#and i did blame the studios. but i guess you don't know how to read

[nero-neptune]

you couldn't force me to watch rwrb or heartstopper at the end of a gun. am i bringing the vibe of the lgbt community down? will that show and movie ever recover from the positive attention i stole from them?? how will i, a gay woman, Ever live with myself?????

[princess-of-the-corner]

God I forgot about Qilin. Cool asfk akuma, arguably one of Gabes best designs, dragged down by the fucking ticket inspection and bringing in the goddamn army. (As well as how the episode felt like it was written avid ACAB Enthusiasts)

my problem with the episode is that it's a bit all over the place in a few spots like.

Firstly take this with a grain of salt because I'm white af

Okay. This is supposed to be an episode about racism and the cops being harder on minorities. But it doesn't.... come across that?

The ticket inspector was initially doing his job. Sabine didn't have a bus ticket. Yes it's because Mari got off the previous stop with the tickets, but if he handwaved everyone who said 'oh I totally bought a ticket but I lost it'.......

Now he does get unreasonable after that, accusing her of being hostile, having her arrested instead of just printing a ticket, etc. But this is also a show where the 'you seem to have broken a law so you immediately get arrested' is not out of place. (I mean sometimes it is BUT it's a 'what works for the story' thing). Doubly so as the target audience is children who sometimes do think 'oh god oh god I sneaked one extra candy they're gonna send a full swat team and arrest me and I'm gonna go to jail!!'.

Then you have the whole thing of literally all the cops showing up for one lady and then the Akuma and then the cops ignoring LB and CN in favor of blasting the Akuma with weaponry despite months of the Heroes handling this on their own. Which at first seems out of place until you remember episodes like Rogercop where all the cops weren't mind controlled they just went 'yeah I guess the obviously Akumatized(controlled by supervillain) cop in a mech suit is in charge because the mayor, who he kidnapped, said so. Time to arrest the Heroes!!". So while it hasn't happened in a while, cops just acting Like That™ aren't out of place in this world.

And like. The ticket inspector is a rando who is only seen here going against Sabine, but we have no idea how he'd act with a white guy breaking the same law. And Roger has been shown to be corrupt as hell toward white people(specifically the Couffaines who as far as we know are white). So it doesn't quite get the message across that this is out of the norm.

Then you have Marinette having to apologize to the ticket inspector who, at this point, is now much more reasonable of 'well she did technically break the law by riding the bus without ticket or ID, but given the circumstances we'll let it go' but Mari insists on paying the fine like he was in the right.

Honestly I feel like this episode suffers from not being direct about what the issue is. Yes it's implied that it's a racism thing, yes most of the audience including the kids will probably pick it up. But when you give that much wiggle room on 'what is motivating this character's actions', then combine it both with stuff that's /supposed/ to be extreme but is par for the course in the series and the protagonist apologizing to the guy who instigated all of this.... it gets very mixed and it can get lost and make people who do see the allegories wonder if they're just reading too much into things.

And I don't know exactly where to place the blame on. Did the writers pull back to try and make the situation more 'relatable to everyone' thus making it relate to no one? Was it a bigger thing of the studio or S&P saying 'hey you can't depict real racism in a kids' show'?

I mean either way there's some blame on the writers for the other flaws like Mari apologizing and undercutting anything the ticket inspector did wrong. But still.

[woodchipp]

Hi there! I came across your post dissecting Omocat's Motivational Speech. I decided to read it with a friend of mine and holy crap-HOW did ANYONE read that and NOT see this person as a horrible jerkhole?! Seriously, we saw WAY more red flags in this writing BESIDES the ones you pointed out?! I usually don't say anything, but I couldn't keep quiet with what was put here:

"the stress will be there. you can overcome it but it will not go away"

Why are they making stress as something that can never leave after encountering something that causes it??? It CAN go away! One simply just TAKE A BREAK FROM IT, or STOP DOING WHAT'S STRESSING THEM OUT! There's no reason to make stress out as this force that permanently looms over a person after introduction. If that's the case, more human beings would be dying from that (it's one of the aiding factors to a lot of serious health problems and a lethal one on its own)!

"The next thing is to know you are not alone on this. We have a team of, I don't now, 10 ppl here everyday working. I can vouch that you are all, for the most part, nice people."

For the MOST part??? So Omocat doesn't truly believe that the people slaving away in making their game, and are considered as FRIENDS by them, are nice people??? Guess that makes sense considering how Omocat treated them behind the scenes. Why show kindness to people if one doesn't believe that they deserve it, right?

"There are some people who have more work than others, so I ask for those who have a bit less on their shoulders to remain courteous. It's distracting and feels really bad to hear laughter or people enjoying themselves when you have so much wor to do."

This MAY sound reasonable at first glance, but my friend immediately point out that this is manipulative language to shame and guilt trip employees into not complaining about mistreatment or taking much needed breaks from working. Coporate companies LOVE to use this kind of talk to keep employees in line by playing on their sympathy to help their fellow man, and the fear of being singled out and hated by everyone in the workforce.

"Thinking of all the choices I made down the line could have led to a different possible worse situation. This kind of thinking needs a certain level of humility"

Oh really? Cause Melonkid DID suffer the worse situation from not only not being paid royalties, was mistreated while working on this game, but is being ganged up by former coworkers AND most fans of the game! On top of being lied on to be painted as mentally unstable! So uh...way to make this line moot, Omocat.

"Another thing that helps is the way I view deadlines. Deadlines are deadlines. They are immovable. They are above me, like higher beings."

THIS shocked us. Not only is it unprofessional to say such a thing to employees, but...WHY??? I'm not joking when my friend asked if Omocat's studio is stationed outside of America, because to portray deadlines as a deity when this is a LITERAL talk to a literal dev team? Yeah, that's cult talk.

"Think of deadlines as a demon you have to continually give nourishment and sacrifice to or else it will destroy our game/ And everytime you work on the game, finish something. you're saying fuck you to that demon"

Okay, these are no longer red flags anymore, these lines are just Omocat conditioning employees with cultist mentality to have control over them as they work on the game. Moving the deadline is impossible because it's a being higher than our existence, so stop asking to have it moved so you can rest. Don't you dare take anymore breaks than the limited amount I am allowing YOU to have, or else the "demon" destroys all our hard work and you will be to blame for it. That's what these lines are actually saying. In what way is this suppose to be motivating? In what way is this NOT evoking an ominous sense of danger from this person?

"It actually means so much to me that I have to pull back on a lot of emothons since I have a natural tendency to take everything to do with this game really personally."

Yet that's exactly what Omocat did with the Melonkid situation. Instead of handling the whole thing professionally, like a person who owns a business is SUPPOSE to do, they instead acted like this employee had ruined their life with handling financial affairs over royalties. Goodness, out of the many speeches I had read online out of controversies, THIS one was the most blatant in the person's true colors. The fact that none of the fans see this is beyond disturbing, it just shows the growing trend of victim blaming that is putting actual victims in danger. Yet, allow horrible people to take advantage of the narrative as long as they play things right.

holy shit I absolutely did NOT catch that "for the most part" part. that's peak passive-aggressiveness

Given that she apparently also mistreated her ex-manager (who was a friend of hers as well), I'm not surprised that this is the way she seems to treat people she considers "friends". It's still immensely disgusting, sure, but it's not all that surprising.

Personally, I wouldn't go as far as to claim that her equating deadlines with a demon is "cult talk", but yeah, I can't possibly see how such rhetoric is supposed to be even remotely motivational. "nourishment and sacrifice" Jesse what the fuck are you talking about

Also... how is giving the "demon" nourishment saying "fuck you" to it?what a thoughtful metaphor

my joke theory that the devs exhausted the Kickstarter money on huge amounts of weed is seeming more and more plausible by the day huh

The fact that none of the fans see this is beyond disturbing

As I've mentioned before, this kind of controversy would've completely erased any other developer off the face of the Internet by now. But since Omocat is responsible for making a game specifically tailored to appeal to the sensibilities of Tumblr/Twitter users, she's pretty much inviolable :)

[wen-kexing-apologist]

Hello.

I have so many I want to ask but I'll do this one again.

5 biggest surprises in Bl this year.

(Thanks for the xmas message btw.) Rose💜

Ooo I like this one, there were lots of good surprises this year:

Shows that surprised me

Wedding Plan

gif by @pharawee

Everyone has an opinion on MAME, and I do not blame them, but know that I am judging you hard if you did not like Wedding Plan and especially if you did not like Sailom. This show was phenomenal and if you have not watched it, you should.

Be My Favorite

gif by @makesomehistory

Krist and Jittirain also have reputations on this website, and while I was not aware of the reputations of either of these individuals many of my friends on this website do and we entered this show ready to be mad at it, and instead we all walked away enjoying it and genuinely surprised by the fact that we had enjoyed it. So shout out to Krist and Jittirain I guess, and honestly Gawin too because he showed that he is a great actor in his own right in this show.

Bed Friend

So I had seen the trailer for this show before it aired, and decided to check it out because it was marketed as high heat and I was curious to see what other studios were doing with high heat after KinnPorsche. So imagine my surprise 5 minutes in when the lights go out and we get the flashback showing baby Uea getting padlocked into the bathroom. Y'all. Jaw. Floor. I literally paused, I went back to the trailer, there was ZERO indication about his child abuse history. So that was probably my biggest surprise of the year for BL.

Characters that surprised me

I Like Phupa Now!

Honestly, thank god for Aof. He really used Our Skyy 2 to finally give Phupa the character arc he needed. In A Tale of a Thousand Stars, Phupa served as the more traditional romance story male where we did not get a lot of actual information on him, and when I watched ATOTS it was my first EarthMix show and I wasn't good at reading Earth's microexpressions so Phupa fell flat for me. But now I love him so so much, because Our Skyy 2 finally gave me enough time to sit with Phupa that I finally realized how much he was struggling with internalized homophobia, and I wrote two essays about it.

