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no happy points today (had a pretty terrible day, ill just scream into the void)
cuz listen - why is it so fucking hard not to run at the slightest semblance of something NICE
#mine#happy points#happy points that arent happy points#on one hand im excited for our little project but on the other im here like 'it will go to shit simply because of my existence in it'#so in my head im trying to leave before i inevitably fuck up and get casted out#which i dont want to do bc im actually excited for it and i want to do it#and fuck i cant seem to turn it off#and its gotten so much worse over the past three years#its the same in friendships and any sort of complex relationships#the moment a person starts knowing me i get so fucking flaky even tho i dont want to#and like i want the trust and connection and the other party deserves someone who isnt flaky#but goddamnit why is it hard i want to scream#like i either fuck up in the whatever relationship by trusting or i fuck up before it even starts bc i want to kms right when it gets deep#cant i have nice things??? like EVER???#the one time i didnt fucking run the person turned out to be downright awful#and i didnt see the signs until well after the deeds been done#how am i now supposed to trust#im not feeling very bonita today im not gonna lie#but i feel like ill fuck up everything if i get too close to anyone#and i dont wanna be flaky
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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
I drew thia in a rush with one chalk brush
#htf#htf flaky#htf flippy#happy tree friends#htf fanart#digital drawing#happy new year#digital art#digital illustration#SORRY THIS IS SO RUSHED NEXT YEAR I WANNA MAKE SMT MORE WELL MADE ;-----;#LOOK AT THEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEM#Could be us but u wont coperate AHUAHAUHAAUHAUHA#flippy x flaky#Add sparkles like there is a gun at my head if I dont
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Hi fwiends tomorrow I am starting my internship that'll last until mid-July, aka I will be offline for most of the day and I will not be able to afford to stay up late anymore while it lasts. But please if we chat don't stop messaging me, I still wanna chat with you even tho my timezone will become more apparent and my schedule will be filled to the brim.
#im just apologising in advance for being flaky but i just wanna make it clear that its not like i dont wanna talk#i just ykno Cannot talk while im working#i dunno im scared everyone will hate me and abandon me lol#and also this is a warning in advance that if i stop posting i am not ded just busy
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have plans tomorrow that i desperately want to cancel but i have to follow through bc I'm the one that made them
#also I fear if i do cancel this person will get unreasonably upset with me and i am not in the mood to deal with someones mental breakdown#and im extremely flaky half the time anyway and will usually ask to reschedule so i dont wanna seem like an asshole AGAIN
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I've always been addicted to The gender swap thing... So here's a little draw of my htf au in genderswap (well only Flippy xd)
#old toons#epic mickey#oswald disney#oswald rabbit#oswald the lucky rabbit#happy tree friends#htf fandom#htf flaky#htf flippy#htf fanart#flaky x flippy#flippy x flaky#i dont wanna sleep#htf au#happy tree friends au#oswaldsona
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(。・・。)
#mind of the hive { ooc }#not to be a flaky bitch but um#had my mental take a nosedive#im gonna take a break until im able to come back#dont have an eta for u apologies#i'll be on discord if u want it#but i jyst had something else happen#dont wanna vent to the void but im extremely#uh#fragile rn#ilu all thank u for being patient w me#im sorry its been a bad month & a half i love zazie and all of u#i promise its just a pause not an abandon#i love zazie too much to abandon this blog
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i have been feeling like actual shit
#kitty talks#super cool getting an std from a flaky girl and now this is with u forever#and you jusy want a chance to have comfortable sex and u were getting there after years of hating ur body but now its a whole new thing#i just feel so bad. i cant stop feeling bad. i cant stop feeling stupid#i want to end whatever i have with this girl because i’m just. so. i dont wanna deal with it anymore#all ive been doing is cry#why did i put myself thrkugh having sex if i was tired and over it. Because i wanged to do good and cuddle and be called sweet#i am so fucking weird about sex. i just want a hug#whatever#i wanted it but i couldnt say that i was done. i just wanted to do good. whats wronh with me
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untethered³ | e.w



00s!ellie williams & 00s!miller!reader
wc: 8.1k
series: chapter one, chapter two, chapter three (you’re here!), chapter four , chapter five
blurb: it’s been awhile since you’ve been back home; in upstate new york where you’ve spent most of your life waking up early and tending to the animals that moo’d and meh’d. after graduation high school, and then college, the city life has stolen most of your attention. enabling you to visit only a handful of times through the years. when your lovely adoptive parents (tommy and maria miller) invite you back for a thanksgiving dinner—a troubled old flame from your childhood manages to get your attention, despite its explosive ending.
cw: +18, lmao flip phones, r and ellie NOT beating the cheating allegations, more use of y/n then i would prefer, she/her pronouns, afab anatomy mentioned, some vulgar language, fuckgirl!ellie (kind of), the millers, r is a writer (she doesn’t write much in this ch wink wink), dina being a bitch, more horndog ellie, r being a little self-deprecating, elements of longing, ellie is #1 lesbian yearner in the world, jealous ellie, some early 2000s references, thanksgiving, r is still very jealous of cat, hella angst, rich!abby (one of r’s evil exes), emotional cheating (from ellie), r using abby for sex, repressed emotions, crazy mature chapter (wasn’t intentional lmao)
note: lmao guys, i just wanna say as i proceed with this series… i do not agree w cheating on your partners DONT DO IT. don’t be like ellie (or the reader), it hurts people’s feelings and it’s just not worth it. i hope i tagged everyone who wanted to to be. bisous little lesbians/sapphics in my phone <3 please, enjoy this dramatic ass chapter x
Normally, you wouldn’t be so pliant with Abigail—letting her hands drift toward the small of your back. Clearly, expressing her attraction, because she lost that privilege a while ago. But, you were weakened. And with the burning dark irises of an old friend into the back of your frame, you couldn’t help but let her. It was like she was some sort of cloak of invisibility. Some made up thing in your head ease your spirits.
You met Abby about a year ago, 2004, at some high profile event your agent made you go to. Isa introduced you as an aspiring author to anyone that she could, getting your name out there—which was a good thing, but horribly embarrassing at the time.
Abby was there with her dad, a well-known general surgeon in the city; when she was still in medical school. Wanting someone to talk to, you offered her a drink; a flute of expensive champagne. You didn’t hide your attraction to her, but you approached her with an open mind. Fortunately for you, the night consisted of flirting and great conversation. She was smart, and you loved smart women.
Give or take a few months, you withstand her busy schedule—dating each other, giving only a sliver of intention to one another. You weren’t sure what you wanted, but what you did know is that you couldn’t stand flakiness. Abby began to flake on you a lot; whether it was for her friends or work or school. For work and school you understood, but even then there were days you spent laying around each other completing your priorities. Somehow in the midst of your temporary romance, she began to cast you aside. Maybe it was because you weren’t drowning in money like she was. Or, she just didn’t like you—both were awful options.
Taking the lead, because you’d rather dump than be dumped, you broke up with her—she then hit you with: we weren’t in a relationship. Which was rough on the ears and heart. That was the first time you actually tried with someone in a long time, and she fucked it up. You learned your lesson, though.
The two of you didn’t speak for a few months, but then you called her on a very lonely night, begging for warmth. And, ever since then, it’s been off and on—you playing hard to get and her playing wanting to have.
In the bar, with your hand clutching your cold, cheap cocktail, you walked with her in the direction of Ellie. Abby had her eyes set on her friend group, so she didn’t realize you were slowing down. “I’ll catch up with you…”
“Oh—“ She looked down, seeing the table of three practically gawking at her. Abby made a face that was unreadable. “Don’t make me have to come and find you.” She purred in your ear, slipping her arm from around your shoulders. Abby was such a show off when she wanted to be, which was more often than not.
An uncomfortable smile rested on your lips, hand waving, shortly, to the three sat at the rocky table. Ellie looked completely taken aback, leaning forward on her elbows. “Who the fuck was that?” Ellie whispered as you slipped into the seat she saved for you. Her jacket was placed on the back of your seat, holding it for you.
“Hey, y/n!” Jesse spoke, grinning ear to ear, leaning back in his wooden chair.
“y/n,” Dina said, plastering a fake smile on her glossy lips.
Jesse snickered, taking a sip of his beer. “Is that all you? Goddamn.”
“She’s just a friend from New York…” You waved a hand, dismissively.
“We just watched her feel you up and buy you a drink. Some friend she is.” Ellie countered, glancing over her shoulder at the tall, muscular blonde sitting with her friends. And, weirdly enough, Abby had her eyes on her, too.
You scoffed, holding up a hand. “Okay, she didn’t feel me up. Just forget it.” Shaking your head, you replaced that stern look on your face with a smile. “Anyway, how are you guys? It’s been a long time.” You wrap your lips around the straw sticking out of your drink. The sweet tangy flavor of the alcohol mixed with cranberry juice spreading over your tongue—easing your worries.
He glanced at Ellie, briefly. So fast, you almost missed it. Almost. “I’m doing good. Just moved into my new place in Boston. How about you, Dina?” Jesse raised an eyebrow, nudging her arm.
