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i've spent a lot of time saying "here's what you could do" as a witch versus "here is what i actually do" as a witch, so let's go.
as much as i try to stir my coffee in one direction or another, it always ends up counter-clockwise - instead of seeing it as a mistake, i just work around it by thinking of it like, i'm banishing (counter-clockwise) negativity from my day versus attracting (clockwise) positivity.
i tend to use colors that align with planets versus other folkloric associations - instead of a green candle for money, i'll use a blue one because blue is associated with jupiter which is associated with wealth and good fortune. lucky for me, all the other planets have colors that align appropriately so i don't have to think about those as much (sun - gold, moon - silver, mercury - ehhhhh a mix of like, yellow/violet/indigo, venus - baby pink/mint, mars - red/rust, etc etc.).
i have a money bowl that i redo on the first of every month and i set a cinnamon stick above my front door for prosperity - i have a tiny little angel of a bunny whose health means more to me than the ritualistic act of blowing cinnamon into your home from outside the front door.
my "grimoire" or book of shadows or WHATEVER you wanna call it lives on my computer via onenote and is also scattered through many many notebooks i have collected over the years - if i'm being honest, i am way too picky about my handwriting and messing things up when i am writing in pen that i would just rather keep it somewhere i can type and alt+f to get where i need to go.
my main altar lives on a pretty gold and faux marble bookshelf but honestly, my whole house is my altar - there are sacred spaces at every corner if you know what to look for.
if i want something for my craft, i try to repurpose old things or thrift for them - you'd be amazed what you can do with some of the most basic things (i found my money bowl, which is a crystal dish, at the thrift store for 99 cents); the dollar 25 tree is also a good spot to shop for cheap trinkets.
much of my craft is muscle memory, which has come from YEARS of practice - if i'm cooking and need to use like, basil for example (luck, money, protection), i just kind of already know what it's "good for" and keep that in the front of my mind while i'm cooking so the intent doesn't get buried.
i really REALLY prefer to make my own stuff but that's not always feasible - i really thought the other day that i could just start making candles for myself and had to put that thought on HOLD because let's be real, i'm not doing all that. instead, i will continue to use all the chime candles i have collected over the years instead of immediately going out to find something new.
cleansing ritual who? every time i mop my floor or clean the baseboards or wipe down the counter, i'm cleansing my space. i very much believe that mundane cleaning can be equally as magical and therapeutic if the intent is there.
same thing with literally any other magical thing i do these days: i won't go digging for new items to serve me and my spellwork, i will just use what i already have.
doing spells when the opportunity presents itself versus days of planning - i got a new body wash the other day whose main ingredient and scent is rose so i figured i could use it for a glamour at some point; needed some cinnamon the other day for pancakes and stashed some away for use as a catalyst later on; stuck a bay leaf in my pasta sauce while cooking and made a little wish beforehand.
tethers. everywhere. this one's a bit personal for me but generally speaking, i like to tie energy to a physical object and store it for later use.
i have never buried anything in my yard for any reason - i usually just stick it in a box if the spell isn't finished, cleanse and reuse, or discard all together after thanking it for its assistance.
i swear i have a mean tarot deck and a nice one so i tend to be biased and choose accordingly. đ
i also have two pendulums i don't use and a set of blue goldstone runes that i have had for 8 years but don't touch anymore. let that be a gentle reminder that you don't have to do all the things, i promise.
anyway, those are some things about my craft ok bye
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I recently re-read my own fic not all heroes wear capes and thought it would be fun to answer some questions for @shamelessdvdcommentary â€ïž
(Questions and answers under the cut)
Give us some stats - (when you wrote it, word count, how long it took to finish, is it a one-shot/multi-chapter, etc)
I wrote it back in 2020 for one of the rounds of the Shameless Big Bang. Itâs a multi-chapter but a short one (only seven chapters and 37,560 words). I donât quite remember how long it took me to finish it but it was at least four months I imagine, given I wrote it for the Big Bang and took up pretty much the entire time given.
What was the initial inspiration for your story?
This is probably a bit spoilerish of an answer but back when the show was still airing, I talked a lot about Ianâs hero complex. Itâs one of my favorite aspects of his character and itâs what initially morphed my idea of what his role is in this fic. (If youâve read it, you know what Iâm talking about).
If the story is written from a characterâs POV, why did you choose this character?
Itâs mostly told from Mickeyâs POV but it does change to Ianâs from time to time too. I chose Mickey to take up the majority of it because I wanted Ianâs role in the story to be a bit more mysterious.
What was your favourite scene to write?
A scene in the middle of chapter two, where Ian and Mickey come together and talk about what split them apart. (The story is a post-S3 canon divergence with a twist). I remember really enjoying writing the dialogue between them in that scene because I love writing hurt/comfort. And I think the finished product turned out pretty good if I do say so myself.
(Off topic side-note but after re-reading that whole chapter, I realized that I wrote the sex scene to be much more explicit than I remembered. Which is strange for me because Iâm usually only confident in writing sex between wlw ships. I normally go fade to black with Gallavich).
How did you come up with the title?
Titling is one of the hardest parts of writing fic for me, for some reason lmao. It literally just randomly came to mind. I think itâs corny but it goes with the theme of the story so đ€·ââïž Iâm not good at titles so I canât really be picky on that front.
Was there anything you struggled to write? If so, how did you overcome this?
The action/fight scenes. Which sucked, considering the main plot of the fic lol. Writing those was like pulling teeth. But I pulled myself through, even though I donât think they turned out all that great. Iâm much better at writing emotional stuff.
Favourite line in the story?
âWe were kids,â he clarified at Ianâs questioning expression. âAnd things were shit. We never stood a chance.â
It just sums up my feelings about S3 Gallavich tbh đ
Did the storyline change in any way as you wrote the story?
Not really during the writing process. But when I was first trying to plan it, I debated whether to make it a canon divergence (which is what it ended up being) or a straight up AU. I ended up doing what I did both for the angst factor of it being post S3 and because I personally find full on AUâs to be much harder to write than fics that are based at least somewhat on canon.
What are you most proud about in the story? (plot, characterisation, dialogue, twist/cliffhanger, etc)
Iâve had a few people tell me that the fic âkept them guessingâ as they read it. Which happily surprised me because while I was trying to be at least a little mysterious while writing, I didnât really think I had succeeded. So I was proud of myself when a small amount of people validated me on that!
Are there any deleted scenes that didnât make it to the final story?
No specific scenes but I did originally envision a small interlude towards the end. Ian and Mickey hit a rough patch at some point in the fic because Mickey discovers a big secret that Ian kept from him. In the finished product, Mickey forgives Ian relatively quickly. At some point, it was going to be a more angsty and longer process. But I ended up not going in that direction because I felt like it would drag the story out a little too much.
Reading back the story now, is there anything youâd change or add?
In the story, Sandy (who plays a supporting role in the fic) and Debbie are exes and Sandy eventually dates an OC. Given that Iâve grown much fonder of Debbie over the years, I think I would give her an actual role and keep her and Sandy dating if I wrote it now.
I also would have done a better job at a certain flashback scene towards the end because, along with the action scenes, itâs one of the weaker parts of the story imo.
Would you ever write a sequel to this story?
Nah. Maybe a one-shot sequel of sorts if inspiration ever hit.
Were you nervous or excited to post this story?
Very nervous! It was my first multi-chapter Gallavich fic and first time participating in a fandom event like a big bang.
Did you have a beta or a friend who helped you as you wrote?
Yes! Given that it was a big bang, I had a beta assigned to me. shame_less18 on ao3! And she did a fantastic job! (Not sure if she has a tumblr unfortunately). Part of the reason I chose this fic to do this commentary for is because I know itâs most likely the one with the least amount of errors for that reason lol.
Anything else youâd like the readers to know about the story?
This is probably my favorite fic that Iâve written. (For Shameless anyway). Mostly because it was a lot of fun. My life was simpler back then and the Shameless/Gallavich fandom was fairly popping with S10 having just aired. Iâll always look at it fondly.
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A decade on this hellsite (affectionate)
So, while I'm working on putting the finishing touches on this chapter, and am getting ready to work on other stuff as well, I...I have an announcement....
This is something I should've said yesterday, but I misremembered....
Uh...
I dunno how to say this super eloquently, but....yesterday was my 10 year anniversary on Tumblr! Wooooo!!
Yup! I joined Tumblr on November 6, 2013, and I've stayed here ever since! W-well, give or take a few hiatuses, but....I-I never LEFT, and that's what I'm celebrating....XD
When I first joined Tumblr, I did so to please a couple people I looked up to, who wanted to talk to me more. I'd been lurking on the website for quite a while beforehand, and didn't have a blog because I thought I wasn't an interesting enough person for one....and I also lowkey feared being made fun of. Yeah, I thought that Tumblr was a competition to get the biggest following, and if no one paid attention to you, you might as well not exist. That kind of mentality was pretty much drilled into me by the state of my current fandom at the time, which was ruled by a select few popular blogs and everyone else had to either conform to what they liked and hated, or get mocked.
How stupid of me, right? Tumblr is more than just the fandoms on it. Tumblr is literally whatever you make of it. You choose what to do and say, and who to engage with. Heck, even if you don't wanna talk to ANYONE, you can still use it for yourself. XD
Originally, this was purely a Total Drama fan blog. Then, over time, as I got more and more comfy with it, I talked about personal things more often, and then branched out, and just made it a me blog, in around 2015 or so. This ended up being the right choice. It became a second home, and grew with me over the years. I've gone through a lot - different special interests (many of which ended up being very important to me), a lot of personal changes, getting more comfortable with certain parts of myself - and Tumblr has captured all of that. At this point, I don't do anything for the attention. I just like putting it out there.
I've even accomplished things that 2013 me would've never tried...like, slowly embracing self-shipping culture, and all the fics I've written because of it. In 2013, I had my fictional crushes, but I was embarrassed about them and usually hid them behind OCs. And I'd never written a full fanfic. I was a former roleplayer. And now....Holy crap, I'm not saying I'm a GREAT writer, but...t-to try it, like it, and then KEEP DOING IT?? I call that an accomplishment....
I've met many people, including good friends, and....I-I like to think that....I-I've matured thanks to it. When you're in one place for a decade, it really influences you a lot, even in less obvious ways. I was a LOT more spontaneous ten years ago. I-I said some insensitive stuff that I didn't realize at the time. I stuck my nose in places it didn't belong, and I let myself get too pressed over the opinions of people I didn't even like. I don't do any of that anymore. I'm a lot more picky with what sides of my fandoms I talk to now. I'm still not perfect, but I've grown a lot, and it's cool to think....that this blog is essentially a document of my emotional journey.
(Not to mention all the Eurovision seasons, heheh....)
Does that mean my old posts from 2013 and 2014 are worth reading nowadays? HECK no, but I'm happy they exist.
I-I'm sorry that this is so word-vomit-y, but......point is, thanks for ten years. Here's hoping I'm still here in 2033. Until then.....I-I have an update:
I dunno why I didn't do this sooner, but I have a "Current Interests" page now, which I plan to update frequently. This'll make it easier to keep track of what I'm into at the present time. So that I no longer have to hide anything....just...laying it all out there for people.
I thought I needed it. I've just been lazy for waaaaay too long. XD I need to act my age and let people know what they're getting into.
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November 24 - 2022
8:53 AM
I gotta find a way to tell my parents I donât want ANY of their food for thanksgiving. What will probably happen is mom will make me a plate and Iâll take it to eat in my room but Iâll just throw it out. I know the status of their food/kitchen, its GROSS. REALLY gross, this isnât me being a clean freak. Their kitchen is filthy by normal people standards. And their idea of food safety is fucked too. I donât want to eat from a kitchen with 5 dogs in it, rotten food on the counters, most things past their use by date, perishables that have been left out for hours before being put back in the fridge, and BUGS everywhere. Fuck man. Momâs saying sheâll give me a whole miniature hen and a pie and asking if Iâll eat with them for Thanksgiving. As much as Iâd like to in theory, I wonât be.Â
With literally anyone else, Iâd just tell the truth. Iâd just say I donât want to eat your food for âXâ reason. But I know my parents wonât understand and will jump to some wild conclusion and suggest I see therapy or some shit. Nah, yaâll are just FILTHY by anyoneâs standards. THEY need therapy, for real. Its such a dysfunctional household.Â
10:54 AM
I hate when I get lonely but also donât want to talk to anyone. Thereâs maybe 2 people I can think of that Iâd actually want to spend time with today but they are both busy. So its gonna be a melancholic day unless I end up feeling like socializing with strangers or something. Its totally my fault for being picky.Â
12:24 PM
My plan is to push through my mental anguish until I get work done, and then I can start doing something to counter how I feel. Maybe Iâll force myself to be social, or dedicate myself to some project like my VR furry world or trying to learn guitar again.Â
I donât know why it feels impossible for me to make friends. Iâve clearly already made some. But strangers seem like unreachable people. And I donât really want to make new friends, I like the ones I have. I just wanna spend time with them. Having to talk to strangers because no one is around feels like Iâm just meeting my bodyâs needs which is kind of like using them for my own gain. I know itâs probably a mutual exchange but I still donât like it. I should get over it and accept myself as a social creature like everyone else is. I gotta do what I gotta do.Â
1:18 PM
I think the idea of eating breakfast before 10am, then having 10am - 6pm be busy hours is a good idea. It makes me not feel so rushed with comms because I never operate so late but now I have the ability to without thinking Iâm doing too much.Â
2:07 PM
My whole day is off. Its sad boy hours and Iâm late to finishing things. Im gonna shower and try to finish up with commissions.Â
4:03 PM
I wanted to eat my little Turkey pot pie today but Iâm not strong enough for it right now. It would be a little mental exercise because I have this aversion to eating things out of the bottom of my freezer even though Iâve confirmed itâs functioning properly. Itâs not a very big challenge but today my mental strength is at 0. Iâd rather eat something familiar and cozy especially since my appetite today has been poor.Â
I hope my parents donât expect anything out of me today. They tend to take holidays very seriously. Like itâll be a deep personal offense if I donât go over there and eat with them. At least thats how it used to be. I canât remember doing anything with them for Thanksgiving last year but I think thatâs because they went to a friendâs house or something.Â
11:48 PMÂ
Sometimes I get really tired of my own art. Probably because I have to look at it constantly. But it sucks because I canât really get a grasp on the actual quality of anything I make until a lot of time has passed.Â
I wish I could just do something differently but its never that simple. I donât even know what Iâd want to do different. Anything I choose to change about how I draw has to be slow and gradual for me to know if I really like it or not. Or how practical it is. Maybe I need some more time to play around. I often stop myself from experimenting because Iâm always working on things that I donât want to take risks on.Â
The solution to all my art problems is usually getting some new info into the system. Something I havenât done in a long long time is copying art that inspires me. Watching tutorials can also help.Â
My night was SAVED with some bestie time. I donât think itâs healthy that I tend to rely so heavily on time with my friends but how do I/ should I fix that? Maybe itâs normal to feel lonely when the only people you want to hang out with are unavailable. Am I supposed to emotionally leave them behind temporarily for other people? I think Iâd rather be a little sad for awhile and wait for them. I can take care of myself in the meantime.Â
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i have some characters and am working on their story and aaa i care so much about them i wish i was good at writing prose or animating to music
#i mean im not bad at writing but its not smth ive practiced like at all#past elementary school fjdksla#and animation im not terrible at but also not greattt#and i end up being way too picky with myself and never finishing anything#but thESE CHARACTERS AA#i also need to work on actually getting these ideas into workable formats#theres def some parts that are currently just vibes from imagining music videos in my head with good songs#jkfdljsfksld#uso.txt
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mother, father, and everything else â
â platonic!c!tommyinnit x older sister!reader ; fluff , angst
â masterlist
â a companion piece to a sisterâs sacrifice inspired by this tiktok
âTommy, come on,â you call.
You pull your youngest brotherâs attention away from the strings of the apron he got distracted by. He toddles over to you as quickly as he can, reaching up and asking to be picked up silently. He started walking early and go the hang of it quite quickly. However, in talking heâs a bit of a late bloomer, nearing fifteen months but yet to say his first words.
You lift Tommy up into your arms, carrying him out the back door and into the backyard. You set him down to play in the grass where you can keep an eye on him then walk over to the array of clotheslines strung up across the yard, beginning to hang up laundry.
Wilbur is off playing with Niki as usual. Heâll likely return covered in dirt and grass stains, maybe with a captured insect or stories of a new, made up kingdom heâd been ruler of that day. Phil is still out with Techno; theyâve been gone for a while now, but thatâs nothing new.
Youâve hung up a pair of Wilburâs pants and two of Tommyâs shirts when you notice Tommy crouched beside the basket full of wet clothes. He reaches inside and pulls out a sock, squeezing it curiously.
âDo you want to help, Tommy?â
Tommy looks up at you, blue eyes wide and mouth slightly open. He nods his head once.
You giggle and ruffle his hair, âAlright, câmere.â
You lift Tommy up again, resting him on your hip as you grab a clothespin with your free hand. You slip it over the clothesline.
âPut the top of the sock in the pin,â you tell him.
He struggles a bit, little hands still uncoordinated at his young age. He does eventually position the sock where you can close the pin on it and leave it to hang.
âWow, good job, buddy!â you say.
You wrap him in a hug and spin around, shrieking laughter falling from his mouth at both your actions and your praise. You set him down and kneel down to be at eye level with him.
âYouâre my official laundry assistant,â you say seriously. âCan you hand me clothes to hang up?â
Tommy nods eagerly and toddles over to the basket of wet clothes, grabbing a shirt from the top of the pile. He holds it above his head as he runs back over to you, holding it out.
