what you can do, baby."
Your thighs tremble as you shift forward, crawling into position, your body still aching from the relentless way she’s used you but the hunger still simmers beneath the exhaustion, pulsing low in your belly. You want this. Need this. Need to take her in deep, to feel every inch stretch you open again.
You straddle her lap, your hands braced against her stomach, feeling the taut muscles flex beneath your palms as you hover just above her length. The heat of her cock brushes against your swollen folds, sending a fresh shudder through you. She feels like fire against your skin. Thick and rigid, pulsing with need, the tip teasing against your entrance as you roll your hips ever so slightly, coating her in your arousal.
Agatha hums in approval, her hands gliding up your thighs, slow and possessive. "Look at you," she murmurs, her thumbs pressing into the sensitive skin where your legs meet your hips. "So desperate to have me inside you again. Can’t get enough, can you?"
You bite your lip, but she catches your chin between her fingers, forcing your gaze to meet hers. "Say it."
Your breath stutters, your body burning from the inside out as you whisper, "I can’t get enough of you."
Her smirk deepens. "Good girl."
She releases you just as you sink down, your breath catching in your throat as the thick head of her cock pushes past your entrance, stretching you inch by inch. The burn is instant—blissful, overwhelming, your walls struggling to take her all at once.
Agatha groans beneath you, her fingers digging into your thighs. "Fuck, you’re tight," she rasps, watching with hooded eyes as you slowly lower yourself onto her, taking her deeper, letting the length of her disappear inside you.
Your head falls back as you bottom out, her cock nestled impossibly deep, pressing against every nerve inside you. The sensation is devastating, a perfect mix of pleasure and pressure, and you tremble above her, nails scraping against her abdomen as you struggle to catch your breath.
"Feel that?" Agatha murmurs, her voice smug as she presses a hand against your lower stomach, right where she’s buried to the hilt. "So deep I can feel myself inside you again. Fuck baby."
You whimper, rolling your hips experimentally, the movement sending sharp waves of pleasure through you. The drag of her cock against your walls is slow and torturous, every inch brushing against that spot inside you that makes your vision blur.
Agatha watches you struggle to find a rhythm, her grip tightening. "Come on, baby," she taunts, giving your thigh a sharp slap that makes you jolt. "You wanted to ride me. Show me how much you need it."
A determined fire flares in your chest, and you plant your hands against her shoulders, lifting yourself just enough before sinking back down, harder this time. The impact sends a delicious jolt through you, pleasure sparking at the base of your spine.
Agatha groans, her hands sliding up to your chest, palms covering your breasts, squeezing as she rolls your sensitive nipples between her fingers. The sensation makes you gasp, the mix of pleasure and pain sending a fresh wave of arousal pooling between your thighs.
"That’s it," she murmurs, her grip firm but teasing, playing with your body as she lets you work yourself on her cock. "Such pretty tits, bouncing every time you take me. Keep going, baby. Make yourself cum on me."
The words send a rush of heat through you, your movements growing desperate, erratic, your nails digging into her skin as you chase the high she’s leading you toward. The pleasure coils deep in your belly, unbearably tight, and when Agatha tweaks your nipple just right, rolling it between her fingers, it snaps.
A strangled cry rips from your throat as your climax crashes over you, your entire body shaking as pleasure consumes you. Your walls clench down around her, pulsing, milking her cock with every wave of your release.
Agatha groans, her thrusts turning erratic as she follows, burying herself deep inside you with one final snap of her hips. The warmth of her release floods your core, thick and hot, filling you completely as her grip tightens around you.
Then, with a smirk, Agatha leans in, nipping at your jaw but this time, her touch is softer. As you collapse onto her chest, spent and trembling, she strokes a hand down your back, her other hand massaging the sore muscles of your thighs.
"You did so well for me," she murmurs, pressing lazy kisses against your shoulder. "My good girl."
You hum, barely able to keep your eyes open as her hands knead away the ache, working out the tension she put into you. The warmth of her touch soothes the lingering sting of overstimulation, and for a moment, you think about letting yourself drift off.
But you don’t. You can’t.
The rules are the rules. Your rules.
With effort, you shift, slipping from her grasp, your limbs still shaky as you slide out of bed. Agatha watches as you stand, stretching despite the soreness in your legs, and move toward where your clothes are strewn across the floor.
"You’re not gonna shower?" she asks, her tone casual but curious as she props herself up on an elbow, watching you with sharp eyes.
You shake your head, pulling your clothes back on with practiced efficiency. "I’ll do it at home."
Agatha doesn’t say anything for a moment, just studies you as you gather your things. Then, without breaking eye contact, she reaches for the bedside table, grabs the check she had prepared, and hands it to you.
"You know…" she starts, voice slower now, something unreadable beneath the surface. "You can stay the night."
The offer lingers in the air between you, heavier than it should be.
But the rules are the rules.
You take the check, meeting her gaze one last time before slipping out the door.
And Agatha watches you go.
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hannahbarberra162 · 3 days ago
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Pipe Dreams (Yan Childhood Friend Sabo x Reader)
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I got this as an ask so long ago and lost it but I do have a screenshot of it. Here's the prompt:
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This is not entirely what you asked for Nonnie but I hope it scratches your itch. It's a little light on the Yan but I hope you can see where it's going :3
On Ao3
TW: abusive husband mentioned (not Sabo ofc)
WC: ~4.5k
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“Hurry!” you yelled at the servants rushing down the hall to the small steel doors at the back of the large hall. You were trying to move them as quickly as you could before the Revolutionary Army found them and conscripted them to service - or worse. You had a crying child in your arms as you ran towards the doors, the mother carrying the younger sibling towards the safety of the escape hatch. There was no doubt in your mind that you needed all the servants behind the impenetrable doors in the bunker. They’d be safe in there and if they needed to, they could take the tunnel to the cove where you kept a ship in case of such emergencies.
Your husband didn’t know about these contingency plans, of course. He would tell you that spending money on servants was a waste and that they could fend for themselves should any kind of crisis arise. But you couldn’t reconcile that idea with the people who took care of you and your estate every single day. They were people with emotions, feelings, families, just like you. Not that you said any of this to your husband, he would have beat you for such outlandish ideas. 
No, you just waited until he was drunk and raided his vault of Beri and jewels. Since that happened every day he was at the estate, you were able to amass quite a bit of money for renovations in case of attack. He was also often absent from the estate, off with other nobles drinking, gambling, and whoring. You didn’t mind that he sought out other women, it kept him from bothering you. In fact, you strongly preferred when he was gone, the air on the estate was much less tense than when he was present. 
Since you’d become a noble’s wife, you’d heard endless tales of what happened to those islands unfortunate enough to have their estates ransacked by pirates or the Revolutionary Army. The nobles always focused on the looting of riches, the burning of the estates and the loss of property but you found the fortune of the servants to be the most horrific of all. Your husband had told you that noble servants were taken as front line cannon fodder by the Revolutionary Army whereas pirates would sell them directly into the slave trade. It was said that noble women would be taken as concubines for Commanders in the best of cases or whores for the army if they were too mouthy. When you had first taken up the mantle of being in charge of your husband’s estate in his absence you decided that protecting those who depended on you would be your primary goal and no one would come to harm while working under your supervision.
Even though you were born of a noble family yourself, you never felt like you fit in with noble society, even as a child. Maybe it had something to do with being the fourth daughter born to your parents. By the time you were born they already had three perfect noble daughters to marry off later in life. You were brash, wild, and difficult to control unlike your golden sisters. Your parents were also much older when they had you, there was a considerable gap between you and your next sister. All in all, that meant you were often left to your own devices as a child, allowed to roam free in the Goa Kingdom. You’d had the time of your life until your parents married you off - too young in your opinion - and your childhood had come to an abrupt end. 
As you learned via your husband’s vicious fist to acclimate yourself to noble society as an adult, you found yourself reflecting on your childhood more and more as the years crept by. You would catch yourself staring at the forest on your lonely island, wondering how your childhood friends were doing, if they were well. When you did have the rare chance to leave your island estate, you quickly learned to keep your prior adventures to yourself. The women turned up their noses to you and the men found you crude and distasteful. 
Even though you’d felt stifled by the snobby and suffocating noble society, you hadn’t spent most of your time within the confines of your familial home. You enjoyed sneaking out of your parent’s estate and playing all day long in the woods, coming home only when you completely ran out of food or needed some kind of supply. Your parents and governesses had tried various means of locking you in your rooms but they’d never been able to keep you inside, your desire for adventure too strong to be overcome by mere locks.
And those adventures most often included your friends Ace, Luffy, and Sabo. You’d met the brothers one day when you and Ace had both aimed for the same tiger to kill for food, your spear shoved through its skull as Ace’s pipe struck it on the head. You believed it was yours, Ace said it was his, and the two of you were wrestling in the dirt with Luffy cheering Ace on in the background. Sabo had intervened in the fight, breaking it up by forcing the two of you apart by nudging you with his lead pipe as you sat on Ace’s chest, punching him.
“Wait, Ace. What’s going on here? This girl’s a noble, she’ll be nothing but trouble,” the blonde boy asked, looking you up and down suspiciously. You spat blood on the ground and crossed your arms. How did he figure it out? Sure, you were wearing a dress but a lot of girls did, that wasn’t enough to have him mark you as a noble.
“So’re you, doesn’t mean anything,” you countered, annoyed that he’d stopped the fight while you had the upper hand.
“Am not! These are my brothers,” he huffed, pointing to the other two boys. They were obviously not blood brothers, the blonde so different looking than his siblings.
“Are too! Look at your stupid hat and cravat. You’re definitely a noble,” you teased, sticking out your tongue. You were a head taller than either of the two older boys and guessed you were a few years older. Still, being a petulant brat was more fun than taking the higher ground any day.
“Well, that string of expensive beads around your neck shows that you’re one too!” the blonde said, sticking his tongue back out at you. The other two brunette boys were now just watching the exchange, though the older of the two was gripping his own lead pipe now and frowning at you. Looking down, you realized you were still wearing the stupid jewelry that your mother had forced on you earlier that day. Shrugging, you reached behind your neck and unclasped the necklace to pool it in your palm. Extending it to the oldest dark haired boy, you offered it to him.
“Want this?” you asked, genuinely disinterested in the fate of the necklace. The boy eyed it warily. He was scuffed and bleeding from your earlier fight but didn’t pay much attention to his wounds.
“It looks like Dadan’s!” the smaller boy said excitedly, reaching for the necklace. His older brother narrowed his eyes and smacked the boy’s hand away from your own. 
“ ‘M Ace. Gimme this and you can have the tiger,” he said, grabbing the necklace quickly. 
“But then what will we eat?” whined the young boy while he rubbed his stomach. Ace shrugged.
“We’re good hunters, we can find something else Luffy. She can have it since she won’t be able to get anything else probably,” Ace derided you with a smirk. You saw red as you grabbed him by the front of his ugly tank top.
“Won’t be able to get anything else probably? What the fuck -”
“Oooh she said a bad word, Sabo’s gonna be mad,” Luffy said with a grin, pointing at you.
“Sabo? Like, Outlook and Didit’s son? I heard you died. That’s what all the adults were whispering about the last time I was home,” you said with confusion, letting go of Ace’s shirt. Coming up to study the blonde’s face, you squinted as you looked him over.
“You seem pretty alive to me. Unless you’re a ghost or something,” you mused, rubbing your chin. 
“Sabo’s a ghost?!?” cried Luffy, clutching his face in horror.
“ ‘M not a ghost, idiot,” Sabo scoffed at Luffy. Turning to you, he sized you up as well. “So they think I’m dead?” he asked curiously. You shrugged, getting your paring knife from your pack.
“Dunno, didn’t stick around too long to listen, I had stuff to do. Got stuff to do now too - if you guys help me skin this thing I’ll share the meat. ‘S too much for me and I don’t like wasting food,” you said offhand. The truth was skinning was your least favorite part of the meat preparation process and you wanted to trick them into doing it for you. 
“I’ll do it!!” Luffy offered, reaching for the knife. His arm extended past what he should have been able to reach, making your eyes widen.
“Uh…is that normal?” you asked, turning to Sabo as you smacked Luffy’s hand away from you. It retracted like a rubber band, snapping back to Luffy. You knew you were a sheltered noble kid but even so you were pretty sure regular people couldn’t turn their arms into rubber. It was Sabo’s turn to shrug as he replied.
“For Luffy it is. Let him do this part, we can start the fire.” 
One tiger meat meal later and you became friends with the three brothers. You spent your days adventuring in the forest with them, hunting and exploring what the world had to offer. They taught you to fight using a lead pipe and in return you taught them some of your fishing techniques. They never made fun of you for being a noble but occasionally teased you for being a girl or being unable to stand up to pee. You didn’t mind though, you could tell it was good natured, unlike when your sisters told you that you were ugly or stupid like a wild animal. You started returning home more frequently to raid the pantry and storage for things the brothers needed or wanted for their tree house. It was harder to sneak out with coils of rope or entire dried hams but it was worth it to sleep in a pile with your friends under the night sky, finally feeling loved and wanted for once in your short life. 
As you spent more time with the brothers, you found yourself gravitating towards Sabo. You shared a lot in common with him and felt the closest connection to him emotionally. You told him about life with your sisters and parents and he shared a little about his own home life. He was funny and cute, and could be sweet when he wanted to be. One night as Ace and Luffy laid in a pile snoring by the fire, you and Sabo were the only two left awake under the stars. The two of you sat side by side in silence and stared into the flames, each of you with your own thoughts.
“Maybe when I get older I could marry you and we could live in the forest. I wouldn’t have to live in a stupid castle or go to boring dinner parties and we could have fun instead,” you said quietly, breaking the silence. Sabo didn’t turn his head or answer for a few moments of silence, making your face flame in embarrassment. You wrapped your arms around your shins, hugging them close, putting your chin on the tops of your knees.
“I was just jok-” you started to say, trying to take it back before he could make fun of you.
“Ok,” Sabo answered, now looking at you. The left side of his face looked like it was covered in flames as the fire light danced over his skin.
“O-ok?” you stuttered in surprise, unwrapping your arms from your shins.
“I don’t plan on going back to my family ever. But if you need to marry someone, I want it to be me,” Sabo said, standing on his knees to put his hands on your shoulders. You mirrored his stance and were now both on your knees with hands on each other's shoulders, looking into each other’s faces.
“Do you promise?” you whispered as Sabo stared at your face.
“I do. But let’s get married now so we don’t have to wait,” Sabo said, nodding his head as if in agreement with himself.
“How do we do that?” you asked, unsure what the process of marriage actually entailed.
“All we have to do is kiss on the lips, that’s what adults do. I read in a book once that a promise borne in flames is a promise forever kept, so we can do it by the fire to make it permanent,” Sabo said, cupping his hands on your cheeks. You nodded, your eyes on his lips. You’d never kissed anything besides your cat’s head before, you weren’t sure what to do but Sabo seemed to know so you let him lead.
He used his hands to pull you closer to his body as his eyes closed. It seemed like the thing to do so you scrunched yours shut as well and leaned in while pushing your lips into a circle. Your pursed lips made contact with his own for a few seconds before he pulled away. It was a little weird feeling, a little slimy, but you felt something right settle over your shoulders as Sabo looked into your eyes again. 
“You don’t have to go back home now or marry anyone else. We’re married,” Sabo said solemnly. You nodded back at him, sitting down on your butt again. Sabo did the same but this time you leaned your head against his shoulder. It was a heady feeling to get married under the stars but shortly thereafter you fell asleep on your new husband as he watched the fire die down. 
Unfortunately, life didn’t remain as idyllic as it was during your time with the ASL brothers. Shortly thereafter, Sabo died in a boating accident, and your parents had you married off to a noble fifteen years your senior a few weeks later. They said that since they couldn’t control you, they found someone who could. Your will to defy his orders eventually diminished as the years went on, your battered and bruised body unable to take continuous abuse. After you were married you weren’t able to keep in contact with Ace and Luffy, stuck by yourself in your isolated island estate. Your only source of information was what your husband told you or the old newspapers he’d leave behind in his office but those were months if not years out of date. You stopped trying to escape after your husband broke your leg after the third attempt and settled into a depressing life as a noble lady, putting your energy into improving the lives of those around you.
Which meant that you had to get everyone through the metal doors before the Revolutionary Army found them. You heard the sounds of fighting and yelling as the guards closest to your hall were engaged by the Army combatants. Although the guards were brave and dutiful, you’d seen the ship the RA had come in on and heard the tales of their strength - your friends would be no match for the revolutionaries. You had begged the guards to join the servants and leave the island but they had refused, preferring to fight the incoming intruders.