She stirred the ice in her water with her straw, raising a thick eyebrow. “I’m great.” Dina responded, simply.
“Great.” You say, sipping your drink, awkwardly.
There was silence between the four of you that could only be classified as awkward, uncomfortable and tense. Ellie boring her big eyes into the side of your face as you, purposely, ignored her. Dina no longer having a reason to speak because of your sudden appearance. And, Jesse, well… He was normal. If anything he was trying to fight the demon that was the awkward silence.
Ellie shook her head, a scoff falling from her lips. Abruptly, she stood up, walking over to the bar. Even though her beer was barely touched. “What’s wrong with her?” You mutter, watching her get up. She motioned for the bartender, and you watched them fill up a shot glass. Her slender frame leaned over the bar top, on her toes. Pale skin exposed between the belt holding up her jeans and the hem of her shirt. You couldn’t help but let your eyes linger there—places you’ve touched with the pads of your fingers…
“I don’t know… But, I’m curious. Be right back.” Jesse stood to his feet, taking his beer with him. Leaving, none other than, you and Dina left alone.
Chewing your lip, you slide your drink forward, looking her in the eye. Perhaps, it was the liquid courage settling in your muscles. “Things shouldn’t be weird between us… Ellie wanted me here.” You felt the need to defend your place. Ever since that day, she always seen you as some predatory figure—now, that you think of it… She had even before that day. Just did a better job at hiding it. You were the predatory animal chasing over your gullible and prancing prey—Ellie
“Yeah, and sometimes she doesn’t know what’s good for her. So… I’m sure she did.”
Ouch.
You physically coiled at her words. A dry, pissed scoff fell from your lips. “Fuck you, Dina.” You cursed, leaning back in your chair. Ellie could never do wrong in her eyes—it was obnoxious. Did she have a crush on her or something?
She dryly laughed, shaking her head. “Fuck me?” Dina raised an eyebrow. “Look at her!” She jutted her brown eyes in her direction. “Every time you’re around, she ends up looking that. A wilted fucking flower.” She scolded you, causing you to follow her eyes. Jesse spoke to her with intent eyes. Ellie ran her hands through her hair, eyes shifting side to side. You didn’t know what they were talking about, but it seemed serious. “Just face it, y/n… You’re the common denominator here.”
The common denominator. What an interesting choice of words.
“She’d probably have a better night if you just leave. Go home. Let blondie over there take you home… Or a taxi. I don’t care.” Dina turned her face from you, like you were nothing.
Your hands began to shake and tremble from her words. The muscles in your face twitched and heated up like a furnace—eyes welling up with pained tears. You sniffled, standing up from your chair. Trying every which way not to make a fuss—saving face. She was always such a bitch! So, instead, you rushed to the bathroom with the stiffest posture. Heels stalking by Ellie and Jesse with eyes set on the women’s restroom to unleash your fury.
It was like a gust of wind passing her, Ellie’s words trailed as she unloaded onto Jesse about where her minds been. He was, probably, the only person she could even share it with. Dina didn’t like you very much, she was too emotionally involved. Jesse wasn’t bias and could give her proper advice—it was just up to Ellie if she wanted to follow it or not.
Ellie confessed that the feelings she had for you hadn’t gone away. Something he already knew. But she explained it like an act of a possession—as if the softness of your skin, the beauty of your features, the smell that exuded from you was a spooky presence that just won’t leave her alone. A poltergeist. It was becoming a carnal need the more she saw you.
But what about Cat?
What about her?
Then, on cue, you passed her. Ellie only caught a glimpse of your face. Jaw trembling, the sound of your emotional hiccups. Immediately, her olive eyes shifted to the young woman left at the table. She clenched her jaw, shaking her in disapproval. “Jesse, can you get a fucking handle on her?”
“Easy, Ellie. Don’t talk about her like that. She’s just looking out for you— or trying to.” He told, shifting on his feet. “…And she’s pregnant.”
Her eyes widened. “What?!” Jesse motioned for her to whisper.
“Shh! I wasn’t supposed to say anything. Dina’ll kill me.”
“You guys aren’t even together—“ Ellie pinched the bridge of her nose, squeezing her eyes shut. “Congratulations.” She intoned, running her hand through her hand. “If you don’t mind, I’m gonna go check on—“
“Yeah, go ahead. I’ll talk to Dina.”
Meanwhile, you paced around the single person bathroom. Purse thrown to the ground, makeup smudged down your cheeks. Fists clenched at your sides, and every few minutes pounding a spot on your thigh that inflicted enough pain to briefly distract you from the pain inflicted on your heart. Dina doesn’t understand! You’re not a bad person for what happened that day. When will Ellie get the heat for what happened? Why does it always have to be you? It was always your fault.
So much time has passed, meaning you’ve thought about the altercation for a long time. Hell, it was all you thought about at times. You should’ve never put your hands on Ellie that way—you knew that. But, she shouldn’t have pushed you to do it either. That was her mistake. Pushing and prodding at someone she claimed to love. Ellie was aware of that, too. She wrote about it in that letter she hand delivered on her eighteenth birthday.
Wringing your hands out, you heaved. Emotions still weighing heavy on your heart. Her words cut you like a knife—triggering you. Before you met Tommy and Maria Miller, life was so much harder. Everything was your fault and your birth parents—and the numerous foster parents that you had—made sure that you knew that. It wasn’t fair then, and it wasn’t fair now.
What stopped your progressing thoughts was the gentle call of your name, and a soft knock. It was Ellie.
“Go away!” You sniffled, leaning over the sticky sink to get a look at your appearance. It was a tragedy.
“Please, just let me in. I don’t know what Dina said… But, I’m sure it was fucked up— look, she has her reasons.”
“She has her reasons—?!” You exclaim, looking at the door through the reflection.
“But that doesn’t make it right. I know.” You heard her lean against the door. “Please, y/n.”
Wiping your face, you sighed. Sniffling, you walked over to unlock the door, gulping. “It’s unlocked…” You spoke, weakly. Positioning yourself with your back against the sink, you crossed your arms. Watching her push inside the bathroom, locking the door behind her. Ellie pressed her back against the door, observing you with the softest pair of green eyes you’ve ever seen. It was charming. Through her thick eyelashes, pelvis leaning forward—like she was a child in trouble.
“I’m so sorry about Dina. I should’ve never invited you… I just thought things would be different.” She frowned, fiddling with her fingers in front of her body. Her fingernails had chipped black nail polish on them; focusing on that was easier than focusing on her.
“Well…” You dryly chuckled. “You thought wrong.” Slowly, you drag your eyes from her hands, to her face—avoiding her eyes, though. “Apparently, you’d be better off if I left… Or died; if it were Dina’s way.” Your voice trembled, tears falling from the corners of your eyes. Dina didn’t tell you to die, but that’s what her tone told you. All you were doing was existing. If that’s what stressed Ellie out then… Fuck. Maybe you should just croak, huh?
Ellie ran her hands over her face, taking quick steps towards you. “Fuck— I don’t know why she said that.” Her hand ran through her straight hair, frustrated at herself and Dina. “I—… I do want you here. She doesn’t know what the fuck she’s talking about.” She reaches a hand out for you, but you flinch. There was a slight height difference to the pair of you—your heels caused you to look down at her. But, you weren’t looking down on her.
She was close enough for you to notice the orange-brown flecks in her irises. The ones you missed… So much, and desired wholly. However, you pushed yourself into the ceramic sink, fighting temptation. “Don’t tell me you actually believe what she said?” Her doe eyes looked up at you, demanding a response.
“I don’t know… It’s more than that, Ellie.” You analyze her features as inconspicuously as you could—which wasn’t possible. She noticed everything because she was doing the same thing.
Your bodies drew to each other like the opposite sides of conjoined magnets. Eyes intertwining and overcoming like they always did. Tensions were high, and you were in an enclosed space—your stomach rumbled with anticipation. “Tell me what it is, then.” The feeling of her fingers sliding up the curve of your elbow caused you huff, moving to the toilet to sit down. Cold air replacing where her fingers attempted to tether to you.
Ellie sighed, bunching her hand into a fist at her side. She knew what she was doing—after all, she was a pusher. It was hard to identify when to stop.
You dropped your head into your hands, forcing even breath from your lips. “It’s just… Old shit, okay? Dina struck a nerve.” You glanced at her through your hands, lips quivering.
Ellie took your previous spot, pondering. She knew about your life before your parents—how awful those people treated you; and she couldn’t understand why. You were a scorned person, like most of the kids you grew up with, but underneath it all you were soft. She’s witnessed that softness. And she will regret it for the rest of her life that she was the one to pull you from that that—all for dumb proof of trauma.
She realized too late that she was never alone in that traumatic suffering of the adoption system. After that day, she never wanted to see you hurt like that again. Or at all. Ellie wanted to make everything up to you.
Seeing those tears staining your cheeks; she wanted to kiss it better.
“I’ll talk to her.” The words fled from her mouth. Her old converse squeaked toward you, squatting before your sat figure on the filthy toilet. You turned your head, shutting your eyes and shivering at the thought of her. “Hey,” Her fingers grazed your jaw, pulling your eyes into her line of sight. “I will. She crossed the line— this isn’t my favorite version of you.” Her eyebrows deepened, pressing her lips into a firm line. She wanted to be level with you—not above or below.