Mond was Boeing All Along!

gif by @wanderlust-in-my-soul

Don't care what anyone thinks of Only Friends as a whole, so many people were sure that Boeing was going to be played by Mix, and I remember the posts flying when Mond showed up at the end. Jojo asking Mond if he'd kissed any boys and casting him because he said no, and then having Mond kiss almost every single boy in the show? Inspired.

ASK ME MY TOP 5 OF ANYTHING BL 2023

[leavemetoexist]

I finished all 4 Studio Investigraves games and I have opinions. (Spoilers to all the games by the way but you already know that)

I played them all backwards from the most recent to least recent by complete accident hence why I shall be reviewing them from least recent to most recent. I'll be judging them based off gameplay, characters and story. Of course don't take this too seriously it's my general opinion and I wouldn't mind hearing other people's personal tier list about which game was their favourite. My interpretation of the characters can of course vary from others opinions as well so keep that in mind.

4. Eloquent Countenance

Gameplay: the gameplay in this one wasn't actually bad, I quite liked doing the different tasks however with that being said, I also got lost multiple times about what I was supposed to do (I think i'm to blame for this once honestly because it was spelled out for me). Overall I still liked it but again I had issues. I did however adore the mix of 3d modelling and 2d models.

Story: The story isn't bad, if anything it leaves room for so many things. The explanation to the end did confuse me though because I couldn't tell if Forcas was talking to the woman trapped in the body or if he was talking to the angel that had taken over the body. And also why did us the angel decide that we did want to give the body back to her? Again a lot of questions that I think can be expanded on if they ever to second game. (I think this is mostly me wanting a second game so badly lol)

Characters: Our character Lisa is alright, I have no grievances with her, she's funny and sarcastic as hell and honestly my favourite. Forcas on the other hand... I like his shenanigans, but there is only so much fourth wall breaking one can take before it isn't very special, I guess? The way he speaks is like how I would write an overpowered annoying know-it-all character when I was 13. So yea not my favourite. I do love their characters designs though, absolutely gorgeous in my opinion.

3. Cold Front

Gameplay: I had no problem with the gameplay, except maybe when I was running from the monster, that was the only hard part. This was a shorter game so there wasn't too much gameplay and coming down to the end I was honestly a little annoyed that we'd basically ceased gameplay and had started basically just started reading out the rest of the story. I wish there was a boss fight to the end, a little something something to really close it off would've been nice.

Story: It was heartwarming (ironic). I can not express it enough that I really love how well done the story is, both endings really got me. One was a happy ending technically with only Augustine living and it was so dark that he was happy to finally feel seen again once Winnie was dead. Winnie had no idea that he was breaking a lot of Augustine's boundaries but at the same time, these two just needed some communication and they were fine in the end which was perfectly okay with me. They both reflected and became better people together.

Characters: No notes, they were good. I loved the fucked up anxiety version of Augustine and Winnie, it really shows how anxiety is and how overthinking and keeping everything in can really harm a friendship.

2. Dead Plate

Gameplay: There is so much that needs to be talked about with the gameplay. First of all, our character Rody, does not have a side and back angle so that you can tell which way you're facing, which messed me up a lot when I tried to serve tables. When I first booted up the game it took me way too long to figure out the what to do in the tutorial (This one might be on me tbh so I won't be too mean to the game about it). The various customers did not make any facial expressions as to help indicate to the players their level of annoyance going from good-> annoyed-> angry-> leaving. I really wished they had that, even if it weren't a face at least some sounds would've been nice.

Story: I adored the story, it's fucked up, it's nice and it's overall really good. Genuinely no notes, it's cut and dry, nothing overally complicated and I loved it.

Characters: I loved the characters. Rody is so deeply in love with his girlfriend (Marieanna) and loses his sense of self. He literally does not know who he is without her and instead of listening to her and improving himself and becoming his own person, he makes himself think that if he just had enough money, that she would take him back. Vince on the other hand, woah that motherfucker is a little mad in the head isn't he? I was expecting your usual obsessive yandere esc character but no. He becomes not really obsessed but more like testing a theory. He has never tasted food and wants so desperately to make food where you can taste the love in it so when he found out about Rody whiles dating Marieanne, well he just had to put this theory to the taste test right? I also live for the theory of him wanting to express his love to Rody by feeding him the thing that he loved most (I think this theory is actually pretty solid tbh and I'm not sure if it's a theory or confirmed within the game. I played this so long ago that I've kind of forgotten).

1. Elevator Hitch

Gameplay: This one might be obvious to most people who follow me but Elevator Hitch is literally my absolute favourite. The gameplay itself was quite fun, I enjoyed the puzzles and tasks that had to be done and the uniqueness of each floor. I had one problem where I didn't realise you could look around the elevator, I wished there were some arrows to indicate you could do that but overall the gameplay was solid.

Story: The story is simple, simple in a fun complicated way. It certainly didn't answer why the building is the way it is but that was alright with me. I enjoyed especially the small glimpses at protag's life before he got stuck in the elevator. I loved the ending, the fact that he had no real choice but to go back was *chef's kiss* Sad ending for Protag but that's okay, solid story.

Characters: One of my favourite head cannons about this game is that coworker is actually pretending to be stupid about the situation that we the player are experiencing and I can be more than be convinced about that. Our main character definitely has shit going on, as saw in the end he needed that job and well the fourth floor with his parents. I loved the dialogue options and the dynamic going on between the two of them. They're both silly and share one brain cell and I adore them for that.

[insanityisdivine]

Get to Know Me and My Obsession with KISS 🎸

Thanks for the tag @starry-eyed-never-satisfied

1. Who is your favourite member?

Okay. Paul is my first love but sexy Ace is competing with him but god I have to say Paul.

2. Who is your least favourite member?

Everyone saying Mark. I know nothing bout him

3. Best album?

RARO ...I'm assuming studio albums and live albums don't count???

4. Worst album?

I didn't listen to their last two albums and have no intention to do so ATM

5. Favourite song?

THIS IS TOO HARD TO CHOOSE. Guess I gotta say Love Gun Though But I love C'mon and Love Me!

6. Say one nice thing about each member.

Paul- He's the STAR of KISS. I probably wouldn't have gotten into KISS if it weren't for him. Everything I adore and want to be

Gene- I wanna listen to him talk while we share milk and chocolate chip cookies together

Peter- I have a soft spot for him. I think he can be really sweet and cute

Ace- Sexy, trashy, baby girl, sexy girl in hooker boots. Wanna bend over and smack that ass. He and Paul are my bisexual fantasies. BUT SERIOUSLY, The first guitar player that made me go WOW. Never got the hype about lead guitarists before but then I was thinking of 80s rock and 80's rock solos never resonated with me. His solos are iconic, not just shredding/mindless noodling. As someone who never learned how to read music, I think it's amazing he influenced many to learn. I'd love to learn how to play. Not to be in a band but I've always wanted to play a guitar. Also, I'd love to hang out with him. He's funny and bright. I think there's softness to him and I'd like to believe (coming from a fan, of course) that he's a good person. He also reminds me of my ex early 90s era....so I guess I have a soft spot for him

Eric C- I wish I could meet him. If I had to pick one member I could meet it would be him because I know he'd be super sweet

Vinnie- talented songwriter and amazing voice. Gorgeous

Mark- He did his job on Animalize

Bruce- Super sweet. He was the cutie of the group during revenge era ngl. Paul had competition.

Eric S- Seems really funny. got a nice tight body. seems every KISS drummer has a nice bod.

Tommy- Loyal and hard working. I can see why KISS kept him. Honestly he'd the kind of guy you want in your group.

7. What do you dislike about each member?

Gene- Condescending. I can see he has some views on things that I'd butt heads with him on

Paul- Overly critical of others, may come across cold. He scares me. y'all see his posts for new years???? He can come across very hurtful in his choice of words

Peter- Bitter (in the past it seems) and tbh some of the shit I read and heard that unfortunately was allowed to slide (sometimes even passed off as "funny" stories). It's a sensitive topic for me.

Ace- like Peter, awful things said and done that cannot be solely blamed on addiction which I'm very glad he recovered from btw. I'm honestly glad I never put this man on a pedestal and it's not just because "he's human like the rest of us". lol I love him but I'm glad I've been exposed to the bad early on this obsession so I don't have any unrealistic ideas about ppl, you know? I think I need to sleep with him to sort out these feelings lol

Eric C- I don't know that much to comment and feels almost unfair because he was taken away from us much too soon

Vinnie- stop scamming people omg. the insanity and charging ppl for memberships and you haven't released shit???

Mark- don't know about him. can't comment

Bruce- Maybe too nice for his own good.

Eric S- I don't know. Should have created a sex tape with Gene

Tommy- Kinda weird seeing him try to mimic Ace's facial expressions. One thing to imitate solos and his space persona but his mannerisms? I dunno just weird to see someone mimic what Ace's face naturally does? Kissy pouty lips only work for Ace

8. How did you get into KISS?

years ago, just bombarded with their imagery and sound on TV shows

9. Have you been to a concert?

Their last show. Crushing, I know

10. Do you have any merch?

I have a shirt

11. Unique thing you have related to KISS?

None, sadly. Like I have nothing solid if that's what you mean. anything that may have in common? sure but feels too personal to share here

12. Who is/are your favourite lineup?

This is hard because early 90s KISS was TIGHT. but I'll always love the original 4, but sweet Foxy and Brucie is so precious

13. What's your favourite era?

FUCCKKK....see this is hard. I have a big soft spot for Dynasty/Unmasked but I also love DTK and HTH

14. What are your opinions on Tommy and Eric?

They did their job. If they hadn't stepped in I wouldn't have seen KISS final show and for that I am grateful. I enjoyed their participation.