“We must hurry! Engage the doors!” you yelled at the elderly men working the metal doors. They began the slow process of sealing the room as servants continued to flood through. You were glad you’d ordered them to start since the fighting sounded like it was right outside the door to the hall. Handing off the child in your arms to one of your maids, you grabbed a lead pipe leaning against one of the cream colored walls and began running towards the entry point to the hall.
“My Lady! You must -” your closest servant Isla called to you as you ran towards the locked entry doors. 
“Get everyone through to safety. Once the last of you are in, do not open the door. Not for any reason - no matter what you hear! Do you understand me?” you yelled at a pale faced Isla.
“Y-yes, milady,” she said as the banging on the door grew louder, the wooden beam across it beginning to bow. Facing the door, you held your pipe in two hands and lowered yourself to ready, just like Ace had taught you all those years ago. You hadn’t fought in a long time but your body retained some of the muscle memory as you crouched down. Although you kept your face hard, you were quaking inside. Whoever was on the other side of the door was incredibly strong, the wood barrier creaking under the strain that they were putting on it. You imagined there would be at least a dozen fighters who would take you right there - or if you were unlucky make an example out of you. 
“Milady, everyone is in, please -” but Isla’s voice was drowned out by the wood beam shattering, sending wood shavings all over the floor and yourself.
“CLOSE THE DOORS ISLA!” you screamed at her, still facing the opponents you couldn’t yet see. If the gate didn’t close, everything you had worked for would be for naught. The telltale sound of the metal door banging shut and the latch locking in place had you exhaling slightly now that all your servants were hidden and safe. The only person who was left was you and you’d come to terms with your own mortality long ago. Squaring your shoulders, you held your pipe out in front of you as you waited for your enemies to approach.
The ornate wooden doors in front of you opened slowly as the locks gave way. Only one person seemed to be emerging from the smoke and carnage beyond the doors. Your hands tightened around your pipe - if there was only one person they were incredibly strong to have defeated all those guards and broke through the doors by themselves. As the man passed into the light, you saw a familiar top hat and cravat. This time though, they weren’t on the body of a child but on a full grown man. 
“S-sabo?” you whispered, half dropping your pipe to the ground. You picked it back up quickly - this was no time for a reunion with a ghost. Sabo was dead and whoever stood in front of you was not your childhood friend but an enemy who came to hurt your people. His eyes opened wider, though one was covered in scar tissue from an old wound.
“C-come no further - there’s nothing for you here!” you yelled, twirling your pipe in your hands. You noticed he held his own lead pipe in his left hand, though his had blood dripping onto your floor. 
“Yes, I saw you left the vaults open before we even breached the walls. Quite a strategy,” the man replied calmly. You stiffened and gripped your pipe so tight your knuckles were white.
“If it's riches you want, they’re all there. The kitchens are open, as are the food stores and stables. Th-there’s nothing else in the estate,” you hissed, watching the man warily. He was walking around you in a narrowing circle, staring at you as though you were a missing piece of a puzzle. You gulped but didn’t run - you didn’t want to lead him to the location of your servants. 
“And your servants? Your slaves?” he asked, now too close for your comfort. You were breathing heavily not from exertion but from fear. You were spinning in place to keep yourself facing him at all times as he walked casually around you, assessing you from head to foot.
“We have no slaves, only servants. They’re safe, away from you,” you hissed as the man drew closer. 
“Did you let them run away? Or did you have them killed in advance?” he asked with genuine curiosity.
“Wh-what? N-no! How could you say such a thing? They’re gone, they’re safe, like I told you!” you said, aghast that someone could think to do such things. The man continued to stare hard at your face. 
“So that I understand, allow me to recapitulate. It is only you, the lady of the estate who remains, while your servants and staff have been ferried to safety? And we are free to take any of your wealth, food, or animals as we please?” he asked, now touching a priceless vase still on a shelf with a gloved hand. Tilting it onto its side with a finger, he watched your face as he tipped it over to the floor, shattering the porcelain. You didn’t bat an eye but kept your sights - and pipe - trained on him.
“Yes, because I know what you’d do to them. You would -”
“Let me guess. You were told they’d be taken to the RA as slaves and sent to the front lines as to die in battle. Maybe that we’d hunt them for sport, taking you as a whore for any RA commander who chose to use you. Does that summarize the matter?” he asked.
“Y-yes. And I won’t let that happen to them. You can take me - I’ll submit myself. But you will not be sacrificing my people for a fight that is not their own,” you said. Stepping over the shattered pieces of vase on the floor, he stopped circling and walked straight towards you. You crouched lower but the man used a single finger to push your pipe down past your chest while you struggled against him.
“That’s not what would happen. We free them. They’re free to leave and start new lives or join the Army if they so choose,” he stated, reaching for you. You flinched out of reflex but quickly adjusted yourself as the man frowned.
“I know what you’re doing,” you stated, no closer to righting your pipe than you were previously.
“Oh? And what would that be?” he asked with a hint of amusement in his tone.
“You’re trying to trick me, have me lower my defenses and tell you where everyone is. It’s not going to happen,” you said, swiping your pipe to the side away from his finger. With it free, you swung it to the side to hit the man across the head but he grabbed it and took the pipe out of your hands as easily as if you were a child, throwing it across the room beyond your reach. 
“It can be difficult to adjust after a lifetime of lies and propaganda,” he said calmly, not making any more movements towards you. “We save people from upper class brutality, not bring them to harm. We don’t even kill the nobles whose houses we raid. We take your money and belongings, free your workers, and leave you to your own devices. I’m sure most of you wish you were dead with no money and no servants, but we try to avoid killing people. Come with me and I’ll show you,” he said, offering his arm like an upper class gentleman would for an evening stroll.
“You’re - you’re trying to confuse me, but it won’t work! That’s why you dressed up like him, I just know it!” you yelled, taking a step backwards. The man’s eyes snapped to your own as he stepped forward.
“Like who?” he asked, his tone icy. You shivered under the intensity of his gaze as his eyes bored into your own. He already had you alone and unarmed, you might as well speak your mind.
“I-it doesn’t matter. Like someone from my childhood -”
“WHO,” he demanded, his hands reaching to grip your upper arms in an iron vice.
“S-sabo,” you said quietly, scared he was going to backhand you or shake you like your husband had so many times before. His grip and eyes softened but he didn’t let you go. There was no sound other than that of your harsh breaths as the man held you in place. After a moment, he began to speak softly.
“I - that’s me. I’m Sabo. I don’t - I can only remember part - I was in -”
“You’re not Sabo! He died!” you cried out, tears filling your eyes. You’d cried for months over his death and to hear someone lying about being him was too distressing to listen to. Ace didn’t like cry babies, he’d told you many times, but you couldn’t help but cry for your lost friend and husband. You tried to pull your arm away so you could run from this imposter.
“A promise borne in flames -” Sabo started to say, one of his gloved hands rising to cup your face.
“Is a promise forever kept,” you finished, a tear falling down your cheek. You wailed as you began crying in earnest, wrapping your arms around his torso. Clutching him towards you he put his hands around your back, patting your back gently. 
“S-Sabo, I th-thought you d-died,” you cried into his stupid cravat, the same ugly kind he’d always worn. He pulled your face gently off his chest, his hands spanning your face as he looked into your eyes.
“I don’t remember everything but some of it is coming back to me. I - we got married, right?” he asked tenderly, thumbs sweeping over your cheeks. You laughed through a hiccup.
“Yeah, we did. Sorry, I got re-married,” you joked with a small smile, motioning to the mansion you currently lived in. Sabo chuckled, settling his hands on your waist and pulling you closer.
“Did you keep in contact with Ace and Luffy? I’ve thought about all of you so many times and I -” you started to get excited, eager to hear news about the other two brothers. Sabo’s face had a faraway look as he avoided your question.
“C’mon, we’ll have plenty of time to talk about what happened,” he stated, pulling you towards the broken door by your arm. You stalled, trying to get some more time to think for a moment. You didn’t like your island estate and you certainly didn’t love or like your husband but after all those years, you didn’t know Sabo either. You didn’t think Sabo would do something terrible to you but you’d heard so many horror stories about the RA that you didn’t want to verify for truth first hand. 
“Wh - I - Sabo, this is all a lot. You can take whatever you need or want from this shithole, but I thought you said you leave -” Sabo cut you off by picking you up and throwing you over his shoulder. As kids, you’d been a head taller than Sabo but now he was the taller one - and much stronger besides.
“I’m not losing you again. You’re coming with me,” he said with finality, striding towards the open doors. 
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Chocolates Galore!
(Characters): All the characters (except the little kids)
(Synopsis): Valentine’s Day has arrived and the academy’s most influential students are antsy to give that special someone their gifts. Some are also anxious to know who you got chocolate for
(Tags/Warnings): Use of (n/n) and (name), gn!reader, foul language, dialogue heavy, school au, gave Natlan characters poc features (smth hoyo was too pussy to do), one Cyno joke (reader laughs at it), bit rushed,
(Word Count): 7.6k
(A/n): I tried to include everyone in this, and sorry if it feels rushed
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“Valentine’s day is almost here.” You absentmindedly said
“Why are you preoccupied with such a frivolous holiday?” Kuni asked
“Don’t be so mean.” Kazhua said
“If I didn’t know any better I would say you have someone you want to give chocolate to, (n/n)~” Venti teased
“Yeah, I do.” You admitted
“What?!” Kuni shot up from his chair. “Who is the bastard?!”
“Well it’s actually-” You were cut off by the bell ringing. “Damn I gotta get back to class. Bye guys.” You packed your stuff up and left the classroom for yours
“My my my, our Kuni is jealous.” Heizou teased
“I’m not!”
“He definitely is.” Aether said
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On the day in question you came into school with a big shopping bag, filled with what that’s only for you to know
Walking to your locker you open it up to see various boxes and baggies fall out
You look down to find around 15 gifts all addressed to you. Your initial thought was that it must be for someone who just so happened to have the first name as you, but you see your last name on some of them, maybe they are meant for you
You have been more social than before so it might be meant for you, as you were picking up the little gifts of chocolate you saw a pair of feet. You look up to see your friend
“Ayaka, hi!”
“I-I got you some chocolate!” The blue haired heiress extended her hands to show you, all the while turing her head away from you
“Oh thank you, I appreciate it-”
“It’s nothing! Please enjoy them!”
Ayaka ran away before you could ask her if she was doing alright, since her face was heavily red
Confused you didn’t notice two other people walk up to you
“Ahem!” You turned your head to see where the sound came from. “I hope I caught you before anyone else could.” The young semestres said as she handed you a small stuffed bear holding a heart
“I got you some kitty shaped chocolate, (N/n)!” Kirara said
“It’s so cute! Thank you, you two!”
“Of course it is, I made it myself. I’ll see you around.” Chiori waved goodbye and parted ways
“Bye (N/n)!” Kirara gave her farewell as she followed her friend
You look around to see that there’s too many eyes on you so you pick up your bags and walk away from your locker. You made your way to the 4th floor you hear something call your name, you look to see a familiar purple haired guy
“Here!” Kuni shoved a baggie of chocolate in your hands. “I know how much you like that sweet shit, so I got you some.”
“Aw, that’s so kind of you, Kuni!” You smiled at him
“Hey! Don’t get the wrong idea! I just had a bit of pocket money and decided to get you some! It’s friendship chocolate!” Kuni desperately explained as his face got redder
“But still you didn’t have to do it, the fact that you did shows that you’re a good guy.”
“I-I just remembered I had to do something!” Kuni stormed off leaving you confused
“Just ignore him, you know he’s emotionally constipated.” Heizou chuckled
You see the rest of the friend group with the exception of Aether walk up to you
“Hey guys!” You greeted with a wave and a closed eye smile, missing the look of fondness in the young men’s eyes. “What are you doing here, don’t y’all usually spend this time in the courtyard?”
“We have something important to do first.” Kazuha explained
The boys hold up baggies and boxes of chocolate, leaving you a bit stunned
“Wow guys, I don’t know what to say…” You finally managed to speak
“Don’t worry about it, just take it…” Xiao muttered out desperately trying to hide his red face
You accept the gifts and put them in your red bag, all the while making sure that the anemo boys don’t see the contents of the bag
“What’s in the bag, windblume?” Venti asked
“This?!” You hid the bag behind your back. “It’s a secret!”
Venti pouts and tries to snatch the bag from your hands but you’re faster in pulling it away from the young bard’s hands
“But I am curious about what’s in the bag?” Kazuha asked while rubbing his chin
“Or maybe it’s a mystery for us to uncover!” Heizou said excitedly
“It’s a secret till after school!” You blurted out. “Just wait after school and you’ll see…”
“My my, what do we have here?” You feel an arm drape over your shoulder, you look up to see the face of Kaeya
“Hi Kaeya.” You and the others said, completely unaware of the glares thrown at him
“Don’t sound too excited to see me, I’m hurt.”
“Just tell me what you’re doing here? You’re usually bothering your poor brother.”
“Well, I wanted to see y-”
“Hey (Name), how’s it’s going?” Sethos asked squeezing himself between you and who he would call “that whore”
“Sethos, hey! I was just talking to the anemo guys and Kaeya”
“I see…” Sethos said desperately trying to suppress a cringe from appearing on his face
“Oh and you still haven’t told me what you’re doing up here.”
“So mean! I just wanted to give my darling some chocolates.”
“I wonder how many people you told that line to.” You shot back as you accepted the little blue box of chocolates
“Well you’re the only one-”
“I also got you chocolates!” Sethos interjected
“Thanks Seth.” You said as you took the chocolate bar from the brunette
“It’s nothing, anything for my best friend.” Sethos eyed Kaeya as said the last part
“Listen you, overgrown shot of c-”
“Hello there, cutie.” Lisa greeted
“Lisa!” You ran toward Lisa
“Was I interrupting something?”
“No!” You said with a smile ignoring the tension between Kaeya and Sethos
“Well, if that’s the case, then I want to give you this.” Lisa said as she showed you a small purple box with a bow tied into a rose on the top
“Wow, Lisa. It’s so pretty I don’t know what to say.”
“You can thank me by giving me a kiss~”
“What?!” You and the boys shouted in unison. You felt heat rise up in your face and instantly lightheaded
“Just kidding!” Lisa giggled leaving out her thinking you looked so cute flustered.
“You had me worried their for a second there, Lisa.”
“Yeah, Lisa…” Xiao glared at the student librarian
The bell rings causing everyone to head to class
“Later guys!” You said as you began to head to class
“Bye (Name).” Your group of friends said goodbye
Class went by without any hiccups. Before you knew it the lesson came to a close and lunchtime came, as you were getting your things into your bag you noticed a couple of students walk up to your desk. You look up and saw members of the music club besides from Venti standing before you
“Here ya go bestie!” Xinyan said as she handed you a box of chocolate
“I got you chocolate.” Barbara said as she walked up to you and gave you a box that was prettily wrapped in white and blue wrapping paper
“I also got you some…” Yun Jin came up to you and held up a box that equally pretty as Barbara’s
“Aw your gifts are wrapped so beautifully, I almost don’t want to ruin them!” You said while putting the chocolate in your shopping bag. “I have something to do right now, but if you guys want to eat lunch then I’ll see if I can make it to the club room!”
You stood up and after waving goodbye to the music club you made your way out of the classroom
“Hey! (Name)!”
You turn around to see Amber and Yoimiya walking towards you
“I got you some chocolate!” Amber said as she handed you some bunny shaped chocolate
“Don’t forget about mine! I got you chocolates that feels like fireworks going off in your mouth!” Yoimiya said gesturing to her own mouth
“I can’t wait to try it. Thank you so much, you two!”
“Ohh, what’s in that bag?” Yoimiya asked
“Is it your Valentine’s Day gift?” Amber smiled
“Th-that’s a secret!” You answered
“Ohh…” You saw the two deflate
“But until after school!” You added
Amber and Yoimiya instantly became giddy and start whispering amongst themselves. You saw the opportunity to sneak off to do what you were originally going to do, when you made it down the stairs you saw a figure striking a pose in front of you
“I, Fischl, the Prinzessin der Verurteilung! Bestow upon you the finest confectioneries the Immernachtreich has to offer.”
“What she means is she made you some chocolate.” Oz, Fischl’s trusty raven explained to you
“Ohhh, thank you so much. It’s an honor to have a princess give me chocolate!”
You saw Fischl puff out her chest in confidence
“Mph! What’s better than a princess giving you chocolate when you can have a god give you some?”