âGood job, Tommy! Weâre quite the team, you and I.â
Together, you and Tommy slowly hang the rest of the clothes up. Tommy eventually gets bored and goes off to pick dandelions and pull off their petals, leaving you to finish the chore, not that you mind. When youâre finished, you call Tommy over to get in the basket, carrying him and the leftover clothespin back inside.
âY/N!â
The call of your name pulls you to a stop, turning to see who yelled for you. Tommy grabs onto your pant leg for balance, stopping as well. You find Puffy waving at you, hurrying over to you with her little boy Dream at her side.
âHi, Puffy,â you say. âHi, Dream.â
âHi,â Dream says in a small voice.
âTommy, can you say hi?â you ask the young boy clinging to your hand.
Heâs chewing on his thumbnail, looking up at Puffy warily before hiding his face in your leg.
âGuess not,â you laugh.
âHow are you, Y/N? I feel like I havenât seen you in forever,â Puffy says.
âIâm good,â you answer. âJust getting some dinner for tonight.â
âStill the household cook, I see.â
âAnd just about everything else.â
You laugh and Puffy joins you, but you can tell that wasnât a joke that went over her head. Itâs no joke that you are mother and father to your younger siblings, as well as everything else. Your dad is gone too often; Wilbur doesnât even call your father âdad,â he calls him Phil.
âWhereâs your dad?â Puffy asks.
You shrug, âAround.â
âWhenâs the last time you saw him?â
You hesitate for too long, distracted as you attempt to remember the last time Phil came home.
âThat hardly matters,â you brush off, âHeâs busy doing important stuff and I can look after Wilbur and Tommy myself anyway.â
The look of concern on Puffyâs face is not missed by you. You do, however, elect to ignore it.
Dream tugs on Puffyâs sleeve, âMom.â
âYeah, buddy?â Puffy asks, leaning down.
Dream points into the market, where you see Sapnap with his father and his friend George.
âGo say hi, but donât wander too far,â Puffy tells Dream.
When she turns back to you, keeping one eye on her son, you say, âIâve gotta head home. Need to make dinner and all that.â
âYeah, okay,â Puffy says. âIâm here if you ever need help. Or someone to talk to. Or... anything really.â
âThanks, Puffy.â
You donât notice at your side, Tommy trying to form the word that Dream used that so quickly got his motherâs attention.
âLook after yourself, Y/N.â
âI am.â You always have.
With a wave, you turn and head back home, Tommy walking slowly beside you. The walk from the market to your house takes about fifteen minutes and you end up carrying Tommy for most of it to speed things up.
When you arrive home, you find Wilbur and Niki sat in the front yard playing a hand clapping game. They stop when they spot you, jumping up and running to come meet you as you walk up the front path.
âY/N! Y/N! Y/N!â Wilbur shouts your names repeatedly.
âWill! Will! Will!â you mimic.
âCan I spend the night at Nikiâs?â Wilbur asks.
You like Niki. Sheâs sweet and a good influence for Wilbur.
âUhm, as long as her parents are alright with it,â you say, doing your best to sound like a grown up despite only being sixteen.
âWeâve already talked to them,â Niki tells you.
âAlright, then,â you concede. âBehave while youâre there.â
âI will, Y/N!â Wilbur says, running off with Niki.
You watch them go for a few moments until youâre reminded of the toddler sitting on your hip. Tommy squirms around, wanting down. You set him on the ground and walk with him inside.
You set him up with some paper and crayons at the kitchen table. You sit across from him, watching as he carefully looks over his color options before choosing the red crayon.
âLooks like itâs just you and me, bud,â you muse.
You pet Tommyâs hair before you stand, moving to start on dinner. You season meat and chop potatoes, humming to yourself and keeping an eye on Tommy. Thankfully, your youngest brother isnât a picky eater, which makes meals a lot easier than they could be, especially since heâs been in the solid foods stage for a while now.
The rest of the night is fairly quiet. You and Tommy eat dinner then you do the dishes while he waddles around the living room and plays with some of his toys. You can hear him experimenting with running, his footfalls surprisingly loud for such a small human. You hear him fall, as well, but without any crying then the return of his heavy footsteps, you donât go to check on him.
You start composing your next shopping list and check the calendar for any upcoming events. Thereâs a festival next week that youâre meant to chaperone Wilbur and his friends at. Maybe you can team up with Puffy so Tommy can play with Tubbo, and Dream can join Wilbur. Youâll ask her tomorrow.
You hear Tommy enter the kitchen. He waddles over to where you sit at the table and crawls into your lap. He grabs your free hand and starts playing with your fingers as you continue writing down what youâll need for your bigger grocery run in a few days.
âMom.â
You freeze.
What?
âMom.â
You look down at Tommy.
He looks up at you, âMom.â
âN-No...,â you say weakly.
âMom.â
âNo, Iâm not your mom.â
âMom.â
âNo...â
âMom!â Tommy says happily. âMom mom mom!â
âOkay, okay,â you say shakily, putting a hand gently over your little brotherâs mouth to get him to stop. âOkay, good job.â
Your visionâs blurry. You want to cry. Your chest hurts. But right now, Tommyâs said his first word.
âGood job,â you repeat.
You pull Tommy into a hug and wipe at your eyes behind his back.
Tommy rests his little cheek on your shoulder, already tired but quickly drifting off to sleep in your warm embrace, âMom...â
âShhh,â you say, voice weak.
Tommy goes limp, asleep in your arms. As your tears begin to fall, you make sure not to let your sobs move you. How has this happened? Mom. No. Youâre not a mother. Except you are. In every way that matters, you are Tommyâs mother. Youâve raised him ever since Phil brought him home that day.
You wish your family was normal. As normal as a family of four adopted children, a single father, and a non-biological uncle could be. You wish your dad was home more. You wish you didnât have to be the only parental figure Tommy has ever known. Itâs to the point he calls you mom. How could Phil let it get to this? How could he care so little?
You just want to have a normal family with parents who are adults and kids who are allowed to be children. You did not get to be a child, but Wilbur and Tommy will. You will always be there for them. You promise. You will give them what you had taken from you. Hatred for your father burns in your chest but itâs quickly snuffed out, doused by nostalgia that longs for a childhood you never had.
#i have no control over what i choose to write so instead of a sisterâs sacrifice pt 3 have this#haha fuck you brain i hate you#mcyt#mcyt x reader#dream smp#dsmp#minecraft youtubers#dream smp x reader#mcyt fanfic#mcyt fanfiction#mcyt imagine#tommyinnit#tommyinnit x reader#tommyinnit fanfiction#tommyinnit fanfic#tommyinnit imagine#tommyinnit fluff#tommyinnit angst#angst#fluff#dream smp fanfic#dream smp fanfiction#dream smp imagine
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Would you mind elaborating on how you think stories in games are declining?
yeah I can do that I talked about it a little on twitter the other night
to start I just want to mention that this is based on the games I've played recently, so if you're thinking "well [this game] had a great story" I probably. didn't play it, or plan to sometime
also this is just an observation I'm making about myself. it's not very organized i'm typing this up at 5am
so this is about how good ghost trick's story is. as in so good, the feeling of finishing a game with no questions about anything significant was entirely foreign to me; and it may be the only game to ever make me feel like that for a long time
frankly I don't know if I just chose the wrong new games to play this year, or if it's the whole "sequels are generally worse than the original" thing, or if I've gotten picky about stories, or all of the above (probably all of the above and then some) but ghost trick made me realize I haven't played a single story-driven game (released in 2022) where I came out of the credits satisfied
just "...huh. ok. that's it then I guess"
however, I played a number of older titles where I was like "ohhh that was so good. wow" and was overall happy with the experience
but it's not really just limited to 2022; a lot of the games I played in 2021 too were lacking and/or didn't stick the landing in their stories
these include: p5 strikers (though I played that for the combat so I enjoyed it), ntwewy, lost judgment, nirvana initiative, and xenoblade 3 (this is a weird one bc I didn't dislike it but I didn't feel very strongly opinionated about it when I finished the game)
(tales of arise had several issues but I actually liked the ending a lot so it's an exception)
and then. there are some games I played that weren't story-driven, but had an interesting premise and just. dropped it completely somewhere along the way, or half-assed the explanations: monster hunter rise, world's end club, and smt5
rise is only here bc I thought the thing with the elder dragons speaking through the twins was really cool. and then it turned out to be nothing. but this leads into one of my points: that a lot of games are being released unfinished so players are compelled to buy dlc promising new story content for the loose threads that weren't wrapped up in the base game. and sometimes it still doesn't cover everything important that's missing
although rise doesn't count bc we got the rest of the story in free updates, it WAS literally unfinished at launch. extra content being released in paid dlc has been discussed by plenty of other people though (I just think it's one of the more significant factors contributing to why stories have felt. lacking) so. moving on
my big takeaway after playing ghost trick was that I had grown accustomed to stories that just. have the most slap-a-bandaid-on-it-and-call-it-good endings/explanations ever. I was used to being disappointed (in a "well that was a letdown" way, not an "I'm gonna miss this" way) when the credits rolled. I picked up games that promised a good story and expected important plot lines to never be addressed, because it's happened SO many times
in other words, gt caught me off guard because there was an entirely reasonable answer to every potential question I had. it's like when someone shuts your argument down so completely that you're speechless
this has also been discussed by others but I think being too hypercritical of little things/refusing to suspend disbelief is a "harmful" mindset to have. if you keep actively trying to nitpick something so you can go "I knew it!! this SUCKS" then of course you're going to be hard-pressed to find a "perfect" piece of media
and while I consider myself someone who's fully willing to go "okay, sure" in the moment, I've been exposed to so many posts that read so deeply into something incredibly minor that now I can't help but raise an eyebrow at things I never would've given a second thought to before,,,,,whenever that started
so I guess my other point here is that it feels like a lot of people don't let themselves enjoy stories when the plot gets a little nonsensical at times, or just get super hung up on the flaws. there's a difference between a game with an ending that's so bad you never want to play it again, and a game that was mostly solid but This One Negligible Thing absolutely ruined it for you
and I'm not trying to tell anyone what to enjoy or how to enjoy it but I think people could stand to not focus on the negatives so much, because it makes some stories seem a lot worse than they. actually are
xenoblade 3 is currently kind of getting this treatment (or it's at least pretty divisive from what I can tell), but some of it is actually warranted criticism while the rest of it is a lack of media literacy/not picking up on the show-don't-tell
anyway TL;DR ghost trick is the most complete game, story-wise, that I've ever played. I can't compare any other game to it bc it's on an entirely different level, but at the same time I now know what it feels like to finish a game wholly satisfied with its conclusion. and writers should put more care into the stories they've crafted for their games, particularly if they've been planning it for multiple years (though I'm aware that time constraints/pressure from higher-ups/other variables like that are detrimental to the creative process)
#anonymous#this is a long post#uhhhhh yeah idk if this is coherent i cannot think anymore#i will not engage in further discussion unless i can answer it in 10 minutes bc writing this took way too much time-
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You have me now | Cat hybrid!Jungwon AU
Pairings: Jungwon x Reader ft. Bang Yedam
Genre: fluff, angst
Warnings: depression, slight nudity
Word count: 1.7k
Synopsis: Going through some tough times in your life, you come across someone who is struggling as well. And now you never thought you'd find solace in your cat, Jungwon.
Author's note: this is my longest fic yet! I got very emotional with this one. Btw, thank you for all your support! đâ€may all of you have someone to depend on in your darkest times.
Dark gray clouds cloaked the skies, with vicious thunders warning everyone that heavy rain threatened to pour mercilessly. It was 5pm, your last class had ended long ago but your teacher had to make you stay to discuss important matters with you; your failing grades in his class. And to make matters worse, your boyfriend had just broken up with you through a text.
As you make your way through the gates of the school, you groaned as the cold rain engulfed you within seconds.
"Guess this day can't get any better huh."
You make a sprint for it, not caring about getting your socks muddy anymore as your arms make a futile attempt to shield yourself from the rain.
Amidst the harsh cry of downpour, you were stopped at your tracks by the sound of weeping meows, not too far away. And there it was, under a tree was a small kitty crying in sorrow as the cardboard box which was probably supposed to be its home melted away in the rain.
You've never been one to keep pets, but you've always had a soft heart when it came to animals that is why without hesitation, you scooped up the poor kitty in your arms and ran home.
You were dripping wet, shivering as the warmth of your apartment slowly welcomed you and your companion. You settled the kitty on a rug as you took a warm shower and changed into an oversized shirt and sweatpants. When you finished drying yourself, you notice that the kitty barely moved an inch from how you left it, still shivering.
"Hey kitty, you'll be okay now." you cooed and stroked its wet head and ears. It looked at you cautiously yet gratifyingly and you were shocked at how much emotion its eyes held. Almost like a human.
"That's kinda odd. But you have very beautiful eyes though." you smiled.
Never having owned a pet, you were honestly unsure on how to take care of it. And so, together with your wet books, you blow dried the kitty with your hair drier. You giggled as the kitty flinched lightly and its fur stood up, probably new to the sound and sensation of your hair drier. Your laugh fades as your eyes train upon the scars all over the poor kitty's body. You could have easily missed it because of its dark fur but as it dried more, it became more visible. You knew battle scars when you see them. As your fingertips lightly grazed your scarred wrists, your heart can't help but ache for the small cat.
"I won't let anyone or anything hurt you again. I'll take care of you from now on, okay? You can depend on me." you assured and it meowed in response, tilting it's head sideways as it blinked at you a few times.
At dinner time, you rummaged all of your cabinets for anything you can feed to the small cat. The rain hadn't ceased yet, withholding you from going outside to buy proper cat food. For the time being, you decided that a can of tuna will suffice.
You placed the bowl of food in front of the kitty, taking a few seconds before it cautiously moves closer to it to sniff it.
"Well go on, don't be picky." You raised your eyebrows, placing your hands on your hips. The kitty meowed and did that thing again, tilting its head and blinking at you before dipping it's head into the food. It only took a few minutes for it to finish eating and you felt like a proud momma. Poor little thing must have been very hungry.
That night you decided to let the kitty sleep above your blanket, settling into its place at the foot of your bed. Suddenly, the sound of raindrops have never felt so calming as you slept soundly that night for the first time in weeks.
The morning welcomed you with bright sunshine beaming through your windows. You hummed in content as you snuggle closer to the warm body that cradled yours.
Your eyes shot wide open at the sudden realization and shoved the person away from you. You stumble out of your own bed and stare at the gorgeous boy that blinked at you confusedly.
"Come back to bed, I want to sleep some more." He whined sleepily, tilting his head as he blinked at you. Why did it seem familiar to you?
You combed through your hair profusely, trying to stay calm as you rake your thoughts on what had happened last night. Did you got drunk and brought a boy over? Your blanket covered his body up to his neck but you were sure he wasn't wearing anything underneath, remembering how warm his skin felt on yours. You slap yourself internally and took a deep breath.
"Umm hey, I'm gonna have to ask you to leave. Last night was a mistake." you said awkwardly, fiddling with your fingers. He blinked at you, seemingly hurt.
"I'm sorry, did I do something wrong?" He said sadly and sat up and attempted to reach out to you, your blanket sliding down to his hips. His entire torso was now in full display and you quickly stopped him.
"No, stay! Don't come near." You shrieked as you look away with your hands covering your eyes.
"Do you regret taking me in last night?" He asked bitterly, looking down to his hands.
"What, what do you mean?" You remove your hands from your eyes and glance at him, your eyes quickly falling to his scarred torso.
Just likeâ
"Oh! Did my human form freak you out? I'm so sorry, I'll change back."
My cat. Under the covers, was the kitty you took in.
To say that your morning was eventful was an understatement. You told him to change back to his human form and had him wear one of your oversized shirts in which he happily sniffed before putting on, and a pair of shorts that your brother had left when he last visited you. And now both of you are seated at the kitchen table, eating kimchi fried rice and eggrolls for breakfast. It has been 5 minutes of awkward silence when he decided to clear his throat.
"I guess I should introduce myself." He said shyly, his eyes glued to his plate.
"Please do." you nod, trying to stay composed.
"I'm Jungwon, and I'm a hybrid."
You take in a shaky breath. A freaking hybrid.
"I grew up in the animal shelter, where I was separated from my parents since birth. I don't know if they're hybrids as well." his fists clenched under the table and he took a deep breath, his eyes closed tightly. You quickly notice his discomfort.
"Hey, it's okayâ"
"At the animal shelter, they didn't treat me well. The workers often lashed out me and hurt me when I couldn't obey them. And I didn't know why but I had this instinct of not to show them my human form. Honestly, this has been my longest time as a human." Jungwon said ruefully, ashamed to look at you in the eyes.
"When I was old enough, I escaped and ran away. I swore to myself that I am never going back to that place. And then I ended up under that tree, drenched and starving and you appeared and youâ" he choked, his tears trickled down his face and you quickly sat up fron your seat, rushed to his side and engulfed him in a hug.
"Hey, you don't have to be alone anymore. You have me now, okay?" You said as you stroked his hair comfortingly.
Once he'd calmed down, you introduced yourself as well.
"I'm Y/N. I guess I haven't told you my name last night." you chuckled. He shook his head.
"No, but I kinda peeked at your school ID while you showered. Sorry about that." He said sheepishly, scratching the back of his head.
"No need to be sorry for." you giggled.
Your conversation was abruptly cut off by the sound of your doorbell.