Those words were music to your ears. Supple in its raspiness. The warm touch of her fingers on your face, you leaned into her hand. She had a favorite version of you? You reached up, gently gripping her wrist to pull it from you. Ellie shouldn’t have been touching you like this. But, even so, your bodies somehow gravitated toward one another. Eyes staring at each others parted lips, wanting. Needing. Her hand bracing on your thigh, pulling herself closer until your lips met.
Soft and forbidden. You gasped against her mouth, pulling away for a brief moment. Her olive eyes were pleading, and you just couldn’t say no. Being a victim of your flesh, your hand found its way to the back of her neck to pull her lips flush to yours. Mixed whines coming from the both of you; lips merging and meshing together. Creating something beautiful.
Every time you were physical with someone they were missing something. This was it! The passion, the history—the things that matter. The fucking chemistry; it was all there with Ellie. And, deep down, you knew that it was the only place you were going to find it.
She pushed into you, being guided by her carnal desire. Whining and growling into your mouth. Hands gripping at your hips, and the side of your backside. Ellie was hooked under a spell you concocted—some aphrodisiac that exuded from you. And she wanted to breathe more of you in until she couldn’t anymore. She was gluttonous.
Breaking her trance was a rough knock on the bathroom door. The two of you basically jumped apart; you falling into the toilet, nearly touching the water, her falling on the floor. Some of the glitter on your lips had rubbed off onto hers—it looked nice on her, but that was besides the point.
“Some people need to piss! Get out of the fucking bathroom!” Some heavy handed woman exclaimed from the other side.
A smile spread on her lips, hazy eyes watching as you pulled yourself up. “Fuck, Ellie. Why are you smiling?” You walk to the mirror, taking a look at yourself. You and Ellie had just kissed. The same Ellie who’s girlfriend is waiting for her back at the guesthouse. The pressure was already hitting you like a ton of bricks—Ellie was right, you had a terrible poker face. How could you forget about this? “Can you hand me that?” You pointed to the purse beside her.
She chuckled, standing up from the floor. Your purse was in her hand as she walked up behind you, handing it over. Her other snaking around your hips—clearly, still overcome. Taking the purse, you smack her hand away. “Enough!” You scold, deepening your eyebrows. She pouted, crossing her arms. Leaning her back against the wall, shutting her eyes. But it was soon replaced with a smirk.
Your fingers rummaged through your purse for your lipgloss. “This didn’t happen… This never happened…” You muttered to yourself. Once you found the sparkling tube, you began to apply it like a nervous tick. “I still don’t know what you keep finding so funny— nobody can find out about this, Ellie.” You turn to her, dropping your lipgloss back into your purse. “What just happened isn’t fucking funny—“
You were a homewrecker, a thief of girlfriends—watch out New York!
“You’re spiraling.”
“Yeah, and I have every reason to. This isn’t me. I’m not this person. You have a girlfriend!”
Ellie watched you ramble with a look of in awe in her eyes—you were fucked, and so was she. “I remember…” She couldn’t compel herself to care about the repercussions of hr actions; Ellie just wanted you. Even more now than before. She was given an inch, and she was ready to take a mile. Perhaps, longer if that was possible. Your ethics only made her want you more.
The glitter on her lips distracted you, causing you to reach your thumbs near her lips to wipe away the signs of you. Her wide eyes looked up at you, hands wrapping around your wrists. Where did she learn this type of behavior from? VHS porn?“Ellie, will you quit it?!” You stomped your foot, squeezing your eyes. “Fuck me.” You whisper to yourself, adjusting your purse.
“I’ll see you at home…” You mutter, placing your hand on the door handle.
“Am I not driving you?”
“No. You’re gonna stay here, mingle—fuck, I don’t care.” You shook your head. “Abby’s gonna take me home.” The words rushed from your lips because you were thinking and speaking at the same time. You needed an alibi and that’s what Abby was going to be.
The auburn-haired woman rolled her eyes, scoffing under her breath. Jealousy peaking inside of her like it did earlier. “Abby. Abby… The buff blonde you walked into the bar with— the one who was feelin’ you up.” She popped the p sound, nodding her head with searching eyes.
“She wasn’t feeling me up. I don’t think you know what feeling up looks like.”
“Show me, then.”
Your jaw almost dropped from its hinges, gasping at the woman before you. She was shameless, and you were the complete opposite—it was a recipe for disaster. “Like I said… I’ll see you at home.” You opened the door, slipping through to allow her some privacy. The people must’ve opted for the men’s restroom. Fucking freak. You thought, fighting the amused smile off your lips.
Adjusting your top, you approached Abby’s booth. She was surrounded by familiar faces—you knew them-ish. “Abs, can I talk to you for a second?” She looked up at you, blinking with slight confusion at your state.
“Oh, hi, y/n!” A short-haired woman grinned, wiggling her fingers at you.
You smiled at her, while Abby shimmied out of the booth. Taking her hand, you led her away from her friends, keeping her large hand in yours as you began to speak. “I know it’s early, but could you take me home? Like, now?”
She deepened her eyebrows, a hand dropping to your face, wiping at the mascara stains that had run down your cheeks. “Are these tears?” She bunched her eyebrows, gripping your chin and moving your head side to side. “I saw you run to the bathroom—“
“It’s not important, all right?” Your eyes peer up at the blonde woman, pressing your lips into a line. Pleading and batting your eyes at her—you really wanted to go home. And you weren’t necessarily doing it for Dina, it was more so because of her. As well as the fact that you had just made out with a woman who was spoken for. Whose girlfriend who is only ten minutes away, and who also offered to get champagne for Thanksgiving after you mentioned its absence. It was currently, probably, chilling in the fridge as all of this unfolded.
While you semi-sensually begged the woman to drive you home in her Jaguar, Ellie had gotten herself together in the bathroom. After you left, she released a joyful laugh once the door shut behind you. As if she had finished with making out with the hottest girl in school—very teenage-like. Her cheeks were flushed, blushing a warm mahogany through her freckles. You wanted her just as much as she wanted you; the kid proved that much.
But, then, a pang of guilt settled in the pit of her stomach. A fragment. Very small and minuscule.
It wasn’t right away; Ellie was certain that you thought of her to be cold based on how she was handling the situation. She had a girlfriend and found the situation amusing? You’re right—nothing was funny about what happened before you fell into the toilet and before she fell onto the floor. The both of you had managed to dig yourselves into a hole that she didn’t want to get out of. And she was sure you felt the same—she hoped you felt the same. Holes were fun, right?
Ellie wanted to keep digging deeper, and deeper, and deeper. She wanted to envelop herself with you, just like she used to. However, this time, she wasn’t planning on letting you go.
Cat was just something—someone she had to deal with in the meantime. She’s gonna fix it… Ellie just doesn’t know how, right now. She can’t think straight. Pun intended.
Leaving the bathroom, she checked her cell. Noticing the few messages her girlfriend had left her during the short period of time she had you to herself. Her avoidant nature caused her to skim them, then slap her phone shut.
“Everything good?” Jesse questioned, watching as she approached the table.
Ellie shoved her phone into her front pocket. “Yeah… Everything’s fine.” Her olive eyes averted to Dina. “Dude…?” She squinted her eyes.
“I’m sorry, Els. I went too far, I know.”
“I’m glad you know.” She sat in her chair, glancing over at you talking to the buff blonde. “What you said was fucked up, and I should be more mad at you, right now…”
She sighed, pouting her lips. “Well, thank you for your mercy, sire.” A smile creeped onto her lips.
“Dina,” Ellie narrowed her eyes, shaking her head.
Jesse side-eyed her, pressing his lips into an unimpressed line. She looked over at him, lips parting. “Just tryin’ to lighten up the mood. Excuse me.” Dina deepened her eyebrows, sliding down in her chair.
Ellie chortled, shaking her head once more, making sure to swing it far to get a glance at you. She watched you follow Abby back to her booth, telling them that you were leaving. Her hand guiding you, rubbing circles on the back of your hand. Fuck, that should’ve been Ellie. She hated watching you lean into her like that—shrinking yourself. That wasn’t you.
You were bold, opinionated, and despite your strict upbringing, you never shrunk. If anything, Maria and Tommy’s parenting gave you confidence. That used to intimidate Ellie, but it didn’t anymore. It influenced her.
As you walked out with Abby, Ellie gave an awkward wave, but you snapped your head in the other direction. You needed to clean your pallet, and that’s exactly what you were planning to do in that shiny black Jaguar.
When the door opened, the brisk, autumn air hit you, cooling your body down. But your mind was still set on using Abby as a cleanser—a handkerchief to wipe you of your mistakes.
You feigned a straightforward destination, giving her the address of your childhood home. But, halfway, you told her to pull over onto a dark dirt path. She made a joke, asking: Is this where you kill me and steal my car?
And you respond, full of need: I don’t want your stupid fucking car. I want you. Launching yourself over the center console, wrapping your arms around her face. You swing one of your legs over to straddle her in the driver’s seat. Hips grinding against her, shoving your tongue down her throat like she was going to leave you. Although, she wasn’t going anywhere—not with you on her lap, anyway.