You and Fischl turned your heads to be greeted with familiar pair of mix matched eyes
“I, Furina de Fontaine give you Fontaine’s finest of chocolate.” Furina handed you an expensive looking box of chocolate before turning towards Fischl and smirks. “And it’s probably much better than what the inner-nacht-reit has.”
“It’s the Immernachtreich! And for your information my homeworld has much better confectioneries than that of Fontaine.” Fischl spat out
“If it’s so great then why don’t you take all of us to there?” Furina questioned
“I, uhhh, I-” Fischl was at a lost for words
“That’s enough you two!!” You stepped in between the two girls. “There’s no point in being mean to each other and to each other’s homelands.”
You saw the two glance at each other before turning away, at least they stopped arguing. Before you could head down the stairs you saw the two girls holding up boxes of chocolate for you to take
“For you!” They both said in unison before side eyeing each other
“Aw, I’m honored to have treats by such high status individuals like you guys.”
You saw the two inflate with confidence, you put the chocolates in your shopping bag and as you were zipping up the bag you spotted a familiar face
“Arlecchino!” You greeted
You missed how Furina’s body turned rigid before she turned towards you
“Me and Princess Fischl have, uhh, business to attend to… bye!” Furina grabbed onto Fischl’s arm and dragged her away before the white haired woman could interact with her
“Hello (name).” Arlecchino said still a stoic expression on her face. “Happy Valentine’s Day. This is for you.”
The Knave gave you a surprisingly cute looking box of chocolate.
“This is so cute, thank you Arle!”
“It’s nothing, I do hope that you enjoy them.” She said before walking away from you leaving you alone in the hallway
You could’ve sworn you saw a slight smile on Arlecchino’s face, maybe you were imagining things
You continued walking until you bumped into a group of familiar faces
“Zhongli! Ei! Mavuika! Hey!” You yelled out making the former student council members turn towards you
You walk up to them and began striking up a conversation between them, the conversation went smooth but you noticed that the trio looked like they had something on their chest. You pushed it aside, not wanting to pry into potentially personal manners. Once the conversation came to an end Zhongli stepped in front of you
“Pardon me, but I got the most exquisite chocolate, for you.” He said as he handed you an expensive looking box of chocolate
“Woah, thank you, Zhongli. This must be really costly!”
“Don’t worry about that, I also got you some chocolate!” Mavuika smiled making her chin tattoo distort a bit as she held out an equally expensive looking box of chocolates
“Oh my gods, I don’t know what to say… I-I-”
“As Mavuika said before, don’t worry about it too much.” Zhongli stated
“If everyone is going you their gift then I shall you mine. I got you some chocolate covered dango.” Ei said flatly
“Thank you, Ei…” You said hoping the she didn’t make it herself and just opted to either buy it or have someone else make it for her
You checked the time on your watch and realized how much time you spent talking with the three
“I got to get going! See ya later!” You waved goodbye as you ran down the hall
You weren’t paying attention to where you were going which lead you to bump into a person. After getting your bearings you look up to see Ororon extending his hand to help you up. You took his hand and he helped you on your feet
“Sorry for not looking where I was going and bumping into you…”
“It’s nothing, I’m more worried about you.”
“I’m okay, for the most part.”
“That’s good to hear, and by the way.” Ororon reached into his bag and before handing you a baggie of chocolate. “This is for you.” Ororon said scratching his dark cheek and particularly hiding his face behind his dreads
“Thanks! I was half expecting for you to get me a cabbage from your garden, but this is a welcomed surprise!”
“I’m glad you like it.”
“I helped him pick out the chocolate.” You and Ororon turn your heads to see Citlali with her hands on her hips. “Don’t be fooled he almost gave you one and nearly covered it in chocolate.” She said as you saw a vein pulsing on her head
“Well, it’s the thought that counts!” You laughed at the absurdity of getting a chocolate covered cabbage
“I also got you some chocolates.” Citlali said with a little pout
“Thank you so much!” You accepted the chocolates
“(N/n)!”
You turned around to see Mualani dragging Kinich towards you. She held up box with clear packaging
“I got you some chocolate!” Mualani began. “Look its shaped like little fish!” She pointed at the box, her blue nail polish a sharp contrast against her tan skin
“It’s so cute!” You gushed
“C’mon, Kinich! Give them your gift!” Mualani nudged the dark haired boy towards you. He extended his hand with the gift in it out towards you for you to take it
“I got you some chocolate with fruit in it…” He whispered
“Ohh thank you, Kinich. I Love it!”
“It’s nothing…” The young Saurian Hunter said, internally thanking that his blush isn’t too noticeable on his darker skin
Green eyes looked down and noticed the red shopping bag on the floor by your feet. Kinich kept his curiosity to himself but it seemed that Mualani also saw the big bag
“Ohhh, (N/n), what’s in the bag?” She asked tilting her head to get a better view of said bag.
You picked up the bag and held it to your chest. “It’s a secret!” You answered
“Aw! No way you’re keeping what’s in there a secret!” She shouted as her waved her fists in the air until she catch a mischievous glint in her eyes. “Not unless I-”
Mualani jumped towards you to tickle you but luckily you dodged her just in the nick of time
“I’m gonna get you!” She shouted again
“Noooo!” You yelled out running for dear life. “It’s a secret til after school!”
Before Mualani could start running she was held back by her shirt collar, turning around she saw it was Kinich holding her back
Unaware that your secret isn’t in any immediate danger you kept running until you managed to in a random club room, the lights were off only being illuminated by candles
“Hehehe, looks like we got a little guess here~” A mysterious voice ominously giggled
You turned around to see a few hooded figures
“You’re interested in our small ritual?” The figure in the center, you assume to be the leader
“Stop fucking with them.” A raspy voice called out, you turned around to see Rosaria sitting in a chair, reaching over she turns on the switch, lighting up the room.
“Okay, I’m kidding bestie!” The leader took their hood off revealing them to be your good friend, the iconic 77th funeral director in training
“Hu Tao!? You scared the shit outta me!” You chastised
“Hehehe, I’m sorry, you’re just so easy to mess with.”
“I’m sorry if I scared you.” Shenhe took her hood off revealing her long white hair and stoic expression
“Yeah, this was Hu Tao’s idea.” Chongyun took his hood off as well. Oh since you’re here let me get my gift from the home ec room!” Chongyun said as he ran out of the clubroom
“Why the hell are you all wearing hoods in the dark?!” You yelled clutching your chest
“Where’s the fun in doing club activities in plain uniforms?” A smooth voice asked
You turned to see Yae Miko sitting a chair in the other side of the room
Before you could get another word in you were greeted with a box of chocolate by Shenhe, looking up at her ever stoic face
“For you.” She stated
“Oh thank you, Shenhe!” You said as you took the box and slowly saw red crept up on her face
“Hey no fair!” Hu Tao pouted before giving you a baggie of chocolate shaped ghosts and skulls. “I made them myself!”
“Thank you too, Hu Tao, but I will say that this is very spooky for a day like valentines.”
“There’s never a day were spookiness isn’t appropriate!” She shot back
“I got you this.” Rosaria said as she handed you a plain looking chocolate bar
“Thanks, I thought you think that Valentine’s Day is a sappy overpriced holiday?” You asked
“I can take part in a holiday that I don’t agree with… But I do hope you like it.” Rosaria said
“I will, thank you again.”
“Since everyone is giving their chocolates, I suppose I will give you mines.” Yae Miko stood up and walked towards you. She gave you a baggie decorated in cherry blossom petals filled with chocolate the same shape
“Thanks Yae.”
“Don’t mention, but I do expect some chocolate in return from you.”
“I, well, I.”
“Hmm, since I’m so generous I’ll give you until the end of the day to give me my chocolates.”
“You really are generous, Yae.” You breathed a sigh of relief
The door to the club room opens revealing Chongyun and Xingqiu
“I got this for you, I hope you do enjoy it.” The blue haired boy said as he handed you a chocolate popsicle
“I got you your favorite chocolate.” Xingqiu stated
You don’t remember telling him your favorite brand of chocolate, it must have slipped your mind
“Thank you, all of you. But I need to get going.”
“Bye-bye!” Hu Tao waved as the others said their goodbyes
You walked out of the club room and closed the door behind you, when you opened your eyes you were greeted with treats
“Hey (Name), we saw that Chongyun was getting his gift for you so we decided to give you your gifts!” Navia said as she handed you a tupperware filled with macarons.”
“I made you some chocolate chip cookies! I hope you like them…” Noelle muttered the last part
“I wanted to make you a chocolate slime smoothie, but I was told to make something ‘normal’, so I made you some brownies!” Xiangling said with a pout as she handed you you a surprisingly cute looking box
You accepted it glad that you got this instead of the slime concoction she was originally going to make you
“Thanks, you guys! I’ll make sure to enjoy them!” You said
“Say (Name) are you interested in trying my new mystery meat sandwich-”
Xiangling was pulled and dragged away by her collar by Navia as Noelle shook her head in disapproval. You were left confused but ever so grateful that you didn’t get roped into trying Xiangling’s new recipes
“Why hello, dear (Name).” You turned around to see Lyney, Lynette, and Freminet walk up to you
“Hey guys!” You waved back
Lynette held up a piece of paper that has a rose and chocolate drawn on it
“See this piece of paper?” Lyney asked
“Uh huh…”
“Now watch this!”
You saw Lyney wave his hand over the paper, showing that paper doesn’t have anything taped to it before swiping his hands and both the chocolate and rose appear in them
“Happy Valentine’s Day, Mon cœur.” Lyney said
“Whoa, how did you do that?” You said as you took the rose and treat
“A magician never reveals their secrets.” Lynette said
You gave the twins the side eye before noticing Freminet waiting around, his eyes trained on the floor almost afraid of meeting your eyes. Sensing your eyes on his brother, Lyney pushed Freminet in front of him to be face to face with you
“C’mon Fremmy! Give them your chocolate!” Lyney encouraged
Freminet held out a plain looking chocolate bar. “P-please accept my chocolate!” The blond said as he gave you the gift
“Thank you you three, I love my gifts!” You smiled at the siblings
You saw Freminet’s face turn bright red before he ran off in the opposite direction
“Sorry, we’ll see you later!” Lyney said before running to catch up to Freminet and Lynette
You kept on until you bumped into a familiar face
“Xianyun! Hi!”
“Why hello (Name). You’re just the person I was looking for.”
“Really?”
“I wanted to give you this box of chocolates.”
“Wow thank you, Xianyun.”
“It’s nothing, oh this reminds me of the time where Ganyu was little and she would-”
“Xianyun!” A voice called out to her
“Oh, I have to go, it was nice talking to you.”
“See ya around!” You waved goodbye bye before continuing on with your day, hopefully you can get done what you originally wanted to do
“(Name)!”
Or maybe not
You turned to see Albedo and Surose walking up to you, Albedo ever so stoic and Surose is a bright red and hiding behind her lab partner
“Hey guys!” You yelled out causing Surose to try and run away but Albedo stopped her, he made sure she continued to walk towards you
“Hello (Name), me and Surose were working on a special chocolate just for you.” Albedo began.
“It has the health benefits of dark chocolate but it’s just as sweet as milk chocolate.” Surose finished
“That sounds amazing. I wouldn’t expect anything less from you two!” You complemented
“It’s nothing, if it’s for you…” Surose smiled, it seemed that she realized what she said and ran off as her face began to get redder
“Surose! Wait!” Albedo said as he chased after his lab partner
You just shook your head in amusement and felt someone right next to you
“Aw those two.” Emilie said fondly. “To have what they have.”
“I just think they’re just really close friends.” You said
“If you say so, but before I go. I have something to give you.”
Emilie took a pretty looking box out of her bag and handed it to you
“Oh my gods, it’s so cute! I almost don’t want to ruin this.”
“If you dont try my chocolates then that’ll hurt my feelings.”
“I’m sorry! I’ll eat them as soon as I get home!”
“I’m just kidding~ well then toodle-oo.” Emilie said as walked away
You kept walking down the hall and down the stairs to the 2nd floor until you saw another familiar face
“Al Haitham, hi!” You greeted as you walked up to him
“Here.” He handed you a little box of chocolate. “I don’t know if you have any allergies so I just got you milk chocolate.”
“Ohh, well thank you-”
“That’s not how you give chocolate to them!” You heard a familiar voice yell from behind you. “You have to start off with a heartfelt speech!”
“Hey Kaveh.” You greeted
“Hi (Name), please forgive my friend for his lackluster speech!” Kaveh began
“It’s fine…”
“It is not! You should prepare a speech on how they-”
Kaveh began to go on a rant about Al Haitham’s speech and waved his arms dramatically. Al Haitham ushered you away from the blonde, the two of you talked as you were walking down the 2nd floor hall
“(Name)! There you are!”
You turned around to see Tighnari and Collei walking up towards you
“Hey guys!”
“I made you some chocolate with some edible flowers in it.” Tighnari said as he handed you a nicely wrapped bar of chocolate
“And I made you a little bear, I didn’t know what kind of chocolate you liked so I opted to make you a stuffed animal.”
“I love them!”
You began to gush about how cute the stuffed bear and the wrapping of the chocolate looked, you were so engrossed by the adorable bear you missed the look of fondness on everyone’s faces
“(N/n).” You heard a familiar voice call out for you
You turned around to see Itto running up towards you
“Itto!” You greeted, missing the grimaces of Tighnari and Al Haitham
“Here ya go, my número dos!” Itto handed you a milk bread but instead of the usual vanilla filling, it’s chocolate
“Wow, I didn’t know they sell this at the canteen!”
“They don’t, I just picked one up last night on the way home.” Itto explained purposely leaving out that he had to go to 10 different convenient stores just to find one of that flavor
“Oh my gods, Itto you’re the best!”
“Ha! It’s nothing for my number two!” The oni laughed and you soon noticed Shinobu walking up from behind
“Ah, Shinobu! How are you?”
“I’m good, as good as anyone can be when dealing with Itto and the others.”
“True that!” You laughed
“By the way, happy Valentine’s Day!” She handed you a little pouch of chocolate
“Oh my gosh, thank you so much, all of you!”
The bell rung
“Alright, I’ll see you guys later.” You said as you went back to class
“Bye (Name).” The two waved goodbye
Once you entered you, your classroom the teacher pulled you aside and they asked you to get their lesson plan from the teacher’s office. No problem it was something you have done many times before and you figured you can quickly do what you were originally going to do during lunchtime since the hallways would be empty
“Okay, I’ll try to be quick!” You said as you walked out of the classroom with your big shopping bag
You walked down the hallway and made sure to go get the lesson plan as quickly as possible, luckily for you the teachers’ office was on the first floor the same floor where the lockers are
You began to open up your shopping bag until you stopped in your tracks
“What are you doing?” You heard a familiar deep voice
You slowly turn you head, praying it’s not who you think it is. Once you finally turned your head you saw Wriothsely
“Hey… Wrio…” You greeted
“Hey, I was looking for you.”
“Were you?”
“Yeah, I wanted to give you this.” Wriothesley said as he handed you a chocolate bar which you took and smiled at him
“Wow, thanks Wrio, I-”
“But that doesn’t mean you’re off the hook.” Wriothesley began. “Care to explain why you are out of class?”
“Well I was getting the lesson plan for my teacher! You know how forgetful they are……”
Wriothesley gave you an unamused look which makes you realize you aren’t getting out of the situation that easily
“Okay, I go with you.”
You began to follow Wriothesley until you turned towards the door
“CHILDE STOP FIGHTING!” You yelled out causing Wriothesley to turn around and rush out the door. (You didn’t see Childe fighting)
Seeing the opportunity you ran, and ran like your life depended on it. Your feet carried you into the equipment shed . You entered the shed and breathed a sigh of relief
“You came here to nap too?”
You turned your head to see Xilonen laying on the foam gym mats, her blazer thrown to the side
“I’m sorry, I just need a place to hide from someone, if you want me to leave I can…” You said
“Nahh, it’s good.” She yawned out. “I don’t mind if it’s you.” The hybrid began rummaging through her bag and pulled out a rectangular box and handed it to you. “This is for you.”
“Oh, thanks! I don’t know what to say!”
“You don’t gotta say anything, but what I do want is a small cuddle session with you.”
“Huh…?”
“You look a bit stressed, a nap would do you good.”
“Uhh I don’t know.” You looked out of the transom window to see Wriothesley looking for either you or Childe. “Okay, but I’ll lay down for just a second.” You said as you sighed
You laid down next to Xilonen, she closed her eyes basking in the closeness
How can she remain so calm while you’re sweating bullets, this is the closest, physically, you’ve been to anyone in the academy. After gods know how many minutes of this you shot up and left the shed
“Sorry, Xilonen!” You apologized through the door
After calming your heart rate you entered the building through the front entrance. You decided against doing what you were originally going to do due to wasting a decent amount of time with Xilonen
“Skipping class?”