15. A question you would ask the band if you could?

I'd ask if I could suck their dick. That's tough. What haven't they've been asked before? Honestly I got some questions for Ace that's been bugging me and I know I'd never get them answered unless I knew him personally and had a real heart-to-heart conversion. I dunno I can only go off from a fan's perspective about how that'll go

16. What other bands/artists are you into?

Led Zeppelin, Madonna, Kylie Minogue, Lady Gaga, Stromae, used to really like Adam Ant, The Sweet, OLP, Franz Ferdinand, Daft Punk. I listen to all kinds of genres and artists so I like what I like

17. Do you have a KISSona?

Don't have one. I'm assuming like a fursona? lol

18. Who are some of your favourite blogs?

@ladyshandioftheendless @elrohare @silverstarfoxx (thank you for tolerating all my pestering! never hesitate to reach out to me for more Ace goodies!) @notpaulsguitar @ohblackdiamond (though tbh I swear you have answered this lol) @space-frehley-22 @spacefoxy (resident eric carr connoisseur) @speckster (you have crazy ass edits) and same goes for @bangbangyou love your funny memes. the IP address as a response always gets me lol @starry-eyed-never-satisfied (you already did this but adding you here anyway fellow Paulie enjoyer!) There's many more I wish I could just mass tag KISS blogs lol. There are blogs that are no longer active but I am glad they are still around

19. If you could spend a day with one member who would it be?

Hard because I love Paul but he scares me. I think I'd need more than a day to get comfortable with him. I'd love to spend a day with Eric C or Bruce because they seem the nicest. Maybe I'd love to hang with Peter now. Gene, may be fun. He's a good talker. Though it be fun to get one-on-one time with Ace. I'd love a tour of all his tech and then we can compare and just geek out on technology.

20. How would you explain the band to someone who isn't familiar with KISS?

I don't know. Honestly the other people who answered this already gave greats explanations. So many pass judgment on them without giving them a chance. They're a one-of-a-kind experience. There will never be a band like them.

[cosmic-has-moved]

Rehired [Chapter 5]

Ao3 Version: [HERE]

[Note: Chapter was waaaay to long, so I made Allison's POV bit a separate chapter so I wouldn't have to worry about it being too much and saving me from reading a long ass page.

And the next chapter is STILL long...]

Allison's POV

Awaking from the repeated beeping of her alarm clock and turning it off, Allison sat up from her bed and gave herself a stretch before forcing herself out of her bed.

Her morning schedule was normal, at least to her. Get up, have breakfast, wash up, get dressed, water her plants and leave to go to work.

As she started her morning schedule by cooking up a plate of scrambled eggs, Allison poured herself a nice cup of coffee and began eating while reading the newspaper. 

Suddenly her home phone rang which made Allison dropped her things and answered it, "Hello? Allison Pendle speaking."

The woman's eyes light up and a wide smile grew on her face upon hearing the voice at the other end, her ex lover. 

"Tom! Long time no talk." She playfully twirled the phone cord with her finger. "I know it's only been a few day, I just like hearing your voice is all."

"I hope your job isn't pushing you too hard, working on all those machines must be exhausting."

She leaned against the kitchen bench, "It's my job to worry, Tom. We're both not young anymore, especially after working with you know who."

"Hm? You want to know how my works going? Is this your way of changing the subject again?" She smiled, "But I guess you're right, I always ask you how your work is going and barely talk about mine."

"You know that girl I told you about? The employee of the month one?" She rolled her eyes and laughed, "Yes, the one that has a crush on Susie, you should really stop calling her that by the way. I know she would boss you around back at the old studio."

Allison blinked in confusion, "What do you mean is it really a crush? The girl lights up like a red themed Christmas tree whenever Susie touches her, granted I have noticed she has a bit of the same reaction when I." She stopped herself and frowned in thought as a small blush appeared on her cheeks, "... Kissed her."

She cocked her brows and crossed her arm, "That better not have been a hum of interest, Tom. And no, there was no tongue! I only did it to see if it was just her questioning her sexuality!" She huffed, "I did feel bad about it but she really didn't seem to mind at all, even mentioned she wanted to do it again, she just wished it was Susie's lips." 

A chuckle escaped her mouth, "And what do you mean by that? You implying my lips turned her gay? Honey, she's gayer than that Wally guy you worked for and I know how much you hate it when I mention that incident with you two." She grinned and scoffed. "How can I tell? There was quite a hot day the other day and the fans were broken, so a lot of the workers, who mind you are rather cute, took their shirts off to ease the heat. Audrey's eyes were still locked onto Susie because she was wearing a short skirt and she tied up her shirt below her chest, she even ignored all the flirts she was getting from the guys."

"And I'm pretty sure the girl kept glancing at her chest." She hummed out a giggle before frowning. "How do I still remember her outfit? I just have a rather good memory. Like that time you had Wally bent over in front of you in the studio closet." She began laughing loudly and smacking her leg. 

"Don't blame me for knowing, blame yourself for getting caught by Henry." She sighed happily while playing with the phone cord. "Hm? She's only in her 20s, she's still got a lot of life to play with and no parents to worry about."

"Her family life? I can't really say, she has mentioned to me that she was in the orphanage for as long as she could remember, she has discovered who her father was but that's as far as I'll say." Allison stood up straight and began thinking, "You don't think that Audrey's been starved of a loving touch, do you?" 

The woman cupped her mouth while frowning at the ground in thought, "It is possible that Susie being all touchy and flirty could've sparked that need for her." She groaned while rubbing the bridge of her nose. "Why didn't I think of that? I'm working today anyway so I'll ask her about it, thank you, Tom."

She lifted her head up in surprise and blushed more, "I am not going to have a chance at her if Susie rejects her! Geez, Tom! I'm not that kind of person! Quit your laughing" She let out a sigh. "You and your dirty mind."

"..." Allison smiled softly, "I miss you too, Tom. I still wish to know why you wanted to separate, but I know you have your reasons."

Her expression shifted to one of sadness, "You have to go? The boat is leaving soon?" She bit her lip and sighed, "Okay, I'll speak to you soon, Tom. I-" She went to say more but the line was cut off, leaving nothing by the long digital rumbling in her ear before she put the phone back on its base. 

"I love you..."

Rubbing her eyes and giving herself a deep breath, Miss Pendle resumed her morning schedule before heading to work.

She had wanted to know how Audrey's confession went yesterday and know if she even did so. She had hoped it went well.

___

Allison stood at the doorway of where Audrey worked, her chipper mood changed to that of concern as the artist sat at her desk emotionless.

Ohhhh no, something wasn't right.

Walking up to her and taking a seat next to her with a soft smile, Allison began speaking.

"How you doing, Audrey? Did you speak to Susie or did you get cold feet?" The older woman tried to lighten up the mood, "If that's the case, I got some wool socks to help." She laughed softly.

"She said I reminded her of my father." Audrey muttered out, immediately tensing up Allison uncomfortably.

"Well." Allison nervously smiled, "At least that wasn't the worst thing she could've said, right?"

Stopping her work and turning her head to the other, Audrey just stared at her with the same blank expression, Allison could've sworn there was a hint of red to them.

"That wasn't the worst thing she said, right?" Miss Pendle asked again, more nervousness in her voice.

Audrey continued staring at her before speaking up again, "She tore up the letter and said she only used me for her entertainment." She bluntly said as Allison stared in wide eyed shock before going back to work, "Now I would like to have some time alone, thank you for your concerns though."

Allison tried to speak and say something but nothing other than stammering came out, clearing her throat and getting up off the chair. "I am so sorry to hear that, Audrey. If you need someone to talk to about it, I'm-"

"I'm fine" The girl cut in with a concealed tone of anger, "Please, let me do my job." Her hand holding her pencil trembled, but not of rage.

Quietening herself from speaking, Allison held her hands for a moment in thought. She thought about what Tom had mentioned in their conversation and the high possibility of it, she had to know. 

"Was it really a crush, Audrey?" 

Halting her work and looking back at the older woman with a frustrated puzzled look, Audrey just questioned her which opened up for Allison to continue. 

"I've had a thought today about you and your possible liking towards Susie." Allison cleared her throat. "There are cases I know of where people who grew up in difficult households without getting any sort of affection from their guardians, they tend to latch onto a person who gives them a certain type of affection."

"What are you implying, Allison?" Audrey cut in, the tone in her voice almost startling Miss Pendle. 

"What I'm trying to say is, perhaps the way Susie has been touchy with you somewhat sparked up that desire of love your caregivers failed to you."

Audrey stared at her squinted in deep thought, her expression being difficult for Allison to fully pin point. The girl shifted her face to look down with confliction, her hands rubbing her arms. 

"That's not right." Audrey quietly spoke, the tone of distaste still there. "That wouldn't explain why I would dream of her..." She held her head and leaned down. 

"Dream?" Allison questioned, "What kind of dreams have you been having of her?" She already knew what the answer could be, she just wanted to be sure. 

The artist bit her lip upon the question, she couldn't lie now that she mentioned it. Maybe opening about it could help Allison give Audrey an answer, perhaps it really wasn't a crush. 

"I've had my first wet dream about her the other night and they continued afterwards, only they became more." She lifted her head up and stared at the therapist. "Vivid."

As she finished her sentence she sat up straight and sighed, "But after yesterday, she hadn't appeared in my dream." She bit her lip in quiet frustration. "Yet I still had trouble sleeping, despite her haunting my dreams being one of the reasons I could barely sleep." 

Allison pondered on the small information Audrey had given her, she wanted to know more but she still wanted to keep it short for the girl. 