Abby groaned into your mouth, gripping your ass over your jeans, pushing you harder against her. Messily, you begin to trail your lips down her jaw, toward the softness of her neck. Urgently nibbling at her skin. “Fuck, you’re eager…” Abby muttered through her heavy breathing. “I like this version of you.”
This isn’t my favorite version of you. Ellie’s voice echoed in your head. It frustrated you.
Warmth built up under the crotch of your jeans; the thick seam doing very little for the pleasure you wanted. “Please, Abby…” You breathed into her ear, tugging at the silver ring through her cartilage. “Touch me.” Reaching for her hand, you place between your legs, cupping her hand as she groped you. Meeting her eyes, you taunted her, chewing on your bottom lip.
The blonde didn’t hesitate, unbuttoning your jeans and shoving her hand inside. She was always quick to give rather than receive—listening to any command you spoke. As the pads of her fingers contact with where you needed her the most, you sighed. “You’re so wet for me already…”
It was debatable whether it was for her or not. With your eyes squeezed shut, you imagined the earthy, olive eyes of your past lover. The softness of the her lips. The desperation in which she put her all into pleasing you—it was experienced before. But, at that point, you were amateurs. So much has changed since then. You were curious how much, though. “All for you.” You whined, rocking your hips against her hand. Lying through your teeth.
She pressed two fingers into you, pushing a moan from your throat. Hands gripping her shoulders, bracing your weight. You imagined them to be her fingers curling deep inside of you—pulling sounds from you like a puppeteer.
You were worser than you thought.
Abby was supposed to be a pallet cleanser, but instead she was just a vessel for your horny fantasies.
The palm of her hand rubbed against your clit, pushing you closer to an edge you wanted to fall off of. A tightness built in the pit of your stomach—burning like a prosperous flame; standing by to erupt. “Ah… Fuck, yes!” You lewdly affirmed, fingers gripping the roots of her hair, back arching into her. The smell of lavender shampoo wafting into your nose from how close you were.
Ellie would never wash her hair with lavender shampoo. She stuck to sweeter, muskier smells. The one’s you liked.
Your legs trembled around her hips, jolting with every stroke and thrust. Her ministrations intensifying causing the sounds from your lips to get louder, laced with desire. “Abby,” You trembled with a warning tone. “I’m g—gonna… Fuck, I’m comi—“ Your choppy words are cut off with the snapping of a band in your stomach—spreading over you like a brisk gust of wind. Shocking your body into a brief state of paralysis against her strong frame.
She coax’s you through your orgasm, with that same come hither motion that got you there to begin with. Although, she was so quiet. That’s when clarity hit you, as you shakily rocked against her hand. Reaching down, you grip her wrist, kissing the pressure point under her ear. “Can you check the time f’me?” You sweetly ask, still subtly, rutting against her.
Abby checked the watch on her wrist. “Eleven-something.” She hummed into your neck.
“Eleven-somethin’, huh?” You tease, lifting off her, trying to settle back into the passenger seat. “I should probably get home…” You zipped and buttoned your pants. Normally, you’d be eager to return the favor, but your plan didn’t work—and, frankly, that irritated you. That nerdy, auburn-haired, freckled woman, that you knew so well, had burrowed herself under your skin already. It was a recipe for disaster.
There was a twitch in Abby’s brow at your sudden departure from her. She felt that bite of coldness; it was something she wasn’t used to. Nonetheless, she drove you home. With you leaning on the window, watching dark, shedding trees pass you by. All the way until you felt that familiar shift from side to side as you cruised over the gravel that led to your childhood home.
“How long are you gonna be here for?” You asked as she pulled to a stop, where Ellie’s car was previously parked. It was out of courtesy to wonder; these parts of town wasn’t really for people like her.
“Until the end of the week, then back to work.” She turned toward you, pushing her hair behind her ear. “When am I gonna see you again?” Record scratch. Abby Anderson has never asked you that. She was always aloof and carefree. I’m too busy. Let me check my schedule.
You couldn’t help the laugh that fell from your lips. “I’m really tying to spend some time with my family, but— uhm… I’ll call you, okay?” Leaning over the console, you place a lush smooch on her lips—riding on the confidence from her lack thereof.
Getting out of her expensive car, you adjust your clothing before walking into your house. Thankfully, the lights were off, meaning your parents were asleep. Thank, God. You looked awful, and you preferred not to be questioned on your state, Ellie’s whereabouts, and who took you home.
Gently, you shut the door behind you, keys jiggling in your hand. Slipping out of your heels, you tiptoed toward the fridge just to prove something to yourself. The white light from the fridge illuminated your deadpanned expression as two tall bottles of champagne sat on the second shelf. Nobody likes champagne that much. You rolled your eyes, scoffing under your breath.
Cat didn’t deserve any of what happened tonight, and you hated that.
When you got to your bedroom, you wasted no time to peel the clothes from your body. Falling atop of your mattress like a starfish. Before you slipped under the covers, you pulled your laptop onto your stomach to log into your MySpace. There was a red notification on your activity icon. When you click on it, StarlightWilliams had added you back—you were mutuals now. The pads of your fingers touched your lips, remembering the softness of hers from that moment in the bathroom. The pressure of her slender fingers gripping your sides—wistfully you sighed, slumping your head against the fluffy pillows and stuffed animals against your headboard.
Suddenly, your computer makes a sound—a ping. You sit up, squinting at the incoming notification.
kit_cat79 wants to be your friend!
What a coincidence. The website exposes whether you were online or not—you couldn’t hide from her. So, you decided to add her back. Cat’s picture was of her with her tongue out, dark bangs styled to the side. You didn’t realize that she had a tongue piercing—could she get any cooler? Maybe you should get a tongue piercing.
Her mood hadn’t been recently updated, but it was: Optimistic.
Her bio didn’t over explain much, but said more than her freckled counterpart: my name is cat and i do tattoo’s !! message me for inquiries (or ur a loser). Your eyes and cursor skimmed her account, not paying attention to the smaller details. Quickly, you navigated to the pictures and videos. There were some pieces of her work, candids of Ellie, pictures of her at band shows—
kit_cat79: hey… i know it’s late, but that was you who just got back, right?
The messages appeared at the bottom left corner of the screen, blinking green.
BugsWritersRoom: Hey, yeah. That was me…
Duh.
kit_cat79: i thought you went with ellie in her truck. also… where is she? she’s not answering my texts.
Was she worried about her? Or was her questioning coming from a place of distrust? Or, a secret third option... you had a bad case of paranoia.
BugsWritersRoom: She’s still at TB. I’m sure she’s just distracted catching up with Jesse and Dina.
kit_cat79: oh…
kit_cat79: that was some car you pulled up in...
She was wanting to start conversation, but you were too tired. You didn’t want to think about, or talk to another person about Abby. Let alone, talk about her with Cat. No offense. Sleep is the only time when your mind was going to finally rest, and you can resume thinking tomorrow.
Leaving her message on seen, you shut your laptop, pushing it to the side. You took Cat’s message as a sign to shut it down, reaching to click your lamp off.
You allowed sleep to take over, cuddling into your pillows as if it were a body. Hitching your leg over it, tugging it to your chest. Could you have been more evident in your loneliness? In your restless dreams, your brain scoured for something to show you. Something relevant, of course.
Olive eyes, freckles, prominent beauty mark—it was obvious what images it was looking for. Ellie.
By the time the sun lingered on the horizon, a tragic alarming song sang in unison to wake you—the sound of your ancient alarm, and the sound of the rooster sat atop of the chicken coop. Groaning into the pillow you held, squinting your eyes open. It had pulled you from a dream that was… Certainly, a dream. It was untoward, lewd; just straight up nasty.
There was a wetness between your legs that was the first to get your attention. Out of shameful curiosity, you reached your hand under your shorts; hoping it wasn’t your period suprising you. Pulling your fingers out, there was an absence of the dark hue that was a symbol of your menstrual cycle. It was fairly clear, shiny, and slick. You were a victim of a wet dream. How juvenile.
The sight of it only made your hornier. So, while you still had time, you jumped for one of the bags you brought. You were expected for morning chores, but there was always time to rub one out.
Taking the battery-powered silver bullet from you bag, you attempt to switch it on but it doesn’t respond. You even switch the batteries around, blowing into the port. “Come on…” You complain, but it still it doesn’t adhere to you.
You groan, falling back into your pillows. There was nothing wrong with going old school, but you were a creature of habit.
Sliding your hand down your body, you slip under your shorts and underwear. It didn’t take long for you to completely rouse yourself, blinking your eyes shut to fall into your imagination. Usually, the best material was your most recent hookup—or some celebrity crush that you couldn’t get over.
The movement of your finger mirrored a strong blonde who always aimed to please you. You could imagine yourself gripping her long, silky hair, pushing her into your pussy—devouring you. Feeling her hands gripping your thighs, anchoring them to the mattress.
You relished in the feeling that was slowly washing over you. So much so that when the image of blonde hair began to fade and be replaced by short auburn strands, you barely noticed. Subconsciously, replicating the dream that kept you snug as a bug all through the night.