You whipped your head towards the direction of the voice only to see Childe with a grin on his face
“Shit! You scared me!” You whisper-yelled
“It’s so unusual to see you cutting, you’re such a goodie two shoes.”
“I’m not!”
“You totally are.” Childe playfully flicked your forehead. “What are you doing by the lockers? Wait, are you putting your Valentine’s Day gift in one of the lockers?”
“Well, I was…”
“Who?!” Childe shouted
“Are you high?! Keep your voice down!” You chastised as you but your hands over his mouth
“You’re skipping too?” Another voice questioned
The both of you turn your heads to see it came from Dehya
“Ye-yeah. Wait, no!!” You said, “I was going to put something in someone’s locker, but decided against it…”
“Whose locker!” Childe asked with a menacing aura surrounding him causing you to be frozen in fear
“You’re scaring them!” Dehya said as she pulled Childe away from you by the collar. The ginger relented and stuffed his hands in his pockets. “I got you some chocolates.” Dehya said as she handed you a small box
“Aw, thank you-”
“I also got you some chocolate!” Childe said and gave you a chocolate bar
“Thanks, Childe.” You said
“So whose locker you putting chocolate in?” Childe asked. “I bet it’s mine, is it?”
“Well it’s…”
“It’s someone else’s?” Dehya asked
“Kinda…”
“Who is it?” Childe asked his menacing aura more intense than before
“Uhh…” You looked around trying to find a way out of this situation. “Hey aren’t those the guys from the gang you hate?” You said diverting his attention to the figures outside
“Hey!” Childe ran out of the building and began fighting the rival gang members
“There you are!” You heard Wriothesley yell out
Shit
“No, I’m sorry!” You shouted out a you ran away from the scene
“Hey!” Bennett said as he spotted you running towards him. “I got you some chocolate-” The white haired boy slipped on a banana peel that he missed. He slipped forward head butting you in the process
You pass out
Opening your eyes you see a light shinning overhead. Looking at it makes your already hurting head a lot worse, you turned away and sat up. All making sure to be slow and not make any sudden movements. Pulling the curtain back you were greeted by Baizhu, the nurse assistant
“Oh you’re finally up.”
“Up? What happened?”
Baizhu explained everything, mainly how you were headbutted by Bennett and the poor boy brought you to the nurse’s office. He was eventually told to leave so as to not overwhelm you once you woke up
“Oh that makes a lot more sense.” You said looking at where your left hand is and seeing a chocolate bar
You picked up the bar and read the note attached to it. It read “sorry for headbutting you, Bennett”
You smiled to yourself and made a mental note on telling the boy that everything was good
“(Name)” Baizhu turned towards you. “I got you some dark chocolate. It has lots of health benefits.”
“Thank you, Baizhu. I didn’t take you to be the romantic type.” You chuckled
“I am when it comes to you…”
“Uhh…”
“Ahem!”
You and Baizhu turned towards see members of the student council in the doorway
“The student council has heard that you were in the nurse’s office and we all decided to see how you were feeling and maybe give you chocolate to feel better…” Jean whispered the last part while unaware of the blush on her face
“Jean is right, it’s our job to make sure that each and every student feel comfortable and well.” Ningguang stated
Kokomi and Gorou tread carefully towards the bed you were laying in and they both presented you two baggies of chocolate
“Please accept this gift to make you feel better.” Kokomi spoke
“Yes, we wouldn’t want for you to be hurt any longer.” Gorou added desperately trying to stop his tail from waging
Ganyu and Keqing slowly walked up to you, Kokomi and Gorou stepped aside to give them some room. Once in front of you they both gave you with a big white box
“Me and Keqing made you some chocolate cake!” Ganyu said with a smile
“Please feel better.” Keqing said
“Thank you, you guys.”
“I bought you some bonbons, I know it’s not made with love like Ganyu and Keqing’s.” Yelan said as he gave you a box of bonbons
“It doesn’t matter, if you bought it, I’ll still accept it.”
Diluc walked up to you with his hands behind his back and his face as red as his fiery hair
“If that’s the case then, I got you some wine infused chocolates from my family’s company.” He said as he handed you a small box with gold wrapping. “Don’t worry the amount of wine is very small so you won’t get intoxicated.”
“Thank you so much, Di!”
“I made you some chocolate mousse, I do hope that you enjoy it, (Name).” Neuvilette smiled as he gave you the mousse
Before you could give your thanks to Neuvilette, Ayato walks up to your bedside
“Please enjoy this chocolate imported from Fontaine. I hope it’s to your liking.” Ayato boasted as he handed you a medium sized box of chocolate
“I got our dear (Name) some of the finest chocolate Snezhnaya has.” Pantalone gave you a box with silver lining
“Is that the best you can do?” Ningguang walked up to your bed and handed you a massive box of chocolate. “This is chocolate made by the finest chocolatiers Liyue has to offer.” She explained with a smug aura
Thoma and Jean come up to you with their hands behind their backs, the secretary went first
“My gift isn’t as extravagant as theirs but I tried my best to make you some chocolate chip cookies.” Thoma said has he handed you a bag of cookies
“I also baked you some cookies, I hope you like them!” Jean said
“I love them! It doesn’t matter if you bought or made them, it only matters that you had me in mind when you presented them!” You said with a smile
You saw members of the student council faces quickly become red, some redder than others
“Cyno, Sara, Clorinde, Chevreuse. What are you doing here? Please don’t tell me you’re here to take me to detention.” You asked as you spotted members of the discipline committee
“We’re here to make sure you’re okay, we heard that you were rendered unconscious in an accident.” Clorinde said as she put her hand over on chest
“I’m okay, for the most part.”
“That’s good to hear, I brought this for you.” Sara said as she held out a box of Inazuman chocolate
“Here is some chocolate, (Name).” Clorinde smiled as she gave you a baggie of chocolates
“I also got you some chocolate!” Chevreuse said as she gave you one of those mega sized chocolate bars
“Whoa, this is massive, Chevy!” You said amazed
“It’s so you have enough energy for your cafe job!” Chevreuse put her hands on her hips. “I know how energy consuming it is!”
Cyno walks up to you and he hands you a nice looking boxes of chocolate
“Chocolate has the power to heal the soul, it’s the ultimate treat-meant.” Cyno said with a grin causing you to laugh
“Ow! My head!” You said after chuckling
You missed the grimaces of everyone in the room gave Cyno, you finally stopped laughing and realized you don’t see your bag
“Uh has anyone seen my bag?” You asked
“Your school bag is in the classroom, I can get it if you need.” Diluc offered
“No I mean the big shopping bag I had all day!” You explained
“I haven’t seen it.” Ganyu said
“It might be in the lost and found.” Yelan theorized
“Okay, I need to get it.” You said as you got up from the bed
“Whoa, whoa. You aren’t in any condition to be running around.” Cyno advised
“They seem fine to me.” Jean said
“They hit their head, symptoms of a concussion could take hours to manifest.” Sara explained
This caused members of the student council to argue with the discipline committee, all of them were so wrapped up in trying to be right they didn’t notice you sneaking out of the window
“Uhh, where did they go?!”
You ran down the back and just when you were about to enter the building a figure jumps out from the bushes
You jumped back and saw the wolf boy, Razor sniffing you
“Lupical!”
“Hi, Razor…”
“Here!” Razor said as he gave you a surprisingly nice looking chocolate bar
“Thanks…”
Razor hopped back into the bush, leaving you confused as hell
Whatever you entered the school through one of the back entrances and looked around for where in the hell the lost and found could be
Out of the corner of your eye you saw both Aether and Lumine walking down the hall, the two of them made eye contact and began running before stopping in front of you. They both were panting and just when you were about to ask them what’s wrong Lumine holds up a golden box
“Please accept these!” She shouted
“No way! If you accept hers then please accept mines!” Aether retorted
“We got the same chocolate asshole!” Lumine said as she elbowed her brother in the ribs
You take both of the boxes and awkwardly thank the twins, but they were a bit too busy arguing with each other
“Okay, I’m gonna leave!” You said as you slowly walked away
You run down the hall and entered a random room only to discover that you stumbled upon the astrology club
“Hey guys, I need your help with something. Do you know where the lost and found is?” You asked
“It’s in the student council meeting room.” Candace explained
“Oh thank you so much-”
“If you are going to go, then please accept my chocolate.” Mona said as she held out a fancy looking box of chocolates
“Thank you-”
“I also got you chocolates.” Candace said as she gave you a baggie of chocolates
“Here you go- zzzzzzz.” Layla fell asleep still standing
“Uhh, Layla?” You asked but still didn’t get a response from her. “Okay, I’ll take the chocolate…”
You took the chocolate bar and kept on your way after you helped settle Layla in a chair
Okay, so it’s in the student council’s meeting room, and that’s on the 5th floor, fuck! You run up the stairs and tried not to die from absolute exhaustion
Upon reaching the 5th floor you were meet with Faruzan and Nilou
“(Name), just the person I wanted to see.” Faruzan started. “As your senior I decided to give my favorite lowerclassaman some chocolate for this fine day!”
“Thank you Faruzan.” You said as you box the little box of chocolate
“I know my gift isn’t as extravagant as Faruzan, but I hope you like it, (Name).” Nilou gave you a small baggie of chocolates in cute shapes
“Thank you, you two. I would love to talk but I’m very busy right now. See you tomorrow!” You yelled out as you started to run towards the student council meeting room
Once in the room you were greeted with your beloved red shopping bag, you check the contents of the bag to make sure everything was in place and left the meeting room
You ran down the stairs but stopped before reaching the 1st floor when you heard Neuvillette’s voice
“You saw them in the astrology club room?”
“They might have went up to 5th floor to get their bag.” Jean inquired
“Let’s find them there.” Ayato said
Shit! They’re looking for you! Why? You feel fine!
You entered a classroom on the second floor and hid for the time being, you didn’t realize it was the dance room until Ga Ming greeted you
“Yo (Name)! What brings you here!”
“Just hiding, please don’t tell anyone I was here!”
“Okay, boss! By the way here’s your chocolate!” He said as he handed you a Liyuen chocolate bar
“Thanks man, see you later!” You waved goodbye bye as you exited the dance room
You down the hall to be in the opposite direction from where the student council was. Looking behind you, you missed the large figure you were running towards. You bumped into the person and fell on your butt
“Ugh, again…?” You said mainly to yourself before looking up to see who you bumped into “Capitano!” You shot up and began profusely apologizing
“Are you alright?” Mika asked
“Yeah, just a little frazzled.” You explained
“I got you some chocolate!” Mika said as he extended his hands out to give you a small box of chocolate
“I also got you some chocolate.” Capitano said as he turned away and gave you a cute looking box of chocolate
“Oh my gods, this is so cute!” You gushed
“Have you seen (Name)?” Keqing just around the corner asked a student
“Ack! I gotta go! Don’t tell anyone I was here!”
You ran in the opposite direction of where Keqing was and was greeted with a flash of light that disoriented you
“Sorry, you ran into the shot.”
You shook your head to see Charlotte and Heizou
“I’m sorry I wasn’t looking where I was going.”
“Well since you’re here, I want to give you this!” Charlotte said as she handed you a box of chocolate
“Wow, thanks Charlotte!”
“Hey (N/n), it’s after school~”
“Wait, I can’t tell you the secret just yet!” You said as you held the shopping bag close to your chest
“I can’t take this anymore, c’mon tell me! Or do I have to uncover it myself?” Heizou had a mischievous look on his face
“Is that (Name)?”
You bolted
You ran and looked around before hiding in the closet where they put the cleaning supplies, you just hoped that no one will think of checking there
Finally once the coast was clear you exited the supply closet and ran down the stairs. You finally reached the lockers and checked that many of the shoes haven’t been replaced with the inside shoes
You began your plan
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“Have you seen them?” Wriothesley asked a pair of students whose answer were a no
The student council, discipline committee and many of your admirers regrouped after searching every nook and cranny the school had and found no sight of you
“Do you think they went home?” Kokomi asked
“I hope not, they could fall unconscious on their way home.” Diluc uttered
“I know I promised them that I wouldn’t tell anyone, but I just can’t when they’re in danger of passing out somewhere.” Ga Ming said
“It’s okay, you didn’t know, it’s an honest mistake.” Arlecchino reassured
“Big brother Albedo!” A high pitched voice called out
“Klee, what are you doing here?” Albedo asked
“You didn’t meet me where you told me you were going to.”
“I’m sorry, I was helping to look for (Name).”
“Oh (Name) gave me and Nahida these yummy cookies and went home!” Klee happily stated
“Wait! They went home?” Surose asked
“Yup!” Klee said
This sent everyone into a frenzy. You all alone potentially falling unconscious in the middle of the street drove them all insane
Everyone raced to their lockers to get their shoes but stopped
“Ha! I got chocolates from (Name)! Suck it losers!” Kuni cheered triumphantly
“We all got chocolates from them jackass.” Al Haitham said
Kuni looked around to see everyone holding a little box
“They even made me dog safe chocolate.” Gorou said desperately trying to hide his wagging tail
“They gave me chocolate before I could even gift them mine? I will get vengeance!” Eula said
“Chocolate and a cuddle session with (Name)? This is the best day ever.” Xilonen muttered to herself
“What?!” Everyone shouted in unison
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28harryssunflower · 2 days ago
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A mafia Valentine
The Venetian chandelier above you glows softly, casting golden light over the sprawling penthouse. The air is filled with the scent of roses - hundreds of them, maybe even thousands - arranged in every corner of the room. Petals are scattered across the polished marble floor, leading toward the enormous king-sized bed draped in crimson silk sheets. Everywhere you turn, there’s something extravagant - a wall of designer dresses, diamond-studded jewelry boxes, limited-edition handbags, and neatly stacked gift boxes wrapped in fine satin ribbons.
It’s overwhelming. It’s too much.
Your heart races as you take it all in. The weight of it, the sheer excess of it, makes your chest tighten.
“Harry,” you breathe, turning to face him.
He stands a few feet away, dressed in his usual tailored black slacks and an expensive silk shirt, the top few buttons undone to reveal the inked patterns of his tattoos. His rings gleam under the warm lighting, his fingers adorned with silver and gold. He watches you with a satisfied smirk, the green of his eyes dark with amusement and something softer - something you still struggle to put a name to.
“Happy Valentine’s Day, love,” he says smoothly, stepping toward you. “D’you like it?”
You swallow hard, looking back at the gifts. “Like it?” you echo, a dry laugh slipping past your lips. “Harry, this is- this is too much. It’s always too much, but today… today it’s way too much.”
His smirk falters slightly, and for a moment, he just watches you, his expression unreadable. “Too much?” he repeats, his voice quieter now. “Think you deserve the world, angel.”
You shake your head, stepping toward him with a deep breath. “Harry, money isn’t something to… to just throw around like this.” Your voice wavers slightly as you motion toward the lavish gifts surrounding you. “It’s precious. You shouldn’t be spending so much on me. I’ve told you before, but today… this is insane. I don’t even want to imagine how much all of this cost.”
He exhales slowly, his gaze never leaving yours.
“You don’t have to imagine it,” he murmurs. “It’s not your concern.”
You frown, your chest tightening. “But it is my concern,” you insist. “I know what it’s like to have nothing, Harry. I know what it’s like to go to bed hungry, to wake up and wonder how you’re going to survive another day. And now… now you’re handing me things people could only dream of.” You run a shaky hand through your hair. “It- it feels wrong. Like I don’t deserve it. Like you’re just wasting all of this on me when you could be doing something better with it.”
Silence settles between you, thick and heavy.
Harry’s jaw clenches, a flicker of something dark passing through his gaze. When he finally moves, it’s slow, deliberate. He steps closer, his hand reaching up to gently cup your chin.
“Look at me,” he murmurs.
You do, though your heart pounds at the intensity of his gaze.
“You had nothing before,” he says, his voice low, steady. “And I swore I’d give you everything.” His thumb brushes over your bottom lip, his touch impossibly gentle despite the power that radiates from him. “You think I don’t know what money means? I do. That’s why I use it to make sure you’ll never suffer again. I want you to have everything because you deserve it.” His grip tightens slightly, just enough to make your breath hitch. “Because you’re mine.”
Your lips part, but you have no idea how to respond. His words wrap around you like a promise - one that holds more weight than you can fully comprehend.
“I don’t need all of this,” you whisper, barely able to find your voice. “I just need you.”