"How do you feel about her now?" 

The question seemed to shock Audrey for some reason, she glanced down in thought and looked to the side with a mixed emotion. 

"I feel nothing. I usually feel fluttery even by thinking of her, but I just feel." Her lips quivered and her hand covered her mouth. "Nothing, and it hurts."

Allison went to hold her in reassurance but stopped and just held out a hand for her to hold, and Audrey hesitantly went to hold it but swiftly moved her hand back. 

"I appreciate the talking, but I want to go back to work and not think about it..." Audrey sniffled and turned to her desk, avoiding anymore eye contact with Allison. 

Going to speak but stopping herself, Allison sighed and patted Audrey's shoulder before leaving her be, being sure to close the door behind her to give her more privacy. 

As she walked down the hallways of the studio her sympathy slowly turned to that of anger, she decided to go looking for Susie herself to at least know why she had to be so cruel in response. Miss Pendle knew only one place the actress would be, and she was right. 

Sitting in her recording booth with only a small light illuminating the small box was Susie Campbell, the curtain was down but the woman's outfit through the gaps confirmed her presence. 

After marching over to the booth and kicking the door open, startling the actress enough for her to turn while stopping what she was doing and look at Allison wide eyed as she got closer. Susie was quick to cover what she was doing on the desk, but that didn't matter to Allison at the moment. 

"A simple soft let down wasn't enough?" Allison's tone caused Susie to freeze in place, "You had to take painful jabs at her?!" She threw her hands up in disbelief. "I THOUGHT YOU WERE BETTER THAN THAT, SUSIE!" 

Miss Campbell shifted her arms on the table as a look of great regret and surprise formed on her face, "She told you? About the letter?" The crack in her voice made Allison blink out of her angry state and see what Susie was working on.

There on the desk was Audrey's torn letter, bits of it badly put together with tape while the other pieces laid in a small pile waiting to be put back together. 

"I only did it because I thought she would leave me alone." Susie added, "It was last minute thinking and I thought if I was harsh about it, she would lose interest in me and she'll forget about it! I panicked because I had that moment of realization that I was acting like Joey!" 

"Susie." The taller woman stared down at her, not hiding her disappointment. "That's not how you deal with a situation such as that, you of all people know that. You even told me that you had no problem with Audrey's relations to Joey."

"I know!" Burying her face in her hands, Susie stifled what sounded like a sob. "I didn't think she'll have feelings for me, I only saw her as a cute timid girl who needed that certain push to be more confident. I had this interest in her for some reason and she just reminded me of someone I once knew, yet I couldn't put my tongue on it."

Lowering her head to the table, she rested on her arms. "But than I saw that god damn pin that belonged to Joey and it all just hit me, I finally figured out my fascination with her." She turned her gaze to Allison, tears visible. "I lied about not having a problem with their relationship, of course I have a problem with it. It's like it's his way of saying to me that he'll forever haunt me, even after death."

Allison who now sat next to her with the same look of displeasure, "Audrey is nothing like her father, far from it." She looked over at the pieces of paper and began putting them together. "I know not of you and Joey's past relationship, but I wouldn't take it out on her especially considering she only recently found out he was her father."

Susie lifted her head up and sniffled, "And how do you know so much? You only ever mentioned yesterday that you only know who her dad was, unless you also lied." She flinched upon Allison snapping a glare at her. 

"It is not my business to spread around people's personal lives, Campbell." Miss Pendle resumed her task. "All I will say is that what you want to know, you ask her yourself." 

Sheepishly watching her fix up the letter while twiddling her thumbs, Susie asked "She's usually quiet about such things, how did you know?" 

Letting out a sigh, Allison answered. "I proofread the letter for her, it was my idea since I knew it'll be easier than to try to say it vocally. If I had known you would be like that, I wouldn't have encouraged her." 

Wincing at the comment, she asked another question. "How was she when you saw her?" 

Allison slowly looked at her, a look of displeased sadness all over her face. "You'll have to see for yourself." She looked back down at the letter and finished it. "Did you know that she's been losing sleep because of you." 

 

Without giving Susie a chance to react, Allison pushed the letter to the other's chest and stood up off the chair. "Come into my office later tonight and talk to her, I'll be sure she'll be there." She stepped away, "We're both adults here, don't screw it up." That's when she left the booth and closed the door, leaving the actress alone with her thoughts. 

Allison's POV End

[kuregure]

1. Everything. Whether it's his story, his way of thinking and acting, the fact that he prioritizes his family and always places himself second after them. The fact that he would do anything for them, like lose his humanity if it meant saving them. It's admirable and at the same time stupid, because he is like that. He always takes all the responsibilities on his shoulders, he even blames himself for the things he shouldn't blame himself for because he couldn't do anything about it.

2. That he sacrificed his humanity to save his family in cat16. He took the sword without hesitation even if it was dangerous and even if it meant that he would cease to be completely human. Also, he doesn't know how to cook lmao.

3. I don't know if it's real but the cigarette. In an art from a wit studio artbook, he smokes and it's disgusting lmao. Don't smoke, it's lame and bad so Guren stop that, you jerk.

4. Something peaceful, because the world of seraph of the end is much too scary and hurtful. Maybe a sports manga, it's calmer like Haikyuu. I do not really know.

5. Oh wow, uh it's a French music called "Dépassé" so in English "Overwhelmed" in this sense. It's about someone who is overwhelmed by time, so it strongly reminds me of Guren and it hurts me lmao. I planned to make a post to put the lyrics of the song in English. All the music reminds me of Guren. But then, I always imagine it on absolutely all the music I listen to and it's often kpop. Kpop girl group music suits him well lmao. Like every time Snake from Medusa comes on in my music, I imagine him dancing to it. And it's very funny.

6. Almost the same haircut lmao. Otherwise I don't think I have anything in common with him, I just admire him a lot. Maybe the link with family? Like, that's the most important thing to us. Also, keeping secrets.

7. Some explore Guren's complex personality and it's interesting. Also the teasing. And the incorrect quotes are funny.

8. Spit on him every time he appears in a pannel. Read cat16 and most of your arguments lose their value.

9. Yes, his snoring won't bother me I guess and neither will eating curry every day.

10. Yeah, but he better not sacrifice himself for me like he does with his family.

11. No, it's weird. Go with Shinya, Kureto or Mahiru, it doesn't matter.

12. Ticklish. It would just be funny to see.

13. I don't have one, and I don't even know if Guren would use emojis. Bro doesn't have time.

14. I don't know all the names for fashion aesthetics, but I think he would wear sweats, joggers, things like that. Simple things, jeans, shirts and t-shirts. Although I also imagine it with a trench coat. I think whatever he decides to wear, it will look good on him. 💅

15. Well, I have three and it depends on my mood of the day: KureGure, ShinGure and MahiRen. Then, there are ships that I prefer to keep secret 👁

16. I don't really have any but I think my least favorite are Guren/Ferid and Guren/Mito. I like Ferid (like, i don't hâte him) et I like Mito, but not these ships yk.

17. Hmm idk. Maybe Guren/Sayuri or Guren/Shigure. I really don't know.

18. It's totally okay lmao. Technically MahiRen is canon, I guess? I like Guren, I like Mahiru, I like MahiRen so it's okayyyy

19. Idk. Apart from Mahiru, he has no other relationships.

20. Guren and his entire team, including Yuu. He loves his family the same way.

21. Mmh well act out my ideas in my head, write down information about it. But my least favorite part is just writing the fic lmao, it's hard and it's long and often I'm not satisfied.

22. For me, roles mean a lot because of my preferences so I pay attention to tags often. If there's a tag I don't like, I just don't click.

23.

looks like a model for magazines (Asami knows what he did)

24. I didn't find any characters there right away, so I don't know. Maybe a little Eren Jaeger? For always prioritizing his family and accepting to lose his humanity for them, becoming the “bad guy” in their eyes to protect them.

25. I started with the anime and he immediately became my favorite character. I found him a really cool character. Now I have read his story, the mangas and novels, I am up to date in the scans, I read the interviews etc about him, and I was surprised to learn about all this suffering, because in the anime , we do not see it. So now I love him more than ever. He has become my favorite character in any manga, I like his whole personality, his story, his feelings, his thoughts, everything. And his hair is really cool lmao. My impression is that he is a boy who loves and cherishes those close to him, who would be ready to destroy himself for them. And he made mistakes, yes, and he did everything to fix them. He has to make choices he didn't originally want to make but he did, for his family. He's always desperately trying to save the world when it wasn't his place to do it, he wants to protect everyone but he's just a pretty simple boy, he can't do it alone.

CHARACTER ASK GAME!!! 💫

Send a character + one or more of these question!

1. Why do you like or dislike this character?

2. Favorite canon thing about this character?

3. Least favorite canon thing about this character?

4. If you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in?

5. What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?

6. What's something you have in common with this character?

7. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like?

8. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?

9. Could you be roommates with this character?

10. Could you be best friends with this character?

11. Would you date this character?

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character?

13. What's an emoji, an emoticon and/or any symbol that reminds you of this character or you think the character would use a lot?

14. Assign a fashion aesthetic to this character.

15. What's your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn't matter if it's canon or not.)

16. What's your least favorite ship for this character?

17. What's a ship for this character you don't hate but it's not your favorite that you're fine with?

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

19. How about a relationship they have in canon that you don't like?

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter?

21. If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?

22. If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to ths character? Something you don't like?

23. Favorite picture of this character?

24. What other character from another fandom of yours that reminds you of them?

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

26. FREEBIE QUESTION!!

[synonymouswithanonymous]

What? And Several Thoughts.

More thoughts, as always don't expect anyone to read. 😊😊

"Simply because they don’t know anything about her or anything beyond her IG content."