"Huh, who could that be?" you muttered to yourself, leaving Jungwon at the kitchen.
You opened the door, revealing your ex-boyfriend, Yedam.
"Hey, I was worried when you didn't text me back." You scoffed at him.
"Why would you even worry about me? Didn't you dump me?" you couldn't help it but you were angry at him. How he treated you so lowly that he thought you didn't even deserve a proper break up, that just a text message will be enough.
"Hey, you can't blame me. Y/N, your grades were failing, you were diagnosed with depression. You were falling apartâ"
"And you decided I'm too much for you to handle. Yedam, leave." Your voice broke, your tears threatening to fall.
"Y/N waitâ"
"Y/N asked you to leave." a voice spoke behind you, his hand reaching out to rub your back comfortingly. I'm here Y/N, I'm right here for you.
He didn't like the way the man you were talking to was making you feel. He could sense how upset you are and it pisses him off.
"Who are you? Back off man, this is none of your business." Yedam tried to brush him off.
"Any business of Y/N is my business too. Y/N, is this guy troubling you?" He asked you, his beautiful cat-like eyes look at you with tenderness and then shoots menacing glares at Yedam.
"No, not all." You smiled at Jungwon, and Yedam saw it. How your eyes sparkled as you look at the boy. You were happy. And when your eyes flew back to him, it was empty.
"Yedam, we're over. This conversation is over too. I hope you live a good life and thank you for being part of mine. That is all." You stated, feeling proud of yourself for handling things so well. For being strong.
"Bye then." Yedam said, turning his back to the both of you not before shooting Jungwon a look and muttering "Punk."
Once you close the door, you let your tears stream freely. Jungwon worriedly wipes away those tears.
"That human makes me want to claw his eyes out. I hate him for making you hurt like this." he scowled. You only smiled at him.
"Y/N, you don't have to be alone anymore. You have me now, okay?" he said, repeating your own words.
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Riddle & Silveră»Chef-In-Training Voice Lines
â Event: NRC Master Chef ~Meat Paradise~ (Feb 12 - Feb 25, 2021) â Exclusive Cards: Riddle & Silver
Riddle Rosehearts - SR
Unlock Card âAs dorm leader, I always have to be a model for Heartslabyul students. Of course, cooking is no exception.â
Groovy âI never thought it would feel so nice to hear someone tell you that your cooking is delicious...â
Home Setting âYou have to wear clean and neat clothing if you want to step into the kitchen.â
Home Transitions âYouâre supposed to change how you cook meat based on the cut. Itâs almost like a puzzle.â
âAs a royal, Malleus must have a refined taste. Iâm positive cooking something that he would be satisfied with is a near-impossible task.â
âI still remember the first time I saw a sponge cake being made. Seeing it rise felt just like magic.â
Home Transition (Login Greeting) âI have little to no experience with cooking, but as long as you follow the directions, there wonât be any mistakes. ...At least, there shouldnât be.â
Home Transition (Groovy) âYes! I finished! ...Ahem. Why are you grinning like that? Is it that big of a deal to see me excited?â
Home Taps âIf I commit myself to Master Chef, maybe I can eventually make a flawless strawberry tart myself...â
âI went to a fast food restaurant for the first time the other day. The taste aside, you could learn a thing or two from that pricing and service speed.â
âI donât like the concept of âadding to taste.â Shouldnât the exact amount always be written down, no matter how small?â
âSilver is actually very skilled. Iâm going to try to use his knife techniques as a guide for when I chop vegetables.â
âAgh, the cabbage broke apart again! These are too delicate. I donât think theyâre very suitable for wrapping anything with.â
Home Tap (Groovy) âYou seem to be awfully interested in this. But if you insist, Iâll cook for you again.â
Silver - SR
Unlock Card âAs Iâm improving my cooking skills, I also want to be overcoming my bad habit of dozing off.â
Groovy âIâm glad I could get this done successfully. Letâs keep at it.â
Home Setting âIâm done changing. Letâs start cooking.â
Home Transitions âI wish there was a spell that could cook ingredients in just a matter of seconds. No, I shouldnât take the easy way out. I need to stay focused.â
âKalim is always raving about Jamilâs food. Cooking must feel really worthwhile if it makes someone that happy to eat it.â
âWhen I lived in the forest, I used to snack on wild strawberries. The animals would come over and help me whenever I picked them.â
Home Transition (Login Greeting) âI want to learn other methods of cooking than chopping and grilling. Make sure to let me know if anythingâs off.â
Home Transition (Groovy) âIt smells so nice. Maybe now, I could have everyone eat my food with smiles on their faces.â
Home Taps âThe first dish I ever cooked by myself was risotto. The taste isnât anything special, but itâs my favorite.â
âIâm not that picky about food. As long as Iâm with someone Iâm close with, most things taste good. ...Right... Most things...â
âItâs actually really straining on the arm to shake a frying pan with one hand. SautĂ©ing lots of food would probably feel like a good workout.â
âI always knew that Riddle was very punctual, but I never imagined that he wouldnât so much as let a tenth of a gram be off.â
âAh! Damn it, I almost fell asleep again. I need to be careful when working with fire...â
Home Tap (Groovy) âWhatâs wrong? Youâre not eating? ...What? It makes it hard to eat when Iâm staring at you? Sorry, I just really wanted to see your reaction.â
Event Screen (Riddle) âSilverâs vegetable chopping speed is on a completely different level than mine.â
âWrapping meat filling with cabbage... is really difficult.â
âThere needs to be strict rules with cooking as well.â
Event Screen (Silver) âRiddle is always so earnest.â
âItâs a struggle to stay awake when stewing anything.â
âIt ends up tasting almost the same every time.â
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bluebird
natasha romanoff x f!readerÂ
summary: she saw you everywhere she looked, memories of you haunted her like a ghost...Â
wc: 2,029Â
warning(s): post!infinity war-pre!endgame, descriptions of a panic attack, swearingÂ
disclaimer! i havenât read a lot of marvel fanfiction on here yet, so if this is in any way similar to any other fic on this platform it was not in any way intentional.
a/n: guess what yâall, i did it... a lot of you gave my post about writing for marvel attention so i thought iâd try it out! i did get interest from people who like to read for nat so i thought iâd write for her first. if youâd like to see me write more for marvel, please let me know and if thereâs anyone in particular you want me to write for! love you all, mwahÂ
(gif credit @misswhovian101)Â
It was an after mission ritual that the team had. Despite their constant protests, you always went out of your way to take care of them when they got back on days that you werenât put out in the field. From helping them bandage up any wounds and setting out a clean set of clothes for them to change into when they got back, to making them a home cooked meal when they got back, you made sure you were always there for them. Tonight wasnât any different. You bandaged up their wounds, put out some clean clothes, and made them some pasta for dinner. But when everyoneâs taken care of and done, you and a certain avenger have an after mission ritual of your own.Â
âFor a trained assassin, you are way more picky than I thought you would be,â you chuckle as you slide the plate across the kitchen counter to the red haired woman in front of you.Â
Natasha looks at you with a playful grin on her face. âWhat can I say? I hate bread crusts.âÂ
Taking a bite out of your own sandwich you roll your eyes. âIâve gotten so used to cutting off the crusts for you that whenever I make sandwiches for myself, they magically disappear off mine too. Itâs almost like second nature at this point.âÂ
Nat lets out a laugh. As she watches you continue to eat, her heart rate begins to pick up and a familiar flutter blooms in her stomach. âYouâre too good to me,â she tells you sincerely.Â
Your eyes soften at her words. Not a lot of people saw this side of the Black Widow; the softer side who showed her love and appreciation for her friends, no, her family. You take her hand that is resting on the counter top in yours and give it a gentle squeeze. âNonsense. Iâm just treating you the way you deserve. Now hurry up and eat, we have a movie marathon to get to!âÂ
With one last squeeze to her hand, you make your way to the loft. Natasha watches you walk away with the biggest smile taking over her features and a light blush across her cheeks.Â
âStare at that sandwich any harder and Iâm sure itâs going to explode.â
Natasha sighs, pushing away the plate that sat in front of her.Â
âCâmon Nat, itâs been days since the last time Iâve seen you eat anything,â Steve says as he takes a seat in front of the woman. âYou donât even have to finish the whole thing. I just want to see you take one bite and Iâll be satisfied. Please.âÂ
Her gaze doesnât stray from the plate in front of her until the sandwich begins to look blurry from the tears that welled up in her eyes, threatening to spill past her waterline. âI hate bread crusts,â she lets out, her voice breaking at the end.Â
If it werenât for them being the only two people in the room, Steve mightâve missed what she said because of how quietly she said it.Â
âAnd she knew that,â Natasha continues. âShe would always cut off the crusts as if it were second nature, even on her own sandwiches.â She scoffs. The tears are now flowing from her eyes and she hastily wipes them away. âItâs not fair. Itâs not fair that we got to live and that they-theyâŠâ She trails off letting out a quiet sob.Â
Steve has never seen his friend so down and defeated. Not until she lost you. He makes his way over to her and wraps her up in a hug, resting her head against his torso. Steve lets Natasha cry out everything sheâs feeling. All the pain, sadness, and loss finally letting itself free. Unlike him, Natasha was set on finding a way to bring you back. She just wasnât ready to move on. âI know. I know.â When Natashaâs sobs finally died down, Steve let her go and kneeled down on his knees forcing her to meet his eyes. âShe loved you so much, you know. Even though she didnât say it often. She really did.âÂ
She gives him a sad smile in response and nods. âI know.â
âYou know I would do anything for you, right?âÂ
Natasha lets out a shaky breath, looking down at you with a frown. âI know you would. But throwing yourself in front of me in the middle of a fight? What were you thinking?âÂ
You hold your breath at her question as your heart rate continues to rise. Avoiding her gaze, you pick at the frays at the edge of the hospital gown you are wearing. âI wasnât. Seeing him aim that gun directly at you⊠it terrified me. The only thing I could think about was keeping you safe Nat. And you know I would do it again in a heartbeat as long as it means youâre ok.âÂ
âBut why?â Natasha asks in disbelief. Sure, you had the kindest soul on the team, that she had no doubts about. You would do anything as long as it meant keeping everyone else safe. But the way you were looking at her and tightly gripping her hand made her feel like it was so much more than that.Â
âBecause I-âÂ
âOh good, youâre awake,â Bruce Banner interrupts as he walks into the room.Â
Turning back to Natasha, you give her a sheepish smile mouthing a quick âLater,â to her before she steps to the side letting Bruce take care of you.ïżœïżœ
âI love you,â Natasha whispers, brushing a thumb across your face in the photograph that sat on her bedside. Her mornings start the same every day. The moment she wakes up, she tells you she loves you before getting ready and going down to monitor the rest of the world. Steve would come visit every now and then to make sure sheâs keeping herself alive before going to those support groups. No matter how many times Steve tried to drag her out there to go with him, she refused. Natasha absolutely loathed the thought of going to a support group because in her eyes, that meant she was letting you go. And she wasnât ready to do that. Not yet. As Natasha stared out the window of the compound, she saw a bluebird land on the window sill. It stayed there for a bit, lightly tapping at the glass before flying away. At the sight, Nat softly smiles before the tears begin to fall once more.Â
âNat. Nat look!â you nudge the woman beside you on the shoulder.Â
Following your finger, Natashaâs gaze lands on a tree not too far away. âWhat am I looking at?âÂ
âTurn your head a little to the left and youâll see a bluebird perched on the branch right there.âÂ
She follows your instructions until she sees the bird. Natasha focuses her attention back to you only to see you still looking at the bird with wide eyes and a gorgeous smile. She giggles at the sight. âWhat, you've never seen a bluebird before?â she teases.Â
You playfully roll your eyes at her and turn back to meet her stare. âI have.âÂ
âThen whatâs so special about it?âÂ
âWell, bluebirds represent hope and prosperity. Some people say that when you see a bluebird joy and happiness is soon to come your way. Isnât that incredible?â Realizing that youâve been going on about the bird longer than you intended, you lower your head in embarrassment.Â
Nat finds your reaction absolutely adorable and a small smile crosses her lips as she bumps her hip against yours. âIt sure is.âÂ
Natasha woke up with a loud gasp. She felt like she was drowning as her dreams had her reliving the day she lost you all over again. The sound of the anguish in your voice as you called out to her as your knees began to give in and your body crumbled to the ground before you completely disappeared all together. The way that your eyes met hers, wide and with fear. Never in all the years that sheâs known you has Nat seen you look so terrified. Your face continued to plague her even when she closed her eyes and suddenly she couldnât breathe. It felt like her throat was closing up and her heartbeat was going a mile a minute. Natasha was so busy squeezing her eyes shut and trying to get a hold of her breath again that she didnât notice Steve barging into her room.Â
âHey, Nat. Nat, I need you to breathe with me. Natasha? In and outâŠâÂ
âIn and outâŠâ
Your head was between your arms as you listened to Natashaâs voice.Â
âThatâs it bluebird, a couple of more times.â Natasha kneeled in front of you, watching as you took control of your breathing. She hated seeing you like this, but she knew you couldnât control it. Nat waited a minute more before calling your name. âY/N?âÂ
With your eyes still closed shut, you nod. âYeah,â you croak, throat slightly dry. âIâm ok.âÂ
Nat takes that as her signal to move closer. She wraps an arm around your shoulders and pulls you close while rubbing a comforting hand down your back. She presses her lips softly against the crown of your head as she rocks you back and forth. âWant to talk about it?âÂ
With a sniffle, dig yourself further into the crook of her neck, inhaling her scent that reminded you of home. âThereâs not much to talk about. Itâs the same every time.âÂ
Natasha nods understandingly. She knew that sometimes when you got like this youâd close off from her and the team for a couple of days. She always respected your need for a little space but something about this time felt different. This time she wanted to stay and she wanted to be there for you. âThatâs ok too,â she tells you softly. âWe donât have to talk. We can just sit here until youâre ready.âÂ
You donât answer, only wrapping your arms around her waist and giving her a light squeeze.Â
She gives you a squeeze back to tell you that sheâs there for whatever you need. The two of you sit there in silence for what feels like hours before you finally break the silence.Â
âI love you Nat,â you say, your voice muffled.Â
Natasha couldâve sworn that her heart skipped a beat when she heard you. It was if something in her just clicked when she heard you say those three words. Ever suppressed feeling she had for you suddenly came to light. And thatâs when she knew. She knew she loved you too.Â
âI should have told her,â Nat lets out. âI should have told her I loved her too.âÂ
Steve sat on the edge of the bed letting her vent.Â
âShe told me she loved me and I-I should have said something damnit!â Natasha frustratingly runs her hands through her hair slightly tugging at the roots. âAnd now sheâs gone. Sheâs gone and thereâs nothing I can do about it.âÂ
Steveâs heart breaks for his friend as she continues to let out her frustrations. He couldnât blame her for how she was feeling though. He had a bit of experience of his known when it came to losing the ones you love. âYou can,â Steveâs voice low, yet very prominently, echoes through the room. âYou can and you will tell her you love her.âÂ
âHow?â her voice comes out as a whisper.Â
âIâm not sure yet. But weâre not going to give up. Do you hear me? Weâre gonna get them back. Bucky, Y/N, all of them. Whatever it takes.âÂ
An hour of silence passes between the two before Steve heads back to his room. Natasha stays curled up on her bed staring at the picture of you once more. She wipes away the remnants of tears that remain stained on her cheeks. She closes her eyes as she imagines your picture perfect smile and melodic laugh. She would do anything to have you back in her arms again. Anything. âWhatever it takes, bluebird. Whatever it takesâŠâ
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Touch Starved [Frankie Morales x Reader]
Summary: You and your best friend Frankie Morales have had silent feelings for each other since the day you met. No one couldâve ever guessed the strange circumstance which occurred one fateful night, and how the proceeding events would be the push you needed to take your friendship to the next level.
Word count: 6k (what the heck this is the longest piece iâve ever written BY FAR)
Rating: 18+ only.
Warnings: SMUT, thigh riding, oral (m and f receiving), alcohol consumption/intoxication, food/drink mention, lot of pining over each other and just some general fluff
Authorâs Note: This is my first ever Frankie fic anddddd my first ever smut lol. Please be kind I hope you enjoy. PS if you want a part two let me know! xx
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Your eyes were heavy and you shuffled into the cushion, adjusting your position on the couch until you felt more comfortable. You grazed your fingers against the pages of your book, but found yourself re-reading the same sentence over and over again in attempt to keep yourself awake. Even your two scented candles were close to burning out, and you figured it was time for bed.
Gently dropping the book on the floor, you closed your eyes and felt yourself drift off into a dreamy sleep when a loud bang on your door woke you up with a jolt. Your heart was pounding as you bolted upright, clutching the thin wooled blanket that was lazily draped around your body in fear. Within seconds, you heard another bang on the door. Rubbing your eyes, you flicked on your phone and checked the time. 11-48pm. Almost midnight. You groaned, standing up and padding to the front door of your apartment. Who could possibly want to see you at this hour? You wondered. Not even bothering to check through the peephole, you let out an elongated groan.
âWho is it?â You called out and rubbed your tired eyes. You ran your fingers through your hair in hope that you would look somewhat presentable for when you greeted your uninvited visitor.
Without hesitation you heard him. A voice you were so familiar with. âItâs Frankie, man! You gotta let me in!â you noted that his voice sounded urged and your stomach filled with concern. Was he alright? Why was he at your apartment at 11-48pm? A million thoughts raced through your mind in just the second it took you to open the door. The thought of Frankie being here made you nervous, but excited. In a fluster, you stumbled with the door lock before finally managing to get it open.