A slow smirk tugs at the corner of his mouth, but his eyes soften. “I know,” he murmurs, tilting his head slightly. “But I need you to have it.”
Your brows furrow. “Why?”
His forehead rests against yours, his breath warm against your lips, but your mind is still spinning.
You know Harry means well. That he loves you in the only way he knows how - through protection, through possession, through making sure you’ll never have to suffer again. But sometimes, it’s just too much.
Your fingers clutch the fabric of his silk shirt, grounding yourself.
“You don’t have to buy me things to prove that you love me,” you whisper.
Harry exhales sharply, his fingers flexing against your waist. “That’s not what this is about.”
“Then what is it about?” you ask, pulling back just enough to search his face. His emerald eyes flicker with something unreadable, something deep. “Because I feel like every time I try to tell you that I don’t need all of this, you just double down.”
His jaw tightens. “Because you don’t know what it does to me,” he mutters, his voice strained.
You blink up at him, confused. “What what does to you?”
Harry releases you, running a hand through his curls as he steps back. He’s silent for a moment, his expression guarded.
Then, finally, he speaks.
“You ever wonder how I found you?” he asks quietly.
You swallow, not expecting the sudden change in conversation. “What?”
“How I found you,” he repeats, tilting his head slightly. “That night. When you were barely getting by.”
You shift uncomfortably, memories creeping in. The cold. The hunger. The exhaustion that had settled so deep in your bones that you had almost given up entirely. You had been at your lowest when Harry had found you, sweeping into your life like a storm - dangerous, intense, and unstoppable.
“I don’t know,” you admit. “You never told me.”
Harry exhales through his nose, shaking his head slightly. “I wasn’t looking for you,” he murmurs. “I was tracking down some lowlife that owed me money. A guy who had been hiding from me for months.” He pauses, his gaze darkening. “And then I saw you.”
You stare at him, your heart pounding.
“You were sitting outside that shitty café, shivering in that thin jacket.” His voice lowers, rough with something raw. “Your hands were shaking. You looked exhausted. And when you thought no one was looking, you stole a piece of bread off a table someone had left behind.”
Your stomach twists with shame. You remember that night. How your pride had shattered the moment you reached for that half-eaten piece of food.
Harry steps closer again, his gaze locking onto yours. “I’ve seen desperate people before,” he continues, his voice softer now. “People who would do anything to survive. But you?” His thumb brushes against your cheek. “You were starving, freezing, and still… when I sat down next to you, you told me to leave you alone.”
Your lips part, but you don’t know what to say.
Harry lets out a quiet chuckle, though there’s no humor in it. “You had nothing. And you still had your pride.” His eyes darken slightly. “But I couldn’t walk away. Couldn’t get you out of my head. So I found out who you were. Where you had come from. And I swore - right then and there - that you would never live like that again.”
Your breath catches in your throat.
“That’s why I do this, angel,” he murmurs, cupping your face between his hands. “Why I spoil you. Why I give you more than you think you need. Because I know what it feels like to starve.” His thumb traces along your cheekbone. “And I know that even though you tell me you’re fine, there’s still a part of you that’s afraid of going back to that life.”
Tears prick at your eyes before you can stop them. You try to look away, but Harry doesn’t let you.
“You’re mine now,” he whispers. “And as long as I’m breathing, you will never have to be that girl again.”
A shaky breath leaves your lips. “Harry-“
He silences you with a kiss, deep and slow, his hands holding you like you’re the most precious thing in the world. And maybe, to him, you are.
When he finally pulls away, his smirk returns, though it’s softer now.
“Now,” he murmurs, his hands slipping down to your waist, “are you going to let me spoil you today, or are we going to spend the whole night arguing?”
You let out a small laugh, shaking your head. “You’re impossible.”
Harry grins. “And you’re everything, angel.”
And despite the diamonds, the designer dresses, and the endless luxuries - you know that, in his eyes, you are the most valuable thing he has ever owned.
The room is quiet except for the steady rhythm of your breath and the faint rustling of silk as Harry’s fingers toy with the hem of your dress. The weight of his words still lingers in the air, settling deep in your chest like an anchor.
You’ve always known that Harry was possessive - that his love was fierce, all-consuming, and unwavering. But hearing the full story, remembering the night he found you, makes everything feel even heavier.
His protection, his obsession with spoiling you, his need to make sure you never go without - it all makes sense now.
And yet…
You place your hands on his chest, gently pushing him back just enough to meet his eyes.
“I hear you,” you say softly. “I do. And I know you just want to take care of me. But, Harry… I don’t want to forget where I came from.”
His jaw tightens slightly, the ghost of a frown flickering across his face. “You don’t have to.”
“But I don’t want to live in fear of it either,” you continue, your voice steady. “And I don’t want you to, either. Because that’s what this is, isn’t it?” You tilt your head, searching his gaze. “You’re afraid. Afraid that if you stop, if you let me go without anything, I’ll somehow slip back into that life.”
Harry’s hands flex against your waist. He doesn’t confirm it, but he doesn’t deny it either.
You take a deep breath, running your fingers lightly over his collarbone. “I love you,” you murmur. “And I love how much you love me. But you don’t have to prove anything to me, Harry. I already know you’d burn the world down for me.” A small smile tugs at the corner of your lips. “You don’t have to buy me the world too.”
He watches you, his gaze unreadable, and for a long moment, he doesn’t say anything.
Then, slowly, he exhales, his forehead pressing against yours once again.
“Christ,” he mutters. “You make it so damn hard to argue with you.”
You laugh softly, wrapping your arms around his neck. “Maybe because you know I’m right.”
Harry hums, his hands sliding lower, pulling you flush against him. “Mmm. Maybe.”
There’s something different in his expression now - less tension, more ease. He still wants to spoil you. That much is obvious. But maybe, he understands you a little better now.
His lips brush against your ear. “But I’m still taking you to dinner tonight.”
You roll your eyes, though you’re smiling. “Of course you are.”
“And you’re still wearing the dress I bought you.”
You glance over at the extravagant black gown hanging on the rack, undoubtedly worth more than your entire childhood home.
You sigh. “Fine.”
Harry smirks. “And the diamonds.”
You narrow your eyes. “Harry-“
He silences you with another kiss, slow and deep, his fingers threading through your hair. When he finally pulls away, his smirk has softened, replaced by something quieter, something that makes your heart ache.
“I love you,” he murmurs, his thumb brushing over your cheek.
You smile, resting your forehead against his. “I love you too.”
And as much as he spoils you, as much as he overwhelms you with more than you think you need, you know this - he is the only luxury you’ll ever truly want.
The restaurant Harry takes you to is unlike anything you’ve ever seen before - an exclusive, candlelit terrace overlooking the city, where only the most powerful and untouchable people dine. The soft hum of a violinist fills the air, mixing with the low murmur of conversation, but all you can focus on is the man sitting across from you.
Harry Styles, the most feared mafia boss in the city, watching you with a look so intense it makes your breath catch.
Dinner had been perfect. The finest wine, the most exquisite food, all chosen just for you. Harry never does anything halfway, and tonight is no exception. But still, something feels different. There’s a tension in the air, a kind of anticipation that makes your pulse quicken.
You set your glass down, eyeing him carefully. “Alright,” you say, crossing your arms on the table. “You’ve been staring at me all night like you’re up to something. What is it?”
Harry chuckles, leaning back in his chair, his rings glinting under the warm light. “Can’t a man admire his girl?”
You narrow your eyes. “You admire me every day. This is different.”
He smirks, shaking his head. “Always too smart for your own good.”
Your heart skips a beat when he suddenly stands, reaching into his pocket before holding out a hand. “Come with me.”
You blink, glancing around. “Harry, we’re in the middle of dinner-“
“Dinner’s over,” he says simply, his green eyes dark with something unreadable. “Come on, angel.”
Curiosity buzzes inside you as you slip your hand into his, letting him pull you to your feet. He leads you through the terrace, past the elegant diners who all seem to shrink in his presence.
And then, just when you think he’s about to guide you back to the car, he takes a sharp turn - leading you toward a private rooftop.
Your breath catches as the sight unfolds before you.
The rooftop is empty except for a sea of white roses, their petals glowing under the soft golden fairy lights strung across the railing. The city sparkles in the distance, the skyline stretching endlessly under the night sky.
It’s beautiful.
You turn to Harry, heart pounding. “Harry… what is this?”
He doesn’t answer right away. Instead, he steps closer, his hands finding your waist as he looks down at you, his expression softer than you’ve ever seen it.
“I’ve given you everything,” he murmurs. “Everything money can buy. But there’s still one thing I haven’t given you yet.”
Your stomach flips, realization dawning.
Harry takes a slow breath, then drops to one knee.
You gasp, your hands flying to your mouth as he reaches into his pocket and pulls out a small black box.
“I told you I’d never let you suffer again,” he says, his voice steady. “That I’d give you the world, that I’d protect you with everything I have.” He flicks the box open, revealing a breathtaking diamond ring - elegant, stunning, perfect.
Your eyes sting with unshed tears.
“But none of it means anything if I don’t have you,” Harry continues. “You are the only thing I’ve ever truly needed.” He exhales, his fingers tightening around the box. “So, marry me. Let me make you mine forever.”
Your chest feels like it might burst.
The man who once ruled through fear, who held the entire city in the palm of his hand, was now on his knees before you, asking you to be his forever.
A tear slips down your cheek as you let out a shaky laugh. “Of course, you idiot,” you whisper. “Of course, I’ll marry you.”
Harry’s lips curl into a relieved smirk as he slides the ring onto your finger before pulling you down into his arms, crashing his lips against yours in a kiss that steals the breath from your lungs.
And as the city lights glow around you, you realize.
This was all you ever truly needed.
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msookyspooky · 2 days ago
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♡ Ghostface Yandere HC ♡
Pt 1
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𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝙸𝚗𝚌𝚕𝚞𝚍𝚎: 𝙱𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚢, 𝚂𝚝𝚞, 𝙼𝚒c𝚔𝚎𝚢, 𝚁𝚘𝚖𝚊𝚗, Jill, Ethan
TW: Very Dark Themes, Blood, Murder, Noncon/Dubcon, Abuse, 18+ Mature Themes: DLDR
Divider by @strangergraphics
🩸 Happy Valentines Day 🫀
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𝔹𝕚𝕝𝕝𝕪 𝕃𝕠𝕠𝕞𝕚𝕤:
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♡ Is a secret Yandere that isn't very good at hiding it but tries. He is obsessed yet doesn't show it till he can't handle how much he needs you
♡ Has so many lyrics and written love notes about you stored away
♡ Compares your relationship to Movie Couples and it gets progressively worse. "We're kinda like Chucky and Tiffany." you can take as joke. But soon "I think Jack Torrance had the right idea." or "I wouldn't be mad if you were like Anne Wilkes." starts to become...Unnerving.
♡ Thinks you're so deep and different than the people of Woodsboro. Holds you to an impossible standard and gets enraged / hurt when you accidentally shatter his delusion
♡ Tries to spare you from his Woodsboro Massacre but traumatized you regardless. Calling you and chasing you down in costume near or on that night almost like a sexual tease to himself
♡ He never Sexual Assaults you despite the filthy, proactive, awful fantasies he tells you over the phone through the voice modulator. He has a massive Madonna Whore complex and refuses to look at you as the latter.
♡ He trusts movie logic that pure virgins live; and you're not like those other weak sluts, are you? No, you are the most pure thing to him. His Angel that he can corrupt on his terms.
♡ His Angel to pluck your wings and glue them back on while kissing your tears away. He loves you more than Horror Movies or his Mother or Revenge and he is NEVER letting you go.
♡ In his eyes, it's only you and him in this town. You don't need family, friends, not even pets if they occupy more of your time than him. You don't need anyone else.
𝕊𝕥𝕦 𝕄𝕒𝕔𝕙𝕖𝕣:
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♡ Flirts shamelessly in front of others. Even if you have a partner, he flirts and side eyes them the whole time. In fact, they're gonna come up dead soon anyways
♡ A total yandere through and through that doesn't even hide it; it just gets played off as flirting or jokes. He plays the goofy, laid-back, cool guy but he cannot hide his emotions; especially his obsession for you
♡ He could sniff your hair or steal your jacket and inhale it in private as if it's a lifeline and because he's such a funny cool guy; it gets played off for laughs. He can say, 'I'm totally gonna lock you in my basement.' with a goofy grin and everyone, even you, thinks it's a joke...He's dead serious behind that smile.
♡ Manipulates you with gifts to make you feel bad. Anything you want, he gets. Money's no option for him, babe.
♡ Weeks later those phone calls start
♡ When he comes on too strong and you turned him down; the mask falls. He gets angry and insults you even making threats like 'you'll regret it'
♡ He relishes your fear. It turns him on and he doesn't hide that fact. But his harmless scare pranks are lining up suspiciously with the killers whereabouts...
♡ Once he chases you he teases you seductively with that knife. Loves the way your breath catches and you tremble. Ah, you're just so cute to him like this! All doe eyed and scared.
♡ He gives you an ultimatum; strip for him and do what he says or die. He may have his own complexes but he didn't believe in the horror movie rules like Billy; he just needed an excuse to kill for fun. And you? You looked VERY fun...A different kind of fun than just killing.
♡ He makes the experience orgasmic as it is primal like the real him comes out once the knife is in hand. Sure, maybe you'll cry from being violated, having his gloved fingrrs over every inch of your trembling form. You cry yet he gives you so much pleasure as he devotes his every touch to you. Best part? With that mask you don't even know it's him.
♡ When you're traumatized he comes by later to 'Borrow something' and finds you crying and in turmoil over your body enjoying what your mind didn't
♡ He comforts you and shhes you so tenderly as you cling to him. Promises Ghostface won't come back for you so long as he's around but you probably should let him stay the night just to keep you safe
𝕄𝕚𝕔𝕜𝕖𝕪 𝔸𝕝𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕚:
♡ He wants no one but you. He'd only kill you if you forced him to and he'd make it the most pleasurable erotic death one could imagine and desecrate your corpse like a work of art; like a shrine.
♡ He could be your dog at your feet or your worst nightmare; your choice.
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♡ He knows how to play up the goofy vibe to get what he wants but the second you irk him; his eyes darken and a slight sneer appears...He has to hide it. Can't have you knowing he's a serial killer. Not yet at least.
♡ Another yandere that doesn't hide well
♡ Met you in Film Theory and thinks you playfully debating him was foreplay. You want him so bad you're just being shy; he just knows it
♡ Like Stu but less flashy. Gets you coffee, donuts or roses regularly
♡ He's so good at disarming you. He knows how to be a good guy and friend, knows how to make the flirting disguised as playful banter, and yet...He can't quite hide the way he looks at you like you're a piece of meat he wants to devour.
♡ Records everything about you You're his muse.
♡ Takes you to all the parties and keeps you on his arm all night and the second he has a meltdown over you talking to a 'friend' in his eyes you see a side you don't like and try to get away
♡ It's not long before a Ghostface shows up and drags you to the nearby wooded area near campus
♡ He's too excited to not reveal himself and threatens you; be mine or every friend you have dies
ℝ𝕠𝕞𝕒𝕟 𝔹𝕣𝕚𝕕𝕘𝕖𝕣:
♡ Takes Advantage of you in a way that feels like requited love to him. You were shuddering and sniffling back tears from being overwhelmed that's all. Especially while gagging on him slowly while he recorded you thinking you were the most magnificent being in the World.
♡ Holds you while your spacing out at this predicament. Petting your hair with a smile as if you just made love because in his mind, you did. You'll learn to love him as he tells you in detail how he's killed people and how many to let it sink in how you better be good to him
♡ Might even let you watch his 'video projects' including the one you just filmed on your knees crying and gagging on it as he whispers sweet nothings to you. He adores you.
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♡ A yandere that hides it well. Charming Director that just thought you'd be a perfect Scream King/Queen for his latest flick and NO ONE is the wiser
♡ Pays extra attention to you. Pays for you to have the best dressing room, fresh fruit and flowers daily best hair and makeup and wardrobe. He treated you like you were an A-Lister.
♡ Little did you know...Roman already knows everything about you and scouted you out on purpose for no other reason but thinking he was attracted to you and deserved you. No one deserves you as much as him
♡ He becomes extremely demanding of your time even when everyone else is going home and definitely puts the moves on you in a subtle way while being able to apologize and reel it in just enough for you to feel silly for thinking he was anything but professional
♡ He wanted a nude/semi nude scene with you in it you weren't sure about but after a lot of convincing; you concede
♡ Has nothing but possessive, dark lust in his eyes while watching you perform; fires, yells at, kills anyone for looking at you or touching you too long even if it's in their job description
♡ You try to talk to him after he went on a firing / yelling rampage and he gave a chuckle of barely suppressed rage that, 'You're my muse; NO ONE elses.'