I've said this all before but to reiterate. Neither do you. None of us do. I snatched this quote from elsewhere, but really we don't know any better than the other over 10,000 followers. You're only guessing at the personality you want her to have, and you're biased against her already, bc she's dating an actor you like. Whether it's jealously or whatever you want to call it, to pretend you have some magical insight that he, his parents, his friends, and coworkers etc don't have is irrational and ridiculous. Maybe everyone else in her very real life, has a better more clearer view than you? I'm going to guess that logically they do, at least my personality guess is supported by real-world views from people that know her in real life. 😊 Everything they say about her, is what she seems to be, to me. Lovely, empathetic, talented, intelligent, down to earth, and sweet. 😊 Maybe others (over 10K) see her the same way too, bc that's how she really is? I think so. 😊😊😊

Also my post about her getting blamed for things she hasn't done is holding up well. Lol 😂😂 she likes to knit, then they still try to twist a picture of knitting supplies into something more (that they imagined, so they can throw more names at her over imaginary scenarios).

it's not the first time she's posted on the war in Gaza. She's posted a few times. And since when does anyone have to go public with their opinion on wars, politics, or do charity work publicly? She'd be accused of doing it only for likes.......oh wait she already has. That playbook is recycling ✔ ✔ 's. Lol

"In 2024 we should be able to say that killing children is wrong without being accused of taking a side or encouraging hate" -JM

Everyone should be able to say that without either side blacklisting or threatening to blacklist bc of saying that and/or not taking a public stance. Whatever happened to respecting public neutrality? Especially when the most common response is "what does that celeb think they know?" Or "who asked them?" And when did saying the death of children isn't right, become something either side would blacklist anyone over? Why are actors being blacklisted at all? As if their opinions were going to make or break the issues at hand? Why is it important for anyone to know which side they stand with (or if they're neutral and don't want to say)? Why is it important to hurt them if they don't side with one or the other? Is this another attempt at control? Do and say what I want or face consequences in your career? That's bullying or blackmail. Imo.

People have been fired off of franchises/movies/shows etc for their comments on the war and/or comments about civilian deaths. It's coming from the public and studios.

What are we doing reliving the Communist Scare of the 1950s? I wouldn't say this is a convenient topic to post about, but rather an alarming and honestly frightening topic for those in show business. A very current real time event that's been happening. Why wouldn't she acknowledge or discuss what's happening in her line of work? She's brave, imo, though for speaking out on it.

It's an important issue. I'm sure since she's in show business, she's probably heard industry talk about this. I say I'm sure here, bc if it's on the news, regular non showbiz people know about it, then the people of that industry would probably already at least know it's happening. Bc they're part of that world from the inside.

I hope none of this is directly affecting them, or their job prospects.

[drewandareview]

Best Song Ever (2013)

Originally published July 22nd, 2013

I have done an awful lot of ranting, raving, and lecturing on boy bands.  But oddly enough, it seems like nothing I've said has had even the slightest impact on the success of One Direction or the frenzy their fans are in.  Whodathunkit?  Here are my main three issues:

Boy bands offer me an extremely difficult standard of attractiveness to live up to.

The fans of boy bands often make sweeping assumptions that the glimpses of silliness and carefree attitude the band members show mean they are perfect human beings.

The fans of boy bands encourage the often lazy, lazy, lazy products their studio releases.

And here we have the "Best Song Ever".  You know, I have a soft spot for One Direction.  Sure, I find them attractive.  And I've even found some of their songs rather catchy strictly from a melodic standpoint.  But this song is actually the least catchy song I have ever heard from them.  There's an irony in that their "Best Song Ever" might be their worst.  Yes, I know the song is only "referring" to the best song ever, but I think I can safely assume there was a deeper intention behind that title.  Lyrically, the song is--fine.  Nothing deep, nothing harmful.  But who am I kidding, I rarely listen to a song for lyrics.  So the only thing left to really pick apart is the video.

For one, it had One Direction dressing up in costumes.  This enraged me because the typical One Direction fan is going to think "WOW, THEY ARE PRETENDING TO BE SOMEONE ELSE.  THEY ARE SO FUN.  THEY ARE PERFECT."  Which is a really stupid impressionable thing to think, but I guess I can't rightly blame One Direction for that.  But I can blame them for something.

I am going to make a wild accusation, ready? One Direction is manufactured.  Yes, it's these bold statements that make Drew and a Review such a controversial forum.  I think there are marketers and publicists and producers and all kinds of people molding these play-doh pop stars into the perfect money magnets.  And you know what the video did?  A good chunk of the video defended that they WEREN'T SELL OUTS.  There were executives (played by themselves) telling them how they should act in a way that "tests well with audiences" and they refused because THEY'RE SUCH NOBLE ARTISTS.

It's one of the sleaziest things I've ever seen.  Without actually lying, they manipulated their already vapid fan base into thinking One Direction is an all-star, original music group.  Ohhhhh the anger.  Ohhhh the frustration.

Listen, I don't hate One Direction.  They're just attractive guys with voices who want money.  I totally get that.  But it always makes me sad to see such a large group of people come together for something so stupid.  I don't want to see a mass like this unite in idiocy.  One Direction fans, I know they're attractive, but can you try to put your lust aside and maybe encourage a little more out of your idols?  Please?  For the integrity of music and society as a whole?

What's that?  None of you are reading this?

[chidoroki]

Hello! I found your Jigokuraku review through the tags and I read it almost every weeks. I thought you already read the manga because you're not judgemental, like other anime-onlys I found on internet who love to criticize Jigokuraku for simply little things (that was very nice of you! ). Please please I suggest you to read the manga. The things are getting more serious and waiting for season two seems like forever. Like don't you want to know how Gabimaru finally get his memory back? How the whole team finally manage to use Tao (spoiler : thanks to Shion, they don't need to do that filthy bochu jutsu method lol)? What are the role of the new Asaemons? Then, is Gabimaru's wife apparently only an illusion or otherwise she's really exist? Finally, how the Tensens defeated and who are the survivors of this mission? And many other. I could say Jigokuraku is one of the manga with very good ending. There are more blood spilled through the process but it worth to read! (I'm gonna miss your review tho). Thanks!

Aw! Well thank you! I find it hard for me to be critical of a series when I really enjoy the characters and story, especially whenever I start something new since I have no prior knowledge of it whatsoever. (it’s a combination of all that and how nothing can ever disappoint me more than TPN s2 did.)

I guess the common complaint I’ve heard about the most from others is how the animation for Hell’s Paradise was a bit lacking? Coming from MAPPA, I believe people were already set to compare it to AOT, Vinland Sage, JJK & Chainsaw Man, so when this series didn’t “wow” them enough with the typical dynamic action and stunning visuals they normally see from this studio, they started to feel indifferent towards Hell’s Paradise. I understand their disappointment but also realize that Vinland S2 was airing at the same time and AOT & JJK also have upcoming seasons this year, so the studio is kinda stretched thin. I can’t really blame them for putting more effort into those big names rather than a new series. Of course I would’ve loved if Hell’s Paradise lived up to the hype as other MAPPA anime, but I personally had no issues with the animation this series did have, as it was consistent the whole way through. I actually compared it to Dororo more than anything else in terms of both style and story, so I wasn’t disappointed at all by it.

Anyways, my rambling aside.. of course I’m planning to read the manga at some point. It’s just a matter of when (and if I remember). As I said in that last review, the final episode didn’t leave off on a terrible cliffhanger (or I didn’t see it that way at least), so I'm not going completely insane wondering about what happens next, but I am still mildly curious. I can imagine how some of the issues might be handled at this point, like how Sagiri is most likely gonna play a huge part in how Gabimaru gets his memories back since she knows him best outta everyone else currently on the island, especially when it comes to remembering his wife. With the whole team learning more about tao, I can bet that Shion will explain how just simple physical contact with others helps to improve one’s tao, since we already saw how Nurugai’s hugs helped Sagiri restore her strength a little. And I have no doubt the new asaemon are gonna cause trouble just from the glare that Shugen dude showed at the very end.

About Gabimaru’s wife being real or an illusion.. I sorta kinda know her name already from seeing other people’s tags, so I’m fairly certain she exists. Hopefully. I’ve also spoiled myself on some of the characters who might survive til the end (only because I can not handle another heartbreak like I did with Tenza!) but I steered clear of practically everything else though when it comes to the fights, the tensen and overall story.

I’ll continue the reviews whenever the anime decides to continue and hopefully I won’t nitpick all the differences between anime vs manga too much if I do decide to read beforehand.

Thank you for the ask and I hope you have a lovely rest of your day/night!!

[delusion-of-negation]

I guess someone else mentioned his son then, your page has a very low contrast so it's a bit hard to see on desktop who said what. But I didn't say YOU attributed the bad movies to him, I meant that most consider the sons movies to be the worst, and tried explaining the reason. Ie: Earthsea isn't bad just because bad adaption, but bc this was the dude's first movie, and he had no help, and didn't even wanna make it. Same with his other movies. I don't watch D-Noble, personal reasons.