There he was. His dark brown waves were tucked into one of his infamous baseball caps and he was wearing a dark green flannel and a washed out pair of denim jeans. You tried to search for answers in his face, but he truly seemed fine, other than the slight panic in his voice. He slid past you, allowing himself into your apartment and began pacing around.
âWould you like a drink?â You asked, almost rhetorically. Frankie didnât answer, nor did he need to. You were already clicking open the bottle of ice cold Bud and handing it over to him. He took a big sip out of the alcoholic beverage, and you took the liberty of admiring him as he done so. He wasnât watching you anyway, but instead focusing on downing the drink. That's what he needed. A drink to wash away his worries. How could he ever explain this to you?
You loved the way his chocolate brown eyes shone under the candlelight and the way his skin looked almost soft and golden. You waited patiently for him to finish drinking, never wanting to hurry him.
Frankie appreciated the atmosphere of your apartment too. He always had. It made a change from his current living situation. Frankie wasnât picky as such, but living with his four best guy friends definitely had its downfalls. Whether that be Ben constantly hogging the living room television to play his Call of Duty video games, or Santiago bringing home a different lady every other night, making such noise that nobody but Will could sleep, or even Tom with his untidy behaviour and complete disregard for everyone else who lived with him. It wasn't great but what other choice did Frankie have? Other than you. You didnât feel like a choice to him, you felt like a necessity. He needed you. You were his safe place, and your chic apartment felt more like home than his shabby downtown place.
âI gotta ask you a favour.â Frankie prompted eventually, sliding down into the cream faux-leather sofa and placing his bottle of beer on the coffee table. You took a seat in the chair opposite him and folded your arms, waiting for him to continue. âActually, I donât know. Never mind. Uhm⊠itâs a funny story to be honest. But, maybe itâs fine. Itâs not fine. Itâs just, well-â
âSpit it out Frankie!â You giggled jokingly, reaching over and nudging him slightly. He was immediately put at ease by just the simplest brush of your fingers, and yet he couldnât bring himself to make eye contact with you. He found himself staring into the burning flame of your cinnamon scented candle. He felt mildly ashamed about how this whole situation had even surfaced in the first place.
âMe and Santi⊠we had a bet. A dare kinda thing.â Frankie explained, shuffling around with discomfort. He was definitely embarrassed that he had driven himself all the way to your apartment in the dead of night just to tell you thisâ or rather, ask you this. âThe guys were teasing, you know how they are. About how- well, you know, Iâve never really been with a girl sinceâŠâ Frankie paused.
âMariĂ .â You sighed, and Frankie nodded slowly. âYour ex wifeâŠâ
âYeah. And I know itâs crazy but after the divorce and everything⊠I just havenât really uh, had the opportunity. I mean Iâve had the opportunity itâs just- never felt right. I suppose. And you know, itâs not that I donât want to start dating again. Or seeing women. Sleeping with wo-â Frankie was about to start rambling about his sex life (or lack there of) and you were not prepared to let your mind journey there. Not that you had never thought about it before⊠no. He was your best friend. And it would be wrong. Besides, Frankie had a tendency to over share but you were always there to help him get back on track, whereas others, namely the guys, would tease and mock him for it.
âWhy are you here, Frankie?â You cut him off with as much delicacy as you could muster up. Your voice was soft, and Frankie noticed how gentle you had always been with him.
âSanti said he bet I couldnât ask a girl out if I tried,â Frankie explained with a short sigh and you frowned. You knew Santiago well and you knew that he and Frankie were like brothers, but Frankie had been through a lot lately and Santiago never really had the best choice of words. You wondered if he had hurt Frankie, and instantly felt defensive over your friend.
âAnd then what happened?â
âI told Santi I could get a girl, and then, this afternoon, he asked me how I had come on. I lied, told him I asked out a pretty girl. He asked me about her and well, the girl I described⊠I guess⊠in my head I was just picturing you.â Frankie said, and finally glanced up at you, his pretty eyes shimmering in the dim light. You felt your heart rate increase at his revelation. âYou know? Itâs funny. This made up girl looks just like you.â He chuckled lightly. Your silence was deafening and his stomach filled with anxiety. âI donât know why!â he assured but that was a lie. He knew why. He was your first thought at the start of the day you were his last thought at the end of the day. Every moment he got, he was thinking about youâ pining over you.
âOh,â you whispered, unable to process any more words. You werenât sure what to make of it. You brushed away your feelings, thinking that you only came to Frankieâs mind because you saw him so much. You were the only girl he really hung out with.
âOf course Santi didnât believe me. Iâm a terrible liar. You know that. But I really donât want the guys to catch me out on this! Itâs so embarrassing.â Frankie was exasperated. You took to your feet and walked over to him, falling back on the sofa and resting your hand on Frankieâs forearm. To Frankie, your touch was like electricity.
âYou do not need to be ashamed of something like this Frankie,â you assured him. Frankie took off his cap and ran his fingers through his brown locks.
âI know I know,â he sighed before looking back at you. âSanti wants to meet this fake girl. Heâs been seeing Yovanna again and heâs organised a double date kind of thing. For him, Yo, myself and well⊠I'm hoping, you.â
You blinked hard. âWait,â you paused. âYou want to go on a date with me?â
This had to be dream. Had you just fallen asleep on the sofa? You pinched yourself and checked the wall clock above the television. Only a few minutes had ticked by. Definitely not a dream.
âFake date.â Frankie corrected and you felt your heart sink slightly.
Or maybe it was a nightmare.
You shuffled around, not knowing how to feel. âUhm, Frankie⊠Iâm not sureâŠâ you hesitated. All you had wanted for so long was to go on a date with Frankie. A real date. You had been dreaming about the day he would ask you out since you first met him, but this wasnât what you had pictured at all.
âPlease,â Frankie begged, clasping his hands together in a pleaing manner. âJust pretend to be my date.â
And how could you ever say no to Frankie Moralesâ puppy dog eyes?
The night of the date, you and Frankie had agreed to meet at the restaurant. You hadnât really discussed anything prior, but this date, albeit fake, was all you could think about. Every chance you had, you were thinking about Frankie. You wondered how it would be, pretending to be his date. And equally, Frankie was thinking the same.
He struggled to catch any sleep, and instead would lay in his bed staring at the ceiling. He wondered how to fake a date. He didnât want to do anything to make you uncomfortable and he simply hadnât dated anyone in so long. He was so sure that he would embarrass himself, and that youâd never want to talk to him again.
Frankie, Santiago and Yovanna were already sitting around the restaurant table before you arrived. It was a quaint little Italian place on the coast and it had the most beautiful evening view. The sky was darkening and there wasn't a cloud in sight, but instead, pearly white stars pierced the velveteen abyss above and it looked like something straight out of a romance movie. The environment was perfect. The place was slightly out of the usual burger joint budget for Frankie and Santiago, but Yovanna insisted on the high-end restaurant, and even Frankie had to admit it would be nice to eat some good quality food for a change.
You werenât late, but rather Frankie, Santiago and Yovanna were early. Frankie had already downed three bottles of beer before you arrived, trying to wash away his nerves. By the time you came, he was already slightly intoxicated. His ease was all that mattered and besides, Frankie was a happy drunk.
When Frankie saw you enter the restaurant, it was like his whole world stopped. He always thought you were beautiful, but tonight he was looking at you in a whole different light. You werenât in your usual sweats and hoodie, and truthfully he had never seen you like this before. Your little black dress hugged your body in all the right places, and your matching heels clicked against the marble floor as you padded over to the table. You felt a blush creep upon your cheeks when you caught Santi gawking.
âWhoa, you clean up well!â Santiago complimented, looking you up and down, grinning ecstatically.
Frankie tried to keep his cool, but he couldnât take his eyes off you. He took in your bare legs and how fine they looked in your dress, and he admired the way you had styled your hair. It was out of your face, and he appreciated that, because now he could infatuate himself over your features. You wore minimal makeup, but your eyeshadow accentuated your eye colour and your choice of lip gloss plumped your lips slightly. Frankieâs eyes went from being drawn to your legs, to now your lips, and he cursed himself for the thoughts he was thinking. Fake date. He reminded himself; but he couldn't help but questionâ what if it was real? If he could, heâd take you in his arms right then and there and kiss you.
You took your seat next to Yovanna and opposite Frankie, trying to remain as nonchalant as possible, but as you felt Frankieâs eyes burn into you, electricity sparked in your in your lower stomach. A certain kind of excitement. You pushed it away the best you could, focusing on reading the menu in front of you and deciding on the food you would order. Frankie pushed over a vibrant purple drink in a cocktail glass. âI got you your favourite,â Frankie smiled, and you felt your heart flutter. âI hope you donât mind.â
You smiled and took a sip, but scrunched up your nose when the strong taste of vodka hit. âUm, sweetie,â You thought that tonight you would have to force out the pet names but it came so naturally. âHow many shots are in here?â
âItâs a treble.â Frankie bit his lip, watching you with intent as you took another sip. His heart blossomed at the little name you called him.
âAre you trying to get me drunk?!â you gasped playfully and Frankie offered you another warm smile. âI donât mind. Actually, I need it. Had a bad day at work.â you explained.
âIt was Santiâs idea.â he admitted and Santiago innocently raised his hands in response. Frankie reached over the table, taking your hands in his and brushing his thumbs over your knuckles. You felt a shiver run down your spine at his touch. âBad day?â he furrowed his eyebrows together, concern peaking in his gentle voice.
âTalk about it later.â you promised. Frankie brought your hands to his lips and kissed them softly. You had to stop yourself from swooning on the spot. Your heart began to pick up speed again and at this point, you were finding it difficult to remember that this was all fake.
As the four of you ate your food, you and Frankie were flirting all night; playing footsie under the table and exchanging dirty jokes. At one point, you accidentally ran your heel up his leg and he let out an accidental groan, fillet mignon almost spilling out his mouth. You hurled with laughter and his cheeks rosied up in embarrassment. Both you and Frankie were enjoying yourself way more than you had ever even considered.
âWait,â you spluttered out in a fluster of giggles. You were still laughing at one of Frankieâs jokes. âYovanna and Santi have gone home.â You noticed, pointing your finger at the empty seats next to yourself and Frankie.
âOh yeah,â Frankie replied. âAnd we didnât even notice.â He burst into laughter again and you followed, the alcohol really letting you both lose your inhibitions. âThat bastard left me with his and Yovannaâs bill too.â Frankie shook his head in disbelief.
âLet me help you pay,â you unzipped your purse but Frankie put his hand out and stopped you.
âDonât worry baby, this is on me.â Frankie promised and offered you a cheeky wink.
Santiago and Yovanna were gone. They had no one to prove their fake date toâ and yet, exchanging flirtatious comments were simply too fun to stop.
âOkay,â you laughed, taking a gulp of red wine. You were sure the warm liquid must have stained your lips crimson with how much you had drunk, but you werenât too concerned. âBut next time, Iâm paying.â
âThereâs going to be a next time?" Frankie asked you hopefully.
âIsnât there?â you returned a smile. âThis was the best fake date Iâve ever been on.â You and Frankie let out a boisterous laugh, even catching the attention of other couples who were sitting around you trying to enjoy their romantic candlelit dinners.
âTouchĂ©,â he agreed, taking out his wallet and signing a check before clipping it to the bill and standing up. He took your hand, pulling you forward but you stumbled to your feet, falling into his chest. He was so broad and his arms were so big. Your feelings for him picked up a notch and you were unsure how long you could keep up the charade of pretending you saw him as just a friend.
You thought about how strong he was, barely flinching when you fell into him, and honestly, it turned you on. He slung his hands around your waist, slowly pushing you off his, but even when you werenât resting on him anymore, he kept his big hands around you as you left the restaurant and walked through the parking lot to Frankieâs truck. You were grateful because without him guiding you and steadying you, youâd probably struggle to even reach the truck.
The close proximity between you and him made Frankie overwhelmed, his palms getting clammy and his cock hardening from your scent alone. Everything felt so intense. The cool night air took his breath away and he loved the way he could feel the shape of your body through your dress. He craved more.
He hoped that in the darkness of the night, you hadnât noticed his throbbing length under his jeans. He slid into the driver seat of the car and you sat next to him, strapping yourself in. Frankie turned the key and as you set off, you both sat there in silence. Silence around Frankie was never uncomfortable, but this wasnât a situation you were used to. It was a big difference to the environment in the bustling restaurant, but now it was just you two, alone, in his carâ and you could cut the sexual tension with a knife.
âCome home with me.â You said eventually, not moving an inch and still looking at the road ahead. You managed to find the confidence, but you werenât yet able to bring yourself to look him in the eye. He was your best friend. And you realised that what you were asking of him was a lot.
Frankie wasnât put off, in fact, he felt his cock twitch at your words and he had to suppress a moan from escaping his lips. Did you really want him to take you home? As if on cue, you continued your proposal.
âStay the night.â This verified Frankieâs thoughts and you hoped he had got the hint. You looked up into the rear view mirror and watched Frankie as he concentrated on driving, his body completely tensed up. He didnât say a word, but when he detoured, you knew he was taking you back to your apartment. You wanted to calm him. Relax him. Soothe him. You let your fingers grace his jean clad leg, accidentally brushing over his erection. Frankie cursed under his breath. âS-sorry.â you mumbled, feeling your face flush. He was already hard. You crossed your legs tight together, trying to ignore the way your cunt was already dripping for him.
âNo,â Frankie said. âWas good. Felt good.â his grip on the steering wheel tightened as you contemplated his words. He liked it. You moved your hand over his crotch again and began to palm him as he drove. He felt so constricted in his jeans and he couldnât wait to get them off. It wasnât long before his vision began to feel hazy under your touch but luckily he soon pulled up in front of your apartment. You removed your hand from his leg and let yourself out of the truck, feeling dazed also, and hurried inside. Frankie followed, loosing his belt as he stepped foot into the building. He was throbbing and in such desperate need of relief.
You pressed the button and waited for the elevator to come. By the time Frankie caught up with you, it was here, and the pair of you stepped inside. As the doors began to close on you, Frankie crashed his lips onto yours, pushing his body against you. This time it was his turn to touch you. His rough manner made you gasp but you needed to feel his body against yours. You let his hands explore you, his fingers rolling over the curves of your breasts and the dips in your waist. Within seconds, the elevator door opened with a ping and you had reached the floor of your apartment. Hungrily, you grabbed Frankie by the collar of his shirt and dragged him to your front door, unlocking it with haste. Once you were inside, you turned to shut the door behind you when Frankie pinned you against it. His hands were on your wrists and your arms were spread out over the wood. He pressed a kiss into your jaw. âYou want this?â his voice was rough and barely above a whisper, and his manner made your knees weak. He was so close to you, you could smell the beer mixed with his fragrance.
You didnât dare move, but instead mewled out a tiny âyesâ. Frankie smirked and turned you around so he could look at you in the eyes. He still had a hold of you, his grip was as tight as vice and his eyes were no longer the usual shade of honeyed brown but instead were much darker and lustful with a predatory glint. He kissed you again, hard, and his tongue swiped along your lower lip, begging for entry which you quickly granted. It was easy to get lost in the kiss; he was so good and so passionate. He worked his hands all over your body, pulling the occasional moan from your lips. Hearing the noises you made felt like music to his ears. You felt his hardened manhood press against the inside of your thigh and you shuddered, breaking the kiss to regain your breath. âBedroom.â you mumbled out. You took Frankieâs hand and dragged him through the living room and into your small bedroom. He sat himself down on the edge of your bed and began to kick off his shoes when you took him by surprise and straddled him, wrapping your legs around him and initiating another heated kiss.
You needed some kind of release and on impulse, you began to grind yourself over Frankieâs denim clad leg. Your heart was racing as you rubbed yourself over the material, a fire burning deep in your stomach at the friction between the jeans and the thin silk panties you were sporting. Frankie placed a soft kiss to your lips, along your jaw, and down your neck as you began to get yourself off on him. He bit down gently, leaving his mark, wanting to claim you as his own. âMine.â His voice was dark and you grabbed his shoulders, grinding on his leg harder.
âYours.â You shakily exhaled, trying to keep your composure. You shuffled forward, further onto him and started rubbing yourself over his erection, pulling a groan from his lips, and you couldnât help but smile knowing that this was your doing. You kept at it, enjoying the control, and watched Frankieâs eyes close from the sensation as you grinded over him.
âYeah baby thatâs it,â he praised. âTake what you need.â
Those four words threw you over the edge. You reached up, letting your fingers tangle in Frankieâs chocolate coloured locks of hair, tugging at them as you rode out your high. He opened his eyes, watching you as you dropped your head back, seeing stars. You were truly the most beautiful woman he had ever seen. Feeling satisfied, you scrambled off him, your legs shaky and he grabbed the hem of your dress. He began to pull it off you as eagerly as he could. Frankie noticed the damp patch on his leg from your wetness and muttered another curse. You were so wet and it was all for him. He looked up at you, watching you kick your dress to one side and felt his jaw tick. He was mesmerised by your body. In only your panties, you straddled him once more, and Frankie let his hands roam over your breasts, giving them the occasional squeeze.
âMy turn.â you told him, pulling his shirt over his head and pushing him into the blankets of your bed. He let out a soft groan as his head hit your pillow and you shuffled backwards a little. You unbuttoned his jeans and unzipped them before pulling them down to his ankles. Frankie kicked them off and they pooled into a pile amongst his shirt and your dress at the bottom of the bed. A little gasp escaped your lips when you eyed up his hardened length under the thin cloth of his boxer shorts, a small patch of wetness already visible. You dipped your hands into his underwear and pulled him out, licking your lips at the sight of his precum beading at the tip.