♡ You started realizing this was beyond unprofessional when it was too late and you were deep in this screening and contracts
♡ If you try to quit? You see a heartbroken Roman that is nothing more than the tip of the iceberg
♡ You soon get visited by Ghostface that roughens you up with bruises, cuts, manhandling, groping. You had a bloody lip he'll kiss better later and was getting choked and fondled at the same time and unable to get away. C'mon even if you were fighting it was all acting baby! He just knew you secretly liked it in his mind. Just like all those secret videos of you he recorded of your private life. He just knew you had to have seen the camera and played coy with him in his deranged mind.
♡ He reveals himself after having some 'fun' and shows you a contract you signed that if you wanted to work in Hollywood again and didn't want to die you'd be in many of his films working close with eachother...He owns you.
𝕁𝕚𝕝𝕝 ℝ𝕠𝕓𝕖𝕣𝕥𝕤:
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♡ She's a Yandere that teeters between being inconspicuous and obvious all depending on how much or how little she gets her way with you as her possession
♡ You had been friends with her for a while and you always thought she was extremely sweet and understanding but very, very jealous. You couldn't be friends with others without her making an issue of it
♡ Has whole collages, collections, heartshaped photos of you two as 'best friends'
♡ She always strings you along and the second you've had enough of her drama she'll cry softly or beg and lure you back in. It's almost a game she finds endearing in her fucked up mind.
♡ She never cared about Trevor, only you. You would never betray her like Trevor, would you? Of course not. She KNOWS you. She knows you better than you know yourself. You're just such a cute naive idiot she has to look out for in the world.
♡ She leaves you out of the plan to get fame by killing. She doesn't even want you in the limelight together because it takes attention away from her AND...Why should anyone get to look at what's hers?
♡ You see the cracks in her facade when you do something that 'wasn't part of her plans' and she has a complete meltdown in a way that leaves you reeling. Not even recognizing her as she rages, throws things, breaks shit and demands you stop doing whatever it is your doing
♡ If you call off your 'friendship'? She'll kill you first. You belong to her. You're property at this point and If she can't have you? No one can.
♡ Dresses as Ghostface, something she usually lets her lacky do but considers it good roleplaying foreplay as she hunts you down, beats the shit out of you from hurling you into things to almost killing you multiple times. After all, you're her's to do whatever to.
♡ Takes off the mask glaring down at you while your on the ground. You made her do this. It didn't have to be this but you forced her!
♡ Straddles you and strips your shirt off with her knife while kissing and biting all over you talking about having her way with you one last time before she hacks you up because a dead you that belongs to her is better than you moving on without her
♡ If you convince her to let you live? You're hers entirely. From what you wear to who you hang out with...Oh, it's not so bad. Just think; once she gets away with it you and her can never do this Ghostface crap again and live happily ever after with her and only her
𝔼𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕟 𝔹𝕒𝕚𝕝𝕖𝕪:
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♡ Yandere disguised as a Golden Retriever that people would argue with you he's just 'clingy' or 'sensitive'. It's very effective.
♡ Is devoted to you and no one but you. Makes you gifts, buys you things that remind him of you, offers you anything of his, frets over you constantly, tries to please you in anyway he can
♡ His yandere side doesn't come out till he sees you talking to another guy like Chad too long...And you look over to see such a dark menacing stare. It didn't look like the Ethan you knew
♡ Any arguments have him spiraling and screaming at you and breaking something that makes you jerk back in shock before he'll crumble in front of you to your feet crying and apologizing. Begging you to overlook his red flags. It was a mistake! That's all.
♡ He keeps you attached to him for a lot longer than most because he's so incredibly good at guilt tripping
♡ He needs you. He cannot live without you. His whole life is consumed in revenge and malice and you're the light in the tunnel for him. A day without you is like a day without sunshine
♡ Calls or text you constantly and if you don’t answer? His text don’t get meaner, oh no, he just becomes Ghostface and stalks you
♡ God help you if he sees you even with a friend or family member (hopefully a stranger or acquaintance) ignoring his text to talk to them
♡ He's emotionally driven and cannot help when he attacks. Kills them and stalks towards you covered in blood. Once the mask is off you see just how deranged he really is. Going from threatening and lecturing you to smiling and saying how you both can be together and just DON'T shut him out ever again and everything will be okay
♡ He becomes extremely tied to you. You cannot go anywhere or do anything without him involved. He loves you, don't you see it? Now, say it back or else; maybe you have too many other people near you taking up the love you should be giving to him? He can fix that.
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thebvbbletea · 2 days ago
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I love love love thamepo in general, and I know it's pretty soon to say it since they still have 3 more episode and maybe it would be change in the future, but I think this episode is THE episode to me.
Since the first time they showing us the mock trailer, I already in love with the whole 'idol couldn't date anyone, that they're betraying their fans' theme that they're bringing. This theme has been around so much, especially with k-pop idols, we seen how many of them has to let go their career & dream just because they're dating someone. Gmm already try to bringing it a little bit in only boo! And then deepening it in this series. ALSO I kinda admire how they're so brave to make the real active idol group acting out in the series instead of making a new non-existed group.
And I would never tired of saying this. But, idols are humans too. They have real feelings. They have real hearts. They could feel love & hurts. They could fallin love with other people just like us.
And the dialogue that strikes me the most in this episode is "what if someone really wants to be an idol? Aren't there any other choices for them about the rules", "per and I dating someone doesn't mean we love our fans less than before. What we're doing now, trying to keep the group keep going, isn't just for ourselves. We're doing it for our fans too", "from filming their documentary for some time already, I can tell no way they will love you guys less. Do you know why? That's because you're part of their dreams, their future and their lives. No matter if they're dating someone or not, without you, they won't be able to protect their dreams at all".
That 3 conversation sums all of the discussion about the whole 'idols can't dating' themes. The reason why they're been doing what they're doing, ofc beside because of the money (bcs let's be realistic), is also for the fans. And I also love how they also showing us how scary it is that people are so easy to attacking someone else, digging up their personal life & wishing them d*th just because they're dating the said idols.
By leaking idols private life, is not only damaging that idol life, but also their partner and other people around them. And just like I said in the beginning. Just because fans buy their merchandise, albums, participate in voting, streaming, it doesn't means you could literally buy and own them. It's fine to sometimes criticize them, WHEN THEY'RE ACTUALLY DOING SOMETHING WRONG OR CRIMINAL. But, punishing someone just because they fall in love with someone else it's truly not fair.
If you banned idol just because they're dating, then by that logic, shouldn't you be banning all people that dating right now? Because once again, idols are ordinary humans, just like us. With the three episode left, I really really really hope they maintaning this good storyline 'till the end. Because oh god, I don't know why but watching thamepo is doesn't feel like watching gmmtv production. It felt more deep, more soft and more high quality then their other series. AND I LOVE IT.
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sweetbillwriting · 22 hours ago
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Way Out of Line
SEVEN
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Character: Keith Toshko from Barbarian (2022) played by Bill Skarsgård.
Warnings: 18+, NSFW, heavy themes.
My family and I had gone to Aspen since I was seven. My dad's practice went well, and we had recently bought the house we lived in now; the one before had been much more modest. I had never seen myself belonging to a class; for me, my family was just an ordinary family, but after I had started college, I had realized what a safe environment I came from. Jason and I were given trips, expensive clothes, and had done the activities we wanted since we were kids. I started to go to the hairdresser every fourth week when I was twelve. For me, money wasn't that big of an issue and probably why I didn't react that much to the news that Keith was rich. The only thing I could think was that it might be easier to get my parents to accept us as a couple if he could give me economic security, but otherwise I just thought about his divorce. It wouldn't be easy for him to become a single man.
The thought of his divorce was what destroyed the trip for me because I couldn't really enjoy the present. The only thing I could enjoy were our late-night conversations and what he had taught me. He was the one teaching me how to masturbate. My finger transformed to his during our conversations and also his cock, even if my fingers were much smaller.
“I’ve gotten something for you. When you come home, your dad will receive a package for me that he will put in my bedroom, but then you can get it.”
I looked at him with a small smile, believing it would be jewelry or maybe a dress, now that I knew he had money. He sat with a bare chest against a white wall with some fluffy brown pillows behind him. I sat naked on the bed of my hotel room, tired after having two orgasms.
“What is it?”
“It's a dildo,” he said with a smirk. Just the word made me blush but another feeling followed. Was it disgust? I couldn't tell, but it obviously showed on my face because Keith laughed.
“Baby, it's nothing weird. Especially not when I work like I do. I will be away like this again, and I think you need a better replacement for me than your small hands. It will hurt again when I come home otherwise.”
I didn't say anything because I only thought about the plastic manhood and felt the weird feeling spread through my chest. It was one thing to call him daddy and show my naked body on Snapchat, but receiving a sex toy? Even if I didn't know if I believed in Jesus, I could feel him judging me from above.
“It's classy, I promise. And pink.”
I swallowed hard because to me his cock was also pink, and even if I had learned to appreciate his cock’s appearance, I didn't need a plastic replica in my nightstand drawer.
“And it's smaller, so it will be kinder than me,” he joked, even if he always was kind when we had any form of sex.
“Okay…” I said with an exhalation, prepared to give it a chance. I could look at it first. Keith smiled sweetly.
“There is also lube and handcuffs in there.”
��Keith!” I said now with rose-red cheeks that made him laugh.
“What? Come on, baby girl, it's nothing. It's just for fun, but we don't have to do anything. I guess… You just make me so fucking horny. The pictures of you… I look at them so much it's unhealthy. I've just parked somewhere to jerk off sometimes and…” He dragged his hands through his hair like he was embarrassed, and I laughed at his awkward body language. He looked so sweet when he looked all uncomfortable, but he was dirty under that sweet persona.
I could see how his eyes fell to my naked breasts again, and without looking up, he corrected his phone and how he sat so I could see that impressive erection lay against his belly. I giggled, and he smirked and dragged his hand over his shaft.
“What is it, princess?” He said with a smirk. “Are you laughing at Daddy?”
“No, Daddy,” I giggled and bit my thumb, attractively.
“Otherwise, I must spank you even more when I come home.”
“Even more?”
“Yes, you’ll be punished for not accompanying me to Detroit.”
“You never asked!”
“You should have asked, so this is your fault, baby girl. Daddy shouldn't need to do all the work.”
He smirked teasingly, and I scoffed, amused at him.
“Can you get on all fours over your phone so I can see if you're wet for Daddy?”
I blushed again. It was obvious he liked it when I became embarrassed and felt challenged, but as I was told. I always did what he wanted because I realized I liked it too. I liked the power he had over me and how he made me feel small but sexy.
He told me to touch myself, and I could hear him jerk off even if I couldn't see him. Just that was a turn-on. I knew he probably took some screenshots too, because he always did. He was a dirty old man who jerked off in his car between house showings, but I liked it, and I sent him more photos without him even asking. He liked close up videos of me masturbating but he also liked innocent photos of me pouting in discontent. He liked when I woke him up with a sweet message or sent him a video of me doing my makeup.
I wondered if he was in love with me, if he thought about me as much as I thought about him. It did seem like it because every night he called me when he was away. He did the last week he was away too.
“So what, you share a house with that girl now? I asked on the phone. He hadn't video called me that night but voice called me instead in a hushed tone, probably so the girl wouldn't hear him.
The Airbnb he stayed in had been double booked, and because of some conference in Detroit, neither of them could find another place to stay. He told me the girl was probably a few years younger than him and was quite nervous in his presence. I couldn't understand why; Keith was the sweetest man.
“But like… Where will you sleep?” I asked carefully.
“On the couch. I can't let a woman stay on the couch, my mom taught me better,” he joked, and I made an amused sound even if I was worried.
“Where is she now?”
“She’s in the bathroom.”
I swallowed hard. I was Keith's mistress; could he cheat on me too? He had an easy chance now, in another town, living with some girl without a connection to him, his wife, or me.
“Is she pretty?” I asked with a dry, nervous voice.
“Baby…” he said with a sigh.
“Please just answer. Is she pretty?”
Keith was silent on the line a few too many seconds, and that really said it all to me, but he still answered.
“I guess she is, but…” he sighed again.
I had no idea how Keith was towards other women. He was a sweet, good-looking guy. Tall and manly. I didn't even know if he needed to be any certain way to get women's attention, but I still wondered if he was the flirty kind. He had caught me on his hook so easily even when I had considered myself elusive.
“So what are you doing, baby girl?” He tried to change the subject; it was painfully obvious, but I let him. I didn't know what more I could say on the subject.
“I’m just watching a series.”
He tried to get me to talk about the series, but our conversation died quite quickly. I noticed by the questions he asked that he prepared himself to hang up.
“I will never forgive you if you sleep with her!”
The words suddenly burst from me, right before we would say goodbye.
“I will not sleep with her.” He sighed, and I could hear irritation in his voice.
“Yes, you will! I know you will! Look what you're doing to me! My dad is your best friend!”
I was a crying desperate mess, spilling out my fears on him.
“How can I trust you?!”
Keith was silent on the line until I heard a low, unamused laugh.
“Ohh… Wow! I think it's time for us to hang up here… I need a drink. I… I’ll see you around.”
“Keith… Daddy…” I whined. I said the pet name in an attempt to gain his attention, but he gave me a low goodbye before hanging up. I looked at the phone in my hand, now crying silently to myself. Why did I say all that? I hadn't even so much as thought about how our relationship could tell you about him as a person. Now, it clearly came up as soon as I felt unsure about him.
I thought about calling him back, but something told me Keith wasn't the person who would see that as a type of love language; he would just see it as annoying. Instead, I wrote a message on Snapchat:
I'm sorry for what I said. I didn't mean it, and I trust you. Please just call tomorrow or something. I really like you, Keith.
He opened it but didn't answer.
×××
Dad stood by the entrance door with the anonymous brown package in his hands. He casually chatted with the delivery guy and dropped the package to his side. I had heard him say it was to Keith Toshko, so I knew what my dad held in his hand, while he didn't have a clue. He closed the door when the delivery guy turned his back on him and then looked down on the package. It was as big as a small shoebox, and he could easily hold it in one hand. I stood by the stairs, having paused in my steps after hearing the delivery guy say Keith's name. My dad looked at me, looked again at the box, then stretched his arms out towards me.
“Can you put this on Jason's bed for Keith?” I looked at the box like he gave me a loaded weapon and put my hands behind my back, afraid to even touch it. It was no longer for me, but it was still meant to be for me.
“Why can't you do it?” I asked with a small voice. My dad furrowed his brows.
“Sure, I can. I just thought you were on your way up?”
“I must study.” I said it shortly and ran up the stairs without looking back at him. It felt like he would be able to see by me or the box that we belonged together if we were in the same room for too long. It wasn't a realistic thought, but in my world of sadness, secrets, and lies, it was. I had already lost Keith, so now I would do everything to be my dad's little girl again.
×××
I stared at the book lying on the pillow in my lap. The letters could have been Chinese letters because I couldn't understand them anyway. I just thought about mine and Keith's conversation from the day before. I regretted it so hard that I had even asked him about the girl he had to share a space with. I should have just pretended I didn't care at all, like it was just normal that he would share a house with a girl he didn't know, but every emotion in my body became hard to control, and I could feel emotions I had never felt before flying around my heart. I couldn't even name them or differentiate them. It just felt like some sort of creature had started to chew inside of me, on every organ, and wanted to break free.
Of all of the feelings, I could differentiate two, though: two feelings I often felt with Keith: curiosity and horniness. I want to look through that package. I wanted to see what he wanted us to explore. He had thought about us when he ordered it. Because he wanted to be with me.
I tried to continue to read in my book about 1800th-century English but let it glide down from the pillow in disinterest. I needed to get the package. Keith had said I should do that, so carefully I sneaked down the hallway to Jason's room and opened the door slowly. Mom had cleaned it since Keith had left it, made the bed with new sheets, and left the few items Keith had forgotten on the dresser (a pair of black socks, AirPods, and a pack of cigarettes), but there wasn't a box on the bed as I had suspected. I walked into the room and looked around confused until I saw the box behind the dresser opened. The panic attacked me quickly, and I almost ran up to the box that really was opened. It was obvious what had happened; my dad had opened it. My dad had opened the box containing his daughter and best friend's sex toys. A numbness spread over my face and hands while I looked into the box. There was just a fuchsia-colored card in it with the company's logo.
