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deoidesign · 3 months ago

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Idk who needs to hear this but time and time again isn't over!!!

Webtoon removed the "time and time again will return!!!" Banner and I don't know why, but it's not over!!! There's still another 1/3 of the comic to go! There's a lot more stuff that I'm working on and it'll be coming back soon!

Please be patient with me, I know it's been a long time... But the stuff I'm making is really good and there's a lot of reasons it's taken this long. I promise I want it back more than anyone.

I'm trying to come back around the end of October. I'm doing my best to get everything ready in time, so no promises, but I'm on track to do so! I'm just one person writing and drawing everything, and my editor was fired so I'm not even getting any notes anymore. It's literally just me. I'm doing my best I promise!

#im so frustrated that banner has been gone #and people think the comic is over because of that #which is reasonable to think #but it... idk #its already an uphill battle to try snd retain audience after a hiatus this long #let alone when webtoon is actively building thr expectation that theres no need to come back...#im so frustrated #every day there is something new with them its so exhausting #this isnt even the thing I've been majorly stressed about this is a fresh new frustration #i feel like they're not just being unhelpful #at this point i feel like theyre actively sabotaging my career.#im not allowed to promote my books #i can't make my links too big so no one can find me #people dont even know i have a patreon #i can't make any announcements on the comic #and now people think th whole thing is over and it isnt!#im so ;_;#im so frustrated and demoralized #and people complete reasonably are losing patience and interest #and. ah... it's fine. like genuinely it is fine.#it will come back soon and i am doing a good job #and everyone who sees it's back will be happy with what ive done #cause it's good. its really good...#but. yeah. idk. webtoon has been actively keeping me down since the beginning and im so over them #I've been so mistreated aysudjejjdjdjdj #i just want to finish the series and go ;_;#taking all my power to not **** ******#just gotta power through and get the fuck out #text post #update

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suntails · 7 months ago

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job market misery

#job interview happened. it. went so unbelievably well and then Hours later i get an email that they already offered to someone else #my life is a joke im getting so desperate. my property taxes just DOUBLED nobody in my house has stable income and im stressed #its been months of nothing in animation so i work a desk job but im getting less than half the hours i was promised #like i want to pivot my career i want to do something else im not even picky on what. i thrive in logistics and coordination type roles #but ive applied to 150+ jobs with Nothing. hospital i have an in with? Nothing. gov jobs? Nothing #im willing to move at this point. i dont care. i want to work i want to be stable and boring and happy again.#if someone has advice pls im listening. if someone knows places thatd hire a girl with an animation degree and proj admin experience.#im so miserable too bc it was the ideal role. it was a creative coordinating role i wouldve been PERFECT. they even SAID i was AUGHHH #seriously like i know it seems desperate but im serious if ppl have advice or ideas or leads lmk. my savings areeeeee taking hits

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oh-cramity-its-amity · 4 months ago

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i love my friends so much. i feel like yesterday i had a lot of shit going on in my head and i woke up to my friend explaining things in a way that put my mind at ease. i dont feel as anxious anymore because i know i was overthinking. i think my dad said it best when he told me that he thought my wonderful brain of mine just wants to think problems are bigger than they actually are. he is right! im just inexperienced in life and half of the time im scared im doing something wrong but- HEY. i need to be more confident in making mistakes. making mistakes doesn't define me as a person!! i need to stop worrying about doing life right and just live for the sake of living and doing what makes me happy!!!!!!!

#thank u blake. u really helped #also nessa!! thank u for that reblog about your perspective on my one post about feeling lost career wise #it helps me to know im not the only one living this life because holy fuck i can feel confused sometimes because.. am i doing this right?#and you know what? theres no correct path that i think there is but im just not good without a direct direction. it makes me a little #anxious about things #i dont know if its because i have some form of a disorder but i function better when i plan stuff out and give myself something to #decompress the problems and thoughts because in my brain theyre just all stuck and clumped together #and that can get a bit scary and overwhelming!!!#im just glad i have people that care about me. it means literally everything to me #so even if i dont 100% reply dont think i dont care because literally any ANY advice or kindness you show to me means the world #we're all just living this little life and we might as well make the best of it #people care..... thats just.... its good... it makes me feel less alone that people do #i love my friends so much #evennnn if we dont talk every day or are only mutuals in passing!!! it literally means a lot if people show me kindness #like holy shit!!! your older than me? and your dealing with a similar experience??? and your telling me that its okay??? and that itll be #okay?????#like #just the reassurance that things will be okay and work out and that im not the only one dealing with a feeling like mine #idk sometimes i just feel like im crazy and like my thoughts make no sense?? you know?? but yall get it #im glad that i have people who are older than me in my life cause yall have experienced stuff that i can use to be better #like your life experiences can help me in a way that can make a difference on my perspective on things #its why i like talking to my coworkers. because theyve seen things and done things i havent and their perspective can teach me potentially #i just dont feel so overwhelmed with life when i talk to people who understand #i feel so young and yet old enough to know but even the people who are older dont know so im sort of on the right track i suppose depending #on how you look at it #so- im just gonna live my life and smile because!!! you gotta.#you gotta surround yourself with people who can enrich you and teach you things for the better and make you want to grow #some of you are like that #you may not know that #but that kindness means so much