You let your fingers wander his length, teasingly, making sure you were as soft as possible. Then, you pulled away and spat into your hand. You wrapped your hand around his cock and began pumping at it. âNgh, s-so good,â Frankie grunted, closing his eyes as you worked at him. âHavenât-havenât been touched in so long.â
âRelax,â you soothed. âLet me take care of you.â
Frankie bucked his hips further into your hand and you kept going. His eyes fluttered shut and his mind was in a solid state of euphoria. This was better than he had ever imagined and he knew he wouldnât last long. You stroked him up and down and watched him as he came undone beneath you.
âWanted this for so long,â he admits mindlessly. âImagined this, so many nights⊠imagined your pretty lips around my-â
You cut Frankie off by taking his length in your mouth and pushing as deep as you could, opening your throat up to him and gagging slightly from his length. However, it didnât take long to become comfortable with the way his cock filled you. He let out a gasp, his back arching and his fists grabbing the bed sheets. You bobbed your head up and down and he took a fistful of your hair, only encouraging you further.
He raised his head and watched you take him. Your hand still wet, you begin to pump the remaining length of him that you couldnât fit into your mouth and he shudders in ecstasy. With your free hand, you cradle his balls, rubbing circles with your thumb and you can feel him almost lose it completely.
âWonât last,â he warns you. âPlease, wanna be inside you. Wanna feel your pussy.â he practically begs and as soon as you feel his cock twitch in your mouth, you pull off him, leaving a trail of your saliva between your tongue and his length.
You admired Frankieâs naked body spread out in your bed, a thin sheen of sweat glazing over his chest. It was a sight you had only dreamed about. He sat up and grabbed you by the waist, pulling you down so now he was on top. He positioned himself in between your legs and gently spread them apart, eyeing up the dark patch in the crotch of your panties from where you had previously orgasmed on his leg. He let his finger glide over the material, rubbing against the bud of your clit and you whimpered in desperation. âSo wet for me.â he drew out. âCan I taste?â he asked, looked up at you with his big brown eyes. You wanted to smack that innocent look he had playing on his face.
âFrankieee.â you cried out. You would never, ever deny oral from Frankie but right now you craved something else. âNeed you inside me. Please.â
Frankie pulled your panties down your legs and threw them to the floor. âOh baby,â he moaned, running his fingers through your slick wet folds. âIâm just warming up.â his voice was like honey and he attached his mouth to your clit, sucking intently. You threw your head back at the sensation and felt his mustache and stubble tickle you as he worked your core.
This was better than anything Frankie had ever dreamed about. He needed to taste every drop of your arousal. He had wanted this for so long, and now it was finally happening. He wanted to savour every moment like it was his last. After all, you two were the best of friends and he didnât know where exactly youâd stand about all of this tomorrow. If youâd even want to see him again. You were both risking a lot but somehow, it felt worthwhile.
Frankie found it difficult to remain composed as he devoured you and felt your body shake as you neared your climax. He grabbed your thighs, steadying you as you let out a wail. âPlease Frankie.â you cried out, tears threatening to spill from your eyes. âNeed you inside of me.â Â You reminded, tugging on his hair even harder. He took his finger and grazed your entrance while still working his tongue against you. âStop teasing.â
For once, Frankie listened to you and pulled his lips away from you. He thought he could cum just from eating you out and he didnât want that to happen. This could be his only chance. You groaned in frustration at the break of contact. You were so close and he had edged you completely before pulling away. You had asked for it. He was such a tease. Frankie hovered himself over you and pressed a kiss to your forehead. You felt his cock nudge against your core and you dug your fingernails into his back. You needed him now.
âDo you have a condom?â Frankie whispered into your ear. He hadnât brought any to the fake date because truthfully, he didnât expect the night would be ending like this.
âIâm safe.â you promised him and he smiled, kissing your lips. You laced your fingers into his hair as he steadied himself on the bed.
âAre you ready?â Frankie questioned, nudging his cock over your entrance again causing you to let out a wail.
âPlease Frankie. Iâm ready.â
The second those two words left your lips, Frankie thrusted deep inside you. You gasped as he slowly adjusted himself inside of you and, still experiencing your high from when he ate you out, you knew you wouldn't ask long. He felt your walls tighten around him and he knew it too.
âIâm gonna cum.â you warned him, tugging on his curls at the nape of his neck and pulling his head down into your collarbones. He pinched at your skin with his teeth and increased his speed.
âCum for me.â He instructed, his voice dark. With a few more sloppy thrusts, you came undone beneath him, dragging your nails down his back. He didnât stop and continued to thrust into you as you climaxed causing small screams to emit from your lips. Frankie loved the little noises you made.
âShit,â he whispered, his coarse hands finding and massaging your breasts. âYour cunt gets so tight when you cum.â
âFrankieeee, keep doing that and Iâll cum again.â you said softly and you felt Frankieâs lips twist into a wicked smirk as he pushed himself deeper inside of you.
âNgh you feel so good,â Frankie grunted, pearls of sweat beading at his hairline. âCan you cum for me again? Can you give me another one?â
âYes Frankie,â you obeyed, cupping your hands around his face and forcing him to look you in the eyes while he fucked you. His coarse facial hair grazed your hands but nothing felt as good as his length filling you up, hitting you in just the right spot with each thrust.
âI want you to cum with me,â Frankie gasped, groaning loudly as he felt his cock twitch inside you. He was close, and you could feel it too. âSame time.â he instructed. He was so used to giving orders, that it turned you on even more. âCan you do that for me?â his voice was urged and he kept his pace consistent.
You managed to give him a small nod and closed your eyes feeling nothing but pure bliss and ecstasy. âIâm close!â you managed to cry out.
âMe too, n-not long baby,â Frankie promised you. âSay my name.â
âFuck Frankie, you fuck me so good. Your cock fills me up so well. Feels so good,â you moaned, your legs tightening around his waist.
âThatâs it.â Frankie groaned.
âCum inside me Frankie,â you gasped. âPl-please. Need to feel your warm cum inside of me.â
âGonna count down baby girl,â Frankie said, straightening up and pushing more hard thrusts inside of you. He admired your tangled body between him and brought his thumb to your clit, rubbing at it while he finished fucking you. âAre you ready?â
âFrankieeee.â You cried out, squeezing your eyes shut.
â3, 2,â Frankie pushed one final deep thrust into you. â1.â You and Frankie both came together, your wet cunt squeezing his cock like a vice and his thick ropes of cum spilling inside of you.
Frankie rolled off you and lay next to you. You curled yourself into his damp chest and he slung his arm around you. You felt safe. Protected. You knew that Frankie would never let anyone or anything hurt you but now it felt different. He was your safety, and you were his home. For a few minutes, you both laid there in silence trying to regain your breath and settle down.
âThat was-â Frankie started but you cut him off.
âSo good.â you smiled and he grinned back in agreement.
âThe best.â He replied and gave you a little squeeze of reassurance.
âHey Frankie?â You asked and he hummed in acknowledgement. âIf that was a fake date⊠what the hell do you do on a fake date?â You raised an eyebrow and giggled when you saw Frankieâs cheeks rosy up.
âWanna find out?â He beckoned and your grin couldnât have grown any wider. You were finally going to get your chance to have a real date with Frankie.
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tw: mention of eating disorders
hey i read something about freddie having an eating disrorder, and I hate asking this but could you please explain if you know anything about it. my poor baby :(
Hey anon!
Iâm sorry it took me a while to reply. This is a sensitive topic for many, so I wanted to take my time and give you the nuanced reply it deserves.
Iâve talked about this a little before, but I might as well take the opportunity now to speak about it at length. This is only my personal opinion based on everything Iâve read about Freddie and many different takes Iâve seen others put forward.
So, did Freddie have an eating disorder?
The shortest answer to that, as far as Iâm concerned, is... maybe?
Before I carry on, Iâd like to say that I think everyone is free to speculate about this and make up their own mind, as well as creatively explore this in their writing, and I donât consider my opinion to be any more correct than anyone elseâs.
Why do people think Freddie might have had an ED?
There are a few things about Freddie and food which could be interpreted as ED behaviours. First off, here is what Phoebe has to say about Freddie and his eating habits:
His taste in food changed over the years I was with Freddie. When I started the group of us would make monthly visits to the restaurant Shezan, an Indian eatery, in Knightsbridge. Freddie never had a menu as they always provided his favourite selection of foods without asking. As his illness progressed, his taste buds could not take the assault of spicy foods and he tended to more bland foods. He also turned his eating habits around. He used to have a lighter meal at lunch and then have a big meal in the evening, usually at a restaurant with a big group of friends. Towards the end he would eat more at lunch and a smaller meal in the evenings.
Nothing much out of the ordinary here, as far as I can see. Freddie definitely had favourite foods he enjoyed, but then, a common misconception is that people with EDs donât like/enjoy food, and that isnât true. Phoebe also says this:
As I have said before, Freddie was a very light eater. Some of us live to eat, but Freddie was one of those people who ate to live. He was the master of moving food around the plate to give the appearance of having eaten a good amount. He did enjoy good food, but really didnât need to consume very much. He loved entertaining guests at meals in the dining room at Garden Lodge and was able to disguise his non-eating by making sure everyone else was ok during the meal. Donât get me wrong, Freddie always ate enough to keep him going, but I canât remember one time when he leant back in the chair saying âIâm stuffed!â
Now here we have a lot of things to unpack. There are three things in here - moving food around the plate to give the appearance of having eaten more, disguising his non-eating and never eating enough to be full - which are definitely known ED behaviours.
However, people who just do not care about food all that much and are light eaters do also exist. In fact, Iâm one of them myself. I did struggle with Disordered Eating in my teens and my early 20s, but I have a healthy relationship with food now and I never like to eat until Iâm stuffed because itâs not a nice feeling, physically, to overeat. Iâm also someone who easily and genuinely forgets to eat when Iâm in a creative haze. Just as an example.
Also, seeing as Freddie most likely was made to finish meals all throughout his boarding school times, like many children in lunch halls, which is usually not a great experience for children who are picky or light eaters, the âmoving food around the plate to make it seem heâs eatenâ could well be an old habit stemming from there.
Either way, Phoebe doesnât seem too concerned about Freddieâs eating, and even though people with EDs are very good at hiding them, Phoebe did know him for a long time and very, very well. Phoebe could also be withholding information that he considers too private. All of that is possible, all of that is speculation.
There are other things which point to the fact that Freddie was definitely preoccupied with his weight/appearance. In this interview in 1974, he says:
âOh really,â he exclaims in disgust, âthis paper has no flair - I mean to print this picture three times in succession ⊠and just look at my arms!â He was horrified, âlook at how fat they appear, now my arms arenât like that at all - what do you think?â He rolls up his sleeves for me to inspect and Iâd like to state here and now that the poor dearâs arms are quite, quite slender!
The photo Freddie is most likely talking about, is this one:
Itâs not a very fortunate angle, admittedly. So I think itâs possible to see where he was coming from, but even so, he was worried about his arms looking fat at a time when he looked like this:
Yes, it is important to keep in mind that people were generally thinner in the 70s than we are used to now. (Brian, for example, was also incredibly thin.) But in this picture it really is evident that Freddie was very, very thin at this point.
Other things which are often brought into the discussion around Freddieâs eating habits is the account of him throwing a fit when Brian ate one of his biscuits once, choosing to walk after a meal at a restaurant while his driver drove alongside him and his friends, eating cereal on the floor in his dressing room, this picture where he clearly prefers salad to chicken wings (unlike Roger âWhat Even Are Vegetablesâ Taylor):
All of the above, to me, are things which can be heavily read into but ultimately donât prove very much.
And there is this bit from Mercury & Me:
The Sun did later print a photograph of Freddie taken while he was performing at the festival, which he didn't appreciate. It showed off "Flabulous Freddie" with a slight paunch, wickedly describing it as his "midriff bulge". When he saw the picture he looked at me and shook his head in despair. 'It's typical,' he said. 'If I'm slim the papers say I'm too thin and if I put on a little bit of a belly they say I'm too fat. It's a no-win situation.'
Now, that doesnât give off the impression to me that Freddie was particularly distraught about that article, at that point in his life. But it certainly appears to have bothered him to some degree.
So whatâs the conclusion?
To me, personally, it seems quite likely that Freddie did suffer from Disordered Eating in the early to mid 70s. Thatâs really not uncommon, sadly, although it usually afflicts young women more than young men. But he was in the spotlight and had to care about his appearance. He was clearly very preoccupied with it, not only when it came to his body, but his looks in general - there is plenty of evidence regarding that. He was very selective about which photographs of himself he did and didnât like. However, I find it impossible to say just how much this preoccupation affected him exactly. 1974 especially was also a very taxing year for Queen. Their management was shit, they struggled with money, they almost lost Brian, their touring schedules were brutal, the press was bashing them, Freddie was struggling with his sexual identity. There were a lot of immense stress factors, and he could have very well been someone who responded to stress by not eating - just like others respond to stress by eating too much. And Disordered Eating is not classed as an eating disorder. It is, if you will, the beginning of one.
Or, he absolutely could have developed or already had an actual ED which he was hiding fairly well, and it could have affected him a lot, but nobody would have ever known because he would have been unlikely to ever speak to anybody about it.
Both is possible. I simply donât think that there is enough information to do more than speculate on the matter, beyond: He had a preoccupation with his looks and minded what and how much he ate throughout his life.
However, in the second half of the 70s as well as the 80s, he was still thin but had started working out and looked more âathleticâ thin rather than gaunt. I think itâs entirely possible that whatever issues Freddie had with food were not a constant thing but something that may have been worse and better at times, depending on his overall mental well-being and his levels of confidence.
Or, it could have been something that he always struggled with.
Again, as far as I am concerned, both is possible and I donât feel I can say for certain. And so, my take leans towards Disordered Eating when younger and less preoccupation with it later on. Thatâs the impression I get.
But I wrote all this out so that others can make up their own minds, and rather than share my exact opinion, I encourage you to do just that.
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Christmas Trees and Picky Bees
A/N: Nothing much to see here, but some holiday fluff of the softest variety featuring our lovely Frankie Morales. This is for @bestintheparsec for no other reason than being one of the most wonderful and amazing friends. I hope you all enjoy! xx
Pairing: Frankie x Fem!Reader
Warnings: too much fluff; implied sex
Word Count: 5.6k
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âBrilliant idea,â you mumbled under your breath as you rubbed your hands together to attempt to keep warm. Despite the thick gloves and multiple layers you were wearing, the cold and light snowfall was pervasive and all consuming. It would take years to get warm again, but at least soon you could be under the fluffiest of blankets with the heater cranked, âbrilliant idea to volunteer and pick out the damn office tree by myself.â
You trekked around the tree farm, looking at a seemingly endless amount of trees as you tried to pick the right one. But nothing, despite how many you had looked at, seemed to be the one. They were all either too tall or too short, with too few branches or ones that were too long. Or maybe you were just being too picky. Just like always, you thought to yourself, or so everyone seems to think.Â
When you reached the end of the trees, you still had found nothing. You groaned as you realized youâd either have to find another tree farm or lot, or break down and purchase a fake one. The fake ones just werenât the same...it just lacked the heart. Maybe another place would have the right tree....
âDid you need any help?â you were so consumed in your own thoughts you hadnât noticed anyone approaching. You looked up and almost instantaneously your breath caught in your throat at the handsome man. He was tall, dressed for the weather, but still sporting a baseball cap under which you could see some dark brown curls peaking out, and a lazy smile tugged across his features with one dimple on display. He wasnât what you would consider traditionally handsome, but he definitely was in a rough, roguish way; soft brown eyes that crinkled in the corner with patchy scruff and a mustache that should have looked silly but somehow worked, and an aquiline nose that suited him perfectly.Â
âUmm...â you opened and closed your mouth a few times as you tried to figured out if you indeed need help or if you should just play it off and try to get away before making a fool out of yourself. He watched you with such an ease that you decided it would be silly to just throw the help, âyeah, actually, I do. I just need help finding the right tree. A lot of these are a little too big, and itâs just for the office so I was wondering if you knew where the smaller ones are?â
âDefinitely,â he seemed relieved when you didnât just chase away his advances, almost as if he was expecting it, âI can show you, Iâm sure weâve got something here that will work.â
âThanks,â you grinned at him, falling in step neck to him as he started to lead you over to the other side of the farm, âIâve never done this on my own before and itâs surprisingly hard to find the right one!â
Gods, you almost rolled your eyes at yourself, willing yourself to stop rambling. One handsome stranger and you immediately couldnât shut up; this wasnât a Hallmark movie you reminded yourself, this was reality.Â
But the man didnât even seem phased as he easily made conversation with you. Surprisingly there were no awkward silences and everything felt natural. Before you knew it, youâd located the perfect tree for the office and the man had it wrapped up for you, going so far as to bring it back to your car for you.Â
âAre you going to have help getting this down and setting it up?â he asked as he finishing tying the tree up to the roof rack. A wicked little part of you wanted to say no and somehow convince to come along with you or something, but you knew that would be a long shot. Besides that, you knew that there were plenty of people back at the office that could help you. Unfortunately not him.Â
âYes,â you promised softly, âIâm sure Iâve got it from here. Thank you for all of your help. I canât tell you how much I appreciate it.â
âAny time,â he offered you a gentle smile as the two of your stood there in silence for a few moments, neither wanting to end whatever you had started up just get, âI realized I didnât catch your name...â
You took his outstretched as you told him your name and he told you his. Frankie, well Francisco, but call me Frankie. You decided that you immediately liked him, as your heart fluttered softly from the touch of his hand. You hadnât felt anything even remotely close in some time, âwell, I guess I should get going. It was nice meeting you, Frankie.â
âIt was nice meeting you too,â he agreed as he opened the car door for you to slip inside. Despite not wanting to leave, not yet anyway, you had no real reason to stay. The thought of asking for his number or something crossed your mind, but you werenât able to muster up the courage. Instead you turned on the car and Frankie shut your door, giving you a small wave before you slowly drove away.Â
You regretted not making some sort of move almost immediately. As Frankie watched you drive away, he realized he had exactly the same regret. But it was too late now; it wasnât like people regularly needed Christmas trees, and the season would be over soon enough anyways, and the Garcias would close the farm again until the fall.Â
It was no matter, Frankie shrugged to himself, at least heâd gotten to spend a few moments in your magnetic orbit.Â
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"Okay, so when are you going to tell me what's going on?" Kelly nudged your leg from under the table as the two of you ate your customary Sunday brunch in relative silence. You could blame it on the delicious food that you were eating, but you knew she'd be able to see right through your lie. Reaching for your coffee, you took a long sip and offered her a noncommittal shrug, "you're deflecting. Nice try, but I'll just keep asking until you give me a good answer."