It was quite awful of my father to open the box without permission, and I wondered what he would do with the contents. Did I want to know? I hoped he maybe had taken it hostage to bully his friend, but I couldn't stop other thoughts from coming over me. They were thoughts I hadn't even imagined in my wildest fantasy I would have.
I sneaked back to my room again with even more weird feelings, and the creature became even bigger, eating on my lungs. It was just all too much, and there wasn't anyone else to blame but me who had instigated it by showing my breasts to my dad's best friend.
×××
A week later, when I came home from campus on a late afternoon, I could feel another energy as soon as I came into the hallway. I knew he was back. I didn't even take off my outerwear; instead, I stood with my beating heart, waiting for it to come up through my throat.
They couldn't have heard I had came home, or they didn't care because I could hear both my parents and Keith from the living room. My parents laughed at something while Keith made a sound like he was embarrassed.
“But who is she then? You can trust us to not tell anyone,” said my dad curiously.
“It's over now.” Keith was short in his answer but didn't sound irritated.
“Why? Because of the divorce?” Asked my mom.
“We can say it like this: she was far too young.”
My dad made a weird laugh I hadn't heard before, and it sounded like my mom gave him a hit in the chest.
“How young?” He asked. He sounded excited, like he was the one dating a younger woman.
“Far too young. It's hard being with someone who—”
I stomped into the living room, still in my dirty boots and red coat. Keith sat in the white armchair closest to the entrance door with the back towards me. My parents sat on the matching couch with their faces towards me. Keith turned his face and looked straight at me.
“Hey, hey.” He gave me a small smile and a nod. I didn't have the opportunity to register his feelings.
“Honey!” My dad laughed awkwardly. He probably didn't think I should hear what Keith spoke about, and he gave my mom a pointed look.
“We've already eaten, but I saved you a plate.” My mom jumped up from the couch and approached me. “Take off your outerwear and I can warm it for you. It's schnitzel.”
I nodded a little but looked at my dad and the back of Keith's head. My dad still smirked, amused and proud, at Keith, like he was living through him, and my mom probably let him because they had been married for so long. Little did they know it was their daughter Keith talked about. That he got me to call him daddy and take his cock until I was bleeding. I wondered if my dad would smirk if he knew that.
I ate by myself in the dining room and let “the grown-ups” continue to talk, then I went to my room without saying anything to them. I still couldn't grasp my feelings, and hiding felt like the best option, but couldn’t for long because there was knock on my door just after 30 minutes.
“It's me…” said Keith through the door. I held my breath while I thought about what I would do even if I knew what I wanted, but I didn't know if I was ready.
“Come in.”
I sat under the cover, just dressed in panties and one of my many spaghetti tops. The clock was just 7pm, but it looked like I was ready for bed. Keith opened the door but stood at the threshold, dressed in a plaid flannel shirt and gray sweats. His feet were bare even if our floors were so cold.
“Are you okay?” He asked with care, as he walked into the room slowly. I nodded a little, waiting for him to talk because I had no idea what the creature would do if I opened my mouth.
“Good… Ehm… I'm sorry for talking downstairs… I shouldn't have, but your dad kind of found out I was seeing someone.”
Keith was classy to not tell how my father knew, but I knew all too well, but still I just nodded.
“Can I sit down?” Keith pointed at the bed, and I nodded again. He sat down softly on my floral sheets, and he dragged his hand over a pink velvet pillow. He looked around in my room, and I could guess what he was thinking—that I was just a little girl. He licked his plump lips and moved a bit nervously on the edge of the bed.
“I don't want us to end things like enemies. I don't want you to believe I am an asshole…”
“I know you're not,” I finally got out, and he looked at me with kind green eyes.
“But we must end things.” He added but looked at me in the same way. “You're young, and I don't think you're ready to be with someone so much older than you. I will always have women around because that's what a man of my age life looks like. I'm not a college boy.”
My throat had stopped working again even if I wanted to protest.
“I'm in the middle of a divorce. I worked with many different people, and I will not be by your side all the time, and maybe it's best if I move away from here. I don't want to complicate things for you.”
We looked deep into each other's eyes while I still was quiet. Keith swallowed in discomfort but didn't look away; he probably hoped for an answer, but it never came from me. I just tried to control the thing inside of me.
He patted my knee lightly, like some uncle would do, then he stood up.
“I hope we can be friends…” It was the last thing he said before leaving me alone.
×××
I sat by the breakfast table while my parents and Keith ran around the house in panic; I just buttered my bread unbothered even if I was the one that had created the mess. I looked at Keith standing in the hallway, dragging his hands through his slicked-back hair and threading his fingers together on his head. He wore a dark blue knitted sweater over a white button-up and black jeans and looked really dapper, but now he had messed his hair up so much he looked like he had walked through a storm.
“Are you sure you had it in the bathroom?” asked my mom as she nervously looked up at him. She was probably afraid she had by accident tossed it away—his wedding band.
“Yeah, I had put it next to the soap, then I thought I had put it in my toiletry bag, but it's not there,” said Keith, but he sounded quite unengaged, and it was then I realized he looked straight at me.
I looked down at my toast, spreading the orange marmalade over it so it mixed with the butter. I wouldn't say anything, and I knew Keith wouldn't cause a fight in front of my parents; that would expose everything to them. I heard Keith sigh loudly which turned into an irritated grunt. I didn't need to look to know that he was putting on his outerwear.
“I'm really so, so sorry, Keith. I will continue to search for it. It must be here somewhere.”
“We will find it… But May will not be happy…” Said Keith, trying to cover up his irritation. I looked up when I heard him say his wife's name. I couldn't see him anymore because he was behind the wall, but I could see my parents standing in the hallway, looking towards the entrance door where Keith was.
“She probably understands. You haven't worn it for a long time,” my mom tried to offer some assurance, as she walked closer to my dad, probably to get some support.
“Understand I've replaced my wedding ring? I don't think so. We had decided that we would collect all things of value to put in the safety box until we know how we will share it, and then I’ll come and say I can't find my wedding ring? She will not like it…” Keith sounded stressed, and I could see my parents felt the same thing while they looked at him.
“I think she will understand,” tried my mom again while my dad nodded.
Keith was silent, and even I could understand his annoyance, even if I was the thief. His ring still lay in my toiletry bag, and I would let it lie there for a while. I liked the thought of Keith's wife being really mad at him and him suffering. Even if Keith had let me go really nicely, I was still mad at him, but also, by holding on to that ring, it felt like I had some sort of effect on their divorce and that I wasn't as powerless as I had felt before. It felt like I could cause them to not get along and that Keith would never look at her again. Until I felt I didn't need that power anymore, I would give the ring back, but then and there I liked the power I had too much. Keith left as smoothly and silently as he did most things in life, but I knew he was irritated and that he had started to suspect me as the thief, but I would let him come and try to get it back if he dared.
×××
I hoped he would suspect me. I hoped he would suspect me so hard he felt forced to talk to me. I couldn't say why, but the thought of him being a bit mad at me turned me on even if I had lost him and he might just be angry at me for real. It was like anger was better than not getting any attention from him at all.
I got what I wanted because the next day when I came home, he leaned against the doorframe to the living room, and it looked like he was waiting for me. His hands were pushed down deep in the front pockets of his medium blue jeans, and his feet were bare. He wore just a simple black tee and looked relaxed with his hair messily styled back.
“Hey…” he said, dragging out the word so I understood he wanted to say something. I gave him a look but played nonchalant and took off my boots and my coat. I wore that little pink skirt he had commented on once before, and I could see he gave it a fast look.
“Can we talk? We're alone…” He stood up to his full height and made a lazy nod towards the living room.
“Why?” I asked with some attitude. I wanted to annoy him; I wanted to get some other feeling out of him other than that sweet, collected Keith he showed to the rest of the world.
“I was just wondering about something,” he said, just as nicely, and messed with a cuticle on his thumb.
“Then ask,” I said with a shoulder shrug.
Keith looked at me with big eyes, but they turned annoyed, and he looked away with a sour expression.
“Can we just sit down and talk like two grown-ups?”
“Grown-ups?” I said annoyed. “I thought I was just a little girl! Too young for everything!” I crossed my arms but still stood there, just welcoming a fight.
“For fuck's sake, Jaqueline…” Keith muttered and scratched his forehead. “I was just wondering if you've seen my wedding ring.”
I looked at him sourly, but I could see how he knew I was the one who had taken it, but he wanted me to say it myself, the same way you could teach kids to be ashamed. I felt ashamed when I looked at him because I couldn't really say why I had taken it. It was a childish act, but I didn't want to say to him how childish I actually was.
“I don't know. Maybe you have dropped it?”
“I haven't worn it since Christmas, and you know that too.”
I looked away like I didn't care, still with my arm crossed. Keith sighed but moved closer to me, so close I could smell his scent and needed to curl my neck in a C motion to see him.
“I’ll ask again…” His voice had changed. It was much darker and heavy, and I looked at him with an emotion similar to fear. “Have you seen it?”
He looked at me straight in the eyes, and I couldn't look away. His eyes were mesmerizing, big and hypnotic like the cat in Alice in Wonderland.
“I… I���” I stuttered and felt myself swaying on weak legs. I took a hold of his t-shirt just so I wouldn't fall backwards. I wanted to continue to play cool, but I couldn't, and instead I pushed my cheek against his chest and felt my eyes well up.
“I just want you to be mine...!”
I could both feel and hear Keith take a deep breath, then he laid his hand on the back of my head and patted my hair.
“You're jealous.” He said matter-of-factly. The word caused irritation to grow in my chest, and even if a tear fell, I pouted.
“No.”
“Yes, you are. You're a jealous, silly girl that believes every woman around me is your threat.”
“No…” I said but this time it was a bit shameful. I was jealous. I was jealous of his wife, who got to be his for real. I was jealous of that girl he lived with, who he could have done something with if he wanted to because he hadn't promised me anything. I was just the silly girl he could play silly games with.
Keith pulled me away from him, and with his hands on my shoulders, he looked at me. I stood with my eyes down at the ground so he wouldn't see my tears. If I had looked at him, I would have seen him smirking, amused at me, how he loved to make fun of me.
“Say you're jealous,” he teased, but it made me just start to cry more, and he laughed a little and pulled me against his chest again.
“You're so silly…” He laughed a little but bent down to give me a kiss on the nose. I looked up at him with hope it meant he forgave me.
“But you're my little silly baby.” I smiled carefully because I didn't dare to believe he had forgiven me. Keith laughed sweetly again, then gave me a soft kiss so I would understand we were back on it again.
×××
We sat together on the couch in the living room and looked at the ring between his fingers. I had gotten it for him, but to my surprise, he dragged me down the couch to look at it with him.
“I'm not in love with her. It was a long time ago I was in love with her,” said he and looked up at my face but lowered his eyes at the ring again.
“May?” I asked carefully, even if I knew. I had laid one of my legs over his and sat turned towards him, leaning my head against the back of the couch. Keith sat with spread legs, patting my nylon covered leg with his other hand.
“Yeah. May. We met when I was 25. That's a long time ago now…” He looked at me with a sad little smirk. I knew he looked at me that way because of the age. I was eight when he was 25.
“Got married when we were 28. We're the same age. Almost exactly, actually; her birthday is two days after mine…”
I looked down at my hands. Even if he said he wasn't in love with her, I could feel the emotions behind his words, and the jealousy we had talked about before made itself clear again.
“Our marriage died so slowly… I can't even really say what happened between us; it was just… A natural death?” He laughed a little and laid the ring on the coffee table. He turned to me, and when I looked up, I met his kind eyes and a bit of a worried smile.
“You okay?”
He dragged a hand over my thigh soothingly, and I faked a smile. I still felt jealous even if he said he didn't have feelings for her. Keith smiled crookedly and took my hand in his and kissed the inside of my wrist a couple of times. I looked at him with soft eyes and moved closer and closer to him so I could touch his lips with mine and feel my chest pressed up against his.
“I want you to be mine…” I whispered and looked down to see the part of him I knew I had some power over. I laid my hand over his belt, ready to open the thick leather, but he stopped me and laid his hand over mine.
“I know what you want, honey… I get that, but… If she finds out… Ehm… ” He dragged his other hand through his hair, stressed.
“I know about your money.”
I understood why he had such problems ending his sentence because he tried to keep his wealth a secret, but I already knew, so it felt easier for both him and me to just say I knew. “I know about your company and all that.”
Keith gave me a surprised look that transformed to an uncomfortable grimace. He lowered his eyes but nodded a little.
“Yeah… Yeah… She wants money. She would gladly see me cheat so she could get some of my family's money.” He looked up at me and moved closer to me.
“I can't let that happen because it was me who said to my family she and I would have a successful marriage. That we didn't need a prenup. And it's not my money. It's ours, my family's and… Fuck, I can't fuck this up, honey. However much I would like to be with you, I can't fuck this up.”
I understood what he meant but still had a hard time accepting it, so instead I got stuck sitting quietly and looking out over the room. Keith didn't say anything either for a long time until he stretched his arms like it was time for something else.
“Do you have any assignments I should look at?
I turned my eyes to him. At first, I couldn't understand what he was saying but nodded slowly when I finally did and thought about my schoolwork.
“Should I look at it?” He asked, patting my knee carefully. I nodded again and stood up as if I was in a trancelike state. I had too many thoughts, so it felt like it took longer for my brain to process my environment. I started to walk slowly towards the stairs to get my laptop in my room but turned around when my brain finally found what I had been wanting to ask.
“So it's over between us now?”
Keith looked up at me and dragged his hands over his jean-clad thighs.
“Do you want that?”
I gave him a strange look because I couldn't understand why he asked me that.
“I mean…” Keith stood up and approached me closely. It felt like I had forgotten how tall he actually was because I felt so small with him in front of me.
“I can't have a relationship with you, and I can't do anything about how my life looks… But of course I would want us to have our thing…” He smiled carefully and took my hand so he could play with my fingers. “The question is, do you want that? I understand if you feel that isn't fair…”
His eyes were big and full of emotions, and even if I knew the answer, I stood quietly and looked him deep in the eyes. He pulled me closer to his body and laid my hands on his chest.
“Hmm?” He said it like it was a real question, and it made me smile.
“That's okay… I want to—” I searched for the right word but couldn't find it, so in the stress of just talking, it didn't come out as I wanted.
“I want to love and sex with you.”
Keith looked amused when my cheeks grew redder and redder.
“I understand what you mean,” he said with a laugh, and then he leaned down and kissed me, healing everything that had happened before and soothing my embarrassment.
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The laptop stood in front of us on the coffee table with my assignment open, but Keith and I were busy making out. He pushed my hand against his crotch and dragged it over his erection harshly. When I started to do it by myself, he pushed me against the back of the couch with my legs up so he could drag his hand over my sex that was concealed under cotton panties and tights. I wished to have him closer but didn't dare to touch him more than over the jeans. Keith was not the shy one, though, and I could feel how his fingers worked between my legs. I thought he tried to just make it nice for me, but then he took a break from our kisses, looked me straight in the eyes, and then with a loud sound, he tore a big hole in the crotch of my tights. My eyes widened to double the size, and Keith smirked evilly while his fingers crept in the hole, moving my white panties to the side.
“Daddy just needs to be a bit closer, baby girl…” He kissed my shoulder while his fingertips dragged through my arousal that increased at every touch. I looked down at his fingers touching me. When he noticed, he was quick to spread me open so I could see my own wetness. Slowly, he pushed in the tip of his middle finger inside me and got me to make a low moan. After just a drag of one finger, he instead pushed three in me. It hurt, causing me to move involuntarily, but he stopped me from moving more.
“Daddy, just needs to stretch it out a bit so you can handle his cock. Your pussy is too tight for me…” he said with a smirk, holding his fingers inside of me. I breathed deeply, my feelings going wild but I never got the chance to answer because both of us heard the front door open.
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“Hey?” My mom looked at us in the living room. I had pulled down my skirt, and Keith pulled the laptop onto his lap, but we still sat as close together. She looked at us confused, seeing my leg lying over one of his and my chest pressed against his arm. I just smiled to make it seem normal. Keith had just given her a quick smile before he continued to look through my assignment. He tried to make it seem like he was busy.
“He helps me with the language,” I said to my mom and smiled sweetly, but she didn't smile back. She just looked at us intensely for a long time.
“I think we need to talk, honey.”
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once more the lines between what convos we're having where are blurring in my brain lol
There was that .5 seconds at the beginning of S2 where Mark DID agree to be on Cecil's leash, and is he just like foaming at the mouth wishing for those days back? Like you HAD a chance to have some control of that kid and you totally lost it by trying to heavy hand him with the memory of his dad. I guess 'go to college w your gf and take some time off' was the extent of Cecil trying to reign Mark in politely, and now he's just going full throttle on the fuck you too.