Your ministrations quickened as you neared finality. Bottom lip slipping between your teeth. Soft, repressed moans sneaking through them as your hand clutched your breast, thumbing your sensitive nipple. The serotonin levels increasing with every swipe and slide. Fuck, El—
Downstairs, the artist peeled dried paint from her fingers, waiting for you. Staying out late knowing she had to get up for chores was a huge mistake. There were many mistakes that happened last night. Another being, ignoring Cat’s messages. Ellie pulled into the driveway not too much later than you—it was nearing one o’clock.
When she entered the guesthouse, shrugging off her jacket—with a mind busier than New York City herself—Cat was found in the small living room. With her thin eyebrows bunched together and her arms crossed over her chest. Dressed in nothing but a fitted tank top and cheeky underwear.
Ellie had looked at her with a stressed look, “What are you still doing up?” Walking past her to the bedroom to undress and unwind. Cat scoffed, following her to the bedroom. Slippered feet stomping behind the artist.
“What am I doing up?!” She chided, twitching toward her. “I’ve been texting you all night, Ellie. You couldn’t respond to one?”
The freckled woman plopped onto her side of the bed, kicking off her shoes. She pretty much saw the messages as they were coming in; Ellie just didn’t have the nerve to respond. She didn’t feel like it. Not after what happened in the bathroom—she couldn’t come back from that. Hell, she didn’t want to come back from that. The only image replaying in her mind was your lips on hers. Your hands imbedded in her hair. The wanton sounds coming from you that she wanted to hear on again, and again, and again. That feeling of being between your legs...
And, let’s not even get into how it felt to see you leave with Abby. That ruined her whole night. Not even Jesse could cheer her up.
She ran a hand through her hair, looking over her shoulder with a tired expression. “Babe, I’m sorry, okay?” She began, standing to her feet to remove her jeans. “We just got too carried away talkin’ and whatnot.” Walking to the bathroom in the bedroom, she shed her shirt from her body. Ellie found it too easy to lie—she’s always been good at it. And, Cat was pretty gullible. But she had to throw a monkey wrench in there to really calm her down.
“Turns out… Jesse got Dina pregnant.”
“What?”
She turned on the shower, then peaked out of the doorway. “Yeah, how crazy is that?”
The tattooed girl fell onto the edge of the bed, eyes casting toward the ground, full of uncertainty. “Super crazy…”
Noticing the subtle dejection in her features, Ellie sighed. Leaving the doorframe as the shower ran hot in the background. She appeared before her, reaching her hand down to lift her chin. “Kitty Cat,” Her voice was soft and oh, so forgiving. “I should’ve responded to your texts— I’m an asshole. Let me make it up to you…” She sultrily offered, caressing the softness of her chin with her thumb.
And that’s what she did. Ellie made it up to her girlfriend of almost a year. By fucking her in the shower hard enough to make her forget about all of her uncertainties.
She had a long night.
This morning, she got up an hour earlier to get a better start on her sketch—she even started incorporating her oil paints. That’s what was stuck to her hands. The coloring in of her portrait of you in front of that shed. She felt the need to freeze that moment in time; where you embraced each other in the arms of company for the first time in too long. That hazardous kiss you shared in that sticky bathroom at the Tipsy Bison inspired her to color in the lines.
“I normally hear her up and movin’ around… She’s taking longer than I thought she would.” Maria commented, munching on a buttered bagel. “How long were you two out last night?”
Ellie inhaled, lifting her eyebrows in thought. “I got back around one, but y/n came back earlier than I did. She got a ride from a friend.” She shrugged, the ends of her lips curling, mischievously. “I think her name’s… Abby.” Ellie added, glancing between the two parents.
“Hm. What made her leave early—?” Tommy began to ask, but he stopped himself. He frowned, leaning his elbows on the counter, peering at the auburn-haired woman across from him. “How’s Dina doin’?”
She chuckled. “Still pissed, if that’s what you’re getting at?” Ellie went from peeling paint off her fingers, to fiddling with them. “They got into a bit of a…”
“Fight?” The blonde woman questioned, deepening her arched eyebrows. She never liked hearing about you fighting—or seeing it. That was a strictness Maria was never going to get rid of. Tommy used to get into fights a lot, finding himself locked behind iron bars at the county jail. But that was years before he moved to New York. When he still lived in Texas with Joel.
“No.” Ellie bunched her eyebrows in defense, shaking her head. “It was an argument, but it didn’t last long. I handled it.”
Steps sounded from the stairs, silencing the three. Pairs of eyes peered up the stairs, hoping that it was you stalking down the steps—but it wasn’t. When he began clearing his throat and coughing, loudly, they knew it was Joel. “Goddamnit…” Tommy rolled his eyes, slapping his hand against his thighs.
“Good mornin’ to you, too, Tommy.” Joel scoffed.
He huffed, licking his lips. Just like you did when you grew irritated—Tommy’s antics had rubbed off on you. “Is there any signs of life from my kids' room—? Because she should’ve been down here five minutes ago.” He looked to Joel before glancing at his watch. “Maria and I planned for her to teach Ellie how to do our grocery shipments.”
“Grocery shipments?” Ellie cast her earthy eyes toward Maria.
“It’s a lot of information, but I’m sure you’ll catch on just fine, Ellie.” She placed her hand atop of hers, pressing her lips into a smile. “If only your teacher could be timely…” Maria sighed.
The freckled artist stood up straight, pursing her lips. “I can go check and see if she’s up…” She offered, shrugging nonchalantly. “I’m sure she is— maybe she just needs a little nudge. I had rough time this mornin’, too.” To be frank, offering to grab you from the second floor of the house was clouded with selfish intentions. Ellie hadn’t seen your bedroom since she was seventeen. She couldn’t help but wonder if anything had changed.
And, she wanted a useful reason to talk to you.
Your parents are wondering what the hell you’re doing— also, how was our kiss from 1-10?
Hey, you’re supposed to be teaching me about grocery shipments, right now— hypothetically, would you kiss me again… Or?
She was such a loser for you; she always has been. “If you don’t mind. I’m sure she’d appreciate seeing you more than me.” Tommy chuckled, nudging his wife but she barely broke a smile. Staring her husband down with icy, blue eyes.
Ellie’s eyebrows twitched, but she decided not to interact with whatever happened there. Quickly, moving to the stairs to find you.
What she could remember about your room was the pink wallpaper and the posters. You used to be very persistent in upgrading old ones for new ones—saving the old ones in your closet. She found it amusing how you could never get over anything; you liked to collect things. As many things as possible—posters, collectors items, superhero figurines—you were an undercover geek!
The fascination you had with catwoman was insane. But, understandable.
The stairs of your home was guided by many picture frames. Pictures of you lining the walls. The bottom starting with photos of you when you still went heavy on the eyeliner and hairspray; gradually preceding with much happier images of you. The final photo being the whole family together, including Ellie. It was taken after your college graduation, in front of the house. You were sandwiched between your grinning parents while Joel and Ellie were on both ends; her sporting a timid smile, and him grinning just like his brother.
She was so proud of you that day, but didn’t dare to enunciate that how she really wanted to. At the time, the shoulder you gave her was ice cold. Brisker than the harsh weather of the east coast.
When she emerged at the top step, the first door in front of the stairs was cracked open. But that wasn’t your bedroom, that was your parents’ bedroom. Down the hall, to the right, after passing an open floor planned media space, was the guest room. Where Joel was spending his nights. A little further down that hall was your bedroom.
It was the best spot in the house. Your bedroom have the best view of the front of the house, and was far enough from the prying ears of curious parents.
Neither you or Ellie were innocent teenagers—you both couldn’t wait to get some alone time, and you couldn’t keep your hands off each other once you started. It was the perfect place for late night shenanigans.
Again, some things never change, huh?
Strolling toward your door, Ellie raises her hand to give a soft knock. But she pauses at the faint sounds coming from under your door. Breathy whines, the light rocking of your old, rickety bed frame. Could she hear just how wet you were from outside your door?
She leaned closer to the brown door, her bottom lip slotting between her teeth. Ellie wanted to be sure she was hearing correctly, of course. She heard you cursing and swearing, but nothing shocked her more than when she heard you squeak her name. “Fuck, Ellie…”
Apparently, Ellie wasn’t the only one who was overcome. Wanton sounds filled her ears like a mantra before she decided to interfere. Knock, knock! She heard you gasp.
“It’s Ellie... Your parents are gonna throw bitch-fits in T-minus five minutes if you’re not downstairs soon.” Ellie kept herself composed, using her hand to hold her weight against the wall. She heard you shuffling behind your door, cursing under your breath.
“I’ll be down in, like, five minutes!” You shout, the sound of quick maneuvering being heard from Ellie’s side of the door.
She wanted you to open the door, just to get a glimpse of that blissed out look on your face—Ellie anticipated that flustered look. Forgetting about her own blushing cheeks after hearing you say her name while touching yourself. She felt like a fucking king.