Rolling your eyes dramatically at her, you set down the steaming mug and swallowed the sweet sip, "what do you mean? Nothing is going on."
"I've known you since we were children and I know a lie from a mile away," she reminded you, "you've been so down lately. Did something happen?"
"No," you admitted softly, sighing before leaning back in your chair and giving her a half hearted smile, "its more like what didn't happen."
"Oh well by all means, tell me what didn't happen," she encouraged you to go on as huffed lightly, "come onnnn! Tell me!"
"Alright, alright," you looked around as lowered your voice, almost as if you were expecting to see him there suddenly, "it was last week, when I went to get that tree for work. I went to the lot and couldn't find a good tree and I met this nice guy that worked there. We talked for a while and he helped me and then...that was that."
"That was that!?" she almost shrieked as you buried your face in your hands, "you didn't get his number or anything?"
"I chickened out," you groaned, "I want to, but I talked myself out of it! What if I was just thinking too much about it and he wasn't...flirting or anything. What if he was just being super nice?"
"Listen, I love you, but you are a fool," she chided playfully, "clearly you liked him if you're still thinking about him! And let's be honest, that doesn't happen very often-"
"Because I'm too picky," you finished for her, pushing around a bite of food on your plate.
"No! Because you have high standards and aren't willing to lower them just for a relationship or whatever you want to call it," she corrected as you gave her a faint smile, "which is not a bad thing at all! The best things come to those who wait. But if someone did catch your eye like that, then maybe...its worth pursuing."
"I don't want to set myself up for failure," you whispered as you stared at your plate, "I could easily be taking everything the wrong way."
"There's only one way to find out..." her face lit up with glee as it took you a moment to catch onto what she was saying, "you don't have a Christmas tree for your apartment yet!"
"Oh no," you shook your head lightly, "I couldn't...it would be so obvious. Besides I already got a tree!"
"For the office," she reminded you, "he knows that! Obviously you'll need one for home too. It makes perfect sense. I'll even go with you if you want, and we can pretend it's for me."
"I dunno," you shrugged lightly, "I dunno if it's a good idea..."
"Of course it is," she disagreed, "now hurry up and finish and we can go!"
"Fuck me," you sighed softly, Kelly could see there was a little smile tugging on your features, "fine..."
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Youâd walked through the whole tree farm at least twice and hadnât seen hide nor hair of Frankie. Maybe he had the day off, or only worked certain hours, or heâd seen you and tried to purposely avoid you or...something. Clearly it wasnât meant to be and this had turned out to be a colossal waste of time.Â
âHeâs not here,â you said softly to Kelly, who simply looped her arm through yours in a sign of reassurance, âthis was silly, a long shot anyway...we can just go.â
âWe can try again tomorrow, or maybe ask at the the front? Just ask about him and tell them that he was so great you just wanted to thank him?â she was chalk full of suggestions as you stared at your boots and remained silent for a few moments.
âThereâs no point,â you insisted, âbetter to just let it go than waste my time.â
âItâs a not a waste of time-â she started but quickly stopped when your name was being shouted out. Your face went through a wave of emotions as you looked up and found your allusive Frankie from the prior week. Kelly beamed at you as she dropped her arm from yours and shoved you gently in his direction, âgo!â
âH-hi,â you said softly as you turned to face him, trying to give off a nonchalant vibe while your heart was practically fluttering and stomach was doing somersaults, âFrankie! Itâs so nice to see you again.â
âHey,â he stopped in front of you, his cheeks pink from the cold winter chill. His eyes crinkled at the corners just as you had remembered, giving him a youthful appearance, despite his age, âitâs good to see you too. I didnât think youâd be back.â
Was that a note of quiet disappointment in his voice?
âI...yeah, my friend Kelly needs a tree for her place and I told her about how great you were at helping me find the perfect one, so obviously we had to come back,â you stumbled lightly over your words as Kelly shook with silent laughter as your nervous tone, âif you have any suggestions or time that is.â
âYes,â he said eagerly with a nod, âof course. Come on, letâs find you the perfect tree!â
âJiminy Cricket,â she snorted quietly to herself as she followed after the two of you, thoroughly resigned to the idea that she was going to be a third wheel on this little adventure. But it didnât matter to her, she wanted to do this for you, and if this simple thing was all it took to get you some happiness, then she was more than willing to do it.Â
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It was several hours later when youâd finally settled on a packed up a tree for Kelly. The tree was the easiest find of all, it had taken almost no time once youâd actually stopped walked around aimlessly and worked on finding it. Instead you and Frankie walked around the farm and the conversation quickly turned from Christmas trees and holidays to a little bit of anything and everything. Conversation with Frankie was easy and followed naturally, and there was never a single moment of awkwardness.Â
Was it always this easy or was it just easy with him?
When you reached the front, you told both of them you were going to pay for the tree while they got it onto the car. As soon as you were gone, Kelly pulled Frankie close to her and lowered her voice.Â
âShe really likes you,â she told him softly watched a large grin cross his features, âshe was thinking about you since you helped her find that first tree. I finally pulled it out of her and convinced her to come back. Itâs obvious, to me anyways.â
âIâve been thinking about her too,â he confessed, gnawing lightly on his bottom lip, âI wanted to ask for her number last time, but chickened out. I didnât even know where to begin to look for her...Iâm glad she came back.â
âShe doesnât like a lot of people,â she carried on, as Frankie tried to still the wild beating of his heart, âreally. So itâs kind of a big deal when she does. Consider yourself lucky, Francisco. Sheâs amazing, truly. And my best friend, so if you were so anything to hurt her, I will hunt you down myself.â
âI-I wonât,â he promised as you came over to them, tucking away your wallet. Kelly gave him a little nod of encouragement as he turned to you and sweetly said your name, âI was wondering...are you free for dinner tomorrow tonight? Itâs just...obviously if you want to, if not itâs totally fine too....I just...yeah.â
âIâd love to,â you said eagerly as you tried not to bounce on your heels too much, âitâs yeah...Iâm free. Definitely.â
âOh boy,â Kelly sniggered at the awkward exchange between the two of you.
âCan I get your number and I can text you later and we can settle on a time and place?â he asked as he pulled his phone out of his pocket, swiftly unlocking it before handing it to you. Taking it gentle from his hand, you put in your number before giving it back to him, the two of your grinning like excited children, âgreat, so I...Iâll text you later.â
âI look forward to it Frankie,â you grinned as Kelly opened the door to the passenger side and got, pointedly clearing her throat, âtalk to you later.â
âYes,â he replied as he once again held open your door and helped you in, âuntil then.â
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âHoney?â his voice was gentle and soft as you called back to him and informed that you were in the kitchen. You heard the soft tread of his feet before you saw him, your grin matching his when you met his eyes, âhi Honey Bee.â
âHi Frankie,â you wiped your hands on the teatowel over your shoulder, tossing it onto the counter when you were and rushing over to him. He opened his arms for you, wrapping them up and trapping you within in his tight grasp within seconds, âIâve missed you.â
âI was only gone for a few hours. It didnât take long to start getting the farm all set up for the season,â he hummed in content as you scooped off his trademark hat and tossed it onto the couch. Carding a hand gently through his dark curls, you tugged at them before pressing a kiss to his lips, âI missed you too.âÂ
âAs you should,â you teased, patting his bum before moving back to the pie you were preparing. He snorted with laughter as he took a seat at the bar and watched you closely, but not before asking if you needed help with anything. You insisted that this was better left up to you and politely reminded him that the last time he was tried to bake anything, heâd set a pot holder on fire, âwhat do you want to do tonight, Frankie? I think this is the first evening since the holidays started that we have time to ourselves.â
He let out a long exhale of satisfaction as you nodded. It wasnât that the two of you didn't enjoy the holidays, it was just that you were always doing something, between both of your jobs, his family, your family, and friends, it was rare to get a moment of downtime.Â
âI have an idea, if the lady would be so kind as to hear me out,â you raised an eyebrow at him as you started to pour the pumpkin pie filling into the crust but not before motioning for him to go, âdate night.â
âDate night,â you repeated as you gave him a curious look, âI like the sound of that Mr. Morales, go on. What did you have in mind?â
âWell, Mrs. Morales,â you couldnât help but beam at his words. It wasn't even that it was a new thing anymore, youâd been married for just over a year, but it still made your heart flutter every time. Especially when Frankie said it with that deep, rich timber of his voice, âI was thinking we could get dinner at the diner with the pancakes we both love, and then maybe go ice skating, and then dessert at that new bakery? Apparently their cookies are killer, especially their soft chocolate chip kind! What do you say? Will you let me take you out?â
âYou are amazing, Frankie,â you gave him such a soft look that he felt his heart melt all over again, just like it had the first time he meet those five long years ago, just like the day he asked you to marry, just like the day of your wedding, just like so many wonderful times. You made quick work of shoving the pie into the over before leaning over the counter to give him a kiss, âIâd love to. It all sounds perfect. Have you been thinking about this havenât you?â
âOf course,â he admitted, âitâs about we had a night to ourselves to relax, isnât it?â
âI wholeheartedly concur,â you agreed as you sighed contently, âI love you.â
âI love you too,â he grinned, âwe still have to go and pick out a tree soon. Maybe we can go this weekend?â
"Hmm, now that sounds perfect," you agreed. Ever since the fateful year when you had met him while tree hunting, looking for a Christmas together had become a tradition, and one of your favorite parts of the season. Everywhere you went back to the Garcia's Tree Farm and sent the afternoon picking out the perfect one. You wouldn't have it any other way, "I can't wait to see what we manage to find this year."
"I've already found everything I could ever need," he whispered softly as your face flushed with warmth, as he reached for your hand, "but a tree won't hurt either."
âSee, now how do you expect me to compete with you when you say things like that?â you stuck your tongue out at him as he gave you a cheeky grin before shrugging innocently, âIâm going to go and shower while the pie bakes...care to join me?â
âAnd thatâs exactly how you compete with me,â he trailed after you, reaching for your hand as you laughed, leading him into the master bathroom, âsaying things like that.â
âOh Francisco,â you pulled him in and reached for the hem of his shirt, âI love you so much, but right now Iâd like you to use your mouth for things other than words.â
âNow that I can definitely do.â
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âI think maybe we have to wait an hour to do this,â Frankie swallowed nervously as he started to lace up the ice skates on his feet. Your eyebrows raised so high that they almost melded into your hairline as you finished tying your own skates, âyou know, since we just ate.â
âThis isnât like swimming,â you laughed at the nervous expression on his face, âhave you ever been ice skating before, Frankie?â
âYes, obviously,â he insisted as you moved his hands out of the way and took over the lacing job for him, âonce, twenty years ago when I was a kid.â
âOh my - Frankie!â you shoulders shook with laughter as you noticed the sheepish expression on his face, âI thought you would have gone more recently than that, you silly man.â
âI never really had any reason to.â
âAre you sure you want to do this? Just remember this was your idea after all!â
âOf course I do,â he insisted, âjust umm...will you hold my hand? And maybe we can take it slow?â
âLike I wasnât going to hold your hand anyway,â you shot a wink before slowly standing up and reaching for both of his large gloved hands. You held them up, palms pressed together and studying them for a moment before lacing them together, âsee? They fit together perfectly. My hands were meant to hold yours.â
He remained silent as he grinned at you, his cheeks flushed from your words and the cold breeze swirling through the open air ice skating rink. Shuffling slowly towards the entrance to the ice, you were glad that not many people had picked tonight to go skating, it would allow you both some time to adjust.Â
You stepped onto the ice and reached for the side to ground yourself before reaching for Frankie and pulling him towards you. He was shaky on his feet, trying to best not to fall, not because he was worried about the embarrassment of falling, most because he didnât want to deal with soreness for days afterwards. He traded places with you, clutching the railing tightly in one hand the yours in the other as you beamed at him, âslow and easy does it.â
âYouâve got this, Frankie,â you promised, finding your own balance bit by bit as you reacquainted yourself with the feeling being on the ice, âcan I ask you something?â
âThat would be preferable,â there was a nervous shake to his voice as you nodded, âitâll distract me from feeling like Iâm going to eat shit every second.â
âWhy did you want to come ice skating?â
âI know youâd like it,â he stated as though it was the most obvious thing in the world, âyouâve always mentioned wanting to go and we never have. I figured now was the perfect time. Besides, itâs romantic and winter-y!â
âYou are the best, Frankie,â you shook at your head lightly; there were some days when you still wondered how you got so lucky as to have him in your life, not just as a random figure, but as your husband. He really had been worth the wait and you thanked your lucky stars for him every day, âthis is very romantic, and I couldnât asked for a better partner.â
The two of you skated for some time, going around in slow circles at first and then gradually pulling away from the railing as Frankie grew more confident with his skating ability. Eventually he was able to let go completely and you both skated around hand in hand, giggling and laughing about anything and everything.Â
At one point, youâd gotten a little too confident and the tip of your skate caught on some phantom nick in the ice and you took a tumble, unable to stop yourself from landing on your bum. Youâd had at least enough time to let go of Frankieâs hand to stop yourself from dragging him down, but as he tried to scoop you up, he lost his own balance and landed next to you.
âFrankie! Are you okay?â you asked when you as to tried your best not to giggled at the surprised look on his face or how his beanie had slid down and covered his eyes. Reaching over, you pushed up the beanie so he could again, stopping to brush a few snowflakes out of his curly locks, âafter all that fuss and it was me that actually fell. See you had nothing to worry about!â
âAre you alright?â he looked you up and down, hands finding your face to check you over, âmy silly little bee.â
âIâm alright,â you promised, âyou?â
âYes,â his eyes studied yours before he crashed his lips onto yours and gave you a few soft kisses. He still tasted sweet, like the hot chocolate and pancakes youâd both had for dinner, and let his lips linger against yours, âas much as I enjoyed that, I think we need to get up before we freeze to death.â
âGood plan. This is going to take a moment and I donât want to hear a single word,â you started to scoot across the ice and back to the wall, dragging him behind you as you both held onto it and scrambled to your feet, âmaybe next time we wonât fall at all.â
âAhh, it would be worth even if we do, so as long as we have fun,â he pulled the scarf from around his neck and wrapped it around your own when he noticed you shivering lightly. Youâd forgotten yours at him, but of course werenât going to ask for his, but had made a mental note to leave on in the truck for occasions such as this, âbetter?â
âFrankie-â
âDonât argue with me,â he booped your nose as you both slumped back onto the bench and pulled off your skates, âready for dessert?â
âAbsolutely,â you almost bounced to your feet as you slipped your boots back and patiently waited for Frankie. You were watching with him nothing but sheer adoration in your eyes. This was your husband, you remembered, this amazing marvel of a human was yours. You loved him and he loved you; what a beautiful world it was.Â
âWhat?â he asked as he grabbed your skates and his to return, easily grabbing both pairs with one hand, âsomething on my face?â
âNo,â you promised, âjust thinking about how much I love you.â
âOh,â he looked at you for a moment as a slow smile brushed onto his features, âoh. I love you, con todo, mi vida.â
âAnd thatâs very sexy of you,â you laughed as he wrapped an arm around your waist, âI told you that you always know just what to say.â
âIâll be sure to speak even more to after dessert,â he commented innocently as he opened the truck door for you to get in. You knew exactly what he meant; there was something about the way he managed to slip into Spanish while you were making love that was just...heavenly.Â
âIâm counting on that hot stuff,â you teased as he got into the driverâs side and turned on the truck making sure the heater was set to exactly how you liked it.Â
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âI donât know where you heard about this place from, but itâs amazing,â you couldnât help but mumble through a mouth stuffed with cookies and ice cream. The cookies were warmed and soft and the vanilla bean ice cream was melting perfectly onto them. Frankie raised an eyebrow at you as he took a bite of his own pie. You wolfed down your bite before trying again, âthese cookies are so good itâs almost sinful.â
âSanti told me about this place,â he took his fork and offered you a bit of his apple pie. You opened your mouth and eagerly accepted it, savoring the sweet flavor on your tongue to get a good taste of it, âfor once his suggestion turned out to be worthwhile.â
âFrancisco! Youâre so mean!â you laughed as you gathered a bit of cookie and ice cream in your spoon and held it out for him. He grabbed your wrist and locked those honeyed eyes on your eyes as he slowly took the bite and licked the spoon clean. It was pointedly much more sexual than it needed to be, but you werenât going to argue with that, âno more bites for you. If youâre going to keep doing that. I want to eat in peace, mister.â
âHoney, dessert is whatâs happening at home,â his voice dropped an octave to that tone that always managed to send shivers down your spine as his eyes grew darker, âthis is the foreplay.â
âUmm, why donât we go home now and we can save the rest for later?â
âExcellent plan,â he agreed as he turned the truck on again and pulled out of the parking lot of the small little bakery that you would definitely be coming back.