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19871997 · 5 months ago

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#prefacing this w ik in fanfiction they're all just our little barbie dolls we're making kiss and it doesnt matter whatsoever but like Do you #understand how much love and respect and loyalty there is between connor and leon irl #like in connors nhlpa ama he immediately no question said that leon's the nhler who knows him best + that he's spent his entire professiona #career w him. whenever leon's asked what he thinks of connor the first sentance out his mouth is 'you [the media] know. he knows' and then #he carries on talking about how he's the best player in the world + connor never hesitates to return the sentiment #and between the two of them it's not sentiments they sau it like its fact bc it is #and their whole 'cup or bust' thing every analyst and their mother have taken it as a 'they're going to win in edmonton or not at all' in t #e sense that they want to stay in edmonton n stay together <- like not even in an insane person edmonton polycule type of way in the they'r #the best players in the world and have insane chemistry on the ice and are eachother's best friends type of way #like a reason why their pp is so lethal is bc those two on a line + the other team down yeah ofc thats going to be automatic #and leon saying that their best beats anyone else's best no doubt and connor talking about building the team from the ground up like leon w #s there when they got boo'd off the ice in 2014 he was a part of building the team that's thier damn team and in turn the sheer amount of #respect the rest of the team have for them and they have for the rest of the team and the trust that while they're the best players they #don't have to play for all of them n that's part of thier whole like. our fourth line stands up to any other first line rock solid belief #like and ofc thier on ice hugs and lockerroom hugs and that moment in the sportsnet knee injury doc and how they mention that they're best #friends whenever theyre asked and how their gf's are also best friends and also their damn dogs #NOT TO MENTION. he's my ride or die. im really lucky our paths crossed here in edmonton. as a friend it was really tough to watch that #<- leon's insane 2022 playoff run on a broken ankle #and the way leon's been dubbed the german gretzky and connor's been the next next one since he was 15 and the way they have such a solid #control of the lockerroom together and i dont know if they've ever said conflicting things to the media and how they've said that they push #eachother to be better (connor saying that leon told him to score more)#and their little taps throughout their season and bringing back their team from the dead and leon being the one to make connor laugh in #pressers and on the bench #ALL TO SAY. like i am a mc.matt.drai enjoyer in the threesome/winners room/asg/2997 are actually quite abnormal about eachother and matthew #has never been normal about anything in his life and this might be fun. kinda way #but 2997 are soulbonded in ways quite possibly none of us will ever be able to truly understand #<- also i do mean this genuinely like they're not normal people but both of them are not normal #SORRY FOR RAMBLING. i just wish there was better written fanfiction.#<- wish to be the change you see in the world innit tho #so funny to me how the eh is just canadian innit.

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sxnctxxry · 3 months ago

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#i hate being the eldest daughter so much #its like my parents put all their own wishes and dreams on me because they know they cant on my younger brothers #im picking out college courses and its like they want me to have a career that either benefits them or that they can brag about #and when im indecisive about what i want they scold me and say mean things and i am not your strongest soldier #like im already in so much pressure and theyre just stressing me out even more #and i just feel awful about everything and i just dont want to do anything anymore #i already feel so awful that im the only one in my class who doesnt know what they want to do #ok im crying again #im definitely going to get a blocked nose by tomorrow

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tiredflowercrown · 3 months ago

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#i wanna work around kids again so badly #seeing my cousin today just really solidified how much i love kids #and yet i know i cant go back because i so severely doubt i will find a place that could accommodate me #i dont wanna have daily shutdowns because im getting stuck out of ratio with no help #but i miss those kids so much #i wanna go help and nurture #and i know its something im made for #any career aptitude test i take has childcare in top 5 #it just feels like another thing that has been robbed of me because of my disabilities #not that anyone in my life would admit that i have any #why does it feel like everything i love is impossible because im broken #i love baking and the fiid industry but it takes so much out if me that sometimes i wonder if its even a viable plan #everything is so exhausting and yet i just have to keep miving and burning out and getting denied because im wrong #because there is something so wrong with me that people grow ti hate me and will hate and use me because im just a tool #thats all i am #and tools dint get decisions on what job they wanna do or responsibilities they can handle or whi they wanna be #they just get used and used and used until they break and then they are thrown away #are the cracks visible yet?#i dont wanna be useless #i just want to do what i love #is that too much to ask for

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marshido · 10 days ago

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i have no energy or passion and it is making me a worse and more uninteresting person to be around. GRINS!