Stuffing her hands into her pockets, she walked to the media space. Lifting up CDs, VHS tapes, and eyeing thick books that haven’t been touched in years to pass the time. Fuck, Ellie—still played in her mind like a record. There wasn’t any scratching, only smooth playing; no interruptions.
When you appeared from your room, dressed in your working cowboy boots, a long-sleeve Abercrombie shirt and bootcut jeans—there was a shit-eating grin that just wouldn’t leave her face. Ellie turned around to lay her eyes on you, unable to help but ogle. “Do you have a condition that you’re not mentioning? Perhaps, a tumor—? Since you can’t help yourself when it comes to laughing…” You grumble, placing your hands on your hips.
Your words only made her smile more. The more time the two of you spent together, the more snarky you were becoming—she missed that. “Turns out, under some circumstances… I can be a morning person. Some circumstances.” She muttered, mainly to herself but she didn't mind if you heard. Ellie deliberated with herself on whether she was going to expose what she heard you say… Or, if she was going to hold onto it. Similar to how victorians put the hair of their lover’s into lockets.
“Whatever, Els.” You rolled your eyes, loosely calling her by that nickname, again. Ignoring the harshness of her eyes, you passed her to descend the wooden stairs. There was still a mindless sleepiness to you. It was charming to your past lover, as she followed behind you—floating on air. Thinking about how great of an idea it was to come back this year.
And, still, Ellie was barely harbored with guilt. Even more so when she inspected your features, intently. When her thoughts wandered into the gutters of her creative mind—spreading you wide in all of your glory.
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#🪅#millersfinest#ellie tlou#lesbian#ellie williams#ellie williams imagine#ellie williams smut#ellie williams x reader#abby anderson#tlou#this ch was a lot hornier than my original plan ngl
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ㅤㅤTHE way Dark acted towards him made him wonder if they weren't compatible for each other after all ( he wished Dark wasn't so hostile over something as small as this though ). " You know I was just making a joke ... I know you don't like me very much but well, I am happy you tried to get to know me in some way. Even if you just wanted to score the top points. "
' find it interesting all you want . ' nerd . his hands set onto his hips and he greets the other's obvious disbelief with his own ruthless leering . soon enough , a single brow twitches and his expression rankles . ' we are not best friends . '
#dnangelic#✦ RECORDING the fates in the stars. (theodore ic.)#OIUGGLKJDSLKJFDLKJSGDLKJSF WELL I MEAN HE DOES LIKE FLAKY PASTRIES LIKE HE'LL TAKE THAT!!!#i dont think theyve actually like officially introduced themselves#i mean theo knows their names but like they dont know his full name LMAOOO#MY GOD I FORGOT ABOUT THE FUCKIN CHRISTMAS SHENANIGANSOIJGLKDSLKJFDSLKJF#that was smth else#theo vc; i get it u hate me but i still wanna be ur friend...
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htf headcanons list, bitte 🦌
I'm just curious and wanna hear more about your takes on them
OH I HAVE SOME!
I drew some of them but theres some that i will put below and others that are more domestic stuff or characters relations yk that i might just make other fanarts showing It >:D
- I really like to HC Handy as a trans woman even tho i mostly HC Handy as a trans man depends on the day!
- HC Mime as ace because his colors always remind me of the ace flag
- I HC sniffles as aroace that goes "actually 🤓☝️" and reather prefers THE KNOWLAGE out of that romance
- I HC Shifty as a trans guy too!
- I HC that Toothy is gay idk he just gives gay vibes
- HC that Petunia, Handy and Cuddles are bi!
- Lammy is a Lesbian
- Truffles is totally Aroace 👍
- Giggles is Pan so is Flippy :D
-Flaky is Non Binary they dont really care for pronouns they go by They/She/He
- i can see the Mole being on the ace spec
- i see Splendid as Aromantic! He has very aro vibes for me
-Nutty... Its something... I think he wouldn't label himself neither for gender or sexuality he would just go "candy."
- Lumpy is queer but idk what spectrum he would be maybe Aroace or Pan but cant decide It
- Pop and Disco Bear are kinda funny for me because i see them as like Bi4Bi and If Disco Bear is taking care of Cub It would be like this:
I can totally see It that way
#some others are just silly characters interactions#like hc that Flaky dosen't leave their home and stuff#or that Giggles likes strawberry shortcake#and that shifty dosen't clean his teeth#Happy tree friends#Happy tree friends Fanart#Htf#Htf Fanart#Htf Handy#htf Shifty#htf Disco bear#Htf Pop#Htf Cub#Htf Mime#Htf Sniffles
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earth 42! miles x reader
summary: you just wanna understand miles and why he’s been so off. once he’s dealt with you finally ready to leave him, will he tell you the truth?
“miles.. what’s going on?? you’ve been flaky on dates, i’m left on delivered 8 out of 10 times, you’ve even been missing school.” you’re sat on miles bed talking to him as soon as he enters his room by climbing through the window. “and you’re even coming in through the window knowing damn well your door is always open to you. if you wanna end things because you got your own shit going on then-” “no!” the first time miles speaks, its with panic.
“no baby. it’s not even like that. i just- im just dealing w a lot right now. shits busy.” he says slowly trying to speak cautiously. “oh yeah shits busy with you and your uncles shady ass business huh? you think i dont notice you miles? you think i don’t see the small ticks you have when nervous? or the way you bite your lip slightly whenever i mention about it or when you try to deflect like you’re trying to do right now? i love you miles but you know i’m not an idiot. don’t treat me like it.” “baby,” he chuckles trying to diffuse the situation. “you wouldn’t leave me, right mi amor? you just gotta understand, i’m busy i don’t have time for all the shit you talkin bout.”
you’re silent as you look in miles eyes. he’s looking at you intently really realizing that you just might leave him after all the shit he’s putting you through. he can feel his resolve crumbling. he doesn’t know how to smooth talk his way out of this. “miles all the ‘shit’ i’m talking about is us. you don’t want this do you? because i need you to let me know now. i’m tired miles. i’m exhausted feeling like i’m the only person trying to get things to work out. i wanna hear you out, i want to know what’s going on through your head but you won’t let me. i don’t know what to do. i’m so tired of calling your mom every other day to make sure you’re eating and that you’re well on days you don’t talk to me. i’m tired of writing notes for you in class so you can catch up when you barely even pay attention to when i try to teach you. and i’m tired of sitting at booths while waiters look at me with pity after saying ‘would you like the check?’ when you don’t come for hours. i’m really tired miles.” you sigh as you hold your face in your hands finally relieved to get to tell him all the shit you’ve been holding in.
miles genuinely wants to cry. he’s been so selfish. he knew deep down even when pushing it away he’s been hurting you. he knew he was hurting you when his mom would give him the silent treatment after receiving one of your calls and telling him, “don’t string that poor girl along. you got lucky and you don’t even know it mijo.” he just didn’t know how to tell you about him being the prowler. it seems like no matter what he does, whether he tells you or not, he could lose you. when you finish speaking miles looks down at the floor blinking back tears that he doesn’t want you to see. he clears his throat before speaking.
“i’m so sorry baby.” you can hear his voice crack but he refuses to cry in front of you. “i’ll tell you everything. i’m so so sorry. i didnt mean to hurt you cariño. can i hug you baby?” he’s finally walking over to you after putting some distance between the two of you with him leaning against his window and you on the bed. you nod finally ready to get some answers from your boyfriend. he’s holding you close flipping you onto him so that you’re on his lap. he says he focuses better that way.
as he’s telling you about him being the prowler he’s playing with your shirt clearly nervous. he starts to stutter with some sentences and it makes you sad because your boyfriend never stutters. he’s always so confident so you can tell this was really affecting him. he’s rubbing your thighs while telling you stories about him and uncle aaron’s “business”. once he’s done you hug him and put your arms around him as you caress the back of his neck while he’s inhaling your scent rubbing circles with his thumb on your waist.
you move back to see him, the boy you love letting all his emotions out and finally visibly relaxing as he tells you everything he’s been wanting to tell you for months. “thank you for telling me miles. it all makes sense now but i wish you told me sooner. i don’t want you to share this burden all on your own.” you give him a warm smile and he smiles feeling such love for you. “i don’t deserve you, you know that? i know you know that.” he says easing the tension looking at you lightly laugh at his joke. “oh trust i know that. you just charity work.” you both begin to laugh finally easing into each other. “can i get a kiss baby? been needing one for so long.” you hold his face in his arms and kiss him. this kiss is a much more intimate kiss than the others. it holds emotion. he grips onto you tighter, never wanting to remember the feeling of you almost leaving him. he needs you here and he needs you here to stay. and he’s ready to man up and prove it to you.