Plus, is the show going to acknowledge how scared Cecil is about Mark constantly breaking in to see him and the fact he CONSTANTLY TELEPORTS DIRECTLY INTO DEBBIE'S HOUSE and is actively spying on her like. sir. you too are a fucking uncontrollable menace. Maybe let's parallel that? How dare Mark do the things you constantly do to his family! Maybe think about what you WERE teaching him.
Mark and Even pulling an 'I'm on vacation' a la Nolan during their date about the portal that opens up next to them is WILD. Like oh ? Helping people is such a fucking chore is it? And like yeah, be annoyed it disrupts your life! But- if it annoys you so fucking much, WHY ARE YOU DOING IT? Tell me why you two WANT to be heroes goddamn it!
In the comic it was stated that they were going to use 'hologram' tech from the GDA to make Oliver not appear purple, but since the Graysons have a much more contentious relationship w Cecil in the show (don't get me wrong the Mark - Cecil ear bug breakup DOES happen they just were never so buddy buddy) it seems like they just didn't want to bring up the idea that Cecil was helping them I guess ?? I mean, Cecil is the one who does all the paperwork so Debbie can adopt Oliver in the comics as well. They are so far removed from each other in the comics its funny, like she full on calls him Mr Stedman and he calls her Ms Grayson like those two have NEVER interacted for more than five seconds in the comic while the show implies all this insane shit that we never see lol
Is Amazon producing or just distributing? I haven't looked too much into the studio behind the actual animation, though I know it is small. If this show is a big draw for them (and idk if it actually is) you'd think they'd be willing to spend some fucking money on it. I will never not be bitter over the rings of power budget. refuse to watch that show, never will- but all that money that could have gone to other projects- like damn. Where's the billion dollar animation budget timeline, universe. WHERE
It does seem to really be some control thing for Cecil, bc he has finally met people he can't control. And this is a guy who is used to the 'most powerful' superhero team on the planet doing whatever he says! Like sir, you can talk all you want about saving the world vs being good people (a very easily debatable topic already imo), but at the end of the day it seems like you're more annoyed people aren't coming when you call. Is the real reason you keep bringing Donald back bc you didn't decide to retire him yet ?? like ??
Invincible lives in this weird space in my brain where I'm like, are you trying to say 'haha isn't this all fucked up actually look at how BAD these outcomes would be' and 'actually these ARE the ideas and morals I think heroes could represent' and BOTH ideas just fall a little flat bc it's like.. I can argue either way, but not well- so it's not like you're making a compelling or full argument. And there could be an intended ambiguity in asking certain questions but not providing the answers to questions in a text, but it VERY MUCH feels like Invincible wants me to have a clear stance on things except it can't tell me what those stances are, bc they don't know.
While I'm not too familiar with the DCU- your batfam meta posts are intiguing- so in transfering some of the broader strokes from them- I think you tackling a 'Mark isn't Nolan's biological son' fic would be fascinating. Sort of a step to the side of the 'what if Mark never got his powers' fic that sometimes pop up in the fandom
OOOOOO chewing on this currently, hm, the much a distinct flavor of exactly what you’re talking about, but the potential for more family drama depending on WHO knows. Does Mark know?? Is he waiting every day only to be crushed? Does he confused non-Debbie features with Nolan’s? I suppose I’m not the most enthusiastic about non-power AUs, but I think there’s something very fun to explore about Mark having to settle with, if he knows all his life, he will never have powers? I think the trajectory of his dreams will obviously shift, I can see him still having that distinct fatherly idolization, but perhaps embraces being useful to the GDA? Cecil’s number one intern—only intern—curtesy of nepotism, ha! There is something tickling me about Mark taking the Robin Route/Role for the Teen Team in terms of having no powers, just insane skills, BUT there’s something way more delicious about intern Mark when s1e01 happens and Mark tries snooping around to find out the truth about what happened to his Dad.
I wonder if, with Mark having a whole another father, if they’re more or less distant relationship, depending on WHEN Nolan entered Mark’s life? Like if Debbie met Nolan later for this, or just for fun, they dated once, separated (Mark being born during then), then they happened to stumble into each others lives again and Mark’s already been born, anywhere from tween to teenager so there’s a gap in how close they are. I feel like one important aspect of the whole Family Drama is how close they’re supposed to be, a functional, loving family turned upside down? So I wonder what more distance does. I wonder how Nolan copes when his family is entirely human and he can’t project onto Mark.
I love thinking about these, omg.
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cementcornfield · 2 months ago
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Some of Tee and Ja'Marr's thoughts on the Tee Situation
Tee said to me 'right now I get to play with one of the, if not the, best quarterbacks in the game, I get to play with one of, if not the, best wide receivers in the game, that opens up so much more for me.' And then he said 'this offense is designed for so many different players to be spotlighted, the way that I am used in this offense so plays to my strengths.' And then he said to me, 'can you guarantee I can have that exact situation anywhere else?'
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So do I think he's taking a home discount? No. But I do think that he is very very smart, he sees the whole picture out there...
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It's very easy to compare this situation to what Ja'Marr had at LSU with Joe Burrow and Justin Jefferson. And Ja'Marr has said Tee is very different than Justin Jefferson. That every single minute with Justin Jefferson was a competition. That everything was who makes the more dynamic catch, who has more catches in practice, who runs faster? Everything was that way. Ja'Marr had to speak up and demand the ball a lot at LSU, because so was Justin. Ja'Marr told me that he doesn't have to do that in Cincinnati because Tee, and this is a quote from Ja'Marr, is one of the most unselfish humans you'll ever meet.
#VERY VERY INTERESTING STUFF#also fuck evan this guy is so annoying he KEPT interrupting her through her whole segment and then smiled all condescending like#'what about the money you idiot woman'#and it's like YES the money IS a good point#this could easily all just be talk from tee and ja'marr#because tee DOES deserve all the money he can get#he DOES also deserve the chance at being WR1 if that's what he wants#(he has always done well as WR1 when ja'marr is out/hurt)#so like yes. those are important caveats.#that can definitely be talking points without evan's annoying ass comments and interruptions and looks#(like dude are you not also just some sideline reporter? no need to act like you're better than aditi. BUT WHATEVER)#very interesting considerations! that tee is aware of all the good of his current situation#and may not want to change it at all??#again. could just be saying shit. actions speak louder than words and all that#but the action of dropping your agent (who has the BEST track record of getting guaranteed money) only to go to the agent of the guy#who the front office is going to try to leverage your negotiations against#is like. well. that feels very very deliberate!!#that these two are going to put up a united front. to try to do their best to stay together AND get paid.#which sounds too good to be true tbh!#and then ja'marr comparing his relationship with justin and his relationship with tee!!#both important relationships! both beautiful connections!#and like. justin and ja'marr NEEDED that kind of relationship in college#one of support and competition. pushing each other to be their best. so that they could come into the league#and break all these records almost immediately#and then now a more settled relationship with tee. calmer softer maybe.#that post about how important relationships that let you REST are#man. man. i could go on forever about all of this but this is already too much!!!#tee higgins#ja'marr chase#cincinnati bengals
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icewindandboringhorror · 10 months ago
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sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:
thing that I already do
thing I have tried 10 times
thing I already do
thing that I don't have the money to do
thing I already do
thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail
thing that is impossible given my situation
thing that doesn't apply to me
thing that I already do
thing I have already tried
hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently
thing I have already done
#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things#out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever#all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever#or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc.#especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple#and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already#done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and#all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you.#who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3#my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster#talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo#I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache#or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop#e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all#sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef#t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of#way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I#think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i#gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!'#like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant#mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain#or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right#now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like#most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once#that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY#Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth
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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months ago
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#im at such a weird point in my life. trying to choose between a phd and a doomed life as an academic and like just not doing that.#its crazy how not terrible i feel when im not in school. just give me tasks to do and i will do them. dont let me think.#but then im just avoiding my responsibilities. i dunno. i just feel like i would be happier with a structured job that ends when the day#is over. which is y my dad thinks i should get a government job. one of my former lab mates got a government job and he's settling into#spending the rest of his life out in Colorado. which is so weird. i dont kno how long ill be in the place im in now. will it b 4 more years?#or will it be only a few months? will i go back to school in the fall? its looking like yes bc i dont have a job lined up. but maybe ill#keep applying and dip out. let my dreams die in favor of balance and sanity. maybe some things arent meant to be.#its just so gutting. i was talking to my coworker this week. saying that im interested in so many things. i could have studied anything else#and traveled a completely different path. and a guy across the room was like: its never too late. but it feels like its too late. too late#to spend another impossible amount of money on getting a different degree. restarting on a second masters project. im almost 30.#im supposed to b saving money so that i can not work forever. but i cant do that if im just a student forever. so maybe i should just get a#job. god. but theres so much i still want to learn. and im in the perfect program for everything i thought i wanted. im in the perfect place#but everything's falling to pieces. whatever. i. just tired bc im on day 5 of work and have to go in for a day 6.#doing something i havent done before all day. but after than im going home for a week. so ill have lots to contemplate in the airport.#this is not how i thought things would turn out. but im glad im spending the summer working where i am. im learning lots on a human to human#level. and no one bleieves im 27 bc i apparently have a bby face lol. nope im 11 yrs older than u my 16yo coworker#unrelated
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I found this to be such a random comment until I realised it was Balgeum saying it and it suddenly felt so heavy
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talkorsomething · 8 months ago
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I have Got to get more transgender
#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ#transmasc#trans ftm#transgender#i like 2 say i'm very trans already but unforch i am Not Really. mostly boring ftm Guy Ever#so tempted to cut my hair again but my sense of what i look like is already so fuzzy i dont think it'd help..#want to dye my hair anyways. at this point i'd take whatever color i can get if not purple LOL#it's almost everything i could want and yet ... still me. still the same life. stuck.#soooo high functioning like you wouldnt believe EXCEPT istg i need an emotional support human who will guide me through tasks#such as 'pay with your Moneys Card at the Store'#or... idk that's it really. maybe go grocery shopping without feeling like i'm not meant to be there also#or like. exist in general maybe#reasons why not emotional support Animal: creature cannot understand capitalism. and also is not as necessary as a service dog specifically#idk! every time i come on here i fall apart (in text) and then pull myself back together for another day of ... this i guess.#i'm not even having like crying breakdowns or anything to go along with it i'm just held inside this shell of a body. typing away again#i'm soso tempted to make things worse. progress wouldn't matter anymore... at least maybe it would feel real that i'm like this#i wish my face fit on my body right. and also that i did not look quite so much like a vaguely gnc lesbian#like at LEAST let me look butch as hell but no. curse of sad hair & uncertainty#miss my little mullety thing from that brief period in october... miss my short hair from back in 2017 ...#just dont feel satisfied with what i am now. in general.#top surgery is literally Within my reach but i'm not sure about cost and i need to wait because of doing guard now......#my list of do i want t i kept for the past month turned out to be a bunch of maybes#partially cause i got sick. partially cause it stopped being shark week and i forgot about it#as always happens...#still unsure in my new(er) name. only heard it once#didn't feel the same way as with my old one? but idk. just don't know.#missing guard also but feeling conflicted about not having time for other hobbies...#since winter season is over i've had so much time to play guitar! that's insane! mostly cause i stopped playing for unrelated reasons...#just tired again. wonder if i need more sleep than what i always get. kind of restless.#there's nothing else to say i guess. just wish i could be a person the way everyone else seems to be.
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asmodeusamaryllis · 2 months ago
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I don't think I can keep being open minded to n@tl@n guys
#I'm trying so hard to like the fucking region but every time I played the game within that region I feel so mad#I'm trying out the new area n the new creature is just so lacklustre#Tbh I think the design r pretty/cute but playing as them??? Ugh UGH#How do make flying awful#That mechanic broke on me??! I was stuck having to float down to the water lvl cuz I wasn't at right lvl to hit the mountain top#N for some reason the movement for it was locked in one direction so I couldn't even try n turn to get to closer area orz#I know it was just a glitch BUT AFTER having to find that creature only for it not to work? Piss off omg#Also there so much mountain n okay fine I understand that the region design ig#But having wave point be at the highest place where u need to have one of the creatures to even get there if u don't have the correct chara#Character?? Insane fuck you#Ngl this makes me want to not pull any fucking characters out of principal/only pulled the archon cuz I'm guessing she gonna have all movem#In this game so what even the point of the other characters for movement#Feels like it punishing ppl for not pulling lacklustre characters or not being whales n not caring where Ur spending money#I don't care how 'good' the story is if the exploring part of your games is so garbage without the characters/until the archon is released#CUZ WHAT DO U MEAN YOUR EXPLORING GAME IS NOW BEHIND A FCKING PAYWALL#this is not a 'this character makes exploring easier in general' this is straight just needing a character or u can't explore this area eas#I'm not looking forward to any new areas in this region cuz what the point if I can't enjoy playing a game#This is worse than when in@zum@ had a lightening island#At least I could get that sht turn off when I played a story quest#Maybe I would like the region better if by doing the story quest the exploring in this region would be easier#Ugh#I remember seeing a tweet of somebody saying 'well Ur not playing the new story/area so of course u won't like it u haven't played it!'#Shaking them violently cuz I'm playing!! I'm reading!! This place sucks!! Gimmick is awful!!#Praying for the next region to not rely on this kinda shit#I know it probs gonna have the frostbite like dragonspine but imma be honest? Dragonspine is so much more enjoyable to explore than n@tl@n#W it gimmick
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oveliagirlhaditright · 4 days ago
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Square Enix, learn how to market games again, 2025.
#remember before when square enix didn't release trailers at an event and i mentioned somewhere that i wanted to post an angry rant but was#refraining?#ooooooh are we there again--but much worse: because it's even WORSE that they haven't even showed anything by now--and i don't know if i#can refrain anymore. or if i even should. maybe they NEED someone to go off on them#i'm sorry: but you can't tell me that this isn't their new ceo's fault. because they never did stuff like this before. and at least in this#regard i feel like he's a moron#and even if it turns out that thegamersjoint's talk about them doing their own showcase this month is true i still think it's stupid they#didn't show anything here (even if they think it's a more costly effective decision to show things at their own show) because they'd get#more attention for games at the state of play than their own show#and also thegamersjoint recently said that this supposed show is mainly aimed at nintendo switch 2 games and that kh and ff aren't even#going to be there. so if any of that is even true to begin with. lol. we're still fucked according to that#really i could go on and on but i'll stop for now#all this being said i'm not just a se girlie and there were things at the state of play that definitely interested me (though i slept#through most of it sadly)#like lost soul aside that i've had my eyes on for years and is FINALLY coming out. and this last trailer for it was great#and tides of annihilation can just take my money now#and as a fnaf fan i'm interested in secrets of the mimic#-goes to watch the rest of the show that i missed-
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florida3exclamationpoints · 4 months ago
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#my mom hasnt decided about driving to Toronto#i told her i need an answer#ideally now. but i feel bad bugging her#she thinks i should wait and see if prices go down#and she thinks i shouldn't spend so much money on a concert ticket#and i agree. i dont want to. i think its insane that they resell them for so much.#but its my money. and i get to decide what this concert is worth#i was telling her the prices are going up and i dont want them to turn impossible.#and she kept asking how much are they how much are they how much are they#i didn't wanna tell her bc i knew shed judge me but i did. and she did#i almost feel like she thinks she'll be doing me a favor by not helping me get there bc i wont spend the money#but she really really wouldnt be#i was hoping i could buy one for tomorrow and just go by myself and not make it her issue#but theyre more than im willing to pay for crappy seats#and she said i dont want you to go at any cost and like!!!! im not!!!!!#i hate myself for stooping low enough to accept resale prices but im not spending all of my money#and i have standards for prices for where the seats are#i made the decision to sell my vienna ticket before the shows were canceled bc i knew it was thr responsibile thing to do!!!!!#i will not drive 12 hours to toronto by myself!!!!!!#im doing it at more cost than i would like but not any cost. and id also like to not be judged for it#and also. its so important to me. and if i explain how important it is. id probably get judged for that too#idk man. she said she's gonna look some now at Toronto traveling expenses#she didn't say she would have an answer by tonight#you would think if she doesn't want me to spend a crazy amount of money she would have some urgency about answering me#ig she just doesnt wanna tell me no.#idk. idk. idk. maybe i will figure out some way to go to Toronto by myself if she says no#maybe ill buy an even more ridiculously priced ticket for tomorrow#idk. ahahhahahajahahahahah
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