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By the time Frankie pulled into the driveway, you felt more like teenagers sneaking around than the grown adults you were. Youâd been stealing kisses and touches from one another as he drove him, leaving the two of breathless and with flushed faces. He practically jumped out of the truck and swooped you out of the passenger seat before heading for the door as you peppered his neck and jaw in kisses.Â
But when he got to the front door, he slowed down, taking his time to open the door and walk into the hallway, turning on the light. You stopped what you were doing, reaching up and touching his scruffy cheek, âwhatâs wrong, baby?â
âItâs...do you promise not to laugh?â he adopted a serious tone as he watched your face for any shift of expression.
âNever, my sweet Frankie,â you gave him your most serious tone as you silently encouraged him to go on.
âOkay, well, when we first got together and went to that Christmas party at your office there was Mistletoe,â he explained as he slowly set you back down on the floor, making sure you were steady on your feet before letting go, âdo you remember?â
âI do,â the memories instantly flooded, technicolor and vivid in your mind. It was a few weeks after youâd first met Frankie and the two of you were spending almost every waking moment together. Naturally, youâd asked him to come to your office Christmas party, and it had turned out to be a night of many firsts, âI swear it was hanging in every doorway.â
âDo you remember what you said?â
âHmmm...â you tapped your chin thoughtfully as you tried to recall but drew a blank, âno? What did I say?â
âYou said youâd never been kissed under the Mistletoe,â he explained, âand that you thought it was outdated and cheesy and you would never kiss someone under it unless you were positive they were the one.â
âI did,â you laughed lightly at the memory, remembering now that you had told him all of this while the two of you had been lightly buzzing from all the wine and champagne, âI...you remember. I canât believe you remember such a silly little thing.â
âItâs not silly,â he insisted, ânot to me. But I have a little surprise.â
âAnother surprise?â your mouth gaped as he took your and slowly pulled you towards your bedroom, a wicked little smile on face.
âI didnât forget anything when I came back in before we left,â he admitted, âI came back in to hang this.â
With a flourish he pointed to the door frame and watched your face light up as you took in the fresh little bundle of Mistletoe that he had carefully hung up before youâd left on your little date night.
âFrancisco,â his name fell from your lips softly, reverently, as you looked back at him, âthis is...I canât believe you did all of this. You remembered this...â
âBecause I love you,â he pressed a kiss to your forehead as you tried not to let the tears that were welling up in your eyes spill over, âbut remember, you said youâd only kiss someone under it if you were sure theyâre the one. May I kiss you?â
âOf course,â you offered him a teary little smile, âyou are the one. You have always been and always will be, Frankie. I donât think I can properly put into words just how much I adore you.â
âI know,â he wiped away the tear that had rolled down your cheeky as you wrapped your arms around him, âyou are everything.â
And then he kissed. Because he was the one.Â
And always would be.
You were never more thankful for agreeing to trek out and get that Christmas tree by yourself those five long years ago.Â
It had given you everything and then some.Â
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Can I request yandere Tomura stalking his obsession?
Iâm your biggest fan
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a/n: this has got to be the longest shigaraki fic iâve written. which really surprises me since shigaraki isnât really my type.
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warning(s): stalking, yandere tendencies, mentions of drugging, slight cursing, a tad too long
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It started out with an innocent cup of coffee.
Then, it was the constant request for you to serve him.
Afterwards came the personal questions asked as you sat across him at the usual table he would park himself at after your shifts.
Next came multiple coincidences of running into him when you least expect it.
Of course, you were too naive and innocent to see through his intentions. Thatâs why he chose you.
At first, Shigaraki had entered the cafe you worked at in hopes of finding a hostage to threaten the pro-heroes, under the pretense of just causally dropping in, like many other customers do.
When he opened the door to the homely cafe, you were the one that greeted him with the warm and kind smile youâve always had on your face. At first Shigaraki thought nothing of you, until you walked up to him to take his order.
âGood afternoon, sir. May I take your order?â You grinned at the light blue haired male sitting at the small table furtherest away from everyone.
There it was again- that same smile that you gave him when he first entered the cafe.
âJust a coffee.â The male replied gruffly as he pulled the hood of his jacket further down his face.
âWe have many types of coffee, sir. Which one are you interested in?â The smile was still plastered on your face as you stood there, waiting for his reply. âWe have different types of lattes, mochas and espressos. May I also interest you in the different cakes and breads we have?â
âWhatever, just get me anything.â Shigaraki replied impatiently. âI donât know what to get, surprise me.â
Upon hearing his reply, you were slightly taken aback by surprise. Sure, youâve dealt with many customers who were picky, but never one who was uninterested in picking out an order.
âVery well then,â You clicked your pen. âDo give me a moment.â Smiling at him, you turned your back towards Shigaraki and made your way to the counter.
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âHere is your coffee, sir.â Your voice caught Shigarakiâs attention as he turned his attention away from the window. âDo enjoy.â
âWhat is this?â The male asked as he took a whiff of the aromatic scent of the coffee in front of him.
âMatcha latte.â You smiled. âOur storeâs speciality.â Seeing no reaction from the man in front of you as he continues surveying the coffee in front of him, you figured a little background information wouldnât hurt anyone, especially him.
âDid you know? The matcha latte is our specialty because it-â
âI donât care.â Shigaraki spoke up with such brusqueness that you immediately stopped talking. âWhatâs your name.â He asked or rather, demanded.
âY/n. My name is y/n.â You replied quickly, as if eager to please him when in reality, you were just afraid he might pick on you and cause the manager to come out. Thereâs no knowing if youâll get to keep your job if that happens.
âY/n....â Shigaraki hummed as he drummed his fingers on the smooth table absentmindedly. âThatâs a nice name.â He muttered. If you hadnât been paying close attention, you would have brushed it off. Instead, a blush slowly crept onto your face at his words.
âWhen are you done with work? I want to get to know you more.â
Checking the clock on the wall, your face lit up with the prospect of pleasing a customer. âFive more minutes.â You informed him.
âThen come back in 5 minutes.â The red eyed man replied, scratching the back of his neck as his gaze avoided you.
He was like a little kid, you thought.
âSee you in 5 minutes then.â You chirped happily at the prospect of making a new friend.
âOh and,â You turned back to face the man that was looking at your retreating form.
âWhatâs your name?â
â...â
âShigaraki Tomura.â
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Ever since then, youâve hung out with Tomura every time your shift ends. Without fail, he would be waiting quietly at the same table the both of you first met, until you were ready to approach him.
Sometimes it was just hanging out at the cafe after work, catching up on anything and everything. Other times the both of you would walk through the town without a destination in mind as Tomura listened to you talk about your day.
Itâs been three months.
Three months since youâve met Tomura, and youâve never once asked him what he does for a living. And he doesnât tell you anything about himself either.
And then one day, he didnât drop by the cafe as usual. You thought it was strange, but for all you know he could be busy.
As the last customer made their way out of the cafe, you started to clean up when your co-worker took on the job of closing the store, allowing you to leave earlier than planned.
Even though you left earlier, it was close to midnight when you alighted from the train. By now, there were not many people in the station.
Wrapping your coat around yourself, you hastily walked towards the direction of your home. There has been news of dangerous people lurking around the neighbourhood, and you wouldnât want to risk bumping into them.
Although close to the station, the neighborhood you lived it was a rather old one. Dim streetlights lit the way home, but they were so dim that it didnât help much. Often you would hear of rowdy people laughing as they drink themselves drunk in the dead of the night, causing a ruckus to the people living close by.
Picking up your pace, you avoided all eye contact and strained your ears to hear for any footsteps apart from yours as you took a turn into the neighborhood. You thought it was stupid to be so anxious about it, but you wouldnât want to end up dead in an alley the next day because of one mistake.
But still, you couldnât shake off the nagging feeling of someone or something watching you from the shadows. Turning back ever so frequently, you would scan the surrounding for any signs of a stalker. Every now and then, you could feel someone or something watching you as you walked hastily towards your home. And your suspicions were confirmed when a group of men emerged from the dark, menacing looks plastered on their faces.
âHey little thing,â One of them drawled as he made his way towards you, the smell of liquor hanging onto his clothes and skin. âWhere are you going? Let me take you there.â He hiccuped.
You tried to walk past him, but his drunkard friends surrounded you in a circle, preventing you from escaping.
âAre you deaf?â Another man demanded impatiently. âHe asked you where youâre going. Are you gonna ignore him? You know what happens to stupid people like you who donât answer big bro?â the man on your right snarled at you.
You couldâve just run through them, but fear overtook your body, your legs frozen in place. You whole body shook in trepidation. Is this how youâre going to die?
You were so caught up in your thoughts that you didnât realize that the men were now closing in on you. They were the kind of people that the neighborhood police have warned the people living close by about. Theyâve been trying to nab these guys, but were unable to because they would evade the police and seem to have a hiding spot that nobody knows about.
A surprised yelp left your lips as you were being pulled by the collar from behind, your legs desperately trying to regain stability.
âPlease just let me go. I wonât tell anyone about this.â You begged as a last resort. In response, you were roughly pushed to your knees as âbig broâ stood in front of your trembling form, his hands undoing his belt.
âStupid bitches like you should just shut up and do as youâre told.â He slurred.
By now, the feeling of someone else watching you apart from the men whoâve cornered you were the least of your concerns.
âNo! Please!â Tears were running down your face in fear of your situation as two men from behind tore your coat away and roughly pinned you down.
A stinging slap to your face was all you got in response.
âBetter open your mouth nice and wide.â The supposed leader hiccuped, his face flushed red from the liquor he has downed.
While you struggled against your captors and begged for your life, you thought it was over as the man grabbed your jaw and forced your mouth open.
As the sight of him drew closer to you, tears wouldnât stop leaking from your eyes. Maybe, if you closed your eyes it would be better. Not like it would help you get out of this situation youâre currently in.
But when the grip on your jaw loosened, you opened your teary eyes to see that the man had completely disappeared. And in his place was a pile of ash and dust.
âHe shouldâve gotten his filthy hands off what belongs to me.â A familiar voice reached your ears.
âT-Tomura?â You looked up through blurry eyes to see the oh so familiar face staring at the pile of ash with contempt.
Instantly, the rest of the men whoâve had you cornered released you and stumbled backwards as if they had seen a ghost, a look of fear flashing before their faces.
âOi, are the both of you going to come out or do I have to finish this myself? If thatâs the case, whatâs the point of bringing you guys along?â Tomura said to no one in particular as he scratched the back of his neck.
âWhatâs the rush?â A second voice replied as a man with scars on his face and hands emerged from the shadows. âWe have all the time in the world.â The man smirked at your assaulters as he ran a scarred hand through his thick, black hair. âAnd also, I didnât join you so I could save some damsel in distress, Shigaraki.â
âDabiâs right, you know. I just wanted to see for myself how y/n looked like, not come and play hero. We should leave that to the real heroes.â A blonde haired girl giggled, knife in hand. âBut I can see why y/nâs got your interest. I guess you following her around for 3 months really did pay off.â
âAre you going to help me get rid of these good for nothings or am I going to have to disintegrate you for talking too much, Toga?â Tomura questioned the girl named Toga.
âWell,â She started. âThereâs new blood, so I guess iâll help out then!â Toga bounced up and down gleefully.
As the remaining of your captors tried to run away, Toga leapt at the closest man and plunged her knife into his neck, all the while chanting ânew blood, new bloodâ gleefully like a little kid.
âDabi. You get the rest.â Tomura scratched his neck, a red spot emerging slowly but surely.
It was then when you felt warmth as blue light emitted from the the black haired maleâs palm. Wait no, it wasnât light.
It was blue flames.
Soon, the terrified screams of the men whoâd attacked you died down in the flames, the nearby walls scorched and tainted black with the aftermath of the blue flames.
And there you were, clutching your coat that Tomura had picked up to your chest, trying to process what just happened.
Tomura just disintegrated someone, the girl called Toga was collecting the blood of her victim, and the man with blue flames was standing there, his hands now shoved into his jeans.
âY/n.â Tomura spoke as he looked at you, who was still a trembling mess on the floor.
âH-how did you know I would be here? Who are these people? W-who are you?â
The night was still and quiet now apart from Togaâs quiet humming as she cleaned her knife, your questions hanging in the air unanswered.
âYou k-killed someone.â You whispered, Tomura becoming a stranger in your eyes.
â...â
âBecause he touched you. He touched what belongs to me.â Tomura replied, a hint of remorse nowhere to be found.
âWhy donât you just tell her that youâve been watching her like the creep you are for the past few months already.â Dabi smirked.
âAnd who we are!â Toga piped up.
Silence greeted the four of you as Tomura stood there, staring at you intently.
âno... wait!â You cried out as you inched back from the once familiar figure in front of you. Now, he was someone else- a murderer who feels no remorse and not the Shigaraki Tomura that you knew.Â
âSo?â The blue hair man scratched his nape out of frustration. âI told you, itâs because they touched what is mine.âÂ
Whatâs his? Did he mean you? Since when did you belong to him.Â
âH-how long have you been following me?â You questioned, hoping that he wouldnât hear the fear in your shaky voice. You needed to stall as much time as possible while thinking of an escape route. But three against one? Only a miracle would allow you escape.Â
âLong enough to know your daily routine.â The man name Dabi smirked, mockery lacing his words as Tomura stared down at you and said nothing.Â
âCreep.â You couldnât help but whisper under your breath. Your eyes were stinging and blurry with the tears that were threatening to spill over, but you didnât dare to look away from Tomura out of fear that he might try something in the mere split second.Â
âWeâll save the questions for later.â He finally spoke up. When you finally looked at him, a syringe was in his hands.
âFor now, get some rest.âÂ
A soft gasp left your lips as the stinging feeling of needle pierced your skin, and drowsiness slowly overtook you, your body heavy like lead.
The last thing you saw was Tomuraâs ruby red eyes looking down at you.
âIâll protect you forever, y/n.â
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someone dear (iii) - d. ragnvindr x f!reader
PART I - PART II - PART III
FINAL PART!!!! also i hate this part the most because i definitely rushed it and i could feel myself losing steam for writing so i wanted to finish it asap LMFAO ALSO DILUC IS HELLA OOC IM SO SORRY I STARTED PLAYING GENSHIN LIKE SIX DAYS AGO IM RELLY REALLY SORRY LAFAHFOA#@*$@)*$
Today was payday.
âYou lookâŠâ Charles made a face. âVibrant.â
âI get paid!â you squealed.
âOh, boy,â Charles said. âYou know thereâs more to life than money, [Name]. Thereâs knowledge. You could always learn more. Thereâs love. I donât think Iâve ever seen you with a significant other, honestly. Thereâsââ
You waved a dismissive hand. âI know all that already! Iâm satisfied, Charles. Itâs just not so bad to be financially secure while Iâm at it. Money is the best thing ever!â
âMoney is the root of all evil.â
âThe root of all evil is buried deep within that chest of yours,â you accused. You picked up a clean rag and soaked it in a water basin. âYou never let me have any fun on payday. Anyway, today thereâs a new book being released, and Iâve been waiting for the sequel since forever.â
Charles nodded. âI think I know which book youâre talking about. Give it time and your librarian friend will have it in the library in no time.â
âThat very librarian friend is coming today to hand-deliver the book to me.â
âOf course. Never once would you abandon your shift for books. Though, I think Iâve once seen you leave midway through the day because you saw a cat on the balcony while standing outside.â
âIt was a cute cat,â you defended.Â
âYou shouldnât make friends with cats. Theyâre very picky and particular with whom they associate with.â
âAh,â you said absentmindedly, âlike Master Diluc.â
â[Name], thatâs your boss.â
You deserved the reprimand. âSorry. Itâs not anything bad. I actually took your advice the other day and chatted with him a bit. Heâs not as⊠cold as I thought, but heâs certainly as chilly as Snezhnaya at times.â
Diluc had been somewhat stubborn when you insisted on helping him. You didnât understand. It was only natural to be there for other people; however, Diluc believed differently. He was right in some ways. Too much dependency would lead one to no good, but that was not your concern.
âBefore comparing your employer to one of the coldest nations in Teyvat,â Charles said, âI nominate you to call for Patton a bit today. Heâs coming in late âcause heâs wrapped up with something today.â
âDo you think me standing out there would do the tavern some good?â
âTry wearing a costume. Draws attention.â
âRight on. Let me see if thereâs any maid uniforms in the back.â
As much as you worshipped your own looks on a daily basis, standing outside where Patton typically was took a toll on your body. But your mental health persevered. After all, you were getting paid today. Nothing could deter your smile.
You stood outside, calling out passing people with hopes of luring them in with Dandelion Wine. Diona, who worked at Catâs Tail, stopped by to convince you to join her tavern. She was ultimately dedicated to sabotaging the traditional and rich wine industry of Mondstadt yet was doing rather poorly at it. You declined politely, as your job was the wine industry of Mondstadt.
Nimrod, one of the usuals, entered the tavern. He dodged his wife who condemned his drinking habits. He typically hung around Angelâs Share for the addicting wine. It was not strange to see him coming in and out of alleyways.