#earth 42 miles x reader#earth 42#miles morales prowler#prowler x reader#prowler miles morales x reader#miles morales fluff#miles morales angst#miles morales x reader#miles x y/n#earth 42 miles morales x reader#earth 42 miles fluff#earth 42 miles angst
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“See You There” Concert Experience
2024.11.24 @ Port Messe in Nagoya
okay so firstly: i genuinely dont have any pictures or videos; guidelines were VERY strict to not do that and i didn’t want to play with fire even though I technically saw one person sneak at least one photo lmfao
except for this:

: )
+ map of the venue the “x” is approx. where i was sitting - i was an aisle seat; seventh row back from the front right-side; the black line in the middle represents the center stage runway thing

(it was assigned seating - I had no clue where I sitting until receiving the ticket from staff - and I have no idea how/when the seating is decided)
also idk if it really needs to be said but im not gonna do like a song play-by-play or write this in any sort of actual organized fashion
also I’ll probably need to make more of these because of flaky memory and horrendously long and yadda yadda yadda im v sorry lol
(i don’t wanna draft these too long and beautify/nitpick them too much so all spelling/grammar issues don’t exist and if you notice them fixed.. they were always like that 😇)
okay with thaaaat out of the way~
I can’t describe the feeling seeing him when he got out on stage like…..he just looked unreal
like not just drop dead beautiful but like a feeling of “holy fuck this dude actually exists” lmfao 😭
it’s just very bewildering after watching so many things with him behind a camera to now being within your own personal presence
I really don’t have an ego or whatever and even the times where im like “d-did he just look at me there?” it kind of feels like a joke but….i like to pretend that he did at least at some point (to which I immediately deny and it and pretty much say “no … lol~ 🤭”)
there are two..three moments that really make me wonder tho like genuinely/actually/not me being big headed lmao
smap songs were “One Chance” which is a solo so really only half-smap 😔; “ダイナマイト”; and “KANSHA して”
he did two (I’m pretty sure it was two lmao 😭) rounds going on the trolley thingie for a few songs to go around the perimeter, and he swung one of his legs over the cage and just let it dangle to show how bendy he still is at least twice
Both rounds included the smap songs (One Chance on the first, other two were back-to-back on the second) which kind of felt really special??? Like……it just made me remember the smap cons that I’ve watched (and tsuyoshi perpetually getting himself into precarious situations on the stupid things 😭 [i knowwww 😒 {affectionate/lighthearted}])
something that will probably live in my head rent-free (that I HOPE he does in the actual filmed con footage not only for everyone to SEE it but because I already can’t accurately visualize it 😭) is that in Crazy Party when he says “sexy” he made THE MOST absurd and hysterical expression like making himself bug-eyed and just a very not calm/cool/demure face that matches his voice (omfg that voice…..wakes up sorry)
He made himself cross-eyed three times at the very least - probably more tho
I really tried to look AT him as much as possible but there were moments where I really just COULD NOT see him or it was just…more incentivizing? to look at the front display..
(ie when he would pop his fucking jacket open and just….expose arm (we love arm) which he did WAY TOO MANY FUCKING TIMES)
..but I did stare at his back quite a bit 😗
His outfit around when he did “No Night, No Starlight” was my ultimate fave which absolutely shouldn’t be surprising and I think it’ll be everyone’s too
which is why I won’t spoil what it looks like (it’s PEAK peak tho im virtually pinkie-promising all of you)
After NoLiNoStar, he did an MC where I think (mostly going off of his mannerisms and understanding v select words so 🙃) he talks about the difficulty of the choreo for this song and like….idk probably that he’s getting too old for this shit
personally I think he should have done a backflip and he probably CAN still do one but hey! that’s just me…… 😔
sorry to spoil but yeah there is no backflip revival I know it was on all (my) of our (my) mind 😔😔
okay there’s def going to be a part 2 but I’ll write more later waaaaah byeeeee 😭😭😭
#ramblin but not a gamblin man#see you there 2024#see you there#why not ill actually tag him…#kimura takuya#takuya kimura#木村拓哉
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hate when i reallyreallyreally dontttt wanna go somewhere but i already committed to it and i don't want to be flaky so i go anyway and then i have. a great time and am so glad i went instead of staying home. this is the worst possible outcome because not only was i wrong but it means that i don't even have a good reason to skip the next thing i reallyreallyreally dont wanna go to >:( i categorically refuse to learn from this experience and it WILL happen again
#stuff#>:(((( personal growth is fine but at what cost? a 1 hour 11 minute commute on four different trains???#has anyone considered that Bed could be just as fulfilling?????? THINK ABOUT IT
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Could you write Ted Thompson or Johnny Vincent relationship hcs 🤭 your hcs are so good like this is what I live for
I think I sent an ask about my ocs Toby and Dolly for ship hcs (Toby x Ted, Dolly x Johnny) but this iPad is tweaking so idk if they came thru
I really liked the choose your own adventure thing i did for the thad date hc thing so i think I’m gonna emulate that here with a first date with Ted scenario… i just.. i want to okay this is my blog!!!!! there’s also a choose your own adventure tier on my ko-fi now if anyone wants it i just…i really wanna write more stuff like this it was fun
FIRST DATE WITH TED THOMPSON CYOA
You were late to lunch, English class had run over again because Mr Galloway had to go and print new worksheets, having spilled cheap whisky all over the original ones. Opening your locker to place your. Textbooks inside, you see a figure stop and lean on the locker beside yours, noting crazy interesting, kids at Bullworth are pretty good at stopping and pausing midway through a task. Closing your locker, you see that it was Ted Thomson leaned against the flaky blue paint of the locker “Hey, listen. I’m doing a little training session tonight, just me… Tryna keep my gains up” he flexes a little, not able to contain his little smile “You should come with, I always need a spotter.” DIALOGUE OPTIONS: “SURE, I DON’T REALLY HAVE ANYTHING GOING ON TODAY”, “UHHHH THANKS BUT NO THANKS, I DONT REALLY DO SPORTS”, “I’M SORRY, DO I KNOW YOU?”
“SURE, I DON’T REALLY HAVE ANYTHING GOING ON TODAY”: Ted smiles, happy that you’ve chosen to accept. He pushes himself off of the locker and adjusts his letterman a little bit. “Tight, meet me outside the gym at 6… wear something you don’t mind getting sweaty”
“UHHHH THANKS BUT NO THANKS, I DONT REALLY DO SPORTS”: Ted raises a brow at this, everyone at Bullworth does gym at the very least. He presses you a little more “It wont be anything crazy, I’ll go easy bro, trust me” DIALOGUE OPTIONS: “STILL NO, NOT MY SCENE” “FINE, BUT DON’T LIE TO ME”. “STILL NO, NOT MY SCENE” —>Ted crunches his face up, he didn’t understand why you were being so difficult. He’s an all American QB, you know how many people are chomping at the bit to see how he trains? “Whatever, your loss loser” Ted clears off, making sure to give you a firm shoulder tap on his way past MISSION FAIL. “FINE, BUT DON’T LIE TO ME” —> Ted’s smile widens, he seemed like he still had a chance of getting his ball in your red-zone “Right on, I’ll see you at 6, okay?”
“I’M SORRY, DO I KNOW YOU?”: “I.. uh” Ted sets his jaw and narrows his eyes a little bit, as he stands there dumbfounded, trying hard to see if you were joking. Based on your body language and general lack of interest in your tone of voice, the message was received loud and clear “Yknow what… I thought you were someone way hotter, case of mistaken identity, brochacho”. Thoroughly embarrassed, Ted walks off, likely down to the cafeteria to drown his sorrows in carbs. MISSION FAIL
At 6, you meet Ted by the door of the Gym, he’s wearing his football shirt and the smallest, tightest gym shorts he owns, if that’s not a sign of what he wants to get up to later, then I’ve got no idea what is. He smiles and approaches you “Glad too see you came, c’mon. I came early and set everything up, we can just get started” he looks to you expectantly, clearly approving of your choice of workout clothes,and very very happy to see you taking this seriously. He allows you to enter the gym. He has a couple machines set up, they’re a little worn down, clearly heavily used by the jocks in their free time. There’s a weightlifting bar with a few dusty old plates, a cross trainer and a few tackling dummies with crash mats behind them “ You know how to tackle, bro?” DIALOGUE OPTIONS: “YEAH I THINK SO, I USED TO PLAY FOOTBALL AS A KID” “NOT REALLY, BUT IT CANT BE THAT HARD, RIGHT?” “NOPE, I DONT SLAM INTO DUDES FOR FUN”
“YEAH I THINK SO, I USED TO PLAY FOOTBALL AS A KID”: Ted gives a nod of approval and allows you to approach one of the dummies, situating himself behind it in case you slip out of the tackle and get hurt, but also to provide some extra resistance if you come in a little hard “Right on, y’know you should try out sometime, we’re always on the hunt for fresh meat”
“NOT REALLY, BUT IT CANT BE THAT HARD, RIGHT?”: He doesn’t quite appreciate the fact that you think football is so easy, there’s a lot of nuance in the positioning for a tackle and avoiding a foul and whatnot, but he likes the cut of your jib and is willing to show you the ropes “Right on, man, right on. Let me help you out”
“NOPE, I DONT SLAM INTO DUDES FOR FUN”; Ted’s brows furrow. He’s thoroughly offended by your answer, nice going, punk. “Hey! I’m not like that.. I’m an all American…. And just so you know, naked twister is a good way to boost morale… and we’re not even naked, we have socks on an- why am I explaining myself to you?! Get gone, loser!” He drags you out of the gym and slams the door behind you, expect a thorough beating from the jocks in the coming days MISSION FAIL
You spend an hour or so working on tackles, 30 minutes for you, and 30 minutes for Ted. The sheer amount of forcer in his tackles leaves you winded, sore and begging for mercy. Ted just thinks you’re playing around, and goes to fetch some water for the both of you. On his return, he gestures to the weight rack and suggests you take a stab at it, having proven yourself on the tackling dummy “Hey, how about this, you take a breather and spot me, okay? Then the Tedster can help you”. His time on the bench is short and sweet, he’d already worked out his arms in the morning, and just wanted to a couple extra bench presses as a nightcap. Being the gentleman he was, he wiped the sweat off the bench once he was done, and left the plates on the pole so you wouldn’t have to fiddle around with them. “Hey, you need a spot bro?” ACTION OPTIONS: REFUSE THE SPOT, LET HIM KNOW YOURE A TOUGH COOKIE; ACCEPT THE SPOT, BUT ASK THAT HE TAKE SOME OF THE WEIGHT OFF THE BAR FOR YOU FIRST; INSIST THAT HE CONTINUE, AND YOURE FINE TO KEEP WATCH.