#genuinely i dont know whst i can even do #im too scared to ask for help. or more like i dont want to bother anybody #to the point whete even when its offered i dont want to impose so much thst i just refuse #and then best the fuck out of myself for it later #therapy has nevet worked for me idk why it would now #i dont have psychiatrist money #i have no goddamn idea what im doing with my career im just getting a fucking degree that i will probably do nothing with #and who even cares anyway who cares!! god knows we have bigger fucking issues in the world #who cares and why should they #theres so much more and greater suffering in the world #i dont blame anybody #and i have responsibilities i cant just abandon #but i cant do this forevrt i cant. one day its going to come to a head #ive got to pop at some point

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vveakfish · 23 days ago

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#𓆟 #chvm bvcket #ignore this im literally just rambling and being dramatic #in an incredibly odd mental space rn #feeling very discouraged and overall uninspired #and like maybe i might not be im the right place to persue my dreams despite how far chasing them has taken me over the last six months #yk how they say right person wrong time when talking about a relationship or whatever #rn everything is feeling very right dream #but wrong place and time #i Know that the career i’ve been building over this past year is the right path for me #and that if i stopped chasing it now i woulf regret it for the rest of my life #but it’s becoming increasingly hard not to feel like no matter how hard i try #the place where i’m at and the people i’m working under will not be able to facilitate my growth #or have any interest in attempting to do so #i dont wanna leave #i dont want to quit #what i want is to learn #ugh

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im-dirtydan · 2 months ago

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I desperately need inspiration

#help #i csnt do art #i dont wanna painy #idk what to draw #annoyed fr.#i just want to buy some brown boots #idk #i feel like my sub conscious thinks im no whete near actually becoming a tattooist.#so wtf ever #shitty job #shitty money #and ive been told im not that artistic!#i was told. by my mentor. that im gonna have to try way hard to be a good artist cause it doesnt come naturally to me #do u know how hard it is to not have resentment towards him #ive only been defining myself as an artist my whole life #and have alwsys wsnted to have an art career #but shit man im not even artistic.#it makes me really wsnt to lean into finding a provided ass mf to take care of me and ill cook and have kids #i sit here on my 3rd off day in a row and cant produce shit

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ryn-city · 3 months ago

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everything is in turmoil!!

#i dont know if i can do this..#i ideally need to be out of here by sunday. if i stay any longer ill need to pay roughly $60 a day.#ive already accumulated debt with the power company. i cant have moms phone shut off yet so theres more debt to accumulate #need a storage unit. need to sort through a whole apartment of shit. need to move 6 cats. fill out forms. find other forms.#try to get an appointment with social security. try to get disability and/or emergency financial help.#gotta move into a modular home infested with dog feces and smells like piss and cigarettes #gotta hear right wing bs and slurs for god knows how long #gotta deal with my dad and by proxy step mother breathing down my neck about getting a further education and career #i just want everything to stop.. the only reliable people i have near me think my mental disorders are crutches i can will away #and the only people who believe they ARE a problem are unreliable and insufferable #i cant do this i feel like im having a panic attack 24/7 i feel trapped and lost and miserable and hopeless #i cant rely on other people for everything forever but i dont know what im doing. i dont know anything.#why did this have to happen? why do i need to prove worthy of shelter and food of my own? i cant think like this #all i can do is type and feel a thousand times more useless than i ever did before #i want my mom back. it wasnt supposed to happen like this.

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technovillain · 2 years ago

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tim schafer has an insurmountable amount of swag and i need to be like him

#guy who i look up to fr #knowing that he got his start in point and click games makes me more confident abt my own ideas #but also point and click games are just. not popular anymore. sad.#but just the way he talks about his ideas. i understand that. i want to work with a team like the psychonauts team oh man #ahgghhghghgghgh i want to be a career artist so bad #some people are afraid art as a career would kill their interest in it but #i cannot kill my art interest for more than 3 days. if i dont draw or do something creative for 3 days i get this horrible itch #and i cannot stop myself from indulging in art every second of every day i am always thinking of it so i feel like i just #have to make my living from it. its the best thing that i could do for myself. if im going to be insane about creating art #it better be my job #god #i am going to be so mushy about art sorry im watching psychodyssey #what 2 hours white noise does to adhd bitches #i always forget abt white noise and the Effect it has on me this shit is so awesome #.txt

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foragings · 5 months ago

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i feel so aimless and full of despair like 89% of the time. and i need to just go to bed but i took a nap earlier and there is only so much time you can spend asleep

#i ply my brain with content in hopes of making it shut up but aaa #like i ask my peers and friends like does everyone feel like this? does anyone know what theyre doing?#and people are like yeah haha im aimless too all while seeming to work towards goals and futures #and i just feel so pointless . i want to be nothing . i want to fast forward until it's all over #there is more to life than a career but whenever i want to really believe that i feel naive #everyone here is so ambitious and driven and it makes me feel pathetic and slovenly and horrible #im lying to myself saying i'll apply to X and Y and doing nothing to work towards it #even the things ive been most excited abt this summer dont seem all that fun anymore. because it's just time marching on #i want to embrace that spirit of 'sometimes i imagine i already died and begged god to let me live again' to appreciate everything #and it helps sometimes but other times i just still am So sad and lost #and it's such a privilege to be able to feel this aimlessness and wonder about like what to do with myself but i also just feel so naive #like have i squandered my potential? my opportunities? should i go into investment or consulting or tech like 40% of my classmates?#i just want to do something meaningful #this is just the 11pm talking . but this is my blog and if i want to despairpost i will #im gonna go shower.

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hiddenbeks · 5 months ago

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anyway i guess i should finally finish dai. lmao