Not even the approaching Master Diluc could taint your spirits.
The approaching Master Diluc.
Youâd recognize his hair and determined face anywhere. You were accustomed to seeing it, as you saw him often. You smiled and greeted him accordingly just before he entered the tavern. âHello, Master Diluc. Have a good day today.â
âI will,â he said. âI assume todayâs a good day for you, too.â
âOf course.â
Donna was giving him puppy-dog eyes around the corner, you saw, but she gave him puppy-dog eyes every day, so what was new? Diluc, the brooding bachelor bastard of Mondstadt, was the center of many ladiesâ attention.
He was the center of yours because your paycheck was in his hands.Â
Days and weeks went by.
Because you knew Dilucâs secret and nighttime hobby, it wasnât strange for you and he to grow closer. When heâd come back to the tavern, you arranged a nice meal for him to eat. Heroes needed plenty of food, you figured.Â
Sometimes, youâd eat with him in agonizing silence.
He made for mediocre company, but when it was late at night and you had nothing to do, he was a fine person to talk to. He kept his distance, preferring to sit a seat away from you at the bar, idly standing when you were sitting at a table. But you never felt alone on those nights.Â
Diluc came back injured sometimes, and as each night passed, he let you tend to his wounds pathetically before he went to see a doctor. You didnât know if he was humoring your concern or if he seriously needed your help.
Even without you, he was doing just fine, but little by little, akin to a trickling stream, he began to rely on you. Another personâs trust was a heavy thing to carry, and Dilucâs trust was the weight of the entire world upon your shoulders. You feared that if you ever messed up, Dilucâs trust would be gone in a snap.Â
Diluc and you shared meals, which was nothing out of the ordinary now, but there was small conversation. Diluc, to your knowledge, never really participated in idle chatter, but he talked with you about the sights heâd seen around Liyue, the hub of business in Teyvat, and you retold jokes your friends had said and rumors about a certain person that were made just to pass time.Â
You could pull vicarious wonder when Diluc told you of the other nations. Youâd venture there yourself, but your skills in the adventuring department were lacking.
You admitted that you were wrong about Diluc; where you had thought him cold and stoic, he was protective and brave. He treasured his work above nearly everythingâto the point he overworked. In a way he was somewhat like you. A little different, though. A little stranger. A little better.
Diluc had grand aspirations and was bold personified. You, too, had something to live for, but it wasnât as great as his. You liked the little things; you liked the dog who wagged his tail whenever you passed in hopes of you giving it a treat; you liked shopping with your friends; you liked reading new books and joking around with Lisa.
You and Master Diluc seem to complement each other, thatâs all, Charles had said then.
âCharles, youâre insane,â you said, pushing Charlesâ shoulder. âItâs never going to work. Patton would never agree to putting on the maid dress.â
âAnd if we bribe him?â Charles asked.
Diluc was standing on the other side of the bar, a brow quirked and a smile lapping at his lips. His arms were crossed, and as much as he tried to seem intimidating, he looked like a friend to you. Before, you would have seen him as judgmental and indifferent, but the Diluc before you was someone who you knew better.
âHow much do you think we should give Patton? Maybe we need to sort into bigger pockets.â You peered at Diluc.
Charles said, âWhatâdo you think Master Diluc is willing to put on such a uniform?â
You laughed, and Diluc was looking at you. He didnât look upset at all. His face was calm, and his pretty cupidâs bow lips were drawn in an amused smile. Oh, he was gorgeousâand upon that thought intruding your headspace, you nearly stopped laughing.
Sometimes Diluc would bring you small trinkets from the winery. You once brought up you wanted an owl statue to put on your balcony to attract other owls (though you were sure that wasnât how nature worked), and Diluc, sure enough, gave you an owl statue around the size of your torso.Â
âMaster Diluc,â you said. âWhat is this?â
âAn owl statue.â
âGee, wow! I thought it was a penguin.â You tentatively patted the top of its head. âWhatâs it for?â
âYou,â he said. âI had it laying around the winery.â
It provoked thought in you. What sort of person had an owl statue laying around? You felt the need to give Diluc something back, but what did you have to give him? So that very night, you took him outside of Mondstadt so you could capture a Mist Flower Corolla for your friend.Â
Typically, you wouldnât take your employer out on an errand, but you were done with work, so it wasnât Master Diluc. It was just Diluc. Diluc looked like he wanted to say no to you because he didnât really devote his time into something so trivial, but you insisted.
âIf you needed it that badly,â Diluc said, âyou could have asked me. We have plenty near the winery, and I can take care of them easily.â
âItâs not that,â you said, watching an Ice Flower bloom and freeze the water around it. âItâs about the adventure. The message.â
âAnd whatâs this message you speak of?â
âItâs the message of âhey, I nearly froze my ass off to get this flower for you, but I care about you enough to risk frostbite.ââ
âHow⊠kind of you, [Name].â
You and Diluc spent all night catching enough Mist Flower Corollas for your liking. You wanted a bouquet, and you had a bouquet at the end of the night, at the expense of Dilucâs time and your sleep. You carried the bundle in your hands happily.
Dilucâs fire skills came handy, and it wouldnât be a lie if you said you brought him along just for it. You liked his personality and his friendship, of course, but his fire skills were a⊠plus!
On the nights where it was just you and he, Diluc sat nearer to you now. Diluc picked up Charlesâ shifts more often and sat across from you whenever you were seated at tables. He sat next to you at the bar, entertaining you out of your boredom.Â
It wasnât until one day, Donna of the flower shop was gushing about Diluc, and you felt uneasy. Youâd known that Donna was incredibly fond of Diluc, but it never bothered you until now.Â
Of course, you brought it up to Charles, one of your closest confidants, only third to your bank account and Lisa.
âHe likes you back, you know,â Charles said, playing with the tip jar. The coins clinked and clanked in there. âI can tell you that much, [Name].â
âEwwwwww,â you moaned. âTalking to you about my problems is gross. Whereâs Lisa? Sheâll tell me the truth for sure. You only want me happy so I can clean the entire tavern for free again. You want me to cover your shift again?â
âSure I do,â Charles said, âbut what Iâm saying is true, [Name]. He looks at you all funky.â
âYeah, because Iâm a funky gal.â
âStop it.â
âFunky, funky, funky.â
âPlease.â Charles sighed and set down the tip jar. âItâs like⊠you and he are weirdly connected. He looks at you a lot. He always looks at you whenever thereâs a joke, just to see if youâre laughing, I guess. He must like your laugh. I think it sounds like a horse, personally.â
You chewed the inside of your cheek. You loved talking to Charles. You loved money. You loved your friends, and you loved your happiness. You lovedâno, you liked Diluc. You didnât know what to do when it came to him. Maybe if you kept away, your affections would find someone else to torment.
Like, for example, that newly hired boy next door that nearly killed his shopâs plants. He was a clumsy sort of cute.Â
But Diluc was not clumsy. He was meticulous and always got the job done. He took care of himself well, and on days he overworked, you made sure he took some time to rest.Â
You shook your head. You should stop thinking about Diluc for now and focus.
Yet it was always you and Diluc, and Diluc began to invade your thoughts. You brought up weaving flowers into his long hair, and Diluc always turned you down, saying that there wasnât enough time for that.Â
You wished to brush Dilucâs bangs back and lightly kiss his forehead, if he was okay with that. Instead, you said to Diluc, you have a big forehead. No wonder youâre so smart.
Can we go back to the part where you said I had a big forehead? heâd retorted.
It wasnât until nearly a month later did Diluc come to his shift with Mist Flower Corollas in hand and shyly handed them to you. There was a red hue on his cheeks, and his voice was small, afraid of rejection. His hair was tied back in a neater fashion, and his eyes were cast downward.
Become someone dear to me, he had said.
He wore fine clothes and a nervous expression. It was so out of character for Diluc. You felt as if you were watching a high school boy struggle to express his feelings. However, had Diluc walked into the tavern with a more open chest and chin up, he wouldnât have been Diluc at all.Â
You liked Diluc as he wasâsomewhat closed off but kind enough. Mondstadtâs hero. A knight who donned glimmering red hair and a steel exterior. You wondered if Diluc had to prep himself before coming to you.Â
âSorry,â he said although there was nothing to be sorry for, really. âI mean, if you donât like the flowersââ
Hey, I nearly froze my ass off to get this flower for you, but I care about you enough to risk frostbite.
You took the flowers. âOh, no, I love it. I really, really do, Master Diluc!â
âJust Diluc.â
âDiluc,â you corrected. âDo I get financial compensation if I become someone dear to you?â
âFor starters, I could give you a Mist Flower Corolla every day,â Diluc said, âif thatâs enough to satiate you.â
âAnd then?â
âIn the evenings, Iâd take you to Cider Lake to watch the starry night while you read those magazines of yours. We donât need to talk. Just bask in each otherâs company, really.â
You tried to fight the smile that was growing on your face. You set down the flowers on the bar counter before saying, âthatâs it?â
âIâd let you weave flowers into my hair. Iâd take you all over Teyvat, if thatâs what you wished as well. Iâd take care of you as much as you had taken care of me whenever Iâm injured. Iâd learn your jokes and get along well with your friends because they seem pleasant.â
You didnât know Diluc was such a romantic. You dusted Dilucâs shoulder. âI would hold your hand.â
Diluc frowned. âThis doesnât feel very equal to me.â
âYou want more?â you quipped. âIâd kiss your forehead. And then Iâd read to you. That is, if you like fairy tales⊠Oh! And then Iâd take you up to the mountains where we could see the constellations the best! I love constellations; theyâre so pretty.â
âTruthfully,â Diluc admitted, âyou donât have to do anything. I think⊠I think Iâd be satisfied if I just had your company.â
âWould you now? And what about Donna from the flower shop?â
âWhat about her?â
âOh, nothing.â You pretended to think about Dilucâs proposal. âI have to say, I think Iâm enchanted by your offer, Diluc. Iâm going to have to say yes. I will become someone dear to you.â
PART I - PART II - PART III
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Fic - Jodi and Gus
Word Count: 1,516
Summary: Jodi never intended to be the unofficial barber in Pelican Town, it just... happened.
Notes:Â Thank you to @floopthecooper for the prompt!
Jodi was never sure exactly when it was she became Pelican Townâs unofficial barber. It just sort of happened over time. Slowly more residents in town came to her for their haircuts and before she knew it, she was cutting the hair of almost every person in town. Word of mouth spread in a place like Pelican Town. Though she couldnât pinpoint exactly when she got the reputation around town as the unofficial barber, she could at least pinpoint exactly when it all began. It had been a cool spring morning, not long after she, Kent, and Sam had moved to Pelican Town. Jodi had always been the one to cut Samâs hair, it was always so much easier and more affordable to do it herself and it wasnât all that difficult. Sheâd never had any formal training, just a few attempts of trial and error, maybe a bad haircut or two for Sam, but she ended up figuring it out along the way.
Whenever possible, Jodi tried to cut Samâs hair outdoors. It made less of a mess inside the house and was easier to clean up. Jodi had sat Sam down outside, covering his shoulders and back with a towel, before starting up the clippers to give his hair a trim. It was about halfway through the haircut when the local saloon owner, Gus, passed by their house on his way to visit the house nextdoor. Jodi waved politely, though she still didnât know him all that well. Jodi never found herself visiting the saloon, she always prepared homecooked meals and wasnât a drinker, so there was just no need. Still, if this was going to be her familyâs new home for quite some time, she wanted to be sociable. When she waved, Gus stopped walking and waved in return. The large, welcoming smile on his face seemed genuine and his eyes were soft and kind.
âHi there, Jenny!â Gus greeted her happily.
âItâs Jodi,â Jodi corrected him with a nervous giggle. Gus slapped the palm of his hand hard against his forehead.
âSheesh, what a knucklehead,â Gus muttered to himself. âMy apologies, Jodi. And this here must be Samson.â
âYes, though he prefers to go by Sam,â Jodi answered, already smiling and waving her hand dismissively for the apology she knew was going to come. Sure enough, Gus looked mortified.
âTwo for two, Iâm usually so much better than this,â Gus replied apologetically. âSorry for the mixup, I promise it wonât happen again.â
âNo apologies necessary,â Jodi assured him.
âSo Iâm sorry to bother you, but uh⊠I couldnât help but notice that youâre cutting the little oneâs hair,â Gus pointed out, tilting his head curiously. Sam cringed on the spot at being called âthe little oneâ.
âOh, am I not supposed to be doing that outside?â Jodi asked nervously. âI was hoping the breeze wouldnât blow the hair around, I apologize. I can move this indoors if itâs bothersome.â
âNo, not at all!â Gus replied, shaking his head. âI was only asking because⊠well, I hope this doesnât come across as odd, but⊠is that something you do for a living or just for your son?â
âJust for my son,â Jodi answered. âIâve been cutting his hair since he was about three years old. Cheaper that way.â
âI hear you,â Gus replied, nodding. âHaircuts can be so expensive. Even worse when we have to travel all the way to Grampleton once or twice a season for it. It ends up costing a fortune when you consider the cost of the haircut plus transportation and in the amount of time it takes, you usually need to grab lunch while youâre there. It ends up being a whole day trip just to get half an inch trimmed off my hair.â
âOh, Iâm so sorry to hear that,â Jodi remarked, feeling a bit guilty. Between cutting Samâs and Kentâs hair herself, plus trying her best to trim her own, she hadnât had to take any of her family to get a haircut in quite some time.
âI guess I was just wondering if I could ask you⊠sheesh, I feel bad even asking, but⊠would I be able to ask you for a haircut?â Gus asked nervously. âIâve been putting it off for over a week now and it would be so much easier if I could get it done and over with here.â
âI donât know,â Jodi answered uncertainly, her eyes darting back and forth to avoid seeing any disappointment in Gusâ face. His kindness and personable nature made it difficult to disappoint him.
âI would pay you a fair rate,â Gus clarified.
âOh no, itâs not that,â Jodi assured him. âItâs not the money issue, itâs just that Iâm not exactly a trained professional. I never went to school for this or anything, I just have what I picked up over the years from trial and error with Sam. Iâd be nervous about messing up or not being able to cut it the way you want it to be. Iâd never forgive myself if I gave you a bad haircut.â
âI promise you Iâm an easy customer,â Gus remarked with a light-hearted chuckle. âIâm not picky at all. I could walk out of here with a bowl cut and still be okay, I just need this hair a bit shorter. Too much hair in my eyes drives me nuts.â
âI really donât know, Iâm not qualified,â Jodi went on, swaying uncertainly on the spot as she mulled it over in her mind. âYouâre sure you wouldnât mind if I completely mangled your hair?â
Gus stepped closer to the porch and took a look at Samâs hair which was halfway through being cut, looked thoughtfully, and nodded. Poor Sam sat awkwardly in the chair, fidgeting as some stranger gawked at him and his hair.
âFrom what I can tell, I highly doubt youâll mangle it,â Gus said kindly. âIâm willing to take the risk, but only if you are. Iâd never want to pressure you to do it if youâre uncomfortable, though.â
âIâm certainly happy to give it a try,â Jodi replied optimistically. âIâve never cut anyoneâs hair besides my sonâs and my husbandâs. I suppose if it would save you the trouble and youâre willing to live with the results, Iâll give it a try. No charge, though, especially since Iâm just winging it.â
âNo deal, then,â Gus replied seriously. âI wonât take something for nothing, especially not from a working mother.â
âOh, I donât work,â Jodi corrected Gus.
âYou donât?â Gus asked, folding his arms and raising an eyebrow. âYou donât cook? Clean? Organize? Plan? Provide care? Teach? You donât do any of that?â
âWell thatâs diff-â Jodi began, but Gus cut in.
âMoms have the hardest job of all, in my opinion,â Gus went on, smiling warmly at Jodi. âDonât tell me you donât work when youâve got more jobs than any of the rest of us. Yes, Iâm paying you for your work.â
It was incredible how warm Jodi felt while Gus spoke, she could feel her cheeks flushing at his comments and it made her feel more validated and understood than sheâd felt in quite some time. Too often her role was diminished or looked down upon, it was nice for someone to notice and appreciate her value as a stay at home mom.
âThank you,â Jodi giggled nervously, turning her head slightly to try and hide her blushing cheeks. âJust let me know when you want that haircut.â
âThe saloon opens in two hours, I doubt thereâs any chance you can do it before then?â
âI could probably get started in about fifteen minutes,â Jodi estimated. âJust gotta finish with Sam first but I could cut your hair right afterwards. Might as well as long as Iâve got everything out.â
âPerfect, that gives me plenty of time to stop by your nextdoor neighborâs house for a quick chat,â Gus remarked thoughtfully. âBoth of their daughtersâ birthdays are in spring, so they called me over to talk about ordering a cake for them.â
âYouâre a bartender, chef, and baker?â Jodi asked, nodding at Gus with an impressed grin.
âYouâre not the only one juggling a lot of jobs,â Gus replied playfully. âThanks again for the haircut, I really appreciate it.â
âDonât thank me yet until after itâs done,â Jodi teased. âSee you in a little bit.â
âSee you then,â Gus replied, waving to Jodi as he continued on his way down the path to the house nextdoor.
At least thatâs how it began, one small favor for the kind bartender in town in his time of need. Yet by the time fall rolled around, Jodi was cutting hair at least three times a week and had never been sure how it snowballed that way. What she hadnât learned yet, but would learn during her time in Pelican Town, was that everyone in town loved and respected Gus. And when he gushed to a saloon full of patrons about his fantastic haircut from the new woman in town, people listened.
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