REFUSE THE SPOT, LET HIM KNOW YOURE A TOUGH COOKIE; Ted nods and backs away from the barbell. Unfortunately for you, Ted benches triple your body weight as a warm-up,so his usual bench press is much too heavy. Your arms give out from under the bar and it falls on your windpipe, crushing it and killing you almost instantly. Ted can’t be with someone that has such a weak windpipe, so be bails on you as you slip into oblivion, but he does show up to the funeral MISSION FAIL
ACCEPT THE SPOT, BUT ASK THAT HE TAKE SOME OF THE WEIGHT OFF THE BAR FOR YOU FIRST; Ted nods, quickly removing some of the plates for you “Sorry man, I shoulda thought of that first, I forgot you’re kinda wimpy.” He laughs a little and gets himself in the right spotting position. It’s still a little heavy, but you won’t die or anything. Ted’s right there to catch the bar before it does any serious damage.
INSIST THAT HE CONTINUE, AND YOURE FINE TO KEEP WATCH; Ted’s a little confused, he won’t lie, but he’s pretty impressed you’re still hanging around because it means he gets to show off. He benches fast, and even does some little tosses with the bar, its all fun and games until he conks himself on the head. A little embarrassing but not a dealbreaker.
Your little workout session is over almost as soon as it began, and thank god, that crosstrainer looked like some form of saw-trap,Ted must have put it out for decoration or something, because he seemed to forget about its existence altogether. Maybe he just wanted to focus on training that the pair of you could do together. Ted unlocks the gym door and the cool night breeze feels SO GOOD on your embarrassingly sweaty body. He raises a brow at you as he watches you try and get cool, and can’t seem to stifle a little chuckle. “Hey, dude, how’s about you join me in the showers for a debrief?” DIALOGUE OPTIONS: “UM… YEAH DUDE, I WAS JUST GONNA GO TO BED LIKE THIS” “I’M COOL, I WAS GONNA USE THE HOSE OUTSIDE OF HARRINGTON HOUSE” “SURE, IVE ALWAYS WONDERED WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO PLAY WIDE RECEIVER!”
“UM… YEAH DUDE, I WAS JUST GONNA GO TO BED LIKE THIS”: Ted once again can’t tell if you’re joking, but while ultimately deciding to let sleeping dogs lie, he just cant help but tell you that you’re totally weird for that. “EW, foul ball man. Whatever, I was never here, okay?” all you had to do was wash your stinky ass, way to blow it in the last quarter. MISSION FAIL
“I’M COOL, I WAS GONNA USE THE HOSE OUTSIDE OF HARRINGTON HOUSE”: A little weird, sure, but Ted can respect the hustle. He hates those rich freaks as much as the next guy, even though he doesn’t know them too good. Apart from Justin… he knows Justin VERY well. “Right on man, go mark your territory”
“SURE, IVE ALWAYS WONDERED WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO PLAY WIDE RECEIVER”: Ted cant help but grin, it was such a dumb joke but he didnt care. He’s managed to get a workout in, and get some action all in one night. The pair of you walk towards the showers and Ted can’t resist the urge to yell “HAHAHA TOUCHDOWN” before allowing you passage into the boys locker room, closing the door behind you.
LEVEL:CLEAR
NEW HI SCORE!
POINT BONUSES: COMPLETIION BONUS +5,CLIQUE LEADER SCORED +10, BOINK BONUS +69,PERFECT RUN BONUS +10, WEIRD AND OFFPUTTING BONUS +5, READING THE BONUSES BONUS +100
CONGRATULATIONS!
You just completed a first date with a clique leader! Excellent work fair traveller. Let me know how well you scored in the RBs/comments
PLAY AGAIN? <Y/N>
#bully#bully cce#bully canis canem edit#bully scholarship edition#bully rockstar#bully se#bully jocks#rpg#choose your own adventure#ted thompson
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call me Willow or Warren (nicknames of these are welcomed)
for my current tumblr nickname : i kissed a vampire reference i love this shit musical it shaped and lead me down into my "im just a vampire in disguise" childhood
any pronouns will do, they/them are preferred but he/it are fine and she/her is ehh okay (neopronouns i havent experimented with but im just gonna say whatever man shrugs)
neurodivergent | OCD and autism (i have no idea why i state this but i just wanna)
casual acronyms are very hard for me to understand or click straight away (lmk, hbu, ijbol), same with song abriviations (such as you know what they do.. turns into ykwtdtgluip, i cannot read that)
don't really need many tone tags, but /s (sarcasm) , /j (joke) and /lh (lighthearted) are helpful!
*insert Not That Kind Of Girl by my chemical romance here because tumblr hates me and won't let me edit and add the song here without giving me an error*
my main interests, aka stuff you miiiight see me reblog/post about (no particular order)
- my chemical romance (bullets ♡, frank iero ♡, revenge era ♡, danger days era ♡)
- miraculous ladybug (season 3 ♡, gabriel agreste ♡, lila rossi ♡, felix fathom ♡)
- genshin impact (casual AR58, diluc ♡, rosaria ♡, dottore ♡)
- frank iero ANYTHING (leathermouth ♡, death spells ♡, sector 12 ♡, pencey prep ♡)
- ever after high (kitty cheshire ♡, madeline hatter ♡, cerise hood ♡, courtly jester ♡)
- jerma985 (happy retirement grandpa ♡)
- project sekai (mafuyu ♡, niigo ♡, meiko ♡, shiho ♡)
- happy tree friends (flaky ♡, disco bear ♡, nutty ♡, petunia ♡)
- house m.d (newer hyperfix.. please graduate to special interest please dont fizzle out this is legitimately the best hyperfix experience ive had in a WHILE) (cuddy my wife ♡)
other things about me:
i loooove my chem.. very big interest, my special interests are around mcr, mlb and htf at the moment!!
other things i also like but might not talk about:
annoying orange... sumikko gurashi (ebifurai no shippo ♡)... sylvanian families... my little pony (QUEEN CHRYSALIS ♡♡♡♡♡ and rainbow dash ♡)... fred (yes that fred youtube fred)... call of duty (my friend got obsessed with it which lead a domino chain to me remembering phillip graves exists i love graves yuuup ♡)... sonic (i dunno lore but i love shadow ♡ and rouge ♡)...
i do listen to other artists (not that many tho too many artists overwhelm me) like mindless self indulgence (don't support though, i pirate their asses), glass animals (BIG FAN!!), arctic monkeys, set it off, fall out boy, schoolyard heroes, weezer - but mcr and the member's solo projects take up a MASSIVE majority of my music knowledge and playlists
i'm very limited about what shows i watch, basically just ever after high, miraculous ladybug, house andddd happy tree friends . if you'd count it . sometimes i do watch other shows for the fun of it , but really i barely remember much/interact with the fandom from them lmao
i also don't watch a lot of movies, it's either a kids film orrr terrifier ! some of my favorite kids films from the top of my head are barbie princess charm school.. tinkerbell secret of the wings and mlp rainbow rocks ! i do also love the movie 'i kissed a vampire' a TON i pray i get a dvd of it some day :}
(ends intro post with mikey fucking dying)
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htf ranking based on how excited id be to meet them irl from greatest to leastest
1. splendid (i wanna fuck him so bad its not even funny)
2. flippy (hes my fav)
3. giggles (shes my SECOND fav)
4. cuddles (i think he is very cute and iconic)
5. russell (he is a pirate)
6. lumpy (he is tall and friend like)
7. pop (hes a dilf)
8. sniffles (science is ok)
9. mime (ive never met a mime before and hes purple. thats about it though)
10. petunia (ive been told i smell like applebees before and shes a clean freak so idk if our interactions would be great)
11. flaky (theyre cute but they remind me of my ex who used to put superglue on stickers and put them on my face)
12. toothy (hes just a fucking beaver theres nothing special about him)
13. nutty (rabies)
14. shifty & lifty (THIEVES)
15. lammy (i dont trust her stupid pickle)
16. fliqpy (he will murder me)
17. disco bear (probably smells bad and would growl at me)
18. cub (i genuinely hate babies and young children)
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