THEY DIDN'T, nobody attributed bad movies to his son. I know because I read all of the comments on my posts. the only times anything about his son came up were in the two previous lines. literally what you said: "from the reblog chain I saw it mentioned that the "Bad" Ghibli movies was said to be made by the son," so what I said was the only two times it mentioned his son. when in response to someone blaming the dad I tried to stop gossip and didn't engage, and when I said directors have styles so it has an overall different feel. that's it. and the phraseology definitely has implications I said it, in the context of you sending me an ask to criticise and correct me in the first place, ie "Actually, the Ghibli movie "Earwig and the Witch" was done by a son of Miyazaki's?" comes across like you're correcting shit nobody said about that movie nobody was talking about. and you won't even read what context, or at least partial context, I linked to because you don't particularly like my blog theme and the preview in the link has a picture of a youtuber you don't watch. how can I show you proof you're wrong if you refuse to even look at it? my dude, like, wtf? additionally, your first ask didn't say "I think this is why earthsea sucks, not anything you mentioned about ursula being screwed completely by him", it said "actually this is why earwig is bad" so genuinely fuck off. even if you had started this reasonably, your behaviour since has been unreasonable, and the family issues in studio ghibli aren't something I'm comfortable gossiping about.

you clearly didn't read anything, because the Dominic videos in earlier threads were about a different adaptation of earthsea, in service of giving context about the original books and how they aren't strangers to poor adaptation - the videos about the ghibli adaptation are from different youtubers. I don't care who you're personally uncomfy with, although it's worth noting that almost everyone who dislikes Dom is a te/rf, who dislikes him for taking down a video that was made before an enby came out and thus accidentally misgendered them, and for his stance against jkr. it usually would be something I'd give you the benefit of the doubt about, but you've been hounding me all night about drama I just repeatedly keep telling you I don't want to talk about, so you are completely out of sympathy. I initially tried to be lighthearted in explaining that I don't want to talk about this, then I tried clearly expressing that you were annoying me, especially by telling me I pointed fingers at his son when I never did, either because you'd straight up lied or simply not read shit. I have said several times, clearly, explicitly, I DO NOT WANT TO TALK ABOUT GOSSIP RE PEOPLE'S FAMILY LIVES. IT IS NOT OF INTEREST TO ME. this genuinely can't get any clearer, dude. I have boundaries and you refuse to adhere to them. I will not respond to any more asks on studio ghibli. sorry to anybody else who wanted to talk about it.

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[fiberslut]

Apparently the multiverse is real

Chapter 1: Welcome to New York

Masterlist

prologue | next

Pairing: the avengers x reader

Disclaimer: English is not my first language so you may find some funny words/sentences or broken grammar in here. I'll say sorry in advance but I've tried my best.

Summary: You accidentally travel to Marvel universe(not earth-616), but luckily you've got your phone with you. You may ask what do you mean luckily, just read this fiction.

Is this real? Am I in some of the Hollywood studios? Or this is a prank? Is the tv crew gonna come out and scare me anytime soon?

But my phone really said I'm in New York City, not Los Angeles.

What am I going to do now?

Then it hits my mind. If this is real. If I'm in the Marvel universe. It means I've traveled through a multiverse. The only person that I could think of right now is Doctor Strange. He must know how to send me home with his portal, I guess.

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"Sorry, he's not here, he's traveling in the dark dimension right now" Wong said

Did I just walk for about 1 hr for nothing?

"Can you just open the portal to him and talk to him or something?" I ask

"The dark dimension is not a place where a portal could open to Miss" Wong annoyingly answer me

and I wouldn't blame him, it was almost midnight when I knocked on the Sanctum Sanctorum doors

"Can I stay here just to wait for him, please? I have nowhere to go"

Wong pause and look at me for a sec, he turn his head to look inside the door and said

"Who are you and where are you from?"

"It's a long story Wong, I don't think I can tell you here, in front of these steps"

"Wait how did you know my name?"

"If you really wanna know, you gotta let me stay for a night ok? c'mon it's freezing out here"

"How am I gonna know that I can trust you, you may be with Mo-"

"No, I'm not with Mordo, can you let me in now"

"How do you know about that name?"

I couldn't wait any longer, I run through the door and bump Wong out of my way. As I turn to look at Wong I notice that the door that just ran through broke. Did I just do that by hitting it? But I don't feel any pain at all.

"Are you one of those superheroes huh?" Wong asks me as he tries to use his magic to fix the door frame

"I don't know, maybe you could tell me"

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"So you just woke up in the central park?" Wong asks

"Yeah, that's all I could remember"

"And what about how do you know my name?"

"Well as I said before, I think I came from another universe where all of you guys are just characters in comics and movies"

"What? We are not real?"

"Yeah sort of, do you have any more questions? I'm kinda tired right now" I ask as I yawn

"Hmm I think I will wait for Stephen and we'll ask more then, you can sleep upstairs, there's a room next to the main library"

"Thanks"

I walk upstairs. Pass a library.

Yuck. This place is so old and creepy.

And I found a bedroom. Yep, I think this is my room. So I go in. Tuck myself into the bed and fall asleep.

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I woke up and couldn't find Wong at any place so I decided to go out and do things as my plan. Yes, I have a plan now. A risky but a brilliant one. I open my phone to find where the Stark Tower is and surprised about how my battery is still at 100%.

After 1 hr of walking, I finally arrived at the legendary Stark Tower. Wow, it looks so good in real life, such a shame that we haven't seen much of it in the movies.

I walk inside and to the reception

"Hi how can I help you madam?" The Ultron ask me

"Yeah I have a meeting with Mr. Stark at about 10 AM today"

"Can I have your name madam?"

"It's Y/N Y/L/N"

"I'm afraid I don't have your name on the list madam"

"Oh wait a sec" I said as I take out my phone and pull some wire of the Ultron to connect with my phone"

"What are you you you doooing ingg madam?"

"Relax Jarvis you'll be fine"

"Please sto-" And finally, the reboot is completed.

"Make an appointment for me at 10AM Jarvis"

"This way madam" The Ultron points me to one of the elevators.

"Thanks"

I walk to the elevator and push the top floor button.

Oh boy. I am going to meet the real Tony Stark.

As the elevator door opens. Yeah, it was like in the movie, the large open area that connects to the outside of the building for Tony to landing when he's in the suit, the bar, the view of New York city. WOW.

Tony turns to look at the elevator. Confused.

"Are you Mr.Kinroy?" He asks

"Clearly I'm not" I said as I look at him, damn he looks so good, no wonder why he's got all the women.

"How did you come up here?" He asks as he takes out his phone to check on the Ultron at the reception "Did you just hack my Ultron!?"

"umm yeah sorry about that but I really need your help"

"Wait wait who are you?, and how could you hack my Ultron"

"Could you just ask me to sit down and offer me some drink before all of those questions? geez I'm so hungry, I haven't eaten anything since yesterday"

"ok ok let's have a seat and talk""So who are you?"

"My name is Y/N Y/L/N, and you're not gonna find any of my info on your little phone" I said as I look at him being frustrated at his phone.

"And why is that?" He looks up

"Because I'm from another universe"

He looks at me in disbelief.

"And you expected me to believe that?"

"Anthony Edward Stark, you were born on Friday, May 29, 1970, in Manhattan. You were admitted early into MIT. You lost your parents in December 1991 while they prepared to go away to the Bahamas. The media said it was a car accident but we know they were assassinated by the Winter Soldier"

Tony's face turned pale. "Those infos are on the internet, everybody knows that, and about the Winter Soldier, you may hack into SHIELD database and can know about it"

"You dreamt about having a daughter, Morgan. I bet this is not on any database"

Tony's eyes widen. He walks to me quickly. "How did you know about that, I haven't even told Pepper"

"Will you believe me now that I came from another universe?"

"What do you want from me? Money? Technologies? Weapon?"

"No Tony. I came here to help YOU"

"How?"

"Where I came from, you guys are just characters from comics and movies and I am a big fan, so it means I know EVERYTHING about everyone in this world. I think I can help you with those information"

"And why would you want to help me?"

"Because I need protection, resources, and a way to go back"

"So what do you want me to do?"

"Adopt me as your daughter and all of the infos are yours"

He thinks for a while as I walk to the bar and pour some water to drink

"Every infos?" He asks

"Yes every infos"

"Then.. prepare to call me daddy, Miss Y/N Stark" He smiles mischievously

[kagejima]

🍠 anon pspspspspspsps and everybody else i guess too if you want to read a different piercer!wakatoshi AU fjsjfjejd

re-writing my reply to this (which i HIGHLY recommend reading first before you read this because if you don't you will be very lost when it comes to this re-write!)

bc like i said earlier, i wrote the reply when i was like dead asleep and i'm not happy with it at all, i know i can do better so i'm here to redeem myself fjdsfjklsa

again, this is NOT connected to "breathe in, breathe out". the only similarity is wakatoshi works as a piercer!

more thoughts under the cut (female reader, rough sex, a smidge of dacryphilia, jealous toshi, hair pulling, toshi being uhhh kinda pervy but just a little)

mood music: do it for me - rosenfeld

It’s your job.

It’s not like he caught you fucking the guy on the table.

At least that’s what Wakatoshi is trying to tell himself right now while he’s absolutely wrecking your shit.

He can’t help it though. All he can still see is you holding some other guy’s dick in your hand.

He had remembered the way you looked so desperate to work at the studio months ago. He doesn't blame you at all for trying so hard back then. It was one of the most, if not the most popular studio in the city. Of course you wanted to work there.

But everybody else's plates were already full - and you just looked so cute and sweet and he felt bad. He knew what it was like to try and get your foot in the door when it came to apprenticeships. He didn't know a damn fucking thing about piercing, only volleyball, so he's thankful his mentor took him on back then.

And he still to this day tells himself he was trying to be helpful , he was trying to pass it on...

When really if he had to tell the truth, it was because he wanted to fuck you and he didn't even know your name. He wanted to fuck you so bad that he couldn't even get through a whole ass conversation with you because he was so nervous over how cute you were.

But god, those months of being your mentor were torture.

Teaching you about all the different types of piercings and the equipment, quite literally watching over you, trying to not lose his composure every time you wore a dress into work or every time you would bend over to pick something up.

He doesn't even want to talk about the time he had to hold your tits in order to give you your nipple piercings.

The way he had to think of the vegetable he hated the most, stepping in dog shit, being stuck in traffic - literally any bad thing he could in order to not have his bulge brush against you as you laid there on the table...

Nothing ever went further than your professional relationship though in the time you worked under him.

Even though he desperately wanted you to be under him.

He was, after all, the most sought after piercer in the city by women due to his professional demeanor. He had a reputation to uphold. It could be ruined easily that he wasn't the man they thought he was if word spread he was fucking his apprentice.

So when your apprenticeship finished, he had breathed a sigh of relief. Maybe he could actually ask you out on a date without the awkward power dynamic since you didn't work under him anymore. Maybe now things would be fine.

Or maybe he'd never be in contact with you ever again.

So when shop manager Daichi asked for Wakatoshi to bring him the applications for their opening from his office, and he saw your name and paper at the top of the stack...

His cock did the thinking for him.

Anything to see you again at this point.

Daichi still doesn't know to this day that the rest of the applications were thrown into the trash by Wakatoshi himself and he only brought him yours.

Fuck, you still don't know and you've worked at the shop for a few weeks now in close proximity to Wakatoshi. You thought it was weird how you were the only applicant, but you didn't question it since you would get to work with Wakatoshi again.

And when you had so sweetly asked Wakatoshi to sit in on one of your first clients, who was he to deny you?

He still hates to this day that he was stuck in traffic and arrived to the studio later than the scheduled appointment you had with your client. He hates that he didn't look at the paperwork that Daichi handed him on his way to his room so he could've been prepared for the sight of you holding another man's cock.

All the times he had tried to not get hard around you, all the times he had gone home and went to sleep hard because his mind drifted to thoughts of how he saw you weren't wearing any panties to work that day. Did you do that for him? Was it for him?

And there you were... just holding some guy's cock.

Remembering you were just doing your job didn't keep him from seeing red.

Remembering you were just doing your job didn't keep him from folding his arms and leaning back against the counter, his eyes narrowed and muscles bulging because he wanted to kick the guy's ass for moaning.

Remembering you were just doing your job didn't keep him from kicking a trash can a little bit in the office after the guy left because you looked up at him with those wide eyes and said the guy gave you his number.

He felt so WEIRD.

This wasn't him. He was usually so composed and calm - what the fuck kind of spell did you put on him that he wanted to kick the guy's ass just because you were holding on to his cock?

"It's because you want to fuck her, dumbass. But you can't because now she works with you, haHA! YOU DIDN'T THINK THIS THROUGH, DID YOU??" The voice in his head reminded him.

Jesus FUCKING christ.

He didn't even realize he asked you out to dinner until you had agreed to it.

Fuck, he doesn't even know now how he got through the whole dinner fine.

You really do have a hold on him.

And he knows he probably should feel bad right now, because you’re hiccupping and sobbing and begging him to give you a minute because your legs can’t stop trembling as they’re locked up and near his chest because he’s held you there for so long.

He knows he probably should let you down and let you rest.

You look so fucking cute though all whiney and sobby like this.

He isn’t a monster though.

So he lets you down.

And you think you’re in the clear - maybe you can finally rest on his bed, maybe you can ride him a little bit, let him relax.

But no, he’s far from done.

You yelp when he spins you around, bending you over so fast that your hands fly out to catch yourself so you don’t fall right into the wall.

Wakatoshi groans low as he pushes his thick cock back deep inside you.

You stay still like that, wondering what he’s going to do next.

You shiver when his hand reaches up and grabs a fistful of your hair, pulling on it hard to get you to lift your head to look up at him.

And he sees it in your eyes.

Sees how you like it rough like this.

He doesn’t see that guy anymore.

"You gonna- fuck-- Gonna come on my cock again?" He growls, starting to thrust into you again.

Your hands are uselessly grabbing at the wall, you're answering him in little garbled noises, pushing yourself back against him to match his pace.

"You little v- hahh- vixen..." He moans, feeling you clamp down around him on purpose, "You thought you could break me down, didn't you?"

It was true.

Every time you wore a dress, every time you bent over, every time you didn't wear panties... All to see if he would do anything.

Anything at all.

He never did though.

So when one of your first clients was a dick piercing, of course you asked Wakatoshi to sit in on it.

Maybe that would finally get him to break.

You didn't need him to sit in on it. You knew what you were doing.

But you felt the jealousy radiating off of him in the room. You felt it after the guy left.

And you felt the sincerity in his voice when he apologized for his demeanor earlier and asked you out to dinner.

Jesus. What a man. The mere fact that Wakatoshi was seconds away from kicking a guy that you were definitely never going to see again's ass and forget about as soon as the guy walked out.

Because nothing could ever compare to Wakatoshi...

Nobody could compete with the hold Wakatoshi had on you either.

The tension at dinner was unbearable, you wanted him to fuck you in his car before you even went to dinner - but he didn't. He paid for dinner, of course, and he asked if you wanted to hang out together at his house.

"Like a sleepover?" You had asked on the way back to his car.

"Do you want it to be?" He had asked back when he unlocked the door.

Of course you did.

You didn't expect him to go this hard about it though. You didn't expect him to release all his pent-up frustration and energy as soon as you entered his house.

You didn't expect your dress to be ripped right down the side and on the floor as you two made out against his front door after he closed it. You didn't expect him to lift you up and carry you all the way up the stairs.

And you definitely didn't expect him to make you come three times already and still be going this hard.

[tokusmuts]

Sure no problem. I would love to see Ayaka as well.

Plan was changed...again. But I finished it, so please enjoy A big cheer for Double A for 100 notes, read it here

A Successful Business Trip (Chapter 1)

Characters: Hidden Male Character x Sakurako Okubo

Category: Playing with boobs, breastfeeding, anal sex

Words count: 2,4k

Enjoy!

Today is a very important day when I, the director of a multimedia company, will sign a contract with a modelling agency Gravure, which has brought many girls up to become role models who are familiar faces in magazines such as Weekly Playboy, Friday, Young Jump, and so on. The signing ceremony took place smoothly with the witness of the press. Through this contract, my company will have the right to send photographers and invest in modern equipment for taking photos of their company's models. However, there is still one thing that makes me a bit confused both before and after the signing ceremony is that the representative of the other company participating is not a director but just a deputy director. I have researched and learned that this female director rarely appears in public, what they get from her is just a few sneak photos on occasions when she goes out for personal work. But even if it's just a sneak shot, her beauty is outstanding. But it was clear that it was impossible to meet her, at least when I learned that even the director of Shueisha - the birthplace of the prestigious Weekly Playboy magazine did not have that opportunity, so I guess I should just invite the deputy director over for an intimate meal called to thank you after having a very successful signing session.

“Sorry but I wonder if you would like to come to Nukimi restaurant to have dinner with me? Like, I also want to thank you for the fact that among the thousands of companies that can provide the same things as us, you have agreed to cooperate?" - my habit of saying it all in one go when stressed or embarrassed seems to be hard to break “This is not my decision at all, so you should be more honoured…I think you know what I'm talking to, right?” - he said and then patted my shoulder and smiled “You…don't tell me that…” "Right! It was Miss Sakurako who chose your company! We weren't too impressed with your company, but director Sakurako was impressed when I saw how you presented your project to our models!"

Am I dreaming? I always hear that for a certain company to have a chance to work with them, it has to go through a majority vote but not necessarily for her to approve, but this time she made my company stand out from the rest of the filming studio market out there (although we also have certain advantages such as financial potential or the quality of the photographers and shooting equipment. It's not easy to compete with other competitors, yet she rates us so well), I don't know if anyone has had this feeling, but it's clear that if this case goes to the newspaper, some directors of rival companies will also have to vomit blood. But slowly, everything is still behind. While I was still floating, a strange number called, I intended to not answer until the deputy director saw and stopped me.

“You won’t want to miss that call!”

Even though I don't know why, I picked up the phone and listened, from the other end of the line, a female voice sounded

"Hello!" - a very soft voice said “Um…sorry but who are you?” - I ask “Hmm… I can hardly blame you either! Then let me introduce myself, I'm Sakurako Okubo, the director of the company you just signed up with today!"

As soon as that sentence ended, I was completely frozen, even the phone in my hand fell straight to the floor, it took a few seconds for me to reconfigure everything and pick up the phone.

"What's wrong? Surprised enough to drop your phone?” "Oh, God! I'm really sorry, being called like this by you directly makes me very happy but also confused!" “I also expected you to react like this! After all, apart from my family, my favourite model and the vice president who's right next to you, I've never called anyone else!"

So that means I'm the first person she calls other than those close to her? This favour makes people doubt a lot, but in the immediate future, if I get an interview after this trip, I have to show off this privilege thoroughly!

“So you called me to…?” “Of course to invite you to dine!”

Shouldn't I be the one to invite this case? Everything's reversed like this, it's so confusing for me

“Ah…but shouldn't I have invited you to be polite?” “I broke the rules this time, okay? For the first time in my entire time in this director's chair, I have seen such an impressive introduction from a partner like you, so this time I will be the one to invite" - Sakurako continued from take the time to explain

The call raised more and more theories for me, even the craziest cases were taken into account. But I shouldn't expect a thank you meal like this. I happily agreed and hung up. Returning to the hotel, I happily informed my wife by phone and I was also promised a quality gift waiting at home, along with a soft gasp in the background. Looks like my wife has finished the preparations and is just waiting for me to come home to enjoy

That night…

I wore a classic black suit to the Nukimi restaurant to have dinner with Sakurako. It was strange that the whole restaurant was empty of people, which made me a little scared. I was escorted by her bodyguard to the prepared dining room. To ask about my impression of Sakurako, it would be…secretive and a bit reserved when it comes to socializing. But when it came to the contract, she became surprisingly lively and talkative, talking about every impression she had of my presentation. But the most surprising thing was her last question after finishing the meal

“Do you want to make some cocktails with me?”

I wondered if she had done this to anyone, but the answer I got back from her was "No!". I don't know how many more surprises could happen tonight, but obviously, I can't turn down any of Sakurako's offers if I don't want things to fall apart. So our evening continued at the most famous bar in Japan - Zeus Nightclub. Here I was introduced by Sakurako to Mariya Nagao - one of the most successful models that Sakurako's company has ever owned and she is also her favourite model as she mentioned before. This girl appeared with a beautiful figure in a perfect body-hugging white dress. And so the glasses of wine were being drunk by the three of them one after another, and yet while Sakurako and Mariya were both showing signs of fatigue and intoxication, I was still quite sober. What happens next will make you not feel worth the wait…

I signalled to the bar staff to help deal with these two girls, only to be directed by him to the VIP lounge (probably because Sakurako is a senior VIP here). Sakurako didn't seem like the calm director she had been at dinner. She took off the dress that covered her whole body even though I was behind her, it wasn't until now that I understood why she was the director of an agency full of female models. A full body hidden behind thick layers of tops and skirts, she may not be so superior to the models she is managing behind her back, but looking in the mirror right in front of me, I have stunned. In front of Sakurako was a very large chest (not too big, but it looks massive), bound by a thin silver bra with floral prints on it. While I was still feeling overwhelmed by those breasts, Sakurako pulled me into a kiss, the kiss was so sudden that I staggered and fell to the floor, and Sakurako followed my fall

"What's wrong? Were you surprised?" - She looked up at me, a smirk on her lips “Do you know what you are doing? I already have a wife!" “I thought you must have thought of this situation since our call this afternoon?” “Honestly, I have thought of this, but…” "But?" “You also understand our position, moreover it will affect you badly if it gets revealed.” “You think I'm not prepared for this? That's why I'll be your second wife!"

Has anyone ever told me that tonight is the craziest night of my life? Probably not because usually when you think about the craziest cases, they happen very rarely (at least not yet). But no matter how much I want to ignore that madness, I can't get rid of Sakurako's last sentence - "second wife"? Why is she willing to risk anything to have sex with me like this? But when I think about the scene where the famous man agrees to have sex with the female director that so many people out there can't meet, I want everything to happen even faster. I didn't respond to Sakurako with words anymore, instead a kiss where I took the initiative this time. If she wanted to take this step, then I obviously had no reason not to risk it. Sakurako slowly took off my loose suit, and then pushed me to the floor again

“You got into the fun faster than I thought!” - Sakurako said and smirked “With women like you who take the initiative in front of me like you, you will never have to wait long to be properly cared for!” “Okay! But are you sure you can take care of this?”

Sakurako said and slowly slipped her hands behind her back and took off her bra, her huge breasts and tiny nipples, she must have known what I wanted the most from the moment she noticed my gaze fixed on her. her two large breasts. I raised my hand and started to massage it gently, her breasts were really big for my hand. I squeezed both of her breasts making her moan in her throat. Let me play with them long enough, she brought her left nipple to my lips

“Suck them away! Make me feel like a mother!”

An invitation that gave me no reason to refuse, I opened my mouth to receive her breasts and then closed them tightly as if to lock her nipples in my mouth. I sucked on that nipple, then licked it again and again in my mouth causing her to moan in satisfaction

“That's right…ah…suck it like you want to take every drop of milk from my breast…ah…but don't forget my right breast…ah” - she said between moans

Her breasts make me wonder how she managed to hide them so well that until now I am the first to touch them and enjoy them to the fullest. hours

“Ah…just enjoy them… I'll help you…ah,” she said and tried to take off our panties while I continued sucking on her breasts

She put my already erect cock into her cunt, my cock being squeezed in that wet cunt. And then she began to move her hips skillfully. She kept moaning in satisfaction, I couldn't help it anymore so I had to leave those full breasts to return to those beautiful lips. Then she pulled herself up and bounced back and forth right on top of my cock. The feeling of my dick sliding out and sliding back into that tight cunt and being continuously lubricated by the liquid inside her cunt, accompanied by the sound every time her butt touches my body and on top of that two bouncing breasts right in front of my eyes became the perfect combo for a wild love affair.

“Just bounce…I'm going to cum…bounce harder…ah” “I'm going to cum too…ah…quickly squeeze my boobs…I don't like the empty feeling in my chest…ah”

I raised my hands and squeezed her breasts while she also supported mine, and just like that we had an orgasm, I shot the first wave of sperm inside her. Then I reversed our positions, and now I was on top of her and slamming her pussy hard. Sakurako, who had been gasping for breath from the orgasm just before, continued to moan wildly at my breathless, fast strokes. It didn't take long for me to shoot again

"Kimochi…ah…that's great…keep shooting…shoot more…ah" - Sakurako said while panting "Always ready"

I said and pulled my dick out of her, I turned her over, let her kneel with both hands and feet, and continued to smack my dick into her ass, making her unable to stop moaning when oozes in lust that surges to the extreme.

“Oh my god…so deep…your dick is so deep…I feel so full inside…just keep hitting me, don't stop…ah” - she said

Those round buttocks bounced continuously with each of my thrusts, so I couldn't help but slap them repeatedly

“That's right…slap them…punish them…so happy…finish inside me please…ah”

Her arms were no longer strong, they let go and made her upper body slant to the floor, but she continued to moan, that erotic voice so different from the boring voice she used when she ate. Those sounds that reverberated throughout the room were now the sound of skin slapping against each other, along with her erotic moans that made me unable to hold back any longer and shot inside her one last time. She lay there tiredly while I reached for her breasts to continue to hold on to her breasts

“You seem…like my breasts…no wonder you sucked them so well…I would have come to you sooner” - she said. “So some men must have shot inside your girl before, right?” “It's been a long time…moreover they don't do a good job anymore.” "What does that mean?" - I ask "I've had sex with 2 guys before, who are also directors like you, but both of them are physically weak, just hit a few and they've all shot, making me lose interest. "

It turns out that before she lured me in, she had to sell to other studio owners, but is it too much of a waste for a girl like this to get out with only a few?

“And what about me? Do I do better than those guys?" “Of course you did, for the first time in my life I had such a crazy night!” "Let's sleep now, but if you want, come back to my home with me tomorrow, let me introduce you to my first wife!" “Forget it, I'll call her later. And whenever you want, just call me or text me, and we'll be back." "As your pleasure!"

[absolutebl]

Soooo, I need some help, in the form of a reality check. Can you do a little analysis of ZeeNunew irl (if you even pay attention to that). My problem is this: I ship them! Not psychotically, but they are persistently in my brain (along with MaxNat, but I think thats just because Nat is such a physically perfect twink i just really wish he had a boyfriend. That and their upper thigh caresses during cutie pie reaction videos). The issue is that I am very...trusting?...easy to convince? So when I see videos or posts like "X and X boyfriends" or "Couple X being cute together" (which I generally don't watch, but some slip through) I'm like "oh that seems real" until someone else comes in w/the logic (ex you've mentioned Tul and Apo being confident w/a good background so they just fuck w/shippers and it made me realize i was just one of those dumb people who didn't get it at first.)

Part of the problem was I started watching BL pretty recently w/no background info on the genre,

and I'm not much of a behind-the-scenes watcher so it took a while for me to understand that the studios are promoting the ships, and the actors are ACTING, so therefore reasonable adults don't take the ship or irl flirting seriously. I had just assumed when they're not in the show they're being themselves, so, I dunno, I guess I just thought there were a lot of gay actors in Thailand or something.

I'm very embarrassed now, but I just didn't know. I don't follow celebrities but I feel like they don't do this in America so I just thought "it must be real!" Rather than "they're exploiting those poor babies"

I just get such shysweetloving vibes from them. I know Zee is great at adoring his partners, and Nunew responds so sweetly I just squee all over them, but I want to be a responsible fan and not do that. Help me out, give me external validation I'm just being stupid.

How to get over Thai BL Pair Branding 

Ah, they got ya, did they?

You shouldn't be embarrassed. They are actors, it's their job to persuade you to believe in an alt-reality, and this is some very insidious marketing tactics. Also it's pretty unique to Thailand. Also if you come from watching western cinema, we are used to Hollywood actors falling in love with each other and ending up in disastrous marriages from being on set together. It seems normal.

There are a few out gay actors in Thailand, but as yet there hasn't been any actual relationships to come from a BL. And if I were them and got into one, I would stay FIRMLY in the closet.

It's a little like buying that coffee drink because it looked good on IG and then being like, “oh, THIS is disgusting, I feel like an idiot.” Only with more emotional manipulation and not spending $8 on liquid sugar.

Not that I blame the actors! They are being told to do this, some of them are just better at it than others.

Frankly Max & Nat are better at cobranding because they have been together for so long. Sometimes you can see Zee & Nunew drop the act at the end of interviews when they are really tired.

I actually really don't like this aspect of BL, so I don't often watch things designed to encourage pair shipping (variety shows, bts, fanmeets).

I have the cure, ready?

Watch TharnType.

Then go on an internet deep dive about what happened to MewGulf.

Ta da!

You'll be cured.

I have a few things written about this as a marketing tactic here:

Co-Branded BL Couples & Thai Studios - pairs and marketing tactics (written before ZeeNunew and intentionally avoiding MewGulf, PerthSaint, ZeeSaint and all the other catastrophes).

It's like learning how to read a label on a soap bottle or an ingredients list on food packaging, your eye will eventually get trained to see what's actually happening, but it takes a while.

I talk some more about pair branding, parasocial relationships, and why I really dislike IRL shipping here. 

Here’s the bit where I got mad about skinship fantasies around misunderstandings of other cultures, especially Thailand. 

Honestly there are many reasons I prefer to talk about characters, and narrative structures, and not actors. 

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